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So you know, sex is just another way of communication.

If people fucked more there would be less war.

Less killing, less rape,

all that shit, know what I mean?

Yeah, I think so.

I mean it's just like,

if people did what they wanted to do

and as long as it didn't hurt anyone,

it shouldn't be a problem.

You know anything about the clit?

Just what they say on South Park.

Alright, so like nothing?

Well it's call the clitoris

and it's actually the only part of the human body

that's designed and functioned purely for pleasure.

It's just there to enable a girl to cum over and over

and over again.

So that means that if you can master the clitoris,

then you'll be like set for life.

You have one year until you're 17,

and you know what that means, right?

No.

Age of fucking consent dude.

And you know what I'm gonna do?

I'm gonna fuck you until your eyes fall out.

Oh my God.

Contractions are a minute apart.

Good, good.

Take a deep breath.

Okay, just breath slow.

- Nice And Slow. - Just breath slow.

Slowly, slowly, deep breath in, out.

Good, good, good, good.

- Deep breath. - Keep going.

Deep breath, deep breath.

- You're doing good. - Nice and slow,

come on you can do it.

- You can do it. - You're doing great.

You're doing good, you're doing good.

Push.

- Slow your breathing. - Push.

Deep breath now.

Right, right.

Deep breath, you're doing good.

- Hang in there. - You gettin' tired?

You're almost done, hang in there.

One more breath,

one more breath, breath really slow.

One at a time, one at a time.

There you go, there you go.

Another breath, another breath.

Good there's the head.

Deep breath, deep breath.

Okay, we're getting a lot of progress.

Okay, when you're ready, take another deep breath.

One more, one more.

Deep breath, deep breath, push!

Okay, push, push.

Push, push, push, push, push!

Good, that's it, here he comes.

You got a boy,

you got a baby boy.

You did it.

Good job.

You got you a baby boy here.

Here's a healthy baby boy.

Don't circumcise him.

Don't circumcise him.

Central access,

Hi.

Hi.

Come on, let's get the fuck outta here.

So how's Ty?

He's really cool.

He's gonna be so excited to see you.

He looks just like you too,

like it's crazy.

Where is he?

He is at Mary's house right now.

What have you guys been up to?

What happened?

Mary watches the kids sometimes when I'm at work.

Yeah.

And I don't know, like I don't really have much time

to hang out so, that's all I do really.

My moms still fucking disappeared.

So yeah, it's just work all the time,

hang out with the kids and then go to sleep, it's hard, man.

Yeah,

yeah I know.

It's fucked up.

It's gonna be cool having you around.

Yeah.

Ty needs to know his daddy, you know?

Yeah I know,

I can't wait to see him.

I mean,

Gabriel's really cool too.

He's really a sweet kid.

Yeah.

I think you'll really like 'em.

Yeah.

I know it's fucked up but,

he's really cool.

Did you miss me?

Yeah, I missed you like a motherfucker.

You're the motherfucker.

I mean I miss you like a motherfucker and everything,

but then I remember the shit that you did

and that fucking pisses me off.

I can not not think about it.

I know.

I don't care if you fuck around, you know,

I really don't.

I understand I was locked up and fucking,

like you were out like by yourself

and fucking understand but have you ever heard

of fucking birth control you fucking dumb ass?

- Yeah-- - Fucking stupid man.

- It's fucking stupid. - Retarded.

And now I don't even know what the fuck to do,

like I don't know what I should do or feel.

What am I supposed to do now,

just pretend it didn't happen?

- I'm sorry. - You're not fucking sorry.

I missed you.

Sorry.

Another one, another one, another one!

Another one, encore!

Long time no see.

Oh shit.

♪ You like the fire the one that I had inside ♪

♪ Woman tells me baby, baby ♪

♪ What's in your evil mind ♪

♪ I didn't know that it just creeps into my head ♪

♪ Lookin' at her, ♪

♪ Thinking how could I be dead ♪

♪ I light my joint and then ♪

♪ Everyone here starts runnin' scared ♪

♪ I breath in, I could feel it ♪

♪ Burnin' deep inside ♪

♪ The liquor that I drink ♪

♪ My scars it does not hide ♪

Are you fucked up?

Yeah,

really fucked up.

Why?

Drink too much tequila.

Hey kids, good morning.

You guys awake yet?

Hello?

Hey sweetheart, wake up.

Happy birthday honey.

Thanks.

- Hello baby. - Good morning.

Oh.

How are you?

Oh my god, it's another hot one.

You guys are so sweaty in here.

Geez you need to get up and come on in

and have a cup of coffee.

Oh that sounds great.

Alright?

Yeah.

You guys are 18,

you're adults now.

We're gonna talk about being adults,

alright, okay?

Inez what are you doing today?

You have any plans?

I think I'm gonna keep Domaz with me tonight,

I don't think I'm gonna go out.

Okay, but you need to have him with you this afternoon,

- alright? - Okay.

I have an appointments.

You know you guys are out of school now,

this is your kid so,

time to be full time parents, alright?

Okay.

I'll see you in the house,

come in, I've got some coffee on.

- Okay. - Alright, sweetie.

- Hey guys. - Hey.

- Hey Adam? - Yeah?

Did you call that guy, I gave you the number?

Yeah, I told you I would.

I know, I'm just checking.

You need to do it this morning, alright?

I'd figure I'd just go by there later,

when I'm done skating.

No, that's the wrong order.

You need to call him, go and see him

and then go skating.

You need to get a job, man,

I tried to set this up with you last week

and you never called him.

I was busy last week.

Busy doing what?

Come on, man.

You wanna talk about someone being busy,

I'm busy taking care of your kids.

I really don't want you to embarrass me by not showing up.

- I'm gonna show up. - And we need this money.

- Yes we do. - You know?

And I'm gonna show up.

Then don't talk to me about skating.

I don't want to hear a goddamn thing about skating.

Plus you have another baby with Donna.

- I know. - You know?

I've been caring the weight for both of you guys

for the past two years with no help.

I really didn't sign up for this.

You know?

I need some help and I'm not getting it.

I mean have you spoken to Donna?

Yeah, I speak with her sometimes.

- You speak with her? - Sometimes.

Oh, are you fucking her again?

- Alright guys, c'mon. - I go to see my kid!

Hey, hey.

He's got a kid with her.

You may not like the situation but that's a reality.

He's a dad to two kids.

Get off your ass, go get dressed right now,

give 'em a call and go down there.

It's almost 10 o'clock in the morning!

C'mon Adam!

- Seriously. - You just pissed him off.

Yeah big deal.

Jesus.

Oh

Fuck.

Oh baby,

come here sweetie.

Oh come on, it's okay.

Hi, hey, you okay?

You alright?

You okay honey?

The fuck are you doing?

The fuck are you doing man?

It's over.

The fuck are you talking about?

Come on baby.

Adam?

- Adam? - What are you doing in here?

You can't just walk in like that.

Take your kid.

I'm done, I'm leaving.

I'm done with this.

I've been raising your kid for the last year

and a half and your kid for the last three years,

and I'm fucking done!

I've had no support, no money

and no family, and you've got plenty of that, so.

You think I can handle two fucking babies?

Yeah, well, it's your responsibility.

If I have to stay here another minute

I'm gonna blow my fucking brains out!

Fuck you, all of you.

That's not even my fucking kid!

Get the fuck back here, you fucking dumb ass!

Dumb bitch, what the fuck are you doing?

Fuck you!

What the fuck are you doing?

Fuck outta here man.

Walk back here you fucking dumb bitch.

The fuck man!

Geez!

What is this?

A birthday party?

Adam, can you throw this trash for me?

Yeah, hold up.

Like right now?

I said hold up.

Get up and throw out the trash.

It can fuckin' wait.

You don't, what the fuck is wrong with you, Adam?

You need to grow up.

Don't smoke in here.

I'll smoke wherever the fuck I want to,

this is my trailer.

Adam put that out.

I don't have to.

Adam.

What?

Stop being immature.

I'm not being immature, you're being immature.

You know what, your moms fucking right.

You can't even get a job!

Hmm, mhmm yeah.

And you know, what the fuck were you last night?

- I was out! - I didn't see you

- for like a hour. - I was out.

Out where?

Out.

I was out.

Are you out fucking Donna again,

- is that it? - Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, that's what I'm doing, yeah.

Definitely.

You're such a fucking asshole,

you know what, I stay here all day.

I don't know where the fuck you go.

Out skating and you just wanna come home

and get high and fuck me.

Exactly, that's all I wanna do.

I've never fucked around on you,

I can't even believe you knocked up Donna.

It wasn't my fucking fault,

I was drunk, it was my fucking birthday,

it was not my fault.

I've never been with anybody else but you.

And I've never loved anyone else but you,

but you're actin' like such a

- fucking bitch. - That's a fucking lie!

No it is not!

You need to get the fuck up and start acting like a dad.

Maybe I will when this joints finished.

You know what, put the fucking joint out.

I told you to stop

- smoking in here. - Dude, are you

fucking serious?

Are you throwing shit at me?

I'll throw what ever the fuck I want!

Don't fucking throw shit!

- Put the fucking joint out! - Don't fucking touch me!

Stop fucking throwing shit at me!

The fuck is your problem?

I'm not even in love with you anymore.

I'm not fucking in love with you.

You think I'm in fucking love with you,

all you do is bitch and bitch and fucking bitch!

I'm fucking tired of it!

That's all you fucking do!

All fucking day, in my fucking ear.

- All fucking day! - Because you don't even try

- to pick up any slack! - Ahh!

I've tried to get a fucking job!

I've tried to get a fucking job!

You don't fucking--

- You're lazy-- - understand that.

You're a lazy fucking asshole.

All you fucking do is sit here!

You fucking go out and fuck whoever the fuck--

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Nobody looks at me anymore!

- Yeah. - I can't go out and have sex.

You can go out and do whatever the fuck you want.

You don't have a fucking job,

you can't do shit on your own.

You're a fucking mommas boy!

Yeah, I can't do shit, I'm a mommas boy.

Whatever, get the fuck out of my face.

Are you fucking serious?

Go to the kitchen--

- Don't push me! - Where you fucking belong.

You need to take some responsibility--

- Responsibility! - For once--

- Yeah, yeah! - You're not a kid anymore,

- Adam! - Yeah, yeah, I got it!

I got it, responsi-fucking-bility!

Jesus fuck!

You ruin my fucking joint too.

What the fuck is wrong with you?

The fuck is wrong with you?

So were you able to get any sleep last night?

No.

I mean, I'm, no.

I don't remember.

You know I'm not sleeping well.

Is he just getting up a lot during the nights?

Yeah, he wakes me up, I mean, he gets hungry.

He wants to eat and, then its just.

I just start thinking about everything

and he cries and I hear Tom crying

and its just fucked.

You're going to have to do something about that, I think.

There's nothing to do.

But you're not in good shape.

Well, when I was in good shape,

that's what lead to all this.

So it's pointless.

Doesn't matter.

No it does matter,

you have to take care of this little boy.

It's not just that.

What else is going on?

It's like,

as awful as everything was it's my fault.

None of this--

- That's not true. - would have happened--

- It's completely true. - It's not your fault.

It's 100% true.

It is not.

And I think if you were in a little bit better shape,

you would understand that that's really faulty logic.

I was an idiot and I thought that I could help Tom and--

Why is trying to help someone being an idiot?

I don't see that that has any validation whatsoever.

Everything that happened was a direct result

of my stupid actions.

You don't think this guy embodied that violence before?

He had a history of it,

everybody knew that he was sexually violent.

He was inappropriate with people,

it was just a matter of time before he went off.

It's like he knows, it like he knows what happened

and I,

and I try to hold him and I touch him,

but I can't, it's like he can see that I don't love him.

And he's right.

But you've gotta come to terms with that, honey.

You have to deal with that, this is your baby.

He's his own person, he's not Tom.

I don't think that you're-- I think that you see it too.

Look I, I see a certain resemblance

and it's hard because we were all traumatized by him

but we have to just go on and I think if you got some help

and were able to process this,

you would be able to have a relationship with your son.

The only way to do that would be

to wipe my memory clean of what happened

and there's no way to do that.

Blow my brains out and then I'll forget.

Oh come on, that's just not clear thinking

and honey, the drinking doesn't help.

It's the only way I can sleep.

You never come out of the postpartum depression

and you've never dealt with the rape.

I mean, when did you realize this was Tom's baby?

I don't-- Immediately.

- I don't know. - When you were carrying him?

No, I think I just hoped that

it would be you know, Chachis's, Eric's,

someone who I'd loved,

and it's this.

It's like-- I feel like every cell in his little body

carries that moment.

I know that he will grow into his own person

and he needs time for that.

And you need to love him-- What kind of person

- can he grow into? - And give him--

- A monster like his father? - You got to

set an example, you're all he has.

I don't know where your family is,

I don't know why they're not-- I don't want to talk

about this anymore.

I know it's really hard but it doesn't get better.

Each day it seems to get worse with you

and you are too young and he is too young.

You've gotta get out there and have some sort of life

or at least help me.

I can't bring him up

and I can't be here all the time

and I'm actually really worried about him.

Me too.

That was some fight you had earlier today.

What the hell Adam?

You need to chill out a little bit.

Hey.

She's always the one starting it.

It doesn't really matter, just try and tone it down,

you know?

Just a little bit, what are you guys fighting about anyway?

She thinks that every time I leave the house

I'm out fucking some other girl, she's stupid.

Well, I don't know,

you leave for hours at a time,

who knows what the hell you're doing?

Come here, come here.

You know, if you had a job that you're going to

then we would know where you were

but she doesn't know and she's here stuck with a kid

and feeling insecure, you know?

Yeah.

Which is difficult for her.

Come here, baby.

God, look at this guy.

He's so cute, but looking at this baby's eyes.

He looks exactly like Tom.

It's kinda terrifying, I mean he's just a little boy

and he's so sweet, but then sometimes when he looks at you--

- Yeah. - Don't you get that feeling?

- Yeah, exactly. - And then it's

really hard on his mom too.

- Yeah. - Really hard on her.

Is that why she's never here?

Yeah.

She's mainly in her room.

She takes a lot of naps.

I don't know, she just can't deal with it day to day.

- I know. - After what happened.

I don't think she's talking to many people.

She just seems really out of it.

She's gonna have to figure out what she's gonna do,

but she's gotta get better before she can do it.

I mean, Christ it's hard for her even to go to the store

and talk to anyone.

Much less trying to get her to interview

or looking for something to do, I don't know.

I thought I could help her,

but I don't know if I'm doing a damn bit of good.

And somebody needs to start working in this house.

I know where this is going.

Honey, I just need some help.

I'm trying to get a job.

- I know. - There's just

really none here.

I know.

But if you talk to that guy,

I know it's not the kind of work you want

but I think he'll hire you.

'Cause I'm down to the dregs in my savings

but I just think if you guys out

there arguing in that trailer all the time

and I think like, Jesus if they just

were out looking for work, You know?

But then the kids would always have to be with you.

Well we could switch it off, I mean,

it's not like you can find full time work in this town.

You maybe able to, if I can get you on that crew.

I'm not sure what it is,

it's some sort of construction deal, I don't know.

Those eyes, man.

Wow, incredible.

But he's sweet.

I'll never forget any of that.

He's dead now, we don't have to worry about him.

I know.

There you go, keep it flat.

Okay a little bit more, back and forth now.

Spread it out,

it's a big job, gonna go all day.

That was beautiful.

Want me to keep playing?

Yes.

Okay.

Another one.

Come here.

Come here Thomas.

Oh, wow!

What is that?

What is that, baby?

What is that?

Come here, sweetie.

Come on, let's go play.

Wanna go play?

Yeah?

Let's go play, baby.

Come on, go play.

Come on, come on.

Hey, babe, be careful, Ty's asleep.

He's inside.

Oh, come here.

Come here.

Come here.

Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.

I think you're fucking Miguel.

He's very charming.

I remember he used to flirt with me

and I didn't care but,

I guess this one time I took him to a party

and there was a jacuzzi

and so we got in.

He started rubbing my leg

and I just looked at him

and I looked at his lips

and realized he was so sexy.

And I was like "You know what, I want a piece of that".

So we started making out

and he was such a good kisser.

So we got out of the jacuzzi

and went into these guest rooms,

went into this one room

and we were all wet and he was just in his boxers.

And the sex with him was so crazy,

it was unbelievable.

I mean he just went straight down,

started eating my pussy, eating all of it.

I couldn't believe it.

Like, a 17 year old kid

and no one's good at eating pussy,

but he's incredible.

I mean, only like hardcore lesbians

are good at eating pussy.

And it was like there was a rhythm to it

a beat.

Kind of like music.

And he had this little mustache,

I never thought I would like some Mexican, latino mustache,

but when he was eating my pussy it would just tickle me

and then after that I was addicted to it.

Then we started to fuck,

but then the owner of the house walks in

and was like "What the fuck are you doing".

So we ran out of there and I'm like.

"You're coming with me little one".

I take him back to my house

and I have this giant bed.

And he tells me to take off my clothes

and throws me down on the bed, we're rolling around

and he's so sexy.

I mean, it doesn't even make sense,

he's just this 17 year old kid,

but he was like a Dandy from the 1940's.

And he was the fucking best.

He had this way of looking into your eyes

and making you feel like you were the last girl on Earth.

That's the way he makes all of the girls feel.

The other thing was that, I mean,

he has a perfect penis.

It's like a classic penis, you know,

big, round, thick.

I don't think Adam loves me anymore.

Why?

He just doesn't act the same, he's different.

He doesn't look at me the same,

he doesn't fuck me the same,

he just expects me to be here when he gets off work.

Shit.

Sucks.

I mean he doesn't even try to be a father to his kids,

he doesn't try to be my lover anymore.

I'm so fucking tired of it here.

Then let's leave.

Go where?

To Austin.

Why Austin?

I don't know, there's a good music scene over there,

it's way bigger, there's more places to play.

I want to play my guitar, so that seems like a good place.

You should come with me.

Go with you.

Hell yeah.

You just want me to pick up everything and leave?

Yeah.

What about Thomas?

- I don't know, I mean, - And Tai.

I don't think they care, they just got out of the pin.

We could take the Oregon shit

and move to ,

I don't want to me stuck here

and you're too pretty to be stuck here too,

let's get the fuck outta here.

What about Adam?

Fuck Adam.

Well, I can't just pick up everything and leave.

Yes you can.

What kind of mother would that make me?

- Donna? - No.

But I really want you to come

and I could make money and I could get shows and shit.

I'm getting better at playing the guitars.

I mean you don't have to come,

I'm not kidnapping you or anything.

I haven't had a girlfriend since I was 12 years old.

And I love you.

- You love me? - Mhmm.

Since the second I saw you,

I was like damn.

You're amazing.

- I think I love you too. - Mhmm.

What the fuck!

Shit.

Shit.

Yeah.

You killed my father.

I have a 9 year old son

and my fucking ex-wife took him away from me

and I didn't do anything.

I love my son.

I would never discipline him the way

my father disciplined me.

I would never use my fist, these hands are for love.

The strap is for discipline.

I just miss him.