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Who's this?
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Can you hear me?
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Answer your fucking phone!
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She has a
pulse, but its faint.
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No!
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You're all right, stay with me.
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Look at me.
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Hey, please.
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Are you watching?
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Please.
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Keep your eyes open.
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This is that moment.
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Please stay alive.
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Where it all ends
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Please stay alive.
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No, don't go.
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Because of what I did.
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Please.
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One, two, three.
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And again, one, two.
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Hi, Ms. Rose.
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Can I call you Dean?
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Yeah.
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My name is Dr. Teixeira.
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You can call me Janet.
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I'm assigned-
- I know who you are.
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Okay.
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So you know what I'm here to do?
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How are you feeling today?
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Well, I reviewed the
toxicology report.
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You had extremely high
levels of benzodiazepine
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and sertraline in your system.
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You had blood alcohol
concentration of 0.25.
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Cocaine.
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Your arms took 42 stitches
to close the wounds.
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You are really
lucky to be alive.
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Help me to understand
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why you would attempt
to take your own life.
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I wasn't...
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I wasn't trying to kill myself.
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So just a regular
Tuesday night?
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I've been informed by Jackson
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that this wasn't
your first attempt.
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There have been others.
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That's...
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It's not true.
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It's a lie.
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We saw the scars on
your arms and legs.
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Don't get me 5150.
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This will follow me for
the rest of my life.
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Then explain to
me what happened.
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I'm not a threat to
myself or anyone else.
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I've never hurt anybody.
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I just...
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I just wanna go home
and I wanna sleep.
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Wanna sleep.
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It was a mistake.
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How do you expect
me to believe that?
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Anyone who cuts
their arms that deep
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is a threat to themselves.
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Yeah.
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You've already
made your decision.
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So, can you get the
fuck outta my room?
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Listen, give me one!
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Give me one.
- Michael.
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- Michael.
- Stand down!
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You watch my wife!
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This is gonna calm
you down, Michael.
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Michael, good.
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Everybody thinks I'm crazy.
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Just be happy.
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Happiness is a choice.
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Fucking right, I
chose to be this way.
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I t's like a
virus taking over my brain.
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I just want it to stop,
but you're keeping me here.
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And where's the fucking cure?
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Well, unfortunately
there is no official cure,
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but we do have tools
that can help us,
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coping skills, talking
about our feelings.
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Help us feel better.
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I think you need to share.
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Your continual refusal to eat
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is only making things
more difficult, Dean.
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So again, please,
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stand and come with
us to the cafeteria.
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No, no, no, no.
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No, no, no!
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Get off of me!
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No!
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I need you to get immediately.
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Get off, get off of me!
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You're okay.
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I've
been on medication.
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Magic.
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You should eat.
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It's easier.
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And you should probably
stop taking them pills
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they're giving you.
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You're actually gonna go insane.
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You know, they get paid for
every drug they prescribe us.
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Antipsychotics, barbiturates,
opioids, whatever it is,
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they're getting paid.
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That's why there's literally
a pill for everything.
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I mean, look around the room.
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Just at the numbers, you know?
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Let's say they get
$15 a day per person.
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Multiply that by what, 50 people
in the hospital right now.
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Many of us here for
30 days or longer.
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That's $22,500 on
medication alone.
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Not to mention fucking
room, board, therapy,
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medical procedures.
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What do you think the
force feeding runs ya?
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10K at least.
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And the second we're released,
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we're just replaced
with someone else.
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And the worst of it,
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most of these patients
come here looking for help
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and instead they're locked
up, stuffed full of pills,
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and charged for therapy.
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Can only imagine the addictions
that follow this place.
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A fucking epidemic.
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It's a fucking joke.
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Have you seen the
commercials for these things?
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Feel happy, be better.
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Love your children again.
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May cause anal
seepage, a limp dick,
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accidentally growing dick
and flesh eating disease.
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It's ridiculous.
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It's goddamn ridiculous.
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So what exactly
is the point then?
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There isn't one.
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That makes me
feel better, thanks.
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Good, I'm glad.
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Anytime.
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I'm a ray of sunshine, always.
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I'm Bria.
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Dean.
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You a cutter?
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Not a fucking cutter.
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So the wraps are a
fashion accessory then?
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I cut this time.
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That does not make me a...
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It doesn't make me a cutter.
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Okay, what are you then?
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Depressed.
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So they tell me.
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How about you?
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A junkie, or so they tell me.
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Drug of choice?
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Anything that gets me high.
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I love me some H.
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Yeah, I was always more
of an upper person myself.
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Down enough genetically, I
don't really need the help.
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So, how exactly does being
a junkie land you here?
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Well, when you take enough
heroin to kill a horse,
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they believe there might be
something else behind it.
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Also, having enough
in my possession
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to get a small village high
didn't really help my case.
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Was there something
else behind it?
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I tried to kill myself.
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It's traumatic.
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So they tell me.
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And now?
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Stay tuned.
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00:16:10,925 --> 00:16:12,710
How have you
been doing in here?
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Cute kid.
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Either you can talk and
eventually get out of here
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or we can sit in
silence every session.
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But if you don't mind,
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I'll get some
administrative work done
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while I have the quiet.
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Your sister's coming
tomorrow to see the judge.
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Wanted to let you know.
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You're okay.
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I'm leaving.
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I already spoke to
the judge today.
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There's nothing I can do
about the 5150 on your record,
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but I'll do what I can.
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I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking.
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Oh, no, no, you were thinking.
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You were just only
thinking about yourself.
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I begged you to
come live with me.
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You pulled away.
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What was I supposed to do?
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I can't do this.
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You wanna kill yourself?
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I'm not gonna
stand by and watch.
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You don't know what it's like.
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I've been on
Prozac for 11 years.
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I've been dealing
with this all my life.
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It's genetic, Dean.
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I know exactly how it
feels to be depressed,
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to feel unimportant,
to be left behind.
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I was there too.
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I love you.
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I hope you stick
around, I really do.
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You know you can't be
in other patient's rooms.
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Let's go.
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Come on, she's
having a rough go.
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You know the rules.
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Get outta the room, Bria.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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Fresh meat.
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Yeah.
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First time?
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00:21:06,569 --> 00:21:08,658
No, she has definitely
been in before.
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Cutter?
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Daddy?
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Oh, yeah.
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No, I'm gonna say boyfriend.
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Boyfriend.
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Mm-hm.
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That sounds about right.
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Can I get a cigarette?
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So I need a couple more
minutes for specifics,
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00:21:56,619 --> 00:21:58,185
but I am going to...
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00:22:04,453 --> 00:22:08,457
I'm gonna say
major daddy issues.
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00:22:08,457 --> 00:22:11,808
Sexually curious, but
only to piss daddy off.
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Ethnic, so I'm
just on my thought.
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Fuck, I'm crazy.
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Probably a chip on your
shoulder for the people.
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All in all, it's men.
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Men are your problem and they
drive you fucking bunkers.
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Yeah.
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I mean, it's slightly racist,
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but yeah, I guess
that about sums me up.
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Cha-ching.
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I don't give a fuck
about my people though.
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I'm a mutt.
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They're all fucked.
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It's not men.
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Oh, goddamn it,
that was my instinct.
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It was, and I should
have gone with it.
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I should have gone with my gut.
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Go with your gut.
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Yeah, I sorry
to disappoint you,
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but women are my problem.
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So I'll give you that.
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What are you writing?
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Nothing.
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00:23:19,528 --> 00:23:20,529
Can I see?
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Shit, it's...
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It's okay.
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This is what I'm doing.
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Can I just read it?
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Please?
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00:24:01,831 --> 00:24:03,136
Are these lyrics?
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Not very good ones.
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Will you sing these to me?
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Fuck you.
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- Come on.
- No.
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Are you like a pussy?
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Yeah, sure.
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I mean, you're laying
in a mental institution
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involuntarily locked up
next to a crazy lesbian
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that tried to fuck up
her girlfriend's lover.
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I mean, it doesn't get
much lower than this.
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Well, well, well.
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Like a lesbo in a candy shop.
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How the fuck did
you luck out here?
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What do you think I am, the
beacon of truth and honesty?
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I don't wanna be a
cliterference, bro.
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These are really good.
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00:24:50,836 --> 00:24:53,491
Thanks, I just
wanted to see them.
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You know, the minute you
stop doing what you love,
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you're fucked.
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I just couldn't
take the rejection.
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00:25:07,723 --> 00:25:12,292
Yeah, but you don't have
to sing for anyone else.
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I work in this
Italian restaurant.
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It's like tiny.
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00:25:16,819 --> 00:25:21,127
And the mom and Bob, they
hang my artwork on the walls
273
00:25:21,127 --> 00:25:22,607
with little price tags
274
00:25:22,607 --> 00:25:24,391
as if someone's
actually gonna buy it.
275
00:25:28,308 --> 00:25:30,615
They think that it's special.
276
00:25:30,615 --> 00:25:31,573
And so I paint.
277
00:25:33,139 --> 00:25:34,750
It's all the motivation I need.
278
00:25:36,403 --> 00:25:38,362
You don't have to
be a famous singer.
279
00:25:39,929 --> 00:25:41,800
If you love to sing,
you gotta sing.
280
00:27:29,908 --> 00:27:30,779
Open.
281
00:27:32,302 --> 00:27:34,478
Not fucking close.
282
00:27:53,323 --> 00:27:54,716
Code blue!
283
00:27:54,716 --> 00:27:56,413
Do we have a pulse?
284
00:27:58,023 --> 00:27:59,982
There's no pulse!
285
00:27:59,982 --> 00:28:01,635
Can we untie the sheet?
286
00:28:01,635 --> 00:28:02,636
Come on.
287
00:28:05,291 --> 00:28:08,730
Someone get something
to cut the sheet!
288
00:28:08,730 --> 00:28:12,168
Somebody get something we
can cut the sheet with!
289
00:28:12,168 --> 00:28:14,605
Oh god, fucking [indistinct].
290
00:28:38,020 --> 00:28:38,934
Breathe.
291
00:28:42,589 --> 00:28:44,287
Who the
fuck let him have it
292
00:28:44,287 --> 00:28:46,419
and why was he
alone in his room?
293
00:28:47,856 --> 00:28:49,814
There you go, breathe.
294
00:28:49,814 --> 00:28:52,338
Go on, Taryn, get
back to your room.
295
00:28:57,082 --> 00:28:59,519
What is going on in here?
296
00:28:59,519 --> 00:29:01,260
I brought her in here.
297
00:29:01,260 --> 00:29:02,566
I didn't think it was
good for her to see that.
298
00:29:07,527 --> 00:29:08,877
Yeah.
299
00:29:20,802 --> 00:29:24,022
Just keep breathing.
300
00:29:32,291 --> 00:29:34,859
Did you know Carter?
301
00:29:43,302 --> 00:29:46,740
Janet, I'm ready to
get the fuck outta here.
302
00:29:49,439 --> 00:29:53,573
What would be your plan
if you were released?
303
00:29:53,573 --> 00:29:55,662
I have to find out
where all my shit is.
304
00:29:59,318 --> 00:30:00,406
And a place.
305
00:30:04,454 --> 00:30:12,462
My sister's making me take
control of my trust again.
It's just so she doesn't
have to talk to me.
306
00:30:12,462 --> 00:30:14,943
Give her time.
307
00:30:14,943 --> 00:30:17,162
People can take these
things very personally.
308
00:30:20,339 --> 00:30:22,254
She believes you're
ready to get out.
309
00:30:28,086 --> 00:30:29,218
That's surprising.
310
00:30:30,567 --> 00:30:31,655
What do you think?
311
00:30:37,052 --> 00:30:37,966
I agree.
312
00:30:43,101 --> 00:30:45,190
Why do you think I
should release you?
313
00:30:55,766 --> 00:31:01,641
I don't know, because
you can keep me in here
314
00:31:01,641 --> 00:31:05,254
as long as you want to.
315
00:31:05,254 --> 00:31:09,911
But it's something
that I really wanna do.
316
00:31:11,651 --> 00:31:13,827
I'm gonna figure out a way.
317
00:31:13,827 --> 00:31:15,133
You can't protect me.
318
00:31:17,309 --> 00:31:18,223
Look at Carter.
319
00:31:23,228 --> 00:31:25,578
I have some shit that
I have to work through,
320
00:31:30,018 --> 00:31:35,066
but I don't wanna see
stuff like this anymore.
321
00:31:39,810 --> 00:31:41,464
I can pretend that it
didn't fuck with me
322
00:31:41,464 --> 00:31:45,947
seeing him that way, but it did.
323
00:31:48,036 --> 00:31:52,127
I don't want nurses
always watching me.
324
00:31:54,520 --> 00:31:57,088
You know, I don't belong here.
325
00:32:01,049 --> 00:32:02,572
I'm not crazy.
326
00:32:04,878 --> 00:32:06,054
Just sad.
327
00:32:08,317 --> 00:32:09,883
What happens the next time?
328
00:32:13,278 --> 00:32:14,801
I don't wanna die.
329
00:32:21,330 --> 00:32:23,680
I just don't want the
life I have sometimes.
330
00:32:25,551 --> 00:32:28,511
It's hard carrying that much
baggage around all the time,
331
00:32:30,208 --> 00:32:31,383
but I wanna learn.
332
00:32:35,474 --> 00:32:38,956
And I think that's
the first step.
333
00:32:45,571 --> 00:32:49,271
I'll start the wheels of
motion for your release.
334
00:32:52,665 --> 00:32:53,579
Thank you.
335
00:32:57,105 --> 00:32:58,628
Don't make me regret this.
336
00:33:09,943 --> 00:33:11,771
You scared the shit outta me.
337
00:33:25,046 --> 00:33:26,873
I'm gonna miss you.
338
00:33:28,484 --> 00:33:30,007
Gonna miss you.
339
00:33:41,105 --> 00:33:42,672
You have no idea
how amazing it feels
340
00:33:42,672 --> 00:33:45,849
to have someone like
you in my life again.
341
00:33:45,849 --> 00:33:48,808
Because I haven't had it for
a really, really long time.
342
00:33:51,594 --> 00:33:52,682
Me either.
343
00:33:58,470 --> 00:33:59,645
And it's terrifying.
344
00:34:08,480 --> 00:34:09,612
I can't lose you too.
345
00:34:12,397 --> 00:34:14,573
I'm not going anywhere.
346
00:34:25,802 --> 00:34:27,238
My parents...
347
00:34:32,287 --> 00:34:33,592
They were all I had.
348
00:34:36,334 --> 00:34:38,336
And then one day,
they were just gone.
349
00:34:41,557 --> 00:34:49,652
And nobody cared if
I was alive or dead.
350
00:34:53,960 --> 00:34:56,354
And shitty people get
to live every day.
351
00:35:00,793 --> 00:35:03,231
But my parents are gone
352
00:35:03,231 --> 00:35:06,016
because some girl had to
answer a text message.
353
00:35:06,016 --> 00:35:11,152
And I wondered every
day what it said,
354
00:35:12,631 --> 00:35:15,068
what words and in what order
355
00:35:20,291 --> 00:35:23,076
took a priority in the universe.
356
00:35:26,645 --> 00:35:29,387
What was that important?
357
00:35:29,387 --> 00:35:31,694
Because it ruined my life.
358
00:35:46,361 --> 00:35:47,884
They loved you.
359
00:35:49,625 --> 00:35:52,062
They didn't wanna leave you.
360
00:35:53,324 --> 00:35:55,065
Must be amazing knowing
361
00:35:55,065 --> 00:35:59,548
that they would still be
here with you if they could.
362
00:36:06,859 --> 00:36:09,775
You are so incredibly loved.
363
00:38:10,113 --> 00:38:12,333
Hey,
this is Bennett.
364
00:38:12,333 --> 00:38:13,508
Please leave a message.
365
00:38:13,508 --> 00:38:15,553
I will get back to you.
366
00:38:57,987 --> 00:38:59,380
Hi!
367
00:38:59,641 --> 00:39:00,511
Bitch,
where have you been?
368
00:39:00,511 --> 00:39:01,860
I've been calling you.
369
00:39:01,860 --> 00:39:03,775
I miss you.
370
00:39:08,432 --> 00:39:09,607
Yeah.
371
00:39:09,607 --> 00:39:10,695
No, no, no, I just woke up.
372
00:39:10,695 --> 00:39:12,262
I'm sorry.
373
00:39:12,262 --> 00:39:13,785
Are you sure?
374
00:39:13,785 --> 00:39:16,048
Oh, what's been happening?
375
00:39:16,048 --> 00:39:17,659
Wait for
like two seconds
376
00:39:22,228 --> 00:39:23,795
Crazy bitch.
377
00:39:23,795 --> 00:39:25,014
No, I'm serious.
378
00:39:28,713 --> 00:39:30,193
Oh my god!
379
00:39:30,193 --> 00:39:31,324
Hey, Bennett's
finally calling me.
380
00:39:31,324 --> 00:39:33,065
Can I call you right back?
381
00:39:33,065 --> 00:39:34,545
You better
call me the fuck back.
382
00:39:34,545 --> 00:39:36,329
No, I promise I'll
call you right back.
383
00:39:36,329 --> 00:39:37,461
Hoe, call me back!
384
00:39:37,461 --> 00:39:38,984
I love you, bye.
385
00:39:38,984 --> 00:39:39,942
Bye!
386
00:40:49,707 --> 00:40:51,535
Hey.
387
00:40:51,535 --> 00:40:54,930
I already got you started in
the corner with some guys.
388
00:40:54,930 --> 00:40:58,368
They're a little bit douchey,
so put on a brave face.
389
00:40:58,368 --> 00:40:59,848
Fucking great.
390
00:41:21,957 --> 00:41:24,220
Hey guys, can I get
you something to drink?
391
00:41:25,961 --> 00:41:26,875
Look at you.
392
00:41:28,398 --> 00:41:30,531
You're fucking gorgeous.
393
00:41:31,488 --> 00:41:33,403
Sam, look at these lips.
394
00:41:33,403 --> 00:41:36,058
Have you ever seen
lips this beautiful?
395
00:41:36,058 --> 00:41:39,278
I'm Ray and I'd
love a jack and coke
396
00:41:39,278 --> 00:41:40,976
and to see you on
those pretty knees
397
00:41:40,976 --> 00:41:43,282
by the end of the night.
398
00:41:43,282 --> 00:41:44,806
So funny.
399
00:41:50,028 --> 00:41:51,334
Calm down, sit down!
400
00:41:53,684 --> 00:41:55,643
You okay?
401
00:41:55,643 --> 00:41:56,600
- Yeah.
- You're fine.
402
00:41:56,600 --> 00:41:57,775
You're not dead.
403
00:41:57,775 --> 00:41:59,647
- Okay.
- Dean, come with me.
404
00:42:06,001 --> 00:42:10,353
If it makes you feel any
better, guy totally deserved it.
405
00:42:17,403 --> 00:42:18,361
Lose your job?
406
00:42:22,060 --> 00:42:23,018
Sorry.
407
00:42:33,898 --> 00:42:34,812
Trenton.
408
00:42:38,990 --> 00:42:39,948
Dean.
409
00:42:44,082 --> 00:42:45,301
So where'd she go?
410
00:42:49,131 --> 00:42:50,741
It wasn't really working out.
411
00:42:52,961 --> 00:42:55,050
Is that before or
after you punched a guy
412
00:42:55,050 --> 00:42:57,705
for another girl?
413
00:42:57,705 --> 00:43:00,316
I figured this way, we'd
both go down for assault.
414
00:43:00,316 --> 00:43:02,318
Then I'd definitely
get to see you again.
415
00:43:08,846 --> 00:43:11,153
You wanna go get drunk?
416
00:43:11,153 --> 00:43:13,242
How long have you been here?
417
00:43:13,242 --> 00:43:14,809
About three years now.
418
00:43:14,809 --> 00:43:15,984
- Mm.
- Cheers.
419
00:43:15,984 --> 00:43:16,941
Cheers.
420
00:43:22,381 --> 00:43:24,427
Okay, what brought you here?
421
00:43:24,427 --> 00:43:25,733
I came from music.
422
00:43:27,256 --> 00:43:30,389
I had to get the
fuck out of that.
423
00:43:30,389 --> 00:43:33,262
Yeah, is that 'cause
Brooklyn was so bad.
424
00:43:33,262 --> 00:43:35,351
Just lost some of its pizazz.
425
00:43:37,658 --> 00:43:39,398
Yeah, where are you from?
426
00:43:40,791 --> 00:43:42,227
Nashville.
427
00:43:42,227 --> 00:43:44,447
I've always
wanted to go there.
428
00:43:44,447 --> 00:43:47,493
That's funny, I've
always wanted to leave.
429
00:43:47,493 --> 00:43:48,843
Mm.
430
00:43:50,105 --> 00:43:51,715
Care to elaborate?
431
00:43:54,762 --> 00:43:57,678
Too many shitty memories.
432
00:43:59,070 --> 00:44:01,029
Yeah,
see, lost its pizazz.
433
00:44:01,029 --> 00:44:02,944
Mm.
434
00:44:02,944 --> 00:44:06,774
Yeah, every street corner
reminded me of something I lost.
435
00:44:06,774 --> 00:44:08,123
And what'd you lose?
436
00:44:08,123 --> 00:44:09,080
Everything.
437
00:44:10,299 --> 00:44:11,779
Dad, my grandparents.
438
00:44:13,868 --> 00:44:15,043
Look at that.
439
00:44:15,043 --> 00:44:16,522
Yeah.
440
00:44:16,522 --> 00:44:19,264
So, any other family?
441
00:44:19,264 --> 00:44:20,701
None that I speak to, no.
442
00:44:22,877 --> 00:44:23,791
You?
443
00:44:23,791 --> 00:44:26,750
I have a sister.
444
00:44:26,750 --> 00:44:30,536
She lives in San Francisco,
but we don't talk much.
445
00:44:32,800 --> 00:44:34,758
That's bizarre.
446
00:44:34,758 --> 00:44:35,933
Family that I don't speak to
447
00:44:35,933 --> 00:44:38,762
lives right outside the city.
448
00:44:38,762 --> 00:44:39,720
Walnut Creek.
449
00:44:40,721 --> 00:44:42,374
Intriguing.
450
00:44:42,374 --> 00:44:43,462
I'd say.
451
00:44:44,768 --> 00:44:47,771
So, music, hmm?
452
00:44:47,771 --> 00:44:48,729
Music.
453
00:44:48,990 --> 00:44:50,469
Producing what?
454
00:44:50,469 --> 00:44:52,558
Yeah, a little
bit of everything.
455
00:44:52,558 --> 00:44:55,561
Right now, I do music
for the motion pictures.
456
00:44:56,998 --> 00:44:58,477
Is it your own music?
457
00:44:58,477 --> 00:45:00,349
Not really.
458
00:45:00,349 --> 00:45:03,091
I'm more of a music supervisor,
so I get to take any bands
459
00:45:03,091 --> 00:45:06,398
or songs that nobody's ever
heard of and give 'em exposure.
460
00:45:06,398 --> 00:45:09,140
Kinda my way of making other
people's dreams come true.
461
00:45:10,838 --> 00:45:12,796
I'm paying it forward.
462
00:45:12,796 --> 00:45:15,059
And why don't you
use your own music?
463
00:45:16,626 --> 00:45:19,847
Because it's not ready yet.
464
00:45:19,847 --> 00:45:23,328
But I will one day.
465
00:45:25,200 --> 00:45:26,941
What's your thing, Nashville?
466
00:45:26,941 --> 00:45:29,552
What's your deal?
What's your "thang"?
467
00:45:29,552 --> 00:45:31,641
I don't have a "thang."
468
00:45:31,641 --> 00:45:33,251
Really, nothing?
469
00:45:37,473 --> 00:45:38,779
I like music.
470
00:45:40,084 --> 00:45:42,565
I used to sing a little bit.
471
00:45:42,565 --> 00:45:45,046
I used to do a lot of things.
472
00:45:45,046 --> 00:45:48,005
Well, that's perfect
'cause I'll play you my stuff
473
00:45:48,005 --> 00:45:49,354
when you play me yours.
474
00:45:51,530 --> 00:45:53,402
That's never going to happen.
475
00:45:53,402 --> 00:45:55,839
Yeah,
we'll see about that.
476
00:45:55,839 --> 00:45:58,799
Don't you hold your breath.
477
00:45:58,799 --> 00:45:59,843
Okay.
478
00:46:18,079 --> 00:46:20,298
Dream place to go?
479
00:46:20,298 --> 00:46:21,256
Italy.
480
00:46:22,518 --> 00:46:23,867
Birthday?
481
00:46:23,867 --> 00:46:25,086
October 28th.
482
00:46:26,914 --> 00:46:28,567
Shut the fuck up.
483
00:46:28,567 --> 00:46:30,308
- What?
- Wait, 10/28?
484
00:46:30,308 --> 00:46:31,657
Yeah, that would
be October 28th.
485
00:46:31,657 --> 00:46:33,398
That would be.
486
00:46:33,398 --> 00:46:36,619
Creepy, I have a huge
connection to that number.
487
00:46:36,619 --> 00:46:38,012
What's the connection?
488
00:46:38,012 --> 00:46:39,404
It's the name of this song
489
00:46:39,404 --> 00:46:42,233
that I've always
wanted to finish.
490
00:46:42,233 --> 00:46:46,498
I don't get it, the
song's name is 10/28?
491
00:46:46,498 --> 00:46:48,544
Well, it's never officially
been named, you know,
492
00:46:48,544 --> 00:46:52,113
that must have been the
date that I created it.
493
00:46:52,113 --> 00:46:53,288
But I never finished
it, so yeah,
494
00:46:53,288 --> 00:46:55,943
it's still 10/28 in my computer.
495
00:46:57,074 --> 00:46:58,075
What's it about?
496
00:46:59,163 --> 00:47:00,904
I don't really know.
497
00:47:03,211 --> 00:47:07,911
I saw this girl in this coffee
shop and she just looked sad.
498
00:47:09,130 --> 00:47:11,654
She was so stunning.
499
00:47:11,654 --> 00:47:13,395
But when I was
watching her, you know,
500
00:47:13,395 --> 00:47:16,441
people would go up and talk
to her and she'd smile.
501
00:47:16,441 --> 00:47:19,140
As soon as they walked
away, she'd just drop it.
502
00:47:20,141 --> 00:47:22,883
It was painful, forced.
503
00:47:22,883 --> 00:47:26,625
And she just looked so sad.
504
00:47:28,758 --> 00:47:32,109
And then I heard this beat in
my head and a couple phrases
505
00:47:32,109 --> 00:47:36,113
and I went home and
I created it for her.
506
00:47:36,113 --> 00:47:38,681
But just never found
inspiration to finish it.
507
00:47:41,162 --> 00:47:43,555
Maybe that's all it
was ever supposed to be.
508
00:47:45,644 --> 00:47:49,822
Maybe, but there's
only like eight lyrics.
509
00:47:51,824 --> 00:47:52,956
Maybe that's enough.
510
00:47:56,307 --> 00:47:57,221
Maybe.
511
00:47:58,353 --> 00:47:59,702
Can we go listen to it?
512
00:48:01,486 --> 00:48:02,966
- Like right now?
- Yeah, like now.
513
00:48:02,966 --> 00:48:04,489
I wanna hear it.
514
00:48:21,985 --> 00:48:24,031
♪ I'll be fine ♪
515
00:48:24,031 --> 00:48:25,423
♪ It'll be fine ♪
516
00:48:25,684 --> 00:48:27,817
♪ Please don't worry about me ♪
517
00:48:27,817 --> 00:48:29,688
♪ I'm fine ♪
518
00:48:29,688 --> 00:48:31,386
♪ Yeah, I'll be fine ♪
519
00:48:31,386 --> 00:48:33,997
♪ I wish you cared ♪
520
00:48:33,997 --> 00:48:35,390
♪ I'm fine ♪
521
00:48:35,390 --> 00:48:37,131
♪ Yeah, I'll be fine ♪
522
00:48:37,131 --> 00:48:39,481
♪ Don't worry about me
523
00:48:39,481 --> 00:48:41,091
♪ I'm fine ♪
524
00:48:41,091 --> 00:48:43,137
♪ Yeah, I'll be fine ♪
525
00:48:43,137 --> 00:48:45,835
♪ I wish you cared ♪
526
00:48:50,057 --> 00:48:51,406
It's perfect.
527
00:48:53,060 --> 00:48:56,585
It is just like that.
528
00:48:56,585 --> 00:48:58,979
You can't change anything
about it, not even the name.
529
00:48:58,979 --> 00:49:00,371
Yeah?
530
00:49:00,371 --> 00:49:01,329
Promise?
531
00:49:02,983 --> 00:49:04,462
Yeah, I promise.
532
00:49:08,162 --> 00:49:10,555
It's really fucking good.
533
00:49:10,555 --> 00:49:11,730
Thank you.
534
00:49:16,083 --> 00:49:18,041
Is this your grandma?
535
00:49:18,041 --> 00:49:19,173
Yeah.
536
00:49:19,173 --> 00:49:20,783
Yeah, that's my babushka.
537
00:49:20,783 --> 00:49:23,046
She was basically my mom.
538
00:49:23,046 --> 00:49:24,656
She raised me.
539
00:49:28,486 --> 00:49:30,706
What happened
with your parents?
540
00:49:30,706 --> 00:49:35,189
I know that you said
that your dad passed.
541
00:49:35,189 --> 00:49:36,233
Yeah, yeah.
542
00:49:36,233 --> 00:49:38,235
My old man, he's gone.
543
00:49:38,235 --> 00:49:41,934
My mom, she's [Trenton
whistles] around.
544
00:49:43,545 --> 00:49:44,589
Walnut Creek.
545
00:49:46,330 --> 00:49:49,377
Yeah, yeah.
546
00:49:50,160 --> 00:49:52,467
Noted.
547
00:49:52,467 --> 00:49:54,469
But my baba, she
was everything to me.
548
00:49:54,469 --> 00:50:01,171
I mean, she was my friend, my
parent, my mentor, my teacher.
549
00:50:01,171 --> 00:50:03,782
She was more like a tutor
and did my homework for me.
550
00:50:06,307 --> 00:50:07,482
She was beautiful.
551
00:50:09,527 --> 00:50:12,356
I can see how much
she loves you.
552
00:50:14,619 --> 00:50:16,621
She was amazing.
553
00:50:16,621 --> 00:50:20,582
♪ I wanna get feeling ♪
554
00:50:20,582 --> 00:50:24,629
♪ When I'm feeling, don't
care about nothing babe ♪
555
00:50:24,629 --> 00:50:26,414
♪ I wanna get ♪
556
00:50:42,082 --> 00:50:43,213
Wait, wait.
557
00:50:44,432 --> 00:50:46,260
Wait a second, wait.
558
00:50:46,260 --> 00:50:48,784
I just don't know that we
should go all the way right now,
559
00:50:48,784 --> 00:50:50,002
if we should do that.
560
00:50:50,002 --> 00:50:51,569
- Go all the way?
- Yeah.
561
00:50:51,569 --> 00:50:53,397
Is this middle school?
562
00:50:53,397 --> 00:50:57,097
No, no, just I really like you
563
00:50:57,097 --> 00:51:01,492
and I don't want to fuck
it up by going all the way.
564
00:51:03,407 --> 00:51:06,062
I just think that...
565
00:51:06,062 --> 00:51:08,325
I think maybe we should
just, you know...
566
00:51:08,325 --> 00:51:09,892
Hold hands, go steady?
567
00:51:09,892 --> 00:51:12,155
Yeah, talk and I could, sure.
568
00:51:12,155 --> 00:51:18,640
I could hold you or we could
just make out or whatever.
569
00:51:18,640 --> 00:51:21,077
I just don't wanna
fuck it up, you know?
570
00:51:23,471 --> 00:51:24,341
Yeah.
571
00:51:24,341 --> 00:51:26,865
Is that okay?
572
00:51:26,865 --> 00:51:27,997
It's not that I...
573
00:51:27,997 --> 00:51:29,477
Oh, shut up.
574
00:51:29,477 --> 00:51:31,653
Please don't make
me feel any worse.
575
00:51:33,307 --> 00:51:35,396
What is all of this?
576
00:51:37,485 --> 00:51:43,186
They're just thoughts,
ideas, some songs.
577
00:51:43,186 --> 00:51:44,970
One's 10/28.
578
00:51:44,970 --> 00:51:46,624
Well, you can
cross that one off.
579
00:51:46,624 --> 00:51:48,322
Well, yeah, I
could, but you know,
580
00:51:48,322 --> 00:51:51,586
I might leave it up now
just to remind me of you.
581
00:51:53,153 --> 00:51:55,590
You know, a little memento.
582
00:51:55,590 --> 00:51:57,026
I can help you with that.
583
00:51:57,026 --> 00:51:58,027
Yeah, what you got?
584
00:51:58,027 --> 00:51:59,202
Let's see it.
585
00:52:00,421 --> 00:52:02,858
I am quite the artist.
586
00:52:02,858 --> 00:52:04,381
- Okay.
- If I do say so myself.
587
00:52:04,381 --> 00:52:06,818
I'm excited.
588
00:52:06,818 --> 00:52:08,472
We gotta get the hair.
589
00:52:10,213 --> 00:52:11,954
A little heart action.
590
00:52:13,825 --> 00:52:15,566
So what is that, exactly?
591
00:52:16,350 --> 00:52:17,786
What?
592
00:52:17,786 --> 00:52:19,309
I can't...
593
00:52:19,309 --> 00:52:21,137
- It's us.
- Oh, shit.
594
00:52:21,137 --> 00:52:22,747
That's super insulting.
595
00:52:22,747 --> 00:52:23,922
Yeah, no, no, I see it.
596
00:52:23,922 --> 00:52:25,010
Wait, wait, hold on, hold on.
597
00:52:25,010 --> 00:52:26,186
No, no.
598
00:52:26,186 --> 00:52:29,928
It's a little tiny, uh yeah.
599
00:52:29,928 --> 00:52:31,147
Now I see it.
600
00:52:31,147 --> 00:52:32,583
- Yeah.
- I get it, yeah.
601
00:52:32,583 --> 00:52:33,976
The proportions...
602
00:52:33,976 --> 00:52:35,195
Seem accurate.
603
00:52:35,195 --> 00:52:36,283
Believe me, I felt down there.
604
00:52:36,283 --> 00:52:38,110
- Yeah, okay.
- Yeah.
605
00:52:38,110 --> 00:52:39,068
Little peepee.
606
00:52:39,068 --> 00:52:40,591
The small penis.
607
00:52:40,591 --> 00:52:41,592
And we're holding
hands, it's just like...
608
00:52:41,592 --> 00:52:44,073
Yeah, it's identical.
609
00:52:44,073 --> 00:52:45,422
Yeah, totally.
610
00:52:45,422 --> 00:52:47,946
Oh, you are an artist.
611
00:52:47,946 --> 00:52:49,209
Thank you for the drawing.
612
00:52:54,562 --> 00:52:57,521
Is that really what you
think my thing looks like?
613
00:52:57,521 --> 00:53:00,872
Mr. let's just talk
and I have a tiny penis.
614
00:53:00,872 --> 00:53:01,917
Oh, shit.
615
00:53:30,598 --> 00:53:31,686
I'm sorry.
616
00:53:40,347 --> 00:53:41,870
I'm really sorry.
617
00:53:45,656 --> 00:53:47,223
I'm sorry.
618
00:53:47,223 --> 00:53:48,180
No.
619
00:53:50,487 --> 00:53:52,750
Okay, it's been
really fucking tough.
620
00:53:55,013 --> 00:53:56,537
If you could just cut
me slack this one time.
621
00:53:56,537 --> 00:53:59,453
I'd really fucking
appreciate it.
622
00:54:02,369 --> 00:54:03,500
I really am sorry.
623
00:54:13,858 --> 00:54:15,338
Sorry.
624
00:54:15,338 --> 00:54:16,296
What happened?
625
00:54:20,038 --> 00:54:21,779
I lost my job for starters.
626
00:54:25,827 --> 00:54:28,133
Fuck them.
627
00:54:28,133 --> 00:54:30,005
You've got money,
you don't need work.
628
00:54:31,441 --> 00:54:33,182
Yeah.
629
00:54:33,182 --> 00:54:35,271
Yeah, you're right.
630
00:54:35,271 --> 00:54:38,187
It's exactly what I need.
631
00:54:38,187 --> 00:54:41,973
Just a lot of free time and
just me and my thoughts.
632
00:54:41,973 --> 00:54:45,629
You know, it's a great
idea, I like that.
633
00:54:45,629 --> 00:54:47,457
I didn't really think that
one all the way through.
634
00:54:47,457 --> 00:54:48,850
Yeah, I don't think so.
635
00:54:51,418 --> 00:54:53,115
Have you talked
to your sister?
636
00:54:54,246 --> 00:54:55,291
She won't answer.
637
00:55:02,646 --> 00:55:04,953
I thought she called
you back the other day.
638
00:55:17,618 --> 00:55:19,446
You should write to her.
639
00:55:19,446 --> 00:55:21,578
That way, you know, you get
to say what you wanna say.
640
00:55:28,890 --> 00:55:32,502
Yeah, I don't really
know what to say.
641
00:55:32,502 --> 00:55:33,895
Yeah, you fucking do.
642
00:55:38,378 --> 00:55:43,426
Yeah, I guess I do.
643
00:55:52,261 --> 00:55:53,480
Stop.
644
00:56:05,622 --> 00:56:09,713
Oh, fuck.
645
00:57:32,013 --> 00:57:33,623
I'd never leave you.
646
00:57:33,623 --> 00:57:35,190
If you
wanna kill yourself,
647
00:57:35,190 --> 00:57:36,844
I'm not gonna
stand by and watch.
648
00:57:39,063 --> 00:57:41,805
No, no, no, no, no.
649
00:58:51,919 --> 00:58:54,225
So what's something
you've always wanted to do?
650
00:58:57,141 --> 00:59:00,754
Travel, it's a big one for me.
651
00:59:03,060 --> 00:59:04,584
Where do you want to go?
652
00:59:05,672 --> 00:59:06,586
Everywhere.
653
00:59:08,109 --> 00:59:09,197
Never been anywhere.
654
00:59:14,332 --> 00:59:15,203
What are you doing?
655
00:59:15,203 --> 00:59:16,639
Up, let's go.
656
00:59:16,639 --> 00:59:17,553
What?
657
00:59:17,553 --> 00:59:18,598
Come on.
658
00:59:18,598 --> 00:59:20,034
Where are we going?
659
00:59:20,034 --> 00:59:21,688
Going on an adventure
to everywhere.
660
01:00:12,608 --> 01:00:15,263
Always wondering what's going
on in that head of yours.
661
01:00:16,873 --> 01:00:20,355
You really wanna know
what I was thinking?
662
01:00:20,355 --> 01:00:21,573
Yeah, I do.
663
01:00:23,750 --> 01:00:24,925
It's scary.
664
01:00:26,361 --> 01:00:28,668
I like you as much
as I do right now
665
01:00:28,668 --> 01:00:31,409
because there is a chance
you won't like me back.
666
01:00:32,933 --> 01:00:35,326
Yeah, well,
I've been in love with you
667
01:00:35,326 --> 01:00:36,806
since the moment I saw you.
668
01:00:37,981 --> 01:00:39,591
You don't know me.
669
01:00:41,419 --> 01:00:42,812
I'm not easy to be with.
670
01:00:44,335 --> 01:00:47,991
I am moody and mean.
671
01:00:50,515 --> 01:00:55,607
And I have gotten so, so
good at fucking things up.
672
01:00:57,218 --> 01:00:59,263
Well, you don't
know me either.
673
01:00:59,263 --> 01:01:00,830
I'm a resilient motherfucker.
674
01:01:05,052 --> 01:01:07,445
Hey, let's play a game.
675
01:01:07,445 --> 01:01:09,621
Now, it's called
the honesty game.
676
01:01:09,621 --> 01:01:13,843
And we've gotta tell each
other the most fucked up,
677
01:01:13,843 --> 01:01:16,716
shameful things that we've
ever done in our lives.
678
01:01:16,716 --> 01:01:17,934
You know, shit
that we'd normally
679
01:01:17,934 --> 01:01:19,196
try to hide from each other.
680
01:01:19,196 --> 01:01:20,502
I'm good actually, I think.
681
01:01:20,502 --> 01:01:21,590
Oh, come on, hear me out.
682
01:01:21,590 --> 01:01:24,114
It's fun!
683
01:01:24,114 --> 01:01:26,682
Look, look, we just cut
through the bullshit, right?
684
01:01:26,682 --> 01:01:31,774
And if we're still standing
at the end, give this a try.
685
01:01:32,906 --> 01:01:35,125
I mean, like a real fucking try.
686
01:01:38,912 --> 01:01:40,522
Proceed.
687
01:01:40,522 --> 01:01:41,479
Merci.
688
01:01:45,832 --> 01:01:46,789
What happened to your parents?
689
01:01:46,789 --> 01:01:47,921
That's so funny.
690
01:01:47,921 --> 01:01:49,313
I was actually just thinking
691
01:01:49,313 --> 01:01:50,532
that you should
probably go first
692
01:01:50,532 --> 01:01:51,707
'cause it's your fucking game.
693
01:01:51,707 --> 01:01:52,839
Ooh, touche.
694
01:01:55,624 --> 01:02:01,325
Why don't you
speak to your mother?
695
01:02:01,325 --> 01:02:03,066
Oof, good one.
696
01:02:05,677 --> 01:02:09,377
So my parents, they were
married happily for 19 years.
697
01:02:11,031 --> 01:02:14,861
And then when I was 11,
my dad got lung cancer.
698
01:02:14,861 --> 01:02:15,818
He died.
699
01:02:21,868 --> 01:02:24,348
My mom kind of got
lost after that.
700
01:02:24,348 --> 01:02:26,873
She was just sad all the time.
701
01:02:26,873 --> 01:02:30,702
And then she met Dan.
702
01:02:30,702 --> 01:02:35,098
Dan called himself Dan
the motherfucking man.
703
01:02:35,098 --> 01:02:37,013
There wasn't a lot of
things that Dan liked.
704
01:02:37,013 --> 01:02:42,366
He didn't like kids, but
he did like hitting women.
705
01:02:42,366 --> 01:02:46,631
When I started to stand up to
him, that's when they left.
706
01:02:46,631 --> 01:02:49,721
And I moved in with my grandma.
707
01:02:49,721 --> 01:02:53,377
So my mom literally
chose abuse over me.
708
01:02:53,377 --> 01:02:56,511
Now she's trying
to reach out again
709
01:02:56,511 --> 01:02:59,601
and I've got nothing
to say to her,
710
01:02:59,601 --> 01:03:03,910
so I lost both my parents
the day my dad died.
711
01:03:07,652 --> 01:03:08,523
Sorry.
712
01:03:09,916 --> 01:03:10,830
It's okay.
713
01:03:20,230 --> 01:03:21,710
Both my parents are dead.
714
01:03:24,931 --> 01:03:27,716
Mom died of a heroin
overdose when I was five.
715
01:03:30,719 --> 01:03:33,026
I don't know if it was
intentional or not.
716
01:03:33,026 --> 01:03:34,984
My dad did.
717
01:03:34,984 --> 01:03:39,293
But apparently he didn't think
that was useful information
718
01:03:39,293 --> 01:03:44,037
to tell me before he took
his own life 10 years ago.
719
01:03:47,257 --> 01:03:50,173
Is that what
you were afraid to tell me?
720
01:03:50,173 --> 01:03:53,960
No, I said I'm just like him.
721
01:03:56,963 --> 01:03:58,660
So you tried to kill yourself?
722
01:03:59,617 --> 01:04:00,531
Yep.
723
01:04:02,055 --> 01:04:02,969
Why?
724
01:04:06,581 --> 01:04:07,495
I don't know.
725
01:04:12,195 --> 01:04:15,982
I was going through a breakup
with my ex that was messy,
726
01:04:19,115 --> 01:04:20,638
but I had wanted to do it
727
01:04:20,638 --> 01:04:22,640
for a really long
time before that.
728
01:04:24,207 --> 01:04:27,384
Why do you think
you were so unhappy?
729
01:04:34,652 --> 01:04:40,963
I used to say it was
because I'm an artist.
730
01:04:40,963 --> 01:04:45,359
I had to stay in these deep
dark places to create my art,
731
01:04:47,448 --> 01:04:50,190
but I don't make art anymore.
732
01:04:50,190 --> 01:04:54,977
So I think that might've
been bullshit too.
733
01:04:58,024 --> 01:05:00,852
Maybe it really does just
come down to my mom and dad.
734
01:05:03,551 --> 01:05:05,814
Finding my dad that
way didn't help.
735
01:05:08,773 --> 01:05:09,905
You found your dad?
736
01:05:13,604 --> 01:05:14,779
Shotgun to the head.
737
01:05:17,913 --> 01:05:22,787
I was right upstairs,
so he knew I'd find him.
738
01:05:26,182 --> 01:05:28,402
I was barefoot when
I came running in.
739
01:05:31,796 --> 01:05:34,103
I'll never forget that
feeling under my feet.
740
01:05:39,587 --> 01:05:43,069
Wow, I'm really sorry, Dean.
741
01:05:47,812 --> 01:05:52,904
It's funny, it's like once
it's a thought in your head,
742
01:05:55,342 --> 01:05:56,473
it's always there.
743
01:05:58,258 --> 01:06:02,392
Like an alcoholic is
always gonna want a drink.
744
01:06:04,742 --> 01:06:06,483
And a girl with bulimia
is always gonna think
745
01:06:06,483 --> 01:06:09,269
about running off to the
bathroom after a steak dinner.
746
01:06:13,099 --> 01:06:18,626
But with sadness, it just
has its way of creeping in,
747
01:06:18,626 --> 01:06:20,497
even over the smallest things.
748
01:06:22,543 --> 01:06:25,154
Bad day, kill yourself.
749
01:06:27,113 --> 01:06:30,855
Heartbroken, kill yourself.
750
01:06:32,727 --> 01:06:35,251
Parking ticket, kill yourself.
751
01:06:39,777 --> 01:06:40,691
Fuck.
752
01:06:42,215 --> 01:06:45,479
I have so many parking tickets.
753
01:06:51,833 --> 01:06:56,185
Did they hold you in
the hospital after?
754
01:06:58,448 --> 01:07:00,798
Yeah.
755
01:07:00,798 --> 01:07:03,236
Life's definitely been
interesting ever since.
756
01:07:03,236 --> 01:07:09,590
I'll give it that,
but to be honest,
757
01:07:09,590 --> 01:07:13,072
I'm still pretty
fucking embarrassed.
758
01:07:18,077 --> 01:07:20,340
Like when you fail,
759
01:07:23,169 --> 01:07:25,997
you have to look the people
on the face that you hurt.
760
01:07:30,176 --> 01:07:31,742
And I don't know what to say.
761
01:07:34,310 --> 01:07:38,314
I think you just gotta
tell 'em straight up
762
01:07:39,968 --> 01:07:41,100
like you just told me.
763
01:07:43,058 --> 01:07:46,453
It's nothing to be
embarrassed about.
764
01:07:46,453 --> 01:07:50,631
Some people just feel
more deeply than others.
765
01:07:54,896 --> 01:07:55,810
Did I win?
766
01:07:58,117 --> 01:08:00,162
Yeah, that one
point from two point.
767
01:08:00,162 --> 01:08:01,642
Yeah, you won the game.
768
01:08:01,642 --> 01:08:04,079
Yeah, congratulations champ.
769
01:08:06,995 --> 01:08:07,952
Yeah.
770
01:08:18,615 --> 01:08:21,705
This is why I wanted that
night to be different.
771
01:08:21,705 --> 01:08:24,143
I'm sure that's what a
lot of guys want from you,
772
01:08:24,143 --> 01:08:25,492
but I want you.
773
01:08:28,451 --> 01:08:30,627
Every single part of you.
774
01:08:34,370 --> 01:08:39,419
♪ We'll cut our teeth ♪
775
01:08:40,463 --> 01:08:45,164
♪ May the day stay sweet ♪
776
01:08:46,295 --> 01:08:50,038
♪ May your steady heart bea t ♪
777
01:08:50,038 --> 01:08:55,130
♪ Be the good in me ♪
778
01:08:56,000 --> 01:08:58,481
♪ The good in me ♪
779
01:09:11,799 --> 01:09:14,149
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
780
01:09:22,113 --> 01:09:27,206
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
781
01:09:32,080 --> 01:09:36,171
♪ You fed me reason ♪
782
01:09:36,171 --> 01:09:41,263
♪ Just like I taught you to ♪
783
01:09:42,308 --> 01:09:46,877
♪ Brought the wooden cu p ♪
784
01:09:47,661 --> 01:09:52,666
♪ To my mouth ♪
785
01:09:53,449 --> 01:09:55,538
♪ And I drank ♪
786
01:09:58,672 --> 01:09:59,890
Who are those sexy women?
787
01:09:59,890 --> 01:10:01,240
Who are the sexy women?
788
01:10:03,894 --> 01:10:05,287
Oh my God, oh my.
789
01:10:07,202 --> 01:10:08,595
Oh, I missed you.
790
01:10:08,595 --> 01:10:09,639
Miss you.
791
01:10:14,209 --> 01:10:15,819
You love my friend.
792
01:10:15,819 --> 01:10:17,212
Yeah, I really do.
793
01:10:17,212 --> 01:10:19,823
Yeah.
794
01:10:19,823 --> 01:10:23,087
And you're aware of where
I was just released from?
795
01:10:23,087 --> 01:10:24,698
I am.
796
01:10:24,698 --> 01:10:26,439
Okay.
797
01:10:26,439 --> 01:10:27,962
And they've explained
that Taryn was a resident
798
01:10:27,962 --> 01:10:29,833
of this fine
establishment as well?
799
01:10:31,357 --> 01:10:34,098
Yes, indeed they have.
800
01:10:34,098 --> 01:10:35,796
So you understand
that if you hurt her,
801
01:10:35,796 --> 01:10:37,885
we will fucking kill you.
802
01:10:37,885 --> 01:10:39,060
Oh, shit.
803
01:10:39,930 --> 01:10:40,844
Fully aware.
804
01:10:43,847 --> 01:10:44,979
Put your arms around me.
805
01:10:44,979 --> 01:10:47,286
I haven't felt a man in months!
806
01:11:40,556 --> 01:11:42,166
One, two, three!
807
01:11:52,699 --> 01:11:54,222
Thank you.
808
01:11:54,222 --> 01:11:55,745
You're just using
me for my cooking.
809
01:11:55,745 --> 01:11:57,225
I kinda like this.
810
01:11:57,225 --> 01:11:58,618
Oh, and your money.
811
01:11:58,618 --> 01:12:00,228
Don't forget that.
812
01:12:00,228 --> 01:12:01,447
It's been real nice not
paying for anything.
813
01:12:01,447 --> 01:12:03,187
Wow.
814
01:12:03,187 --> 01:12:04,580
You know I love you.
815
01:12:04,580 --> 01:12:06,365
Nope, don't believe you.
816
01:12:06,365 --> 01:12:07,278
You don't believe me?
817
01:12:07,278 --> 01:12:08,454
Nope.
818
01:12:08,454 --> 01:12:10,107
Okay.
819
01:12:10,107 --> 01:12:12,632
Excuse me, everyone here!
820
01:12:12,632 --> 01:12:14,155
I would like you all to know
821
01:12:14,155 --> 01:12:16,636
how much I love
this beautiful man.
822
01:12:16,636 --> 01:12:19,116
Well endowed, monster in the-
823
01:12:25,296 --> 01:12:28,256
♪ I was broken ♪
824
01:12:28,256 --> 01:12:29,300
You sure?
825
01:12:31,302 --> 01:12:36,395
♪ No voice, a choice
could be trusted ♪
826
01:12:37,483 --> 01:12:41,661
♪ Hope for me was a lie ♪
827
01:12:41,661 --> 01:12:46,796
♪ Just another reason to cr y ♪
828
01:12:48,668 --> 01:12:53,716
♪ Lost I must confess ♪
829
01:12:54,804 --> 01:12:59,200
♪ Taking up space at best ♪
830
01:13:02,508 --> 01:13:07,600
♪ No guiding light through
the darkness inside ♪
831
01:13:08,818 --> 01:13:13,562
♪ And longing to
lay it to rest ♪
832
01:13:15,825 --> 01:13:20,047
♪ But everything
looks so different ♪
833
01:13:20,047 --> 01:13:25,139
♪ When you step
out of the dark ♪
834
01:13:26,270 --> 01:13:28,272
♪ You showed me rock bottom ♪
835
01:13:28,272 --> 01:13:32,886
♪ Could be a beautiful
place to start ♪
836
01:13:57,737 --> 01:13:59,652
You're so beautiful.
837
01:14:13,883 --> 01:14:15,668
Hi.
838
01:14:15,668 --> 01:14:18,235
Jesus fucking Christ.
839
01:14:22,326 --> 01:14:25,765
I'm glad you found
God in these dark times.
840
01:14:30,596 --> 01:14:33,424
I was gonna write you back,
but I ended up on a plane.
841
01:14:41,345 --> 01:14:44,827
I go through day after day
with this crippling fear.
842
01:14:51,007 --> 01:14:52,966
I just keep up the status quo
843
01:14:52,966 --> 01:14:55,185
because that's what
I'm supposed to do.
844
01:14:56,752 --> 01:14:59,363
I'm supposed to be
the together one,
845
01:15:02,932 --> 01:15:04,630
but I'm not together.
846
01:15:11,419 --> 01:15:14,117
I want a baby so bad.
847
01:15:15,597 --> 01:15:16,859
It's all I want.
848
01:15:19,514 --> 01:15:20,950
But I have this...
849
01:15:23,779 --> 01:15:25,607
The thought of postpartum.
850
01:15:30,133 --> 01:15:31,700
What if I fuck up?
851
01:15:32,919 --> 01:15:34,964
What if I'm not a good mom?
852
01:15:37,097 --> 01:15:38,968
I am not a good sister.
853
01:15:38,968 --> 01:15:40,622
How the fuck am I
gonna be a good mom?
854
01:15:40,622 --> 01:15:42,189
That is not true.
855
01:15:42,189 --> 01:15:43,930
I failed you, Dean.
856
01:15:43,930 --> 01:15:47,498
That is not true.
857
01:15:47,498 --> 01:15:49,152
When I was laying on
that bathroom floor,
858
01:15:49,152 --> 01:15:53,200
all I could think about was you.
859
01:15:53,200 --> 01:15:57,726
I kept praying if somehow I
made it, I could fix this.
860
01:16:01,730 --> 01:16:05,212
All I felt in those last
moments were regret.
861
01:16:05,212 --> 01:16:07,867
And it was terrifying.
862
01:16:11,697 --> 01:16:14,395
I can't go through it again.
863
01:16:19,530 --> 01:16:21,010
I'm so scared.
864
01:16:23,099 --> 01:16:26,886
It will kill me if you die.
865
01:16:28,888 --> 01:16:31,064
I'm not going anywhere.
866
01:16:39,768 --> 01:16:44,860
You know that, I can't even
picture her face anymore.
867
01:16:48,472 --> 01:16:51,127
I try to recall details,
868
01:16:51,127 --> 01:16:56,263
but all I have really are the
things that you've told me.
869
01:17:01,137 --> 01:17:04,488
And now, every time
I picture his face,
870
01:17:08,101 --> 01:17:09,842
it's how I found him that night.
871
01:17:14,977 --> 01:17:17,458
Sometimes it feels like
they didn't even exist.
872
01:17:21,723 --> 01:17:26,423
I see her every
time I look at you.
873
01:17:27,903 --> 01:17:30,993
You look exactly like her.
874
01:17:35,302 --> 01:17:38,522
I miss them too,
but I miss you more.
875
01:17:44,093 --> 01:17:46,835
What if I moved?
876
01:17:46,835 --> 01:17:48,489
What if I moved
to San Francisco?
877
01:17:52,014 --> 01:17:53,973
What about your life here?
878
01:17:56,453 --> 01:17:59,282
I would go if
you would let me.
879
01:18:28,616 --> 01:18:29,660
Jackson, stop.
880
01:18:31,967 --> 01:18:32,881
Jackson!
881
01:18:34,709 --> 01:18:35,884
Please stop!
882
01:18:40,410 --> 01:18:42,456
I know what that must
have done to you,
883
01:18:43,849 --> 01:18:45,328
finding me like that.
884
01:18:47,156 --> 01:18:52,248
You are the most
gentle, kind man I know.
885
01:18:54,468 --> 01:18:56,905
And I know that that
must have destroyed you.
886
01:19:00,691 --> 01:19:01,780
I'm sorry.
887
01:19:01,780 --> 01:19:02,650
I know why you're here.
888
01:19:03,825 --> 01:19:05,261
You want closure and forgiveness
889
01:19:05,261 --> 01:19:06,828
and I can't give that to you.
890
01:19:07,873 --> 01:19:09,439
I can't.
891
01:19:09,439 --> 01:19:13,966
I know that you have
no reason to believe me,
892
01:19:15,141 --> 01:19:16,316
but I've changed.
893
01:19:18,361 --> 01:19:19,275
I have.
894
01:19:20,973 --> 01:19:24,193
I have friends and family.
895
01:19:26,935 --> 01:19:29,546
I'm moving to be with my sister,
896
01:19:29,546 --> 01:19:33,986
and I'm in a healthy relationship.
897
01:19:33,986 --> 01:19:35,422
For the first time in my life,
898
01:19:35,422 --> 01:19:37,206
I haven't fucked something up.
899
01:19:39,121 --> 01:19:40,079
I'm better.
900
01:19:41,167 --> 01:19:42,864
I'm doing better.
901
01:19:42,864 --> 01:19:46,955
How many times did we
go on this rollercoaster?
902
01:19:46,955 --> 01:19:49,610
You would sell me on how
you were getting better,
903
01:19:49,610 --> 01:19:53,614
how you were gonna change
and you would give me hope
904
01:19:53,614 --> 01:19:55,311
that things were
going to be different,
905
01:19:55,311 --> 01:19:58,793
and then you would throw
everything you had at me!
906
01:20:00,360 --> 01:20:01,883
I tried.
907
01:20:01,883 --> 01:20:04,538
I tried even when
you stopped trying.
908
01:20:04,538 --> 01:20:07,715
I tried for you, I did.
909
01:20:09,935 --> 01:20:13,460
So I hope it is different.
910
01:20:13,460 --> 01:20:17,681
I hope it is different because
if it's not, then let him go.
911
01:20:19,335 --> 01:20:22,991
Because after you, I'm
never the same, ever.
912
01:20:50,758 --> 01:20:52,238
Baby.
913
01:20:53,717 --> 01:20:55,284
The fuck are you doing here?
914
01:20:57,286 --> 01:20:58,287
You okay?
915
01:20:59,158 --> 01:21:00,594
What's going on?
916
01:21:02,901 --> 01:21:03,814
Dean?
917
01:21:08,776 --> 01:21:11,039
What are
you doing here?
918
01:21:11,039 --> 01:21:14,869
I told you I'd
come over after work.
919
01:21:14,869 --> 01:21:16,001
You okay?
920
01:21:16,001 --> 01:21:18,742
Get the fuck out of my house.
921
01:21:18,742 --> 01:21:20,266
Excuse me?
922
01:21:20,266 --> 01:21:21,615
Get the fuck out
of my fucking house.
923
01:21:21,615 --> 01:21:22,790
Babe, what's going on?
924
01:21:22,790 --> 01:21:24,487
Get the fuck out of my house!
925
01:21:24,487 --> 01:21:25,532
Why are you...
926
01:21:25,532 --> 01:21:27,882
Why are you here?
927
01:21:27,882 --> 01:21:29,971
Babe, calm down.
928
01:21:29,971 --> 01:21:30,929
What the fuck is going on?
929
01:21:30,929 --> 01:21:32,539
What's the matter?
930
01:21:32,539 --> 01:21:33,888
Get out of here!
931
01:21:33,888 --> 01:21:34,933
What is going on?
932
01:21:34,933 --> 01:21:35,890
Get outta my house!
933
01:21:35,890 --> 01:21:37,022
Why?
934
01:21:37,022 --> 01:21:38,806
Because I don't want you here.
935
01:21:38,806 --> 01:21:41,026
- What the fuck happened?
- I don't want you here!
936
01:21:41,026 --> 01:21:43,245
Who said you could be in here?
937
01:21:43,245 --> 01:21:44,203
Babe, it's okay.
938
01:21:44,203 --> 01:21:45,639
Don't touch me!
939
01:21:45,639 --> 01:21:46,770
Get out of my house!
940
01:21:46,770 --> 01:21:47,728
Babe.
941
01:21:47,728 --> 01:21:49,164
I don't want you
942
01:21:49,164 --> 01:21:50,296
in my fucking house.
- I heard you.
943
01:21:50,296 --> 01:21:51,732
What is going on?
944
01:21:51,732 --> 01:21:53,560
Then why are
you standing here?
945
01:21:53,560 --> 01:21:55,344
Why, do you get off on it?
946
01:21:55,344 --> 01:21:56,345
Babe, explain.
947
01:21:56,345 --> 01:21:58,217
What do you want?
948
01:21:58,217 --> 01:21:59,914
Do you want me to fucking
cut myself in front of you?
949
01:21:59,914 --> 01:22:00,828
Is this what you're into?
950
01:22:00,828 --> 01:22:01,829
Baby, no.
951
01:22:01,829 --> 01:22:03,048
You fucking sick fuck.
952
01:22:03,048 --> 01:22:05,137
No one wants you here.
953
01:22:05,137 --> 01:22:06,225
No one!
954
01:22:07,226 --> 01:22:08,618
Go.
955
01:22:08,618 --> 01:22:09,576
Go!
956
01:22:11,273 --> 01:22:12,405
Fuck you, go.
957
01:22:16,278 --> 01:22:18,150
What, do you get off on this?
958
01:22:18,150 --> 01:22:20,413
Get the fuck out of my house.
959
01:22:21,805 --> 01:22:23,982
No one wants you
around, you hear me?
960
01:22:23,982 --> 01:22:26,593
Not even your own fucking mama.
961
01:22:28,595 --> 01:22:31,206
This was just a fuck.
962
01:22:31,206 --> 01:22:34,340
Get out of my-
963
01:22:37,299 --> 01:22:38,866
If you're gonna do it,
964
01:22:38,866 --> 01:22:40,259
fucking do it like
you fucking mean it!
965
01:22:41,347 --> 01:22:42,870
Do it like you mean it!
966
01:22:43,784 --> 01:22:45,351
Go!
967
01:22:45,351 --> 01:22:46,569
I know you.
968
01:22:46,569 --> 01:22:48,223
I fucking know you.
969
01:22:48,223 --> 01:22:49,355
You wanna self-destruct.
970
01:22:49,355 --> 01:22:51,052
You don't want me around?
971
01:22:51,052 --> 01:22:52,532
Just say the word, Dean.
972
01:22:52,532 --> 01:22:54,142
You just say the fucking word.
973
01:22:56,753 --> 01:22:57,667
Go.
974
01:23:01,628 --> 01:23:02,542
Go.
975
01:23:12,900 --> 01:23:14,728
Shut the door, bitch!
976
01:23:14,728 --> 01:23:16,686
Shut the fucking door!
977
01:23:20,429 --> 01:23:21,952
Go!
978
01:24:30,804 --> 01:24:31,892
I need help.
979
01:24:34,851 --> 01:24:39,943
I don't wanna fuck things
up like I always do.
980
01:24:43,773 --> 01:24:44,687
Here you go.
981
01:24:46,472 --> 01:24:47,386
Thanks.
982
01:24:49,910 --> 01:24:51,607
Did I wake anyone else up?
983
01:24:53,609 --> 01:24:54,523
It's just me.
984
01:24:58,440 --> 01:24:59,398
What happened?
985
01:25:05,534 --> 01:25:06,753
Are you sober?
986
01:25:06,753 --> 01:25:07,710
Yep.
987
01:25:10,626 --> 01:25:11,758
I have three years.
988
01:25:15,544 --> 01:25:18,460
That's a much lower number
than I would've expected.
989
01:25:22,334 --> 01:25:24,858
Why did you choose to
come here tonight, Dean?
990
01:25:28,209 --> 01:25:29,558
That's a good question.
991
01:25:31,865 --> 01:25:36,957
All this time, I thought that
they both killed themselves.
992
01:25:42,745 --> 01:25:44,747
Then I found this.
993
01:25:53,016 --> 01:25:54,888
"I never know the proper
way to talk about her
994
01:25:54,888 --> 01:25:57,195
and it's not fair to you both.
995
01:26:01,242 --> 01:26:04,767
She was trying to
quit, but she couldn't.
996
01:26:04,767 --> 01:26:06,856
She was the one who
was good at this.
997
01:26:08,945 --> 01:26:10,599
She was meant to be a mother.
998
01:26:12,862 --> 01:26:14,864
Sorry I wasn't better.
999
01:26:14,864 --> 01:26:16,823
I'd trade places
with her if I could.
1000
01:26:18,390 --> 01:26:20,740
I wish I was strong
enough to carry on,
1001
01:26:20,740 --> 01:26:22,263
but I hope you'll continue.
1002
01:26:24,309 --> 01:26:25,223
I love you.
1003
01:26:25,223 --> 01:26:26,224
I love you both."
1004
01:26:30,140 --> 01:26:32,230
Do you know how long
I looked for that?
1005
01:26:34,754 --> 01:26:39,846
Every jacket, every drawer,
every place that we used to go.
1006
01:26:42,327 --> 01:26:45,852
Even places that
didn't make sense.
1007
01:26:48,028 --> 01:26:51,640
I couldn't accept that he
didn't even say goodbye.
1008
01:26:54,774 --> 01:26:56,689
Would you rather
have not found it?
1009
01:26:59,344 --> 01:27:00,258
No.
1010
01:27:03,652 --> 01:27:07,265
I'd rather have a mother here,
1011
01:27:09,484 --> 01:27:14,576
rather have a father alive
telling me this shit.
1012
01:27:16,404 --> 01:27:20,495
What I don't want is writing
on the back of a picture
1013
01:27:23,281 --> 01:27:26,196
that means nothing.
1014
01:27:29,156 --> 01:27:34,248
No closure, no
explanation, nothing.
1015
01:27:37,686 --> 01:27:39,297
I know it hurts.
1016
01:27:41,995 --> 01:27:44,040
But this is what
you've always wanted.
1017
01:27:44,040 --> 01:27:46,782
That's what I've
always wanted?
1018
01:27:46,782 --> 01:27:49,263
Is that what I've always wanted?
1019
01:27:50,525 --> 01:27:52,353
No!
1020
01:27:52,353 --> 01:27:56,879
Actually, what I wanted was
parents or to feel normal.
1021
01:27:59,404 --> 01:28:03,973
Do you know what I would
give to feel normal?
1022
01:28:03,973 --> 01:28:07,281
What I don't want is
a bunch of writing
1023
01:28:07,281 --> 01:28:12,025
on the back of the only fucking
memento I have of my mom,
1024
01:28:12,025 --> 01:28:16,595
the only way that I remember
what she even looks like,
1025
01:28:16,595 --> 01:28:20,903
because he's too big
of a coward to tell me!
1026
01:28:20,903 --> 01:28:26,474
He couldn't just tell me that
to my face and not do it.
1027
01:28:26,474 --> 01:28:28,128
Dean,
you are so strong.
1028
01:28:28,128 --> 01:28:31,087
Why are you so
convinced I am strong?
1029
01:28:32,088 --> 01:28:35,527
You don't know me!
1030
01:28:35,527 --> 01:28:37,529
I know that you're just the
product of your surroundings,
1031
01:28:39,400 --> 01:28:42,403
that none of your issues
are actually your own,
1032
01:28:42,403 --> 01:28:45,885
that you'd actually be fine
1033
01:28:45,885 --> 01:28:50,629
if you could just let
go and forgive yourself.
1034
01:28:50,629 --> 01:28:52,805
You could not have
saved him, Dean.
1035
01:28:54,459 --> 01:28:57,853
You sit in your
fancy fucking house
1036
01:28:57,853 --> 01:29:00,595
with your pretty life
and your pretty things.
1037
01:29:00,595 --> 01:29:04,077
You know nothing about what
it's like to feel like this!
1038
01:29:04,077 --> 01:29:08,211
Do you think that you're the
only person who knows loss?
1039
01:29:08,211 --> 01:29:09,778
Huh?
1040
01:29:09,778 --> 01:29:12,433
My son died at 15.
1041
01:29:12,433 --> 01:29:16,437
He took his own life with
pills from my medicine cabinet.
1042
01:29:16,437 --> 01:29:19,222
I gave him the weapon
to end his life.
1043
01:29:21,137 --> 01:29:26,055
I'm the only one to blame
and I didn't fucking see it.
1044
01:29:26,055 --> 01:29:30,320
It's my fucking job and I
didn't see it in my own son.
1045
01:29:30,320 --> 01:29:33,846
So don't you dare tell me that
I don't know what it's like.
1046
01:29:35,630 --> 01:29:37,415
I drank myself to
death for years
1047
01:29:37,415 --> 01:29:40,940
before I could muster a
day without him sober.
1048
01:29:42,507 --> 01:29:47,425
I lost husband,
myself, my family.
1049
01:29:49,688 --> 01:29:50,950
Why did he do it?
1050
01:29:53,909 --> 01:29:55,433
Why does it matter?
1051
01:29:57,043 --> 01:29:59,567
We'll never be able
to ask them why.
1052
01:30:01,134 --> 01:30:02,048
They're gone.
1053
01:30:04,529 --> 01:30:07,227
I love my little boy
more than life itself.
1054
01:30:08,315 --> 01:30:09,882
And every single day
1055
01:30:09,882 --> 01:30:14,016
I breathe on this planet
without him hurts.
1056
01:30:14,016 --> 01:30:17,803
I feel it in every
single breath.
1057
01:30:17,803 --> 01:30:22,851
But I refuse to give up because
that is what survivors do.
1058
01:30:22,851 --> 01:30:26,072
They fight and they save
everyone they can along the way.
1059
01:30:28,509 --> 01:30:30,468
So what are you, Dean?
1060
01:30:32,078 --> 01:30:33,427
I don't know.
1061
01:30:36,299 --> 01:30:37,431
Yes, you do.
1062
01:30:37,431 --> 01:30:38,693
- No, I don't.
- Yes.
1063
01:30:38,693 --> 01:30:40,173
- I don't know!
- Yes, you do.
1064
01:30:40,173 --> 01:30:41,522
I don't know.
1065
01:31:07,330 --> 01:31:08,810
I know what I'm supposed to say.
1066
01:31:08,810 --> 01:31:10,464
I know I'm supposed
to say I am sorry,
1067
01:31:10,464 --> 01:31:12,901
but it doesn't feel
like it means enough.
1068
01:31:12,901 --> 01:31:14,860
God, I fucked up so bad.
1069
01:31:17,602 --> 01:31:21,214
I can't forgive myself for
what I said about your mom,
1070
01:31:23,172 --> 01:31:26,785
and it wasn't true obviously.
1071
01:31:31,572 --> 01:31:32,704
I'm so sorry.
1072
01:31:41,539 --> 01:31:42,452
Okay.
1073
01:31:47,414 --> 01:31:48,328
I know.
1074
01:31:52,637 --> 01:31:54,029
You know my mom,
1075
01:31:59,382 --> 01:32:03,212
she's dying and I'm not
ready to forgive her,
1076
01:32:10,698 --> 01:32:14,876
not in my life time, but
I don't know what to do.
1077
01:32:17,966 --> 01:32:19,098
Once they're gone,
1078
01:32:20,839 --> 01:32:24,494
there will be a million
things that you wanna say.
1079
01:32:25,931 --> 01:32:27,497
So many times I
pick up the phone
1080
01:32:27,497 --> 01:32:29,151
and I don't even
know who to call
1081
01:32:29,151 --> 01:32:31,110
when there's good news
and there's bad news,
1082
01:32:31,110 --> 01:32:36,158
and I would hate that
to happen to you.
1083
01:32:36,158 --> 01:32:38,117
You have a fucking chance.
1084
01:32:40,119 --> 01:32:41,294
I would kill for that.
1085
01:32:49,432 --> 01:32:50,390
I'm sorry.
1086
01:32:56,439 --> 01:33:00,661
I'd come home just
to masturbate.
1087
01:33:00,661 --> 01:33:03,011
I was trying to shield
her from the depravity.
1088
01:33:12,238 --> 01:33:15,850
I'm moving to San Francisco.
1089
01:33:19,332 --> 01:33:24,424
And I know you guys
have your lives here
1090
01:33:26,731 --> 01:33:28,646
and I can't expect you
just to leave them,
1091
01:33:28,646 --> 01:33:33,694
but I really wish you
would 'cause I think
1092
01:33:35,740 --> 01:33:40,788
that we could all be really
happy there together.
1093
01:33:46,751 --> 01:33:49,797
Hey, wherever you go, I go.
1094
01:33:53,758 --> 01:33:54,672
You sure?
1095
01:33:56,151 --> 01:33:57,979
I'm sure.
1096
01:34:06,553 --> 01:34:08,337
Maybe we can go
to Walnut Creek.
1097
01:34:09,556 --> 01:34:10,905
I know.
1098
01:34:10,905 --> 01:34:13,342
Is this like a
"Sister Wives," or?
1099
01:34:15,344 --> 01:34:17,259
It's like more like
"Three's Company."
1100
01:34:17,259 --> 01:34:18,217
Jesus.
1101
01:34:19,697 --> 01:34:20,610
I gotta smoke.
1102
01:34:36,409 --> 01:34:37,802
San Francisco.
1103
01:34:40,282 --> 01:34:41,631
Have you ever been?
1104
01:34:45,331 --> 01:34:46,332
Does Taryn know?
1105
01:34:49,030 --> 01:34:50,684
I called her 30 times.
1106
01:34:52,207 --> 01:34:53,774
And I plan to ask her as well.
1107
01:34:59,911 --> 01:35:01,390
How are we gonna afford it?
1108
01:35:04,437 --> 01:35:05,786
Let me worry about that.
1109
01:35:07,832 --> 01:35:12,314
Oh, so okay, now you're
going to use that money.
1110
01:35:13,533 --> 01:35:16,754
My God, the money.
1111
01:35:18,668 --> 01:35:20,061
Do you know why I
have that money?
1112
01:35:20,061 --> 01:35:21,846
Because you're fucking rich.
1113
01:35:21,846 --> 01:35:23,325
Because I'm a rich bitch.
1114
01:35:25,980 --> 01:35:29,854
Yeah, no, I was actually
super fucking poor growing up.
1115
01:35:29,854 --> 01:35:34,380
Me and Bennett shared a
room for most of our lives,
1116
01:35:34,380 --> 01:35:39,341
but my dad took out a giant
life insurance policy.
1117
01:35:40,473 --> 01:35:42,736
And then three days from the day
1118
01:35:42,736 --> 01:35:47,697
that the suicide clause
expired, he took his own life.
1119
01:35:50,135 --> 01:35:52,833
So rather than talking
to me or getting help
1120
01:35:52,833 --> 01:35:57,969
or doing bad things,
he waited to do it.
1121
01:36:02,277 --> 01:36:04,889
So I don't want his
fucking blood money.
1122
01:36:06,847 --> 01:36:13,636
But I would use it if it meant
that I got to be with you
1123
01:36:13,636 --> 01:36:16,944
and that we got to be happy and
all of us could be together.
1124
01:36:19,251 --> 01:36:25,474
You and I both pretend
we don't need anybody,
1125
01:36:25,474 --> 01:36:30,262
but it is complete
bullshit because I need you
1126
01:36:35,049 --> 01:36:38,183
and I am not afraid to tell
you that I really need you.
1127
01:36:40,141 --> 01:36:42,840
And I think that
you need me too.
1128
01:36:48,280 --> 01:36:49,498
Put your arms up.
1129
01:36:52,110 --> 01:36:53,067
Oh my goodness.
1130
01:36:53,067 --> 01:36:54,547
You're soaring.
1131
01:36:54,547 --> 01:36:55,635
I'm flying!
1132
01:36:55,635 --> 01:36:56,854
I'm jacking this.
1133
01:36:57,898 --> 01:36:58,943
Oh, a cigarette!
1134
01:36:58,943 --> 01:37:00,553
Oh, goddamn.
1135
01:37:00,553 --> 01:37:01,902
What if I fuck it up?
1136
01:37:03,643 --> 01:37:05,514
I'll fuck it up first.
1137
01:37:07,865 --> 01:37:09,867
You will, you will fuck it up.
1138
01:37:10,955 --> 01:37:12,870
And so will I, I'm sure.
1139
01:37:14,306 --> 01:37:15,568
super good.
1140
01:37:36,850 --> 01:37:38,112
Bria, what the fuck is going on?
1141
01:37:45,032 --> 01:37:45,946
How'd she do it?
1142
01:38:05,748 --> 01:38:07,446
I looked around that room today.
1143
01:38:09,361 --> 01:38:12,886
All I saw were people
that loved her.
1144
01:38:12,886 --> 01:38:17,847
We're all so convinced
that no one cares,
1145
01:38:17,847 --> 01:38:20,676
but every face in
that room was crushed.
1146
01:38:22,548 --> 01:38:26,552
Suicide destroys everyone's
life who surrounds it.
1147
01:38:26,552 --> 01:38:27,553
Not yours.
1148
01:38:27,553 --> 01:38:29,337
No, you're gone.
1149
01:38:31,252 --> 01:38:34,516
Someone in that room, they
had to find her that way.
1150
01:38:36,779 --> 01:38:38,781
It's just a vicious
fucking cycle.
1151
01:38:38,781 --> 01:38:41,001
And every time we do
it, we make it more
1152
01:38:41,001 --> 01:38:43,264
and more acceptable to
the people around us.
1153
01:38:43,264 --> 01:38:45,484
But it's not, it's not okay.
1154
01:38:51,707 --> 01:38:53,100
How do we fix it?
1155
01:39:00,673 --> 01:39:01,587
Live.
1156
01:39:03,719 --> 01:39:08,768
We suffer and we work
shitty fucking jobs
1157
01:39:13,773 --> 01:39:18,473
and live average normal lives.
1158
01:39:21,781 --> 01:39:24,044
And we get old and fat.
1159
01:39:25,306 --> 01:39:26,829
We go through menopause.
1160
01:39:30,007 --> 01:39:33,140
At least we're alive
and we're together.
1161
01:39:35,577 --> 01:39:37,014
At least we didn't give up.
1162
01:39:39,712 --> 01:39:44,804
It's a much scarier
choice to choose to live.
1163
01:39:48,373 --> 01:39:49,678
Giving up is easy.
1164
01:39:57,599 --> 01:39:59,993
Sounds fucking terrible.
1165
01:40:01,299 --> 01:40:02,213
I'm game.
1166
01:40:16,792 --> 01:40:21,623
I have daydreams about
marriage, babies, future,
1167
01:40:27,151 --> 01:40:31,285
all these things
that I never thought
1168
01:40:31,285 --> 01:40:32,852
I'd live long enough to see.
1169
01:40:37,465 --> 01:40:38,684
You as a mother.
1170
01:40:42,427 --> 01:40:43,776
I would love to see that.
1171
01:40:53,264 --> 01:40:57,616
I wanted you to know
that you saved my life.
1172
01:40:59,966 --> 01:41:02,925
I didn't realize how
much I wanted someone
1173
01:41:02,925 --> 01:41:07,756
to do that for me, to care
about me enough to help me,
1174
01:41:10,194 --> 01:41:12,631
as much as I hated
you for doing it.
1175
01:41:12,631 --> 01:41:14,067
I didn't make it easy.
1176
01:41:18,027 --> 01:41:20,726
I wouldn't be here
if it wasn't for you.
1177
01:41:25,165 --> 01:41:26,906
I'm genuinely happy.
1178
01:41:29,517 --> 01:41:32,999
Obviously not all
day, not every day.
1179
01:41:32,999 --> 01:41:38,135
You know, life's not perfect,
but it's getting there.
1180
01:41:43,531 --> 01:41:47,056
God, if you had told me that
my life would look like this
1181
01:41:47,056 --> 01:41:51,757
a year ago, I would've told
you you do need to be sober.
1182
01:41:58,285 --> 01:42:02,550
I'm just so in
love with my life.
1183
01:42:09,557 --> 01:42:12,560
It's the only word that
keeps coming to my mind.
1184
01:42:13,518 --> 01:42:14,649
Love, love.
1185
01:42:16,782 --> 01:42:17,696
Grateful.
1186
01:42:21,003 --> 01:42:25,312
I'm really, really grateful
that I failed that night.
1187
01:42:28,097 --> 01:42:31,840
I wouldn't have had any of this
if it wasn't for that night.
1188
01:42:33,929 --> 01:42:35,888
I'm really grateful to be alive.
1189
01:42:43,025 --> 01:42:44,331
So, thank you.
1190
01:42:49,641 --> 01:42:50,903
Can I hug you?
1191
01:42:51,947 --> 01:42:53,035
Of course.
1192
01:42:55,690 --> 01:42:56,865
Come here.
1193
01:43:25,546 --> 01:43:26,895
You ready?
1194
01:43:26,895 --> 01:43:28,854
Are you ready?
1195
01:43:52,834 --> 01:43:54,488
Hey, Mom.
1196
01:44:07,153 --> 01:44:08,110
It's okay.
1197
01:44:09,808 --> 01:44:10,722
It's okay.
1198
01:44:21,080 --> 01:44:23,517
I've never actually
been here before.
1199
01:44:23,517 --> 01:44:27,782
Yeah, my whole family
came here on a trip once.
1200
01:44:27,782 --> 01:44:29,654
My dad had never been
to San Francisco before.
1201
01:44:29,654 --> 01:44:33,701
And yeah, we brought him.
1202
01:44:33,701 --> 01:44:37,444
Every time I think of him,
I picture him right here.
1203
01:44:37,444 --> 01:44:39,533
All my family, really,
especially today.
1204
01:44:48,803 --> 01:44:49,804
Holy shit.
1205
01:44:50,892 --> 01:44:52,677
You are it for me.
1206
01:44:55,506 --> 01:44:57,943
This is my grandmother's ring.
1207
01:44:57,943 --> 01:45:00,772
She wore it for 72 years.
1208
01:45:00,772 --> 01:45:02,339
It's yours if you'll have me.
1209
01:45:05,951 --> 01:45:07,692
Will you marry me?
1210
01:45:07,692 --> 01:45:09,694
- Yes.
- Yes?
1211
01:45:15,221 --> 01:45:16,135
She said yes!
1212
01:45:16,135 --> 01:45:17,049
Yes!
1213
01:46:57,192 --> 01:47:02,154
♪ God is weeping ♪
1214
01:47:02,154 --> 01:47:07,246
♪ And teeth are gnashing ♪
1215
01:47:08,334 --> 01:47:12,556
♪ And his heart is aching ♪
1216
01:47:13,557 --> 01:47:15,994
♪ And ever breaking ♪
1217
01:47:21,347 --> 01:47:23,915
I'm genuinely happy.
1218
01:47:26,047 --> 01:47:27,919
Not all day, not every day.
1219
01:47:27,919 --> 01:47:32,532
You know, life's not perfect,
but it's getting there.
1220
01:47:35,579 --> 01:47:37,058
God, if you told me
that my life
1221
01:47:37,058 --> 01:47:39,496
would look like this
a year ago,
1222
01:47:39,757 --> 01:47:44,501
I would've told you, you
do need to be sober.
1223
01:47:46,067 --> 01:47:51,116
I'm just so in love my life.
1224
01:47:54,380 --> 01:47:56,077
It's the only word that
keeps coming in my mind.
1225
01:47:56,077 --> 01:47:57,557
Not Dean!
1226
01:47:57,557 --> 01:47:59,864
Love, love, love.
1227
01:48:01,430 --> 01:48:02,344
Grateful.
1228
01:48:05,739 --> 01:48:10,135
I'm really, really grateful
that I failed that night.
1229
01:48:10,135 --> 01:48:12,877
♪ Bells are ringing ♪
1230
01:48:12,877 --> 01:48:14,052
I wouldn't
have had any of this
1231
01:48:14,052 --> 01:48:15,532
if it wasn't for that night.
1232
01:48:15,532 --> 01:48:19,274
♪ And sirens are calling ♪
1233
01:48:19,274 --> 01:48:21,189
I'm really
grateful to be alive.
1234
01:48:21,189 --> 01:48:24,279
♪ Those who are weary ♪
1235
01:48:24,279 --> 01:48:26,281
So thank you.
1236
01:48:26,281 --> 01:48:31,417
♪ Of the darkness falling ♪
1237
01:48:35,769 --> 01:48:40,818
♪ And heaven is sleeping ♪
1238
01:48:41,949 --> 01:48:46,345
♪ Above thunder and lightning ♪
1239
01:48:47,476 --> 01:48:52,003
♪ And the devil is laughing ♪
1240
01:48:53,091 --> 01:48:56,094
♪ At the darkness falling ♪
1241
01:49:01,839 --> 01:49:06,931
♪ mm, mm, mm ♪
1242
01:49:23,208 --> 01:49:25,558
♪ Ooh, ooh
1243
01:49:34,567 --> 01:49:36,874
♪ Ooh, ooh
1244
01:49:43,620 --> 01:49:46,840
♪ Ooh, ooh
1245
01:49:55,544 --> 01:49:57,111
I saw it all.
1246
01:50:00,288 --> 01:50:02,116
What could have been.
1247
01:50:08,732 --> 01:50:11,125
This time, I choose to live.
1248
01:50:24,748 --> 01:50:28,316
♪ I was broken ♪
1249
01:50:28,316 --> 01:50:30,492
♪ I'll stay ♪
1250
01:50:30,492 --> 01:50:35,584
♪ No voice, the choice
could be trusted ♪
1251
01:50:36,629 --> 01:50:40,720
♪ Hope for me was a lie ♪
1252
01:50:40,720 --> 01:50:45,812
♪ Just another reason to cry ♪
1253
01:50:46,770 --> 01:50:51,470
♪ Lost I must confess ♪
1254
01:50:52,558 --> 01:50:56,518
♪ Taking up space at best ♪
1255
01:50:56,518 --> 01:51:01,436
♪ No guiding light through
the darkness inside ♪
1256
01:51:01,436 --> 01:51:06,050
♪ And longing to
lay it to res t ♪
1257
01:51:06,050 --> 01:51:11,185
♪ Everything looks
so different to me ♪
1258
01:51:12,447 --> 01:51:16,713
♪ When you come
out of the dark ♪
1259
01:51:18,279 --> 01:51:21,892
♪ You showed me that
rock-bottom could be ♪
1260
01:51:23,023 --> 01:51:27,201
♪ A beautiful place to star t ♪
1261
01:51:28,550 --> 01:51:33,599
♪ You gave me your love ♪
1262
01:51:34,556 --> 01:51:38,343
♪ You showed me your heart ♪
1263
01:51:38,343 --> 01:51:43,217
♪ I found a place where
I could feel safe ♪
1264
01:51:43,217 --> 01:51:47,787
♪ Inside your loving arms ♪
1265
01:51:47,787 --> 01:51:52,923
♪ Everything looks
so different to me ♪
1266
01:51:54,185 --> 01:51:58,058
♪ When you come
out of the dark ♪
1267
01:51:58,058 --> 01:52:00,669
♪ You showed me ♪
1268
01:52:00,669 --> 01:52:03,150
♪ That rock-bottom could be ♪
1269
01:52:03,150 --> 01:52:07,024
♪ A beautiful place to star t ♪
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