All language subtitles for The Secret 2016 S01E03 720p WEB-DL x264 BONE

# Footsteps of Jesus

# That make the pathway glow #

The church and my family are my life.

(GROANS) I want us to live our
whole lives together. Me, too.

What if Lesley and Trevor
were to die? How would it work?

You'll need to alert me
when Trevor's off duty,

and he'll have to have been sedated.

If we get caught my life would
be over. I'd drive off a cliff.

(ENGINE REVS)

Nobody is gonna catch us.

It's God's wish that we be together.

I finished with Lesley.
Has he taken a sleeping pill? Yes.

(STRUGGLING)

Colin, I'm so sorry.

Trevor and Lesley have been found.

They were inside
her father's garage.

Hazel, are you OK
to talk to the police?

Is there any reason why Trevor
might have taken his own life?

I'd had an affair with...
Lesley's husband.

Yes, that's true.

Hazel and I had been having
an affair.

It ended six months ago.

Lesley had tried to kill herself
before, you see,

but I never thought she'd actually
go through with it.

It is my belief that you are wholly
responsible for this tragedy.

I simply cannot accept that Lesley
would've abandoned the children.

(BIRDS SQUAWK, WAVES ROLL)

Yes, well, it's a rather
delicate question, you see.

Um...my wife has taken her own life

and I wondered if...

That's very kind of you.

Yeah, she left me with four
young children.

Um...

So, what I wanted to know was that

is there any exclusion
in this regard

if I were to...

claim on her life insurance?

(DOORBELL RINGS)

(KIDS CHATTING)

(DOORBELL RINGS)

(KIDS CONTINUE TALKING)

Good morning, Detective Inspector.
I'm sorry to bother you.

How have you been coping, Mr Howell?

Er...just...

you know, soldiering on.

Anything I can do to help?

Yes. I've something to show you.

Do you recognise this?

What are you saying?
This is what was used?

It's like our old one.

You know, I thought that was
in the garage. Let me check.

Um...

I can't seem to find it.

People have been saying things
to me, Mr Howell.

Nobody ever really gets away
with murder.

I thought this was suicide.

Is this a murder?

I know why you're here.

The elders have been talking,
saying this and that about me.

And you've got to come round here
and do your job.

Detective Inspector...

..I do have a confession to make.

I said before that the affair
with Hazel Buchanan finished
six months ago.

Well, the truth is we did relapse.

Not that long ago.

The pastor and the elders
were furious.

They suspected as much and now
they blame me for what happened

and in a way I suppose
they're right.

You know, the affair
starting up again...

must've driven Lesley and Trevor
to do what they did.

Um...but please don't...
don't blame the elders.

They're not trying to waste
your time. I just wasn't as honest
as I wanted to be.

I'll be in touch.

(PHONE RINGS)

Lisa. Hello?
Lisa.

Hello? Where have you been?
I've been trying since...

You shouldn't be calling here. I
told you we can't have any contact.

Listen to me. I had to tell
the police that we began seeing
each other again.

They'll ask.
I don't think I can deal with that.

Just admit it. Tell them it was
probably the last straw for Trevor.

I don't think I can.

(DOORBELL RINGS)

We should meet up. I need to see you.

I have to go. Just wait.
Why are you avoiding me?

Inspector.
Mrs Buchanan.

I'm very sorry to bother you again
but I've just got a few more
questions.

OK. Come in.

Would you like a cup of tea?
No, thanks.

Hazel, have you been totally
truthful with me?

No.

I've been speaking with Colin Howell

and he says your relationship
was still going on until recently.

(SIGHS)

Why didn't you tell me the truth,
Hazel?

I was so ashamed.

I promised Pastor Hansford
it was over for good.

I felt so bad I didn't want
anyone to know.

Hazel, is there anything
about the relationship

between Colin and your husband
that you'd like to tell me?

I don't know what you mean.

Colin liked Trevor.

He felt...

bad about the suffering
we caused them.

We both did...

and Lesley, too.

Right.

And what was going on
between Trevor and Lesley?

What?

I don't know.

I think...

I think we drove them together.

She has a shoulder to cry on.

Trevor said he'd never get over it -
the affair.

I think...

it starting again was...

probably the last straw for Trevor.

(KNOCK ON DOOR)

(KNOCKS QUICKEN)

What are you doing?
You've got to be insane.

I had to see you.

We need to talk about
what's going to happen now.

To us. I have to know.

Leave. You could get caught.
What about the police?

They have no evidence.
This is about you and me.

You need to decide our future.

I won't ever try and change your mind

however lonely I get.

I know you must be missing Trevor.

I just can't believe he's gone.

I miss Lesley, too.

I'm so sorry
I didn't love her enough,

and for the wrongs I did her.

But we can move forward now,

and give ourselves to each other
without looking back.

Cos we love each other.

Decide now.

Don't allow me to think there is hope
if there is none.

You'll kill me.

I have taken a mother
from her children,

but God will provide for them.

And I only hope and pray

that you are the one He provides.

I received a note - item C1 -
from Colin Howell...

..which he confirmed was written
by his late wife Lesley.

He identified to me
the length of hose

as being part of the family vacuum -
item C3.

I conducted an immediate
and thorough investigation

into both deaths,

which included the interview
of a number of witnesses

and other persons.

It is believed the deaths
were brought about

as a result of the affair
by the spouses of the victims,

up until the time
of the suicide incident.

Lesley Howell had made
previous suicide attempts.

Despite reconciliation attempts
made by Reverend Hansford,

neither of the victims
could come to terms

with their spouse's infidelity,

and was most likely
the motivating factor

in both of them taking their lives.

(PANTS)

.

.

(DOOR OPENS)

Oh, hello.
Hi. Hi.

How about Matthew?
Hello!

Do you remember Mrs Buchanan
from the nursery school?

Oh, you can call me Hazel now.
Bless.

# The wolf is coming
to find small children

# And eat them up #
Aarrgh!

(KIDS SCREAM AND LAUGH)

(LAUGHS)

Oh, don't stop. Go.

(CRIES)
Oh, you're good. Come on.

You're good.

Right, off you go. Off you go.

You not playing?

You not playing, darling?

I miss Daddy.

I know, pet.

I know.

Why did he want to die?

(COLIN LAUGHS IN DISTANCE)

Well...

sometimes...people get...so sad.

So sad that they...
have to leave this world.

They'll be in heaven now.

Dad.

Dad!

You OK?

I...
Matthew, easy, easy.

Look what I have.
Yes! Yes!

Lucy, you know how this works?

Yes! Yes! Yes!
Good.

(KIDS CONTINUE CHATTING)

(KIDS LAUGH)

(MOANS)

Don't. Don't.

What?

Mummy.

Tell him to...

(BIRDS SQUAWK)

Isn't it beautiful? Look.
Yeah.

We can go for a nice walk down there.

No children to spoil our fun.

There's a health club.

Beauty treatments.
Yes.

I signed in as Mr and Mrs Howell.

(GIGGLES)

(BOTH MOAN)

No. (SOBS) No.

What?
No, no.

What is it?

Hazel, what is it?

He sees us.

Who?

God.

I can feel His eyes on us.

Of course He sees us.
He sees everything.

But He wouldn't give us this love
if He didn't want us to be together.

Second book of Samuel,
chapter 11, verse 26:

"And when Bathsheba heard that
Uriah her husband was dead

she mourned for him,
and when the mourning was passed

David sent and fetched her
to his house

and she became his wife."

(UNLOCKS)

Well, maybe if we stop short of,
you know,

making love.

Maybe then...

He'd forgive us.

The Lord put David's sin away...

because David repented daily
for what he had done.

Well, better we take
no pleasure in it, then.

But in time...

God let Bathsheba bear David
a second son -

the great King Solomon.

(CLOCK TICKS)

(BIRDS SQUAWK, WAVES CRASH)

I think we underestimated the
response in both our hearts

to what we did.

God will pardon us in time.
Then we can give ourselves...

We can't even walk down the same
street together or be at the same
church. What future do we have?

A future in Scotland.

I've looked at a couple of practices.

Baptist communities.
We could marry there.

I'd lose the police pension.

I know but we've still got
over 200 grand.

Lesley's estate and then there's
the money from the insurance on top.

I'm...
Listen.

We're all set up.

You know, and...

I will love Lisa and Andrew
as my own.

Thanks.

As my own.

I'm not sure I can be
the loving mother to yours.

Sorry, it's...

And I don't know if I can give you
what you want, you know,

as a...wife.

I just...

I feel so guilty
I just lock up inside.

Lock up? What does that mean?

I do love you, I just...
Well, I love you.

I just get so tense. I just...

I just can't do it.

I'm sorry.

No.

I've lost my appetite.

That's all right.

Want to just go?

(SIGHS)
We can go.

I don't know about this.
Come on.

I should be getting home to the
babysitter. No, it'll perk you up.

Your smile is the highlight
of your beauty.

It has to sparkle and shine,

then you'll feel your best.

(MACHINE WHIRS)

Want the gas and air? Help you relax?
Mm-hm.

Hold on. I'll turn it up.

(GAS RELEASES)

That good?
Mm-hm.

Feeling better?
Mm, better.

Mm-hm. (CHUCKLES)

Much better, yeah.

(SIGHS RELAXINGLY)

(CHUCKLES)

(MOANS)

(MOANS)

(MOANS INTENSIFY)

(CONTINUES MOANING)

.

.

..you have to wait for hours.

Please can we be excused
to play now?

Aye, but what do you say
to Granny for the cake?

Thanks for the cake, Granny.

My favourite was the icing. I know,
you ate all mine. No, I didn't!

(LAUGHTER)

Wonderful children, Hazel.

Yes. Whatever happened,
you're a...devoted mother.

So...Laura and I, we just wanted
to say we've forgiven you.

The affair.

It's the Christian thing to do.

Children need their grandparents.

You'd be welcome in our home,

whenever you want
to bring them round.

Thank you.

Are you ready?

Do you want to take your pants off
before while I...? Yeah, sorry.

(GIGGLES)

All right?
Mm-hm.

OK?

It's going to be OK.
Will it hurt?

No, no, no. Here it goes.

(GASPS)

That's it, lie down.

That's just so wrong.

No, it's not.

It's fine.

We need it. You need it.

We need each other.

Do we?

You all right for housekeeping?

Here.

I don't want your money.

Maybe we should go away again soon.

Somewhere nice.
I can't.

OK.

So when shall I see you again?
I can't do Thursday, I'm hosting
a prayer meeting. What about Friday?

I can't.
My sister's coming over to stay.

So when will I see you?

I'll give you a call.

Can you go before the children
get back?

(RINGS)

HAZEL ON ANSWER MACHINE:
Hello, you've reached
the Buchanan residence.

Leave a message after the beep.

(BEEP)

Watch, watch, watch.

Be nice to the lady.

Takeaway for Howell.
Yeah, just a minute.

Daddy. Yeah.
Can I have a mint? Yeah.

That's 12.50.

Come on.

Thanks.
OK, night-night.

OK, see you later.
I'll call you tomorrow.

OK. Good night.

(CAR HORNS)

What are you doing?
Who's he?

None of your business. I didn't
see you invite him in. No.

I'm not inviting you in, either.

Colin, get out of my house!

Oh.

Generous man.
Why did he buy you all these?

Are you sleeping with him?
No. No.

No, you can't be because
I am the only man for you!

You and I belong together!
No, we do not.

Hazel, I sacri... We sacrificed
so much to be together!

I never wanted any sacrifice!

You drew me in! You wanted me!

You can't just spit me out and throw
me away like a piece of paper!

I just want an ordinary life.
A normal, peaceful life

and I can't have that with you!
We are bound together by all of
this!

(PANTS)

This isn't finished.

And it never will be.

(CONTINUES PANTING)

(DOORBELL RINGS)

I'll just be a minute.

Hi, I'm Kyle Jorgensen.

Is this the right place?

Yes, the Barn Fellowship.

I'm Colin.

Hi.
Come in.

.

.

Children?

(BABY STIRS)

OK?

Shh.
(KIDS LAUGH)

You're it!
Hi, look.

Look, look, who's this?
Hello.

Who's this? Look.

Katie, Lauren?
Oh, he's so sweet. Eh? Aw.

Aww. Matthew, would you like
to say a prayer?

Um...yes.
Come on, guys, hold hands.

Hold hands.

Thank you, God, for...
(CLEARS THROAT)

for bringing baby Erik
into your family.

Amen.
ALL: Amen.

Comfy?
Mm.

(BABY BURPS, BOTH CHUCKLE)

After Lesley died,

I prayed to God that He'd provide me
with a mother for my children.

I once hoped that Hazel
would be their new mother,

but I now see, within his wisdom,

He's provided you and I feel blessed.

He brought you to me,

and He has given us a new son.

And that proves that I'm finally
on the right path.

Yes.

Kyle...

I'm a good father and husband
to you, aren't I? Of course.

Well, I need to tell you something.

I killed Lesley.

What?

I killed Lesley

and I killed Trevor.

What are you talking about?
They killed themselves. No.

I killed them and faked
their suicide.

With Hazel.
(KIDS LAUGH)

I thought it was what God
wanted me to do.

They were both so unhappy.

They didn't want to live.

I did it for the children.

To protect them.

Well...

Is this true, Colin?

It's the truth, yes.
Then you have to tell someone.

You have to tell the police.
I will if you want me to.

But my duty is to provide
for you and our children.

Not just my four,

not just Katie and Dylan.

We have Erik to think of now.

He needs both his parents.

Without me, you'll lose the house,
everything that we have.

God brought you to me

so that I could protect you.

You waited until we had a baby
before you told me?

No.

No. I can tell you now because
I know that God is smiling on us.

I put all my sins before the cross

and He has blessed us with Erik
and forgiven me my sin.

I am a good man now.

There is more joy in heaven

over one very wicked man who repents
than over 99 ordinary sinners.

There is no secret from God.

And now there is no secret
between us.

I will do whatever you choose.

I am placing our future
in your hands.

What?

I can't. I...

I can't take this.

Kyle, people are arriving.

(ENGINE RUNS OUTSIDE)

(ENGINE STOPS)

(BABY STIRS)

Will you join us?

We should sing something
for Erik now.

(VARIOUS VOICES TALKING)

I Am Thine.
I Am Thine. Right.

(GUITAR PLAYS)

# I am thine, O Lord

# I have heard Thy voice

# And it told Thy love to me

# But I long to rise
in the arms of faith

# And be closer drawn to Thee

# Draw me nearer

# Nearer, blessed Lord

# To Thy cross where Thou hast died

# Draw me nearer, nearer

# Nearer, blessed Lord

# To Thy precious bleeding side

# Consecrate me now
to Thy service, Lord

# By the power of grace divine

# Let my soul look up
with a steadfast hope

# And my will be lost in Thine

# Draw me nearer

# Nearer, blessed Lord

# To the cross where Thou hast died

# Draw me nearer, nearer

# Nearer, blessed Lord

# To Thy precious bleeding side

# O the pure delight
of a single hour

# That before Thy throne I spend

# When I kneel in prayer,
and with Thee, my Lord

# I commune as friend with friend

# Draw me nearer

# Nearer, blessed Lord

# To the cross where Thou hast died

# Draw me nearer, nearer

# Nearer, blessed Lord

# To Thy precious bleeding side

# There are depths of love
that I cannot know

# Till I cross the narrow sea

# There are heights of joy
that I may not reach

# Till I rest in peace with Thee

# Draw me nearer

# Nearer, blessed Lord

# To the cross where Thou hast died

# Draw me nearer, nearer

# Nearer, blessed Lord

# To Thy precious bleeding side #

Matthew.
He's coming.

Tell him to hurry up.

You got everything?

What about end of term?

You back here?
Come on, you're making me late.

All right.
He'd like you here for Easter.

Maybe.

I'll take that.
Thank you.

I'm going to go and check out.

Would you hold that a second?

(ELEVATOR DINGS)

Hello, Hazel. How are you?

I'm well, thanks. How are you?

Grand, grand.

How are the kids?

Um...they're grown up.

Matt's at university.

Oh, time flies, doesn't it?

Well, um...

great seeing you.

I'm sorry, darling.

Thank you.

That was Colin Howell, wasn't it?

Hey.

Are you all right?

Yeah.

Not really.

Yeah, yeah.

OK, let's get out of here. Come on.

(ELEVATOR DINGS)

Colin. Colin?

Oh, hi. How are you?

Sorry, that was an old friend
of mine.

No-no problem at all. I have
everything you need right here.

Ah, oh, yeah, I have one, but, um...
Here, sit down. Thank you.

Um...yes, uh...

So, very exciting.

(TOILET FLUSHES)

(COUGHS)

(EXHALES)

Your next patient's here.

Mr Howell, we were wondering
about a staff outing.

Great idea.
What about Mamma Mia?

No, no. I'm sorry,
but that's a story about a woman

who doesn't know who the father of
her daughter is. I can't make myself
go to a show like that.

I don't approve.

Hello.
Hi.

Do you want to come through?
Yeah, sure.

Just into the left here.

All right?
Yeah.

How long is this going to take?

Oh, half an hour.

Give this a wipe.

When the needle goes in,

your arm will feel a little cold,

but it won't take too long
for this to take effect.

OK.

It's going in now.

There we go.

Will you put those through
for me now, please?

Are you sure?
Yes.

Sure.

Good to see you.
(ALL SPEAK AT THE SAME TIME)

I know, I understand.
You're very welcome.

We pray to the Lord...

Amen.
ALL: Amen.

That was lovely. Thank you, Kyle.

Lauren, everyone's finished,
you're in charge.

Let's get these plates cleared away.
I'll take the cups.

Kyle, no, no, no.
Dessert is still forbidden.

(SCOFFS) It's just some coated
raisins. I wouldn't quite call it
dessert.

We agreed as a family to forego
sweets of all kinds for one month

in order to reflect upon those
less fortunate. (PHONE RINGS)

Go on, take them back.

Thou shalt not lay a stumbling block
before the righteous. (LAUGHTER)

So, Erik, what Bible story tonight?
You can choose.

I don't mind.
It's Matt.

Maybe it should be the Prodigal Son.

(LAUGHTER)

(SOBS)

Hello?

We've put his stuff out
on the landing.

So I was here when...

Well, um...

Well, I was... I was leaving
the building down there.

But not realising I'd left my keys,

at which point Matt comes running
out of our flat up there,

onto the landing after me
to let me know

but he was in his socks,
no shoes, so...

I think he must have slipped
and fallen over the banister

because he cried out

and when I looked up
he was, um...

he was dangling up there.

As soon as I see him I start
running up the stairs two or three
at a time.

Till I get here, halfway.

And that's when he fell?

I'm so sorry, Colin.

Show me exactly what you did.

Go.

William, follow me.

Go.

(PANTS)
10.5 seconds to there.

(COINS JINGLE)

(COIN HITS GROUND)

2.1 seconds.

Are you all right, Colin?

Assuming it took five seconds

for you to see and react...

Yeah.
..that totals 17.6 seconds

for my son to contemplate

his imminent death.

You have seen my sin, O God.

Have mercy on me.

Wash away all my iniquity

and cleanse me of my sins

for I know my transgressions
and my sin is always before me.

Against you, and you only,

have I sinned and done
what is evil in your sight.

Cleanse me and I will be clean.

Wash me of the sin I committed.

Create in me a new heart, O God.

Do not cast me from your presence.

You have punished me
as you punished King David.

Now, Lord, restore in me

the joy of your salvation.

Save me from bloodguilt, O God,

the God who saves me,

and I will sing
of your righteousness.

Show me I am forgiven.

Let me prosper,
as King David prospered.

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