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My parents had
no personal experience
with schizophrenia.
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I mean, could you imagine
having a 20-something
year-old son
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that just tried
to murder somebody
and commit suicide?
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What would you do?
Where would you turn?
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Was there any place
to turn?
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Okay. Comfortable?
Mmm-hmm.
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Okay.
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You're cold?
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Want me to put it
around you shoulders?
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Where schizophrenia is diagnosed
between age 17 and 24.
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It's a tragic story.
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To be part
of the Galvin family
is to be part of a tragedy.
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This mutation
was present in every person
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in that family
who had schizophrenia.
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They might hear voices.
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They can command them
to do things.
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Command them
to do things.
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Thrown a cat
into a bonfire,
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dismembered a dog
in a bathtub.
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This family gave us
hope that there might be
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a chance
to cure schizophrenia.
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He shot her first
and then he shot himself.
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Well, it started
to fall apart.
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My brothers were falling ill.
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They were losing their minds.
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They were
losing their minds.
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There was no peace and quiet
growing up with nine brothers
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and two sisters
in a very small house.
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Some of the boys were just
a little bit too edgy.
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They got
a little bit too rough,
beyond just playfulness.
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And that's when you knew
something wasn't right.
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It just was
never talked about,
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nor did we know
what was going on.
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If you look at
that first incident,
which was really Donald,
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it took years before we really
started to know
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something was really wrong.
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"10:20 a.m.,
Donald Kenyon Galvin, 24,
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was booked
for protective custody
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in connection
with an alleged suicide
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and possible
homicide attempt."
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"He mixed acid and cyanide
and held his wife and himself
in the room.
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He had little insight
and gave little feeling
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about the seriousness
of his actions."
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Here is records
from Pueblo from the state
mental hospital...
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...from July 15th, 1970.
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That is less than a month
after the incident with Jean.
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And it says, "Donald is being
released to his father,
who lives in Colorado Springs,
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who plans to set up
private psychiatric therapy
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and continue
medications for Donald."
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Don came home
a mess.
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It really became apparent
that he had something
severely wrong with him.
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Donald's just been
a complete nutcase
for most of my life.
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He came home from college
ill when I was
a ten or 12-year-old boy.
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Though he spent a good portion
of that time in his room,
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reciting the Beatitudes
to himself.
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It's kind of hard
to ignore his behavior
when you're a child.
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I didn't know
what schizophrenia was
at the time, I mean.
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But yeah,
from age 11 or so on,
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I knew that there was
a serious problem there.
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Donald was difficult
to live with.
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My parents just had
such a difficult time
managing him and his illness.
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He would take all the pictures
off the walls
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or break all the statues
in the house,
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or he'd be burning photographs
in the fireplace.
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There was one time
when we came home,
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I remember going
in the front door,
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and the whole house
was empty of furniture.
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Being like,
"What is going on here?"
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And then it sort of
started to dawn on you.
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Ugh! It's Donald again.
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He had removed
all the furniture
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from the living room
and kitchen
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and taken it outside
up on the hill.
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I don't think my parents
were very good at managing
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those situations
without hysteria and anger.
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They would be
very angry at him.
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And then that would cause him
to be more agitated
and more violent.
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There was a lot
of bad times for Mom.
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I don't know how she did it.
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It was mostly that Donald
would just be abusive to her.
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You never know when
he was gonna come out
and do something stupid.
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Uh, like hold up a knife
to my mother's throat.
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I do remember Donald
coming after my mother
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physically, a few times.
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And other brothers
would step in.
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Jim, probably Mark and Joe.
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I never was personally
threatened by him
or physically harmed by him.
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But we were all
afraid of him.
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And we had all
witnessed his aggression.
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And so Jim became
my mother's go-to
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for babysitting
the younger kids.
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Jim was the brother
that would pick us up
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and take us home
from the swimming pool.
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He would take us skating
to the skating rink
in the wintertime
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and things like that.
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Jim,
he was fun to be around.
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He was cool.
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He drove a little
red convertible
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and had a motorcycle
and wore a leather jacket.
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Everyone always
called him James Dean.
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Compared him
to that kind of persona.
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That's sort of
too cool for school, you know.
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Bad boy.
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Jim,
he liked to party.
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He took me out to a place
when I was still underage.
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But, my older brother says,
"Oh, you look old enough.
You look over 18."
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I think I met Kathy,
who became his wife,
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one of those nights.
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They were in a bar
and drinking beer.
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Kathy was a very,
very lovely girl.
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Um... very nice person.
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And I thought
she was the best thing
that happened to Jim.
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I was, I think three,
when they got married.
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But Kathy and Jim were always
taking the young children
off my parents' hands,
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which I think,
they appreciated.
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I loved being with them.
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They were great fun.
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I mean,
they were always great fun.
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But then there's
this dark side to him,
that was horrible.
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I don't know
if Jim was, uh,
giving Mom and Dad a break
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because we spent
a fair amount of time
at his home,
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even on sleepovers.
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And it seemed like
for a lot of years,
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Jim and Kathy were
a pretty happy couple.
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But I don't know
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inside that relationship,
how things were.
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I don't know
how much the others remember
of those times,
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but Jim was
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extremely abusive to Kathy.
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He would come home
at night, drunk,
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and he would cause
some kind of ruckus with her.
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And there'd be
yelling and screaming.
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We would
just be hearing it.
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We'd be in the other room.
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Then sometimes
Jim would then leave,
you know.
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He'd go out in a rage
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and Kathy would say,
"Okay, come on, kids.
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Come on, kids.
Let's get in the car.
Let's go.
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Let's go. We need
to get out of here."
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Like, for fear
of our lives.
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But it was either
be there with that,
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or be at home with Donald,
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which for some reason
was scarier,
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because it involved things
that weren't real,
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whereas I think
Jim's was more concrete.
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It was like domestic violence
may be more
socially acceptable, perhaps,
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than schizophrenia.
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And so I don't know
which was worse.
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There are many causes
of people arriving
at this state of behavior
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and experience
that we call schizophrenia.
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But there are certain
common characteristics.
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Probably the most
dramatic characteristic are
what we call hallucinations,
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which can be very frequent,
very disturbing
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and dominate
the person's life.
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They hear things.
And generally,
what they hear are voices.
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Usually multiple voices,
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often of people
they don't know.
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Rarely are
the voices friendly.
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They're usually voices
that negatively comment
on their behavior,
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on their appearance,
on their thinking.
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They can command them
to do things that
can be very destructive.
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And they generate
tremendous anxiety
and discomfort.
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And this is one
of the most really dramatic,
harrowing experiences
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of individuals
with schizophrenia.
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Don and I
didn't get along very well.
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And, uh,
Don was physically abusive.
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Don and Jim were
at each other's throats
all the time.
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I tried to avoid the family
when it suited me to do so.
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And not be part of the strife
that was going on.
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After I graduated
from high school,
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I didn't visit
Colorado Springs very often.
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Because I got a scholarship
to go to music school.
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I had piano
as my major instrument
while I was going to school.
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And, uh...
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That's where I met my wife
after a couple of years
at the University of Colorado.
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Met in 1970.
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And married
January 9th in '71.
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And that was
51 years ago.
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When I first
went to his family,
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it seemed a little off.
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It was, uh,
overly orderly.
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And, um, Mimi,
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would give instructions
and everybody followed it
to the letter
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like they're little robots.
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I didn't see individual
personalities of interest.
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And I thought it was strange
that each girl
had their own little room.
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And these boys were stacked
two bunk beds in one room.
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So you had four in one room,
four in another
and two in another.
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Everything was in order.
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And everybody had a job.
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Somebody set the table,
somebody washed,
somebody dried.
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Mimi would deliver orders
and they would do it.
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It just seemed like
one bad apple
spoiled the whole bunch.
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Thanksgiving is supposed
to be a day to be thankful
for a bountiful harvest
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and whatever you have
in your life that is good.
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My mother had prepared
a beautiful meal
for everybody.
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It was all
prim and proper,
setting up the table.
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Beautiful tables,
china and the whole thing.
It was...
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They spared nothing there.
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But we were
one of those families
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who was to be seen
and not heard.
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I don't know
what sparked the argument
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between Donald
and Jim that day.
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I was the only sibling
in the dining room
when they came in.
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They were chasing each other
around the dining room table
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and Jim's faster.
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Donald can't catch him.
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They're on opposite sides
of the table
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and Donald just decides
to pick the table up
and throw it.
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And then my mother
comes in the room,
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sees the wreck
of her dining room,
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takes the rolling pin,
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smashes the gingerbread house.
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And I'm witness
to this.
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Like what the heck
is going on?
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Trying to get attention.
I think that was part of it.
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They wanted attention.
They were losing their minds.
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They needed help.
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But I think my parents
knew that there was something
going on with Jim.
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It sort of all
came crashing down
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within a matter of,
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felt like a very short time
in my life.
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I really didn't know
that Jim was schizophrenic
while I was growing up.
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Donald, you know,
was the first obviously,
to become ill.
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And I didn't know
about Jim's...
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I know he had some issues
as a young boy
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being admitted in Denver
at Fitzsimons Hospital.
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But then he came out
and he seemed like
he was okay.
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I was unaware, as a child,
that he was mentally ill.
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I had no understanding
or indication that
he had sought treatment.
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And that my parents
had helped him get treatment.
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And in retrospect, of course,
you know, he was quite ill.
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God,
you couldn't believe
what you were hearing
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that was happening.
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Jimmy running around naked.
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Donald on the monk road.
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I mean, you're going,
"What is going on
with these brothers of mine?"
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And so I started spending
a lot more time
with my friends.
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Going out
and being with others
outside of the house.
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I'm to partake
in the experimental drugs.
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Pretty much all of us
experimented with
recreational drugs.
242
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I remember my elder brothers
giving me marijuana
at a very young age.
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By middle school,
it was white crosses,
244
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which was a speed, an upper.
245
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And then on through college,
mushrooms, acid, cocaine.
246
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Anything and everything
and usually
all at the same time
247
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is how I put it.
248
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When I was a kid
and my parents
249
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would go out of town
on a business trip,
250
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my older brothers always had
a party at the house,
251
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at Hidden Valley.
252
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And there was
a lot of drug use.
253
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I saw firsthand
my brother smoking pot,
254
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when we came home
from college,
which I couldn't believe.
255
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Of course,
I was involved in athletics.
256
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If you were caught smoking
or something like that,
257
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you were off the team.
You were suspended.
258
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You didn't play.
259
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So, I didn't do
any of that stuff.
260
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My brothers,
Brian and Michael,
261
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I consider both of those
true old school hippies.
262
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Michael went to Woodstock.
263
00:20:37,758 --> 00:20:43,413
You know, he was definitely
truly part of that culture
as a young guy.
264
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This is
Michael right here.
265
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And you can see,
like, a little kid.
266
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He's, like,
so, like, just...
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I don't know.
268
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He just had a...
269
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a peacefulness about him.
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From a very young age,
I think.
271
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My parents were frustrated
because they wanted him
to, you know,
272
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find a career
and go about the normal things
273
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you're supposed
to go about in, in life.
274
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He was much too interesting
for a traditional career.
275
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He is an interesting guy.
276
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Um, my dad...
277
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I was a daddy's girl.
He was my Peter Pan.
278
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Like, my parents separated
when I was three.
279
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So he's always been,
sort of, a nomad.
280
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Like, he...
281
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It took him a long time
282
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to, kind of, find some
settlement in his life,
I think.
283
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He always has loved
his music.
284
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That's been
where he put his energy in
285
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because it was probably
his way of escape.
286
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Michael and Mom
did not get along well
when Michael was younger.
287
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He was a rebellious type,
you know.
288
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Mom always wanted him
to cut his hair
and things like that.
289
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I don't think my mom
understood the hippies at all.
290
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He was counterculture.
291
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He was...
292
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He epitomized
what my parents feared
293
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was causing
the schizophrenia.
294
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To see
whatever he saw as a kid
295
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and having to,
you know, process through
and go through,
296
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I can definitely
imagine that
297
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he would have had
to, kind of, determine
298
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"Am I normal? Am I okay?
Do I have this? Do I don't?"
299
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If I were him growing up
in a household like that,
300
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I probably would have
been like,
301
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"Wow," you know?
"Is this going
to happen to me?"
302
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Michael was in California.
303
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And one day,
I think he was 17,
304
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and he thought,
"Oh, we can't be that far
from the beach.
305
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I'm going
to go to the beach."
306
00:23:19,896 --> 00:23:22,103
And he cut through
a neighborhood
307
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or a trailer park
or something.
308
00:23:23,655 --> 00:23:26,344
And I think
someone's hose was running,
309
00:23:26,344 --> 00:23:28,655
and he took
a drink of water from it.
310
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The person called the police
311
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and had him arrested
for trespassing.
312
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He ended up
in a maximum-security
313
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state mental hospital
in California
314
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at the age
of 18 years old
for six months.
315
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Can you imagine?
316
00:24:01,275 --> 00:24:05,344
And so I hear my mom
is at home with Donald,
who's not well.
317
00:24:06,379 --> 00:24:08,034
Jim was not well, either.
318
00:24:10,896 --> 00:24:12,172
And then this happens.
319
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I don't think
they knew what to make of it.
320
00:24:22,482 --> 00:24:26,482
My brother, Michael,
was originally, I think,
taken to jail
321
00:24:26,482 --> 00:24:29,448
and then transferred
to the psychiatric hospital.
322
00:24:31,551 --> 00:24:34,482
And I think maybe my parents
played a hand in that
323
00:24:34,482 --> 00:24:36,793
in saying,
"Oh, he has a brother.
324
00:24:36,793 --> 00:24:38,551
This must be
happening to him, too."
325
00:24:43,793 --> 00:24:45,793
There was
some overcrowding,
I think, issues.
326
00:24:45,793 --> 00:24:47,137
And he had a choice.
327
00:24:47,137 --> 00:24:50,000
And I guess he chose to go
to a mental institution
328
00:24:50,000 --> 00:24:51,793
instead of staying
in the jail,
329
00:24:51,793 --> 00:24:55,965
which he said to me was
a One Flew Over the Cuckoo's
Nest sort of experience.
330
00:24:57,482 --> 00:24:59,034
I think he thought
it was gonna be easier.
331
00:24:59,896 --> 00:25:00,965
I think he thought
it was going to be
332
00:25:00,965 --> 00:25:03,482
a little bit, like,
more laid back or something.
333
00:25:03,482 --> 00:25:07,689
But mental institutions
at that time, in the '70s,
were not so much.
334
00:25:07,689 --> 00:25:10,482
Um, from my understanding,
they were a little more scary
335
00:25:10,482 --> 00:25:12,965
than probably just being
in a jail cell probably
would have been.
336
00:25:16,862 --> 00:25:20,000
My parents wanted
to have him committed.
337
00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:23,862
And Michael was
totally blown away,
338
00:25:23,862 --> 00:25:27,655
the fact that they really
didn't understand him.
339
00:25:29,000 --> 00:25:30,275
Because when
your brother has it,
340
00:25:30,275 --> 00:25:32,655
everybody just looks at you
and says, "Oh. Are you next?"
341
00:25:34,103 --> 00:25:36,275
You know, "Is that
going to happen to you?"
342
00:25:36,275 --> 00:25:39,931
I think my parents suspected
schizophrenia in Michael.
343
00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:42,586
But I don't know
if that was because
344
00:25:42,586 --> 00:25:44,137
they already
had experienced it
345
00:25:44,137 --> 00:25:45,689
with some of
my other siblings.
346
00:25:45,689 --> 00:25:48,896
So they think,
"Why not another one,"
you know.
347
00:25:48,896 --> 00:25:52,551
Certainly, with Michael,
that would have been
a misdiagnosis.
348
00:26:05,896 --> 00:26:08,793
My dad,
I think he's always had
to, sort of, present
349
00:26:08,793 --> 00:26:11,862
that he's not, you know,
ill like his brothers.
350
00:26:12,965 --> 00:26:16,034
Because I think
back in the '60s and '70s,
351
00:26:16,034 --> 00:26:18,275
when a teenager had
the long hair and the hippies,
352
00:26:18,275 --> 00:26:19,586
they thought something
was wrong with them.
353
00:26:19,586 --> 00:26:24,241
That it was, you know,
outside of that normal,
clean-cut boy.
354
00:26:24,241 --> 00:26:26,344
And I don't think
he's ever been that.
355
00:26:44,000 --> 00:26:45,344
I remember
many conversations
356
00:26:45,344 --> 00:26:49,103
with my mother on the phone
about what was going on.
357
00:26:49,103 --> 00:26:53,586
I dealt with it
on a as-it-comes-take-it,
you know.
358
00:26:53,586 --> 00:26:56,000
You deal with one at a time.
359
00:26:56,000 --> 00:27:00,068
I never thought
of the overall big picture.
360
00:27:00,068 --> 00:27:01,379
I mean,
there were some moments
361
00:27:01,379 --> 00:27:03,103
that I've heard about
with her,
362
00:27:03,103 --> 00:27:06,241
with Donald trying
to strangle her at one point
and kill her.
363
00:27:07,551 --> 00:27:08,448
Um...
364
00:27:10,275 --> 00:27:11,448
That had to be frightening.
365
00:27:12,482 --> 00:27:13,758
It had to be.
366
00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:42,379
"She became quite frightened.
367
00:27:42,379 --> 00:27:46,068
And the other
children in the home
broke up the struggle."
368
00:27:47,482 --> 00:27:49,758
The conflict
was often over medication.
369
00:27:50,793 --> 00:27:54,379
The conflict was often
over my mother
370
00:27:54,379 --> 00:27:56,862
having to orchestrate
the medicines,
371
00:27:56,862 --> 00:27:59,068
to administer
the medications
372
00:27:59,068 --> 00:28:01,655
and prevent Donald
from overdosing.
373
00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:07,965
John's mother would often...
374
00:28:09,275 --> 00:28:13,482
Every time we go, she says,
"Oh, I have no sharp knives
in the house."
375
00:28:13,482 --> 00:28:16,103
Well, that speaks volumes.
376
00:28:22,137 --> 00:28:27,379
John and I had traveled
with this old trailer
with an icebox
377
00:28:27,379 --> 00:28:29,413
because I didn't want
to sleep in the house.
378
00:28:31,482 --> 00:28:35,655
John's mother had made up
these beds for the kids.
379
00:28:35,655 --> 00:28:38,172
And we were invited
to go to dinner.
380
00:28:38,172 --> 00:28:43,551
And, um, so we left the kids
at John's parents' house.
381
00:28:44,896 --> 00:28:47,655
It took about, what,
20 minutes to get there?
382
00:28:47,655 --> 00:28:50,655
Yeah. Mmm-hmm.
About.
For this dinner date.
383
00:28:50,655 --> 00:28:53,068
And we were greeted
at the front door saying,
384
00:28:53,068 --> 00:28:54,896
"Oh, there's an emergency
at your home.
385
00:28:54,896 --> 00:28:56,344
You've got to leave
right now."
386
00:28:57,448 --> 00:29:01,931
So we got in the car
and booked... booked home.
387
00:29:06,344 --> 00:29:09,241
And there were
several cop cars there
with the lights blaring,
388
00:29:09,241 --> 00:29:13,137
um, you know,
twirling around,
and it was dark.
389
00:29:13,137 --> 00:29:15,689
And I rushed up the stairs.
390
00:29:15,689 --> 00:29:17,103
And we were
stopped by the police.
391
00:29:17,103 --> 00:29:18,379
"Oh, no,
you can't go there."
392
00:29:18,379 --> 00:29:20,586
And I said,
"My children, my children."
393
00:29:20,586 --> 00:29:24,103
And, um,
then they let us in.
394
00:29:29,758 --> 00:29:34,655
John's mother
had locked herself
in their bedroom,
395
00:29:34,655 --> 00:29:36,793
and she called the cops.
396
00:29:36,793 --> 00:29:38,137
And that might
have been the time
397
00:29:38,137 --> 00:29:40,448
that Jim was wandering around
with a gun or something.
398
00:29:40,896 --> 00:29:42,586
It was very frightening.
399
00:29:42,586 --> 00:29:44,275
323 to 584.
400
00:29:44,275 --> 00:29:46,103
It doesn't
take much imagination
401
00:29:46,103 --> 00:29:48,896
to realize
what could happen.
402
00:29:48,896 --> 00:29:51,241
You don't know
if you're gonna find
dead bodies.
403
00:30:04,689 --> 00:30:07,000
They never stayed
in that house again.
404
00:30:09,758 --> 00:30:13,655
After that incident,
there was no problem
us staying somewhere else.
405
00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:20,551
So here
you're seeing violence.
406
00:30:22,965 --> 00:30:27,241
And it was pretty chronic.
It was a pretty chronic thing.
407
00:30:27,241 --> 00:30:32,965
But my mother relied on Jim
to get the younger children
out of the house.
408
00:30:34,862 --> 00:30:38,103
I don't think my parents
had anywhere else to turn.
409
00:30:39,344 --> 00:30:42,448
Jim, of course, was causing
tremendous damage as well.
410
00:30:43,689 --> 00:30:45,241
But he wasn't the only one.
411
00:31:17,896 --> 00:31:20,655
Look at this,
here's the rock star, Brian.
412
00:31:22,793 --> 00:31:24,275
It was before I was born.
413
00:31:24,275 --> 00:31:27,172
But I know that everyone
always spoke about
414
00:31:27,172 --> 00:31:30,241
his having created
this band in high school
415
00:31:30,241 --> 00:31:34,172
that went on to play
all over the state.
416
00:31:34,172 --> 00:31:36,862
Um, oh, here he is.
That's a good one.
417
00:31:37,586 --> 00:31:39,896
That's how I remember him.
418
00:31:39,896 --> 00:31:42,551
The long hair
and the mustache
at the piano.
419
00:31:43,586 --> 00:31:44,758
Playing music.
420
00:31:47,068 --> 00:31:51,482
Brian could listen
to a piece of music
on the radio,
421
00:31:51,482 --> 00:31:56,103
and then he could
transpose it to the piano,
the guitar with one listen.
422
00:31:57,034 --> 00:32:00,068
He just had that
savant-type ability.
423
00:32:00,068 --> 00:32:01,827
He was really talented.
424
00:32:04,379 --> 00:32:06,896
My first
recollection of Brian
425
00:32:06,896 --> 00:32:08,655
is with his high school band,
426
00:32:08,655 --> 00:32:11,586
Paxton's
Back Street Carnival.
427
00:32:11,586 --> 00:32:16,172
And then in college,
during his college years,
428
00:32:16,172 --> 00:32:20,275
he played with a pretty
famous rock and roll band
from time to time.
429
00:32:20,275 --> 00:32:23,034
Rock and roll was
the "counterculture," right?
430
00:32:29,586 --> 00:32:33,000
Mother and Father,
of course, were part
of the establishment.
431
00:32:33,000 --> 00:32:35,344
They followed the rules.
432
00:32:36,586 --> 00:32:38,275
But the culture at that time,
433
00:32:38,275 --> 00:32:40,000
you've got to remember
we were in the '70s.
434
00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:43,758
So it was the drugs,
sex and rock and roll
435
00:32:43,758 --> 00:32:46,965
and to hell
with our government
because of Vietnam War.
436
00:32:50,275 --> 00:32:51,758
It was
a different time
437
00:32:51,758 --> 00:32:54,965
and everything
was anti-establishment.
438
00:32:54,965 --> 00:32:57,931
It was a brave new world.
439
00:33:00,793 --> 00:33:04,482
My parents
described Brian as having
taken a different path,
440
00:33:04,482 --> 00:33:07,689
not the traditional
academic, go to college,
get a job.
441
00:33:07,689 --> 00:33:09,965
That he was
reaching for the stars,
442
00:33:09,965 --> 00:33:12,379
that he somehow
was going to be famous.
443
00:33:12,379 --> 00:33:15,896
I think for some reason
my family was convinced
444
00:33:15,896 --> 00:33:18,724
that Brian was going to be
some famous rock star.
445
00:33:22,275 --> 00:33:25,068
And I was
still going to school
with Nancy in Boulder.
446
00:33:25,068 --> 00:33:26,965
I encouraged Brian
to come up there
447
00:33:26,965 --> 00:33:29,551
and join me
at the music school.
448
00:33:29,551 --> 00:33:32,689
And so he did
for maybe a semester.
449
00:33:32,689 --> 00:33:38,137
And then he decided
he wanted to go to California
and start a band out there.
450
00:33:47,655 --> 00:33:52,379
He was very much
a part of the hippie culture
at that time in history.
451
00:33:52,379 --> 00:33:54,103
You see? Um...
452
00:33:54,103 --> 00:33:59,896
But these two are definitely
how I remember him.
453
00:33:59,896 --> 00:34:04,275
You know, he had had
such tremendous success
with his high school band
454
00:34:04,275 --> 00:34:07,551
that I think
they thought it was just
a natural evolution
455
00:34:07,551 --> 00:34:12,344
for him to go and become
somehow a famous rock star
in California.
456
00:34:21,655 --> 00:34:23,551
No, he most certainly
did not.
457
00:34:30,655 --> 00:34:34,689
I do remember very clearly
Brian's girlfriend, Noni,
coming.
458
00:34:34,689 --> 00:34:37,103
And I remember them
being very happy together,
459
00:34:37,103 --> 00:34:39,896
and they were
having fun and...
460
00:34:39,896 --> 00:34:44,482
So it was, you know,
probably first love,
I would imagine.
461
00:34:44,482 --> 00:34:49,034
The only time I met Noni
was when she came to the house
to visit with Brian.
462
00:34:49,034 --> 00:34:53,000
He was home from California
for a trip to visit.
463
00:34:53,000 --> 00:34:59,586
And I talked to her
for just a brief period
of time when she came.
464
00:34:59,586 --> 00:35:03,344
She seemed like
a very quiet, shy kind of gal.
465
00:35:03,344 --> 00:35:05,655
A little bit withdrawn maybe.
466
00:35:12,655 --> 00:35:14,068
Noni was the youngest...
467
00:35:14,068 --> 00:35:16,551
The youngest child,
um, out of three.
468
00:35:17,482 --> 00:35:19,827
My mother was,
um, her stepsister.
469
00:35:21,172 --> 00:35:22,655
She was a beautiful girl.
470
00:35:24,689 --> 00:35:26,379
Long blond hair,
471
00:35:26,379 --> 00:35:30,000
um, kind of that
California tan look to her.
472
00:35:30,000 --> 00:35:32,793
Um, blue eyes, you know.
473
00:35:32,793 --> 00:35:34,103
She was definitely
a looker.
474
00:35:38,068 --> 00:35:41,172
She went to school
in Sacramento.
475
00:35:41,172 --> 00:35:43,103
And that's when she met Brian.
476
00:35:44,344 --> 00:35:47,103
Brian was in a band,
um, that...
477
00:35:47,103 --> 00:35:50,551
They were performing
on one of the campuses there.
478
00:35:54,793 --> 00:35:58,448
I've never been
closer to any of my other
brothers or sisters as Brian.
479
00:35:58,448 --> 00:35:59,862
And then
he went to California.
480
00:36:01,172 --> 00:36:04,896
Seemingly living the good life
with his girlfriend.
481
00:36:04,896 --> 00:36:06,206
And he...
482
00:36:07,379 --> 00:36:10,034
I could never imagine,
483
00:36:10,034 --> 00:36:12,724
ever in my wildest dream,
Brian hurting anyone.
484
00:36:33,448 --> 00:36:36,482
One morning,
I got a phone call
from my father,
485
00:36:36,482 --> 00:36:39,862
and he was pretty short
and direct about it.
486
00:36:40,724 --> 00:36:44,137
And he used
exactly these words.
487
00:36:44,137 --> 00:36:45,241
He said, uh,
488
00:36:46,310 --> 00:36:47,448
"Your brother is dead."
489
00:36:48,551 --> 00:36:52,344
And, uh, I was stunned.
490
00:36:52,344 --> 00:36:55,413
There wasn't
much conversation after that.
491
00:37:01,206 --> 00:37:03,965
Somehow he got into her apartment
492
00:37:03,965 --> 00:37:09,965
and was basically laying wait
until, um, she showed up.
493
00:37:09,965 --> 00:37:13,344
At the time, I didn't realize
the violence of it,
494
00:37:13,344 --> 00:37:16,689
of what actually took place.
I wasn't told right away.
495
00:37:18,275 --> 00:37:23,034
He shot her first
and then, um,
he shot himself.
496
00:37:26,344 --> 00:37:30,206
"Sheriff's deputies
are investigating
an apparent murder-suicide
497
00:37:30,206 --> 00:37:34,896
involving 19-year-old
Lorelei L. Smith of Lodi."
498
00:37:34,896 --> 00:37:37,068
That's Noni.
499
00:37:37,068 --> 00:37:40,241
"And Brian Galvin, 22,
of Sacramento."
500
00:37:46,586 --> 00:37:47,965
Um...
501
00:37:47,965 --> 00:37:52,241
"Lorelei Smith,
19-year-old daughter
of an El Cerrito physician,
502
00:37:52,241 --> 00:37:55,586
was apparently murdered
by her former boyfriend,
503
00:37:55,586 --> 00:38:01,000
who police said then turned
a 22-caliber rifle on himself,
committing suicide."
504
00:38:01,000 --> 00:38:03,655
"Police say there were
no signs of a struggle."
505
00:38:08,310 --> 00:38:11,551
It's just hard.
It's just hard reading it.
506
00:38:26,000 --> 00:38:27,965
I was shocked.
507
00:38:27,965 --> 00:38:30,896
I never could imagine
Brian doing that.
508
00:38:32,758 --> 00:38:37,137
But I never knew he was
on antipsychotic drugs
for schizophrenia.
509
00:38:37,137 --> 00:38:39,068
He was already on
prescribed drugs.
510
00:38:39,068 --> 00:38:40,413
I knew nothing about it.
511
00:38:40,413 --> 00:38:43,172
My parents never told me
anything about him being...
512
00:38:43,172 --> 00:38:46,413
medically being treated
for schizophrenia.
513
00:38:54,586 --> 00:38:57,172
I blame Brian
for his actions.
514
00:38:59,965 --> 00:39:01,068
But I can't...
515
00:39:01,068 --> 00:39:04,241
I can't sit there and say
it's all his fault
516
00:39:04,241 --> 00:39:06,137
because of
his mental illness.
517
00:39:15,827 --> 00:39:21,000
After Brian's death, I think
there was a lot more awareness
518
00:39:21,000 --> 00:39:26,344
and, uh, about what was
going on in the family,
519
00:39:26,344 --> 00:39:28,448
with mental illness.
520
00:39:28,448 --> 00:39:30,896
Up until that time,
it was just...
521
00:39:30,896 --> 00:39:32,931
It was, kind of,
taken lightly.
522
00:39:34,000 --> 00:39:35,103
And then there was...
523
00:39:35,103 --> 00:39:37,586
When Brian
committed suicide...
524
00:39:38,655 --> 00:39:39,586
um...
525
00:39:41,827 --> 00:39:44,379
I think things
in the family changed.
526
00:39:44,379 --> 00:39:46,103
It was a lot more somber.
527
00:39:46,103 --> 00:39:48,275
I know for...
Especially for my parents.
528
00:39:48,275 --> 00:39:49,241
Uh...
529
00:39:50,896 --> 00:39:54,344
Day had turned into night,
and it was dark.
530
00:40:00,068 --> 00:40:03,103
There were... There were
frightening moments,
definitely.
531
00:40:03,103 --> 00:40:05,206
Police would come
to the house, you know,
532
00:40:05,206 --> 00:40:07,586
and have to deal
with one of the boys.
533
00:40:08,965 --> 00:40:11,689
And, uh,
my older brother, Jim,
534
00:40:11,689 --> 00:40:14,551
I think
the disease affected him
differently than Don.
535
00:40:17,551 --> 00:40:18,896
The violence.
536
00:40:18,896 --> 00:40:22,517
And the way he treated Kathy,
being violent with her.
537
00:40:26,000 --> 00:40:30,206
And he was abusive
to my sister Mary, I know.
538
00:40:32,241 --> 00:40:34,793
I think
the general overall feeling
in the household
539
00:40:34,793 --> 00:40:39,137
was that of
complete disbelief.
540
00:40:40,448 --> 00:40:43,413
How could
such tragedy happen?
541
00:40:45,310 --> 00:40:48,620
My mom and dad
were quite distressed,
542
00:40:48,620 --> 00:40:51,275
obviously, as anyone
would be,
543
00:40:51,896 --> 00:40:53,724
with the death of Brian.
544
00:40:54,896 --> 00:40:57,517
And my mother had
her hands full with Donald.
545
00:41:05,000 --> 00:41:07,482
Being around
schizophrenia is...
546
00:41:09,586 --> 00:41:11,517
very difficult.
547
00:41:14,896 --> 00:41:18,758
And so I could either stay
at Hidden Valley Road
548
00:41:18,758 --> 00:41:20,896
with my schizophrenic
brothers,
549
00:41:23,793 --> 00:41:26,034
or I could go hang out
at my brother Jim's,
550
00:41:27,172 --> 00:41:31,965
my perpetrator,
my abuser, my rapist.
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