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LAMB OF GOD TYPING...

YOU KNOW I HAVE IT

I NEED THAT PHONE! WHAT DO I NEED TO DO?

LAMB OF GOD: YOU STILL OWE ME!

CELLPHONE BLOCKED

DIVIDED YOUTH

EPISODE DYSPHORIA

I'm so happy you came. Let's go inside?

Good evening.

There's no meaning to life

To fight so hard and not get What we deserve, isn't worth it

To be at least three times better Just to be alike

The São Paulo elite That treat us like bandits

Good evening. Millions.

How are you, guys?

About that, I smile nicely

Good evening.

Never showing my weaknesses to the enemy

If "Black" and "money" Were rival words before

I took the wheel, and said "no more"

We lacked funds, but appetite or desire, not a bit

While those playboys with degrees All they do is talking shit

What if he put coke in his mouth?

I already apologized, babe.

What else do you want me to say?

-I don't know what I was thinking. -I do.

You were thinking about your weekend off.

Do you think I don't know about your get-togethers?

Only you can have fun?

-Being an Instagram dad is easy. -You don't give us more time.

-Of course not. It's always a shit show. -And you're a fucking perfect mother?

-Is that it? -I'm a mother. You're just a dealer.

-You're not a father. -Fuck you. Fuck you.

-What's your name? -Joaquim. What's yours?

Ícaro. Can I see it?

-What's your favorite animal? -A dinosaur, but there's none in it.

We'll solve this issue right now.

Are you friends with my dad?

Yeah.

What are you calling him?

Look, this is Ícaro.

That's awesome.

So cool.

I love you.

Gorgeous, as always. Hello, Ka!

So beautiful in red.

This is the famous Malu. The one I've been talking about so much.

It's nice to meet you.

So, Malu, how you like the event?

Tell her. There's gonna be a rap show tonight.

Yes, that's right. Speaking of the devil...

Wow, he's handsome.

What's up, GG. How's that thing going?

-That incident? -Canceling, Ka.

Canceling. It's time to use the right words.

I made mistakes. But I'm tired to sweep it under the rug.

I'll take responsibility.

Malu is helping me a lot with this racism stuff.

It's been powerful.

We're even considering working together on some things.

I knew you'd like it.

I dashed off the party yesterday, totally forgot my backpack.

Yeah, I saw that you and Rapha were having a fight.

You have a beautiful son.

I guess I did a great job, huh?

But, damn, it's not easy. Not easy at all.

Do you wanna do what's right, or what's easy?

-Want some help? -No, no.

No, no, no. Relax. The cleaning lady is coming.

Come on, this way I'll need to help you out.

Listen, Quim's birthday is coming up.

If you're free, and up to buy a gift with me,

you're invited, okay?

Nothing was easy in the slum I came from

All my friends that lived in sheds

Many are dead, and I live for Him He protects me, and the rest is up to me

Mom, now they call me king

Remember I was nobody? I'll give you a white house in Dubai

I swear I'll never demean anyone I learned not to feel sorry for anyone

I live this shit since I was little

Today, the kids that played with me Are seeing their moms high on coke

You really think my life is easy? Spend just a day by my side

Can you bear the weight of my color?

And if you'll keep saying That I'm not for real

Cocaine, molly, flex,

raarg, purple, beaches,

ice, skrr

With me now

I'm rich again

I make money, I make so much money Woman, come with me, my pockets are full

Loved it! What's your Instagram handle?

There's no need to tag me.

Nice show, huh?

-It's fire. -You liked it?

You weren't like that in Amarílis.

-You know the best part? -Hm?

Your new friends.

-They're hot. -Smart-ass.

So, the influencers are paying well, huh?

Really well, Malu, but not so much as daddy's allowance.

Bye.

I'm bouncing.

Really? I wanted to show you to some people.

The show was great. Stay.

If you were serious about you both working together,

-talk to me, okay? -Are you serious? Really?

-Can I call you this week? -Sure. This is gonna be great.

Are you high? I ain't doing any of that. Get real!

Damn.

Awesome.

Damn.

What the hell, bro?

Does your dad know about this?

It was a birthday gift.

You wanna start a collection?

A little race.

The winner gets his opponent's car.

You won the last four races.

Huh? I'm almost regretting the offer.

Huh?

-So what are your names? -This is Caio, and I'm G.

G? Are you serious?

I'm GG. That's crazy!

I loved it. Such a coincidence.

Do you have any friends around?

-No, I don't. -Well, I'll get more booze.

Do you all want anything else?

I'm going the toilet. I'll buy on the way back.

Whisper the password to me, so no one will listen.

That guy is so fucking boring! At least it worked.

Here.

-Girl, you deserve an Oscar. -I do, don't I?

Honey, do you sell full bottles?

Shove a few in your backpack.

Whiskey.

-What do you mean, Paulão? -What?

Fuck, it isn't fair. The junkyard was out of it.

There were no playboys packing heat before.

What's next? Cops working as security guards?

The events are getting too big.

It's time to end this. You hear me?

After all that, you'll take this from me, too?

Your mom always knew what she was doing. What is it?

You mad? Put your suggestion in the "fuck it" box.

You owe me, Paulão. You know that!

I don't fucking owe you shit!

-Hey. -Fuck, Malu, you scared me.

What's up with you and my dad, Nay?

-Nothing. We'll talk some other time. -Hey, come on.

-Talk to me. -Another time.

Another time.

But I always did volunteer posting, you know?

But after this thing with that coffin dodger, I had to stop.

Why did she think you stole the cash?

I helped the NGO with the crowdfunding, you know?

I helped them to reach their goals. When we got there,

the website went offline, and we lost all the money.

-But that isn't your fault. -Exactly.

Not my fault, but explain that to an old lady

that takes care of the parish's socials.

-You're lucky the lunch was ready. -Hi.

Mom, this is Ícaro. The boy I told you about.

-This is my mom. -Nice meeting you. I'm Cristina.

Wow, he's...

-Handsome. -Handsome.

Handsome.

Come sit with us.

Tell him about your friend.

-The fashion editor. -Oh, yes.

Joyce Villas-Boas, a friend of mine. So fancy. She's a fashion editor.

Her daughter is trans. I mean...

-Son? -Daughter.

Son-daughter. Honey, I'm sorry.

I get confused with these things.

The poor woman is desperate.

But it is what it is.

You have to be open-minded.

I'll tell her I was with you and that it was great, okay?

Mom.

There's no one in here.

Can you make a living with this influencer thing?

Kind of.

-I get a lot of products. -Does your mom have a job?

No, of course not.

We inherited money from my dad,

but it's over.

It was a matter of time.

But how do you pay your bills?

Dude, there are lots of lonely old men out there.

Full of love.

Not only love.

Do you sleep with them?

Come. Let's play the influencers.

You don't know the half of it. That damn Karen,

she was trying to tell me...

Me, the gangster,

that color doesn't matter for her. "We're all the same".

And everyone there treated Zóio and I like gringos.

Taking pictures "to color" their Instagram pages.

I can only imagine your face

when GG said you planned on working together.

She's crazy. Get off my back.

You won't ask him for money. I can't take this anymore.

Being your daughter is so tiring!

Why are you asking money from a man...

To donate to the NGO?

That's ridiculous. It's against the law, mom. Look it up.

Gosh, my mom annoys me so much.

It's a mayhem. Are your moms like that, too?

-Yes. -That's terrible. Damn.

Malu, honey...

I wanted to talk to you.

I know I was impulsive that night, in the event.

But I actually believe that a partnership would be the bomb.

Forget it. It won't happen. I know you have your work.

And I apologize if I blew your thing with... Karen, right?

-Of course not. -But it won't happen. Okay?

Relax. It will work out.

Look.

-Okay. -Anelise.

The dress.

-What's this, Vera? -I did what you asked.

Vera, I asked for a flat felled seam. This is terrible.

Of course. Flat felled seams and this fabric don't match.

Why didn't you tell me that when I changed the fabric?

I thought you knew it.

Do you need something else?

It's past my time.

No, Vera, you can go. Thank you.

Calm down. It'll work out.

There are still two weeks to go.

"Still"? Ícaro, it's only two weeks, man.

I can't take this anymore, man. Honestly.

All I ever get are my mom's used stuff.

It's my mom's studio, my mom's designers,

at the time that is best for my mom, my mom's name.

I just wish I have my own things.

I had an idea. I'll sort it out.

Hey, Ms. Vera. I'm sorry.

I know you're tired.

But who isn't, right? I have an idea.

Do you think a run and fell seam would work here?

How about this one?

The other one was better, don't you think?

Listen to my advice.

You need to know more about your date.

What is it gonna be? Just hang out or something serious?

Or is it a quickie to relax, to release tension?

-What do you think? -I don't know.

Do I need to choose that now?

You need to come here take a picture with me. Come here.

LOLA GOING OUT ON DATE, AND I'M GOING TO SLEEP. LIFE'S UNFAIR.

Relax, gringa. Enjoy the vibe.

You're hot, trust me.

AUNT SONIA: HEY, MALU. STOP BY WHEN YOU CAN

I needed to spend some time outdoors.

But I can't go back too late.

Your mother is very strict about time.

What was the mess you made in Argentina?

Actually, Argentina made a mess of me.

Come.

I know you don't drink.

But...

I'm sure you eat.

If I knew we were having dinner,

I would've dressed better.

Don't worry, there's no ham.

I'm not that Jewish.

I like this.

What?

Us being...

comfortable in silence.

How are you, auntie?

Carrying on. One day at a time.

I often take my phone

to check where Ícaro is.

Can you believe that?

Force of habit, hope...

I don't know.

I miss him too.

Sometimes, I have the impression I see him around.

And I do.

-It's fucked up. -But I don't wanna talk about that.

I asked you to come because I'm worried about Nayara.

I know. She's been fighting with my dad, hasn't she?

Yeah, but that's not all. She goes out at weird times.

She gets angry over anything.

The other day, she got here with a box,

went in her bedroom and only left the next day.

I don't know. After her mother was arrested,

everything became sort of out of place, you know?

Do you know anything about it, dear?

Mom, you're beautiful.

I can't wait to see the models with the clothes you made.

Am I overdressed? Should I take the earrings off?

Hey, come on! Your mom can go, but I can't. You think that's right?

Look at her!

Looking good, all dressed up, Ms. Sonia.

-Maybe you'll find yourself a model. -All I want is champagne, dear.

I like it!

I'll sort this out for you right now.

Ms. Anelise? I want to know if Ms. Sonia's cabin is ready.

-If you got the champagne bottles. -Stop it!

I can't take anyone with me.

Mom, I'm really, really sorry.

This is just the first of many.

I promise.

No problem, son. I know how that is.

Many promises, but no fulfills, bro.

-We'll talk later. -You know what?

I'm not wasting this makeup at home.

I'll go out with my friends.

Come on. I thought you were forgetting about me, but your mom, too?

Careful, bro. You'll end up forgetting who you are.

-Thanks for the lecture, "Mother Malu." -Are you kidding me?

What the hell? You're dazzled.

Instead of minding your own, you're leeching on them.

-Leeching on them? -Yeah.

Daddy always gave you everything.

You never needed to earn anything.

You play the gangster, but you're the posh girl of the slums.

Chill, then, bro. Do your thing.

Hey, handsome.

Look at this handsome man!

-You're just perfect. -Let me see it.

Look.

There are so many big fish here. It's gonna be awesome.

Time to shine!

-Good evening. -Hi.

Wanna come with me? Come on, Fred.

-Good luck. -Thanks.

Look, that night I was a little...

Relax. False alarm.

-That's great! -Your relief is worse than your concern.

Good luck.

Rodrigo?

You're talking about someone else.

Of course not. Let me introduce you to the famous Carol, my daughter.

So, when are you going?

Did everything work out? Was that amount we sent you right?

Look, if you need anything else, let me know, okay?

Good evening.

Thank you for everything.

Come, honey. We're late.

Go, go, go. Quick, come on.

Come on.

Go, go, go, go.

ENZO: IT'S EASIER TO SEE THINGS FROM ABOVE

LOCATION SHARED. SEE MAP

Hello, girls. Welcome.

Good evening. Enjoy the show.

-Hello. Name? -Ícaro Duarte.

-It's not in the list. -I work with Anelise.

Do you have credentials?

-I don't. -Honey, without your name in the list,

the credentials or a ticket,

there's nothing I can do.

-Next. Good evening. -Good evening.

-Welcome. Enjoy the show. -Thank you.

-Good evening. -Good evening.

Good evening. Have a great show.

Hi there. Good evening. Welcome.

You can go in. Have a great show.

I'm sorry. I really can't let you in without credentials.

-But my name has to be there. -Easy there, man.

-God. -I worked with her.

With Fred and Vera, in Ms. Alina's shop.

It was never like this.

Neither for me.

What?

I don't know.

It's okay, Lola. Take your time.

It's just that...

I'm not ready yet.

This view is wonderful!

How did you find this?

-This is my family's building. -Of course, it is.

Of course, it's Bianchi's dynasty, from father to son.

-Actually, it's "mom to son". -Look at that.

-I didn't expect that. -Yeah.

My mom is a Bianchi. My dad...

Well, my dad took the name.

Got it.

Why did you and Anelise break up?

Anelise is not for real.

Nobody there is. So I distanced myself. I don't know.

There's no reason to be near them.

Do you really think Ícaro killed himself?

I don't know, okay?

You're all fucked up.

You're all fucked up. Goddammit, nobody knows a thing here.

Nobody fucking admits shit.

-Easy, Malu... -"Easy"? "Easy", Enzo?

He was my best friend, man.

You know how that feels like?

Look.

What do you want to know?

He went to that bridge by car, right?

And you taught him how to drive.

Yes, but I don't know how he ended up there.

Okay? We were in a party,

-and everyone... -...went to the police station, right?

But that's all. We were okay. Everybody went home.

-Hello? Auntie? -Malu, someone turned Ícaro's phone on.

Is everything okay, Malu?

-Malu? -What do you mean?

-GOT HOME? -YES

-SO CLOSE, YET SO FAR -DISTANCE IS RELATIVE

I FEEL YOU CLOSE

What? No. No.

-SEE YOU SOON? -I HOPE SO

It can't be.

What do you mean missing? Missing?

Can you tell me if he's ever been discharged?

No, no! I Can't say where I am.

Yes, yes. I know. If you hear something...

Right...

Damn, this is so creepy. Someone has his phone.

Take the next right.

Stop, stop here.

Calm down, boss. We'll come back when we're sure about this shit.

No fucking way, man. Now that we know where the phone is,

-we're gonna get this motherfucker. -Listen. I'll come back and sort it out.

We have to take this shit.

She took everything, Gael.

Everything.

She stole from me.

I'm so sorry, man.

I wish I didn't feel anything.

But I feel everything. I don't know if I can carry on.

I don't know if I can take it.

I assure you:

today will be the worst day of your life,

but today's almost over.

Tomorrow is gonna be a little better.

Sometimes I think if shit like this happens because I'm trans,

black, poor, or everything together.

Ícaro, I'll never know how it's like to be a black person.

But as a trans man, I also feel like that, of course.

But then I remember that I'm much more than that.

If that's all people want to see, it's their problem.

Racism, transphobia, it all fucks our lives up.

But none of that is our fault, you get me?

Keep your head up, prince.

You changed so much since we first met.

I'm not only talking about looks.

It's about what's in there,

inside of you.

Don't lose it.

GG CALLING

Hello.

Dude, why the hell you didn't get in? Fuck!

Listen, everyone's going to Tchelo's. You have to come, man.

So, are you coming?

I'll wait you there.

Come on.

Find the phone. I'll take care of the rest.

Subtitles: Olavo Soares