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Please, Jay, just let me go.

Don't tempt me, Barry.

I can't do this any longer.

The mind is a dangerous place.

Two people in the same place, can have the same experience...

..hear the same things but be affected very differently.

My job is to try to understand how they think...

..and to work out how I can help them.

When I'm successful, it's bloody great.

# Don't be afraid, open your heart #

Let me go.

Let me go. The thing is...

..I don't always get it right.

We're all living on the edge.

You and I are like him.

You what?

Shut up and concentrate.

Janette will never forgive me if I fall.

Please help me.

It's OK. Try to rest your foot on the side.

There you are.

Come on.

Just like that.

MOBILE RINGTONE

MOBILE RINGTONE Really?

If you're going to carry on doing this...

..you'd better lose a stone or two.

One day, I won't be able to hold you.

MOBILE RINGTONE

Answer that or I'll jump again.

What was the trigger this time?

The beep, beep, beeps.

It's driving me nuts.

Beep! Beep! Beep!

On and on for ages.

It was just too much, Jay.

Just too much.

What was so different this time?

You've been to that shop loads of times.

Barry? Barry!

Tell me!

You weren't there.

Listen, that little girl was staring at me, right.

She was with her mum - staring.

Staring right through me.

Until...

Until what?

Until what? Until the jar fell.

I thought it was sauce on her nose...

..but she was bleeding.

Her nose was bleeding.

She kept staring!

It brought everything back.

It brought everything back, like it was yesterday.

Too much, Jay.

MOBILE RINGTONE

DIFFERENT MOBILE RINGTONE

Isn't one enough for you?

Everything alright, lovely?

I need you back here ASAP.

Yeah, listen...

OTHER MOBILE

OTHER MOBILE Don't answer the other phone.

This can't wait.

I'm going to be in so much trouble.

With good lights, I'll be there in five minutes.

The trial has started - you promised, Jay!

Can he borrow some kit?

I'm taking the kids to Mam's house tonight - I've had a gutsful.

Yeah.

I'm gutted, Jay.

I'll have packed by the time Gracie gets back.

Are you listening?!

I'm leaving you!

Someone's called the police.

Someone's called the police. If I stay, I'm the bloody mug.

Jan?

Wil, come on.

Janette, listen...

..I'm on my way back, OK - we'll sort things out.

I have to go.

Someone's phoned the police.

If you don't want to be locked up - scarper!

Ah!

Jamie?

Jamie!

Jamie!

Jamie, are you there?

Oh, my God - I need backup!

Which team?

Which team? Jamie.

Just Jamie?

The chat about the lone-worker policy worked a treat!

Assessing who?

Anne Harper.

She threatened to take his eyes out with teaspoons.

She was quite fragile leaving here.

Phone for backup, Rod.

SOUND OF JAMIE RUNNING DOWN SOME STEPS, BREATHING HEAVILY

Jamie?

Jamie?

Sorry about that, lovely.

Lovely?

I'll give you 'lovely'!

We've called a Code One. They'll be there any minute.

Ah, the thing is, Huw...

..I had a bit of a detour.

OK, everyone, stand down - false alarm.

Move your arse, Jamie, I want you back in the office now!

Or your balls will be in a frame on my wall - understand?

Are the fairies behaving themselves today, Gwynn?

Things are tip-top in Annwn today, Jamie - tip-top.

Art Therapy!

She's used her own shit to paint the walls already.

Do you want to go into the office?

Do you want to go into the office? Find a cleaner with loads of bleach!

Cuts, Rod - we all have to do our bit.

Well, maybe a few days staring at her masterpiece will sort her out.

My office - now!

Welcome to the madhouse.

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'Are you in, Melvyn?'

She's not going to stand for your nonsense.

The entire service knows that you were the one...

..who contributed most to Gavin Reynolds' departure.

You promised not to mention that again.

Well, I'm not going to watch you destroy another boss's career.

OK.

The asshole was asking for it though.

As it happens, nobody came out of it very well.

Believe you me...

..Natalie Foster will be keeping a close eye on you and on me.

Yeah, I'll be in bed by nine and I'll shave.

May I go now?

She's called a meeting for 4.30pm today.

Erm, the thing is, Huw...

No excuses, Jamie.

Can't you send me somewhere?

Can't you send me somewhere? You will be there!

It's not right that a service user calls the shots.

She's been through enough trauma without you taking her home.

On whose side are you on?

On whose side are you on? The patient's.

Service user, Gwenno - service user!

Service user, Gwenno - service user! Both terms are correct.

Lils?

Jamie?

Why the big rush to come in?

What's the matter?

Gwenno is steaming...

..Paula's refusing to go home with Rod...

..and Miss High and Mighty is arriving in two hours.

Her first job will be to sack me.

Hey, don't listen to Huw.

Nat is lovely.

Do you know her?

Nat and I are like that.

So...

..are you going to tell me what you've done?

Fill a bed before the current service user has left.

MESSAGE TONE

Could you take Paula home for me, please?

'Been to Barry Island. Need anything?'

Jamie?

Please?

Right, shift it - Paula is waiting for us.

I'm taking her - it's in the book.

After the last time?

No fucking way.

PAULA SCREAMS UNCONTROLLABLY

Pull them off!

Open the door.

Open the door. No.

Give me the fucking card.

Give me the fucking card. It's not safe. Meds are on the way.

No!

Hush, come on.

Good girl. Good girl.

There we are.

She can twist you around her little finger.

Lili?

Do you have the discharge forms?

Right, bugger this.

Your carriage awaits, madam.

The taxi might never come.

You know how to please Paula, don't you, love?

Whoo-hoo! Home, James!

How many clinical incident forms are you trying to rack up today?

Your own car?

If we want to meet the new boss at 4.30pm, we don't have a choice.

Come on.

Gwens?

Slow down, yeah?

Or you'll want to piss all day.

# The lovely month of June will be here before too long

# And we will hear the cuckoo singing happily in our land #

Come on, Gwenno!

# Happily in our land, happily in our land

# Cuckoo, cuckoo, cuckoo singing happily in our land

# The lovely month of June will be here before too long

# And we will hear the cuckoo singing happily in our land

# Happily in our land, happily in our land

# Cuckoo, cuckoo, cuckoo singing happily in our land #

DOGS BARKING

DOGS BARKING

BABY CRYING

Home sweet home.

Do you remember what happened?

I don't want to starve - the goat has milk.

She needs an assessment.

She needs an assessment. Eggs from the hen.

OK. Thanks.

OK, the goose was a mistake - she's a nasty bitch.

This is just the beginning.

There'll be no food crisis here.

You're right. Now come with me.

You're right. Now come with me. I can feed everyone.

I'll save the world.

I can tell that he doesn't believe me.

Why doesn't he believe me?

It's alright, Paula.

They've all gone.

Are you alright?

GWENNO RETCHES

Are you sure?

There's no rush.

Jamie?

What's that doing there?

CHICKEN CLUCKING

I'll give her some water.

The poor thing's been stuck here for a fortnight.

Ouch!

I'm trying to help you!

MOBILE RINGTONE

So you're going away?

Do you want me to do the bins?

What can you see, Melvyn?

Ooh, erm...

..hang on a minute.

Erm.

Here we are.

Can you see?

Oh, shit!

Oh!

Give me the bag.

Thanks.

Jan! Please!

Don't do this.

This can't happen.

Not after everything.

Nobody else gets me.

Just you.

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I'm sorry.

Really, really sorry.

What do you want me to say?

Will that sting?

Ouch.

I need you, Jan.

Surely 19 years count for something?

Do you remember that first night?

Fancy dress in The Railway.

I went as King Kong.

You went as Madonna.

We joined the students.

You started an argument about the Assembly with some twat.

You tore his argument to shreds.

Do you remember?

What you said years later when you saw his face in the papers.

Our new Assembly Member.

You were bloody tamping.

I knew I loved you that night.

Your brains.

Your tongue and...

..well, your arse.

I remember thinking...

..Jamie boy...

..you need to take care of her.

Maybe my timekeeping is crap...

..but I still remember the important stuff.

I can forgive you for forgetting what happened 18 years ago today.

Registry in town?

What I can't forgive...

..is you trying all your tricks on me to get your own way...

..when you know how much of a wreck you've been.

I'm not...

I'm not... I'm not sorry, but I have to go.

Happy anniversary, Jay.

FLIES BUZZING

Put them in the box.

I'll sort them for you.

Wil, text Gracie to see where she is.

Don't give her a inkling that we're leaving.

Janette, please - I'm crap without you.

You're crap when you're with me.

You can't be worse without me.

You can't trust me with the house - I'll flood it.

Burn it down.

You're proud of that? Do what you like with the place.

I can't be here any longer.

I can't be here any longer. I'll change.

I promise.

Oh, yeah?

Where were you this afternoon?

With Barry?

Bloody Barry.

Maybe it's you who should be on the meds, Jay.

You-hoo, Janette.

Have you got any biscuits?

The Polish shop only had wafers, and you can't dunk them in tea.

You're home early - or are you on shifts?

We've got visitors.

We've got visitors. That's nice.

I don't remember their names.

One of them goes on a bit.

Goodness me.

Oh, come on - I'm only going to Mami's house, not to Timbuktu.

Oh, God - shit!

Goodness me, she's a character.

Yes, Melvyn, a dangerous one after a few drinks. Isn't that right, Paula?

Hey, I am listening to you - it's lemonade.

He's the naughty one, isn't he, Mary?

Naughty but nice, Paula.

Come and sit with Mary, Jamie.

Leave him alone. You can see he's busy.

Have you found a B&B for Paula yet?

Have you found a B&B for Paula yet? I don't have my contact lenses in.

Can't you do it?

We're meeting the new boss in under an hour.

That should get your eyes working.

She's pretty, isn't she - Jamie's sister?

His sister?

His sister? Yes, my sister.

Is she going away?

Is she going away? Just for a few days.

That's all.

Hi, gorg.

Hi, gorg. Oh, piss off, Dad.

Gracie!

Don't complicate things - OK?

KNOCK ON DOOR

Been putting your cock somewhere you shouldn't have?

Gracie!

I've never done that to Mam.

And I never would.

So you've just been more crap than usual then?

I am trying, right.

There's just a lot going on at the moment.

A new boss.

A woman.

God help her!

Funny!

Now then...

P-O-A?

Well, Nw-nw, it's going to have to be a hell of a Plan...

..and a hell of an Action.

The bottom line is, you're more work than the kids.

I'll book a week off, just us two.

Somewhere far away, to recharge and to prove to you that I can change.

I've no holidays left. I've had to take them to sort out your mess.

I don't want to go on a fucking holiday with you.

You need to start facing things.

I just want you to be you again.

Mam?

Mam...

..I feel sick.

Gracie!

Gracie! Let's wash it off.

No, she can shower at Mam's house.

They, Mam! - you can't expect me to leave with you...

..when you can't even respect my pronouns.

Gracie...

Gracie... Jan, you can't take them like this.

Getting them to be sick on cue isn't normal, Jamie.

They weren't supposed to do it.

We can't stay here until you sort yourself out.

Mam, I'm not sharing a bedroom.

Wil, come on, we're going.

Hey, we'll sort things out, love.

We need to have a chat about the...

Mam is right.

You shouldn't be able to vomit, just like that.

I think it was then that I started to feel the emptiness.

Standing on the cliff edge.

Every good thing, everything worthwhile...

..leaving me.

The wicked witch is ready.

She won't begin until we arrive.

This is our chance, Gwens, to prove ourselves to the new boss.

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CAR HORN

Olanzapine - once a day. Just let it melt on your tongue.

The rest should be taken twice a day with a meal.

But lay off the cocktails.

OK?

Sorry again about the mix up with the flat.

I'll make sure it's cleaned by tomorrow.

CAR HORN

Someone's in a rush.

Tell the fairies to send some luck my way, will you, Gwynn.

Kitchen!

You're almost 40 minutes late.

Well, I'm here now.

I haven't forgotten about this morning's stunt either.

Bloody Code One, Jamie. When will you learn?

I have learnt - OK.

I have learnt - OK. Yeah, well, I've heard that before.

Really, Huw, I want to, well, start wising up.

I'm serious.

Listen, whatever your game is...

Huw, please...

..I will change, I'll prove you wrong.

A detailed report of why I was late - on your desk tomorrow morning.

Swear to God.

The Grand Tour has finished.

Who took her?

She chose Rod.

Take two minutes to tidy yourself up.

And bring 'sensible' Jamie in with you - last-chance saloon, mate.

Dr Foster.

If I can have your attention please.

I think we've kept our new boss waiting long enough.

It's an honour to welcome our new Head of Clinical Management.

Dr Natalie Foster.

We're very fortunate that Dr Foster...

..has accepted the job in our department.

I'm sure you and I will do everything...

..to ensure that her time here with us...

..will be as happy and successful as possible.

Thank you very much.

Thank you, Huw.

It's nice to be back in Wales after years of exile...

..especially as Head of Clinical Management of this department.

It's also nice to see some new, eager faces.

I'm looking forward to meeting you all personally over the coming days.

The department is going to be in good hands.

I'm not here to make friends.

I'm here to ensure that our users get the best possible provision.

I'm sure you expect a spiel about the naughty nurses court...

..as some of you like to call it.

Of course, I expect professional standards of the highest order...

..during and beyond working hours.

Hear hear!

Can we have a word with Mr Jamie Morris?

An officer recognised you on the CCTV...

..entering the building.

What am I supposed to have done?

Witnesses say you sat on the parapet for quite some time.

So...?

On which building?

West Court Offices.

I saw someone sitting there earlier.

I thought they were going to throw themselves off.

Did you speak to this person?

Did you speak to this person? No.

By the time I got up, no-one was there.

Check the CCTV if you want to.

CCTV doesn't cover that part of the building.

But I think you knew that, Mr Morris.

I'm not sure what you want me to say.

I tried to help, but...

OK.

This will all be logged with you?

He has 24 hours to do it.

So, unless there's something else you want to discuss...?

Right.

Thank you very much.

Log it by the morning.

And book yourself in to see the OT.

A pothole, probably.

I've got breakdown membership that will cover that.

Well, as a passenger, I could say...

I am able to change a tyre, thank you.

Of course.

I didn't mean...

..you know.

I know.

Sorry about that business earlier.

The police.

They needed to clear something up with a service user, that's all.

Maybe not the best impression on the new boss.

No!

Right, well, I hope you settle in quickly...

..and if there's anything I can do...

There is one thing you can do for me.

Yeah, great, whatever I can do to help the cause.

Check the internal job search.

I think there's a job in Bridgend that would suit you.

SOUND OF CHILDREN

# Happy birthday to you

# Happy birthday to you

# Happy birthday to Dadi

# Happy birthday to you #

Hurrah!

LAUGHTER

Oi-oi!

Drinking?

On a school night?

Does Janette know?

She's gone.

She's left me.

What about Wil and Gracie?

She's taken them to her mum's house.

Really?

Really? Really.

It's not the other side of the world.

Temporary, is it?

You know what she's like - stubborn as a mule.

Well, a party in your house then?

Just like the good old days. Yeah?

Barry and me - best friends since we were five.

Friends for life.

Never been apart.

THEY SING A FUNNY SONG

DANCE MUSIC

Don't judge him.

If he hadn't failed the medical at 17...

..we'd both have joined the army and travelled the world.

We wouldn't have trained to be paramedics.

And things would have been, well...

..different.

BABY CRYING

I should have recognised the car.

I should have protected him a lot better.

Get off!

Come here!

Lindsey, his wife, had only popped to the garage...

..to get milk for the baby.

No!

Yes, I let him down.

I let him suffer years of pain.

Just because I wanted to fix it.

Instead of leaving it to the experts.

I need a piss.

I'm sorry, butt, for letting you suffer all these years.

What are you doing?

Letting you down, letting Janette down, letting the kids down.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry. Put it down.

You and me against the world.

Isn't that right, Barry?

What a...

..what a...

..what a joke!

Barr?

Barr?

Barr?

Barry!

Oh, come on, Jay.

Have a bit of sense.

Don't lose it...

..and let everyone else sort out your mess.

Like I did.

I think it's moments like these...

..when I'm running around like a crazy person...

..chasing shadows...

..it's moments like these that make me realise...

..that I have crossed the line.

I'm here to help people in a crisis.

But I'm the one who needs help.

I should be the patient.

The question is...

..how long can I continue to get away with it?

Father, Son and Loyal Friend.

I can't do this any longer, Jay.

Maybe Barry was a shit dad.

Whilst he was still alive, there was hope.

Well, well...

..Jamie Morris.

He can obviously take care of himself.

So he can take care of me too.

Yeah, Dad?

The inquest is a chance to put everything behind us.

Jamie!

Paula, I can't. You know the rules.

You can't turn up at my house.

Dad? My radar is twitching.

Is that what you want?

What kind of fucking games is he playing?

Come back here this minute!

Jamie!

It's the only way of getting out of this.

Let the inquest come to the conclusion that it was my fault.

You need to sort out your shit.

You're doomed, butt.

I'll tell all at the inquest.

If you do that, we'll all be in the fucking shit.

Remember to tell him.

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