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So, this is where I come when I don't want to be found.

Oh, no use to you here. No signal.

Are you sure about this? Cos I'm not.

Her ex is a junkie with a string of convictions,

and there's something else in her history,

something she's hiding.

Then find it.

Maybe the truth is Liam reminds me a bit of me, and you of my mum.

The fire when you were a little boy, what happened?

They forced us into a bedroom.

They locked the door, and my mother was screaming.

And the next thing, he was pouring something over the door,

over the hallway, and that's when I heard it.

HE GASPS

Oh, my...

It's the same model as Elliot's!

He bought you this?!

You didn't tell me it wasn't her ex that smashed the place up.

It was two kids I've never seen before.

You don't think we should tell the police?

That we've been using illegal surveillance?

He hunted me down, he took Alfie off me.

For Liam's sake,

leave while you still can.

Olivia was sectioned.

She still blames me for everything that happened.

I had to get a restraining order.

Ask Simone, if you don't believe me.

Why do we have to go? Is it because of that woman?

Darling, I'll explain everything later, OK? Promise.

Police. Yeah, please come quickly.

My ex-wife, she broke into my home and she attacked me.

Tony House, Shepherden Brook. Please hurry, I'm bleeding.

HE SIGHS

FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING FROM OUTSIDE

DOOR CLOSES

Have a good day, yeah?

Are you OK?

Yeah.

CLICKS TONGUE

SCHOOL BELL RINGS

SHE SIGHS

OPENING DRAWERS

BEEP

PHONE RINGS

Hi.

Cameras at the house aren't working.

'Oh?'

Where are you?

In the office.

'Well, can you look into it?'

Sure, I'm on it. When are you back?

Let me know when it's fixed.

DISCONNECT TONE

KEYS THUD

SHE SIGHS

KNOCK AT DOOR

His ex-wife is currently in custody for assault

and breaching a restraining order.

And how is he - Elliot?

He needed some medical attention, but he's OK.

He is.

Do you feel in a position to make a statement, Rachel?

Sure.

DOORBELL RINGS

Does it hurt?

Yes.

I'm...

so sorry.

What for?

I should've believed you.

You were putting Liam first.

Miserable.

First day back at school, so...

There's something I want to show you.

Ooh, what is it?

A school. I think Liam would love it.

Hogwarts.

He's got a school.

But this is for kids like him.

High-achieving. He'd meet others just the same.

The chance to reach his full potential.

Where is it?

It's not far. He wouldn't have to board.

Board?

We can't afford that.

No.

Listen...

this isn't about you and me and whatever happens between us.

Liam deserves this chance.

Just think about it, yeah?

Thank you for coming.

Any time Liam wants to come back and work on my car...

Yeah. I'll ask him.

Dinner's ready. Pack away, please.

How come?

There was an accident.

He's fine.

What?

It's a specialised school for really smart kids, like you.

How come it's so special?

Well, look at it. It's set in beautiful grounds.

There's only about ten kids in a class.

Elliot knows the headmaster, reckons he could get you in.

Me?

KNOCK AT DOOR

It's OK, stay there.

Who is it?

No, nothing, no-one.

CALL CONNECTING

Hello?

'Rachel?'

Who is this?

'Simone. I can't talk for long.'

What is all this?

'I think Elliot is lying about his past.

'Some things just aren't adding up.'

'Look, I found out what I can for you. I can't dig any more.

'I've got to go.'

No, wait, Simone. Hello?

DISCONNECT TONE

Hello?

SHE SIGHS

"Child psychiatrist excuses themselves...

"refuses to testify in court."

I've been looking at some videos about the school.

They're got their own farm.

With pigs and sheep.

Listen, I need to go somewhere today,

so are you gonna be all right walking home?

I'm not a baby.

SCHOOL BELL RINGS

OK, bye.

PHONE RINGS

If you could just fill out your information at the top -

GP, phone number and address - date and sign the bottom,

and there's a health questionnaire on the back.

I'll just give you a pen.

If you'd like to take a seat, someone will be with you shortly.

Thanks. Thank you.

Hi, how can I help?

Does a Debra Mallon work here?

Have you got an appointment?

I was hoping I could have a quick word.

It won't take a minute.

Can I ask what it's regarding?

It's sort of personal. She used to treat my fiance when he was younger.

Our staff aren't able to discuss clients without their consent.

It's just she meant a lot to him,

and we were hoping she might come to our wedding.

I can leave a message for her, but as I say,

this would really have to come from your fiance.

I know, but... PHONE RINGS

..it's a surprise. I don't mind waiting.

I'm afraid it's out of the question.

Willow River Clinic. How can I help?

SHE SIGHS

CAR BEEPS, UNLOCKS

Debra?

Hi, I wondered if I could speak to you about Elliot Fielding.

You were the woman at reception this morning. Yeah.

I'm sorry, it's... it's completely inappropriate.

All I want to know is why you stopped treating him.

I've got nothing to say to you.

Please!

I have a son.

His name is Liam. He's 11, the same age Elliot was when...

I just need to know if my son is safe with him.

This goes entirely against patient confidentiality.

If anyone were to find out...

I'm not gonna tell a soul, I swear.

I met Elliot about a week or so after the fire.

When children have been through something that traumatic,

they often become closed off emotionally.

Elliot was... different.

How?

Well, he... he wasn't just shut down.

It was like he wasn't there.

There was... nothing.

Then, after a few weeks, he started to come out of himself,

to trust me.

He began to become dependent.

Possessive.

When I had to change an appointment, he'd get agitated.

Abusive.

We tried to place him with a foster family,

but every time, he'd run away.

Is that normal for a kid like him,

who'd been through what he had?

Once, he turned up in the middle of the night on my doorstep.

I've no idea how he found my address.

He was becoming obsessed, and...

..I'd never been frightened of a child before.

See you tomorrow. Bye!

Elliot?

What are you doing here?

Why don't we head up to the cabin? We can work on the Land Rover.

OK. Shall I call my mum?

No, she's gonna join us there. Hop in.

In the end, I decided it would be best

if I let someone else treat him.

And that's why you didn't testify?

I've said too much.

He said that it was his dad that started the fire.

And his dad was found guilty, right?

His father had a history of drinking and violence.

It made sense to the jury.

But...

He always insisted he was innocent.

I mean, right up until the day he died.

Why? What did he say happened?

That the house was already in flames

by the time he got home.

And did you believe him?

Maybe we'll even get it started today.

I'll go get everything ready.

RINGING TONE

PHONE BEEPS

'Hi, it's Rachel, leave a message.'

CALL CONNECTING

Hi.

'How can I help?'

I just wondered when you were coming back today.

There's a few things I need to go through with you.

'I'm not. We'll talk Monday.'

Is everything OK?

'Why wouldn't it be?'

SHE SIGHS

'Liam reminds me a bit of me, and...

'you of my mum.'

'He began to become dependant. Possessive.'

Can we?

'She was gonna start again without me.'

We're leaving.

'So I just stood there...'

'..and listened to my mother screaming.'

Liam?

Liam?

CALL CONNECTING

'The number you have dialled cannot be reached.

'Please try again later.'

CALL CONNECTING

'The number you have dialled cannot be reached.

'Please try again later.'

PHONE RINGS

Hello?

'It's Elliot. Everything OK?

'Rachel?'

I'm fine.

How are you?

'I was thinking about what we discussed,

'Liam working on the car again,

'so I dropped by the school and picked him up.'

What?

'I thought the three of us could stay in the cabin for the weekend.'

He's with you?

Can you put him on?

Elliot?

'He's busy with the Land Rover.

'Sorry, it's really bad signal out here.'

Tell him I'll be right there. I'm coming now.

How was Debra?

Is Liam OK?

HE CHUCKLES

Course he is.

I would have brought him.

He insisted he was old enough to stay on his own.

PHONE RINGS

No need for phones at the cabin, remember?

No signal.

RINGING CONTINUES

Rachel?

Rachel? Hello?

Ah!

Are you OK? Yeah.

SHE SIGHS

I have a surprise inside for you.

We can't. What?

It's late, and you haven't had dinner.

I'm making dinner. No, really.

Jasmine's expecting us.

Go get your bag. We can grab a cab in the village.

Come inside first.

I'll drop you back there later.

Police, please.

Why does it smell of petrol?

Take a seat.

This was my mother's recipe.

Shall I show you how to skin it?

I want to go now. Yeah, look, we'd better be off.

Come on.

KNIFE CLATTERS

Please.

You can't go.

Elliot, we have to. Yeah, yeah, we do.

No, no! Look...

..we're gonna have a nice meal,

then we can work on the car for a little bit.

I'll even let you drive it round one of the back fields.

It'll be fun.

And then... when you get tired, I can carry you back.

Mum... Enough, now. We're going.

No, look, Liam, listen to me.

I found something out about your mum.

Sometimes... Sometimes, people who say they love you,

they do things to prove that they don't.

And your mum... your mum is one of those people.

What?

But you can trust me, because we're the same.

Stop it!

I'll always tell you the truth.

My mum abandoned me.

And... yours did, too.

Don't listen to him. What's he talking about?

She put you into care.

Gave you away to live with strangers.

Ask her.

Ask her.

She didn't want you.

I know what that feels like, Liam.

Not to be wanted.

Mum?

Liam. Liam!

He deserves to know the truth.

And he'll forgive you, and I'll forgive you, too.

We can still be a family.

You're hurting me.

Well, you hurt me.

Why are you doing this?

You went to see Debra behind my back.

I'm still trying to love you.

Even though you hurt me,

I'm still trying to love you.

Right. Of course, we can work through this.

But right now, I need to find Liam.

He'll be back soon.

Elliot, I need to see him.

I'm his mum.

He's just a little boy, Elliot. Please.

I need to know my little boy is OK.

You get that, don't you?

SHE SIGHS

Elliot, if you love Liam...

..let me take him home.

Please.

Listen...

I'm not gonna tell anyone about this.

We can start again.

Women always make promises.

They never keep them.

You don't know. You don't know the truth.

Then tell me.

I didn't want to do it.

I didn't want her to suffer.

But she was going to destroy our family.

I couldn't let her.

She had to know that her actions have consequences.

She was mine.

She was my mum, and she was gonna leave me.

What choice have you given me, Rachel?

Elliot, I'm not your mum, I promise.

I'm not. I'm coming back.

How can I know that?

Because I believe you. I do.

But you can't be trusted.

You let people down. You let Liam down.

I did, I know I did. But listen to me, I'm...

never gonna do that again to either of you.

You don't deserve him.

I don't, but I am trying to give him the best life I can.

And we can do that together,

as a family.

What you went through when you were younger,

I get it, I get all of it. You were just a kid.

You were confused, you were frightened,

you just wanted your mum.

None of this is your fault.

My life has got so much better since you came into it.

And for the first time, Liam can be truly happy.

I don't wanna lose that.

I'm not gonna leave you.

I want us to be together.

SHE GRUNTS

Argh!

I knew it.

I knew.

You were the one.

But you couldn't do it, could you?

You couldn't love me the way that I loved you.

You don't deserve to be a mother.

And you're pathetic.

Men like you have bullied me my whole life,

wanted to control me.

You think you're the only one in pain?

My whole life is pain.

But I can hold it. I live in it.

You, you're a coward.

You're a sad, sick little boy,

that not even his own mother could love.

SHE WHIMPERS

Shut up! Shut up!

Aah!

SHE GASPS

Oh, God. Come here.

Argh!

Stay here. I love you.

Mum! Stay here. OK.

Argh!

Run!

Come on!

ENGINE FAILS

ENGINE WHIRRING

Liam!

Shh.

Argh! Mum!

THEY GRUNT

Argh!

SHE ROARS

Mum, no!

Aaaaah!

ELLIOT SCREAMS, SHE GASPS AND SOBS

SIREN WAILS

All right!

RACHEL CHUCKLES

That supposed to be me?

Yeah, well, never said I was an artist, did I?

I love you, mate.

Stick the kettle on, would you?

KNOCK AT DOOR

Hey.

Hey.

Can I...?

Yeah.

What he said...

..it wasn't true. I always wanted you.

It's just when I had you, I was poorly.

Really poorly in my head.

I couldn't cope, and I wasn't sure if I could look after you properly.

But I got better...

..and I realised I could.

So I went straight back and I brought you home.

I love you.

KNOCK AT DOOR

I'll get it!

Hi.

Want me to get rid of her?

You sure?

Yeah.

How are you?

Alive. What do you want?

I wanted you to have this.

What is it?

Call it what you want. Severance pay.

Compensation.

Doing the rounds, are we?

Olivia getting one, too?

I don't want this.

Just take it.

You can rip it up if you want.

But think about it.

LAUGHTER ON TV

ELLIOT: 'She didn't want you.

'I know what that feels like, Liam.

'Not to be wanted.

'You can't trust her.

'But you can trust me.

'Because we're the same, me and you.'