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- You missed
your deadline again.

- You will have it in an
hour. 90 minutes, tops.

(crying) Drew, you're not
gonna believe--

- No, you're out of excuses.
- No, Drew, I--

- Whatever you have,
just send it now.

Let's talk about why we spend

all this time putting crap
on our eyelids.

- What's going on with Leigh?

- She's been bailing
on her classes.

She just stays in her room.
She hasn't showered.

- Stop making my bed.
This is so inappropriate.

- If that's what it's gonna
take to get you

out of this room, then fine--
that's what's happening.

- You took me
to a suicide walk?

- One mile.

- I don't know if I can
keep walking any more.

- We've gone one more mile.
- I know.

- We're so close.
I'll carry you, come on.

- I got him!
- Oh!

- (laughs)

What are we gonna do
the next time we hang out?

- I don't think us hanging out
is a good idea.

- Why can't you just be
my friend?

- Leigh, I think
I'm in love with you.

(phone clicking)

- (sighs)
(phone whooshes)

(bottle spraying)

(sighs)

(soft music)

- "Great for work,
weekend brunch, date night,

"or for those days when
a hole in the universe opens up

where your husband used to be."

I mean, I can't believe
that you published this.

- I thought you sent me
your review

because you wanted me
to publish it.

- That's not a review.
That's a breakdown.

- Yeah.

- Yeah, and now it's
a public breakdown.

- OK, that's one way
of looking at it.

Here's another--you wrote
something really good,

and people
are responding to it.

- Great, so now there's
a bunch of strangers out there

who feel sorry for me.

I mean, this is, like,
my actual nightmare.

- No, no, no, no.
No one feels sorry for you.

They feel--

(sighs)

You should read the comments.
See for yourself.

- I thought you weren't supposed to
read the comments on the Internet.

- These comments are different.
You should read them.

When you feel up to it.

If you feel...

H-how are you feeling?

- I don't know.
Um...

I'm not crying
on the floor of a bathroom,

but I don't know
where I am now.

- I was really worried
about you, Leigh.

If it gets bad like that again,
you have to let me know.

I will get down on
that bathroom floor with you.

I don't care about diseases.
- (chuckles)

I never want you
to feel alone like that.

- Yeah, I was
in a pretty bad place.

And I thought
I was gonna be stuck there

and that nothing
was gonna help.

But it was--actually, it was--
it was Danny who--

Danny, he came over, and, um...
we went for a walk,

and things started to feel
a little bit better after that.

- You and Danny
are hanging out again?

- No, no, no, it was just,
like--it was that one time.

Like you and I are hanging out
right now.

- Yeah, we are.
- Yep.

(laughter)

(light switches clicking)

- (sighs)

(soft music)

(phone clicking, whooshes)

(cell phone chiming)

(music continues)

(door opens, closes)

(knock at door)

- What--what's going on?
- Your card was declined.

- That's weird.
I just paid it off.

- Well, I handled it.
Lucky I got paid yesterday.

Didn't plan to cover
my own bachelor party.

Although maybe I should have.
- That's a bank error, dude.

You could have just called--

- You weren't there
to deal with it.

That's a you error.

God, you're so
predictable.

I mean, a girl looks in
your direction, and you bail?

- You need to
keep it down.

She's in the bedroom,
and I didn't bail.

The party was over.

There was a guy literally
asleep on the bar.

- You had one job tonight.

- Matt, I had 12 jobs tonight, and
they all sucked balls.

You know hard it was
to get your

boring-ass friends to that bar?

Like, what wild plans
did Chris have

that he couldn't commit
until yesterday?

And then I had to hang with
those assholes for ten hours.

If I had stayed
any longer,

I would have straight-up
murdered one of those dudes--

probably Chris.

- You know, I was, uh...

I was planning on capping
the night off in Glendora--

uh, that place you buy
strawberry doughnuts at 4:00 a.m.

- Wow.
- But instead I'm here

at 4:00 a.m.,
listening to all your excuses.

- Matt, what are you
talking about?

Glendora?

Strawbe--seriously?

You can't be mad at me
about a last-minute plan

you made in your head
and you never told me about.

- I shouldn't have to tell you
about it.

It wasn't about you.

You should have
just been there.

- (sighs)

(bottle opens)
- How's surfing?

- Huh?
- I said, "How's surfing?"

Have you made any friends
out there yet?

- No, it's pretty quiet.

- Will you go put the food
on the table for me, please?

- Sure.

- Do you have any napkins?

Let's see.

- God, are you so selfish
you can't handle one night

being about anyone else?

- (sighs)

I don't know, man.
I guess I hit a wall.

You know, planning your
bachelor party's been weird.

It's the end of an era.

- Wow, you're still making it
about you.

It was my bachelor party.

And for the rest of my
life, whenever I think about it,

all I'm gonna remember is this.

- You know what?

Never mind.

You're right.

I'm sorry, OK?

I'm sorry.

- Are--are you OK?

- I'm fine.

(exhales deeply)

- How--how's Leigh?
- I don't know.

- You two aren't talking?

- Why are you asking me
so many questions, Mommy?

- Because I care about you.

Danny, I know
you're not doing well.

Matt--

- Does everything in my life
have to be about Matt?

- No, Danny.

Sweetie, I'm just trying
to talk to you.

I've been here over an hour,

and you haven't asked me
a single question.

Do you even care
about your mother?

Do you care about me?

- I can ask you
some questions, Mama.

- Good.

- How's work?
- Ah.

Tony--
he's having another affair.

- (laughs)

Tony, isn't that--
that's wife three.

- Four. Count it, four.
- Ugh.

(laughs)

Damn.

That dude needs
to get it together.

- Sure does.
(chuckles)

(soft rock music)

(indistinct chatter)

- Oh, sorry.
I'm so sorry.

Are you OK?
OK.

She's OK.
(chuckles)

She's OK.
- That's good to know.

- What were you listening to?

- Spiritualized.
Ever heard of it?

- Yeah.
No, I haven't.

I don't know
why I just said yes.

(laughter)

I like your hoodie.

The patch--
good old John of the Mountains.

- You know John Muir?
- Mm-hmm.

- Oh, well, I'm kind of like
a national parks nerd.

I've hiked Zion,
camped in Rocky Mountain.

(laughs)
Don't even get me started.

- No, you can get started.

- You sure?
- Yeah.

- All right, that's, like,
five hours of your life

you're never getting back.
- (chuckles)

It's just--it's nice to
meet a fellow parks nerd.

Actually, I've only been
to Joshua Tree and Yosemite.

I think I need one more to be
able to call myself a nerd.

(both chuckle)

Yellowstone, here I come.
(laughs)

- That's a solid choice.
It's actually my favourite.

- Is that where you got
the patch?

- No, it came with the hoodie.

Actually, I picked it
because of the patch.

I got it at Goodwill.

- Which one?
- Echo Park, on Sunset.

- Huh, yeah,
that's where I donate.

- Huh, small world.

Well, uh, you have a good one.

- Hey, can--
can I see you again?

- Yeah, sure.

What are you doing tomorrow?

(indistinct chatter)

- You look lost.
First time?

- No, but it's
my first time here.

- Other end of the hall.

This is my favourite part
of the week, actually.

- Your favourite?
Wow.

I leave my regular spot

feeling like I just
broke out of detention.

- Ooh, yeah,
I know what you mean.

Some places can be
kind of preachy.

- Or cult-y.
- Mm, definitely.

(both laugh)
This place is chill, though.

It's mostly
just queers and POC.

People who have really been
through it, you know?

I'm Tommy, by the way.

- Jules.

(indistinct chatter)

- Hi.
(chatter continues)

(door closes)
- What's up, man?

Good to see you.

Yeah, yeah.

Boop.

(laughs)
What's up?

Hey, do you guys mind
scooting over?

You can sit right there
if you want.

- Thanks.
- Yeah.

Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

Hey. Hi.

Nice to see you.
- Nice to see you, too.

(chatter continues)

- Sorry.
- Thanks.

- Welcome, everyone.

We're going to start

with a reading
from Leviticus 25:35.

"If any of your brothers
become poor

"and are unable to
support themselves among you,

help them as you would
a foreigner."

- You want to share?
- "That he may live with you."

- Sure.

- "Take no usury or interest
from him,

but fear your God, that your
brother may live with you."

- So, new girl,
what'd you think?

- Uh, it was interesting.

Although I'm not totally sold
on the whole God thing.

I'm in AA.

I was trying out a new meeting
in this building,

and I figured out
pretty early on this wasn't it.

But, um, we were sitting
so close to the front,

it would have been weird
for me to leave, so...

- Hmm. So you stayed for
the whole damn service.

- Yeah.
AA is pretty Jesus-y, too.

- (snickers)

Well, you gonna be OK
without a meeting?

- Yeah, I do usually
need meetings.

But tonight I kind of just
wanted to get out of the house.

- Well, next time you want to
get out of the house,

you should call me.

- That's,
uh, neighbourly of you.

- Here,
I'll give you my number.

- Leigh?
- I'm in here.

I am so sorry I didn't make it
to the studio.

I totally lost track of time.

- Do you want me
to send you a reminder

for your 4:00 p.m. tomorrow?

- It's in my calendar.
I will be there.

Hey, what do you think
about this?

- I think it's a dress.

- It was one
of Matt's favourites.

- Oh.

- I'm going on a date tomorrow.

- Uh, wait. Like, with the guy
you were sleeping with?

- Who?

- Condom guy.
- Oh, Postmates guy.

No, no, no, that was just sex.

This is a new guy.
I met him today.

His name is Javi.

- So it's a first date.
That's huge.

Do you feel ready?

- I don't know,
but I want to be.

- OK.

So what's Javi's deal?

- He likes record stores
and national parks.

- Where is he from?
1917?

- Sure, that tracks.
- (laughs)

Sexy time traveller.
- Yeah, why not?

- (scoffs)
OK.

- Danny.

- (groans softly)

For six months,

all people have wanted to talk
to me about was...

how great my brother was...
how tragic that he's gone.

But he was a shitty brother
sometimes, too.

Nobody wants
to hear about that.

(sombre music)

- Are you so selfish
you can't handle

one night being
about anyone else?

- You want to talk selfish,
let's go.

Dad's funeral--

you were so checked out,
I had to do everything alone.

Undertakers, caterers,
Mom's endless crying.

I even had to pick the casket.
That was a fun conversation.

- I was having a hard time.

- And nine months later, when I
got the job offer to Singapore,

you said to really think about
if it felt right

to move 9,000 miles away

less than a year
after Dad died.

So I stayed.

And a couple months later,
you met Leigh.

And you started spending
all your time with her,

and it was like you lived
in another country.

- Danny...you OK?

Take your time.

- I mean, come on,
you can't handle one night

being about someone else?
- You are such a hypocrite!

When you're being selfish,
it's always for a good reason.

But when I'm selfish, I'm the
worst person that ever lived.

You live
in this fantasy world

where you think
you're this great guy,

but you let me down
so many times.

And you can't even
acknowledge it,

much less
apologise for it.

(music continues)

- Danny?

- I was an asshole
to my mom yesterday.

And I didn't want to be,

but every time she brings
him up, I just go off.

And I keep replaying

this one fight Matt and I had
in my head.

And I'm finally saying
all the things

I should have said to him.

What's the point?

You know, he's already had
the last word,

and he's never gonna hear the
things that I want to tell him.

(sombre music)

Well?

- Well, what?

- Does anybody have anything
grief-group-y to say?

- You'll get through it.

- Anger is normal.
Let yourself feel it.

- You won't be there forever.

You'll remember
the good things.

- What if there's nothing
good to remember?

What if the bad stuff
is the real stuff...

And...

I'm just seeing that now?

(music continues)

(indistinct chatter)

(laughter)

- Anyway, that's why I don't,
you know, pray before meals.

It just reminds me too much
of my super-Catholic family

and their super-Catholic rules.

- So, well, how do you access
you-know-who?

- Wow, hot take.
(chuckles)

You know God isn't Voldemort?
- (chuckles)

- Uh, yeah, I don't know
She's, um--

my friend, my boss,
my partner, my lover.

- Sounds complicated.
Um, do you want some of this?

- Yes.

I mean, I've learned that
God is always there for me.

She knows all of me, and She
loves me exactly as I am.

- Oh. All of you.
(laughs)

Uh, yeah, God's gonna need to
strike some things

from my record
if She wants to be friends.

- Yeah, well,
we've all done stuff, Jules.

People don't go to church
'cause they're perfect.

(woman speaks Spanish)

- Thank you.
- Thanks.

Hey, so, uh...
do you get a finder's fee

for every new person
you bring in or...

- Oh, OK, yeah.
Too much church.

Sorry about that.
I am--

Look, I'm not good at, like,
first-date small talk.

- This is a date?
I wasn't sure.

- I mean, I brought you
to my secret tamale spot.

I'm literally holding
a tamale for you.

(both laugh)

- I thought maybe
you were being nice to me

because you felt sorry for me.

- Why would I feel sorry
for you?

- My knee.

No, because I'm an alcoholic
and, you know,

I don't have a life outside
of work or recovery.

- Jules...
- Look, I'm sorry, I--

Yeah, I don't know
why I am, um...

I don't know
what I'm doing right now.

- You want to start over?

Like God, I-I actually believe
in second chances...

and third and fourth.

But that's it.
Don't--no more.

- (chuckles)

- Maybe fifth.
- (chuckles)

- Thank you, you guys.
- Great job.

- I'll see you next time.
Thanks for coming.

- Good to see you.
- Oh!

- Good to see you.

- Well,
I guess I'm gonna go home

and get ready.

How is someone supposed to act
on a first date again?

- Ooh.

You are asking the wrong person
for that advice, my friend.

- (laughs)

I'm sorry that I was late.

Um, thank you
for covering.

- Covering is a strong word
for what I did.

I can't teach.
I just stalled.

It was awkward.

- Yeah, well,
I really am sorry.

I don't know what happened.

I thought
I set a reminder, but...

- Can I say something?
- Mm-hmm.

- I just feel like, um...

even when you are here, you
don't really want to be here.

And I think that's
why enrolment in your classes

has dropped off.

- OK, um...

I think there's, like, a few
people that stopped coming.

- It's almost 40%.

- OK, that's a lot.

- Do you still care
about this job?

- Uh...

I don't really know
how to answer that.

- Well, I can answer it.
I still care about it.

A lot, actually.

- Jules, you know that I've--

I've got a lot going on
right now.

- So does the studio,

and I can't
keep doing it alone.

Look, Vanessa has been asking
to do more,

and maybe
I should just let her.

If you can't handle
your workload,

I can give it to someone
who wants it.

- (laughs)
Are you...

are you firing me?

- (scoffs)

I...guess?

- (laughing)
Wow.

- Look...

we don't have to pay rent
on Mom's house.

I can cover groceries
and stuff.

Take a month.
Take two.

Take the time.
Figure things out.

I've got you.

- OK.

Um...

(door opens)

(door closes)

both:
Thank you.

- Cheers.
- Mm.

- (chuckles)

- Sorry. Weird day.
- (chuckles)

So you work for the Internet.
- Mm-hmm.

- Yeah, that might be
a deal breaker.

- OK.
Well, have a nice evening.

- All right, I'll just
take care of the cheque.

Don't even worry about it.
- (laughs)

So what's your problem
with the internet?

- Mm.

Screens in general.

You know, I
heard somewhere

that people spend
11 hours a day

just staring at a screen.

It's kind of creepy.
(both chuckle)

Want to sit?
- Sure.

Yeah, I mean,
it is creepy.

But isn't that just living
in the 21st century?

- (chuckles)

Ah, it doesn't have to be.

I have a flip phone.
- Oh, cool.

Congratulations.

- And I check my emails
at the library,

and I work as a handyman.

And when I'm not working,
I'm out there in the real world

still doing real-world things.

I go hiking, listen to music,
meet new people.

- That sounds really lovely.
- It is.

Come to the Dark Side.

- Oh, boy.
- Join me.

(both laugh)

- Well, the next time I see
my boss, the Internet,

I will put in my two weeks.
- (laughs)

I'm really glad you walked into
the record store when you did.

What are the odds?

- Well, maybe it was fate
or a sign.

- A sign of what?

- I don't know.

I'm still trying
to figure that one out.

(laughs)

- Cheers to that.

This is it.
- It's really nice.

- Yeah, it was a shithole
when I moved in,

but I've been fixing it up.
(door closes)

(inhales sharply)
Do-do-do-do...

(record player creaks
and clicks)

- Oh, I like this piece.

- Thanks.

(soft music playing)

All right.

My place runs a little cold,
so let me know if...

(music continues)

- Everything OK?

- Yeah, could we, um...
slow down a bit?

- Yeah, yeah, sure.
No problem.

You want something to drink?
Some water?

- How about something stronger?
- Yeah.

Uh, I'll make us
some cocktails.

You like bourbon?

- Yeah.

- You sure you're OK?
- Mm-hmm.

- All right, be right back.

(music continues)

(ice scraping, clattering)

(tense music)

(soft music continues playing)

(gate creaks)

(gate closes)

- (breathing heavily)

(music continues)

(grunts)

(music continues)

- How much gas do you have in your
car?

- How is this gonna work?

- We're gonna gamble,

we're gonna drink,
and we'll do other stuff.

- This is the best I've
felt in a really long time.

- I think we're allowed
to feel good.

- You know that this
is rigged, right?

- I've never felt
like the universe

was more on my side
than in this moment.

(both laugh)

- I point to someone,

and you tell me their
deepest, darkest secret.

- Who's the first victim?

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