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- I've gotta fix some things,
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so I can't do it here.
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So I'm going.
- To where?
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- Alaska.
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- You're writing about
the messy and complicated stuff
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that people will be OK with.
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- So...
- So you're lying to everyone.
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- I'm actually working
really hard on all my issues.
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- Or you're working
really hard to avoid
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dealing with the shit
that actually freaks you out.
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(keys clicking)
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- How come you refuse
to see Matt for who he was?
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Like when he fell
for the teacher from his job
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two years ago.
- What?
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Did you tell me that
so I could just hate him
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as much as you do?
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- No, so you can see him
for who he really was.
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- I am never
going to hate him.
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(solemn music)
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- (yells)
(thud)
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- We can't do this.
- So it's over?
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- Yeah.
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- Leigh?
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Oh, I missed you so much.
Oh.
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- (laughs)
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- Hi.
- (laughs)
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- Oh, oh.
- Welcome back.
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- Oh, I missed you.
- Ooh.
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- (laughs)
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- Aw, let me look at you.
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Aw.
Oh, God, you're so beautiful.
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Aw.
Oh.
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Why is there a hole in my wall?
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- Do you wanna...
(upbeat music)
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- Wow, that's just a lot.
You have a girlfriend.
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- I--um, I'm not really sure
what I have right now.
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- And you have a--um...
a Danny?
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- No, I definitely
don't have a...
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I mean, I haven't even spoken
to him since the...
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- Why didn't you tell me?
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- Well, how are we supposed
to put all of that in an email?
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- No, no, I get it.
I get it.
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There were--yeah.
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There were things I couldn't
put in an email either.
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- Well, you're here now,
so tell us.
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- OK, um...
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there were, like,
800 people in this town,
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and I knew
just about everybody.
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I made so many friends.
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I have never had
so many friends.
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- (laughs)
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- I watched the sunrise
every morning,
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and I was so still that all the
animals came right up to me.
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And at night, I stared
into the Milky Way,
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and I could see right
into the heart of the universe.
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And it was...
everything made sense.
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I loved who I was there.
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(breathless laugh)
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- We are so happy you're home.
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- Yeah.
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- (laughs)
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(insects chirping)
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(doorbell rings)
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- Hey.
- Hey.
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- I was, um, glad to get
your text.
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- Yeah, well, I had to see you
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before you flew
halfway around the world.
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- (laughs)
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- I got you something.
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- What is this?
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Wait, a gift for ruining
our relationship?
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You shouldn't have.
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- A lady sold it
to our store today.
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- Uh, is it a fanny pack?
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- It's a money belt.
It's to put your valuables in.
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So some asshole on a motorcycle
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doesn't zoom by and rip
your purse off your shoulder.
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- Uh, what?
- It's a thing!
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It happens in Saigon.
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I read about it
on a message board.
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It's...
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- And...
- And then...no.
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You gotta--yeah.
It's a thing.
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- (small laugh)
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- There you go.
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(laughs)
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- Um, I look I'm pregnant
with a FedEx package.
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- You look like you're not
gonna get your stuff stolen,
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and that is
the coolest look of all.
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- Oh.
(laughs)
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- How much do you know
about what you're going into?
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- Um, my birth mom's name
is on my birth certificate.
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There's a lot of women
in Saigon with that name,
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but I've been emailing
with my adoption agency,
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and they're gonna try
and help me.
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- Well...when you get back,
uh...
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- Oh, I should talk to you
about that.
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- OK.
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- I didn't buy a return flight.
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I don't know how long
this is gonna take.
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You can get by on 20 bucks
a day in Saigon, so...
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I've got time.
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- Uh...
(clears throat)
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Well, uh...
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when you do come back,
come and find me.
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- (sniffles)
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(laughs) Hey--
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- See?
Tuck it under your shirt.
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- OK, OK, I will.
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I will.
- All right.
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Um, bye.
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- Bye.
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- I thought the couch was there
and the desk was over there.
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- Yeah, Hunter
moved all my furniture.
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Like, I don't even know
how feng shui works,
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and I know Hunter sucks at it.
- (laughs)
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I'ma put these over here.
Is that OK?
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- Yeah, over there is--is OK.
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- OK.
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- Thanks for helping me.
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- Well, of course.
You got one hand.
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Can't do this all by yourself.
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- Yeah, and I don't have
a million friends right now.
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- I'm not surprised,
given your behaviour.
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- Yeah, no, I get it.
It's...it's all my fault.
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Another thing
you're right about,
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racking those points up.
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- I'm not trying to be right
about your poor life choices.
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- No, I'm not--I'm--I'm saying
I get it.
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- But do you get it?
They're your choices.
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Own 'em.
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- Mom, I don't know
how everything got so bad.
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I was doing all right
for a while.
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Matt was gone, but I thought
I was handling it.
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When I broke it,
I didn't feel it at first.
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I mean, I could feel
that something had happened,
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but the pain didn't kick in
for a while.
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- Danny, listen to me.
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(emotionally) You are the only
one I have left.
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So you--something's gotta
change.
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(sombre music)
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- I'm sorry, Mom.
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I'm sorry.
- I know.
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(sombre music)
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(feet shuffling)
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- Hey, you're awake.
- You're awake.
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- Yeah, well,
you know I never sleep.
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- Me neither any more,
Jules too.
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We're terrible at sleeping
in this family.
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- Mm.
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- Why are you up?
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- Oh, I don't know.
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My room in Alaska was so small
that my room here
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feels too big.
(small laugh)
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Why are you awake?
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- I'm still trying to write
this stupid essay
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where I tell everyone
the truth,
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except I don't even know
what that is any more.
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I don't know the truth
about my husband
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or my marriage
or this other woman
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he was in love with...
anything.
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I just have a thousand
questions and zero answers.
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So what am I supposed to do,
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just, like,
scream into the void?
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- You know I live
to solve problems,
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but I can't solve this for you.
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- You're not even gonna, like,
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give me a Ouija board
or a tarot card or something?
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- I would never bring
a Ouija board into this house.
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That's like placing a collect
call directly to Hell.
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You do not know what kind
of malevolent spirit's
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gonna pick up the phone.
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- Are you joking?
- No.
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Also, a tarot card by itself
is useless.
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You need the whole deck.
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- Are you joking now?
- Yes.
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- (laughs)
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You're not even gonna try
and solve my problems?
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- You're an adult,
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and I can't micromanage
your life any more.
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- Wow.
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OK.
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But you are still my mom,
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and I still really need you
right now.
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I just need to know
what happened.
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Like, everywhere I go,
there is a wall,
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and I just feel
so trapped.
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- You know, I felt trapped
for a really long time,
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and that's just not a place
you can stay.
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(children's voices
chattering in distance)
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(door hinges creak)
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- Nina, hi.
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- Leigh.
Hi.
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- Um, the front office
said that you might
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still be in
your classroom.
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- Yep, still here.
What brings you by?
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- My husband's brother told me
that my husband fell for you.
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- What?
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- What happened
between you and Matt?
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- Nothing happened.
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- Well, it's the way
you say "nothing."
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You're not...saying it
like you're confused.
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You're saying it like you know
exactly what I'm talking about.
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So what am I
talking about?
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- Nothing.
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- I just--I don't think
that's true.
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(strained laugh)
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Please tell me.
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- He was my friend.
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- If he was just your friend,
I wouldn't be here right now.
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- He was my best friend.
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- So, what does--what does
that mean?
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- Everyone
sees me the same way.
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I'm the person
that organises birthdays
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and gets people
to volunteer for stuff.
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Matt didn't see me that way.
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He made me feel...
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I'm trying to think
of a better word than special,
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but that's it.
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He made me feel special.
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He made me feel like
I was so interesting
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and important...
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i-in this way that I hadn't
really felt before.
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- How did he f-feel about you?
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- I don't know.
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He never told me.
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But that's how he made me feel,
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and now, all I feel is
how gone he is.
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When you were talking
to the kids about Matt,
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about there being this hole
where he was...
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I feel it too, all the time.
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- What are you doing?
- I didn't mean to--
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- You know we're not friends.
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You worked with Matt.
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I was his wife.
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- I'm sorry.
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- You think that we're going
through the same thing?
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You think that you could
possibly, for one second,
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understand what has
happened to me?
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- I really am sorry.
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- I don't need an apology.
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(door thuds closes)
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(dance music thumps)
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(background chatter)
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- Wow.
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- Um, hey.
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Is...that a good wow?
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- Um...uh....
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(music thumping)
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Yes.
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- OK, good.
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- Do you want the studio?
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- (chuckles)
What?
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- Well, I mean,
look at what you've done.
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I'm mean,
this is your calling.
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If you want this place,
it's yours.
257
00:14:55,960 --> 00:14:58,960
- Uh...I...
258
00:14:58,960 --> 00:15:01,320
I--I wanna say "yes."
259
00:15:01,320 --> 00:15:02,960
- So, say "yes."
260
00:15:02,960 --> 00:15:05,960
- I can't.
I wanna be home.
261
00:15:05,960 --> 00:15:07,640
I wanna run the studio.
262
00:15:07,640 --> 00:15:10,960
I wanna be in a relationship
with my girlfriend.
263
00:15:10,960 --> 00:15:12,640
I want all that.
264
00:15:12,640 --> 00:15:15,960
- Honey, it's--it's OK
to not be ready to go.
265
00:15:15,960 --> 00:15:19,640
- (small laugh)
I am ready.
266
00:15:19,640 --> 00:15:22,960
- Well, you were on crutches
two weeks ago.
267
00:15:22,960 --> 00:15:25,960
- And now I'm not.
- I know, but, you know,
268
00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:27,960
you have a lot going on right now,
269
00:15:27,960 --> 00:15:30,960
and you don't have to go
this week.
270
00:15:30,960 --> 00:15:32,160
- (laughs)
271
00:15:32,160 --> 00:15:34,160
Yeah, I do.
272
00:15:34,160 --> 00:15:36,960
To be honest, I don't
really wanna go on this trip,
273
00:15:36,960 --> 00:15:41,960
but it doesn't matter
what I want--I have to go.
274
00:15:47,960 --> 00:15:50,640
- Then you go.
275
00:15:50,640 --> 00:15:53,960
- Really?
- Yeah.
276
00:15:53,960 --> 00:15:58,960
And this place is...(laughs)
amazing.
277
00:15:59,960 --> 00:16:04,960
And you are amazing.
278
00:16:04,960 --> 00:16:06,960
- (laughs)
279
00:16:09,160 --> 00:16:11,960
- Come on in.
280
00:16:11,960 --> 00:16:14,320
- Thanks.
281
00:16:18,960 --> 00:16:20,960
Am I supposed to lie down?
282
00:16:20,960 --> 00:16:21,960
- Some people do.
283
00:16:21,960 --> 00:16:24,960
- Is it like a test
to get on your back
284
00:16:24,960 --> 00:16:28,960
like you're talking to Freud
or sit like a normal person?
285
00:16:28,960 --> 00:16:29,960
(laughs)
- It's not a test.
286
00:16:30,960 --> 00:16:31,960
- (laughs)
287
00:16:32,960 --> 00:16:34,960
Ugh.
288
00:16:34,960 --> 00:16:37,960
My brother was always trying to get
me to go to therapy
289
00:16:37,960 --> 00:16:41,960
to work out my issues
with our parents.
290
00:16:41,960 --> 00:16:44,960
So it's ironic, you know.
291
00:16:44,960 --> 00:16:49,320
Like, I'm finally here
to work out my shit with him.
292
00:16:50,960 --> 00:16:53,960
Am I using ironic
in the right way?
293
00:16:53,960 --> 00:16:55,960
I heard somewhere
that all the examples
294
00:16:55,960 --> 00:16:57,960
in that Alanis Morissette song
are wrong.
295
00:16:57,960 --> 00:17:00,960
So now, every time I say it,
I think that I use it wrong
296
00:17:00,960 --> 00:17:02,960
like she did.
297
00:17:02,960 --> 00:17:04,160
(tense chuckling)
I'm sorry.
298
00:17:04,160 --> 00:17:07,960
- It think it's right enough.
299
00:17:07,960 --> 00:17:10,960
- Cool.
300
00:17:10,960 --> 00:17:11,960
OK.
301
00:17:12,960 --> 00:17:16,960
- So, Danny, tell me...
302
00:17:16,960 --> 00:17:20,960
what would you like
to talk about?
303
00:17:20,960 --> 00:17:23,640
- Um...
304
00:17:31,960 --> 00:17:37,320
I think if I had been
a different person, um...
305
00:17:37,320 --> 00:17:38,480
(melancholy music)
306
00:17:42,960 --> 00:17:46,960
My brother
would still be alive.
307
00:17:49,960 --> 00:17:51,960
- I mean, who does she
think she is?
308
00:17:51,960 --> 00:17:55,960
That was my relationship
with my husband.
309
00:17:55,960 --> 00:17:57,960
That's what we had.
310
00:17:57,960 --> 00:17:59,000
- I mean, look.
311
00:17:59,000 --> 00:18:00,960
You know I've been there.
- Mm.
312
00:18:00,960 --> 00:18:03,960
No, you've kind of been there.
313
00:18:03,960 --> 00:18:04,960
Ryan fell for this dude,
314
00:18:04,960 --> 00:18:07,960
and then you guys worked through it
and then you got married.
315
00:18:07,960 --> 00:18:11,800
Matt fell for this woman,
and then he died.
316
00:18:11,800 --> 00:18:12,960
- OK,
I've kind of been there.
317
00:18:14,000 --> 00:18:15,960
Would you rather be talking
to someone
318
00:18:15,960 --> 00:18:19,160
who hasn't been there at all?
319
00:18:20,000 --> 00:18:21,960
- I just hate her.
320
00:18:21,960 --> 00:18:24,960
I hate him.
I...I hate myself.
321
00:18:24,960 --> 00:18:29,960
I hate everyone.
I hate myself so much!
322
00:18:29,960 --> 00:18:30,960
- Stop.
323
00:18:30,960 --> 00:18:32,960
You're a good person
who is doing her best.
324
00:18:32,960 --> 00:18:35,000
- I don't think
I'm a good person any more.
325
00:18:35,000 --> 00:18:38,960
I'm selfish.
I'm a liar.
326
00:18:38,960 --> 00:18:41,640
I hurt people.
- Oh, everybody hurts people.
327
00:18:41,640 --> 00:18:43,960
- No one hurts people
the way I hurt Danny.
328
00:18:43,960 --> 00:18:48,960
He tried to stay away from me,
and I wouldn't let him.
329
00:18:48,960 --> 00:18:50,960
I forced myself into his life,
330
00:18:50,960 --> 00:18:55,640
because I needed him
to love me.
331
00:19:00,960 --> 00:19:02,960
Oh, I'm a monster.
332
00:19:02,960 --> 00:19:03,960
- Hey.
333
00:19:03,960 --> 00:19:06,960
You're not a monster.
334
00:19:06,960 --> 00:19:09,960
You just made a mistake.
335
00:19:11,960 --> 00:19:15,000
- I think when Matt died,
336
00:19:15,000 --> 00:19:19,960
he took a piece of me,
the best part--
337
00:19:19,960 --> 00:19:21,960
maybe the only good part--
338
00:19:21,960 --> 00:19:26,960
and I don't know
how to get it back.
339
00:19:26,960 --> 00:19:28,960
I-I don't recognise this person
I've become.
340
00:19:28,960 --> 00:19:34,000
I just know that I hate her.
341
00:19:49,960 --> 00:19:51,800
- How was your day?
342
00:19:51,800 --> 00:19:54,960
- You know how my day was.
You saw me for half of it.
343
00:19:54,960 --> 00:19:56,480
- OK, so tell me about
the other half
344
00:19:57,960 --> 00:19:58,960
I didn't see you for.
345
00:19:58,960 --> 00:20:04,480
- Uh...you know, it's Wednesday.
- Mm-hmm.
346
00:20:04,480 --> 00:20:06,960
- Kids still don't care
about President Harding
347
00:20:06,960 --> 00:20:07,960
or the Teapot Dome Scandal
348
00:20:07,960 --> 00:20:10,960
or anything else
that happened in 1923.
349
00:20:10,960 --> 00:20:13,960
I get it,
'cause I don't care either.
350
00:20:13,960 --> 00:20:14,960
- (laughs)
351
00:20:14,960 --> 00:20:17,960
You think it's hard
getting them to read a chapter
352
00:20:17,960 --> 00:20:20,960
of "The American Pageant"
textbook.
353
00:20:20,960 --> 00:20:22,000
Try "Moby Dick."
354
00:20:22,000 --> 00:20:23,640
- I mean...
- Try it.
355
00:20:23,640 --> 00:20:25,960
- To be fair, if you want
people to read your book,
356
00:20:25,960 --> 00:20:29,640
maybe don't spend 100 pages
on whale blubber?
357
00:20:29,640 --> 00:20:31,960
- It's, like,
80, but OK.
358
00:20:31,960 --> 00:20:33,160
- OK.
359
00:20:33,160 --> 00:20:34,960
(glass clink)
(both laugh)
360
00:20:34,960 --> 00:20:36,960
I can't believe
you actually bought salsa.
361
00:20:36,960 --> 00:20:39,320
I need to teach you
how to make it.
362
00:20:39,320 --> 00:20:42,960
Tomatoes and a food processor.
It takes, like, five minutes.
363
00:20:42,960 --> 00:20:44,960
- I like the store-bought
tastes.
364
00:20:44,960 --> 00:20:45,960
- (silent scream)
(laughter)
365
00:20:46,960 --> 00:20:48,960
(ominous music,
muffled voices)
366
00:20:50,960 --> 00:20:53,640
(hyperventilating)
367
00:20:54,960 --> 00:20:56,800
- I'm still here.
368
00:20:56,800 --> 00:20:58,160
(eerie music)
369
00:20:58,160 --> 00:21:00,320
I'm still here.
370
00:21:00,320 --> 00:21:05,320
- (panting)
371
00:21:26,960 --> 00:21:29,960
- You OK?
372
00:21:29,960 --> 00:21:30,960
- I don't know.
373
00:21:30,960 --> 00:21:32,320
What's going on?
374
00:21:32,320 --> 00:21:34,960
- This is your thing.
You tell her.
375
00:21:34,960 --> 00:21:38,960
- No, this is not my thing.
I'm doing this for all of us.
376
00:21:38,960 --> 00:21:41,960
- What are you doing?
377
00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:45,960
- I'm selling the house.
378
00:21:45,960 --> 00:21:47,000
- What?
379
00:21:47,000 --> 00:21:48,960
- Well, I ever since
I got home,
380
00:21:48,960 --> 00:21:52,000
I just--I still feel
so trapped.
381
00:21:52,000 --> 00:21:54,960
This house
just feels like a cage.
382
00:21:54,960 --> 00:21:56,960
I-I need to get rid of it.
383
00:21:56,960 --> 00:21:59,800
I need to get free.
384
00:21:59,800 --> 00:22:02,320
- But if you
get rid of the house,
385
00:22:02,320 --> 00:22:04,960
where are you gonna live?
- I don't know.
386
00:22:04,960 --> 00:22:08,640
Maybe I'll build
a 300-foot tiny home.
387
00:22:08,640 --> 00:22:12,960
Maybe I'll get an Airbnb
and go and live in France
388
00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:15,960
for the summer
and come back in the Fall.
389
00:22:15,960 --> 00:22:16,960
And maybe I won't.
390
00:22:16,960 --> 00:22:19,320
- Look, Mom,
do you want us to tell you
391
00:22:19,320 --> 00:22:21,640
if we think you're having
another breakdown?
392
00:22:21,640 --> 00:22:23,960
- No, no, because I'm not
having a breakdown.
393
00:22:23,960 --> 00:22:29,160
I'm having a breakthrough,
and it's because of you two.
394
00:22:29,160 --> 00:22:31,320
- Us?
- Yes, yes.
395
00:22:31,320 --> 00:22:32,960
Look, I left, and you both--
396
00:22:32,960 --> 00:22:34,960
you have taken chances
and done things
397
00:22:34,960 --> 00:22:37,960
that I never would have
imagined that you could do.
398
00:22:37,960 --> 00:22:41,480
I'm so proud of you,
and I'm more than proud.
399
00:22:41,480 --> 00:22:43,000
I'm inspired by you.
400
00:22:43,000 --> 00:22:45,000
- I just thought that
this would be a decision
401
00:22:45,000 --> 00:22:48,640
that we would make as a family.
402
00:22:48,640 --> 00:22:49,960
- But you made this call,
403
00:22:49,960 --> 00:22:53,960
so it's you over there
and us over here.
404
00:22:53,960 --> 00:22:56,960
- It's my house,
405
00:22:56,960 --> 00:22:59,960
and I am still the parent.
406
00:22:59,960 --> 00:23:03,960
So I get to decide.
407
00:23:06,640 --> 00:23:09,960
Look, I...I built a nest,
408
00:23:09,960 --> 00:23:14,640
and I never
really let you leave.
409
00:23:14,640 --> 00:23:17,160
I was too afraid
of being alone.
410
00:23:17,160 --> 00:23:20,960
So I never let you grow
all the way up.
411
00:23:20,960 --> 00:23:21,960
So I'm getting rid of the nest.
412
00:23:21,960 --> 00:23:28,160
It--it's the right thing...
for all of us.
413
00:23:28,160 --> 00:23:30,960
Really.
414
00:23:30,960 --> 00:23:32,960
(kettle whistling)
415
00:23:35,160 --> 00:23:40,960
- (laughing)
416
00:23:45,960 --> 00:23:47,960
- Hey, what's, uh, funny?
417
00:23:47,960 --> 00:23:48,960
- (laughing)
Oh, my God...
418
00:23:51,960 --> 00:23:52,960
everything.
(laughing)
419
00:23:56,160 --> 00:23:57,960
Just everything, seriously.
420
00:23:57,960 --> 00:24:01,960
Like, what crazy thing
is gonna happen next?
421
00:24:01,960 --> 00:24:05,960
A tsunami, an earthquake,
422
00:24:05,960 --> 00:24:06,960
an actual apocalypse?
423
00:24:06,960 --> 00:24:11,960
Because between Mom
and Danny and Matt,
424
00:24:11,960 --> 00:24:15,480
I just feel like
I am waiting around
425
00:24:15,480 --> 00:24:18,960
for the next bad thing
to happen to me.
426
00:24:18,960 --> 00:24:22,800
(sniffles)
427
00:24:22,800 --> 00:24:24,960
No, you know what
I'm gonna do?
428
00:24:24,960 --> 00:24:27,960
I am going to get
out of here.
429
00:24:27,960 --> 00:24:30,960
I'm gonna go with you
to LAX.
430
00:24:30,960 --> 00:24:32,960
I am getting a ticket
431
00:24:32,960 --> 00:24:34,960
to the next flight
that has a seat,
432
00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:35,960
'cause I don't know
who I am any more.
433
00:24:35,960 --> 00:24:40,960
So I will just
go somewhere else.
434
00:24:40,960 --> 00:24:42,640
I'll go be someone else.
435
00:24:42,640 --> 00:24:43,960
I will pull a mom.
I'll pull a you.
436
00:24:43,960 --> 00:24:45,960
I'll pull a both of you.
(laughs)
437
00:24:45,960 --> 00:24:49,960
- Uh, hey, are you also
having a breakdown?
438
00:24:49,960 --> 00:24:52,960
- Wha--breakdown,
breakthrough.
439
00:24:52,960 --> 00:24:53,960
If we're playing
by Mom's rules,
440
00:24:53,960 --> 00:24:55,960
they're basically
the same thing.
441
00:24:55,960 --> 00:24:59,160
(both laugh)
442
00:25:01,800 --> 00:25:06,960
- You know, you don't have
to go someplace alone.
443
00:25:06,960 --> 00:25:09,960
You could come to LAX with me
444
00:25:09,960 --> 00:25:13,960
and get on my flight.
445
00:25:15,960 --> 00:25:19,960
- Jules, no, this is...
your trip.
446
00:25:19,960 --> 00:25:22,960
- Well, hey, you need to
get out of here,
447
00:25:22,960 --> 00:25:26,960
and I need to not fall apart
over there.
448
00:25:26,960 --> 00:25:30,960
What if we helped each other?
449
00:25:30,960 --> 00:25:33,960
What if we make it our trip?
450
00:25:35,960 --> 00:25:38,960
- Oh, let me hug you both
until your Lyft comes.
451
00:25:38,960 --> 00:25:40,960
Oh.
(sniffling)
452
00:25:40,960 --> 00:25:43,960
- That's her.
- OK.
453
00:25:45,480 --> 00:25:46,960
Hey.
454
00:25:46,960 --> 00:25:48,960
Good luck.
455
00:25:49,960 --> 00:25:51,960
- Are you Meghan?
- Leigh?
456
00:25:51,960 --> 00:25:53,960
- Yep, it's us.
457
00:25:53,960 --> 00:25:55,960
- Bye.
(smooches)
458
00:25:56,960 --> 00:25:59,800
- Love you.
- I love you.
459
00:26:04,960 --> 00:26:06,960
- Bye.
460
00:26:06,960 --> 00:26:08,960
- Bye-bye.
(laughs)
461
00:26:08,960 --> 00:26:12,960
- You guys are going to LAX.
Terminal?
462
00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:14,960
- Tom Bradley.
463
00:26:14,960 --> 00:26:16,960
- Music?
- Sure.
464
00:26:16,960 --> 00:26:17,960
- Yeah.
465
00:26:17,960 --> 00:26:20,800
(bright music)
466
00:26:26,960 --> 00:26:30,960
Hey, what's our ETA?
- Um, hour and two minutes.
467
00:26:30,960 --> 00:26:35,960
- OK, so if we get there
a little after 10:00--
468
00:26:35,960 --> 00:26:36,960
- Stop the car.
469
00:26:36,960 --> 00:26:39,000
Stop the car.
- What is it?
470
00:26:39,000 --> 00:26:41,640
- Stop the car!
471
00:26:41,640 --> 00:26:43,000
(bright music echoing)
472
00:26:51,960 --> 00:26:52,960
(panting)
473
00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:57,800
- (muffled, echoing)
I'm still here.
474
00:26:57,800 --> 00:26:58,960
- (hyperventilating,
whimpering)
475
00:26:58,960 --> 00:27:00,960
- (echoing)
I'm still here.
476
00:27:00,960 --> 00:27:01,960
- (sobbing)
477
00:27:04,320 --> 00:27:05,960
(heavy, dark music)
478
00:27:07,960 --> 00:27:09,960
- Honey, honey...oh.
479
00:27:09,960 --> 00:27:11,960
- (sobbing)
- Oh.
480
00:27:11,960 --> 00:27:13,640
Baby, what's going on?
481
00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:15,480
- (gasping)
- What's going on?
482
00:27:15,480 --> 00:27:16,960
- Matt!
483
00:27:18,480 --> 00:27:19,960
- What about Matt?
484
00:27:19,960 --> 00:27:21,960
- (gasping)
485
00:27:21,960 --> 00:27:26,000
He--he--he...
he won't...
486
00:27:26,000 --> 00:27:27,960
(laughs and sobs)
487
00:27:30,960 --> 00:27:34,640
He--he won't leave me.
488
00:27:34,640 --> 00:27:37,960
- Oh.
Oh, honey.
489
00:27:40,800 --> 00:27:44,000
- (gasping)
490
00:27:49,000 --> 00:27:51,960
(indie music)
491
00:28:30,960 --> 00:28:33,000
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