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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:12,074 Advertise your product or brand here contact www.OpenSubtitles.org today 2 00:00:24,906 --> 00:00:26,940 All of us have demons. 3 00:00:27,040 --> 00:00:29,174 -All I want is a relationship with my daughter. 4 00:00:29,273 --> 00:00:32,141 -He's an alcoholic and so were you. 5 00:00:33,775 --> 00:00:35,541 You face them. 6 00:00:35,574 --> 00:00:38,176 And just when you think you're winning, 7 00:00:38,209 --> 00:00:39,776 it turns out. 8 00:00:39,809 --> 00:00:42,408 they weren't your demons to begin with. 9 00:00:42,509 --> 00:00:44,077 What the fuck? 10 00:00:44,177 --> 00:00:45,744 -Oh, fu-- 11 00:00:45,843 --> 00:00:46,543 -Vance! 12 00:00:46,643 --> 00:00:47,778 It's not what you think. 13 00:00:47,844 --> 00:00:49,377 You're getting married tomorrow! 14 00:00:49,511 --> 00:00:52,044 -I was gonna tell you ages ago, but your mom didn't want. 15 00:00:52,111 --> 00:00:53,079 -Tell me what? 16 00:00:53,212 --> 00:00:55,912 -Hardin is Christian's son. 17 00:00:56,746 --> 00:00:57,946 - I'm so sorry. - Fuck off! 18 00:01:08,915 --> 00:01:12,783 -♪ We are family ♪ 19 00:01:12,816 --> 00:01:15,482 ♪ I got all my sisters with me ♪ 20 00:01:17,382 --> 00:01:19,850 ♪ We are family ♪ 21 00:01:21,416 --> 00:01:23,985 ♪ Get up everybody and sing ♪ 22 00:01:25,451 --> 00:01:27,719 ♪ We are family ♪ 23 00:01:28,719 --> 00:01:29,752 -Hardin. 24 00:01:29,786 --> 00:01:30,786 -♪ I got all my sisters with me ♪ 25 00:01:30,919 --> 00:01:32,953 -It was. It was a mistake. 26 00:01:33,053 --> 00:01:34,254 -Which part? 27 00:01:34,286 --> 00:01:36,653 -♪ We are family ♪ 28 00:01:38,286 --> 00:01:40,387 ♪ Get up everybody and sing ♪ 29 00:01:40,454 --> 00:01:41,822 -Christian told you? 30 00:01:47,122 --> 00:01:48,123 My love, if I could go back. 31 00:01:48,256 --> 00:01:50,489 If I could go back, if-- 32 00:01:51,489 --> 00:01:53,289 I should have told you. 33 00:01:55,557 --> 00:01:56,557 -Yeah. 34 00:01:59,758 --> 00:02:00,958 Hardin! 35 00:02:07,425 --> 00:02:09,559 -♪ Just let me state for the record ♪ 36 00:02:11,527 --> 00:02:14,795 ♪ We're giving love in a family dose ♪ 37 00:02:14,828 --> 00:02:16,361 - Kimberly, look. - ♪ We are family ♪ 38 00:02:16,461 --> 00:02:20,263 Ooh, yeah. 39 00:02:20,295 --> 00:02:21,595 -♪ I got all my sisters with me ♪ 40 00:02:22,529 --> 00:02:23,595 - Hi. - Hey. 41 00:02:23,630 --> 00:02:25,631 -♪ We are family ♪ 42 00:02:27,798 --> 00:02:29,330 ♪ Get up everybody and sing ♪ 43 00:02:38,365 --> 00:02:39,598 -You sure you wanna do that? 44 00:02:43,466 --> 00:02:44,566 I'll get one of those. 45 00:02:53,301 --> 00:02:54,402 Your dad. 46 00:02:56,270 --> 00:02:57,402 Ken. 47 00:02:59,637 --> 00:03:02,171 You know, we were like brothers. 48 00:03:02,271 --> 00:03:03,905 -And then you fucked his wife. 49 00:03:03,971 --> 00:03:05,337 -That's not how it was. 50 00:03:07,205 --> 00:03:09,106 I loved your mum. 51 00:03:09,206 --> 00:03:10,606 She was head over heels with him. 52 00:03:12,505 --> 00:03:16,373 But then when he went to university, he wasn't there. 53 00:03:16,473 --> 00:03:18,339 He was wandering around. He was always busy. 54 00:03:18,473 --> 00:03:23,507 And. she turned to me for emotional support. 55 00:03:26,109 --> 00:03:27,609 That's how it became intimate. 56 00:03:27,709 --> 00:03:30,010 - Spare me the fucking details, okay? 57 00:03:31,110 --> 00:03:35,044 -I had this ridiculous notion that we'd run off together and. 58 00:03:37,144 --> 00:03:41,078 she'd marry me instead of Ken. 59 00:03:41,179 --> 00:03:43,913 Then they announced they were expecting. 60 00:03:43,979 --> 00:03:46,613 And that was that. 61 00:03:49,947 --> 00:03:51,446 -This is just brilliant. 62 00:03:53,714 --> 00:03:57,347 And Mum, Ken and you lying to me my entire fucking life. 63 00:03:59,049 --> 00:04:00,515 -Ken didn't know. 64 00:04:04,515 --> 00:04:06,651 I think deep down he's always suspected her. 65 00:04:08,584 --> 00:04:11,051 That was when he really started drinking. 66 00:04:13,350 --> 00:04:15,418 -You could have stopped all of it. 67 00:04:15,553 --> 00:04:17,586 My entire fucking life could have been different 68 00:04:17,653 --> 00:04:19,619 if you weren't such a fucking coward. 69 00:04:27,588 --> 00:04:32,454 -Smith, you can go dance with them. Go on. 70 00:04:32,589 --> 00:04:34,789 -Does he know that Hardin is his brother? 71 00:04:47,725 --> 00:04:48,792 Where's Hardin? 72 00:04:49,193 --> 00:04:50,560 -I don't know. He bolted. 73 00:04:51,259 --> 00:04:52,092 -What? 74 00:04:52,193 --> 00:04:53,827 -Maybe he needed some space. 75 00:04:55,093 --> 00:04:56,393 Wait, Tessa. 76 00:05:38,902 --> 00:05:40,902 Oh, Christian, you should see him. 77 00:05:40,936 --> 00:05:42,703 He's growing up so fast. 78 00:05:42,736 --> 00:05:46,237 He's a little man now. 79 00:05:46,270 --> 00:05:47,336 And so talented. 80 00:05:47,436 --> 00:05:50,271 His essay got chosen to run in a paper. 81 00:05:50,305 --> 00:05:51,638 Well done, Hardin. 82 00:05:51,672 --> 00:05:53,505 Can you tell him I said that? 83 00:05:53,638 --> 00:05:54,972 He's brilliant. 84 00:05:56,338 --> 00:05:57,840 He's like his father. 85 00:05:57,973 --> 00:06:01,339 Look, I gotta get going. Um, let's talk again soon. 86 00:06:01,372 --> 00:06:02,406 Yeah. Of course. 87 00:06:02,507 --> 00:06:03,307 Bye, Christian. 88 00:06:05,440 --> 00:06:06,941 -Hey, keep it down. 89 00:06:12,209 --> 00:06:12,976 Ken! 90 00:06:14,309 --> 00:06:16,909 -Hardin, who gave this to you? 91 00:06:16,976 --> 00:06:17,910 -Vance. 92 00:06:24,212 --> 00:06:25,644 -Ken! Ken! -Stop! You're ruining it! 93 00:06:25,778 --> 00:06:26,778 Hardin! 94 00:06:31,079 --> 00:06:32,446 I'm so sorry. 95 00:06:32,479 --> 00:06:33,813 Hardin? 96 00:06:40,681 --> 00:06:42,248 I've been looking for you. 97 00:06:45,416 --> 00:06:46,782 -Wanna drink? 98 00:06:46,882 --> 00:06:48,381 -No. 99 00:06:52,584 --> 00:06:54,218 Come on, let's go back to the hotel. 100 00:06:54,317 --> 00:06:56,585 -Not yet. 101 00:06:56,718 --> 00:06:58,284 Okay. Please, Hardin, 102 00:06:58,418 --> 00:07:01,285 I'm really cold and tired. And I just wanna go back-- 103 00:07:01,351 --> 00:07:02,519 -Tessa, you're not the one who just found out 104 00:07:02,619 --> 00:07:03,786 his entire life was a lie. 105 00:07:03,919 --> 00:07:06,086 So, either have a drink with me or go. 106 00:07:12,487 --> 00:07:13,988 -Okay. I'm gonna get us an Uber. 107 00:07:20,156 --> 00:07:21,355 You know, I'm pretty sure 108 00:07:21,456 --> 00:07:23,923 that she would have locked it before she left. 109 00:07:26,090 --> 00:07:27,123 Hey! 110 00:07:41,126 --> 00:07:42,760 -Hardin, please. I know you're upset, 111 00:07:42,827 --> 00:07:44,493 and I know you're angry. And you should-- 112 00:07:44,594 --> 00:07:45,760 -You know, I hear her screams 113 00:07:45,827 --> 00:07:47,895 every single time I walk in this place. 114 00:07:47,994 --> 00:07:48,695 Okay, we need to leave. 115 00:07:48,761 --> 00:07:50,095 -Years I've spent hating a man 116 00:07:50,229 --> 00:07:52,629 who as it turns out, I didn't even need to fucking like! 117 00:07:53,028 --> 00:07:54,163 Don't touch me. 118 00:07:54,395 --> 00:07:55,529 What's the plan? What are you gonna do here? 119 00:07:55,662 --> 00:07:56,829 Are you gonna burn your mother's house down? 120 00:07:56,929 --> 00:07:58,430 -I'm gonna burn the fucking place down, yeah. 121 00:07:58,530 --> 00:07:59,496 -So, you're gonna get arrested, you know that? Right? 122 00:07:59,563 --> 00:08:00,830 -Which is why you should leave. 123 00:08:00,897 --> 00:08:03,865 -No! I'm not-- I'm not going without you. 124 00:08:03,931 --> 00:08:05,464 -Tess. 125 00:08:05,564 --> 00:08:06,632 "If two people love each other, 126 00:08:06,731 --> 00:08:07,699 there can be no happy end to it." 127 00:08:07,765 --> 00:08:09,699 -Don't quote Hemingway at me. 128 00:08:09,765 --> 00:08:10,732 -Why are you always trying to find 129 00:08:10,866 --> 00:08:11,999 some sort of light in me, Tessa? 130 00:08:12,132 --> 00:08:14,133 Wake up. There is no fucking light. 131 00:08:14,233 --> 00:08:15,733 I have fucked up parents, 132 00:08:15,800 --> 00:08:16,833 fucked up past. -Look at my parents! 133 00:08:16,867 --> 00:08:18,434 -So, I have a fucked up head now! 134 00:08:18,467 --> 00:08:19,701 -My Dad's homeless, for God's sake. 135 00:08:19,734 --> 00:08:21,701 -It's not a fucking competition! 136 00:08:32,003 --> 00:08:33,704 Hardin, please, give me the lighter. 137 00:08:39,005 --> 00:08:41,005 Please, Hardin, can you think about what you're doing? 138 00:09:00,909 --> 00:09:01,809 -Hardin? 139 00:09:01,942 --> 00:09:02,676 Oh, my God. 140 00:09:02,776 --> 00:09:04,209 Hardin, we gotta get out here. 141 00:09:04,310 --> 00:09:05,643 -Get the fuck off me! 142 00:09:05,743 --> 00:09:06,643 -We need to go! 143 00:09:06,776 --> 00:09:08,311 All right, Tessa, you take my car. 144 00:09:08,444 --> 00:09:10,044 -I can't. -Yes, you can. I've got him. 145 00:09:10,144 --> 00:09:12,078 Come on, man, we need to go. -Now, you wanna play hero? 146 00:09:12,178 --> 00:09:13,346 Where were you? 147 00:09:13,511 --> 00:09:15,012 Where were you when she was being beaten 148 00:09:15,145 --> 00:09:16,479 to a bloody fucking pulp? 149 00:09:16,579 --> 00:09:17,912 Fuck away from me! 150 00:09:19,080 --> 00:09:21,013 You're too late! 151 00:09:21,080 --> 00:09:22,180 -I'm sorry, all right? 152 00:09:22,280 --> 00:09:23,847 -I don't care. -I'm sorry! 153 00:09:23,914 --> 00:09:24,881 Come here. 154 00:09:25,014 --> 00:09:27,881 I am sorry. I should have been here for her. 155 00:09:27,947 --> 00:09:29,848 Listen to me! 156 00:09:29,948 --> 00:09:31,748 I should have been here. 157 00:09:31,882 --> 00:09:34,782 But you ruining your life isn't gonna make hers better. 158 00:09:38,483 --> 00:09:40,117 We need to go! 159 00:09:40,251 --> 00:09:42,150 Come on! Get out, now! 160 00:09:46,851 --> 00:09:47,985 Go, go! 161 00:09:51,354 --> 00:09:52,820 Go. 162 00:10:14,857 --> 00:10:16,292 Dispatches unit. 163 00:10:50,530 --> 00:10:51,597 -Where are we? 164 00:10:51,731 --> 00:10:53,398 -I don't know where. I just kept driving. 165 00:10:55,267 --> 00:10:56,466 -Where's Vance? Is he.? 166 00:10:56,565 --> 00:10:58,165 -I texted him. He's okay. 167 00:10:58,267 --> 00:11:00,432 But, um. 168 00:11:00,532 --> 00:11:03,800 he told the police that he started the fire. 169 00:11:06,468 --> 00:11:07,768 -He's got lawyers. 170 00:11:09,868 --> 00:11:11,168 And that's not gonna change anything. 171 00:11:11,236 --> 00:11:13,836 He still lied to me for 21 years. 172 00:11:13,903 --> 00:11:15,969 -He's your father. 173 00:11:16,036 --> 00:11:17,036 -As of yesterday. 174 00:11:19,637 --> 00:11:21,037 We should get back. 175 00:11:48,476 --> 00:11:49,643 -Thank you. 176 00:11:50,643 --> 00:11:52,043 -Please. 177 00:11:52,177 --> 00:11:55,543 -Just let me try to explain myself. 178 00:11:55,610 --> 00:11:56,777 -No. 179 00:11:56,844 --> 00:11:58,811 Not right now anyways. 180 00:12:07,546 --> 00:12:08,747 Pull over. 181 00:12:36,985 --> 00:12:40,786 I think I should stay here for a while. 182 00:12:40,886 --> 00:12:42,020 -Why? 183 00:12:52,055 --> 00:12:53,055 Because. 184 00:12:56,455 --> 00:12:58,690 because I just keep dragging you into my shit, Tessa. 185 00:12:58,790 --> 00:13:00,057 It's not fair. 186 00:13:02,457 --> 00:13:04,057 -Please don't push me away. 187 00:13:12,160 --> 00:13:13,059 -I love you. 188 00:13:31,298 --> 00:13:32,097 Tess. 189 00:13:41,431 --> 00:13:46,866 -♪ We all watch The pain die slowly ♪ 190 00:13:46,899 --> 00:13:50,067 ♪ But leavin' your Stone cold by staying. ♪ 191 00:13:50,167 --> 00:13:51,067 -Touch me. 192 00:13:52,235 --> 00:13:55,201 -♪ You leave us behind see ♪ 193 00:13:57,169 --> 00:14:01,070 ♪ But I feel your presence Beside me ♪ 194 00:14:02,270 --> 00:14:07,670 ♪ 'Cause I was only ever Holdin' on to you ♪ 195 00:14:07,703 --> 00:14:09,204 ♪ I guess I should have known ♪ 196 00:14:09,238 --> 00:14:13,105 ♪ This day would come so soon ♪ 197 00:14:13,139 --> 00:14:18,639 ♪ 'Cause I was only ever Holdin' on to you ♪ 198 00:14:18,673 --> 00:14:19,973 ♪ I guess I should have known ♪ 199 00:14:20,006 --> 00:14:22,607 ♪ This day would come so soon, ♪ 200 00:14:22,639 --> 00:14:25,041 ♪ So soon ♪ 201 00:14:26,840 --> 00:14:29,574 -♪ So soon so soon ♪ 202 00:14:29,608 --> 00:14:32,243 ♪ 'Cause I was only ever Holdin' on to you ♪ 203 00:14:32,276 --> 00:14:33,310 ♪ So soon ♪ 204 00:14:33,410 --> 00:14:34,143 -I love you. 205 00:14:35,575 --> 00:14:38,377 -♪ I know that you love me ♪ 206 00:14:38,476 --> 00:14:39,910 -I love you. 207 00:14:41,178 --> 00:14:46,046 -♪ So this could all finish Our story, no ♪ 208 00:14:46,079 --> 00:14:51,946 ♪ And the head Of our tall tree ♪ 209 00:14:51,979 --> 00:14:55,947 ♪ And I wish I could Change it I'm sorry ♪ 210 00:14:58,013 --> 00:15:03,648 ♪ 'Cause I was only ever Holdin' on to you ♪ 211 00:15:03,682 --> 00:15:04,915 ♪ I guess I should have known ♪ 212 00:15:04,949 --> 00:15:09,083 ♪ This day would come so soon ♪ 213 00:15:09,116 --> 00:15:14,251 ♪ 'Cause I was only ever Holdin' on to you ♪ 214 00:15:22,086 --> 00:15:23,219 -What are you thinking about? 215 00:15:27,585 --> 00:15:29,820 -I wanna stay like this forever. 216 00:15:57,558 --> 00:15:59,793 I'll get the bags. 217 00:15:59,893 --> 00:16:03,261 Go check on Kimberly, take a shower. 218 00:16:03,328 --> 00:16:04,660 I'll be fine. 219 00:16:24,432 --> 00:16:25,664 Kimberly, Tessa's here. 220 00:16:27,898 --> 00:16:29,967 - Are you okay? - Yeah. 221 00:16:30,066 --> 00:16:31,100 -Where's Hardin? 222 00:16:34,700 --> 00:16:37,766 -I could feel him withdrawing with every breath. 223 00:16:42,534 --> 00:16:44,302 I'm-I'm sorry. 224 00:16:44,436 --> 00:16:45,336 I don't want to bother you with this. 225 00:16:45,436 --> 00:16:46,601 You're already going through-- 226 00:16:46,702 --> 00:16:50,337 -No. Tessa, there is no rule that says 227 00:16:50,469 --> 00:16:53,803 only one person can be in pain at a time. 228 00:16:53,869 --> 00:16:56,537 And for selfish reasons, hearing about your problems 229 00:16:56,670 --> 00:16:59,005 makes me feel slightly better about my own. 230 00:17:01,073 --> 00:17:02,006 Talk to me. 231 00:17:02,705 --> 00:17:04,605 -I feel like I'm drowning. 232 00:17:07,706 --> 00:17:10,007 And I want to make it work, but I just. 233 00:17:11,840 --> 00:17:14,574 I don't know if I can keep fighting 234 00:17:14,708 --> 00:17:17,909 against the current to save him rather than myself. 235 00:17:21,575 --> 00:17:23,010 Yeah. 236 00:17:29,477 --> 00:17:31,012 -Concierge brought this up. 237 00:17:46,015 --> 00:17:48,481 - Shit. 238 00:17:50,715 --> 00:17:52,116 -♪ Go get free Don't follow me ♪ 239 00:17:54,383 --> 00:17:55,883 ♪ Go run away over there ♪ 240 00:17:58,650 --> 00:18:00,616 ♪ Get this in the line ♪ 241 00:18:00,650 --> 00:18:02,151 ♪ Go get free Don't follow me ♪ 242 00:18:02,185 --> 00:18:04,018 ♪ Go run away over there ♪ 243 00:18:04,051 --> 00:18:06,119 ♪ Go get free Don't follow me ♪ 244 00:18:25,055 --> 00:18:26,422 -Fuck off. 245 00:18:28,256 --> 00:18:29,423 -Long time, man. 246 00:18:29,556 --> 00:18:31,489 Long time. 247 00:18:31,589 --> 00:18:33,458 James, look who's here. 248 00:18:33,557 --> 00:18:36,992 -Oh, shit! Awoo! 249 00:18:37,125 --> 00:18:38,724 You look just like a guy I used to party with. 250 00:18:38,824 --> 00:18:41,026 -Yeah, you look like a guy who was high 24/7. 251 00:18:41,159 --> 00:18:42,193 -I am he. 252 00:18:42,360 --> 00:18:43,825 Yo, get comfy. 253 00:18:43,926 --> 00:18:46,792 I'm just gonna make a few calls in honor of our guest. 254 00:18:46,860 --> 00:18:48,526 - Okay, come on. 255 00:18:48,626 --> 00:18:50,194 Hey, sit down, man. Sit. 256 00:18:50,294 --> 00:18:51,693 Look at you, bougie as fuck. 257 00:18:51,793 --> 00:18:54,627 -Ah. you still look like shit. 258 00:18:54,728 --> 00:18:55,661 -What've you got? A job interview? 259 00:18:55,794 --> 00:18:57,196 What's goin' on? - scoffs] 260 00:18:57,262 --> 00:18:59,595 Still funny as fuck, huh, James. 261 00:18:59,695 --> 00:19:00,595 -Hey, you want to drink? 262 00:19:00,695 --> 00:19:02,197 -I would love a drink. 263 00:19:04,163 --> 00:19:05,931 -Tessa. 264 00:19:08,431 --> 00:19:09,931 You okay? 265 00:19:13,498 --> 00:19:14,232 Great. 266 00:19:25,434 --> 00:19:26,868 -I'm gonna go get him. 267 00:19:32,402 --> 00:19:33,701 Thanks. 268 00:19:51,339 --> 00:19:53,073 -Hello. 269 00:19:53,140 --> 00:19:54,773 -Hi. Is Hardin there? 270 00:19:54,841 --> 00:19:57,807 -Uh, Scott is disposed at the moment. 271 00:19:57,907 --> 00:19:59,941 Uh, are you gonna come to the party? 272 00:20:00,008 --> 00:20:04,209 -Um. Yeah, I just need the address again. 273 00:20:04,309 --> 00:20:05,541 It's 52, Warwick Street. 274 00:20:05,708 --> 00:20:06,708 -Ask her if she's hot. 275 00:20:06,843 --> 00:20:08,675 -Uh, my friend's asking if you're hot. 276 00:20:08,776 --> 00:20:10,076 We're running out of ten-out-of-tens here. 277 00:20:10,176 --> 00:20:12,077 -Ask her if she has friends. -Yeah well, she hung up. 278 00:20:12,211 --> 00:20:13,177 Hey. 279 00:20:13,244 --> 00:20:14,510 Give that to Hardin, man. 280 00:20:14,577 --> 00:20:15,878 Now, come on. Drink up. 281 00:20:27,480 --> 00:20:29,580 -♪ No, no, no Keep that same energy ♪ 282 00:20:34,749 --> 00:20:36,614 ♪ No ways no ways ♪ 283 00:20:36,647 --> 00:20:38,049 ♪ Keep that same energy ♪ 284 00:20:39,049 --> 00:20:40,182 ♪ You don't wanna Mess with me then ♪ 285 00:20:40,216 --> 00:20:41,615 ♪ But it's different now ♪ 286 00:20:41,648 --> 00:20:42,682 ♪ I didn't never Checked it again ♪ 287 00:20:42,715 --> 00:20:43,516 ♪ Didn't need to know. ♪ 288 00:20:45,616 --> 00:20:47,118 Hey! Have a shot. 289 00:20:47,218 --> 00:20:48,951 Come on in, come on in. 290 00:20:49,051 --> 00:20:49,984 -Thanks. 291 00:20:52,052 --> 00:20:54,585 -Whoa. American. 292 00:20:54,685 --> 00:20:56,119 Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm. 293 00:20:57,518 --> 00:20:58,853 I'm Mark. This is my flat. 294 00:20:59,552 --> 00:21:00,920 -I'm Tessa. 295 00:21:03,787 --> 00:21:06,254 -C'mon, love. Let's get you a drink. 296 00:21:14,589 --> 00:21:15,757 Hey, Scott. 297 00:21:15,857 --> 00:21:17,490 Yo, give me that damn vodka. 298 00:21:17,589 --> 00:21:19,457 Need to make my new friend here a drink. 299 00:21:19,556 --> 00:21:21,057 -Tessa, wha--? 300 00:21:23,425 --> 00:21:24,691 -Oh, you two knew each other? 301 00:21:29,726 --> 00:21:30,893 Yeah. I'm gonna take that as a yes. 302 00:21:37,994 --> 00:21:39,228 Fucking hell! Jesus Christ! 303 00:21:39,261 --> 00:21:40,495 What the fuck? 304 00:21:40,660 --> 00:21:41,895 -What? You're the only one who gets to break things? 305 00:21:41,995 --> 00:21:43,329 -You didn't tell me you had a girlfriend. 306 00:21:43,396 --> 00:21:45,095 What the hell is wrong with you? 307 00:21:45,195 --> 00:21:46,628 What? Do you think you're just gonna slum it here 308 00:21:46,763 --> 00:21:47,763 and you'll forget about your problem? 309 00:21:47,829 --> 00:21:49,196 -Why the fuck are you even here? 310 00:21:49,296 --> 00:21:51,196 -I'm not letting you get away with being a coward again. 311 00:21:54,097 --> 00:21:55,765 I'm giving you one chance to leave with me. 312 00:21:55,831 --> 00:21:57,998 But if I walk out the door without you, that's it. 313 00:22:07,034 --> 00:22:08,867 -So, um, if she isn't your girlfriend. 314 00:22:11,633 --> 00:22:12,501 -Just get the fuck away! 315 00:22:12,600 --> 00:22:14,001 Tessa, outside, now. 316 00:22:15,969 --> 00:22:17,169 -We're just playing about, Scott. 317 00:22:21,568 --> 00:22:22,635 -Tess, what the fuck? 318 00:22:22,770 --> 00:22:24,803 -This is bullshit, Hardin. This isn't us. 319 00:22:24,903 --> 00:22:28,038 -Us? What "us", Tess? There is no us. 320 00:22:28,138 --> 00:22:30,471 We. we keep going round in circles, and you, 321 00:22:30,570 --> 00:22:31,972 you just won't fucking give up. 322 00:22:32,705 --> 00:22:35,672 -God! What more do you need? 323 00:22:35,806 --> 00:22:37,006 You don't belong here. 324 00:22:37,073 --> 00:22:39,173 You shouldn't be here. You don't fit in here! 325 00:22:39,306 --> 00:22:40,740 So just go! 326 00:22:43,539 --> 00:22:44,940 -You win, Hardin. 327 00:22:47,108 --> 00:22:48,208 You always do. 328 00:22:50,475 --> 00:22:51,541 -You'd know better than anyone. 329 00:23:22,415 --> 00:23:24,581 -♪ I'm broken ♪ 330 00:23:24,616 --> 00:23:27,516 ♪ Tell you I'm fine ♪ 331 00:23:27,548 --> 00:23:29,050 ♪ But you wouldn't believe me ♪ 332 00:23:29,083 --> 00:23:31,750 ♪ If you knew the things That crossed my mind ♪ 333 00:23:33,750 --> 00:23:35,785 ♪ And I'm hurting ♪ 334 00:23:35,818 --> 00:23:37,184 ♪ But I show no sign ♪ 335 00:23:38,985 --> 00:23:41,052 ♪ 'Cause I'm afraid to give in ♪ 336 00:23:41,085 --> 00:23:43,919 ♪ Break down And waste your time ♪ 337 00:23:46,787 --> 00:23:47,787 -You sure you don't want help? 338 00:23:47,887 --> 00:23:49,787 -No, it's just a couple of things. 339 00:23:49,887 --> 00:23:54,355 I got most of it before Seattle anyway. So. 340 00:23:54,455 --> 00:23:55,822 -Okay. 341 00:23:57,655 --> 00:23:58,522 Don't say I didn't ask. 342 00:23:58,655 --> 00:23:59,722 Uh-hmm. 343 00:23:59,755 --> 00:24:01,890 -♪ Oh please come pick me up ♪ 344 00:24:01,923 --> 00:24:04,723 ♪ From my lowest Take me higher ♪ 345 00:24:04,756 --> 00:24:06,190 ♪ Can you see me ♪ 346 00:24:06,223 --> 00:24:08,891 ♪ Through the ashes And the smoke ♪ 347 00:24:10,691 --> 00:24:12,858 ♪ I'm lonely ♪ 348 00:24:12,892 --> 00:24:14,758 ♪ It's been so long ♪ 349 00:24:15,925 --> 00:24:18,759 ♪ Since I felt love to smile ♪ 350 00:24:18,793 --> 00:24:21,026 ♪ Felt strong ♪ 351 00:24:21,060 --> 00:24:23,094 ♪ And what can I do ♪ 352 00:24:24,327 --> 00:24:27,428 ♪ I know I'm not friends With my reflection ♪ 353 00:24:27,461 --> 00:24:31,095 ♪ When I don't understand Affection like you do ♪ 354 00:24:35,496 --> 00:24:36,797 -Tess, please. 355 00:24:36,830 --> 00:24:38,797 -♪ I'm begging you ♪ 356 00:24:38,830 --> 00:24:41,898 ♪ To come and pull me Out the fire ♪ 357 00:24:41,931 --> 00:24:43,265 ♪ Come and save me ♪ 358 00:24:43,298 --> 00:24:45,765 ♪ Like you did When we were young ♪ 359 00:24:47,899 --> 00:24:50,599 ♪ Oh please come pick me up ♪ 360 00:24:50,633 --> 00:24:53,399 ♪ From my lowest Take me higher ♪ 361 00:24:53,433 --> 00:24:54,966 ♪ Can you see me ♪ 362 00:24:55,000 --> 00:24:57,133 ♪ Through the ashes And the smoke ♪ 363 00:24:58,934 --> 00:25:01,168 ♪ You say that you'll help me ♪ 364 00:25:01,201 --> 00:25:01,935 ♪ Tell me I'm worth it ♪ 365 00:25:01,968 --> 00:25:03,768 ♪ But I don't deserve it ♪ 366 00:25:03,802 --> 00:25:05,135 ♪ I don't deserve it ♪ - Hardin. 367 00:25:05,169 --> 00:25:07,169 -♪ It's easy for you 'Cause you. ♪ 368 00:25:12,136 --> 00:25:13,071 -Hardin? 369 00:25:18,971 --> 00:25:21,038 -Well, that was one hell of a dream, man. 370 00:25:21,172 --> 00:25:22,105 Ooh. 371 00:25:24,872 --> 00:25:26,306 Are you okay? - Yeah. 372 00:25:26,373 --> 00:25:27,541 -Oh, fuck. 373 00:25:27,640 --> 00:25:28,840 Your hand looks pretty bad. 374 00:25:30,207 --> 00:25:32,008 Ah, it's not that bad. I'll be fine. 375 00:25:33,041 --> 00:25:34,741 Bro, you were fucking wrecked. 376 00:25:37,708 --> 00:25:39,009 -Hey, that American girl? 377 00:25:39,142 --> 00:25:41,109 I thought she was gonna tear the whole place down, bro. 378 00:25:41,242 --> 00:25:42,276 -She was a bitch. 379 00:26:15,049 --> 00:26:16,049 -Dad? 380 00:26:20,284 --> 00:26:21,117 Dad? 381 00:26:23,951 --> 00:26:24,884 Dad? 382 00:26:39,522 --> 00:26:40,787 Dad? 383 00:26:58,758 --> 00:26:59,591 Oh no, no! - It's okay. it's okay. 384 00:26:59,724 --> 00:27:01,025 I got you, I got you. 385 00:28:13,540 --> 00:28:15,073 -Cheers. -Cheers. 386 00:28:17,607 --> 00:28:18,774 Strong enough for you? 387 00:28:18,874 --> 00:28:19,907 Yeah. It wasn't strong enough. 388 00:28:21,375 --> 00:28:22,576 Hardin, your phone's ringing. 389 00:28:22,675 --> 00:28:24,576 It's Landon. 390 00:28:24,608 --> 00:28:26,242 Mr. Scott's very busy at the moment. 391 00:28:26,275 --> 00:28:27,609 Can I take him-- -Hey. 392 00:28:27,709 --> 00:28:29,143 Whoa-oh! 393 00:28:30,043 --> 00:28:31,511 -Landon, if I wanted to talk to you, 394 00:28:31,578 --> 00:28:34,044 I would have picked up the phone the other 30 times you called. 395 00:28:34,077 --> 00:28:35,977 You know what? I know you're a selfish prick. 396 00:28:36,010 --> 00:28:37,545 I thought you could help, but, you know what? 397 00:28:37,579 --> 00:28:39,245 She's-- she's-- she's gonna get through this without you. 398 00:28:39,345 --> 00:28:41,178 -Get through what? 399 00:28:41,278 --> 00:28:42,145 La--? 400 00:28:50,680 --> 00:28:52,681 Landon? What's wrong? 401 00:28:52,714 --> 00:28:53,914 Just tell me she's okay. 402 00:28:55,215 --> 00:28:56,148 -It's, um. 403 00:28:58,849 --> 00:29:00,849 it's Richard. He's dead. 404 00:29:00,882 --> 00:29:03,016 And, uh, Tessa found him. 405 00:29:06,150 --> 00:29:07,384 -Fuck. 406 00:29:07,485 --> 00:29:09,118 Oh, fuck. 407 00:29:10,486 --> 00:29:12,318 Um. Where-- where is she? 408 00:29:12,452 --> 00:29:13,452 -We're at her mom's. 409 00:29:13,618 --> 00:29:15,152 She hasn't. she hasn't spoken a word. 410 00:29:16,952 --> 00:29:18,686 -Can you let me talk to her? 411 00:29:18,819 --> 00:29:20,120 -I don't think that's a good idea. 412 00:29:20,186 --> 00:29:21,086 -Please. 413 00:29:21,153 --> 00:29:23,121 Please just put the phone to her ear. 414 00:29:23,220 --> 00:29:24,687 -You know, you really shouldn't be speaking to her. 415 00:29:24,787 --> 00:29:25,887 -Then why the fuck did you call? 416 00:29:25,987 --> 00:29:26,855 Of course, I'm who she needs! 417 00:29:26,954 --> 00:29:28,422 You know us! You know me! 418 00:29:28,455 --> 00:29:29,721 All right, fine. 419 00:29:29,821 --> 00:29:32,088 Just stay calm, okay? Just give me a second. 420 00:29:40,257 --> 00:29:41,157 Hey, Tessa. 421 00:29:42,924 --> 00:29:43,691 I have Hardin on the phone for you. 422 00:29:43,757 --> 00:29:45,225 -Um-mm, um-mm, um-umm. 423 00:29:45,291 --> 00:29:46,859 - Okay, okay. You don't have to. - No, no. No, no. 424 00:29:46,891 --> 00:29:48,725 No. No. No. - It's fine. 425 00:29:48,758 --> 00:29:50,892 - Please, no! Don't worry. it's fine. - Tess. 426 00:29:52,393 --> 00:29:53,793 Fuck! 427 00:30:09,597 --> 00:30:10,696 Oh! 428 00:30:30,933 --> 00:30:32,667 -I mean, it's gonna be me or your mom 429 00:30:32,801 --> 00:30:34,801 and she's gonna make you eat it. 430 00:30:35,701 --> 00:30:37,269 Looks pretty good. 431 00:30:38,969 --> 00:30:40,869 I'm just so tired. 432 00:30:43,202 --> 00:30:43,936 -Hmm. 433 00:30:59,373 --> 00:31:01,939 You're enjoying yourself. 434 00:31:02,039 --> 00:31:05,174 -One little slip and it could all be over. 435 00:31:07,141 --> 00:31:08,808 -Are you still talking about my shave? 436 00:31:13,443 --> 00:31:14,709 -I meant the shave, 437 00:31:14,809 --> 00:31:16,810 but if you wanted to talk about last night. 438 00:31:18,410 --> 00:31:20,643 -I'm sorry, Tess. 439 00:31:20,743 --> 00:31:22,711 I didn't mean to get that trashed. 440 00:31:22,744 --> 00:31:24,111 It's just with your dad-- 441 00:31:24,145 --> 00:31:25,412 I'm not my dad. I'm not him. 442 00:31:27,078 --> 00:31:28,712 Tess, if you don't like it, tell me. 443 00:31:28,812 --> 00:31:30,712 -I don't like it. -Then I'll stop. 444 00:31:31,845 --> 00:31:33,013 I won't drink another drop. 445 00:31:33,146 --> 00:31:34,413 -Really? 446 00:31:51,351 --> 00:31:52,217 What-- what are you.? 447 00:32:21,689 --> 00:32:23,156 She doesn't want you here. 448 00:32:23,257 --> 00:32:24,123 I didn't fly 449 00:32:24,224 --> 00:32:25,689 5,000 fucking miles to argue with you. 450 00:32:25,756 --> 00:32:27,023 I don't know if she's awake. 451 00:32:27,090 --> 00:32:28,391 Let me just at least see if she's-- Hardin! 452 00:32:28,491 --> 00:32:29,525 -Tess. 453 00:32:29,625 --> 00:32:30,625 Hey. - No. No, no. 454 00:32:30,724 --> 00:32:31,526 No, no, no. - Hey, hey, hey. 455 00:32:31,658 --> 00:32:32,892 -Do you want him here, Tess? 456 00:32:32,992 --> 00:32:34,425 -You're fucked if you think I'm going anywhere. 457 00:32:34,492 --> 00:32:35,226 Tess. -No, get off me! 458 00:32:35,293 --> 00:32:36,593 -Hey, it's okay. 459 00:32:36,692 --> 00:32:37,659 You gotta leave. 460 00:32:37,826 --> 00:32:39,026 You gotta leave or I'm calling the cops? 461 00:32:39,059 --> 00:32:40,294 -Call the fucking cops. Call 'em. 462 00:32:40,427 --> 00:32:41,893 I'm not going anywhere! - That's not funny! 463 00:32:41,959 --> 00:32:43,693 -I'm not laughing! -She doesn't want you here! 464 00:32:43,827 --> 00:32:45,528 You have no fucking idea what she wants! 465 00:32:45,660 --> 00:32:46,728 -You weren't here when she needed you! 466 00:32:46,860 --> 00:32:48,794 Now, you're make-- You're making it worse. 467 00:32:50,396 --> 00:32:51,596 - Tess? 468 00:32:51,695 --> 00:32:53,862 -Ugh, she's trying to avoid you. 469 00:32:53,962 --> 00:32:54,862 You're the reason she took-- 470 00:32:59,897 --> 00:33:01,231 -I'll check the front door. 471 00:33:27,403 --> 00:33:28,836 Hey, hey, Tess. 472 00:33:30,337 --> 00:33:32,937 -It's not about you. 473 00:33:33,036 --> 00:33:34,271 -I know. I-- I just want to-- 474 00:33:34,304 --> 00:33:35,338 I need quiet . 475 00:33:36,904 --> 00:33:37,838 Please. 476 00:34:20,181 --> 00:34:22,414 -I haven't always treated you fairly. 477 00:34:22,548 --> 00:34:24,447 -You hate me, Carol. 478 00:34:24,548 --> 00:34:25,514 You've always hated me. 479 00:34:25,581 --> 00:34:26,947 And it's fine. I don't care. 480 00:34:27,080 --> 00:34:29,582 But you should know your opinion means fuck all to me. 481 00:34:29,714 --> 00:34:31,550 And I mean that in the nicest way. 482 00:34:31,616 --> 00:34:32,948 -You're exactly like him. 483 00:34:33,082 --> 00:34:35,049 That's exactly how Richard used to talk to my parents. 484 00:34:35,117 --> 00:34:36,350 -I am not him. 485 00:34:36,417 --> 00:34:37,850 -All right. Well. 486 00:34:37,916 --> 00:34:39,950 I only care about what's best for Tessa. 487 00:34:40,084 --> 00:34:41,318 -So do I. 488 00:34:41,418 --> 00:34:44,485 -The one thing that I thought that I taught her, 489 00:34:44,618 --> 00:34:47,018 and you may not believe me, 490 00:34:47,119 --> 00:34:51,320 was to not have to depend on a man the way that I did. 491 00:34:51,453 --> 00:34:53,686 And now, look at her. 492 00:34:53,819 --> 00:34:56,819 She's-- she's reduced to nothing every time you leave. 493 00:34:56,886 --> 00:34:59,454 -Listen, I'm not-- -No, no. Let me finish. 494 00:34:59,521 --> 00:35:01,820 Yeah, you always come back 495 00:35:01,954 --> 00:35:05,223 the way that Richard never did for us. 496 00:35:05,356 --> 00:35:06,855 But you never stay. 497 00:35:12,956 --> 00:35:15,292 -I don't know what you want from me, Carol. 498 00:35:15,424 --> 00:35:16,592 I love her. 499 00:35:16,658 --> 00:35:18,125 I'm never letting her go. 500 00:35:18,225 --> 00:35:20,592 -If you really love her, then you'll do what's best for her. 501 00:35:20,659 --> 00:35:22,159 And that is up to you now. 502 00:35:22,259 --> 00:35:25,093 Because you are the only person that she'll listen to. 503 00:35:25,160 --> 00:35:27,860 That girl loves you way too much for her own good. 504 00:35:28,693 --> 00:35:31,693 But Hardin, you and I both know 505 00:35:31,826 --> 00:35:34,029 that you can't give her what she needs. 506 00:35:34,161 --> 00:35:38,229 And that is stopping her from finding someone who will. 507 00:35:57,433 --> 00:35:59,766 -I can only imagine how you're feeling right now. 508 00:36:03,401 --> 00:36:06,800 I keep thinking about the last time I saw him. 509 00:36:06,900 --> 00:36:08,734 He was eating half my damn pizza. 510 00:36:08,801 --> 00:36:12,102 He was happy. 511 00:36:12,169 --> 00:36:14,336 -Just happy he had a place to stay. 512 00:36:22,371 --> 00:36:26,339 -I am so sorry for what happened in London. 513 00:36:32,706 --> 00:36:34,340 I really am. 514 00:36:34,407 --> 00:36:38,575 -I thought we had a love that was out of a novel. 515 00:36:38,641 --> 00:36:41,042 And no matter how hard or fast or tough it was, 516 00:36:41,108 --> 00:36:43,275 we'd survive to tell the story. 517 00:36:45,109 --> 00:36:47,109 Hey. 518 00:36:47,243 --> 00:36:51,344 We do. And we can. We can survive it. 519 00:36:55,145 --> 00:36:57,478 -I don't wanna survive. I want to live. 520 00:37:10,981 --> 00:37:14,582 I can't keep doing this. 521 00:37:14,682 --> 00:37:17,115 -Tess. 522 00:37:17,249 --> 00:37:20,782 -You don't love me enough to fight for me. 523 00:37:20,915 --> 00:37:23,250 You gave up every time. 524 00:37:30,784 --> 00:37:33,319 -I tried. 525 00:37:33,419 --> 00:37:35,352 I really fucking tried. 526 00:37:40,386 --> 00:37:42,354 I'm sorry I couldn't fix you. 527 00:37:46,588 --> 00:37:48,355 -Me, too. 528 00:37:54,690 --> 00:37:55,722 Me, too. 529 00:38:24,996 --> 00:38:27,196 -Who's paying for all this? 530 00:38:27,263 --> 00:38:29,363 -You don't have to worry about money right now, honey. 531 00:38:32,631 --> 00:38:33,863 -Hey. 532 00:38:35,231 --> 00:38:37,898 Hey, hey, hey, it's okay. It's okay. 533 00:38:41,066 --> 00:38:45,633 Ugh. Hey, I got make up on-- -Oh. And. 534 00:38:45,666 --> 00:38:46,566 And a little bit of snot. 535 00:38:46,732 --> 00:38:47,832 Just a little bit. 536 00:38:50,068 --> 00:38:52,368 - You ready? - Yeah. 537 00:39:35,710 --> 00:39:38,277 -I hadn't seen my father for nine years. 538 00:39:40,510 --> 00:39:43,378 But reconnecting with him was one of the greatest gifts. 539 00:39:45,378 --> 00:39:46,511 Even if it was only briefly. 540 00:39:50,379 --> 00:39:52,913 He had so many demons, but. 541 00:39:54,714 --> 00:39:57,381 he was also so kind. 542 00:40:01,048 --> 00:40:02,449 And he was trying to be better for me. 543 00:40:05,781 --> 00:40:06,781 I know that. 544 00:40:24,853 --> 00:40:26,386 -You need a ride? Hardin? 545 00:40:29,053 --> 00:40:30,054 -I don't think I should go. 546 00:40:30,187 --> 00:40:32,588 -Why? You were his friend, kind of. 547 00:40:32,721 --> 00:40:34,288 And you paid for it, so. 548 00:40:34,421 --> 00:40:37,189 -Landon, do me a favor and keep that between us. 549 00:40:37,256 --> 00:40:38,989 -Sure. Doesn't mean you shouldn't come. 550 00:40:39,122 --> 00:40:40,589 So, come. 551 00:41:14,263 --> 00:41:16,130 -Sorry, I didn't know that you were. 552 00:41:23,098 --> 00:41:25,431 I don't know half these people. 553 00:41:25,498 --> 00:41:26,965 It's kind of weird. 554 00:41:27,032 --> 00:41:30,633 when people go to funerals of someone they don't even know. 555 00:41:30,766 --> 00:41:32,500 -It's just especially him. 556 00:41:32,567 --> 00:41:35,067 I mean, they're total hypocrites. 557 00:41:35,133 --> 00:41:37,734 No one here even liked him. 558 00:41:37,834 --> 00:41:38,867 -You did. 559 00:41:41,334 --> 00:41:42,402 And even I did. 560 00:41:44,869 --> 00:41:46,769 -I'm really mad at him. 561 00:41:46,869 --> 00:41:50,336 I'm like. I'm like pissed off. 562 00:41:50,403 --> 00:41:53,004 -Hey, you have every right to be mad at him. 563 00:41:53,070 --> 00:41:55,671 Whether he's dead or not. 564 00:41:55,739 --> 00:42:00,272 I saw how much it meant to you to have him back in your life. 565 00:42:00,338 --> 00:42:02,639 And I think he is an idiot 566 00:42:02,805 --> 00:42:05,139 for throwing that all the way just to get high. 567 00:42:09,307 --> 00:42:11,174 But I mean, I'm one to talk, aren't I? 568 00:42:13,341 --> 00:42:15,275 I'm so sorry it took something like this 569 00:42:15,341 --> 00:42:18,009 for me to realize how much you mean to me. 570 00:42:18,142 --> 00:42:22,243 And how much. I want to be there for you. 571 00:42:31,045 --> 00:42:33,345 -I need to go back inside. 572 00:42:42,047 --> 00:42:43,414 -Okay. 573 00:42:54,650 --> 00:42:55,483 Oh, come on. 574 00:43:00,685 --> 00:43:03,118 Thank you so much for everything. 575 00:43:03,251 --> 00:43:04,218 -Yeah, of course. 576 00:43:05,385 --> 00:43:06,885 -Hey, could I have a lift? 577 00:43:07,019 --> 00:43:08,386 My Ubers keep canceling. 578 00:43:08,519 --> 00:43:09,919 -I'm supposed to be meeting Nora 579 00:43:10,052 --> 00:43:12,120 and I'm already late, so. 580 00:43:12,220 --> 00:43:13,453 -Cool. -Yeah. 581 00:43:15,453 --> 00:43:16,420 We'll see if this one turns up. 582 00:43:18,787 --> 00:43:20,621 Do you want to come with me? 583 00:43:20,722 --> 00:43:22,289 Back to Ken's. 584 00:43:22,422 --> 00:43:25,122 -I should really stay here. 585 00:43:25,255 --> 00:43:26,657 It's been a long day 586 00:43:26,789 --> 00:43:28,691 and I've got a doctor's appointment in Seattle. 587 00:43:28,822 --> 00:43:30,323 tomorrow. 588 00:43:30,456 --> 00:43:32,291 -Sure. 589 00:43:32,357 --> 00:43:33,524 Vance and Kimberly back? 590 00:43:33,591 --> 00:43:34,759 They get back in the morning. 591 00:43:34,958 --> 00:43:36,624 They're trying to work everything out for the baby. 592 00:43:42,259 --> 00:43:45,059 -You know what? I'm-- I'm gonna come with you. 593 00:43:45,192 --> 00:43:46,727 I'm gonna start looking for places up there. 594 00:43:46,826 --> 00:43:48,193 I'm ready. 595 00:43:48,260 --> 00:43:49,960 -I don't-- I don't think-- -Tess. Tess, 596 00:43:50,060 --> 00:43:51,494 it's my turn to be there for you. 597 00:43:53,194 --> 00:43:55,862 -I don't want anything from you anymore. 598 00:44:01,796 --> 00:44:02,796 -I don't believe you. 599 00:44:05,130 --> 00:44:07,331 And I don't think you believe yourself either. 600 00:44:25,267 --> 00:44:29,235 -I'm so sorry that we weren't at your father's funeral. 601 00:44:29,368 --> 00:44:30,502 -No, no, it's fine. 602 00:44:30,568 --> 00:44:34,369 Um, ugh. I wouldn't have been good company anyway. 603 00:44:36,436 --> 00:44:39,203 Uh, I was actually, 604 00:44:39,270 --> 00:44:41,570 I was thinking about moving to New York. 605 00:44:43,138 --> 00:44:44,271 With Landon. 606 00:44:45,972 --> 00:44:48,640 -New York? That-- 607 00:44:48,773 --> 00:44:50,539 Wow! 608 00:44:50,640 --> 00:44:52,140 What's your plan? 609 00:44:52,206 --> 00:44:53,540 Do you know where you're gonna work, what--? 610 00:44:53,674 --> 00:44:56,206 -Not really. I. I mean, I know it's far. 611 00:44:56,340 --> 00:44:58,508 I just think that I need a fresh start. 612 00:45:00,474 --> 00:45:03,709 -Tessa, it's okay to be sad. 613 00:45:03,808 --> 00:45:05,909 But if you let sadness control your life, 614 00:45:06,043 --> 00:45:08,176 you'll never have one. 615 00:45:08,243 --> 00:45:12,010 -But what if I just always feel like this? 616 00:45:12,077 --> 00:45:14,612 -What you've been through is awful. 617 00:45:14,745 --> 00:45:16,144 But you are so strong, 618 00:45:16,277 --> 00:45:17,878 and I know you'll get through this. 619 00:45:19,445 --> 00:45:22,179 It just takes time. 620 00:45:22,313 --> 00:45:25,479 And as for Hardin. 621 00:45:25,614 --> 00:45:28,147 girl, just do your best to pretend you're moving on 622 00:45:28,314 --> 00:45:31,447 and eventually, you'll believe it. 623 00:45:41,784 --> 00:45:43,916 -Why did you stay if you knew she wanted him? 624 00:45:45,917 --> 00:45:48,817 -I loved her. 625 00:45:48,917 --> 00:45:50,851 I thought that she would see that he couldn't give her 626 00:45:50,918 --> 00:45:54,218 the stability that I could. 627 00:45:54,285 --> 00:46:01,987 You know, I imagine if. if Tessa marries another man, 628 00:46:02,120 --> 00:46:05,120 this is how he's gonna feel, competing with a memory of you. 629 00:46:05,187 --> 00:46:07,454 -I'm not Vance, okay? Just because. 630 00:46:10,656 --> 00:46:13,222 I'm not him. 631 00:46:19,190 --> 00:46:21,324 -You are. 632 00:46:22,725 --> 00:46:24,491 Okay. 633 00:46:30,959 --> 00:46:33,593 So, it's-- it's true. 634 00:46:33,694 --> 00:46:35,460 He's your father. 635 00:46:36,894 --> 00:46:40,928 I knew it. I knew it the first time that I saw you. 636 00:46:40,995 --> 00:46:42,995 You look just like him. 637 00:46:43,128 --> 00:46:44,563 I did everything so wrong. 638 00:46:47,395 --> 00:46:49,463 And I couldn't stand that you were his. 639 00:46:51,664 --> 00:46:54,364 That doesn't excuse the drinking, but. 640 00:46:57,964 --> 00:46:59,831 I've loved you. 641 00:46:59,964 --> 00:47:01,398 I still love you. 642 00:47:04,932 --> 00:47:06,232 You're my son. 643 00:47:20,770 --> 00:47:21,537 I'm sorry. 644 00:47:49,075 --> 00:47:51,609 -Let's talk about these test results. 645 00:47:51,743 --> 00:47:53,875 Unfortunately, the chances are very slim 646 00:47:53,942 --> 00:47:56,711 that you will carry to term. 647 00:47:56,744 --> 00:47:59,410 There are other options. 648 00:47:59,445 --> 00:48:02,545 Adoption is a route many people choose. 649 00:48:04,044 --> 00:48:08,912 -♪ You told me I would never See you walk away ♪ 650 00:48:08,945 --> 00:48:11,747 ♪ Said you'd never Break my heart ♪ 651 00:48:11,780 --> 00:48:13,979 ♪ Never leave me in the dark ♪ 652 00:48:14,013 --> 00:48:16,180 ♪ I guess there's Just some promises ♪ 653 00:48:16,213 --> 00:48:19,247 ♪ You shouldn't make ♪ 654 00:48:19,281 --> 00:48:21,449 ♪ Should've known From the start ♪ 655 00:48:21,482 --> 00:48:24,483 ♪ Now in the dark ♪ 656 00:48:24,516 --> 00:48:26,783 ♪ Show a little loving ♪ 657 00:48:26,817 --> 00:48:29,451 ♪ Shine a little light on me ♪ 658 00:48:29,484 --> 00:48:32,283 ♪ Show a little loving ♪ 659 00:48:32,316 --> 00:48:36,418 ♪ I'm in the dark I can't see ♪ 660 00:48:36,452 --> 00:48:38,918 ♪ Can't see ♪ 661 00:48:38,951 --> 00:48:40,385 ♪ Can't see ♪ 662 00:48:40,419 --> 00:48:43,985 ♪ Just feeling my way Back to you ♪ 663 00:48:44,019 --> 00:48:46,386 ♪ I can't feel ♪ 664 00:48:46,420 --> 00:48:48,821 ♪ I can't feel ♪ 665 00:48:48,853 --> 00:48:51,488 ♪ I can't feel ♪ 666 00:48:51,521 --> 00:48:54,522 ♪ Reach out and show A little loving ♪ 667 00:48:54,556 --> 00:48:55,422 ♪ Shine a little light on me ♪ 668 00:48:55,456 --> 00:48:56,888 - Hey. - Hey. 669 00:48:56,922 --> 00:48:58,289 - ♪ Show a little loving ♪ - Hey. 670 00:48:58,322 --> 00:48:59,690 Hey, I've been trying you all day. What's up? 671 00:48:59,723 --> 00:49:01,022 ♪ Show a little loving ♪ 672 00:49:01,155 --> 00:49:02,989 Um, I left my phone on silent. 673 00:49:03,023 --> 00:49:04,357 -♪ You told me I would never See you go astray ♪ 674 00:49:04,424 --> 00:49:06,190 -Is everything okay? 675 00:49:06,223 --> 00:49:12,492 No, not really. But. I have to go. 676 00:49:12,525 --> 00:49:14,526 -♪ I guess there's Just some promises ♪ 677 00:49:14,560 --> 00:49:17,393 ♪ You shouldn't make ♪ 678 00:49:17,426 --> 00:49:20,126 ♪ Should've known From the start ♪ 679 00:49:20,159 --> 00:49:22,326 ♪ I'm in the dark ♪ 680 00:49:22,360 --> 00:49:24,327 ♪ I can't see ♪ 681 00:49:24,361 --> 00:49:26,562 ♪ Can't see ♪ 682 00:49:26,595 --> 00:49:30,195 ♪ Reach out and show A little loving ♪ 683 00:49:30,228 --> 00:49:32,862 ♪ Shine a little light on me ♪ 684 00:49:32,895 --> 00:49:35,296 ♪ Show a little loving ♪ 685 00:49:35,364 --> 00:49:37,329 Tess? 686 00:49:38,163 --> 00:49:39,365 -Tessa? 687 00:49:40,832 --> 00:49:42,230 Hey, Tess. 688 00:49:44,366 --> 00:49:45,566 - Hardin. 689 00:49:45,699 --> 00:49:46,566 -Hey, come inside. 690 00:49:48,932 --> 00:49:50,400 -I had a feeling you'd come. 691 00:49:50,467 --> 00:49:51,734 - Did you? - Yeah. 692 00:49:53,600 --> 00:49:54,601 It's late. 693 00:49:54,700 --> 00:49:55,966 -It is. 694 00:50:02,167 --> 00:50:05,035 - Do you want a baby with me? 695 00:50:05,168 --> 00:50:06,670 -No, I don't want a baby with you. 696 00:50:08,536 --> 00:50:10,371 -I mean. 697 00:50:10,471 --> 00:50:11,504 I just. 698 00:50:13,204 --> 00:50:14,870 I don't want a baby right now. 699 00:50:17,237 --> 00:50:18,505 -I love sleep. 700 00:50:18,572 --> 00:50:22,171 My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake. 701 00:50:22,271 --> 00:50:24,773 - Your life is gonna be just fine, okay? 702 00:50:24,905 --> 00:50:28,440 -You said it once. There can be no happy end to it. 703 00:50:30,307 --> 00:50:31,508 I didn't mean that. 704 00:50:32,874 --> 00:50:34,241 And I shouldn't have said it. 705 00:50:37,376 --> 00:50:39,042 -I love you enough now. 706 00:50:39,175 --> 00:50:41,443 What do you want to do? 707 00:50:41,510 --> 00:50:43,443 - I love you. - Shush. We can quote Hemingway 708 00:50:43,510 --> 00:50:45,444 when we're sober, okay? 709 00:50:45,511 --> 00:50:47,811 For now, just go to sleep. 710 00:50:50,746 --> 00:50:52,244 Go to sleep. 711 00:50:53,512 --> 00:50:55,245 -Stay. 712 00:51:24,218 --> 00:51:25,452 -Morning. 713 00:51:25,552 --> 00:51:26,552 -Morning. 714 00:51:28,619 --> 00:51:34,587 Um, what did I say last night? 715 00:51:36,186 --> 00:51:39,322 You mean, besides quoting Hemingway? 716 00:51:39,422 --> 00:51:42,055 -Oh, no, I didn't. 717 00:51:42,121 --> 00:51:43,289 -It wasn't that bad. 718 00:51:48,656 --> 00:51:49,590 Do you, uh. 719 00:51:51,457 --> 00:51:52,990 do you want to tell me what's been bothering you? 720 00:51:55,258 --> 00:51:56,859 -It's nothing. It's the doctor. 721 00:51:56,991 --> 00:51:58,024 Listen. 722 00:51:59,359 --> 00:52:00,793 if you are pregnant, I just wanted to say 723 00:52:00,859 --> 00:52:03,393 that I would genuinely be okay with that. 724 00:52:04,593 --> 00:52:06,660 It really would not be so bad having kids with you. 725 00:52:09,461 --> 00:52:12,762 Or, obviously, if you're-- if you're not pregnant, 726 00:52:12,862 --> 00:52:15,529 I guess maybe after you finish college, 727 00:52:15,596 --> 00:52:17,863 or I don't know, either way. 728 00:52:22,095 --> 00:52:23,530 -I can't get pregnant. 729 00:52:26,163 --> 00:52:28,831 The. the doctor said that it'll-- 730 00:52:28,930 --> 00:52:32,332 it'd be almost impossible for me to conceive. 731 00:52:32,465 --> 00:52:35,165 And even if I did, there'd be a high risk of miscarriage 732 00:52:35,233 --> 00:52:36,533 so I can't. 733 00:52:44,868 --> 00:52:46,033 -Agh! 734 00:52:47,502 --> 00:52:49,302 -Uh, can you say somethin'? 735 00:52:52,935 --> 00:52:54,404 -I don't know what to say. 736 00:52:54,504 --> 00:52:55,935 -What do you-- what do you mean, you don't know what-- 737 00:52:56,069 --> 00:52:57,003 you don't want kids anyway. 738 00:52:57,069 --> 00:53:00,036 -No, I-I-I didn't. 739 00:53:01,438 --> 00:53:03,971 Now, it just feels like it's been taken away from us. 740 00:53:04,071 --> 00:53:06,572 -Uh, no, not from you. From me. 741 00:53:10,206 --> 00:53:11,473 -Wait. 742 00:53:11,573 --> 00:53:12,973 That was the wrong thing to say. You know I didn't mean it. 743 00:53:13,073 --> 00:53:14,573 Tess, wait. Please wait. 744 00:53:15,608 --> 00:53:17,173 Tessa. 745 00:53:17,274 --> 00:53:19,375 -Please just don't shut down on me again. 746 00:53:19,508 --> 00:53:23,509 I don't give a fuck if we can have kids or not, honestly. 747 00:53:23,609 --> 00:53:25,543 -I'm sorry that you feel like I took something from you. 748 00:53:25,643 --> 00:53:26,909 -I don't. -But you're not the one 749 00:53:27,008 --> 00:53:29,244 who's just had their dreams crushed here, you know? 750 00:53:30,909 --> 00:53:32,544 Like you didn't want kids until two seconds ago 751 00:53:32,644 --> 00:53:34,577 which just came out of nowhere. 752 00:53:38,278 --> 00:53:39,578 -I just want to be with you. 753 00:53:41,011 --> 00:53:43,446 Kids, no kids. 754 00:53:43,546 --> 00:53:44,679 When I was in London, 755 00:53:44,780 --> 00:53:46,547 I could not stop thinking about you. 756 00:53:48,313 --> 00:53:51,515 -Right. Yeah, I'm sure-- I'm sure you saw my face 757 00:53:51,648 --> 00:53:53,848 when you were sleeping with that girl at the party. 758 00:53:53,947 --> 00:53:55,349 -Who are you.? What? 759 00:53:55,449 --> 00:53:59,150 Te-- nothing of the sort happened. 760 00:53:59,216 --> 00:54:00,483 And I won't lie to you. -Shut up. You did. 761 00:54:00,583 --> 00:54:02,884 -She did-- she did try to kiss me and when she did, 762 00:54:03,016 --> 00:54:05,684 I literally threw up, so. 763 00:54:05,784 --> 00:54:08,217 -You literally threw up. 764 00:54:08,317 --> 00:54:09,419 -I did. 765 00:54:09,518 --> 00:54:11,585 - Threw up. - I threw up. 766 00:54:11,719 --> 00:54:15,586 Instant noodles, and it went on her head. 767 00:54:18,787 --> 00:54:19,919 -Good. 768 00:54:20,052 --> 00:54:21,454 - Good? 769 00:54:22,821 --> 00:54:24,155 - Yeah, good. - Good. 770 00:54:37,290 --> 00:54:39,857 And that is why Hardin is afraid of gerbils. 771 00:54:42,458 --> 00:54:43,892 -If you don't stop makin' up stories, 772 00:54:43,991 --> 00:54:45,792 I'll tell Nora about that time you wet yourself. 773 00:54:47,292 --> 00:54:48,259 -Touché. 774 00:54:48,359 --> 00:54:49,293 -All right, then. 775 00:54:49,360 --> 00:54:51,894 -This is so good. The sauce is amazing. 776 00:54:51,992 --> 00:54:53,827 -It's all of Landon's favorites before he leaves us. 777 00:54:53,926 --> 00:54:57,026 -This food almost makes me sad to go. 778 00:54:57,127 --> 00:55:00,895 -So Nora, what part of New York are you in? 779 00:55:00,994 --> 00:55:03,328 -Um, East 14th and First Ave. 780 00:55:03,395 --> 00:55:06,430 -What she actually meant was how far is it from Landon. 781 00:55:06,530 --> 00:55:08,229 Oh. Um. 782 00:55:08,329 --> 00:55:10,597 -Like. -Like 50 minutes by train. 783 00:55:10,696 --> 00:55:12,097 -Fifty minutes. 784 00:55:12,197 --> 00:55:13,364 I'm sorry. It's just practically long distance. 785 00:55:13,431 --> 00:55:14,631 I don't know how you're gonna make that work. 786 00:55:14,697 --> 00:55:16,398 -I mean, I have to go through there 787 00:55:16,498 --> 00:55:17,865 to get to class every day. 788 00:55:17,964 --> 00:55:19,166 I mean, not-- not that we'd be 789 00:55:19,299 --> 00:55:21,533 seeing each other every day. But I mean, we could 790 00:55:21,633 --> 00:55:23,833 if you wanted too. 791 00:55:26,032 --> 00:55:28,000 -So, Hardin, graduation is looming. 792 00:55:28,101 --> 00:55:29,234 -No, we're not doing this again. I don't want-- 793 00:55:29,334 --> 00:55:30,368 -Have you given more thought to-- 794 00:55:30,468 --> 00:55:31,933 -No, I haven't 'cause I'm not going to 795 00:55:32,000 --> 00:55:33,735 walk for graduation, okay? I don't want to walk. 796 00:55:33,868 --> 00:55:35,169 - Really? - Yeah, really. 797 00:55:35,269 --> 00:55:36,369 - You sure? - I'm sure. 798 00:55:36,502 --> 00:55:37,669 -Hm. 799 00:55:38,602 --> 00:55:40,136 I just thought. 800 00:55:40,236 --> 00:55:42,570 I don't know. I just thought for sure you'd reconsider. 801 00:55:43,737 --> 00:55:45,237 -So you've obviously asked her 802 00:55:45,371 --> 00:55:47,538 to ask me? - What? What? 803 00:55:48,838 --> 00:55:50,338 Fuck it, fine. I'll walk for graduation then. 804 00:55:52,037 --> 00:55:53,439 - Yes! - Don't make me change my mind. 805 00:55:54,639 --> 00:55:56,406 -To walking. 806 00:55:56,506 --> 00:55:57,406 Cheers to that. 807 00:55:57,506 --> 00:55:59,673 - To walking. - Cheers to that. 808 00:55:59,807 --> 00:56:00,441 - To walking. - Here we go again. 809 00:56:07,508 --> 00:56:09,642 Come on. 810 00:56:20,044 --> 00:56:23,845 -Hey, I need to talk to you about something. 811 00:56:23,912 --> 00:56:25,045 -Okay. 812 00:56:41,081 --> 00:56:43,582 -I made a decision about something, and I didn't. 813 00:56:46,016 --> 00:56:48,817 With everything that's been going on 814 00:56:48,917 --> 00:56:51,083 because of a lot of things, but. 815 00:56:53,717 --> 00:56:55,151 we need time apart. 816 00:56:55,218 --> 00:57:01,419 Like. like really apart. 817 00:57:01,519 --> 00:57:02,419 And-- 818 00:57:03,519 --> 00:57:05,820 -This seems like the only way to make sure 819 00:57:05,886 --> 00:57:08,454 that that actually happen. 820 00:57:08,587 --> 00:57:09,953 -Okay, why? 821 00:57:10,087 --> 00:57:12,954 -Because we fight more than we get along. 822 00:57:13,055 --> 00:57:16,988 And when we make up, it's over sex. 823 00:57:19,123 --> 00:57:21,223 -That's not-- that's not really true. 824 00:57:21,323 --> 00:57:23,057 -It is, and it's not healthy. 825 00:57:23,156 --> 00:57:26,024 How is sex not healthy? 826 00:57:26,124 --> 00:57:30,058 We've been having lots of fun, happy, consensual sex. 827 00:57:30,158 --> 00:57:33,125 And it's been full of fucking love and fucking trust. 828 00:57:33,192 --> 00:57:36,092 -I can't keep going around in circles like this. 829 00:57:37,893 --> 00:57:42,227 -Okay, okay. I understand. 830 00:57:42,360 --> 00:57:44,694 And I do have a lot to work on. 831 00:57:44,794 --> 00:57:45,928 But we have so much time. 832 00:57:46,028 --> 00:57:47,728 We have all the time in the world, 833 00:57:47,795 --> 00:57:48,728 and I will work on them. 834 00:57:48,829 --> 00:57:49,829 And I can come live with you 835 00:57:49,929 --> 00:57:52,296 in Seattle. -Okay. Okay. 836 00:57:52,429 --> 00:57:54,763 I'm moving. 837 00:57:54,863 --> 00:57:56,664 -Okay. 838 00:57:56,764 --> 00:57:58,564 I'm moving to New York. 839 00:57:58,664 --> 00:58:00,131 I'm gonna live with Landon. 840 00:58:00,231 --> 00:58:01,531 -Landon? 841 00:58:01,631 --> 00:58:02,531 What? This was his idea? 842 00:58:02,665 --> 00:58:04,631 -No, no, no. This was my idea. 843 00:58:04,698 --> 00:58:05,832 This wasn't. don't-- 844 00:58:05,932 --> 00:58:06,998 -He's supposed to be my fucking brother. 845 00:58:07,132 --> 00:58:09,632 -It's not like that. It's-- no! Hey! 846 00:58:10,899 --> 00:58:11,600 - No, no. - I'm just gonna-- 847 00:58:11,667 --> 00:58:12,834 New York! 848 00:58:12,900 --> 00:58:13,867 New York! You didn't fucking tell me! 849 00:58:13,967 --> 00:58:15,067 Well, it wasn't my call. 850 00:58:15,167 --> 00:58:16,367 You'd broken up with her. What do you--? 851 00:58:16,434 --> 00:58:18,234 -You've been pretending to be my fucking friend! 852 00:58:18,334 --> 00:58:20,302 -I didn't pretend shit, Hardin! 853 00:58:20,402 --> 00:58:23,101 I'm her friend too, and I'm cleaning up your shit as usual. 854 00:58:24,435 --> 00:58:25,203 Well, go ahead. 855 00:58:25,303 --> 00:58:26,603 Fucking hit me, you big man. 856 00:58:26,703 --> 00:58:27,970 Big piece of shit. 857 00:58:36,505 --> 00:58:38,605 - Fuck. 858 00:58:57,742 --> 00:59:01,109 I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Tess, but. 859 00:59:02,643 --> 00:59:04,710 You know, of all people, 860 00:59:04,777 --> 00:59:07,946 he knows how much you mean to me. 861 00:59:08,077 --> 00:59:09,178 That you're my 862 00:59:09,277 --> 00:59:10,744 fucking lifeline, and he didn't tell me, 863 00:59:10,811 --> 00:59:12,779 and that fucking hurts. 864 00:59:12,913 --> 00:59:15,979 It fucking hurts, okay? 865 00:59:20,680 --> 00:59:22,280 I'm shit without you. 866 00:59:25,415 --> 00:59:29,548 -I'm just as good at dooming this relationship as you. 867 00:59:29,682 --> 00:59:31,349 Is it doomed? 868 00:59:31,483 --> 00:59:33,382 Is it? I feel like we can make this work. 869 00:59:35,116 --> 00:59:38,050 -You're trying, and I see that. But I. 870 00:59:38,150 --> 00:59:40,051 I can't keep doing this back and forth. 871 00:59:40,151 --> 00:59:42,886 It's-- it's-- it's not just with you. 872 00:59:42,984 --> 00:59:44,185 It's with me. 873 00:59:44,251 --> 00:59:46,219 -You can't just escape yourself 874 00:59:46,285 --> 00:59:48,185 by moving from one place to another, you know. 875 00:59:50,686 --> 00:59:52,153 You know that, right? 876 00:59:52,253 --> 00:59:56,955 -I need to figure things out. And. if you love me, 877 00:59:57,087 --> 00:59:59,187 if you really love me-- - I do. I do. 878 00:59:59,321 --> 01:00:01,388 -then I need you to promise not to follow me. 879 01:00:04,122 --> 01:00:05,522 - I can't do that. - Promise me. 880 01:00:05,655 --> 01:00:06,923 -I can't do that. 881 01:00:06,989 --> 01:00:09,023 We can make this work! -Promise not to follow me. 882 01:00:09,123 --> 01:00:10,424 Give me some time 883 01:00:10,523 --> 01:00:14,524 or we're gonna end up taking everyone down with us. 884 01:00:14,624 --> 01:00:15,724 -How long? 885 01:00:18,725 --> 01:00:20,825 How long, Tess? 886 01:00:20,893 --> 01:00:22,593 How long? 887 01:00:22,693 --> 01:00:23,927 -I don't know. 888 01:00:24,093 --> 01:00:25,193 I don't know. 889 01:00:27,393 --> 01:00:29,594 -Okay. Okay. 890 01:00:46,898 --> 01:00:48,264 -♪ I've been staring ♪ 891 01:00:48,297 --> 01:00:49,131 ♪ At the ceiling ♪ -I'm coming. I'm coming. 892 01:00:50,131 --> 01:00:52,732 So I'm glad this is the right place. 893 01:00:52,765 --> 01:00:53,565 -♪ Trying to figure out ♪ 894 01:00:53,665 --> 01:00:55,032 - Hi. 895 01:00:55,166 --> 01:00:57,299 -Oh. Hello. Hello. 896 01:00:57,333 --> 01:01:00,666 -♪ How we end up here Time and time again ♪ 897 01:01:02,434 --> 01:01:04,101 ♪ Swallowed up in doubt ♪ 898 01:01:07,168 --> 01:01:09,134 ♪ Brother, I quit dreamin' ♪ 899 01:01:11,903 --> 01:01:14,103 ♪ Around the time That you did ♪ 900 01:01:16,971 --> 01:01:18,737 ♪ And traded hopes Of leaving ♪ 901 01:01:21,204 --> 01:01:24,038 ♪ For the role Where I'm best suited ♪ 902 01:01:25,839 --> 01:01:27,205 Well, I don't agree-- 903 01:01:46,142 --> 01:01:47,576 -♪ Do you hear me screamin' ♪ 904 01:01:49,376 --> 01:01:50,610 Welcome to The Lookout. 905 01:01:50,643 --> 01:01:52,344 -♪ Up into the sky? ♪ 906 01:01:52,444 --> 01:01:53,410 -I'm so excited. -Thank you so much. 907 01:01:53,544 --> 01:01:55,044 -You're welcome. -Thank you so much. 908 01:01:55,144 --> 01:01:56,545 - the best. 909 01:01:56,578 --> 01:01:57,512 -♪ "What's the Sense in grieving ♪ 910 01:02:00,112 --> 01:02:02,279 -♪ If nobody really dies? ♪ 911 01:02:04,646 --> 01:02:06,113 ♪ Oh, I feel the hours ♪ 912 01:02:06,146 --> 01:02:07,547 ♪ Slipping ♪ 913 01:02:09,781 --> 01:02:12,348 ♪ While I stumble to the edge ♪ 914 01:02:15,481 --> 01:02:17,249 ♪ 'Cause I seem to forget ♪ 915 01:02:17,349 --> 01:02:19,449 -I haven't actually read this before. 916 01:02:19,482 --> 01:02:21,383 -♪ When I get all worked up ♪ 917 01:02:24,517 --> 01:02:29,417 "He lived his life for himself and then it shifted." 918 01:02:29,451 --> 01:02:31,085 -♪ If you look close enough ♪ 919 01:02:31,218 --> 01:02:32,819 -"It became much more than waking up 920 01:02:32,919 --> 01:02:35,019 and going to sleep." 921 01:02:53,456 --> 01:02:55,790 -♪ 'Cause I seem to forget ♪ 922 01:02:57,357 --> 01:02:59,490 ♪ When I get all worked up ♪ 923 01:03:02,291 --> 01:03:03,258 ♪ That you can find ♪ 924 01:03:03,291 --> 01:03:04,658 ♪ Every color ♪ 925 01:03:07,392 --> 01:03:09,359 ♪ If you look close enough ♪ 926 01:03:18,594 --> 01:03:20,695 -And you don't know what he's doing in town? 927 01:03:20,762 --> 01:03:21,628 -What? 928 01:03:21,862 --> 01:03:23,529 -You don't know why Hardin's coming? 929 01:03:23,562 --> 01:03:25,395 -He did not say, but uh, 930 01:03:25,462 --> 01:03:27,429 I couldn't have him staying at a hotel. 931 01:03:27,496 --> 01:03:29,229 Especially with a minibar. Is that shitty? 932 01:03:29,296 --> 01:03:30,764 I know he's sober now. 933 01:03:30,831 --> 01:03:33,230 -No, no. No, I get it. 934 01:03:33,297 --> 01:03:35,464 And, you know, I mean, 935 01:03:35,564 --> 01:03:37,298 I'm working doubles this week anyway, 936 01:03:37,398 --> 01:03:40,331 so I won't even have to see him. 937 01:03:40,431 --> 01:03:44,199 -Nora said if, uh, it gets too weird, 938 01:03:44,266 --> 01:03:45,200 you can crash at her place. 939 01:03:45,299 --> 01:03:46,333 I mean it's just. ei-- either way, 940 01:03:46,433 --> 01:03:48,001 it was going to be shitty like-- 941 01:03:48,066 --> 01:03:49,801 -Oh no, it's fine. I'll be fine. 942 01:03:49,902 --> 01:03:51,002 -You're doing the thing 943 01:03:51,134 --> 01:03:52,067 where you go, you go-- - Oh, please. 944 01:03:52,201 --> 01:03:53,669 -"I'll be fine," and you look away. 945 01:03:53,769 --> 01:03:54,836 Honestly? 946 01:03:54,936 --> 01:03:55,936 -Yeah. 947 01:03:56,035 --> 01:03:57,035 -Wallet, keys, phone? -Yes. 948 01:03:57,135 --> 01:03:58,770 -Okay. -Okay. 949 01:03:58,904 --> 01:03:59,803 -Ciao. 950 01:04:09,672 --> 01:04:16,473 -Hey, so Landon just got here, and Hardin is with him. 951 01:04:17,473 --> 01:04:19,606 They are asking for your section. 952 01:04:21,807 --> 01:04:24,207 -Uh. yeah, of course. 953 01:04:24,307 --> 01:04:27,608 -You sure? -Yeah. I guess. 954 01:04:41,878 --> 01:04:43,378 -Tessa. 955 01:04:45,746 --> 01:04:47,579 Theresa? 956 01:04:47,647 --> 01:04:50,345 -Uh, yeah. 957 01:04:50,479 --> 01:04:53,313 I put my full name on the job application. 958 01:04:53,446 --> 01:04:55,313 -Uh, Hardin wanted to eat here. 959 01:04:55,413 --> 01:04:57,015 That's. that's. 960 01:04:57,147 --> 01:04:58,682 -That's fine. 961 01:04:59,815 --> 01:05:00,715 Yeah, of course. 962 01:05:00,815 --> 01:05:01,849 Let me seat you guys. 963 01:05:01,949 --> 01:05:03,616 Yeah. 964 01:05:04,850 --> 01:05:05,650 Nice to see you. 965 01:05:05,816 --> 01:05:06,716 Nice to see you, too. 966 01:05:06,750 --> 01:05:07,716 Yup. 967 01:05:14,752 --> 01:05:16,418 Sorry. 968 01:05:22,386 --> 01:05:24,152 -So, you've been here since this morning. 969 01:05:24,286 --> 01:05:26,720 -Yeah, I'm working a double today. 970 01:05:26,854 --> 01:05:28,287 -When will you get off? 971 01:05:29,387 --> 01:05:34,789 -Uh, one, so I should be home around two. 972 01:05:34,923 --> 01:05:37,389 -Every single day. 973 01:05:38,522 --> 01:05:42,523 -And I'll try not to wake you, again. 974 01:05:44,024 --> 01:05:45,490 What can I get you guys? 975 01:05:53,225 --> 01:05:54,492 Good night. 976 01:06:00,393 --> 01:06:02,394 -I just wanted to make sure you got home okay. 977 01:06:03,595 --> 01:06:06,295 -You do know that I walk this every night, right? 978 01:06:12,095 --> 01:06:13,529 Since you're here. 979 01:06:19,263 --> 01:06:21,331 -So why are you working here anyway? 980 01:06:21,463 --> 01:06:24,032 Isn't Vance opening his new publishing house? 981 01:06:24,131 --> 01:06:27,265 -Uh, I just want to do something on my own. 982 01:06:28,833 --> 01:06:31,099 I like it. Nora's here. 983 01:06:31,233 --> 01:06:33,568 I make more money than you'd think. 984 01:06:33,668 --> 01:06:37,868 Uh, plus it keeps me busy while I'm waiting to get into NYU. 985 01:06:37,968 --> 01:06:40,234 -What? You haven't gotten in yet? 986 01:06:40,334 --> 01:06:44,368 -No, but I'm hoping for the spring semester. 987 01:06:47,003 --> 01:06:48,436 -Are you happy? 988 01:06:50,637 --> 01:06:52,103 -Yeah. 989 01:06:52,203 --> 01:06:53,504 -Are you seeing anyone? 990 01:06:54,437 --> 01:06:57,805 - Yes. I'm out every night 991 01:06:57,905 --> 01:07:00,839 being wined and dined. 992 01:07:00,940 --> 01:07:02,139 -I'm actually not dating anyone. 993 01:07:02,239 --> 01:07:04,172 I'm quite conservative in that way. 994 01:07:04,306 --> 01:07:05,640 - Hey, girlie. - Hey, watch it! 995 01:07:05,707 --> 01:07:06,674 -Hey! It's okay. 996 01:07:08,708 --> 01:07:09,841 Hey, Joe. 997 01:07:09,975 --> 01:07:12,675 Uh, I brought you some fries and the sliders that you love. 998 01:07:14,174 --> 01:07:15,509 I'll see you tomorrow. 999 01:07:20,309 --> 01:07:22,443 It makes me feel better about my dad. 1000 01:07:26,844 --> 01:07:28,210 -Do you wanna.? 1001 01:07:29,277 --> 01:07:30,979 Tomorrow, if you're not working, 1002 01:07:31,111 --> 01:07:33,445 I have some free time if you wanna.? 1003 01:07:36,279 --> 01:07:40,079 -I'm working a double. that I took 1004 01:07:40,179 --> 01:07:43,447 so I wouldn't have to see you. 1005 01:08:04,084 --> 01:08:05,384 Hey. 1006 01:08:05,451 --> 01:08:06,752 - Stop. - Hey, hey. 1007 01:08:06,819 --> 01:08:09,053 - Stop. Stop! Stop! - Hey, Hardin. 1008 01:08:11,153 --> 01:08:13,420 -Hey, it's okay. It's okay. It's okay. 1009 01:08:14,955 --> 01:08:15,955 It's okay. 1010 01:08:17,788 --> 01:08:19,455 Oh, fuck. 1011 01:08:31,524 --> 01:08:34,825 -♪ You like the rain 'Coz it means we can stay in ♪ 1012 01:08:37,059 --> 01:08:40,425 ♪ Canceled our plans But no I'm not complaining ♪ 1013 01:08:42,292 --> 01:08:44,460 ♪ Pull the covers up like the tide ♪ 1014 01:08:44,493 --> 01:08:47,293 ♪ Darling swim in my arms Tonight ♪ 1015 01:08:47,327 --> 01:08:49,962 ♪ Say to me Looking dead in my eyes ♪ 1016 01:08:49,995 --> 01:08:51,761 ♪ How long can we Keep this alive ♪ 1017 01:08:51,828 --> 01:08:53,294 Thank you. 1018 01:09:00,697 --> 01:09:02,563 I miss this. 1019 01:09:07,065 --> 01:09:09,331 -Me too. 1020 01:09:09,364 --> 01:09:10,765 - ♪ ♪ 1021 01:09:10,799 --> 01:09:12,198 ♪ Want a love that will take ♪ 1022 01:09:12,231 --> 01:09:14,032 -♪ Only everything ♪ 1023 01:09:14,066 --> 01:09:15,032 ♪ Only ♪ 1024 01:09:15,066 --> 01:09:16,967 ♪ Only ♪ 1025 01:09:17,000 --> 01:09:18,067 ♪ Only ♪ 1026 01:09:18,132 --> 01:09:19,901 ♪ Only everything ♪ 1027 01:09:19,934 --> 01:09:23,702 ♪ Only only only ♪ 1028 01:09:23,734 --> 01:09:26,435 ♪ Only everything ♪ 1029 01:09:26,468 --> 01:09:29,469 ♪ I love the way that Your hands find my shoulders ♪ 1030 01:09:31,003 --> 01:09:33,269 ♪ When the weight of The world's weighing down ♪ 1031 01:09:33,302 --> 01:09:36,604 ♪ And we're all doomed ♪ 1032 01:09:36,637 --> 01:09:39,337 ♪ Got me thinking About all the time ♪ 1033 01:09:39,370 --> 01:09:42,204 ♪ That we waste In the mornin' light ♪ 1034 01:09:42,237 --> 01:09:44,338 ♪ Makes me not want to Close my eyes ♪ 1035 01:09:44,371 --> 01:09:46,839 ♪ How long can we Keep this alive ♪ 1036 01:09:46,939 --> 01:09:48,006 -Tessa. 1037 01:09:48,105 --> 01:09:49,272 I'm so sorry. I got lost. 1038 01:09:49,339 --> 01:09:51,406 I didn't know which turning it was. 1039 01:09:55,874 --> 01:09:59,475 -Hey! Hey, Joe. Here you go. 1040 01:10:04,676 --> 01:10:06,109 -Stay safe, man. 1041 01:10:08,843 --> 01:10:12,110 -♪ Only only only ♪ 1042 01:10:12,143 --> 01:10:14,143 ♪ Only everything ♪ 1043 01:10:14,177 --> 01:10:17,778 ♪ Only only only ♪ 1044 01:10:17,812 --> 01:10:19,479 ♪ Only everything ♪ 1045 01:10:27,347 --> 01:10:29,213 -You seem different, like. 1046 01:10:30,347 --> 01:10:32,181 like the same but just different. 1047 01:10:33,147 --> 01:10:37,016 I'm still me. 1048 01:10:37,083 --> 01:10:38,282 A fair bit of therapy, 1049 01:10:38,383 --> 01:10:40,350 and I'm hitting the gym more but I'm still me. 1050 01:10:44,351 --> 01:10:45,484 -Do you still drink? 1051 01:10:48,085 --> 01:10:49,619 -I do have the odd beer or glass of wine 1052 01:10:49,752 --> 01:10:51,819 but I am never chugging a bottle of whiskey again, 1053 01:10:51,919 --> 01:10:53,386 if that's what you mean. 1054 01:11:01,487 --> 01:11:03,120 - Mm. - Tess. 1055 01:11:07,822 --> 01:11:09,121 Well, how is it then? 1056 01:11:10,856 --> 01:11:12,122 -Mm. 1057 01:11:13,323 --> 01:11:14,289 Oi, Tess. 1058 01:11:14,390 --> 01:11:15,857 At least share it if you're gonna. 1059 01:11:34,761 --> 01:11:36,293 You know, if I wasn't such a gentleman, 1060 01:11:36,394 --> 01:11:38,160 I would have you on this counter right now. 1061 01:11:38,294 --> 01:11:40,362 -I thought you weren't a gentleman. 1062 01:11:43,161 --> 01:11:45,496 I'm half gentleman right now. 1063 01:11:47,129 --> 01:11:48,530 -A half? 1064 01:11:48,663 --> 01:11:49,497 -Uh-huh. 1065 01:11:53,531 --> 01:11:54,931 And that means. 1066 01:11:55,031 --> 01:11:56,498 as much as I want you. 1067 01:11:59,299 --> 01:12:00,532 I can't be with you. 1068 01:12:03,232 --> 01:12:05,367 until you're really ready to be with me. 1069 01:12:08,867 --> 01:12:11,266 -Or. what? 1070 01:12:12,635 --> 01:12:13,635 Come on, grab some plates. 1071 01:12:13,768 --> 01:12:14,502 Let's eat. 1072 01:12:18,802 --> 01:12:21,803 -Tess, plates. Now, please. 1073 01:12:43,907 --> 01:12:45,308 -What? 1074 01:12:47,441 --> 01:12:48,908 -Nothing. 1075 01:12:54,209 --> 01:12:55,310 -Good morning. 1076 01:12:55,443 --> 01:12:57,443 - Good morning. - Good morning. 1077 01:13:04,445 --> 01:13:05,512 Bye. 1078 01:13:15,814 --> 01:13:17,147 Finally. 1079 01:13:18,382 --> 01:13:20,882 -And it feels good. 1080 01:13:22,049 --> 01:13:24,282 -I'm gonna go take a shower. 1081 01:13:25,750 --> 01:13:27,149 -Thank you, Tess. 1082 01:13:39,319 --> 01:13:40,986 Hey. - Hey. 1083 01:13:41,085 --> 01:13:41,953 -How's work? 1084 01:13:42,086 --> 01:13:42,986 -Good. 1085 01:13:45,086 --> 01:13:46,787 Long. 1086 01:13:48,087 --> 01:13:50,688 Is, um, is Landon home? 1087 01:13:50,788 --> 01:13:52,321 -Uh, he's staying at Nora's. 1088 01:13:55,656 --> 01:13:58,223 Are you going out? 1089 01:13:58,356 --> 01:13:58,822 -No. 1090 01:13:59,390 --> 01:14:00,556 Got an early meeting tomorrow. 1091 01:14:21,327 --> 01:14:22,527 -Give me your feet. 1092 01:14:57,135 --> 01:14:58,534 -Come sit in front of me. 1093 01:15:26,607 --> 01:15:27,540 That feels good. 1094 01:15:29,608 --> 01:15:31,541 -It would feel a lot better without this. 1095 01:15:32,908 --> 01:15:34,442 Just saying. 1096 01:15:53,179 --> 01:15:55,346 -This is your idea. 1097 01:15:55,413 --> 01:15:57,546 -I know. 1098 01:16:03,248 --> 01:16:04,714 -♪ Give me what I need ♪ 1099 01:16:04,747 --> 01:16:07,515 ♪ Pull me in so deep ♪ 1100 01:16:07,548 --> 01:16:09,682 ♪ Take me as I please ♪ -No teasing. 1101 01:16:09,715 --> 01:16:11,983 -♪ I want you to want me ♪ -Says the master of the art. 1102 01:16:12,016 --> 01:16:14,050 -♪ Sweep me off my feet ♪ 1103 01:16:14,084 --> 01:16:16,183 ♪ Bring me to my knees ♪ 1104 01:16:16,216 --> 01:16:18,351 ♪ See you in your dreams ♪ 1105 01:16:18,384 --> 01:16:21,351 ♪ I want you to want me ♪ 1106 01:16:21,384 --> 01:16:25,352 -♪ I would fall from the sky Cross my heart ♪ 1107 01:16:25,485 --> 01:16:26,318 ♪ And hope to die -I haven't been fucked 1108 01:16:26,419 --> 01:16:27,819 in five months, Theresa. 1109 01:16:27,919 --> 01:16:33,354 You are pushing every ounce of my self-control. 1110 01:16:33,387 --> 01:16:35,953 -♪ Just to be with you ♪ 1111 01:16:35,987 --> 01:16:38,421 ♪ Look at what you made me do ♪ 1112 01:16:38,454 --> 01:16:40,422 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1113 01:16:40,455 --> 01:16:42,288 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1114 01:16:42,321 --> 01:16:44,556 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1115 01:16:44,589 --> 01:16:47,322 ♪ Look at What you made me do ♪ 1116 01:16:47,356 --> 01:16:49,158 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1117 01:16:49,190 --> 01:16:51,323 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1118 01:16:51,357 --> 01:16:53,191 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1119 01:16:53,224 --> 01:16:56,358 ♪ Look at what you made me do ♪ 1120 01:17:02,094 --> 01:17:04,560 ♪ Look at What you made me do ♪ 1121 01:17:08,162 --> 01:17:09,461 I have thought about this 1122 01:17:09,528 --> 01:17:15,562 every single second of every fucking day. 1123 01:17:17,395 --> 01:17:19,363 -You have no idea. 1124 01:17:19,396 --> 01:17:21,830 ♪ The devil made me do it ♪ 1125 01:17:21,863 --> 01:17:23,797 ♪ Evil in the eyes ♪ 1126 01:17:23,830 --> 01:17:26,098 ♪ Caught you by surprise ♪ -Take your clothes off. 1127 01:17:26,131 --> 01:17:28,166 -♪ Pretty little lies ♪ 1128 01:17:28,198 --> 01:17:31,099 ♪ The devil made me do it ♪ 1129 01:17:31,132 --> 01:17:35,332 ♪ I would fall from the sky ♪ 1130 01:17:35,366 --> 01:17:37,599 ♪ Cross my heart And hope to die ♪ 1131 01:17:39,633 --> 01:17:42,634 ♪ Turn my back From heaven's eyes ♪ 1132 01:17:42,667 --> 01:17:45,568 ♪ Just to be with you ♪ 1133 01:17:45,601 --> 01:17:48,202 ♪ Look at what you made me do ♪ 1134 01:17:48,235 --> 01:17:50,235 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1135 01:17:50,269 --> 01:17:52,335 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1136 01:17:52,369 --> 01:17:54,303 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1137 01:17:54,336 --> 01:17:57,038 ♪ Look at what You made me do ♪ 1138 01:17:57,071 --> 01:17:58,937 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1139 01:17:58,970 --> 01:18:01,038 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1140 01:18:01,072 --> 01:18:02,805 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1141 01:18:02,838 --> 01:18:05,605 ♪ Look at What you made me do ♪ 1142 01:18:11,506 --> 01:18:14,573 ♪ Look at What you made me do ♪ 1143 01:18:20,575 --> 01:18:22,675 ♪ Look at What you made me do ♪ 1144 01:18:22,709 --> 01:18:24,543 ♪ Careful what you wish for ♪ 1145 01:18:24,575 --> 01:18:27,011 ♪ Shattered On the cold floor ♪ 1146 01:18:27,044 --> 01:18:29,210 ♪ Million little pieces ♪ 1147 01:18:29,243 --> 01:18:31,410 -Please. -♪ Fall in love and make war ♪ 1148 01:18:31,444 --> 01:18:33,510 -I know. -♪ Careful what you wish for ♪ 1149 01:18:33,544 --> 01:18:35,745 -I know. -♪ Shattered on the cold floor ♪ 1150 01:18:35,778 --> 01:18:38,578 ♪ You know I did it all for.♪ -I fucking love you. 1151 01:18:40,245 --> 01:18:43,280 -♪ Look at what you made me do ♪ 1152 01:18:50,847 --> 01:18:52,915 -So, by sleeping with me, I think you just agreed 1153 01:18:53,049 --> 01:18:54,049 to start seeing me again. 1154 01:18:54,116 --> 01:18:56,382 -Mm. is that so? 1155 01:18:56,449 --> 01:18:57,515 -Mm-hm. 1156 01:18:59,084 --> 01:19:00,816 I love this. -What? 1157 01:19:00,916 --> 01:19:02,316 -This. Us. 1158 01:19:04,616 --> 01:19:06,651 You know we're always going to be like this, Tess. 1159 01:19:09,751 --> 01:19:11,652 -I really have to go to this meeting 1160 01:19:11,752 --> 01:19:13,986 so I will see you when I'm back. -Okay. 1161 01:19:15,819 --> 01:19:17,853 Okay. 1162 01:19:37,091 --> 01:19:39,058 It was the fall when he met her. 1163 01:19:39,092 --> 01:19:42,092 In his world, he was only concerned about one thing. 1164 01:19:42,125 --> 01:19:43,992 himself. 1165 01:19:44,026 --> 01:19:45,825 He'd won every bet so far, 1166 01:19:45,858 --> 01:19:47,960 and this was supposed to be no different, 1167 01:19:47,993 --> 01:19:49,592 although in Tessa's nearness, 1168 01:19:49,625 --> 01:19:52,760 he felt an apprehension this time. 1169 01:19:52,793 --> 01:19:55,928 In a Darcy-inspired gesture, he funded her father's funeral. 1170 01:19:57,527 --> 01:19:59,761 It was only the beginning of what he felt he needed to do 1171 01:19:59,794 --> 01:20:02,428 to absolve himself. 1172 01:20:02,462 --> 01:20:04,829 His guilt led heavy in the call that he hadn't answered. 1173 01:20:07,197 --> 01:20:08,629 The only reason he didn't lose himself 1174 01:20:08,663 --> 01:20:09,763 again in darkness. 1175 01:20:09,796 --> 01:20:12,198 .was in knowing her dad was happy. 1176 01:20:12,230 --> 01:20:13,932 His death was surely an accident. 1177 01:20:13,965 --> 01:20:16,431 It didn't bring him back, but his talk of his future 1178 01:20:16,465 --> 01:20:18,364 and appreciating the time off the street. 1179 01:20:19,531 --> 01:20:21,833 Though she was unable to bear children of her own, 1180 01:20:21,866 --> 01:20:24,300 she couldn't let go of the dream of them. 1181 01:20:24,333 --> 01:20:27,067 He knew that, and loved her even so. 1182 01:20:27,101 --> 01:20:28,767 He tried not to be selfish. 1183 01:20:28,800 --> 01:20:31,202 But he couldn't help thinking about the little versions of him 1184 01:20:31,234 --> 01:20:32,434 she couldn't give him. 1185 01:20:33,835 --> 01:20:36,602 He hopes she will understand just how broken he was 1186 01:20:36,635 --> 01:20:38,802 and see how much she affected his life. 1187 01:20:49,172 --> 01:20:50,438 -"She stumbled 1188 01:20:50,572 --> 01:20:52,906 "through the room the way that tasteless girls move 1189 01:20:53,006 --> 01:20:54,705 when they drink too much." 1190 01:20:54,772 --> 01:20:56,107 -Stop reading that. 1191 01:20:56,239 --> 01:20:58,941 -No, no, no, you don't get to write my story 1192 01:20:59,074 --> 01:21:00,540 and then tell me I can't read it. 1193 01:21:00,607 --> 01:21:01,741 -That part's not about you. 1194 01:21:01,807 --> 01:21:04,842 -How long have you been writing about us? 1195 01:21:09,775 --> 01:21:11,275 -After we kissed. 1196 01:21:11,375 --> 01:21:12,977 -You. like the first time? 1197 01:21:16,443 --> 01:21:17,945 Are you fucking kidding me? 1198 01:21:19,677 --> 01:21:20,810 You're just. 1199 01:21:22,311 --> 01:21:23,344 Tess, I'll explain 1200 01:21:23,478 --> 01:21:24,411 if you'll just listen. -Oh, no. 1201 01:21:24,544 --> 01:21:27,079 You already have, on every page. 1202 01:21:27,213 --> 01:21:28,812 -This is what I did to vent. -Great. 1203 01:21:28,880 --> 01:21:29,880 -Where are you going? 1204 01:21:29,980 --> 01:21:31,613 - I. - Tess! 1205 01:21:31,713 --> 01:21:34,480 -I'm done. This. we're just a bomb waiting to explode. 1206 01:21:34,546 --> 01:21:36,048 This was a wake-up call. -What do you mean? 1207 01:21:36,115 --> 01:21:37,215 You're acting like I wrote that 1208 01:21:37,280 --> 01:21:38,347 to purposely hurt you. -How-- 1209 01:21:38,414 --> 01:21:39,915 how did you think I was gonna feel? 1210 01:21:40,049 --> 01:21:41,548 -It was not all about you. 1211 01:21:41,615 --> 01:21:44,515 -You would never let me read what you were writing in there. 1212 01:21:44,582 --> 01:21:46,050 And now the whole world gets to. 1213 01:21:46,117 --> 01:21:47,851 Stuff about me. 1214 01:21:47,951 --> 01:21:49,383 Stuff about my dad. 1215 01:21:50,417 --> 01:21:53,417 -I'm sorry. I never meant for it to be published. 1216 01:21:53,484 --> 01:21:55,952 I started that journal to figure the shit out in my head. 1217 01:21:56,018 --> 01:21:58,451 They asked me to read it in group therapy, so I did. 1218 01:21:58,518 --> 01:22:01,186 And one thing just led to another. 1219 01:22:01,319 --> 01:22:04,121 -You accidentally wrote a book. 1220 01:22:04,187 --> 01:22:05,854 -I. 1221 01:22:05,920 --> 01:22:08,253 I didn't mean for this to happen this way. 1222 01:22:10,354 --> 01:22:13,989 -No one wants to read this sick shit. 1223 01:22:14,056 --> 01:22:15,688 I thought that too. 1224 01:22:15,822 --> 01:22:18,990 But there's a bidding war for my book. 1225 01:22:20,923 --> 01:22:22,389 And that's why I'm in town. 1226 01:22:25,557 --> 01:22:26,858 -You accidentally wrote a book 1227 01:22:26,924 --> 01:22:29,624 and then you shopped it around to publishers 1228 01:22:29,758 --> 01:22:31,759 without asking me? 1229 01:22:31,892 --> 01:22:34,227 -Fuck, this never should have happened like this. 1230 01:22:34,292 --> 01:22:36,292 -No, no. It shouldn't have. 1231 01:22:36,392 --> 01:22:38,693 -Tess, I hated myself. 1232 01:22:38,794 --> 01:22:41,460 I had to deal with that every fucking day. 1233 01:22:41,527 --> 01:22:44,360 What is the point in everything we've been through if we can't 1234 01:22:44,494 --> 01:22:46,661 channel that into something that helps people? 1235 01:22:46,728 --> 01:22:49,728 -I don't want people reading about my life and judging me. 1236 01:22:49,829 --> 01:22:52,063 -It's not your life, Tess. It's our lives, 1237 01:22:52,163 --> 01:22:53,864 and it's a story about forgiveness 1238 01:22:53,997 --> 01:22:56,030 and unconditional love. 1239 01:22:57,697 --> 01:23:00,464 It doesn't matter about parents or addiction 1240 01:23:00,597 --> 01:23:03,397 or whatever fucked up past. It's never too late. 1241 01:23:03,531 --> 01:23:05,066 People can always change. 1242 01:23:05,133 --> 01:23:07,398 That is the kind of story "After" is. 1243 01:23:09,067 --> 01:23:10,399 -"After"? 1244 01:23:11,433 --> 01:23:13,768 -It's my journey after I met you. 1245 01:23:15,633 --> 01:23:17,400 -I think that journey is over. 1246 01:23:41,006 --> 01:23:43,140 -♪ Coming from the cold ♪ 1247 01:23:43,173 --> 01:23:45,207 ♪ Buried under heat ♪ 1248 01:23:45,241 --> 01:23:47,141 ♪ Lay you on the floor ♪ 1249 01:23:47,174 --> 01:23:49,507 ♪ Heavy like the force ♪ 1250 01:23:49,540 --> 01:23:51,341 ♪ Between us ♪ 1251 01:23:58,642 --> 01:24:00,409 -♪ Cut me like a rose ♪ 1252 01:24:00,443 --> 01:24:02,510 ♪ Turn me like a beast ♪ - Good. 1253 01:24:02,543 --> 01:24:04,643 -♪ Hold me on the floor ♪ 1254 01:24:04,676 --> 01:24:06,944 ♪ Heavy like the force ♪ 1255 01:24:06,978 --> 01:24:07,677 ♪ Between us ♪ 1256 01:24:07,812 --> 01:24:10,045 Yes. 1257 01:24:10,112 --> 01:24:11,411 -I didn't think I'd ever come here. 1258 01:24:13,212 --> 01:24:15,913 I really thought that I had hit rock bottom 1259 01:24:16,046 --> 01:24:18,379 and then I'd hit it again harder and again and again, 1260 01:24:18,513 --> 01:24:20,847 and I burnt down a fucking house. 1261 01:24:23,647 --> 01:24:26,615 And, uh, I guess-- I guess what I'm trying to say is 1262 01:24:26,682 --> 01:24:27,783 thank you all. 1263 01:24:29,183 --> 01:24:31,616 Because when I walked in that door, 1264 01:24:31,750 --> 01:24:33,482 I. I didn't know how this would go. 1265 01:24:33,616 --> 01:24:34,649 I didn't think it would work for me. 1266 01:24:34,784 --> 01:24:35,950 I never open up. 1267 01:24:36,084 --> 01:24:39,316 And somehow, you guys have found a way to make me, 1268 01:24:39,450 --> 01:24:41,651 and I'm grateful. 1269 01:24:41,785 --> 01:24:43,852 I mean this-- this really helped a lot. 1270 01:24:43,919 --> 01:24:45,952 I'd recommend it to anyone. 1271 01:24:46,019 --> 01:24:50,419 I feel like I'm actually a better version of myself 1272 01:24:50,552 --> 01:24:55,888 and I haven't tried to better myself ever, really. 1273 01:24:58,387 --> 01:24:59,889 So thank you. 1274 01:25:01,288 --> 01:25:04,790 -♪ I was only falling in love ♪ 1275 01:25:10,191 --> 01:25:12,490 ♪ I was only falling in love ♪ 1276 01:25:12,524 --> 01:25:14,624 ♪ Coming from the cold ♪ 1277 01:25:14,658 --> 01:25:16,625 ♪ Buried under heat ♪ 1278 01:25:16,659 --> 01:25:18,692 ♪ Lay you on the floor ♪ 1279 01:25:18,726 --> 01:25:22,794 ♪ Heavy like the force Between us ♪ 1280 01:25:29,527 --> 01:25:31,594 ♪ Cut me like a rose ♪ 1281 01:25:31,629 --> 01:25:33,729 ♪ Turn me like a beast ♪ 1282 01:25:33,762 --> 01:25:35,762 ♪ Hold you to the floor ♪ 1283 01:25:35,796 --> 01:25:39,428 ♪ Heavy like the force Between us ♪ 1284 01:25:44,964 --> 01:25:48,832 It's been so nice having you back in London. 1285 01:25:48,965 --> 01:25:50,166 Mm. 1286 01:25:50,232 --> 01:25:51,932 I have something for you. 1287 01:25:55,000 --> 01:25:57,100 Look at this. 1288 01:25:58,332 --> 01:26:00,834 Your name. 1289 01:26:00,967 --> 01:26:03,034 I'm so proud of you. 1290 01:26:12,369 --> 01:26:13,435 I'm so sorry. 1291 01:26:13,637 --> 01:26:16,837 -Mum, it's fine. I've been going through so much. 1292 01:26:16,870 --> 01:26:18,537 -No, but. 1293 01:26:18,604 --> 01:26:20,738 I didn't know what to do. 1294 01:26:20,805 --> 01:26:22,437 I was young, I was. 1295 01:26:24,404 --> 01:26:26,039 in love and I was terrified. 1296 01:26:27,539 --> 01:26:29,239 None of that excuses the fact 1297 01:26:29,305 --> 01:26:31,673 that I hid the truth from you for so long. 1298 01:26:31,807 --> 01:26:32,774 But. 1299 01:26:35,275 --> 01:26:37,742 everything I did, every decision I made, 1300 01:26:37,809 --> 01:26:40,809 no matter how regrettable looking back, it was. 1301 01:26:43,441 --> 01:26:45,475 it was done out of love for you. 1302 01:26:47,910 --> 01:26:48,911 -I know it was, Mum. 1303 01:26:50,178 --> 01:26:51,744 And thank you for saying that. 1304 01:26:55,578 --> 01:26:56,711 It's good, all right? 1305 01:26:56,778 --> 01:26:58,444 -This is amazing. 1306 01:27:01,046 --> 01:27:03,213 Checkout took forever. 1307 01:27:03,280 --> 01:27:06,914 Yes. Yes. No, I'm on my way back now. 1308 01:27:20,817 --> 01:27:23,984 Sorry, yeah. 1309 01:27:24,051 --> 01:27:25,449 Yeah, I'll see you soon. 1310 01:27:29,350 --> 01:27:33,119 Hi. Look at you, so official. 1311 01:27:33,219 --> 01:27:38,053 -Hi. You have to tell me everything. 1312 01:27:38,153 --> 01:27:39,452 -Hasn't been that long. 1313 01:27:42,221 --> 01:27:43,221 -I think it's just since Landon 1314 01:27:43,320 --> 01:27:46,589 basically moved in with Nora that. 1315 01:27:46,655 --> 01:27:48,255 -You're starved for attention. 1316 01:27:48,354 --> 01:27:49,989 -Mm. I thought it would be easier 1317 01:27:50,123 --> 01:27:52,455 making friends at school. 1318 01:27:52,590 --> 01:27:55,857 -Yeah. The campus is pretty spread out, huh? 1319 01:27:55,957 --> 01:27:57,490 -Yeah. And it's just by the time you figure out 1320 01:27:57,591 --> 01:27:58,891 where to meet and how to get there 1321 01:27:59,025 --> 01:28:00,225 on the subway and the buses, 1322 01:28:00,356 --> 01:28:02,225 it's like an hour to do anything. 1323 01:28:02,324 --> 01:28:03,559 -Welcome to New York. 1324 01:28:03,659 --> 01:28:06,425 - So I hope you like chicken alfredo. 1325 01:28:08,293 --> 01:28:09,293 -Er. -What? 1326 01:28:09,392 --> 01:28:10,458 -I should've mentioned this. I'm-- 1327 01:28:10,593 --> 01:28:11,960 I'm actually doing the plant-based thing. 1328 01:28:12,093 --> 01:28:13,127 -I don't know why I didn't ask. 1329 01:28:13,260 --> 01:28:14,227 I should have just asked. 1330 01:28:14,326 --> 01:28:15,261 -No, no. You know, let's improvise. 1331 01:28:15,359 --> 01:28:16,460 You got any red sauce? 1332 01:28:21,162 --> 01:28:22,696 -I'm sorry. I'm sorry. -No, no, no. 1333 01:28:22,796 --> 01:28:24,461 Tessa. Tess. Hey. -I'm sorry. 1334 01:28:26,163 --> 01:28:27,797 -Don't worry about it. 1335 01:28:27,863 --> 01:28:28,931 I'll order somethin' in. 1336 01:28:28,997 --> 01:28:32,164 Mm. 1337 01:28:32,264 --> 01:28:33,298 -You wanna try? 1338 01:28:33,397 --> 01:28:34,798 -What is it? 1339 01:28:34,932 --> 01:28:36,364 -Tofu curry dumpling. 1340 01:28:36,464 --> 01:28:37,732 Is it spicy? 1341 01:28:37,832 --> 01:28:39,165 -Not-- not. just try it. 1342 01:28:39,265 --> 01:28:40,398 -Okay. 1343 01:28:46,366 --> 01:28:47,466 -Yeah? -Mm. 1344 01:28:49,035 --> 01:28:51,135 It's not-- it's not bad. 1345 01:28:51,235 --> 01:28:52,001 -But.? 1346 01:28:52,135 --> 01:28:53,334 - It's not good. 1347 01:28:53,434 --> 01:28:55,203 Oh, come on. 1348 01:28:55,302 --> 01:28:57,069 So one of my classmates invited us 1349 01:28:57,136 --> 01:28:59,203 to his girlfriend's gallery opening 1350 01:28:59,269 --> 01:29:00,903 in the village tonight. - Mm-hm. 1351 01:29:00,970 --> 01:29:03,137 -Do you wanna go? 1352 01:29:03,270 --> 01:29:07,538 -Um, yeah. I mean, I'd love to but. 1353 01:29:07,638 --> 01:29:09,505 I've actually got this thing tonight. 1354 01:29:09,605 --> 01:29:10,905 Can we do it another time? 1355 01:29:11,005 --> 01:29:13,806 -Yeah. Of course. 1356 01:29:13,873 --> 01:29:15,806 -Okay. 1357 01:29:19,707 --> 01:29:22,508 So after she kicked me out, 1358 01:29:22,608 --> 01:29:24,208 I really felt that my entire world 1359 01:29:24,308 --> 01:29:26,374 was just crumbling around me. 1360 01:29:26,442 --> 01:29:27,842 I was afraid I was going to spiral. 1361 01:29:29,341 --> 01:29:31,009 I really had nothing going for me. 1362 01:29:33,076 --> 01:29:34,043 But then I got the call. 1363 01:29:35,677 --> 01:29:39,611 Dowless and Sons wanted the book to release immediately. 1364 01:29:39,744 --> 01:29:43,312 So, I picked up the phone and I called. 1365 01:29:43,411 --> 01:29:44,579 I called my therapist. 1366 01:29:47,412 --> 01:29:48,479 And I took a breath. 1367 01:29:50,580 --> 01:29:51,980 and I took the deal. 1368 01:29:53,714 --> 01:29:54,848 And here we are. 1369 01:30:12,251 --> 01:30:14,585 Anyway, I'll, uh, I'll stop blithering on, 1370 01:30:14,685 --> 01:30:16,585 and I'll actually read something. 1371 01:30:27,820 --> 01:30:31,754 -♪ Now all I have Is broken pieces ♪ 1372 01:30:34,989 --> 01:30:38,489 ♪ I searched through fine And solid feelings ♪ 1373 01:30:39,923 --> 01:30:42,890 ♪ And I remember The way we were ♪ 1374 01:30:42,923 --> 01:30:46,657 ♪ And how it hurts Now you're gone ♪ 1375 01:30:46,691 --> 01:30:49,558 ♪ And I'm wounded ♪ 1376 01:30:50,592 --> 01:30:52,626 ♪ But who's the victim ♪ 1377 01:30:54,059 --> 01:30:57,594 ♪ Here comes the violence In my heart ♪ 1378 01:30:57,627 --> 01:31:00,927 ♪ All of the sirens and alarms ♪ 1379 01:31:00,961 --> 01:31:04,862 ♪ Like I was designed For your arms ♪ 1380 01:31:04,895 --> 01:31:07,895 ♪ So who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1381 01:31:09,128 --> 01:31:12,463 ♪ Who who. ♪ 1382 01:31:12,496 --> 01:31:15,563 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1383 01:31:15,597 --> 01:31:19,464 ♪ Who who. ♪ 1384 01:31:19,497 --> 01:31:21,931 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1385 01:31:23,732 --> 01:31:27,533 ♪ I still eat takeout With all of your friends ♪ 1386 01:31:30,133 --> 01:31:34,634 ♪ I see your face In the awkward silence ♪ 1387 01:31:37,568 --> 01:31:40,602 ♪ I feel your breath On my neck ♪ 1388 01:31:40,635 --> 01:31:42,702 ♪ When I breathe ♪ 1389 01:31:44,502 --> 01:31:47,604 ♪ Shot in hell Think it's real ♪ 1390 01:31:47,637 --> 01:31:49,804 ♪ Then I blink ♪ 1391 01:31:49,837 --> 01:31:53,438 ♪ Here comes the violence In my heart ♪ 1392 01:31:53,471 --> 01:31:56,705 ♪ All of the sirens and alarms ♪ 1393 01:31:56,738 --> 01:32:00,706 ♪ Like I was designed For your arms ♪ 1394 01:32:00,739 --> 01:32:04,506 ♪ So who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1395 01:32:04,540 --> 01:32:07,974 ♪ Who who. ♪ 1396 01:32:08,007 --> 01:32:11,407 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1397 01:32:11,441 --> 01:32:13,941 ♪ Who who. ♪ 1398 01:32:18,576 --> 01:32:21,977 ♪ Who who. ♪ 1399 01:32:22,010 --> 01:32:25,410 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1400 01:32:25,444 --> 01:32:27,944 ♪ Who who. ♪ 1401 01:32:31,879 --> 01:32:35,579 ♪ Is it just you Or both of us ♪ 1402 01:32:35,613 --> 01:32:38,946 ♪ Is it heartfelt Or dangerous ♪ 1403 01:32:38,980 --> 01:32:42,814 ♪ Is it selfless Or self sabotage ♪ 1404 01:32:42,847 --> 01:32:45,781 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1405 01:32:45,815 --> 01:32:49,415 ♪ Come and help us To get closer ♪ 1406 01:32:49,449 --> 01:32:52,649 ♪ Are we twisted or beautiful ♪ 1407 01:32:52,682 --> 01:32:54,483 ♪ Is this the ending ♪ 1408 01:32:54,516 --> 01:32:57,950 ♪ Or is our chapter Still alive ♪ 1409 01:32:59,751 --> 01:33:02,951 ♪ Was it just you Or both of us ♪ 1410 01:33:02,985 --> 01:33:06,619 ♪ Was it heartfelt Or dangerous ♪ 1411 01:33:06,652 --> 01:33:10,720 ♪ Is it selfless Or self sabotage ♪ 1412 01:33:10,753 --> 01:33:13,654 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1413 01:33:13,687 --> 01:33:18,622 ♪ Is it selfless Or self sabotage ♪ 1413 01:33:19,305 --> 01:34:19,819 Watch any video online with Open-SUBTITLES Free Browser extension: osdb.link/ext 101487