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This is
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the last photo I have of
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us as a family.
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I try not to focus on photos I see of him
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because
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it brings so much sadness.
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It makes me miss
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all the fun times we have and I wish I
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could go back in time and just enjoy one
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of those amazing
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memories. Sorry.
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I'm sorry.
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You'll probably think I'm crazy. He's all
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I ever known. He's the only person that
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made me feel safe and.
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He's also the person that took away my
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sense of safety as well.
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So who am I supposed to go to to feel
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safe now?OK,
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sorry. I'm so sorry.
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I don't have an angry bone in my body.
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I'm not an aggressive person. How you
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see me now is not always. I'm just laid
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back. I didn't think Rob was
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capable to come up with such a horrific
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plan,
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but my head was in the sand with him for
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so many years. And I was convinced he
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was a good guy. Tell us why.
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Yeah, why?For reasons I didn't
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do it.
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My struggles that I had with my heart and
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my head was that I was so
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angry at Rod, but I also missed and
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loved him so much. And I was like, what
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is going on?You thought you could get
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away with this.
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I didn't
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wish that I could have helped him. I
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guess he was an amazing guy.
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I know it seems weird that I'm crying
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and trying to make excuses for his
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behavior. When I know there
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aren't any excuses. This is not who I am.
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This did not happen. I did not do this.
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This photo
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is a picture of Rod and I when
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we had just started dating. I believe I
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was about 15 or
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16 years old here.
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Rodney was my first love. We went to
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every prom together, every homecoming
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together. We just did everything
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together.
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My father always said that he never had a
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good feeling about him, but I saw Rod
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differently than my dad did. He was just
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amazing. I thought he was the whole
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package. I just thought I was just so
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lucky to have him and
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just felt so on top of the world that he
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chose me. I was in love. That's
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the best way to describe it. We lived
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with each other for a year and a half,
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and then we got engaged.
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We got married when I was 21.
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This moment feels like it was forever
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ago. I just...
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was just a girl with a big dream that I
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thought I was promised I was gonna get.
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I try to look back on these memories and
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not think about what he
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did. As it turns
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out, my dad's gut feeling about
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Rod since the beginning was right.
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Rod and I had been dating for a few
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years, and I wasn't
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aware of how wealthy his family was
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until he inherited his great aunt
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and uncle's
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stock account. And he would day trade for
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himself, so he would be at home a lot.
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If something didn't go his way in the
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stock market,He would throw a fit. No,
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no, no, no And I would hear
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random spurts of yelling or door
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slamming or cursing coming from his
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office. He would
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slam the door so hard that it would
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almost come off of the hinge. Rod?
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Honey, talk to me. What's wrong?Get out!
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As the frustration grew, he would put his
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hands through the walls. He would pick up
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items and throw them and just scream
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random, horrible things.
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It was really scary, because looking at
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his eyes during these fits, he was
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checked out.
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His eyes were just blank and glazed over,
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like nobody was home. Please, calm down.
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Calm down. I asked if I could help,
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and he turned around and just lashed out
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at me that he is under pressure to provide
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Such a big lifestyle. He would yell, just
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get out. Just shut up and leave me
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alone. And I
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just turned around and walked out.
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It did raise an eyebrow a little bit, but
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I felt as though it was normal because
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his parents do a lot of yelling.
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So I was trying to look past it.
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From then, I didn't go back into his
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office when I heard him frustrated. I
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just stayed away.
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We were just in heaven when we found out
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we were having twins. But
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Rod started showing signs of
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his feelings towards having kids being
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an inconvenience.
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When they wanted to sleep with us, he
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never allowed it. He had
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massive rules against playing with
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glitter or slime. He would
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also yell whenever they spilled
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something. It came to the point that the
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kids and I were walking on
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eggshells.
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That's when I learned to use the closet
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as my best friend to try to get away from
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him. Morgan, did you see what they
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did?I would walk into my son or my
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daughter's room and walk into their
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closet and close the door behind me and
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lock it and keep the light on. Come on,
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everybody in. Morgan. And I would just
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keep reassuring him that he's just having
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a bad day and needs time to cool off
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and we're just trying to stay out of the
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way. Where are you?I would make it a
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game and we would just do something in
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there together.
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Morgan. And I also got to
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the point where I would put headphones in
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there so I couldn't listen to his endless
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banter and mean words. They have to learn
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the value of things. Still, he would
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still stand outside the door and
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constantly talk. I don't want them to be
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spoiled brats like you! Rod, please just
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leave us alone. He would
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pace back and forth and just be
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screaming, yelling at horrible things.
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I was a bitch, or I was a
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horrible person, and I didn't care about
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him. or I'm a bad mother.
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Sometimes I would be in there for
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20 minutes. Sometimes I might be in there
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for an hour to two hours. It
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just depended how long it took them to
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cool down. Well, you can't keep doing
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this.
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But I never felt scared.
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of him harming me or my children
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physically. I didn't
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get to experience other relationships,
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and I thought that this type of
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relationship was healthy. I didn't know
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otherwise. By the time
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I came out, he would turn
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his manipulation side on and convince me
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that, you know, he's going to be better.
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When I look back now, it is just
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mind-blowing. How
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brainwashed I was to think that it was
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OK. Going into the closet had
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become a new normal for me, and I think
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that I still do it to this day.
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When I'm
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overwhelmed or angry,
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I go back into the closet because it
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felt so normal and that's not healthy. I
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know I
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allowed it to become my new normal.
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And that wasn't.
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That wasn't working.
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I started taking my kids to my
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parents' house when Rod started having a
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lot more of aggressive, I guess,
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outburst, because I wanted to shield my
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kids from that behavior.
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On this particular night,He was
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having one of his outbursts, and I just
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felt as though it was getting a little
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bit too harsh and strong for my kids,
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and I decided to get them in the car and
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take them over to my parents' house.
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I walked out into the garage. I put my
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kids in their car seat, buckled them up,
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and at that point I turned around.
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Rod was standing in the garage
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holding a gun, and he put it to his head
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as though he was about to shoot himself.
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I just screamed and covered my eyes.
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Then a few seconds later, I didn't hear
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anything. And I slowly opened my
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eyes and uncovered my face and looked up.
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And he put the gun down by his
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hips and turned around and walked back
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into the house. That's
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the kind of stuff he'd start to do for me
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not to leave the house with the kids.
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And that's where he got his control back.
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He convinced me that I was the one at
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fault. He would say, well,
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I did that because you
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were being unrealistic. You started the
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fight. You
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are the one that put the kids in the
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car, so that made me angry.
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He would just place all the blame on me,
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and I'd be the one that ends up saying
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sorry. I would
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then go back into my head and convince
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myself, that's no big deal. It's no big
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deal. He just had a a bad day, so I could
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get past it. I
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just don't think I was ready at the
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time to leave, because I still had hope
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for him. But I was
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in danger, and the worst was
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still ahead of us.
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Looking back on our
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relationship, Rod,
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starting to feel insecure and losing
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control of the situation, changed
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him, and then he started to
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expose his manipulative ways.
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It was like a talent for him. The key
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could manipulate anything. It's
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not just a simple thing, Morgan. Rod,
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for you to get this angry is insane.
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During one of Rod's meltdowns, it got
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really heated and very ugly. And I had
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said that I think I'm just going to take
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the kids and go to my mom's or go to the
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park or do something. Oh, no, you're not.
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No, Rod, stop. Rod proceeded to say, you
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can't take my kids from me. You can't
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take my kids from me. They're not
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leaving. They're not leaving. As he was
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going up the stairs, he pretended to
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fall down the stairs.
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He found a way to trip himself to make it
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look like I had pushed him.
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Ohh And he looked at the twins and said,
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Mommy just pushed me. Can you believe
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that?Daddy! Did you
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see that?Your mom just shoved me. I
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immediately threw my hands up in the air
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and I was like, babies, Mama didn't do
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that. I promise you, I didn't do that.
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They started crying because they saw
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their father falling down the stairs. He
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just kept saying, Oh my gosh, your mom
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just pushed me down the stairs. I can't
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believe she would hurt me. Morgan, I
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can't believe this. Our kids aren't even
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safe with you. I was
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disgusted to think that he wanted my kids
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to think that I hurt him. and turn them
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away from me. I was looking at Rod,
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saying, please stop. This is not OK
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behavior. This is not healthy to do for
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the kids.
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Are you crazy?But it was a
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game to him. All the things that Rod was
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doing was the classic
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case of a narcissistic person
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losing control of
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his main sense of power, which was
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me. And as they start to lose that
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control, they start to do odd
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behaviors to gain that back.
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I guess you're not taking them anywhere
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today.
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Our daily routine is he was always the
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one that would read the current events
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and catch up on everything, and if it was
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bad or, you know, a criminal case or
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something he heard in our area. He would
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always inform me of it and tell me about
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it. Did you read about this?He would give
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me certain situations and scenarios, and
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he would walk through it with me. That is
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so scary. Radha told me,
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listen, if somebody comes and attacks
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you, you need to do.
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This, this, and this. He gave me, like, a
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step-by-step. The first step would be to
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get your hands on them immediately. Get a
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mark, scratch, get your DNA underneath
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something. What if I can't?And
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then look between the glove
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and the wrist of the arm so you can get,
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you know, the skin color. So he taught me
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all of these certain tactics and things
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to look for. And I just felt like he
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was really caring for me and trying to
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teach me what to do. I don't know
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what I would do if anything ever happened
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to you. I didn't raise any red flags at
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that point, but he did tell me,
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which now seems disturbing, that if I was
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ever sexually assaulted, just lay there
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and let it happen, because fighting would
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only make it worse and more
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painful. He tried to
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pretend. He felt as though women should
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never be touched and hurt, but now
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looking back on it,All the signs showed
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he was completely capable of it.
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He was planning for this.
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Towards the end of our relationship, Brod
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got more and more comfortable to have his
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outburst in public. Brod and I
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were invited to go to a friend's birthday
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party, and they had rented a boat.
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And we decided to go and take it as a
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kid-free weekend. My parents watched the
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kids. Everyone was drinking. All
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of us were laughing, having a good time.
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It was right at dusk
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when I decided to
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go downstairs to our room. Rod came in
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shortly after me and
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just started saying, you're embarrassing
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me. You're acting immature. You're you're
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annoying people. You're making a
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spectacle out of yourself. And
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then I just said, fine, I'm just going to
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go to bed then. All of a sudden, his
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clenched fists were striking my
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face.
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He was hitting me. He was grabbing me,
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scratching me. When he
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stopped hitting me, at that point, he
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turned the light on. There was blood
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everywhere from my nose bleeding.
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But he did a lot of gaslighting.
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Jesus Christ, Morgan. You can't keep
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acting like this when you drink this
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much. Rod told me I got aggressive, and
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he said he was trying to hold me back,
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and I was trying to hit him. He would
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turn it on me, saying, stop, Morgan.
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You've got to stop this. I love you.
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Don't do this to me. All I did was try
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and calm you down. And started to
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tell me that he still loves me.
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He's not mad what I did. It's OK.
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It's not your fault.
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And said that I probably needed
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a little bit of help. and that I need to
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start acting mature. He
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had the ability to convince me that I was
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the one that did it. I'm not going to let
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you hurt yourself like this.
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And that's where he got
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his control back. He convinced me that I
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was the one at fault. Sleep it off.
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I'll be back in a little bit. My
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friends didn't buy the
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story. After that,
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Those friends refused to talk to me
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because they didn't understand why I
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didn't have enough respect for myself to
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speak out and say, no, this was wrong.
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That was the start of him physically
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starting to hurt me. After the night on
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the boat, anytime we would argue,
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he had this look in his eye of desire to
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want to hurt me, and he had never had
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that before. It was very obvious that.
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He wasn't my Rod anymore.
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Rod and I have always had a
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very healthy sex life.
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But as time went on, our
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already healthy sex life didn't seem
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enough for him. It didn't seem to fulfill
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him. Another night, Rod. Come on.
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Two seconds. And it just
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got to the point where he got so angry if
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I ever said no. Stop.
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He would get aggressive, and there was a
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few times that he would force
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himself on top of me and and start having
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sex with me. Run! Run!
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Get off of me! It wasn't consensual, and
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he would just say certain comments like,
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just give it a minute, just give it a
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minute, and just blow me off.
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And after he was done, I would say, Rod,
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I was telling you the whole time to stop.
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I wanted you to stop.
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And he's like, oh, how dare you say that?
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Like you're saying I went against your
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word. He's like, you wanted it.
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Like you didn't like it.
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And he would convince me that I was being
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overdramatic. I don't understand why you
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have to be so theatrical about
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everything. I would consider it
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a form of rape, and he didn't take no for
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an answer.
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After those sexual encounters, I was
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like, this is enough. I don't have to
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keep dealing with it. I need to start
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thinking of how to to get away.
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I filed for a divorce.
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Shortly after I had filed for divorce, I
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was at my mom's house. Who
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keeps calling you?
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And he decided to sit in my parents'
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driveway and refused to leave because
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he wanted to see his kids. Oh, my
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God. What?What
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is it?He's outside.
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That's when all of the calls started
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coming in. Rod started calling me,
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texting me.
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What's going on?I'm so sorry. I can
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change. You know, I need to see my
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kids. That's when all of that started.
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Rod had refused to leave,
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even though my parents had asked him to.
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And we had to have the cops called.
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He told the cops, I'm allowed to sit
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here. Minding my business. They said,
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You're not allowed to sit in someone's
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driveway. I mean, you can sit on the
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street, and I can't tell you to leave. So
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he moved his car out onto the street and
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just sat there.
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Is he gone?I tried to convince him to
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leave, but he did not. And during that
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time, he was sitting there, he was
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constantly calling me. Rod, there
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is nothing to talk about. Go away!
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All in all, Rod was probably there about
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two hours. He finally just left on his
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own.
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And a few days later, Rod finally agreed
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to the divorce because he said, I know
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I'll win you back. My family and
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I felt Rod's behavior
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was unhealthy. We found
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it really concerning. We tried to
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empathize with it, but we knew it wasn't
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right.
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I filed for divorce just a few weeks
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before Halloween. And it
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was agreed upon that I would be staying
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in the houseAfter Rod moved out,
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I promised the kids we would carve
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pumpkins. It was going to be a fun,
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just a little family gathering with me,
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my kids, my mom and my
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dad. And as we were getting started,
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Rod showed up
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like nothing ever happened. Happy
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Halloween and forced himself in
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on that little gathering.
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Hi. I was angry. I was sad. I was scared.
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I was nervous. But the kids were really
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excited to see Rod. What do you want to
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make?He knew that if he had walked in
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when the kids were around, he would be
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able to be safe and be in there, because
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he knows I wouldn't start an issue.
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Both my parents and I looked at each
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other like, OK, let's not cause a
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situation. But
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at the end of the night, I addressed
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it with him and said that. You
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technically trespassed and walked in on
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this house that you weren't invited on
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and were separated. This moment was for
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me and my kids. You can't just keep
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showing up here like this. And
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he just got angry and left.
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You are making a big mistake.
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Thanksgiving, he showed up. The same
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thing happened on Christmas.
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At this point, it was getting to where
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it was really freaking me out. I was
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starting to feel unsafe and just felt
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grossed out, like he's a stalker or he's
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just-- something was off.
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Rob was obsessed with me. He couldn't
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live without me. He was going crazy with
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the thought that I couldn't be his, and
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if I couldn't be his, I would be nobody's
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at all.
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New Year's Eve week, Rod wrote me an
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e-mail, a pretty lengthy one,
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expressing that he had the possibility of
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having pancreatic cancer and
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that he felt alone and afraid,
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and he wanted me to help,
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I guess, support him emotionally.
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Regardless of the things that Rod had
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done to me in the past, he was the father
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of my children and I cared for him and I
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I wanted to be there for him during. this
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rough time.
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And I told him he could sleep on the
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sofa. I
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didn't think that Rod was capable of such
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a heinous lie. Thanks again for doing
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this. But he was already prepping
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for his next plan.
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I think this could actually be really
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good for us, you know?
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Okay, um, Rod, we talked about
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this, okay?This is only
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temporary, all right?When Rod moved out
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of the house, I decided to add a
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few more things to our security system to
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make me feel a little bit more
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comfortable being home alone. I'm going
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to turn in. Let me know if you need
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anything else. I added more cameras
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to the front and the back of the house,
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changed all the locks in my house. I
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took Rod's name and
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information off all of the accounts for
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the security system. I felt like I
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covered my bases.
539
00:27:09,044 --> 00:27:10,964
But in the middle of the night, he
540
00:27:10,964 --> 00:27:13,924
tampered with the alarm downstairs in a
541
00:27:13,924 --> 00:27:15,604
way that I would never catch it.
542
00:27:17,444 --> 00:27:20,164
After the first day and the first night,
543
00:27:20,484 --> 00:27:23,164
he had started to persuade me into
544
00:27:23,164 --> 00:27:26,044
getting back with him. Come on,
545
00:27:26,044 --> 00:27:28,084
this is nice. Let me-- Let me show you
546
00:27:28,124 --> 00:27:30,964
I've changed. He started becoming
547
00:27:32,164 --> 00:27:33,844
really aggressive with those type of
548
00:27:33,844 --> 00:27:36,244
comments. And
549
00:27:36,804 --> 00:27:39,764
I told him no. He got angry
550
00:27:39,764 --> 00:27:41,844
at that point and got his stuff and he
551
00:27:41,844 --> 00:27:44,564
left. That was his last shot
552
00:27:44,564 --> 00:27:47,524
before planning his big attack.
553
00:27:58,384 --> 00:28:00,984
On New Year's Eve, I was getting
554
00:28:01,504 --> 00:28:04,144
pretty intense text messages from
555
00:28:04,144 --> 00:28:04,784
Rod.
556
00:28:06,964 --> 00:28:08,884
constantly asking me if he could take me
557
00:28:08,884 --> 00:28:11,604
out on New Year's Eve, if I could give
558
00:28:11,604 --> 00:28:14,004
him one date, if I would start dating him
559
00:28:14,084 --> 00:28:16,804
to win me back. I
560
00:28:16,804 --> 00:28:18,724
messaged him and said, I'm turning my
561
00:28:18,724 --> 00:28:20,884
phone off for the evening, and I'm going
562
00:28:20,884 --> 00:28:22,204
to go stay at my parents' house for the
563
00:28:22,204 --> 00:28:24,004
night, and left it at that.
564
00:28:26,244 --> 00:28:28,965
And said I went home for the
565
00:28:28,965 --> 00:28:30,885
evening to to be alone.
566
00:28:32,285 --> 00:28:34,565
It was probably about 8:00. My kids were
567
00:28:34,565 --> 00:28:37,205
with my sister. I was thinking in my
568
00:28:37,205 --> 00:28:38,365
head, OK, I'm just going to watch a
569
00:28:38,365 --> 00:28:41,245
movie, relax, got in my pajamas,
570
00:28:41,245 --> 00:28:43,885
popped some popcorn. I turned
571
00:28:44,245 --> 00:28:46,845
all the lights off. I set my security
572
00:28:46,845 --> 00:28:47,285
alarm.
573
00:28:51,845 --> 00:28:54,005
That's when I felt the sense of someone
574
00:28:54,005 --> 00:28:56,165
watching me. It was the first time I'd
575
00:28:56,245 --> 00:28:57,125
ever felt
576
00:28:58,725 --> 00:29:00,085
uneasy in my house.
577
00:29:03,205 --> 00:29:06,085
I just had this really bad feeling.
578
00:29:07,365 --> 00:29:09,765
I kind of looked out the windows a little
579
00:29:09,765 --> 00:29:11,445
bit, but it's so dark you can't really
580
00:29:11,445 --> 00:29:14,405
see past you. I
581
00:29:14,405 --> 00:29:16,325
couldn't shake the feeling of thinking
582
00:29:16,325 --> 00:29:18,405
someone was watching me or I was being
583
00:29:18,405 --> 00:29:21,365
followed, but I just told
584
00:29:21,365 --> 00:29:24,245
myself, oh, stop it. Like, it's fine.
585
00:29:25,365 --> 00:29:26,765
I just brushed it off. It's been a hard
586
00:29:26,765 --> 00:29:28,725
day. Let's just relax.
587
00:29:29,965 --> 00:29:31,685
When the movie is over, I took myself to
588
00:29:31,685 --> 00:29:34,285
bed, and I just
589
00:29:34,485 --> 00:29:35,765
instantly fell asleep.
590
00:29:38,245 --> 00:29:40,645
I remember being woken up,
591
00:29:41,765 --> 00:29:44,165
not by a sound, but
592
00:29:45,205 --> 00:29:46,885
what felt like somebody staring at me.
593
00:29:50,245 --> 00:29:53,125
And I opened up my eyes, and I saw
594
00:29:53,125 --> 00:29:54,965
this figure standing in my bedroom
595
00:29:54,965 --> 00:29:55,445
doorway.
596
00:30:01,685 --> 00:30:04,245
I screamed so loud that my
597
00:30:04,245 --> 00:30:07,205
throat was in excruciating pain. I didn't
598
00:30:07,205 --> 00:30:08,565
think it was possible to be able to
599
00:30:08,565 --> 00:30:10,725
scream like that.
600
00:30:12,885 --> 00:30:15,845
The attacker jumped on me. I
601
00:30:15,845 --> 00:30:17,525
didn't have enough time to get my legs
602
00:30:17,525 --> 00:30:19,845
out from the covers or to be able to do
603
00:30:19,845 --> 00:30:22,605
anything to get away. I was
604
00:30:22,605 --> 00:30:25,445
slammed down back on the mattress. He
605
00:30:25,445 --> 00:30:28,045
instantly put a gun to my forehead. The
606
00:30:28,045 --> 00:30:30,805
scariest part was that his
607
00:30:30,885 --> 00:30:33,845
face was covered, but his voice was
608
00:30:33,845 --> 00:30:36,165
like a disguise. It sounded like Batman.
609
00:30:36,165 --> 00:30:38,005
It was really deep and really scary.
610
00:30:39,365 --> 00:30:42,245
The attacker looked at me and said,
611
00:30:42,965 --> 00:30:44,565
you have messed with the wrong people,
612
00:30:44,845 --> 00:30:47,805
and you're going to pay. And
613
00:30:47,805 --> 00:30:49,605
they started yelling at me, where's your
614
00:30:49,605 --> 00:30:52,165
jewelry?Where's your jewelry?And I was
615
00:30:52,165 --> 00:30:54,405
like, I don't have any. I don't have any
616
00:30:54,405 --> 00:30:57,045
jewelry. I tried to tell myself to remain
617
00:30:57,045 --> 00:30:59,205
calm and to remember a few things that
618
00:30:59,205 --> 00:31:01,685
Rod had taught me. The first thing I
619
00:31:01,685 --> 00:31:04,645
tried was to get a mark on
620
00:31:04,645 --> 00:31:07,205
his body, a scratch or something that
621
00:31:07,205 --> 00:31:09,685
would leave my-- his DNA underneath my
622
00:31:09,685 --> 00:31:10,405
fingernails.
623
00:31:12,805 --> 00:31:15,285
But it's like he was one step ahead of
624
00:31:15,285 --> 00:31:17,045
me. He grabbed my arms immediately and
625
00:31:17,045 --> 00:31:18,725
put them to where I couldn't touch him.
626
00:31:19,445 --> 00:31:22,405
And then I tried to look to see. His
627
00:31:22,405 --> 00:31:25,045
wrist, where the gloves are to see his
628
00:31:25,125 --> 00:31:27,125
the color of his skin, but
629
00:31:27,925 --> 00:31:29,525
they were tucked into his glove and
630
00:31:29,525 --> 00:31:31,125
there's no way that I could see them.
631
00:31:34,325 --> 00:31:36,605
That was when he started beating me with
632
00:31:36,605 --> 00:31:37,685
the butt of the gun.
633
00:31:40,965 --> 00:31:43,525
After that, he took my
634
00:31:43,525 --> 00:31:46,085
arms, flipped me over onto my
635
00:31:46,085 --> 00:31:48,885
stomach and
636
00:31:49,045 --> 00:31:51,605
zip tied my hands to the back of my body.
637
00:31:52,765 --> 00:31:54,565
And then shoved my head
638
00:31:55,925 --> 00:31:57,605
into the pillow and the mattress,
639
00:31:58,805 --> 00:31:59,965
causing me to
640
00:32:01,765 --> 00:32:02,645
be smothered.
641
00:32:04,885 --> 00:32:06,965
I couldn't breathe anymore. I
642
00:32:07,125 --> 00:32:08,725
was thinking,
643
00:32:10,725 --> 00:32:13,445
OK, this is it. I'm
644
00:32:13,445 --> 00:32:16,125
gone. I'm not going to make it. I don't
645
00:32:16,125 --> 00:32:18,085
know why this is happening, but
646
00:32:19,445 --> 00:32:20,405
I couldn't fight anymore.
647
00:32:22,725 --> 00:32:25,405
And I started to hit the point
648
00:32:25,645 --> 00:32:26,805
of passing out.
649
00:32:28,525 --> 00:32:31,045
And the last thought I had was, oh my
650
00:32:31,045 --> 00:32:33,765
gosh, like, if I hadn't divorced
651
00:32:33,765 --> 00:32:35,605
Rod, I would have had somebody here to
652
00:32:35,605 --> 00:32:38,565
keep me safe. What did I do?Now my
653
00:32:38,565 --> 00:32:39,845
kids aren't going to have a mom.
654
00:32:42,485 --> 00:32:45,365
At the point of passing out, he
655
00:32:45,365 --> 00:32:47,765
let go and let me.
656
00:32:48,605 --> 00:32:50,725
Look at a large gasp of air.
657
00:32:54,645 --> 00:32:57,205
It's like he was losing the nerve to do
658
00:32:57,205 --> 00:32:57,445
it.
659
00:33:00,845 --> 00:33:03,605
And then he got quiet, picked my head
660
00:33:03,605 --> 00:33:06,485
up, and like yanked a pillowcase over
661
00:33:06,485 --> 00:33:09,445
my head and lifted me
662
00:33:09,445 --> 00:33:11,925
off the bed. And he walked me outside and
663
00:33:11,925 --> 00:33:14,125
he pushed me down on the deck pretty
664
00:33:14,125 --> 00:33:14,965
aggressively.
665
00:33:18,805 --> 00:33:20,885
He had said, you're going to wish that
666
00:33:20,885 --> 00:33:22,885
you'd never done this. This is the
667
00:33:22,885 --> 00:33:25,045
biggest mistake you've ever made.
668
00:33:26,805 --> 00:33:28,405
And I said, I don't know what I've done.
669
00:33:28,405 --> 00:33:31,125
I don't know what I've done. And
670
00:33:31,605 --> 00:33:34,445
he said to me, do not get
671
00:33:34,565 --> 00:33:37,445
up until you hear three
672
00:33:37,445 --> 00:33:38,485
car honks
673
00:33:40,005 --> 00:33:42,325
or we will shoot you in the face.
674
00:33:43,045 --> 00:33:45,605
Don't move it or we will kill you.
675
00:33:46,445 --> 00:33:48,845
OK. I could hear the
676
00:33:48,885 --> 00:33:51,205
footsteps of
677
00:33:52,005 --> 00:33:54,565
him walking off the deck. But
678
00:33:55,525 --> 00:33:57,565
I kept waiting, and I didn't hear
679
00:33:57,565 --> 00:33:58,245
anything.
680
00:34:01,045 --> 00:34:03,765
I was telling myself, OK, don't try to
681
00:34:03,765 --> 00:34:06,085
run. Like, really listen for the car
682
00:34:06,085 --> 00:34:08,565
honks. These people could be sitting in
683
00:34:08,565 --> 00:34:09,925
here watching me throughout these
684
00:34:09,925 --> 00:34:12,325
windows, and if I move, I'm I'm a goner.
685
00:34:13,205 --> 00:34:15,125
And I just laid there
686
00:34:16,125 --> 00:34:19,045
and waited. and what seemed like forever.
687
00:34:20,565 --> 00:34:23,445
And then I heard footsteps walking down
688
00:34:23,525 --> 00:34:25,125
on the concrete on the sidewalk.
689
00:34:26,405 --> 00:34:27,765
And the footsteps
690
00:34:28,965 --> 00:34:29,605
stopped.
691
00:34:41,605 --> 00:34:42,885
I became really
692
00:34:44,645 --> 00:34:46,405
nervous because I wasn't sure
693
00:34:47,485 --> 00:34:50,006
where that person was.
694
00:34:52,646 --> 00:34:54,806
Until I heard Rod
695
00:34:54,966 --> 00:34:57,846
screaming, oh, baby, what happened?
696
00:34:57,846 --> 00:34:58,726
What happened?
697
00:35:00,846 --> 00:35:02,726
The pillowcase was ripped off my head,
698
00:35:03,366 --> 00:35:06,006
and it was Rod
699
00:35:06,006 --> 00:35:06,726
standing there.
700
00:35:08,886 --> 00:35:09,766
Who did this to you?
701
00:35:11,606 --> 00:35:14,566
Not one ounce in my body believes that
702
00:35:15,366 --> 00:35:18,126
By chance, he was just hanging out in the
703
00:35:18,126 --> 00:35:19,206
neighborhood at 2:00 AM.
704
00:35:21,286 --> 00:35:22,886
He generally looked shocked when he saw
705
00:35:22,886 --> 00:35:25,446
my face, not in the way of, oh, my gosh,
706
00:35:25,926 --> 00:35:27,846
who could do this to my life?But, oh, my
707
00:35:27,846 --> 00:35:29,846
gosh, look what I did to her.
708
00:35:31,686 --> 00:35:33,366
I instantly looked at him and said, was
709
00:35:33,366 --> 00:35:36,326
this you?And he responded with,
710
00:35:36,806 --> 00:35:39,526
no. I was
711
00:35:40,326 --> 00:35:42,246
at my house, and someone was tapping on
712
00:35:42,246 --> 00:35:44,966
my window. and was saying your name like
713
00:35:44,966 --> 00:35:46,526
you were in danger. He said I couldn't
714
00:35:46,526 --> 00:35:48,726
really hear what they were saying, so I
715
00:35:48,726 --> 00:35:50,966
instantly jumped in my car and came here.
716
00:35:54,086 --> 00:35:55,566
How did you know that I was here?
717
00:35:59,446 --> 00:36:01,286
And I said back to him, the last time we
718
00:36:01,286 --> 00:36:04,126
spoke, I told you I was going to
719
00:36:04,126 --> 00:36:05,606
my mom's house. Why didn't you go to my
720
00:36:05,606 --> 00:36:06,486
mom's house?Uh, uh, uh,
721
00:36:10,126 --> 00:36:11,606
it was just natural. I always think
722
00:36:11,606 --> 00:36:13,126
you're here, so I guess I was just--Just
723
00:36:13,126 --> 00:36:14,726
ran straight here first and forgot.
724
00:36:16,246 --> 00:36:18,486
And at that moment, I thought to myself,
725
00:36:18,566 --> 00:36:21,286
Morgan, be quiet. You are possibly still
726
00:36:21,286 --> 00:36:24,006
alone with your attacker, and you need to
727
00:36:24,166 --> 00:36:25,966
be cautious of what you say before help
728
00:36:25,966 --> 00:36:28,806
gets here. There is still a chance of
729
00:36:28,926 --> 00:36:30,766
me not coming out of this alive.
730
00:36:32,326 --> 00:36:34,286
Just be quiet. Go along with him. Don't
731
00:36:34,286 --> 00:36:36,806
do anything to try to provoke him.
732
00:36:38,886 --> 00:36:40,606
So I instantly stopped myself and didn't
733
00:36:40,606 --> 00:36:43,446
say anything else. And he got on the
734
00:36:43,446 --> 00:36:45,206
phone, and he called 911
735
00:36:45,766 --> 00:36:48,566
and had stated that
736
00:36:48,646 --> 00:36:51,606
we had an intrusion or a break-in.
737
00:36:52,246 --> 00:36:55,086
But he said, it's not a
738
00:36:55,086 --> 00:36:57,126
big deal. We don't need the red lights or
739
00:36:57,126 --> 00:36:59,086
anything. She's fine. It's It's no big
740
00:36:59,086 --> 00:36:59,446
deal.
741
00:37:09,686 --> 00:37:12,166
And you said somebody is tapping on your
742
00:37:12,166 --> 00:37:13,926
window. You live on the first floor.
743
00:37:14,886 --> 00:37:16,966
Somebody's tapping on my window that's in
744
00:37:16,966 --> 00:37:19,286
my bedroom. Immediately, I called her,
745
00:37:20,166 --> 00:37:21,126
and I called her and I sent her a
746
00:37:21,126 --> 00:37:22,806
voicemail. I texted her and I drove shit
747
00:37:22,806 --> 00:37:23,126
over you.
748
00:37:25,526 --> 00:37:27,606
Rod was trying to
749
00:37:28,726 --> 00:37:31,286
Portray his story as if he was warned by
750
00:37:31,286 --> 00:37:33,766
somebody that I was in
751
00:37:33,766 --> 00:37:36,446
danger and came over trying to
752
00:37:38,006 --> 00:37:40,366
find me or save me. I just saw when I
753
00:37:40,366 --> 00:37:41,646
grabbed her and pulled the shield and
754
00:37:41,646 --> 00:37:44,006
then picked it up. I looked and I said,
755
00:37:44,006 --> 00:37:46,886
are you OK?And she was just and I
756
00:37:46,886 --> 00:37:49,846
saw that she had hands inside. His
757
00:37:49,846 --> 00:37:52,326
story was very sloppy and it was far from
758
00:37:52,326 --> 00:37:54,966
the truth. And the detective felt the
759
00:37:54,966 --> 00:37:57,446
same exact way and and this whole thing
760
00:37:57,446 --> 00:37:59,206
about. I'm getting somebody knocking on
761
00:37:59,206 --> 00:38:01,726
my window or my building or whatever, and
762
00:38:01,726 --> 00:38:04,006
then she's being beat up at the same
763
00:38:04,086 --> 00:38:06,566
time. That's That's way out there,
764
00:38:06,886 --> 00:38:09,726
OK?The officer asked
765
00:38:09,726 --> 00:38:11,526
me who I thought it could have been,
766
00:38:12,486 --> 00:38:15,286
if it was possible that my ex-husband was
767
00:38:15,286 --> 00:38:18,006
capable of this. And
768
00:38:18,006 --> 00:38:19,046
that's when I said,
769
00:38:21,126 --> 00:38:24,086
I think so. You knew she was to be at her
770
00:38:24,086 --> 00:38:26,086
parents' house. You knew she was here.
771
00:38:26,246 --> 00:38:27,526
How'd you know she was here?I didn't know
772
00:38:27,526 --> 00:38:30,046
she was here. The
773
00:38:30,046 --> 00:38:32,566
detectives started to turn the
774
00:38:32,566 --> 00:38:35,126
story around on Rod
775
00:38:35,606 --> 00:38:38,366
and hit him pretty fast. It
776
00:38:38,366 --> 00:38:41,206
took him by surprise because they had
777
00:38:41,366 --> 00:38:43,206
originally been praising him for being
778
00:38:43,206 --> 00:38:44,806
the big hero.
779
00:38:46,286 --> 00:38:48,006
There's no way in hell somebody knocked
780
00:38:48,006 --> 00:38:50,806
out your window and said her
781
00:38:50,806 --> 00:38:53,686
name. And you immediately come over here
782
00:38:54,846 --> 00:38:57,486
because you're going to check on them.
783
00:38:57,486 --> 00:38:59,806
They found the zip
784
00:38:59,806 --> 00:39:02,366
ties in his his
785
00:39:02,366 --> 00:39:05,326
apartment. They had
786
00:39:05,326 --> 00:39:06,406
found his computer
787
00:39:08,726 --> 00:39:11,446
that was showing he was Googling how
788
00:39:11,446 --> 00:39:14,246
to kill somebody,
789
00:39:14,886 --> 00:39:16,406
how to shoot somebody in the heart,
790
00:39:17,526 --> 00:39:20,086
learning about strangulation. You
791
00:39:20,086 --> 00:39:21,926
wouldn't come over here as the hero. One
792
00:39:21,926 --> 00:39:24,086
arm. I wasn't trying to be a hero. I was
793
00:39:24,086 --> 00:39:26,966
making sure she was OK. And that was
794
00:39:26,966 --> 00:39:29,726
when the cops discovered his
795
00:39:29,726 --> 00:39:30,806
suicide letter
796
00:39:33,366 --> 00:39:36,246
and his final letter to me. So
797
00:39:36,246 --> 00:39:39,126
he had planned on killing
798
00:39:39,126 --> 00:39:40,726
me and then killing himself.
799
00:39:43,126 --> 00:39:45,286
I guess because if he couldn't have me,
800
00:39:45,286 --> 00:39:47,206
he didn't want anybody else to have me.
801
00:39:47,526 --> 00:39:49,886
So this is all premeditated. It wasn't
802
00:39:49,886 --> 00:39:51,046
just a moment
803
00:39:55,046 --> 00:39:55,686
of insanity.
804
00:40:03,526 --> 00:40:06,406
I watched them handcuff him at about
805
00:40:06,486 --> 00:40:09,286
7:00 in the morning. And I just remember
806
00:40:09,286 --> 00:40:11,046
standing there, seeing that, just going,
807
00:40:11,046 --> 00:40:13,966
this is this is it. He's gone.
808
00:40:13,966 --> 00:40:14,926
He's out of my life.
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This is a picture of somebody that is
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mentally disturbed and
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needs a lot of help. This is not my
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husband in this picture. This is
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my attacker.
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I think he always thought he could get
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away with it.
816
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It's hard to know what he's thinking or
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why he did what he did.
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But he wasn't capable of living alone. I
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wish I could say I never had to speak
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with Rod again. But the plea deal that
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was offered to Rod was parole at 20
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years, depending on his behavior.
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And when he gets out of prison,I am sure
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he's going to want to see his children,
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and it seems inevitable
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that I'll have to.
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But when it's time for Rod to come up for
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parole, I will fight it. I feel that
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he needs to serve his full time.
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I am not going to allow him
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to push me into a corner and be afraid
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anymore. To this day,
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Rod has not told me why he did what he
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did. And that was something I was
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struggling with. I wanted to know all the
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answers. But I don't
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think I would believe him if he did tell
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me. With
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every action, there's a
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consequence. And this time, Rod got
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caught, and he's going to pay for that.
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