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The surgery.

What can I say about it?

Other than that, it changed everything...

All it took was my whole life.

All that pain...

All that struggle...

And eight hours under anesthesia.

I went from a caterpillar to a butterfly.

And now, I'm me.

Can't you see?

I'm finally me.

Can't you see me for who I truly am?

What more do I have to

Okay thanks, that's enough.

Uh, sorry.

No, that was great.

Thanks for that.

Thank you.

As you know, the casting call is for a transgender male

or transgender female.

Just for our records,

uh, which one are you?

Oh, uh, um.

Trans man.

Trans male.

Trans man.

Great. Thanks.

We'll be in contact.

Hey, I just got out of the audition,

which was a little.

Yeah. Uh, on that front, bad news.

Wait...

They already passed?

I was just up there 30 seconds ago.

Yeah, sorry, Leo.

They said they're going in a different direction.

Different direction. Well...

At least they're efficient.

Onwards and upwards.

Look, the real reason I'm calling is because you're confirmed.

- The callback? - Yep.

The callback.

It's Monday, 2 p.m. At the production offices.

They want you to read the same scene.

So I'll send you the sides.

I already have them memorized.

Wonderful. You're going to kill it.

- Zip. - Zap.

- Zop. - Zop Zip.

- Zap. - Zop.

- Zip. - Zap.

- Zop. - Zip.

Got it.

Are you okay?

Yeah, I'm just tired.

Remember Leo, you are a worm.

You're not pretending to be a worm. Okay?

Loosen up.

Uh, so I'm auditioning for this like,

teen movie about a vampire.

Really! That's awesome.

- Wait-- - You're gonna be like, a vampire?

Um, I mean, I'm going to be a human.

- Oh, okay. - Yeah.

- I'll see it's like a. - Yeah.

But I might turn into a vampire.

Like, later on in the film if it all goes well.

That's so cool.

Hi.

Sorry I'm late.

I feel like I came this close

to booking.

My agent said they pinned me.

That's fantastic.

Be fantastic to book but.

Yeah.

How was your audition?

They passed, but, um.

I do have this callback for...

- The series regular thing? - Yeah.

Leo! That's great.

Yeah, I feel really

Sorry, do you see my shirt?

Oh, um.

Uh, here you go.

Would you want to, um...

go to this reading

my friend's doing this weekend?

Sure.

But not, like,

as a date, right?

Totally.

Because I don't want to ruin

our dynamic.

I think we work really well together

as scene partners.

I definitely wouldn't want to mess up our classroom chemistry.

Good.

I'm glad we're on the same page.

What are you doing tonight?

I've got a date.

Cool.

What are you up to?

Uh...

Going to a friend's party, I think.

Fun.

Yeah.

Hello?

Surprise!

Surprise!

Squirrel.

Squirrel.

Um.

You gorgeous creature.

AH! You look so different.

A year and Vitamin T will do that.

Vitamin T?

Testosterone.

Oh, my God. Right.

Of course. Of course.

Come on in.

- Okay. - Yeah.

You really don't have to roll out the red carpet.

I'm only staying a night.

It's fine.

Well, thank you.

So...

What are you doing in New York?

Just passing through.

You know, living my usual nomad life

during the summer.

And when I realized

that I'd be driving through the city

to go upstate.

I couldn't resist

And I think you should come with me.

I couldn't.

I'm not taking no for an answer.

No, really.

No, really.

uh, uh

I really can't

- I really can't. - I really can't.

- What? - Eleanor!

I am not...

- I'm taking your wine away. - Going.

What? It's mine.

Oh! Hey.

Uh, you want me to clear out?

Nah.

We used to change in front of each other all the time, right?

Right.

Coffee?

Ooh, yes, please.

So I hear nothing for three weeks,

and then, out of nowhere, out of the blue

I get a call from a new number, and he said, oh, sorry.

I dropped my flip phone--

Flip phone!

In a bucket of paint

- at an art gathering. - Okay.

What the fuck is an art gathering?

And then I was like, but you were posting on Instagram?

And he was like, yeah, I did it from my iPad.

So?

So I kept fucking him until he disappeared. Again.

You really know how to pick 'em.

I'm nothing if not consistent.

Are you?

At least I'm consistent in my inconsistency.

But you and Will are good?

Oh, yeah.

I'm glad we got back together.

He's, um, less awful

than the other guys I've been with.

A glowing compliment.

You know what I mean.

What's he up to?

He was on part of the road trip.

We actually did a project together,

combining his drawing, and my photographs.

It was very romantic.

What's the project?

People...

and signage.

Speed limits, stop signs.

Public spaces, private life.

All these little commandments everywhere.

Still not fully formed yet, but yeah.

How's life as a Broadway hoofer?

Oh, you know.

No, I don't.

Give me all the juicy details.

I do have this callback for a series thing.

Leo!

That's huge!

I hope so.

I mean, it would feel really good to book something.

And then I could say my oldest friend is the Leo Mark.

Eleanor, stop.

Don't forget about me when you're famous, okay?

Right.

I mean it.

I won't.

Good.

Wow.

It's lovely.

Friends of friends in high places.

Can you..?

And they're just,

- letting us stay here? - Yeah.

I met her at an arts residency

and Lila said I could stay here whenever she's not here.

Dibs.

Sit with me.

You should put on a bathing suit.

The sun feels so good on my skin.

I'm good as I am.

Suit yourself.

Hey, this is Will.

You know what to do.

I think we should go shopping.

I've got the urge to splurge.

Sure.

Oh dear.

Do you want to try anything on?

I mean, it's a woman's store.

Ahh, right, right.

Sorry. Sorry.

Oh.

She's cute.

Yeah.

Hm.

Remember when we used to go to Savers?

We'd get,

what, 10 pounds of clothes for 10 dollars?

I still have some of that stuff.

Some really good shit.

Okay.

What do you think?

It's nice.

- Nice? - Uh--

I'm not an expert on women's fashion.

It is cute.

- Flattering? - Sure. Sure.

Well, I like it.

Will you check the tag and see how much it is?

65.

Woof.

We're not in Savers anymore, are we, Toto?

No, we're not.

Should we steal it?

- What? - We can put it in my bag.

Eleanor.

I'm kidding.

Right.

- I'm gonna wear it out. - Right.

Eleanor?

Were you actually joking?

Of course. We're not in college anymore.

I can afford it.

Right.

I mean it.

You have family in me.

Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.

You don't have to be blood to be family.

Our bond

is deeper than biology.

Whether you like it or not,

we're irrevocably connected.

- Yikes. - Ah!

Sorry.

Is that for your callback?

Yup.

Dialogue's a little much, huh?

I guess. I don't know.

I think it's kind of nice.

Totally.

It's just nice to have a character

that's not just

you know,

talking about transitioning the whole time.

Right. Well, whenever you want to practice,

I am ready.

I'm going to draw upon my long and storied career

as a chorus member

from my sixth grade production of Oklahoma.

Oh, how could I forget.

An acting legend stands before me.

Don't be shocked

when I act in circles around you.

- Wine? - Mm.

I think I should move.

Again?

Again, again, again.

But I thought you liked Durham.

I do. But...

I also don't like getting stuck places, you know?

What about Will?

Well.

Will is transportable.

Oh, sorry.

Just.

So,

moving?

It's always a thought.

You know me.

Do the thing.

- What thing? - You know.

Squirrel.

Squirrel!

Oh.

I never told you this in college,

but, you'd be holding court at some party,

and I would be hanging on the edge,

wondering when you were going to figure out how much cooler

than me you were.

I would fantasize about

doing something, I don't know,

cool enough to keep your attention.

Like what?

Something impulsive.

Like?

I don't know.

Steal a car,

go for a joyride, you know,

throw caution to the wind.

We never quite did that.

No, I didn't.

I do remember seeing you, though, at parties

at your most painfully socially awkward looking at me.

I always wondered what you were thinking.

Well, now you know.

Yeah, but it makes sense.

You're an actor.

You're shy in real life, but on stage, you're...

Whereas with me.

Well, everywhere you go, it's theater.

Yeah.

I think we should go out.

- Oh, really? - Yeah. It's happy hour.

We should hit the town.

Have a few drinks.

Have a few laughs.

I haven't heard that one since college.

Well, it's still true.

The afternoon is young!

Or,

old.

But the night is still barely nascent.

Yes, but I am very old now.

Let's go.

Please,

please, please, please, please.

- Sure. - Yes!

C'mon. Loosen up.

I am loose.

I'm loose.

We've been hooking up for a year...

A year?

Yeah, but we're just friends.

Oh, really?

Yes, really.

I mean,

if she wanted more I, uh

but, I respect her boundaries.

She wants to keep it professional.

Except when you're having sex.

Oh, I just want someone to love me

like Rita Wilson loves Tom Hanks.

What?

They famously love each other.

A lot.

I read a listicle about it.

Well, you deserve an epic love like that.

I'd just be happy

with something a little more stable.

But, um,

yeah, I'm totally fine

with the no strings thing.

Totally.

My own arts practice is really informed

by being on the road.

- Uh. - Not to get too Kerouac,

but the freedom of the open road really frees me.

I love Kerouac.

Me too.

I'm gonna go to the bathroom.

Oh, cool.

So what's the longest you've ever driven in one go?

15 hours.

Wow.

No, c'mon.

Come on.

Mhm, mhm, mhm.

Uh-huh, uh-huh.

So?

How do they compare to your boyfriends?

I'm not going to you know,

size wise, put you in competition.

Mm-hm.

You both have beautiful, artistic hands.

Um, sorry.

I think I'm going to head out.

Um.

Sorry. He's my ride.

I've gotta go.

Good to meet you.

Bye.

You know, you could have stayed if you wanted to.

I know.

I just hate Kerouac. Mm-hm.

And I'd never cheat on Will.

It's just nice to flirt a little.

You want dinner?

No, I'm good.

I think I'm just hang out here for a minute.

Okay.

Night sweetie.

Whenever you're ready.

If I hadn't come, what would you have done?

Something desperate.

No, seriously, what would you have done?

Paid my respects and left quietly.

These assholes are the only ones

who want to turn it into a whole thing.

You can't expect

to just show up here and no, nothing.

I mean,

you look like Holly Golightly, for Christ's sake.

- Ugh. Are you slut shaming me? - Rhea.

I couldn't turn up to my estranged father's funeral looking like shit.

Could I?

I know that was a lot.

What they did wasn't cool.

Oh, threatening to have me arrested for trespassing wasn't cool?

You know what I mean.

You haven't saved me, A.J.

- That's not... - Showing up here

didn't fix anything for me.

I just wanted to make sure you were okay.

Why do you care so much?

Because.

Because you're my family, Rhea.

Right...

Family.

I don't have any family.

I mean it.

You have family in me.

Just because you refuse to see

it doesn't mean it's not true.

You don't have to be blood to be family.

Our bond is deeper than biology.

Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.

Ever since that day at the crash pad,

we've been linked.

- I messed up a line. - No, you read them

fine.

I just thought,

maybe you're being a little gentle.

Like.

Like where's the energy,

- the passion? - Um.

I...

Why don't you try the monologue again?

But this time, maybe like...

angry.

Why would I be angry?

Well, Rhea's kind of a bitch, right?

- Kind of. - Right.

She, like, doesn't listen.

So you have to really get through to her.

Like really shake her.

I guess I just kind of was thinking about AJ as if he,

you know, was a gentle person,

Like when he's making a point he wouldn't be like, in her face?

Yeah, but I feel like at this point,

it'd be a really big breaking point for him.

I think you want to wow the director.

So you should just try something different. Right?

Mm, yeah. Maybe I can try it angrier.

Yeah, just the monologue.

Just like, come on. Like, really give it to her.

- Come on. - Yeah.

I'll give you the line leading in.

I don't have any family.

I mean it.

You have family in me.

Just cause you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.

Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.

Ever since that day at the crash pad,

we've been linked.

You're not perfect.

Neither am I.

But we're perfect.

In our imperfection,

two warped puzzle pieces that manage to fit just right.

You fit me,

and I fit you.

So, yeah, Rhea,

you have family.

May not be those people in the church, but.

You got family standing right in front of you.

How was that?

I think it's getting there.

Felt so weird.

We can keep working on it.

Fuck, I really don't wanna fuck this up.

You won't.

We'll get there.

And then I say...

We fit.

I guess,

in our own misshapen way.

And now you're supposed to put your palm against my palm,

and we interlace fingers.

Right.

Might not be those people in that church.

But you have family standing right in front of you.

So?

Umm...

Umm?

Honestly?

Yes, honestly.

Why are you yelling?

I have literally no idea.

My friend

gave me all these directions and now I'm totally lost.

- You were fine before. - Fuck.

Look, just get out of your head and don't run lines with her again.

Mm.

I kinda wish it was just you and me up here.

Oh, yeah?

Yeah.

That's, sweet.

Is everything okay?

I'm happy to run lines and stuff,

but the guy that I've been dating, he wants to be exclusive.

Oh, yeah.

That's, I mean, I'm cool with that.

Neither of us wanted anything, right?

Yeah.

But I guess,

now I want something with this guy.

So...

I hope that's okay?

Of course.

Thanks for being so chill.

And seriously, run lines by yourself this weekend.

Bye.

Leo?

Coming.

You okay? You look like someone died.

No, I'm good.

Farm store?

Oooh, these are gorge

- Potted plant... - I think it's hibiscus

So...

Put it in your hair.

Hi.

How are vegetables so expensive?

Inflation?

Fuck.

What?

Just this person from my acting class is here.

Don't look, Eleanor.

Why can't you say hi?

Because he's on a really big show right now.

- So? - And he's really good on it.

Leo?

Leo!

- Oliver! - Hi.

It's so good to see you.

It's been a minute.

So what are you doing here?

Just set up here for the weekend.

Oh, Joe's parents have a house up here,

so we're here, like, all the time.

Oh, this is my friend Joe.

- Nice to meet you. - Hi.

You, too.

And I'm Eleanor.

Sorry.

This is my friend Eleanor.

- Well. - Hi.

Hi, Eleanor, um.

So, how are you?

I'm good. I just.

I should say congratulations on San Fran house.

I've been watching the show, and you're so wonderful in it.

Oh, thank you.

You don't have to say that, though.

Leo was just saying how good you are in it.

- It's just a great show. - Wait, wait, wait.

Uh, I'm having, like, a brain blast moment.

- Um. - Oh, yeah?

Okay. Uh, no pressure at all.

But you two should totally come over to my place for, like, snacks.

I mean, we came here for cheese and crackers.

It'd be so lovely to share.

I think we have afternoon plans.

They're easily changeable.

Okay, so change them.

Look, we'll stay in the store a little bit longer,

buy a few things, and then we'll meet you outside?

- Hell yeah. - All right. Cool.

Amazing. Okay. See you.

What is your problem?

I guess, I...

He just was the only other trans guy

in our acting class.

And we weren't that close,

and it kind of felt.

I don't know, like there was some competition.

Well, you're not in class now, no need to be competitive.

Yeah.

Are you annoyed with me?

because I seized the moment?

If you don't wanna go, we can back out.

No, no

actually, thank you.

Let's do the socializing thing.

See?

Serendipity!

Adventure!

Hello.

Wheat and Rye?

Yeah, it's over by the market.

Whaat.

Oh my god.

Thank you, Joe!

Don't mind if I do!

- That looks so beautiful. - So beautiful.

I mean,

I think a lot about,

you know, art's ability to create meaningful change. Right?

I'm an actor because I believe

movies are powerful engines for empathy.

But sometimes I wonder what actually meaningfully changes?

Like, I don't know.

Can you think of a movie

that has changed the course of history really?

Uh, Cruising,

you know?

Uh, responsible for a huge homophobic backlash

against queer men.

Oh, no, Joe.

But I love that movie.

I mean, Al Pacino doing poppers in those tank tops.

It's ugh...

- I don't know that one, - Mm-hm.

but I'm sure it's better

than what you've been auditioning for.

Am I right?

I guess.

You haven't saved me,

AJ. C'mon Leo.

That's not what I...

Showing up here didn't change anything for me.

I just wanted to make sure you're okay.

You know the lines?

Yeah, uh.

I auditioned.

Wow, that is.

Yeah. It's just so crazy.

We went in for the same part.

Oh, they already passed on me.

Yeah.

- So sorry. - It's fine.

I'm actually really glad

that you're up for it.

When Leo first read it, he was so quiet.

But I'm trying to work with him and, you know,

try to get him to be a little angry you know?

I kind of thought of AJ as a

sort of gentle guy?

Huh.

Joe, remind me of the name of this cheese?

Oh, Camembert.

Do you eat this?

- Yeah. - Yeah, you can.

Why we didn't we talk about this kind of stuff

when we were in class together?

I don't know.

I mean, we should've just

been doing this the whole the time.

Yeah, right.

Leo said you guys are a little competitive with each other.

Eleanor.

No, it's true. We were.

I mean, we were competing

for, like, the scraps of roles they were throwing our way, but

it all feels really stupid now.

It does.

Well, we're talking now.

- Cheers? - Cheers.

Oh my God. This pool is everything.

It was. It was. It was, uh, actually a little traumatizing.

Maybe I'm not ready to keep this conversation going.

Uh, Eleanor, we've totally been ignoring you.

What about you? What do you do?

Uh, I'm a photographer.

I teach during the year, and I travel every summer.

Okay, that's enviable.

It's nice to be free in that way.

So what college do you teach at?

Uh, Eleanor, teaches at this like, really amazing high school.

Oh, that's so cool.

I mean, it must be really interesting

- to work with people that age. - Yup.

Eleanor has been living in Durham for like, two years now.

Has this really cool boyfriend.

Who's also an artist,

and they went on this road trip together.

- Yup. - Ok, how was that?

Really romantic.

He painted and I photographed.

But I thought he was drawing?

Oh, drawing.

Yeah, he usually is a painter, but

because we were on the road, he was drawing

because of the supplies and stuff.

I was just texting him yesterday, and he said

he was really happy to be back home with his materials.

- Yeah, drawing. - Yes.

Uh, would anyone like some wine?

Oliver, do you want to come with me?

- I can help. - No, no. You're good. We got it.

Um.

You're being weird.

How?

I just feel like you're not being yourself.

And what is me being myself, Eleanor?

Just seems like you're performing,

Maybe I'm just...

having a good time and feeling loose with them.

Then why aren't you like that with me?

I...

I have to pee.

I am.

- Hey, this is Will... - Motherfucker.

You were right, I was being weird.

Good thing you know my love language.

Let's just have fun.

Mmm.

C'mon, Leo.

Are you serious right now?

What?

Ok, what's with the t-shirts?

What do you mean?

I feel like you're going to drown with all those clothes on.

Eleanor.

What?

I'm wearing a shirt 'cause I'm binding.

Oh, my God. I'm so sorry, um.

It's fine.

Why didn't you tell me?

More wine?

- Mhmm. - Sure.

Stop.

Stop. No...

Seriously, I have to stop laughing

cause my stomach is hurting.

Okay, okay. No more dirty knock-knock jokes for us.

Is there more wine?

Uh, t...

Are you sure you want more?

Yes.

I guess I'm driving.

That would be great.

- Anyone else want? - Um.

what is that?

I think okay.

Bigger glass.

Thank you.

Uh, I told the entire auditorium

I was bisexual,

during my campaign

- for student body president. - What?

And, of course, I lost, um.

- Oh my god, why. - Yeah, thank you.

I don't know why I the revelation would help my chances

of being student body president in 2008, in Chatham, New York.

But it's...

Wow!

I thought you were gay.

No, uh, bisexual, queer, both.

Oliver, what are you?

Oh, uh, I'm queer.

Everyone's queer.

Except for Leo.

Ummm, I'm not straight, no.

You're not?

I'm queer.

Didn't know that.

Well, I'm just grateful to be able to live

a genuine queer life.

That part.

Sometimes I wish I was queer.

Oh, really.

But do you think maybe I'm queering heterosexuality?

Maybe?

Well, maybe I am queer.

Maybe you are.

You would be the one to know.

Well, remember when we hooked up, squirrel?

- Eleanor. - Well, do you?

Making out for less than a minute before you passed out drunk?

So, what? It doesn't count?

I guess it counts.

I guess you're queer.

See, I'm queer. I'm queer too,

like why the fuck not?

I just want to be like, in the club.

I want to get naked.

Is she going to be okay?

Yeah, she's going to be fine.

- Just a little - Okay.

too much day drinking.

- We've all been there. - Yeah.

Well, we should head out.

- Thanks again. - Bye.

Did you have fun?

I did, actually.

Oliver's...

Oliver is kind of

a blowhard.

I thought he was nice.

I thought him and Joe were smart.

Yeah, they talk about

ideas.

I have an idea.

What is it?

I forgot.

Okay.

Eleanor?

You may enter.

Are you all right?

Never better.

Anything I can do to help?

Sit.

Do you still like me?

Of course I do.

Cause I was a terrible brute tonight, wasn't I?

I still like you.

Uh. Okay.

That's good.

Ugh.

I think I left my phone at their house.

Oof.

I'll pick it up in the morning.

Ugh.

- Morning. - Morning.

I have her phone.

Thank God.

Uh, do you want some coffee?

Oh,

- sure. - Okay.

I'm not much of a hiking guy.

No, you should definitely.

I mean, the path is pretty clear on the property.

You just have to, like, look out for the trail markers,

and you should be good.

Are you sure?

Yeah, I mean, we're leaving today,

but I know Joe would be happy if you swung by for just a little hike.

Maybe we will

I have to think of something to do with her.

Oh, I'm sorry about yesterday.

She's,

a lot.

It's all good. Really.

I mean,

she's maybe a little territorial?

Territorial?

Over you?

Protective, too.

Huh.

I think in kind of a sweet way.

If a little...

A little.

- A little. - Yeah.

I just, yeah.

I still am sorry

for all the unhinged stuff she said.

You know, I don't really mind her chaos.

Oh, really?

Well, then maybe

you and I should switch places for the weekend

because, oh, she's exhausting.

Maybe that's why she's your friend.

What?

Maybe, you like a little bit of dysfunction.

Okay, um.

Former classmate.

And now my psychoanalyst, um...

For the record, I like simple.

I like boring.

That's,

that's good.

Is it?

Yeah. Because,

I'm boring.

You absolutely are not.

I don't wanna...

I'm usually a lot smoother than this.

But, um,

can I, can I kiss you?

Me?

Yeah. You.

Are you and Joe...?

Oh, no. We're just friends.

I've been wanting to do that

since that terrible,

terrible class.

Really?

Yeah.

And I'm glad to know

that you like boring,

because I'd very much like

to do something boring with you sometime.

Can I call you this week?

I would really like that.

Cool. Me too.

So you should stick around.

Enjoy the pool, hang out.

I'm going to head back up.

We got to head out soon.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

- Yeah. - All right.

Have fun.

Thanks for the coffee.

Thanks for the kiss.

You were gone for a while.

I was getting your phone, remember?

Ah, thank you. My hero.

I got you an iced coffee from that place down the road.

It's a little melted, though.

I just had a coffee.

But it's my peace offering.

I'm sorry about last night.

Apology accepted.

But maybe, don't you think

those guys are just, like, a tiny bit pretentious?

Eleanor, seriously.

You know, you sound like Holden Caulfield.

Fine. Fine.

I am sorry for getting so drunk last night.

I honestly don't remember much,

but I'm sorry for whatever happened.

Okay. Thanks.

Cheers.

You have family in me.

You have family in me.

Family in me.

Ready?

Yup.

What time is it?

Time for our big hike.

Ok...

Are you okay?

You seem weird.

Just tired.

Do you want to run lines when we get back?

Oh, no. I mean,

no, thank you.

Just, uh,

appreciate it though.

I thought of a movie that changed history.

Oh yeah?

The Thin Blue Line.

Errol Morris literally solved a crime

that exonerated an innocent man.

Huh. Okay.

What happened, um, afterwards?

He made a lot of money doing computer

and beer commercials.

The death row guy?

Errol Morris.

Right.

Which way?

This way.

I don't see any trail markers.

Trust me.

Can we just stick to the trail?

This is the trail, silly.

Can we take a little break?

Yeah.

We're having fun, right?

I never go on hikes.

That's your whole problem.

- What? - You have such a rigid view

of yourself.

You say you never go on hikes, but here you are, going on a hike.

You just don't try anything new unless someone pushes you to do it.

You okay?

You know,

maybe what you think of as me being a coward...

I never said you were a coward!

Is actually

me just having a little structure in my life

because my whole life is a risk.

And I don't need to, you know,

act out like some theater kid just to prove a point.

Oh, so everywhere I go is theater, right?

Yep. Just without the stage.

I'm a photographer.

Oh, right.

And where is the camera?

Why are you being such an asshole?

If you don't want to keep hiking, then go back to the house.

Why am I being an asshole?

Go back to the house.

Where the hell are we?

I think we're lost.

Yeah, no shit.

No, we're, like, lost,

metaphorically lost.

And actually lost.

Mm.

What are you doing?

I'm going to navigate us out of here.

Not just metaphorically.

I don't have service, do you?

Don't worry about it.

Can you check if you have service?

Eleanor!

What?

I only have 3% battery.

I think we're close.

Oh yeah, Eleanor? Where are we?

See, we're on the trail.

Yeah, but do we even know

if we're going in the right direction.

It's a loop.

Okay. My phone just died.

Are you texting right now?

No.

If you are texting Will with our source of light.

I'm not texting Will. I haven't texted Will all weekend

because I'm trying to be present with you.

You haven't texted Will all weekend.

Let's just try to get out of here, huh?

So you haven't texted him at all.

- No! - No?

No.

Is that, like, normal for you guys?

And weren't you just saying

that you were texting him yesterday?

Okay, busybody, we,

we broke up. Okay?

The fuck, Eleanor.

So you've just been lying to me all weekend?

Well, you hide shit from me.

You didn't want to take your shirt off

and get in the water. Why?

Because you didn't want me to know that you hadn't had top surgery.

- Am I right? - That is completely different,

- Eleanor. - Oh, is it?

You're so fucking clueless!

I'm not clueless.

You just don't clue me in.

This isn't about me.

This is about you, lying to me, all weekend.

What do you want me to say?

I want you to tell me why you're not telling me shit.

Okay.

We were on the road trip for two days,

and I picked some stupid fight about directions,

and he just fucking left. Okay?

He hitchhiked back home.

I mean, why should I admit to you that I'm 29 fucking years old,

and I can't seem to keep a relationship

for longer than three months.

And you have your, your head so far up your own ass

with your shitty little callback for your shitty little TV show.

And all you care about is impressing pretentious assholes

that you don't even like.

Wow, Eleanor.

Just because you don't like something

doesn't mean it's shitty.

What?

It's not like we're in college anymore.

I don't need to follow you around

and just mirror back all your thoughts and opinions.

Okay. That's not--

I know I'm probably not supposed to say this

because it's problematic or whatever,

cause I'm not allowed to have any feelings about your transition.

But I miss how things were.

When you...

Who you were before.

You really,

aren't allowed to have feelings about that.

Like...

At all.

So fucked, Eleanor!

I miss you.

I just feel so distant from you now.

It's not because I'm trans.

It's really not.

I don't know, I don't know. What.

I shouldn't be here.

I shouldn't be in the fucking tick-infested,

Blair Witch Woods, fighting with you.

Thank God. The house.

- Are you sure? - Yes, I'm sure.

Just tell me you didn't lose the car keys.

I didn't

Leo.

Leo!

I love you.

No, you don't, Eleanor.

Kind of ironic, I guess.

Seeing as it was me

keeping secrets all those years, being in love with you.

And you, pretending you didn't know.

Although, I mean...

You knew. You must've known.

I didn't... know.

I mean, I didn't know know...

You liked having me around

as your little lapdog and...

I'm done.

I am done.

That's so unfair.

Is it?

Can you?

I mean it.

You have family in me.

Fuck.

You okay?

Yeah. Just,

clumsy.

Let me help.

It's our last night.

It is.

You shouldn't be drinking alone.

I heard you.

Hmm?

Like I heard you.

I was fucked up.

But can I say something?

Maybe less fucked up?

Sure.

I miss us.

You miss us?

You're the best friend I've ever had.

Like my best, best friend.

And I feel like,

you haven't been acting that way?

Or something?

Or, like, you were my best friend.

And now you're just

someone else?

I don't know.

I'm still me, Eleanor.

Definitely

still me.

That's good.

Maybe it's just...

I wish I weren't still me.

Maybe if you just

accepted you a little more, it would help.

I mean,

I always liked you as you are.

Just, it's like

when you're not happy being you, that you become a little bit

too much of you or something.

Yeah.

I liked following you around in college.

You led me out of the hole I was in.

And you still do.

Thank you.

Eleanor.

I think you're confused.

I am confused.

By you.

Okay.

You are something.

Can I?

Are you?

No. Yeah. I'm okay.

Could you maybe, um, a little

to the left?

Sure.

Yeah.

My hand is cramping.

Oh, what, um, should we?

Maybe if, um...

Yeah.

Did you just fake it?

No.

Yes.

Okay.

I guess I should

probably go.

Yeah.

Eleanor.

Oh my god, Leo.

I'm so sorry.

That was so horrifying.

Have you ever had worse sex?

No. Even the first time wasn't this bad.

At least it was brief.

Ugh.

And now we know.

We really know.

And it will never happen again.

Unless we're stuck in a cave, or on a deserted island.

Or on a long cruise ship trip.

Or if they make another Avengers movie

that's 3 hours long and we're stuck in the last row.

And we run out of popcorn.

So, I didn't

ruin everything?

No.

I just...

I did the thing where

I sabotage a good thing.

And I've just been driving around for the past couple of weeks,

aiming my camera aimlessly at shit and not pressing the shutter.

And you have a whole life that I know nothing about.

And I know it's not your fault.

I am a little clueless.

But I'm learning, right?

We're all learning.

You want to know something weird?

Another secret?

Kind of.

You know how much of a loser I feel like I am?

You're not a loser.

No, don't try to make me feel better.

But here's the thing.

I'm a fucking good teacher.

Like bizarrely good at it.

And my whole life plan was like, no,

I'm an artist.

And I was somehow embarrassed

that I became a high school teacher.

But I admit it,

I fucking love my job.

That's awesome.

The pay's shit.

Yeah.

It's exhausting.

The principal's a scumbag.

- That sucks. - Did I mention the pay is shit?

You did.

I'm so sorry for blowing everything up.

I'm sorry too.

Why do you care so much?

Because...

Because you're my family, Rhea.

Right.

Family.

I don't have any family.

I mean it.

You have family in me.

Just cause

you refuse to see it, doesn't mean it's not true.

You don't have to be blood to be family.

Our bond is deeper than biology.

Whether you like it or not,

we're irrevocably connected.

Ever since that day at the crash pad,

we've been linked.

You're not perfect.

Neither am I.

But,

we're perfect in our imperfection.

Two warped puzzle pieces

that manage to fit just right

You fit me.

And I fit you.

So...

Yeah, Rhea.

You have family.

May not be those people in that church, but...

you have family standing right in front of you.

I was wrong.

That's how you should do it.

Gentle.

You're really good, Leo.

Thank you.

♪ I wouldn't want it any other way ♪

♪ There's not much I could say

♪ A lot of things have changed ♪

♪ It isn't quite the same

♪ I thought about you every night and day ♪

♪ Not talking's pretty strange ♪

♪ We're on a different page

♪ It's healthier this way

♪ But when I look at you I see an old friend ♪

♪ I see an old friend passing through ♪

♪ And when I think of you I wanna be friends ♪

♪ I wanna be friends with you

♪ With you

Leo Mark?

♪ Years pass and I pick up the phone ♪

♪ To see where this could go ♪

♪ How could we ever know

♪ So let's just take it slow

♪ Tears fall It seems that we've outgrown ♪

♪ What kept us on our own ♪

♪ It's really come to show

♪ There's no we can go

♪ But when I look at you I see an old friend ♪

♪ I see an old friend passing through ♪

♪ And when I think of you I wanna be friends ♪

♪ I wanna be friends with you

♪ But when I look at you I see an old friend ♪

♪ I see an old friend passing through ♪

♪ And when I think of you I wanna be friends ♪

♪ I wanna be friends I wanna be friends ♪

♪ I wanna be friends