All language subtitles for Alone S11E06 Murphys Law 720p AMZN WEB-DL DDP2 0 H 264-FLUX

Washing my clothes. I'm
just gonna boil them.

Ah!

! Ow.

Having my hand burned,
I can't shoot my bow.

Stupid.

I need to get out of
the temporary shelter.

So I'm gonna push, and
I think, when I'm done,

this place is gonna
be bomb-proof.

Gotta be careful
standing up so quick.

It's easy to forget how
much I haven't eaten.

The biggest game here is down!

I've butchered plenty
of large animals

that I know how much
work this is gonna be.

I'm gonna burn up a lot
of energy doing this.

Yeah.

Boom.

Got him.

I strongly believe that

when nature throws
you a tidal wave,

you build a bushcraft
surfboard and ride it out.

Yeah!

I'm officially tapping out.

I just couldn't deal with
the social isolation.

I'm not tapping out.

I'd rather die.

Here goes nothing.

Whoa!

Yes!

Holy [bleep].

This is the harshest
location possible.

We're 125 miles in
the Arctic Circle.

Never had an environment

make me feel like a
complete amateur before.

Everything is
against us out here.

Mother Nature went
and bitch-slapped me.

Looks like I got grizzlies
and wolves as my neighbors.

Holy crap.

They're just hunting
the shoreline.

Mother Nature is about
to dim the lights on us.

We're heading into
total darkness.

Hey, bear.

The cold and the dark is
going to sap people's souls.

Really makes you wonder
if it's worth it.

There is no camera crew.

There's no support system.

I'm completely alone.

Yes!

People go in one way...

Stop bleeding.

And they come out
entirely different.

This is the most difficult

survival challenge in the world.

$500,000.

That's completely
life-changing money.

It's beautiful.

Whoever can thrive the longest.

If they out here, they
ought to be afraid of me.

Whoever can push through...

Wins.

I hope I made the right
choice coming out here.

I can package the smoked meat,

get it in my food cache.

That's a lot of meat.

So I decided to boil
some spruce and shave.

See how this works,
shaving with an arrowhead.

Think that's about as
good as I'm gonna get it.

Oh, well.

I need to start moving around
because I'm getting cold.

But I really want to construct
the bed in my shelter.

That's all I'm gonna do
today, as far as work goes.

My energy level is zero.

My winter supply
of meat is done.

My moose meat is smoked
and it's in a cache.

It's very secure.

Now I can start moving
into my shelter.

OK.

I'm gonna go about making a bed.

I'm gonna make a wood frame and
then a bough bed on top of it.

My strategy starting now
is to do the bare minimum,

as little as
possible physically.

My shelter smells like
smoked meat big time.

That's not gonna
bother me at all.

And eat as much as I can,

try to build some
longevity into my physique.

I have to raise up the bed off
the ground for maximum warmth.

I'm really tired,
and I shouldn't be.

My strategy always was
to work really hard

for the first couple or three
weeks to get things set,

and then do a strategy shift.

But the moose complicated
it so much that

it might have been
just overdoing it.

That might be good.

The way I've gone about
these last three weeks

will drive me out of
this competition soon

if I keep doing it that way.

I'm having a rough time,
just physically today,

a very rough time.

So that might be one
of the life lessons

I have to learn
while being here.

I got... I got just a start

on making the bed in there.

This is sad.

I've never been this inept
unless I was totally sick.

I really gassed myself
during the first three...

three weeks here.

So I'm paying for it.

I got to recoup.

Well, I have decided that
I must be getting sick,

coming down with something.

It's the only explanation
for how I'm feeling today.

I've started to sweat
and then get cold

and then sweat
and then get cold.

I'm worried about it.

Hot, cold, chills, sweat.

Not a great day.

The moose could easily
and ironically be

the thing that
would take me down.

Sweating again.

I've got to get through
whatever this is.

Place your bids. Here we go.

Anybody got a giddy up, go.

Antique log going, starting
the bidding at 10 bucks.

Here we go. Anybody
gonna go 10 now?

Here we go, 15.

Anybody want to go 25
here, anybody go 25 bucks.

There is no log on
the face of the Earth

with the same grains and
beauty as this sumbitch.

Now, come on.
Anybody gonna go 40?

40 bucks. Can we get a 41?

Sold!

Ladies and gentlemen, put
your hands together...

for the young lady in the back

who bought this
amazing piece of lumber

for $42.

Sold.

All right, that's
enough fun, Dub.

No fun allowed
here in the Arctic.

It's all work, bro.

It's darn cold out today

on a pre-winter day
in the Arctic Circle.

Food and firewood
are the two things

that are gonna be hard to
come by in about a month.

All right. Let's go
check the gill net.

What scares the hell out
of me more than anything

is that period of a couple weeks

before I can walk on
the ice on this river.

If that happens, and I don't
have food stored for that...

I can't ice fish.

I can't fish this open
water and I can't ice fish.

So that'll be two weeks.

Two weeks of me not
eating is a tap-out.

I'm too skinny, so I can't...

that can't happen.

That could happen to
just about anybody else

in this competition, but
that cannot happen to me.

Gill net.

Drumroll, please.

A bunch of... a bunch
of garbage in there.

There's no fish in here.

Nothing in the gill net.

Must fish.

I must fish at all costs.

And I must do it
almost every day.

I really would much rather
be hunting right now.

But...

I also know...

this is a smart thing to be
doing right now with my time

that's not burning calories.

I think something's
hitting this one.

I don't know if I should
wait for it to spring

or just grab it.

I'm just gonna
spring it by hand.

Holy crap, that's big.

Stay on there.

My club is right here
in front of my feet.

So gentle.

No sudden movements.

Wow.

Freaking wow.

Yes!

How's that...

.

When you have a fish
caught, in your hands...

And to have it
suddenly get away,

it's like a...

it's a heart-wrenching thing.

It's like you work so hard.

Every freaking calorie,
when it comes down to it,

every calorie on every
one of these fish

means something to me.

And literally losing a
fish in a split second

from a bad decision
is taking away

my time of being
here for longer.

Everything's OK.

Everything's OK.

It's only...

It's only five days of
food and $500,000, dude.

That's all.

Never let that happen again,

and we can recover from that.

Besides looking like an
absolute idiot on television,

we can recover from that.

That was a damn nice fish,

days and days and days of food.

I think I might just
have to be satisfied

with my hard lesson today.

Stupid lesson.

This is my pipe I'm making.

It's gonna be like a
little hobbit pipe.

We are going to fire that pipe.

So you can see my
pipe down in there.

Essentially, what
you're doing is

welding the clay into a ceramic.

Picked some kinnikinnick.

What do you think of that?

There we go.

Well, it certainly
isn't tobacco.

It's got kind of a
peppery flavor to it.

It's not bad.

All right.

We're gonna go work
on the shelter.

This has been the single
most challenging thing

since I've been out here,

selecting a place to
build a permanent shelter

and what kind of
shelter to build.

And because I'm getting
right down to the wire,

I think the most efficient,
quickest thing that I could do

is a wickiup.

So then it became finding
a place where I could find

enough small trees
to make a wickiup.

I walked up and down
this whole river.

And the only place on
this side of the river

that I found that was suitable
to do it was right behind me

in the one place I didn't look.

I just want to get rid of
as much bark as possible.

Then it won't be so liable
to catch on fire on me

in the middle of the night.

The thing about a wickiup is,

it provides a lot of
really good insulation

by slowing down the
air from the outside.

If I can settle in here
and become comfortable,

I'll be able to stay here
for a very long time.

All right.

Done with that for now.

Think I'll get my tarp on there

and then try and catch a fish.

If I don't catch
anything in the net,

I will fish with my line.

I can see the net,

but I don't see any fish.

I made a handline from
the leftover strands

of paracord core
from making my net.

I haven't had much
success with it,

but I'll give it a try.

So here is a chunk of pike meat,

and this is the leader

that I made from my bootlace.

Pike have a mouth
full of razor blades,

and something that I'm
very limited on is hooks.

Inside the core of
my winter bootlaces

is a material that's
really strong.

They make bulletproof
vests out of it.

So I'm hoping this leader
will be safe from pike teeth.

That way, I don't lose my hooks.

I brought a big
treble hook this time.

We'll see how that works.

I was gonna save this for
lures but changed my mind.

I need to catch a lot of fish

before the river
starts to freeze.

I want to try it just a
little further out than that.

There's a fish.

Come on.

Oh, no!

No! [bleep]!

My main line snapped.

There it goes.

!

How am I gonna get that back?

I'm gonna have to go swimming.

I can't lose my leader.

I won't accept that.

Soon as I get that back, we're
going from here to the camp.

.

Oh, [bleep].

Oh, it's cold.

Tailbone felt that one.

Oh, what an adventure.

OK, I do not
recommend doing that.

I probably should go back
to the fire, get warmed up.

Well, I'm in my...

my permanent shelter.

It's not done yet, but
it's getting there.

I'm in an extreme amount
of pain in my tailbone

and in my abdomen.

So I have debated, um...

Talking about this because...

it's kind of embarrassing.

I've had probably
30 pounds of food.

And in 12 days, I
haven't had a single BM.

I wish that I had killed
that beaver early on

because that may have kept

my digestive system
working regularly.

I've been eating as much
roughage as I possibly can.

I just don't know what
else I can do about it.

Since my divorce, my kids
have watched me struggle.

But I think it's important
for them to be able

to see me outside
of our family circle

and see what I'm
capable of doing.

When you step into nature,

everything else is stripped away

and you are a vulnerable animal

that is bumping along, clumsily.

But there is no situation
that I would be in

that would make me tap.

I made a commitment
to finish this.

I would rather die than quit.

I feel like if I eat
any more green stuff,

I'm gonna make it worse.

So I'm just keeping
myself hydrated

and hoping things work
themselves through.

I got to see what it is.

Oh, yeah! We got breakfast.

Yeah!

Yeah!

Hot.

I know that there's
some Indigenous groups

that eat a lot of bark.

And right now, I'm
on a fish diet,

so I'm getting mostly protein.

And I want to get some
sugars and carbs in my body.

I think it'll be a more
well-balanced diet.

Puts, you know, food
in your stomach.

OK, so I'm gonna muck 'er down

and go look for some berries.

Look at that.

This here.

Getting juicier all the time.

Got to try to figure
something out.

Sassy little bugger, anyway.

.

.

You know, not good
when you got something

stealing your food all the time.

Well.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah.

I may go for a little
fish here this evening,

so try to secure
something for tomorrow.

So food is starting to become
a pretty good priority.

The critters here
are very aggressive.

Food stored is
not safe anywhere.

I got jays, the most
aggressive little jays

I ever seen.

We got minks here.
We got martens.

They're constantly
stealing food from me.

And it's a real concern.

It's actually the biggest
threat I got right now.

It's one thing to catch food,
but then you got to be working

to keep the critters
from stealing.

I can see it's gonna be a
real challenge going forward.

I'm gonna have to come
up with some other ideas

to try to figure out
how to keep the animals

from getting at my food.

Yeah!

Is that a pike or
something else?

Is that a salmon? No,
it's... or a whitefish?

Oh, so the whitefish is here.

Oh, just gotta be careful.
Just be careful, Willie.

Look at that. Look at
that. Look at that.

Mm-mm.

Whitefish is on the
run. I should put...

be very careful.

Very careful.
Extra very careful.

There, right there, almost.

Oh, look at that!
Got a whitefish.

Oh-ho-ho-ho-hoh.

Oh, how things turn around.

Super happy, super
happy, super happy.

This is gonna be a
well-protected fish.

Look at that.

Oh, my.

♪ Whitefish on the menu

Oh, what a pleasant
surprise that whitefish was.

The timing was just perfect.

I've been needing
something like that because

had a lot of food,
critters cleaned me out.

Then I was starting to get
a little short on food.

But that's a nice
little pick-me-up.

Tear that off.

Like that.

Now what I'm gonna do...

now, this is my... this
was my clay carrier.

It's gonna go in there now.

And this is gonna be tied
over and hung up like that.

Now that goes up here,
and you tie it over tight.

Well, I'll tell you,
things can turn around

kind of fast out here.

Not putting in that hidey-hole.

No, don't trust that
spot now either.

That's great.

I got a message that they're
doing med check sometime today.

So we'll see what they say.

I got up a while ago,

and the pain in my
abdomen is strong enough

to make me stop doing
what I was doing.

I'm not complaining.

Just dealing with it.

But I said from the beginning,
and I'm gonna keep saying it,

I'm not tapping out.

So we'll just see what happens.

Got a med check, so
that should be fun.

I hear the boat coming.

I'm kind of nervous.

How thorough is the med check?

I don't know.

I don't know what the outcome
of this med check's gonna be.

You always hope for the
best, but plan for the worst.

Gonna me change my pants, be
respectable for the doctor.

My stomach is feeling
really lean, scary...

it's scary how lean it feels.

I'm actually worried
about this med check.

I've thought about whether
or not I should just

grit my teeth and fake
it through this check.

But I've decided to not do that.

Bring the shirt kind of up
to the bone here, the navel.

There any chest pain?
- No.

Difficulty breathing?

Um, no. I've been
out of breath from...

from work, you know, of course.

Some of these logs
are pretty big.

But no difficulty breathing.

I am trying to
catch my breath...

- OK.
- Uh, constantly.

- Constantly?
- Yeah.

- Any headaches?
- No.

- Vision changes?
- No.

Any chest pain?

- No.
- No?

Sometimes it throbs.

Sometimes it feels like a...

like a dull knife.

- No belly pain?
- Mm-mm.

Bowels been good?

There was one day that
I had some stomach pain,

and I think... I don't
know what was going on.

And maybe I hadn't used the
restroom in, like, five days.

And so there was one day that
I had a little pain there,

but it wasn't serious.

I haven't had a
bowel movement in...

it's either 14 or 15 days.

And that has become
extremely painful.

How often are you
having these pains?

Constantly.

It's more pronounced
when I do anything.

It does worry me a bit.

I don't want to have
a heart attack at 35.

- Any pain there?
- No.

- That's OK?
- Oh, all good, yeah.

- OK, that's sore.
- That's sore there.

- OK.
- Yeah, that's sore.

Yeah? So the deeper... the
deeper I go, the more...

- Oh, yeah, way more.
- OK.

Like, j...

Yeah, just taking
that off was...

making it pretty
hard to breathe.

At this point, I don't
think it's medically safe

for him to be in the field.

Given Dr. Gary's concerns...

We need to officially extract
you for medical reasons.

My largest concern is,

you're showing signs now
of a bowel obstruction.

My concern with a
bowel obstruction is,

that's something that can evolve

into a perforation
or an infection

throughout the
body called sepsis.

These are very
serious diagnoses.

And it's no longer safe
for you to continue.

Any chance we could just,
like, give it a few more days?

Four days or something?

It's a pretty serious risk

that you're putting
yourself in day by day,

living out here.

It is not safe to continue.

My brother, uh...

had an obstruction.

They had to take out about
7 feet of his intestines.

So I understand.

I think that it's
probably the right call.

I just don't want
it to be, you know?

That's all I've got
to say, I guess.

I feel like I had
my hand extended,

reaching at this goal
that I wanted so badly.

And then the goal stretches
out beyond my reach,

and all I grab
onto is empty air.

But what I'm realizing
about this experience

is that it's OK that
I didn't win the prize

because what I gained is wisdom.

When you're faced with
a challenge like this,

it tests your character.

I came to know myself better.

And I'm going to keep this
state of vulnerability,

because I think if I do,

I can be more helpful to
my family, my children.

My kids will see a
passionate and happy Jake.

I'm going to be a better
version of myself,

full authenticity,
but with purpose.

And I'm going to finish that
journey on my own terms.

Gonna use some of the
ptarmigan bones for bait.

There we go, six baited hooks.

You mother[bleep]. I hate you.

You are a robbing
little bastard.

What are you trying
to steal from me now?

Huh?

Jerk.

Stupid Canadian jay.

Med check is done and over with,

and they didn't pull
me because I'm dying,

so we'll call it a success.

So I'm going to walk
over to the river

and check my longline.

A longline is a long rope

that's anchored down at one end.

And off of that rope is
multiple baited hooks,

so there's multiple
chances of catching a fish.

My body's feeling depleted.

I am really hoping I
get a protein today

because I ate the
last of the ptarmigan.

Oh. Oh, gosh.

OK, change in plans.

See if I can get that bird.

A couple days into
my journey here,

I stopped wearing my belt.

Oh, where'd you
go, pretty chicken?

I need you so bad.

And today I put it back
on and found out that

I lost enough weight that
I'm in at least one notch.

Where'd you go?

I hear it.

Oh, I see her. She's
up there a ways.

Too big or too small,
doesn't matter.

My entire life, I see my
body different than it is.

It's [bleep] up.

Please, God, be with me
and guide this arrow.

I can really use this.

.

Damn it.

Oh, please, God, let me
get one of these birds.

Oh, [bleep].

Un-freaking-believable.

Even that raven's
laughing at me.

Raven, shut it!

Not funny.

Feel like a [bleep] dumbass.

All right, back to my lines.

I spent most of my
adult life overweight.

I've always had an
addictive personality.

Unfortunately, that
came from my family.

Sure hope my anchor holds on.

Those things are hard to find.

My mom ended up falling
into alcoholism,

and she got into
Alcoholics Anonymous.

Nothing on the first one.

Nothing on the second one.

And I started to see these
amazing changes in her

in a very short period of time.

And then she came to me when
I was 17 years old and said,

"I love you, but I'm
done with motherhood.

I now have to take
care of myself."

And nothing on the third one

or the fourth one.

That was the day
I had to grow up.

There was just an
emptiness inside of me.

And I filled the void
with alcohol and food.

But I turned it around
because I got pregnant.

Everything still has
its chunk of bone on it.

Just not the best bait.

Knowing how it felt
to have your mother

not mother you anymore,
I wouldn't do it.

I know I was a better
mother than my mother was.

And my daughter is
an amazing mother.

Because each one of us has our
own trauma from our mothers,

I know that every
generation in my family,

we're getting better.

Yeah, been one of those days.

I don't remember who told me...

some woman in my world...

about how they always
hate the competitor,

the female
competitors, that cry.

And here I am.

My confidence is taking a hit.

That voice inside of me
that loves to tell me

how much I suck at
everything is getting louder.

And it's looking for
any weakness I have.

All of a sudden, I'm
starting to question

my abilities again.

Do I really have what it takes?

I made a promise to my
husband that I would tap out

before I broke
physically or mentally.

I might be there.

An emotional breakdown...

On video.

It's humiliating.

And in my safe space at home,
I'm not embarrassed to feel.

On television?

I'm vulnerable like every
other person in this world.

And sometimes I suck
at some of the skills

I'm supposed to have.

Now you all know.
Sometimes I just suck.

I sometimes suck at fishing.

And I often suck at hunting.

But the plain and simple
fact is, this is just me.

And, you know, we all
go through our lives

projecting an image.

And I project an image...

OK, I try to project an image

of having my [bleep] together,

of being a tough, badass woman.

And sometimes it just doesn't
work out, any of it, out here.

And now the whole world knows.

The publicity of this game

was one of the scariest
parts for me, because I knew.

I knew the real
me would be shown.

I have no doubt that

my lack of nutrition
and hydration

is affecting not only
my body, but my mind.

It's OK.

Because there's a lot of
other people in the world

who project a great image,

and sometimes they suck, too.

That's being human.

So any crazy thought
that I'm having,

I know that it's my body

trying to convince
my mind to go home.

But I'm not breaking yet.

I still have fight in me,
so I'm not tapping out yet.

I'm really tired.

I've been going
pretty hard today.

Ooh.

It's new socks day.

Oh, yeah.

It's the best part of today.

Look at 'em. They're so soft.

Mmm. And they smell good.

Well, I don't even know
if they smell good or not.

They just don't
smell like me, so.

But yeah, today is gonna
be pretty easygoing.

I haven't had a break
since we've been here,

so I think I'll
just take it easy

and rest and heal and
just enjoy being here.

That's the plan for today.

I have been working
nonstop on my shelter,

burning an easy 3,000
to 4,000 calories a day

and maybe getting an average

of 500 calories
a day in my body.

That's not sustainable.

I'm having some
pains in my chest.

I think I work myself too hard.

So I need to stop feeling like
I got to work all the time

and just try to relax.

Today...

my church involves
just being still

and washing my underwear.

That's my morning...
that's my morning service.

I haven't taken this
underwear off in two weeks.

So much filth
coming off of these.

Oh, that's horrible.

I might get a ticket for,
like, polluting the water.

Oh, man.

All right, now I'm
gonna boil some water.

I know I don't have
enough water in me,

so I'm starting to get a
little bit of a headache.

This here is just birch bark.

And it works really good
for... a fire starter

because of all the oils
that's inside birch.

I only got one ferro rod.

It has a very limited
number of strikes.

I think the same thing
with the ferro rod,

and me taking my
time to make the most

out of this fire starter,

I think it applies
a lot to our lives,

at least mine.

I'm sure I'm not the only one
that's gone through tragedy,

but how much time did I waste

not taking advantage

of when my brother was here?

Like it's gonna last forever.

It's not.

People in your life

that actually mean
something to you,

what are you doing
with them today,

tomorrow, this
weekend, you know,

to make the most of
your time with them?

There it goes.

I'll drink some water
and go for a walk.

Being out here, I wish now that

I'd have valued my
time with them more.

It's just like that ferro rod.

May not be today, may not
be the next few months.

It may last you a lifetime.

But most likely, it won't.

There's always a job to do.

But the thing is, there's
always a job to do.

I need to slow down.

I need to just be
present, be in the moment.

My baby girl is only gonna
be one year old for so long.

And it's more important
that I enjoy that time

instead of work it all away.

It's getting cold. Gonna
put this on my noggin.

I can't believe it.

That's crazy.

I found a...

tangled up gill net.

Seems like some of it is intact.

I want to salvage this.

Pretty cool stuff.

Lucky.

I didn't take the time
to make a gill net

because at first,

catching stuff on the
bait was really working.

So I just didn't bother with it.

And then I just got so
caught up in that shelter.

I'm sure there's a lot of stuff

I'm gonna look back and
wish I'd done better.

But you know, that's
just the way life is.

Maybe this is just exactly
what I needed to win.

I need to get that thing fixed.

I need to get it
in the water ASAP,

and hopefully it starts
turning a profit.

This could be a big win.

Got us a... gill net.

Oh, my God, dude.

That did not just happen.

Why the [bleep]?

I just smashed my glasses.

That's another terrible mistake.

Can't be making mistakes.

I'm gonna have to, like,
figure something out here.

So here's my glasses.

They broke right there.

So the lens is gonna fall
out every time I move.

Wonder if I could just try
to melt that back together.

I think that's probably
what I should try doing.

We got paracord and pine pitch.

So if I can get
this heated up...

And welded, if you will,

this plastic welded,

we'll pop in that lens.

And I think we'll
be back in business.

It's gonna be probably
not just that simple,

'cause most things never are.

So it seems like
it's semi... fixed.

I'm gonna wrap paracord
really freaking tight.

I'm gonna cover it with
a very generous layer

of pine pitch glue.

That's awesome.

There's our resin glue.

Now, I want to get it
in every nook and cranny

so that it's
basically fiberglass.

OK, put the glue in.

You guys ready for
the big unveiling?

Boom.

That's back to normal, man.

That is awesome.

Look at this. This
is what I lose

without a hairbrush.

I'm gonna be bald before
this journey is over.

Feeling some
frustrations right now,

frustrations over my
inability to smack an animal

with an arrow.

You know, I've had a
couple opportunities

that I could have got some bait,

and I blew it.

All right.

That's enough mental bashing.

I think I'm gonna go
take a walk with my bow

and see if there's
anything to shoot at.

So I finally have
a badass afternoon.

Fairly certain cameras are
pointed in the right direction.

And when I go to
look at the media,

it says it can't be read.

So... yeah.

It's OK.

Doesn't take away from
how fabulous it was.

Because "Alone's"
worst hunter...

Got two spruce grouse.

Yay!

I have that sense of pride that,

not only did I get a
bird, I got two birds.

I don't need the feathers,

so I'm just going to pluck
them down to nakedness.

So here I am, with at
least two more weeks

that I get to hang
out and keep fighting.

OK. One naked little bird.

I've got more bait,

so now I have another
chance at fishing,

another chance at
feeding myself.

I have an actual chance of
being able to nourish my body

through this game and win.

Hey, yo!

It's day 23.

Do you know what that means?

It means it's gonna
be a wonderful day.

It means it's untangle a
dilapidated gill net day.

It means that today's the day,

and it's gonna be a great one.

Oh, yes.

Ah!

Day 23.

I was sleeping great last night.

I was having a dream
about all things breakfast

from Tudor's Biscuit World,

and it was great.

An egg and a hash
brown and cheese

and a piece of country
fried steak on it.

Yeah, it was so good!
Oh, I want some Tudor's!

Oh, yeah.

Definitely got a good
feeling about today.

First on the docket is
check out my fishing lines.

And nothing.

Might need new... new bait.

Another squirrel would be handy.

I feel like my mind is strong,

but my body's acting

very differently
than it has before.

The last few days, I've felt
like my chest was tightening,

like I had like an elastic band

wrapped around my ribcage.

No fish today.

That might just mean
that I'm too hungry,

which I'm positive has
a part to play with it.

Maybe next time.

Today I just feel, like,
this discomfort in my chest.

Something to keep an eye on.

All right, time to start
working on a gill net.

Let me show you what I got here.

Oh, man, this is
gonna take forever!

And you have to understand,
this thing was wrapped up.

Oh, did I find the end of it?

Bet that's what that is.

All right, so this
is one end of it.

All right, that's
already a lot more...

uh, gill net than
I already have.

So we're doing something.

I'm positive that my
brother Josh is in heaven

watching this right
now and just laughing.

My chest don't feel right.

Feel like someone's
squeezing down on my insides.

Kind of a throbbing pain
when I'm getting active.

And I think it's
directly resulted

with not enough food
being brought in.

And it's kind of making
me a little nervous.

Just got to keep
pushing. That's it.

There's no other way around it.

Nice!

Well, it's definitely
more than 10 meshes deep.

All right.

The net is cut to size-ish.

I'm going to cut
down a spruce pole

to use to hang this
thing out there.

Let's get it.

My heart's going nuts.

I am losing my breath.

My chest hurts like crazy.

Oh, I can just hear...

I can feel my heart
just, like, pounding.

I'm not even doing anything.

It's like my sternum and
my upper abdomen, maybe.

I gotta get some
food, actual food.

I think that's what it is.

Maybe.

Something is not right.

It hurts a lot.

Oh, God, it's not
getting better.

There's something big over here

on the other side of
this lake right now.

That's a big [bleep] moose.

All right, here we go, baby.

Living on the edge.
Day by day meals.

Good food cache.

I'm gonna eat the
last of the whitefish.

Just in front of my shelter,

there's fresh wolf
tracks this morning.

It's a wild place out here.

Brothers! The time has come!