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WOMAN: Don't you think you should take responsibility

for your actions?

I feel like I'm getting better at that, actually.

MAN: Well, how long do you need?

It's a process. I can't put a time on it.

Can't or won't?

I'm dealing with a mental health issue.

I'm learning coping mechanisms.

It... It's not a quick fix, but it is working.

GROUP LEADER: No more risking your own health and well-being?

No.

No more extreme behaviour?

Absolutely none.

OK, we'll leave it there.

How was that from your point of view, Ella?

Er... I think role play is good, yeah.

Great. But...

role play isn't real life.

TV PRESENTER: 'And our focus today is men who have...'

JONNY: 'Untick the box, unsubscribe, opt out.

'Because sometimes the best thing to do

'is... nothing.'

'You look in the mirror after it's done, and you look terrible.'

This... This is not good.

'I imagine you'd be very angry with your doctors...'

I'm serious.

You can't spend all your free time just slumped.

I broke up with my girlfriend.

A bit of slumping is sort of required.

Yeah, for some people, for most people.

Not for you. You can spiral.

Well, I'm not gonna, so...

No, because I'm not gonna let you.

Do you remember Jules, used to work for the brewery?

Uh-huh.

She is starting up her own place

and needs help with the opening tomorrow.

It's got to be better than lying around here, yeah?

Yeah, maybe.

And look, I'm sure if you just talk to Bex,

you can sort this out.

Yeah, maybe.

Come on.

PHONE BEEPS

Jules, hey!

Yeah. No, it's Andy, Andy. Yeah, sorry. How's it going?

Just checking in.

Bex! What?

I was calling you.

Yeah, and I was in the bathroom,

and I answered about 15 times, and I'm here now, so what?

Well, I was gonna ask if you needed anything adding to the big shop.

I'm getting the impression you might have something on your mind.

No. OK.

Well, in that case, would you mind showing me a little courtesy?

You know, after trashing the house.

I said I was sorry for that.

And I am.

Honestly, sorry.

Look, I know I don't know all the details,

but if splitting from Jonny is making you this upset, then maybe...

You're right.

You don't know the details, and you don't need to

because me and Jonny are done, finished, over.

MUSIC: 'bad idea!' by girl in red

Such a bad idea

Cos now I'm even more lost

Was such a bad idea

Cos now everything's wrong

You put your hands under my shirt

Undid my bra and said these words

Darling, you're so pretty It hurts

You pushed me up against my wall

Threw my clothes down On the floor...

Hey, Jonny. Hi.

I don't know if you got plans tomorrow night,

but a bunch of us were gonna go... I have.

I've got plans.

No biggie.

Said, darling, are you ready?

Can I have a minute? Nah. You stick with your new girlfriend.

Can you not be like that? Oh, sorry.

Am I being immature? Maybe.

A bit petty? Yeah.

Yeah, well, you're a child, so...

Hey, Bex.

It was a bad idea.

I haven't had my care leaver meeting yet, but in the meantime,

"Hello, Mr Letting Agency Person.

"Yes, I'm enquiring about arranging a viewing!"

THEY CHUCKLE.

Is Tommy excited?

Yeah, I think so.

So great, isn't it, Ells?

Hmm? Oh, yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Easy on the enthusiasm (!)

Sorry. I'm so, so happy for you.

I know it's a big deal. Massive.

Maybe Naish can bring her boyfriend round to the flat-warming.

I haven't spoken to Josh in days.

Oh, really? Finally dumped him, have you?

Not exactly.

So, you think it's OK for him to film me without my consent?

What? He didn't film it.

Then sharing it without my consent?

No, obviously, that's horrendous.

Yeah. Just not horrendous enough to...

I'm gonna do it today, OK?

After college.

See, Naish is handling the situation.

Come on. Better late than never.

Have you planned what you're gonna say?

Don't feel like discussing it. Thanks.

BELL RINGS

On your own?

Yeah.

No hanging out with Amber for a skinny decaf capp?

Yeah, that didn't really work out.

Because she's shallow and vacuous?

Uh-uh.

More because Jonny snogged her.

You're kidding.

Really wish I was.

What a total...

Hi, Jonny.

Thought you'd have left by now. So did I.

Cab's late. Will you miss your flight?

Doubt it.

You left your charger!

No, it's fine, I packed the spare.

I wish you'd let me drive you.

Car's on its way. You could cancel it.

And you could stop fussing.

Bring us back a fridge magnet, yeah?

It's a business trip, I don't have time for...

PHONE PINGS Ah, here it is.

Approaching, finally!

Bye, then. Yeah, bye.

Can you give us a couple of minutes to chat? That'd be awesome.

He was charismatic (!)

Kind of a hard flat to be excited about.

I think it's got potential. I think it's got damp.

Could be great.

I just want it to be as good as it can possibly be

because that's what you deserve, and because I love you.

I think you might be right about the damp. OK.

Yeah, yeah, really, I think I'm breathing it in.

Yeah. It's not good. Not good.

I'm gonna go.

Hurry up!

Bex totally iced me.

We're done.

There's no going back.

Right. Right.

I think I might sack off kick boxing tonight.

Come on, you can't just give up.

Anyway, I might not be there much longer.

What you talking about?

Can't pay for my subs when I lose my job.

Oh, mate, your dad is not gonna fire you.

His business might go under.

I'm so sorry, mate. It's not your fault.

It's no-one's fault, really. Times are hard.

You just move on.

Like you did with Naisha (!)

Yeah. Like you should with Bex.

Mm-hm.

I just... I just feel like everything's got, like,

too complicated, and I can't...

I can't get past what happened between you and Ella,

and... and the way that you spoke to me.

So, maybe...

Not maybe, but...

...I think we should just...

...stop.

OK.

OK.

I do care about you so much.

But it sounds like you've made your decision.

I have.

You know, she got the police on me.

The police?

They came out to my house, talking about... revenge porn.

I know I shouldn't have watched that video,

but I didn't film it,

I didn't upload it.

Ella thinks that you did.

I proved it to them.

They had dates when it happened.

July, I was on holiday.

I wasn't even in the country, yeah?

I've got plane tickets and... and photos.

Oh. Er...

Well, I mean that...

I can accept you breaking up with me. I've got no choice.

But I can't fucking stand the thought of you hating me.

Anything else, I can handle.

I need to close up, so I should...

Yeah, erm...

Sorry, erm... yeah.

Don't be sorry.

You haven't done anything wrong.

You never have.

So, are you sure they're expecting me, too?

Yeah. Positive.

I'm positive.

You committed to delivering six freestanding fridges.

Four is no good to me.

3:30 is acceptable.

2:30 would be better.

OK?

Who are you? Oh, you talking to me?

I'm Jonny. Andy's brother.

He didn't mention a mate.

No. But, you know, erm...

This is a big deal, obviously.

I mean, you've got six fridges to stock, for a start.

Well, you're quick on the uptake, at least.

Yeah, no, we just really want to help. Right, Luke? We do, 100%.

Well, you'll be lugging crates and boxes, mainly.

If anything gets broken or spilled...

Clean it up. Gotcha.

£60, cash in hand. Great.

Just shift some of these beers behind the bar.

EARPIECE BEEPS This is Jules.

Left at the roundabout. Left!

BOTTLES CLINK Ugh!

"Positive, positive"?

Well, it worked, didn't it?

You gonna help me, or...?

Thank you.

How do you feel?

Good?

Sort of feet like a weight's been lifted.

He got it, then?

Yeah, eventually.

So, if it wasn't Josh who was filming me...

He didn't. But what if he did?

No ifs. I showed you the proof. It wasn't him.

Come on, you guys.

Sorry.

No, it's fine. You've got your own stuff to deal with.

Me? Yeah, like, everything with Jonny.

Then, who was it? Ells...

How do we find out?

OK, look, don't take this the wrong way,

but aren't you supposed to be, like, avoiding stress and shit?

What's the right way to take a question like that?

Wouldn't your therapist rather you be doing, like, something healthy?

You used to be really good at baking.

You could be doing that again.

Sorry, let me get this clear, you want me to bake a cake?

Maybe that would... Naish...

don't you get it?

I need to know who did this to me, OK?

Whatever it takes.

I need to know.

So, what do you think?

Yeah. Love it.

See, it's always good to get a second opinion.

Still not sure. I can't smell damp, if that's what you're worried about.

I think we were imagining that, to be honest.

Yeah. I just don't like the vibe.

What vibe?

It's got a brand-new bathroom and everything. Exactly.

It's all sterile. There's no personality, just tiles.

Ti... What are you talking about?

Yeah, that makes absolutely no sense.

Excuse me, how many more viewings are lined up for here?

Seven today.

See? Someone who's not weird about tiles would snap this place up.

Let them. I'm not getting rushed into anything, Tommy.

Thank you for waiting here with me all this time.

That's all right. I'm glad to be doing something.

Take your mind off Jonny, you mean?

Sort of. I mean... Shit.

What? That's him. Ash, stop!

What the fuck are you doing?

I swear to you, on my mother's life, I didn't set you up.

You didn't give your mate the nod?

He was wasted. Everyone was.

He couldn't even stand up, never mind film me and you.

I want to know who fucked up my life.

Who fucked up my life, too!

Look, I don't want people looking at me with... my dick out.

You know, pants around my knees.

All my mates have seen it.

People I work with. Someone sent it to my brother.

I get what you're going through. Then help me, yeah?

We can figure it out. Like, someone from the party.

It was mobbed. There were hundreds of people.

Not all in the garden.

The only thing I can think of is there was this gang of girls,

one of them winked at me after.

What did she look like? Hot.

THEY SCOFF

Fuck's sake. She was!

Pink dress, doing loads of selfies.

Blonde hair.

You know, hot.

Great (!)

Great.

Excellent, awesome. It's good.

Yeah, I'm talking to you guys.

Oh! Oh, OK, thanks.

You can pick up your cash from the office

and put your names on the guest list for tonight.

Cheers. Thanks.

Just our names?

Sorry?

Any chance for a few plus-ones for our mates?

Andy said you were a cheeky sod.

I know, but you can never have too many cool people at a new place.

OK, go on, then. Three each.

Amazing.

"Can't have too many cool people."

Yeah, well, whatever it takes to win Bex back.

Right, so you're just ignoring everything I said? Yeah.

Gonna put Naish on your guest list?

I was thinking about it.

So the new plan is, what,

find random hot girls in pink?

What's it to you? You're not gonna help me anyway.

Only because I don't think it's doing you any good.

You're just pissed at me because you blame me

for breaking up with that prick.

Yeah, don't take this out on me, Ella, it's not fair.

Oh, can we all just chill? I'm stressed enough.

What are you stressed about?

Yeah, Dyl, what? People can have things going on, you know.

Yeah, tell me about it.

My life's going to absolute shit at the moment.

Hi, guys. Oh, great (!)

Hey. Hey.

So, you know, there's this club opening tonight.

It's called Venew. Cos, like "venue", but it's new.

Yeah, I heard about that.

Yeah, well, I think it's gonna be... epic.

Erm... So I got us all on the guest list.

I mean, I thought it'd be a good way to just say sorry

and make peace with everyone.

It's been kind of a bad day, Jonny.

OK, well, let's make it a great night.

Yeah, maybe.

Yeah, OK.

Could do, I guess.

What do you reckon, Bex?

As if I even want to look at you, Jonny, ever.

OK. Can we talk? I've got nothing to say to you.

Maybe I've got something to say to you. Really?

Do you? Because if I hadn't interrupted you and Amber,

you probably would have ended up... No, I wouldn't.

Really? Didn't really look like you were planning on stopping.

I've seen you, and you get like that. Remember?

OK, I'm gonna go.

Yeah.

OK, remind me never to piss you off, Bex.

Yeah, that was kind of brutal.

I don't even care.

You don't, like, care a bit? What's going on with you?

Jonny's not the problem. Amber's not the problem.

What is the problem?

I'm pregnant.

SHE SOBS

It's gonna be OK. Oh, Bex.

Mum? Is my orange top dr...?

You're packing. You've got to be kidding me.

I know the signs. What signs?

First spot of bother and he goes all distant.

ELLA SCOFFS

He's allowed to be a bit pissed off now and again.

Then where is he?

On a business trip. Short notice. Conveniently.

This is just like what happened with Stu.

Exactly.

Cyrus is a good guy.

Yeah? He helped me. Did he?

I'm doing therapy, aren't I?

I am trying to moderate my stress right now.

What's that supposed to mean?

It means I... need to not freak the fuck out

even when intense shit happens.

It means I'm learning not to do stuff that might damage me.

Good.

I need to get out of here. Sure.

Well, Abby's on a sleepover,

so I'll pack her stuff in the morning.

Please.

Don't do this, Mum. My mind is made up.

You really didn't need to check on me, you know.

I know. NAISHA CHUCKLES

It's nice of you to, though.

Are you sure I can't convince you to come out?

Er... I'm really not up for it.

I mean, I get the whole "take your mind off things" idea,

but... I just don't think it will.

Yeah. No, of course not.

So, you've made your mind up about what happens next?

Yeah.

Well, if you need someone to go with you...

Thanks.

You gonna tell Jonny?

SHE SCOFFS

I just don't really see the point.

Like, we're not together any more, so...

Yeah. No.

And even if we were, like, I don't need to ask for his permission.

It's not what I meant.

Yeah. You should go. Have fun.

SHE CHUCKLES I... I'll text you. Yeah?

SHE SIGHS

DOOR CLOSES

DANCE MUSIC POUNDS

CHEERING

Same again? I'm good.

You sure?

Bex might show.

Nah. It's like she hates me.

Things can change. I'm sure Naish hated me for a bit.

And now?

We'll see, won't we?

All right, fuck it. I'll have one drink, OK?

I'll try and enjoy myself. Oh, sounds like a plan.

'I just wanna have a good night.'

Single again, are you? On the prowl?

Ha-ha (!) Not at all what I meant. Is, er, Tommy meeting us here?

I didn't even mention it. Why?

We don't live in each other's pockets, you know.

Sorry. I thought you kind of did.

Yeah. But still.

I'm only smiling. God.

We're good.

SHE STUTTERS

Shit. She's here.

Hey, guys. Glad you could make it.

Did Bex not fancy coming, or...?

No.

OK. She's gonna need some space, Jonny.

Of course. Yeah, no, I get that.

Should we get some drinks? Yeah, absolutely.

I'll give you a hand.

So, when Naisha said Bex needed space...

People don't wanna feel suffocated. You know?

OK.

OK.

It's overwhelming.

No, I hear you.

And that's what he said to me! THEY GIGGLE

Hey!

Hey, I thought you weren't coming! Yeah, I know.

The walls were kind of closing in,

and my dad was being lovely and concerned

about all the wrong things, so...

It's good you're here. Mm.

We can avoid Jonny, and you don't even have to think about...

Oh, my God.

Why did it never occur to me?

Amber! Ella...

Ella, stop. Ella!

Did you fucking film me?

What? You heard me.

Er, why would she film you?

With Ash through the fence, did you follow us at the party?

I'm confused.

Did you film me with him?

Oh, my God, this is... With him? As in "with him"?!

Wait, I heard about this. Are you the blowjob girl?

The what? Totally viral.

Don't pretend you don't know.

I didn't.

But I'll be sure to watch. AMBER LAUGHS

And this girl from the halls who...

can be quite annoying, not gonna lie.

Mm. She's like, "We should all go! Road trip!"

She does sound annoying.

Glad she dragged me along, though.

Me, too.

How come someone as cute as you isn't here with someone?

That's the thing. I have got a boyfriend.

Oh, right.

We live together. Well, not really.

I've been crashing on his... in his... in his flat,

but now we're looking at actual flats together.

It's all like "dream come true" type stuff,

which takes it to a whole new level, like, who can handle perfection?

When you could make out with a guy you just met or something?

Or something.

You've got to stop this. Yeah. She's right, Ella.

He saw a cute girl. That's it. It was just a random person.

You might never know who.

I just thought if I knew, I could, like...

...deal with it better.

Sorry, I'm still trying to work out

how to, like, manage my, like, emotional extremes.

And we'll do anything that we can to help you, yeah?

Come here.

See your iPhone camera flashin'

Please step back It's my style you're crampin'

"You here for long?" "Oh, no, I'm just passin'"

"Do you wanna drink?" "Nah, thanks for asking"

Ooh, na-na, yeah

Don't act like you know me Like you know me, na-na, yeah

I am not your homie Not your ho...

THEY GIGGLE

Where did you disappear off to? Nowhere.

Er, yeah, no, I'm gonna get some air.

Yeah. Do you want me to come? No, I'll be fine.

Don't act like you know me Like you know me, na-na, yeah

I am not your homie Not your ho...

Bex!

Don't act like you know me...

Can I speak to you for two minutes? What is there to talk about?

I'm so sorry. I know what I did was wrong.

Ooh, perceptive (!)

I'm not even asking you to forgive me. OK, good. Cos I don't.

Stop looking at me like you fucking despise me.

Jonny, am I responsible for your feelings now? No!

OK, good, because I can't actually deal with that as well as...

As well as what?

If you can't keep up Then you better fall back...

I'm pregnant. What?

What are you even doing here?

It's a free country, innit? You can't keep keeping tabs on me.

That was bad enough when we were going out!

What do you mean, "keeping tabs"? Has he been stalking you?

Sorry, I don't need shit from you two.

We're looking out for a friend.

Until you find a random dick to suck. You...

Please step back It's my style you're crampin'...

You wanna publicly shame me again, yeah?

I sucked a dick. Big deal!

Probably everyone here has done it

or wanted to do it or had it done to them.

Good for you (!)

Let's just say I've made worse mistakes.

Everything OK? Yeah. We're good, thanks, mate.

I wasn't talking to you, mate. Yeah, it's OK, Luke.

Yeah. It's a bit late to be the knight in shining armour.

What you on about? Just that, er, you took a girl's virginity,

and then you basically fucked off, so...

Josh! I resent being insulted by a guy who's treated you like shit.

You need to back off. You need to fucking make me.

THEY STRUGGLE

That's enough!

Is this where you say, "You should see the other guy"?

Not really. Yeah.

Jules just texted me.

She still thinks you're a good guy.

Happy for you to help with the clean-up later. Cool.

Ah.

It sore? Not really.

Hey, was, er... Was Bex there last night?

Yeah, why?

I thought maybe seeing you get thumped

might have made her realise she still likes you after all.

Yeah.

Well, it didn't work out that way, so...

Anything you wanna talk about?

No, I need to talk to her.

But thanks.

How long you been up?

Ages.

You take something last night?

No, actually, I... shared a spliff with this cute guy.

All right.

Then we kissed.

All right.

But why are you constantly trying to screw this up?

I don't know what to do here.

All I've done is try to make this work for us.

I... supported you.

I... I welcomed your brother.

I-I even agreed to move out of this flat.

I haven't asked for anything from you.

I know that.

I know all of that. I'm sorry. I'm just...

I'm scared.

Of what? Of everything.

The thing is, you said the L-word,

and... anyone who's ever said that to me has left.

So I've had to protect myself.

Cos I'm... I'm on my own now.

HE SOBS

What if you just leave?

I'm panicked, man.

You can't live like that, though. Anything could happen.

All I know is that...

...I wanna be with you.

And if you wanna be with me... now, today,

that's... that's all I need to know.

I really do. I...

Right.

So all this blowing hot and cold has to stop, yeah?

You're not on your own. HE SIGHS

Because I do L-word you.

You're gonna need to learn to cope with it.

Fine. Fine.

I love you, Tommy.

Do you need, like, a... like, a minute to calm down, or...?

Wanna be outside

Wanna be alive Pray I wake up again

Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh.

MUM SQUEALS Cyrus called.

It's all gonna be OK.

What is?

He hates flying, always gets edgy. That's why he was off with us.

Wow.

I know. SHE SCOFFS

Scared of getting on a plane.

I mean... Wow.

Lucky we didn't all move out before he came home, huh?

Best not to mention that, I think.

We can't keep running away, Mum.

There are gonna be problems. You've got to work through them.

SHE SCOFFS Life's unpredictable.

You're not.

You panic, and it makes you act impulsively.

And... it impacts on all of us.

I know how that works.

You're the expert now?

SHE SIGHS Nope.

But I do have quite a bit of lived experience, don't I?

SHE TUTS I suppose.

MUM CHUCKLES, PHONE RINGS

SHE GASPS That'll be him again. Ah!

It's a nasty bruise. Yeah.

When I hit the deck, to be honest, did you think, "That'll teach him"?

No, because that would make me a bad person.

HE CHUCKLES

I think it must have happened that time back here.

Right. OK.

I thought it was fine,

but going by the dates, it was probably then.

Sure.

Not that it matters. No.

I don't even know why I'm telling you that.

Oh, I feel weird today.

Don't worry.

I don't know.

I'm gonna go to the bathroom. See you in a sec.

Jonny? Just putting these away.

What's wrong?

Er, I think I need to go to the doctor.

Erm... I'm bleeding.

Apparently, it's quite common.

Yeah?

Well, no, actually, but, erm, it's not uncommon.

Right.

Bex.

Are you...? I'm still pregnant.

So...? Can you just not, please?

I'm sorry. I don't have any answers, Jonny.

I didn't think you did. It's like...

It's like, one minute...

I'm pregnant... and I'm 17.

And you think, "OK, well,

"I know what the next... step is. That's obvious."

But then I'm in the hospital, and it's kind of out of my hands,

and I'm sort of, like, relieved because it's all over.

And then a nurse is coming in and telling me,

"No, you're still pregnant."

SHE CHUCKLES

And I don't wanna be.

So... Come on.

You talked to your mum yet?

No. Not yet.

Have you spoken to your dad?

Really not looking forward to that. He's a good guy, though.

And you two seem like you have a great relationship.

Yeah, we do. Yeah. So you should tell him.

SHE SCOFFS

Oh, shit.

What?

Maybe you're more of a grown-up than I realised.

No, I wouldn't go that far. SHE CHUCKLES

It's gonna be OK. What is?

All of it. You'll get through it.

How do you know?

Because you're amazing.

SHE SCOFFS

I'm really not.

You need to see it.

Everyone else sees it.

I see it.

KNOCK AT DOOR

Please. Not again.

You really have to face up to reality.

I know. I didn't need you to start that fight.

I apologise.

It's not good enough, Josh.

W-What would be? Tell me.

Nothing.

I get that I was mean to Ella, but it was a one-night thing.

The thought that if I never met her,

you and me would be OK is making me insane.

That's a good word for it. Well, that's the truth.

I haven't been sleeping. My head is spinning.

I made mistakes.

But, please... Naish...

Don't. I know I matter to you.

Of course you do. Well, then, don't throw it all away.

I need to.

None of it matters if we love each other.

I need to be on my own.

I'm sorry, Josh.

To formally become a care leaver is the biggest decision you ever made.

I know, b-but it's my decision, and I'm ready.

I'm doing well at college. I'm on track for uni.

That's gonna be another transitional moment in your life.

Yes, but in a good way. I'm... I'm excited about this.

I do like seeing you very confident.

And I know it hasn't always been easy.

Now, regarding your recent windfall...

I'm not gonna blow it. You know I want a place of my own.

You'll burn through that money faster than you think.

I'll get a job. Other people do.

Other people have back-up.

I've got back-up.

Naisha and her family. Tommy.

You feel secure in your relationship with Tommy?

Absolutely.

We're solid.

So... can we do this?

I think we can.

Your pathway plan is officially authorised.

LAUGHING: Fucking hell...

I'm proud of you, Dylan.

This is my process.

Coming here, talking to you...

...with you.

Part of it, anyway.

And I'm starting to understand and value that process...

...and even make it work in real life,

which is, like, huge.

All right?

Hello, love. You timed that well.

Just getting a round in. What you having?

Coke'll be good, please.

Sure. Two secs.

Nice afternoon. I'm gonna be OK, you know.

I never said you weren't.

No. I mean...

I spoke to the GP,

and she said I should be OK to stay off the meds

as long as I've got a handle on it.

OK, good.

Thanks for being so open with me.

And there's something else.

JONNY: 'Sometimes in life, we have to make difficult decisions.'

Don't hold back I wanna break free

God is singing through...

'But maybe that's what it's all about.

'Trust your instincts.

'Own your mistakes.

'Support each other.' THEY LAUGH

Baby, let all of them voices Slip away...

'Yeah, it might get messy.

'But if you believe in yourself, it's gonna be fine.

'Cos you know what?

'You've got this.'

Oh, ooh, love

They'll never break The shape we take

Oh, ooh

Baby, let all them voices Slip away

No caressing, no caressing

No caressing, no caressing

No caressing, no caressing, no

Oh, ooh, love

They'll never break The shape we take.