All language subtitles for Doubling.Down.with.the.Derricos.S05E01.1080p.WEB.h264-FREQUENCY[EZTVx.to]_track3_eng

-Are we ready to go ahead
and get lit?
-[all] Yeah!

[Karen] Last season
on Doubling Down
with the Derricos...

Kick! Get it, Derricos!

We have 14 children,
four sets of multiple twins.

[Darian] Not too rough, y'all.
Not too rough.

Our babies are grown, though.

[indistinct shouting]

Girls rule and boys drool.

My house is so small

and it can be really crazy
and chaotic.

[children chattering]

[Deon] That really
is annoying.

It just feels like
the walls are closing in.

That's where I am.

You're just meeting me.
That's all.

Girl, you ain't been there.

Karen deserves an apology

because your spouse shouldn't
feel the frustrations
you're having.

[Karen] I try not
to get emotional.

'Cause it's just
I want a bigger house.

Yeah.

[man] Let them go
explore this house, guys.

[children screaming]

[Karen] We've been
looking for a new house

ever since the first set
of triplets was born.

I'm just hoping and praying,

this is not another letdown.

[man] Uh, we were outbid
by a cash buyer.

-So, we lost the home.
-[bleeping]

I'm telling you,
you need to make friends.

Maybe you should
think about getting your
little job or something.

Yeah.

I'm so excited that I'm almost
a full-fledged adult.

Okay.

I need to find a life
outside my house.

Yay! I'm so excited
to work with you.

Thank you. I'm excited too.

My white blood cells are low,
very low.

Yep.

[Deon] The cancer
is still there,

and I'm going to be a wreck

if anything happens
to the mother.

We're currently
at the chemo with GG.

The nausea and the pain...

It's all so hard to deal with.

We have not gotten 100%.

[Deon] Oh, my God!

It's like, do I got through
with this next treatment
or not?

[Deon] My mother's
not a quitter.

That's not who
she's ever been.

After them damn doctors
told you you wouldn't live,

but you're still here
to this day

'cause fighting
is all you know.

I don't like talking
about that.

[man] Rolling...

-Does he sing a little bit?
-Who?

[man] What are you doing?

[woman] How old are you?

Four.

[woman] You're four?

We're three.

No, we're four.

We're four years old.

[woman] Hey, wait. No.
Dyver, come back!

And... go!

-[indistinct chatter]
-Daiten, get him!

Keep the elbows down!

Elbows down!

[all screaming]

Mommy, look. Mommy, look.

What has changed?

Well, I am not pregnant.

I think we're too busy
to get busy.

Yeah, well said, Mom.
Well said. [chuckles]

[laughing]

-Go!
-[laughing]

[Karen] But our babies
have gotten bigger.

It's hard to believe
that we have
our first adult child.

Yeah, I know.
That's all right.

This is gonna be light work.
Let's go, Daiten.
Come on, let's go!

Darian just turned
the big 1-8.

So she's been really thinking
about the whole
college experience.

[Daiten] I need my rematch.

And we are on the verge
of a house
full of teenage boys.

We gotta...

-Derek is 13,
soon to be 14 years old.
-Oh!

Wow.

I'm finally a teenager.

I got that swag!

Everything for him
is looking good,
smelling good,

the young ladies and sports.

Yes, and then
the twins are 12.

Dariz, you're my side guy.

Deniko, you're Dariz's
side guy?

Who's gonna win this champion?

Y'all can't mess
with these guns.

It feels good being 12.

We get to ride
on a lot of roller coasters.

I'm a preteen.
I'm gonna start
acting like a preteen.

[all chuckling]

[indistinct shouting]

Papi!

Come, dance with us!

[sighs] Oh!

[Karen] Our quintuplet girls
are 10.

But I promise you, they think
that they are 21 years old.

[Deon] Get it, baby!
Get it, girls!

Get it, my girls.

I know at some point
we're gonna have

three teenage girls
in this house at one time.

The thought of it
sends my Derrico-CD
out the roof.

Girl, we're tweens.

-We know we know, baby.
-We're double digits.

[all singing] We know, baby.
We know, baby. We know, baby.

[continues indistinctly]

Okay, okay. You can stop.
You're rapping.

[chuckles]

[indistinct chatter]

-I got muscles.
-Yeah, look at Der's now.

Take his lunch money.

[Deon] The quintuplets boys
are definitely going through

that hormonal stage
of feeling themselves
and liking girls.

Yeah.

I feet ten. Like, I feel...
I got tall a little bit.

I started eating more
for my strength, boy.

You don't even eat salads.
He gets corn dog and
chicken burgers.

-No, I don't.
-He gets corn dogs
and chicken burgers

with a side of french fries.

-[chuckles]
-Ooh, ooh, ooh.

He's a good dancer.

Look at this.

[Karen] But we still have some
young ones in the house.

-Diez and Dior
are six years old.
-[laughing]

-[Deon] Dior is our
little chatterbox.
-[Karen] Mmm-hmm.

[Deon] I mean,
one question after another.

Who's the Easter Bunny?
I like tap dancing.

[babbling]

What are you talking about?

[Karen] Meanwhile, usually,
Diez stays to himself.

[screaming]

[chuckles]

-And the triplets are four.
-Four.

My nails come off. Oh, yeah!

[Karen] Dawsyn
is still awesome.

But I also think
that she's now bossy.

Bossy Dawsyn.

Dyver is our little charmer.

[Deon] All he has to do
is look at you and and smile.

He's just... he got you.
And he knows it.

[Karen] De'Aren...
she will stay on her own.

Like, she would be
in the corner
going off on the boys,

and she's not calling
for any backup. [chuckles]

[Deon] Hit it!

[Karen] Now,
our younger children,
they get the dancing bug

from me and Derrico.

So, what we decided to do
was sign 'em up for tap class
later on this week.

I wanna tap dance.

[giggling]

[indistinct shouting]

[continues giggling]

Thank you, girls.

All right, Papi,
got to get you all breakfast.

-Who will help me?
-I will.

So we have all these
growing children

in one small house.

Stop me when I'm lying.

Hey, babies, help, uh...
Help Daician set the table
over there, okay.

[Karen] So I see somebody
not wanting to do
no dishes today.

[Deon] Baby,
the dishwasher is broken.

-No big deal.
-It is a big deal!

For what we're dealing with,
it's a very big deal.

It's just another thing

on our to-do list

still here in this house. Ugh!

Don't let this get
your panties in a bunch.
Respectfully.

I wear thongs. [chuckling]
So, they don't get in a bunch.

[both chuckling]

Yes, we've been
in this small house
for over five years now,

and it's causing more
and more tension
between Karen and I.

But I'm sitting
on a huge surprise

that will absolutely solve
all of our problems.

Let's just say it will
make her very happy,

unless it ain't handled right.

But seriously,
I don't want you
to get off of...

-I know.
-...where we are

-It just, really and truly...
It really burns me up.
-[Deon] I know.

We have a couple
of little challenges.

It's too small.
The babies are getting bigger.

-The dishwasher is broken.
-[sighing] Gosh!

[Deon] And we don't
have the house
that we want yet,

but it's going, baby.

I mean, I'm still looking.
It's not...

You know I always got a plan.
Trust me.

[kid screaming] Hot potato!

-Hot potato.
-[man] Okay, here.

You wanna play
hot potato with us?

Yeah, we gotta keep it going.

-Hot potato, hot potato.
-[chuckling]

Last year I was adopted
into the family.

I would never imagine
it was gonna be
so emotional for me...

Give it to Dawsyn.

...because it
is a lot different

than someone
just calling you family.

It's official.
You're one of us.
You're a Derrico.

So, I love being a big brother
to all of the children.

We lost the potato, y'all.

-It's gone potatoes.
-[laughing]

[Deon] Look
at the bright side.

We have our health.

We're all in one room.

Our baby girl is about
to go away to college locally.

What the word
are you talking about?

Darian, the oldest one.

Do you realize
she's the first person
in my family,

to go to college.

I think it's very important
for Darian to go to college.

She will be the first person
in our immediate family
to get a degree.

And I think
it's very important
that black women

seek a higher education
for purposes of being
at those men tables.

And I think it's also great
for our younger children
to witness that.

Right, Darian?
You're trying to go
to college locally, right?

I mean, I'm looking at some.

We have two
nice colleges here.

I mean, really nice.

-Um...
-[Deon] Okay,
so is it California?

And you're looking
at California?

That would still
be an adjustment for me,
to be honest.

[Karen] I tend to look
at this differently.

[Deon] You want her to go off?

Yeah, because I know
what it was like for me

becoming a flight attendant.

And I was away.

It was everything for me.

The diversity, the learning
different cultures.

All of that
did something for me.

I admire you

for being the kind of mother
and parent

that you could
support her going away.

That's just not me.
If I'm wrong, I'm wrong.

But technically,
it really is up to you.

You don't have to listen
to Mommy or Papi.

-You don't have to be swayed
by either one of us.
-Mmm-hmm.

[Deon] Someone's not
gonna be satisfied.

I know that.

I just started thinking
about going to college,

and I liked the idea
of going out of state.

But I also feel pulled
to stay local.

This is all I've ever known,
and I would miss my family
way too much.

Like, I just don't know
what I want to do.

[GG] Hey, everybody!

-[Deon] Hey, mother!
-GG!

Oh, God! Everybody down here!

-Hi, GG.
-Hi.

-[kids] Hi, GG.
-Hi, babies.

GG lives about 15 minutes,
give or take
from where I live.

And I've always been active
in my mother's life.

But now in, you know,
her more mature years.

I've taken on an even
bigger responsibility,

-Oh. Hey, bubba.
-GG.

[Deon] It's been two years
since GG started chemo
battling the lung cancer.

And treatment has gone well.
Thank God.

So today, I'm taking her
to her follow up appointment

just to see how this
last round of chemo went.

What y'all having down here?

Family meeting?

[Deon] No, we're just talking
about Darian going
to the local college.

-What?
-[Deon] Just talking. Um...

She's already chosen then?

Well, just... I know
it's gonna be local.

But I thought
maybe it was her decision.

I hope nobody
is trying to pressure her,

'cause if somebody
tries to get in her way,

they better watch out.

-I'll tai-chi 'em.
-[Karen] Exactly.

-[chuckles]
-Darian wants
to please her parents,

but those two,
both have their own thoughts

on what she should be doing.

So, Darian needs
to channel her ener-GG,

and make her own decisions.

All right, guys,
we need to go.

-[kid] Where are you going?
-Non-ya.

-What is that?
-Non-ya business.

Oh!

-[chuckles]
-[kid] I wanna go.

-[Deon] All right, you ready?
-[GG] I'm ready.

-You're ready? You're ready?
You're ready?
-Yes.

GG had a CAT scan
done a couple of days ago,

so we're here
to get the results

and discuss
her future treatment options.

Hey, Zack.

2 for review.

How you doing? Good.

Good seeing you, Dad. Good.

How you've been doing?

I've been doing really good.

[Dr. Parikh] Okay,
been feeling better?

[GG] I have.

You have this little break
from chemo

-for like a month and a half.
-Yes.

So what am I looking like?

You had a picture done for me
a couple days ago.

-I did?
-Yeah.

So that picture looked better.

Nothing new, nothing grew
and it's smaller.

-[Deon] That's a win.
-[gasps and laughs]

[GG] Thank you,
Jesus. [exhales]

-[Deon] That's a win.
-Oh, I receive it.

Oh, wow,
the relief that I feel.

Nothing grew, nothing new
and it's shrunk...

Hallelujah.

That's good news. Right?

-Yes.
-Yeah, it's not gone.

So decisions now
going forward is,

do we modify the treatment

to lower doses
more weeks apart,

Is it worth
what it's buying you
in terms of time

versus the quality
of life, right?

That's the decision
we have to make, right?

So that's
your decision, right?

GG always struggles
with chemo treatments

because of the way
it makes her feel.

And Dr. Parikh
is very aware of this

so he's offered her
less treatment.

Which is less dosage
and we get chance

to keep battling
this damn cancer.

So what if I still choose
to just go natural

and then I'm given a scan
and hypothetically,

things maybe
did not get better.

We'd keep watching it.

-Yeah.
-Okay. Yep, that is an option.

The flip side.
If you get worse,

if it spreads somewhere else
and you get weaker,

you may not be strong enough
to take more chemo.

Oh.

[Dr. Parikh]
Chemo works better
when people are healthier

You're probably
in the best shape
I've seen you in

in two years, alright?

so you have
a difficult choice coming up

in what you want to do.

Dr. Parikh is basically saying

that if my mother
does not continue with chemo

and she stops,
there's a possibility

that she may hit a wall
of a point of no return.

That's been
one of my greatest fears.

I still want to try
my natural.

-I just still...
-Okay, that's fair.

I want to try it and I want
to stop the treatment.

Are you okay
with what she just said?

[Deon] I am not okay with it.

-I would not stop anything
that got us here.
-Yeah.

That would be
my recommendation.

Yeah, I hear you.

It's hard right now for me
to see her side of things.

I just don't see it.

But I'm not winning
this argument

and I do want to respect
her decision and her choices

for her life.

However,
if things change health-wise,

that's a whole other ballgame.

There's some talk.

Some talking we have to do.

[Dr. Parikh] Remember,
it's her choice.

So...

Hey, baby, what's going on?

-Hey, what's up?
-We preparing for the aliens.

[Karen] No.

This is hoarding.

I don't know how much longer
I can maintain this secret.

There's light
at the end of the tunnel

and soon she'll know it.

All right, be careful.

[children exclaiming]

Stay over there playing.

I am so over this house.

Like, nothing in here
seems to work.

The walls are closing in.

-It's not the end
of the world.
-You may...

-I just done.
-But, Karen.

-Rico, I am just over it.
-There's a lot of us
in this house.

I definitely feel
like I'm suffocating.

Do you think maybe
you will maybe consider

trying the chemo
in conjunction with
your natural?

[GG] Derrick is
such a wonderful son.

I really don't know
what I would have done
without him.

But what I need
for my family right now

is positivity
and understanding.

And I don't want him to worry.

Derrick, the chemo
has gotten me to this point.

But now I'm ready
to try something else.

If it's stopped, then I think
of something else.

Maybe it'll be
the chemo again.

But, Ma,
what if it's too late?

-I think
that's my bigger issue.
-Well, hey.

If it's too late,
it wasn't meant for me.

Ma, that's not even fair.

It's fair to me.

The way the chemo
makes you feel

is a short-term thing
for the overall goal.

Here's the deal.

What's short-term for you
is an eternity for me.

That is what I don't really
think you understand.

And during those times,

I actually feel
like I'm gonna die.

I trust in what I'm doing.

Hook, line, and sinker.

I really do.

[Deon] Yeah,
I don't understand it.

And it's a
hard position for me

because I just want to feel
like I've exhausted

every single thing,
no matter which way you go.

Well,
consider yourself exhausted.

Because at the end of the day,
this is my life.

It's my health.

It's my journey.

Okay.

I don't like it,
but the way you put that,

I hear you.

Okay.

I hear you.

I don't like this at all.

I think we need
to keep fighting this

with everything we got.

So I will respect
her decision,

and I will give her space.

But I will be watching her.

And at the first sign
of trouble, we got to talk.

I don't want you and I at odds

because this is not the time
for that.

-This is the time for us
to bring it home.
-No.

-That's right.
-Bring home the NED.

[GG] Bring home the NED.

No Evidence of Disease.

[children screaming]

Our house is loud.
It's crowded.

[kid] WWE Championship!

[indistinct chatter]

We all are fighting
to get our toothbrush

to fight to take a shower,

fight to get in the bathroom.

You know how much
of a struggle that is?

[laughing]

[Denver] It's beyond loud.

When you go
to the movie theater
and the music...

Doo, doo, doo.

And it's like it's really
banging inside your ears.

That's how loud we are.

[shouts] I think
they're loud!

Yeah, right there.
Right there.

Yep, that's loud.

Yep, right there.

[children screaming]

Eric, here. Hand me...

So we're going to do
the food first.

Any food items?

You know why
I'm doing this, right?

Hoarding.

No. [stutters]

How dare you call me
a damn hoarder.

I'm preparing
for the real aliens.

-The aliens?
-[Deon] Yeah.

The government's
been talking about it.

And anything they start
talking about too much,

you know it's real.

Seriously.

Ever since Rico
read an article about
aliens being real,

it sent the Derrico OCD
into hyper drive.

And it was already bad before.

Now it's like on steroids.

This way,
if something happens,

my job is making sure
we have enough of everything

for 18 people.
That's a lot of people.

You telling me
you don't believe in aliens?

No, it's something out there.

I just don't know
how they look.

First of all, aliens are real.

Any more food over there?

Recently,
the government confirmed
that there are aliens.

So when and if they arrive,

I want to think
that I'm ready.

If we teammates, let's do it.

And if we fighting,
let's do it.

I mean, however it go down,
I want to be ready.

All right, if we're gonna
hoard for the aliens,

we're going to need
more space than this.

More like a bunker.

[Deon] Right.
I know this is excessive.

But the reason why I'm
gathering all this right now

is because you know
I got the house.

This is a part of our moving.

Everything in this garage
is going to the other house.

But Karen doesn't know yet.

So I've got to start
creating the, um,

the language, if you will,

so she will go along with it.

Oh, this is an overlay
for your underplay?

My overlay for the underplay.

But I really do believe
in doing this anyway.

Our journey to find
a new house has been
an uphill battle.

It's like I've gotten
my hopes up so many times

to only just be let down.

Well, that's why you got me.

That's why you got me.

So, here it is.

Eric, I don't know what to do.

Every time there's a house
that we've been interested in,
it doesn't pan out.

I've been trying to secure
this one particular house
for us for some time now,

but it just recently
became available.

Finally, it's all ours.

Thank God.

Thank God,
that's all I can say.

I do not want her to know
or have an inkling.

Yeah, we never had
this discussion.

Now, I'm paying two mortgages.

Karen don't even know
I have this house yet.

But it needs a lot of work
in order for it to be livable.

We got to remediate
the mold in the bathroom,

still gotta do hardwood floors
in the dining room,

carpet in the living room,
of course, painting.

Right now,
there's trash everywhere.

I want that house to look
like it's brand spanking new.

Yeah, I got that.

[Deon] It's important
that it looks perfect

because Lord only knows
how she's gonna react.

Well, we moved here when Diez
and Dior were babies.

-[Eric] Yeah.
-[Deon] But it feels like
five new.

Five new rolls
of toilet paper?

Yeah.

-Hey, baby, what's going on?
-Hey, what's up?

We're preparing
for the aliens.

[Karen] No.

This is hoarding.

-Yes.
-[Eric chuckles]

-Baby, I gotta get ready
for alien invasion.
-[Eric chuckles]

[Karen] There ain't
no aliens here, boy.

[sighs]

Yeah, I'm going in the house.

And you're sitting
there laughing?

Derrico's obsession
with these aliens is like

mind blown, to be honest.

It's like, "Really, dude?"

He may be prepared
for ET's arrival,

but we don't even
have the groceries
for this week's dinner.

So, I don't have time or space
for all of this crap.

Oh, yeah, she mad.

There's light
at the end of the tunnel.

I know it,
and soon, as she'll know it.

All right, yeah. Be careful.

♪ I'm on perfect
Timing, rhyming ♪

♪ Mining diamonds from rough ♪

[Karen] You ready for this?

I cannot believe you got me
doing this with 14 children.

Grocery shopping?

So, while Derrico
is hoarding doomsday products

for the upcoming
alien invasion,

he did not get anything
practical for the kitchen.

So today, we all are gonna go
to the grocery store

so I can teach him how to stay
focused on the grocery list.

[Deon] Hey, babies, listen,
don't forget,

-we're doing the buddy system.
-[Karen] Yes.

All right? Let's go.

With a family of 16,

it is important
that we have a buddy system.

-[Karen] Mm-hmm.
-So, we have
our older children

responsible for taking care
of the younger ones,

and that no child
gets left behind.

[Karen]
How many shopping carts
do I think we're gonna need?

-Forty.
-[Karen] Me and the girls
will take two,

you and the boys, take two.

I got the first page.
You and the boys
get the last two pages.

-"Pages?"
-[Karen] "Pages."

Oh, my God.

The difference between
the average family
and my family

going grocery shopping
is the budget is a lot bigger.

-I want apples.
-Oh, apples? Okay.

[Deon]
We go through an excessive
amount of product daily.

So what do we need?
A big bag of rice...

What? What is that?

[Denver] We're out of noodles.

We're buying in bulk
all the time.

[employee] How many kids
do you have?

-[Deon] Fourteen.
-[employee] Fourteen?

That's what I'm talking about.

We have to buy
things in multiples.

[Deon] You know,
they're addicted
to the noodles. Really?

Yeah, y'all don't have
any room for real food.

A lot of people, they're like,
"Oh, you're having
a birthday party?"

We're like, "No,
this right here is dinner."

Y'all see anything else
from my list over there?

-Mommy, can we get pickle,
please, please, please?
-I want the pickles, Mommy.

No, we're not doing
the pickle.

-Please, please, please?
-Please, Mommy?

I always wanna...

-Fine, get a pickle.
That's not on my list.
-Yay!

You would think that
as your children get older,

things that you do
becomes easier.

Not with our family's size.

[Deniko] Hey,
do you want one too?

[Karen] We've only recently
started taking the triplets
to the store

now that they're walking
all about and stuff,

and their little selves
got the nerve to have
desires and wants.

What is this
y'all putting in here?

-Um--
-[Dawsyn] That's De'Aren.

[Karen] That's De'Aren?

And when they say,
"Oh, I want that,"

you can't just look at them
and say, "Oh, no,
we got that at home."

No, we don't.

[Deon] Man, they're stocking
up on goodies.

Y'all gotta find at least
one healthy food.

[Dallas] With the spicy ones.

[Eric] Yeah,
we're gonna starve,
or get diabetes.

-We went to grocery store.
-Yeah, that was fun.
There was so many grocery.

[Eric] Dior,
what is y'all doing?

-Babies gone wild
in aisle two.
-[Dior] I'm sorry!

[Eric] Then help me!

-Do you like cheese?
-You like cheese.

I don't, you do.
I don't, you do.

It's good.
Mommy always [hiccups] says--

Oh. [mimicking hiccups]

-[both chuckle]
-No, I got 'em.

You have to taste cheese.

What? I didn't have cheese
in my life.

-[Denver] Hey, Papi, look.
-[Deon] What is it?

-Shaves. Razors, for my--
-Razors for what?

[Denver] For my beard.

[Deon] Denver, you don't
even have hair on your face.

-How will you do that?
-[Denver] Dallas does.

Of our eight boys,

five of them are
either starting puberty

-or on the verge
of starting it.
-Mmm.

-I'll take this one
right there.
-[Deon] Denver.

They have so many questions,

we can't allow no question
to go unanswered

'cause that could lead
to other things.

You're not about to get
no razor blades. Let's go.

This shaving cream
right there?

No, we-- Listen,
we're here to buy our food.

I just thank God that we still
have a minute

-before Dior and Diez
and Dyver gets to the point...
-[chuckles] Oh, Lord.

...of talking
about some puberty.

That one.

-[Dawsyn] Boys!
-I wanna see, make sure
you got every single thing.

Oh, my gosh!

Hold on. Half of this stuff
wasn't even on the list.

[Deon] Talk to your sons.

We don't have enough room
in this house, Derrico,
for all of this today.

Yeah, Papi!

[Deon] With every passing day,

I can see Karen's stress
is rising over this house.

I don't know how much longer
I can maintain

this secret
before she explodes.

-Hello.
-[casher] How you doing?

Did you find
everything you needed?

Yes, and then some.

[indistinct conversation]

But we did get them
out of the house.

-So, $726.43.
-[Deon] Oh, my God!

-How do you sleep at night
knowing you charging this?
-[laughing]

Yeah, our children
burned off energy

while also burning off
our money.

My God, this is
a lot of groceries.
Watch where you're going.

[Karen] Oh, it better
last us for a month,
with all of them.

[Deon] Girl, a month?

-We'd be lucky
if we get by a week.
-[Karen snickers]

[GG] What's your name?

-I'm a Derrico.
-Yes, you're a Derrico.

-What's your name?
-[Dawsyn laughs]

-De'Aren.
-What's your last name?

-[De'Aren] Derrico.
-What's your name?

Dyver Derrico.

[GG] All right. Give me some.

GG said, "Give me some."

[all laughing]

I love GG.

GG is my best friend.

GG is my best friend!

-No, it's mine!
-It's mine!

And my sister!

All right, sis,
what you up to?

Just looking at colleges.

Oh, what you
wanna take is what?

Music what, which is like
vocal performance
or film and television.

I did a summer program
at NYU for dramatic writing
in television and film,

and it was amazing
being on my own

and getting a taste
of what adulthood
would be like.

I loved it.

And they have
a vocal performance program
that looks incredible,

but if I apply, it would mean
going to New York
and auditioning.

So, I'm just kinda looking
at their curriculums
and just weighing my options.

I just go
back and forth a lot.

Like, do I wanna stay here,
or do I wanna go far.

Does Papi know you're looking
at schools on East Coast?

No, I know how Papi is about,
you know, being close
to your family.

It's gonna probably
be hard for him.

I understand how Papi feels,

but I also get
Mommy's point, too.

Because this is a chance
to really explore
who is Darian

when she's not around
her family.

It's just a lot
that I have to think about.

Just because you're 18,

that don't mean
you have all the answers.

-Mm-hmm.
-[GG] You know, I didn't
have the opportunity

to go to college.

I didn't even finish
high school.

But I would love, love
to be able to relive my life

and be faced with some
of these opportunities
you're faced with.

-Mm-hmm.
-[GG] Oh, yeah.

Back when I was growing up,
black women didn't have
a lot of opportunities.

But if I had have had
the opportunity at 18,

I would have told
my 18-year-old self,

"You better seize
the moment, baby."

I would have did
more with my life.

I know Deon doesn't want
his little girl to go away

if it's not
what she really wants.

But if it's what
she really wants,

they need to step aside
and let her do her thing.

Darian, you would be
the first one in this family
to get a college degree.

That is just wonderful.

But ultimately, I want for you
what you want for you.

-Okay.
-[GG] Whatever that is.

[Darian] I feel pressured
to make the right decision

when it comes to college.

I don't wanna
disappoint anyone,

but at the same time,
I have to do
what's right for me.

And right now, I don't
even know what that is.

-Girls and boys, take notes
from your big sister.
-[Darian chuckles]

She's going places
and she's doing things.

Look at Dawsyn.

We're gonna put
our toes in the front.

-Oh, one, two, three.
-[Darian] No, Dawsyn.

[Karen] When your children
are young,

that's when you start
nurturing the things
that they wanna do.

Good job.

I have two words for you.
"East Coast."

-I'm for going away.
-Yeah.

It's hard feeling
that pull from all directions.

I don't want Papi to feel
the type of way if I leave.

As far as Papi,
he's not gonna pressure you,
I promise you.

All right, we're gonna do
some tap dancing today!

When your children are young,
that's when you begin to start

fostering and nurturing
the things that they wanna do.

And now that they're showing
the interest

in our family's love of dance,
I signed them up for tap.

Say hi!

Got a whole crowd.
Come on in, you guys. [laughs]

I'm just in shock.

I can't believe
they're all her children.

I can't believe
she has that many.

Classes definitely run
different when you have
siblings in a class.

Sometimes, it does turn
into chaos, yeah.

But I'm sure their house
is chaotic all the time.

Okay, we have
a magic number in dance.

The number is eight.

Do you guys know
how to count to eight?

-Yes.
-Eight.

-[instructor] One, two...
-[children] Two, three, four,

five, six, seven, eight,

-nine--
-[instructor] No!

No! Only to eight.

-[laughs]
-[instructor] Eight.
Let's try again. Ready?

We're gonna put
our toes in the front.

And we're gonna tap
our toe eight times.

Ready? We go.

-Oh, one, two, three, four--
-[Darian] No, Dawsyn.

-Just one, though.
Just one, though.
-[Karen] Dawsyn.

Can you do that?

Oh, yeah, you can.
All right, step together.

You could be
the best tap dancer.

And you... [groans]

Seven, eight.

Oh, no! That was nine again!

Don't you know how to stop?

[instructor] It's hard
to stop on eight, isn't it?

All right. Should we learn
a little tap dance?

-[all] Yes!
-Yes?

Yes!

-I'm the baddest dancer
in the whole world.
-I can do this.

-No.
-Yes, I can.

Can you do this?

No!

Hands on our hips.

Smiles on our lips.

-Don't throw a fit.
-[chuckles]

[instructor] Okay.
[chuckles] Ready?

We're gonna take
our right foot,

and we're gonna do one toe.

-Toe.
-Toe.

Then we're gonna
step together.

Then we're gonna jump big "X."

Then we're gonna jump in.

And then we're gonna shake
our arm down.

Nice.

How many heels do you think
I'm gonna do?

-Eight.
-[children] Eight!

You guys are really good
at this dance stuff.

I think that the children
are having an amazing time.

There's a couple of them,

yeah, they really
wanna do this.

I think we found our little
Gregory Hines and Paula Abdul.

-[instructor] One.
-[Dawsyn] Two.

-Look at Dawsyn.
-[Dawsyn] Two.

[instructor] Three!

[Karen] Can you believe
that you were once
all of their ages?

-Yes, I can.
-[Karen] You were--

And now you're out here
looking at different colleges.

[chuckles]

Because Darian
was our only child
for four-and-a-half years,

we have that bond.

I've been
her biggest cheerleader
since the day she was born.

So now that she's grown,
I want her to go out

and have her own adventures,
just like I did.

[instructor]
Hands on your hips.

I have two words for you,
"East Coast."

I'm for going away.

I just don't really see you
being around here in Vegas.

It's like, why can't I
just multiply myself

and do everything
that Darian wants to do?

Like, why can't
one Darien stay here,

and then one Darian
going to New York,

and then one Darien
explore the world,

then one Darien
and do this and that and that.

That's... that's part
of growing up,
making a decision.

-Yeah.
-[Karen] But I'm for it

because I know
what it did for me.

I was from a small town,

I had never been around
so many different cultures,

and I wasn't just living
in this bubble.

When I moved away from home,
I was 18 as well.

I became a flight attendant,

and I wouldn't be
where I am right now
without that.

It really and truly
opens up your mind.

So I really want her
to have that experience.

The fact that you know
what you wanna do,

you know you want to say,
that's a big, huge step.

You know, so you just...
you just go for it.

Go to a school that gives you
the talent and experience
to help you explore that.

So just go ahead and apply.

There's no harm in you
exploring all of your options.

Yeah, I guess so.

It's hard feeling that pull
from all directions,

and I don't want Papi to feel
the type of way if I leave,

but it can't hurt
to give it a shot.

Okay, I'll send in
my NYU application.

I just don't know
what Papi's gonna think,
you know?

He's not gonna pressure you,
I promise you.

'Cause ultimately, we want
what's... what's gonna make
you happy.

Yeah.

Just remember,
the worst dream
is the one not lived.

[indistinct conversation]

[indistinct shouting
and exclaiming]

[Karen] Girls,
y'all are in my way.

-Stay over there playing.
-[indistinct conversation]

I am so over this house.

We're all crammed inside.

I have no alone time.

The dishwasher don't work.

And now the dryer
is suddenly broken.

And I'm constantly wondering
what else is going
to go wrong.

[indistinct shouting]

Stop! Don't run
through the clothes, y'all!

I'm hanging these up to dry.

-[indistinct shouting]
-Oh, my God.

-Yeah, oh, my God.
What are y'all doing?
-[indistinct shouting]

Girls, calm it down.
Go over there.

-[indistinct shouting]
-What's all of this?

The dryer is out
and I have no other place
to hang this stuff.

[Deon] Are you kidding me?

[Karen] I'm so done with this.

Like, nothing in here
seems to work with--
And the walls are closing in.

I know you're looking
for a house,

so don't... don't say that.

I know you are,
but it's just, I'm tired.

[indistinct shouting]

[Deon] Well, baby,
just calm down.

I mean, you know,
it's not the end of the world.

I know Karen
is super frustrated
with this situation.

But this house
is a disaster zone.

It's just not ready
for her to see it.

I just need her
to hang on a little longer.

I just feel as though
anything that I ask for,
nothing is done now.

I'm tired of waiting.

-It's not the end
of the world.
-[Karen] You make--

-You act like you never
had no breakdown before.
-[Karen] No.

-Things breakdown.
-I have had things breakdown,

but the difference is
I didn't have 14 children

-when things broke down.
-[Deon] No, that's-- Listen.

There's 17 people
in this house,

so things are gonna
break down a lot faster.

-I'm just done.
-[Deon] Look, Karen--

-Derrico.
-There's a lot of us
in this house.

[Karen] I am just over it.

Home schooling in here,
stuff falling apart.

I need a minute.

Between the dishwasher,
the dryer,

the children running around,

it just feels like the walls
are, like, closing in.

I definitely feel like
I'm suffocating.

-[Deon] Hey, Eric.
-[Eric] Yes?

I gotta go check on Karen.

-Okay.
-[Deon] I'll be right back.

To see my wife
go through this,
it is time up.

You can't do it
any more at this house.

The house is too small.

You know, it's a gut punch
because I have a solution.

I just can't tell her
I have a house.

But if she see
the house right now
and it's not finished,

it's almost like
I'm presenting her
with another problem.

What's going on?

I am mentally beat.

[sniffles]

I don't like
feeling like I'm defeated.

I feel like things
that I've been working toward,

you know, it just...

they're just not going through
the way I want.

Like, you know, by this time,
we figured

that it'd definitely
be in a bigger house.

-It wouldn't have
taken this long.
-Right.

You know, it's not so much
the dishwasher or the dryer.

It's the fact
that it's happening
back to back,

-all at one time.
-Mm-hmm.

[Karen] And I know it's small,
but it's like,

I'm just mentally drained.

Life keeps going on.
The children are growing up,

and yet, I feel stuck.
You know, like stuck
in this same small house

year after year.

I don't wanna feel hopeless,
but I can't help it.

God, I've been
through too much
to have to keep waiting.

That's how I feel.

[crying] It's like...

[sniffles]

why can't we [sniffles] find
what we need, and yeah...

[sniffles] I'm done.

I'm really and truly,
I'm done.

I feel that, too.

-[Karen] Just--
-You hit me in the gut
with that one.

I'm just tired of it.

I have kept this house
a secret

because it's just
not finished.

But talking to her right now,
she's clearly distraught,

and my fear is
am I doing more harm

than good
by allowing her to go down

this emotional roller coaster
without an end in sight.

That's the biggest problem.

Just seeing you,
watching you express
yourself like this...

-[chuckles]
-[Deon] ...this is a lot.
No, seriously, this is a lot.

I think I would like to, um...

-[Karen sniffles]
-I think I would like
to take you out.

[sighs]

You shouldn't be
where you are emotionally.

I get it.

I appreciate it.
It's just so much.

How long will it take
for you to change?

[sniffles] You won't know.
Now that I don't wet
my makeup.

[both laugh]

-Let's hit the road.
-[Karen] Mm-hmm.

[Deon] You know,
I don't wanna show her
the house before it's ready,

but I also know
when a person
is where she is...

they have to be
given a lifeline.

I feel like the lifeline
right now is to tell her
about this house

and change her whole
mental perspective.

She needs
that glimmer of hope,

and she needs it right now.

[Karen] Where in the world
are we going?

We'll just pretend like
this was our first date.

-And--
-And I lived in Detroit

-and didn't know where
we were going anyway. [laughs]
-[Deon] Yeah.

Just live in the moment
of knowing...

-[Karen] Okay.
-...that it's just you and I.

-Okay.
-We have no babies
to tend to.

[chuckles]

-I really do appreciate
you doing this.
-Right.

You deserve this,
you really do.

This is a gamble.

You know, revealing it to her
right now is a gamble

because there's quite a bit
of work that needs to be done.

It looks gloomy,
it hasn't been painted,

we need carpeting.
The list goes on and on.

So it could definitely add
a great deal of stress.

And I don't want
to put her in a situation

where she's even
more stressed out
than she is right now.

Karen, I need you
to cover your eyes.

-[Karen] I'm not looking.
-[Deon] Okay.

You're not looking.

I have already sunk
a lot of time and money

into this house
without her knowing.

So I'm hoping
that Karen will be able

to see beyond the mess,
see beyond the construction,
and see the potential.

Okay, so stand still,
don't move.

Because right now,
we're at the point
of no return.

-Okay, so you ready?
-Yeah.

[Deon] All right,
you can open your eyes up.

Alright, baby, let's go skiing.

[all] This season on
Doubling Down
With the Derricos...

I'm living my best life.

I'm hoping that this ski trip

will take our minds
off of everything,

[children screaming]

but on the other hand,
Black people don't ski.

Mnh-mnh.

Oh [bleep]

[grunts] [bleep]

Deonee.

Our girls are becoming
a little handful.

Boys!

-We out!
-Bye!

And these boys
are girl crazy.

[shouting indistinctly]

[Karen] That's right.

Welcome home.

[cheering]

We got a new house.

It's so big, it's huge!

This house is big, big, big!

There's a lot we gotta get done.

[saw whirring]

Okay, is it on?

Nope.

I go from one problem
right into another one.

I just expected a lot more.

I feel like
we're at ground zero.

I really think it's time
that we tell the children.

That's gonna be
a hard conversation.

I've decided to stop doing
my chemotherapy.

I cannot make my mother do
what I feel is best for her.

I'm auditioning for NYU!

[cheering]

This is an opportunity
that not a lot of people have.

I see the light.

Darian Derrico.

I feel like mommy wants it
more than I do.

Okay.

I'm actually a little pissed off

about how Karen's role
in this whole thing has been.

This is a big opportunity.

I want her to live
her own damn life, period.

I need you to be my right hand
on this.

And I need you
to be my right hand.

Okay, I'm done.

So you're so passionate,
now you're done?

What part of the game is this?

So now you walking out?

Really?

I mean, everybody
has a breaking point.

She's hurt.

Karen, what happened?

Karen, what's wrong?