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This programme contains strong language, suicide references,

scenes some viewers may find distressing and scenes of violence from the start

It's Christina. My daughter. She killed herself. Why?

You're her girlfriend. Wife. I don't have those answers. Who does?

I've got nothing to lose, so I'll keep digging.

How much do you know?

Your lucky horseshoe. Like the one you gave Christina.

I was with Susannah most of the morning. You should go see her.

Why would anybody want to kill her?

You sure you wanna go there? Maybe.

You're in deep enough shit as it is.

So, you're an expert on me, now you're fucking my ex-wife?

Christina's been murdered.

Can't prove it.

Uh...

Christina? Christina?

I need to talk to you...

..but I don't know what to say.

All I know is you've been dead for three weeks

and five days...

..and I don't understand anything.

PHONE RINGS

ANSWERPHONE BEEPS

Hi, yeah. Um, I'm calling about Daniel Frater again.

I know this is a difficult time,

but please do call me back.

Danny seems to have convinced himself your daughter was murdered.

SHE SOBS

ECHOING: Mum! DOOR BELL RINGS

KNOCK AT DOOR

DOOR BELL RINGS

Thank you. Oh, no, wait.

Oh, am I supposed to sign something?

No. Oh, yeah, I see you've got loads.

No, they're my...they're my doughnuts.

Sorry?

I'm Jon. Jonathan Fallow, I made an appointment online.

Oh, it shouldn't have let you. I thought I'd turned that off.

I had an email confirmation. It shouldn't have done that.

I'm not seeing clients at the moment, I'm sorry.

Oh, shit.

But I can recommend someone else. What is it you need help with?

Smoking.

I have to quit today.

You know when you have the feeling,

and if you don't act on it, then you just...

Please?

I heard you're excellent.

I'll pay you in doughnuts.

No...No, thank you.

Oh, OK, come in.

Um, you'll have to excuse me for a moment.

You just, uh, go on through.

All the way down to the end and turn left.

Thank you. I won't be long.

MUFFLED COUGHING

Oh, no sorry. We're not in here.

Oh, I'm sorry.

I couldn't help noticing the photographs.

No-one prints them anymore, do they?

Just have them on their phones, or in the cloud.

God knows what happens to them all.

It's nice. It keeps all the memories alive.

Shall we get started?

Yeah.

I help people with all kinds of life crises.

For compulsions and addictions,

hypnosis can be a really effective technique.

Do you mind if I eat?

I always have to eat if I can't smoke.

What is it called? Oral fixation or something.

We're all babies.

That's one theory.

My mother used to tell me that

the holes in doughnuts were poisonous.

So, I just used to nibble around the middle

and leave them on the edge.

She always had sugar around her lips.

Years later, I asked her why she'd lied

and she said...she said she was always on a diet,

so she couldn't eat, but this way...

She could.

We all lie to ourselves sometimes.

But you do know it's safe now? You can eat them.

Habits are hard to break. Mm.

So, why do you want to stop smoking?

It kills you.

Well, that could be one reason not to stop.

I smoke way, way too much.

How much is too much?

Er, three packs a day.

That is a lot.

That's what my wife says.

Did your wife send you here today?

I used to be in control of it, you see.

Now I'm not, so...

But do you want to quit?

I want to want to, if that makes sense.

Can you, can you...?

You can talk freely here.

And you'll analyse me?

Oh, God, no. I stopped doing that years ago.

Now I just talk to people and listen.

When you get good at something, it becomes instinctive.

Has anything happened recently that's made you want to smoke more?

My stepson Ben, he just died.

He was ten.

His heart just stopped, a genetic defect or something, apparently.

It was only three weeks ago.

I'm sorry, that must have been a shock.

Yeah.

I say stepson,

but actually I thought of him as my own, really.

I have this one very distinct memory when he was little

and, erm, you know, when they have the parties

and they blow the candles out and they make a secret wish,

but he said the wish out loud and he...

..he wished that I was his real daddy.

I suppose ever since that moment I felt like his real dad, so...

..I felt completely helpless because I wanted to be...

..I wanted to be there,

holding his hand and looking out for him

and protecting him when he needed me most, do you know what I mean?

ECHOING: And now he's gone, I feel completely lost.

What are you thinking?

That I can see why you needed to come here today.

Mm. I never really thought of death before.

Death was for other people, not for me.

And now I feel like something is just wedged in here,

just stuck.

What do you think it is that's stuck?

Can you describe the feeling to me?

I'm so sorry, I can't do this.

Well, no, it's perfectly normal to have feelings,

thoughts that you don't want to share.

And you don't even have to share them with me.

It's always your choice,

just like you chose to come here today.

I look at my wife now...

..and all I see is a lump of flesh.

Her snot and tears.

I can't.

Yes, you can. You're doing fine. Please, Jon. Sit down.

When we experience a great loss,

we can feel completely numb,

just like when our nervous system shuts down

because the physical pain gets too much.

When you think about your wife and Ben...

..what do you feel?

Nothing.

Feel like you wanna smoke?

Yeah.

Well, yeah, you want to protect yourself

from strong emotions by focusing on something concrete.

Like a cigarette.

So, you take one.

You feel it.

Smell it.

Light it.

You fill your lungs with smoke.

The pressure on your chest lifts.

You're calm.

For a moment in time, everything is forgotten.

Very nice.

But I came here to quit.

And you will.

It's just one last time.

Goodbye.

Good.

So, you ready?

Yeah.

Head on up.

So, how exactly does it work?

Hypnosis is a trance-like state

of heightened awareness where we can access your subconscious mind.

But we'll only talk about smoking?

You'll always be aware of what I'm saying

and you won't say anything you don't want to.

You lie back. Get comfortable.

Now, that's good.

So, tell me a place where you feel safe.

Safe. Um, Yasmin.

My boat. Oh, that's great. Good.

So, close your eyes.

Mm.

We'll start by focusing on your breath.

As you breathe in.

And out.

Each breath out making you feel more relaxed and more at ease.

Imagine yourself on your boat.

Just you and Yasmin on the water.

You're sailing out to sea. It's vast and wide.

And while I talk...

..I want you to focus on that moment when you feel

the craving to smoke...

..moving through the waves,

deeper and deeper into yourself.

Where are you when you feel that need to smoke?

I can't talk to you.

You can talk to me. We're safe here on your boat.

You can tell me anything.

They say I can't.

Who says that?

Keep breathing in and out. You're doing so well.

Now, I'm gonna lift your hand.

HE MOANS SOFTLY

There we go. Just let your body relax.

HE MOANS

Tell me.

My mother smokes when she's upset.

Her hands smell of smoke.

I love that smell.

What feeling does it give you?

My hands don't smell of mother anymore.

WAVES LAP AND GULLS CRY

I miss that smell.

HE WHIMPERS It's OK, it's OK.

My hands...

..they smell of death.

Because of Ben? Ben?

Your stepson. Is that why?

No.

So, why do your hands smell of death, Jon?

Because of the girls.

What girls?

The girls I kill.

HEAVY BREATHING

What's happening? I can't hear the waves anymore.

Yes, you can. Just listen. They're there.

You...li...listen to them

and tell me about the girls you kill.

Who are they?

I can't stop thinking about it. That's why I smoke so much.

You tell me about the girls, Jon.

She's waiting for me. I can hear her breathing.

Not long till her last breath. It's dark down there.

It's dark and wet.

I'm the only one that knows the way.

Where is this place? Is it somewhere you dream about

where you can live out your fantasies?

Near my safe space

in the middle of the sea. Infinite peace.

So, it's a nice place. Ha-ha.

It is for me, not for them.

The girls. Tell me about them.

I used to use a gun and a knife.

Not anymore, no, no.

What do you use? Chloroform.

I make my own. I boil it, I distil it.

It's cleaner.

So, you want them unconscious so you can do what you like with them.

I want to take them to my safe space.

So, it's real. What do you do there?

I do my job. I'm good at it.

At killing girls?

At killing. At least I WAS good at it.

What happened, Jon?

Why did you come here to see me?

You have to stop me. Stop me.

Stop you from what? Tonight.

What...what happens tonight? Who will you kill tonight?

White flesh. Black bird.

What does that mean? She doesn't realise.

Who? The girl tonight? She thinks I'm a client.

Oh, what kind of client? Her last.

Ah. Tell me where she is.

No-one will notice she's gone. You see, I'm very thorough.

Mm. What's her name?

You see, I'm good at my job. That's why they hire me.

Who hires you? Give me a name.

No names. Just words. My orders.

Ah. They order you to kill people? They tell you what to do?

They pay me.

They don't know how I do it or where I go. I'm in charge of that.

Well, you were in charge, but not anymore.

What happened, Jon? Nothing.

Yeah, yeah. Nothing happened. Something changed.

Nothing happened. Nothing changed.

You lost control. No!

JON MOANS

You came to me for help, to stop you.

You tell me where she is and I can save you both.

JON GROANS You tell me, Jon. Where is she?

Who is she? If you tell me, you won't be in trouble, Jon.

You won't be in trouble if you tell me.

JON CRIES OUT

Richard. OVER PHONE: I can't talk now.

You need to send an officer to my home now.

What's going on?

Just do it, Richard.

Well, I can't just do it. I can't explain.

Who are you calling?

OVER PHONE: Who's there with you? A colleague. It's a client.

OVER PHONE: Are you in danger? Yeah, yeah.

I couldn't get him out of hypnosis, but he's awake now.

OVER PHONE: Get out of there. Now.

You had some kind of seizure.

While you were on the phone? Yeah. I'm just getting some help.

Yeah, but I'm fine now. Put the phone down.

OVER PHONE: Susannah? Put the phone down.

OK. I have to go.

What did your colleague say?

Well, nothing yet. I literally just called him.

I don't remember anything.

Maybe we should call an ambulance. No.

OK, but at least sit down. You hit your head.

I'll get you some water. No, stay there.

I really don't think you should be smoking right now.

I don't remember anything.

How can I give up smoking if I don't remember anything?

Well, you won't remember.

We're working on deeper patterns, breaking the habit.

Well, it's not working.

I came here to quit, and look, here I am.

Well, we didn't finish the session.

We've barely begun.

What did we talk about?

Oh, I did most of the talking. You weren't making sense.

Yeah, but what exactly did I say?

That the cigarette smell reminded you of your mother

and you got triggered. We can work on that.

No, it's too late.

The hypnosis is already working. The cravings will fade.

Trust me. When you feel it, you'll feel me,

taking it away. You will stop.

I should go. No, there's no need.

You should recover first.

SIRENS WAIL

ENGINE STARTS

TYRES SCREECH

Ah.

Fuck.

COMMS OVER POLICE RADIO

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