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- Cool. Okay, compose yourself.
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Okay.
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Greetings everyone, I...
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Greetings
everyone, I'm Anya. Whoa.
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Greetings everyone, my name...
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Greetings everyone.
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Hi, I'm, no. Hi, I'm Anya.
Mind. No, greetings, greetings.
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Greetings.
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Okay.
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Greetings everyone, I'm Anya.
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Welcome to Mind Body Spirit.
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Mind Body Spirit is so much
more than a fitness channel.
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It is a journey
to self discovery,
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and aligning
our mind, body, and spirit
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is the closest we can
get to our truest selves.
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But in order to
make that discovery,
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we've gotta be
willing to take risks.
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So get ready to step
outta your comfort zone.
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Go for it. Be brave.
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Don't become a lost soul
floating through the void. Woo.
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Like me, before
my morning coffee.
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My grandmother gave me
this house in her will.
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She passed away
about a year ago.
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And I never
really got to meet her.
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Didn't really
know her that well.
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But, you know,
it really felt like a,
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the universe telling me to
make a change in my life.
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So that's what I did. I
moved out to California.
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I left my old life
behind. Yes, thank you.
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And I took a risk and...
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so can you.
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I promise, if you stick with me,
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then we will go to
places you never imagine.
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Shit.
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I promise, if you stick with me,
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then we will go to places
that you can never imagine.
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We will recharge our
minds, reclaim our bodies,
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because
our bodies are the places
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that our spirits call home.
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You ready?
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Today, we are going to dive
right into a balancing posture.
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So, we're going
to meet in Savasana.
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No, no, Tadasana.
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Meaning in
Tadasana, standing posture,
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we're going to root our
feet into the ground,
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lift one knee up to the heart,
stretch all the way back,
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squeeze those inner
thighs, engage that core.
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And if you discover
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that you are a little bit
limited in flexibility,
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don't let that hold you
back, just go with the flip.
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Now, if you start
to lose your balance,
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which will probably happen,
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you know, just
get right back up.
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Like my friend Kenzi says,
"Practice make powerful."
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Okay, I guess I need
some practice here too...
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Shit. Ow!
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Damn it!
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Stupid.
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You gotta do it. You gotta
do it. You gotta do it, Anya.
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No way.
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That's definitely a door.
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Fuck it.
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Oh...
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So, welcome to my
grandma's hidden pantry.
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I will just put this down here
on the weird candle bread.
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Okay, that's weird.
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Oh, Jesus.
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Nope, I guess not.
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Yikes.
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Whoa.
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What the fuck?
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Oh, geez!
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Oh, Jesus, fuck!
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Okay.
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Okay.
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Hello?
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Shit.
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Verasha.
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"For my Anya."
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"For my Anya."
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Greetings
everyone, welcome back.
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The passage-
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The passage
that I was just reading to you
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was written to me by my
grandmother, Verasha.
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I was never allowed to meet
her. My mom never let me.
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Family drama.
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I, I never knew that she was
a teacher, a healer like me.
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'Cause it runs in our blood.
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This house is the place
that her spirit called home.
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I guess I just,
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I never realized how much
of her was still here.
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Hi grandma.
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So she dedicated this
journal to me. I don't know.
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She wanted somebody in our
family to know what she did,
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where she went.
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She spent her lifetime
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reconnecting with her Slavic
heritage, my heritage,
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collecting rituals like this.
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A lot of it is in Russian.
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She translated some of it
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and then phoneticized some
other passages for me.
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"The path to self-discovery
is paved with doubt.
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But every step
you take brings you closer
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to who you really are.
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To not be afraid in this
journey, in this life,
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you are not alone.
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Whenever you are lost, you
can find yourself here."
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I wish you knew how much
those words meant to me.
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How much she's inspired me.
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I mean, she just,
she experienced so much.
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I just...
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I wish...
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I wish I could be like her.
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And someday I will.
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But right now,
I am here with you.
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So let's get moving, shall we?
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We're going to start
in a balancing posture.
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Don't be afraid.
I am right here with you.
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Root your feet into the ground,
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float one knee up to your heart,
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and kick it back behind you
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as you lengthen
through your spine.
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And if you fall, you know,
just get back up, right?
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It's called
practice for a reason.
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Woo. Alright, hold here for
a couple of deep breaths in.
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Digging into that heel.
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One more. In.
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And as you come
back to your feet,
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don't just plop down, float
your knee back to your heart,
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and then let it drop
back down to the ground.
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And that's it. You did
it. Great job, everyone.
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Thank you so
much for joining me.
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Thank you for listening to me,
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and I really hope we can
really become one mind,
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one body, one spirit together.
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Yeah.
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Cool.
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- This is
KenziFit. You ready to sweat?
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If you wanna unlock your body,
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you have to unleash your mind.
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Don't listen to that voice
inside you that says you can't,
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because you can.
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Why meditate when
you can "sweatitate."
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Only on KenziFit.
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- Hi baby.
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- Hi, Lenka.
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- Anya, you know,
I hate that name.
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Your grandmother
always called me that.
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- Hi, Lenny.
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- Come on, we can
do better than that.
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- How about "mom?"
- Sure.
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- That was fun. Did you call
me just to give me a hard time?
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- You told me to call
you once I got settled.
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- So you're
settled. Is this news?
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- Mom...
- I'm just asking.
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- You're so far from home.
No friends, no family.
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- Grandma's family.
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- Verasha is dead, Anya.
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Boris! Enough!
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Okay, fine. Your grandmother
was family, but...
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- Go on.
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- She wasn't
the woman you think she was.
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Boris! Boris!
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- You know, you've always
told me about who she wasn't,
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but you've never actually
told me who she was.
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You never told
me she was spiritual.
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- I can't tell you about a
woman who was never around.
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That's a pretty
heavy pour, sweetheart.
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Verasha only came back
when she needed something.
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All she did was
take and take and take.
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And now she's
taking you from me.
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- Jesus, mom, she hasn't
taken me from you.
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If anything,
she's given me a place
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to finally figure
myself out, you know?
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- And you can't
do that here at home?
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I, I can move my
things out of your room.
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- I'm not coming home, okay?
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I've literally spent all that
I have just to get out here.
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- Anya, I know that.
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I just wanna make sure that
you're safe, that you're okay.
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- I'm okay.
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- Good. I just wanna help you.
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- Yeah, well
then you should have.
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- This fucking dog.
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Boris, you get
out of here right now!
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Asshole! Quick!
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- Did you ever
think that maybe grandma
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felt like she had to
leave to find herself?
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- And why would you say that?
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- Because
she said so in her journal.
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- I see. Is
that what you believe?
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- It's, it's not
about what I believe.
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That's what I have to do.
That's what I am doing.
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- Anya, I just, I just don't
want you to waste your life
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obsessing over your grandmother.
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- Obsessing? I am
not obsessing, mom.
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- That's not what I meant, baby.
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You just,
you get so lost in things.
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And I am not
there to pull you out.
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- I know what I'm doing.
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- Of course, you do.
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But listen, if you wanna find
yourself, go find yourself.
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Go anywhere.
Just not, not there.
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None of us knew
that place existed.
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- Yeah, well maybe she
didn't want you to know.
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Maybe all of this
was always just for me.
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Maybe she saw herself in me
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in a way that she could
never see in you.
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- Oh, Anya, I promise you,
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you are nothing like her.
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- Goodbye, Lenka.
- Anya-
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- Hey guys!
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Oh my God. I'm sorry. Reflex.
- That's okay.
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- Do your thing, girl.
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- Yeah, no, totally. No worries.
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Okay.
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Welcome everyone, I'm Anya.
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And today we have
a very special guest.
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This is Kenzi Duffert.
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- Oh, I, I don't use
that name professionally.
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- Fuck! Oh, I'm sorry-
- No, that's okay.
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- I'm so sorry.
- That's totally cool.
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- I'm sorry.
- Don't worry about it.
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- Thank you for
doing this with me again.
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- Yeah, of course, chigger.
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Your mom said that you
were really struggling,
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so I'm happy to help.
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- Yes, thank you.
- Yeah.
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- Okay.
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Welcome everyone, I am Anya,
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and today we have
a very special guest.
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This is KenziFit.
- Hey guys.
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Kenzi and I grew up together
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and we recently reconnected
when I moved out here.
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And I'm just so excited to
partner with her on
today's video
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and to really learn about
how she's connecting
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with her fan base.
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- I'll be guiding you
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through my 10 minute total
body takeover strength flow,
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a little bit of yoga, a
little bit of lifting,
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and a lot of sweat.
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So get ready.
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Okay, how do
you normally kick things off?
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- Um, well, let's, I don't know,
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I kind of keep things
pretty loose, you know,
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and it's all about
the discovery process.
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All my things are about-
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- Ah ha. So how do
you kick things off?
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- Process.
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Well, usually I start talking
about how I'm feeling and-
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- Okay.
- Yeah.
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- First tip.
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- Right.
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- No one gives
a shit about how you feel.
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People only
care about themselves.
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They want structure,
not a therapy session.
257
00:20:13,114 --> 00:20:15,516
So you gotta be fearless.
- Fearless.
258
00:20:16,283 --> 00:20:19,286
Um, you're also going to
want to build your brand.
259
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Something
that helps you stand out,
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you know, find your thing.
261
00:20:25,026 --> 00:20:26,426
- Oh, um...
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What about, what about this?
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- Oh, God.
- This is my grandma's.
264
00:20:32,734 --> 00:20:34,902
- And she was like
collecting all these rituals
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00:20:35,002 --> 00:20:36,537
from our homeland and it's...
266
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- Um, I mean, that might
be a little too obscure.
267
00:20:40,373 --> 00:20:41,441
People want
things that they know,
268
00:20:41,542 --> 00:20:43,410
but like with
a little extra personality.
269
00:20:43,511 --> 00:20:46,948
So remix some yoga flows,
pepper in some Sanskrit.
270
00:20:47,949 --> 00:20:49,183
- Yeah, I know.
271
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I just, I don't really feel
comfortable teaching a language
272
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that I don't
actually speak, you know?
273
00:20:54,122 --> 00:20:55,623
- Fake it till you make it.
274
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Listen, people don't really care
275
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as long as you seem authentic.
276
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- But this is authentic.
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- No one wants
to read old books.
278
00:21:05,233 --> 00:21:06,968
Look, you wanna
be successful, right?
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00:21:09,837 --> 00:21:11,639
- Yeah. Yes.
280
00:21:12,339 --> 00:21:14,942
- So, how many videos
have you dropped so far?
281
00:21:16,210 --> 00:21:18,613
- I just started recording them.
282
00:21:18,713 --> 00:21:23,551
I was gonna, I was gonna
release them all when I'm ready.
283
00:21:24,317 --> 00:21:27,855
- Okay, so you haven't
put anything out yet?
284
00:21:28,556 --> 00:21:30,925
- Well, no, I just, I didn't
want it to seem like bullshit,
285
00:21:31,025 --> 00:21:33,161
I wanted it to be true to me.
286
00:21:33,861 --> 00:21:35,663
- Okay, well, you're
not gonna get any views
287
00:21:35,763 --> 00:21:37,665
if you don't
have anything to watch.
288
00:21:39,834 --> 00:21:42,637
Oh girl, that is not even
a tip. That's just a fact.
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00:21:44,839 --> 00:21:45,673
- Okay.
290
00:21:47,809 --> 00:21:49,710
- Oh shit, I have to teach
a class in like an hour.
291
00:21:49,811 --> 00:21:51,546
Can we do this?
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- Yeah, absolutely.
293
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- Like now-ish.
- Okay. Yep. Cool.
294
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- Namaste, bitches.
295
00:22:02,890 --> 00:22:06,127
We're getting started with
two hand front race swings.
296
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Thirty seconds starts now.
297
00:22:13,201 --> 00:22:16,270
And up!
298
00:22:16,369 --> 00:22:17,738
And up!
299
00:22:17,839 --> 00:22:18,673
And up!
300
00:22:19,607 --> 00:22:21,075
Keep that core tight!
301
00:22:22,810 --> 00:22:24,979
Feeling the burn, Anya.
- Oh yeah.
302
00:22:25,079 --> 00:22:28,516
- Yeah, this is intense.
- Yes. Get it, girl.
303
00:22:28,616 --> 00:22:30,585
- Woo. Wow.
- Woo.
304
00:22:30,685 --> 00:22:33,453
- Up and up!
Squeeze your glutes.
305
00:22:33,554 --> 00:22:35,422
- Squeezing.
- Up to the sky.
306
00:22:35,523 --> 00:22:36,924
- Smile through the pain!
307
00:22:40,393 --> 00:22:41,428
- Okay.
308
00:22:42,597 --> 00:22:43,931
Hi everyone. Ugh.
309
00:22:45,867 --> 00:22:49,971
Hey, hi.
Greetings. Namaste, whatever.
310
00:22:52,073 --> 00:22:56,310
Everyone has this voice
inside of themselves
311
00:22:56,409 --> 00:22:59,847
that really feels
like their truth, right?
312
00:23:00,882 --> 00:23:03,851
But then there's
all these other voices
313
00:23:03,951 --> 00:23:05,987
that are telling you
that that truth is a lie.
314
00:23:06,087 --> 00:23:07,588
And...
315
00:23:08,956 --> 00:23:10,490
maybe they're right,
316
00:23:11,826 --> 00:23:16,831
but it's really hard to know
which voice to listen to.
317
00:23:19,667 --> 00:23:24,071
But the most important
thing is that we make space
318
00:23:24,171 --> 00:23:27,275
for ourselves to listen, right?
319
00:23:27,375 --> 00:23:30,278
So in the interest
of an open mind,
320
00:23:30,378 --> 00:23:34,115
we are going to do
a mindful meditation.
321
00:23:34,215 --> 00:23:35,883
Find yourself in Sukhasana.
322
00:23:36,717 --> 00:23:39,587
You know what? Nah, forget that.
323
00:23:39,687 --> 00:23:42,990
Just sit however you want, but
make sure you're comfortable.
324
00:23:43,090 --> 00:23:46,627
Feel yourself connecting
to the earth.
325
00:23:46,727 --> 00:23:51,098
Lengthen
your spine. Soften your eyes.
326
00:23:51,198 --> 00:23:53,466
Inhale into your belly.
327
00:23:56,737 --> 00:23:59,472
Exhale. Let it all go.
328
00:24:01,474 --> 00:24:04,178
Inhale into your belly.
329
00:24:07,581 --> 00:24:11,719
Exhale. Let it go.
330
00:24:11,819 --> 00:24:17,191
And in.
331
00:24:17,291 --> 00:24:18,125
And out.
332
00:24:21,529 --> 00:24:22,563
And in.
333
00:24:25,800 --> 00:24:27,668
And as you continue this rhythm,
334
00:24:27,768 --> 00:24:30,104
clear your mind of the chatter.
335
00:24:30,204 --> 00:24:32,707
Quiet every voice, but your own.
336
00:24:34,809 --> 00:24:36,077
And in.
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00:24:42,016 --> 00:24:46,887
And out.
338
00:24:46,988 --> 00:24:47,822
And in.
339
00:24:51,892 --> 00:24:53,027
And out.
340
00:24:56,464 --> 00:24:58,966
Keep it going. Inhale in.
341
00:25:02,670 --> 00:25:04,205
Exhale. Let it go.
342
00:25:07,608 --> 00:25:09,043
One final breath in.
343
00:25:14,382 --> 00:25:19,220
Exhale, let
it all go.
344
00:25:29,463 --> 00:25:30,297
Shit.
345
00:25:35,870 --> 00:25:36,704
Hello.
346
00:25:37,972 --> 00:25:40,641
And sometimes your
meditations get cut short,
347
00:25:40,741 --> 00:25:42,209
but you know, that's okay,
348
00:25:42,309 --> 00:25:45,012
because it's all a part
of the journey, right?
349
00:25:45,913 --> 00:25:47,782
And I don't know about you,
350
00:25:47,882 --> 00:25:52,319
but I really felt like I
was finally given the chance
351
00:25:52,420 --> 00:25:54,288
to listen to myself.
352
00:25:54,388 --> 00:25:56,957
So I hope you did too.
353
00:26:03,130 --> 00:26:04,365
- Hey
guys, KenziFit here
354
00:26:04,465 --> 00:26:07,668
with my daily dose
of damn good advice.
355
00:26:07,768 --> 00:26:10,838
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powerful you really are.
356
00:26:10,938 --> 00:26:14,008
Discover the power
you have inside you.
357
00:26:14,108 --> 00:26:16,210
Don't wait for the universe
to give you a sign.
358
00:26:16,310 --> 00:26:18,345
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359
00:26:18,446 --> 00:26:21,182
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360
00:27:04,992 --> 00:27:09,063
- Whenever you are lost,
you can find yourself here.
361
00:27:10,865 --> 00:27:13,134
Last night I realized
362
00:27:14,101 --> 00:27:16,571
Verasha was trying
to tell me something.
363
00:27:16,670 --> 00:27:19,608
Everything
that I was looking for,
364
00:27:19,707 --> 00:27:24,078
my path, my answers,
they are all right here.
365
00:27:28,115 --> 00:27:30,784
This is a traditional
Slavic ritual
366
00:27:30,885 --> 00:27:35,156
called "prisoyedineniye"
or "the joining."
367
00:27:35,256 --> 00:27:37,626
It is a month
long daily practice
368
00:27:37,725 --> 00:27:40,529
curated by my
ancestors generations ago
369
00:27:40,629 --> 00:27:44,031
meant to join
the soul back to the body,
370
00:27:44,865 --> 00:27:49,036
the ultimate
spiritual centering.
371
00:27:49,136 --> 00:27:53,207
My grandmother, she saw
how this culture takes
372
00:27:53,307 --> 00:27:55,976
and takes and takes and
never gives anything back.
373
00:27:56,076 --> 00:27:59,146
So she found something in
the history of our people.
374
00:28:04,018 --> 00:28:07,388
I know that these videos
started out as one thing,
375
00:28:07,488 --> 00:28:11,458
but I truly believe that
they can be so much more.
376
00:28:12,760 --> 00:28:14,428
I don't know how
to speak Sanskrit.
377
00:28:16,665 --> 00:28:21,268
I am an influencer
imposter living a lie.
378
00:28:22,203 --> 00:28:25,472
And I don't know
how far I'll have to go
379
00:28:25,574 --> 00:28:27,708
to start living my truth, but...
380
00:28:29,877 --> 00:28:31,412
this feels like the first step.
381
00:28:36,784 --> 00:28:39,753
- For years,
I was a slave to caffeine.
382
00:28:39,853 --> 00:28:41,021
Working on Wall Street,
383
00:28:41,121 --> 00:28:43,357
I would drink
like 12 espressos a day.
384
00:28:45,392 --> 00:28:47,861
But when I went on a
business retreat in Bali,
385
00:28:49,196 --> 00:28:53,033
I tried Chamisal tea.
386
00:28:53,133 --> 00:28:54,802
It fueled my mind and my body
387
00:28:54,902 --> 00:28:57,304
in a way I had
never felt before.
388
00:28:58,640 --> 00:29:00,107
And I knew it was my job
389
00:29:00,207 --> 00:29:02,810
to bring
that experience to the world.
390
00:29:03,877 --> 00:29:06,413
So I quit corporate life
391
00:29:06,514 --> 00:29:09,450
and turned my liquid
capital into liquid dreams.
392
00:29:12,453 --> 00:29:13,254
This is RthNrgy,
393
00:29:14,955 --> 00:29:17,191
a sacred blend of earth's
greatest treasures.
394
00:29:34,842 --> 00:29:36,243
- The hollowing,
395
00:29:37,712 --> 00:29:38,879
the cleansing,
396
00:29:40,615 --> 00:29:41,448
the many,
397
00:29:43,884 --> 00:29:45,352
the expansion.
398
00:29:47,254 --> 00:29:50,824
These are the core pillars of...
399
00:29:51,626 --> 00:29:52,459
the joining.
400
00:29:54,128 --> 00:29:56,463
I know this might all
seem a little strange,
401
00:29:56,564 --> 00:30:01,569
but, it's like I said, discovery
is all about taking risks.
402
00:30:03,003 --> 00:30:05,039
We gotta be fearless, right?
403
00:30:05,139 --> 00:30:08,876
We're never gonna
know how far we can go
404
00:30:08,976 --> 00:30:10,344
until we go there.
405
00:30:19,788 --> 00:30:25,292
The first step to finding
yourself is finding your voice.
406
00:30:27,995 --> 00:30:30,464
No,
I'm sorry. Ignore me.
407
00:30:30,565 --> 00:30:31,332
Was a joke, don't ignore me.
408
00:30:31,432 --> 00:30:35,336
Hey guys, welcome to
day one of our practice.
409
00:30:35,436 --> 00:30:38,606
We're going to be kicking
off our journey with...
410
00:30:38,707 --> 00:30:39,774
the hollowing.
411
00:30:39,873 --> 00:30:43,143
It is an incantation,
a guided vocal chant,
412
00:30:43,243 --> 00:30:46,380
meant to bring
the voice back to the body,
413
00:30:46,480 --> 00:30:49,950
and really open us up
for what's about to come.
414
00:30:50,050 --> 00:30:51,919
I know it might
feel a little bit silly,
415
00:30:52,019 --> 00:30:54,656
but you know,
just trust your voice,
416
00:30:54,756 --> 00:30:58,025
listen to
your voice, love your voice.
417
00:30:58,125 --> 00:31:03,030
I will be following Verasha
and you will be following me.
418
00:31:03,130 --> 00:31:04,599
Everyone inhale in.
419
00:32:35,022 --> 00:32:36,056
Did you hear that?
420
00:32:41,462 --> 00:32:44,666
Well, I'm sure my neighbors
heard something.
421
00:32:44,766 --> 00:32:49,102
Well done, everyone. That
was great. Really awesome.
422
00:32:49,203 --> 00:32:52,239
I hope you take
your voice with you
423
00:32:52,339 --> 00:32:53,974
into the rest of your day.
424
00:32:54,074 --> 00:32:56,578
And until then...
425
00:33:00,715 --> 00:33:02,349
Day three, y'all.
426
00:33:02,449 --> 00:33:06,153
Like Verasha says,
"Strong body, strong mind.
427
00:33:06,253 --> 00:33:08,088
Find the shape that fits you."
428
00:33:09,022 --> 00:33:11,058
Verasha's recipe,
429
00:33:11,158 --> 00:33:13,126
a healthy body
is a receptive body.
430
00:33:13,227 --> 00:33:16,029
If this is as far as you
can go, that's great.
431
00:33:16,129 --> 00:33:17,565
It's only day six.
432
00:33:17,665 --> 00:33:20,200
Just push yourself a
little further each time.
433
00:33:21,134 --> 00:33:22,169
And remember,
434
00:33:24,839 --> 00:33:26,608
make space in your body,
435
00:33:26,708 --> 00:33:29,042
make space for your spirit.
436
00:33:29,844 --> 00:33:31,111
Oh shit. Cheers.
437
00:33:36,584 --> 00:33:39,052
I am receiving this.
438
00:34:10,652 --> 00:34:12,219
The cleansing.
439
00:34:12,319 --> 00:34:15,422
So, now that we've hollowed
out a space within us,
440
00:34:15,523 --> 00:34:17,257
we are going to
clear out all the crap
441
00:34:17,357 --> 00:34:19,192
that's stuck down inside.
442
00:34:19,293 --> 00:34:21,428
So the next
phase of our practice
443
00:34:21,529 --> 00:34:25,165
is going to be kind of
like a detoxifying purge.
444
00:34:25,265 --> 00:34:27,936
It's really all about
getting rid of anything
445
00:34:28,036 --> 00:34:30,705
and everything
that no longer serves us.
446
00:34:30,805 --> 00:34:31,673
Don't freak out.
447
00:34:31,773 --> 00:34:35,242
This is a very, very
common holistic practice.
448
00:34:35,342 --> 00:34:38,278
It is called a throat
cleanse. You can look it up.
449
00:34:38,378 --> 00:34:41,549
It's kind of like a nasal
cleanse, which I've done before.
450
00:34:41,649 --> 00:34:42,784
Not a big deal.
451
00:34:42,884 --> 00:34:44,484
All you do is you take a string
452
00:34:44,586 --> 00:34:47,421
and you swallow
it on down in your throat,
453
00:34:47,522 --> 00:34:50,457
and then you take it back out.
454
00:34:50,558 --> 00:34:51,859
And that's it.
455
00:34:51,960 --> 00:34:54,762
Okay, here
we go. We're gonna do it.
456
00:38:09,891 --> 00:38:10,725
Yikes.
457
00:38:18,533 --> 00:38:19,667
Well, that was rough.
458
00:38:20,701 --> 00:38:22,435
I definitely feel lighter.
459
00:38:24,038 --> 00:38:26,274
Spiritually, not so much,
460
00:38:26,373 --> 00:38:28,943
but physically,
you better believe it.
461
00:38:32,580 --> 00:38:37,919
I know I talked a big game
about really taking risks
462
00:38:38,019 --> 00:38:39,987
to discover yourself,
463
00:38:40,087 --> 00:38:43,991
but I think the only
thing that I discovered
464
00:38:44,091 --> 00:38:46,260
is that I can keep throwing up
465
00:38:46,359 --> 00:38:49,597
even after my
stomach is completely empty.
466
00:38:50,497 --> 00:38:53,835
Maybe I missed something.
467
00:38:56,403 --> 00:38:58,506
Maybe I did
it wrong. I don't know.
468
00:39:00,340 --> 00:39:02,944
Maybe I'm not ready for this.
469
00:39:04,946 --> 00:39:06,547
So today
470
00:39:07,949 --> 00:39:11,819
I am going to
stick with what I know.
471
00:39:13,120 --> 00:39:15,623
A classic seated vinyasa flow.
472
00:39:16,791 --> 00:39:21,596
So find a comfortable
seat on your sits bones,
473
00:39:23,030 --> 00:39:24,098
and...
474
00:39:26,366 --> 00:39:27,935
lengthen through your spine,
475
00:39:30,071 --> 00:39:32,707
lifting away from the ground
476
00:39:32,807 --> 00:39:35,475
out through
the crown of your head.
477
00:39:35,576 --> 00:39:36,978
Lifting, lifting, lifting.
478
00:39:41,249 --> 00:39:43,483
Lifting,
479
00:39:43,584 --> 00:39:46,087
lifting, lifting,
480
00:39:48,956 --> 00:39:49,790
lifting.
481
00:39:53,694 --> 00:39:54,528
Jesus.
482
00:39:59,867 --> 00:40:04,471
Okay, so something
just happened there.
483
00:40:04,572 --> 00:40:05,973
I don't know what it was.
484
00:40:06,073 --> 00:40:07,041
Maybe it was just a feeling,
485
00:40:07,141 --> 00:40:10,111
but it definitely felt powerful.
486
00:40:10,211 --> 00:40:14,215
And listen, yeah, maybe I am
crazy to keep going with this.
487
00:40:14,315 --> 00:40:15,716
Definitely not not crazy.
488
00:40:18,552 --> 00:40:23,224
I have discovered something
powerful in these pages,
489
00:40:23,324 --> 00:40:27,728
in this practice,
something beyond me.
490
00:40:27,828 --> 00:40:29,363
That is where Verasha went,
491
00:40:29,462 --> 00:40:30,932
and that is where
she wants me to go.
492
00:40:31,032 --> 00:40:35,970
And I, I've gotta be fearless
in order to get there.
493
00:40:36,070 --> 00:40:36,904
It...
494
00:40:38,172 --> 00:40:40,875
Otherwise, I'll just end up
right back where I started
495
00:40:40,975 --> 00:40:41,809
and...
496
00:40:48,616 --> 00:40:50,051
I hope you can understand,
497
00:40:51,619 --> 00:40:53,220
and I hope you're still with me.
498
00:41:37,765 --> 00:41:38,599
Hi.
499
00:41:38,699 --> 00:41:40,201
Right, day 12,
500
00:41:40,301 --> 00:41:44,972
the next part of our practice
is called "the many."
501
00:41:45,072 --> 00:41:48,542
But there's
only half a page here.
502
00:41:48,642 --> 00:41:52,246
It's like a poem or
a riddle or something.
503
00:41:52,346 --> 00:41:55,950
"The many selves
share only one mind.
504
00:41:56,050 --> 00:42:00,287
And you can't see the truth
when your thoughts are blind."
505
00:42:31,285 --> 00:42:32,119
Blind eye.
506
00:42:55,776 --> 00:42:58,012
Come on, Anya, get burned.
507
00:43:30,579 --> 00:43:31,979
Oh, geez.
508
00:43:34,448 --> 00:43:37,618
Okay, so, the many.
509
00:43:38,919 --> 00:43:43,924
The journal says that this is
a remedy for the cleansing.
510
00:43:46,260 --> 00:43:49,630
Kind of like an herbal
elixir to heal the body
511
00:43:49,730 --> 00:43:51,866
and expand the mind.
512
00:43:53,868 --> 00:43:59,006
So, okay, "you must
consider your many self
513
00:43:59,473 --> 00:44:01,008
all facets of your being.
514
00:44:01,108 --> 00:44:03,677
So you might see
yourself as one whole."
515
00:44:05,112 --> 00:44:08,048
So essentially, you gotta relax.
516
00:44:09,717 --> 00:44:10,918
So I know that most of you
517
00:44:11,018 --> 00:44:13,387
don't have
a mystery bottle of tea leaves
518
00:44:13,487 --> 00:44:15,990
hiding around in your dead
grandma's secret crawlspace.
519
00:44:16,090 --> 00:44:18,692
But you know, you can use
any kind of herbal remedy
520
00:44:18,792 --> 00:44:19,793
that you have,
521
00:44:19,894 --> 00:44:22,830
maybe some CBD,
whatever mellows you out.
522
00:44:26,734 --> 00:44:29,837
Last time I did
shrooms, I was at the zoo,
523
00:44:29,937 --> 00:44:33,440
and I cried for like six hours.
524
00:44:36,744 --> 00:44:38,712
Let's hope
that doesn't happen again.
525
00:44:40,549 --> 00:44:43,250
Cheers, Verasha. Cheers to you.
526
00:44:45,786 --> 00:44:46,820
Here we go.
527
00:44:49,524 --> 00:44:50,357
Ugh. Woo.
528
00:44:52,760 --> 00:44:53,794
Ah, gross.
529
00:44:55,630 --> 00:44:56,463
Okay.
530
00:44:59,166 --> 00:45:00,000
Gross.
531
00:45:13,347 --> 00:45:15,749
I definitely do feel a
little calmer though.
532
00:45:18,118 --> 00:45:21,288
So, yes.
533
00:45:21,388 --> 00:45:25,426
The next thing that we
have to do is we have to...
534
00:45:28,262 --> 00:45:29,330
So the next...
535
00:45:34,301 --> 00:45:35,302
next thing...
536
00:48:10,023 --> 00:48:11,760
- Hello?
537
00:48:11,860 --> 00:48:13,026
- Hello.
538
00:48:13,127 --> 00:48:16,997
- Anya, are are you
all right? It's so late.
539
00:48:18,265 --> 00:48:22,704
- Anya, are
you all right? It's so late.
540
00:48:22,804 --> 00:48:25,172
- Anya, is that you?
541
00:48:26,974 --> 00:48:28,275
Who am I speaking to?
- Who am I speaking to?
542
00:48:34,047 --> 00:48:36,250
Anya, are you, are you there?
543
00:48:39,587 --> 00:48:40,421
Anya?
544
00:48:41,556 --> 00:48:42,389
Hello?
545
00:48:43,490 --> 00:48:44,324
Anya?
546
00:48:46,795 --> 00:48:49,697
Anya? Anya, are you there?
547
00:48:51,298 --> 00:48:52,332
- Mom?
548
00:48:52,433 --> 00:48:54,935
Anya? Honey, what is going on?
549
00:48:56,303 --> 00:49:00,742
- We're okay.
- We, who's there with you?
550
00:49:00,842 --> 00:49:04,411
- I'm, I'm okay.
I don't, I don't know.
551
00:49:04,512 --> 00:49:06,548
I just had a bad dream.
It's, it's nothing.
552
00:49:06,648 --> 00:49:08,750
I'm sorry I called.
553
00:49:08,850 --> 00:49:10,518
- Are
you sure you're okay?
554
00:49:14,556 --> 00:49:15,623
Who is there with you?
555
00:49:16,691 --> 00:49:17,491
- Grandma.
556
00:49:39,313 --> 00:49:40,882
Hey, thank
you so much for coming.
557
00:49:40,981 --> 00:49:42,416
- Yeah, for sure.
558
00:49:46,453 --> 00:49:47,287
Oh...
559
00:49:49,122 --> 00:49:51,258
we've been redecorating.
560
00:49:52,827 --> 00:49:53,761
- I guess so.
561
00:49:58,065 --> 00:49:59,901
- Kinda looks
like my grandma's house.
562
00:50:00,000 --> 00:50:01,068
- Thank you.
563
00:50:07,140 --> 00:50:09,677
- So how are the videos going?
564
00:50:11,679 --> 00:50:15,717
- I'm really excited to show
you what I've been working on.
565
00:50:15,817 --> 00:50:17,284
- I can't wait.
566
00:50:24,258 --> 00:50:26,561
Jesus, Anya,
have you been eating?
567
00:50:28,262 --> 00:50:30,632
- I've been
focusing on making space.
568
00:50:31,599 --> 00:50:34,569
- Well, maybe you make space
for a Caesar wrap or something.
569
00:50:41,408 --> 00:50:44,211
Look, are you, are you
sure you wanna shoot this?
570
00:50:45,647 --> 00:50:46,480
- Why?
571
00:50:48,917 --> 00:50:52,620
- You look not great?
572
00:50:53,855 --> 00:50:54,656
- I'm fine.
573
00:50:58,425 --> 00:50:59,259
- Okay.
574
00:51:10,070 --> 00:51:11,773
Is someone else here?
575
00:51:12,907 --> 00:51:15,208
- No, it's just us.
576
00:51:30,490 --> 00:51:34,629
Hi everyone, welcome back to
Mind Body Spirit, I'm Anya.
577
00:51:34,729 --> 00:51:38,733
It's day 17. Let's get
started with today's practice.
578
00:51:40,367 --> 00:51:43,303
- And I'm Kenzi from KenziFit.
579
00:51:43,403 --> 00:51:45,006
- Right.
580
00:51:45,105 --> 00:51:47,041
- Do you wanna start over again?
581
00:51:47,140 --> 00:51:48,475
- No, not really.
582
00:51:53,180 --> 00:51:54,448
And this is Kenzi.
583
00:51:54,549 --> 00:51:57,719
She'll be joining
us for today's practice.
584
00:51:57,819 --> 00:52:01,121
The expansion, the joining.
585
00:52:03,357 --> 00:52:04,391
- Wait, sorry.
586
00:52:06,159 --> 00:52:08,730
Can, can we stop this a second?
587
00:52:08,830 --> 00:52:11,298
I, I thought this was
gonna be like a flow.
588
00:52:11,398 --> 00:52:13,266
What, what is this?
589
00:52:14,736 --> 00:52:16,604
- This is Verasha.
590
00:52:18,472 --> 00:52:21,475
- What the fuck is a Verasha?
- My grandmother.
591
00:52:23,645 --> 00:52:27,849
- Okay, can we cut?
- Why? What's wrong?
592
00:52:27,949 --> 00:52:31,485
- I'm, I'm not doing whatever
this is. This isn't my thing.
593
00:52:31,586 --> 00:52:33,220
- Yeah, I know. It's my thing.
594
00:52:33,320 --> 00:52:35,089
- Okay, great for you, I guess,
595
00:52:35,188 --> 00:52:37,825
but like this
isn't on brand for me.
596
00:52:37,925 --> 00:52:39,192
Like, what even is this?
- Hey!
597
00:52:39,292 --> 00:52:42,897
- Whoa. Chill. Jesus,
Anya, look at yourself.
598
00:52:44,398 --> 00:52:49,403
- I have been looking at
myself more than you ever will.
599
00:52:54,909 --> 00:52:56,878
- What the fuck is your deal?
600
00:52:56,978 --> 00:52:59,212
I'm just trying to help you.
601
00:53:00,114 --> 00:53:03,751
- I don't need your help, cunt!
602
00:53:09,023 --> 00:53:09,924
- You know what?
603
00:53:12,694 --> 00:53:13,528
Good.
604
00:53:14,529 --> 00:53:17,330
The only reason that I am here
605
00:53:17,431 --> 00:53:20,768
is because your mom begged
me to come and check on you
606
00:53:20,868 --> 00:53:24,304
and make sure you didn't try
to fucking kill yourself again.
607
00:53:25,740 --> 00:53:28,176
I don't need to be a guest
star on your shitty video diary
608
00:53:28,275 --> 00:53:30,343
that nobody's
gonna fucking watch.
609
00:53:30,444 --> 00:53:31,512
I actually have a following.
610
00:53:31,612 --> 00:53:34,281
I actually help
people feel good.
611
00:53:34,381 --> 00:53:35,583
I'm not just...
612
00:53:35,683 --> 00:53:39,687
I am not just sitting around
in this stupid fucking room
613
00:53:39,787 --> 00:53:40,755
starving myself
614
00:53:40,855 --> 00:53:43,490
and getting lifestyle tips
from the book of the dead.
615
00:53:44,792 --> 00:53:47,028
- Who the fuck
do you think you are?
616
00:53:47,128 --> 00:53:49,329
Your whole entire fucking career
617
00:53:49,429 --> 00:53:51,766
is built on the backs
of people like Verasha,
618
00:53:51,866 --> 00:53:54,434
people with the fucking
fortitude to go out into
the world
619
00:53:54,535 --> 00:53:56,403
and experience real shit.
620
00:53:56,504 --> 00:53:58,740
You, you bounce your tits
around doing some jumping jacks,
621
00:53:58,840 --> 00:54:00,842
and you think that you're
changing people's lives.
622
00:54:00,942 --> 00:54:02,309
Are you fucking kidding me?
623
00:54:02,409 --> 00:54:04,444
You consume
other people's cultures
624
00:54:04,545 --> 00:54:08,082
and then shit them back out
into leopard-neon spandex.
625
00:54:08,182 --> 00:54:09,884
Kenzi, you're
a fucking colonizer!
626
00:54:09,984 --> 00:54:12,920
- Oh my God!
- This is real.
627
00:54:13,020 --> 00:54:16,591
- This is truth. This is my
heritage and I am living it.
628
00:54:19,093 --> 00:54:19,927
- Oh...
629
00:54:20,995 --> 00:54:22,329
my fucking God!
630
00:54:23,898 --> 00:54:26,500
Anya, are you serious?
631
00:54:27,400 --> 00:54:28,569
Colonizer?
632
00:54:28,669 --> 00:54:31,572
You need a fucking Taco Bell.
633
00:54:32,240 --> 00:54:34,341
At least back when
you actually ate food.
634
00:54:35,143 --> 00:54:36,276
I mean, what?
635
00:54:36,376 --> 00:54:37,277
You seriously think that
your weird fucking grandma
636
00:54:37,377 --> 00:54:38,980
traveled the world?
637
00:54:39,747 --> 00:54:43,283
She probably never even
left this fucking house.
638
00:54:43,951 --> 00:54:48,689
Just some sad old lady
getting drunk on Vodka
639
00:54:48,790 --> 00:54:52,627
and making up stories because
her family abandoned her.
640
00:54:57,899 --> 00:54:59,834
Keep your fucking
Siberian bullshit.
641
00:55:01,803 --> 00:55:05,338
Fuck you, fuck your
grandma. Have a great life.
642
00:55:05,438 --> 00:55:07,708
I am done with this and
I am so done with you.
643
00:55:29,130 --> 00:55:30,198
And I am taking this with me.
644
00:55:30,298 --> 00:55:31,065
- Hey!
645
00:55:31,165 --> 00:55:31,999
Get out!
646
00:55:34,735 --> 00:55:37,538
- What the fuck, Anya?
- Get out.
647
00:55:37,638 --> 00:55:38,471
Get out!
648
00:55:40,340 --> 00:55:45,412
- You fucking psycho!
649
00:57:33,486 --> 00:57:35,122
- Anya, what is
the matter with you?
650
00:57:35,222 --> 00:57:36,424
Why haven't you called me back?
651
00:57:36,524 --> 00:57:38,693
Kenzi's mom said
you two got in a fight.
652
00:57:38,793 --> 00:57:42,830
- Yeah, I'm sorry. I, I
meant to call you earlier.
653
00:57:42,930 --> 00:57:43,831
I just-
654
00:57:43,931 --> 00:57:45,266
- I've been so
worried about you.
655
00:57:45,366 --> 00:57:46,133
I almost called the police.
656
00:57:46,233 --> 00:57:48,769
- Mom, I'm sorry. Okay?
657
00:57:50,304 --> 00:57:51,205
- You look sick.
658
00:57:52,606 --> 00:57:54,575
- I, I need help.
659
00:57:56,010 --> 00:57:58,512
- Okay. Okay. I'll get the
first flight out there.
660
00:57:58,612 --> 00:58:01,148
- No, mom, I need help
661
00:58:03,751 --> 00:58:05,219
translating something.
662
00:58:11,792 --> 00:58:14,061
- No.
- Mom, please.
663
00:58:14,161 --> 00:58:16,197
- I said no.
664
00:58:16,297 --> 00:58:17,198
- Please.
665
00:58:17,298 --> 00:58:18,132
- Anya.
666
00:58:19,934 --> 00:58:21,068
- Mom, please.
667
00:58:23,437 --> 00:58:25,973
- I don't, I don't
know what I'm doing.
668
00:58:29,744 --> 00:58:30,945
- What has she done to you?
669
00:58:31,879 --> 00:58:34,315
- I, I don't
know. I don't know. And-
670
00:58:34,415 --> 00:58:38,152
- Anya, this is why I never
told you about your grandmother.
671
00:58:40,454 --> 00:58:45,026
The day I heard Verasha died,
all I felt was happiness,
672
00:58:47,094 --> 00:58:49,363
because I knew she would
never come back for you.
673
00:58:49,463 --> 00:58:51,399
- Jesus, mom.
674
00:58:51,499 --> 00:58:55,102
- Anya, come home, please.
- Okay.
675
00:58:58,305 --> 00:58:59,640
- I am sorry, mom.
676
00:59:01,008 --> 00:59:04,678
I am so sorry
that I didn't listen to you,
677
00:59:07,481 --> 00:59:09,683
but I need you to
translate this for me.
678
00:59:11,685 --> 00:59:13,988
But I need
you to help me for once,
679
00:59:15,890 --> 00:59:20,761
because if I don't find
a way to finish this,
680
00:59:21,395 --> 00:59:25,099
then I will never escape it
and I can't keep running.
681
00:59:27,501 --> 00:59:32,006
So please, please
tell me what this says.
682
00:59:44,985 --> 00:59:45,820
- Show me.
683
00:59:54,095 --> 00:59:54,929
- So...
684
00:59:56,697 --> 00:59:58,132
she translated most of it
685
00:59:58,232 --> 01:00:02,369
and, and phonetized some
other places, but not this.
686
01:00:03,170 --> 01:00:07,374
And it looks like it's in
the same alphabet, I think.
687
01:00:08,843 --> 01:00:11,378
It might be just
a different dialect or...
688
01:00:11,479 --> 01:00:13,114
- Anya. Anya.
- What does it say?
689
01:00:13,948 --> 01:00:16,984
- I, I can't, I can't say it.
690
01:00:17,084 --> 01:00:19,286
- Mom, please tell me.
- Anya.
691
01:00:19,386 --> 01:00:23,757
- Mom, please tell me.
- Anya, I can't say it.
692
01:00:23,858 --> 01:00:28,262
- It doesn't make any sense
- What?
693
01:00:28,362 --> 01:00:32,299
- It's, it's, it's some
sort of ancient tongue.
694
01:00:32,399 --> 01:00:36,103
It's barely even Russian.
I don't know what this is.
695
01:00:38,372 --> 01:00:41,175
Anya. Anya, please come home.
696
01:01:18,547 --> 01:01:20,214
- You fucking bitch.
697
01:01:21,315 --> 01:01:22,683
I've been lying to you
698
01:01:25,419 --> 01:01:27,821
because my grandmother
has been lying to me.
699
01:01:30,491 --> 01:01:35,396
You see this symbol, the
top of all the ritual pages?
700
01:01:36,197 --> 01:01:38,732
Yeah, I thought, I thought
that it was like a, a flourish
701
01:01:38,832 --> 01:01:40,334
or a signature or something.
702
01:01:40,434 --> 01:01:41,268
But...
703
01:01:43,204 --> 01:01:44,038
it's not.
704
01:01:46,807 --> 01:01:47,875
It's a fucking key
705
01:01:50,844 --> 01:01:53,447
to what's hidden in these pages.
706
01:01:55,983 --> 01:01:58,719
These aren't words of wisdom.
707
01:01:59,386 --> 01:02:03,390
It's fucking backwards
black magic bullshit.
708
01:02:04,792 --> 01:02:07,795
This was never
meant to cleanse my spirit.
709
01:02:07,895 --> 01:02:11,031
This was meant
to destroy my spirit.
710
01:02:12,299 --> 01:02:14,935
It was meant to
destroy my spirit
711
01:02:16,904 --> 01:02:18,305
and make room for hers.
712
01:02:24,546 --> 01:02:25,479
And I...
713
01:02:32,520 --> 01:02:36,257
followed blindly because it's
easier than facing myself.
714
01:03:32,313 --> 01:03:35,550
Verasha, please, please,
Verasha, you don't have,
715
01:03:35,650 --> 01:03:37,017
you don't have to do this.
716
01:03:37,117 --> 01:03:40,087
Please, please.
No, please, please.
717
01:03:40,954 --> 01:03:42,289
Please, please.
718
01:03:57,304 --> 01:04:00,642
- Hey guys,
it's Kenzi from KenziFit.
719
01:04:00,742 --> 01:04:03,010
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720
01:04:03,110 --> 01:04:08,082
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01:04:09,216 --> 01:04:11,519
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722
01:04:11,619 --> 01:04:16,190
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723
01:04:16,290 --> 01:04:18,526
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01:04:18,626 --> 01:04:20,361
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726
01:04:26,133 --> 01:04:27,569
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727
01:04:35,710 --> 01:04:38,713
- Hi Kenzi,
this is Anya speaking.
728
01:04:39,514 --> 01:04:42,316
I can't tell you how sorry I
am for my behavior earlier.
729
01:04:43,785 --> 01:04:45,052
I feel so ashamed.
730
01:04:48,021 --> 01:04:49,624
To be perfectly honest with you,
731
01:04:51,158 --> 01:04:54,596
I think a lot of that anger
came from a place of jealousy.
732
01:04:56,664 --> 01:05:01,502
I mean, you're just so
worldly and wise and kind.
733
01:05:03,805 --> 01:05:05,105
And sometimes, sometimes,
734
01:05:07,207 --> 01:05:10,310
sometimes I feel
like I can't compete.
735
01:05:14,816 --> 01:05:15,884
There's this
little voice inside of me
736
01:05:15,983 --> 01:05:18,952
that just won't let be myself.
737
01:05:21,155 --> 01:05:23,090
And I just wanna
tell her to let go.
738
01:05:26,594 --> 01:05:27,494
It's okay.
739
01:05:29,329 --> 01:05:30,197
It's okay.
740
01:05:39,306 --> 01:05:42,610
But until then, I sincerely
hope you can forgive me.
741
01:05:43,711 --> 01:05:44,712
And as a sign of good faith,
742
01:05:44,813 --> 01:05:46,581
I would love to have you over
to record some more videos
743
01:05:46,681 --> 01:05:47,981
and bury the old hatchet.
744
01:05:52,252 --> 01:05:53,954
Wishing you wellness my friend.
745
01:05:55,790 --> 01:05:56,624
Namaste.
746
01:06:34,829 --> 01:06:36,363
- Are you filming me?
747
01:06:37,331 --> 01:06:40,334
- Yes. Is
that all right with you?
748
01:06:41,669 --> 01:06:42,670
- Yeah, sure.
749
01:06:45,907 --> 01:06:48,141
Holy shit, are
you okay? What happened?
750
01:06:48,977 --> 01:06:50,043
- Oh, this.
751
01:06:51,211 --> 01:06:54,649
I hit my head while I was
rearranging some furniture.
752
01:06:54,749 --> 01:06:56,049
- It looks like it hurt.
753
01:06:57,050 --> 01:06:58,252
- I'm fine now.
754
01:07:01,088 --> 01:07:05,425
- I'm sorry. I shouldn't
have said, I mean earlier.
755
01:07:09,463 --> 01:07:10,297
I'm sorry.
756
01:07:35,623 --> 01:07:36,591
Do you wanna sit?
757
01:08:02,482 --> 01:08:06,054
I am sorry for
getting so heated.
758
01:08:06,153 --> 01:08:07,220
It's just...
759
01:08:09,089 --> 01:08:12,359
being this, this perfect person
760
01:08:12,459 --> 01:08:15,495
is just so fucking
stressful, you know?
761
01:08:17,532 --> 01:08:22,102
- I completely understand.
And I'm sorry too.
762
01:08:24,171 --> 01:08:25,807
I shouldn't have
said those things.
763
01:08:30,143 --> 01:08:32,179
- Are you sure you're okay?
764
01:08:35,083 --> 01:08:36,551
- I feel fantastic.
765
01:08:38,720 --> 01:08:39,621
I truly do.
766
01:08:45,492 --> 01:08:46,326
- I...
767
01:08:48,462 --> 01:08:50,130
I guess I have to thank you.
768
01:08:51,766 --> 01:08:53,266
- Is that so?
- Yeah.
769
01:08:54,902 --> 01:08:57,237
- You know, I don't really agree
770
01:08:57,337 --> 01:08:59,641
with the way you handled things,
771
01:08:59,741 --> 01:09:02,710
and I was pretty
fucking upset with you.
772
01:09:04,045 --> 01:09:06,714
But what you said,
773
01:09:09,117 --> 01:09:10,384
it wasn't bullshit.
774
01:09:12,185 --> 01:09:17,190
We're all just borrowing,
stealing, I guess,
775
01:09:17,290 --> 01:09:19,192
just like
taking pieces of things
776
01:09:19,292 --> 01:09:21,562
and making them our identity
777
01:09:22,329 --> 01:09:24,599
without really thinking
about where they come from.
778
01:09:27,135 --> 01:09:28,168
And I guess,
779
01:09:31,939 --> 01:09:36,911
I guess I just don't really
know who I am without them.
780
01:09:39,814 --> 01:09:42,650
- You're you.
That's all you can be.
781
01:09:49,857 --> 01:09:51,726
- I mean, I put in the work.
782
01:09:51,826 --> 01:09:53,695
It's not like easy,
783
01:09:53,795 --> 01:09:58,265
but I'm not, you know,
special or whatever.
784
01:10:01,736 --> 01:10:02,670
- But you are.
785
01:10:07,742 --> 01:10:09,544
- How hard did
you hit your head?
786
01:10:19,319 --> 01:10:21,288
I am glad you're here.
787
01:10:25,560 --> 01:10:26,861
- I'm glad I am too.
788
01:10:35,435 --> 01:10:38,773
- Okay, so what exactly
did you have in mind?
789
01:10:45,213 --> 01:10:46,748
- It's a guided meditation.
790
01:10:47,849 --> 01:10:50,317
I practiced it on
my own a few nights ago,
791
01:10:50,417 --> 01:10:52,186
but it's supposed to be better
792
01:10:52,285 --> 01:10:54,822
when someone
else is guiding you.
793
01:10:56,157 --> 01:10:58,993
- Cool. You,
you wanna do an intro?
794
01:11:00,561 --> 01:11:02,930
- I recorded
an introduction earlier,
795
01:11:03,030 --> 01:11:05,900
but perhaps we can say "hello."
796
01:11:06,000 --> 01:11:09,369
- Okay. Yeah. Cool. Kick it off.
797
01:11:16,409 --> 01:11:20,548
- Welcome back everyone
to Mind Body Spirit.
798
01:11:22,216 --> 01:11:24,384
We have a familiar guest today.
799
01:11:24,484 --> 01:11:27,522
- Hey guys, KenziFit here.
800
01:11:27,622 --> 01:11:29,724
- I will be guiding you
through a meditation.
801
01:11:29,824 --> 01:11:32,527
And Kenzi here, will
be my first recipient.
802
01:11:36,264 --> 01:11:39,834
Find yourself in a
comfortable corpse pose.
803
01:11:41,235 --> 01:11:43,037
Whatever feels best to you.
- Okay.
804
01:11:54,582 --> 01:11:59,620
Allow your back body
to sink to the ground.
805
01:12:04,058 --> 01:12:08,696
Let your belly rise
and fall with a breath.
806
01:12:15,468 --> 01:12:18,840
Sink deeper with every exhale.
807
01:12:36,023 --> 01:12:36,858
In
808
01:12:41,095 --> 01:12:46,000
and out.
809
01:12:47,001 --> 01:12:47,835
In...
810
01:12:52,106 --> 01:12:53,741
- Oh. Okay.
- It's okay.
811
01:12:56,944 --> 01:12:58,512
- And as you relax,
812
01:12:58,613 --> 01:13:03,551
your partner will gently reach
your arms out to your sides,
813
01:13:06,486 --> 01:13:11,525
extending away from your ribs,
814
01:13:15,730 --> 01:13:17,865
allowing your breath to
fill into your lungs,
815
01:13:17,965 --> 01:13:22,770
reaching their full capacity.
816
01:13:25,706 --> 01:13:26,574
In
817
01:13:28,709 --> 01:13:31,579
and out.
818
01:13:34,782 --> 01:13:36,951
Continue with this rhythm.
819
01:13:49,096 --> 01:13:49,931
In
820
01:13:54,268 --> 01:13:55,569
and out.
821
01:13:55,670 --> 01:13:56,637
This is really nice.
822
01:14:05,212 --> 01:14:06,914
- So how long should I-
823
01:15:44,745 --> 01:15:47,748
- I am ready to
receive all of you.
824
01:17:23,477 --> 01:17:27,748
- Hello?
- Anya? Jesus, are you okay?
825
01:17:27,848 --> 01:17:29,683
- I have
been calling you nonstop.
826
01:17:29,783 --> 01:17:34,822
- Oh, don't worry.
I'm fine. I slept well.
827
01:17:35,890 --> 01:17:37,324
I feel rested now.
828
01:17:38,593 --> 01:17:39,927
- That's a relief.
829
01:17:41,295 --> 01:17:43,664
It's, it's good
to hear your voice.
830
01:17:43,764 --> 01:17:46,967
- Hmm. It's good
to hear your voice too.
831
01:17:48,769 --> 01:17:50,871
- What
happened with the journal?
832
01:17:52,773 --> 01:17:55,142
- Well,
I put that behind me.
833
01:17:55,242 --> 01:17:57,111
- Oh, good.
834
01:17:58,580 --> 01:17:59,413
Good.
835
01:18:03,350 --> 01:18:04,818
Anya?
836
01:18:04,919 --> 01:18:10,090
- I was trying so
hard to be someone else
837
01:18:10,525 --> 01:18:12,226
that I finally found myself.
838
01:18:15,763 --> 01:18:18,866
I think it's time
I come home, Lenka.
839
01:18:22,002 --> 01:18:24,138
- I look forward
to seeing you again.
840
01:18:26,740 --> 01:18:28,075
I love you, Anya.
60132
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