Original subtitles

[Tim Hockenberry singing "Fresno"]

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ Oh I won't be back tonight

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ I was blockin' all my life

♪ Don't try to find me

♪ I'm like a needle in the stack ♪

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ And I'm never coming back

♪ Yeah yeah yeah yeah

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ Oh I won't be back tonight

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ I was blockin' all my life

♪ Don't try to find me

♪ I'm like a needle in the stack ♪

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ And I'm never coming back

♪ Yeah yeah yeah yeah

♪ Yeah yeah yeah yeah ♪

[thud]

So many things I don't remember.

And others...

...crystal clear like yesterday.

The guy is a little rough with him.

And how long has this been going on.

[Sawyer] It's funny the way things happen.

We're all headed towards some...

'...you just never know what's coming.'

Get off her.

It's 8:00 a.m. you reek of tequila.

[Cesar] 'This is a matter of my house!'

[speaking Spanish]

My wife

and my free time are my business.

Not when you're on my land working for me.

Pack your bags.

[speaking Spanish]

He s never done this before

Mr. Clarkman! He s not himself.

He had too much to drink, please.

Please. I beg you, please.

Please.

[crying]

Apologize.

[speaking Spanish]

You do this again

you're out of here.

[speaking Spanish]

[speaking Spanish]

It's okay.

I'm so embarrassed.

Oh, no, no. Don't be.

It's not your fault.

He ever does this again...

...you tell me.

Okay?

- I'm gonna catch you. - You can't catch me.

Luke and Hunter, you guys...

[Sawyer growling]

Guys, sit and eat.

Sit up there, right now.

When I ask you to do something. I need you to listen.

Eat your bacon.

Sorry.

[Susanna] Oh, mommy is very busy.

'So, you two don't wanna be grounded'

'for the rest of the day.'

'You're going to need to follow the rules.'

''Cause rules are really important.'

Aren't they, daddy?

Yeah. You listen to your mother.

- I-I-I just washed the flow. - Oh, I'm sorry.

No, not... No. Not that towel.

Okay. Just trying to help.

Yeah, well, you know what would help

is maybe getting a little house staff.

Like a maid or a cook.

No. That wouldn't help the bank.

[sighs]

What about Rafael's wife?

You said he's the best manager we've ever had.

And I know he's new but we could pay for her to cross-over.

Well, she's pregnant

so it wouldn't be exactly the easiest time

to walk across the desert on foot.

'But... I'll let you know when it's possible.'

Miller and Jenny just bought a new house.

Okay, people are talking

It looks like our business isn't doing as well.

I don't give a horse's ass what people think.

It's not what it looked like at our last party.

Okay. When is it a crime to have fun at a party?

Would you please just give it a rest?

'We have what we have--'

Okay. I can't ever want anything else?

You knew what you signed up for.

I didn't not sign up to live in a box.

Every fucking time you make a fucking decision.

Okay, you and I wanna be appreciated

for what I fucking bring to the table.

You wanna go back to your maids, and Mayor's balls

and your lady city societies?

- Go ahead already. - 'Stop.'

[Sawyer] The truth is..

...you needed things from me

and I wanted things from you.

But those things..

...they never matched up.

Good evening.

Oh, uh...

...I-I didn't know anyone would be here.

[Luke] 'Where is dad?'

That's right. Yeah.

Thank you.

Is it, uh...

...different where you come from?

[chuckles]

I didn't grow up on a farm.

Um, my father is a lawyer

and my mother is a school teacher.

Impressive

[cow mooing]

You're taking a picture of a cow?

[chuckles]

Helps me remember.

[laughs] She likes you.

Thinks you're gonna feed her.

So, why are you here?

Uh...

...after I married Cesar--

No. No, uh... tonight.

What brings you out here tonight?

My mother used to say that...

...animals can sense when a person is good or bad.

Just like the cow.

I ran into some bad people

get afraid, would panic.

And there was this neighbor that had all these dogs.

[laughs] Too many.

I used to just sit with them and...

...they would make me feel safe, calm.

I feel the same way here with them.

Nice.

I should let you get back to work, Mr. Clarkman.

Sawyer. It's fine.

Goodnight, Mr. Clarkman.

Goodnight.

[laughs]

[instrumental music]

[crying]

Hunter. Hunter.

Hunter, Hunter, wake up.

Wake up, it's okay. Oh, it's okay.

- No, no, no. Don't wake her up. - It's okay.

Don't wake her up the doctor said.

Well, he's nuts.

Look at her. She's in hell.

It's okay, baby.

Baby, it's just a dream.

It's just a dream.

He said it would stop.

Once she feels safe.

If she feels safe.

I got you. I got you.

- It's okay. It's just a dream. - Mommy.

[Sawyer] 'I got you.'

- 'I got you.' - Yep.

[Susanna] 'Mommy's coming.'

I got you, yeah.

It's okay now. It's okay, baby.

[Susanna] 'I really think that we should find somewhere to send her'

'where she can be around other kids'

'who've been through the same thing.'

She has PTSD.

We don't have the training that we need to help her.

[sighs]

Family is what s best for her.

[scoffs]

[sighs]

Fuck me, man.

You say that but what keeps you out every night?

Work, work, work.

I-I can't imagine what so desperately needs to get done.

You wanna accuse me of something? Go ahead.

Why are you so defensive?

I do what it takes to keep this place going

and you don t appreciate an ounce of it.

I care about this place as much as you do.

Who got Thatcher to sell you his fields?

Alright, so now you're gonna take credit

for a negotiation my father started?

Because I finished it.

'I threw the parties.'

'I got you in front of politicians'

'and I got their boring ass wives to elect you.'

That's all about you, Sue.

It's all about what you want, Sue.

Okay, you can continue...

...to stick your head up a cow's ass

and think that's all that business is

but there is a reason why this place was the same size

when you were born as when your father died.

My father built this place with his bare hands.

Your family is a cluster of leeches

sucking blood out of a dead man's fortune.

I didn't hear you complain

when that fortune helped you upgrade.

How did we get here? You and I?

[sighs]

[cow mooing]

She likes it.

You're doing really well.

Sometimes...

...when I'm feeling I'm losing control

I get really, really scared.

Do you ever feel like that?

Maybe.

These ladies help me calm down.

How you like them cows?

- Huh? - They're cool.

You know, they can't survive without us.

We help them live better lives and they do the same for us.

You like them?

- Yeah. - Yeah.

[Sawyer] 'So, you come here whenever you want.'

Okay. Thank you.

Did you keep your hand open when you fed them?

Did your, did your hand get swallowed by the cow?

[laughs]

There you go.

So, what do you think, huh?

Nothing like a big, fat cow.

Hey, look who it is.

- 'Come on over.' - Mom.

[Hunter] Did you come here to help?

Hunter, this isn't a place for a young lady.

Luke should be here learning this.

'You know what? Well, you and I go into town.'

Let's go get you a nice dress.

- That's stupid. - Hey!

Don't talk to your mom like that, okay?

Hunter... let's go.

Alright. Later, honey.

[Hunter] Okay. Fine.

[speaking Spanish]

[laughs]

Don Rafael?

Put that down.

I m giving you two weeks pay and a job in Redding.

You're out.

- I'll tell my wife. - She wants to stay.

Just like that, huh?

You get your ass off my property.

[speaking Spanish]

You think you can just throw some money at me

and make me go away, huh?

You know what? I'm done.

Bloody you're telling me how to live my life.

That's enough, alright?

Putting money in your pocket and giving you a job

so you can get your shit together.

Otherwise, I'll call the cops.

You know how that ends.

Either way, you are out.

[speaking Spanish]

[Paula] He had big dreams.

We were friends.

'One day he showed up with some mariachis'

and a declaration of love.

[instrumental music]

It worked.

He said, he came here... for me.

- For the great American dream. - Mm-hmm.

He thought things would be different

across the border a month after we got married.

And...

[sighs]

...slowly became a stranger sending me money.

Life throws you curveballs.

And we all react differently.

By the time I came here...

[music continues]

...he's not the same man.

Some of the most painful moments teaches the most.

Mmm.

People change.

Sometimes you both change and...

...who you become...

...doesn't fit anymore.

Is that how you feel too?

It's, um...

...different between me and Sue now.

I don't know if that's any better or worse.

We've always been an odd couple.

There must have been something that brought you together.

[laughs]

Yeah, pride.

No, I chased her.

Oh, I chased her.

And her parents didn't approve.

that made me want her more.

It's all so obvious in retrospect.

I hated that he blamed me for coming here

'but I also told myself I was here because of him.'

And Sue and I...

...get started and go off the rails.

Neither one of us ever wants to back down.

[music continues]

Plus you have the kids.

Plus we have the kids.

Yeah.

Starting to sound like this music.

A little melancholy.

You're gonna be okay.

[cricket chirping]

[Sawyer] Okay, come on. Serious. Okay. I'll get it this time.

- Okay. - Hundred percent.

- Are you ready for this? - Yeah, yeah.

Okay, watch the feet.

Not my hips, okay?

- I'm not watching. - You are.

- I'm not watching your hips. - Okay.

[laughs]

- Okay. Yeah, I got it. - Okay.

- One, two... - And...

And one, two, three...

- Five, six... - Seven.

- You're stiff. - I am not stiff.

- I am pretty loose right now. - You're so stiff.

Oh, no. Come on.

Holy smokes! Not another one.

I want to remember this moment if I ever need to laugh.

Yeah, thank you very much.

- One, two, three. - One, two, three.

- Five, six, seven. - Five, six, seven.

[both laughing]

You're horrible.

Oh, come on.

People could get the wrong impression.

What impression would that be?

[music continues]

- I should go. - Yeah.

You should.

[singing in Spanish

[dramatic music]

I had suspected it for months.

I still couldn't believe it.

After everything I gave up for you.

[Sawyer] Of all people

why wouldn't you say anything?

[Susanna] I was too angry.

I was just trying to get some kind of control.

[Sawyer] I never thought you'd leave.

Broke my heart.

[instrumental music]

The inspector just left.

I showed him the new pump for the silo.

He's happy.

Signed off on everything.

Boss?

Uh... good. Okay.

I keep calling her.

She won't pick up.

So, I called her mother and...

...and she said that, uh..

...she's gone somewhere with the kids.

Never thought I'd say this, but I miss those rug rats.

Mmm.

I know what you mean.

[unintelligible]

[unintelligible]

Good. Be good for you.

Give it some time, jefe.

She'll come around.

[Sawyer] Your good friend Rafael.

Don't have enough of those in my life.

We built this life together

but we were never friends.

Just... business partners.

Feels like the devil's off my back.

[Hunter] 'Mom said I could have it.'

- Knock if. Hunter, stop it. - 'Mom!'

[sighs] Oh my god!

[dramatic music

[sighs]

[music continues]

[Sawyer] I keep wondering about my kids.

You'll see them soon.

I hope so.

[instrumental music]

Luke, he'll take it on the chin. He'll get it.

Hunter. Oh, boy.

It won't be easy.

We'll have to adapt.

What is this music?

It s not Norteño

or... Son Huasteco.

- You know Mexican music? - Yeah, sure.

I grew up here, remember?

Picked up a few things.

- Mm. - What style is this?

It s from Tehuantepec.

- Mm. - In the west of Oaxaca.

- Tehuantepec. - Mm-hmm.

What attracts you to this music?

Stupid family stuff. It's nothing.

Stupid family stuff.

Tell me.

- My aunt, Claudia Cassarubias. - Uh-huh.

I always looked up to her when I was little.

She did things her way.

Family had a big falling over the man she married

Juancarlos Cassarubias.

She moved down to be with him.

And everyone cut her off except me, of course.

Mmm.

We kept writing in secret.

[both chuckles]

Even though she was happy with Juancarlos...

...a part of her...

...always felt lonely without her family.

She s the one who sent me this music.

Sometimes I lay down in bed...

...listen...

...wondering if how I feel here is...

...how she felt when she left.

I love you.

[sighs]

[chuckles]

Slow down.

I haven't said that...

...to anyone but my kids

for a long time.

[chuckles] No.

No more pictures, please.

- No more pictures. - Just one more.

Only for you.

Oh.

Say it again.

- Mm. - Hmm.

Say it.

I love you.

Again.

I love you. I love you.

[thud]

[thud]

[thud]

[knock on door]

[dramatic music]

[gun cocks]

[knock on door]

[clattering]

[groans]

[grunts]

[dramatic music]

[music continues]

[music continues]

[gasps]

[birds chirping]

[Paula] 'It's looking better.'

Good morning to you too.

I still can t believe a bull got loose.

Oh, Raf and I fixed that fence.

That bull is going nowhere.

I'm just glad you're okay.

- No broken bones. - Nope.

You shouldn't have stayed here.

Relax.

Neighbors are gonna talk.

Let them talk. And I don't care.

Yeah, I'm not gonna let all this good food go to waste.

It looks good.

Mmm.

Could be like this all the time.

Do you want this?

Of course, I want this.

But you said we were gonna take it slow.

We are. We have.

I just never felt like this.

But what about Cesar?

What if he comes back?

Well... he's long gone.

Yeah.

[sighs]

What?

I love you too.

Say it again.

- I love you too. - Say it again.

I love you too.

I. Love. You. Too.

[Luke] Are we staying this time?

I hated that hotel.

[Hunter] Luke, look he's here.

- Daddy. - Daddy.

You're here. I missed you daddy

Hey, what a surprise.

Come say hi to your old man.

[laughs]

Hiya. How are you doing?

- Uh, good. - Yeah?

- What's going on? - Breakfast.

Um, hey, kids, can you do me a favor and head upstairs?

Mommy and daddy need to have a little chat.

- Thank you. - Play nice with your sister.

Alright, look Sue...

...it's too late to start over.

Tell me to go.

I'll take the kids.

Okay. You can go.

They stay.

[sighs]

I don't need your love.

Nor you mine.

So, I'll overlook your little indiscretion

because our kids need a family

and I can't do it myself.

Hunter needs a lot of support.

Luke needs a mother and a father

who will give them security

and everything they need to survive in this savage world.

And she... disappears today.

Okay, we can work this out.

We do shared custody, we split the finances--

Or I just take you to court

for the cheating prick that you are.

And I parade your little whore right in front of INS.

All of this goes up for sale.

I take everything.

Hunter goes to a psych ward

and you never see your kids again.

[Susanna] 'Doc says I'm about three' months.

Were you even gonna tell me?

I told you now.

[scoffs]

Were you planning on keeping the child?

You choose.

[birds chirping]

[dramatic music]

[music continues]

["Sympatico" by Tom Bromley]

[knock on door]

Not now. Just... stay out.

Oh, honey.

Didn't know it was you.

Have a seat.

Where are we going?

Um...

I don t wanna go back to the hotel!

We were there so long.

- We missed you. - I missed you too, baby.

- Don't leave me. - Oh, baby.

It's okay.

It's okay.

You'd be daddy strong girl, okay?

[Sawyer] My father used to say

family requires sacrifice.

He was right.

It's like you said.

The painful moments teach us the most.

I hope that this...

...is that for both of us.

[Rafael] I heard of this guy down south.

[Sawyer] Don't tell me anymore.

- Less I know, the better. - Mmm.

You sure this is the right thing, jefe?

That's not the end of the story.

That is where the story ended.

We agreed no more lies, you and me.

Yes... because of what you did.

Enough, Sue, enough!

How bad could it be?

Tell me.

[crow cawing]

Is the boss still here?

Uh, no. He's in court.

Ah, damn it.

Maybe, he'll get Luis back. Have a good day.

Is there something I can help you with?

It's just a stack of mail from the office.

He hasn't come in for a few days now.

Wanted to make sure that none of it mattered for the hearing.

I can take that.

[Susanna] It was such a small thing.

The handwriting, it didn't feel like business.

And then the pit of my stomach sank.

She said she wanted to write you a 100 times

but never had... because of me.

She said, she didn't want anything

except for you to know

to see him.

But I knew what would happen if you ever found out.

[birds chirping]

[Hazan] What do you mean it s obvious, Todd.

It s not fucking obvious.

You re telling me it s clear to you

how US Immigration Services

'US Immigration and Customs Enforcement'

and fucking US Border Protection are different things?

Hey!

- I told you to wait outside. - I understand

what Americans think a terrorist looks like.

I wanna show uncle my dragon!

Oh, you gotta be careful with dragons.

If you wake them up

they swoop you in and they eat you.

[growling]

Because less people are buying from me!

And I keep losing workers.

'You know what, Todd?'

Look this up in Farsi.

[speaking Farsi]

Goodbye!

I didn't mean to interrupt.

Just wanted to bring you these.

Pick them myself.

I'm sorry. You didn't need to hear that.

Should we be worried?

No. No.

Let's just talk.

How can I help you?

Oh, I just wanted to thank you

for taking care of Noah's school.

He's settling in.

Seems to be making new friends.

He's reading.

That's great. It's great to hear.

I'm glad you're having fun.

I didn't enjoy school at his age, so...

- May I ask you a question? - Mm-hmm.

Why no Spanish?

He s an American boy.

I want him to fit in.

Mmm.

[laughs]

Aw!

Ah!

Go get it.

[laughs]

Woo-ho!

What are we gonna do now?

Try to get the ball. Try to get the ball.

[indistinct chatter]

[Paula] 'I'm gonna die if you don't hug me.'

[Noah laughing]

[dramatic music]

[Susanna] Yes, Hello.

I need to report some undocumented immigrants.

Paula Uribe, on the Carmen ranch.

Yes, we caught her with illegal substances.

Yes.

[sighs]

Thank you.

[screaming]

[grunting]

What are you doing? What is going on?

- These are my employees. - Stay down, sir.

- No. - What is it?

This is not right.

- They are not animals. - Calm down, sir.

[sobbing]

Noah.

Noah.

Noah.

Noah.

Noah.

Noah...

It's me. Come on out.

Where is my mom?

Come on, buddy. It's just me.

[Susanna] We had agreed to do what was best for our family.

I should have seen who you were.

You're an empty fucking black hole

'devouring everything in its past'

'to get what it wants.'

[sighs]

[dramatic music]