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- How long do they say he has?

- A day, two.

Could be any time.

- Do you think he can hear us?

- I don't think so, though,

I think he hears music.

He'll squeeze my hand sometimes

when I put on Bach or his favorite Beethoven.

I'm glad you came, Kiki.

- Me too.

- How's your mother?

- Sad.

- And Chuck?

- Sad too, I think.

- Well, how long has it been?

- Since their divorce?

- No, since we last visited you,

or, rather, since Michael did.

- It had to be at least five years ago,

right before Dad left Mom.

- And how's Alan?

- He's good, he's on tour in Australia.

He'll be gone for a while.

- What's for a while?

- Six, seven weeks, maybe longer if they sell out.

- Oh, that's a long time.

- I know.

- I'm,

I'm so sorry we lost touch these past few years.

- Earl died, you know?

- We heard.

- In a bar fight.

- That I didn't know.

He could never stay away from the John Barleycorn,

as he put it.

- But he sure could fly a plane.

- That he could.

Michael was never happier

than when he was up in the air with him.

I don't think I ever saw Michael happier

than the day he came home

from making his first perfect landing.

Seems a lifetime ago.

- I could go for some coffee.

- I just made what is probably

the most perfect landing this old tub has ever seen,

and that's all that you can say?

- Well, maybe a big piece of pie.

- Okay, now, I know what I did wrong.

Let's go back up, I want to get it right.

- You got it right.

- I want to get it perfect.

- Perfect, he wants to get it perfect.

Listen, you can practice all the landings

you want on your solo.

- Solo?

It was perfect, wasn't it?

- Yeah, I think maybe I'll have a couple

of big scoops of ice cream, too.

- Mount Samsonite.

- We're only gonna be gone a week.

- Well, we could take the kids or we could take the luggage.

- Hmm, take the kids.

- Good choice.

Jan, these parents think you're a genius

for getting the kids out of the house

during spring vacation.

- It's not the choir tour that's doing it.

It's the two days of skiing we dangled in front of them.

- Oh, you're being modest.

I mean, we've never had a choir director

to get these kids to sound so fantastic.

- I tell them Bruce Springsteen got his start singing

in a church choir.

- He did, didn't he?

- Sweetie, what are you doing?

- Kicking the tires.

- Any particular reason?

- Daddy always does it before we take a trip.

- Oh, we're gonna miss him, aren't we?

- I'm worried about Daddy.

A whole week, he could starve to death.

- Why don't we go give him a call?

- Okay. - Okay, come on.

- That's fine.

- Would you like some coffee?

- Oh, no, thanks.

- Well, at least he didn't auger us in.

Airplane's all in one piece,

but the landing gear does look a little like a squashed bug.

- Like a bug, huh? - Oh, what do you mean?

It was perfect, you know, I could have walked out

on the wing and watched.

It would have landed itself.

- Mm-hmm, you let me know before you do that, okay?

- Well, that crosswind didn't seem to bother you.

- Oh, no, don't let it fool you.

There was six knots of crosswind out there, huh?

Did you see me land?

- It looked good from-

- You see, he said it was perfect.

- Any landing he can walk away from is perfect.

- Oh, yeah, oops.

A phone call, a phone call, here.

You guys see that strong front up north?

- No. - What, north of here?

- Yeah, it looked hung up over the mountains.

It'll bring a little precip, though.

You weather boys better keep an eye out, now.

- Hey, look at this guy, he's dropping like an anvil.

- Like on a pogo stick.

- Yeah, he's going up and down and up and down and up

and down and up and down. - You watch,

next thing you know, he'll be in here, bragging about it.

- You're darn right, yeah.

I'll see you later, Chuck.

- You bet.

- That's good pie.

- Come along, Yeager, we gotta go to work.

- Oh, I just want to sit here and think about that landing.

- Yeah, well, knock yourself out.

- You know, it was perfect, it was absolutely perfect.

- Daddy, can Jennifer spend the weekend

with us when we get back?

- Well, I don't mind if it's okay with Mommy.

- It's okay with Mommy.

Jennifer's mommy moved away last week.

Her dad's not home much of the time.

- Oh, all right, well, we'll,

we'll do something fun, okay?

- Okay, I love you, Daddy.

- I love you, too, pumpkin.

- Here's Mommy again.

- Chuck, the bus is packed,

so they're loading the sound equipment in the Blazer.

- Oh, well, I guess you'll have to take it.

Listen, uh, tell Dennis that there's a chance

of snow at about 9,000 feet in the mountains.

- I will, I gotta run, the caravan's pulling out.

Talk to you soon.

- Honey, you know, maybe it wouldn't be a bad idea

to wait until in the morning,

just to see what that storm's gonna do.

- We'd have to cancel our first concert.

Everything will be just fine, Chuck.

The show must go on, remember?

I'll call you tomorrow.

- Honey.

- What?

- Um, well, nothing, just, well, good luck.

And break your legs, or whatever that is they say, okay?

Drive safely.

- Bye, love you.

- I'm hungry.

- Alan!

- We thought you were on the bus.

- With all those little Twinkies, yippee.

- We're gonna have fun.

- You know it, how's my girlfriend doing?

- You don't want to ride with the other kids?

- Look, I don't mind doing the sound and stuff,

and sometimes their singing doesn't want

to make me throw up too bad,

but I'm not gonna hang out with those.

- Ooh, what's that?

- You like it, pretty gnarly, huh?

- It's geeky looking.

- You don't like it?

Does this mean you're not my girlfriend anymore?

- I guess not.

- I guess not.

- Mommy, did you see this?

- It's, it's a very pretty earring.

- Bye!

- Bravo.

- No, it was terrible.

- That was great.

- It was terrible.

- It's incredible, I can't believe

you still remember that piece.

- Only every third bar.

- How'd this happen, huh, my darling.

- I just felt like playing.

- Ah, and it felt-

- It felt good. - It felt good.

Ooh, it felt good.

- I shouldn't have tried the Tchaikovsky, though.

It was too ambitious.

- Oh, but darling, it was beautiful.

- Yes? - It was very, very beautiful.

I even had tears in my eyes.

- I don't believe you, no.

- Yes, I did, I cried over there,

I never showed you my- - You're in such a good mood.

What happened to you today?

- What do you mean?

- Huh, yeah, what happened?

- Why, what do you mean?

- 'Cause you're in such a good mood.

- I made aviation history!

I made a perfect landing.

It was perfect, it was perfect.

- Really perfect, huh?

- It was incredible.

And I, oh, and I drove Earl crazy.

Listen to this, I kept humming.

Huh?

- Bravo, bravo!

- Oh, where are the?

- Was it, uh, really perfect?

- It, well, it was good.

It was very good and it was beautiful.

I love it.

You don't know what it's like up there.

Really, I have to get you up there, you okay?

- Yeah, just a chill.

We haven't had too many good days.

- We've got this one.

- Hold that thought.

He was so happy that day.

You'd think he'd flown to the moon and back.

Seems like he spent every spare minute he had up there

in the air with Earl.

Used to fly with Chuck, too, remember?

- No, but the one thing I do remember is

that I had this little girl crush on Alan.

- And that Aussie accent.

- Oh.

- We married a couple of charmers.

- We did.

- You still have no memory of that night?

- No, but the doctors say

that it's not that unusual.

- What, what?

- The only thing that I remember is those silly little songs

we used to sing, like.

Or.

- It seems a lifetime ago.

- You know, Dad never did forgive her.

- Forgive her for what?

- The accident.

- The accident wasn't Jan's fault.

- Mom said that she never even saw it coming.

- We rarely do,

see the danger, that is, until it's too late.

- Hmm, ooh, I've gotta go, I'm late.

- Uh, do you want me to cook you some eggs or something?

- Yeah, that'd be great.

You know, I just didn't say it was perfect.

Chuck Scott said it was perfect, too.

- Who's Chuck Scott?

- He's a guy who works at the airport.

- Oh, hey, by the way, do you know

what happened to the money I left on the mantel?

- Yeah, I paid her off with the airplane,

the gas and the oil, stuff like that, you know, why?

- It was $40 there.

- Well, I'll pay you back.

- It's not important.

- I said I'd pay you back.

- Look, I was just going shopping

and I thought maybe I'd lost it or something-

- I get paid on Fridays, that soon enough?

- Mike, please.

- I gotta go, it's late.

- It'll just take a minute to cook you an omelet.

- No, I gotta get dressed.

I'm late, and I'm not hungry anyway.

- Come on, Alan, sing with us.

- No, that's okay.

- Oh, come on, it's fun.

- Nobody really believes that God and motherhood

and apple pie stuff, one push of a button,

and the whole world's gonna get blown to bits.

- Oh, no, God would never let anybody do that.

- Can we really make money that way?

- Hey, there are some big bucks to be made, my friend.

Look, all we have to do is fly these jokers up

into the mountains, they hunt, fish, backpack,

watch the birdies, whatever.

A week later, we go back and pick them up, easy.

- But is there any money in it?

- Look, all we have to do is advertise

in the big newspapers back east,

we've got more business than we can handle, I promise you.

Take it easy, buddy, it's just a leg.

- Where's Dr. Mick?

- He told me not to wake him

for anything less than a heart transplant.

- If we use him as a donor,

then we wouldn't have to wake him, would we?

- Dietrich, you have no respect for the dead.

- Is it tibia, fibular, or femur?

- Femur.

- Trauma to the knee?

- Not evident.

- Hypothermia?

- Nope.

- Well, I don't know what it was like

when you were in medical school,

but by the time I finished my second year,

I could set a simple closed fracture

with my hands behind my back.

- And what is that supposed to mean?

- I just happened to be going through some personnel files.

You completed two years at Columbia Medical School.

- That was a long time ago.

- I was just curious

as to why a capable young man like you would want

to work in a small town clinic like this.

- I thought the personnel files were confidential,

you know, between me and the personnel department.

- Yeah, well, it is, yes, it is, it certainly is.

But Dietrich, I am the personnel department.

- Oh!

- Oh, all right, all right, I'm coming.

You were ranked seventh in your class,

started missing lectures, did poorly on exams,

and eventually, you quit.

- Don't let him bother you, Mike.

He's always bothering me.

- Well, you know, he's always getting involved

with things that, you know, just are none of his business.

And, uh, someday I just, you know,

well, I think I'll go home and eat.

- Oh my God, Kiki?

Oh, Alan!

- What happened?

- Oh, Kiki!

I'm sorry.

- It's okay.

- Is that for me?

- Maybe.

Go sit down, I'll get you dinner.

- Kiki!

- Kiki!

- Kiki!

You kids stay with the bus.

- Kiki?

Kiki!

- Jan, you all right?

- We can't find Kiki!

- What?

- She's under, she's under here, help me, help me!

- Oh, it's just something from Mother and Dad.

They're just trying to help, Mike.

- I'm not believing this.

- What?

- You remember Gary Culver from medical school?

He's teaching medicine at a university here.

He's teaching medicine, he could barely spell it.

- Isn't he the guy that you brought up

to Boston to hear me play?

- Yeah, and he wants me to come and lecture

to his class about emergency medicine.

- That's great.

Maybe he could help you get back into medical school.

- I don't need Gary Culvert to get back into medical school.

- Um, I just mean scholarships and things.

- I know what that's all about.

I ran rings around him in medical school.

I had to tutor him on every exam.

Now he's a doctor, he's a big deal professor of medicine,

and what am I, huh?

Just an ambulance driver,

if it was up to them, Jesus Christ.

- You're a physician's assistant.

Maybe he respects you, do you ever think of that?

- Oh, honey, please.

You know that no medical school

in the world would have a PA like me talk

to a medical class about emergency medicine.

- Well, it just seems like a good opportunity.

I thought when you took this job at the clinic

that you'd be working your way back into medical school.

- Hey, listen, you know,

no more about medical school, all right?

First McCafferty, then you and, uh.

- Well, I think we need to talk about it.

- Well, maybe I don't want to go to medical school.

You ever think of that?

Maybe I want to do something else.

Earl has an idea, you know, he's got an idea.

Maybe it's good, I don't know.

- What idea?

- Well, what's the number one industry in this area?

It's tourism, people come here,

they want to fish and they want to hunt,

they want to enjoy the mountains

and the trees and the lakes and they can't get there by car.

Now what if there's an outfit that can fly them there?

See, Earl has the experience, I'm getting my license.

We get a few thousand dollars together,

buy some pontoon skis for the plane, we'll be all set.

You know, we just build a reputation,

and then we'll have more business

than we know how to handle.

It's an incredible opportunity.

What do you think?

- You can't be serious.

- Why not?

- Well, Earl I can understand.

He's got nothing better to do than sit around,

drink beer, and tell stupid stories about his ex-wife

and his Navy pilot days.

But Mike, you could be anything you want to be.

You could be a doctor, you could be-

- I'm doing the best I can!

- I want us to go back to New York, Mike.

- Laura, we've talked about this before.

We are not going back to New York.

- I may not ever be able to play well enough again

to have a career, but

I'm ready to go back to work.

I miss it, I miss all of it, the practice,

the dedication, the-

- Hold on, you can practice here,

and we've got a wonderful life here.

We ski, we hike-

- I don't want to do it, I'm sick of it!

I feel cut off, isolated.

I want to go back, I want to audition

for the Chamber Orchestra again-

- Fine, audition anywhere,

but we're not going back to New York!

- When are we gonna stop running away?

Ever since Jamie died-

- No, don't, stop it right there.

I've told you, just don't bring that up.

Everything's going along fine, and you gotta bring this up.

You know, you just don't understand.

You will never, never understand.

- No, you're the one who won't let go!

You have to stop blaming yourself.

Mike, come back.

I am sick of chasing after you!

- Then stop chasing.

- Push!

- Five one thousand, one one thousand,

two one thousand, three one thousand,

four one thousand, five one thousand.

- Okay, start CPR.

We've got a pulse, Earl!

Is anyone else injured?

- No, we're all right.

- She was under the car, we couldn't get her out.

- Are you all right?

- It's okay.

- Okay, I need, I need one person on each corner, all right?

At least four people.

Now, pick that oxygen up and bring it up with me, all right?

Now, one, two, three, lift.

Easy, easy, all right.

Okay.

Easy.

- I still can't believe they found me under the car.

- And alive.

- Mom said it was a miracle.

- Michael thought so, too.

- And you?

- Oh, I do, but-

- But what?

- Well, sometimes miracles just don't end up the way

you think they will.

- Then why do they call them miracles?

- Well, because they're rare and beautiful,

but we're stubborn and we go back to our old ways

and we forget what the purpose

of the miracle was in the first place.

- What was the purpose of mine?

- I'm not sure.

There was a time I was sure, but now,

I'm not so sure.

- Me neither.

- I wonder if I should have left Michael.

- Why didn't you?

- I suppose

'cause I loved him.

Isn't that always the answer?

Kiki, dear, do you know why your father left your mother?

- Yes.

- Then why was that?

- I don't know if I should,

unless, if-

- Unless I know?

- Yes.

- I know.

- You do?

- When you've lost something dear to you,

it becomes like an unwelcome friend,

and you can always sense when it's coming around again.

- How old is she?

- Six.

- Keep it on the road, Earl!

- Kiki.

Oh.

- Unit two to base, unit two to base, over.

Come on, McCafferty, come on.

- What happened?

- You're on the box, Mike.

- Look, doc, yeah, we got a, uh,

six-year-old female, condition critical,

blunt trauma to the neck, possibly chest,

probable with head injury,

and unconscious without spontaneous respiration.

Unequal pupils, disheveled posturing,

and a possible intracerebral edema

and a possible hemathorax, over.

What do you think?

- She's got a pronounced edema, doctor.

I've given her Maltitol and Decadron,

and her hypothermia's what's keeping her going,

but if it reverses, we've got out hands full, over.

- I'm trusting your judgment, doctor.

- I'm pushing down her now at half a gram

and I can't catch it.

- All right, , but slowly.

- I'd like to use some Valium in one milligram doses, over.

Okay, go ahead.

- What's happening, why doesn't it stop?

- Now keep that steady.

- Get her on the respirator

and the cardiac monitor.

I need test films, head and neck, and blood gadgets, stat.

Don't go too far, Dietrich, I may need you.

- Excuse me.

How are you doing?

- I need to call my husband.

He works at Clearwater Airport, I'm sure

you could get someone- - Clearwater, yeah,

I know Clearwater, I fly up there.

Who's your husband?

- Chuck Scott.

- You're Chuck Scott's wife?

Well, when Dr. McCafferty gets your little girl stabilized,

we're gonna fly her out of here.

We're gonna take her to the Regional Trauma Center

and Chuck can meet us there, okay?

- Okay.

- Now, they've got the best diagnostic tools

in the whole country and one of the best staffs,

so you call him right there, the phone's over there

in the office. - Okay.

- All right, and tell him we're doing everything we can.

- Thanks.

- It's hard to tell without a CT scan

and an EEG the amount of brain damage she's suffered,

but you did a nice job, Dietrich,

getting the edema and the seizures under control.

She's got a chance.

Code blue, we got a cardiac arrest.

Let Dietrich do that.

- Clear.

- Is she all right?

Kids, get out of here.

Repeat the.

- Clear.

- God, please don't let Kiki die.

- Clear.

Earl, call the medevac guys, tell them to get here stat.

What are you doing here?

- I've made a decision.

I'm going to my sister's in New York.

- Right now?

- Well, I'm catching the shuttle

into the city for a nine o'clock flight.

I'm leaving, Mike.

- Oh, Laura, please-

- Look, you say you're happy here, I'm not.

- I can't talk right now.

Wait until I get back.

- Mike, come on, we're ready to go.

- Okay.

- What's going on here?

- We've got a patient, a little girl.

There's not much hope,

but we're gonna move her to the trauma center.

Let's go, Dietrich.

- Okay, wait 'til I get back and we'll talk.

Please.

- You're going with her, aren't you?

You've gotta go with her.

- How you doing?

- I'm trying to convince myself this isn't all my fault.

- Keep trying, these things, they just happen.

- I know, but why Kiki?

She's such a sweet little girl.

- It's not your fault, the roads are terrible now.

- My husband told me to wait another day.

I should have listened.

- Well, that won't help any.

Believe me, I've been down that road a million times.

- It's all I can think about.

Do you have any children?

- I had a son.

He was two,

and there was an accident, a fall

down the stairs of our brownstone.

You know, a day doesn't go by when I don't think

of what I could have done differently then.

But it won't bring him back.

- I'm so sorry.

- So don't blame yourself, you know,

Kiki wouldn't want that.

- She'd be more concerned about me than I am of her.

- Yeah, that's a way to look at it.

All right, there you go,

think about what Kiki would say to you.

- What would your son say to you?

- Well, you know, he was something, he'd say,

you know kids, they come out with things, and...

- What would you say to him?

- Oh, that's easy, I,

I'd say "I love you" about a million times,

and I'd say, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,"

and maybe he could believe me, you know?

- I know he'd believe you.

Will you stay with Kiki when we get there?

- Well, you know, they got the best doctors

in the country there,

so there's nothing for you to worry about.

- Will you?

- I...

Yes, of course I will.

- We all know Kiki's in bad shape, she needs our help.

Let's all pray for Kiki.

- It's very weak, but she's breathing on her own now.

- Kiki Scott.

- Dr. Davis, telephone, please.

Dr. Davis, telephone, please.

- This is Dr. Leighton at the Regional Trauma Center.

Let me speak to Dr. McCafferty.

Hello, Mac, how are you?

I need some information, this Scott girl you sent us.

She didn't make it?

- She made it through, in fact, she's considerably improved.

That's what I wanted to ask you about.

Her CT scan's negative, no focus of bleeding,

only a cerebral edema.

There's a pneumothorax in the left chest,

but that was taken care of by the chest tube.

Mac, this girl's going to be fine.

- What do you mean fine?

So she's out of the coma?

- Yes.

- She's breathing voluntarily?

- Yes.

- What about the seizures, the cardiac arrest?

- Nothing.

It's not possible.

- She's gonna be all right!

- I don't believe it, I just don't believe it.

Gelling, I'm sorry, what is it again?

- Would you go over your records with me again?

We must be missing something.

- Perfect landing, sir.

- She'll be all right?

- She's fine, she's a little beat up,

but no brain damage, no spinal cord damage.

I think she's gonna be just fine.

- Well, how about that?

- Yeah.

- Thanks.

I can't begin to tell you.

- She's quite a little girl.

- You saved her life.

- Can I go in and see her?

- Sure. - Oh.

- On that airplane, when they were taking you

to St. Joe's, something happened.

It was, it was as if when you started breathing on your own,

Michael started breathing again.

After years of blaming and crucifying himself,

he was finally able to

make peace about the loss of our precious little boy.

- That must have been really hard on you two.

- Oh, it was.

It was hard enough to lose Jamie,

but then to lose Michael, too, it was-

- Mother used to say when, when he saved me,

he saved himself.

- No, she would know, I guess.

Something else happened on that plane, they bonded,

emotionally in a way that

it's hard to understand.

- When did you find out?

- After so many years of marriage, you,

if you're awake, you know these things,

at least we women do.

I just knew I was losing Michael again.

When did you find out?

- Mother told me.

- That was honest of her.

- Alan was on tour, my mother came over for dinner.

She brought over her famous apple dumplings.

We went and cleaned the kitchen, and

we went to the dining table, and

poured some tea.

And then she grabbed my hand

and kept saying that she was sorry,

she was sorry, sorry, and I was like, "For what, like?"

And then she told me that she was leaving my father.

And then

she said,

she said-

- She said what?

- She said that she was in love with another man,

that she was in love with Michael.

I was sorry.

You didn't know, did you?

- I did, sweetie, in my heart.

It's not your fault, it's not your fault.

It's not your fault.

- But it is my fault, I feel like it's my fault

because it's like, I just worshiped this man, you know,

the man that saved me.

I mean, you guys used to come over and visit,

and we'd had so much fun.

I just thought that we were gonna be friends forever.

- Look.

If it was anybody's fault, it was mine.

We'd been planning on visiting you for months,

and then I got the offer from the orchestra to do the solo,

and it was a piece I'd auditioned with 30 years earlier,

and Michael, Michael seemed to understand.

He said, "Stay, darling, you have to.

I'll be fine, fine."

He wasn't fine.

It was always something in him,

something that I could never quiet.

We could never have another child, and he just threw himself

into his work at the hospital, and I with my music,

and we just grew further and further apart.

If I had to do it all over again, I'd do it just the same.

But I should have gone that week.

None of this would have happened.

- You can't blame yourself.

- Nor can you.

- Did Michael ever know that-

- That I knew?

No.

Some things are better left unsaid.

He got sick soon after coming home,

and any plans he had of leaving me were soon gone.

And I knew he was here to stay.

- Old McCafferty didn't do a bad job

for an old horse doctor, did he?

- What time is it?

- It's about four.

Are you gonna go home and sack up?

- Yeah, I guess so.

I don't know why.

- Well, you're a lot better off without her, believe me.

You may not think so now, but, hey, let her go.

I remember when me and old Carmelita broke up.

I was 7,000 miles away on an aircraft carrier

with three months of duty in front of me.

I was so low, I didn't care about nothing, except flying

and way too much John Barleycorn.

We just have to get you back up where you belong.

You'll be okay.

- Don't you have a home?

- You know, that was really fine work you did last night.

- She's a very lucky girl.

- Lucky to have

first rate medical attention.

- But I didn't do anything special.

- A good doctor never does anything special,

he does everything he can.

You were there, you knew what to do.

- But that doesn't explain what happened.

Now, you look at this file, and you tell me what happened,

because I was there and I don't know what happened.

- All right, you need an explanation.

Let's see if I can find you one or two.

How about the snow cushioned her

so she didn't suffer any cervical damage

or broken ribs, therefore no internal bleeding.

Or how about, um, her hypothermia slowed her metabolic rate,

reduced her need for oxygen,

she received CPR and the right medicine at the right time,

thus preventing permanent brain damage

from the intracranial edema.

See how easy it is?

- I'm very impressed, Doctor.

But that doesn't explain it.

That doesn't explain what happened.

- It doesn't, does it?

No, it doesn't.

You know, Dietrich,

I believe after 30 years of practice,

I've discovered that doctors don't heal people.

Now, we're there, we participate,

but it's not up to us to make people whole.

- If I left here, could you get along without me?

- Oh, well, gee,

yeah, I guess I could manage somehow, Doctor.

- You've got a little shaving cream right here.

- Where, here?

- No, right there.

- Here?

- There we go.

- Oh.

Thanks.

- Thank you, Doctor.

- Sorry I don't have any dumplings to go with this.

- Oh, you are so wicked.

I swear, I will never eat another apple dumpling

as long as I live.

Have you ever been able to forgive them?

- I think so.

It's tough.

Unfaithfulness has its own

fears and jealousies, it's never easy.

Nothing quick about forgiveness, especially for yourself,

but I think I have.

And you, have you forgiven them?

- No.

I'm trying to work on it.

I'm just really hurt.

And that Mom, she finds about Michael's sickness,

and she does this complete 180,

she's begging for my dad back.

She's saying it's good for the family.

But he's not responding, he's so hurt.

He's never forgive her.

Once he left, he's never coming back.

And then here I am, counseling people

on their relationships and marriage and families,

and then I look at my own family,

and they are so screwed up.

And then Alan, he thinks I come from this perfect family,

and that we were great and we went to church,

and then he started to go to church.

And then he found out what happened,

and he just thought we were a bunch of hypocrites.

- Are you worried?

- Yeah, I am.

He's down under, he has a number one single.

Of course there's gonna be groupies everywhere.

I don't know, he wanted me to come with him,

but I didn't go, and maybe I should have gone.

- Maybe.

- But now I have this practice and it's up and running

and it's going really good.

But then I have the best therapist, and now she quit on me.

- Oh, no.

- And I have to take on her load.

- Couldn't you just Zoom her clients

until you get a replacement?

- I suppose.

- Then go see him.

- I don't know.

- What, why not?

Do you need money for a ticket?

- No, I'm good, thanks.

- Then go see him for a while.

Tell him that you're gonna keep your eye on him,

and if he so much as touches one of those groupies,

he won't have a warm bed to come home to.

I'm assuming the conjugal bed is still warm?

- Oh, we have no problems in that situation.

- Oh, good, good, then go call him.

Tell him that you love him, that he's your man,

and, you know, you guys have been in love

since you were kids, it's in your DNA.

Don't let him go, don't lose Alan.

- I want to call him.

- Good.

- Yeah.

- Go in there, that is my prayer, meditation, yoga room,

sometimes screaming weeping room,

and you'll be private in there.

- Thank you, thank you.

- I love you, Kiki.

- I love you too, Laura.

- So I lied to you, my darling.

You'd be up there in the air with crazy Earl,

flying around for hours at a time.

I was lonely.

Things had grown so cold.

I was so lonely, empty.

And then Chuck would come over just to say a friendly hi,

and, uh, then things got too friendly.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry that I,

that I couldn't love you the way I was supposed to.

Never make you happy.

That's why I wanted to get away,

it's why I wanted to come back to New York.

It's why I couldn't stand going back there,

knowing I'd betrayed you.

I'm so sorry, sweet Michael.

Forgive me, as I've forgiven you.

- I'm sorry.

- It's okay.