All language subtitles for Naked.and.Afraid.S16E04.

Do you know where Mommy's going today?

- Look at the camera.
- Taking a train.

- What happened the last time?
- You had diarrhea.

- We have a problem.
- What?

I just sharted.

I'm not kidding, I went to fart,

- and it was wet and juicy.
- Um.

My first challenge really,
it really humbled me

and I made some mistakes.

I don't know. Hell, no,
don't wash out in the waterhole.

- It's like a teeny bit.
- No!

- It's fine.
- It is not fine.

We boil the
water anyways, it's fine.

She just put
it in our water source.

Disgusting.

I need a little redemption.

I'm doing it again.

Like there must be
something wrong with me.

I'm about to take my clothes off

and live out here for 21 days.

90% of the last challenge I
did in Arizona was amazing.

That feels good.

We killed a snake.

But no one's ever
talked about that.

Everyone just remembers
that I sharted on national TV.

I was crazy embarrassed.

I got a lot of negative
comments on the internet

that kind of created
this spark in me

that I needed to try again.

A huge driving force
behind doing this again

is I know my
kiddos are watching.

I want to show them that even
if you're super-embarrassed

or you do something
you're not very proud of,

dust it off, try
again, keep going

because that's life.

So I'm just really excited for
them to watch me try this time

and finish the full 21 days.

If I have another
sharting incident,

you can bet I will
do it in private.

I guess this is it.

My gosh.

My gosh. I can't
believe I'm doing this again.

I'm nervous to meet
my next partner,

'cause nothing humbles you more

than seeing how you act
when you're at your worst.

Okay, this is it I guess.

I mean, the sharting incident,

I know I won't make that
mistake again, obviously,

but I'm probably gonna
make another one.

And so if I could get someone
knowledgeable, kind, patient,

that would be my dream partner.

But I've seen this show

and I know what kind of
cards you can get dealt,

so that makes me really nervous.

- Hey, naked person.
- Hey, I'm Andi.

- Ashley. Nice to meet you.
- Ashley, good to meet you.

- Want a hug?
- Come on.

Awesome.

- Good to meet you.
- Good to meet you.

- Where are you from?
- Originally, Arizona,

but I live in North
Carolina right now.

Okay. I'm from the Northwest.

Nice. I love that area.

Yeah. You done
anything like this before?

I've never done
anything like this. You?

Actually this is my
second challenge.

I did a fan challenge.

- What's your name again?
- Ashley.

You know, honestly, I saw
my partner in a fan challenge.

You know, she's the shart girl.

Um, so, honest, I
don't wanna have

the preconceived notions
because I'm different,

you know, and we
all make mistakes.

I grew up
conservative Christian.

Have a troubled child, but
you know, my mom tried

to do everything she
could to make sure

I grew up to be a
good young man.

You know, going
through the army,

I was airborne infantry soldier.

I was not really
a model soldier.

I was a little bit
hippie, a little bit gypsy,

a little bit dirty biker.

I kind of felt like an outcast
and I started, you know,

seeking somewhere
that I just fit in.

I was a cattle rancher,
and then I went from cowboy

into being a white
water raft guide.

And from raft guiding I
became a sailing captain.

And from there I went
to being a wild firefighter,

a firefighter EMT.

You know, in a lot of ways,
I feel like I'm still searching

for that place where I fit in.

I think that's a big part of
why I want to do this challenge.

I'm gonna make it to the end.
Can you go there with me?

I'm ready. Let's go all the way.

- Twenty-one days. Kill it.
- Yeah.

- You wanna check out our bag?
- Yes.

Andi seems great.
He seems totally supportive,

so I'm really excited.

Andi and Ashley are
each allowed one survival item.

- I've got a fire starter.
- Good deal.

So I've got my
bushcraft parang here.

And they're also
given a pot for boiling water.

All right, so, we have our map.

So, I guess we're
here, extraction's there.

- Gonna go down the river.
- Yeah.

I think we wanna
get towards all that bamboo

so we can set up
shelter around there.

Sounds like a great idea.

- Let's head that way.
- All right.

- Ready?
- Ready, go!

Yeah, go team.

Ho-ho.

Here we go.

- Going in.
- I guess we're going in.

Andi and Ashley
enter the dense jungles of Tobago,

a Caribbean island nation

where swarms of blood-sucking
mosquitos fill the air

and armies of black engine
ants scour the jungle floor.

Powerful monsoons
ravage the island,

causing flash floods
and deadly river surges.

And wild temperature swings

turn sweltering days
into brutally frigid nights.

All right. Ooh,
man, this is straight-up ugly.

I think it's safe to say
no one's walked this path before.

You know what,
it's interesting, you know,

I've definitely gone on some
wayward paths in my life.

Andi has extensive experience

in a wide range of environments,

but this is his first
time trying to survive

in a jungle setting.

He begins with a PSR of 6.6.

I definitely feel
more confident this time.

That's good.

I learned snares and traps
since my last challenge.

- Nice.
- I'm ready.

Despite her lapse of judgement,

Ashley showed great
tenacity and resolve

in successfully completing
the 14-day fan challenge.

Her primitive survival rating
starts where she left off at 5.5.

You know, my biggest thought
as we're walking through here

is, like, everything's wet.

Nothing dries out here.

The jungle's
really buggy and wet.

I mean, you're swimming
through the jungle.

It's kind of crazy. It's
a little overwhelming.

And so I'm nervous about fire.

My biggest thought
is while we're in here,

if you see anything
super dry for tinder,

grab it before it even
touches the ground.

Yeah, that's a good
observation right there.

Getting a fire.

- That might be one of our hardest challenges out here.
- That's for sure.

Hey, hey, hey! Look at that.

- There's a spring, right there.
- What?

I would definitely
feel confident with this

- 'cause it's not a river.
- Yeah, it's coming out of the ground.

I mean, it's coming
off the mountain.

We all know that don't drink
the river water, you'll get sick.

So, thank the
gods for that spring.

- Yeah.
- Here you go. Here's the pot.

I'm gonna boil everything.

I don't want to
take any chances.

Okay, good to know.

From past sharting experience,

I definitely wouldn't
have put any of that water

from the natural
spring into my mouth.

I mean, many people have gotten
sick from water on these challenges.

And so I'm gonna boil
everything I find out here,

no matter where I find it.

You can give it a try,

and if you don't get sick,
I'll try. -I know.

My mom's, like, "Don't drink
anything that's not boiled!"

You know, even though we
know the water's safe to drink,

my partner doesn't feel
comfortable drinking that water.

So I would like to
boil it just for her.

You know, we're
both in this together.

But everything's so wet,

I don't know if we'll
have a fire on day one.

Looking for that
perfect shelter spot.

- I wanna hear the river a little, maybe.
- Yes.

Dude, we've got
the water there, you mean.

It's definitely a bit of a scramble
to getting up and down there.

I wish we had,
like, five more hours

to search around for something.

We're not gonna have

- the perfect dream shelter tonight.
- Yep.

But we do need to,
like, get something that

we have some form
of comfort and security.

Um... It's flat in there.

Yeah, this looks pretty good.

There's a mat we
can put things along.

What do you wanna do first?

Get something so we're
actually not right on the ground,

it may not be elevated,

but get off the
ground, you know,

something that
gets us some shelter.

I can start hacking
some bamboo down.

Do you want to start gathering
some materials for a fire?

It may be wet,

- but at least try get something drying.
- Yep.

Okay.

Timber!

I'm looking for a bird's nest.

I'm looking for anything dry

so that I can make
a little tinder bundle.

That even this, it
looks dry, but it is...

You could feel it's just damp.

All right.

So my vision, I don't know
what you're thinking, but, um,

I think we should do
the mat, the floor first.

We could just take a
bunch and lay 'em here,

kind of make like a raft almost
that we're gonna sleep on.

And then if we get that done,
we could do some this way.

- A lean-to, yeah.
- What do you think?

Well, we've got I'd
say back in there,

- a lot of big banana leaves in there.
- Yep.

Of course, there's rain.

We're trying to build a little shelter
right here. We've got somewhat of a bed.

We're gonna get
some banana leaves,

somewhat of a lean-to.

Hopefully we gonna
see if we can get a fire,

but it is so wet out here.

It's kind of mind blowing
how many more mosquitoes

came out in the
last 20, 30 minutes.

They're, like, big too.

You mother chucker!

I think it's gonna
be critically important

that we get that shelter up.

It's a rainforest. It's
the rainy season.

I hear the thunder
coming through right now,

so I don't know how
much time we have.

- All right, so we've got our shelter-ish.
- Ish.

It's obviously just day one.

It's gonna keep us
dry, which is important.

I'm really hoping I
can have a fire tonight

so that we can keep bugs away,

'cause I can
barely even stand it.

Come on, bugs,

get out of my vagina.

I've never been in
bugs this bad ever.

Look at that. See that.
Look at that. Look at that.

We had a good flame

but this stuff just
doesn't wanna burn.

Honestly, I'm feeling a little
overwhelmed by the no fire.

I've never spent a
night out in the woods

without a fire before,

so I don't know
how this is gonna be.

I don't know what's
gonna happen.

I may go try find a
bunch more like this.

- Yes.
- Okay.

I'm gonna gather firewood.

Assuming he gets a fire started.

He will.

My whole body's on fire.

It's hard to move.

I don't know. I don't
know what I'm doing.

It bit me, like, five times.

Are you okay?

Are you all right?

- Just a bite?
- I don't know.

It was there,
there, there, there.

Yes.

It seems like she's
in a lot of pain.

I mean, my heart
is hurting for her.

It's gonna be a long 21 days.

God.

My toes are throbbing.

The black
engine ants are out here,

and they're vicious. It's
kind of like a bee sting.

God.

You kind of forget
how hard this is.

But now that I'm in it,

I'm gonna push through.
I'll be okay.

- I've gotta get to work.
- She's working it.

Ooh, but I'm definitely
feeling the effects of the jungle.

The priority's to
get that fire going

because the bugs are bad.

The mosquitoes came up fast.

I've gotten bit, like, 50 times.

The fire it's gonna make smoke

and it's gonna keep
those insects away.

So I really, that's kind of
my next thing right now to do.

Come on, baby.

Come on.

Just wishing there's
a fire. I'll make fire.

Man.

Whatever we put on it
is always wet. It never catches.

My God.

So we're getting
kind of overwhelmed

because the sun is going down,

and that means a fireless night.

And that means a lot of bugs.

And for me, no water.

It was a rough night.

Our vision is, you know,
to get that shelter improved,

and we're gonna
get some fire going.

That's the vision for today.

I say we get this A-frame up

if we can keep this together.

So, I wanna
transform our lean-to

more into an A-frame,

so we can have an
awning for when it rains.

There, it's raised up.

It matched up to
that side pretty good.

First win of the day.

We need to fill this in here,

so we have a little
awning, a little A-frame.

We're gonna wall this side in.

I think I might go
get a drink of water.

I'm feeling pretty dehydrated.

I haven't had any
water in 24 hours.

Andi drank out of the
spring a lot yesterday.

It's probably been 12
hours, and he's feeling okay.

Okay, that's good for now.

Right now we have to drink it.
We don't really have a choice.

We haven't been
able to get a fire going

to boil some water, so...

risk versus reward.

We'll see if it was worth it.

It tastes really good.

All right, this
project is done. Done-ish.

Good job.

We've got a pretty good shelter,

but right now I think one
of our biggest priorities

is getting that fire going.

I'm gonna try some
of this bamboo,

'cause this seems like
it actually wants to burn.

Yep, whatever you've gotta do,

- let's try it.
- Whatever we've got to do.

All right, get
the wet stuff off.

Obviously, nothing's
dry out here,

but there is a lot
of downed bamboo,

which, you know, has that
kind of a protective coating,

which kind of keeps
the moisture out of it.

I'm gonna make some shavings.

You know, fire's a huge
psychological thing, you know.

Flame, flame.
Flame, baby, flame.

What do we have?

We have a little bit of a fire
going here if we can keep it going.

Do you wanna do me a favor, and just
grab some of that crappy wood over there.

- This?
- Yes, yes, yes. Thank you, perfect.

There's also that big
chunk of solid wood.

- Do you need that?
- Yes. Good job.

Thank you. This is great.

- We've got fire.
- We've got a fire!

Awesome! We've got fire.

My gosh.

Suddenly the pieces
just come together.

We have water. I have no nausea,

no anything in my
tummy going on,

and we have a
flame. We are ecstatic.

It's so awesome. It's
a great morale booster.

- We're doing a great job together.
- Yeah.

This shelter is both of
you and me together.

We're a good team, sure.

Yeah, I suppose.

It's, like, can you imagine

if I walked up to you
at the introductions

and said, "My
God, it's Shartgirl."

-No. -Thanks for holding back.

I was, like, you know
what, she's gotta stay here

because she knows if she leaves
early she'll be forever Shartgirl.

Ashley, you know,
she's doing really good.

She's got a great attitude.

After her last challenge,
she felt misunderstood

And I can certainly
relate to that.

I'm really thankful
that she's here.

I'm thankful she's my partner.

That was, I mean, that
was my episode, okay?

Yeah.

No. No.

Man, it sucks.

Our fire is soaked.

Can you see, it's got a
little water inside our shelter?

It's crazy.

- We got some holes.
- We have work to do.

We had a lot of
leaks last night from the rain,

and we lost all the coals
within a few minutes.

It was just a water bed.

There's a little
bit of warmth in there,

but there's no coals.
It's just nothing.

That was really frustrating,

so we are going to
work on the shelter.

I really want to patch a few
holes, especially over the fire

so that we don't have to worry about
our fire getting wet next time we start it.

- If we did leaves...
- I'm really not digging the leaves.

- Yeah?
- Yeah.

All torn up, so it's hard
to get good coverage.

I'm thinking of
bamboo is, like, solid.

I really think that we really
need to reinforce the shelter.

Not so much with the leaves,

but with, you know,
more bamboo up there.

So, something that's gonna

be more of a permanent shelter
versus an emergency shelter.

If you want, we can make
this side roof bamboo,

but I think it's ambitious
to do both sides

especially since this
side did pretty well.

I thought we just needed
to patch a few holes.

He saw the water last night
as we need a whole new roof,

which I love the idea,

I just wish we would
have done it on day one,

because I'm feeling
kind of depleted of energy

and I'm trying to be
smart with my energy.

- Let's focus on this side.
- I still see a big hole over your head.

I'm gonna... That's
what I'm doing right now.

I'm trying to get this back
up so I can rebuild that wall.

And then I'm gonna
lay more up here.

Instead of like tearing the
shelter down and redoing it,

she want to not
start off on day zero.

And I get that.

So, I'm just trying
to hear her plans,

listen to her plans, and
find that compromise.

We're just trying to get
obviously a good solid roof

that's gonna last.

Um, yeah, obviously the
rain it hits here, goes down,

runs down that way,
down to the river.

We signed up for this
for fun. Isn't that crazy?

Are we having fun yet?

I mean, not really.

But it's fun when you're done.

Well, look, we made some really
good improvements on our shelter today.

We kept the
original leaf lean-to

that we built on day one.

Ashley fortified it,

and on the other
side we put a full wall,

all bamboo interlocked together.

- We can move in.
- Yeah.

Now we need a fire.

That's the hard part.

That is the hard part.

Obviously we've got
all this downed bamboo here,

which probably
would sit here, right?

It does burn actually.

Once you get a fire
going, we know it burns.

- It just doesn't last.
- Yeah.

Trying to get some
hardwoods to actually burn

so we can get some coals,
so we can keep this fire going.

All right, firewood.

- Let's try to get it right before nightfall.
- Yep.

That is kinda dry.

We had a good fire last night.

So now we can understand
how much wood we need,

um, the type of wood we need.

And, you know, we have to mix
that bamboo with the hardwood,

because the bamboo
just goes up fast.

So, you know, we're
getting dialed in, you know.

This is a good one.

It's definitely a
full-time job, I mean.

Mind you, we haven't eaten much

so we're trying
to pace ourselves,

but we've still
gotta work for it.

All right, gotta
go to the river.

We have a
spot for firewood to dry.

We know the rain's coming again,

so kinda wanna start
putting some of this firewood

underneath, like, there.

We know we can
make it 21 days without fire,

but it's gonna be rough, and
especially rough for my partner,

so I definitely worry about her.

We all know that
most of the challenges

between our ears out here,

you know, you gotta
hold fast. Just hold fast.

Slow, steady pace.

Look at there. Look
over right there.

A possum.

I'm looking for firewood,

and all of a sudden,
right there it is.

A banana tree with bananas.

That's awesome.

Right there.

That's right, banana.

Ashley!

- Banana!
- What?

I see Andi walking over,

and he has his hand up
with something really big.

Hell, yeah!

He has this huge
stalk of bananas.

Hah!

You're my hero!

My gosh. My gosh.
Let's have one right now.

- Here, have that one right there.
- Yeah.

First bite.

Whoa!

My gosh.

Isn't that, like, the best
banana you've ever had?

I hate bananas, but
right now, I love these.

These really are some
of the most tasty bananas

we've ever had.

They're a little bit smaller,

but they're super-sweet and
tasty, and they're just so good.

Winner, winner, banana dinner.

You're my favorite
person in the whole world.

I feel really happy
that Andi is my partner.

Sitting down, having
a little feast of banana.

This is so amazing.

So amazing.

I feel like you kind
of become, like, good friends.

With how hard it is out here,

I can't imagine not getting
along with my partner.

I just hit the jackpot.

This is like the most
amazing blessing ever.

We've got some food.
We've got a pretty good shelter.

Now let's try to
get a fire going.

Light the fire then we get all
our materials laid out this time.

We've got some small
sticks, some bigger sticks,

some light we call
it bamboo paper.

We're gonna put
some bamboo shavings,

and then we're gonna
get this fire rolling.

- Okay, come on, baby.
- You're gonna get it.

Negative.

It's like it just absorbs
the moisture here so fast

that I get a little ember going,

and it just dies.

Nothing's catching, so
it's pretty discouraging.

I wish fire was easier out here.

It would be so nice to
have a fire every night.

Come on, Andi, the kill me.

Last night was
rough for this girl.

You can see my back.

We don't have fire.
We don't have bug net.

We're just free eating range

all night long.

The bugs really
damper your sleeping.

But it's also getting
chillier at night.

I find myself
shivering quite a bit.

And I don't know when we're
gonna be able to get a fire.

I mean we've had one success

out of 20 tries.

So, I need to put some

big energy into
closing the shelter up.

So, my goal is to cover
with leaves till here...

and then make a,
a door we can move,

and put back on.

How many bug bites
will this job take?

That is the question.

We're on two.

It is hot in the sun.

I'm really worried about Ashley.

'Cause she struggles
so much at night.

So, today, my
only priority is fire.

We just gotta figure
out this fire thing,

if there's no fire...

I don't think Ashley
will be here much longer.

Fortunately, right now, it's
not raining, the sun's out.

And I wanna take
advantage of it.

So, I come down to the river

in the sun where things
are drier, and hotter.

And try to dry out

a huge amount of wood.

All right...

Let that sit in the sun.

Really focusing on
harvesting good materials.

Gather materials that are
super dry, exposed to the sun.

Bamboo husk here.

Put 'em in the sun.

Got about three hours till that
sun goes behind those trees

and darkens this area.

So...

we'll leave the fire stuff
down here for right now,

Gonna run up to camp,
we'll drink some water.

Check on my bush wife.

I'm almost done with my door.

So, I'm hoping no mosquitoes...

come in, and then it'll
also give you a little reprieve

or somewhere to lay
down during the day.

Door on!

Yeah!

Yeah!

Let's see this magic.

I am gonna add one
little piece like that.

I think Ashley's door is great.

You know, she put a lot
of thought and time into it,

so, I think she did
a good job on it.

My only concern
is if we don't have a fire,

the cold is still a problem.

It'll be another rough
night for Ashley.

Two hours till sunset.

Time to make some fire.

So, right now I'm
working with stuff

that's been out in the sun,

and just stacking
it up right now,

and, hopefully, it's dried out so
we can finally get that fire going.

If we don't have a fire tonight,

I don't know if she'll
make it tomorrow.

No pressure on me.

See? Look at that.

Kumbaya!

Come on, baby.

Come on.

Come on.

All that magnesium,
do you see all those sparks?

Bye-bye, bugs.

Looks so good,
looks so promise...

It looks so good
and so promising.

- Yeah.
- And just, it's still...

I don't even wanna get excited.

- I know. I've been here before.
- Yeah.

Damn it.

Come on...

It's just too moist.

You know, trying
to get that fire going.

And nothing is working out here.

What happened?

I'm just tired of stupid
not working.

We had some brilliant
attempts at fire last night,

and it just died.

And it's really discouraging.

You know, growing up,

I struggled with anger a lot.

And like everyone
else in my family,

I turned to Christianity
for answers.

And I tried that journey,
walked that good walk,

but in the end, it
never really stuck.

Now I'm a born-again Pagan.

Being in the woods,
being out in nature,

this is my church,
this is where I belong,

and then what I
need to do to survive

is to live with this forest,

I wanna grow with this forest.

Open that third eye,

and just see what I can see.

Beyond my own eyes.

I'm just connecting to the...

my birth today.

There's already so
much anger in this world.

Help me to rise above this.

Help me to find
true understanding.

Even though we're frustrated,

I think we're just gonna have
to keep trying it every day.

And then once we get fire,

I think a fish basket would
be our best source of protein.

I feel like it looks like what
it's supposed to look like.

I've been working
on the fish basket,

and the fingers in
the back are talking,

but I know it's
gonna be worth it.

I gotta do...

the cone part.

Where the critters crawl in.

And then they
can't get back out.

Starting a fire out
here is about persistence.

Much like this challenge.

And I'm not gonna
let Ashley down.

There's a hearty piece indeed.

You know what? I'm gonna pull
it over towards this rocky spot.

Wait.

What have we got on this thing?

Look at that.

That almost looks like fat wood.

So, fat wood is resinous wood.

That's where,
turpentine comes from.

It's an accelerant
for making fires.

I've walked past that
log 100 time out here.

I guess my eyes are
opening up a little more.

Starting to learn a little bit
more about our jungle here.

There's always so much more
to see than what I'm seeing.

Might be a game changer.

If I start breaking
off some sticks.

And then, I'm starting to
get the smaller shavings.

Nice. We're feeling good.

With a nice cache of fire
tender that's been out in the sun

and the fat wood shavings,

it's no excuse
to not have a fire.

Ooh-ya-ya. Ooh-ya-ya.

Fire.

Fire, ooh.

Fire Bear, "Ooh, fire good."

Whoa! Yay!

You're my hero!

Just watch your bum.

Fire is a game changer.

I'm really proud of Andi.

He's been working at it all day.

I guess it's just finding that
perfect storm of materials

that are gonna light up.

- Is that rain?
- Yep.

My gosh.

It's gonna be fine.

It's actually going good and
it feels really solid, you know.

It feels so good to
have a really good fire.

We're mostly
dry, and we got fire.

- It's like, you know, our own little world out here.
- Yeah.

I finally found a place
where I don't hear cars.

- Yeah, no phones.
- No phones. No TV.

No... No hate.

- You know, there's a lot of angry voices out there.
- Yep.

It's awesome.

So, we have a beautiful
coal bed right there. That's...

really cool.

So, a fish basket is
our next priority, I guess.

We just need to
find some more cordage.

I think we've figured out fire.

I think if we got protein
today we could cook it.

So, I'm feeling
protein, protein, protein.

What is it?

- What do you see?
- It's a crab. Go and get it.

It's a big one.

Let's have lunch.

Good job, girl.

Got it.

Got it.

- Bam chicka wow wow!
- Hey...

we got fire.

- Let's go cook this guy right now.
- Yeah, I'm hungry. Let's go.

It does smell wicked good.

Let me smell.

That smells like
a crab restaurant.

That is so...

This crab is amazing.

It was cooked to
absolute perfection.

So, getting this bit of protein
in us is just a huge win.

It's good for our heart and
soul right now and...

Yeah.

Done.

Killing it, literally,
and eating it.

I'm gonna go down
and check the, crab,

well, right by the,

what we call the "water
fountain," down by the spring.

Yeah, one we haven't
seen before, so hopeful.

Last night was a good night.

We, We had fire
throughout the night.

We had rain
throughout the night also.

And for the most part
we were relatively dry.

Look at this, it's so
heavy water through here.

There were, like, rapids
shooting through here last night.

Our walking trail.

Feel like there's a saying
called the storm provides.

And so I think that
when it gets all rainy,

especially the crabs
and stuff, they come out.

Yeah, definitely. But
see if there's anything else

scurrying around
here looking for a meal.

I got you.

Andi

Take your time.

I'm scared to get up.

It's all right.

Wanna grab my arm?

Here you go.

I said, "Don't... Don't rush."
You don't have to jump up, okay?

Let's go back and I
can lay down.

Okay.

All right, supposed to
be this hill right behind you.

Okay.

- -It's okay.
- Look for the stick.

Our walking path
has steep little hills on it,

and after it rains, it just
becomes a slip and slide.

My foot just gave out
from underneath me,

and I take a fall.

Let's go.

It is a wild, dangerous country.

It does not take much
to take you out out here.

God, where's your stick?

I'm not worried bout my stick.

I'm worried about you.

Grab onto my arm like a good bush husband.

Just a home bush wife.

- Yeah.
- Come on.

This is like
us growing old in the jungle.

- Okay, I got you.
- Jesus.

God.

I think I need to
call the medic.

Let me have a look.

That... Yeah, that one.

And it's more
on this right side,

- like, yeah, in there.
- Right here.

After examining Ashley, her
back seems to be in okay condition.

She does have some point
tenderness on the lower spine.

But it's more
muscular than skeletal.

She's cleared to
continue the challenge.

My mental game is still there.

I still really want this.

My body feels...

a little different,
and that's scaring me,

so I'm gonna try to
work on my body tonight

and get it back
to my head space.

Just gonna give it a few
hours. - Okay.

Anything I can get
you? A pillow? Bed?

- Some ibuprofen.
- Some ibuprofen.

I'm trying not to even
think about leaving.

It's not an option.

You know...

regret always
lasts longer than pain.

I'm worried about my partner.

We're a tribe of two,

and we need each
other to survive.

She's my people.

Ouch!

How you feeling today?

In between my back
hurting and my right body going numb,

I think I got, like, 15 minutes
total of sleep last night.

I've never had a back
issue like this, never.

If I bend over for
anything, get out of bed,

it's like a zing down my legs.

I'm afraid to walk around,
walk down to the water.

I think I know
what I have to do.

And I really don't wanna do it.

I know I have to
take care of my body

'cause I have kids to
take care of at home.

And my goals are not always
what's best for our family.

Unfortunately, when
you become a mom...

So, Ashley, I think our medic
says you're medically cleared.

You're okay to stay.

But I just don't know how
I can make it get better.

And so, I don't
want it to get worse.

Think I'm gonna go and...

But I don't wanna go.

Have to go.

Yeah, I'm tapping out.

Okay.

I think if I go take care of it,

I think I can come home 90%,

versus take the risk of the
next two days hurting it more.

And I just don't wanna do that.

Sorry. It's not
how I saw it going.

And I've completed
a 14-day challenge.

I wanted Day 21 so bad,

and it's definitely gonna
be there for the rest of my life

that I set a goal and I
didn't make it happen.

You're a great partner
out here. Yeah?

I'm really proud of you.

It's really hard to do.

I don't ever quit anything.

- I love you.
- A big hug. Brother and sister.

Take care, sweetie.

Bye, Ashley!

I hate to see her tap out.

But she has my blessing,

and I'll never think
less of her because...

she's done a great job out here.

It just hurts my
heart to see her hurt.

During
Ashley's 10 days in Tobago

she lost 14 pounds.

Her Primitive Survival
Rating drops to 4.7

My time with Ashley for the
first half has been great and amazing.

But the hardest part,

now that she's
gone, it's really all me.

I mean, it'll be a challenge.

To me, this is, like,
more of a vision quest,

kind of a spiritual journey.

So I just need to keep an open
mind and an open heart and open eyes

and, the jungle will
show me what I need to see

when I need to see it.

One of my priorities is to get
Ashley's fish basket in the water today.

I'm thinking that eddy
over there's the spot,

where the water's
swirling in there.

You know there's gonna be fish,

that's gonna be their...
kind of their chill spot.

Taking the, the crab
parts for, for bait.

The river here, it rises and
changes quickly out here.

I'm just gonna tie this down
so it doesn't wash away.

All right, you little fishies,
you go in the trap now.

Were gonna go down and,
check out the fish trap.

I'm just looking at the
water. It's really picked up.

You know, it's gone up
a foot. since this morning.

It seems to go up faster than
it comes down, surprisingly.

I mean, I don't know
what it's doing up...

further up in the high country,

could still be raining up there.

So, crossing it,

a little bit different game.

Halfway through the challenge, I
feel like I still got so much to do.

But my calorie
intake is very low

and protein intake
is extremely low.

I did get Ashley's fish
trap in the water yesterday,

so hopefully I'll be able to
get something out of that.

Yeah, there's a
fish in the fish trap.

Look, there he is.

Ain't much of a
fish, but it's a fish.

So, hooray, protein.

Now I'm thinking, "All right, how
long am I gonna prepare this fish?"

You know, I have no fire.

I think I'm just
gonna eat it raw.

It actually has a spicy
taste, like, it has a touch of...

like a touch of hot sauce in it.

A little zesty to it.

The eye has got sodium
in it, you know, salt,

and that's something that
your body really needs too.

And a little brain, that's
got lots of nutrients in it too.

All right. This goes
into the fish trap.

I'll put the fish trap
back in the water.

I'm not trying to
make a fire tonight

'cause I don't have
anything to cook,

and I don't really wanna
fight making a fire all night.

But, you know, throughout
the night it gets a little chilly.

So, I know my body's
gotta burn calories

to keep the body temperature up.

It's a hard bed
so I toss and turn.

Tossing and turning ain't so
bad when you're in the real world,

but you know, without no
sleep it's super important.

It was incredibly
uncomfortable last night,

just tossing and turning
every, like, minute and a half.

You know, so I felt like I spent
a lot of energy, a lot of calories.

So, you know, I still need
to get some more protein.

I cannot believe how
much this river's picked up.

And that river's probably got a
lot of tributaries feeding into it,

and they're just pumping it up.

So, it's not just
this one source.

It's 100 other little
sources feeding into it also.

I wanna be able to get across,
check on that fish trap again.

But who knows if I still
have a fish basket in there.

So, you've gotta be really
mindful and very careful out here

not to get yourself hurt.

Huzzah!

All right.

That was full-on exciting.

Damn it.

It was clearly tore out.

And I can't even see the lashing
where it was lashed to that tree.

And this was a huge torrent

of water just flushing
right through here.

Flushing through here.

There goes my best food source.

Really sucks.

The fish trap's washed away.

That's a huge crash and burn.

You know, losing
Ashley's fish basket,

it's really kind of a setback.

But, you know,

having the, the floods come
through and the high water,

you know, it brings a lot of
new stuff down around the river.

So, I'd like to take advantage
of this time over here

and just see what
I can see out here.

This was all
underwater yesterday.

Look at that.

So, actually, that is coconut.

Who knows where
that washed down from,

but it's all emptied out.

I'd love to see some
coconut out here.

But we don't have
those kind of palms here.

I'm gonna go check
on that banana tree.

I see some bananas.

And they're really green.

They're so green that I'm not even
sure at this point I can eat them.

I don't know if they're
necessarily what my body needs.

They feel good going in,
but if they're, they're green,

it will constipate me.

I hope they can ripen up.

Definitely, I've noticed,
you know, this morning

I feel like I'm getting a lot more
head rushes when I get up, you know?

It's probably, you know, a
little food intake, a little blood sugar.

So... What's this?

Check that out.

Guava.

I don't know how many
times I've walked past this guy.

I'll have a handful
of these guys.

They'll be nice and ripe.
This guy's in pretty close.

That's awesome.

See the yummy
goodness, right there.

I think when you go
through stuff like this

with the right
mindset, that there...

There's going to
be a change. And...

Shedding the modern
world, the comforts...

All that chaos. And, you
know, hate and anger.

That's the change I'm
trying to experience here.

Reevaluate who I am.

You know, who...
What's important in life.

This is a rough,
rough night last night.

I had one guava for dinner,
and it just didn't sit well with me.

It's... Feels like it's still
sitting somewhere in here.

So...

My body doesn't know what
to do with all those seeds.

See how swampy
it is around here?

Squish, squish, squish.

It's what I call "dog poop mud,"
'cause when you step on it...

It just
squeezes through your toes,

like you stepped on dog poop.

Yuck.

So, just looking at
the river right now,

this is the highest
I've seen it.

And can't step in to go
up and down the river

to find other...

resources.

So there's definitely no
going across the river today.

Shelter maintenance is...

a daily chore out here.

Somebody always gotta maintain.

Always a work in progress.

It's those moments I really
wish I had a second person.

You know, honestly I wish that
Ashley could be here with me.

I mean, I know I can
survive without her, but...

What's your quality of life, you know?
I mean, what's life worth without...

That partner? Without
love, you know?

And...

That's been a big
challenge for me in my life.

But you know...

It's all good. We're all good.

Ooh.

Digging for crab.

Digging for crab.

I need something. Just to,
carry me through this.

No nothing.

I'm looking at this
big tree stump,

thinking there's gotta be a
snake in here, you know?

Our fish trap's washed away.

Thinking that some of the guavas
have probably made me constipated.

I know I can't keep going on
every night and day like this.

I was hoping to find some
snakes or some lizards.

You know, something
to give me some protein.

I don't feel like I have a whole
lot of energy and strength to go

hunting right now.

You know, even though I
feel weak and totally depleted,

you still gotta put
the effort forward.

Otherwise, you won't make it.

I need something to change.

Let's see how the
water level's doing.

It's definitely coming down.

This is good. 'Cause I wanna be able
to get across and check on the bananas.

Haven't been down here in days.

My body is struggling.

With very little food.

You know, we got extreme
pain in both my knees.

Pain in my lower back.

And... And pain in
my head right now.

All right.

So you see the bananas
are still beautiful and green.

But I don't know if I'm
gonna have the energy

and the strength to
come back down here.

And do this, so...

Yeah, what a heartbreaker.

We're just looking for some
grubs. Looking for some protein.

For some worms. I
mean, this is such rich...

soil, such rich mulch, really.

It's definitely survival food.
It's not comfort food but...

I gotta do what I gotta do to make it
the next couple days to get out of here.

There's a little worm.

You know what, it mostly tastes like
soil, because, well, my hands are dirty.

It's tough right now.

Definitely in the battle.

Mentally and physically,

you know, Mother Nature, the
goddess has... Has humbled me.

Ooh, head rush.

Ooh.

Kind of hit me
against that wall.

Keep it together.

Keep it together...

The alone-ness has been rough.

I've kind of gotten more
emotional, you know?

And...

I've realized that

this is about the longest
time I haven't called my mom.

I definitely got a lot going
through my head right now.

You know, I expected this to
be a... A bit of a... A crucible.

But honestly,

- most of the fight is...
- Is with myself.

You know, there's a lot
of me that I have to let go.

But there's
so much anger and hate.

There's something that I've kind of
hidden from myself, from my family,

from my community.

Trying to understand
how to communicate it.

I don't know understand
why it's so difficult.

Maybe it's because I'm
just worried I'm gonna...

hurt someone. Hurt my mom.

I spent most of my adult life
being a conservative Christian.

I always figured, you know,

if you pray enough...

Fixes everything.

And I feel that hurt,
and I feel that pain.

And... And the
disappointment. So...

This is my opportunity
to look deep inside me.

And...

Find that healing and...

You know?

You know, it's something I
knew ever since I was in...

fourth grade.

I'm not ashamed of it.

It's just hard to say...

Being a... A bisexual
male, you know.

You're not fully gay,
you're not fully straight.

Why can't I be both?

So now, here I am.

Almost 50.

I wanna be a
more authentic self.

So I guess that's why
I had to come out here.

I'm happy to be who I am.

Still a warrior.

I know my heart is good.

Love is love, and...

Tired of the hate.

Love you, Mom.

A couple ants in here.

This one's a bonus streak
'cause he's got a larva with him.

You know, I always wondered...
The calorie intake of an ant.

Some of them got
a little extra zing,

especially when
they bite your tongue.

You gotta be really
quick and make sure you...

You chew them up
before they chew you up.

Yeah, I feel about
three bites in the top lip.

And, four bites
in the bottom lip.

Can you see my lips got swollen?

It's way cheaper than Botox.

Getting these fat lips.
They look beautiful.

It's really important to look
good on extraction day, so...

Getting that puff...
It's important.

So, the other day, kind of
let some truth bombs go and...

I think one of the reasons why I
have to say what I say is because...

somebody does need to hear it.

You know, growing up
conservative Christian...

I've put myself in the closet

way too long, you know?

I'm part of the LGBQ+ family.

You know, if it's been
suppressed and...

I don't think that's
healthy. It's not genuine.

A lot of people might get
offended or pissed off at me,

but if you can't be true to
yourself, who can you be true to?

It's really awkward to...

have my conservative
Christian family hear that.

But I feel so much
freer now on this path.

Get a little bit of sun.

Feels like it's been a couple of days
since I've... felt the sun on my body.

It's just been
overcast and rainy.

Right there.
Right there. Feel that? Ooh.

Impact, right there.
The sun just hits me.

Just taps into me. I
feel like... I'm just, like...

Getting a battery. Just charging
up.

That feels good.

This is why I'm here.

It's to experience this, and...

Nature makes us who we are.

And you know what? This
world's got no room for hate.

That's where, you know,
ultimately, love wins.

This is a mission. My strength
comes from love and unity.

Our strength comes
through love and unity.

So as soon as we can start hearing
each other's hearts and talking

and respecting each other,

sooner we all find that healing.

This is where our camp is.

Looking at the chart, looks like there's
at least one pretty good-sized ridge here.

But extraction is
down on the beach.

And also the river goes down to the beach.
I know that's... A slow, arduous... trek.

So, keep the long way,

or the more direct route.

But could be just
equally as arduous.

I've planned this extraction hike
through the hills versus the river.

It's gonna be a
direct line to the coast.

So hopefully, it'll be...

easier than following the river.

But I know I'm incredibly weak

from very low
amount of food, and...

I haven't slept, really, like
all of the past five days, so...

It's gonna be a... A rough trip.

Goodbye!

Here I go.

Watch out.

Looks like this is probably the best
place. See, the coast is right that way.

I'm looking at this
hill, and it's just steep,

and it's loose dirt and gravel.

I'm obviously naked and barefoot...

And weak, so...

One last big challenge, and...

This is actually quite, you
know, symbolic of my... My life, you know.

It's definitely an
energy burner.

This is like a 80%
grade right here.

Looks like it's
just starting to round up up there.

I'm so excited to
see that little... round.

Doesn't mean we're out of
the woods yet, but it's just...

It's always good to see that.

This seems like the highest
point here. Look at this.

Looks like it's just
straight downhill.

Somewhere on the other side
of all this jungle, there's a beach.

And it's calling me.

Being out here has
been truly amazing.

And I feel like I've
grown so much.

Need a path, make a path.

You know, when I go back into the world,
there's a lot of angry voices out there.

Because we fear what
we don't understand.

And we hate what we fear.

So close.

Yeah.

For me, I am just...

excited to fully come out
and be the man and the person

I was called to be
on this challenge.

Nice. Beautiful. My God!

There's the ocean!

I made it!

It's so amazing!

Yeah!

Thank you, Tobago!

Thank you!

Hey!

What a beautiful boat.

I made it. Twenty-one
days out here.

Mostly alone.

I'm really so incredibly
thankful to be here

to experience the
highs and the lows.

Yeah!

It's definitely been a
magical experience out here.

Just a huge swell
of emotion and joy.

Over the course of
21 days, Andi lost 27 pounds.

His PSR rises from 6.6 to 7.9.

Twenty-one days in Tobago!

I know that just because
this journey ends,

that the journey of life and... And
opening and revealing of who I am

doesn't stop here.

I'm
thankful for this opportunity, and...

Let's ultimately... Let's just...

come together and...
And love in unity, and...

Those who are
hurting out there...

Hold fast. Know
you're loved. And...

And to my mom, I'm just... I wanna
say thank you for being the best mom.

I love you, Mom.

I'll talk to you soon.

Nice.

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