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LOVE OF MY LIFE

- What's going on?
- Outlaws.

Shit. Let's go to the living room.

Let's go, let's go!

Joaquín…

I want my baby.

Relax.

I know what you're going through.

I also lost a baby.

And the mother.

They both died during childbirth.

I'm so sorry.

That's why I can understand.

Anything I can do to help,
I'm here for you.

Rogelio,
I need you to take me to the clinic.

I want to see the doctor
and learn what happened that night.

Yes.

I'll arrange some things and let you know.

Don't move! What are you doing here?

CALI DISTRICT POLICE

You look familiar.

That's because they all look alike.

What's your name?

What's your name?
Maybe you'll remember at the station.

Hey, answer.

What is it?

He broke into La Victoria.

Doesn't he look familiar?

- Stop!
- Don't shoot! Don't shoot!

I can pay you.

This Negro tried to attack us
and we defended ourselves.

Be thankful I saved your life.

I'll take care of it.

Tell Mr. Azcárate that the area is clear.

Don't mention anything else.
If he finds out an outlaw is back,

he'll say we did a bad job.

- I'll make sure he never speaks.
- Go on.

Quiet, let's go.

The baby came feet first,

and you started bleeding profusely
during the procedure

and having a lot of pain.

So we had to sedate you.

That's impossible.

Because I saw it.

I heard him cry.

It's common
to experience hallucinations on sedatives.

Madam, listen.

Sometimes, doctors
must choose between lives.

In your case, we chose to protect yours.

And why did you save me?

I'm sure I heard him crying.

I've never met anyone
who wanted to die so much.

Why did you come back?

- Where do you know me from?
- Don't you remember?

- The shot left you dumb.
- How do you know I was shot?

- You really don't remember?
- No, I don't.

Nor do I know who I am,
where I live, or what I did.

What do you know?

I can't tell you much…

except they want you dead around here.

- They want me dead here? Why?
- For being an outlaw.

For trying to harm
Mr. Azcárate's daughter.

Mariana?

So you remember.

Well, sometimes I get…

images that come to mind,
but I can't tell what it was,

I don't remember.

Look, I don't know
if you're innocent or guilty.

What I do know

is that if they find out you're alive,

they'll come to get you.

And you won't be safe then.

Seize the chance, they think you're dead.

Get out of here.

Get away from here

and never come back.

Because next time,

I won't be able to help you.

I saw him and he was alive.

You met me here, you also saw him.

Yes, Primitiva,
I saw your baby, and he was fine.

The nurse took him,
I don't know much more.

Who took him?

- I don't remember.
- Try to remember.

Somebody must know what happened
after they took him.

Try to remember.

What's this?

It's a document

explaining the procedures we performed.

Those are your baby's fingerprints

and the cause of death.

Doctor, I don't need documents, I want…

I want…

my baby's remains at least.

Yes, there was a nurse,
she has a mole on her face.

Yes, yes, yes.

I remember her.

We need to find her. If she saw my baby,
she must know what happened.

- Let's find her.
- Wait.

That was the last day
I saw that nurse here.

So, then…

get me her address, her number.

Please, help me.

Sure, I'll help you, Primitiva.
I'll see what I can do, okay?

Let's go.

- I'm sorry.
- So sorry.

Sorry, do you know Miguel Ibargüen?

Excuse me?

Do you know Miguel Ibargüen?

No, ma'am, I don't know him.

Excuse me, sir.

I'm looking for Miguel Ibargüen.

Ask Pacho.

- Thanks.
- Sure.

Pacho?

Yes?

I'm sorry,
I'm looking for Miguel Ibargüen.

Yes, he works here. But he left.

- Where did he go?
- I don't know. His wife came for him.

It looked like it was urgent.

Do you know where they live?

These are his ashes.

Doctor!

- There's no one, Primitiva.
- I'm not leaving.

- No one's coming, let's go.
- Looking for Benancia?

Yes, neighbor.
We need to see her urgently.

Well, that's strange.
I didn't see her leave.

And she's been locked
in the house for about a week.

Could it be that she went
to stay with a relative nearby?

I don't think so, her family is very far.

But sometimes she leaves the key
with a neighbor.

- I can get it if you want.
- Please.

- I'll be back.
- Thank you.

He's alive.

No!

I want my baby!

I want my baby!

- I want my baby.
- Come, dear, come, Mari.

Let go of me!

- He's alive.
- Shh…

- Okay, okay, Mariana.
- He's alive.

Leave me alone.

- Leave me alone.
- Mariana, relax.

This is your fault.

Benancia!

Benancia, someone is here for you.

Benancia!

Relax, love. Calm down, calm down.

Let go of me.

Now breathe, come on.
Relax, it'll pass.

Relax, breathe.

BUENAVENTURA PORT

That's our boat.

Are you sure your friend
will be waiting for us?

Of course.

Are you ready for a new life?

What was your relationship
with the deceased?

We work at a hospital.

I came to see her
because she hadn't been to work in days.

Oh, were you friends?

Acquaintances.

But I never thought she'd do this.

The guilt, madam.

She can't go around doing wrong
without facing the consequences.

God works in mysterious ways.

Why guilt?

Mrs. Benancia was wanted for theft crimes

and fraud in at least
four counties in the region.

We already had our eye on her.

Excuse me.

Go ahead.

Let's go.

The specialist
you recommended was useless.

It's not quick, Alfredo.
Therapy takes time.

My daughter's health can't wait.

I need a solution.

An effective one.

Now.

Well, then…

there's another option.

I'm not sure you're up for it.

Here.

That's it.

It's okay.

EL ALTO SANATORIUM PSYCHIATRIC HOSPITAL

Where am I?

Do you remember why you're here?

Why am I tied up?

My name is Ignacio Bernal,
I'm the director of this institution.

Let me go, there's no reason
for me to be here.

You'll be fine,
you had a nervous breakdown.

We're here to help you now.

But in order to determine a treatment,
we need to have a diagnosis.

I don't need to be diagnosed,
I'm not crazy.

Let me go.

Let me go!

It's true. I'm sure that my baby is alive.
Please, let me go!

Let me go!

- Please give her a sedative.
- Leave me. No!

Please, no. Please, help me find my baby.

Help me find my baby, don't leave me.

Please, don't leave me, let me go!

- Calm down.
- Help me.

No, I don't have to… No, no!

No! No!

Please, help.

None of the neighbors
could tell me who or at what time

they left the twins
at the orphanage's doorstep.

It's strange, Mrs. Hortensia.

Especially with the note in the basket
saying they're in danger.

- I'll report it to the police.
- What for?

It's my duty
as a public servant, Imelda.

No, Hortensia,
our duty is to protect these babies.

The note was very clear.

And you know that in times
of political turmoil,

the ones who always bear
the brunt are the children.

Plus,

it's a miracle nobody separated
these little siblings.

- You know what?
- What?

Why don't we take care of them?

Until they're adopted.

So we give them a second chance, okay?

I hope we get a couple
who wants to adopt them

and take them far away.

"Mr. Ibargüen,

if your wife had a baby in the hospital,
call me, please.

I have a friend who needs
to talk to you and your wife.

She lost her baby the same day you did.

Here is my phone number.

Thank you very much."

The deep depression
that your daughter is experiencing

can create a disconnection from reality,

to the point where she may confuse
time and space.

With all due respect, Doctor,

I'm exhausted from medical diagnoses
with no solutions.

I need a treatment that will cure her.

Actions, not words.

That's exactly why I asked you to come.

Look.

Since 1938,

electroshocks have been used…

for patients with…

severe depression or schizophrenia.

Electroshocks?

It's a new procedure.

But it has shown significant improvements

in patients like your daughter.

- Are you sure this works?
- Absolutely.

Will she suffer?

On the contrary.

How can she suffer
if she's getting better?

She's suffering now.

After this, she will be great.

How long is it?

That's another advantage,

Mr. Azcárate.

It is a strong, short-lasting treatment.

Trust me.

You're in the best hands.

I need your authorization

to be able to start the treatment.

I can assure you that in a month

your daughter will be with you again.

- I won't be forced to go on a trip.
- I'm not forcing you.

All I ask is we reschedule the visit
to my family sooner.

We need to do something else,
try something new.

- What if I don't want to?
- The trip is for us to reconnect.

Look at me.

Is it too much to ask
to have my wife back?

Excuse me.

Hello.

Hello.

How are you feeling?

Alone.

Who do you miss?

I miss Cloud.

Cloud?

My horse.

So you like horses?

When I ride my horse, I feel free.

And they terrify me, actually.

That's because animals can sense our fears

and get nervous.

But if you know how to treat them,

they're nobler than humans.

Thank you for the advice.

I'll keep that in mind
the next time I ride a horse.

Well, the same happens to humans, no?

No.

That's why when I was a child,
I was closer to horses than Dad.

Why do you say that?

Because with horses I got know…

everything: sowing, fields,
rivers, mountains…

people.

With my dad I was always locked up.

Would you like…

to tell me a bit more about that?

I don't really know you.

Erik Guinand.

My pleasure.

I'm a doctor

and I am doing
my psychiatry internship here.

I'm the doctor assisting Dr. Bernal.

You're French?

Mm-hmm.

What's a Frenchman doing here?

Well, we came to Colombia

when my father came to work
at a sugar company.

A long time ago.

I studied here.

And now you're studying me.

No, no.

No.

My aim is to help you.

With what?

Well, if you want and you allow me,
we can do…

Excuse me.

I must take the patient
to start the treatment.

But we're in the middle of a conversation.

I'm sorry.

It's the doctor's orders.

- I'd like to speak to him.
- Will you come with me?

Please.

What? Where am I going?

- This way.
- What's this treatment?

Relax.

Where are we going?

Very well, Mariana…

this is a safe procedure

and it'll be quick.

I need you to stay calm.

You'll be all right.

I play this music so you can relax.

Let's begin.

- Imelda!
- Madam.

I'll introduce you.

Greg, Hannah.

They're from Holland.

They're very interested in adopting.

Oh, nice to meet you. Imelda.

- Hi.
- Hello.

They don't speak a lot of English,
but we'll manage.

Hey! Come.

What's going on? Do you understand?

Looks like they can't agree.

- Agree on what?
- Which one to choose.

What?

They won't take both?

No.

But Mrs. Hortensia, we can't do that.

We can't separate the siblings,

you have no idea how hard it is
to be forcibly split from your family.

I know, Imelda.

You said we have to protect them.

Yes, but both of them.

Together.

Well, let's start with one.

One of them can have a future, a life.

It's better than nothing, Imelda.

Electroshock therapy

can't become
the sole recourse for patients.

I agree completely.

It's not the only one in this case.

It's the last.

And it's demonstrated
that when medication doesn't work,

electroconvulsive therapy
yields very positive results.

Here, Doctor, so you're informed.

Thanks, Doctor.

But I already know
all the literature on the subject.

And I don't agree with shock therapy.

Look, Doctor, I was in Italy.

I saw patients
recover with this treatment.

I'm the director of this institution.

So don't question me.

I know exactly what I'm doing.

Of course.

If I didn't respect your medical history,

I wouldn't be doing my internship here.

But…

I've been reviewing the patient
Mariana Azcárate's case.

And I don't think
she has a personality disorder.

The girl is simply facing

the severe trauma of having lost
the baby she was expecting.

Of course.

The patient shows clear signs
of incoherence, depersonalization,

hallucinations,

and manic-depressive states…

All caused by that trauma!

Of course.

Let's say you're right, Doctor.

In that case,

electroconvulsive therapy
will help her recover faster, no?

Yes, or make her forget all the memories

that she actually needs to accept.

What do you suggest, Doctor?

Give me a month.

Perhaps with a less aggressive
form of therapy,

adjusting her medication,

we can help the patient
accept her reality.

Fifteen days.

If in 15 days

the patient Mariana Azcárate

doesn't improve,

we'll stick to my plan.

Good.

Honey.

I'm leaving.

I'll use this chance to talk to my boss

and ask for a special leave
to have a couple of months.

What do you say?

Okay, bye.

"Mr. Ibargüen,

if your wife had a baby in the hospital,
call me, please.

I have a friend who needs
to talk to you and your wife.

She lost her baby the same day you did.

Here is my phone number.

Thank you very much."

It's…

the smell,

the beating of its heart,

the coat.

It makes me feel at home.

So you like your home.

My home is a lot of things.

It's a happy place, but also…

a very sad one.

Which one of those two
do you want to talk about?

My home was…

happy…

until my mom died.

She fell…

off a horse.

Everything changed at that moment.

My dad started to hate…

the world.

He wouldn't let me ride.

He said it was the horse's fault

and the man who had saddled it.

But you didn't listen to him.

It's hard to get along
with someone who thinks so differently.

I think he brought sadness into the house.

He's dead inside.

Mariana…

Do you think you had a sad childhood?

Stop, I see you!

I'm your sister.

Joaquín made it a happy place.

And who is Joaquín?

My baby's father.

Yes, my baby's father.

EL PASO, TEXAS BORDER

When you said the journey would be long,

I thought you were crazy.

Relax, Joaquín, we already left Mexico.

We had to be careful
with the Mexican authorities,

because if they caught us earlier,
we would be in jail.

But we made it.

Now we just have to watch out
for the border patrol, and we're good.

Mm-hmm.

Where is the man you said
was waiting to help us?

According to what he said,
we have to get to a highway

and meet him there.

Then we can live our life,
our American dream.

Keep going, Joaquín.

I never saw Joaquín again.

He died and…

We didn't say goodbye.

My son…

What's wrong?

Let's stop here.

I don't want to talk.
I don't want to talk about this…

I don't want to talk about the past,
I don't…

Mariana.

Open wounds get infected.

They don't heal on their own
unless we help them close.

What if we open Pandora's box

and I don't like the memories?

Or worse.

What if I do like them
and realize I won't have them again?

What are you so afraid of?

I don't know.

I don't know.

I need…

I need to remember, I need…

That's what we're trying to do.

We're doing it.

I know it's hard.

But I need you to help me,
and you're doing great.

My brother will wait for you
at the station. You're safe.

Yes, Jose.
Everything will be fine, you'll see.

It's Jose.

It's Jose… Josefina Mosquera.

I need you to help me get in touch
with Josefina Mosquera.

She will help me find my baby.

- I need--
- Mariana… Mariana, calm down.

You have to understand

that this is an individual process.

- Visitors aren't--
- No, you promised you'd help me.

And I'm doing that.

Don't treat me like the other patients,
I'm not crazy.

- I'm not incoherent!
- I know you're not, Mariana.

Calm down.

Josefina. Look,
I got you a glass of water.

- But we can talk inside if you want.
- Primitiva, Calm down.

What happened to your friend?

She had a very difficult childbirth.

She woke up and they said
her baby was dead.

This happened in the same hospital
where you were treated.

Does she want to see me?

Yes.

The problem is that…

my friend was admitted to some institution

where they have people with mental issues.

The insane asylum?

Right.

I understand.

Losing a child means losing your mind.

When can I see her?

They won't let us in that easily.

Don't worry.
We'll go to the insane asylum first

and then we'll take care of the rest.

Why do you insist on helping me?

Well, I'm a doctor.

It's my mission. My vocation.

Plus, I don't like electroshocks.

Nor horses.

I think you convinced Dr. Bernal
not to give me any more electroshocks.

Thank you.

Not completely.

What do you mean?

I asked for time.

Will it happen again?

Not if I can help it.

That's why it's important
for me to understand you,

and make a proper diagnosis
to convince the medical board

that I can treat you differently.

But what's wrong with me?

- Mariana, I think--
- It'll happen again.

What do I have? Why?

Mariana, I think you underwent
some severe trauma

and now you need to accept it in order to…

- I want to get out of here.
- …keep going, move forward.

- No, Mariana.
- No, please. I want to leave here.

- Mariana, nothing will happen!
- No, please!

- No!
- No!

- Not like that!
- Leave me!

- Not like that.
- I think it's clear

that your methods aren't working,
Doctor Guinand.

- Please, let me go!
- Doctor, wait.

No!

Relax, Mariana, relax.

Is it this one?

Is it this one?

Let's go over to that side.
You'll do what I say now, understood?

Joaquín, run!

"Dear Dr. Bernal,

receive a warm and respectful greeting.

My disagreements with you, Dr. Bernal,

are not only on a professional level,
but also an ethical one.

It's why I've decided to submit
my irrevocable resignation."

- You're not allowed.
- I need to see her.

I repeat,
you are not allowed inside.

I'm Mariana's sister.

Miss, please understand
that patient Mariana Azcárate

is not allowed to receive visitors.

I said I'm her sister,
why can't I see her? I need to see her.

Right. Please leave!

I won't leave, do as you wish.
I won't go until I see her.

Do not make me resort to force.

Excuse me, I'm sorry.

Which patient are you seeking?

Mariana Azcárate.

- What's your name?
- Josefina Mosquera.

I need you to help me get in touch
with Josefina Mosquera.

She will help me find my baby.
She will help me find my baby.

This is Primitiva.

We are the patient's relatives.

- Let them in.
- I'm sorry.

I can't do that without
a doctor's authorization.

Well, I authorize them.

Let them in.

No, Mr. Gregor.

You see, this documentation
won't be useful to you.

This is the issuance date
of this naturalization document.

- And it's wrong. It won't work.
- What?

Yes, what you and your wife have to do

is travel to Bogotá.

You'll go to the embassy in Bogotá.

They'll change the date on the document

and then we can talk.

- Bogotá?
- Bogotá, exactly.

I recommend that you hurry.

You know why? Madam.

You know…

That city must be in chaos
after what happened with the commander.

So the best thing you can do is go now

and change this document,
and don't worry about anything,

as the child is in the best hands here.

We'll see you here when you return.

Take good care, see you soon.

I would like to warn you that the patient
has been subjected

to a very intense treatment,

as a result of which…

she exhibits a state of absence
and severe lethargy.

What do you mean, Doctor?

She's not the Mariana you used to know.

She's not the same now.

Please, follow me.

Mariana.

Two friends came to visit you.

Come in, come in.

Come on in.

Mariana.

I'm so happy to see you again.

Mariana?

What's wrong with her, Doctor?

Keep talking, talk to her.

I found Primitiva.

Just like you asked, remember?

You have to hear her story
about what happened at the hospital.

Mariana, please, say something.

Look at me.

What are you doing to her?

It's part of the treatment.

It's clear that it's not working.
Look at her!

- I'm getting her out of here.
- Relax. What are you doing?

Please, what are you doing? Calm down.

Nurse!

Josefina, let's go.

- Help me. Calm down, calm down.
- Let me be, I'm not leaving without her.

- I have to take her. Mariana!
- Get her out, please.

Mariana.

Mariana.

Let go of me! I have to take her.

Mariana!

Is something wrong?

Nuh-uh.

Primitiva.

Tell me what's going on.

Do you think I'm crazy?

I thought you were crazy to marry me.

I'm serious.

I'm starting to think
that all this is driving me mad

and that I should also be
in an insane asylum.

Honey.

What you need is to get out of here,

change your surroundings.

Look.

Everything is ready

and my family is waiting for us.

Let's go.

As the first part of the treatment

has concluded successfully,

Dr. Bernal and I believe it is now time

for Mariana to return home.

The second part involves

her feeling supported

by those close to her so she can
begin processing all the trauma.

And, well, for that,

I need you to sign an authorization form.

I'd like to speak with Dr. Bernal first.

Sure.

Sure.

The most important thing now

- is your daughter's recovery.
- Precisely.

I want to talk to Dr. Bernal.

I don't mean to offend you,
but there's a reason I hired

a professional doctor, not an intern.

Forgive me,

I am the person
who knows Mariana's case the best.

Doctor Bernal placed her in my care.

Mr. Alfredo,

if you want your daughter to recover,

get her out of the mental institution.

If you don't believe me,

I invite you to come with me

to see it with your own eyes.

Subtitle translation by: Paula Llapur