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Previously on "Army wives"... We live while we can,

Laugh while we can, Love while we can,

And that, my friends, is how We all beat terrorism.

Now I am hallucinating.

You work here?

She was with a man. The kind Of man who wasn't her husband.

Do you love her?

No. It was a onetime thing. It just happened.

Let's just call this What it is.

It's a divorce.

Oncologists, St. Luke's, m.R.I.S...

What's this all about? The doctor found A lump last week.

Well, Aren't you gonna fight it? I don't have any money. I don't have any insurance.

We were just about to leave. Our firstborn Going off to college.

I'm gonna miss you so much.

(cell phone rings)

Leblanc.

I deploy in an hour.

Where's my daddy? (pamela) I don't know.

Should have been here To pick you up by now.

Husband, Return home immediately.

You've changed so much, And I just--

I guess I'm just worried

That there's not Gonna be room for me.

I have never loved you more.

Come back to me, trevor.

Please.

I have to give This check to betty.

She needs it for an operation. I'll only be a minute.

I'm leaving you, george. (gasps)

So what's this all about? I need a car.

What's wrong? Joan's pregnant.

This is pamela moran.

I realize that this isn't My normal radio slot,

But "Normal" isn't a word That applies much anymore,

Not around here.

I don't know how to gently Lead up to something like this,

So I'm just going to say it.

I just found out that Someone very near to me died.

As you all know, Four days ago,

There was a bombing At the hump bar,

And the city is Still not back to normal.

People are trying to understand

How something so terrible Could've happened here.

The destruction and debris, Both physical and emotional,

Have taken a heavy toll,

Though the army Was quick to respond.

(man) we are just moments away

From the army news conference At fort marshall,

Where they will be detailing Their preliminary findings

On the hump bar bombing.

(indistinct conversations)

Colonel.

(camera shutters clicking)

Thank you.

I'm lieutenant colonel Joan burton,

Deputy garrison commander Here at fort marshall.

Let me say First and foremost,

That our thoughts and prayers Go out to all those

Who have loved ones lost Or injured in this tragedy.

As a result Of the involvement

Of one of our service members In the bombing of the 14th,

The army's Criminal investigation division,

Or c.I.D., has thus far Determined the following--

That munitions stolen From fort marshall

Earlier this month Have been recovered

From the residence Of sergeant george polarski,

That sergeant polarski Is believed

To be solely responsible For the theft of these munitions

And, we believe, obtained them Specifically for this act.

Let me be clear. We believe There is no further threat.

I'm ready To take your questions.

Colonel burton, over here. Colonel burton. Colonel. Yes.

Can you confirm The number of casualties?

What we know right now Is there are four deaths.

15 others were injured, 3 of them critically.

Can you tell us if the bomber Was the only member of the army

Present at the hump bar That particular night?

There were army dependents There as well.

Would that include The bomber's wife?

And your husband, Dr. Roland burton?

We are currently in the process

Of notifying family members,

Therefore, We are unable to comment

On anyone's identity At this time. Thank you.

(man) That was a news conference

Detailing the army's Preliminary findings.

It's been rumored

The bomber's wife, Marilyn polarski,

Was having an affair With a local civilian

And that She was the intended target.

I, too, was one of those Who was glued to my television.

It was as if I only listened To the news reports long enough

And watched The images enough times,

That somehow It would all change.

On that first day when we were Hungering for information,

My son came up to me And asked me

If I would take him To the beach.

Our adult world Is falling apart,

But in my child's world,

He just wanted To go to the beach.

He said he found The secret place

Where the gold starfish are,

And h-he wanted To show it to me,

But, no, I couldn't, uh, Pull myself away.

I just sat there In front of the television,

Hypnotized by it all.

(siren wails)

Hey, betty. It's me.

It's roxy.

Don't you play dumb, Old lady.

I got it on good authority That you can hear me.

There was a second there...

Where we both Could've gotten out.

(clicking)

Why did you do it, huh?

I mean, Why did you stay back,

Like some crazy captain Of a ship?

God, betty...

I haven't heard from trevor.

I really need you right now.

(denise) emmalin, if you want, You can stay at my house.

I'm okay by myself, You know?

Yeah, I'm sure you are,

But your father would rather You not be alone.

Now please take a bite.

How is it?

I'm not really hungry.

(spoon clatters)

Michael, I didn't expect To see you here.

Yeah, just checking in. How you doing, emmy?

Fine.

(clicking keyboard keys)

I'll get you Something to eat. No, thanks.

Denise? Yeah?

You're bleeding. Oh, yeah.

It--it's all right. It's--it's nothing.

Well, have you Had it checked out? Yeah, it's not serious.

It just needs some time To heal. That's all.

Shouldn't you be In the hospital?

(man speaking indistinctly)

Well, are you giving her My messages, or what?

'cause this is the third time

I've called Lieutenant colonel burton.

At the apparent targeting Of recently arrived units...

Okay. Thank you.

...Came a day after The military reported

Increased attacks in And around the fallujah area.

Only this morning,

Newly deployed troops were Ambushed just outside the town.

The army is withholding... All right. That's it.

Turn it off and march Your baby butts straight to bed.

Is daddy a troop?

Is that why we Haven't heard from him,

Because he's dead?

But the unimaginable heat And dust of iraq

Places huge demands on them.

There aren't many things More dangerous for a soldier

Than a vehicle breaking down

In the middle Of hostile territory.

To reduce the risks Of this happening,

The army has stepped up-- Come on, guys, bed.

(sighs)

(pamela) people Who aren't in the military

Don't understand The unique bonds

That are forged so quickly On an army post.

Maybe it's because We move so much.

You know, When you rarely spend

More than two Or three years in one place,

It forces you to get To the heart of things.

That's why When one of these people

Who we've come to care about Like they're our own family

Slips away, Leaves us forever...

(crying)

The loss is almost unbearable.

***

Sorry. I didn't mean To wake you.

Denise, you're my nurse?

Should you be working?

Hospital's on overflow.

They need all the help They can get right now.

Oh, believe me, It's not like I mind

Seeing all three Of you here.

Three? Mm-hmm.

The drugs are that good. They're outstanding.

Mm.

Seriously, none of you Should even be here,

Not so soon after--

No, I need to.

(softly) roland, When that bomb went off--

Hey.

(knock on door)

Hello?

Joan.

Hi. Denise.

Hey.

He's doing much better,

Except for his vision.

Mm.

You need anything else, Just page me.

One of us will answer. (mouths word)

I called your mom and dad And northwestern,

And I told them that You'd obviously be delayed.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

How are you, joan?

Well, Just after it happened,

They gave us A list of names.

Yours was on it.

We didn't know Who had lived or died.

We just had to wait To find out.

I was terrified.

Look, I-I gotta get back.

Joan...

When polarski Came in there...

I never thought I'd see you again.

About the affair...

I admitted it,

I explained it,

I justified it,

But I never apologized for it,

And I should.

I'm sorry I hurt you, joan.

Thank you.

Just minor cuts and bruises, Nothin' major.

I mean, I'm not really The one I'm worried about.

It's trevor.

He promised he'd call As soon as he arrived,

And there's news about A new unit gettin' ambushed.

(man speaking indistinctly On tv)

(sighs) of course I've called somebody.

I've called 20 somebodies. I'm--

(doorbell rings)

Mom, look, I gotta go, okay? The pizza's here.

Yeah, I'll talk to you Some other time.

(telephone beeps)

Mrs. Leblanc?

(breathing heavily) no.

No, you guys have The wrong house.

Uh, no, mrs. Leblanc, We're with the c.I.D.

(voice breaking) So you're not gonna tell me

That my husband's dead?

No, ma'am.

No, we're Criminal investigation division.

(normal voice) What are you, cops?

No, ma'am. Army.

I see, And--and you want my help.

Yes, ma'am. We'd like to ask you

A few questions About the night of the bombing. I don't think so.

Excuse me? I ain't talkin' to you. I ain't talkin' to him.

I ain't talkin' to anybody until Someone from this damn army

Tells me where my husband is. Move your hand.

The mind plays tricks on us At times like this.

It has to. We need it to.

It's how we're able To power on

And do what needs To be done,

Even something as mundane

As doing the dishes That are piling up in the sink

Or going out, getting up

And doing what needs to be done For your loved ones.

The future doesn't stop.

(man) your attention please.

Final boarding call For the silver meteor 97

On track three, south station.

(indistinct conversations)

Mom. Mom. (claudia joy) okay.

You don't have to do this. What?

You don't have To come with me. No, no, no. I want to.

But there are people hurting, And that's what you do best.

You take care of people. We planned this. Nothing's getting in our way.

Do you need Any help, ladies?

Yes, please. Thank you. My daughter's about to enter

One of the most prestigious Universities in the country,

And she's already Missed registration.

And two days of class.

Well. Congratulations.

The bandages-- Mind if I ask?

What happened?

We were in the wrong place At the wrong time.

(woman) breaking news From baghdad--a humvee

Carrying four u.S. Soldiers Exploded when it drove over...

(laughing)

(knock on door)

(man) ...Attempt to put

The events of the past few days Behind them...

(woman) Hello. Mrs. Leblanc.

It's the f.R.G.

We're here to support you In any way we can.

Is anyone in there?

Mrs. Leblanc?

Hello?

(woman) just put it...

(woman speaks indistinctly Over p.A.)

(denise) how's she doing?

Doesn't look good.

Betty. Betty. Look who's here.

Does she have any family? I don't know.

I thought You were her friend.

You're up here All the time.

No, I-I did see her Quite a bit,

But I just learned her last name From her chart.

I do know that she was Very fond of the "F" word,

And she always made us laugh.

I guess People are in our lives,

But at the same time, They're not.

Hello, betty camden.

(pamela) We all searched for strength

On that first day or two.

I did, but whether what I found Was true strength

Or just some part Of our d.N.A.

That makes us want To reach out and help,

I don't know.

(man) sources say the outcome Would've been far worse

Had the detonation cords On polarski's homemade device

Not been faulty.

Why don't you come with me? No, just come--

No, roxy, go!

(knock on door) (pamela) roxy.

(knock) Roxy, I know you're in there.

(man) ...Which severely damaged The bar two days ago.

City church leaders Announced...

Okay, okay, okay.

A nondemoninational Prayer service

For the victims Of the bombing...

Hey, didn't you hear me? Been knocking for ten minutes.

I thought you were The suited ones again.

Oh, yeah.

I hear they're Interviewing everybody.

Yeah, well, I refuse To talk to 'em.

Why should I do them Any favors?

It's not like they're doin' Squat for me.

They're not finding trevor.

Roxy, that's not What the c.I.D. Does.

Well, it's not what anyone On post does, apparently.

Look, all I know is that This whole damn universe

Keeps finding completely new Ways for me to hate this army.

(woman) four more casualties Of the hump bar bombing

Were discharged From mercer hospital today,

But three remain In critical condition.

A hospital official Has confirmed

That they are in a coma...

Why weren't the kids In school today?

You have to keep it Together, rox,

Otherwise, You'll regret it.

(footsteps approach)

Mrs. Moran. Mrs. Moran.

Can me and t.J. Go To katie and lucas' house?

Sure, and your mommy has stuff She has to do, anyway. No. You have to stay inside.

Why? They said It was safe out now.

Because I said so. Now stop your sass.

Go play.

(scoffs) I can't leave.

I can't go anywhere.

They impounded my car.

Well, you could borrow Chase's truck and--

I don't have a car, Pamela.

I-I can't leave the boys Or this house

Until I find out About trevor.

Okay.

...Was well on the road To recovery.

(man) let's start By just having you take us

Through the night.

Just whatever I remember?

Yes, sir, and no detail Is too trivial.

It was A lot of chaos really,

As to be expected.

He walked in.

At first, No one even knew who he was.

And then marilyn, his wife, Called out his name.

What did you do then?

My mind was racing,

And I've been trained to talk People down from the ledge,

Only this guy...

He was hell-bent To destroy her,

Destroy all of us.

(indistinct shouting)

(grunting)

(grunting, glass shatters)

Dr. Burton...

Ready to go on?

Ready to be discharged, Not interrogated.

With all due respect, ma'am--

You need to reschedule.

What's the best place That we can reach you then,

Dr. Burton?

At his home on post.

(knock on door)

(knock)

Weren't you just here A while ago?

I know, but this time,

I brought A medical professional.

This won't cure anything,

But it might make The waiting easier. I doubt it.

Well, It couldn't hurt to try.

(laughs) Look at the two of you.

It feels like I'm on the wrong end

Of an intervention.

Hey, that's good. You're joking again.

Now we just need to get you Out of your jammies.

I can't do anything Until I know where trevor is.

He promised he'd call me, And he hasn't.

I just need to know He's safe,

And I've called everybody,

And no one Can tell me anything. You haven't called me.

I knew you were At the hospital helping,

And I wasn't. Roxy, they were Deployed together.

Wherever trevor is, Frank is,

And I haven't heard from him Yet either, but that's normal.

Sometimes it takes a few days. I never know where chase is.

And you don't worry?

I worry the second He leaves my sight,

But I also know that If something happened to him,

The army would let me know,

So we don't worry about things That haven't happened yet. Denise is right,

And with the bombing, No one is thinking clearly.

I can't help it.

I just--I feel Like something is wrong.

Yeah, There's a lot wrong,

But I don't think It's trevor or frank

That we need To be worried about.

You're right.

I'm sorry.

It must be really rough At the hospital.

Yeah. Yeah, It's not looking good.

I'm gonna be there. I promise.

But trevor's gonna call here,

And until he does, I can't move.

Hey, we understand, okay?

We just have to be there For each other, okay... Mm-hmm.

No matter what.

To the people we love.

May they always be safe.

Times like this, We question our own strength,

Our ability to hang on And not crumble.

It's one of the things That I admire most

About the army wives I've met.

It must be a military thing--

This capacity to press on Despite the obstacles,

To see a mission Through to its completion.

When my father drove me To harvard,

My mother had to stay home To take care of my brothers.

He didn't say much.

He was a taciturn man, Not unlike your father.

He only gave me One bit of advice,

An old irish quote He loved--

"Show me the friend, And I'll show you the man."

Yeah, mom, I get it--

Choose your friends wisely.

It's important. It all is.

Because how you start something Is how you'll finish it.

Are you saying that because You had to leave harvard early?

I guess I am.

You know, I've always wondered

If you regretted Leaving harvard and having me.

Sweetheart,

I'm sorry if you ever Thought that for one moment.

But that's not Really an answer.

Did you?

I did.

I did.

There were moments When I thought, is this it?

Am I going to change diapers And pick up toys

For the rest of my life?

What happened to my dreams?

And then I'd lift you up,

Look into your eyes,

And realize My dreams were changing.

No matter what happens

That makes us question The world we live in,

Life goes on, As cliché as that sounds.

One generation passes the baton To the next generation

And the cycle of life continues.

She doesn't even look Like herself.

Yeah, There's a lot of swelling.

She's a fighter.

Is there anything We can do?

Well, they say when you talk To someone in a coma,

They know you're there

Because hearing Is the last thing to go.

I believe that.

I should go.

I'm gonna stay.

Maybe I'll tell betty How roxy dyed her nether lands

In a pink heart Before trevor left.

Okay.

(crying)

(young galaxy's "Embers" Playing)

* oh, lord

* there's a ghost train Runnin' through... *

I take it that's mine. I thought it'd be more Convenient for you

To stay on the ground floor.

This little beauty Will make it easier

For you to get in and out Of bed. (chuckles)

Does it lower the lights, Turn on the al green?

(laughs) Thank you.

You're welcome.

It's good to be here.

* ...In my dreams

So where are we In all this, joan?

What do you want?

You.

I want you.

* I'm afraid I've lost my way *

I gotta get back to work.

There's so much going on.

(sighs)

Okay.

Joan, I have to ask,

What about the pregnancy?

***

Will you give me a few days

Until things settle down,

And then we'll talk about it?

* I remember breaking down Beneath its sway *

(pamela) regeneration, Life renewed...

What is it That the poets keep trying

To hammer into our heads?

Winter becomes spring, Night becomes day,

As one wave crashes Onto the shore and disappears,

Another one appears behind it,

And another

And another...

I guess we humans Just plain wanna stick around.

The ride must be worth The price of admission.

And... It's not in us

To give up hope...

Even when any reason for hope

Has dwindled To almost nothing.

This communal spirit, This crazy insistence

That we all Really are connected

And each other's caretaker,

It keeps us From sinking into despair

Or sliding into the abyss.

This is for you.

Jell-o.

Yeah, but don't eat it.

Apparently, I suck at jell-o, too.

It's the thought that counts.

Are you in pain?

Uh, some. Could be a lot worse.

Being home make it easier? Yes and no.

It gives me more quiet,

Which means More time to think.

Mm.

Thinking is never good.

You all right?

I'm sure this couldn't Be easy on you, either.

Please don't go Worrying about me.

I wasn't there.

Well, it doesn't mean you're Not allowed to have a reaction.

It was a big event.

It's bound to affect people On a myriad of levels.

I wasn't there, roland. Can we drop it?

It's just that I think You might be feeling

A form of survivor's guilt.

Guilt, yeah.

I'm feeling guilt,

But it's not about surviving.

Forget it. We don't need To be talking about my crap.

Actually, I do.

The more People talk about it,

The more we can heal.

I hated her.

Marilyn.

I thought she was The biggest bitch on the planet.

Pamela, this didn't happen Because you disliked her.

(voice breaking) When she came by my house,

She was scared to death.

Marilyn, what's wrong?

Can I come inside, please?

Of course.

Has somebody hurt you?

You can tell me. I'll help you.

You know what?

You're not leaving here Till we get this figured out.

(pamela) I wish I would've said that,

But I didn't.

We were in lockdown, And I couldn't find chase,

And I was overtaken by kids,

And I was in no mood For drama,

So I just gave her the keys.

(katie) did somebody hurt Jake's mommy?

She had bruises on her neck.

I thought about Getting her help.

I even went to the phone,

And I never dialed The last number.

I knew she was the victim...

And I didn't protect her.

I just let her go.

And I know better.

I know better.

(claudia joy) You're gonna meet

So many new friends here, Amanda. If you mean guys, mom,

I just want to focus On school right now.

You and jeremy, I don't think I handled that very well.

I was so thrown, amanda,

So sure the two of you Shouldn't be together

That I just told you To end it.

Well, yeah, you kinda did.

You were in love with him, Weren't you?

Yeah.

Hmm.

He was my first... (laughs) And he was the right one,

But we were going In different directions.

You knew it then, And I know it now,

So don't beat yourself up About it, okay?

Okay.

Thank you.

(knock on door)

Coming.

(knock)

Roxy, hey. Hey.

Roland's asleep.

Actually, I came here to see you.

Oh? What's up?

You know I got two kids, right?

Because they think That their father

Has either forgotten them Or has gotten himself killed,

And I wanna tell 'em That they're wrong,

But I can't because you won't Return my phone calls. Look--

Don't tell me That it can't be done,

Because if you can shoot A satellite

Going 50,000 miles an hour Out of the sky,

Then, joan, you can Damn well find my husband

And hand him a post-it note. It is Lieutenant colonel burton,

And I am Your husband's superior,

Even when I'm not in uniform,

And while I know It's been a difficult few days,

Understand the army has Strict protocols. Right. I know that, but I--

Roxy. (sighs)

His flight was delayed Due to mechanical problems.

He'll be in kuwait Within 24 hours,

Where he'll spend the next 36 Before heading into iraq.

He's fine.

(cries)

Thank you.

You're welcome.

(sighs)

(vehicle approaches)

(dan wilson's "Free life" Playing)

* let's take a little trip

* down where we used to go

Mom. Oh, my god.

(crying) oh, god. I'm so glad you're home.

I just had to be here.

(pamela) what is it About the human touch,

Holding a loved one close

And feeling their warmth, Their heartbeat?

I mean... (laughs) This is the army,

And frequently, Our loved ones are far away,

But their warmth Doesn't have to be.

* look kinda like we did

* before we got so cold

* and in the air The questions... *

"If you're wearing this robe, It's time for this."

(laughs)

* will we get To do something? *

* who we gonna End up being? *

* how we gonna end up...

(laughs)

(trevor) hey, beautiful.

Hi.

So it's probably late At night,

Kids are asleep,

And you're wrapped up In your robe

Drinking a glass Of red wine... (laughs)

'cause that's what you do When you've had hard times.

That's when Your fears come out.

Man, I wish I was there To grab those black snakes

And wrestle them To the ground.

Look, I know this is hard,

But, baby, You're not alone.

You got the kids

And your friends...

There's even cranky betty At the bar.

(laughs) man, I am sorry

I ever gave you a hard time About getting that job.

It's a good thing You have that place, rox.

It'll keep your mind Off me while I'm gone.

Now I want you to do Something for me.

Close your eyes.

(laughs) come on. I know you're cheating.

Close your eyes.

(laughs) okay.

Okay, okay, okay.

Take off your robe.

Well, okay.

(laughs)

Now it's me holding you.

Can you feel me?

Yes.

'cause wherever I am, I'm loving you.

* what you gonna Spend your free life on? *

(crying) I love you.

* free life

At times...

It feels totally random,

This roll of the dice On who lives and who dies.

Trevor was alive,

And marilyn was dead,

And the worst Was yet to come.

They say It's in times of crisis

That true character Is revealed.

I believe That's probably true.

I froze.

That's normal. It's what most people do.

You know, Everyone was in motion,

And I just stood there Watching everything unfold.

There was amanda,

And then claudia joy was-- Was fighting to get to her. Amanda, run!

People were knocking Each other down,

Shoving and screaming,

And then roland appeared.

He grabbed me, Got in my face.

He snapped me out of it.

If it wasn't for roland, I'd be dead.

But amanda was not gonna leave Without her mother,

And claudia joy was Not gonna leave without her.

Amanda, go!

It's perfect, mom. Thank you.

Mm. Oh, and...

(sighs)

So you don't forget us.

Oh, my god. Here we are, perfect.

What's wrong?

(crying)

I don't think I can do this without you.

Oh, honey.

Honey, you can.

This is who you are. (sighs)

On your first day Of kindergarten,

You had your lunch packed The night before.

You had Your clothes laid out. (laughs)

You were all ready.

You were dragging me To the classroom door,

And then When the bell rang,

You just suddenly stopped.

You clung to my leg, afraid.

I kissed you,

Then I walked away,

Just like the book Said to do,

Only I turned back To see how you were,

And you were Still standing there

Looking at me.

Then you took a deep breath,

Waved good-bye

And walked through the door.

This is the same thing.

(crying)

Just take a breath,

And start walking.

Oh, baby.

(both crying)

(monitor emitting Continuous tone)

(man) another milligram of epi. 360.

(woman) Charging. V-fib. Come on.

(the kin) * she moves me

(crying)

* she takes me in

* it feels like

* the first time

It's okay.

I'm gonna be okay.

(man) let's go, people! Move! (man) clear.

Another milligram of epi.

Dad and emmalin Need you now.

It's not like I won't see you again.

Why'd you do it, amanda?

Why'd you go into that bar?

For you, mom.

I went in for you.

(man) come on. Come on.

Come on, guys, let's go. (woman) v-fib.

Show me the mother, And I'll show you the child.

* take this love

* it calls your name

* no need to walk alone

* from nowhere to now here

* from nowhere To now here *

* from nowhere to now here

* no need to walk alone

Clear.

* from nowhere to now here

* from nowhere To now here *

* from nowhere to now here

(monitor beeping rhythmically)

(sniffles)

Amanda's gone, isn't she?

(crying) oh.

(crying)

(gasps)

At some point, words fail us,

And we're left with silence,

Silence and time.

I read something once--

"To live in hearts You leave behind

Is not to die."

I don't know what each of you Is going to do today,

But now is the time

To tell those you love

That you love them...

Like we loved amanda.

And she lives In our hearts still

And will never be forgotten.

(crying)

Me, I think I'm going to Pick up my kids

And take that ride Down to the ocean

Like they wanted.

The water's beautiful This time of year.

Besides...

They know where The gold starfish are.