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It's really not fair.

Look, the guy's training for the Olympics, all right.

He shouldn't be allowed to throw around

his diving skills at parties.

At least he could keep his shirt on, geez.

He should never have a shirt on.

He has no idea who I am.

How sad is that?

Yeah, how sad is that?

I don't understand what

no, I don't understand what you're asking me.

You just gotta hold it.

I'm holding it.

You have to hold it.

Oh man, you drained the keg.

Uh yeah, gotta move faster out here.

Holy shit, the cops.

The future is so hard to predict.

If I had a time machine,

would it even make a difference to try to go back

and explain to my young self what was ahead?

Okay well, show me the other one.

This one?

Yes, definitely more affordable.

Larger, but it's not as like, all-inclusive.

Right, right.

So there'd be a lot more-

Okay, whiskey sours up everybody.

Thank you.

Welcome.

Bud Light Seltzer for the gentleman.

Thank you for not making me have to say it.

Oh my God.

Sorry.

So I just wanna say, Sam, Emma, we are so excited for you.

Thank you for helping our daughter

find a second chance at life.

Welcome to our family, son.

Thank you.

The downstairs toilet is clogged.

I had to put my arm all the way in.

Hey Michael, wow.

What, you're welcome.

Thank you.

Sure.

Well, I also have some words to share.

I am so proud of the life that you've made, Emma.

And I know it hasn't been easy,

and there are a lot of people

who would've let that stop them, but not you.

And look, I know you and I,

we drive each other nuts sometimes.

No, what are you talking about, drive each other nuts?

Ladies.

What I'm trying to say

is that even though you're my little sister,

I hope to have as big a heart as you do one day.

Well said, honey.

Well since we're all making speeches

and making each other cry,

I'd like to thank you Marie,

for pushing me to learn an instrument

because I didn't end up learning one,

but I did run into an old friend, my best friend.

All right, we get it.

You like your fiance.

Nice for you.

You are so lucky, you have me.

Wow, wow.

I guess that leaves me.

I guess you all know that I've been madly in love

with Emma for a few years now, give or take.

It was eighth grade.

Oh, wow Colin, thank you.

Thank you, yeah, I didn't realize we were keeping track.

Well, I remember meeting her for the first time

and thinking, that's it, that's the girl.

And then life took us in separate directions.

And when we ran back into each other,

we had both grown up quite a bit, you could say.

But some things don't change.

And when I look at you now, Emma,

it's like I'm right back in the eighth grade again.

And I'm thinking, that's her, that's the girl.

And I look at you all, and I think that's it.

That's the family.

To family.

To family.

Cheer, cheer, cheers.

I left my glass over there.

Hi.

Let's go home?

Bye everyone!

♪ Look around where you are ♪

♪ See my love shine like the stars ♪

♪ Take a breath where you stand ♪

Who's calling you on Saturday night?

I don't know.

Hello.

Sweetheart it's me, Jesse. I'm alive.

Can you hear me, Emma?

I'm coming home.

Emma, honey, what is it?

What's going on?

Yeah, gotta move fast around here.

Holy shit, the cops.

Emma, come on.

My ride's gone and your ride.

Sam.

So Sam, he's your boyfriend.

He's my best friend.

Ah, so he wants to be your boyfriend,

but you're not into it, right?

No, no, it's not like that.

Sure.

I mean, maybe it's a little like that.

A little like that?

Shut up.

I can't believe I failed my breathalyser.

My parents are gonna kill me.

That sucks.

Do you ever feel like everyone's always telling you

who you are?

All the time.

My parents own the bookstore in town, Blair Books.

Yeah, I put that one together.

Emma Blair.

They think that me and my sister

are going to take it over

and they don't listen when I say

that I never wanna do that.

Marie wants that and that is fine for her.

She's always been the perfect little bookseller's daughter.

Right.

But not me, I'm getting out of here.

Where are you gonna go?

I'm gonna go see the world.

I like that.

You're not what I imagined you'd be, you know?

You imagined me?

Well, my ex, she thought you had a crush on me.

She said she caught you looking at me sometimes.

No, that's not.

That's- that's- that's completely un-

I don't know maybe for like a day, freshman year.

There it is.

No, but I obviously don't have a thing for you now.

Why don't you have a thing for me now?

Why don't you have a thing for me now?

I think I do actually, as of about an hour and a half ago.

But if you aren't interested-

I'm interested.

You ready?

Yeah.

Let's go.

♪ Tell me what it takes to get you feeling alive ♪

♪ Tell me how to show you it's a beautiful life ♪

♪ I'll do anything to pull you into the light ♪

♪ 'Cause everything will change when you open your eyes ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ Don't you let the sunlight go by without you ♪

♪ Don't you realize how lucky we are ♪

♪ Open up your heart, baby, let it all go tonight ♪

♪ Live your life like it was running out ♪

♪ Be alive we gotta scream it out ♪

♪ Breathe it in and feel the rush again ♪

♪ You're not lost, no matter where you've been ♪

♪ You've been trying hard just to make it alone ♪

♪ But I can help you baby let e carry the load ♪

♪ I'd do anything to make you see what it's like ♪

♪ 'Cause everything is different when you open your eyes ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ So don't you let the sunlight go out without you ♪

♪ Don't you realize how lucky we are ♪

♪ Open up your heart, baby let it all go tonight ♪

♪ Live your life like it was running out ♪

♪ Be alive we gotta scream it out ♪

♪ Breathe it in and feel the rush again ♪

♪ You're not lost, no matter where you've been ♪

Do we even know where we're gonna be there.

Well, I know we cancelled Thanksgiving

with my parents last year because of your shoot in Peru.

Marie's being a real Marie about it.

Yeah, Acton for Thanksgiving's a good idea.

Yeah, we should probably tell them the news in person.

What news?

Past six years been the greatest adventure

I could have ever dreamt of.

I wanna spend the rest of my life with you.

Emma Blair, wanna get married?

No.

No?

I'm sorry, no.

I'm so heartbroken.

Yes, yes, yes, yes.

Really?

Really, you're late to your own wedding?

Get your asses to the altar.

I have the perfect Jane Austen quote, let's go.

Come on.

She's right, we wouldn't want to ruin her big day.

The bookseller's daughter strikes again.

Should we get married.

Okay.

♪ It's my lucky day ♪

♪ It's my lucky day ♪

♪ It's my lucky day ♪

♪ It's my lucky day ♪

♪ Don't need a pot of gold a rabbit's foot, or to be told ♪

Ladies and gentleman, Jesse and Emma.

♪ My happy day ♪

♪ Slept in 'cause I don't care ♪

♪ Didn't make the bed ♪

♪ Didn't make the bed ♪

♪ Coffee on the couch ♪

♪ What can I do instead ♪

I can't just fly off to Alaska.

My Madrid piece is due tomorrow.

I can't not fly to Alaska.

This is my chance to shoot a real documentary.

It's also our first anniversary.

You're right, I'm sorry.

We'll celebrate big when I get back. okay, I promise.

We'll get a cheap flight somewhere to like, Iceland.

Croatia. Bali?

Maybe just dinner on the beach down the street.

Okay, dinner on the beach down the street.

It's a date.

Okay.

Love you past forever.

Love you longer than that.

Do you know how long that is?

Really long time.

So long.

Your husband was on a helicopter

that went down yesterday in the Pacific.

We found the remains of both pilots,

but we've not yet found your husband.

And we do not believe

he would've been able to survive the crash.

I'm so sorry.

We're still searching, let you know right away.

Emma, it's your third day out here.

I'm gonna stay out here, as long as it takes.

As long as what takes?

He's lost and he's coming back, and I'm gonna be here.

You- you can't.

I mean, that that won't work.

I'm not giving up on him.

Emma, give me the binoculars.

No, Jesse's coming back.

He was a long distance swimmer.

He was the best in state, he can do this.

He's not coming back.

You don't know that.

Yeah Em, I do, it's been a week.

They've given up the search.

You just can't stand that I'm no longer in your shadow.

Well, I know my husband and I know how incredible he is.

And I'm not gonna let you say he's anything less

because you like it better when I feel small.

Emma.

No.

Emma.

Don't console me.

I'm so sorry, Emma.

He's dead, I'm so sorry.

No, he is not.

No, he is not.

Yeah.

No, he is not.

I'm sorry.

No, he's not dead.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

I don't know-

I don't know how I can live without him.

I know.

I know, but you will.

How?

You're gonna come home to Acton

and you're gonna move in with me and I'm gonna make

your breakfast and your lunches and your dinners

and we're just gonna build you a new life.

But not right now.

Now you get to just be broken and I'll hold you together.

I'll hold you together.

Hey, walking down memory lane?

Sorry, did I wake you?

No, not at all.

How are you feeling?

I can't sleep.

How are you feeling?

I don't know.

How about I run you a hot shower?

Give the old Sam Lee special.

What's the Sam Lee special?

Well, it's me turning on the shower.

Oh, hey honey.

Emma.

I don't like that you're understocking the classics.

Obviously dad, but not now.

I am not understocking the classics.

You are overstocking the classics.

Colin, focus.

Sorry.

We'll give you some space.

So how are you, really?

I don't know how I'm feeling.

I mean, you're probably feeling confused.

I mean, yeah.

I wasn't finished, you and Jesse,

you had this beautiful life together

and then he got on a helicopter and it crashed.

And we all thought he was dead.

And you, you picked yourself up

like this incredible person that you are.

And you found love again with a great guy.

Right-

I'm still not finished.

And now what is probably the happiest day of your life

is also the most complicated and probably saddest day.

Because no matter what you do or how you feel,

you're gonna break somebody's heart.

You've gained something and you'll lose something.

So it's okay to feel happy and heartbroken.

Oh, you can talk, I'm done.

Oh, that was incredibly verbose, but accurate.

Thank you.

Why did I spend my childhood hating you?

Because I hated you.

Well, why did you hate me?

Because you hated me.

Oh my God, Emma, you can't wear that to reunite

with your long lost husband.

Oh my God, amazing.

The color, the color.

Well, I think this works.

I'm just not so sure about this.

I'm engaged and I'm also married.

I'm not sure what the protocol is.

What does your gut tell you?

To throw up, mostly.

Oh yeah, you could wear that one.

Yeah, or you could wear both.

I just won't wear either.

Okay, here we go.

Oh, okay.

Go get him.

Hey Joe, Francine.

Emma.

Wow, you look different.

Your boy's coming home, Frannie.

Oh, we decided not to tell Jesse

that you've already moved on.

He's been through enough, don't you think?

♪ Take a moment to join the dead

Emma.

♪ Wait, but never miss your chance ♪

♪ No more roles, your destiny is facing you ♪

Hi, hi.

You wanna get out of here?

♪ Nothing in the way where the truth is falling ♪

Are you okay?

It's okay, it's okay.

It's okay, it's okay.

We're coming to you live

from the home of Jesse Lerner.

God, can you imagine your fiance has a husband,

an alive husband.

He was alive.

You know she's gonna go back to him, right?

He came back from the dead.

I mean, it doesn't get any more romantic than that.

Sam's toast.

Totally.

Morning.

Hey buddy.

Janice.

Hi, we were just talking about you.

Behind your back.

Actually, that's my lunch.

Guess now we're even.

I swore if I ever made it back to you,

I'd just tell you how sorry I was for leaving.

I'm going to spend the rest of our lives

making it up to you.

I'm engaged.

What.

I'm engaged to be married.

You are married?

No, to someone else.

What?

What, what is so funny?

It's not, no, it's just horrible.

Yeah, it's terrible.

You know, I think that's the worst thing

I've ever been told.

Jesse, I didn't know that you were-

You thought I was dead. You didn't know.

There you are, you can't just disappear like that.

Come on, everybody's waiting for you.

Come on.

It's too much.

It's okay, just breathe.

Hey, hey, hey, hey, I'm here.

It's been a long time since I've seen so many people.

I should get going.

Yeah, I'll stay here tonight

'cause they really need me.

But then I need to be with you.

Can we go somewhere tomorrow?

Of course.

Let's go to Maine, let's go to the cabin.

Sure.

First thing.

Yeah, first thing.

Hey, you're home.

You're still making me a grilled cheese

with dairy-free cheddar?

Yeah well, I figured just in case you came back, you know,

my little lactose intolerant.

So how is he? still very, very, very, very handsome.

He seems good.

I'm a little overwhelmed, but good.

Good mostly.

Good.

Good that he seems good.

I saw you kissing him on the news.

I'm not upset about it.

I just... not telling you felt wrong somehow.

So I just wanted you to know.

I'm really sorry, Sam.

This has all been so-

Confusing, it's confusing.

Hey, it's gonna be all right.

It's gonna be okay.

Okay.

I love you so much, Sam.

I love you.

I need you.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

Where's your ring?

You are gonna have to choose, you know.

I mean, he's your husband.

I think we should call off the wedding.

What?

I mean, can you honestly say

that no matter what happens from this moment on

that you're ready to spend

the rest of your life with me?

If we're gonna have a future, you gotta go.

You gotta go and do whatever you need to do

in order to know.

I could stay at a hotel

or you could stay at Marie or your parent's, but-

No, I get it.

I need to be on my own.

♪ Woke up with a cloud over my window sill ♪

♪ Some days I swear ♪

♪ The weatherman is out for me ♪

♪ I've been locked inside ♪

♪ Thinking about sunlight ♪

♪ Woke up with a thought ♪

All packed up?

Yep.

♪ Maybe it's all ♪

Here, I don't trust myself

not to set it on fire when you're gone, so-

You are a good man.

I'm all right.

♪ I'm broke down, exposed now ♪

♪ With low clouds ♪

♪ There's nothing to cover me ♪

♪ There's nothing to cover me ♪

♪ The highs and the lows get me you see ♪

♪ I'm just not into it ♪

♪ I'm broke down, exposed now ♪

All right.

♪ With low clouds ♪

♪ There's nothing to cover me ♪

Jesse wants to go to Maine for a few days.

Oh my.

Would you run the store?

Are you able to?

Yeah, I'd be happy to.

Do you think you can be in love

with two people at the same time?

Maybe some people can.

I don't even think that's the point though.

You're a different person with Sam than you were with Jesse.

And maybe it's not about who you love more.

Maybe it's about whether you wanna be the person

you could be with Jesse

or the person that you're becoming with Sam.

Wow, you're good lately.

I just know you.

You look great.

You do.

Oh, you gotta drive the whole way.

My license expired when they issued my death certificate.

Okay.

Good times.

Hey, do you mind if we stop by the store?

I guess I left some stuff at Marie's last night.

Sure. Your stuff isn't at your place?

No, I'm not currently at my place.

Okay.

I'm looking forward to seeing everyone.

Your parents still recommending Walden Pond?

To anyone who walks in and then going,

"You know, Walden Pond is just down the road."

Well, my parents are retired now.

Really? Good for them.

So Marie's finally inherited her birthright?

The bookseller's daughter has become the book seller.

Actually, I run it.

Oh yeah, you run it.

No, I'm serious, I run the bookstore.

Oh.

I know, I used to hate it, but I lost you

and I had nothing, so I moved back home and there it was.

Em.

What?

Come on, let's go.

You are a sight for sore eyes.

We are so happy you're okay, Jesse.

Yeah, I missed you guys too.

Hi.

God, a real life Odysseus is back to Ithaka.

It's good to see you're still reading, sis.

Hi Sophie.

You're hungry?

Wait a minute, I want you to meet someone.

Jesse, this is my daughter Sophie.

Sophie, this is Jesse.

Hey.

Okay, hey.

Welcome back.

Thank you, good to see you.

I guess a lot's happened since you've been gone.

She is adorable.

Congratulations.

Thank you.

Say hi to Mike for me.

You can tell him yourself, hey.

How you been?

Stranded on a desert island, man.

Oh right.

Must have been nice to get away.

For a bit, yeah.

We should hit the road.

Yeah.

We're gonna head to the cabin, just for a couple days.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Actually, can I drive?

Without a license?

Well, it's a technicality.

Come on, it'd be fun.

Okay.

Thank you.

Morning.

Good morning.

Morning, Mr. Lee.

Liz, you are a trumpet player, please spit out your gum.

Rest of you, let's jump right in.

So Debussy is considered our first impressionist composer.

Impressionist, can anybody tell me what that means. Zoe?

It doesn't have a melody or something.

Right, right.

Debussy was less concerned about a melody

and more about evoking a mood and an emotion.

He used notes like a paintbrush,

painting colors that conveyed an impression.

So what moods are being conveyed right now?

Go ahead, shout them out.

Sadness.

Loneliness.

Fear you might lose Emma forever.

Really, really, Zoe?

You got that from the song?

No, I got that from how you were playing the song.

I mean, are we really not gonna talk

about your husband in-law?

My what?

The guy that's married to your wife, man.

Your brother- husband, or whatever.

Marcus, he's not my brother- husband.

Oh you know, my cousin is in a closed quad

and it really works for them.

So I don't see why a triple can't work.

Okay, first of all, Dylan, it's called a throuple and-

Okay, we're not having this conversation.

All right, let's go, instruments up.

Oh, whoa, whoa.

Hey, Clair de Lune, come on.

I'm trying to get palm reading.

No, no, no, no, no.

Okay, the most romantic place we ever went to.

Ooh.

I know I'm supposed to say Paris.

But it's Amsterdam.

Yeah.

New Year's Eve.

We fought about that stupid bike lock until 11:59.

Yeah.

And then the clock turned and you said,

"Well, I don't care who lost it.

I just wanna spend my whole year with you."

And then you kissed me

and then felt like nothing mattered except us.

And you're right.

You did lose that lock, by the way.

No, you lost the lock by the river.

No, no.

I've had a lot of time to think about this

and I have decided I remember you losing it.

Okay.

Agree to disagree.

Okay.

Hey, come on.

Our cabin awaits.

Oh, come on.

Tuba. Come on, tuba, get it together.

I thought I did pretty good.

You are Marcus, yeah, you are, you're great.

You're.

Great.

We haven't been here since-

Our wedding.

Right, that whole thing.

Do you want a drink?

Please.

Okay, great.

Let's see what we can find here.

So you can build a fire now?

So you get tattoos now.

I guess a lot has changed.

Some things, yeah, sure.

But nothing that really matters. To us.

Finally.

Finally.

Smooth.

What does it say?

Oh.

"And so I walked on."

I'll never leave your side again.

All I ever wanted was, one more day to be with you.

I missed your face, I missed your face, I missed your-

I missed the feel of you.

Jesse.

Just turns on when you need it, off when you don't.

Yeah.

Faucets are wild, huh?

What happened out there?

Nah, I just wanna focus on us right now.

I'll tell you what I do need.

I mean, what I really, really need.

Breakfast.

Oh, you're such a jerk.

You know that?

Yeah.

Mr. Lee, just a couple questions.

Oh shit.

Mr. Lee, is the wedding off?

Is- is Emma here, is she here?

Can we just get a little privacy please?

"We", does that mean you're still getting married?

No. I- I-

It's off?

I honestly don't know.

Are you afraid that your fiance's gonna leave you

and go back to her husband?

Sam, have you talked to Jesse yet?

Can you give us any details about the wedding?

Feel a little bad

you had to move back to New England, it's cold.

You don't have to feel bad.

I'm just glad that neither of us is stuck anymore

and we can start living again, go travelling.

Travelling, you don't wanna settle somewhere safe.

We have home base.

Sure, but now I was thinking Venice Beach,

anywhere in California would be good.

I mean, was the best time of our lives.

Mexican food was top notch.

And you can work from anywhere, right?

Travel, writting, riding could be wherever we want.

Well, I haven't written a travel piece in years.

Really?

I know you do the store, but I just assumed

you were still doing what you wanted it to do.

The store, it is what I wanna do.

You know, I like seeing the regulars,

getting a crack at the new releases.

This coming from the girl

that wouldn't read the "Hunger Games?"

Well, turns out the "Hunger Games" is actually pretty great.

Hey, how you doing?

Could we please have two bacon,

egg and cheese biscuits with home fries, please?

Actually, I don't eat cheese anymore.

It's like a whole thing.

Okay.

One egg and cheese biscuit with home fries

and my beautiful wife-

Fried egg on toast.

Fried egg on toast.

Yes.

Emerson and Alcott and Thoreau were all from Concord.

I had a lot of time to do reading while you were gone.

A lot of existential dread, you might say.

But you know what? Thoreau, he knows what's up.

And Walden Pond-

Is just down the road.

Yes, yes.

Oh, and when the leaves change in autumn.

When you died, when I thought you were dead,

I had nothing and came back here.

My parents and Marie,

they basically nursed me back to life.

They picked out all these books to distract me.

And that's when I read "Hunger Games", by the way.

And "Wild" and "Octavia Butler" and "Joan Didion".

And that's when I realized that I wasn't alone.

All these people that had, come before me

they, they felt this pain that I felt and they found way through

and, I could too.

Then this place, this place put me back together.

You and I, we had this idea

that our adventures had to be grand, right?

That we had to go to Madrid and the Great Wall

and go everywhere extraordinary.

But extraordinary's everywhere.

Running a bookstore and being with our families

and raising our kids here, that's a great adventure.

Kids?

I wasn't sure you ever wanted to have any.

I wasn't sure either.

But I am now.

I could build a family here, it's home.

Well, I am very thankful to this place

for keeping such good care of you

while I was gone.

Sorry I'm late.

It's all good.

All right, everybody. Phones away.

Seriously Debbie Sue, let's go.

Put away the God damn phones!

Sorry, that was excessive.

I'm going through a real stressful time right now.

And wait, Penny, Tom, please explain why you're in my class.

We all wanna be here for you.

In case you explode, we wanted to watch it happen.

And if you do explode, then we wanna be there for you.

Well, thank you.

But I'm fine and you're not in orchestra,

so please get out of my class.

The rest of you, instruments up.

Actually, can somebody please tell me

what the hell it means when someone

is texting you for 18 hours

and doesn't hit send?

I mean, what the crap are these dots?

Is she texting me?

Is she not texting me, is it good news?

Is it not good news?

If I want it to be good news,

does that make me a bad person?

Is it selfish?

Is it selfish to want my fiance to be my wife?

I mean, apparently it is.

Well, I'm sorry that I didn't survive a plane crash

and spend four years on some small island somewhere.

I guess that makes me an asshole somehow.

Of all the people in the world,

why did it have to be him?

Why is it always him?

I met her first, I loved her first, finders keepers.

Not that she's some soccer ball in the playground.

Obviously she can make her own decisions,

as can all of the bright,

capable young women in this class.

But I do think that finders keepers applies here.

No, no, I don't.

No, I don't.

That, that's the patriarchy talking

and we must all fight it together.

I just want her to love me more than she loves him.

Well, that was wildly inappropriate.

I'm gonna stop.

No man, for God's sakes, just keep talking.

Maybe we should go a bit slower.

Really?

Yeah.

Come on, it's a little fun, right?

This is not good.

We'll be fine, it's okay.

You don't have your license.

It'll be good, it'll be good.

I told you earlier,

I said you don't have your license.

Hello Officer, how can I help you?

You were speeding. License and registration.

That was an honest mistake, truly.

And I'm very sorry.

Maybe we could get off with the warning?

License and registration.

I technically don't have it.

He's been lost at sea, maybe you've heard about it.

It's been all over the news.

If I could reach back,

I can grab an article to show you.

Here.

This doesn't explain why you're driving,

let alone speeding.

Oh, he just wanted everything

to feel normal for once. We both do.

You have a license ma'am?

Me? yes, yes I do.

Okay, Ms. Blair, looks like you're driving now.

Please try to keep it under 55, all right?

Welcome home.

Thank you.

You changed your name back.

I thought you were dead.

So you went to the social security office

and changed your name back?

There's more to it than that.

Okay.

She should be with the person that she loves the most.

Not necessarily the person that loves her the most,

because I love the most, I love her the most.

I know that everyone thinks that he must love her the most

because he survived the desert island for her.

But I comforted her while he was on that island.

You know, I sat with her while she cried for him.

And I figured out a way to love someone with my whole heart,

knowing that a part of her would always love him.

And I did that for her.

Well, you should probably get outta here.

Oh yeah, like American Lit can hold a candle to this drama.

It's inappropriate to keep you from your classes, Dylan.

On the other hand,

there's still a lot to discuss here.

All right, hit me.

Honestly, you know what the weirdest part about all this is?

Everyone thinks they're the hero of their own story.

Everyone. maybe I'm not the hero.

Maybe I'm the bad guy.

Jesse, please.

Jesse, talk to me, please.

I was supposed to come home to my wife who waited for me.

Jesse, I did wait.

You got engaged to someone else.

Because I thought you were dead.

So you replaced me.

No, I didn't replace you, I loved you.

I still love you.

This fiance, you love him too?

Do you love him or not!?

Yes, yes I love him.

Do you love him more than me?

Is he better than me?

Jesse, no, it's not like that.

Sam and I-

So he's got a name.

His name's Sam.

Sam Lee.

I bet this was a dream come true for him.

That is not fair.

You have no idea what I went through.

You went through.

I was on a dead rock for four years, alone.

Starving and just trying not to die.

That whole time you know what I thought about? This.

You. I just thought about us.

Right now was supposed to be the good time.

I was supposed to come home to a life I was missing.

My part was to get back to you and your part was to wait.

I did my part Emma, what did you do?

I had to live my life.

I had to learn how to live without you.

You managed to do that.

Jesse.

You know, they say if you love someone,

you should set them free.

I'm starting to realize that if you love someone,

you don't let anything stand in your way.

You shout it from the mountaintops.

You race through traffic.

You survived being marooned on a desert island

and swim for miles just to get back to them.

Son of a bitch, I'm screwed.

Dear Jesse.

You've been gone more than three years now,

but there hasn't been a day when I haven't thought of you.

At first, I refused to admit you were gone.

I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat.

Even after the search was called off

and they said you were dead, it was so hard to let go.

Hey, you've tried to call Jesse Lerner.

I obviously have better things to do,

so leave a message and I'll call you back.

I felt pain

that I didn't think was humanly possible.

At times, it nearly broke me.

Hey, came across this at the store.

It's by Joan Didion about the death of her husband.

I hate being given books.

I know, just a shot in the dark.

Just in case you wanted to read

how someone else got through it.

I mean, at least give me a happy book.

I don't wanna read about people dying.

Okay, I can work with that.

How about "Pride and Prejudice"?

Or falling in love.

Okay, wow.

So no death or love.

I'll make a list.

There's gotta be like three books in existence

that don't deal with either.

I used to think grief was chronic.

Just a never ending cycle of bad days

with the occasional good day.

No D or L, this one's conquered.

♪ Makes you tethered, tethered ♪

♪ Trust when you fall and every risk you take ♪

♪ Knowing redemption's always on its way ♪

♪ Let all the courage start to wake ♪

♪ Unafraid, unafraid ♪

♪ Unafraid, unafraid ♪

♪ Unafraid, unafraid ♪

You were right, I loved it. what else you got?

That can had love or death in them, tons.

But then I started to think

that maybe the good days

could be good weeks or good months.

♪ Look for better measure, measure ♪

Oh, just say it.

My baby's finally a bookworm.

Doesn't mean that I wanna let go of the memories

of you or the love I have for you,

but it does mean that I'm ready to let go of the sadness.

I will carry you with me always,

but I cannot define myself by the loss anymore.

And that's four.

But you already know that 'cause you're super good at it.

So let me just play it you just for fun.

Emma?

Sam?

Here.

Hi.

Here, let me help you with that.

Oh my God. It still works.

Sorry.

You're good.

Yeah, you don't have to buy it.

Oh my God. Hi.

Hi.

How are you?

I'm good.

Have you been...?

Can't believe-

I mean-

Yeah, you look, yeah wow.

Emma Blair.

Wow, can't believe it.

Keep reading.

I'm going out into the world with an open heart now,

and I'm going to go where life takes me.

So you wanna learn an instrument?

Yeah, we can't all play every single one of them yet.

Hey, I will have you know,

I'm actually pretty bad at the harp.

Oh okay.

No, that's a lie, I'm pretty good, I'm always-

Well, I thought I'd start with something easy like piano.

Oh, well, if you want my advice.

Yes, your advice is the exact advice I would like.

You should definitely go for this one.

It's 88 keys.

It's weighted, it's perfect to learn on.

Great, I'll take it.

Great.

You're a good salesman.

Do you ring me up here or up there, or?

Oh, no, no, no, I don't work here.

Oh my God.

Yeah, I came for a pedal

and I've just been looking for an excuse

to keep talking to you, so.

Jesse's dead.

Yeah, yeah.

I heard, I'm so sorry, I should have called.

Oh, no, no, it's okay.

When I started dating him,

I guess I stopped being a good friend to you, so it's okay.

It's on me.

So what do you do then when you're not pretending?

I teach Orchestra at AB.

Wow, that's crazy.

Yeah, I know, I know.

I'm back at Acton running the store.

Blair Books.

Yeah.

You used to hate it there.

People change, I guess.

Yeah, thank God for that.

Yeah, I agree, thank God.

Well, I'll have to drop by sometime.

Say hi.

I'd like that, that would be nice.

I'm happy to say I've reached a place

where your memory brings me joy.

I have found meaning in life that I never would've guessed.

Wow.

See, the funny thing about this

is that you do actually work here.

Well, I'm so glad you stopped by

because I've actually become quite good at the piano.

Really?

Yes, you'd be very impressed.

I know "Chopsticks" and "Heart and Soul".

It's like the core of western music right there.

Very good. Well, show me what you got.

Well, I don't have a piano.

Sure you do. Anything you can play on the piano

you can play on the counter.

It's an old music teacher's trick.

Here, gimme a song.

Beethoven.

Okay, that's less of a song and more of a person.

But I think we can work with that.

Ready?

Yeah.

Oh, I know this one.

You wanna take this one?

There you go.

What is your sister doing?

That's more.

Living.

Oh, so that's what that looks like.

There, it's good.

So I should probably buy a book

so it doesn't seem like I came in here

just to talk to you.

This one.

On the house.

Yeah?

Yeah, or you can just, you can owe me.

Or how about I take you to lunch sometime?

Lunch?

Yeah, yeah.

I was thinking sometime between breakfast and dinner.

Lunch sounds nice.

Great.

Okay.

Tell me everything.

I think if I work hard, I can have the sort of life

that you would've wanted for me.

I can't go on a date, right?

Like, that's crazy.

I can call him next year maybe if he's still single.

Well, shutting yourself off from the world

doesn't prove how much you loved your husband.

You have your whole life ahead of you. You should live it.

I believe I can have a happy future

where I love and am loved in return.

So we've been dating six months now.

Yeah.

One of the months was February, so it's light six.

Come on.

Well, long or short,

I think I'm in love with you,

but I don't think I'm ready to say it.

Or hear myself say it.

Well.

Don't tell anyone I told you,

but I think I'm in love with you too.

I always have been.

I don't know, it all kind of sounds the same to me.

I'm not gonna lie, but I know that you love it.

So I appreciate it.

Thank you.

Hey, you wanna go this way?

Let's go for a walk.

I'm sorry, we're gonna go down some steps.

What?

Yep.

And you're gonna keep your eyes closed

because you trust me, right?

I do, I trust you.

Okay, one foot, here we go.

That's perfect, you're doing great.

I'm sorry, are we going onto the green line?

We are not going onto the green line.

It kind of feels like you're taking me onto the green line.

It's not true.

Oh, Jesus.

The lighting here is much better, I promise you.

Okay, so here's the thing.

Yep.

All right.

Where am I going?

You're here, I got you.

So here's the thing.

I bought something a few weeks ago,

and I haven't been able to decide when to give it to you.

I was doing some thinking and I realized

that it should probably be you that decides.

Okay.

Oh my gosh.

Your students.

We have been working on this for a few months now.

I'd call it your song, on account of it being yours,

but Elton John kind of beat me to the punch.

So it's currently untitled.

Guys, actually, can we cut the music?

Sorry, the sound is really traveling in here.

Sorry Mr. Lee.

No, it's fine.

Hey.

Hi.

Emma, I was put on this earth to be yours, and I am so,

so lucky to be able to call you mine.

I believe in us, I believe we're good for each other.

And I believe that I'm a better man because of you.

Here it is.

And I don't want you to do anything

except hold on to it and just keep it safe.

And when you're ready, if you're ever ready, I'll be ready.

I love it.

And I love you.

Thank you.

I love you so much.

So I'm going to say yes to Sam Lee.

I think that you would like him for me.

He's kind, he makes me laugh.

And he makes room for you.

He accepts the full me,

and he knows the full me includes you.

Sam.

What are you doing?

I'm proposing to you.

I'm in my underwear.

I don't care.

Sam Lee, you are my second chance.

You are the arms that helped me pull myself back up.

You're the life that I never saw coming.

You are my reminder that life

can be unexpectedly beautiful,

and I promise I will spend the rest of our lives

trying to be that reminder for you.

Will you marry me?

Yes.

Yes, will you marry me?

Yes, yes, yes.

I wanna be happy and I want more love in my life, Jesse.

So I'm asking for your blessing to embrace it.

Your love, Emma.

You know what I thought on our wedding day.

What.

I was putting on my tux. I was a little nervous.

I just thought, at least I picked the right person.

I always thought, no matter how hard it got,

at least we picked the right person.

You gotta keep being the right person.

You have to change together

so that you can stay the right person.

I wanna be with you.

So if staying in Acton for a bit is important

then I will do it.

A bit?

As long as you need.

Jesse, I wanna stay here always.

I want to continue our life here.

Because of the store?

No, Jesse, it's not just because of the store...

How about this?

We go on a big famous bookstore tour of Europe

and we can see all the world's greatest libraies.

Jesse, I wanna stay here, I wanna be with my family.

You're asking me now that I am free,

now that I can go anywhere

to chain myself to a life that I can't live.

My world is here, Jesse.

I have people I love.

I feel like I belong, like I'm a part of something.

And I have found a peace with myself here

that I never expected. This life

that my parents pushed on me, I left it.

And then I lived my own life.

And then life brought me back to them.

And now,

I've chosen all of this.

I've chosen it for myself.

This is who I am now.

You're different.

Not in a bad way.

You just changed.

See, the Emma I knew,

she wanted to be as far away as humanly possible

from Blair Books.

And she was never gonna sit still

until she had seen the entire world.

She loved me and only me.

That's not you anymore.

No, it's not.

I promise we can live any life you want.

Just not Acton.

You're asking me to be someone that I'm not anymore.

You're asking me to be someone

I always told you I wouldn't be.

We didn't stay the right person.

I could try and be the right person for you.

You can try and make yourself the right person for me, but...

That's not real love.

We should head back.

You wanna stay here just a little bit longer?

Okay.

You know, there was a game I used to play out there

and I'd just asked myself, what's Emma doing right now?

And I'd say something like,

I bet she's eating tapas in Barcelona

or she's on the beach in Malibu. In Berlin.

I was always wrong.

You were here and I never guessed here.

I'm starting to see it.

This is you.

I never stopped loving you.

Do you believe me?

I'm really try to.

One day you might.

I hope so.

Come on, let's go.

♪ Now our wild song are oldies ♪

♪ Passion has begun to slip away

♪ The past spirals behind us ♪

♪ The future is a mystery ♪

♪ The sky is our blanket ♪

♪ And we are the stars that used to be ♪

After all that we weren't meant to be, huh?

I don't think things have to last to be real.

We can be meant to have been.

Meant to have been.

Yeah.

Thank you.

For what?

The thought of seeing you again.

You saved my life.

I know that for her,

it's sometimes been him and sometimes been me.

For me, it's always been her.

All right, that's the end of the day.

I'm out of things to say. It is what it is.

It's outta my hands now.

It's Emma's choice to make.

Mr. Lee.

Isn't that exactly what you did in high school?

What are you talking about?

She's right.

You never just told Emma how you felt.

You hinted at it, but you never said it.

Yeah, this Jesse guy, he never makes it unclear.

He wants her and he always let her know that.

He puts it all out on the line.

Yeah, if you're gonna go down, Sam, go down swinging.

Go tell this woman how

heartbroken you'll be

without her.

Yeah.

Remind her of the life you two could have had together.

I can't lose her.

Then do something about it.

Yeah.

I gotta go, I gotta go.

Thank you.

Sam!

Sam?

Damn it.

Pick up your phone, man.

Oh, hey Marie. I, uh- Hello.

I'm looking for Emma.

Hey, hey.

She's not here.

Any idea where she went?

Um, She, um...

Just tell me.

I don't wanna tell you.

Marie.

She... You know, um, she...

She's with Jesse, right?

Look, I know, okay.

I know.

And it's fine.

Just, just tell me where they went.

I can take it.

They went to the cabin in Maine.

Shit. Mother. Shit.

As friends?

As friends, right, right?

It's a simple question. As friends?

Did they go as friends? Were they friends?

Were they friendly? Were they platonically friends?

I don't know how to answer that.

Sam.

You're back.

Is Sam here?

Yeah, he was just here.

He was looking for you.

He was looking for me.

Well, how did he seem, hopeful, angry, devastated?

At first he was hopeful.

Oh, that's great.

And then I told him you went to Maine

with Jesse and he got sort of devastated.

Oh my God, Marie, I've ruined it.

No.

I've completely ruined it by loving them both.

Also, though, um...

I've lost them both.

Don't you think maybe you should be

like a little more mad at me?

No, I'm not mad at you

because you were there for me through all of this.

No, I'm not mad.

You're not even a little mad

for that day on the dock when I convinced you your husband

was dead and it turned out I was wrong?

No, Marie, I was insane that day on the dock.

If I had spent the last four years

believing that he was alive, I would've lost my mind.

No, I did the best I could with the information

that I had and that led me to Sam.

I can't lose him Marie.

So don't, go tell him what you just told me.

You're right.

This isn't over yet.

Let's go.

Come on, come on.

Pick up, pick up.

Hello.

Sam, can you hear me?

Emma, yeah, I can hear you.

Can you hear me?

Sam, I need you back.

Hello?

Jesse was gone and I was broken.

Emma, you're breaking up. Hello?

But then I put myself back together

and the person that I became chose you.

Sam! Sam.

Sam, don't hang up.

I just hit someone.

Ah, honey, you hit me.

Shit, are you okay?

No, no, I'm not.

I haven't slept in days.

There's reporters camped outside of our house.

I've lost all semblance of privacy with my students.

I'm terrible.

Sam.

No, no, I need to say something.

I need to, I've loved every version of you

and I will love every version of you that you become.

I am madly in love with you Em, and I'm in.

I swear to God with every fiber of my being, I am in.

But I refuse to settle for part of you.

I need you to be in too.

I'm in, I'm in.

I'm so sorry it took you so long to understand that.

Jesse was right for me once, but you are right for me now.

And I promise I will work for the rest of my days

to be the right person to you.

You be whoever you want.

If you're in, I'm in, nothing you do could ever change that.

I went to Maine with Jesse.

I already said that I was in, okay.

Just save the rest for couples therapy.

Okay.

Our life starts now, together.

You're a good man.

I'm all right.

Oh, oh, oh.

Oh my God, are you okay?

Sit down for a bit.

It's a little spinny.

Excuse me, can somebody call an ambulance?

Yeah, thank you.

Hey, shut up, just go around.

We're fine, thank you.

I love you.

Oh, I love you too.

Ah, sorry.

No, no, no, it's fine,

I just wanna be close to you.

♪ See the clouds and let them be

♪ Keep every story of your days a mystery ♪

♪ Hear the songs in the breeze ♪

♪ Sing out your wins and trials like a melody ♪

Emma, I met someone, her name's June.

Somehow she's convinced me to get back in the water.

But it feels freeing now,

I'm out there swimming almost every morning.

I can see now that the only way

to get my life back was to move forward.

I know that's what you had to do too.

I get it now.

♪ Crashing like thunder ♪

Loving you got me through my darkest days

and now I have a future because of it.

A future that I'm discovering every day.

And for that, I owe you everything.

Love Jesse.

♪ Light a flame inside your heart ♪

♪ See every finish line before you reach the start ♪

You good?

Yeah.

♪ Raise your fist to the sky ♪

♪ Lightning and mountaintops are made for you and I ♪

♪ Morning comes ♪

I'm good.

♪ When the nightfall goes ♪

♪ Don't turn back to the road below ♪

♪ 20 Somethings in a crowded room ♪

♪ Feels like everybody's in on something ♪

♪ Some big secret they're not telling you about ♪

♪ Looking round, everybody's got it figured out ♪

♪ Perfect strangers with their arms around somebody ♪

♪ Shouting lyrics to a song that you don't know ♪

♪ I saw you there in the corner

♪ Your eyes fixed on the floorboards ♪

♪ And I came this close to walking over ♪

♪ Damn I wish I'd have told you

♪ Don't give up when you're halfway down the road ♪

♪ There's so much more inside you than you know ♪

♪ When everything is telling you it's over ♪

♪ Baby don't, there'll be times when it gets hard to stay ♪

♪ Feels easier to throw it all away ♪

♪ Just give me one more day ♪

♪ When you think of letting go ♪

♪ Baby don't ♪

♪ Conversations with the mirror now ♪

♪ Making faces just to try them out ♪

♪ 'Cause maybe one of them will feel like who you are ♪

♪ And it gets blurry under the city lights ♪

♪ You're just one step in a million miles ♪

♪ I came this close to walking over ♪

♪ Damn I wish I'd have told you

♪ Don't give up when you're halfway down the road ♪

♪ There's so much more inside you than you know ♪

♪ When everything is telling you it's over, baby don't ♪

♪ There'll be times when it gets hard to stay ♪

♪ Feels easier to throw it all away ♪

♪ Just give me one more day ♪

♪ When you think of letting go ♪

♪ You don't have to be a soldier

♪ If you look a little closer ♪

♪ There's somebody ♪

♪ There's somebody, there's somebody rooting for you ♪

♪ So don't give up when you're halfway down the road ♪

♪ There's so much more inside you than you know ♪

♪ When everything is telling you it's over, over, don't ♪

♪ There'll be times when it gets hard to stay ♪

♪ Feels easier to throw it all away ♪

♪ Just give me one more day ♪

♪ When you think of letting go ♪

♪ Baby don't ♪