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True story from thread @JEROPOINT

This is the story of my life...

...my brother Yoga...

...and my parents, who lived in our grim house.

I was seven years old.

I can still recall it.

Everything was horrifying.

Everything happened so fast.

Leaving an everlasting trauma.

Mom...

...tonight is New Year's Eve.

Do you want us to have a celebration at home to make you happy?

You don't like it mom?

Listen to your dad.

For the sake of you and your brother's life.

I will, Mom.

Dad!

Tilt her head back.

Maybe her fever is too high.

Hurry and give her the medicine!

Her medicine.

- Mom! - Where are you going? You need to help Mom!

Where are you going? Leave.

I said leave!

Please.

Please don't hurt my wife.

Please!

Please don't!

Mom!

Mom!

Mom...

If you want to...

...I can tell Dad...

...to bring you to the town square to see the firework.

I'll take care of Mom here.

There's no need for that.

I'm just reminded...

...of when Mom was healthy.

She was always the most excited person to celebrate New Year's Eve.

- When she's well, we can... - Yoga.

Nadia.

Honey.

Come here.

Mom.

Are you well now, Mom?

I want to celebrate New Year's Eve with all of you.

My prayer is heard.

Let's eat.

Okay.

Thank you.

Why won't you share with your little sister?

I would on other things.

But I haven't tasted Mom's cooking for a long time.

Here.

Mom, Dad...

...why do I only get two shrimps?

Yoga, share them with your little sister.

Be fair. Come on.

Share them.

That's it.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!

Now, finish your meal.

To celebrate Mom's recovery...

...tomorrow...

...We will go out tomorrow.

Yay!

Mom, would you please fill this jug?

Mom!

Mom!

Dad!

Mom!

Mom!

Mom!

Help!

Mom!

Mom!

Honey!

Mom!

Mom!

Three Months Later (2002)

Setya.

Yes, Sir?

Is that...

...Mrs. Lastri?

It is her.

Isn't she a regular customer of the shop next door?

Not only her.

That guy. And that young woman, too.

They were all regular customers of the shop next door.

They all come here now.

Thank God.

We've only been open for three months but we have this many customers.

Good.

Go back to your work.

Yes, Sir. I'm going to continue unloading there.

Setya!

Yoga?

Yoga?

Yoga?

He's in the bedroom.

- Thanks. - Yeah.

Yoga?

I still don't understand Dad.

Why wouldn't he clean Mom's blood?

Instead of changing the tiles.

Have you ever felt that Dad's rules are weird?

You know Dad doesn't like when we ask questions.

You better help me with my homework.

Nad!

The tile's moving.

Moving?

Yes, I saw it moving.

Yoga!

Yoga!

What's wrong with you? Yoga!

Yoga!

What happened?

Bring the goat to the usual place.

And then go back to the shop.

Yes, Sir.

Let's eat.

Come on.

Yoga, let's eat.

I want Mom's cooking.

I'm telling you to eat.

You let Mom die.

You let this house be in a messy condition for so long.

Full of dust and dirt and it made Mom sick.

Yoga, enough.

You know...

...we were renovating it.

But you forbade us to clean up!

You rules must be the reason Mom was unhappy and killed herself!

Does your cheek still hurt?

Not anymore.

Don't make Dad angry again.

I don't like seeing you get scolded.

I miss Mom.

Me too.

Yoga.

Yoga.

Nad.

Do you hear Mom's voice?

Maybe it was a dream.

Mom?

Mom?

Nad?

Nine Years Later (2011)

If you have something in your mind...

...tell me.

Don't vent in a wrong way like this.

Since Mom died...

...I feel like I lost you too.

You always alienate yourself.

If I ask what's wrong with you...

...you always keep it to yourself.

You still have a family.

So if something happens...

...you can share it, you know.

Dad and I have agreed...

...to bring you to a psychiatrist.

Do you think I'm crazy?

I just want you to get well.

I'm not crazy!

Whatever.

Nad.

Nad.

I know Dad's secret.

I wanted to tell you.

But I don't want you to think too much about it.

Now I'm sure you're old enough...

...to know who Dad really is.

Nadia!

Come on.

Come on, Nad.

What is this, Dad?

Answer me!

It's none of your business!

What is this, Dad?

Dad!

Yoga...

There's nothing to hide, Dad!

We know already!

You killed Mom.

Yog...

Hit me.

Hit me!

Don't be silent.

You were silent when Mom was sick.

I was scared every day that I wouldn't have a mother anymore.

You should be the one who died. You should be the one who died!

I am the one who should've died.

I am the one who should've died!

I was only a poor merchant.

I didn't have anything.

I didn't have a place to live.

To have a free place to live, I had to serve as a caretaker of this house.

For what?

I just wanted to be like other parents!

To be able to feed you.

To be able to put you in school.

To be able to give you anything you want.

It went well at first.

With the head of the goat's ritual...

...the non-stop house renovation...

...and keeping the house messy.

But after that...

After all that I got...

Money...

A car...

A shop, this house...

The creature came back.

If there was a way to replace your mother, I would do it.

Honey?

Honey?

What happened to you?

The creature...

...came to me in a dream.

- It asked for... - Yoga?

I had the same dream.

Take care of our children, okay?

No. Don't say that.

In the dream, it has agreed...

...for me to replace Yoga.

No.

- No! - Honey.

- Let me replace him. - Honey. Listen to me.

The deal has been made. Let me go.

I only ask that whatever happens to our kids, don't let them know.

I don't want them to live in fear.

Honey, promise me. Honey.

From then on, your mother fell sick.

And every time she felt sick, I came to this room...

...to ask for it to take my life instead!

But I failed! I can't let this be.

I can't let it continue.

Yoga!

Yoga!

- Stay away! - Yoga!

Stop this!

- Stay away! - Stop this!

Stop it!

Yoga!

Enough.

I'm sorry.

Forgive my son.

Forgive my son.

Yog! Yoga!

- Where are you going? - Anywhere!

Yoga! Don't leave this place!

- Let me go! - No one can leave! Yoga!

Yoga?

Yoga?

What did you see?

What are you scared of?

Stop it!

Don't be afraid.

There's nothing.

Try to sum the values of number 1 to 10...

- ...by clicking formula, then autosum... - Typing...How To Stop Kandang Bubrah.

Rina, your presentation is good.

Just learn how to put the caption image to make it clearer.

- Typing...The goat ritual - Okay now,

I'll connect Nadya's screen to the projector.

Nadia, it's your turn.

Do you want to read a book?

I'm the library's on-duty helper today.

What book do you want me to find?

Do the science kids learn sociology now?

Sit down.

Let me watch the door.

I'm fine. You don't need to watch it.

Order in the library is my responsibility.

You still can't find it yet?

Not yet.

We've taken apart several sets of cables for a week.

But nothing is damaged.

The electricity panel is also fine.

Hello?

Nadia...

...is Mr. Suyatmo still at the house?

Wait, isn't my dad at the shop?

He's not here yet. And he can't be reached either.

Let me call him, then.

Okay.

Sir, let's call the National Electricity Company.

No.

Mr. Suyatmo doesn't allow that.

Maybe it's time for us to find another project.

There have been too many weird things happening here.

What weird things?

You're paid well, aren't you?

And while you work here, your kids can get high education, can't they?

Yoga.

I can't reach Dad since this afternoon.

I'm all alone now at home.

I'm still at the cam...

Hello?

Hey, Nadia.

Excuse me.

The electricity at the house isn't fixed yet.

May I charge my phone here while waiting for my dad?

You may. Come in.

Excuse me.

Nadia, come eat with us here.

I'm cooking the goat your dad gave us.

I've had dinner, Ma'am. Thank you.

Since I was pregnant with Tono, I've been giving him meat from your dad.

That's why the kids are healthy and plump.

Nad?

Nad?

Nadia?

Nad?

Help!

Nadia?

- Nad? - Yoga, help!

Nadia?

Nad?

- Help! - Nadia!

Go away!

Go away!

- Yoga, it's me, Nadia. - Go away!

It's me, Nadia.

What's wrong with you?

Where have you been?

I've been looking for you all day.

My usual goat vendor doesn't have a black goat.

He told me to find one in a small village.

Why didn't you tell Setya to take care of this?

I can't, Nadia.

I don't want someone to be suspicious and find out about this.

So, let me take care of this all.

We have to find help as soon as possible to end this.

To stop the deal will be a disaster for us.

But Yoga keeps on being terrorized.

He never listens to me.

Forgive me, Yoga.

It is my fault.

But just so you know...

...after your mother died...

...the ritual I've been doing is to save us.

To avoid the death of another human.

So please, listen to me.

Please.

"Listen to your dad."

"For the sake of you and your brother's life."

That was Mom's last request.

Before she died.

6 MONTHS LATER (2011)

Mom always...

...hid her wound from us.

She always said she was okay.

Now I experience what she experienced.

But I'm not as tough as mom.

Close your eyes and ears when they're around.

If something happens, you do that.

At least that's what makes me survive to this day.

Listen to me.

We've obeyed mom's last request.

To do what dad tells us.

So, I'm certain we'll be okay.

Is any one of them ready?

Almost, in a second.

Are the fireworks on yet?

Five more minutes.

Five minutes.

Yog. Let me do it.

Here.

These ones are done.

I'm gonna get my jacket. It's cold.

- Don't be long! - Okay.

- Five more minutes! - Okay.

Wow!

- Happy New Year! - Happy New Year, Dad.

- Where's your brother? - I'll get him.

Get him.

- Yoga! Hang on. - Okay.

Yoga! The fireworks have started.

Yoga!

Yoga!

Yoga!

Yoga!

Yoga!

Dad!

Yoga...

Dad! Yoga...

Yoga... Yoga!

Yoga!

Yoga!

Yoga?

Yoga!

Yoga!

Yoga!

Yoga!

Yoga!

Don't leave me!

Yoga!

The funeral prayer hasn't been done yet?

It has.

I've done it.

You mean...

...you did the bathing and the prayer by yourself?

Assisted by the hospital.

Thank you to everyone who came here.

But, please...

...give me space.

Let me and my workers handle this.

So...

...again...

...thank you.

Please leave.

Nadia.

Close the door.

Close your eyes and ears when they're around.

Sir...

...with this many customers...

...won't it be better for you to open a new branch?

Sir, what's the organ under the stomach?

What's wrong with you?

How's the antidepressant medication?

It reduces your anxiety?

Sorry.

I didn't mean to be up in your business.

But I see that you're anxious lately.

You're scared...

...as if you're running from something.

And every time you come here, I always see you taking that medication.

What are you afraid of?

What do you care?

We're not even close.

Do we have to be close to care?

Or are you just interested in weird things?

What weird things?

Me.

You're not weird.

The weird ones are the ones laughing at you.

If you need any help...

I understand.

It's not easy to share your story.

We're afraid that people won't understand our problem.

We're afraid that people will judge us.

Sometimes, when my head feels heavy...

...and I can't take it anymore...

...I spill everything on my mind...

...my worries...

...in writings.

A notebook will never judge my stories.

A notebook will only be silent.

Accepting.

It feels as if...

...it listens.

You can try writing.

Nad...

Nad...

Nad...

Nad...

I heard you scream.

You passed out...

...in my workroom.

You were delirious.

I saw the creature, Dad.

It...

It ate Yoga.

Yoga was in pain.

Yoga...

He was in pain.

Now, get ready.

Get ready.

Where are we going?

Where are we going?

You saw that old lady, right?

Old lady?

The lady we passed by?

Maybe she's a local.

That's the old lady from earlier.

Why...

Dad!

That's her!

What old lady?

Dad!

Nadia. Hey, Nadia!

Close your eyes and ears when they're around.

Close your eyes and ears when they're around.

Dad.

Dad?

Dad!

Dad?

Dad?

Dad?

Nadia?

Nadia?

Mbah...

I don't know what else I should do.

I really want to leave it all.

You're the only one who can help me.

I'm only a mediator.

This is between you and the creature.

Mbah...

Enough.

Leave.

You're not allowed to be here.

They...

I saw them.

Who are they?

The people I helped.

But...

...why do their photos look stained like my parents' photo?

Meanwhile...

...the others have clean photos.

- No... - Nadia.

The stains appear by themselves...

...when the people in the photos...

...violated the deal.

You mean my dad violated...

What did you violate?

Aside from the deal with me...

...your dad made a new deal with the creature.

At first, the head of a black goat was enough...

...for a sufficient life.

- But he asked for more. - I swear...

I swear I didn't know...

...that it would ask for a human sacrifice.

That was your test, Suyatmo.

And you failed.

You let your family fall apart...

...by your own greed.

I trusted you.

- Brother Yoga and I trusted you. - Nadia.

I promise...

...I will find a way out.

- Lies. - I promise.

The devil will not bother us anymore.

Please, trust me.

I don't know...

...the exact word to describe my father.

Maybe it's ironic...

...how he started this all for the happiness...

...and the life certainty of his children.

But now...

...he makes me live in uncertainty instead.

Here's the key.

He lost his way of life.

Okay. Thank you.

He's living like he's racing with a ticking bomb.

Not wanting to lose anymore...

...he changed his determination.

He doesn't care about his business anymore.

He closed the shop...

...and donated most of his wealth to various organizations.

I accompanied him...

...while he gave the donations.

Nad...

Hey.

Get some rest.

Nadia?

Nad?

Nadia?

Nadia?

Nadia?

Nadia!

It's me, your dad.

Nad?

Nadia?

Nadia?

Nad?

Nadia?

Nadia?

Nad?

Wake up.

Nadia...

Nad...

Have you ever felt like...

...death is better than living?

As if death...

...is the only option to be in peace.

Mom, Yoga...

...if you can hear me...

...I have a question.

Is your world there more beautiful?

On the first page of this diary...

...I'm not able to share everything yet.

It's too loud up in my head.

The one I hear the loudest...

...is my mind screaming...

...that I hate my dad.

Year after year...

...we look for help everywhere...

...from one healer to another.

We went through almost the whole of Java island...

...to meet gifted people that my dad thinks can help us.

We've been wandering for years.

We only hope for one thing.

A miracle.

He keeps on uttering his deepest regret...

...of what he did.

Even in his sleep...

...I often hear him deliriously begging for forgiveness from Mom...

...Yoga...

...and me.

As if in his dream...

...he can't find his peace.

But in front of me...

...he always shows that he's tough...

...and is able to protect me.

Assuring me...

...that this is not the end.

There will be a way out.

And the further we go...

...the further away that hope is.

Excuse me.

Do you know where Mbah Unjuk lives?

Over there.

Excuse me, Mbah.

I'm Suyatmo.

And...

...this is my daughter.

Nadia?

That's right. Nadia.

Maybe you already know...

...that I got your address from the last person I met.

Mbah...

...if I may ask for your help...

...help my daughter and me...

...be free from it.

Please help us.

I've asked for help everywhere.

I've tried all means.

I've sold everything it gave me...

...and I've donated the money to the people in need.

Donate?

What you did...

...is like cleaning your body with your own piss.

It's useless.

For what you did...

...there's no way home.

It only leads to the final destination.

The deal you made directly...

...made it able to go through our dimension.

Every ten years, there's an encounter...

...to pick up the offering.

The first...

...was in 2002.

Your wife.

In 2012...

...your firstborn child.

And...

...in 2022...

Oh God!

Please.

Please, Mbah.

Help my daughter, Mbah.

Please, Mbah. Help her.

Please save my daughter. Please.

Please save my daughter.

Let's...

...look for another help.

Enough.

But...

Dad...

...I only have a little time left.

I'm tired...

...of being worried all the time.

I want to...

...really experience life.

And...

...when my time comes...

...I know...

...that at the end of my life, you're not only sitting around and doing nothing.

You kept on trying to fix everything.

Forgive me.

Since our last conversation at the library...

...you told me...

...the reason you dropped out of school. What was the reason?

I was joining my dad to tour Java island.

On a vacation? That's fun.

Bastala...

...I haven't had a chance to say thank you.

What for?

Thanks for helping me...

...spill what's on my mind.

Are you sure...

...I can read this?

Not now.

Now I just want us to talk.

Can we?

We can.

But I have one condition.

Don't go missing all of a sudden again.

I don't want you to see.

You better not be here.

I want to be alone.

Nad...

...let me accompany you.

This...

...is my last request.

Forgive me.

Forgive me, Nad.

For whomever, who knows my story...

...I don't insist that you believe me.

I just want people with the same fate as me to know...

...that they're not alone.

And if you believe me...

...please pray for me and my family...

...because...

...if we lost each other in this world...

...I hope...

...we can be one whole family in the next life.

Nadia?

Why aren't you getting ready yet?

It's still a long time to go.

We might not get a spot.

The town square is full of people already at this time.

Let me put your jacket on you.

Mom, why do people have to celebrate New Year?

It's the same with every other night.

It's different, honey.

Every New Year's Eve, we can make a new wish for the next year.

Does that mean I can make a new wish too?

You can, honey.

During the fireworks at the town square...

...I noticed you closed your eyes. Why?

I was making a new wish.

What did you wish for?

I wish to celebrate New Year's Eve with you, Dad, and Yoga forever.

What did you wish for, Yoga?

I want to be good at school this year...

...so I can be successful like Dad...

...so I can take you on vacations all the time.

Yay! Non-stop holiday for us.

What about you, Mom?

I only wish for one thing.

To see you happy all the time.

Just like this moment.