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Previously on Star Trek: Discovery:

The killer is a ni'var citizen
and a qowat milat nun known as j'vini.

Starfleet remands the prisoner
to your custody for extradition to ni'var.

First officer of the credence.
He had two kids. They deserve justice.

I also know bringing ni'var
into the federation will benefit millions.

There must've been a sign it was coming.
I missed it.

What you require is freedom from guilt.

My mind to your mind.

It's hard to get out of your comfort zone
when you can barely get out of the lab.

So getting to do this
could be really good for me.

Are you, you?

I'm definitely me.

How do you feel?

Captain's log, stardate 865661 .2.

It's been a week
since my mission with the qowat milat.

Since then,
we've stayed in orbit over ni'var,

working with the ni'var science institute
and the federation task force

that's tracking and studying the dma.

No other inhabited worlds
have been threatened yet.

But of course,
that can change at any moment.

Ni'var has fast-tracked negotiations
to rejoin the federation.

I haven't yet heard how they're going.

We 're all living in uncertainty.

Even for a crew as familiar
with the unknown as this one,

the stress is taking its toll.

I'm following Dr. Culber's advice,
mandating downtime

to help with their psychological
and emotional well-being.

But stamets won't let himself slow down,
even for a second.

He wants to solve this
for all of us, especially book.

Even though the mind-meld
with t'rina helped at the time,

the peace he felt has been fleeting.

I've encouraged him to talk to Dr. Culber,
but I feel him pulling into himself

a natural response to grief.

Crisis.

All of this.

But he can't do this alone.

None of us can.

Captain, president rillak has requested
our presence on ni'var.

For the summit with president t'rina?

Negotiations are coming to a close,
but admiral Vance has fallen ill

with what I'm told
is a malindian stomach worm.

Medical guidance is to allow the worm
to gestate before extraction.

- Mm. How long will that take?
- Twenty-four hours.

We are to replace him
in his diplomatic capacity.

I would love to be there when ni'var
officially rejoins the federation.

But the dma analysis has to take priority.
I'm sure she doesn't need both of us.

To clarify, president rillak
did not imply a choice in the matter.

Did she brief you
on how exactly we're meant to participate?

Well, we are to, and I quote,

"remain silent and look official.

Nothing more."

I still feel lost.

Your time
with the qowat milat wasn't helpful?

No, it was.

They have this "absolute candor" thing.

So I kind of tried that on myself.

And?

It's like, you know, all these years,

I think I have been on this
straight-line path to the captain's chair,

and just trying to get there
as fast as I could.

But now I think maybe...

Maybe you need to take a detour?

Oh, I'm... yeah, I've been trying
to step outside my comfort zone.

I hunted down a nun.

I ate foods that I hate.
Have you ever tried rigelian rutabagas?

Because they are horrible.

So don't, seriously.

But these are, like, little baby steps,

and I feel like
I really need to challenge myself.

Maybe I could volunteer in astrometrics.

Or study medicine?
I don't know. Seems to make you happy.

It might be good to clear your mind
before you make any choices.

That is exactly the problem.
My mind doesn't clear.

And then now with all this
dma craziness going on, it's like...

Dr. Kovich came to me
looking for a discovery crew member

to lead some cadets
in a team-building exercise.

He's consulting with starfleet academy,

believes we have
something special to offer

since we served in a time before the burn.

How would I justify bailing
on commander stamets to lead an exercise?

Captain's requiring everyone
to take some downtime.

This would count as yours.

Go, get inspired.

Okay.

Here's hoping.

Come to think of it,
can you do me a favor when you go?

Why is tilly ordering me to go
on a training exercise for cadets?

I'm already an ensign.

Starfleet academy is awesome.

Try and think of it
as part of your responsibility as host.

You add new experiences to your symbiont.

Yeah, but jovar taught
at the academy before the burn.

Really, tal's already got that experience.

There's always something new to learn.

And besides, orders are orders.

All right. What are you gonna do today?

Other than the zhian'tal exercises.

Mind-and-body connection is everything,
especially when you have a new body.

But then I really want
to check out the crew games

they're planning in the fonnard lounge.

You barely know anyone.

I'll walk in, say hello.

Now I know someone. Easy.

You'll do the same with the cadets.

I'm sorry, have you met me?

I can't have soup
without scanning it first.

I don't really know
how to do new without you.

So this is your chance to learn.

Okay, I'm going.

Or tomorrow? Maybe? Tomorrow, I think.

Cadets uldata, t'pral and Chavez,

please report to shuttle 5
for immediate departure.

Uh, kovich to the right.

Lieutenant tilly, ensign tal.

Welcome back to starfleet academy.

Thank you, sir. It's an absolute honor.

Uh, I honestly never thought
I'd be asked to do anything like this.

I was the kid in class
who was asked to stop talking.

Front row, hand up.

That's me.

Ensign tal,

you'll be on shuttlecraft 11.

The other cadets are waiting there.

Why don't you introduce yourself?

Yes, sir. Sounds good.

Cadet Cho...

Thank you
for letting me bring adira along.

Dr. Culber thought it could be beneficial.

They could use work
in the team-building department.

It's a problem we're seeing
with all of our starfleet cadets.

That's why I'm consulting.

They may be the best
their worlds have to offer,

but they grew up
isolated and disconnected.

Many of them find it hard
to function as a team

with individuals they don't already know.

Especially those of species
they've never encountered.

Starfleet needs personnel
now more than ever.

- But if people can't even work together...
- Precisely.

One might say that today's exercise
is about the very future of starfleet.

Starfleet cadets...

You'll do great, lieutenant.

Today's exercise
will be a typical survey mission.

Lieutenant Callum
will be taking us to geryon

which is a m-class desert moon
orbiting theta helios.

Uh, once there, we will carry out
a full planetary analysis.

Yes. So fun.

I think it's fun.

I mean, it's new worlds, new things, like,

"hey, what's that?
Is that a new life form? What?"

Amazing.

So, okay, well,
once we arrive, we'll have six hours,

uh, at which point we'll need to
rendezvous with the u. S. S. Armstrong,

uh, before heading back
to federation headquarters.

You've been at the academy
for a couple months now.

You probably know each other pretty well.

Uh, not really.

Academics keep us pretty busy.

Well, this is
a team-building exercise, so, um...

I'll start.

Hello, I am lieutenant Sylvia tilly.

I was born on earth.

I do remember my first training exercise.

Um, I dropped my utility kit
down a methane-gas vent.

Who's next?

Anyone else?

We'll be dropping out of warp
in one minute.

I should probably
give you guys your assignments.

Okay, ensign tal, magnetospheric.

Cadet harral, geological.

Cadet Sasha, microbial.

And cadet gorev, atmospheric.

Sort of thought
you'd be bringing me as your aide,

to keep an eye on the students,

make sure they
don't drop anything down a methane vent?

For this exercise, it's more useful
to think of yourself as another cadet.

You still have a lot to learn.

- What's happening?
- We're hit by a rogue gamma-ray burst.

Engines are offline.

- Helm's not responding.
- Everybody, hold on to something.

- I'm a trained pilot. I can help.
- Sit. That's an order.

Protective shielding deployed.

Can you get auxiliary systems working?

Negative. We're going down.

Brace for impact. Brace.

- Everyone okay?
- I'm okay.

Yes.

Help me.

No, no, no. It's okay.

No, no, no. Don't move. Don't...

Okay, I'm gonna cut away the uniform,
gain access to the wound.

It'll be okay.

This wraps around.
We suture it until we get you help.

Here.

Is he gonna make it?

No.

U. S. S. Armstrong, come in.

Armstrong,
this is starfleet lieutenant Sylvia tilly.

We are on a training mission. Acknowledge.

I think the gamma ray burst
would've knocked out the comms.

Let's see where we are.

Shouldn't this be a desert moon?

We were headed for geryon, m-class moon.

This is kokytos, I-class moon.

We've landed on the wrong moon?

L-class is breathable,

but environmentally hostile.

Okay, come on.
This is obviously part of the exercise.

We're in a holo simulation, right?

I'm sorry. I wish I could say yes.

This is real. This is happening.

The emergency-distress beacon
would have activated upon impact.

Right? Gorev,
you check life-support systems for me.

Sasha, you said you're a pilot, right?

See if you can get
some flight systems back online.

Harral, with me. We'll get comms back.

I'll try to get sensors working.

Good. Thank you.

Hey.

Watch it. See me working?

- Hey.
- Hey.

This is not the time.

- Stay out of it.
- Hey.

Whoa, no, no. We're not doing this.

No. Hey, hey, hey, calm down.

It is gonna be okay. Okay?

Once we get systems back online,
we will call the Armstrong.

- They'll pick us up.
- They're not expecting us for six hours.

A lot can happen in six hours.

I know you guys weren't
into the introductions thing before,

but we are doing it now,
while we work, got it?

Harral, on comms. Now.

Adira. Adira, you go first.
Tell us about yourself.

I'm adira tal.
I grew up on a generation ship.

And now I am an ensign on discovery.

Great. Sasha, you next. Go ahead.

Val Sasha.

Grew up in a colony on titan.

Learned to pilot when I was 12.

And coming to the academy

was the first time
I'd met any non-humans before.

Gorev?

Taahz gorev.

After the burn, my family was stranded
in emerald chain territory,

and we weren't treated very well.

Harral. Orion.

I have to work twice as hard
to be taken seriously.

Check my file,
you'll see I'm top of the class.

Now we all know each other
a little better. Go, team.

Sir.

It appears you have a fan, saru.

Friends, colleagues,

the last four months have seen
a series of summits such as this.

And it is my great privilege

to say that we have now come
to the end of this historic process.

The federation has reviewed
the final points of the agreement.

We are fully satisfied,

and prepared to welcome
ni'var back into the federation.

President rillak,

we, too, are glad to be nearing
the restoration of our alliance.

However, there is one final matter
we must discuss.

The reality of the gravitational anomaly
and the threat it poses to our galaxy

has shifted many things recently.

For all of us.

I am aware that
this will come as a surprise.

However, we will require
an amendment to the agreement,

allowing for ni'var's immediate
and unconditional withdrawal

from the federation

should the need arise.

[{Chafienng]

An exit clause?

I'm sure you are also aware,
this is unprecedented.

Madam president,
I must remind you that before the burn,

ni'var and other worlds

felt the federation had grown
so disconnected from its members,

it was unable
to consider their individual needs.

Trust was eroded.
The repercussions are still being felt.

We cannot accept a rejoining
without measures in place

that protect us
from such a situation arising again.

This is a different time, madam president.

Be that as it may, we stand firm.

The federation would never
force any world to remain a member.

Ni'var is proof of that.

However, unconditional withdrawal
is not acceptable.

That would give ni'var
all the benefits of membership

while the federation would bear
all the risks associated with its exit.

Furthermore, such a precedent would allow
other worlds to request similar clauses.

A weaker federation would result.

It is illogical to rejoin an organization

that seeks
to impose conditions on ourjudgment.

Perhaps we moved too quickly
in these talks.

If I may...

With the tremendous strides made
to reach this point,

it's illogical to forfeit over one issue.

Ni'var has endured
without the federation for a century.

We will continue to do so.

Madam president.

There's a difference
between enduring and thriving.

President t'rina,

may I propose a recess?

Very well.

The objections president t'rina raised
have existed for over 100 years.

It's not just the dma.
Something else is going on.

Talk to her. See if you can find out what.

Politics are not our place.

Join me, captain.

I know this was Michael's idea.

How do you feel about that?

The mind-meld helped.

I'm fine.

She says you're still not sleeping.
Perhaps we could talk about that.

It's grudge.

Yeah. She's been especially needy lately.

Oh, it's a rough life.

You ever been to a standing funeral?

No?

It's an uncommon earth tradition,
but one my family practiced.

When a family member dies,
their body is embalmed,

and then posed in a position
that best evokes their life.

My tio Cesar was this infamous card shark.

So my family wanted
to place him at a poker table.

It was all going fine,

until my cousins and I
snapped off his thumb

trying to place the cards in his hand.

What'd you do?

I used all my medical training,
and I reattached it,

and then broke off his index finger.

We couldn't stop laughing
that whole funeral long.

I didn't expect that.

Well, in conventional therapy,
I'm not supposed to share personal things.

But as crewmates, we already know
too much about each other.

Sometimes the personal helps.

Look, I get it.

Grief is complicated.

Takes many forms.

I need to let myself experience it,
however it comes, right?

I was devastated when my tio died.

I was so angry.

And I went to that funeral determined that
nothing was gonna make me feel better.

I'd like to try something different
with our remaining time.

As long as I can keep my fingers.

President t'rina.

Thank you for the traditional kelpien tea.

I thought you might enjoy a taste of home.

I am dismayed
the situation is so difficult.

If I can be of assistance,
you need only ask.

Many would be happy to see
ni'var and the federation rejoined,

myself included.

I, too, share the sentiment.

But I am bound first and foremost
by obligations to my own people.

There's nothing more I can do

if the federation
is unwilling to compromise.

Of course.

I understand.

Now, if you will excuse me,

I intend to use
the remaining recess for meditation.

These are delicate matters.

President t'rina and I
are not just representing ourselves,

but also a whole host of other interests.

There must be a way to compromise.

All eyes are on us, captain.

Were I to offer a compromise,
it would project weakness.

Listen to me well.

My hands are tied.

With no other options,

it would seem that we are done here.

I think president rillak wants us
to find a solution to this mess.

I felt something similar
from president t'rina.

This summit has become political theater.

That must be why she found a way for us
to be here today, to cut through that.

Then you do not believe
that admiral Vance fell ill?

Do you?

Why us?

That's what we have to figure out.

Okay, where are we at?

I managed to stabilize life support
at 70 percent.

Flight systems are fried.

- We can't fly.
- Well, uh, what about comms?

Checked every channel, every frequency.

- Nothing.
- Just keep trying.

Theta helios has 46 moons.

Without comms,
how can anyone find a 12-meter shuttle?

We only have three days of rations.

Freaking out won't help. I've lived
enough lives to know this could be worse.

Thanks, I feel so much better now.

Ensign, how are the sensors coming?

They're back online,
but I'm getting some weird readings.

The proximity scans show there are
thousands of life-forms just outside,

and they seem to be gathering.

What the hell is that?

Whatever it is,

it's not good.

Somebody get a tricorder up.
What are we looking at?

Uh, it's a tuscadian pyrosome,
it's a colony species made up of thousands

of interconnected zooid life-forms.

It primarily preys
on bioluminescent crustaceans,

uh, tracking them
via electromagnetic signatures.

That's the same signature
used by our equipment.

No, no, put it down.

Shut down your gear.
Turn off the equipment.

They can't see us with our equipment off.

Did it go away?

If it did, it'll be back.

What do we do now?

We can't use comms,

but we'll freeze before
anyone figures out what's happened.

Okay, we gotta get out of this valley.

There is a Ridge up there.

If we can get up there,
we can catch a signal

and use our personal comms
to contact the Armstrong.

We'll have a vantage point to see
the jellyfish from hell before it gets us.

- You want us to go across all that?
- Yeah.

They're not ready for this.

I'll go alone.

I can move fast.
I will work better on my own.

I can do it. I have survival training.

- You're crazy. We should stay.
- Let them risk their lives if they want.

No one is going anywhere alone.

Whatever we do from now on,
we are doing it together.

Let's move.

Damn it. Doesn't look like anything yet.

This is a waste of time.

Try again.

- You think I don't know what this is?
- What is it?

A sad attempt at trying
to replicate kwei'tholum'kwei.

- Kwei'tholum'kwei?
- The kwejian healing ritual.

- This is nothing like it.
- How is it different?

We're healed by our planet.

For kwei'tholum'kwei, you need sand
from the mameckx'sha river.

You need to ask the tuli forests
for their blessings.

You need the great storms
of naillem'kwai to make...

That is programmable matter
made to look like sand.

Cheap tricks
you got from reading a holopadd.

You think you're substituting
my home with this rubbish?

It'll never be the same. It'll never work.

It won't be the same.

Of course not.

Kwejian was...

One of the most beautiful places
in the known galaxy.

Its loss is devastating.

Profound.

You won't heal
the way you would've before.

You will never feel the relief
of kwei'tholum'kwei again.

I don't know
how much longer I can take this.

How long am I supposed to do it?

A long-ass time.

Enter.

Thank you for seeing me.

Of course.

But I must ask,

have you come as a friend,
or a representative of the federation?

I'm here of my own volition,

while captain Burnham seeks audience
with president rillak.

We believe
she will reconsider her position.

I have been meditating on a question.

Is trust of another's commitment
to a shared goal enough,

despite the scars of history?

Trust is a journey.

The anomaly has ignited
old and new fears alike.

Some have responded
with a turn toward isolationism,

including the vulcan purists.

In return for their support,
which is vital to my coalition,

they have demanded a logical framework
to hold the federation accountable.

This exit clause provides it.

Thank you for trusting me.

I'll leave you to your thoughts.

But if you'll permit me another time,

I would like to learn more
about your meditative technique.

May I ask why?

You weigh questions of politics.

I weigh questions of place.

Purpose.

With such uncertainty
as we are all experiencing,

I'm finding it much more challenging
than I had anticipated.

Place your hands out,

palms up.

It is called thresh-Tor kashek.

It means "shared mind."

A type of meditation we teach our children
while they are learning.

Close your eyes.

Your eyes are meant
to remain closed, captain saru.

Take a deep breath.

Lieutenant Christopher,
connect me with the president.

Aye, captain. One moment.

What is it, captain?
We're preparing to leave orbit.

Then I'll be direct. Saru is working
to get t'rina back to the table.

When she returns,
we have to be prepared with a compromise.

Well, I have a proposal.

What could you suggest
that we haven't already considered?

We've been at this for four months.

At the end of the day,

we both know
that politics comes down to votes.

Which is why
you and t'rina are taking positions

that have been agreed upon
by your respective delegations.

You can't budge from those positions
or you'll lose the support you need.

But if a third party
presents a compromise,

now you are not budging.

Now you're just listening.

All right, captain.

What have you got?

Keep an eye out for the pyrosome.

Okay, what was that?

Spider lightning.

It's lightning that travels kilometers.
We don't wanna be near when it strikes.

You've seen that before?

Kasha tal did
and barely lived to talk about it.

I see it. The creature. On the left.

What the hell?

- Damn thing's hunting us.
- It can't see us with our equipment off.

We gotta keep moving
to stay ahead of this storm.

Lightning's rolling in too fast.

- We won't make it.
- If we pick up the pace, we can.

- Stop acting like an expert.
- Calm down.

You don't know
any more about this moon than us.

We're too exposed out here.

We need to find a cave,
ride out the storm.

There's a genius idea.

Trap ourselves, make it easy
for the monster to corner us.

We don't have time to argue.

- I'm going.
- Ridiculous.

If they're going, I am too.

- What about sticking together?
- Stop. All of you.

I'm usually a very upbeat person.
Bubbly, some would say.

But right now I have one job.
It's keeping all of you alive.

So we're staying together.

I can't move.

I'm stuck.

I can't get out.

Stay still. You're okay. You're okay.

We have to do something
before that gets here.

Okay.

Give me the emergency kit. Now. Come on.

Here, adira.

Grab it. You got it.

Everybody, grab a piece.

Sasha, you grab them. You got it?

One, two, three, pull.

Pull!

- Almost.
- We got you.

Keep going. Heave.

Pull.

Keep going. Come on.

- It's working. Don't let go.
- We got you.

Keep going. Almost there.

- Almost.
- Almost there.

- We're getting closer. Almost.
- Come on.

Keep pulling.

Got you.

You good?

You okay?

Okay, good. We got this.
The Ridge is right there. We can make it.

Once we turn the comms on, it'll sense us.

We can do this.
Just work together as a team.

Same way we just did for adira.

It would be easier
if we didn't have to count on an Orion.

- Hey.
- I'm just saying.

He wanted to hide in a cave.

- It's what we're trained to do.
- Admit it.

To seek shelter.

- You only look out for yourself.
- Enough.

Enough. The burn is in the past.

You gotta decide now.
Work together as a crew, or not.

When I was 10,
an emerald chain raiding party

commandeered my family's
food replicators because they could.

I watched my grandmother starve to death.

I had to Bury the body,

because my parents were
too weak from giving me their food.

Now you expect me to work with him?

Ihearyou.

Have you asked him
about his history with the chain?

There is common ground here.

But you'll never find it
unless you talk to each other.

Uh, his father was bashorat harral.

What?

Who's that?

Uh, he was an activist.

He drafted
the emancipation bill for the enslaved,

which was part of the armistice

that the emerald chain
eventually proposed to the federation.

He died a political prisoner
before he could see any of that happen.

My father always said,

being an Orion meant
we had an even greater responsibility

to speak out
against what the chain was doing.

Sorry for shutting you down earlier.

The cave wasn't a bad idea.

That's good.

Really good.

You're talking.
We need so much more of that.

Right now we need
to make it to that Ridge, all right?

You with me?

Come on. You're starfleet now. It's "aye."

Aye.

Nice work, cadets.

Let's go, move out.

The fact that you are both here
means you are ready to look fonnard.

That has never been in dispute.

Yet you're allowing past mistakes
to define that future.

Logic dictates that the lessons we learn
should inform our choices.

Choices are never purely logical,
are they?

There's always emotions.

If I may reference my own history,

the culling of my family, my ancestors,

it will always be a personal challenge
for me to trust the ba'ul.

Yet I cannot deny that kaminar
is far stronger now that it is united.

And couldn't the same
be said about ni'var?

The divisions between the vulcans
and romulans were so vast

and lasted so many millennia

that they forgot
they were the same species.

Even your ancestry is a testament to hope.

The cardassians waged war
against bajor and humanity,

and now today, all three are at peace,

because they were willing
to grow and change together.

Your words are inspiring, captain Burnham.

But words alone are not sufficient.

I understand that you and captain saru
are here to propose a compromise.

We are.

Within starfleet,
disputes between high-ranking officers

can be resolved by a committee

whose sole purpose
is to provide objectivity

and guide both parties to a resolution.

We propose a committee
independent of federation leadership

to conduct regular reviews
with all member worlds,

not just ni'var.

Ni'var has already refused any oversight

that does not include
one of its own citizens.

Is that any more egregious
than insisting starfleet

be given a voice within a civilian quorum?

If you would,
allow me to serve on this committee.

I am a citizen of ni'var.

Trained in logic, witness to your history.

And I am an officer in starfleet.

Captain of a starship,
and citizen of the federation.

I will be the bridge between you
until you no longer need it.

This proposal is acceptable
to the federation.

It is an elegant solution.

I got you.

The storm will interfere
with our personal transporters,

so it'll take at least 60 seconds

for the Armstrong
to get a lock and beam us up.

I hope they can hear us.

They have to. They will.

Sixty seconds is long enough
for it to get to us.

We have to distract it.

I'm gonna turn on my comms
and I'm gonna run.

- Draw its attention.
- That's a terrible idea.

- Agreed.
- Okay, you guys saved my life.

All right? I owe you.

Someone's gotta do it. You know I'm right.

Yeah.

You are right.

You are right.

Someone's gotta do it,
so it's gonna be me.

- Wait.
- That's an order, ensign.

Once I'm clear, you turn on comms.
You call. Keep calling. Don't stop.

You got this.

You've all got this, okay?

Now on my Mark.

You ready?

Aye, lieutenant.

The minute you get a signal,
call the Armstrong.

Adira tal to u. S. S. Armstrong.

Come in.

Armstrong, acknowledge.

It's too close to her. We have to help.

Fire phasers to draw it off.

Holy shit. Here comes the other one.

It's coming right at us.

Keep firing.

Armstrong, acknowledge.
Please acknowledge.

This is captain imahara
of the USS Armstrong.

- It's them!
- Armstrong, get us the hell out of here.

Armstrong!

Ensign Moore, please report
to briefing room seven. Ensign Moore.

I just finished reading
the Armstrong's report.

The loss of lieutenant Callum
is a tragedy.

Frankly, I'm amazed any of you survived.

Well, the cadets really pulled it together
when it mattered.

Honestly, any of them would be
an excellent addition to any crew.

When that opportunity comes,
they'll have you to thank for it.

You know, when discovery first arrived,
no one here trusted you.

It wasn't just that
you were in a 930-year-old starship

and had never heard of the burn.

It was the way you carried yourselves,

like you grew up in a world
that believes anything is possible.

Quite frankly, it stung.

And it is exactly what
this new generation of cadets needs

as the federation rebuilds.

Now, after what you've just endured,
I can understand that

an offer to teach at the academy
is unlikely to fall on willing ears,

but the opening is there.

Any time.

Thank you, sir.

I never thought that I'd say this,

but I think that I'm glad I came.

I just... I...

I think I might have actually
made some friends today.

I wish I knew how to do it
without nearly getting eaten by a blob.

You are one of the most brilliant people
that I have ever met.

Do you ever wonder
why you start with "I can't"

when it comes to making new connections?

Just seems kind of impossible.

Well, when I see you,

and I see everything
that you have been through

and accomplished,

you are a reminder to me
that everything is possible.

Welcome home, madam president.

Thank you, president rillak.

Billions of futures have been changed
thanks to what we've done here today.

I must commend both of you
on a job well done.

Madam president, thank you for taking
this first step with the federation.

If I may, there's a matter on my mind.

You are curious
about the oowat milat sister j'vini?

If she will face justice for her actions?

Yes, ma'am.

J'vini will go to p'jahr,
a monastic world in the pella system.

There she will devote herself
to deep rehabilitative meditation

under your mother's careful guidance.

They leave tonight.

My mom said she had big news for me.

J'vini helped rebuild Dr. Burnham's life.

Now it seems their roles are reversed.

In time, she will also make amends to
the family of the slain starfleet officer.

I hope this sets your mind at ease.

Thank you.

Captain saru?

Will you join me for tea?

It would be my pleasure.

For someone who dislikes politics,

you show an aptitude for it.

I assume the admiral
made a miraculous recovery?

Now that you mention it, he was looking,
well, better the last time I saw him.

I received intelligence this morning,

indicating the exit-clause request
was coming.

I had to protect my source.

If you wanted my help,
you could've asked me.

Truth be told,

I wasn't sure
you were the right person for the job.

But I'm glad you were.

I appreciate that.

I know transparency
isn't always possible in your position.

But it is what I need
to best serve you and the federation.

So if you could be
more forthcoming in the future,

I would appreciate that as well.

Understood, captain.

I will see you back at headquarters
in a few days.

Guess I've got a lot to work out.

What do I do with it?

Well, when the mandala's finished, it's...

Wiped away.

You do this yourself?

Are there things you need to wipe away?

Sure.

You wanna talk about it?

Someday.

Come.

I heard what happened on the mission.

How are you doing?

You know...

Crashed into an ice moon.

Stranded in an electrical storm.
Chased by a flesh-melting alien.

So typical day.

I know there's been something
on your mind.

We haven't sat in here together
since you became captain.

Right.

Remember when we first became roomies?

I was so scared
to bunk with a famous mutineer.

I think I, like...
I think I laid awake at night,

scared you we're gonna
knife me in the back or something.

Well, you snored like crazy.

I had to get the computer
to block out the frequency

so that I could get any sleep.

I'm so sorry.

I only blocked it out for a few days.

Then I... I kind of started liking it.

Really?

- Really.
- You're weird.

You wanna go back, don't you?

I do.

Why?

Because getting my lieutenant pips
was the worst day of my life.

You know, I never could figure out
how my mother became a diplomat.

She was such a hard-ass at home.

No compromise.

She had everything planned out.
She had my whole life planned out.

So when I told her
that I wanted to join starfleet

instead of the diplomatic corps...

So I always thought
that I was doing this for me.

But then when I got the pips...

All of a sudden I realized, like,

my mom is 900 years in the past.

She's never gonna see me wear them.

Then I started wondering
if this is what I really wanted,

or if I just really wanted to be seen.

You know, and that was humbling.

But I think it could be
a useful perspective for a teacher.

Well...

I'll miss seeing your face every day.

No, it's not forever.

You'll still see me around fed hq.

If it's really bad, I can get
zora to record me while I'm sleeping.

So you can listen to me snoring
like you love to do.

I said, I kind of liked it.

You know you love it.

Let's not get crazy.