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Usually, I have absolutely
no idea of where to begin,
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but you gave me an idea of
where to begin.
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And what was that?
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You asked me about
the nature of our relationship.
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It went further than that, I think.
It said, "Who are you?"
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Because, I've looked at much of your work.
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Sometimes, you're a spectral figure,
sometimes you're God.
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And sometimes you're present.
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I needed to know who I was talking to.
Were you my friend across the fire?
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Were you a stranger on a bus?
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Who are you?
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This is a performance art.
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You need to know whether you're performing
to a trade union, an elite audience.
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You need to know something about the
ambitions of the people you're talking to.
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And if I can't answer
that question?
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Not that I won't, but maybe I can't.
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Then we'll struggle on and find out
who you are.
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When I was first in Army Intelligence,
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I'd conducted a lot of interviews,
which were also interrogations.
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Immediately, in the relationship, there is
a dependence upon me, the interrogator.
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"Is your mother okay? Do you want me
to make a call to your home?"
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It's the bonding, real or artificial,
that opens the discussion.
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First of all, a statement that
I'm the only person you've got.
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Establishing a dependence?
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Establishing their dependence
on the interrogator, yes.
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When you want something to be expressed
that may not be true,
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and you know it's not true,
that's a beginning.
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{\an8}"There's scarcely a book of mine
that didn't have The Pigeon Tunnel
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at some time or another
as its working title."
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"Its origin is easily explained.
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I was in my mid-teens
when my father decided to take me
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on one of his gambling sprees
to Monte Carlo.
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Close by the old casino
stood the sporting club."
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"At its base lay a stretch of lawn
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and a shooting range looking out to sea."
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{\an8}"Under the lawn,
ran small, parallel tunnels
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{\an8}that emerged in a row
at the sea's edge.
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Into them were inserted live pigeons...
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...that had been hatched and trapped
on the casino roof.
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Their job was to flutter their way
along the pitch-dark tunnel
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until they emerged
in the Mediterranean sky
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as targets for the well-lunched
sporting gentlemen..."
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"Halt! Halt!"
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"...who were standing in wait
with their shotguns."
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"Pigeons who were missed or merely winged
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returned to the place of their birth
on the casino roof,
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where the same traps awaited them.
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Quite why this image has haunted me
for so long
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is something the listener...
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...is perhaps better able
to judge than I am."
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The name David Cornwell is
probably unfamiliar to most of you.
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He's an expert on secrets,
a former spy himself,
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and the author of two dozen books,
virtually all of them best sellers,
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{\an8}written under the pen name
of John le Carré.
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{\an8}Cornwell has been living this
double life for more than 50 years now
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{\an8}and rarely gives interviews.
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Betrayal fascinates me.
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I've lived through a period
of endless betrayal.
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When I went into the secret world,
I served in two successive services,
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both of which were betrayed to the hilt.
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I felt betrayed as a child, if you like.
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I felt that I had betrayed people myself.
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Like many artistic people,
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I have lived from early childhood
inside an imaginative bubble.
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When I was in the secret world,
it wasn't enough for me.
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I did very little of it.
I was very junior, I wasn't told much.
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So, what I did was reinvent the secret
world and fill my own people with it.
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In many of the stories,
there are dupes and string pullers.
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Those in control
and those controlled by others.
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Well, now we're talking
about my childhood.
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My father was a confidence trickster.
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Life was a stage.
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Where pretense was everything.
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Being off stage was boring.
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And risk was attractive.
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But above all, what was attractive
was the imprint of personality.
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Of truth, we didn't speak.
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Of conviction, we didn't speak.
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So, you felt like a dupe?
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No, I joined. I joined.
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You polish your act,
learn to tell funny stories. Show off.
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You discover early that there is no center
to a human being.
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I wasn't a dupe.
I was invited to dupe other people.
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If we moved from one place to another,
didn't pay the bills.
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If we had to put the lights out
on the house
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because somebody
was after my father, Ronnie,
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that seemed at the time,
the way people lived.
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Now, these are not hard luck stories.
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Graham Greene said, and I quote him often,
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"Childhood is the credit balance
of the writer."
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It's not a lament,
it's just a self-examination.
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"I have seen the house
where I was born,
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but the house of my birth that I prefer
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is a different one
built in my imagination.
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It's red brick and clattery
and due for demolition,
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with broken windows, a 'For Sale' sign
and an old bath in the garden.
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A place for kids to hide in
rather than be born.
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But born there I was,
or so my imagination insists."
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"I was born in the attic
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among a stack of brown boxes
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that my father always carted round
with him when he was on the run."
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"My mother lies on a camp bed,
pitifully doing her best,
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whatever her best may entail."
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"So, I am born...
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...and packed up with my mother's
few possessions,
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for we have recently suffered
another bailiffs' visitation
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and are travelling light."
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"The lid of the boot is locked
from the outside."
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"I'm already on the run.
I've been on the run ever since."
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My mother disappeared
when I was five.
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I had no relationship with her at all.
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There were many substitute mothers
who passed through my father's hands.
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{\an8}One particular stepmother,
who in her own way was heroic,
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{\an8}steadied the ship for a while.
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{\an8}My mother was a mystery.
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{\an8}Because it was never properly revealed
what had happened to her.
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Was she dead, was she alive?
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Ronnie didn't like hard truths.
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I met her again at 21.
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I wrote to her brother,
he wrote back, saying,
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"Here's her address.
Never tell her that I told you."
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So, I wrote to my mother, said,
"Your brother tells me..."
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So, I felt completely unbound
by this injunction.
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Did you imagine her having regrets
about leaving you and your brother?
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Well, when I met her,
I asked how she felt about it.
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And she replied,
and it was always her reply,
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that my father had been intolerable
to live with,
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that she got sick of the trail of
mistresses he was bringing to the house.
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That there was never any money
passing through.
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And she didn't like all these crooks
coming through his life.
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She said, if she had attempted
any other measure,
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he knew so many wonderful lawyers,
which indeed he did,
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that she would never have had a chance
in the marital court.
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So, she gave up all that stuff
and thought she'd just push off.
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Do you remember the day she left?
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No.
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If you are going to leave your children,
that night,
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with your white suitcase packed,
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do you kiss them goodbye?
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Did she come into the room where we slept?
Take a last look at us?
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So, I imagine it.
I imagine that she did.
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You came into possession
of this suitcase.
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When she died,
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I spotted this beautiful white hide
suitcase from Harrods
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lined with silk inside.
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{\an8}With her initials on the outside,
"O.M.C.," Olive Moore Cornwell.
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{\an8}That must have been the suitcase
into which she packed her clothes.
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I imagined the amazing flimsies
that it would have contained.
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{\an8}And the most exquisite clothes.
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{\an8}She took it into a kind of poverty.
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She ran away with a chap who had no money.
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I imagined the suitcase being unpacked
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and the last of the luxury
gradually fading away.
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I kept the suitcase.
It's the only relic I have of her.
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Physical evidence that
that thing happened.
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What did the suitcase mean to you?
Why keep it?
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I accused it in my mind of being,
as it were, a conspirator
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in her secret departure
from the house one night.
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To me, it's historic.
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She was impenetrable emotionally.
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I never heard her
express a serious feeling.
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But when she went to nursing home
for her last year or so,
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then she created a fantasy
with the nurses.
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She had painted to the nurses
a picture of maternal loyalty to us.
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The long lives we had shared,
all the fun we'd had.
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So, she'd filled in the gap years,
if you like.
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And when I attended her dying,
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the irony of the moment was
she mistook me for my father.
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She said,
"You never brought me orchids."
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I think it was a reference
to some other amour he had.
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I will never know.
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And I said, "What color do you like?"
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She said, "I don't care. I've never
seen them. Bring me an orchid."
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{\an8}People loved Ronnie to the end
of his days, even people he'd robbed.
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{\an8}When he was on stage beguiling people,
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he absolutely believed
in what he was doing and saying.
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{\an8}These spasms of immense charm
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and persuasiveness
were his moments of feeling real.
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"Son? When I'm judged,
as judged I shall surely be,
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I shall be judged on how I treated you
and your brother Tony.
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That will be God's will."
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God was a big pal of his.
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Whether he believed in God is mysterious,
but he was certain God believed in him.
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These extraordinary, ingenious,
confidence tricks
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were part of a conversation
he was having with God.
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"If I do this, can I get away with it?
If I do that, can I get away with it?"
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Bargaining with God.
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Yeah, I think more betting with God.
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"If I put this much on the table,
how about that?"
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Ronnie always, whether he had to steal
or borrow or bribe the headmaster,
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wanted me to have the posh education.
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I learned the manners and the attitudes
of a class to which I did not belong.
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I studied and I frequently felt slighted.
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There were times when I hated the class
to which I had been assigned.
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I was on enemy territory.
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But I learned to dress properly.
I learned to speak properly.
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I turned myself into one of them,
but I never felt like one of them.
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{\an8}From a very early age
I was a little spy.
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Whenever Ronnie left the house,
I investigated.
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I did not know what the world held.
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When the debt collectors came in,
my toys disappeared.
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The furniture disappeared.
Women disappeared.
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{\an8}Mothers disappeared.
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When Ronnie was really frightened,
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and it was, "Black the house out,
put the lights out,
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put the cars in the back garden."
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He wasn't afraid of the law,
he was afraid of the mob.
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Jealous heart
Oh, jealous heart
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Stop beating
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Can't you see the damage
You have done...
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When he died,
he had offices in Jermyn Street.
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On the top floor lived
ladies of the night.
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Who, as he put it, were always ready
to cook some sausages for him.
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He had two Ford Zephyr cars,
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a house in Henley,
a house in Tite Street, Chelsea.
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For what purpose, I know not.
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And he had these offices.
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We could not find on his person,
in the drawers of his desk,
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enough money to pay the staff
until the end of the week.
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There was no money.
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There was a horse in France
at Maisons-Laffitte,
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a couple of horses in Ireland.
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You called them,
"the never-was-ers."
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The never-was-ers.
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He had a world champion jockey,
Gordon Richards.
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When Gordon retired, he agreed
to select horses at auction for Ronnie,
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and, at some point,
he must have paid for them.
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His great joy was to appear at Ascot
and have a horse in a race.
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Ronnie clearly reached a point
where the fraternity of bookmakers
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would not have him on the course anymore,
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and they had enforcers
that made that clear.
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And you better look out
if you show up at a race course,
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and you haven't paid your debts.
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I was dispatched with a suitcase
full of money
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to distribute among the bookmakers.
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Wow! It's Rupert.
He's pulling away now!
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He had a horse named
after my half-brother,
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and it ran in the Cesarewitch.
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All of a sudden,
we had a real harvest of cash.
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Thank you, boys.
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I sat on the train with it.
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A big man came up to me.
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You're Ronnie Cornwell's son, aren't you?
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Don't do that again, sonny.
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And he just touched my nose.
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And when I got back, Ronnie was waiting.
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And he counted and counted,
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and he couldn't believe
I hadn't kept some.
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Come on, boy.
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Show me your pockets.
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Come on, show me what you've done.
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Then I think I got a fiver
at the end of it for being a good boy.
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Was this a disappointment
to your father, this lack of larceny?
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It was puzzlement that...
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"You can't be that good," he thought.
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"No one is. This isn't human nature."
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But this is such
a romantic childhood, is it not?
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Well, yes.
I really need to get that across,
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that whatever revelations
came to me later,
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and whatever deprivals I seem
to have suffered, mothers and things,
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it was terribly exciting.
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We haven't mentioned the fact
that I was destined to become a barrister.
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And my elder brother was destined
to become a solicitor.
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I was determined to go to Oxford,
and they offered me a place.
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Ronnie demanded to know
what he was paying for.
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In cowardice,
I said that I would be studying Law.
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And when he heard on the grapevine
that I was reading Modern Languages,
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he descended on my tutor and demanded
to know how the hell this had happened.
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Was it their fault or mine?
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My mentor, Vivian Green,
showed him the door.
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{\an8}So, I went on reading
Modern Languages.
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And in the middle of the second year,
he made a really dramatic bankruptcy.
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It was massive,
for a million and a quarter pounds.
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The Westminster Bank in Oxford,
then, for reasons of its own,
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refused to keep my account and closed it.
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I had been very close to my girlfriend
at the time, so we decided to marry.
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{\an8}I went and taught at a low life
private prep school.
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And that was the same preparatory school
which, in my mind,
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I put at the beginning
of Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy.
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We lived in real poverty
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with an outside loo and that stuff,
and a tin bath.
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And then, to my mind, heroically,
283
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Vivian Green inspired the college
to call me back.
284
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And they would somehow
find the money for me.
285
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So, we went back and they found us
a grand flat to live in.
286
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Life had changed completely.
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The institutional allure returned
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when Eton invited me
to come and teach the top class.
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I thought I'd be an Eton schoolmaster
for the rest of my life.
290
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Then, after two years,
I was fed up with it.
291
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And the spies lured me, and I thought
I would be a spy for the rest of my life.
292
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It's terribly difficult
to recruit for a secret service.
293
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In the end, you're looking for somebody
who's a bit bad,
294
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but at the same time, loyal.
295
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There's a type they were looking for
in my day, and I fit it perfectly.
296
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Separated early from the nest.
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Boarding school.
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Early independence of spirit.
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But looking for institutional embrace.
300
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I can see my own life still
as a succession of embraces and escapes.
301
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I joined one intelligence
service, went sour on it.
302
00:26:34,761 --> 00:26:37,264
{\an8}Moved to a second, went sour on it.
303
00:26:38,265 --> 00:26:43,248
I was disenchanted by the Cold War itself,
which was easy to be
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when you saw all those Nazis
wandering around in West Germany.
305
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And indeed in East Germany.
306
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What had we really fought for?
307
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As if the war had never happened?
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It felt like that.
309
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The power of enforced forgetting
was extraordinary.
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I was posted under diplomatic cover
to West Germany.
311
00:27:13,133 --> 00:27:16,010
And it was one of the great good fortunes
of my life,
312
00:27:16,011 --> 00:27:18,889
because I was there
for the erection of the Berlin Wall.
313
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The standoff between East and West
was exemplified in Berlin.
314
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Tension was constant.
It affected everybody.
315
00:27:31,693 --> 00:27:34,987
The attention
of an anxious world is focused on Berlin.
316
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The last great exodus of refugees
from the East is processed
317
00:27:38,367 --> 00:27:41,702
as the Communist German regime
moves to close their border.
318
00:27:41,703 --> 00:27:44,915
The flow of those seeking asylum here
on the fringe of freedom
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has reached 1,500 a day.
320
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I went to Berlin
and saw for myself what was going on.
321
00:27:55,676 --> 00:28:01,013
The big dramas occurred
before the wall was built.
322
00:28:01,014 --> 00:28:06,770
West German firemen were spreading
their trampolines below the building.
323
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People were jumping into these things.
324
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Sights which were heart-breaking.
325
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{\an8}What was your emotional response
to seeing this thing?
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A mixture of anger, disgust and empathy.
327
00:28:46,686 --> 00:28:50,021
It was for me a milestone.
328
00:28:50,022 --> 00:28:54,109
It was the impetus that produced
The Spy Who Came in from the Cold.
329
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A crucible
for your understanding of the world?
330
00:29:01,658 --> 00:29:05,621
More like confirmation
of my understanding of the world.
331
00:29:09,541 --> 00:29:15,923
This was the most obscene symbol
of the insanity of the human struggle.
332
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I felt that on both sides, East and West,
333
00:29:28,185 --> 00:29:32,940
were inventing the enemy that they needed.
334
00:29:34,858 --> 00:29:39,863
The seamless transition from anti-Nazism
to anti-Communism.
335
00:29:46,828 --> 00:29:48,955
I came back from Berlin.
336
00:29:48,956 --> 00:29:52,835
I knew that I wanted to write
a strong novel about the thing.
337
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It was summer.
I think I worked mainly in the garden.
338
00:29:56,296 --> 00:29:57,798
The kids were around.
339
00:30:00,050 --> 00:30:02,886
I would maybe start
at four or five in the morning.
340
00:30:04,012 --> 00:30:06,807
And I had this rush of blood and anger.
341
00:30:07,307 --> 00:30:10,893
Found, as it were,
a fable that served my purposes
342
00:30:10,894 --> 00:30:14,481
and that was
The Spy Who Came in from the Cold.
343
00:30:15,023 --> 00:30:16,899
What the hell do you think spies are?
344
00:30:16,900 --> 00:30:18,861
Moral philosophers
measuring everything they do
345
00:30:18,862 --> 00:30:21,070
against the word of God or Karl Marx?
346
00:30:21,071 --> 00:30:25,117
They're not. They're just a bunch
of seedy, squalid bastards like me.
347
00:30:25,118 --> 00:30:28,202
Little men, drunkards, queers,
henpecked husbands,
348
00:30:28,203 --> 00:30:32,457
civil servants playing Cowboys and Indians
to brighten their rotten little lives.
349
00:30:32,458 --> 00:30:35,419
Do you think they sit like monks in a cell
balancing right against wrong?
350
00:30:35,420 --> 00:30:39,339
The author who is
the biggest sensation right now,
351
00:30:39,340 --> 00:30:42,049
his real name is David Cornwell,
352
00:30:42,050 --> 00:30:45,345
but he's much better known to us
as John le Carré.
353
00:30:46,180 --> 00:30:48,724
How many did
The Spy Who Came in from the Cold sell?
354
00:30:49,308 --> 00:30:53,562
I think in all editions, book club,
paperback, all over the world,
355
00:30:53,563 --> 00:30:57,316
they say somewhere around
twelve, fifteen million.
356
00:31:05,157 --> 00:31:10,746
{\an8}I take it that the success
of Spy was a surprise.
357
00:31:13,540 --> 00:31:17,961
I think it was no surprise to me
in the sense that I felt
358
00:31:17,962 --> 00:31:20,880
that when I'd finished it,
I'd written something
359
00:31:20,881 --> 00:31:23,800
that was profoundly expressive
of my own feelings,
360
00:31:23,801 --> 00:31:25,802
and that it might have legs.
361
00:31:30,224 --> 00:31:34,561
The early rumbles from agent and publisher
suggested it really did have legs.
362
00:31:34,562 --> 00:31:37,564
You have to remember the context
in which it was published.
363
00:31:37,565 --> 00:31:40,067
We were sated with James Bond
at that time.
364
00:31:40,817 --> 00:31:44,154
{\an8}I admire your luck, Mister...
365
00:31:44,155 --> 00:31:47,740
Bond. James Bond.
366
00:31:47,741 --> 00:31:51,702
The reality that had been
offered by the news
367
00:31:51,703 --> 00:31:54,915
and by all the events
that were happening around us
368
00:31:54,916 --> 00:31:58,669
was spies as a shabby army
of lonely deciders.
369
00:31:58,670 --> 00:32:01,712
I happened to deliver the antidote.
370
00:32:01,713 --> 00:32:07,469
What was wrong about it, and I lived
with that problem still to this day,
371
00:32:07,470 --> 00:32:11,306
was that it painted the secret services
as so bloody brilliant.
372
00:32:11,307 --> 00:32:16,394
Whereas, by that time,
we were a crippled organization
373
00:32:16,395 --> 00:32:21,483
that could very well have been scrapped
to begin again.
374
00:32:27,573 --> 00:32:30,784
{\an8}"If your mission in life
is to obtain traitors,
375
00:32:30,785 --> 00:32:33,245
to win them over to your cause,
376
00:32:33,912 --> 00:32:37,748
{\an8}you can hardly complain
when one of your own
377
00:32:37,749 --> 00:32:41,128
{\an8}turns out to have been obtained
by somebody else.
378
00:32:42,045 --> 00:32:45,944
When I came to write
Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy,
379
00:32:45,945 --> 00:32:49,845
it was Kim Philby's murky lamp
that lit my path."
380
00:32:51,430 --> 00:32:55,601
"MI6's brilliant former head
of counterintelligence.
381
00:32:56,268 --> 00:33:01,940
Once tipped to become chief of the
service, who was also a Russian spy."
382
00:33:08,822 --> 00:33:12,910
Halfway through my tenure
in West Germany,
383
00:33:12,911 --> 00:33:15,579
Philby's defection was announced.
384
00:33:18,582 --> 00:33:25,214
His disappearance from Beirut
and his appearance on the Moscow stage.
385
00:33:27,382 --> 00:33:32,095
That was shocking to the ethic
of the secret services at that time.
386
00:33:53,283 --> 00:33:55,077
Someone is following.
387
00:34:02,918 --> 00:34:08,257
The question is whether MI5,
MI6 wanted him to go.
388
00:34:09,550 --> 00:34:14,346
Nobody wanted that exposure.
You have an extraordinary problem.
389
00:34:14,847 --> 00:34:19,934
Very substantial former spy
coming up for trial.
390
00:34:19,935 --> 00:34:24,565
It would do great national damage
and achieve very little.
391
00:34:29,945 --> 00:34:34,116
In sober reflection,
the powers that be said, "Thank God."
392
00:34:36,451 --> 00:34:39,621
"Thank God"?
So, they let him escape?
393
00:34:40,496 --> 00:34:41,748
Yeah.
394
00:34:55,721 --> 00:34:58,515
Thank you, comrade.
395
00:35:04,438 --> 00:35:08,150
Philby's defection
went straight to the heart
396
00:35:08,151 --> 00:35:10,527
of the establishment of the day.
397
00:35:13,947 --> 00:35:15,949
He was a Westminster boy.
398
00:35:17,201 --> 00:35:20,078
Part of the inner circle
of English society.
399
00:35:29,505 --> 00:35:33,091
People kind of overlooked,
on those grounds,
400
00:35:33,092 --> 00:35:37,054
the rather evident past that Philby had.
401
00:35:41,767 --> 00:35:43,726
It would not have been difficult
to establish
402
00:35:43,727 --> 00:35:47,147
that he had early associations
with Communist people.
403
00:35:47,148 --> 00:35:49,858
{\an8}He'd married a Communist woman in Vienna.
404
00:35:51,902 --> 00:35:57,282
Those things could be swept aside
because he's... he's one of us.
405
00:35:57,283 --> 00:36:00,035
So, if you'd really gone
into Philby's background,
406
00:36:00,036 --> 00:36:02,475
you would have said this chap is...
407
00:36:02,476 --> 00:36:04,914
He's a bit sniffy. We don't want that.
408
00:36:04,915 --> 00:36:07,584
But quite the contrary,
he was Mister Charm,
409
00:36:08,418 --> 00:36:10,671
and he loved to deceive.
410
00:36:17,261 --> 00:36:22,266
{\an8}"Enter now, Nicholas Elliott,
Philby's most loyal friend, confidant,
411
00:36:22,267 --> 00:36:27,311
devoted brother-in-arms in war and peace.
Child of Eton.
412
00:36:27,312 --> 00:36:32,901
Son of its former headmaster,
adventurer, alpinist and dupe."
413
00:36:34,820 --> 00:36:39,491
"Among the many extraordinary things
that Elliott had done in his life,
414
00:36:40,492 --> 00:36:45,747
and undoubtedly the most painful,
was to sit face to face in Beirut
415
00:36:45,748 --> 00:36:50,419
with his close friend, colleague
and mentor, Kim Philby,
416
00:36:50,420 --> 00:36:54,443
and hear him admit that
he had been a Soviet spy
417
00:36:54,444 --> 00:36:58,468
for all the years
that they had known each other."
418
00:37:07,186 --> 00:37:13,358
Nick Elliott told me that when he went out
to interview Philby in Beirut
419
00:37:13,359 --> 00:37:17,112
and to obtain from Philby the confession.
420
00:37:17,821 --> 00:37:22,159
He said that really,
when he wasn't playing a double game,
421
00:37:22,951 --> 00:37:25,494
that he was extremely lonely.
422
00:37:25,495 --> 00:37:28,206
He found life had gone flat for him,
423
00:37:28,207 --> 00:37:32,127
so the addiction to betrayal
was essential to him.
424
00:37:33,587 --> 00:37:38,133
And he betrayed everybody, really,
from childhood onward.
425
00:37:39,301 --> 00:37:43,304
{\an8}There's an awful lot
of misuse of the word "double agent."
426
00:37:43,305 --> 00:37:47,309
{\an8}Philby is often described in the press
as a double agent.
427
00:37:47,310 --> 00:37:49,895
In point of fact,
Philby was a straightforward,
428
00:37:49,896 --> 00:37:52,168
high-level, disreputable traitor.
429
00:37:52,169 --> 00:37:54,440
What's the difference, exactly?
430
00:37:54,441 --> 00:37:57,193
Well, I mean, he was a straightforward spy
for the Russians.
431
00:37:57,194 --> 00:37:59,905
If he'd been a double agent,
he'd have been a spy for the Russians.
432
00:37:59,906 --> 00:38:02,032
But we'd have been playing back
against the Russians.
433
00:38:03,951 --> 00:38:07,871
I knew Elliott pretty well.
And he was this tall figure.
434
00:38:08,747 --> 00:38:12,668
The hollowed-out body, waistcoats, spectacles.
435
00:38:13,627 --> 00:38:17,672
An Etonian voice,
the son of an Etonian headmaster,
436
00:38:17,673 --> 00:38:21,718
long line of Etonians behind him,
very aristocratic.
437
00:38:21,719 --> 00:38:23,636
Can you do his voice?
438
00:38:23,637 --> 00:38:28,016
Yes. I said to him, "Nick,
439
00:38:29,685 --> 00:38:34,022
when you went to see Kim,
what kind of sanctions did you have?"
440
00:38:34,023 --> 00:38:36,108
"Sanctions, old boy?
What do you mean by that?"
441
00:38:36,109 --> 00:38:37,817
"How could you threaten him?
442
00:38:37,818 --> 00:38:40,549
Could you have him sandbagged
and brought back to London?"
443
00:38:40,550 --> 00:38:43,282
"Oh," he said, "my dear chap,
nobody wanted him in London."
444
00:38:43,283 --> 00:38:46,368
I said, "Well, what could you
threaten him with?
445
00:38:46,369 --> 00:38:49,871
Nick, come on, come clean." He said,
446
00:38:49,872 --> 00:38:53,479
"I told him,
if he didn't come clean,
447
00:38:53,480 --> 00:38:57,086
there wouldn't be a legation,
an embassy,
448
00:38:57,087 --> 00:39:00,132
a business, or a club
in the whole of the Middle East
449
00:39:00,133 --> 00:39:02,134
who'd have a first damn thing
to do with him."
450
00:39:02,135 --> 00:39:04,136
So, I said,
"Well, that must have frightened him."
451
00:39:04,137 --> 00:39:06,013
"It did."
452
00:39:07,264 --> 00:39:09,473
He played the English bloody fool,
453
00:39:09,474 --> 00:39:13,270
whether he was one,
as many maintain, I don't know.
454
00:39:14,980 --> 00:39:18,275
You do have that line
in what you wrote.
455
00:39:18,859 --> 00:39:22,361
{\an8}"Philby was adept at deceiving others.
456
00:39:22,362 --> 00:39:26,074
{\an8}Elliott was equally adept
at deceiving himself."
457
00:39:26,909 --> 00:39:28,202
{\an8}I'm glad I said that.
458
00:39:30,829 --> 00:39:33,080
It was always my argument
459
00:39:33,081 --> 00:39:37,628
that it was instinct rather than reason
that drove Philby to do what he did.
460
00:39:38,837 --> 00:39:44,843
That thrill of stepping into the street
knowing what you know and they don't.
461
00:39:44,844 --> 00:39:50,599
It's the joy of self-imposed schizophrenia
that the secret agent loves.
462
00:39:52,518 --> 00:39:55,187
"Self-imposed schizophrenia."
463
00:39:56,772 --> 00:39:59,440
The duality all the time.
464
00:39:59,441 --> 00:40:02,236
Of being the opposite
of your outward self.
465
00:40:02,903 --> 00:40:07,491
But isn't there some joy
that you are actually making policy?
466
00:40:09,535 --> 00:40:11,954
Yes, I think the joy is voluptuous.
467
00:40:15,082 --> 00:40:17,291
A sensual journey
468
00:40:17,292 --> 00:40:22,548
of constantly challenging your luck
and surviving.
469
00:40:25,050 --> 00:40:28,344
Making a real difference too, absolutely.
470
00:40:28,345 --> 00:40:32,890
To feel you're the hub of the universe
is wonderful for the vanity.
471
00:40:32,891 --> 00:40:39,523
To be passing that, that pure gold,
to the Soviet Union, to your masters.
472
00:40:40,357 --> 00:40:43,902
"Now, do you love me?
If I give you this, will you love me?"
473
00:40:45,529 --> 00:40:50,742
I can imagine that voluptuous instinct
very well.
474
00:40:50,743 --> 00:40:53,370
Not in myself, but in him.
475
00:40:55,163 --> 00:40:58,457
Mister le Carré, you've described
Kim Philby as,
476
00:40:58,458 --> 00:41:01,752
"The avenger who destroyed the citadel
from within."
477
00:41:01,753 --> 00:41:05,048
Well, I think he's one of those strange
people who was born into privilege
478
00:41:05,049 --> 00:41:09,198
and, in some way, resented the advantages
with which he was born.
479
00:41:09,199 --> 00:41:13,347
A person who, on the one hand,
felt that he was better than society
480
00:41:13,348 --> 00:41:17,311
and, on the other hand, couldn't forgive
society for putting him in that position.
481
00:41:17,312 --> 00:41:19,479
He was very much at war with himself,
I think.
482
00:41:27,279 --> 00:41:33,535
When I finally went to Moscow in 1988,
483
00:41:34,828 --> 00:41:39,917
I was at a party given
by the Union of Soviet Writers.
484
00:41:42,711 --> 00:41:45,547
There was a big man
called Genrikh Borovik.
485
00:41:46,673 --> 00:41:50,009
Borovik came up to me and said,
486
00:41:50,010 --> 00:41:56,892
"David, I would like you
to meet a very good friend of mine.
487
00:41:56,893 --> 00:41:58,810
Keen admirer from your books.
488
00:42:00,812 --> 00:42:02,021
Kim Philby."
489
00:42:02,022 --> 00:42:06,068
I replied,
sick to the heart as I felt,
490
00:42:07,236 --> 00:42:11,114
that I'm soon to have dinner
with our ambassador,
491
00:42:12,199 --> 00:42:17,746
and I can't see myself having dinner
with the Queen's representative one night,
492
00:42:17,747 --> 00:42:21,103
and dinner with the Queen's traitor
the next.
493
00:42:21,104 --> 00:42:24,461
I just thought
there is such a thing as evil.
494
00:42:27,422 --> 00:42:33,220
Somebody who had blindly served Stalin
for so long.
495
00:42:33,762 --> 00:42:38,350
{\an8}How he could go on serving
such a person, such a cause,
496
00:42:39,184 --> 00:42:41,770
{\an8}as Soviet communism, was beyond me.
497
00:42:42,604 --> 00:42:45,190
He knew better than anyone
what he was doing.
498
00:42:49,111 --> 00:42:53,385
It was the addiction, it was the fun
of betrayal that got to him.
499
00:42:53,386 --> 00:42:57,775
It was the feeling that he was playing
both ends against the middle.
500
00:42:57,776 --> 00:43:02,165
He was the center of the earth.
He was playing the world's game.
501
00:43:02,166 --> 00:43:05,085
It had precious little to do,
in the end, with ideology.
502
00:43:05,086 --> 00:43:06,711
It may have begun as ideology.
503
00:43:06,712 --> 00:43:09,339
After that, it became an addiction,
the betrayal.
504
00:43:09,965 --> 00:43:12,926
If you'd given him your cat
to look after for a couple of weeks,
505
00:43:12,927 --> 00:43:15,012
he'd have betrayed the cat somehow.
506
00:43:23,854 --> 00:43:27,983
I had some inner relationship with Philby.
507
00:43:30,027 --> 00:43:31,987
The temptation, somehow,
508
00:43:34,698 --> 00:43:38,160
to turn your back on everything
you've been taught and picked up
509
00:43:38,161 --> 00:43:39,703
and go your own route.
510
00:43:40,746 --> 00:43:43,624
I can understand
how that happened to Philby.
511
00:43:44,666 --> 00:43:47,877
And I've felt that thank God
I never went in that direction.
512
00:43:47,878 --> 00:43:52,549
But there came a point in my life where
I seemed to be offered the crossroads.
513
00:43:52,550 --> 00:43:55,551
I could have become a really bad guy.
514
00:43:55,552 --> 00:43:59,056
And mercifully, I found a home
for my larceny.
515
00:44:00,974 --> 00:44:04,520
{\an8}A writer is slightly
out of tune. He is different.
516
00:44:05,103 --> 00:44:09,399
{\an8}His methods of creation
are the methods of a lonely person
517
00:44:09,400 --> 00:44:12,318
who is borrowing, abstracting
experiences here and there,
518
00:44:12,319 --> 00:44:15,948
and putting them together
and trying to make a parcel, if you like,
519
00:44:15,949 --> 00:44:17,887
which you can then offer to the public.
520
00:44:17,888 --> 00:44:19,825
In that sense, he's an illusionist.
521
00:44:19,826 --> 00:44:22,371
And if people are constantly trying
to look up his sleeve,
522
00:44:22,372 --> 00:44:24,748
then he's going to spoil his trick.
523
00:44:27,125 --> 00:44:32,172
For me, writing is a journey
of self-discovery every time.
524
00:44:32,173 --> 00:44:35,926
How characters behave,
how they emerge, who they are,
525
00:44:35,927 --> 00:44:37,385
what appetites they have,
526
00:44:37,386 --> 00:44:40,847
they deliver themselves on the blank page
527
00:44:40,848 --> 00:44:43,475
and they tell me a little bit
about who I am.
528
00:44:46,144 --> 00:44:49,167
{\an8}In writing about George Smiley, of course,
529
00:44:49,168 --> 00:44:52,192
I'm writing about the ideal father
I never had.
530
00:44:55,779 --> 00:44:58,365
These are attempts at self-knowledge.
531
00:44:59,700 --> 00:45:03,245
Little glimpses along
the way of who one really is.
532
00:45:03,246 --> 00:45:05,329
I have never submitted to analysis.
533
00:45:05,330 --> 00:45:10,210
I feel if I knew any secrets about myself,
I'd deprive myself of writing.
534
00:45:15,632 --> 00:45:18,427
What did you learn about yourself
from Bill Haydon?
535
00:45:20,846 --> 00:45:24,516
Well, that was something
I guess I already knew.
536
00:45:24,517 --> 00:45:26,977
It was something I knew of Philby, too.
537
00:45:27,519 --> 00:45:31,398
And obviously Haydon is
to some extent modelled on Philby.
538
00:45:31,399 --> 00:45:34,400
An instinct that is latent in me,
539
00:45:34,401 --> 00:45:38,030
which I have never to my knowledge
deployed, used, fallen for,
540
00:45:38,031 --> 00:45:43,618
it's to be king of the world,
as Haydon thought he was.
541
00:45:43,619 --> 00:45:49,541
There was a time when the very pleasure
of being in the secret world
542
00:45:49,542 --> 00:45:52,419
close to what was going on,
what was really going on,
543
00:45:52,420 --> 00:45:54,922
{\an8}filled me with a sense of exultation.
544
00:45:56,924 --> 00:46:01,678
This is, in the Faustian sense, what
the world contains at its inmost point.
545
00:46:17,945 --> 00:46:21,365
"Was die Welt im Innersten zusammenhält",
is the line.
546
00:46:30,290 --> 00:46:34,378
Then there's that despairing line
in The Secret Pilgrim,
547
00:46:34,379 --> 00:46:36,797
"Knowing that the inmost room..."
548
00:46:37,881 --> 00:46:39,715
"...doesn't contain anything." Yes.
549
00:46:39,716 --> 00:46:43,136
Somehow, we believe
that there is an inmost room
550
00:46:43,137 --> 00:46:45,847
where policy is being conceived.
551
00:46:45,848 --> 00:46:48,600
I think it's being played
completely ad hoc,
552
00:46:48,601 --> 00:46:51,186
from day to day, from hour to hour.
553
00:46:51,187 --> 00:46:52,770
History is chaos!
554
00:46:52,771 --> 00:46:58,861
History is chaos, and therefore
to imagine, as I might have done
555
00:46:58,862 --> 00:47:01,613
in my perpetual innocence,
556
00:47:02,364 --> 00:47:08,745
that there was some great secret
to the nature of human behavior.
557
00:47:08,746 --> 00:47:09,830
There is none.
558
00:47:17,713 --> 00:47:22,759
{\an8}"'Spying is eternal, '
Smiley announced simply.
559
00:47:25,804 --> 00:47:31,351
'There's no career on Earth more cockeyed
than the one you've picked.
560
00:47:34,521 --> 00:47:39,276
{\an8}You'll be at your most postable
while you're least experienced.
561
00:47:41,195 --> 00:47:45,199
And by the time you've learned the ropes,
no one will be able to send you anywhere
562
00:47:45,200 --> 00:47:48,202
without a trade description
round your necks.
563
00:47:53,999 --> 00:47:59,463
Old athletes know they've played their
best games when they're in their prime.
564
00:48:02,883 --> 00:48:05,969
Spies in their prime are on the shelf.
565
00:48:10,599 --> 00:48:13,644
And then, at a certain age,
566
00:48:15,896 --> 00:48:17,856
you want the answer.'
567
00:48:21,401 --> 00:48:25,155
'You want the rolled-up parchment
in the inmost room
568
00:48:26,532 --> 00:48:30,244
that tells you who runs your lives
and why.
569
00:48:39,419 --> 00:48:41,671
The trouble is, that by then,
570
00:48:41,672 --> 00:48:44,466
you're the very people who know best...
571
00:48:46,885 --> 00:48:49,930
...that the inmost room is bare.'"
572
00:48:59,940 --> 00:49:04,528
When I read it,
I took it as more deeply existential.
573
00:49:05,445 --> 00:49:10,450
Is the inmost room ourselves?
Maybe there's nothing there?
574
00:49:13,370 --> 00:49:17,457
In my case that is true, yes.
I can't speak for everybody else.
575
00:49:23,589 --> 00:49:27,383
I think we, all of us,
live partly in a clandestine situation
576
00:49:27,384 --> 00:49:32,556
in relation to our bosses, in relation
to our families, our wives, our children.
577
00:49:33,807 --> 00:49:36,810
We frequently affect attitudes
to which we subscribe,
578
00:49:36,811 --> 00:49:39,229
perhaps intellectually,
but not emotionally.
579
00:49:40,981 --> 00:49:43,358
We hardly know ourselves.
580
00:49:44,234 --> 00:49:46,819
The figure of the spy does seem to me
581
00:49:46,820 --> 00:49:50,865
to be almost infinitely capable
of exploitation,
582
00:49:50,866 --> 00:49:55,704
for purposes of articulating all sorts
of submerged things in our society.
583
00:50:05,797 --> 00:50:08,883
The experience
that I have reading le Carré is,
584
00:50:08,884 --> 00:50:12,971
"Am I in a world of fiction?
Am I in a world of fact?
585
00:50:12,972 --> 00:50:16,225
Am I in some strange blend
of the two?"
586
00:50:21,313 --> 00:50:25,442
I really don't think any artist,
whether he's a writer,
587
00:50:25,443 --> 00:50:28,070
a painter, or anybody else,
588
00:50:28,862 --> 00:50:32,949
I don't think he has to explain his work
beyond a certain point.
589
00:50:32,950 --> 00:50:37,079
If it's raised those questions in you,
you're already having a good time.
590
00:50:37,080 --> 00:50:39,830
I have tried, over these conversations,
591
00:50:39,831 --> 00:50:44,378
to talk about the process of abstraction
from real life.
592
00:50:44,379 --> 00:50:46,964
Now, I very consciously wrote a book,
593
00:50:47,923 --> 00:50:49,466
A Perfect Spy...
594
00:50:51,426 --> 00:50:57,140
{\an8}...which gave a parallel version, if you
like, of much that had happened to me.
595
00:50:58,058 --> 00:51:02,938
For Ronnie, read Rick,
for me, read Magnus.
596
00:51:04,022 --> 00:51:07,233
I cannot define for you
597
00:51:07,234 --> 00:51:13,282
where reality goes through
the secret door into fiction.
598
00:51:15,033 --> 00:51:19,997
I would much rather go back to the notion
that I painted of,
599
00:51:19,998 --> 00:51:23,959
"I live in that bubble,
and I import stuff."
600
00:51:35,304 --> 00:51:38,682
It is a kind of solitude in the sense that
601
00:51:39,391 --> 00:51:42,019
{\an8}you're not sharing your thoughts
with anyone.
602
00:51:44,021 --> 00:51:48,817
You're composing in secret
from the elements you see around you.
603
00:51:50,402 --> 00:51:56,200
A fictional entity which is rational,
which makes order out of chaos.
604
00:51:56,201 --> 00:51:58,201
I think that's such a normal process.
605
00:51:58,202 --> 00:52:00,495
If I were a painter,
I'd be feeling the same way.
606
00:52:00,496 --> 00:52:02,496
I'd be taking the light, the window
607
00:52:02,497 --> 00:52:07,503
and I would try to make an image
of how I feel now.
608
00:52:09,421 --> 00:52:13,675
I was going to ask you how
you do feel now, but that seems silly.
609
00:52:13,676 --> 00:52:15,760
Errol, I feel very comfortable.
610
00:52:15,761 --> 00:52:20,807
I enjoy very much talking about things
I haven't talked about before.
611
00:52:20,808 --> 00:52:25,499
I saw this prospect, at my great age,
as something definitive.
612
00:52:25,500 --> 00:52:30,192
I knew that I was not going to lie.
I wasn't going to fabricate.
613
00:52:30,193 --> 00:52:33,110
I'm not even interested in self-defense,
614
00:52:33,111 --> 00:52:36,406
because I really don't know
what the accusation is in the air.
615
00:52:40,619 --> 00:52:44,289
"Sir Magnus, you have in the past
betrayed me,
616
00:52:45,207 --> 00:52:49,043
but more important,
you have betrayed yourself.
617
00:52:49,044 --> 00:52:52,881
Even when you are telling the truth,
you lie.
618
00:52:52,882 --> 00:52:57,218
You have loyalty and you have affection.
619
00:52:57,219 --> 00:53:00,180
- But to what? To whom?"
- To what? To whom?
620
00:53:00,764 --> 00:53:02,348
I don't know.
621
00:53:02,349 --> 00:53:04,309
One day, maybe you will tell me.
622
00:53:06,019 --> 00:53:12,234
What I am saying, Sir Magnus,
you are a perfect spy.
623
00:53:21,493 --> 00:53:25,622
Characters don't actually work
until they've got a bit of you in them.
624
00:53:27,583 --> 00:53:29,418
They're just paper men.
625
00:53:30,878 --> 00:53:34,673
I voice my characters.
I read them to myself.
626
00:53:36,049 --> 00:53:38,551
That's terribly important, how they speak.
627
00:53:38,552 --> 00:53:43,182
After that, they kind of tell you who they
are, how they dress, how they move.
628
00:53:55,277 --> 00:54:00,699
That's the emergence of character
as you write, page after page.
629
00:54:03,744 --> 00:54:07,039
{\an8}Gradually, this fellow emerges
and is yours.
630
00:54:09,750 --> 00:54:12,460
My natural instinct
when I meet people
631
00:54:12,461 --> 00:54:15,505
is to consider the possibilities
of their characters.
632
00:54:15,506 --> 00:54:18,674
I begin to invest them with things
they probably don't possess.
633
00:54:18,675 --> 00:54:23,138
Curiously, in the end product, those
features may not be there anymore.
634
00:54:23,847 --> 00:54:26,225
But that's the beginning of the story.
635
00:54:28,769 --> 00:54:31,855
And then I discuss,
what do these people want?
636
00:54:32,856 --> 00:54:38,403
And out of discerning contrary appetites,
you get the essence of conflict.
637
00:54:38,987 --> 00:54:43,158
You've written, "The cat sat
on the mat is not a story,
638
00:54:43,159 --> 00:54:46,495
but the cat sat on the dog's mat is."
639
00:54:46,496 --> 00:54:47,578
That's right.
640
00:54:47,579 --> 00:54:50,290
And then I have
my le Carré version.
641
00:54:51,375 --> 00:54:56,046
"The cat betrayed the dog
by sitting on his mat."
642
00:54:56,047 --> 00:54:58,298
I think the cat was a double.
643
00:55:16,775 --> 00:55:20,070
{\an8}Why is betrayal
an important concept to you?
644
00:55:22,489 --> 00:55:25,492
{\an8}Well, it has
a long family background.
645
00:55:28,912 --> 00:55:33,417
Reality did not exist in my childhood,
performance did.
646
00:55:37,129 --> 00:55:42,467
I felt, observing life,
that much of what people said overtly
647
00:55:42,468 --> 00:55:44,635
was not what they thought inwardly.
648
00:55:44,636 --> 00:55:48,849
You have to remember that in each
of the secret services
649
00:55:48,850 --> 00:55:51,685
where I was ineffective but employed.
650
00:55:54,146 --> 00:55:55,897
{\an8}They were the decades of betrayal.
651
00:55:55,898 --> 00:55:58,734
{\an8}You just wondered
who was gonna pop out next.
652
00:56:02,821 --> 00:56:09,821
We received, at MI5, very strong
representations from the Americans
653
00:56:09,828 --> 00:56:13,373
to clean up our act and get rid
of the communists in our midst.
654
00:56:13,374 --> 00:56:16,543
A man appeared
655
00:56:17,044 --> 00:56:20,130
and he had some kind of authority,
which he made clear to you,
656
00:56:20,131 --> 00:56:22,716
and he would say,
"Come around, have a drink."
657
00:56:23,884 --> 00:56:27,930
And he had a most extraordinary wall
with live birds behind it.
658
00:56:28,639 --> 00:56:30,933
They silently flitted about.
659
00:56:35,646 --> 00:56:37,939
I think he was a fool, I may add.
660
00:56:37,940 --> 00:56:41,692
Must have been some kind of analyst, psychologist.
661
00:56:41,693 --> 00:56:46,073
He would question you in a sort of
fatuous schoolmasterly...
662
00:56:46,074 --> 00:56:48,032
"Getting on all right with your wife,
are you?"
663
00:56:48,033 --> 00:56:52,079
We were all being examined
as potential communist spies.
664
00:56:54,331 --> 00:56:59,794
The comedy in my case was
that I had, for MI5,
665
00:56:59,795 --> 00:57:04,633
entered the communist community
at my university at Oxford.
666
00:57:07,970 --> 00:57:11,389
I was picked up and wooed,
sat in the Soviet embassy,
667
00:57:11,390 --> 00:57:14,810
watched the Battleship Potemkin
about six times,
668
00:57:14,811 --> 00:57:17,229
was fed with vodka and then dropped.
669
00:57:17,855 --> 00:57:19,230
It's a good movie.
670
00:57:19,231 --> 00:57:22,484
It's a good movie, except
that it has no happy ending.
671
00:57:34,371 --> 00:57:39,501
Wait a second. Is the desire to
be a double agent from the very beginning?
672
00:57:40,085 --> 00:57:41,252
Yes.
673
00:57:41,253 --> 00:57:44,840
It was an extremely exciting thought
at the time.
674
00:57:44,841 --> 00:57:47,091
It's not just an agent,
it's a double a...
675
00:57:47,092 --> 00:57:49,928
It happens all the time
with every security service
676
00:57:49,929 --> 00:57:52,555
and every offensive intelligence service.
677
00:57:52,556 --> 00:57:57,059
That you put people up
alongside the recruiter,
678
00:57:57,060 --> 00:58:01,690
hope he will recruit, and then
you own the person he has recruited.
679
00:58:01,691 --> 00:58:06,445
That's, as the Germans would say, normal.
680
00:58:10,240 --> 00:58:13,075
Out of that came
the very painful relationship
681
00:58:13,076 --> 00:58:18,957
{\an8}with the secret head of
the communist group at Oxford at the time,
682
00:58:18,958 --> 00:58:22,794
{\an8}a most innocent man, Stanley Mitchell.
683
00:58:25,380 --> 00:58:29,343
{\an8}We were in the same college,
he was reading Russian and German.
684
00:58:30,552 --> 00:58:32,846
He was of Russian-Jewish extraction.
685
00:58:35,098 --> 00:58:38,227
And we went on a walking holiday together
in Dorset.
686
00:58:38,228 --> 00:58:41,479
He had all the names of students
687
00:58:41,480 --> 00:58:45,651
who were members
of the Communist Party at that time.
688
00:58:46,860 --> 00:58:51,323
My job for MI5 was to identify
these people.
689
00:58:52,908 --> 00:58:57,788
And of course, it's horrific.
I was betraying Stanley.
690
00:59:02,042 --> 00:59:07,381
Although, I squirm and I'm horrified
by my behavior now,
691
00:59:07,382 --> 00:59:10,174
I still think it had to be done.
692
00:59:10,175 --> 00:59:14,972
Stanley, in later years,
made the very simple deduction
693
00:59:14,973 --> 00:59:16,889
that I was that person in his life.
694
00:59:16,890 --> 00:59:21,270
It upset him terribly.
"It was you, Judas. You swine.
695
00:59:22,980 --> 00:59:27,484
How could anybody do it?
How could anybody be as foul as you?"
696
00:59:29,403 --> 00:59:30,946
And your defense?
697
00:59:31,947 --> 00:59:35,701
Was, "Well, sorry, Stanley, but you
belong to a revolutionary movement
698
00:59:35,702 --> 00:59:38,953
which was determined
to destabilize our country.
699
00:59:38,954 --> 00:59:44,168
We were, at that time, technically at war
with the Soviet Union.
700
00:59:44,169 --> 00:59:45,919
You were on the wrong side."
701
00:59:49,298 --> 00:59:51,924
Can you be so sure
that you're on the right side
702
00:59:51,925 --> 00:59:55,762
- as opposed to the wrong side?
- Of course not. No. Of course not.
703
01:00:06,732 --> 01:00:11,236
In A Perfect Spy, why the need
to have the son kill himself?
704
01:00:14,865 --> 01:00:18,911
{\an8}Firstly, because he knew that
as a double agent, he was rumbled.
705
01:00:22,247 --> 01:00:25,125
He could have cut a deal, I suppose,
in the real world.
706
01:00:25,751 --> 01:00:28,337
I think he also found life insupportable.
707
01:00:29,922 --> 01:00:34,051
And he was ashamed
in the eyes of his child.
708
01:00:36,011 --> 01:00:38,555
Did Ronnie have a sense of shame?
709
01:00:39,348 --> 01:00:40,681
I really don't believe so.
710
01:00:40,682 --> 01:00:44,603
I've heard him do it,
kind of through the keyhole,
711
01:00:45,562 --> 01:00:47,689
to the first of my stepmothers.
712
01:00:49,066 --> 01:00:52,402
Howling he would never do something again.
713
01:00:52,903 --> 01:00:54,445
I don't know that he did shame,
714
01:00:54,446 --> 01:00:57,282
I don't know
how he could live with himself.
715
01:00:57,283 --> 01:01:01,035
Living with his fantasies,
716
01:01:01,036 --> 01:01:04,998
which didn't necessarily begin
as criminal plans
717
01:01:04,999 --> 01:01:08,292
but it was like writing a novel,
718
01:01:08,293 --> 01:01:12,506
in the sense that he would
hear the right line,
719
01:01:12,507 --> 01:01:16,176
or spot in the crowd some clue.
720
01:01:16,718 --> 01:01:19,429
And that would be the beginning of a scam.
721
01:01:25,644 --> 01:01:30,440
"I am in the city of Exeter,
walking across a patch of wasteland.
722
01:01:32,109 --> 01:01:35,195
I'm holding the hand of my mother, Olive.
723
01:01:35,904 --> 01:01:40,137
As she was wearing gloves,
there is no fleshly contact
724
01:01:40,138 --> 01:01:44,371
and indeed, so far as I recall,
there never was any.
725
01:01:47,332 --> 01:01:51,879
At the far side of the wasteland is
a grim, flat-fronted building
726
01:01:51,880 --> 01:01:54,965
with barred windows
and no light inside them."
727
01:02:01,138 --> 01:02:03,639
"And in one of these barred windows,
728
01:02:03,640 --> 01:02:08,770
looking exactly like a Monopoly convict,
stands my father.
729
01:02:09,521 --> 01:02:12,732
I wave at Ronnie high up in the wall
730
01:02:12,733 --> 01:02:15,569
and Ronnie waves the way he always waved."
731
01:02:16,320 --> 01:02:17,946
Daddy, Daddy!
732
01:02:20,282 --> 01:02:22,533
"On Olive's hand,
I march back to the car,
733
01:02:22,534 --> 01:02:24,786
feeling thoroughly pleased with myself.
734
01:02:27,247 --> 01:02:31,460
Not every small boy, after all,
has his mother to himself
735
01:02:31,461 --> 01:02:33,754
and keeps his father in a cage."
736
01:02:40,093 --> 01:02:43,387
"But according to my father,
none of this happened.
737
01:02:43,388 --> 01:02:46,266
The notion that I might have seen him
in any of his prisons
738
01:02:46,267 --> 01:02:48,477
offended him very much."
739
01:02:50,771 --> 01:02:54,149
Sheer invention
from start to finish, son.
740
01:02:54,816 --> 01:02:58,152
Anyone who knows the inside of Exeter jail
741
01:02:58,153 --> 01:03:03,033
knows perfectly well
you can't see the road from the cells.
742
01:03:07,704 --> 01:03:09,206
"And I believe him.
743
01:03:10,749 --> 01:03:12,708
I'm wrong and he was right.
744
01:03:12,709 --> 01:03:15,879
He was never at that window
and I never waved to him.
745
01:03:16,463 --> 01:03:18,924
But what's the truth? What's memory?
746
01:03:19,633 --> 01:03:21,259
We should find another name
747
01:03:21,260 --> 01:03:25,055
for the way we see past events
that are still alive in us."
748
01:03:32,062 --> 01:03:36,483
I don't think confronting you
is the right way to put it.
749
01:03:37,609 --> 01:03:41,280
But there was something
that you said that I found curious
750
01:03:42,406 --> 01:03:45,492
and worth further examination.
751
01:03:46,410 --> 01:03:50,581
Maybe this is an interrogation.
Maybe I am self-deceived.
752
01:03:52,374 --> 01:03:56,170
I can't imagine that as an interrogator
or an interviewer,
753
01:03:56,171 --> 01:03:59,089
you aren't also in part
looking for yourself.
754
01:04:00,007 --> 01:04:03,343
I don't think that we really can
penetrate people very much,
755
01:04:04,970 --> 01:04:09,057
but we can form imaginings about them
and then we relate to them.
756
01:04:16,815 --> 01:04:22,529
You hired private detectives
to investigate your father.
757
01:04:23,780 --> 01:04:26,887
One fat, one thin.
I asked my solicitor,
758
01:04:26,888 --> 01:04:29,994
"How can I get hold of these people?"
759
01:04:29,995 --> 01:04:32,663
He said, "Well, don't tell them
I told you,
760
01:04:32,664 --> 01:04:35,938
but these are about the most ruthless men
I know."
761
01:04:35,939 --> 01:04:39,213
{\an8}I hired them,
at an absurdly large sum of money.
762
01:04:42,299 --> 01:04:44,676
Really, they came on very little.
763
01:04:51,683 --> 01:04:58,482
{\an8}A much more reliable source for Ronnie's
first criminal case and imprisonment
764
01:04:58,483 --> 01:05:00,817
{\an8}is the local press of the day.
765
01:05:04,947 --> 01:05:09,159
He got, I think, a four-year sentence
for fraud at a very young age,
766
01:05:09,160 --> 01:05:12,266
but then he was taken out in mid-sentence
767
01:05:12,267 --> 01:05:15,374
and given a second sentence
with hard labor.
768
01:05:15,375 --> 01:05:17,750
I once said, "How bad was it?"
769
01:05:17,751 --> 01:05:20,003
He said, "Well, the Gypsies
were the worst."
770
01:05:20,004 --> 01:05:22,089
And he's talking about handicuffs.
771
01:05:22,840 --> 01:05:29,471
{\an8}Ronnie had a big chest. I think he was
capable of being very physical himself.
772
01:05:34,226 --> 01:05:41,149
{\an8}I was in Chicago promoting
a British week, riding on London buses,
773
01:05:41,900 --> 01:05:45,445
pretending to make phone calls
from telephone kiosks.
774
01:05:52,119 --> 01:05:55,455
The British consul-general
then handed me a telegram
775
01:05:55,456 --> 01:05:59,251
{\an8}he'd received from the embassy in Jakarta.
776
01:06:03,297 --> 01:06:08,594
Saying Ronnie was in prison, it would
take so much money to get him out.
777
01:06:08,595 --> 01:06:10,929
Would I agree to pay it?
778
01:06:14,808 --> 01:06:17,936
It wasn't an enormous sum,
but it was quite painful all the same,
779
01:06:17,937 --> 01:06:20,313
and that got him out.
780
01:06:20,314 --> 01:06:23,650
And we never talked about it
until I did much later and he said,
781
01:06:23,651 --> 01:06:26,235
"Oh, it was nothing, just currency stuff."
782
01:06:26,236 --> 01:06:29,530
We now know that he was engaged
in arms dealing
783
01:06:29,531 --> 01:06:35,078
at a time when Indonesia was
just recovering from a huge genocide.
784
01:06:40,292 --> 01:06:44,629
But then the last time, to my knowledge,
that he was in prison,
785
01:06:44,630 --> 01:06:48,967
he was in the Bezirksgefängnis,
the district prison in Zurich
786
01:06:48,968 --> 01:06:50,927
for swindling hotels.
787
01:06:50,928 --> 01:06:53,846
He was allowed a reverse charge call
to me.
788
01:06:53,847 --> 01:06:58,060
He said, "I can't do any more jail, son.
Get me out."
789
01:06:59,186 --> 01:07:00,686
And that was money again.
790
01:07:00,687 --> 01:07:04,942
I mean, it wasn't big money,
but it was extremely painful to me.
791
01:07:06,360 --> 01:07:12,407
I still have nightmare visions of this
hugely active physical man, caged.
792
01:07:14,409 --> 01:07:17,246
In the aggregate,
I don't know how much prison he did.
793
01:07:18,455 --> 01:07:21,500
Probably altogether no more
than six or seven years.
794
01:07:22,543 --> 01:07:26,171
But what effect it had on him,
I can't imagine.
795
01:07:36,557 --> 01:07:38,809
By the way, Ronnie sued you!
796
01:07:39,977 --> 01:07:45,566
Yes, he did. I gave an interview
to London Weekend Television.
797
01:07:47,067 --> 01:07:50,988
I omitted to say
that I owed everything to him.
798
01:07:52,865 --> 01:07:55,284
I didn't want to give Ronnie the credit.
799
01:07:57,035 --> 01:08:00,205
Why should I find a line
that said I owed it all to my father?
800
01:08:00,206 --> 01:08:06,503
But the reality probably is,
in many ways, that I do.
801
01:08:18,390 --> 01:08:20,766
I've never felt I belonged anywhere,
802
01:08:20,767 --> 01:08:22,997
I've been very lucky in that respect.
803
01:08:22,998 --> 01:08:25,229
I've had a very rich life.
804
01:08:25,939 --> 01:08:29,484
And I've seen a lot of institutions
and a lot of things.
805
01:08:30,569 --> 01:08:33,946
I've led a lot of lives, in an odd way.
806
01:08:33,947 --> 01:08:36,491
I don't feel that I belong to any of them.
807
01:08:37,117 --> 01:08:41,705
What I am left with is
a sense of being on my own.
808
01:08:47,085 --> 01:08:49,754
Was your father tortured by the fact
809
01:08:49,755 --> 01:08:54,009
that you became rich and successful
and he did not?
810
01:08:56,303 --> 01:08:57,513
I don't know.
811
01:08:59,680 --> 01:09:03,976
The principal effect
of my success upon him
812
01:09:03,977 --> 01:09:08,272
was to create in him
a sense of entitlement.
813
01:09:08,273 --> 01:09:12,778
He bought huge quantities of my books,
usually on credit, signed them,
814
01:09:12,779 --> 01:09:14,946
"From the author's father."
815
01:09:14,947 --> 01:09:17,115
Gave them around like confetti.
816
01:09:23,037 --> 01:09:29,795
I met the hard-edge, the real edge,
I suppose, when he summoned me to Vienna.
817
01:09:33,590 --> 01:09:34,841
"Son,
818
01:09:35,884 --> 01:09:38,385
I've worked out
what your education cost me.
819
01:09:38,386 --> 01:09:41,807
And I have some idea of the kind of money
you're making."
820
01:09:43,225 --> 01:09:45,559
And then he went on to make a pitch.
821
01:09:45,560 --> 01:09:49,898
"Son, all I've ever wanted in my life
is pigs and cattle,
822
01:09:49,899 --> 01:09:52,943
and then a little piece of Dorset.
Pigs and cattle.
823
01:09:53,484 --> 01:09:57,739
Somewhere nice to live, nice lady
to live with, and I'll be all right.
824
01:09:58,699 --> 01:10:01,618
So, what I need is..."
And he named an enormous sum of money.
825
01:10:01,619 --> 01:10:05,414
"Father, I can't do that.
It makes no sense to me.
826
01:10:05,998 --> 01:10:10,377
What I will do, if that's really what
you want, with your pigs and cattle,
827
01:10:10,378 --> 01:10:13,171
is I will buy a house and own it
and put you into it.
828
01:10:13,172 --> 01:10:15,966
I will make an allowance to you
for running your farm.
829
01:10:15,967 --> 01:10:18,176
I don't trust you for one second."
830
01:10:18,177 --> 01:10:22,806
He actually had appointed me a mark.
He was going to con me.
831
01:10:23,348 --> 01:10:27,269
And I'd join the club of people
on the roadside.
832
01:10:27,270 --> 01:10:28,789
And I wasn't going to let that happen.
833
01:10:30,230 --> 01:10:32,982
We were in Sachers, in Vienna,
834
01:10:32,983 --> 01:10:36,528
the most refined, excellent restaurant
in those days.
835
01:10:37,237 --> 01:10:41,033
He let out the most awful feral howl.
836
01:10:41,825 --> 01:10:46,496
And shouted, "You're paying
your own father to sit on his arse!"
837
01:10:46,497 --> 01:10:50,813
In a voice that could have been heard
across the street.
838
01:10:50,814 --> 01:10:55,130
And then he emitted this howl, howl,
half rose to his feet,
839
01:10:55,131 --> 01:11:00,176
and I put my arm
round his very ample back,
840
01:11:00,177 --> 01:11:06,808
and we hobbled to the front door
of... the hotel,
841
01:11:08,227 --> 01:11:13,398
down some steps, then there was a cab and
he looked up at me in supplicant's face,
842
01:11:13,399 --> 01:11:15,776
"How am I going to pay for this cab?"
843
01:11:16,985 --> 01:11:19,404
And I gave the driver some money.
844
01:11:20,072 --> 01:11:21,697
And off he went.
845
01:11:21,698 --> 01:11:26,286
I could've accepted his pitch,
at least given him some money.
846
01:11:27,329 --> 01:11:32,167
But I was so angry that it was a pain
to pay for the cab.
847
01:11:32,960 --> 01:11:36,046
But it's a feeling of being betrayed.
848
01:11:36,672 --> 01:11:41,552
Yes, it is. There was quite a bit of that
in it. "How can you do this to me?"
849
01:11:48,058 --> 01:11:50,811
Come on, old friend. It's bedtime.
850
01:11:52,563 --> 01:11:55,399
George? You won.
851
01:11:58,902 --> 01:11:59,987
Did I?
852
01:12:02,114 --> 01:12:03,198
Yes.
853
01:12:04,825 --> 01:12:06,410
Yes, I suppose I did.
854
01:12:14,960 --> 01:12:16,587
Did you love Ronnie?
855
01:12:17,421 --> 01:12:19,526
I really don't know what love is.
856
01:12:19,527 --> 01:12:21,633
I must have loved him as a child.
857
01:12:22,134 --> 01:12:25,971
But then, the consequences of his life
became clear to me.
858
01:12:26,805 --> 01:12:31,226
Later in life, when he wanted everything
I had, like my money.
859
01:12:33,187 --> 01:12:36,857
I was able to pull out
the necessary stops.
860
01:12:36,858 --> 01:12:39,317
I could do affection with him.
861
01:12:39,318 --> 01:12:43,530
I could do indifference
and, secretly, I could do hatred.
862
01:12:43,531 --> 01:12:45,531
Those things exist, actually,
863
01:12:45,532 --> 01:12:48,159
in any father-son relationship
at different times.
864
01:12:48,160 --> 01:12:52,331
They're like seasons. I had to muster
hatred in order to escape him.
865
01:13:02,841 --> 01:13:04,885
{\an8}They had three funerals for him.
866
01:13:06,678 --> 01:13:08,263
{\an8}I went to the first one.
867
01:13:09,389 --> 01:13:12,476
{\an8}I was urged to make a speech
and declined.
868
01:13:12,477 --> 01:13:15,394
And then there was another funeral
869
01:13:15,395 --> 01:13:18,232
and then, God help us,
there was a memorial service.
870
01:13:18,233 --> 01:13:20,275
But I didn't go to either of those.
871
01:13:22,778 --> 01:13:26,907
I wanted to believe that
my feelings were dead.
872
01:13:27,908 --> 01:13:29,451
And I've never seen his grave.
873
01:13:35,457 --> 01:13:37,835
But you paid for the funerals.
874
01:13:38,919 --> 01:13:40,419
I'm sure I did, yes.
875
01:13:40,420 --> 01:13:42,797
I paid for everybody's funerals.
876
01:13:42,798 --> 01:13:45,551
I paid for my mother's funeral.
I mean, I paid for them.
877
01:13:45,552 --> 01:13:49,263
What the hell does that mean?
I'm well off, I paid.
878
01:13:51,723 --> 01:13:55,726
The most loyal of his servants,
879
01:13:55,727 --> 01:13:59,439
who had done jail for him,
was a man called Arthur Lowe.
880
01:13:59,440 --> 01:14:03,819
All these people have monosyllables
as surnames.
881
01:14:03,820 --> 01:14:05,696
There was a Mister Bent,
believe it or not.
882
01:14:07,781 --> 01:14:12,618
I went to Jermyn Street
immediately upon hearing of his death
883
01:14:12,619 --> 01:14:16,957
to see whether there was anything there
to be redeemed and to be present.
884
01:14:17,916 --> 01:14:23,422
Arthur said, "Let's all go and have a bit
of a blowout. Do us good.
885
01:14:23,423 --> 01:14:26,216
Let's go to Jules Bar across the road."
886
01:14:28,093 --> 01:14:30,803
So, about eight of us went,
and Arthur presided.
887
01:14:30,804 --> 01:14:34,516
We had champagne and oysters,
whatever the hell we wanted.
888
01:14:34,517 --> 01:14:36,934
We thought we'd cheer ourselves up.
Or Arthur did.
889
01:14:36,935 --> 01:14:42,399
Very graciously, he paid.
And it was his party, it was fine.
890
01:14:43,066 --> 01:14:47,321
{\an8}It's my party, George.
I'll get the bill when I'm ready.
891
01:14:51,074 --> 01:14:54,118
Two days later, I got the receipt
in the post.
892
01:14:54,119 --> 01:14:57,164
"Will I please adjust
as soon as possible?"
893
01:14:57,165 --> 01:14:59,248
Ronnie never had money.
894
01:14:59,249 --> 01:15:05,422
He made killings, but as soon as he made
a killing, on the sound principle,
895
01:15:05,423 --> 01:15:11,053
that expenditure always exceeds income...
it was gone again.
896
01:15:14,556 --> 01:15:18,142
He was some kind of crisis addict.
897
01:15:18,143 --> 01:15:21,313
I think he had to be living on the edge
all the time.
898
01:15:23,065 --> 01:15:25,566
And I think he certainly persuaded himself
899
01:15:25,567 --> 01:15:29,571
that this was an honorable and valuable
contribution to the community
900
01:15:29,572 --> 01:15:33,033
and they would be happy
and he would be mountainously rich.
901
01:15:33,034 --> 01:15:36,495
And mind you, he was within a whisker
of that happening.
902
01:15:40,499 --> 01:15:43,794
I'm not making a case for him,
I'm just trying to tell you
903
01:15:43,795 --> 01:15:49,466
how close he was
to being a successful man.
904
01:15:50,050 --> 01:15:53,178
And how absolutely absurd
were his fantasies.
905
01:16:04,815 --> 01:16:06,983
But the world runs on fantasy.
906
01:16:06,984 --> 01:16:11,508
I agree. The membrane between
what he does or failed to do,
907
01:16:11,509 --> 01:16:16,034
and enormously wealthy and successful
and honored people
908
01:16:16,035 --> 01:16:18,579
that membrane was very, very feeble.
909
01:16:25,002 --> 01:16:28,463
"Ronnie is dead
and I am revisiting Vienna
910
01:16:29,673 --> 01:16:31,549
in order to breathe the city air
911
01:16:31,550 --> 01:16:35,304
while I write him into
the semi-autobiographical novel
912
01:16:35,305 --> 01:16:37,472
I am at last free to ponder.
913
01:16:42,144 --> 01:16:43,687
Not the Sacher again.
914
01:16:44,229 --> 01:16:46,439
I have a dread that the waiters
will remember
915
01:16:46,440 --> 01:16:51,486
Ronnie crashing down onto the table
and me half carrying him out.
916
01:16:53,405 --> 01:16:56,073
My plane into Schwechat is delayed
917
01:16:56,074 --> 01:16:59,828
and the reception desk of the hotel
that I have chosen at random
918
01:16:59,829 --> 01:17:02,873
is in the charge
of an elderly night porter.
919
01:17:06,376 --> 01:17:10,047
He looks on silently
as I fill in the registration form.
920
01:17:10,964 --> 01:17:16,303
Then he speaks in soft,
venerable Viennese German.
921
01:17:18,347 --> 01:17:21,558
'Your father was a great man, ' he says.
922
01:17:21,559 --> 01:17:24,019
'You treated him disgracefully.'"
923
01:17:28,941 --> 01:17:32,735
I keep hearing again
and again and again
924
01:17:32,736 --> 01:17:37,365
that I have not pressed you
hard enough about betrayal.
925
01:17:37,366 --> 01:17:41,994
I have failed in my interviewer's
or interrogator's job.
926
01:17:41,995 --> 01:17:47,750
Well, I feel that you got the last drop
out of the sponge on that subject.
927
01:17:47,751 --> 01:17:53,507
But I'll answer any question you wish me
to answer, as truthfully as I can.
928
01:17:53,508 --> 01:17:56,218
Do they want you
to break down and sob?
929
01:17:56,219 --> 01:17:59,200
And weep? Yeah. I can do that.
930
01:17:59,201 --> 01:18:02,182
Like I can do bird noises.
931
01:18:03,559 --> 01:18:08,438
I'm not going to talk about my sex life,
any more, I trust, than you would.
932
01:18:08,439 --> 01:18:10,898
It seems to be
an intensely private matter.
933
01:18:10,899 --> 01:18:15,132
My love life has been a very difficult
passage, as you would imagine,
934
01:18:15,133 --> 01:18:19,366
but it's resolved itself wonderfully,
and that's enough on that subject.
935
01:18:21,451 --> 01:18:24,705
So, what do people want?
936
01:18:25,581 --> 01:18:31,503
They want to think that I am duplicitous,
937
01:18:32,880 --> 01:18:34,797
false-tongued,
938
01:18:34,798 --> 01:18:39,011
that I use my charm as a wreckers' light
939
01:18:40,053 --> 01:18:42,806
and probably that I torture my children.
940
01:18:43,557 --> 01:18:46,350
They want to unmask me as something,
941
01:18:46,351 --> 01:18:50,230
but I need to know
what is behind the mask first.
942
01:18:51,398 --> 01:18:54,193
You have all I am, as far as I know.
943
01:18:59,615 --> 01:19:04,286
{\an8}In your memoir, you say none
of it's true, it's as I imagined it.
944
01:19:07,289 --> 01:19:12,836
Inside the bubble,
I am abstracting from non-fiction
945
01:19:12,837 --> 01:19:14,338
and fictionalizing it.
946
01:19:15,297 --> 01:19:20,302
I want to take tidy stories
out of the perceived reality around me.
947
01:19:23,639 --> 01:19:28,101
{\an8}But I didn't do any of that derring-do
stuff that is reported in my books.
948
01:19:30,229 --> 01:19:35,025
But why tell people that a story
is false right at the very beginning?
949
01:19:36,360 --> 01:19:39,446
If you and I had witnessed
the same car accident,
950
01:19:40,489 --> 01:19:43,283
each would have his version
of what had happened.
951
01:19:44,243 --> 01:19:45,911
So, what is truth?
952
01:19:47,329 --> 01:19:52,125
Objective truth is perceived
by some absent third party,
953
01:19:53,085 --> 01:19:56,338
but otherwise, truth is subjective.
954
01:19:58,674 --> 01:20:03,094
Who is that third party? God?
955
01:20:03,095 --> 01:20:07,558
There is some kind of factual record
which we'll never get our hands on.
956
01:20:11,562 --> 01:20:16,420
My business has been
to try to make credible fables
957
01:20:16,421 --> 01:20:21,280
out of the worlds that I visited
or visited me.
958
01:20:32,708 --> 01:20:35,752
The journey for me has been
one of the imagination.
959
01:20:37,004 --> 01:20:39,715
The imaginative refuge from reality.
960
01:20:42,551 --> 01:20:45,429
The recreation of chaos.
961
01:20:47,055 --> 01:20:51,435
Not in an orderly way, but in
a comprehensible, individualized way
962
01:20:52,895 --> 01:20:59,895
that makes people feel not à la
James Bond,
963
01:20:59,902 --> 01:21:01,403
"I wish this was me."
964
01:21:02,196 --> 01:21:07,242
But more kind of,
"Jesus, I hope this isn't me."
965
01:21:17,252 --> 01:21:20,463
"When I was a young
and carefree spy,
966
01:21:20,464 --> 01:21:25,677
it was only natural that I should believe
that the nation's hottest secrets
967
01:21:25,678 --> 01:21:29,430
were housed in a chipped, green Chubbsafe
968
01:21:29,431 --> 01:21:34,144
that was tucked away at the end
of a labyrinth of dingy corridors...
969
01:21:35,729 --> 01:21:38,649
on the top floor of 54 Broadway...
970
01:21:39,942 --> 01:21:44,738
...in the private office occupied
by the Chief of the Secret Service.
971
01:21:46,657 --> 01:21:50,618
{\an8}I had heard that there existed
documents so secret
972
01:21:50,619 --> 01:21:54,581
{\an8}that they were only ever touched
by the Chief himself.
973
01:21:57,918 --> 01:22:00,253
And now the sad day is upon us
974
01:22:00,254 --> 01:22:04,633
when the final curtain
will be run down on Broadway Buildings.
975
01:22:07,261 --> 01:22:10,012
Is the Chief's safe exempt?
976
01:22:10,013 --> 01:22:13,976
Will cranes, crowbars, and silent men
convey it bodily
977
01:22:13,977 --> 01:22:17,688
to the next stage
along its life's long journey?
978
01:22:19,940 --> 01:22:24,152
It is reluctantly ruled
that the safe will be opened."
979
01:22:26,238 --> 01:22:28,489
So, who's got the bloody key?
980
01:22:28,490 --> 01:22:30,701
"Not the reigning chief, apparently.
981
01:22:31,618 --> 01:22:34,621
He has made a point
of never venturing inside the safe.
982
01:22:36,164 --> 01:22:38,458
What you don't know, you can't reveal."
983
01:22:40,210 --> 01:22:41,545
Useless!
984
01:22:42,296 --> 01:22:44,047
Send for Burglar Bill.
985
01:22:45,299 --> 01:22:48,510
"The Service has picked
a few locks in its day,
986
01:22:48,511 --> 01:22:51,263
so it looks like time to pick another."
987
01:23:18,916 --> 01:23:20,709
"The lock yields."
988
01:23:22,711 --> 01:23:25,214
"The safe is empty. Bare.
989
01:23:25,964 --> 01:23:29,843
Innocent of even the most mundane secret."
990
01:23:30,677 --> 01:23:31,803
Wait!
991
01:23:32,679 --> 01:23:37,726
Is it a decoy safe
to protect an inner sanctum?
992
01:23:42,022 --> 01:23:45,108
"The safe is gently prized from the wall.
993
01:23:47,361 --> 01:23:49,905
The Chief peers behind it.
994
01:23:52,449 --> 01:23:57,996
And extracts a very thick,
very old pair of trousers,
995
01:23:59,289 --> 01:24:01,166
with a label attached to them.
996
01:24:01,834 --> 01:24:08,465
The typed inscription declares that these
are the trousers worn by Rudolf Hess...
997
01:24:10,551 --> 01:24:14,136
...Adolf Hitler's deputy
when he flew to Scotland
998
01:24:14,137 --> 01:24:18,433
to negotiate a separate peace
with the Duke of Hamilton.
999
01:24:19,309 --> 01:24:24,648
In the mistaken belief that
the Duke shared his fascist views."
1000
01:25:01,018 --> 01:25:04,813
"Beneath the inscription
runs a handwritten scrawl."
1001
01:25:09,318 --> 01:25:11,445
"Please analyze.
1002
01:25:12,529 --> 01:25:18,619
May give an idea of the state
of the German textile industry."
1003
01:25:30,255 --> 01:25:36,053
That was a story about
men from a diminished imperial power
1004
01:25:36,054 --> 01:25:39,555
looking into a false reflection
of themselves.
1005
01:25:39,556 --> 01:25:44,394
Still guarding a great nation,
still playing the world's game.
1006
01:25:45,646 --> 01:25:51,151
And in fact, they were
a tragically reduced crowd
1007
01:25:52,236 --> 01:25:54,321
driven by their own nostalgia.
1008
01:25:55,739 --> 01:25:57,991
And when you look in the mirror?
1009
01:25:59,618 --> 01:26:00,994
Now? Today?
1010
01:26:01,620 --> 01:26:06,270
I'm much more at ease
with myself now, in age.
1011
01:26:06,271 --> 01:26:09,992
More reconciled to who I was.
And who I was not.
1012
01:26:09,993 --> 01:26:13,715
So, I'm not too unhappy
when I look in the mirror,
1013
01:26:13,716 --> 01:26:16,009
unless I've got a dreadful hangover.
1014
01:26:16,844 --> 01:26:21,473
I look at you
as an exquisite poet of self-hatred.
1015
01:26:21,474 --> 01:26:23,100
Yeah, I would go with that.
1016
01:26:24,601 --> 01:26:30,899
I think that it's only in the last few
years that I feel I've found my freedom,
1017
01:26:30,900 --> 01:26:33,943
and I love being what I am best at.
1018
01:26:33,944 --> 01:26:38,260
Not just being a writer,
that's incidental, but writing.
1019
01:26:38,261 --> 01:26:42,578
Without the creative life,
I have very little identity.
1020
01:26:42,579 --> 01:26:45,913
I'm like an actor without a part.
1021
01:26:45,914 --> 01:26:51,879
With the work, I am as near as I get
to being a happy man.
1022
01:26:52,838 --> 01:26:54,798
And I love, I love writing.
1023
01:26:55,674 --> 01:26:57,342
So, I am that animal.
1024
01:26:58,260 --> 01:27:03,807
And I dare hardly use the claim,
but I'll make it here, I'm an artist.
89883
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