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- ♪ We've got each other,
and that's a fact ♪

- What's up?

- ♪ We'll stick together

♪ We've made a pact

- Ten weeks ago,
the experts matched

five couples to be
married at first sight.

One bride decided not to go
through with the marriage.

- Another couple cut
their journey short...

- I want to follow through
with wanting a divorce.

- And asked for a divorce.

- May I?
- Yes.

- But Michael's journey
continued on

with a new bride
and a second chance at love.

♪

But for the remaining couples
who married two months ago,

the fateful day
is finally here,

to remain married
or choose a divorce.

[intense music]

Today's decision will
forever change

the course of their lives,
for better or for worse.

- She just, like,
doesn't trust me

on camera
or off camera anymore.

- I really need to, like,
take time for myself.

- I'm gonna say it plainly.
I [bleep] up the process.

- There have just been times

where you have tried
to silence me.

- I was trying to protect you.

I did everything.

- That's just not true.

- To show you that I care,
I wanted to be there.

- I was extremely appreciative
of what I would call love.

- He also threatened me
the other day

and said he had enough
to ruin my life

on TV after this all came out.

- You told me you wanted
to go to war with me.

So I was just--
- I did not say that.

- OK.

- I do care for her.

- I don't feel centered...

[choking up]
To be able to, like, tell.

♪

- The time has come
for you to decide.

- Do you want to stay married?

- Or do you want
to get a divorce?

♪

[upbeat music]

- ♪ It's all or nothing

- This is
"Married at First Sight."

- ♪ There's no other way

♪

♪ It's all or nothing

[dramatic music]

♪

- It is the morning
of Decision Day.

And I'm feeling a little
anxious, a little nervous.

- Today is Decision Day.

- I haven't really gotten,
like, a whole lot of sleep.

It's been hard.

- Since this experience
has been

such a roller coaster
for most of our couples,

hopefully a night alone
has given each individual

an opportunity to reflect
and help them

with the clarity they need
for their big decision,

because today our couples
will have to decide

whether they want
to continue a life married

or get a divorce.

- ♪ Everybody has a dream

♪ Something they want
to have ♪

♪ Some would
give up everything ♪

♪ 'Cause they want it
that bad ♪

- I'm about to get dressed.

Austin and I had a pretty
emotional conversation.

And then he left
the apartment.

And then I haven't really
spoken to him since.

[somber pop music]

I have never felt so much
guilt and disappointment

and confusion and sadness

about thinking what this is
gonna look like for me.

- This decision has been
flip-flopping a lot.

And I think Becca has, too.

But this time apart

I think has been needed
for both of us.

I think, like,
it helped me to, like,

just kind of get back
to base level of thinking.

And, like, I think there's
always room to course-correct.

- ♪ Go back
to when it was easy ♪

- With any marriage, you know,
there are ups and downs.

You know, we had a lot of ups.

And it's unfortunate that,
like, a lot of our issues

kind of came
right before Decision Day.

I don't really know
where things will end up.

- I feel like I have fought
for this marriage.

But I think
where it stands right now,

I don't know how to fight
for the marriage anymore.

Like, I don't know
how to separate the reality

of Austin's intentions, and
if he genuinely cares about me

as much as I love and care
about him.

- There is definitely a part
of me that wants to say yes.

But I don't know
if that's what she wants.

- ♪ To when it was easy

♪

- ♪ Let's go chasing stars
this evening ♪

♪ Eyes wide shut,
in fast cars dreaming ♪

♪

♪ Thought this could
be paradise ♪

- Well, it's Decision Day.
- I know.

- And your first Decision Day.
- It is.

I am excited for this.
- We're excited, too.

It's good to have you.
- It's good to be here.

- Yeah.

I mean, it's been
a rocky season.

- Yeah.
- We have seen--

I think we've seen things
this season

that we've never
in my time here--

and I'm sure
you could say the same.

- Oh, absolutely.

It's unprecedented.

A lot to talk about.

Let's start.
- Yeah.

Becca and Austin.
- Yeah, I mean,

they started out
as our golden couple.

- They really did.
- They were both

attracted to each other.

And it seemed like it was
gonna be seamless

for a while, no?
- Yeah.

- Yeah.
- I mean, yeah, look,

they've had some ups and downs,
some miscommunication.

I believe that they have
so much more in common

than they don't have,
you know, in common.

- And I think that, you know--

love Austin to death.

And I think that
there's some, like,

maybe lack of emotional
awareness that he has,

that maybe she does, right,

that she's really in tune
with her emotions.

- Yeah.
- And I think that he has

a difficult time expressing
himself to her or his needs.

And then that's coming off
to her as like,

oh, well, he's not being
authentic or he doesn't care.

So I think we need to be
an interpreter for them.

You know,
there's chemistry there.

- There is.

- You can't just
make that up, right?

Like, I think this
is beyond them...

- I wish we could.
- Just trying to--oh, OK.

Wait.
[laughs]

But, you know, I think this is
beyond them just trying to,

like, make it to Decision Day.

I think that they truly have
feelings for one another.

I think they have
a lot of shared interests.

- Absolutely
- Right?

I think that there's
a great level

of respect that they have
for one another.

- I believe that, too.

I believe there's
something valuable there.

- Yeah.
- Well, let's go see

if they'll fight
for the marriage.

- Yes.
- Yeah, I hope so.

[soft music]

♪

- The first time I saw Austin,

I felt a deep sense of relief
and excitement, all at once.

- ♪ Give it all that I have

[crowd cheers]

♪ No holding me back

- She's a nerd.

- He said the word.
- And I'm weird.

So it works. [laughs]

♪

- Austin's smile is enough
to not only light up the room,

but the whole dang house.

- Pick flowers on the beach.
- [laughs]

- I love liking you.

- ♪ 'Cause I'm a believer

- I appreciate that
Austin lives in the moment

because it has helped

the struggles in our marriage
become less intimidating.

Like, I just want you
to want me.

And that hasn't
really happened yet.

[moody pop music]

- ♪ Love me strong

- It has been difficult
to feel connected to Austin

due to our different paces
in intimacy.

It doesn't feel good to, like,
have to beg to be wanted.

- ♪ Learn to play along

♪ It's more than
I can take from you ♪

- I just start questioning

if what I'm asking for
is too much.

I feel like my authentic self
with Austin.

But this process
has caused anxiety

around how and what
I communicate to him.

[choked up] It often feels like
when the cameras go away,

like, he's not asking,
like, for that depth

or that intimacy or, like,
that connection in the same way

as, like, to--
when we're on camera.

♪

And I am starting
to feel worried

that Austin was more concerned
about how we were coming across

on camera versus
how we were actually doing.

♪

- ♪ Lessons in love

[upbeat music]

♪

- The first time I saw Becca,
you know,

I was just, like,
overcome with emotion.

- ♪ Ooh-wee,
I'm fooling myself ♪

[crowd cheering]
- What's up?

- I'm usually the crier.
- I know.

- This is nice.
- I, like, never cry.

Not only was she beautiful,

with her big, blue eyes
and pink hair...

- We're going in.

- But the energy she carried
lit up the room.

- ♪ I'm on top

♪ I'm on top of the world

♪

- Get in here.
- [chuckles]

- She was a ball of sunshine,
and it floored me.

I will always show up for you

and do my best
to be there for you.

Aw.

Our initial chemistry was
so easy and natural.

Yes.

♪

- ♪ I'm on top of the world

- But Becca struggles
with my religious beliefs,

my slower intimacy speed,
and my directness.

And this is beginning
to affect

all aspects of our marriage.

- What's frustrating
is that, like,

all of these fights
and all of these things

are, like,
days and nights of rejection.

And then it, like,
leads into these moments

where, like, I don't know
what to do anymore.

- Becca still needs
to work on trust

because I think
that this process

has made her question
everything I do.

I'm feeling more
and more disconnected.

And I really care for Becca,

but I'm unsure if we can
overcome those hurdles.

I still need time to, like,
work through certain things

that could, like,
really tear us apart.

- It's really hard.

[dramatic music]

♪

- Good to see you guys again.

- It's good to see you again,
absolutely.

- Austin.

- Hey.
- What's up?

- Hey, bud.
How you doing, man?

Great to see you.

- You, too.

♪

I'm actually gonna
take this off.

- Here she is.
- Hello.

♪

Hi.
- How you doing?

- Good.
How are you?

- Good.

Love the dress.

- Thanks.
- Looks great.

- You look cute, too.
- Thank you.

♪

- [sighs]

- You know, we saw you last, it
was a very emotional evening.

And we've been worried
about you

and hoping that things have
gotten progressively better.

But I gather there's been
a lot of drama

in the last couple days.

So want to fill us in
a little bit?

- Yeah, a lot's happened
in the past week--

unresolved things
and things that will,

like, take time to resolve.

I think it just kind of
got away from us.

I think, like, we--

like, ultimately, like,
our communication

and conflict resolution just,
like, broke down.

And we weren't able to,

like, manage our issues in,
like, a healthy way.

And, like, it made us
question the relationship,

like, the future
of our relationship.

And, like--like, I mean,
we just don't know

if it is, like, possible
to manage those things.

- So for me, I think
I wasn't really being authentic

with how I would feel at times.

Sometimes, by the request
of Austin just asking that

things don't be brought up,
it impacted me a lot

because it felt like I was
living two different lives.

- Yeah.

- And I finally spoke up
about it.

It was pretty much
after our meeting

with Dr. Pepper and Pastor Cal,

where I finally started
to open up about things

that I hadn't talked about
on camera yet.

But after that conversation,
Austin was worried

what I said was going to paint
him in a very bad light.

He was worried about the optics
from that conversation

versus how I was feeling,

that, like, I actually felt...

silenced or,
like, misunderstood.

Um...

it made me start to see
our relationship differently,

like, just made me question
what was sincere

and what wasn't and what is
really him and what isn't.

- I think it's natural
to worry about those things

when you're, like,
being filmed.

But for me, they're not, like,

the only thing
I'm worried about.

And I'm trying to express that
to her that, like, this--

that I do care for her
more than that.

I think she doesn't trust--

she just, like,
doesn't trust me

on camera
or off camera anymore.

- Like, I can't and don't trust

that in this moment
it's not about optics,

that it hasn't been
about optics

because we haven't really
had a lot of those

private, connective,
deepening moments for me.

[dramatic music]

- When the optics are done...
- Yeah.

- That's when you can
find those moments.

- I--and maybe this means
that, like,

I wasn't ready for this
process, but, like,

I don't feel centered

to be able to, like, tell--

to even start to decipher that.

Like, I feel like I need
to reground myself, regroup,

like, re-trust my intuition

because everything just
feels shot at this point.

- Well, and I wonder about that

because I feel like every time
I saw you, I was like,

you all look so great together;
you seem so connected;

you're very affectionate
with one another.

And do you feel like
that was a lie?

- I think--

I think on camera, Austin is
a lot more affectionate

and complimentary
and gentle with me.

And I don't think
it's something

that he does on purpose.

I don't think it's, like,
the cameras leave

and a light switch goes off
and he's like,

great, I'm off work for today.

I think it's that he has
to be more aware of himself

when the cameras are around,
or he feels that way.

- I think, like, her framework
on this whole situation

has been skewed,
even like, you know,

the things that you have,
like, given--

like, the activities
you have told us to do.

She doesn't trust
that it's coming

from, like, a genuine spot.

And I've said many,
many times, like,

I don't do things
that I don't want to.

- I don't know.
It's just--it's hard

to separate what is real
and what isn't.

And again,
when the conversation of optics

got brought up, it only, like--

- Amplified?
- Yeah.

- You know, we're having
this conversation

about, like, authenticity.

And I can't help
but notice this--

like, how close y'all are
sitting to each other.

And, you know,
Austin's had his arm

around you the entire time.

He's rubbing your back, right?

Like, do you feel that
this is genuine in this moment?

- I definitely really,
really want it to be

because I have felt that.

And that's where my mind
just starts to ruminate

and replay incidences
in my head.

And it's not a healthy place
for me to go to,

which is why I really need to,
like, take time for myself.

I want to believe that.

And I see it
in times where we are good.

I think it's, like,
seeing that in times

where we also maybe
aren't good, or maybe I'm not--

I don't know.
- That's hard.

- It is hard.
- It is hard.

- Yeah.
- It's hard for me

to do, too, yeah.
- Well, right.

And like we were saying before,
like, this is a really,

like, anxiety-producing,
you know, eight-week situation,

especially if, you know,
you have anxiety to begin with.

And so when you're saying,
like, oh, it's--

I'm in my head, and I'm
kind of questioning this,

may I challenge you
to tell your anxiety

to shut up right now?
- Oh, yeah.

Yeah, no, def--I mean--

- Yeah.
- Tell her.

- Yeah, you know what I mean?

- I tell her all the time
to shut up.

- So, like,
tell her right now, right?

And, like,
what do you have to lose

by leaning into believing
that this is genuine right now?

- Yeah, I think I do see it,
and I do trust it.

And I know that it's a hard
place for Austin to be in

because if he is acting
out of a place of,

you know, genuine feeling
and authenticity, like,

how hard would it be to sit
there and not be believed?

And, like, I--I'm sorry that
that's not where I'm at.

But I want to get there.

And, like, that's
what I'm trying to do.

- Yeah.

- I think there's
a lot more answers

that you can't know unless you
continue outside this process.

- And, you know--
and I know there's gonna be

a lot of trust that's--
that you're having to build.

And the only thing
that really can build trust

is commitment
and consistency and time

because you've got
to show each other

that this thing that
you believe in right now,

that it's valuable,
and it's gonna take some time.

But I believe firmly that
you guys have what it takes,

you know, to make this work.

♪

- So the time has now come

where we have
to make a decision.

Do you want to stay married

or get a divorce?

♪

- I want to say no to where
this marriage has been.

But I want to say yes
to where it could be.

- So am I hearing then
that your answer is yes?

♪

- Um...

yes.

- Yeah?
- Yes.

[chuckles]
- Aww.

[upbeat music]

- Austin?

- I'm excited to say,
I want to stay married.

- Well, we totally support
this effort.

- And if I may quote my pastor,
it works if you work it.

And so part of the working it--

- Was that me?
- No.

[laughter]
- Oh, OK.

- That means,
I want y'all to be

brutally honest
with each other.

Be real. Like, no more
of this hiding stuff, right?

You don't have to worry
about the optics.

The only way you're going
to get your needs met

is if you open your mouth
and be honest with one another.

And be honest with yourselves.
- Mm-hmm.

I think today's decision
represents, hopefully,

a much needed cleanse for us.

- Thank you.

- I need to be with Austin

without the cameras
and without production

and just rebuilding
what I hope we can have.

- Here's to marriage.
- Thank you.

- Cheers.
- And all that it requires.

- Here's to yes.

♪

[slow pop music]

♪

- I cannot believe it, but
Decision Day is finally here.

- You know, last night
I slept pretty OK.

You know, feeling
a little nervous for today.

Not sure how it's gonna go.

- I am very on edge,
since I don't know

exactly what Brennan's
gonna say or do.

But today is not just
important for us,

but it is really important
to me that I get out

everything that
I haven't been able to say.

- The only thing I'm nervous
about is if, you know,

she comes
into the meeting with,

you know, hostility
or any aggression.

You know, I'm in a very good
head space,

good spirits,
and just want to, you know,

move on peacefully
and respectfully.

Say her piece, and I say mine,
and it's just,

you know, a reflection
and a reconciliation.

- Very, very, very anxious.

Honestly, probably gonna be
one of, like, the hardest days

maybe ever that I've had
to really go through.

[dramatic music]

♪

- Well, we've got
a serious illness

to deal with.
- Oof.

- I mean--well, not illness,

accident.
- A trauma, yeah.

- Really traumatic accident.
Oh, my gosh.

- Well, accidents like this,
you know,

traumatic situations can
either draw you close...

- Mm-hmm.
- Or tear you apart, you know?

- Yeah, yeah.
- And my hope was

that it would have gone
to make them closer.

- Well, there was some evidence
of that for a while.

I remember talking
to both of them, right?

And she was just
extolling what--

- Oh, yeah.
- You know, the support

he gave her and...
- Absolutely.

- How well taken care of
she was.

- Absolutely.
- Yeah.

- Yeah, I mean,
I thought, whoa,

maybe here is a turning point.

- But somewhere along the line,
it fizzled.

They've sort of spiraled
out of control here.

- Yeah, it was short-lived.

And I'm wondering
what happened.

- Sometimes it's hard
to figure out.

You know, as much as we try,

we go through so many
vetting techniques,

months, months of vetting,

and still, you just can't
figure out sometimes

what it is that makes someone

not attracted
to the other person.

And I think that there
was a certain type

that he had in mind.

And she just didn't fit
into that.

And I don't know
if he could recover

from not having
those expectations met.

- They never went in deep
like some couples do.

OK, let's just put
it all out there.

- Right.
- Look at the ugly stuff

and see what we can do with it.

- Yeah.
- Nah.

I think she would have been
willing for that.

I don't think he was.

- So I think that our goal here

is to try to have
some civility,

you know, to make sure
that they learn and grow

from these experiences and
that they are better people,

you know, moving into whatever
situation they move into next.

- Yeah.

- ♪ I will show 'em
what I'm made of ♪

♪ I feel it, it's in my blood,
in my blood ♪

- When I first saw Brennan,
I thought, he's attractive.

Like, he's, like, my type.

- I'm your type?

- Well, like, looks-wise.
- Yeah.

- We'll see if you pass
the personality test.

- That's fair.

Like, I want to just build,
like, our legacy,

build something that,
like, we're very proud of.

- ♪ I will show 'em
what I'm made of ♪

♪ I feel it, it's in my blood,
in my blood ♪

- Dang!

This is totally rad.
- [laughs]

- ♪ My last stand,
to show 'em who I am ♪

- I just need you to tell me
if you're physically attracted

to me or not.

- I just can't.

- While I know Brennan says
he did protect me,

I wish Brennan spent more time
thinking about better ways

to improve
our progress forward.

[dramatic pop music]

♪

- But Brennan was at my side
during and after

one of the most traumatic
experiences I've had.

- The road to recovery.

- Stay tuned.
- Stay tuned.

- I thought Brennan had
the potential

to be a good partner.

But I think
Brennan put a block up

at the very beginning,
which allowed nothing

to be able to move forward.

- If that's how you feel after
I saved your [bleep] life--

- Are you [bleep] kidding me?

- It's unfathomable to me
that you can talk like this.

- If you think
in any [bleep] world

that this is gonna come on me,
you are wrong.

♪

- ♪ Yeah, come on, girl

♪ Don't be afraid

- When I first saw Emily,

I thought
her energy was radiating,

and I thought we'd have
a lot of fun together.

- ♪ If I could be,
if I could be your man, oh ♪

- Cheers.
- Ugh.

- ♪ Perfect for me

- Emily has a lot
of admirable qualities,

including, you know,
being nice, being sweet,

caring, outgoing.

You're really starting
to earn my trust, you know,

which is not easy
for me to say.

There's never a dull moment
with Emily,

and she always finds a way
to be the life of the party.

[glass shatters]
Whoa!

[people yelling]
- My bad.

[dramatic music]

- One of the things
that Emily and I don't

see eye to eye on
is our communication.

The negativity, for me,
is, like, a huge thing.

One--that's one of, like--
one of--

one of my deal-breakers was
a positive, positive person.

- What do you [bleep] mean?
There is no negativity.

- OK.

- [sobbing]

- I came into this not thinking

divorce was even
an option for me.

But now, I'm wondering
if it's the only option for me.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

- Hello.
- Hi, guys.

- Good.
Come on in.

- How are you?

Good to see you.
- Good to see you, too.

- Hi.
- Hi.

- Oof.
- Ooh, I'm so sorry.

- Don't knock her out.
- Are you OK?

- [laughing] Yeah, I'm fine.
- Sorry.

- That's OK.
- What's up, buddy?

How you doing, man?
- How you doing, man?

Good to see you.

♪

- Look at you.
- I'm gonna hug all of you.

Is that OK?
- OK.

- Yes.
You look amazing.

- That's right.
- Hey there, beautiful.

How are you?
- Yes.

- Good.
How are you?

[whispers] Hello.
- Hey.

- Honestly, we were so,
as you know, worried.

And it's just great
to see you being you

and I guess having healed or--

- Yeah.
Like, visibly, yeah.

I feel like just
with what we're going through,

it's kind of, like, a hard time
to, like, fully recover.

- Yeah. We know you're not
in a good place right now.

And what we want
are happy marriages.

But we'll take also
personal growth,

accountability,
and feeling like

we've left you better
to have a great relationship

with someone else
if it couldn't be here.

- Yeah, um, you know,

I grew to be a lot more
resilient than I thought.

You know, before I would run
at the slightest red flag.

And, you know--
or slightest inconvenience,

right, and never really
giving it my all

or giving it the full chance
of the relationship.

And I see now the value of--
of that.

- While I think you say
you haven't ran,

everything you just said
that you grew from

is exactly what you did.

And so I hope you can grow
from noticing that

and what you're telling
yourself you want to hear

because you ran in, I think,

the hardest way
you've ever ran before.

- So when you were there--

when you needed someone the
most, who was there for you?

- And again, like,
going and pulling my accident

and saying you saved my life...
- I'm not pulling anything.

- And being there for me--
- You're saying that

I ran from everything.
It's like--

- You did.
- I did not.

I was with you every step.
- You checked the boxes.

That's not--
- I was--

- Brennan, do you see
that you're being

defensive in this moment?

- Yeah, do you see the attack?

- No, I don't see an attack.
- OK.

- Can you put into words
why you're feeling attacked

in this moment?

- Because it's all the things
that I didn't do.

I really feel like
I did everything, you know?

- When you're saying
you did everything,

that's just not true,

because there's homework
that you were given--

I can at least speak
for myself,

I don't know about
for the others--

that you just simply
did not do.

- Oh, I'm happy
to take accountability

if you feel like that exercise
is what caused this whole--

- That's definitely not what
I'm saying, the one exercise.

I just feel like accountability
in general has not been taken.

And instead, you like
to tell me that I need to take

accountability when I feel
like I have done everything

and even have ignored signs
to see the best in you.

But I think it was always
on your terms.

- So you deny that every time

I asked you to come up
with a solution,

and you pinned it on me
to come up with the solution,

that that's what happened?

And then we agreed
on the solution together.

- I mean, I don't think
you necessarily--

- Just say yes or no.
- No, it's not black and white.

There have just been times
where you have tried

to silence me,
tried to take control

of the control-ables for you,
for us, for me.

And that is through telling me
to delete diary cams

and me feeling at times
that I couldn't fully

stick up for myself
because of two reasons.

One, I was trying to, like, fix
whatever was already broken.

And two, the repercussions
that you know happened

after every single conversation

if I was to say anything
negative about you at all.

And you know that's
what you focused on.

- You know, I know
we've had our exchanges.

And in those arguments,
you acted out of character;

I acted out of character.

But we just didn't click
in that regard.

And, like, it's just constant
negativity and all the time.

And then hearing
you criticize our friends

over their vows
and all these things,

it's just like
a culmination of what I saw.

- That was probably
the most hurtful thing you said

because I am
the most positive person.

I believe I am like a light
in the room, life of the party.

And I think that you chose
to never see the best qualities

in me on purpose
because I don't think

you have them in yourself,
and you took that out on me.

- I don't think it defines you.

I just think from
what I've seen

and the effect it had on me,
that's where it's come from,

of where I just felt drained
and pushed away

and that I didn't have
any effort left to give

after a certain point.

- To me, it's pretty fixable.

And if I knew the severity of
my negative vibes in settings,

I could have fixed that.

But as much as you broke up
with your exes

for communication
and mind-reading,

that's what you're doing to me.

How was I supposed
to know that,

when you're saying
that's a red flag

and we're right going
into Decision Day?

- I was trying to protect you
the whole time by saying--

- That's another thing.
- No, it's, like--the words--

- Can you clarify
what you feel like

you were protecting her from?

- The harsh words that could
have had a impact on her

in a way that was detrimental

because I care a lot about her,
and I wanted to be very mindful

of how the words I was using
would affect her.

And I wanted to be constructive

in a way that she could
still grow from it.

But to her point, my efforts
weren't enough, and I--

- I think you keep going
back to the effort.

- It is, though.
- It's not--

- My intention
and my effort was there.

I was trying to protect you.
And I didn't--

- I think--
- Looking back on it--

- You saying
you protect me is effort.

- Knowing--see--
- You have not protected me.

- This is what I was trying
to avoid the whole time.

But now, knowing what
the outcome would have been,

regardless whether I tried
to protect her or not,

I shouldn't have.

- How do you know what
the outcome would have been?

- No, that's what I'm saying.
- I told you, don't protect me.

- If I would have known
the outcome, what would it be

with me trying to protect you
versus not,

that it would still be
the same that it is today,

I would have not tried
to protect you.

- OK, but here's the deal.

You're saying that you were
trying to protect her,

but I tell people all the time,

marriage doesn't work;
you work.

That means I'm willing
to be vulnerable.

That means I'm willing to go
against my preconceived ideas

of what I think and be open
to instruction, be malleable.

It's what you did not do.

One thing that's
really important

is personal accountability.

- No, it's--like,
I was trying to protect her

and just use the words that
I thought were constructive,

yet respectful.

I take accountability for that
because that--

I mean, like, what--like, I--

- Look, I see--

and I'm being
as respectful as possible--

I see BS.

♪

I'm sorry, I do.
- Thank you.

- I'm gonna be straight
with you.

I'm gonna be straight
with you.

I see complete BS.

Is that OK to say?
- It's real.

- That I was trying
to use less harsh words?

- No, because here's--
let me explain.

Here's what I see.

Look, it was obvious in
my first meeting with you guys,

I could tell you were
suppressing your emotions.

I could tell
you were placating.

Is there anything about her
that you were not attracted to?

- We're not doing that.

- We're not doing that?

But it was so early
in the relationship--

from that first meeting, were
you planning to stay married?

- Yeah, I was--
I had no intention of leaving.

- OK, so you were invested
in this from day one?

- Yeah, absolutely.

- Do you believe that?

- No, I believe actually
it was after the honeymoon

where he was not.

- There's some serious
crossing of wires here, man,

because you're saying,
"I was in this.

"Look, I'm trying
to protect you.

I'm not--"
and you're saying,

"I never felt protected.
I never felt loved."

So what we're seeing here
is a serious misfiring.

- I don't think I've heard
from you, Brennan, ownership

to any sort of emotional
disrespect toward Emily.

And I want t--
I truly do want to give you

the opportunity
to redeem yourself.

- Like, I didn't realize
what I was doing.

But looking back, if it
appeared that way, I am sorry.

[somber music]

- Do you know what
you did though,

that you were saying sorry to?

- Um...

♪

- You want to tell him?

- OK.
I felt disrespected

from the day I came over
after the honeymoon

because I knew in that setting
that you friend-zoned me.

You knew we were gonna
get a divorce

and that you were not gonna
give this your all.

And you didn't respect me
enough as a person

to allow that chance
on behalf of me and us both.

Also for how you treat

and speak to me disrespectfully
off camera.

But what he's also said through
this is, like, he pities me,

that you don't want yourself
to be the reason

why I don't date ever again.

Just respecting me and, like,
asking me to delete diary cams,

and trying to control
the narrative,

whether you say it's for us,
and at times it felt for you,

that was disrespectful.

♪

- And I see that now.

So I'm sorry
that I tried to protect you.

And I shouldn't have
because you didn't--

♪

I thought I was trying
to do right by you

and what was best for you,
but in turn, it didn't.

So I'm sorry about that.

- Do you think that the things
you would want to say

would be devastating to her?

- Yes.

- I mean, he also threatened me
the other day and said

he had enough to ruin my life
on TV after this all came out.

So, like, no,
I don't believe that.

And again, I'm a strong person,
and I've told him that

nothing he can say can really
hurt me at this point.

That would actually be progress
versus saying nothing at all.

- You told me you wanted
to go to war with me.

So I was just--
- I did not say that.

- OK.
- Brennan, I want you to have

the opportunity
to respond to that

because that's
a strong allegation.

She's saying that you said you
have enough to ruin her on TV.

- She told me she wanted
to go to war with me.

I was trying my hardest...
- I did not say that.

- To prevent any of this
from happening.

And maybe I said that.
I don't know.

But it was a very hostile
exchange, so--

- But you made it hostile
afterward.

We talked about it--
- You told me

everyone hates me;
everyone's against me.

- I did not say that.

- Oh, my God.
- When did I say that?

It's on a FaceTime.
- Emily, I really...

- It's recorded.
- Don't know what reality

you're in.
- I don't know what reality

you're living in.
That's the scary part.

- Well, I think it's safe
to say that there is--

that you guys are
irretrievably broken.

I'm not going to fight
for you to stay married.

- So I think the time has come
to make your decisions

about whether you want
to stay married

or you want to get a divorce.

♪

- I came into this knowing
who I was and what I wanted.

And I can't necessarily say
the same case for you.

Given that I know I deserve
better than you

and better than this, and both
from a romantic relationship

and a friendship standpoint,

and most importantly,
I deserve respect,

which I don't think I received
through this relationship,

and what I know I will now need
more than ever moving forward.

And therefore,
I would like a divorce.

- Yeah, I've done my best

through and through
this entire relationship.

And I am sorry if you ever felt
like I tried to silence you.

That was never my intention.

But the reality is,
we just don't click

from a physical
or emotional perspective.

And, you know,
it's not a blame thing.

It's not you did
anything wrong.

It's not I did anything wrong.

We tried,
and it just didn't work.

So with that, I would like
to get a divorce.

- [sighs]
I want to offer you hope,

because a failed marriage does
not mean a failed person, OK?

So I'm hoping that
what you've learned,

you, Emily, your accident,
you know, your growth,

your finding your voice,
your speaking up

and standing for yourself,
and knowing who you are,

going forward, you're gonna
have so much more depth

as you enter new relationships.

And that--and I'm happy
about that.

And for you, Brennan, you know,
the self-awareness,

you know, the accountability,
understanding,

hey, look, you know, I need
to maybe even look deeper,

you know,
in my next relationship.

I'm really hoping that
you all have learned that.

And do not carry
this baggage forward, OK?

But with that being said,
thank you guys so much.

- Thank you.

- And we wish you
the absolute best.

- We do.
- Yeah, we do.

- Appreciate it.
- Thank you.

- Thank you.
- [sighs]

- Ugh.

- Man, that was
a tough journey.

It was tough.
It was tough.

It was tough.
It was tough.

You're gonna be all right.
- Thank you.

- You're gonna be all right.
- I'm so proud of you.

I'm so proud of you.

- Thank you.

- You're welcome.
Take care.

- All right, kiddo.
- All right.

- If you need any support
on this, let me know.

- Thank you.
- [whispers] You OK, sweetie?

- [sniffles]
- Don't ever let anyone

make you feel bad
about yourself.

- Mm-hmm.

- OK?
- Yeah.

- Come here, come here.

- I am very sad to be divorced.

But I am also very relieved

to start working through
what this has done to me

from both a positive
and a negative lens.

And I'm also ready to,
like, refocus on myself

because I haven't been able
to work through

a lot of stuff
that came with this.

- You are a phenomenal woman.

And I want you to walk away
knowing that.

It's beaming from you,
your character.

So I wanted to leave you
with that.

- Thank you.

So I'm really just
actually excited

to just go back to being Emily,
party of one,

and not stopping and, like,
continuing to start therapy

and work through this,
and just continue to be me

and learn as much
as I can from this.

♪

- ♪ I'll be all right

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh

♪ Yeah, I'll be all right

[acoustic guitar music]

♪

- I think, like,
we're gonna have, like,

a lot to figure out
in the next couple days.

- Yeah.
- It's OK.

It's good.

- Yeah.

And I think
I just really, like,

want to refocus on myself
because I feel like

I've lost myself
in a lot of this.

And I think--

- Yeah, I think that's healthy.

I think that's--
- Yeah.

- Smart.

- Yeah, and like
I said, just, like,

trying to clear off
the lens that I've been,

like, viewing all of this in--

- Yeah.

- Because it's
definitely gotten

blurred by a few things.

- Yeah.

- I think I would be...

misleading if I said that
I wasn't anxious about it.

- Are you?
- Yeah.

- I'm sorry.
- It's OK.

I just--

- I am happy.

- [chuckles]

- I hope you are, too.

- I'm--

- I'm not sure I get that vibe
from you, if I'm being honest.

- I'm--I just--

I haven't--like,
these last three weeks,

I, like, haven't been happy,
you know?

- Yeah.

- And the decision
that I made today

is in hopes that
I can find that again.

And hopefully, it's with you.

- Yeah, I get it.

Feel the same.

- Yeah.

OK.

- I think the process of
the production element

is very hard and
stressful and challenging.

And I think some people can
handle it better than others.

And I'm not sure--and
I think that has been

a challenge for me as well.

And, you know, I think
there's a lot of work to do

and a lot more to figure out.

But, you know,
I'm gonna try my best.

And I'm choosing
Becca right now.

I'm choosing to continue
to do what I can

to make this marriage work.

- ♪ Better love,
a better you ♪

♪ A better me

♪ A better two

- I do love this jacket.

- ♪ Finally found forever

♪

- ♪ Break out
into the spotlight ♪

♪ One chance
the victory is you ♪

- Who's up?

- Cameron and Clare.

- Cameron and Clare--

wow.

- Ooh.

- You know, between
their separating

because they felt
it was toxic,

and then him getting
a serious scare

as well as real
physical challenge,

I mean--
- It's just been so much.

- I know.

And, you know, we don't really
know what's really been going

on in his head very well.
And--

- Mm-hmm.

- We want to make sure
that they have

truly exhausted all options.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

- Yeah.
- Should we go?

- Yeah, let's go.
- Let's go meet with them.

[pop music]

♪

- ♪ My heart skipped a beat
when I saw you ♪

♪ Yeah, I saw the sparkle
inside your eyes ♪

- The first time
I saw Cameron,

I thought, he's very handsome.

He's a very good-looking man.

- Meet for the very
first time Cameron--

- Cameron.
- Your husband-to-be.

- I love it.

He's very tall.

Were you like,
I don't want a short girl?

- No, I didn't say that.

- [laughs]

- Cameron has a lot
of amazing qualities,

like being very smart,
hard-working.

- How we look?

- You look very official.

- [vocalizing]

♪ When you're by my side

- Whenever Cameron
and I are together,

it's very easy to laugh--

[laughing]
Are you kidding me?

To be ourselves and just
learn from each other.

And that's such an
important thing for me.

- Even with the limited
romance we have,

I am getting attached to you.

- But Cameron also lacks
some of the things

I need in a husband.

[melancholy music]

Just, like, the desire
to be, like, wanted--

I sometimes don't feel that
with Cameron.

I'm not sure if we've,
like, hit a wall.

There is zero romance.

- ♪ No easy way to find

- So how is your relationship
with your father?

Does he know you're on this?

- No.
- [gasps]

- Really?

- ♪ I'm so sorry for
the words I've spoken ♪

- Cameron does struggle
with opening up emotionally.

And it does make me feel
like he's pushing me away.

[softly]
I'm so sorry.

[sniffles]

I feel sad because of the hope
that I had for my marriage.

But I'm also feeling
really grateful.

I couldn't do this process
with anyone else, truly.

And so I am incredibly
grateful for him.

- ♪ I'm sorry

[uplifting music]

- The first time I saw Clare,
I thought, wow.

- You look nice.
- Thank you.

You are--I mean,
you are breathtaking.

- [laughs]

- You are truly such
an amazing person.

- Aw.

- And it doesn't help that
you're easy on the eyes.

I mean, it helps.

It helps that you're
easy on the eyes.

- [giggles]

- ♪ And while
the skies are blue ♪

- I respect him so much.

- The best person,
maybe ever, I've met.

Like--
- Oh.

- I am--truly, truly.

- That's so nice.

- But because we don't have
that baseline connection

to fall back on,
we do tend to fall apart.

One, two, three.

I want a divorce.
- Separated.

- Same thing, same answer.
Yeah.

I only speak
to our experience.

But it's been very difficult
for Clare and I.

There are some big things that
we just simply don't align on.

It can be hard to
connect with Clare

because sometimes she hears
what she wants to hear.

- It's not like you
can just naturally

just come over
and give me a kiss.

Like, that's not natural for
you to do that to me, right?

- Well, I would.

- Hmm, that's interesting.
OK.

- ♪ Yeah, I see you

- I think Clare
could have done better

focusing on building
a stronger connection.

I'd say the most painful thing
about all this

is Clare and I, I think,
are extremely compatible.

Just the more time
I spend around her,

the more and more
I'm getting attached.

I'm here to try.

And I'm happy to try.

However, I would be doing
myself a great disservice

if we really thought there
was no future because the--

it's literally just pain
at that point.

♪

But if there is
a potential future,

then the pain is worth it.

- ♪ Fire, so close

- So if she--if she says that
she wants to stay together,

I'm going to stay together
with her on Decision Day.

- ♪ Like a fire

♪ So hold on

♪

- [vocalizing]

♪

♪ Let the walls come down

♪

- Hi, Cameron.
Come on in.

- Hello.
- Hello.

- Nice to see you.

- You as well.

- I don't remember you
as being this tall.

[both chuckling]

♪

- All right, how are you
feeling health-wise, Cameron?

- A lot better.

But stupidly,
I upped the medication,

thinking I needed to.

- Do you need a snack
or something?

- What medication
are they giving you?

- So I'm on beta blockers,
blood thinners--

- Oh, just--
- Blood thinners?

- So you've got to be careful
standing up and getting down.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

- Yeah, yeah.
But it's fine.

We'll get through it, yeah.

- All right,
please let us know.

Don't push yourself.
- Yeah, it'll be fine.

- OK, here comes Clare.

[gentle music]

- Come on down.
- Here she is.

- Hey.

- You look nice.

- You look great, by the way.

- Miss you.
- You, too.

- Oh, where do I sit?

- Here, I think, yeah?

- OK.

- Hi, guys.
- Hi.

- It's good to have
you here together.

- Yeah.

- You know, because
you've already separated,

I want to ask you about the
moment when Cameron got ill

and had to face some
scary things about his heart.

So tell me a little bit
about that period.

- From my perspective,

my experience of my condition
came after we separated.

And I wanted Clare to know
that she had no commitment

to me to take care of me.

And I also wanted her to know
that it would be easier for me

to kind of work through
the situation more on my own.

I've faced other
health challenges in my life.

And I--I'm just gonna say,
selfishly,

usually, the more people
that get involved,

the harder it is
as an individual

to actually accomplish

your goal of focusing
on your health.

- Hmm.

- You know, if I were ill,
I would have--

I would want just
people around me.

And so I have to recognize
that you wanted to be alone.

And that was really
hard for me because

I felt like we were
already at a pretty

tough spot in our relationship.

But at that point,
it wasn't about me.

It was just like,
how can I support you?

But I think there was
a massively large wall

that was put in between us.

And we just distanced--

I feel like what
I was feeling was that

you were distancing me
further and further away.

And for me, it's like
I still want to be somewhere.

As someone who is, like,
empathetic and nurturing,

to show you that I care--
I wanted to be there.

And it just felt like
you didn't want me there.

But again, I had to--

your health is
the number one thing.

And that's not my place to
tell you what's best for you.

- And--

- It just--it felt like
we were growing

further and further apart.

- But you are such an
empathetic, caring person

that I felt your emotion
towards me in that moment.

And I will put my
hand up and say,

I was too weak to take it.

I was too weak to accept it.

But, you know, I was
extremely appreciative

of what I would call love,
right?

- Yeah.

- And you are someone
who I've really

not come across in my life
in any capacity.

And to know that there
are people like you out there

that I really think,
in just very slightly

different circumstances, that
we could have had, you know,

a successful relationship,

and we could have had
a successful marriage.

- Yeah.

But also, like, reflecting on
our whole marriage,

I feel like it--there was many,
many misunderstandings

and many ways that you
viewed a situation

that I viewed differently.

And I feel like we just
couldn't get on the same page

about a lot of things.

- We just have just somehow,

like, 100/100 record of just

remembering the same
conversation differently.

- What got in the way of having
this conversation with us?

- I don't know.

- I don't know why I didn't
bring up these issues before.

I think we were just so busy
protecting each other

and trying not to
make each other be

looked in a negative light
that it literally--

we weren't opening up to you
guys like we should have been.

- Yeah.

- Maybe we shot ourselves
in the foot.

But we did talk about,
like, what did we ask for?

And in hindsight, it was too
early for that conversation.

And she took issue with
the word "slender."

And she basically said that
she felt that she was not.

And I said, well,
from my perspective,

you absolutely are.

Like, it wasn't just,
like, a discussion

about what I was trying--
like, I was literally arguing

with her that how
she saw her body

was very different than
how I saw her body.

- Like, I have had
a history with, like,

you know, body image issues.

And so that was, like--it made
me feel like I'm not his type.

The sad thing is
I feel like I had

to hear from people around me.

- But I did make a lot
of compliments to you.

- You did.

And I'm sorry I wasn't able to
take it because of how I felt.

And again, that's where
we're disconnected there.

And we tried really hard.

- So can you help me
understand,

how did we not have, like,

further conversation
about this?

Because it sounds like
there's a misunderstanding.

- I said--right.

I mean, to be honest with you,
after the honeymoon,

we're only living together
for, like, I mean, how long?

And then he moves out.

So how am I supposed to even--

I was alone more than I was
with Cameron in this process.

- We lived together
for four weeks,

just to throw that out there.

- And then after that, it was--
OK.

- Yeah, and then after that,
I was in hospital.

- Yeah.
- But here's my question.

- So in that four weeks,
there was, I feel like,

a lot of growth that we did.

And I was seeing beyond that.

And some of my guards
were coming down.

- But now, it--

by that point, it was
becoming too late for me.

- Yeah.
- Right.

♪

- I mean, I definitely
feel that our marriage

has had a lot of challenges.

- Right.

- I mean, when I think
of the whole experience

of our marriage,
like, to me, I felt like

even though we had
our differences--

- Yeah.

- I really felt like I built,
like, a sense of, like,

camaraderie with you.

Like, I really--like,
I think we've used the word,

like, "teammate."

Like, I really--as much
as we struggled,

I feel like we still showed up.

- Yeah.
Yeah.

- You know?

And every time we showed up,

or most of the times
we showed up, it wasn't easy.

- Right.
- But we did show up.

And I think that was
showing something

that was quite important.

- Yeah.

- You know, it's
kind of interesting

because you both are--

seem to be very
compassionate,

very understanding
of each other.

You give each other
so much grace.

And you're so dedicated
to not casting your spouse

in a negative light.

And it just seems...
[exhales]

Just unfortunate that,
you know, you were these ships

crossing in the night
that never managed to connect,

you know, which is
an unfortunate thing

because had that
been mediated--

- Yeah.

- There could have been some
serious compatibility here.

- Yeah.

- I'm not sure why we miss
each other so much.

- Yeah.

- I want to take my
share of that blame.

And is that because I--

I'm not communicating
clearly enough

that you're just hearing
what I'm not intending?

Or am I communicating
so poorly,

I'm not remembering what
I'm communicating?

Wherever that blame lies, I'm a
part of that, absolutely, yes.

- I mean, it takes two.

And I think ultimately the
reason that was happening

is because I was,
I'll be honest,

confused at many points
of this journey.

I was very unaware
of my feelings.

And I think, you know,
like, as a therapist,

people expect you to know
your feelings all the time.

And it's like--
- Mm-hmm.

- [whispering] Yeah.
- Let me be real.

Like, I don't know at all
what I'm experiencing.

And it felt very scary to me.

I was like, this is not
a good place for me to be in.

And I'm sorry.
[sniffles]

- You're a therapist,
but you're still human, Clare.

- [tearfully] Right.

And I'm sorry that I took you
on that journey of, like,

where in the hell
is she right now?

[crying] And, like,

that didn't feel good
for me either.

And I knew that
that was hurting you.

And I'm sorry for that.

Like, I was all over the place.

[crying]

So I'm sorry that I hurt you.

I definitely felt that
in the moment, too.

- I accept your apology, OK?

- Thank you.

- I am sorry that I, you know--

I'm gonna say it plainly.
I [bleep] up the process.

Like, I...

through maybe wanting
to take control,

through wanting to
maybe, you know,

try and defend myself
against what

I thought was an impending
rejection, you know--

like, I can't tell you
the exact reason.

I obviously felt
a reason to do it.

And I'm sorry for that.

- I appreciate that.
It means a lot.

- Wow.
- I forgive you.

- Thank you.

- That's--that's
all we ask for.

That's beautiful, actually.

- Mm-hmm.

- And we've opened up
a door here.

- Mm-hmm.

- But we're here
for Decision Day.

- Mm-hmm.
- And the time has come--

[intense music]

- For you to decide

whether to remain separated
and get a divorce...

♪

Or get to know each other
after the documentation

and maybe reset to
give it another shot.

♪

- I--
[clears throat]

♪

♪

- Um--
[clears throat]

♪

I--I'm really proud of us.

Getting to know you
has taught me so much

about what is important
in relationships,

what is important when
it comes to attraction.

And I can look at the
other side of the coin.

- Mm-hmm.

- I'm just gonna say it
very simply.

Whatever attraction I had for
you is gone in that capacity.

And when I look at you, like--

and please don't
take offense to this.

But, like,
I see a family member.

I see a--I see a sister.

I see someone that I have
an amazing bond with,

someone I care about deeply.

And for me, for that reason,
I can't stay married to you.

And I would want a divorce.

- Mm-hmm.
- [softly] OK.

♪

[sighs]

♪

- Cameron, you have
been amazing to me

during this process.

I think I'm so grateful
for what you've given me,

which is I literally
couldn't imagine doing this

with anyone else, truly.

I learned a lot about myself.

I learned a lot about growing
and what that looks like.

And there were so many
beautiful parts

of our marriage.

However, you know,
I want a love

where I can just
express my feelings

and not have to explain myself.

But all that to say,
I respect you so much.

I care about you so deeply.

But I would like
to get a divorce.

♪

- OK.
[exhales]

- Well, it's...

it's impressive to see you both
take accountability

for what went wrong.

It's impressive to see
the growth that each of you

recognizes and the gifts that
you've given each other.

I do feel a lot of friendship
and admiration between you

and hope that bond goes on.

And we wish you both very well.

- Thank you.
- I certainly do.

I know my colleagues are
feeling touched by the kinds

of self-recognition
and conversations

you've just had
with each other.

And thank you for that,
for your honesty

and for your feelings.

- Thank you so much--

- Thank you.

- For your time and
everything you've done for us.

I'm sorry we didn't
take more advantage.

Now that I'm getting
a divorce, it feels strange.

Like, the word "divorce,"
I still--it's--

I'm having a hard time
applying it to myself.

And I think that
will just take time

to really be able to identify
myself as a divorced woman.

But at the same time,
I feel powerful in the way

that I am standing up
for the things that I need

and the things that are
really important to me.

- Take care of yourself.
- Yeah, well, thank you.

- I mean, all around.
- Thank you.

- Yes.
- Thank you.

- OK.
- I appreciate it.

Thank you.
- OK.

- Getting married
at first sight

is a very unique experience.

And, you know, playing the
blame game is not useful

because you just can't know...
[chuckles]

How this is going to happen.

And I'm just really glad
that Clare and I are leaving

on relatively good terms.

And I think that just
speaks to our maturity

and the chances of success
in our future marriages.

- ♪ Too much for us to
face the storm together ♪

♪

[upbeat music]

♪

- I don't even know
where to begin.

All I thought
Austin and I wanted

was to be done
with the cameras,

to be done with production.

And I am at home,
and the girls are out.

Clare and Emily are out.

And I just got
a text from Clare

and said that they just
saw Austin and Brennan out

with Austin and I's producer,
which is funny

because he's so worried
about optics.

And I don't think he
understands that the optics

do not look good for him.

And to have it by choice, by
Austin's choice at this point,

is hurtful.

And I don't really know
where to go from here.

So...

we have a get-together with
everyone tomorrow, and...

♪

Oh, my God.

[energetic rock music]

♪

- Ah, first to the party.

Let's go.

I'm excited to see
everyone today.

You know, Decision Day
is done and over with.

Hopefully, we all have,
like, the closure

we need and, like, are all OK
with, like, the outcome of it.

Hey.
How you doing?

- Doing well.

- You know, I think Becca
and I are in a good spot.

And I'm hoping this is the
point in which we're like,

we know what we want.

We know what we need.

We know where we're going.

And we're kind of, like,
riding off into the sunset.

We're missing--where's Becca?

- There she is.

- Look at all you guys.

- Hi.

[pop music]

- Oh.
- Hi.

- Oh, hey.

- Aw, look it.

- I'm a little nervous,
actually, to hear about

how everyone's
Decision Day went.

Like, I'm pretty certain that
outside of Becca and Austin,

everyone just reaffirmed that
they're getting a divorce.

So really, for me, it's
really just comes down to,

are Becca and Austin
staying married?

- So how was everyone's day?

- Good.
- Today was a good day.

- Yeah.
- I know.

- What did you guys
do last night?

- We got dinner,
some good Italian.

- Nice.
- Yeah, we got dinner.

- And then we went to the bar.

- Had some fun.

- Austin, did you
go out last night?

Yeah?

- Yeah.

It was fun.
- Yeah.

- Yeah.

- Did you go out
with anybody else?

- Just like, yeah,
a whole group.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

- Any producers there?

- No.
[intense music]

- No?

- I don't know.

♪

- Do you remember?

- [chuckles] Are you mad at me
for some reason?

- Did you come into
this experience

for a friendship
with a producer

or for a marriage with me?

- Oh, wow, OK.

Definitely came in to it
for a marriage with you.

♪

- And so you thought that
going out with a producer

the night after Decision Day--

- I didn't go out
with a producer.

- No?
- No, I did not.

- So who were you out with?
- OK.

I'm sorry.
Hold on.

- You can't just sit there
and lie like that.

- This is where I chime in.

That's not factual at all.

- I--
- Let's just be honest.

- Just be honest.
Let's just be honest.

- We all ran into
each other last night.

- And then, what,
you just, like,

saw her for a little bit
and then left?

- I don't know, Becca.

- You do know.

- You're putting me
in a tough position.

- Oh, I'm putting you
in a tough position?

I'm not the one in a tough
position when literally

yesterday I said that
a large reason why I was saying

maybe no to our marriage
was because I cannot tell

what is reality
and what is fake with you.

- Nothing is fake with me.

- So then why haven't you
been honest with me?

- When have I ever
said anything

defamatory or, like, bad,

or anything that would
insult you in any way?

- What about the dignity--
- I always have your back.

- Of our marriage?

What about,
literally, you and I,

the sanctity of our
marriage and honesty?

- What does that have
to do with a producer?

- Because that has been
the rift in our relationship,

on top of religion,
on top of intimacy,

on top of everything else.

And I made that clear to you.

And you decided that
the path forward

and the path to healing was
to go spend time with her.

- I told you, ran into them.
Just happened.

- You didn't run
into them, Austin.

I'm not a [bleep] dumb bitch.

Did you think when
you were out--

- Why?

- Did you think about
how it would impact me?

- [sighs] I didn't think that
it would be a problem.

- Then that is--
that says everything.

- That is the problem.
That is the problem.

- By the way, I've been
calm, cool, and collected

this entire [bleep] season.

So the fact that I'm riled up
is really saying something.

I feel like--

- [softly]
That's not even true.

- That's not true?
- It's not true.

- OK.

- Becca, you have
admitted to being

a very sensitive and
emotional person.

This--
- But that's not a bad thing.

[overlapping arguing]
- Whoa, I'm not saying it's--

- Hold on, hold on, hold on.

- Maybe you should
be more sensitive.

- I'm trying.

But that doesn't mean
you have been

calm, cool, and collected.

Every time there
is an argument,

you go to this
fight-or-flight mode.

- Do you know what's funny
about that is that in therapy

I've realized that my
fight or flight is triggered

when I'm not in
a secure, safe space.

- Exactly.

- And what I figured out
is that my secure,

safe space is not with you.

[intense music]

Because of so many trust issues
and last night--the fact that

you even were lying about it
right here with me right now,

and you are continuing to lie

about different aspects of it,
tell me that I was--

my intuition was correct.

You have always been
more concerned about optics

than our marriage.
- That's not true.

- All of the men here
have been more concerned--

sorry, Michael,
I don't know about you.

- That's all right.
That's all right.

- Everyone care about
how they come off

when they are on camera.

- And the one thing that was
missing from our relationship,

and why I was going to say no
on Decision Day,

was because of trust,
because I couldn't trust

the authenticity between us.

And this has now officially
shot it to hell.

♪

- My priority was misplaced.

And it wasn't, like,
an intentional thing. But--

- And that has been a pattern
in our relationship,

where I am not the priority.

- OK.
- Your own being,

whoever you are,
is the priority.

And here's the thing.

I never want you to lose that.

Like, I think that you will
find someone who truly is

even more independent than me,

which I didn't even
know existed,

not as emotional,
not as sensitive.

I am all of those things,

and that has not worked
in your favor.

But, like, at this point now,
I have given you

so many chances
to make me the priority.

And time and time again,
I am not.

♪

- So what are you saying,
Becca?

♪

- I'm saying a lot
of heated things

because I'm really angry.

It's been really hard to, like,
sparse reality from fiction.

And all I wanted in
Austin was, like,

that one person who
will be true with you

throughout all of this.

And that's not
what I've gotten.

[gentle music]

- I have--

I'm not saying I have
successfully done so.

But I have really tried
to be that person

for you in every capacity.

And it hurts.

It sucks to hear you
say that,

like, I haven't been that
person because I thought

I was doing a good job.

And I thought the things
that I was struggling with,

I was improving on.

But you don't feel that way.

And I don't know what to do.

♪

Our relationship has gone
to an unhealthy place.

And I don't know if it can be--

I don't know.
Like, I don't know what to do.

- What I heard you
just say is that you

no longer think we should try
working on this because--

- I don't--no, I said, I don't
know if we can get over this.

I don't know if we
can get through it.

♪

- I think, Becca, this is
an important time for you

because I feel like you
went in very maybe strong

on how you felt, so do you--
- You did.

- Feel like
after today, like,

does it feel like the
right time to, like,

take your voice, to change your
decision after how today went?

Or do you feel--
still feel the same?

- I feel more
confused than ever.

If I was concerned about
the trust between us before,

I'm more concerned
about it now.

- And I will say,
I don't want to interfere

with what's going on here.

But I do feel like there is
this theme of being silenced.

Like, there are many moments
in our marriages where, like,

at different times,
we were silenced.

So for example, like, with
the Brennan and Emily stuff,

when I brought that up,

I felt like you were mad at me
for speaking up.

And I felt like--
[overlapping speech]

And I'm not gonna stay silent
about things that I--

I am--are hurting
other people.

- I would like to address the
topic of you being silenced,

Clare, that you just said.

In our marriage, who was
the one being silenced?

[intense music]

- What do you mean?

Who was the one being silenced?

- Yeah.
- What--what do you mean?

There are conversations
that we have

in secrecy that say--
that are not important

for everybody else to hear.

That's a different thing
here, though.

- No, it's not.

- That wasn't--
it is a different thing.

- I'm not going to stand
for you saying that

I silenced you in any way.

- I think in their--
in this situation--

- I supported everything
you've ever said.

- And I agree.

Up until that point
is when I felt silenced.

And I'm just telling you
my feelings,

which I feel like you're not
always receptive to hearing.

And on that comment,

is there something
you want to say to Emily?

- I said that I didn't feel
it was appropriate

to get involved

in Emily and Brennan's
relationship.

Now, to clear the air,

I was the instigator,
not Brennan.

I was the one that said,
after all this, let's go out.

Let's have a good time.
Let's go on a double date.

Let's have--let's enjoy--
- But it wasn't after all this.

He asked you in the moment.

And he said, do you want
to go on a double date?

- That's--
- And that's me twisting?

That's not true.
- No, no, no, no, no, no.

That is clearly a potential
misunderstanding between who--

- It's not a misunderstanding.

- However--it could have
been between me and Brennan.

- I'm sorry, Cameron.
Every time--

every time you say something
that really hurts my feelings,

you just say,
it was a misunderstanding.

- Let's agree.

On more than 20 occasions,
at least--

- We have misunderstood
each other, yes.

- We have come together and
repeated the same conversation

to each other, in private, on
camera, wherever the [bleep].

And they're different--and
they're different stories.

And it's like a genuine
experience between you and me.

- It is.
That is a genuine experience.

However, you know that
you are lying right now.

Our whole experience
doesn't--does not--

- [scoffs]

- That is not a indicator
of that conversation.

- I can never win this.
I'm always the bad guy.

- That's the same
response he has.

He can never win.
- That's the same one for him.

He's tried everything.
- You can never win, OK?

- So let's--it's
the same thing.

- Like, I'm literally--
- Please.

Please stop. Please stop.

- I've literally lied
every single day

of this [bleep] marriage
to protect her.

Do not get on a [bleep]
high horse with me.

- Oh, really?

Because it seems like
every male has seemed

to have to protect us,
when you thought

you protected us, you have
hurt us round and round,

round and round,
and look at where we're at.

We don't need [bleep]
protecting, OK?

We don't.

And so what you think is--

- I was asked for protection.

I was asked to give protection.

- You--we were asked to just--
- To protect the marriage.

- To protect the marriage,
to protect the marriage.

- To protect you.

- Right, and that's what
we did for each other.

- Are you protecting her
right now by lying?

- He's not lying.

- I'm not lying.
I'm not lying right now.

- OK, I'm gonna let you guys
sit there in bliss and--

- Like, why can't there
just be a version of this--

- Because all your
versions are incorrect.

They've changed that
many times.

- But why can't we just, like,
agree to disagree and say,

maybe there was
a miscommunication.

- Cameron--

- And we don't put blame on
each other and just, like,

say, OK, it's OK.

- I wasn't lied to.

- As opposed to us
just sitting here fighting

and getting nowhere.

- Oh, you don't think
we've gotten anywhere?

- Right now--
- By being heard?

- No. Whoa, I'm saying, right
now, where as she's saying,

you're lying,
you're lying, you're lying.

Is that us getting somewhere?
- Well, you are.

- Well, because we're not
gonna agree because--

If you're gonna lie,
you're gonna lie.

- I mean, I've heard seven
different versions of this.

So I know it's
just not the truth.

- And lying seems to be
just a common thread.

- Yes.

♪

- To be accused of
silencing Clare,

when all of our
off-camera conversations

are her telling me
what I can and cannot say

per these secrets
that she has revealed to me

is so hypocritical.

And by the way, the fact that
she's not attracted to me,

that's one of those things
that she told me

that I couldn't say out loud.

Nope. Oh, there we go.
I just broke a promise.

I mean, I literally just
walked away from the group.

And I'm getting
text messages right now

of her trying to make sure that
I don't let her secrets out.

- Did he text you back?
- No.

- Clare has been
manipulating me from day one.

And I just--I couldn't take
one more second of Clare

yet again accusing me
of wrongdoing,

when, like, if we were in--

if we were in, like,
the public courts system,

I'd be in jail for
stealing a candy bar.

And she'd be in jail
for murder.

♪

[slow pop music]

♪

- Where is Cameron?
- I don't know.

I don't--I don't--
I think he left.

I don't--

- I imagine...
- Anyway.

- Stress and the heart
probably don't--

- Yes.
Yeah.

- Mix well together.
- Yeah, no, yeah.

- Heart condition.

- Yeah.

- Well, all you guys
had your Decision Days.

So now that that
has concluded, like,

what's next for you guys?

- That's the question.
Yeah, what's next?

- So for me, I'm gonna take
a lot of time to self-reflect

and, you know, really dig deep
and find the things

that I need to work on and grow
from and be better off with.

And I don't know how much time
that's gonna take.

But it's gonna be
quite the journey.

So gonna be going on it,
for sure.

[gentle music]

- I'm gonna come over here
because I really want to

make sure you hear me on this.

♪

Because of what happened, like,
I know I have accountability.

And I made mistakes.
I was not perfect through this.

Like, you also
need to know that.

And you know that I know that

because I know how this ended
for us is very, very, very,

very sad.

[tearfully]
It's very delicate.

And it impacts us
both differently.

But, like, it's gonna hurt us
both a lot.

- Yeah.

- And I really want you
to know that, like,

I know I was
not perfect in this,

in lot of different ways.

[sniffles] And I need
you to know that.

Like, it's not all on you.

It's really not.

- I appreciate that.

And I hope, like,
we can just be civil

and, like, just appreciate
each other for this.

It was--there was a lot
of good, a lot of good.

- And I think we have
a decision to make

of just how we take
what was pretty traumatic

and, like, really--

we have a chance
to, like, really

be better people from it.

♪

- Shall we squash it?
- No.

Not--
- Come on.

- This is not squashed.
- OK.

- This is not squashed.

- All right.
- That was a great speech.

- But--

- All right, that's a start.

It's a start.
- It's a start.

- And to piggyback
off of y'all,

this has been
a beautiful experience.

And I am looking forward to the
growth that comes after this.

And I've expressed this
to Orion via text a lot.

I mean, I think you know
I care about you.

I wanted to--
- Yeah.

- Reach out to check on you.

And I just feel like
we did miss the mark.

And it could have been
something beautiful.

And you say
you want a friendship.

If you want it,
you can have it.

It's there.

It's on the table,
as we have said.

- Has everybody heard that?

I'm gonna take you up
on that.

- It's on--it's back
on the table.

However, you got to pick up
the knife and cut the cake.

- All right.
- Cut the cake, baby.

[chuckling]
That's us.

How is--can I--
can I ask a question?

- For sure. Fire away.

- How is the relationship
progressing between you all?

- You know what?

We are just--we are just
in a really positive place.

Like, I feel like
we've really leaned in

to accepting each other
for exactly who we are.

And we are excited
to see what's ahead

and all of the things
that might come with that.

So--

- I mean, you just might
as well soak it up now.

I've said it on--
I've said it before.

You know, I think I shine.

But I'm a candle in a sun
compared to her.

- Aw.

- I will not back
away from the idea.

Like, I do believe--
- [chuckles]

- Honestly, I do believe you're
a much better human than I am

in terms of what your--
the impact you're gonna make

on this world versus me,

you are a much better human
than I am.

But that's part of
what I celebrate.

You know, I celebrate the fact
that you're a better human.

You continue to teach me
how to be selfless.

And I will continue to show
my doctorate in selfishness--

- OK.

- And teach you
how to be selfish.

- Yeah.

- God, you guys are
disgustingly cute.

- I was about to say, like,
you're gonna make me cry again.

- [chuckles]
- [sighs]

- It is extremely refreshing to
see your emotional awareness,

your emotional integrity.

And I think this process has

put a spotlight on
a lot of my weak spots

that I need to work on.

But it's also made me realize
the way that those weak spots

can be triggered
in situations

that aren't filling me
or serving me.

- Are you looking
to build a bridge?

- I think that for me...

♪

Many issues were built
upon each other.

And it's now compounding
to a point where, like,

if I can't trust him, I already
have issues with intimacy.

We have differences
in religion.

We have a lot going on.

And if I now have proof
that he has lied to me...

♪

There might be a bridge
in the future.

But, like, I need to heal

and learn to trust myself
and my intuition again.

I think he is going to be
the perfect guy for someone.

I don't think it's me.

[Nik Ammar's "Come To An End"]

- ♪ The fire is out

♪ It's just a dying ember

♪ I thought we were
gonna last forever ♪

♪ Then you said, well,
all good things ♪

♪ Must come to an end

- Blindsided--I feel,
yeah, very blindsided.

- [vocalizing]

- I--

♪

- ♪ Now I see
you were scared ♪

- I don't know what to do.

- ♪ Of losing everything

♪ Our love turned to rust

♪ Broken hearts to dust

- [tearfully]
I love Austin as a person,

as a human who's
walking on this planet.

I think he makes this
world a better place.

But I just have to,
like, know when,

like, I'm not it for him.

And I feel like
the responsibility

is on me to see that.

- ♪ All good things

♪ All good things

♪ All good things
must come to an end ♪

♪

- ♪ I'ma take you down

- Next time on
"Married at First Sight"...

- Do you want to be
more than friends?

- Honestly, I think that
would be a huge benefit--

- Yeah.
- Regardless.

- For three of our couples,

the story continues beyond
Decision Day.

- How are you feeling
about moving out?

- Like, I just
don't really know

what to expect, like,
if I'm gonna, like,

have a meltdown anytime soon.

- I really have no intentions
of ever speaking to her again.

- Oh, [bleep].

- Do you have any regrets
about the whole thing?

- Uh...

- I reached out to Becca,
and that was a mistake.

- ♪ They won't see me coming
- Oh. [laughs]

- But the journey continues
for one final couple

as their Decision Day
approaches.

- Oh, I have to go--
OK.

- You have to come to me.

[chuckles]

- You know,
after the sex store,

slid right into having sex.

How many foster children
are in this dream of yours?

- You know, probably, you know,
maybe five at a time.

- Five at a time.
[dramatic sting]

- If Decision Day
was tomorrow--

- I would be feeling like
I have insufficient data.

- Hmm.

Happy One Month-iversary.

[dramatic music]

♪