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[indistinct shouting]

[shouting]

[Ella] When I was 12, I had my first fight.

[shouting]

And when I was 12, I discovered sex.

I'm catching you sneaking around the house

early hours of the morning like that ain't nothing.

Next day, you're getting into fights.

What's going on?

Nothing.

[Janet sighs]

That don't look like nothing.

-[grunting] -[music playing]

[phone buzzing]

Michael, mum's calling.

Shut up.

Get to bed.

[grunts]

-[Moses] Huh? -[phone still buzzing]

Say so, say so.

Pussy.

[Ella] Moses was my brother, Michael's, new best friend.

He'd been at our school a couple of months.

He was always coming around.

You just got fucked up, fam.

[Michael] Are you deaf?

Night, Ella.

[Ella] Our living room door had been broke for a while

and I was happy my uncle, Clive, hadn't come to fix it

because I could watch whenever I wanted to.

[gunshots on TV]

[car tires screeching on TV]

The penis, made of erectile tissue,

fills with blood.

This makes the penis stiff and rigid,

thereby helping it to stand out of the body.

Okay. Okay.

If we're not going to act like year eights,

if we're going to act like little children,

then we'll go right back to what we were doing then.

[class] Nah! No! No.

[teacher] Then pipe down

and act like adults.

[Ella] Fucking Chantelle and Abby,

we'll get to them skets later.

I want to get to this right now, Ella,

because if you can't be honest with me whatever it is that's going on

or if you're trying to protect someone,

it isn't making it any better, is it?

Ella?

It's nothing.

-I'm going to ask you one last-- -I told you it is nothing.

Why can't you just leave it?

I'm not hungry.

Len, just made that for you. Fucking eat it.

Stop fucking swearing at her, man. She's only little.

-You just swore, fam! -At you, fam!

And why calling me fam all the fucking time, like I'm your mate?

I'm not your fucking mate.

How are you telling me to stop swearing when you

keep chatting like that around her?

[Ella] Mom worked nights, so Michael's always looking after me.

Leneek, Michael's wifey, she was always helping out.

[doorbell rings]

…dickhead in front of my little sister.

How are you trying to chat to me like this?

[Michael] I don't need this. I've got maths today.

-[Leneek] Maths? -[Michael] Stop shouting at me.

[Leneek] Wow, math!

[Michael and Leneek shouting at each other]

[Moses] You all right, Ells?

Where's Michael?

[Ella] He was so fucking buff.

Wagwan fathead, what you saying?

[indistinct]

[Ella] It weren't just me that loved him,

it was everyone, fam.

They were like kings.

[inaudible dialogue]

[inaudible dialogue]

[girls giggling]

[Ella] So yeah, Chantelle and Abby,

they were always catching me out.

-[Abbie] Ella! -[Chantelle] Come on, and Ella.

[Abbie] Ella, Ella, Ella!

[Chantelle] Do you like shine, Ella?

[Ella] Not that they could ever touch me.

You all right, Ells?

[Ella] They knew who I was with.

What are you staring at?

Do you want to take a picture or something?

[Michael and Moses] Whoa.

Go on, Ella.

[Ella] Yeah, carry on that way, bitches.

They were all just we weenies -

little virgins that didn't know nothing about nothing,

but I did.

I knew some shit.

[Michael humming]

[TV sounds]

-What are you doing? -Just admit you want my toe, man.

Move, mate, move.

[phone buzzing]

[phone buzzing]

[Michael sighs]

[TV sounds]

Why's your brother such a dickhead?

He just is.

-[Michael] Ella? -Yeah?

Bed.

[TV sounds]

[Moses] Yo, Mike.

What?

I'm starving, bruv.

-[Michael] What do you want? -Toast.

[Michael] Toast, yeah?

[Moses] Put some jam on there as well, innit?

Just gonna go to the toilet.

[sighs]

[urinating]

[Ella] I was doing my usual thing.

Trying to be as quiet as possible.

[steps creaking quietly]

[panting]

[door opens]

[Ella] But that night was different.

What you doing down there?

[Ella] It was all over.

You deaf?

You know what? I can't be bothered.

Go on, get out of my face.

[muted TV sounds]

[Janet] Just found her, crouched down outside the door.

I thought she wasn't supposed to be scared of the dark no more.

What are you doing home so early?

[Janet] Idiots put me on the wrong shift, again. [sighs]

I better go home, innit?

Laters.

[Michael] Yeah.

[Ella] The next day, Michael, already left for school,

so I went by myself.

-Allow it. -I won't tell--

Get the fuck away from me!

[indistinct dialogue]

[Ella] No!

[girls laughing]

[teacher] Give it back to her now.

[Ella] Chantelle and Abby knew something was up

and they were trying it.

[teacher] The both of you can see me after class.

[Ella] I thought I could fix things myself.

Why aren't you speaking to us?

I'm busy, Ella.

-You can trust me. -Listen, what the fuck's wrong with you?

What's wrong with you more like.

Move out of my way.

-Where do you think you're going? -[Ella] To see Moses.

You think you're too good, you know.

Do you think he's ever gonna like a ugly, little, year eight?

You're just jealous.

Jealous? Jealous of what?

'Cause I know how to do it.

-[Chantelle] What do you know how to do? -[Abbie] Yes, spit it out, Ella.

I know.

-Come on, just tell us. -[Chantelle] We're waiting.

[Ella] Man, it was all a mess.

And right then, someone had to pay.

[shouting]

Come here.

[Ella] I told Mom they were teasing me

because I fancied some boy in my class.

I'm gonna make sure they won't bother you no more,

all right?

I'm gonna sort this.

[Ella] I was back to being a weenie,

who didn't have no one.

-Oh my-- -[indistinct dialogue]

[laughing]

[Ella] Michael and Moses deaded it, just like that.

When I think about it now, it's all a bit cringe.

-Later. -[boy] Bye.

I'll see you guys later, bye.

[Ella] I see Moses about.

He works at JD Sports and acts all like he don't know me when I see him.

It's like get over yourself, fam.

I worry about my brother though.

Sometimes I think about it.

I wonder if I didn't do what I did, like,

would they still be together or something?

Come on, let's get you up.

Look at your eye, cover that up.

[Ella] Think I'll never know.

Come on, let's go.

[music playing]