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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:02,169 --> 00:00:04,639 [Ethereal melody; Soothing, bell-like percussion] 2 00:00:11,144 --> 00:00:14,014 [Delicate violin plucking] 3 00:00:21,088 --> 00:00:23,691 [Sustained, warm violin tone joins] 4 00:00:29,631 --> 00:00:31,699 [Music fades] 5 00:00:41,876 --> 00:00:45,212 [Keyboard tapping] 6 00:00:46,213 --> 00:00:49,551 [Keyboard tapping] 7 00:00:49,851 --> 00:00:53,187 [Keyboard tapping] 8 00:00:55,322 --> 00:00:57,924 [Keyboard tapping] 9 00:00:57,926 --> 00:01:03,731 [Ominous hum] 10 00:01:05,299 --> 00:01:08,636 [Keyboard tapping] 11 00:01:09,571 --> 00:01:11,971 [Ominous music] 12 00:01:11,973 --> 00:01:13,608 [Heel clacks] 13 00:01:14,576 --> 00:01:16,210 [Heel clacks] 14 00:01:18,312 --> 00:01:20,147 [Heel clacks] 15 00:01:21,081 --> 00:01:24,384 [Keyboard tapping] 16 00:01:46,674 --> 00:01:49,140 [Panting] 17 00:01:49,142 --> 00:01:51,679 - [Thud] - [Gasp] 18 00:01:52,145 --> 00:01:54,582 - [Thud] - [Groans] 19 00:01:58,251 --> 00:02:00,318 [Panting] 20 00:02:00,320 --> 00:02:03,625 [Keyboard tapping] 21 00:02:12,499 --> 00:02:14,934 [Thuds] 22 00:02:14,936 --> 00:02:18,272 [Keyboard tapping] 23 00:02:19,172 --> 00:02:21,774 [Thuds] 24 00:02:21,776 --> 00:02:24,777 [Keyboard tapping] 25 00:02:24,779 --> 00:02:28,115 [Music continues] 26 00:03:12,325 --> 00:03:15,663 [Keyboard tapping] 27 00:03:28,009 --> 00:03:28,841 I have a few more ques... 28 00:03:28,843 --> 00:03:31,144 [Keyboard tapping] 29 00:03:32,046 --> 00:03:34,816 I can't make it stop! 30 00:03:39,486 --> 00:03:42,824 [Keyboard tapping] 31 00:03:46,928 --> 00:03:47,960 [Click] 32 00:03:47,962 --> 00:03:51,298 [Film reel whirs] 33 00:03:52,900 --> 00:03:56,236 [Keyboard tapping] 34 00:03:58,172 --> 00:04:00,742 I used to make things without it all being so complicated. 35 00:04:02,677 --> 00:04:04,479 I was 22. 36 00:04:05,713 --> 00:04:07,482 Hold! 37 00:04:08,348 --> 00:04:10,082 I'm gonna come in and get wide. 38 00:04:10,084 --> 00:04:12,718 [Waves lap] 39 00:04:12,720 --> 00:04:14,722 - You ready for wide, ma? - Mhmm. 40 00:04:15,223 --> 00:04:17,288 Gazing upon my mom. 41 00:04:17,290 --> 00:04:19,927 Go down to Barbara's feet. 42 00:04:21,162 --> 00:04:22,563 One of them. 43 00:04:24,297 --> 00:04:25,030 Go! 44 00:04:25,032 --> 00:04:27,265 [Film reel whirs] 45 00:04:27,267 --> 00:04:30,237 A parallax fantasy. 46 00:04:31,371 --> 00:04:35,074 My mom performs her period piece. 47 00:04:35,076 --> 00:04:39,480 The mime-ic embodiment of the ovaries. 48 00:04:39,981 --> 00:04:41,346 Fallopian tubes. 49 00:04:41,348 --> 00:04:43,048 Uterus. 50 00:04:43,050 --> 00:04:44,819 Cervix. 51 00:04:45,853 --> 00:04:47,588 Ovulation. 52 00:04:49,489 --> 00:04:52,992 The creation of the egg. 53 00:04:52,994 --> 00:04:54,796 Its release. 54 00:04:55,395 --> 00:04:57,264 Its journey. 55 00:04:57,364 --> 00:04:59,199 Its weight. 56 00:05:03,370 --> 00:05:04,872 Menstruation. 57 00:05:05,006 --> 00:05:08,409 [Dog panting] 58 00:05:10,545 --> 00:05:12,278 Stay right where you are. 59 00:05:12,280 --> 00:05:15,413 And I never showed this film to anyone. 60 00:05:15,415 --> 00:05:17,082 I'm sorry, are you cold? 61 00:05:17,084 --> 00:05:17,817 No, I'm just like... 62 00:05:17,819 --> 00:05:19,484 I'll warm up for a second! 63 00:05:19,486 --> 00:05:20,653 It's, it's, it's... 64 00:05:20,655 --> 00:05:22,387 I promise it looks good. 65 00:05:22,389 --> 00:05:23,488 You can't even really see your feet. 66 00:05:23,490 --> 00:05:25,693 Okay, are you ready? 67 00:05:27,061 --> 00:05:29,797 Many years after this, I received an email. 68 00:05:30,531 --> 00:05:32,598 It was from a new website. 69 00:05:32,600 --> 00:05:34,669 They wanted content based on a theme. 70 00:05:35,236 --> 00:05:37,335 Female trouble. 71 00:05:37,337 --> 00:05:40,806 They wanted to know if I wanted to pitch an idea. 72 00:05:40,808 --> 00:05:43,478 I wrote back, "is this a John waters thing?" 73 00:05:44,111 --> 00:05:45,945 They wrote back, "no." 74 00:05:45,947 --> 00:05:49,414 She created this mime-ic... 75 00:05:49,416 --> 00:05:51,884 Still I had heard that the website had a lot of money. 76 00:05:51,886 --> 00:05:55,020 - [Camera thuds] - [Murmuring] 77 00:05:55,022 --> 00:05:56,791 And I thought of my mom's period piece. 78 00:05:58,292 --> 00:06:00,192 At the meeting, I was nervous. 79 00:06:00,194 --> 00:06:02,663 Sweating, undulating. 80 00:06:03,064 --> 00:06:04,632 Just like my mom. 81 00:06:05,465 --> 00:06:06,966 The one who's a mime. 82 00:06:06,968 --> 00:06:08,968 My mom is a mime. 83 00:06:08,970 --> 00:06:11,338 I pitched the full performance, 84 00:06:12,173 --> 00:06:14,139 this time complete with comedic sound effects. 85 00:06:14,141 --> 00:06:15,476 [Electronic beep] 86 00:06:15,543 --> 00:06:21,280 [Blows raspberry] 87 00:06:21,282 --> 00:06:25,217 [Laughter] 88 00:06:25,219 --> 00:06:27,686 Everybody was laughing and I was sweating, 89 00:06:27,688 --> 00:06:29,588 and they even floated the idea of someday 90 00:06:29,590 --> 00:06:32,091 making a feature film together. 91 00:06:32,093 --> 00:06:33,461 [Producer] are you married to this idea? 92 00:06:34,195 --> 00:06:36,394 Or are you open to, I don't know, 93 00:06:36,396 --> 00:06:39,467 maybe something more narrative? 94 00:06:41,468 --> 00:06:43,102 At the end of it all, 95 00:06:43,104 --> 00:06:46,007 we shook hands and they promised to be in touch. 96 00:06:46,540 --> 00:06:49,977 [Squeaking] 97 00:06:50,211 --> 00:06:52,547 I went home, I waited. 98 00:06:54,248 --> 00:06:56,851 I felt dirty for dragging my moms into that building. 99 00:06:58,552 --> 00:07:00,021 [Email notification] 100 00:07:00,521 --> 00:07:02,721 A week later I received an email. 101 00:07:02,723 --> 00:07:04,823 The website liked me, 102 00:07:04,825 --> 00:07:07,126 but they thought that my idea was too 103 00:07:07,128 --> 00:07:08,260 Ass-oteric. 104 00:07:08,262 --> 00:07:09,895 [Fart] 105 00:07:09,897 --> 00:07:11,997 I didn't know what ass-oteric meant, 106 00:07:11,999 --> 00:07:14,600 so I asked my new boyfriend. 107 00:07:14,602 --> 00:07:16,537 He said it was pronounced with an "ES", 108 00:07:17,038 --> 00:07:19,707 not an "ASS", and told me to look it up. 109 00:07:21,309 --> 00:07:23,642 [Texting pops] 110 00:07:23,644 --> 00:07:25,144 [Sent message ping] 111 00:07:25,146 --> 00:07:27,212 Esoteric. 112 00:07:27,214 --> 00:07:29,381 Adjective from es ter , 113 00:07:29,383 --> 00:07:30,718 meaning inner. 114 00:07:31,752 --> 00:07:34,320 Intended for or likely to be understood by 115 00:07:34,322 --> 00:07:36,657 only a small number of people. 116 00:07:37,024 --> 00:07:38,492 Esoteric. 117 00:07:38,893 --> 00:07:40,428 Esoteric. 118 00:07:40,995 --> 00:07:42,995 Esoteric. 119 00:07:42,997 --> 00:07:45,066 I didn't know what was so 120 00:07:45,766 --> 00:07:48,736 esoteric about my mom's period piece. 121 00:07:50,204 --> 00:07:51,469 The website wanted to know if I wanted 122 00:07:51,471 --> 00:07:53,040 to direct a different video. 123 00:07:53,774 --> 00:07:55,307 One in which little girls talked about 124 00:07:55,309 --> 00:07:56,878 what they dreamed of being when they grew up. 125 00:07:57,211 --> 00:07:59,080 But instead of little girl dreams, 126 00:07:59,547 --> 00:08:01,479 it was little boy dreams. 127 00:08:01,481 --> 00:08:03,784 You know, lawyer, 128 00:08:03,951 --> 00:08:05,351 fireman, 129 00:08:05,353 --> 00:08:07,054 football player, 130 00:08:07,621 --> 00:08:09,457 filmmaker. 131 00:08:10,992 --> 00:08:13,325 I wished I was the kind of person 132 00:08:13,327 --> 00:08:15,496 who wanted to direct that video. 133 00:08:16,731 --> 00:08:18,130 I wished because... 134 00:08:18,132 --> 00:08:19,965 [Doors squeak] 135 00:08:19,967 --> 00:08:22,901 Movies about the pain of being female 136 00:08:22,903 --> 00:08:24,436 were awash with money. 137 00:08:24,438 --> 00:08:26,841 [Panting] 138 00:08:27,141 --> 00:08:27,740 But instead I wrote... 139 00:08:27,742 --> 00:08:28,707 [Keyboard taps] 140 00:08:28,709 --> 00:08:30,376 Dear so and so, 141 00:08:30,378 --> 00:08:32,745 I think that probably 142 00:08:32,747 --> 00:08:35,280 the most "female" thing for me to do 143 00:08:35,282 --> 00:08:38,217 would be to "realize" your "vision" 144 00:08:38,219 --> 00:08:40,955 and "direct" this video. 145 00:08:41,589 --> 00:08:45,024 That being said, as a person, 146 00:08:45,026 --> 00:08:47,726 I don't think the idea is a good one. 147 00:08:47,728 --> 00:08:50,498 And I hate not having a choice. 148 00:08:52,033 --> 00:08:54,833 A better video would be of a female filmmaker 149 00:08:54,835 --> 00:08:56,935 pitching an idea to a website, 150 00:08:56,937 --> 00:09:00,039 and the website calling the idea ass-oteric. 151 00:09:00,041 --> 00:09:02,374 And then telling the female filmmaker what to do. 152 00:09:02,376 --> 00:09:04,543 [Silence] 153 00:09:04,545 --> 00:09:06,113 And then I signed it. 154 00:09:09,250 --> 00:09:11,383 And maybe the most female trouble part of it all was 155 00:09:11,385 --> 00:09:12,918 that I walked into that meeting 156 00:09:12,920 --> 00:09:14,855 having already made a feature film. 157 00:09:16,157 --> 00:09:18,526 But I didn't have the words to say it. 158 00:09:24,632 --> 00:09:26,801 I don't feel female. 159 00:09:28,069 --> 00:09:29,802 Until somebody tells me I am. 160 00:09:29,804 --> 00:09:33,240 [Water laps] 161 00:09:34,041 --> 00:09:38,677 - [Keyboard tapping] - [Dreamy music] 162 00:09:38,679 --> 00:09:39,745 [Alexis] Dude, you got this. 163 00:09:39,747 --> 00:09:41,082 Just like say action with authority. 164 00:09:45,086 --> 00:09:47,188 Right, left. 165 00:09:47,621 --> 00:09:48,687 - And you say... - Action. 166 00:09:48,689 --> 00:09:50,257 Action. 167 00:09:50,624 --> 00:09:52,026 - Action. Action. - Action. 168 00:09:52,493 --> 00:09:54,093 - Action! - Just yell it! 169 00:09:54,095 --> 00:09:55,997 - Action. Action. - Action. Action. 170 00:09:56,464 --> 00:09:58,531 Action! 171 00:09:58,533 --> 00:09:59,566 - Action! - Action! 172 00:09:59,568 --> 00:10:01,066 [Uneasy music] 173 00:10:01,068 --> 00:10:02,101 Action! 174 00:10:02,103 --> 00:10:05,172 Okay, it starts here. 175 00:10:05,673 --> 00:10:07,174 12 years ago. 176 00:10:07,808 --> 00:10:10,711 The day I drove past the lake. 177 00:10:11,979 --> 00:10:14,113 The lake whose shore was home 178 00:10:14,115 --> 00:10:17,182 to one of the us of a's first moving picture studios, 179 00:10:17,184 --> 00:10:19,887 specializing in damsel and distress films 180 00:10:20,654 --> 00:10:22,488 the lake so deep 181 00:10:22,490 --> 00:10:24,557 that after the studio's flammable nitrate films 182 00:10:24,559 --> 00:10:26,027 were thrown into it, 183 00:10:26,193 --> 00:10:27,928 they were never recovered. 184 00:10:30,965 --> 00:10:34,366 I drove past the lake and into my hometown. 185 00:10:34,368 --> 00:10:38,139 A hometown with that Hill filled with failed communes. 186 00:10:40,040 --> 00:10:42,743 The same communes that my moms 187 00:10:43,377 --> 00:10:45,277 and dad fled to. 188 00:10:45,279 --> 00:10:48,616 [Music continues] 189 00:10:50,519 --> 00:10:52,784 In my hometown as a young woman, 190 00:10:52,786 --> 00:10:55,656 I felt the vicious cycle of birth. 191 00:10:56,525 --> 00:10:59,860 Giving birth and death. 192 00:11:00,194 --> 00:11:03,597 [Water rushes] 193 00:11:04,398 --> 00:11:07,802 [Pensive music] 194 00:11:09,403 --> 00:11:13,040 Nevertheless I returned home to make this film, 195 00:11:14,609 --> 00:11:19,013 my first feature film with my family and my friends. 196 00:11:22,416 --> 00:11:24,149 I was 25. 197 00:11:24,151 --> 00:11:26,852 - [Music fades] - [Crickets] 198 00:11:26,854 --> 00:11:30,257 [Crew murmurs] 199 00:11:32,594 --> 00:11:34,026 [Laughs] 200 00:11:34,028 --> 00:11:35,494 [Mouths] so good. 201 00:11:35,496 --> 00:11:36,962 [Laughs] 202 00:11:36,964 --> 00:11:39,800 Hey vita! How do I look? 203 00:11:39,934 --> 00:11:41,902 Is that them? 204 00:11:42,002 --> 00:11:43,202 Yeah, you haven't met them? 205 00:11:43,204 --> 00:11:44,571 No. 206 00:11:44,573 --> 00:11:46,307 Holy shit, you're so shy. 207 00:11:46,541 --> 00:11:48,109 Hey guys, come on. 208 00:11:48,643 --> 00:11:49,542 - Circle up! - Circle up! 209 00:11:49,544 --> 00:11:50,842 I have a couple of announcements 210 00:11:50,844 --> 00:11:53,180 before we get started. 211 00:11:53,981 --> 00:11:57,015 So the first announcement is 212 00:11:57,017 --> 00:12:00,786 I trust you all so inherently and implicitly, 213 00:12:00,788 --> 00:12:03,488 and chemically and emotionally 214 00:12:03,490 --> 00:12:06,693 and spiritually, conceptually, 215 00:12:06,695 --> 00:12:08,260 no matter what, 216 00:12:08,262 --> 00:12:09,997 and I really hope you can trust me too. 217 00:12:10,364 --> 00:12:13,098 We are all the authors of this film. 218 00:12:13,100 --> 00:12:14,333 And the second announcement, thank you, 219 00:12:14,335 --> 00:12:15,602 [Laughs] 220 00:12:15,604 --> 00:12:17,869 Is that there's this old guy 221 00:12:17,871 --> 00:12:19,004 who lives down the road from my moms'. 222 00:12:19,006 --> 00:12:20,405 He will offer you weed. 223 00:12:20,407 --> 00:12:21,840 It is goblin weed. 224 00:12:21,842 --> 00:12:23,643 Do not smoke it. Do not smoke it. 225 00:12:23,645 --> 00:12:25,177 I'm telling you... 226 00:12:25,179 --> 00:12:26,613 - I have to smoke goblin weed! - Do not smoke weed. 227 00:12:26,615 --> 00:12:29,414 - If a goblin offers me weed... - Powerful little shit! 228 00:12:29,416 --> 00:12:33,018 The crew consisted of Sam, the assistant director. 229 00:12:33,020 --> 00:12:34,655 - Not the producer? - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 230 00:12:34,888 --> 00:12:36,989 Alexis, the cinematographer. 231 00:12:36,991 --> 00:12:37,923 But we're more like sisters. 232 00:12:37,925 --> 00:12:38,725 Bobby. 233 00:12:38,727 --> 00:12:39,891 Hi! Pleasure. 234 00:12:39,893 --> 00:12:41,962 Alexis's assistant. 235 00:12:42,664 --> 00:12:44,698 She had given him head once. 236 00:12:44,733 --> 00:12:46,367 JJ, the designer. 237 00:12:47,067 --> 00:12:48,867 I had given him head twice. 238 00:12:48,869 --> 00:12:52,037 And... Dustin. 239 00:12:52,039 --> 00:12:53,905 - Hey baby, you're back! - It's good to be back! 240 00:12:53,907 --> 00:12:55,708 - Hi baby. - Hey. Hey. 241 00:12:55,710 --> 00:12:57,809 - How you doing? - I'm good. 242 00:12:57,811 --> 00:12:59,478 I had this like really intense dream 243 00:12:59,480 --> 00:13:00,647 that you were like with someone else, 244 00:13:00,649 --> 00:13:01,880 and I like woke up with 245 00:13:01,882 --> 00:13:02,881 this like weird taste in my mouth. 246 00:13:02,883 --> 00:13:05,819 - Sorry. - No, it's fine. 247 00:13:06,320 --> 00:13:07,720 - It's all just a dream. - Yeah. 248 00:13:07,722 --> 00:13:08,787 [Kiss] 249 00:13:08,789 --> 00:13:10,122 Hey, I got a 250 00:13:10,124 --> 00:13:12,357 [Crew murmurs] - [Sniffs] 251 00:13:12,359 --> 00:13:13,694 It's like a little 252 00:13:14,428 --> 00:13:16,096 heart-shaped rock 253 00:13:17,164 --> 00:13:19,064 for luck or something. 254 00:13:19,066 --> 00:13:20,667 - So nice. Thank you. - Yeah. 255 00:13:20,669 --> 00:13:21,967 [Kiss] 256 00:13:21,969 --> 00:13:22,901 Okay, I gotta get back to work. 257 00:13:22,903 --> 00:13:24,236 Okay guys, let's go! Let's go! 258 00:13:24,238 --> 00:13:24,704 Let's do it. Let's make a movie. 259 00:13:24,706 --> 00:13:25,571 Yeah! 260 00:13:25,573 --> 00:13:26,805 [Crew chatter] 261 00:13:26,807 --> 00:13:27,973 Uh, what about him? 262 00:13:27,975 --> 00:13:29,041 Oh great, sound guy. 263 00:13:29,043 --> 00:13:30,344 Wait, tell me your name again. 264 00:13:31,078 --> 00:13:32,411 I'm so fucking bad at remembering names. 265 00:13:32,413 --> 00:13:33,646 [Crew chatter] 266 00:13:33,648 --> 00:13:35,180 Oh shit, Sam, Sam, Sam. 267 00:13:35,182 --> 00:13:36,784 That's the guy. Can you talk to him? 268 00:13:36,884 --> 00:13:37,849 - Um, Vita? - Yeah? 269 00:13:37,851 --> 00:13:39,351 You gonna introduce me? 270 00:13:39,353 --> 00:13:41,088 Oh, right! Okay guys, guys, wait. 271 00:13:41,556 --> 00:13:43,090 This is Dina. 272 00:13:43,591 --> 00:13:45,023 This is Dina. 273 00:13:45,025 --> 00:13:46,793 [Chuckles] 274 00:13:46,795 --> 00:13:47,392 Go ahead, introduce yourself. 275 00:13:47,394 --> 00:13:48,963 Okay... 276 00:13:49,363 --> 00:13:52,766 Hi, I'm Dina. I've never been in a film before. 277 00:13:52,900 --> 00:13:55,033 I play the main character. 278 00:13:55,035 --> 00:13:56,471 I don't think she has a name yet. 279 00:13:57,237 --> 00:13:58,771 But I've watched tons of movies. 280 00:13:58,773 --> 00:14:00,038 All right, let's get into it. 281 00:14:00,040 --> 00:14:01,708 - Yeah! - Okay! 282 00:14:01,710 --> 00:14:03,777 [Crew murmurs] 283 00:14:04,546 --> 00:14:06,046 Oh, uh, phones! So... 284 00:14:06,947 --> 00:14:09,414 [Vita] It was the middle of what could be described 285 00:14:09,416 --> 00:14:12,886 as a revolutionary decade in moving images. 286 00:14:14,455 --> 00:14:17,523 The aftermath of a world financial collapse 287 00:14:17,525 --> 00:14:20,225 coupled with the rise of the first affordable 288 00:14:20,227 --> 00:14:23,629 and professional digital moving image cameras 289 00:14:23,631 --> 00:14:26,164 created an era of micro budget film making. 290 00:14:26,166 --> 00:14:28,235 [Pill bottle rattles] 291 00:14:30,337 --> 00:14:32,805 I had four thousand five hundred 292 00:14:32,807 --> 00:14:34,509 and twenty-five dollars. 293 00:14:34,676 --> 00:14:36,243 Action. 294 00:14:39,480 --> 00:14:41,048 Action. 295 00:14:42,483 --> 00:14:44,751 So we did what we had to do. 296 00:14:44,753 --> 00:14:46,186 Squeeze in! 297 00:14:46,721 --> 00:14:48,019 We begged, 298 00:14:48,021 --> 00:14:49,524 we borrowed, 299 00:14:49,791 --> 00:14:50,656 we stole. 300 00:14:50,658 --> 00:14:53,760 [Crew counts down] 301 00:14:53,762 --> 00:14:56,196 And before we get too far, I should tell you, 302 00:14:56,363 --> 00:14:57,697 [Laughter] 303 00:14:57,699 --> 00:14:58,798 It was bad. 304 00:14:58,800 --> 00:14:59,931 [Driving uneasy music] 305 00:14:59,933 --> 00:15:03,837 And I was on a lot of Adderall, 306 00:15:05,673 --> 00:15:08,106 which is probably why 307 00:15:08,108 --> 00:15:10,344 I can't remember the sound guy's name. 308 00:15:11,111 --> 00:15:12,880 [Camera clicks] 309 00:15:14,582 --> 00:15:15,815 [Camera clicks] 310 00:15:15,817 --> 00:15:17,048 [Camera clicks] 311 00:15:17,050 --> 00:15:18,486 [Camera clicks] 312 00:15:19,453 --> 00:15:21,021 [Camera clicks] 313 00:15:22,089 --> 00:15:24,256 [Music builds] 314 00:15:24,258 --> 00:15:25,858 Vita, he's almost here! 315 00:15:25,860 --> 00:15:27,225 Oh, oh, okay! 316 00:15:27,227 --> 00:15:27,993 - Yeah, okay. - Okay. 317 00:15:27,995 --> 00:15:30,262 [Crew crosstalk] 318 00:15:30,264 --> 00:15:32,230 How we doing? We good? 319 00:15:32,232 --> 00:15:33,231 Okay, great! Great, great, great, great. 320 00:15:33,233 --> 00:15:34,232 Forty five seconds! 321 00:15:34,234 --> 00:15:35,967 Oh shit! Oh, all right. Here we go. 322 00:15:35,969 --> 00:15:36,736 Here we go! We're ready! We're ready. 323 00:15:36,738 --> 00:15:37,737 Okay. Okay. 324 00:15:37,739 --> 00:15:38,604 [Crew crosstalk] 325 00:15:38,606 --> 00:15:40,338 All right, guys! 326 00:15:40,340 --> 00:15:41,774 Alright, JJ, get the fuck out! Come on! 327 00:15:41,776 --> 00:15:43,576 Guys! We gotta go, we gotta go! 328 00:15:43,578 --> 00:15:44,777 Buddy, get out... 329 00:15:44,779 --> 00:15:46,011 We gotta go! Let's go! Let's... 330 00:15:46,013 --> 00:15:47,547 JJ! Come on, come on! 331 00:15:47,549 --> 00:15:48,781 We gotta go! Okay... 332 00:15:48,783 --> 00:15:50,351 - And... - Hold on, hold on! 333 00:15:50,484 --> 00:15:52,252 And action! 334 00:15:54,054 --> 00:15:57,391 [Footsteps crunch] 335 00:15:58,192 --> 00:15:59,559 [Plane roars closer] 336 00:15:59,561 --> 00:16:00,593 Ten! 337 00:16:00,595 --> 00:16:01,594 Nine! 338 00:16:01,596 --> 00:16:02,494 Eight! 339 00:16:02,496 --> 00:16:03,462 Seven! 340 00:16:03,464 --> 00:16:04,697 Six! 341 00:16:04,699 --> 00:16:05,698 Five! 342 00:16:05,700 --> 00:16:06,699 Four! 343 00:16:06,701 --> 00:16:07,667 Three! 344 00:16:07,669 --> 00:16:08,701 Two! 345 00:16:08,703 --> 00:16:09,669 One! 346 00:16:09,671 --> 00:16:11,470 [Plane roars] 347 00:16:11,472 --> 00:16:12,772 [Mouse click] 348 00:16:12,774 --> 00:16:16,043 I remember I paid airplane Andy 50 bucks. 349 00:16:17,110 --> 00:16:19,046 He built a plane in his garage 350 00:16:20,113 --> 00:16:21,915 and taught himself to fly. 351 00:16:23,484 --> 00:16:23,783 [Mouse click] 352 00:16:23,785 --> 00:16:26,752 [Plane roars] 353 00:16:26,754 --> 00:16:29,457 He was willing to do as many takes as I wanted 354 00:16:30,357 --> 00:16:32,527 to make it feel real. 355 00:16:34,328 --> 00:16:35,396 Cut! 356 00:16:35,429 --> 00:16:36,361 - Whoa! Shit! - Take it. 357 00:16:36,363 --> 00:16:38,966 [Relieved laughter] 358 00:16:39,701 --> 00:16:42,902 Yeah, I mean that... You can... um...! 359 00:16:42,904 --> 00:16:43,936 You okay? 360 00:16:43,938 --> 00:16:45,407 You okay? 361 00:16:45,773 --> 00:16:46,539 - Amazing! - Vita! 362 00:16:46,541 --> 00:16:47,740 - Okay... - Vita, um... 363 00:16:47,742 --> 00:16:48,373 [Chatter] 364 00:16:48,375 --> 00:16:49,709 We were rolling, right? 365 00:16:49,711 --> 00:16:50,776 - Yeah, yeah, yeah. - Yeah, okay. 366 00:16:50,778 --> 00:16:52,545 He wants to do it again even closer, 367 00:16:52,547 --> 00:16:53,779 and then pull out at the very end... 368 00:16:53,781 --> 00:16:56,114 [Vita] But I'm sure I cut him off after three 369 00:16:56,116 --> 00:16:58,083 [Alexis speaks indistinctly] 370 00:16:58,085 --> 00:16:59,685 'Cause he kept flying closer... 371 00:16:59,687 --> 00:17:00,786 You want to do another? 372 00:17:00,788 --> 00:17:02,590 And closer 373 00:17:03,357 --> 00:17:05,023 and closer. 374 00:17:05,025 --> 00:17:06,494 Hey, uh... 375 00:17:08,630 --> 00:17:09,962 Fuck me, man. Come as close as you want. 376 00:17:09,964 --> 00:17:11,296 [Laughs] 377 00:17:11,298 --> 00:17:13,398 [Somber music] 378 00:17:13,400 --> 00:17:16,303 It was a primal experience. 379 00:17:16,370 --> 00:17:20,941 - [Bed thuds] - [Gasping] 380 00:17:26,614 --> 00:17:27,680 [Music fades] 381 00:17:27,682 --> 00:17:31,151 [Moaning] 382 00:17:34,756 --> 00:17:39,193 [Moaning] 383 00:17:40,093 --> 00:17:43,565 [Panting] 384 00:17:47,035 --> 00:17:50,605 [Sighs] 385 00:17:52,707 --> 00:17:56,276 [Sighs] 386 00:17:56,578 --> 00:18:00,047 [Panting] 387 00:18:01,950 --> 00:18:05,520 [Exhale] 388 00:18:15,897 --> 00:18:19,467 [Laughs] 389 00:18:19,867 --> 00:18:22,035 Did you cum? 390 00:18:22,369 --> 00:18:24,772 - Yeah? - Yeah. 391 00:18:25,974 --> 00:18:27,642 Where? 392 00:18:27,976 --> 00:18:31,446 [Panting] 393 00:18:31,646 --> 00:18:33,278 [Laughs] 394 00:18:33,280 --> 00:18:34,616 What do you mean? 395 00:18:39,621 --> 00:18:40,653 Shit. 396 00:18:40,655 --> 00:18:41,854 - Sorry. Sorry. - Oh fuck. 397 00:18:41,856 --> 00:18:43,121 Sorry. Sorry. 398 00:18:43,123 --> 00:18:44,222 Sorry. 399 00:18:44,224 --> 00:18:45,793 Fuck. 400 00:18:46,928 --> 00:18:48,429 Alright, don't be upset. 401 00:18:50,197 --> 00:18:51,897 - Oh no... - Hey. Hey... 402 00:18:51,899 --> 00:18:53,701 [Kiss] 403 00:19:00,041 --> 00:19:00,873 I love you. 404 00:19:00,875 --> 00:19:03,611 [Sighs] 405 00:19:05,913 --> 00:19:06,912 I love you too. 406 00:19:06,914 --> 00:19:09,180 [Gentle music] 407 00:19:09,182 --> 00:19:11,118 God damn it. 408 00:19:12,954 --> 00:19:15,186 [Laughter] 409 00:19:15,188 --> 00:19:18,557 [Music continues] 410 00:19:18,559 --> 00:19:20,260 [Vita] I'd read this list online. 411 00:19:21,194 --> 00:19:23,263 Most important things for a director to be. 412 00:19:25,465 --> 00:19:27,401 And the number one thing was healthy. 413 00:19:29,704 --> 00:19:31,804 And dad, maybe it's the sound of 414 00:19:31,806 --> 00:19:33,675 the zoom that makes her turn her head or... 415 00:19:36,476 --> 00:19:38,211 Alright, you all ready... 416 00:19:38,378 --> 00:19:40,178 [Crew murmurs] 417 00:19:40,180 --> 00:19:41,881 No, it's not just the light. 418 00:19:41,883 --> 00:19:43,115 [Footsteps] 419 00:19:43,117 --> 00:19:45,385 Okay, so some questions. 420 00:19:45,753 --> 00:19:48,788 One, are the eventual worms alive or plastic? 421 00:19:48,790 --> 00:19:50,288 Two, Alexis says neither are red enough, 422 00:19:50,290 --> 00:19:51,624 but we need more light, so. 423 00:19:51,626 --> 00:19:52,925 And three, we need to talk about 424 00:19:52,927 --> 00:19:54,160 the prosthetic belly. 425 00:19:54,162 --> 00:19:55,597 [Gravel crunches] 426 00:19:55,863 --> 00:19:57,699 Vita, what do you think? 427 00:19:58,766 --> 00:20:00,900 Live, live worms. 428 00:20:00,902 --> 00:20:02,835 Use whatever fucking lights you want. 429 00:20:02,837 --> 00:20:04,572 Can get me the morning after pill? 430 00:20:05,873 --> 00:20:06,939 What? 431 00:20:06,941 --> 00:20:07,907 The morning after pill. 432 00:20:07,909 --> 00:20:09,141 [Gasps] 433 00:20:09,143 --> 00:20:11,077 Don't be dramatic. 434 00:20:11,079 --> 00:20:12,111 I'm serious. 435 00:20:12,113 --> 00:20:13,112 I'm honored. 436 00:20:13,114 --> 00:20:15,181 He came in me. 437 00:20:15,183 --> 00:20:16,816 [Laughter] 438 00:20:16,818 --> 00:20:19,185 He said something like primal took over. 439 00:20:19,187 --> 00:20:20,853 Oh my god. 440 00:20:20,855 --> 00:20:22,922 Vita! Hey, uh, yo. 441 00:20:22,924 --> 00:20:23,723 Never... 442 00:20:23,725 --> 00:20:24,824 Thanks. 443 00:20:24,826 --> 00:20:25,693 Yep. 444 00:20:26,259 --> 00:20:27,193 By the way, I don't like that. 445 00:20:27,195 --> 00:20:28,226 [Murmuring] 446 00:20:28,228 --> 00:20:29,327 Are you guys making a movie? 447 00:20:29,329 --> 00:20:30,462 [Murmurs] 448 00:20:30,464 --> 00:20:31,396 I can tell them to stop. 449 00:20:31,398 --> 00:20:32,631 - Now? - No. 450 00:20:32,633 --> 00:20:34,066 - Later. - Okay, bye. 451 00:20:34,068 --> 00:20:35,803 Whoa, there it is. 452 00:20:35,870 --> 00:20:36,301 Happy day. 453 00:20:36,303 --> 00:20:36,702 [Claps] 454 00:20:36,704 --> 00:20:37,505 Yeah. 455 00:20:38,005 --> 00:20:39,505 Your bike, I just found it. 456 00:20:39,507 --> 00:20:40,338 I don't know who that... 457 00:20:40,340 --> 00:20:41,339 How you doing? 458 00:20:41,341 --> 00:20:42,373 Good. 459 00:20:42,375 --> 00:20:44,110 Hey, ah, why don't you like...? 460 00:20:44,112 --> 00:20:44,777 - Um... - Yeah. 461 00:20:44,779 --> 00:20:45,711 [Crew murmurs] 462 00:20:45,713 --> 00:20:47,813 Vita, I want to shoot the scene 463 00:20:47,815 --> 00:20:48,948 so that it feels like we're in her head 464 00:20:48,950 --> 00:20:50,015 and looking at her. 465 00:20:50,017 --> 00:20:51,083 And where do you want me to put the hard drives? 466 00:20:51,085 --> 00:20:51,984 Uh, vita? 467 00:20:51,986 --> 00:20:52,720 - How are you? - Okay. 468 00:20:53,121 --> 00:20:54,589 [Alexis] No, we already talked about... 469 00:20:55,255 --> 00:20:56,387 Is that... Two shots or one shot? 470 00:20:56,389 --> 00:20:59,594 [Hopeful music] [Laughter] 471 00:20:59,961 --> 00:21:01,361 [Vita] cash? 472 00:21:09,737 --> 00:21:11,537 A lot of people showed up to help me make my film. 473 00:21:11,539 --> 00:21:13,906 - Hey darlin'. - Hey! 474 00:21:13,908 --> 00:21:19,545 But cash was the only guy in a 22.6 mile radius 475 00:21:19,547 --> 00:21:21,281 that could have been a movie star. 476 00:21:22,817 --> 00:21:24,952 And yes, everyone was in love with him. 477 00:21:25,153 --> 00:21:26,317 Good, how are you? 478 00:21:26,319 --> 00:21:27,485 Would you like to say something? 479 00:21:27,487 --> 00:21:28,554 - Um... - Yep, right there. 480 00:21:28,556 --> 00:21:30,723 [Case rattles] 481 00:21:30,725 --> 00:21:32,292 Thanks. 482 00:21:32,492 --> 00:21:33,728 - Wow. - Alright. 483 00:21:34,128 --> 00:21:35,763 Okay, everybody, listen up. 484 00:21:37,330 --> 00:21:39,299 Hey. Uhh... 485 00:21:39,499 --> 00:21:41,903 Wow, this is amazing. 486 00:21:42,904 --> 00:21:44,435 I know I haven't really been around much 487 00:21:44,437 --> 00:21:46,038 in the last few years, 488 00:21:46,040 --> 00:21:48,843 so it's really nice to see all your familiar faces. 489 00:21:49,277 --> 00:21:50,776 I wish I could pay you. 490 00:21:50,778 --> 00:21:52,077 But like maybe you could, maybe. 491 00:21:52,079 --> 00:21:53,212 [Laughter] 492 00:21:53,214 --> 00:21:55,214 Well, you know, there's a lot of beer 493 00:21:55,216 --> 00:21:56,749 and you can have as much of it as you want, 494 00:21:56,751 --> 00:21:58,517 so that's something. 495 00:21:58,519 --> 00:22:00,621 And this is my producer, Sam. 496 00:22:00,655 --> 00:22:02,955 He will take great care of you. 497 00:22:02,957 --> 00:22:04,190 He will look after everything you need. 498 00:22:04,192 --> 00:22:05,191 All right. 499 00:22:05,193 --> 00:22:06,561 Take it from there. So yeah! 500 00:22:06,928 --> 00:22:08,994 Like she said, just fun, pretty simple stuff. 501 00:22:08,996 --> 00:22:10,062 We're going to have you all sort of scatter. 502 00:22:10,064 --> 00:22:13,468 [Pensive music] 503 00:22:15,603 --> 00:22:17,937 I cast Dina as the main character in the film 504 00:22:17,939 --> 00:22:20,641 because she seemed like the perfect muse. 505 00:22:21,441 --> 00:22:26,312 We had the same friends and boyfriends. 506 00:22:26,314 --> 00:22:29,584 Both of our dads were larger than life. 507 00:22:30,751 --> 00:22:33,888 She was me, but beautiful. 508 00:22:35,623 --> 00:22:38,724 And like any great director, it was my job 509 00:22:38,726 --> 00:22:41,696 to wait patiently and let the muse take over. 510 00:22:42,530 --> 00:22:43,494 You know, I broke up with Billy. 511 00:22:43,496 --> 00:22:44,330 [Music ends] 512 00:22:44,332 --> 00:22:46,431 [Wind] 513 00:22:46,433 --> 00:22:47,835 - Holy shit. - Mhm. 514 00:22:48,069 --> 00:22:49,235 Finally. 515 00:22:49,237 --> 00:22:50,805 I know. 516 00:22:51,606 --> 00:22:53,040 - That guy's a loser. - I know. 517 00:22:55,343 --> 00:22:56,844 Good for you. 518 00:23:01,249 --> 00:23:02,314 [Inhales] 519 00:23:02,316 --> 00:23:03,716 Make sure your hands, 520 00:23:03,718 --> 00:23:06,420 they're always touching something. 521 00:23:06,921 --> 00:23:08,821 Your character's trying to... 522 00:23:08,823 --> 00:23:11,557 Ground herself in this world 523 00:23:11,559 --> 00:23:13,528 that she just feels completely alien in. 524 00:23:13,995 --> 00:23:15,460 She's trying to determine her boundaries, 525 00:23:15,462 --> 00:23:18,330 the rules, just, you know, 526 00:23:18,332 --> 00:23:19,598 and in the end it's just going to be her in the trees. 527 00:23:19,600 --> 00:23:21,401 [Inhales] 528 00:23:26,774 --> 00:23:28,843 Girl enters and crosses the frame at a diagonal. 529 00:23:30,443 --> 00:23:32,978 She disappears behind a sand dune in 530 00:23:32,980 --> 00:23:34,615 the foreground, the edge of the frame. 531 00:23:35,583 --> 00:23:37,084 Camera at this point actually stops operating. 532 00:23:37,985 --> 00:23:39,754 The girl walks away a considerable distance 533 00:23:40,521 --> 00:23:41,720 and takes her place 534 00:23:41,722 --> 00:23:43,858 behind another sand dune, further away. 535 00:23:44,825 --> 00:23:46,358 The camera then resumes its shooting 536 00:23:46,360 --> 00:23:48,827 and immediately begins to turn 537 00:23:48,829 --> 00:23:51,130 in a panoramic movement toward the direction 538 00:23:51,132 --> 00:23:52,567 of which the girl's left the frame. 539 00:23:53,968 --> 00:23:56,504 Blah blah blah blah blah. 540 00:23:56,737 --> 00:23:57,369 Moves out of the frame... 541 00:23:57,371 --> 00:23:59,040 Okay, um, instead, 542 00:24:00,374 --> 00:24:01,976 she emerges much more distant. 543 00:24:02,877 --> 00:24:04,777 And so the alienation of the girl 544 00:24:04,779 --> 00:24:07,279 from the camera exceeds the actual time 545 00:24:07,281 --> 00:24:08,614 which proceeds what would have 546 00:24:08,616 --> 00:24:10,448 presumably been necessary. 547 00:24:10,450 --> 00:24:13,788 [Music continues] 548 00:24:14,622 --> 00:24:16,121 What is that from? 549 00:24:16,123 --> 00:24:17,556 Maya Deren. 550 00:24:17,558 --> 00:24:19,124 You emailed it to me. 551 00:24:19,126 --> 00:24:20,926 This is the best part. 552 00:24:20,928 --> 00:24:22,830 She goes on to say about film making, 553 00:24:23,264 --> 00:24:25,264 "And so, ready or not, 554 00:24:25,266 --> 00:24:27,399 willing or not, 555 00:24:27,401 --> 00:24:30,869 you must come to comprehend with full responsibility 556 00:24:30,871 --> 00:24:33,808 the world of which we now created." 557 00:24:39,613 --> 00:24:41,647 Cool. Well, you didn't send me any lines 558 00:24:41,649 --> 00:24:42,948 or anything, so I memorized that. 559 00:24:42,950 --> 00:24:44,350 [Laughs] 560 00:24:44,352 --> 00:24:45,417 Because I'm an actor now. 561 00:24:45,419 --> 00:24:48,756 [Music continues] 562 00:25:01,769 --> 00:25:02,835 Everybody who will be in the bar, 563 00:25:02,837 --> 00:25:04,672 let's get to places. Alright. 564 00:25:05,306 --> 00:25:06,807 Watch your step. Yep. 565 00:25:07,274 --> 00:25:08,741 Alright, nice and warm. Come on. 566 00:25:08,743 --> 00:25:10,609 Hey, I'm not paying you to hang out. 567 00:25:10,611 --> 00:25:11,810 Get the fuck in there. 568 00:25:11,812 --> 00:25:13,514 Lovely, okay. Looks cute. 569 00:25:13,547 --> 00:25:14,646 - Roll sound. - Speeding. 570 00:25:14,648 --> 00:25:15,748 - Roll camera. - Rolling. 571 00:25:15,750 --> 00:25:17,082 301 apple, take one. 572 00:25:17,084 --> 00:25:17,850 [Slate clacks] 573 00:25:17,852 --> 00:25:18,717 Set. 574 00:25:18,719 --> 00:25:22,123 [Violin plays] 575 00:25:22,423 --> 00:25:23,455 Action! 576 00:25:23,457 --> 00:25:25,026 Action! 577 00:25:25,526 --> 00:25:28,663 [Violin continues] [Clapping] 578 00:25:34,802 --> 00:25:38,072 [Feet stomp to music] 579 00:25:39,974 --> 00:25:41,776 [Vita] so the film was about a young woman. 580 00:25:42,576 --> 00:25:44,211 She lives in a small town. 581 00:25:45,813 --> 00:25:47,882 She's taking care of her ailing father. 582 00:25:49,550 --> 00:25:51,152 She has a boyfriend. 583 00:25:52,420 --> 00:25:54,021 And a secret lover. 584 00:25:59,860 --> 00:26:01,693 She gets pregnant and decides to leave home 585 00:26:01,695 --> 00:26:02,861 in search of her mother 586 00:26:02,863 --> 00:26:04,832 who abandoned her at birth. 587 00:26:06,834 --> 00:26:08,300 This is a true story. 588 00:26:08,302 --> 00:26:10,903 [Music fades] 589 00:26:10,905 --> 00:26:13,808 This is a true story, except... 590 00:26:14,608 --> 00:26:16,475 And you already know this. 591 00:26:16,477 --> 00:26:18,243 [Waves lap] 592 00:26:18,245 --> 00:26:20,179 I have two moms. 593 00:26:20,181 --> 00:26:22,016 [Violin music] 594 00:26:23,317 --> 00:26:25,219 One of them is a mime. 595 00:26:30,591 --> 00:26:32,624 I was never abandoned. 596 00:26:32,626 --> 00:26:38,599 [Woman sings] 597 00:26:41,602 --> 00:26:45,037 [Music muffles] 598 00:26:45,039 --> 00:26:47,041 I did get pregnant, though. 599 00:26:50,010 --> 00:26:52,246 A year and a half before we shot the film. 600 00:26:53,914 --> 00:26:56,516 I found out on my 23rd birthday. 601 00:26:56,518 --> 00:26:58,650 My birthday is November 23rd, so... 602 00:26:58,652 --> 00:27:00,152 Vita. 603 00:27:00,154 --> 00:27:01,653 It was a once in a lifetime year. 604 00:27:01,655 --> 00:27:02,788 Hey. 605 00:27:02,790 --> 00:27:03,455 [Violin music builds] 606 00:27:03,457 --> 00:27:05,559 Go! Everybody laugh! 607 00:27:05,793 --> 00:27:07,726 Really animated! 608 00:27:07,728 --> 00:27:09,697 Give me party! 609 00:27:09,997 --> 00:27:13,100 [Cheers] 610 00:27:17,371 --> 00:27:19,539 On November 24th, I sat at the clinic 611 00:27:19,541 --> 00:27:21,609 and cried and cried. 612 00:27:24,278 --> 00:27:26,313 [Howls] 613 00:27:27,748 --> 00:27:29,550 I asked the nurse, 614 00:27:30,117 --> 00:27:33,952 "Why am I the only person 615 00:27:33,954 --> 00:27:35,821 that I know who this has happened to?" 616 00:27:35,823 --> 00:27:38,690 [Fire roars] 617 00:27:38,692 --> 00:27:42,129 [Muffled cheers] 618 00:27:43,964 --> 00:27:45,966 And the nurse looked away from me 619 00:27:46,700 --> 00:27:48,836 and back at me again 620 00:27:48,936 --> 00:27:50,235 and said, 621 00:27:50,237 --> 00:27:51,336 [Fire crackles] 622 00:27:51,338 --> 00:27:54,008 "This happens to a lot of people." 623 00:27:56,911 --> 00:27:59,478 "It's just that nobody talks about it." 624 00:27:59,480 --> 00:28:02,783 [Muffled cheers] 625 00:28:08,789 --> 00:28:13,027 [Women sing] 626 00:28:16,397 --> 00:28:18,931 ♪ Just remember ♪ 627 00:28:18,933 --> 00:28:23,804 ♪ That red river valley ♪ 628 00:28:24,805 --> 00:28:26,038 ♪ And the... ♪ 629 00:28:26,040 --> 00:28:27,906 Okay, can we cut for a second? 630 00:28:27,908 --> 00:28:29,376 Let's hold the roll. 631 00:28:30,244 --> 00:28:31,376 Dina, you have to see him by now. 632 00:28:31,378 --> 00:28:32,444 See who? 633 00:28:32,446 --> 00:28:34,046 [Women whisper] 634 00:28:34,048 --> 00:28:36,350 Can you guys be quiet for just a second? 635 00:28:37,652 --> 00:28:40,221 See him, your secret lover. 636 00:28:41,021 --> 00:28:42,790 Hey, Gideon, will you wave? 637 00:28:43,592 --> 00:28:44,723 He's an actor. He drove up from the city. 638 00:28:44,725 --> 00:28:45,357 Oh shit. 639 00:28:45,359 --> 00:28:47,192 Hey, sorry. 640 00:28:47,194 --> 00:28:48,796 I didn't know you were in the scene. 641 00:28:48,862 --> 00:28:50,331 I'm Dina. 642 00:28:50,565 --> 00:28:53,701 Hey. Gideon. I'm moving to la. 643 00:28:55,169 --> 00:28:55,867 Cool. 644 00:28:55,869 --> 00:28:58,036 [Crew murmurs] 645 00:28:58,038 --> 00:29:00,074 Okay, wait. We're gonna go from the... 646 00:29:00,107 --> 00:29:04,409 ♪ Come and sit by my side ♪ 647 00:29:04,411 --> 00:29:08,048 ♪ If you love me ♪ 648 00:29:08,849 --> 00:29:15,689 ♪ Do not hasten to bid me adieu ♪ 649 00:29:16,924 --> 00:29:22,794 ♪ Just remember That red river valley ♪ 650 00:29:22,796 --> 00:29:24,530 [Laughter] 651 00:29:24,532 --> 00:29:27,835 [Wild screeching laughs] 652 00:29:28,703 --> 00:29:30,202 - Fuck! - No! 653 00:29:30,204 --> 00:29:32,237 [Laughter] 654 00:29:32,239 --> 00:29:33,171 [Grunts] 655 00:29:33,173 --> 00:29:36,743 [Moans] 656 00:29:36,745 --> 00:29:37,909 Fuck! 657 00:29:37,911 --> 00:29:39,411 [Laughter] 658 00:29:39,413 --> 00:29:41,714 Hi. Hi. 659 00:29:41,716 --> 00:29:42,715 What are you guys doing? 660 00:29:42,717 --> 00:29:45,884 [Laughter] 661 00:29:45,886 --> 00:29:46,719 Can you come here for a second? 662 00:29:46,721 --> 00:29:48,420 Why? 663 00:29:48,422 --> 00:29:49,888 I miss you. Come here. 664 00:29:49,890 --> 00:29:51,859 Why are you wet? 665 00:29:52,393 --> 00:29:53,825 Why are you wet? 666 00:29:53,827 --> 00:29:55,463 We got all wet together. 667 00:29:55,630 --> 00:29:57,432 Why are you wet? 668 00:29:57,831 --> 00:30:01,302 Hi. How are you? 669 00:30:01,703 --> 00:30:03,001 How is the film going? 670 00:30:03,003 --> 00:30:04,838 [Laughter] 671 00:30:05,573 --> 00:30:07,973 It's going... it was going well before you got here. 672 00:30:07,975 --> 00:30:09,709 What are you wearing? 673 00:30:09,711 --> 00:30:11,245 I like your funny vest. 674 00:30:11,312 --> 00:30:12,844 It's my cameo. 675 00:30:12,846 --> 00:30:14,882 It's the most important shot of the scene. 676 00:30:14,915 --> 00:30:15,682 Can I take a picture of you? 677 00:30:15,684 --> 00:30:16,582 Baby... 678 00:30:16,584 --> 00:30:17,316 [Camera flash] 679 00:30:17,318 --> 00:30:17,849 Ow. 680 00:30:17,851 --> 00:30:18,884 Sorry... 681 00:30:18,886 --> 00:30:20,754 Your lens cap is on. 682 00:30:21,121 --> 00:30:23,088 You have to go back to the bar. 683 00:30:23,090 --> 00:30:24,258 [Alexis] Still rolling, vita. 684 00:30:24,992 --> 00:30:25,490 What's happening? 685 00:30:25,492 --> 00:30:26,393 Okay. 686 00:30:26,594 --> 00:30:27,660 You gotta go. 687 00:30:27,662 --> 00:30:28,927 No. 688 00:30:28,929 --> 00:30:30,095 I gotta get back to work. 689 00:30:30,097 --> 00:30:30,730 Do you need to take a break? 690 00:30:30,732 --> 00:30:31,496 No. 691 00:30:31,498 --> 00:30:32,297 Is it lunchtime? 692 00:30:32,299 --> 00:30:33,867 No. 693 00:30:34,168 --> 00:30:35,836 We could go back. 694 00:30:36,437 --> 00:30:37,603 Go... I just wanted to have sex with you. 695 00:30:37,605 --> 00:30:38,671 [Laughter] 696 00:30:38,673 --> 00:30:40,339 Shut up. 697 00:30:40,341 --> 00:30:42,876 That's so embarrassing. You're so wet. 698 00:30:43,177 --> 00:30:44,042 Why don't you help? 699 00:30:44,044 --> 00:30:45,779 It'll go by faster. 700 00:30:45,879 --> 00:30:47,081 - If you help out. - Yeah. 701 00:30:47,881 --> 00:30:49,484 Listen to JJ. 702 00:30:49,684 --> 00:30:51,051 I'm going to help. 703 00:30:51,385 --> 00:30:52,853 Come over here, you're gonna help. 704 00:30:52,953 --> 00:30:54,255 Alright, we're gonna help. 705 00:30:54,522 --> 00:30:55,555 - Go over there? - Bobby's over there. 706 00:30:55,557 --> 00:30:56,789 - Hey, Bobby. - Bobby! 707 00:30:56,791 --> 00:30:58,460 I was sent to help you. 708 00:30:58,693 --> 00:30:59,960 - No, no. - Hey! 709 00:30:59,993 --> 00:31:00,827 I'm good. Thank you though. 710 00:31:00,829 --> 00:31:01,661 Yeah. You're good. 711 00:31:01,663 --> 00:31:02,595 You do your thing. 712 00:31:02,597 --> 00:31:02,894 I'm just going to like help you. 713 00:31:02,896 --> 00:31:03,796 No, like I'm... 714 00:31:03,798 --> 00:31:04,731 Don't touch that. 715 00:31:04,733 --> 00:31:05,464 Don't touch that. 716 00:31:05,466 --> 00:31:06,465 [Murmurs] 717 00:31:06,467 --> 00:31:07,099 Don't touch that. 718 00:31:07,101 --> 00:31:07,633 - Sorry. - Sorry. 719 00:31:07,635 --> 00:31:08,467 No. 720 00:31:08,469 --> 00:31:10,068 I don't... 721 00:31:10,070 --> 00:31:12,839 He asked me to help with the... okay. 722 00:31:12,841 --> 00:31:14,908 I will not touch the light 723 00:31:15,075 --> 00:31:16,274 and I will help over here. 724 00:31:16,276 --> 00:31:17,309 Stop messing with the equipment. 725 00:31:17,311 --> 00:31:19,111 Why are you yelling at me? 726 00:31:19,113 --> 00:31:20,145 You guys were singing. 727 00:31:20,147 --> 00:31:21,113 What were you singing? 728 00:31:21,115 --> 00:31:21,880 [Girls resume singing] 729 00:31:21,882 --> 00:31:23,418 Yeah. 730 00:31:23,450 --> 00:31:25,052 [Whoops] 731 00:31:26,120 --> 00:31:27,720 Vita, I'll just be in the scene. 732 00:31:27,722 --> 00:31:29,323 [Laughs] 733 00:31:30,625 --> 00:31:32,625 ♪ ... Bid me adieu ♪ 734 00:31:32,627 --> 00:31:33,492 What is happening? 735 00:31:33,494 --> 00:31:34,527 Thank you. 736 00:31:34,529 --> 00:31:35,628 Vita! 737 00:31:35,630 --> 00:31:38,664 [Murmurs fade] 738 00:31:38,666 --> 00:31:40,435 You know, I don't think we need this shot. 739 00:31:40,568 --> 00:31:41,935 What about the close-up? 740 00:31:44,204 --> 00:31:46,974 Why don't you... We get the most shooting. 741 00:31:48,075 --> 00:31:49,975 Are you absolutely sure you don't need this shot? 742 00:31:49,977 --> 00:31:50,643 Vita! 743 00:31:50,645 --> 00:31:52,010 [Singing] 744 00:31:52,012 --> 00:31:53,345 Vita! 745 00:31:53,347 --> 00:31:55,447 ♪ Red river valley ♪ 746 00:31:55,449 --> 00:31:57,084 [Giggles] 747 00:31:57,619 --> 00:31:58,684 Yeah, I'm sure. 748 00:31:58,686 --> 00:32:01,654 [Uneasy music] 749 00:32:01,656 --> 00:32:05,092 [Men murmur] 750 00:32:13,535 --> 00:32:14,767 I always wondered 751 00:32:14,769 --> 00:32:16,604 if that shot would have made the film better. 752 00:32:18,873 --> 00:32:20,205 Guess I wonder about a lot of things. 753 00:32:20,207 --> 00:32:22,608 ♪ ... Bid me adieu ♪ 754 00:32:22,610 --> 00:32:24,976 Adieu. Adieu. Adieu. 755 00:32:24,978 --> 00:32:29,882 ♪ Just remember that red river ♪ 756 00:32:29,884 --> 00:32:32,083 [Footsteps] 757 00:32:32,085 --> 00:32:35,557 [Singing] 758 00:32:38,560 --> 00:32:41,026 [Panting] 759 00:32:41,028 --> 00:32:44,499 [Yelling] 760 00:32:46,133 --> 00:32:49,604 [Screams] 761 00:32:53,974 --> 00:32:57,445 [Screams] 762 00:32:59,547 --> 00:33:00,847 [Bag shakes] 763 00:33:00,849 --> 00:33:04,318 [Screams] 764 00:33:05,954 --> 00:33:09,424 [Screams] 765 00:33:12,727 --> 00:33:15,528 Dina, um, I'm gonna need you to 766 00:33:15,530 --> 00:33:18,296 really dig a little deeper on this one. 767 00:33:18,298 --> 00:33:19,866 I mean, the scream's gotta come from, 768 00:33:19,868 --> 00:33:23,034 like, a really painful place. 769 00:33:23,036 --> 00:33:24,135 Okay. 770 00:33:24,137 --> 00:33:26,273 [Clears throat] 771 00:33:27,107 --> 00:33:30,578 [Screams] 772 00:33:34,081 --> 00:33:35,916 Okay, I don't... I don't get it. 773 00:33:36,483 --> 00:33:38,051 Like, where is this all coming from? 774 00:33:39,687 --> 00:33:41,423 Well, Dina, she's... 775 00:33:42,356 --> 00:33:44,391 Emotionally torn. 776 00:33:45,793 --> 00:33:47,327 Okay. 777 00:33:48,495 --> 00:33:50,397 I don't know what that means, honestly. 778 00:33:51,365 --> 00:33:52,798 Maybe we should try it from a different angle, 779 00:33:52,800 --> 00:33:54,432 like, shoot from behind, 780 00:33:54,434 --> 00:33:56,802 and then you can add a better scream. 781 00:33:56,804 --> 00:33:58,838 Yeah, but you have to stay with her. It's gotta be that. 782 00:33:58,840 --> 00:34:00,873 Dina, maybe try it, like, you just, like, stub your toe, 783 00:34:00,875 --> 00:34:01,974 and it's, like, that one spot, and you always do it. 784 00:34:01,976 --> 00:34:03,141 No, Sam, it's not... 785 00:34:03,143 --> 00:34:04,911 It's not like stubbing your toe. 786 00:34:04,913 --> 00:34:06,612 She needs a real life example. 787 00:34:06,614 --> 00:34:08,348 This is after the scene where she meets her secret lover? 788 00:34:08,983 --> 00:34:10,618 Yeah, but he's not secret. 789 00:34:10,952 --> 00:34:12,484 So is it about the boyfriend? 790 00:34:12,486 --> 00:34:15,287 It's... we all read the script, right? 791 00:34:15,289 --> 00:34:17,322 I mean, yeah, but 40 pages of mostly prose. 792 00:34:17,324 --> 00:34:19,859 - JJ... Can this please wait? - Can I just...? 793 00:34:19,861 --> 00:34:20,993 [Dustin] Vita, what if she's, like, 794 00:34:20,995 --> 00:34:22,597 not in pain at all at this point? 795 00:34:26,868 --> 00:34:27,700 What do you mean? 796 00:34:27,702 --> 00:34:31,673 Like, what if, like, instead, she's... 797 00:34:32,072 --> 00:34:33,238 She's, like, coming to terms with 798 00:34:33,240 --> 00:34:35,173 who she's, like, meant to be, you know? 799 00:34:35,175 --> 00:34:38,646 [Silence] 800 00:34:41,616 --> 00:34:44,151 But it's, like, it's the opposite of that. 801 00:34:46,353 --> 00:34:48,521 I don't know, it's not like the opposite. 802 00:34:48,523 --> 00:34:50,088 It's just, like, a different... It's a different take. 803 00:34:50,090 --> 00:34:51,256 It's, like, the same thing. 804 00:34:51,258 --> 00:34:53,491 It's the opposite of that, I am telling you. 805 00:34:53,493 --> 00:34:55,062 - Okay... - She's not just cool with it. 806 00:34:56,731 --> 00:34:58,766 Yeah, I'm just... I'm, like, throwing out an idea. 807 00:35:00,735 --> 00:35:02,135 Could be cool. 808 00:35:03,871 --> 00:35:06,806 We're just gonna, we're gonna keep... keep going. 809 00:35:06,808 --> 00:35:08,473 [Sam] Yeah, okay, let's... Let's try it again maybe. 810 00:35:08,475 --> 00:35:10,743 Thank you. Let's keep going. 811 00:35:10,745 --> 00:35:12,612 Why, why, why does everything I do 812 00:35:12,614 --> 00:35:14,716 just, like, fucking upset you up here? 813 00:35:17,819 --> 00:35:19,451 Can we just get through this scene? 814 00:35:19,453 --> 00:35:23,223 Yeah. I'm... I'm just trying to, like, help out here. 815 00:35:27,095 --> 00:35:28,796 But it's not helping. 816 00:35:37,872 --> 00:35:40,040 Could we, could we, like, go and talk for a second? 817 00:35:40,975 --> 00:35:42,309 - Right now? - Yeah. 818 00:35:42,910 --> 00:35:44,512 - You need to talk right now? - Yeah, yeah. 819 00:35:45,445 --> 00:35:47,515 What are we gonna talk about? 820 00:35:48,482 --> 00:35:50,248 Uh, I... I'd rather just not do this 821 00:35:50,250 --> 00:35:52,487 in front of, like, everyone. 822 00:35:53,021 --> 00:35:54,722 Can you, like, take just, like, five minutes? 823 00:35:56,691 --> 00:35:58,459 No, I can't. 824 00:35:58,793 --> 00:36:00,926 How can you not see that I'm busy? 825 00:36:00,928 --> 00:36:03,230 I'm trying to finish this scene. 826 00:36:03,931 --> 00:36:04,530 Baby. 827 00:36:04,532 --> 00:36:06,099 [Scoffs] 828 00:36:08,335 --> 00:36:10,270 You... you make me, like, feel really bad 829 00:36:10,805 --> 00:36:12,372 being here. 830 00:36:13,975 --> 00:36:17,445 [Silence] 831 00:36:21,481 --> 00:36:22,347 I think I'm just gonna, like... Uhh... 832 00:36:22,349 --> 00:36:24,151 I'm gonna go back home. 833 00:36:24,786 --> 00:36:27,419 You finish the film, and yeah, I'll see you later. 834 00:36:27,421 --> 00:36:32,192 [Crunching footsteps] 835 00:36:43,705 --> 00:36:45,871 Okay, I'm... 836 00:36:45,873 --> 00:36:47,873 I'm gonna be right back. Just keep, keep it rolling. 837 00:36:47,875 --> 00:36:49,811 [Sighs] 838 00:36:51,411 --> 00:36:53,445 - No, we can't... - I'm good. 839 00:36:53,447 --> 00:36:55,480 [Crew murmurs uneasily] 840 00:36:55,482 --> 00:36:57,752 - Okay... - Especially when the fucking... 841 00:36:58,452 --> 00:37:00,619 The sexual tension is dripping. 842 00:37:00,621 --> 00:37:01,687 Bobby. 843 00:37:01,689 --> 00:37:02,588 Just the regular attention. 844 00:37:02,590 --> 00:37:03,622 His regular attention. 845 00:37:03,624 --> 00:37:05,192 Hey. 846 00:37:05,492 --> 00:37:07,093 [Footsteps crunch] 847 00:37:07,095 --> 00:37:09,363 Just, Dustin, stop. 848 00:37:09,997 --> 00:37:12,165 You wanted to talk. Let's talk. 849 00:37:13,266 --> 00:37:15,903 Just try to see what I'm doing here. 850 00:37:16,236 --> 00:37:17,772 Yeah. 851 00:37:17,839 --> 00:37:19,004 Look, why... why are... 852 00:37:19,006 --> 00:37:21,576 Why are you taking this all so fucking seriously? 853 00:37:22,176 --> 00:37:23,642 What do you mean why I'm taking it... 854 00:37:23,644 --> 00:37:25,044 Why aren't you taking it seriously? 855 00:37:25,046 --> 00:37:27,046 I'm trying to be... 856 00:37:27,048 --> 00:37:29,247 I'm trying to do this with my fucking life. 857 00:37:29,249 --> 00:37:30,983 This is me. 858 00:37:30,985 --> 00:37:33,986 Yeah, look, I'm trying to be here with you, okay? 859 00:37:33,988 --> 00:37:35,955 And you don't even fucking, like, see me. 860 00:37:35,957 --> 00:37:37,656 I think you should be up here for me. 861 00:37:37,658 --> 00:37:39,825 Yeah, I am up here for you. 862 00:37:39,827 --> 00:37:41,160 Okay, well, you're not really helping me out 863 00:37:41,162 --> 00:37:42,460 on a day like today, okay? 864 00:37:42,462 --> 00:37:43,929 Because you make me feel like shit 865 00:37:43,931 --> 00:37:46,166 in front of, like, your... Your... your crew! 866 00:37:46,601 --> 00:37:48,803 Okay, well, I'm kind of dealing with a lot. 867 00:37:49,237 --> 00:37:51,269 Like, Dina's not fucking screaming. 868 00:37:51,271 --> 00:37:52,638 The crew won't fucking listen to me 869 00:37:52,640 --> 00:37:53,572 because we're all fucking stoned. 870 00:37:53,574 --> 00:37:55,641 You came in me yesterday 871 00:37:55,643 --> 00:37:57,375 and I have to find a distinct minute 872 00:37:57,377 --> 00:37:59,011 to take the fucking morning after pill 873 00:37:59,013 --> 00:38:00,012 so I don't puke everywhere. 874 00:38:00,014 --> 00:38:01,582 Sorry, I said I was sorry. 875 00:38:02,150 --> 00:38:03,983 You just don't fucking get it. 876 00:38:03,985 --> 00:38:05,820 Like, you are amazing. 877 00:38:06,319 --> 00:38:08,120 Like, you're trying so fucking hard 878 00:38:08,122 --> 00:38:09,722 to, like, make this fucking art, 879 00:38:09,724 --> 00:38:11,657 but you're like... You're... 880 00:38:11,659 --> 00:38:13,528 You don't even understand how fucking amazing you are. 881 00:38:14,762 --> 00:38:15,728 You're... yeah. 882 00:38:15,730 --> 00:38:17,930 You're so much better than me, okay? 883 00:38:17,932 --> 00:38:18,864 What? 884 00:38:18,866 --> 00:38:20,400 Yeah, like... 885 00:38:21,803 --> 00:38:23,702 You could do anything you wanted, okay? 886 00:38:23,704 --> 00:38:27,340 You're capable of... Of, like, everything. 887 00:38:28,441 --> 00:38:29,809 Like what? 888 00:38:29,811 --> 00:38:30,876 Like, like, I don't know, like... 889 00:38:30,878 --> 00:38:32,480 You... you... 890 00:38:33,413 --> 00:38:35,717 You're capable of having, like, a baby. 891 00:38:38,252 --> 00:38:39,821 Like... 892 00:38:45,526 --> 00:38:47,327 Like, you're awesome. 893 00:38:47,427 --> 00:38:50,898 [Crickets] 894 00:38:53,267 --> 00:38:54,936 I love you. 895 00:38:58,105 --> 00:39:00,541 And I want to be here for you. 896 00:39:06,147 --> 00:39:08,950 I just want you to, like, want me with you. 897 00:39:12,086 --> 00:39:13,554 You know? 898 00:39:14,454 --> 00:39:17,992 [Sobs] 899 00:39:19,193 --> 00:39:21,462 I don't want to have a baby. 900 00:39:23,363 --> 00:39:24,864 I don't want to have a baby. 901 00:39:24,866 --> 00:39:26,265 Yeah, I didn't... That's not... 902 00:39:26,267 --> 00:39:27,969 I didn't mean, like, right now. 903 00:39:29,203 --> 00:39:31,038 [Heavy footsteps] 904 00:39:32,139 --> 00:39:33,407 Vita, where are you going? 905 00:39:34,108 --> 00:39:37,545 [Ominous music] 906 00:39:38,746 --> 00:39:43,916 [Vita] Did you know that after an egg is released 907 00:39:43,918 --> 00:39:47,387 from the ovary, it is viable for up to 24 hours? 908 00:39:48,990 --> 00:39:52,894 And the morning after pill can work for 72. 909 00:39:55,596 --> 00:40:00,535 Unless the sperm and the egg collide first. 910 00:40:02,136 --> 00:40:04,038 I didn't know that then. 911 00:40:06,107 --> 00:40:08,476 I was an idiot. 912 00:40:09,977 --> 00:40:12,878 And convinced that I was the only one 913 00:40:12,880 --> 00:40:14,847 taking the film seriously. 914 00:40:14,849 --> 00:40:17,149 [Laughter] 915 00:40:17,151 --> 00:40:22,389 [Eerie music] 916 00:40:32,967 --> 00:40:38,639 So, let's do one more scream before we roll. 917 00:40:39,307 --> 00:40:40,908 When you're ready. 918 00:40:43,443 --> 00:40:46,914 [Screams] 919 00:40:50,885 --> 00:40:54,354 [Crickets] 920 00:41:07,635 --> 00:41:16,110 [Screams] 921 00:41:17,111 --> 00:41:19,111 [Coughs] 922 00:41:19,113 --> 00:41:23,851 [Gagging] 923 00:41:30,057 --> 00:41:36,396 [Sing screams] 924 00:41:39,066 --> 00:41:42,470 [Sing screams] 925 00:41:42,670 --> 00:41:46,140 [Screams] 926 00:41:48,175 --> 00:41:50,442 [Screams] 927 00:41:50,444 --> 00:41:53,781 [Combined screams] 928 00:41:55,182 --> 00:41:58,250 [Vita] After the egg was released from my ovaries, 929 00:41:58,252 --> 00:42:00,452 but before I took the morning after pill, 930 00:42:00,454 --> 00:42:01,954 we filmed this scene 931 00:42:01,956 --> 00:42:03,555 where the main character screams. 932 00:42:03,557 --> 00:42:07,028 [Screams] 933 00:42:07,895 --> 00:42:09,661 It was meant to represent 934 00:42:09,663 --> 00:42:11,530 the moment that she became pregnant. 935 00:42:11,532 --> 00:42:14,735 [Screams] 936 00:42:16,937 --> 00:42:19,540 It was at this moment inside of me 937 00:42:21,876 --> 00:42:23,709 that the sperm and the egg collided too. 938 00:42:23,711 --> 00:42:25,344 [Hisses in pain] 939 00:42:25,346 --> 00:42:28,816 [Screams] 940 00:42:29,750 --> 00:42:33,087 [Recorded scream] 941 00:42:34,021 --> 00:42:37,756 So, the film was about a young woman 942 00:42:37,758 --> 00:42:40,695 [Silence] 943 00:42:41,195 --> 00:42:43,965 Who was taking care of her ailing father. 944 00:42:44,865 --> 00:42:46,899 She gets pregnant 945 00:42:46,901 --> 00:42:50,035 and decides to escape her hometown in search 946 00:42:50,037 --> 00:42:52,006 of her mother who abandoned her at birth. 947 00:42:52,541 --> 00:42:54,673 This is a true story. 948 00:42:54,675 --> 00:42:58,212 This is a true story except. 949 00:42:59,313 --> 00:43:05,317 I have two moms, and I had two abortions. 950 00:43:05,319 --> 00:43:06,887 [Door squeaks] 951 00:43:14,495 --> 00:43:16,530 [Keyboard tapping] 952 00:43:17,532 --> 00:43:20,868 [Inhales shakily] 953 00:43:22,837 --> 00:43:25,506 [Keyboard tapping] 954 00:43:32,581 --> 00:43:35,616 [Keyboard tapping] 955 00:43:43,457 --> 00:43:45,292 [Keyboard tapping] 956 00:43:55,604 --> 00:43:57,004 [Mouse clicks] 957 00:44:01,642 --> 00:44:03,308 [Sighs] 958 00:44:03,310 --> 00:44:04,743 [Hisses] 959 00:44:04,745 --> 00:44:08,215 [Leg taps] 960 00:44:08,349 --> 00:44:09,984 [Sniffs] 961 00:44:12,153 --> 00:44:17,258 [Deep breaths] 962 00:44:20,694 --> 00:44:21,628 [Claps] 963 00:44:21,630 --> 00:44:24,897 [Deep breaths] 964 00:44:24,899 --> 00:44:26,834 [Screams silently] 965 00:44:29,770 --> 00:44:31,338 [Sighs] 966 00:44:33,741 --> 00:44:36,308 [Beeps] 967 00:44:36,310 --> 00:44:37,843 [Clicks] 968 00:44:37,845 --> 00:44:40,547 Hi, I'm vita and I'm the writer-director 969 00:44:40,549 --> 00:44:43,650 of the feature-length film always, all ways. 970 00:44:43,652 --> 00:44:44,917 Here I am in my childhood bedroom, 971 00:44:44,919 --> 00:44:47,186 aka my editing suite. 972 00:44:47,188 --> 00:44:49,054 I moved back home a few weeks ago 973 00:44:49,056 --> 00:44:50,756 to complete the first of three shoots 974 00:44:50,758 --> 00:44:52,958 over the course of nine months. 975 00:44:52,960 --> 00:44:56,261 I've been reviewing the footage and it looks amazing. 976 00:44:56,263 --> 00:44:58,297 We've decided to start this crowd funding campaign 977 00:44:58,299 --> 00:45:00,199 with amazing rewards for people who donate 978 00:45:00,201 --> 00:45:02,367 to finance the next two shoots, 979 00:45:02,369 --> 00:45:06,104 which will cost approximately $18,000. 980 00:45:06,106 --> 00:45:08,373 I want to get as many people involved in this vision 981 00:45:08,375 --> 00:45:10,943 as possible because your mark on my film 982 00:45:10,945 --> 00:45:12,947 is what I'm looking for. 983 00:45:15,382 --> 00:45:16,381 [Assistant director] Houston, cut. 984 00:45:16,383 --> 00:45:17,416 [Production assistants] Houston, cut. 985 00:45:17,418 --> 00:45:17,416 [Production assistants] Houston, cut. 986 00:45:17,418 --> 00:45:18,784 [Whoops] 987 00:45:18,786 --> 00:45:19,818 Tail, slating! 988 00:45:19,820 --> 00:45:22,020 [Somber guitar] 989 00:45:22,022 --> 00:45:23,190 [Cinematographer] Bring it. 990 00:45:25,359 --> 00:45:26,792 [Vita] You want me to cut this, z? 991 00:45:26,794 --> 00:45:28,095 [Zia] cut it. 992 00:45:29,830 --> 00:45:29,861 - [Camera assistant 1] Mark. - [Camera assistant 2] Mark. 993 00:45:29,863 --> 00:45:31,230 [Slate clacks] 994 00:45:31,232 --> 00:45:32,764 Cut. 995 00:45:32,766 --> 00:45:36,103 [Music continues] 996 00:45:49,883 --> 00:45:50,782 [Knocking] 997 00:45:50,784 --> 00:45:51,551 Guess what? 998 00:45:51,553 --> 00:45:52,720 What? 999 00:45:52,820 --> 00:45:56,023 The film is officially listed! 1000 00:45:57,191 --> 00:45:58,423 No turning back now, dude. 1001 00:45:58,425 --> 00:45:59,994 [Laughs] 1002 00:46:00,227 --> 00:46:01,694 No way. 1003 00:46:01,696 --> 00:46:03,328 Whoa, we did it! 1004 00:46:03,330 --> 00:46:04,463 [Laughs awkwardly] 1005 00:46:04,465 --> 00:46:06,000 Cool! 1006 00:46:06,433 --> 00:46:07,466 Oh my god! 1007 00:46:07,468 --> 00:46:09,368 [Puking] 1008 00:46:09,370 --> 00:46:11,970 [Rain] 1009 00:46:11,972 --> 00:46:13,640 [Gagging] 1010 00:46:13,642 --> 00:46:15,541 Okay and then we... 1011 00:46:15,543 --> 00:46:17,175 Take some time to recover 1012 00:46:17,177 --> 00:46:19,746 and take, you know, just take some deep breaths. 1013 00:46:19,748 --> 00:46:21,179 [Exhales] 1014 00:46:21,181 --> 00:46:23,750 And you crawl over to the worm. 1015 00:46:23,752 --> 00:46:25,319 - Okay, crawl over... - See it? 1016 00:46:25,687 --> 00:46:27,321 You pick it up and hold it. 1017 00:46:28,255 --> 00:46:30,291 You know, deal with it, feel it. 1018 00:46:31,191 --> 00:46:32,960 You know, take it in. 1019 00:46:33,961 --> 00:46:34,493 Her nets are going to rip... 1020 00:46:34,495 --> 00:46:35,930 Shh, quiet. 1021 00:46:40,702 --> 00:46:42,036 [Sam] what's the point of the worm again? 1022 00:46:43,170 --> 00:46:44,338 [Bobby] I don't know. 1023 00:46:45,272 --> 00:46:46,872 I think it's about her being pregnant or something. 1024 00:46:46,874 --> 00:46:48,742 [Playful drums] 1025 00:46:49,209 --> 00:46:51,812 The film was filled with thin motifs, 1026 00:46:52,112 --> 00:46:54,416 like earthworms, 1027 00:46:55,316 --> 00:46:58,352 and a bunch of other asso-teric images. 1028 00:47:01,155 --> 00:47:03,224 I didn't give a shit about the audience. 1029 00:47:05,660 --> 00:47:08,226 I liked the earthworms because I had read 1030 00:47:08,228 --> 00:47:10,898 that they hold both sexes inside them. 1031 00:47:13,133 --> 00:47:15,269 They are beholden to no one. 1032 00:47:16,437 --> 00:47:18,103 Wait, bobby, did you move the light? 1033 00:47:18,105 --> 00:47:20,205 I told him to do that 1034 00:47:20,207 --> 00:47:21,541 because it's just, it's a really shitty bathroom. 1035 00:47:21,543 --> 00:47:23,241 I'm sorry, I'm confused. 1036 00:47:23,243 --> 00:47:24,610 Raise your hand if you like the light. 1037 00:47:24,612 --> 00:47:25,879 I just think it looks better. 1038 00:47:26,013 --> 00:47:27,482 Yeah, I would listen to that. 1039 00:47:28,516 --> 00:47:29,314 Um, vita? 1040 00:47:29,316 --> 00:47:29,981 Yeah. 1041 00:47:29,983 --> 00:47:31,419 What should we do next? 1042 00:47:32,286 --> 00:47:33,285 I don't know, just fucking go with it. 1043 00:47:33,287 --> 00:47:34,822 Okay? 1044 00:47:36,290 --> 00:47:38,223 [Vita] actually, the more telling pattern that 1045 00:47:38,225 --> 00:47:40,892 haunted the set was that of near death. 1046 00:47:40,894 --> 00:47:44,231 [Music continues] 1047 00:47:44,733 --> 00:47:46,098 First there was the plane. 1048 00:47:46,100 --> 00:47:49,537 [Plane rumbles] 1049 00:47:49,571 --> 00:47:50,302 Then... 1050 00:47:50,304 --> 00:47:51,002 [Car screeches and crashes] 1051 00:47:51,004 --> 00:47:52,373 The deer. 1052 00:47:53,907 --> 00:47:54,973 The lightning. 1053 00:47:54,975 --> 00:47:57,744 [Thunder crack] 1054 00:47:57,746 --> 00:47:59,378 The goblin weed. 1055 00:47:59,380 --> 00:47:59,812 [Lighter flicks] 1056 00:47:59,814 --> 00:48:01,382 [Coughs] 1057 00:48:02,015 --> 00:48:03,516 The drama on the pier. 1058 00:48:03,518 --> 00:48:04,550 [Music ends] 1059 00:48:04,552 --> 00:48:05,786 - [Wind] - [Screams] 1060 00:48:07,921 --> 00:48:10,124 And then there was 1061 00:48:12,861 --> 00:48:14,359 the night. 1062 00:48:14,361 --> 00:48:15,929 [Sighs] 1063 00:48:17,532 --> 00:48:20,801 [Vita and cash murmur] 1064 00:48:21,068 --> 00:48:22,870 With cash. 1065 00:48:23,705 --> 00:48:24,871 And the whiskey. 1066 00:48:24,873 --> 00:48:27,874 [Eerie music] 1067 00:48:27,876 --> 00:48:29,975 You can dance tonight if you want. 1068 00:48:29,977 --> 00:48:31,211 Yeah, whatever you want, darlin'. 1069 00:48:32,312 --> 00:48:32,978 Is that the best mask you could get for me? 1070 00:48:32,980 --> 00:48:34,647 It is, it is. 1071 00:48:34,649 --> 00:48:36,081 They didn't have much of a collection, I guess. 1072 00:48:36,083 --> 00:48:37,015 Mustache falling off and everything? 1073 00:48:37,017 --> 00:48:37,884 [Laughter] 1074 00:48:37,886 --> 00:48:40,555 [Crew murmurs] 1075 00:48:41,455 --> 00:48:42,954 Uh, keep doing what you're doing. 1076 00:48:42,956 --> 00:48:44,122 Wait for me to cue. 1077 00:48:44,124 --> 00:48:45,490 - [Scuffle] - [Crew murmurs] 1078 00:48:45,492 --> 00:48:47,027 Get rowdy. 1079 00:48:49,798 --> 00:48:50,863 - Okay. - Woo! 1080 00:48:50,865 --> 00:48:51,963 Hey guys, listen up! 1081 00:48:51,965 --> 00:48:52,931 Action! 1082 00:48:52,933 --> 00:48:56,370 [Pensive music] 1083 00:48:56,738 --> 00:48:58,305 Darlin'. 1084 00:48:59,373 --> 00:49:00,272 Darlin'. 1085 00:49:00,274 --> 00:49:01,842 Darlin'. 1086 00:49:02,009 --> 00:49:03,241 How's it going? 1087 00:49:03,243 --> 00:49:04,075 Did you hear the news? 1088 00:49:04,077 --> 00:49:05,310 Did she tell you? 1089 00:49:05,312 --> 00:49:07,415 You didn't tell her? 1090 00:49:10,417 --> 00:49:12,286 Baby, we're having a baby. 1091 00:49:13,555 --> 00:49:14,953 [Sighs] 1092 00:49:14,955 --> 00:49:16,957 [Gulps] 1093 00:49:17,491 --> 00:49:19,157 Baby, we're having a baby. 1094 00:49:19,159 --> 00:49:20,462 Having a baby? 1095 00:49:20,929 --> 00:49:22,564 This is great, cash. Keep going. 1096 00:49:23,297 --> 00:49:24,530 Can I get another? 1097 00:49:24,532 --> 00:49:26,899 [Pensive music] 1098 00:49:26,901 --> 00:49:28,902 Yeah, let's pause. 1099 00:49:29,336 --> 00:49:31,406 You want to get him a beer and a shot? Sam? 1100 00:49:32,072 --> 00:49:33,408 Come on, brother. 1101 00:49:33,608 --> 00:49:36,276 [Crew murmurs] 1102 00:49:41,883 --> 00:49:43,683 Why did you give him more to drink? 1103 00:49:43,685 --> 00:49:45,484 - Are you joking? - I didn't give him anything! 1104 00:49:45,486 --> 00:49:47,152 He's already drunk, how the fuck is this on me? 1105 00:49:47,154 --> 00:49:47,820 [Vita] Guys, guys, guys. 1106 00:49:47,822 --> 00:49:48,487 Hey! 1107 00:49:48,489 --> 00:49:50,558 [Crew argues] 1108 00:49:51,191 --> 00:49:52,190 What is the problem? 1109 00:49:52,192 --> 00:49:53,492 It's fine. 1110 00:49:53,494 --> 00:49:55,060 I know these guys. It's fine. 1111 00:49:55,062 --> 00:49:55,862 We're good. 1112 00:49:55,864 --> 00:49:57,632 Just having fun. 1113 00:49:58,031 --> 00:49:58,997 It's going to be okay. 1114 00:49:58,999 --> 00:50:00,666 Just calm down. 1115 00:50:00,668 --> 00:50:01,466 It's okay. 1116 00:50:01,468 --> 00:50:03,101 [Footsteps] 1117 00:50:03,103 --> 00:50:04,770 The prosthetic belly is... 1118 00:50:04,772 --> 00:50:06,104 Whatever this decision is, can you just make yourself? 1119 00:50:06,106 --> 00:50:07,908 Okay. 1120 00:50:08,710 --> 00:50:09,675 Action! 1121 00:50:09,677 --> 00:50:10,510 Fuck! 1122 00:50:10,512 --> 00:50:11,844 I know. 1123 00:50:11,846 --> 00:50:13,280 Don't stop. 1124 00:50:14,381 --> 00:50:15,146 [Groans] 1125 00:50:15,148 --> 00:50:16,584 Motherfucker. 1126 00:50:18,452 --> 00:50:20,154 God damn it. Where was I? 1127 00:50:21,054 --> 00:50:22,087 Baby. 1128 00:50:22,089 --> 00:50:23,488 Baby? 1129 00:50:23,490 --> 00:50:24,557 Baby. 1130 00:50:24,559 --> 00:50:26,393 We're having a motherfucking baby. 1131 00:50:26,761 --> 00:50:28,360 We're having a fucking baby. 1132 00:50:28,362 --> 00:50:29,562 It's going to be a little fucking girl. 1133 00:50:29,564 --> 00:50:31,165 We're having a fucking baby girl. 1134 00:50:31,533 --> 00:50:32,130 Get in here, motherfuckers. 1135 00:50:32,132 --> 00:50:33,265 [Whoops] 1136 00:50:33,267 --> 00:50:35,835 The prodigal son returns! 1137 00:50:35,837 --> 00:50:37,035 Go, go, go! 1138 00:50:37,037 --> 00:50:39,106 [Yelling] 1139 00:50:41,408 --> 00:50:41,974 [Thuds] 1140 00:50:41,976 --> 00:50:44,209 What's going on? 1141 00:50:44,211 --> 00:50:45,511 We're having a fucking baby. 1142 00:50:45,513 --> 00:50:46,679 What? 1143 00:50:46,681 --> 00:50:48,716 We're having a fucking baby girl. 1144 00:50:49,817 --> 00:50:51,017 We're having a fucking baby. 1145 00:50:51,019 --> 00:50:52,752 We're having a baby. 1146 00:50:52,754 --> 00:50:54,185 We're havin' a fuckin' baby guys. 1147 00:50:54,187 --> 00:50:55,621 We're havin' a fuckin' baby! 1148 00:50:55,623 --> 00:50:56,923 [Men chatter] 1149 00:50:56,925 --> 00:50:58,423 We're havin' a fuckin' baby! 1150 00:50:58,425 --> 00:51:00,495 We're havin' a baby! 1151 00:51:01,796 --> 00:51:03,395 We're havin' a baby... 1152 00:51:03,397 --> 00:51:05,433 We're havin' a baby! 1153 00:51:06,000 --> 00:51:07,502 Fuckin' baby... 1154 00:51:08,002 --> 00:51:10,937 [Laughter] 1155 00:51:10,939 --> 00:51:12,672 [Vita] I remember thinking I was brilliant. 1156 00:51:12,674 --> 00:51:15,477 [Distant murmurs] 1157 00:51:19,212 --> 00:51:20,312 [Sam] So that's everything except those lights upstairs, right? 1158 00:51:20,314 --> 00:51:21,747 Okay. 1159 00:51:21,749 --> 00:51:22,515 Alright. Yeah. 1160 00:51:22,517 --> 00:51:23,583 You can give him a little time. 1161 00:51:23,585 --> 00:51:24,182 You can come up there. 1162 00:51:24,184 --> 00:51:24,884 Alright. 1163 00:51:24,886 --> 00:51:26,220 Thanks man. 1164 00:51:26,988 --> 00:51:29,454 Hey, um, dinner's almost ready 1165 00:51:29,456 --> 00:51:30,255 and I got some more beers for the guys. 1166 00:51:30,257 --> 00:51:31,222 Great. 1167 00:51:31,224 --> 00:51:31,958 And maybe us. 1168 00:51:31,960 --> 00:51:32,825 Yeah, and us. 1169 00:51:32,827 --> 00:51:33,593 For sure us. 1170 00:51:33,595 --> 00:51:35,260 Don't let them steal a bottle. 1171 00:51:35,262 --> 00:51:37,063 ♪ We're having a baby! ♪ 1172 00:51:37,065 --> 00:51:39,230 ♪ We're having a baby! ♪ 1173 00:51:39,232 --> 00:51:41,399 ♪ We're having a baby! ♪ 1174 00:51:41,401 --> 00:51:43,903 ♪ We're having a baby! ♪ 1175 00:51:43,905 --> 00:51:45,905 ♪ We're having a baby! ♪ 1176 00:51:45,907 --> 00:51:49,176 [Men continue singing] 1177 00:51:49,309 --> 00:51:50,745 Congratulations. 1178 00:51:50,979 --> 00:51:54,114 [Song fades into eerie music] 1179 00:51:54,716 --> 00:51:58,185 [Laughter] 1180 00:51:58,418 --> 00:52:00,153 [Car door clicks] 1181 00:52:01,923 --> 00:52:03,558 [Car door slams] 1182 00:52:05,893 --> 00:52:08,095 [Car revs to life] 1183 00:52:12,000 --> 00:52:14,301 But I knew I called out to him. 1184 00:52:17,137 --> 00:52:18,706 Where are you going? 1185 00:52:20,008 --> 00:52:21,040 Hey! 1186 00:52:21,042 --> 00:52:22,074 Hey, hey, hey! 1187 00:52:22,076 --> 00:52:23,009 Wait! Where are you going? 1188 00:52:23,011 --> 00:52:24,546 Stop! 1189 00:52:26,146 --> 00:52:27,682 Cash! 1190 00:52:28,382 --> 00:52:29,280 Stop! Don't drive! 1191 00:52:29,282 --> 00:52:30,248 Come back! 1192 00:52:30,250 --> 00:52:33,385 [Car roars away] 1193 00:52:33,387 --> 00:52:36,691 [Eerie music continues] 1194 00:52:45,633 --> 00:52:47,033 Or maybe I didn't call out at all. 1195 00:52:47,035 --> 00:52:49,737 [Car rumbles] 1196 00:52:57,912 --> 00:53:00,113 I don't remember anything after that. 1197 00:53:01,883 --> 00:53:04,652 [Car revs] 1198 00:53:05,053 --> 00:53:06,519 Except the beans 1199 00:53:06,521 --> 00:53:08,921 [Muffled pop music] 1200 00:53:08,923 --> 00:53:10,324 And the music. 1201 00:53:13,961 --> 00:53:15,828 [Sighs] 1202 00:53:15,830 --> 00:53:18,864 [Distant cheering] 1203 00:53:18,866 --> 00:53:22,101 [Electronic dance music] 1204 00:53:22,103 --> 00:53:24,271 We were all so hungry. 1205 00:53:24,706 --> 00:53:27,875 ["Heartbeats" by The Knife] 1206 00:53:31,546 --> 00:53:34,345 ♪ One night of magic rush ♪ 1207 00:53:34,347 --> 00:53:37,083 ♪ The start, a simple touch ♪ 1208 00:53:37,085 --> 00:53:39,721 ♪ One night to push and scream ♪ 1209 00:53:40,253 --> 00:53:42,588 ♪ And then relief ♪ 1210 00:53:42,590 --> 00:53:45,223 ♪ Ten days of perfect tunes ♪ 1211 00:53:45,225 --> 00:53:47,693 ♪ The colors red and blue ♪ 1212 00:53:47,695 --> 00:53:51,331 ♪ We had a promise made ♪ 1213 00:53:51,364 --> 00:53:53,733 ♪ We were in love ♪ 1214 00:53:53,735 --> 00:53:56,569 ♪ To call for hands of above ♪ 1215 00:53:56,571 --> 00:53:59,404 ♪ To lean on ♪ 1216 00:53:59,406 --> 00:54:04,342 ♪ Wouldn't be good enough for me, oh ♪ 1217 00:54:04,344 --> 00:54:07,046 ♪ To call for hands of above ♪ 1218 00:54:07,048 --> 00:54:10,485 [Panting] 1219 00:54:22,196 --> 00:54:25,633 [River rushing] 1220 00:54:47,387 --> 00:54:49,524 [Phone vibrates] 1221 00:54:50,091 --> 00:54:52,225 [Phone vibrates] 1222 00:54:54,128 --> 00:54:55,663 Hello? 1223 00:55:01,602 --> 00:55:04,672 19.5 miles outside of town. 1224 00:55:06,641 --> 00:55:08,274 They found cash's truck 1225 00:55:08,276 --> 00:55:10,242 wrapped around a telephone pole. 1226 00:55:10,244 --> 00:55:13,548 [Waterfall rushing] 1227 00:55:19,153 --> 00:55:22,623 And the only person I told was Sam. 1228 00:55:24,592 --> 00:55:26,259 [Dina] Maybe we should just wait for cash. 1229 00:55:27,327 --> 00:55:28,863 Yeah. 1230 00:55:30,131 --> 00:55:32,299 But I think JJ can pass. 1231 00:55:35,736 --> 00:55:38,103 I mean, with the jacket and boots, it's probably fine. 1232 00:55:38,105 --> 00:55:39,474 I think it's fine. 1233 00:55:40,373 --> 00:55:41,941 [Scissors snip] 1234 00:55:41,943 --> 00:55:45,278 [Distant traffic] 1235 00:55:52,920 --> 00:55:54,722 [Fabric rustles] 1236 00:55:55,122 --> 00:55:55,990 [Alexis] Yeah. 1237 00:55:56,724 --> 00:55:57,656 [Sound guy] I mean, I'm kind of tired, 1238 00:55:57,658 --> 00:55:59,124 so I don't want to hold it up. 1239 00:55:59,126 --> 00:56:00,259 [Alexis] Yeah, I mean, I think we'll do a couple. 1240 00:56:00,261 --> 00:56:01,627 And so... 1241 00:56:01,629 --> 00:56:03,030 [Boom thunks] 1242 00:56:04,364 --> 00:56:06,033 About how high or how low? 1243 00:56:06,567 --> 00:56:07,835 - Okay... - Can you breathe in there? 1244 00:56:08,803 --> 00:56:10,468 [Sighs] 1245 00:56:10,470 --> 00:56:11,237 Well, the only way to do the scene 1246 00:56:11,239 --> 00:56:12,740 is with the mask on. 1247 00:56:12,940 --> 00:56:13,438 [Boom thunks] 1248 00:56:13,440 --> 00:56:15,743 [Silence] 1249 00:56:21,716 --> 00:56:23,451 Can you put your arm over her shoulder? 1250 00:56:26,220 --> 00:56:27,889 Oh, come on, JJ. Like this. 1251 00:56:28,022 --> 00:56:28,486 Like you mean it. 1252 00:56:28,488 --> 00:56:29,622 [Sighs] 1253 00:56:29,624 --> 00:56:31,559 Hang on her, JJ. 1254 00:56:31,592 --> 00:56:33,192 Cover her almost. 1255 00:56:33,194 --> 00:56:34,526 [Boom thunks] 1256 00:56:34,528 --> 00:56:35,728 Man, can you fucking just... 1257 00:56:35,730 --> 00:56:37,364 What is going on? 1258 00:56:38,498 --> 00:56:40,599 What is going on? Why are you... 1259 00:56:40,601 --> 00:56:41,934 Can we just be a little bit professional? 1260 00:56:41,936 --> 00:56:43,369 This is really annoying for me 1261 00:56:43,371 --> 00:56:46,105 to have to stop my conversation, 1262 00:56:46,107 --> 00:56:47,840 to be having this conversation with you. 1263 00:56:47,842 --> 00:56:50,042 It's really annoying when you touch the boom. 1264 00:56:50,044 --> 00:56:51,476 - I didn't touch... - You touched me with a boom. 1265 00:56:51,478 --> 00:56:52,645 You never touch the camera. 1266 00:56:52,647 --> 00:56:53,612 That's so fucking weird of you, man. 1267 00:56:53,614 --> 00:56:54,445 I'm not... 1268 00:56:54,447 --> 00:56:55,681 Be professional! It's like... 1269 00:56:55,683 --> 00:56:57,950 Have we forgotten how to do our job? 1270 00:56:57,952 --> 00:56:59,618 You touched me with the fucking boom. 1271 00:56:59,620 --> 00:57:01,320 - I didn't do shit. - Stop, stop, stop. 1272 00:57:01,322 --> 00:57:02,621 - Stop yelling at people. - I know we're fucking tired... 1273 00:57:02,623 --> 00:57:03,488 - Please vita. V! - But let's all be fucking 1274 00:57:03,490 --> 00:57:04,759 professional for a second. 1275 00:57:04,959 --> 00:57:06,727 We are all here for your movie. 1276 00:57:07,261 --> 00:57:09,463 It was an accident. He didn't mean to hit you. 1277 00:57:10,164 --> 00:57:10,461 It's stupid to be yelling... 1278 00:57:10,463 --> 00:57:11,597 [Puking] 1279 00:57:11,599 --> 00:57:13,067 You good? 1280 00:57:13,134 --> 00:57:15,036 [Puking] 1281 00:57:16,938 --> 00:57:18,539 [Groans] 1282 00:57:20,308 --> 00:57:23,711 [Eerie music] 1283 00:57:30,084 --> 00:57:31,786 [JJ] I think I drank too much last night. 1284 00:57:33,354 --> 00:57:36,691 [Music continues] 1285 00:57:44,398 --> 00:57:46,567 [Crew murmurs] 1286 00:57:47,101 --> 00:57:50,671 [Electronic music] 1287 00:58:00,982 --> 00:58:01,981 Hey, Sam. 1288 00:58:01,983 --> 00:58:03,618 [Hisses] 1289 00:58:05,219 --> 00:58:06,487 What are we doing now? 1290 00:58:09,657 --> 00:58:11,125 [JJ] Hi. 1291 00:58:13,627 --> 00:58:15,796 Sam told us what happened with cash. 1292 00:58:18,332 --> 00:58:18,998 Uh-huh. 1293 00:58:19,000 --> 00:58:19,901 Okay. 1294 00:58:19,967 --> 00:58:20,299 Yeah. 1295 00:58:20,301 --> 00:58:21,836 So... 1296 00:58:22,136 --> 00:58:23,771 Besides the equipment... 1297 00:58:24,672 --> 00:58:26,140 And us... 1298 00:58:28,209 --> 00:58:30,009 You can still shoot the rest of your movie. 1299 00:58:30,011 --> 00:58:32,980 [Silence] 1300 00:58:37,685 --> 00:58:41,088 [Somber music] 1301 00:58:51,232 --> 00:58:54,502 [Crunching footsteps] 1302 00:58:58,873 --> 00:59:00,708 [Vita] I remember thinking I was brilliant. 1303 00:59:01,342 --> 00:59:03,575 [Stumbling footsteps] 1304 00:59:03,577 --> 00:59:04,843 Come get this fucker! 1305 00:59:04,845 --> 00:59:06,580 I wanted them to be wasted. 1306 00:59:06,981 --> 00:59:09,517 [Laughter] 1307 00:59:09,750 --> 00:59:11,350 I wanted it to be real. 1308 00:59:11,352 --> 00:59:13,988 [Giggling] 1309 00:59:14,655 --> 00:59:15,621 And... 1310 00:59:15,623 --> 00:59:17,191 [Scoffs] 1311 00:59:17,658 --> 00:59:19,160 I guess in this moment... 1312 00:59:21,295 --> 00:59:23,729 Their performances were brilliant. 1313 00:59:23,731 --> 00:59:25,764 [Party murmurs] 1314 00:59:25,766 --> 00:59:27,868 Or at least realistic. 1315 00:59:28,903 --> 00:59:30,369 We're having a baby! 1316 00:59:30,371 --> 00:59:32,104 [Laughter] 1317 00:59:32,106 --> 00:59:32,938 Wasted. 1318 00:59:32,940 --> 00:59:36,243 [Somber music continues] 1319 00:59:38,547 --> 00:59:41,515 And even though he didn't die... 1320 00:59:42,049 --> 00:59:43,684 You're trying to get him over here. 1321 00:59:44,351 --> 00:59:47,088 No amount of real is worth someone's life. 1322 00:59:48,055 --> 00:59:49,623 Sam. 1323 00:59:50,257 --> 00:59:51,490 And then... 1324 00:59:51,492 --> 00:59:52,960 Yeah, look back at her. 1325 00:59:56,565 --> 00:59:59,500 - [Keyboard tapping] - [Music ends] 1326 01:00:11,145 --> 01:00:13,180 [Water splashes] 1327 01:00:14,448 --> 01:00:15,714 [Camera whirs] 1328 01:00:15,716 --> 01:00:17,151 You alright? 1329 01:00:20,589 --> 01:00:24,025 [Pensive music] 1330 01:00:26,894 --> 01:00:28,829 When I was in the sixth grade... 1331 01:00:29,463 --> 01:00:32,033 My dad told me he had HIV. 1332 01:00:35,736 --> 01:00:37,738 He'd had it my whole life. 1333 01:00:38,472 --> 01:00:39,539 And I didn't tell anyone. 1334 01:00:39,541 --> 01:00:42,107 [Footsteps] 1335 01:00:42,109 --> 01:00:43,442 Maybe because saying it out loud 1336 01:00:43,444 --> 01:00:44,812 would have made it true. 1337 01:00:45,012 --> 01:00:46,579 Or because... 1338 01:00:46,581 --> 01:00:48,716 [Rattling groan] 1339 01:00:50,217 --> 01:00:52,553 Every person I saw like him was a character in a movie. 1340 01:00:53,387 --> 01:00:55,189 How long was I asleep? 1341 01:00:55,890 --> 01:00:57,224 And they all died. 1342 01:00:57,526 --> 01:01:00,928 [Wind rustles] 1343 01:01:01,228 --> 01:01:02,563 Where is everyone? 1344 01:01:03,898 --> 01:01:07,032 [Gentle music] 1345 01:01:07,034 --> 01:01:08,302 I guess they're really gone. 1346 01:01:10,605 --> 01:01:12,039 [Box thuds] 1347 01:01:12,574 --> 01:01:14,675 But my dad didn't die. 1348 01:01:15,544 --> 01:01:17,678 And so I cast him in my film... 1349 01:01:19,013 --> 01:01:20,714 As the father of the main character. 1350 01:01:21,650 --> 01:01:23,117 We can film it on this. 1351 01:01:24,251 --> 01:01:25,653 What is that? 1352 01:01:25,686 --> 01:01:27,321 Your dad gave it to me. 1353 01:01:28,289 --> 01:01:29,589 I already got some pretty cool shots on it. 1354 01:01:29,591 --> 01:01:31,356 No, absolutely not. 1355 01:01:31,358 --> 01:01:32,760 This is the... 1356 01:01:33,127 --> 01:01:35,662 This is the most important scene 1357 01:01:35,664 --> 01:01:37,664 of the entire film. 1358 01:01:37,666 --> 01:01:39,498 She is saying goodbye to her dead dad 1359 01:01:39,500 --> 01:01:40,699 before she gets the fuck out of town. 1360 01:01:40,701 --> 01:01:41,833 And if we don't get it, 1361 01:01:41,835 --> 01:01:42,834 it's not gonna make fucking sense. 1362 01:01:42,836 --> 01:01:44,371 It's not gonna be good. 1363 01:01:45,105 --> 01:01:47,308 When did being good ever stop you? 1364 01:01:48,075 --> 01:01:49,643 [Groans] 1365 01:01:50,411 --> 01:01:52,213 Now come on, let's shoot this scene. 1366 01:01:55,482 --> 01:01:58,651 So all I did was lay in the grave for two hours 1367 01:01:58,653 --> 01:02:00,886 contemplating death for nothing? 1368 01:02:00,888 --> 01:02:02,354 This is so fucking stupid. 1369 01:02:02,356 --> 01:02:04,091 [Sniffs] 1370 01:02:07,696 --> 01:02:09,230 Hello? 1371 01:02:10,599 --> 01:02:12,199 [Sighs] 1372 01:02:13,635 --> 01:02:15,069 [Lighter flicks] 1373 01:02:16,270 --> 01:02:17,769 [Hums] 1374 01:02:17,771 --> 01:02:19,673 [Distant birds] 1375 01:02:20,508 --> 01:02:22,076 Is that a real grave? 1376 01:02:25,279 --> 01:02:26,680 You wanna hit? 1377 01:02:27,114 --> 01:02:28,649 Stop! 1378 01:02:29,116 --> 01:02:31,218 We share everything on this Hill. 1379 01:02:39,561 --> 01:02:39,958 [Lighter flicks] 1380 01:02:39,960 --> 01:02:41,695 When I was your age, 1381 01:02:42,363 --> 01:02:44,129 one of us just stood up on a park bench 1382 01:02:44,131 --> 01:02:46,333 and spun around and pointed north. 1383 01:02:46,967 --> 01:02:48,402 We had to get out of the city. 1384 01:02:49,336 --> 01:02:51,138 We didn't want to be with those people. 1385 01:02:51,405 --> 01:02:52,840 Live with them. 1386 01:02:53,073 --> 01:02:54,273 We certainly didn't want to be 1387 01:02:54,275 --> 01:02:56,143 buried near them either, huh? 1388 01:02:56,544 --> 01:02:58,679 Dad, she doesn't want to hear your story. 1389 01:02:58,946 --> 01:02:59,845 Did you hear something? 1390 01:02:59,847 --> 01:03:01,849 [Chuckles] 1391 01:03:02,149 --> 01:03:03,549 Are you sure you guys are related? 1392 01:03:03,551 --> 01:03:05,986 [Laughs] 1393 01:03:06,253 --> 01:03:07,654 I know. How could somebody so beautiful 1394 01:03:07,656 --> 01:03:09,356 have a father like me? 1395 01:03:10,725 --> 01:03:13,227 I'm sure. I'm sure. 1396 01:03:15,796 --> 01:03:17,965 She didn't tell you how her moms conceived her? 1397 01:03:17,998 --> 01:03:19,467 - Dad! - No. 1398 01:03:19,933 --> 01:03:22,069 Don't mind her. I'll tell you. 1399 01:03:23,937 --> 01:03:27,409 [Whispers] 1400 01:03:31,378 --> 01:03:34,479 [Laughter] 1401 01:03:34,481 --> 01:03:35,013 Really? 1402 01:03:35,015 --> 01:03:35,515 [Contemplative music] 1403 01:03:35,517 --> 01:03:35,782 Yup. 1404 01:03:35,784 --> 01:03:37,650 [Laughter] 1405 01:03:37,652 --> 01:03:40,185 [Dad] Imagine growing up your whole life, 1406 01:03:40,187 --> 01:03:42,189 "people telling you, "Make a movie! 1407 01:03:42,757 --> 01:03:45,694 You got a great fucking story!" 1408 01:03:48,462 --> 01:03:49,196 Shit. 1409 01:03:49,597 --> 01:03:52,064 That fucking great story is that 1410 01:03:52,066 --> 01:03:54,466 your moms are lesbians and your dad is gonna die. 1411 01:03:54,468 --> 01:03:55,936 [Chuckles] 1412 01:03:56,370 --> 01:03:58,170 Maybe you should make a film. 1413 01:03:58,172 --> 01:03:59,873 Believe me, I tried. 1414 01:04:01,108 --> 01:04:03,344 I bought that video camera for her birth. 1415 01:04:03,911 --> 01:04:05,413 I tried all that. 1416 01:04:05,680 --> 01:04:07,748 It was misunderstood. 1417 01:04:08,616 --> 01:04:09,984 So I just gave it up. 1418 01:04:10,918 --> 01:04:11,850 [Dina] well, that's a shame. 1419 01:04:11,852 --> 01:04:13,421 Nah. 1420 01:04:13,987 --> 01:04:16,388 It's a terrible world out there, girl. 1421 01:04:16,390 --> 01:04:20,995 But the strong women said to the faggots, 1422 01:04:21,462 --> 01:04:23,095 "There are two important things to remember 1423 01:04:23,097 --> 01:04:24,965 about the coming revolution. 1424 01:04:26,467 --> 01:04:29,136 The first is that we will get our asses kicked. 1425 01:04:29,870 --> 01:04:32,407 "The second is that we will win." 1426 01:04:34,475 --> 01:04:35,909 Did you write that? 1427 01:04:36,176 --> 01:04:38,413 No. A friend did. He's dead. 1428 01:04:41,949 --> 01:04:44,851 But it always reminded me of us up here on this Hill. 1429 01:04:44,853 --> 01:04:48,255 [Eerie music] 1430 01:04:49,858 --> 01:04:51,258 [Book rustles] 1431 01:04:53,795 --> 01:04:55,530 [Vita] So the film was about a young woman. 1432 01:04:59,333 --> 01:05:01,503 Who was taking care of her dying father. 1433 01:05:01,870 --> 01:05:03,304 [Water splashes] 1434 01:05:03,605 --> 01:05:05,239 She gets pregnant 1435 01:05:05,740 --> 01:05:06,873 and decides to leave home 1436 01:05:06,875 --> 01:05:08,275 in search of her mother, 1437 01:05:08,777 --> 01:05:10,008 who abandoned her at birth. 1438 01:05:10,010 --> 01:05:13,415 [Music builds] 1439 01:05:14,181 --> 01:05:16,216 This is a true story. 1440 01:05:17,418 --> 01:05:18,886 Except... 1441 01:05:19,554 --> 01:05:21,854 I have two moms. 1442 01:05:21,856 --> 01:05:23,991 I had two abortions. 1443 01:05:24,291 --> 01:05:28,226 And my dad survived. 1444 01:05:28,228 --> 01:05:30,763 Okay. So that's a wrap wrap. 1445 01:05:30,765 --> 01:05:32,431 Wrap! 1446 01:05:32,433 --> 01:05:34,534 I'll probably take a look at it and see if... 1447 01:05:34,536 --> 01:05:36,401 [Vita] And I think I made the main character 1448 01:05:36,403 --> 01:05:39,070 live this parallel life to mine 1449 01:05:39,072 --> 01:05:41,576 because I didn't know how to talk about these things. 1450 01:05:43,410 --> 01:05:45,143 Or I didn't trust the rules of cinema 1451 01:05:45,145 --> 01:05:46,846 to do them justice. 1452 01:05:46,848 --> 01:05:48,280 - Dancing is my life. - Good! 1453 01:05:48,282 --> 01:05:49,014 That was so awkward. 1454 01:05:49,016 --> 01:05:50,182 Or... 1455 01:05:50,184 --> 01:05:50,850 You get to dance again tomorrow. 1456 01:05:50,852 --> 01:05:52,384 I was afraid to. 1457 01:05:52,386 --> 01:05:55,888 [Static] 1458 01:05:55,890 --> 01:05:57,492 Still... 1459 01:05:58,492 --> 01:06:00,992 I wish I could show you something that is true. 1460 01:06:00,994 --> 01:06:04,331 [Music continues] 1461 01:06:10,471 --> 01:06:12,339 [Groans] 1462 01:06:18,145 --> 01:06:19,581 [Mouse clicks] 1463 01:06:50,477 --> 01:06:53,011 Did you know that most filmmakers spend 1464 01:06:53,013 --> 01:06:55,280 their entire lives 1465 01:06:55,282 --> 01:06:57,182 making some version of the same movie. 1466 01:06:57,184 --> 01:06:59,819 [Water laps] 1467 01:06:59,821 --> 01:07:00,620 And I wonder... 1468 01:07:00,622 --> 01:07:02,220 [Dance music] 1469 01:07:02,222 --> 01:07:06,594 Every time are they this alone? 1470 01:07:15,770 --> 01:07:19,539 [Deep breath] 1471 01:07:19,541 --> 01:07:20,974 [Baby coos] 1472 01:07:28,716 --> 01:07:30,983 Okay! Let's go see mama. 1473 01:07:30,985 --> 01:07:31,717 Boop! 1474 01:07:31,719 --> 01:07:35,557 [Laughs] 1475 01:07:36,323 --> 01:07:39,594 [Bumping party music] 1476 01:08:02,349 --> 01:08:05,653 [Music continues] 1477 01:08:11,659 --> 01:08:15,095 [Country music] 1478 01:08:30,410 --> 01:08:33,748 [Ominous rumbling] 1479 01:08:41,055 --> 01:08:44,492 [Droning] 1480 01:08:53,067 --> 01:08:56,504 [Droning fades] 1481 01:08:57,038 --> 01:08:58,540 You're so pretty. 1482 01:09:04,112 --> 01:09:05,613 What's your film about? 1483 01:09:15,023 --> 01:09:18,325 [Waterfall rushing] 1484 01:09:26,701 --> 01:09:27,365 [Silence] 1485 01:09:27,367 --> 01:09:30,137 [Whistles] 1486 01:09:42,016 --> 01:09:45,620 [Whistles] 1487 01:09:48,156 --> 01:09:51,793 [Whistles] 1488 01:09:53,326 --> 01:09:54,762 [Door thuds] 1489 01:09:56,064 --> 01:09:57,632 [Knocks] 1490 01:09:59,499 --> 01:10:01,134 [Dina] Hey! 1491 01:10:02,937 --> 01:10:04,606 Hey! 1492 01:10:06,808 --> 01:10:08,074 You're naked. 1493 01:10:08,076 --> 01:10:09,041 [Scoffs] 1494 01:10:09,043 --> 01:10:10,478 So are you. 1495 01:10:11,344 --> 01:10:13,280 Can we get the fuck out of here? 1496 01:10:15,717 --> 01:10:17,652 Wait, we can't take his truck. 1497 01:10:17,852 --> 01:10:19,286 Just get in. 1498 01:10:20,121 --> 01:10:21,456 Man, I should pee. 1499 01:10:22,857 --> 01:10:24,289 [Moans] 1500 01:10:24,291 --> 01:10:25,827 Yeah, me too. 1501 01:10:27,795 --> 01:10:29,363 [Sighs] 1502 01:10:29,630 --> 01:10:30,462 Oh god! 1503 01:10:30,464 --> 01:10:30,763 [Groans] [Door thuds] 1504 01:10:30,765 --> 01:10:31,897 [Laughs] 1505 01:10:31,899 --> 01:10:33,333 [Lighter flicks] 1506 01:10:34,068 --> 01:10:35,503 [Lighter thuds] 1507 01:10:35,903 --> 01:10:38,138 [Exhales] 1508 01:10:41,341 --> 01:10:43,210 I just decided, 1509 01:10:44,411 --> 01:10:46,447 I'm going to go away after we finish the film. 1510 01:10:47,115 --> 01:10:48,650 There's this school. 1511 01:10:49,083 --> 01:10:50,685 I could take some film classes. 1512 01:10:52,285 --> 01:10:55,322 And it's near my dad's so I can take care of him too. 1513 01:10:56,190 --> 01:10:58,693 And I need to stop smoking. 1514 01:10:59,961 --> 01:11:00,960 [Groans] 1515 01:11:00,962 --> 01:11:02,396 [Clicks tongue] 1516 01:11:03,330 --> 01:11:04,163 What? 1517 01:11:04,165 --> 01:11:06,266 [Exhales] 1518 01:11:06,601 --> 01:11:08,667 [Laughs] 1519 01:11:08,669 --> 01:11:10,672 I don't think we're gonna finish the film. 1520 01:11:10,738 --> 01:11:11,336 [Scoffs] 1521 01:11:11,338 --> 01:11:12,907 Shut up. 1522 01:11:16,144 --> 01:11:17,578 [Can thunks] 1523 01:11:21,582 --> 01:11:24,752 [Bouncy esoteric folk music] 1524 01:11:28,156 --> 01:11:28,921 Come on. 1525 01:11:28,923 --> 01:11:29,955 [Car creaks] 1526 01:11:29,957 --> 01:11:30,488 Come on. 1527 01:11:30,490 --> 01:11:31,893 Dance with me. 1528 01:11:33,928 --> 01:11:34,425 Come on. 1529 01:11:34,427 --> 01:11:35,326 [Exhales] 1530 01:11:35,328 --> 01:11:37,129 Come on. 1531 01:11:37,131 --> 01:11:38,499 [Car door rattles] 1532 01:11:44,639 --> 01:11:49,008 ♪ You were the rainbow ♪ 1533 01:11:49,010 --> 01:11:52,645 ♪ You were the wind ♪ 1534 01:11:52,647 --> 01:11:56,314 ♪ You were the perfume ♪ 1535 01:11:56,316 --> 01:11:59,821 ♪ You were even a friend ♪ 1536 01:12:00,521 --> 01:12:03,354 ♪ Everybody knows That paradise ♪ 1537 01:12:03,356 --> 01:12:05,224 ♪ Is blue ♪ 1538 01:12:05,226 --> 01:12:06,761 [Pats] 1539 01:12:06,994 --> 01:12:08,529 [Pats] 1540 01:12:20,241 --> 01:12:21,874 You don't need to tell me what happened, man. 1541 01:12:21,876 --> 01:12:23,343 I get it. 1542 01:12:23,711 --> 01:12:25,413 You know I got pregnant too. 1543 01:12:25,513 --> 01:12:26,848 While you were gone. 1544 01:12:27,181 --> 01:12:28,649 Fuck that. 1545 01:12:29,150 --> 01:12:30,481 Making this film has been... 1546 01:12:30,483 --> 01:12:32,854 Fucking freeing. 1547 01:12:33,187 --> 01:12:35,456 A real resolution for me. 1548 01:12:36,123 --> 01:12:39,460 [Music continues] 1549 01:12:47,335 --> 01:12:48,770 [Door squeaks] 1550 01:12:50,938 --> 01:12:53,772 [Horn blares] 1551 01:12:53,774 --> 01:12:55,576 [Laughs] 1552 01:12:55,943 --> 01:12:57,512 Come on. 1553 01:12:58,346 --> 01:12:59,245 - [Door thuds] - [Laughs] 1554 01:12:59,247 --> 01:13:01,013 [Music continues] 1555 01:13:01,015 --> 01:13:02,483 Fuck, come on! 1556 01:13:03,483 --> 01:13:04,350 - What are we doing? - Just come here. 1557 01:13:04,352 --> 01:13:05,887 Okay! 1558 01:13:07,355 --> 01:13:08,890 Ready? 1559 01:13:09,523 --> 01:13:10,992 And a one. 1560 01:13:11,458 --> 01:13:12,960 And a two. 1561 01:13:13,828 --> 01:13:14,960 Three! 1562 01:13:14,962 --> 01:13:17,031 [Splash] 1563 01:13:20,400 --> 01:13:21,233 [Sighs] 1564 01:13:21,235 --> 01:13:24,806 [Pants] 1565 01:13:25,606 --> 01:13:27,340 I mean tonight was fun but... 1566 01:13:27,842 --> 01:13:29,541 I want more than dudes who just want 1567 01:13:29,543 --> 01:13:31,913 to fuck us and have their babies. 1568 01:13:35,383 --> 01:13:36,782 We've got to finish making the film. 1569 01:13:36,784 --> 01:13:40,054 [Gentle music fades in] 1570 01:13:44,592 --> 01:13:46,794 [Vita] You were always next to me. 1571 01:13:50,031 --> 01:13:52,433 Falling in love with making something. 1572 01:13:53,301 --> 01:13:55,636 No matter how treacherous. 1573 01:13:55,903 --> 01:13:57,336 Biting. 1574 01:13:57,338 --> 01:13:58,237 Cruel. 1575 01:13:58,239 --> 01:14:00,741 [Screams] 1576 01:14:04,679 --> 01:14:06,581 [Dina] and so, ready or not, 1577 01:14:06,914 --> 01:14:08,348 willing or not, 1578 01:14:08,481 --> 01:14:10,082 we must come to comprehend 1579 01:14:10,084 --> 01:14:11,686 with full responsibility 1580 01:14:12,086 --> 01:14:14,485 the world which we've now created. 1581 01:14:14,487 --> 01:14:17,892 [Dreamy music] 1582 01:14:28,869 --> 01:14:30,705 It's the best thing you ever said to me. 1583 01:14:31,471 --> 01:14:33,439 That was actually the best thing 1584 01:14:33,441 --> 01:14:36,110 you ever said to me. 1585 01:14:41,148 --> 01:14:44,552 [Car rumbles] 1586 01:14:49,423 --> 01:14:50,958 [Gasp] 1587 01:14:52,393 --> 01:14:53,961 [Moans] 1588 01:14:55,296 --> 01:14:57,832 [Sighs] 1589 01:15:01,501 --> 01:15:03,135 [Music builds] 1590 01:15:03,137 --> 01:15:06,540 [Car rumbles] 1591 01:15:09,744 --> 01:15:13,047 [Building rumbling] 1592 01:15:18,386 --> 01:15:19,654 It's going to be okay. 1593 01:15:23,657 --> 01:15:25,192 [Boom] 1594 01:15:26,560 --> 01:15:28,062 [Boom] 1595 01:15:29,063 --> 01:15:30,598 [Boom] 1596 01:15:36,604 --> 01:15:37,803 [Boom] 1597 01:15:37,805 --> 01:15:39,638 - [Waterfall roars] - [Music fades] 1598 01:15:39,640 --> 01:15:41,175 [Boom] 1599 01:15:41,275 --> 01:15:42,641 [Boom] 1600 01:15:42,643 --> 01:15:44,178 [Boom] 1601 01:15:44,513 --> 01:15:45,477 - [Boom] - [Sounds fade] 1602 01:15:45,479 --> 01:15:46,912 [Boom] 1603 01:15:46,914 --> 01:15:48,449 [Boom] 1604 01:15:48,816 --> 01:15:51,250 [Gentle music] 1605 01:15:51,252 --> 01:15:52,384 [Boom] 1606 01:15:52,386 --> 01:15:53,485 [Boom] 1607 01:15:53,487 --> 01:15:55,022 [Boom] 1608 01:15:59,528 --> 01:16:01,927 [Exhale] 1609 01:16:01,929 --> 01:16:04,932 [Wind] 1610 01:16:06,233 --> 01:16:09,670 [Water laps] 1611 01:16:12,373 --> 01:16:13,372 [Screams] 1612 01:16:13,374 --> 01:16:14,440 [Vita] You okay? 1613 01:16:14,442 --> 01:16:16,341 [Laughter] 1614 01:16:16,343 --> 01:16:17,878 We'll do that again. 1615 01:16:18,079 --> 01:16:19,513 Okay. 1616 01:16:20,047 --> 01:16:21,180 I think it's going. 1617 01:16:21,182 --> 01:16:24,585 [Waves crash] 1618 01:16:24,618 --> 01:16:25,984 Okay, start walking. 1619 01:16:25,986 --> 01:16:29,523 [Wind] 1620 01:16:31,258 --> 01:16:37,264 [Gentle radio music] 1621 01:16:38,365 --> 01:16:40,634 [Recording] Can you put your legs over there? 1622 01:16:53,080 --> 01:16:54,949 [Clicking] 1623 01:16:57,284 --> 01:16:59,153 [Clicking] 1624 01:17:03,657 --> 01:17:05,926 [Keyboard taps] 1625 01:17:07,461 --> 01:17:09,130 [Message notification] 1626 01:17:11,165 --> 01:17:13,701 [Keyboard taps] 1627 01:17:15,336 --> 01:17:16,301 [Dina] Hi. 1628 01:17:16,303 --> 01:17:19,707 [Wind rustles] 1629 01:17:26,480 --> 01:17:27,615 [Dad] What are you doing? 1630 01:17:27,715 --> 01:17:30,217 Just looking for planes. 1631 01:17:31,352 --> 01:17:33,854 [Fabric rustles] 1632 01:17:36,123 --> 01:17:38,125 [Lighter flicks] 1633 01:17:38,527 --> 01:17:40,294 You a ghost? 1634 01:17:40,895 --> 01:17:42,861 [Sputters] Boo! 1635 01:17:42,863 --> 01:17:45,066 [Giggles] 1636 01:17:46,635 --> 01:17:48,702 Shouldn't you be going to the hospital or something? 1637 01:17:52,541 --> 01:17:54,973 I read this story once in the newspaper 1638 01:17:54,975 --> 01:17:57,978 about this kid who had to be born in the hospital. 1639 01:17:59,614 --> 01:18:01,947 See, there was this lady. 1640 01:18:01,949 --> 01:18:04,049 She kept trying to have babies. 1641 01:18:04,051 --> 01:18:06,118 But every time she had a baby, 1642 01:18:06,120 --> 01:18:08,122 it would die in her stomach. 1643 01:18:08,722 --> 01:18:10,657 So the grandmother said, 1644 01:18:10,659 --> 01:18:14,662 "Oh, I've already had babies. I can have another one." 1645 01:18:14,762 --> 01:18:16,596 So that's what they did. 1646 01:18:16,598 --> 01:18:19,164 They took the sperm and they put it inside the egg, 1647 01:18:19,166 --> 01:18:20,365 and then they took the egg 1648 01:18:20,367 --> 01:18:22,069 and they put it in the grandmother. 1649 01:18:23,003 --> 01:18:24,036 And when it was ready to come out, 1650 01:18:24,038 --> 01:18:26,071 they took her to the hospital 1651 01:18:26,073 --> 01:18:28,909 and they cut her open and took the baby out. 1652 01:18:29,109 --> 01:18:30,275 Wow. 1653 01:18:30,277 --> 01:18:31,544 Yeah. 1654 01:18:31,546 --> 01:18:32,980 It was really cool. 1655 01:18:33,881 --> 01:18:36,050 Except since it was born from its grandmother, 1656 01:18:37,084 --> 01:18:39,586 it had like old lady blood. 1657 01:18:39,588 --> 01:18:40,819 So it was like an old person 1658 01:18:40,821 --> 01:18:43,722 and a young person in one. 1659 01:18:43,724 --> 01:18:46,526 [Chuckles] 1660 01:18:46,528 --> 01:18:48,126 Anyway, that probably won't happen to you 1661 01:18:48,128 --> 01:18:49,897 because you're not an old person. 1662 01:18:49,964 --> 01:18:51,632 And what am I? 1663 01:18:52,634 --> 01:18:56,971 In this life, ideally, happy. 1664 01:18:58,339 --> 01:18:59,404 You want a hit? 1665 01:18:59,406 --> 01:19:00,975 Cut! 1666 01:19:02,109 --> 01:19:02,609 What? 1667 01:19:02,611 --> 01:19:04,176 Cut! 1668 01:19:04,178 --> 01:19:06,713 Why did you stop us? We were just getting going. 1669 01:19:06,715 --> 01:19:07,846 Dad, she's pregnant. 1670 01:19:07,848 --> 01:19:09,214 You can't offer her weed. 1671 01:19:09,216 --> 01:19:11,083 You know, I don't even know 1672 01:19:11,085 --> 01:19:13,120 if the film is about her being pregnant. 1673 01:19:13,787 --> 01:19:15,256 Have you ever seen a pregnant person? 1674 01:19:15,756 --> 01:19:17,158 Look at that belly. 1675 01:19:19,059 --> 01:19:20,292 What do you mean? It looks good. 1676 01:19:20,294 --> 01:19:21,527 [Laughs] 1677 01:19:21,529 --> 01:19:22,695 It looks like a pillow. 1678 01:19:22,697 --> 01:19:24,231 No, it doesn't. 1679 01:19:25,567 --> 01:19:28,068 - It does. - Totally. 1680 01:19:28,769 --> 01:19:30,838 Why didn't anyone tell me? 1681 01:19:32,641 --> 01:19:33,872 Does it even matter? 1682 01:19:33,874 --> 01:19:35,642 [Groans] 1683 01:19:35,644 --> 01:19:37,311 Oh, shit! 1684 01:19:37,411 --> 01:19:39,444 It is a pillow. 1685 01:19:39,446 --> 01:19:41,179 [Vita] Hang on, this is not a joke, dad. 1686 01:19:41,181 --> 01:19:43,849 My whole fucking life is riding on this movie 1687 01:19:43,851 --> 01:19:45,217 so I need the belly to look like 1688 01:19:45,219 --> 01:19:47,019 a fucking pregnancy belly. 1689 01:19:47,021 --> 01:19:48,621 Why didn't we have this conversation 1690 01:19:48,623 --> 01:19:50,891 like nine months ago, Alexis? 1691 01:19:51,158 --> 01:19:53,027 I think people tried to. 1692 01:19:55,730 --> 01:19:57,630 I'm scared. 1693 01:19:57,632 --> 01:19:59,798 Has the belly looked fake the whole time? 1694 01:19:59,800 --> 01:20:01,300 I like it. 1695 01:20:01,302 --> 01:20:04,705 It's like an allegory. Like a metaphor. 1696 01:20:05,339 --> 01:20:08,142 It's like an act of creation. 1697 01:20:08,442 --> 01:20:10,075 Pillow is child, 1698 01:20:10,077 --> 01:20:13,011 soft, weird, hot air, 1699 01:20:13,013 --> 01:20:16,549 cumulus, myth, way up and way down. 1700 01:20:16,551 --> 01:20:18,886 What does it all mean? 1701 01:20:19,086 --> 01:20:21,019 The belly should be realistic. 1702 01:20:21,021 --> 01:20:22,555 Like, she really is pregnant. 1703 01:20:22,557 --> 01:20:23,922 I feel like it's depends 1704 01:20:23,924 --> 01:20:24,624 what kind of movie you want to make, 1705 01:20:24,626 --> 01:20:26,693 but the show is based in reality, right? 1706 01:20:26,695 --> 01:20:28,128 What? 1707 01:20:28,996 --> 01:20:32,399 Where are you from? You can't show everything. 1708 01:20:33,535 --> 01:20:37,271 Reality has never, will never be safe. 1709 01:20:37,739 --> 01:20:40,005 Not for me, not for you. 1710 01:20:40,007 --> 01:20:42,874 Reality is not art. 1711 01:20:42,876 --> 01:20:45,079 Art is this. 1712 01:20:47,348 --> 01:20:50,382 Up in the clouds, floating to the future. 1713 01:20:50,384 --> 01:20:52,552 [Dreamy music] 1714 01:20:52,554 --> 01:20:54,620 [Dina] Yeah, you just gotta explain to 1715 01:20:54,622 --> 01:20:56,388 the audience why you have to be so... 1716 01:20:56,390 --> 01:20:59,827 [Chatting fades] 1717 01:21:00,494 --> 01:21:02,427 [Vita] And I remember this so well. 1718 01:21:02,429 --> 01:21:05,631 [Muffled chatter] 1719 01:21:05,633 --> 01:21:08,302 It's just for a moment I stopped caring. 1720 01:21:09,738 --> 01:21:11,372 Because it was so beautiful. 1721 01:21:14,208 --> 01:21:16,377 Just to be making something with people. 1722 01:21:17,111 --> 01:21:20,448 [Music continues] 1723 01:21:33,093 --> 01:21:35,430 I wish I had stayed right here. 1724 01:21:45,740 --> 01:21:51,111 [Dad] So, is this movie about pregnancy? 1725 01:21:55,717 --> 01:21:57,884 I named the main character Anne Marie 1726 01:21:57,886 --> 01:21:59,786 because I had read somewhere 1727 01:21:59,788 --> 01:22:02,323 that it means mother and daughter in one. 1728 01:22:04,224 --> 01:22:07,429 And the film had many endings. 1729 01:22:08,563 --> 01:22:12,166 But by the time Anne Marie finally gives birth, 1730 01:22:12,933 --> 01:22:14,801 which is a scene we actually shot 1731 01:22:14,803 --> 01:22:16,569 before the entire crew quit, 1732 01:22:16,571 --> 01:22:18,403 [Crew murmurs] 1733 01:22:18,405 --> 01:22:21,206 We were supposed to understand 1734 01:22:21,208 --> 01:22:24,446 that she's not giving birth to a baby. 1735 01:22:26,313 --> 01:22:29,383 Instead, and please hold your laughter, 1736 01:22:31,619 --> 01:22:34,922 the audience has come to understand... 1737 01:22:35,055 --> 01:22:36,624 Action. 1738 01:22:38,593 --> 01:22:43,263 That she is giving birth to herself. 1739 01:22:43,598 --> 01:22:47,968 [Dreamy music] 1740 01:22:53,541 --> 01:22:57,442 And after meticulously cutting together the montage, 1741 01:22:57,444 --> 01:22:59,478 in which Anne Marie gives birth to herself 1742 01:22:59,480 --> 01:23:01,549 in all the places she's already been. 1743 01:23:02,884 --> 01:23:04,517 I went to the post office, 1744 01:23:04,519 --> 01:23:06,586 [Heavy breaths] 1745 01:23:06,588 --> 01:23:08,754 And I mailed the film to as many film festivals 1746 01:23:08,756 --> 01:23:10,155 as I could afford to. 1747 01:23:10,157 --> 01:23:13,461 Maybe a hundred or... 1748 01:23:14,662 --> 01:23:17,030 Fifty or twenty or 1749 01:23:18,065 --> 01:23:19,599 twelve. 1750 01:23:19,601 --> 01:23:22,936 [Heavy breathing] 1751 01:23:23,605 --> 01:23:25,473 And I went home. 1752 01:23:28,075 --> 01:23:29,910 And I waited. 1753 01:23:31,378 --> 01:23:33,411 - [Cicadas] - [Music fades] 1754 01:23:33,413 --> 01:23:36,983 And here's the real plot twist. 1755 01:23:36,985 --> 01:23:41,019 Push! 1756 01:23:41,021 --> 01:23:47,392 The film was not accepted into a single festival. 1757 01:23:47,394 --> 01:23:55,335 - [Screams] - [Foreboding music] 1758 01:23:56,971 --> 01:23:59,872 After I received that final rejection, I pissed blood. 1759 01:23:59,874 --> 01:24:03,341 [Screaming continues] 1760 01:24:03,343 --> 01:24:04,610 See, despite doing everything that 1761 01:24:04,612 --> 01:24:07,449 they tell young filmmakers to do, 1762 01:24:08,750 --> 01:24:11,686 despite begging and borrowing and stealing, 1763 01:24:12,486 --> 01:24:14,654 alienating my friends and family, 1764 01:24:14,656 --> 01:24:16,622 and writing from my experience and crowd funding, 1765 01:24:16,624 --> 01:24:18,624 and almost fucking killing someone. 1766 01:24:18,626 --> 01:24:21,159 [Music rumbles] 1767 01:24:21,161 --> 01:24:27,098 [Screams] 1768 01:24:27,100 --> 01:24:28,968 If you look the film up online 1769 01:24:28,970 --> 01:24:32,139 right now, it is considered abandoned. 1770 01:24:37,411 --> 01:24:41,982 And my film was never seen by anyone. 1771 01:24:42,115 --> 01:24:45,520 [Somber music] 1772 01:24:54,294 --> 01:24:57,732 [Crickets] 1773 01:24:58,633 --> 01:25:00,398 And last night I stayed up 1774 01:25:00,400 --> 01:25:03,201 watching my film again and again. 1775 01:25:03,203 --> 01:25:06,204 [Fire roars] 1776 01:25:06,206 --> 01:25:09,611 [Uneasy music] 1777 01:25:10,110 --> 01:25:12,279 And I texted a friend. 1778 01:25:12,547 --> 01:25:15,514 Why am I the only person I know 1779 01:25:15,516 --> 01:25:18,252 who this has happened to? 1780 01:25:23,024 --> 01:25:25,057 And they must have looked away from their phone. 1781 01:25:25,059 --> 01:25:27,392 [Fire roars] 1782 01:25:27,394 --> 01:25:29,196 Back again. 1783 01:25:30,798 --> 01:25:33,601 And said to me. 1784 01:25:36,604 --> 01:25:39,672 [Silence] 1785 01:25:39,674 --> 01:25:42,644 [Waves lap] 1786 01:25:52,053 --> 01:25:55,456 [Somber music] 1787 01:25:57,224 --> 01:26:00,294 [Keyboard taps] 1788 01:26:01,095 --> 01:26:03,395 [Sighs] 1789 01:26:03,397 --> 01:26:07,365 [Keyboard taps] 1790 01:26:07,367 --> 01:26:10,572 [Keyboard taps] 1791 01:26:11,906 --> 01:26:13,508 Are you still there? 1792 01:26:15,342 --> 01:26:17,645 [Clicking] 1793 01:26:17,745 --> 01:26:20,713 [Keyboard taps] 1794 01:26:20,715 --> 01:26:22,148 [Sighs] 1795 01:26:22,150 --> 01:26:23,983 So this is my first film. 1796 01:26:23,985 --> 01:26:26,253 [Keyboard taps] 1797 01:26:28,455 --> 01:26:30,089 I thought that writing it out 1798 01:26:30,091 --> 01:26:31,991 and filming it and casting an actress 1799 01:26:31,993 --> 01:26:33,793 to play me was going to make it all feel better, 1800 01:26:33,795 --> 01:26:36,529 but I never thought about it ending. 1801 01:26:36,531 --> 01:26:39,534 - [Keyboard taps] - [Sighing] 1802 01:26:40,968 --> 01:26:43,234 I've tried so many times to tell this story, 1803 01:26:43,236 --> 01:26:46,139 but if I could not get here, 1804 01:26:47,875 --> 01:26:49,611 to you, 1805 01:26:52,379 --> 01:26:54,547 I would abort the project. 1806 01:26:54,549 --> 01:26:57,752 [Foreboding music builds] 1807 01:26:58,619 --> 01:27:00,888 Because abortion is... 1808 01:27:04,424 --> 01:27:06,561 An understanding. 1809 01:27:11,733 --> 01:27:12,832 But abandoned. 1810 01:27:12,834 --> 01:27:15,000 [Scoffs] 1811 01:27:15,002 --> 01:27:16,571 Unseen. 1812 01:27:25,312 --> 01:27:27,479 [Inhales] 1813 01:27:27,481 --> 01:27:30,116 [Music fades] 1814 01:27:30,118 --> 01:27:33,588 [Silence] 1815 01:27:37,592 --> 01:27:39,460 Look what you did. 1816 01:27:44,297 --> 01:27:46,266 I feel like I'm doing a bad job. 1817 01:27:46,901 --> 01:27:48,603 [Sniffs] 1818 01:27:52,206 --> 01:27:53,908 [Sniffs] 1819 01:28:00,782 --> 01:28:07,855 [Sobs] 1820 01:28:09,957 --> 01:28:11,659 [Sniffs] 1821 01:28:12,627 --> 01:28:14,762 How does this film end, Zia? 1822 01:28:16,931 --> 01:28:17,997 What do we do now? 1823 01:28:17,999 --> 01:28:19,701 [Sniffs] 1824 01:28:26,406 --> 01:28:29,307 [Exhales] 1825 01:28:29,309 --> 01:28:35,783 [Keyboard taps] 1826 01:28:38,519 --> 01:28:40,686 [Keyboard taps] 1827 01:28:40,688 --> 01:28:42,389 [Sniffs] 1828 01:28:44,926 --> 01:28:45,958 Okay. 1829 01:28:45,960 --> 01:28:47,059 Okay. 1830 01:28:47,061 --> 01:28:48,127 [Gentle music] 1831 01:28:48,129 --> 01:28:49,664 Okay. 1832 01:28:49,831 --> 01:28:51,163 [Sniffs] 1833 01:28:51,165 --> 01:28:52,734 Jessie. 1834 01:28:53,433 --> 01:28:54,969 [Door clicks] 1835 01:28:56,170 --> 01:28:58,506 Hi. Are you ready to move on? 1836 01:28:58,906 --> 01:29:00,005 Yeah. 1837 01:29:00,007 --> 01:29:00,906 Let's go. 1838 01:29:00,908 --> 01:29:02,443 Okay. 1839 01:29:02,777 --> 01:29:03,776 Yeah. 1840 01:29:03,778 --> 01:29:05,413 [Laughs] 1841 01:29:06,647 --> 01:29:09,951 [Gentle music continues] 1842 01:29:14,555 --> 01:29:16,023 [Vita] It doesn't end. 1843 01:29:19,093 --> 01:29:21,763 But you will make something again. 1844 01:29:23,598 --> 01:29:27,602 With people you care about, and who care about you. 1845 01:29:30,671 --> 01:29:33,438 And it will be hard 1846 01:29:33,440 --> 01:29:35,342 and embarrassing. 1847 01:29:40,114 --> 01:29:43,818 But eventually you will stop losing sleep. 1848 01:29:44,451 --> 01:29:46,654 And stop worrying. 1849 01:29:47,288 --> 01:29:49,490 [Chuckles] 1850 01:29:49,724 --> 01:29:51,924 You will make things from joy. 1851 01:29:51,926 --> 01:29:54,294 And not despair. 1852 01:29:55,930 --> 01:29:59,531 Even films that should not be films. 1853 01:29:59,533 --> 01:30:01,767 [Music continues] 1854 01:30:01,769 --> 01:30:06,138 And every time you will give birth to yourself. 1855 01:30:06,140 --> 01:30:10,044 And every time you will find a new version of the truth. 1856 01:30:10,111 --> 01:30:12,713 Again and again. 1857 01:30:12,980 --> 01:30:13,679 [Laughs] 1858 01:30:13,681 --> 01:30:15,049 And again. 1859 01:30:22,489 --> 01:30:23,958 [Knocking] 1860 01:30:25,393 --> 01:30:26,659 Vita. 1861 01:30:26,661 --> 01:30:27,492 - [Door clicks] - [Music ends] 1862 01:30:27,494 --> 01:30:28,493 Birthday. 1863 01:30:28,495 --> 01:30:29,695 Please. 1864 01:30:29,697 --> 01:30:31,732 November 23rd. 1865 01:30:31,999 --> 01:30:32,967 Oh. 1866 01:30:33,067 --> 01:30:34,600 Happy belated! 1867 01:30:34,602 --> 01:30:36,938 23 on 23. 1868 01:30:37,738 --> 01:30:39,907 That is a once in a lifetime year. 1869 01:30:40,675 --> 01:30:42,841 [Footsteps] 1870 01:30:42,843 --> 01:30:44,412 Alright. 1871 01:30:45,813 --> 01:30:47,079 So how are you feeling? 1872 01:30:47,081 --> 01:30:49,851 [Heavy sigh] 1873 01:30:50,384 --> 01:30:52,885 Okay. I just want to remind you 1874 01:30:52,887 --> 01:30:55,990 that you are absolutely within your rights to be here. 1875 01:30:58,993 --> 01:31:00,793 And if you've been having any new doubts 1876 01:31:00,795 --> 01:31:02,361 since you signed the consent, 1877 01:31:02,363 --> 01:31:04,697 you are also absolutely within your rights to 1878 01:31:04,699 --> 01:31:07,535 leave this room without this procedure. 1879 01:31:09,737 --> 01:31:12,073 So may I ask you, 1880 01:31:12,873 --> 01:31:14,642 are you having any doubts? 1881 01:31:16,911 --> 01:31:17,475 No. 1882 01:31:17,477 --> 01:31:19,013 Okay. 1883 01:31:19,780 --> 01:31:21,280 Then I'd like to tell you something. 1884 01:31:21,282 --> 01:31:23,451 It's something I tell everyone. 1885 01:31:25,353 --> 01:31:26,819 What we're about to do here 1886 01:31:26,821 --> 01:31:29,688 is remove a small group of cells 1887 01:31:29,690 --> 01:31:31,859 that could not exist outside of your body. 1888 01:31:33,060 --> 01:31:34,893 I just want to be sure we dissolve any fear 1889 01:31:34,895 --> 01:31:36,831 you might have about regret. Okay? 1890 01:31:36,998 --> 01:31:38,532 Okay. 1891 01:31:39,734 --> 01:31:42,803 So I'm going to talk you through absolutely everything. 1892 01:31:43,637 --> 01:31:45,740 But first, would you like a tissue? 1893 01:31:48,476 --> 01:31:50,144 [Table scrapes] 1894 01:32:01,155 --> 01:32:02,154 [Sniffs] 1895 01:32:02,156 --> 01:32:03,858 Okay. 1896 01:32:08,095 --> 01:32:09,497 That's better? 1897 01:32:10,765 --> 01:32:13,866 Alright. So go ahead and lean back 1898 01:32:13,868 --> 01:32:16,869 and put your feet into the... 1899 01:32:16,871 --> 01:32:19,006 Into the stirrups here for me. 1900 01:32:19,740 --> 01:32:21,907 Great. And then just 1901 01:32:21,909 --> 01:32:23,976 scooch down the table just a little. 1902 01:32:23,978 --> 01:32:24,576 Mm-hmm. 1903 01:32:24,578 --> 01:32:26,113 And... 1904 01:32:26,947 --> 01:32:28,816 Go ahead and place your hands right here. 1905 01:32:30,084 --> 01:32:31,652 Perfect. 1906 01:32:32,153 --> 01:32:33,585 [Switch clicks] 1907 01:32:33,587 --> 01:32:35,054 Oops. 1908 01:32:35,056 --> 01:32:36,590 Okay. 1909 01:32:43,297 --> 01:32:44,832 Okay. 1910 01:32:44,899 --> 01:32:45,731 Cold hands coming through. 1911 01:32:45,733 --> 01:32:47,134 Are you ready? 1912 01:32:47,301 --> 01:32:48,169 Yeah. 1913 01:32:48,402 --> 01:32:51,839 [Wet noises] 1914 01:32:58,746 --> 01:33:01,582 It is so cool to see you as an adult. 1915 01:33:03,617 --> 01:33:04,817 I mean, you wouldn't remember me. 1916 01:33:04,819 --> 01:33:06,821 You were just that tiny baby. 1917 01:33:08,889 --> 01:33:11,492 I was a midwife's assistant back then. 1918 01:33:12,093 --> 01:33:15,162 I was at your birth. I helped deliver you. 1919 01:33:15,196 --> 01:33:16,797 [Sighs] 1920 01:33:17,264 --> 01:33:18,899 I'm sorry. Would you like me to be quiet? 1921 01:33:19,467 --> 01:33:21,569 Some people do prefer quiet. 1922 01:33:24,371 --> 01:33:26,007 Did you pick this music? 1923 01:33:26,273 --> 01:33:27,840 [Laughs] 1924 01:33:27,842 --> 01:33:29,509 It reminds me of my Enya days. 1925 01:33:29,511 --> 01:33:31,245 It's a really great choice. 1926 01:33:32,446 --> 01:33:33,914 Speculum. 1927 01:33:34,281 --> 01:33:36,283 That's the thing that's shaped like a duck bill. 1928 01:33:37,084 --> 01:33:41,522 [Clicks tongue] 1929 01:33:43,023 --> 01:33:45,824 You know, the story of your conception 1930 01:33:45,826 --> 01:33:47,862 is really pretty extraordinary. 1931 01:33:48,496 --> 01:33:49,997 The town myth. 1932 01:33:51,465 --> 01:33:53,801 You're going to feel something like a small pinch now? 1933 01:33:54,235 --> 01:33:58,704 [Squeaking] 1934 01:33:58,706 --> 01:34:00,174 [Wet pop] 1935 01:34:00,741 --> 01:34:02,943 [Groans] 1936 01:34:04,011 --> 01:34:05,880 Actually, would you tell it to me? 1937 01:34:06,615 --> 01:34:08,049 This story of your conception? 1938 01:34:10,151 --> 01:34:11,685 Okay. 1939 01:34:12,853 --> 01:34:14,688 Where should we begin? 1940 01:34:17,892 --> 01:34:20,127 First, your father 1941 01:34:20,895 --> 01:34:24,298 finds a 35mm film canister. 1942 01:34:25,833 --> 01:34:27,768 And then he jerks off into it. 1943 01:34:28,570 --> 01:34:30,068 And then he puts on the top 1944 01:34:30,070 --> 01:34:32,006 and puts it into his breast pocket. 1945 01:34:35,276 --> 01:34:37,978 He puts on his coat and goes out into a snowstorm. 1946 01:34:40,114 --> 01:34:42,116 He makes sure to keep his hand 1947 01:34:42,383 --> 01:34:44,082 over his heart 1948 01:34:44,084 --> 01:34:46,120 to keep that canister warm. 1949 01:34:49,957 --> 01:34:52,293 At the top of the hill, he knocks on a cabin door. 1950 01:34:52,793 --> 01:34:54,662 And your moms answer. 1951 01:34:55,329 --> 01:34:57,630 They take that 35mm canister from him 1952 01:34:57,632 --> 01:34:59,266 and slam the door. 1953 01:35:00,569 --> 01:35:02,167 And then they load the contents 1954 01:35:02,169 --> 01:35:04,705 into a small plastic syringe. 1955 01:35:05,239 --> 01:35:08,609 The kind that's usually used to feed baby cats. 1956 01:35:11,946 --> 01:35:14,281 And then one of them uses that syringe 1957 01:35:14,882 --> 01:35:17,084 to inject the contents 1958 01:35:17,952 --> 01:35:20,187 into her cervix. 1959 01:35:23,123 --> 01:35:24,825 And... 1960 01:35:27,294 --> 01:35:29,096 Nine months later, 1961 01:35:29,997 --> 01:35:31,799 you were born. 1962 01:35:33,734 --> 01:35:35,267 And that's a true story. 1963 01:35:35,269 --> 01:35:37,037 [Laughs] 1964 01:35:39,873 --> 01:35:41,342 So, 1965 01:35:42,309 --> 01:35:44,345 are you ready for a loud noise? 1966 01:35:48,215 --> 01:35:49,650 Good. 1967 01:35:52,386 --> 01:35:57,825 You know, all you need is a body to create. 1968 01:35:58,526 --> 01:36:00,394 But what you create, 1969 01:36:01,630 --> 01:36:03,297 that is up to you. 1970 01:36:13,541 --> 01:36:22,016 [Suction] 1971 01:36:41,435 --> 01:36:45,005 [Sighs] 1972 01:36:49,511 --> 01:36:55,716 [Driving music] 1973 01:37:39,460 --> 01:37:42,896 [Music ends] 129747