All language subtitles for Station.19.S07E06.WEB

Travis,
if you ask me one more time
if I'm okay, I won't be.

You took over a press conference
in front of the mayor.

-I just--
-I don't wanna talk
about it, Travis.

- Why is that so hard
for you to understand?
- No word.

Chief and I
are doing everything we can
to make sure you keep your job,

but it's up to the mayor.

Victoria Hughes
is an essential member of FD.

Crisis One is personal to her.

So personal
that she felt the need
to publicly humiliate me.

So personal
she's willing to fight for it.

The individuals
holding the purse strings
of the city we're watching.

Don't you think
I could have parlayed
19's win into an argument

-for supporting their programs?
-Would you have?

Really? Parlayed it into
an argument for support?

This is about
disciplinary action for Hughes.

-Not Crisis One or any other--
-On the contrary, Mayor Osman.

This is about our community.

The individual people
in this community
that we help every day.

That is what I'm trying
to make you understand.

Can somebody help us?

He tripped and landed
on some glass.

It's not a fire.

The kid says you do things
like this nowadays.

Yeah, the fire department's
always done things like this.

- Not in my day.
- Still is your day.

I know you're old,
but you're sitting right here.

I'm 74. I don't feel
a day under 200.

Well, you look great.

That's what a diet
like mine will get you.

- Oh, yeah?
- Yeah.

-And what's that?
-Not enough of anything.

You wouldn't think that
a model and a homeless guy
would have the same diet.

Surprise.

See, that's why I said
we should come here.

I heard about your clinic.

Your hands are softer
than any VA doc's.

I'm wearing gloves.

He's messing with you.
He thinks he's funny.

I am funny.

-VA, huh?
-Yeah.

I did, uh, two tours
in Afghanistan myself.

-Oh. So did the kid.
-Yeah.

Vietnam for me.

But this one--

No desire to serve your country?

I'm a firefighter.

All right, you're all set.
Just keep it dry.

Make sure the dressing
doesn't fall off,
so you don't get an infection.

And, a-actually,
I have something for you.

- Oh.
- Huh? Yeah.

I-I see
what you're doing here.

I slept rough for a while too.

So-- It was just easier to have
some of those in your pocket.

- They're not that good.
- Mm-mmm.

But, you know, in a pinch.

You were homeless?

I was.

We're here
if you need anything, sir.

All right, let me help you up.

-All right.
-There you go.

We'll definitely be back

when we need
more not-good granola.

Here you go.

Hang on. You're
a types-with-two-fingers guy?

I'm not typing with two fingers.

-I'm just--
-Mmm. Really?

Two vets came in
the other day, both unhoused.

An old guy and a kid.

Two different wars,
both homeless.

How are we not taking care
of our people? Huh?

So I'm trying to get
some housing help, but the VA--
These government sites. God!

Do you know where
they're living now?
Because once you lose 'em--

Uh, at the turn off of 11th.
Right by the park there.

Good.
I mean, not good, but it's one of the safer encampments.

How do you know that?

Uh, my brother has struggled.

And, uh, yeah.

Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
Break it up. What you got
going on over here, huh?

Oh. N-not for ladies' ears.

Oh, okay.
So is backhanded misogyny
for ladies' ears?

-He's teaching us
dirty limericks.
-Okay.

- You wanna hear one?
- Of course.

- Make sure I get it right. Um.
- Yeah.

A dirty old man in Leeds,
notorious for unholy deeds,

tried to reform
and really conform,

- but gave up and succumbed to his needs.
- -All right.

Eh. Well, okay,
who's got something better?

-I know someone
has something-- Okay.
-Uh, a bartender taught me this.

-There once was a boy
named Max, who went--
-Nope!

- You love this one.
- No, no, no.

No. You told me that one,
and-- Ve-- Hard veto.

-Dad, Dad, please.
-It's a community gathering.

It's too much.
Do-Do not do it, Gibson.

All right, sir.
Let's hear yours.

There once was a knight,
taut and bold,

who shrank when out in the cold.

But a fair maiden's whoosh
and the bounce of her tush

restored him
to a sight to behold.

- Oh, my God.
- So like a medieval ass man.

I like it. Respect.
Okay. Here's mine.

Her lover was too much the sap,
so she drew him a treasure map.

And the direction he took
left her happily shook,

'cause X marks the spot
in her lap.

-Oh!
-Oh!

- That was good.
- I like that one the best.

Thank you.

Hey, me too.
So stand down, Private.

Do you know that crows
have crazy memories?

Like, if you mess with one,
it will remember your face
for years.

I do not plan
to mess with a crow--

I mean-- And the epigenetics.

Like, if their
great-great-great
grandfather crow,

who they've never met,
never been on the planet
at the same time as,

is a certain way,
they're probably gonna be
that way too.

- Okay.
- Here you go.

-Thank you.
-Isn't that interesting?

And, like, scary?

-And wild?
-Okay. Bella, what is going on?

Why are you drinking
too much whiskey
and talking about crows?

Just thinking
about my brother.

I mean, my family in general.
Nature, nurture, all of it.

Okay.

I'm just worried about him.

Did something happen?

No. I mean, nothing new.

But he's living on the streets,
and I'm letting him.

You're not letting him.

And also,

you can't force him to do
anything he's not willing to.

- The same way
I couldn't force Andrea.

Isn't that terrifying?

I mean, we grew up
in the same families
as our brothers.

-Yeah, but we're different.
-Now we are.

But what if we have
time bombs in us

just like them, but--
but they haven't exploded yet?

Worse. What if we bury
a time bomb in our kid?

Okay, okay, okay.

First of all, m-m-mental health
is not a time bomb,

and it's also
something you and I
know to pay attention to

because of our families.

And we're gonna do
the same for our kid.

You're good at this.

I know.

You're good at it too.

-What? Stressing at a bar?
-No. No.

Look at you, already
prioritizing the well-being
of our future kid.

My mom didn't do it.
Your mom didn't do it.

You're gonna be a great mom.

What?

I didn't know
I needed to hear that.

It's true.

Crows be damned.

No crows!

Warren, I need you!
Help! Help!

I-I don't know
if he took something.
He's been acting erratic.

- I didn't take anything.
- Arlo, can you hear me?

Can you hear me?
If you took something,
you need to let me know.

No, he's sober.
He's been struggling lately, but I really don't think he--

-Uh, fruity breath.
-Morris, do you know
if Arlo is diabetic?

Yeah, he is.
He's been rationing his insulin.

Morris, I'm gonna need you
to stand back.

No. Morris. Morris, over here.
Over here with me, okay?

Hey, Arlo, stay with me, buddy.
Stay with me.

Hey, Morris, Morris. Hey, hey.
Are you okay? Are you okay?

Okay.

Blood sugar is over 700.

He's dehydrated.
He could be hyperkalemic.

- I'm gonna need the aid car.
- Got it.

LIFEPAK on.

- All right. Let's move!
- Cables are in.

-What's happening?
-Morris, this is something

that needs to be treated
at the hospital, okay?

Morris, how long has he been
rationing his insulin?

Uh, a few weeks, maybe more.
He knew he was running low.

He was trying to make it last.
He didn't think
he could get any more.

-Morris, you can't come.
-He-He-He doesn't like
being alone.

-He'll panic.
-I will be with him.

-He knows me.
-It's okay, Morris.
We'll meet 'em there.

We'll meet 'em there.
We'll meet 'em there, okay?

Let's go sit down, okay?
Let's go sit down, Morris,
all right?

Come on. Come on.

No pulse. Starting compressions.

Come on, Arlo.
We're almost there.

Come on. Come on.

Come on.
The hospital's not far.

It's all right.

Warren.

Yeah.

Okay.

He's gone.

He's gone.

Morris, I'm so sorry.

I'm so, so sorry.

I'm sorry.

It's not just that she connects
with people

in a way I've never seen before,

but she is teaching
other firefighters
to do the same.

Great, then there'll be
plenty of people there
to fill the void

when she and her programs
are gone.

Crisis One is not
a Vic Hughes's program.

It is a citywide FD initiative,
and it's a big part of why

FD was able to save
all those lives
at the Space Needle.

My expectation is
the fire department
will continue to do that work,

just like they used to
before it had a special name.

Oh!
With all the resources you're cutting?

Yeah, I'm gonna need you
to push my 11:30.

On hold.

Veterans Benefits' Adminstr--

Hello?

Y-Yes, the--

I-I just got off
the phone with him.

Could you-- No, no,
don't put me on hold, please!

Don't put me on hold!

Ugh!

I've been trying
to get Morris VA housing
since the spring, okay?

Everything is a roadblock.

I can't even get
accurate information,

never mind starting
the application process.

- Anything "government,"
it's not just red tape.

Babe, it's flypaper.

Can you imagine
if we didn't join FD
after we served?

- Oh.
- This could have been me

or you
or so many people we know.

I couldn't have kept a job
in business or, God forbid,
customer service

with my brain still calibrated
to military life.

That crazy rigidity
that maybe you will
shake off one of these days.

- Pot, kettle.
- I'm just saying

it is very nice
to be the chill one
in a relationship for once.

The chill-- You are not
the chill one in the rela--

-I am very much the chill one.
-No, you're not--

I really am.

-I really am.
-Okay.

You're the chill one,
but I'm the funny one.

Yes, yes. You are that.
Yes, you are that.

And you know what else?
You are the considerate one,
and you're the patient one.

And you are the steadfast one
and the kind one...

...and the one
most seduced by flattery.

Definitely.

- Hello?
- Oh, yep, yep.

- Hello?
- Please hold.

I can't believe that
there is a possibility
that there is a baby in there.

-Our baby.
-Okay. No, no, no.

I'm sorry. I'm excited.

I just wanted this for so long

that if I let myself
get too excited about it now

before we know for sure,
I'm afraid that I won't
be able to take it if...

No ifs.

Let's not talk about it for now.

I'm serious. Let's talk
about something else.
Anything else.

I don't know what to talk about.

Okay. Well, what about how--

Let's talk about how crappy
of a captain Beckett is or--

-Uh.
-Or Jack being AWOL.

Oh. Morris came in today
while you guys
were on that call.

-Is everything okay?
-Yeah.

Sullivan was giving him
his old sleeping bag
from his camping days.

Sullivan does not give off
an "I camp" vibe.

I don't think it was that old.

-Aw.
-Mmm.

I know.

Uh-uh--

-I didn't say anything.
-You thought about it.

You thought-- Professional.

You don't know
what I'm thinking.

Chop-chop, 19. Come on.

I know you're young
and think you have
all the time in the world.

I do not share that affliction.

I see we need to work on posture
in addition to speed.

There we go.

There we go. Thank you, Herrera.

This afternoon,
we'll be training
with the SFD dive unit--

Crisis One requested to 11th
and Central Parkway.

He might've gotten through more
if he wasn't so in love with
the sound of his own voice--

That's just me and Herrera.
So enjoy the rest of Beckett's
one-man show.

- I can take
all of you. Get back!

I can take you!
I can take all of you!

-No! No!
-Morris.

-Morris. Morris, hey. Hey, hey.
-No! No! No!

Look. Look at me. Look at me.
This is Vic--

It's Vic and Andy
from Station 19.
We are your friends.

-What? No.
-Let's get him
out of the street.

-It's Vic and Andy
from Station 19.
-No! No!

-Morris, you're okay.
-No! What?

Breathe. Breathe in for four.

- Four?
- Box breathing.
Can you show him? Okay.

In for four. Hold for four.

Breathe.

Wait. No, no, no. Wait.
Hey! Stop, stop, stop! Stop!

-Let her go.
This is Andy. You know her.
-Get away from me!

-Morris. Morris. Morris, stop.
-I'm not gonna lose you!

-You have to let her go.
This is Andy.
-Di di mau!

I'm not gonna lose you!

-Morris, wait. No.
-I'm not gonna lose you.

Stop, stop, stop.
We are not in Vietnam.
You are not in Vietnam.

- You are safe.
You are in Seattle.

- This is Andy.
You gotta let her go.

Tell him who you are.

It's Andy.
You're in Seattle,
and you're safe.

Just keep breathing. Breathe.
- That's it. That's it.

Let's go sit down.

- In for four.
- Okay, come on.

Two, three, four. Hold.
- Come on. That's it.

Two, three, four.

- Sit, sit, sit. We got you.
- We're right here.

-I got you. I got you.
-We're right here.

It's okay.

Can you give me a minute?

Uh, of course.

-Of course.
-Yeah.

Yeah. We're gonna be
right over there
at the aid car, okay?

We're just gonna
get you some water.

Okay.

Just keep
breathing for me, okay?

-How did you know
what he was saying?
-Di di mau?

Saigon Grill.

Travis and I do takeout
from there a few times a week.

It means "hurry up."

He's only gonna get worse,
you know?

I mean, he was fine
when Arlo was alive.

-Not fine circumstantially
obviously...
-Right.

...but he was steady.

It's just the isolation
that's wrecking him.

You know, these vets--
They need more
than basic services.

-They just-- They need a friend.
-Well, we could be friends.

You know?

I'm just worried it's--
it's not gonna be enough.

Here, Morris.

- That's right.
- Hey.

I'll make you a deal.

After Hughes is terminated,

you can allocate her salary
any way you see fit.

-No.
-You don't know
how to make a deal.

Not with someone
who doesn't know
how to keep them, no.

And besides, the deal
that you're proposing
is a bad one.

I tried.

Good thing she taught
so many people
how to do what she does.

We won't miss her
when she's gone.

Hey, Morris.

My man, I pulled
the perfect coat for you.

You know, that's funny
because I pulled
the perfect coat for him.

- Come on.
- You guys are too much.

- Huh?
- -Well, you can have them both.

Oh, yeah, with all
that closet space I have.

- Hey. Get out of here.
- Okay. I am sorry,

but I'm gonna have to break
someone's heart tonight, boys.

With my coat, it might be
some lady's heart.

Here you go.

This-- This really means
the world, guys.

They're both wonderful,
but I gotta go with Ruiz's.

- You're killing me. Ugh.
- Wise choice, Morris.

-There you go. There you go.
-Oh. Yes.

-Let's get you in there.
-Yes. Yes, yes.

There you go.

Oh, yeah. Like a glove.

I know it's stupid,
but, uh, I needed a win, man.

And I needed a coat.

It looks sharp on you.

- Looking good. No hard feelings.
- Sharp.

All right. It's a good look.
That's the important thing.

- Okay. Look at me. Look at me.
- Look at you.

I used to think that
Arlo's generation had it easier
when they got back,

but maybe I was wrong.

He told me when they got back,

the tarmac was covered
with people

with signs and balloons
welcoming everybody.

But w-where were
those people with balloons
when the kid was hurting?

When we got back from Vietnam,
oh, there--

...there was a crowd all right,

but they spit on us
as we walked by.

-God, Mo.
-Yeah.

"To Vivianne
who loved this park.

Love, Hal and your girls."

Who-- Who do you think
"your-- your girls" are?

Is it, like, uh, her daughters
from a first marriage
or something?

It's such funny wording.
Like, he gets the plaque,
and only he gets a name?

- He paid for the plaque.
- Okay.

It's nice that he
put them in at all.

Maybe they're her dogs
that he couldn't stand

or her-- her friends
he couldn't stand.

Okay. I'm sensing
a pattern here.

Like just something
that's coming back around.

You know-- You know,
if this plaque said, "To Morris
who loved this park"...

-Mm-hmm?
-...they'd never guess
that he loved it

because it was
the one place that the cops
wouldn't harass him.

Well, I would do a better job
with the wording. Unlike Hal.

Anybody who sat on this bench
would know that Morris Hapgood

was the smartest
and most loyal sage and friend.

You're an inspiration, buddy.

Really.

"Sage" just makes people
think old.

Okay.

I'll keep working on it.

You win. Okay.

Oh, God. I gotta go to class.

All right. Um...

You know what? Keep this.
Keep all of this. Keep this.

- Okay.
- See you next time, all right?

-Next time.
-Bye!

Bye-bye.

Are you okay?

Yeah.

Yeah, it's just it didn't take.

Carina's IUI.

We are not pregnant.

Again.

Girl, I'm so sorry.

Hey!

Um... What is--

-Wow. What?
-Come here. Come here.

- What are you doing?
- Yeah.

Happy-giddy you,

way more disconcerting
than authoritative-serious you.

Ooh. He's gonna feel bad
when he finds out
what I just did.

- What did you do?
- I got Morris

an interview for some
VA transitional housing.

- Hey. All right.
All right, all right.
- Yes!

Fine. I feel a little bit bad
about calling you scary

when really you are the man.

Nice.
That's amazing, man.

That explains that weird dance.

I love it though.
Thank you. That's amazing.

He's all set up?
We don't have to do
anything else?

- He's good.
- Well done.

Get out of the road!

Move!

Move!

Come on, pops.

Come on! Gotta get to work!
- Hold on please.

- Morris.
- Hey, Gramps. Move it!

Hey, just hold on
a second, okay?
Hold on. Hold on.

Morris. Morris.

Morris, what are you doing?

What are you doing? You--

-You look
really tired, Mo.
-I am.

Okay. These honking cars
probably aren't helping.

Let's get you out of the street.

Let's get you
off the street, okay?

We don't want you
to get hit, right?

-It wouldn't matter.
-Yes, it would.

I would be devastated, Morris.
Okay? I'd be devastated.

- Let's get you sat down, okay?
- They're going too slow.

- I wouldn't die.
- Take a seat, take a seat,
take a seat.

Morris, can you tell me
what happened? They cleared out
your encampment?

It's all gone. Everything.
What am I supposed to do now?

My documents for--
for the housing interview.

They were in the tent.

The garbage truck came
and took everything.

Everything I have in the world.

I'm so tired of this.

- This is you once again--
- No, no,
it's your ego.

That's why
you wanna fire Hughes.

What she did to you

is exactly what you desperately
wanna do to the money guys

and to
the special interest clowns

and cronies and bureaucrats
who run cities,

the ones that you
campaigned so hard against
but who now own you.

And you wanna push back,
but you're afraid.

And you hate her
because she wasn't. Listen.

Don't fire the people
who are really on your side

to appeal to the people
who aren't.

That is the quickest way
to lose everything.

Insubordination. Nice.

Is this where Hughes learned it?

-Listen, I'm trying to help--
-Sit down.

We're figuring this out today.

Morris lost everything.

I can't believe we have to start
all over again from scratch.

Yeah. But now,
without his social security card

and his birth certificate,
it'll be--

Even further back than scratch.

-Do you want him
to move in with us?
-What?

I know that's not how you fix
something like this.

I'm just saying I would.

What?

What? What?

"Move in with us"?
Do you wanna move in together?

Okay.

Okay, look, I know
we haven't had
this conversation,

but, like, aren't we
moving in that direction?

Not tomorrow, but-- Help me.

Why do I suddenly feel
so self-conscious?

And why do I feel like
I'm 22 years old
when we talk about next steps?

'Cause the last time we had
that kind of conversation,
we were probably that age.

-No, we were older.
-Maybe a little bit.

But it was easier.

This is hard?

No, not this.

Not this.

Everything around it.

Around us.

What-- What are you doing?

I wanna be so ridiculous
that when I say "I love you.

I wanna move in with you,"

you'll never feel self-conscious
about any of this ever again.

-You're gonna break the bed.
-I'm gonna break a lot of beds
with you, babe.

-Oh, stop, stop,
stop, stop.
-No.

So?

Yeah. Yeah.

-But first--
-Oh, here we go.

First, we gotta figure out
how to get Morris new paperwork

so we can start
the housing process again.

Look,
I know you don't
wanna be here,

but everyone gets
a Crisis One shift.

I need you to hold it together
for this guy, okay?

Okay.

- Hey.
- Ah. If--

If I knew you were coming,
I would have picked up
the place.

- You know what?
I'm gonna do it now.

Okay. Very nice. All right.

You know, I know your stuff
got cleared, Morris,
so I got you some replacements.

- You didn't have to do that.
- Look at it.

Solaire Rambler 300?

-"The Rolls Royce of tents!"
-"The Rolls Royce of tents!"

- It's the one you wanted, right?
- Oh, thank you.

But, you know, there's
a shelter on Monroe, Morris,

that I can get you a bed
in if you want.

-I told you I can't do
a shelter again.
-Okay.

All right.

Hello? Excuse me, please.
Can you please not?

I'm just trying to have
a private moment with a friend.

Can I ask you
a few questions about
the charity work you're doing?

-No, you can't.
-Just one comment
for the article.

-She told you
we're not here for you.
-Sorry.

Okay.

Um, Morris.
Morris, I'm so sorry.

This-- You know this
wasn't some publicity stunt.

- No.
-I didn't know she was gonna be here.

It's fine. Sh-She's always here.

Plus, she got my good side.

Okay.

- Let's get you set up, huh?
- Okay.

- Okay. Here.
- Oh, goodness. Yes.

-What's going on with you?
-What?

You're just acting strange.

Now you're hiding things
in your locker?

It's, uh--

-It's T.
-Hmm?

Testosterone.

I started on it last week.

Now that my levels are right,

-I'm starting to feel
like myself again.
-Good.

Starting to feel like
my 20-year-old version
of myself, actually.

-In all the ways,
if you know what I mean.
-Okay.

So, why are you hiding it?

Well, I haven't
told Miranda yet.

-Haven't told her what?
-Um...

That he's on testosterone.

- Dude.
- It's not a big deal.

-And now he feels amazing.
-Huh.

- "Faster than a speeding bullet,
more powerful than a locomotive,

able to leap tall buildings
in a single bound."

- She, um-- She doesn't
get that reference.

- Oh, okay. Okay.
- We're just--

There we go.

Oh, I get it.

Your shots give you
super strength, whereas mine--

my shots, and shots, and shots,
make me feel terrible.

We're doing IVF.

My eggs, her oven.

It's awful. It's awful.

It's like I can feel
my follicles growing my eggs.

- Hmm.
-It's like-- It's like grape jelly.

It's like grape jelly just
sloshing around inside of me.

Why grape?

I got it.

I love that your boy shots
make you feel incredible,

while mine make me feel
like a bloated chicken coop.

Chicken coop?

Because I'm a freaking
egg factory, Beckett.

IVF. Keep up.

When my ex-wife
was doing IVF,
peppermint helped.

Engine 19
and Ladder 19 requested to
11th and Central Parkway.

Hey, hey. It's the encampment.
It's Morris's encampment.

Should I switch with someone?
I know it really well.

Can't do it today, Hughes.

You're on probation
until we hear otherwise
from the chief.

I'll see you in a bit.

Let's move, people. Let's move.

-Beckett, Wiggins,
status on the south side?
-In progress.

Bishop, Green,
is the north side contained?

Roger, Captain. Line is working.

Warren, Cutler, more patients
on their way to triage.

- Copy.
- -Sullivan, Montgomery, evac status?

Talk to me, people.

Hey, somebody
needs to get Morris
out of his tent now.

I should just tell her.
Just the facts. It'll be
easier for her to hear--

You want me to do it?
We've been doing
Crisis One together.

- Let me do this.
- Hughes.

Uh.

Morris...

I'm-- I'm so sorry.

Uh, we're gonna do a hotwash
and a critical incident
stress debriefing.

-I'm gonna call Diane.
-I should do it.

The CISD.

Well, yeah, of course,
you'll do it with us.

I mean, you--
you weren't on the call,

but obviously, he was--
he was really important to you.

No, I mean,
I'd like to run the debriefing.

I am trained for this,
and I know how much
he meant to all of us.

-Okay, hold up. Captain--
-No, I can do it.

I need to do it.

Warren, call Dispatch.

Make our status
conditionally avail
for the CISD.

Copy that.

What we do is hard.

What we see and experience
every day in this job is hard.

This is
an acknowledgement of that

as well as
a safe place to discuss it,

so we don't bottle things up,

so we don't self-medicate
in harmful and dangerous ways.

So we can keep doing this job
for years to come.

Any questions on that?

This discussion is going to
revolve around four questions.

What did we do right?

What was supposed to happen?

What actually happened?

And what do we wish
we had done differently?

Now, these questions
are gonna bring up feelings,

and we're gonna discuss
those too.

So, what do we think
was done right?

We quickly established
a water supply
immediately upon arrival.

We got two hose lines
working around the perimeter
to keep the fire contained.

We set up an efficient

and effective triage area.

We protected exposures.

You two haven't said very much.
Anything you wanna add?

Okay. Travis?

I don't think
we did anything right.

Okay. Can you say
a little more about that?

- Hey! Morris.
- Come on. Let's get you
out of here.

- Come with us.
- I have to--

This is my stuff.
This is my tent.

I understand,
but you have to come with us.

-No, leave me alone.
-Whatever's inside that tent,
it's not worth your life.

We understand.

-Hey, you okay?
-I'm not leaving
without my stuff.

- Morris!
- No!

Okay. Um...

Okay.
What do we wish had happened?

I wish you were there.

That's what I wish
had gone differently.

And I'm not blaming you
for what went down or you
for not letting her go.

- Herrera isn't the reason I wasn't there.
- -I know that.

I know this isn't even rational.

But the question was,
what do I wish went differently?

- So I am telling you that.
- Yeah, I know,

and you were answering honestly
and that's exactly right, so...

You wish I'd been there
because...

Because I think you
could have convinced Morris
to leave his tent.

-What else?
-Because maybe I wouldn't be

carrying all this guilt
and failure for not saving him.

At minimum,
I wouldn't be carrying it alone.

Because...

Because?

Because when you're carrying
something with me,

even the garbage stuff,
it doesn't feel so impossible.

Travis, I wasn't there.

But I'm here now.

I am carrying this with you now.
Everyone in this circle is.

No one here is alone in it.

You're surrounded
by people who get it.

They get your pain and your loss
and your guilt and your anger.

You are surrounded
by the very best people
to help you through it.

You are too.

Morris didn't have that
for a lot of years.

But I know for a fact...

that we made sure he had it
in his last one.

So I'm gonna email everyone
some aftercare resources,
but I'm here too.

So, even though
this formal session is done,

you can grab me anytime
if you want to talk more
about any of this.

Okay?

And she did it again, folks.

Yeah, and it saved his life.
Wait, no, he died.

Hey, hey, hey.

No, Travis.
He's gone. He's gone.

We did everything we could
and he's gone.

He served a country that
didn't take care of him back.
Not even a little bit.

He tried to protect a world
that did not protect him.

Because you give and you give
and you give and you give,

and the second you need--
the second he wasn't strong--

The second he wasn't happy
and easy and funny and strong--

'Cause, I mean,
how could he be, right?

Because he knew how awful
the world could be.

Vic, are we still talking
about Morris here?

What does that mean?

Hang on, hang on.
I think what Travis was--

No, no, no. Of course
I'm talking about me!

I'm talking about me
who takes care of everyone
all the time. My entire life.

Me who tables my feelings
and my sadness and
my confusion and my fear

and cracks a joke
to make you all feel better

and more capable and fine
even when I am not fine.

When I can't breathe
because it's all so scary.

When I--

When I'm-- When my chest feels--

When I can't even see.

I can't even see through a--
a fog of-- when--

Do not touch me!

-Just give her some room.
Just let her breathe.
-I'm talking about Morris.

Of course it's about Morris,
and it's about me,
and about all of us, right?

It's about all of us,
'cause it's not just--
it's not just me.

It can't just be me.

Of course it's not.
It's-- It's not.

When he needed someone,
there was no one.
There was no one.

No, that-- that's not true, Vic.
All right? He had us.

-You know he had us.
He knew he had us.
-And it wasn't enough, Ben.

It wasn't enough.
It wasn't enough.

And pretty soon they're
gonna take away the thing
we tried to do to save him

because they take
everything away.

-They are taking it all away.
-We're not going to let them.

- None of us are gonna
let that happen.

We will not let them
take away Crisis One.

Oh, my God.

-I'm s-- I'm sorry.
-It's okay. You're okay.

- I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. Oh, my God.
- It's okay.

-Don't--
-Oh, my God.
I'm sorry. Excuse me.

I'm sorry.

Oh, come on.
You gotta be a little impressed.

I gave you, like,
a whole three minutes.

You know...

you saved everyone
from having full-on
nervous breakdowns today.

You mean
before I had one?

Come on.

Travis, for months, I didn't...

I couldn't feel anything.

And then...

God, I don't know what's worse.

The session was incredible,
blah, blah, blah.

- All the compliments
that you hate.

But, honestly,
the best part was--

was when you, you know...

Even the best ones
like when the strong women cry.

-I'm serious.
-I see how it is.

It's-- It was, you know,
like, in the movies
when the baby is born

and it's not crying
and everyone's panicking

because this means
something is very wrong.

But they're also trying not
to seem panicked

because they don't want to
worry the mother, and it's like,

nervous, silent eye contact,
nervous, silent eye contact.

But then the baby
starts wailing,
and everyone's, like,

relieved, silent eye contact,
relieved, silent eye contact.

Thank the Lord.

Yeah, I do. I do know
that moment in real life

because we are actual
first responders, you know.

-Okay, I don't
appreciate that tone.
-Yeah?

But it was like that.

It was like that
when you started crying.

It was like,
"Phew. The baby's fine.

The baby made it."

-I'm the baby?
-Yeah.

- Sometimes you get to be
the baby...

and other people
take care of you.

Oh, I love you...

and I will always
take care of you.

- And your eyes
are gonna be so puffy now.
- Shut up.

It's gonna be so bad.

This is what you like.

Here you go, Captain.

I think you're gonna love it.

- Thank you.
- Oh, hey, Chief. Chief.

No, no, no, no. Relax.

After the day you all had,
please, really, you can relax.

Lieutenant Sullivan called me.

I'm so sorry about Morris.

I know how much
he meant to all of you.

What you meant to him.

All right, well,
this isn't going to rewrite
your difficult day,

but, uh, I do have
some good news.

Crisis One is safe.

For now.

What about Vic?
Does Hughes still have a job?

Well, who'd you think
was gonna run
the now-safe Crisis One?

You saved her job.

Her work saved her job.

The good work you all do
saved her job.

Crisis One saved her job.

- Well--
- Chief, let me get you
a bowl of gumbo.

-Hold on. Grab a seat.
-He'll fix you a plate.

This is the Warren Family
world-famous gumbo.

- Wow.
- -It was gonna cheer everybody up.

I once knew
a soldier named Morris,

who did the unthinkable for us.

Legacy fit for a plaque
from a life that gave back.

And a heart that beat love,
so enormous.