All language subtitles for La.Femme.De.Ma.Vie.1986.1080p.BluRay.x264.AC3

Did you let it ring long?

I'll check up on him.

Let's not take a chance.

I'll call you right back.

- Thank you.
- No, thank you.

One moment!

Are you OK?

Yes, thanks.

I spoke to Laura on the phone.

- She tried to call you.
- Really? When?

Five minutes ago.

I must have been in the shower.
I didn't hear it.

She regrets
not being able to come

to the last concert.

We should celebrate
this last concert.

We have time.
Want something?

No.

Maybe orange juice.

Grab a glass
from the bathroom.

This hotel is a pigsty.

Shall we?

Go to bed.

It's late.

It's occupied!

Laura!

Laura!

Laura?

Why are you doing this?

Answer me.

Yeah, why?

Because you love me?

So tell me.

Kiss me.

Hold me.

Come on, like people in love.

Get away from me!

What are you waiting for?
A miracle?

Don't touch me.

Leave me alone!

Thanks. See you tomorrow.

Can I give my daughter a kiss?

I promised her I would.

Simon might be home.

Simon?

Want me to pick you up
from school Saturday?

Go to sleep now.

Dad?

Don't close the door.

I know.

You created the orchestra.

You made it what it is today.

Don't destroy 10 years of work.

- It's either him or us.
- Simon will stay

for as long as I want.
- You think you can change him?

You can't!
You can't change people.

Are you going to band practice,
Dad?

Yes. Mom will be right back.
And don't wake Simon up.

He's very tired.
See you tonight.

Bye, Dad.

Let's play a game
in the kitchen.

Do you know
where the bottles are?

Well, do you?

It's a secret.
Mom hid them.

Of course it's a secret.

I can guess.

You're cold.

Very cold.

Ice cold.

Less cold.

Warm.

You can't look inside!

No! You owe a dare!

- Maybe it's not in the kitchen.
- It is. Look some more.

Two, no three dares!

North Pole.

Hot. Very hot!

North Pole, you're getting colder.

Burning hot!

Let's get the bottles.

- Give them back!
- You can't open them!

I'll tell Mom! She's coming.

Simon?

Simon?

No. Stop it!

Where's Simon?

I don't know.

Where is he?

I'll kill him.

But what happened?

My kids can't fight back,
but I can.

Bernard!

Bernard, stop!
Where are you going?

Leave me alone!

- Have you gone mad?
- No.

I'm not the mad one. He is
and has been for a while.

Now he's dangerous.

What did he do to them?

He hurt them. A lot.

He hit them.

That's impossible!

- I don't believe you!
- That's all he does now.

Open your eyes.
Look at yourself,

you're going completely mad.

All this for a pathetic drunk.

You never understood Simon!

You never could love him.

Because you love each other?

You call this love?

What do you know of love?

Nothing!

Simon and I are like that.

We love each other like that.

And no one
will ever change that.

Do you want to go back home?

Want me to take you home?

I didn't mean to hurt them...

I didn't mean to hurt them...

You have to believe me.

Why are you doing this?

I don't think
you'd fit in my pants.

And because not so long ago,

I was in the same state as you
and someone took care of me like this.

That's how I sobered up.

I get over benders fast,

that's my strength.

You were pretty messed up
earlier.

A minor depression.

Alcohol causes mood swings.

This should fit you.

Everything fits.

I was convinced
I had a 200 franc note.

I looked everywhere.

Mind lending me the money?

I'll call a taxi

and head home.

Here.

And these are my 2 phone
numbers: here and at work.

Call me whenever you want.

I will.

Anyway, I have to give you
your clothes back. And this.

What you did for me
I could never do for anyone.

See you soon.

Can I use the phone?

The phone is downstairs.
It takes 1 franc coins.

What can I get you?

Actually you never said
what you did to sober up.

All I'm asking is that
you don't drink for 24 hours.

It's 8:30.

You haven't had a drink
since last night around 10 PM?

So you've already done
10.5 hours.

And that's quite a feat.

But you have to last
until 10 PM tonight.

What about tomorrow?

Tomorrow is unknown to me.
Today is what counts.

The here and the now.

One day at a time.

- That's stupid.
- No, it's not stupid, Simon.

Not stupid at all.
Just simple.

A simple solution
for very complicated people.

Maybe you shouldn't go out
today.

- Leaving already?
- Yes.

- What do you do?
- I build boats.

- Real ones?
- Yes.

Listen, Simon.

It's important to keep busy.

I have books and records.
Use whatever you want.

If you get bored, take a bath.
Lots of them.

And eat.
The fridge is full.

Call me
if you're having a hard time..

Hello?
Is this Laura?

You don't know me.
I'm calling regarding Simon.

He's fine.
- Where is he?

At my place.

What is he doing there?

Resting.
Getting better.

What happened to him?

Nothing.
I assure you, he's fine.

I want to talk to him.

He needs me.

What he needs is to be alone.

Sorry for being blunt.

Who are you?

I know people who can help Simon.
That's all that matters.

They have an office
and a phone.

Rest assured, they can answer
all your questions.

Want to write down the address?

- Yes?
- Pierre?

You told me not to go out,
so I'm staying in.

Quid pro quo.

I will have a drink.

Not straight, don't worry.
I'm dying for a cocktail.

I found tomato juice,

Schweppes and cola.

And now...

tell me where you keep the vodka...

gin and whisky!

- I know you have some!
- No, I don't.

You're lying!
You hid it!

That's just like you.

I want a drink. Just one.
That's not too much to ask.

Have you ever just had one?

You know,
I already broke the model.

Please excuse me.

Where are you?

In your living room.

Go to the desk by the stereo.

Ah, you're being reasonable.

Open the second drawer.

- There's nothing but pills.
- Take two.

Are you kidding me?

This won't do!
Have you forgotten how it feels?

No, that's the point, I haven't.

You've done 16 hours already.

What time is it?

2:30 PM.

Which pills?

The pink ones.

Don't wait. Take them now.

See you tonight.

Laura?

Laura?

This isn't Laura.

She's your wife?

She's a friend.

- I don't want her to see me.
- She's leaving.

7 PM.

We'll have dinner.
You have to eat.

Anyone here for the first time?

Yes. Me.

- What's your first name?
- Simon.

- And you?
- Do I have to say my name?

Only if you want to.
My name is Marion.

Our method is the simplest:
no drinking, not a single glass.

Americans came up with that.

A surgeon
and an insurance broker.

They formed the first group
and got sober together.

It worked for them,
it worked for me.

It can work for you too.

I didn't want to come

but my former boss
told me about your meetings.

You know him, right?

Mr. Blondel.

Anyway.

Mr. Blondel liked me a lot.

One day, he told me,

'Dear Sylvia...'

Well, now you know my name.

So one day, he told me,

'Dear Sylvia, there's nothing more
I can do for you.'

It's a shame, I could have used
a man like that.'

Mr. Blondel is the opposite
of Serge.

Serge is my boyfriend.

You have to lend me some money
because I really need it.

I can't just stay at home
all day.

The other day, we fought
over the dregs of a bottle.

Sylvia, we won't lend you money.

You have to.

I'm applying for a job tomorrow

and I can't go like this.

Right?

You know what, Sylvia? If
I could not drink for 24 hours,

you can do it too.

LAURA, MY LOVE

I came to get you.

I imagined the worst.

Everything, you understand?

I thought
you didn't want me anymore.

You can't stay.

What's wrong?
Say something!

I can't come back yet.

I want to be sure...

sure I won't start again.

I want you to come home.

I want to help you.

I've always helped you.

This time, you can't.

Seeing you hurts.
I'm ashamed of myself.

But I love you, Simon!

I don't want you to love
the person that I am.

- Let's go home.
- No...

- Come.
- No!

You don't love me anymore?

I love you too much.

Get out of here.

Don't look at me.

What can I do?

Leave me alone.

It's my only hope.

Don't you hear me.

We're crazy.

Utterly crazy.

What will you do in Brittany?

What do you normally do
with a boat?

Put it in the water?

Take me with you.

You started all this,
don't desert me now.

This isn't a vacation, Simon.

I can help you.
I'll work for you.

I can't stay here by myself!

I've had enough!

I'm thirsty!

Lower the mainsail
and raise the genoa.

No! I want a drink!

I can't stand it!

Do as I say!

Stop giving me orders!

I'm not your prisoner!

Anyway as soon as we get to
the harbor, I'll run to the bar!

You piss me off!

You're wasting your time!
It may have worked for you,

but it won't work for me!

And even if it did work,

how could I live afterwards?

Answer me!

Because I haven't done anything
sober in years!

Yes, sir! I need it to play,
to go on stage,

to make love to my wife,
to fly, to take the train,

to practice!

A drink
because I've always had one.

Because I've always been scared!

Scared of everything!

I don't even remember life
before alcohol.

That sail is going to rip.

Simon!

It will work!

It's the only way
I can thank you.

I can do it!
I will do it!

Ready to turn?
We're heading back.

Must be beautiful here at night.

Don't you ever do that again,
Simon.

What possessed you
to scream like that?

At sea anything can happen, I really believed
you had fallen overboard.

You can collapse on stage
and get up again.

At sea there is no second chance.

Who was it?

Do you know what I realized?

We'll never get drunk together.

Too bad. I'm sure
we'd have had a good time.

It was Marion. She says hello.
She'll be here Thursday.

Why don't you live together?

I'm used to living alone.
So I don't know.

I sometimes have affairs.

I could never resist women.

Well, I never tried.

You never told me
about your wife.

You're lucky, Simon,
that Laura hasn't left you.

My wife wasn't around the day
I stopped screwing up my life.

Every day I delay calling you.

Because it's the time
I enjoy the most.

How are you?

You're quiet today.

I'm OK. I'm listening.

You realize it's been 9 days.

Nine days without a drink.

Nine days without you.

It's good that you left.

I'm starting to hope
you won't come back.

Simon...

Please don't call me again.

Hello?

Oh, good evening.

No, Mom is out.

No, she'll be home late.

Yes, okay.

You shouldn't have come back.

Why did you come back?

- I can't loose you, I can't.
- Me too.

It's too late.
We've hurt each other too much.

Let me forget you.

I want to wake up one day
knowing I don't think about you anymore.

Laura, I'm asking you
to believe me one last time.

I'm doing well
and I'll keep on getting better.

I fought for it
and will keep on fighting.

I want to live with you.

I want us to be happy together.

Where were you?

What's going on?

Simon is here.

He just got home.

Where is Simon?

We should go home.
It's getting late.

- Why? What about dessert?
- I said we're going, it's late.

Come with me, �lo�se.

I wanted to stay with you.

He said to me...

It's our last hope...

I can't live without you...

You are the woman of my life...

It's our only hope...

I can't live without you...

You are the woman of my life...

- Finished your homework?
- Yeah. Is this for me?

No. For Simon.

He'll be home late.
He said not to wait for dinner.

- Good evening. You've reached...
- Simon bought an answering machine.

You can always call
42 88

33 52 where someone will always
answer your call.

You can also leave me a message
and I'll call you back.

Thanks for calling.

Simon, are you there?

You must be out.

So I'll see you
before you get this message.

I just got home from Brittany.
Don't forget London's book.

See you real soon.

It's for you.

Good, you?

Yes.

Laura was just leaving.
I'll call you back.

Who was it?

Pierre.

I'd like to meet him.

You should invite him
for dinner.

Not yet.

Why not?

I need to be alone with him.

I decided to tell him
my life story.

What do you tell him
that you can't tell me?

Nothing.

Nothing you don't already know.

I just don't want
to make you relive it.

As you wish.

That was me, 5 years ago.

I was good.
I'll never be that good again.

Yes, I'll help you.

No.

I don't want to spend
10 hours a day

relentlessly practicing violin

just to get stage fright.

All that for 20 minutes
of happiness.

You're scared.

I am. I just told you I was.

I feel like a new man.
A man I don't want to kill.

For now, I'm more important
than the music.

- But music is your life.
- It was my life.

I can't live like that anymore.

Then how will you live?

As my lodger? With room and board?

Shut up.

I know what we'll do.

Let's call Pierre.

Tell him: My wife is rebelling.
What should I do?

What's the solution?

And afterwards
I'll talk to him too.

I'll tell him that I don't
understand you anymore.

That I'm not equal to the task.

I'm sure he's heard this before.

He'll know.
He'll tell me what to do.

Don't you want to call him?

So maybe you already know the solution.

I hadn't planned
on being here tonight,

but I'm going through
a rough patch.

It's complicated.

I felt I should come

and I'm happy to be here
with you guys.

- That's all.
- Thanks for being here, Simon.

- And how are you, Sylvia?
- Fine, thanks.

I just want to listen.

Thanks.

- How are things at home?
- Serge left.

I know him, he'll come back.

Why are you looking at me
like that?

I remembered
our first time here

and how you were.

I'll never forget that night.

You've changed a lot.

So have you.

I'll never forget it either.

I rushed home.

But this time, you weren't here.

I went to see Jacques.

He was playing tonight.

I signed with Jacques...

for the orchestra's anniversary.

He'll conduct the Triple.

Like our first concert,
7 years ago.

Beethoven's Triple Concerto...

With Bernard,

Xavier

and you.

Don't bet on it.
I won't play.

We created
this orchestra together.

It was our dream
when we were 30.

If you decide not to play,
for me the dream's over.

And it'd be the end of us too.

Sounds like blackmail.

No.

It's not blackmail.

It's a love affair.

- How are you?
- It goes.

- What's this?
- Dried fruits and sugar.

For the break. I always bring some
when I have day camp.

Thanks, sweetie.

Let's get going.

Hello. You've reached Simon. I'm not in,
but you can call 42 88 33 52,

where someone will always
answer your call.

You can also leave me a message
and I'll call you back.

Thank you for calling.

Simon? It's me.

It's Sylvia.

Simon I'm not doing well.

- I can't do it.
- Sylvia? I'm here.

Sylvia? I'll be right over.

All will be fine. Relax. Draw a bath.
I'm coming. Wait for me!

- You can't go!
- Yes I go, I can't leave her like that.

Trust me, I'll get
to the rehearsal on time.

Don't go.

Sylvia?

Sylvia?

What are you doing here?

- I want to see Sylvia.
- She's not here.

She upped and vanished.

I know she's here. She called me.

I want to see her.

Ah, you're her savior.

Your bullshit doesn't work,
you know.

So beat it!
You've bothered us enough.

I said clear off!

Help me.

Help me!

Don't leave me alone.

He'll be here.
I'm sure.

- No, he won't, Laura.
- He can't do this.

Yes, and it wouldn't be
the first time.

Why did I let you
talk me into it?

You were perfect and admirable.
You fought a losing battle.

Stop it.
Something must have happened.

Give it up. We only have 3 days
to replace him.

No.

I'll bring him here in an hour.

I know where he is.

THE CITY'S SYMPHONIC ORCHESTRA'S
7TH ANNIVERSARY CONCERT

I didn't know
you were a real musician.

I thought you made it up
like I do.

Maestro, please forgive my tardiness.

Bernard can I speak with you?

We're all interested to know
what you have to say to Bernard.

We're listening.

No, wait.

Good evening.

My name is Sylvia and...

I'm an alcoholic.

This isn't a bar
or a mental asylum.

Now, please leave.

Disappear.

We don't need a violin for
tonight's rehearsal, Maestro.

From the top.

Miss?

Good evening.
You can go in.

I can get you coffee,
if you want.

You don't look so good.
Want to sit?

Sure there's nothing
I can do for you?

This is the phone number here.

You understand.

And there is mine too.

My name is Pierre, and you?

Lorraine.

Could you make some coffee?

How many days now?

Thirty-seven.

Now I have zero.

Too bad, we began at the same time.

You have to go back,
they're waiting for you.

No. No one's waiting for me.

You have to play, Simon! You have to play.
You have music. I have nothing!

I'll come to listen.

- Swear you'll go.
- He won't anymore.

Ever again.

It's all my fault.
Don't blame him.

- I'll go.
- No! Stay here! Don't move.

I'll sleep in the next room.

I won't close the door.

What are you doing here?

Have you gone mad?

Thanks.
Go to bed.

I'll wake you up tomorrow.

Sylvia's not as sick
as she looks.

Good night.

Want some?

Don't make us
go through this again.

You have no idea
what she's going through!

That isn't the point!

This is about me.

You humiliated me
in front of the whole orchestra!

And you did so knowingly

and cold-heartedly!

I will never forgive you.

I don't...
recognize you anymore, Simon.

You became a stranger.

You liked me better before?

I love you, Simon.

I love you!

Not here, not now.

Come.

I will stay next to her.

She needs me.

What about me?

You're strong.

I'm fed up.

Fed up of being strong!

Where are you going?

Come in.

Now will you tell me...

excuse me,

what happens to you?

What can I do for you?

You can't do anything for me.

I do accept your hospitality.

I've no place to go.

But please no questions.

Do you have anything to eat?

I'm hungry.

- More?
- No.

You feel better?

No questions.

It's a pitty.

C'est dommage

It's a pitty we cannot talk together.

We can not communicate.

It's much better that way.

May I spend the night here?

Yes.

Of course.

I'll sleep on the sofa.

Sorry?

I'll sleep on the sofa.

No, no, I have a room for you.

Goodnight.

'There was a long
rumble of sound

and it seemed to him that he was falling down
a vast and interminable stairway.

Somewhere at the bottom
he fell into darkness.

That much he knew.

He had fallen into darkness.

And at the instant he knew,
he ceased to know.'

Who do you think has the most shoes?
Your daughter or me?

Don't you agree.

That we both have as many, which makes no sense
since her feet are still growing?

Give me yours.

Stop it.

Don't force me to get them!

It's still raining.

Where did these pumps
spend the night?

Have you been drinking?

No! I'm invincible now!

I've resorted
to emergency techniques.

Don't you want to know
what they are?

Page 48: Emergency techniques
to fight the urge to drink.

'Hot, sweet beverages!'

'Go jogging'... I did so at 2 AM!

'Take a shower'... I took two!

'Shave'.... I have. Feel this.

'Read some literature'... I have as well.

I re-read
a very interesting chapter.

'Avoid emotional conflicts

and depressing situations.'

Where were you?

I don't want to talk about it.

Did you look in what kind of state
you're in?

I told myself that
if you hadn't come home by 6 PM,

I'd consider asking myself
if a drink would soothe my pain.

And that I would find out
at 7 PM.

And by 8...

It's 6 PM.

Thank you.

Thanks for being here.

Laura...

Won't you really tell me?

- No.
- Will you do it again?

I don't know. One day at a time,
just like you.

Let's split up, Laura.

For a while.

And then what?

Then, I don't know.

Where will you stay?

At Pierre's.

Sure you don't want a ride?

- No, I'll be fine.
- Do you have money on you?

Sure.

Promise you won't drink this.

I promise.

My little sister.

Yes?

Ah, Lorraine.

Yes.

I'll be in my office.

Yes.

The address is on the card
I gave you yesterday.

Laura?

Did the charade you played
last night turn you on?

Coming to get yourself fucked,
without saying who you are.

Simon is leaving me.

He wants to stay at your house.

So tell him
you can't put him up.

Make something up or I warn you,
if you don't, I'm capable of anything!

Give me my Simon back!

But Simon isn't mine, he isn't anyone's,
not yours not mine.

Yes, you're everyware between us!

Everything you did for him,
is against me.

And everything I did you destroyed.

He has no more ambition,
willpower or desire.

You broke him.
He's become like you!

All he cares about are wrecks
and mad people.

Shut up. You don't know
what you're saying.

Yes, I used to be mad,
a so-called wreck.

- Let me tell you.
- I don't want to know!

But I want to tell you.

Now.

It's night.

The two of us are in the middle of the ocean.

You're my loving wife
who's crazy about me.

There were huge waves.

At night,
the ocean is wonderful,

it's terrible.

She slipped.

At least I think she slipped.

We were both smashed.

I was in the cabin.

I heard a scream,
but I couldn't move.

I was so drunk
I couldn't stand.

She hollered.

She called out to me...

What would you have done?
Jumped in after her?

I saw her slip away
in the dark.

She was beautiful.

I must have stayed there
for hours.

I don't know how I made it back
to land.

Since that day,
I never went back on the open sea.

I hug the shore.

No.

Get the fuck out now.

She drank two bottles
of 90-proof alcohol.

And the bottle of perfume too.

It was a present I gave her.

No!

No!

Farewell, little sister.

What should I play for you?

I'm sure
you'd let me choose.

You were smiling and full
of life the last time I saw you.

I know.

The young woman who was with me,

Sylvia...

She's dead.

When are you leaving, Simon?

When are you moving out?

I'm not.

I want you to.

- Laura...
- What I have to say is hard.

So I implore you,

don't interrupt me.

Leave, Simon.

You can go now.

You're strong enough.

So clear off.

Soon,

before I try to stop you.

I didn't know how to love you.

Pierre knew how.

He made you succeed.

With me,
you were always a loser.

That's a thought I cannot bear.

That's why
if we continue living together,

we'll go back to how we were.

And one day, I'll kill you.

PIANO/VIOLIN/CELLO

We're celebrating the
orchestra's anniversary today.

Tonight's concert is dedicated

to Laura Manuel,

our director.

You'll never see her on stage.

But we wouldn't be here
without her.

We want to thank her...

for making our dreams come true.

Especially...

for keeping them alive.

I believe this is the best part:

just before going on stage.

Want me to go?

No, please stay.

I decided to close
the Paris shipyard.

I'll be moving to Brittany
for good.

I'm leaving tomorrow.

Visit me anytime.

I don't know if I'll be able to.

I don't think I will.

You must be Laura.

Pierre.

You're beautiful.

Pierre?

Thank you.

- Beethoven has to be...
- Pathetic.