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Mr. Black: It was
July 18th, 1969.

It was early in the
morning, about 5:30 a.m.

It was a beautiful
day to fly.

No wind to speak of.

So how could
it be better?

We start up the engines.

We were full of fuel.

Everything was fine.

And we started taxiing.

And then sure enough,

the aircraft
started to climb.

Chuck brought the landing
gear up.

We were accelerating
and climbing

above the runway,

and I think we were about

100 feet above the ground
when I started noticing

that something was wrong.

You have one engine
at higher rpm,

another low rpm.

Now that can happen
with an engine failure.

And I mean,
I grabbed the chairs

and held on
and looked out

and I saw a bunch
of green grass

and it looked
like a city park

And I thought, well,
worst case scenario,

we've always been trained
to just land in a park.

But the next thing
I noticed was

towering trees
were filling our windshield

Chuck grabbed
the flight controls,

and he yanks them all
the way left.

As far as they'll go.

And then he pulls them
all the way back,

against his chest.

I suddenly found myself

above the crash site,

but unaware

of what I was
looking at or why.

I was not in any pain.

I was not in any fear
or discomfort.

I was just above this
crash site.

I could see an airplane
and I could see a pilot.

First of all, my eyes
went right to one pilot.

This was Gene.

And then I went over
and I saw another pilot

right next to him
five feet away.

And I recognized this
as Chuck.

And while I'm processing
what I'm looking at,

I see a third pilot also
about five feet away.

And this is me.

Mr. Burke: Imagine if what
we're living here on this

earth is really being
lived on a flat, black

and white
painting on a wall,

and death is separation.

So when we die, our

spirit separates
from our physical body.

You die and
you're ripped off

that flat,
black and white

two-dimensional painting

your brought out into a
three-dimensional room

of color all around you.

You're experiencing things

you've never
experienced before,

even though you can
see your world

is contained
within this world,

then imagine
you're put back into

that flat,
black and white painting,

and you have to describe

three dimensions of color

in two-dimensional
black and white terms.

How would you do it?

Dr. Sabom: Medically,

Scientifically,

the point of death

cannot be defined.

What we do know is there
is a process of dying

during which I feel the

near-death
experience occurs.

75% of the people in that
first study

have had a documented
cardiac arrest.

Part of the
experience is they

said they floated up
out of their body

and they can see
what was going on

during the resuscitation.

I felt that myself,
as a cardiologist

could pick that apart.

Mr. Burke: This is clinical
death as we know it,

sometimes
for a few minutes,

sometimes 30 minutes,
sometimes hours.

And yet modern medicine
or the miraculous,

I don't know,

resuscitated them

and they were able
to come back

and talk about it.

You may think
you've died.

Dr. Sabom: All definitions,
medically,

scientifically,
and legally

state that once you go
across that red line,

i.e. you die,

you don't come back.

And I like to say doctors
resuscitate,

not resurrect
their patients.

Mr. Burke: I was actually
an agnostic.

I didn't know if I
believed there was a God.

I thought, I don't
know if I believe

there's a heaven or not,

but my dad was
dying of cancer

and someone gave him
the very first research

on what's now called
near-death experiences.

And I saw it
on his nightstand,

picked it up
and read it in one night.

And that just
got me curious.

So I kind of opened my
my eyes, my mind,

and I started
to explore from there.

I found it fascinating,

kind of, the train
of how this

whole near-death
experience phenomenon

started to get
traction in America.

Dr. George Ritchie
was the first one

to really talk
publicly about this.

He was actually
at Camp Barkeley

getting ready to go
fight in World War II.

Joan Rivers: What happened
during those 9 minutes?

What did you see?
What happened?

Dr. Ritchie: I met
the Christ

because I was told
to stand up, you are

in the presence
of the Son of God.

He came into my room

and he conducted me
through four different

realms of life
after death.

Life really is
forever. We don't die.

Death is nothing
more than just a gateway

through which we go.

Mr. Burke: Dr. Moody
actually heard him lecture

at the University
of Virginia,

where he was
a visiting professor

and heard him talk about

this near-death
experience.

Dr. Moody: In 1969,

I became a professor
of philosophy

at East
Carolina University

and in teaching
courses on Plato.

I began to hear these

experiences
from my students

and also from other
faculty members.

Dr. Sabom: I was
brought into this

field kicking
and screaming.

I was at the University
of Florida in Gainesville

with Sarah Kreissinger

who was a psychiatric,
social worker

at the hospital
I was working at.

And she had picked up

Raymond Moody's book
Life After Life,

about two months

after it was
initially published.

She read it.
She gave it to me.

She asked me
what I thought.

This is Dr. Raymond
Moody,

noted psychiatrist,
lecturer, and researcher.

He is perhaps best
known as the author

of the groundbreaking
examination

of the near-death
experience.

The bestselling book,
Life After Life.

It has sold upwards
of 15 million copies,

and has been printed in
14 different languages.

Dr. Moody: They tell us,
first of all,

that they seem,
from their point of view,

to leave
their physical bodies

to float up above the
scene of the resuscitation

and to watch the events
going on down below.

They tell us that they go

through a narrow
passageway or a tunnel

into an
incredibly brilliant

and warm and loving light

Dr. Sabom: Hogwash.

I never heard
these experiences before.

I went into the hospital

asking some of the
older physicians,

"Hey, you ever heard
a patient say this?"

"No."

So I was very skeptical

that these things
were even occurring.

And if they were
occurring,

they were either
hallucinations

or delusions or whatever.

In cardiology, we're about
scientific studies.

So I asked a few people

who had been resuscitated,

and the third patient

I talked to had
an experience

similar to what
Moody talked

about in his book,
Life After Life.

So, Sarah and I said,

Well, maybe we ought
to look into this further.

We devised a
scientific protocol

to interview
these people.

We tape recorded
the interviews.

We took down
their background data,

the demographics,
etc.. And...

this went
on for five years.

First of all,
I'd get permission

to tape record it
and then say,

okay, go...

Dr. Sabom: These
people say,

"I've never told anybody
about this, doc.

And by the way, I'm
the only one

that's ever had this."

So the near-death
experience at that time,

and that's about 45 years
ago was not well known.

And so these people
were sort of

coming up
with it on their own,

and they were suspicious
of me asking the questions,

which to me

lent credibility to what
they were telling me.

Dr. Moody: Many of them
said, for example,

that they had tried to tell
their doctor about it

or a minister about it and
that they were dismissed.

And in those initial years,

the people that I talked
with were just very happy

that at last somebody
would listen to them.

Mr. Storm: I started at
Northern Kentucky University

in 1972.

I was hired as an assistant
professor and I was

offered a promotion
to full professor

at the age of 25, and
I was also given tenure

my third year.

Seven students, myself

and my wife

toured Amsterdam

and then went up
to Denmark.

Spent a few days there,
went to Sweden for a day.

And last week, it was
a three week trip,

and our last week,
was a week in Paris.

It was an art tour, it was,
pretty much all museums.

On that Saturday morning,

June 1, 1985,

and I had the most acute

pain I'd ever
experienced in my life

in the center of
my abdomen. Right there.

It was terrifying
because it

it just came from
nowhere.

And I never experienced
such acute pain.

I mean, this was like

the kind of pain
that blows

the top of your head off.

A doctor
came very quickly,

got me up
off the floor,

with a great deal of
difficulty because

I couldn't move.

He knew exactly
what was wrong.

and told me that I
had a perforation

of the duodenum.

Which means I had a hole

go through my
small stomach.

What was happening
was the hydrochloric acid

and the enzymes

and the bacteria
in everything

are now migrating, leaking

into my abdominal cavity.

To put it in crude terms.

I was digesting myself,
on the inside.

Without exaggeration,

what it felt like
was fire.

my wife riding alongside me

in the back of
the ambulance

as we traveled
70, 80 miles an hour

through the streets
of Paris to the big

city hospital

they confirmed basically,

if I didn't have the
surgery in an hour,

I would die.

So they sent me
to the surgical hospital.

And because it was
the weekend,

there was no doctor
available.

No surgeon
available at the hospital

they sent me to.
So I was put in a room.

I begged, I screamed,

I yelled,

and my wife begged

and yelled and screamed,

Nurse, can someone
please come in here?

Mr. Storm: Sorry.

We need a doctor
to prescribe something

Can you please talk
to someone who can help us?

There has to be somebody,

how can there not be
someone here?

Mr. Storm: There I
was for 10 hours.

About once an hour,
the nurse would come in

and ask how I was doing,
and I would tell her in

French and English
that I was dying and

shrug their shoulders
and walk away.

I wasn't in fear.

I was in terror

Because I was 38 years old,
very successful

in my career
at the university,

you know, wife and two
kids, nice house, two cars.

The thing
that kept going through

my mind is this
can't be happening.

This can't be happening.
This can't be happening.

People ask me,

How do you know
you were dying?

It's like the stupidest
question in the world

when you're dying,
you know it

with every breath.

I felt like I had one more
breath to go.

Nurse came into the room
at 8:30 that night

and said they were sorry,

but they were

unable to locate a doctor
and they would try

to find one the next day,
which was Sunday.

Well, when she said that,
I was like,

okay, it's over. Done.

You know,
I can't do this anymore.

You know, I'm exhausted.

And I looked
at her [Beverly],

and it was horrible to
see her crying like that.

And I closed my eyes and
stopped trying to breathe.

And I went unconscious.

I was an atheist,
and I knew that

when you die,
it's just over.

It's like the big nothing,
you know, void the end.

Mr. Black: The official

impact speed recorded
by the National

Transportation Safety Board
was 135 miles an hour.

We impacted
right below the cockpit

with that impact speed.

It just exploded
the cockpit into...

We just,
everything was opened up.

We hit that dome and fell,

boom,
right down to the ground.

I'm told by the curator

of the mausoleum,
that the mausoleum

was six stories,
seven stories tall.

And we slammed

right into the top of it.

I can remember today

as well as I could five
years ago, ten years ago.

You realize
that you are not

a body.

I believe it's

what happens to everyone
when they die.

Mr. Storm: I awoke
from unconsciousness

standing there

next to the bed,

feeling better than I ever
felt before in my life.

My vision
was greatly increased.

Instead of seeing 106

degrees, I could see
almost 360 degrees.

My depth of field
was total.

When I looked at something
close, I, everything

far was in focus.

Being an artist and being
a visual person, not much.

The first thing I was like,
Wow, I've never been able

to see like this.

Then I realized I
could hear,

smell, taste, touch, everything.

I could feel

all the little nuances
in the cold linoleum floor.

I could hear the buzzing
of the fluorescent lights

in the ceiling
really loudly.

All of my senses were
greatly, greatly enhanced.

Mr. Black: I'm looking
down and I'm realizing

there's my body,
but I'm up here.

I can't be dead because
I've never felt more alive.

I was not only alive,
I was free.

And I didn't understand
this.

But I realized then, okay,

I am a spirit.

I have a soul.

And I used to live

in that body.

I was pressed up against
the instrument panel

and was motionless.

It was 16 minutes
before the fire department

got there.

The paramedics
got there right after

they put me and Chuck
in the same ambulance.

And I have tremendous
strong memories

that I'm watching my body
and Chuck and I'm chasing

that ambulance as it goes
through the streets.

I have no idea
how to explain

a lot of the things
we're talking about.

But chasing that ambulance
without really any effort.

How did I do that?

I don't know.

I wasn't worried.

I wasn't in pain.

I wasn't concerned really.

I was questioning,
what is this all about

Dr. Long: Now, while no two
near-death experiences

are the same,

they have a very consistent

pattern of elements
or what occurs

during the near-death
experience.

That typically occur in
a very consistent process.

The very first thing that

happens is that close
brush with death.

They're unconscious.

They may be clinically dead
with absent heartbeat,

absent breathing.

At that time when
they shouldn't

have any experience at
all, they do.

Often the first thing
that happens is

what's called
an out-of-body experience.

Mr. Burke: People leave
their bodies.

They're, they're watching

the resuscitation
many times, but they say

they still have
a spiritual body.

Dr. Long: From that
vantage point,

they can see ongoing
earthly events

and often later describe

frantic efforts
at their own resuscitation.

Mr. Burke: They move out
of that place

of their resuscitation,

and they come to a place
of exquisite beauty.

- Dr. Sabom:
- They very commonly
see a light at times.

They interpret
that as a religious figure.

Mr. Burke: And this light was
light that is love and life.

It was palpable

and not hard to look at,

but it came out
of everything,

and yet it made everything
vibrant.

The colors,
they say, are far

beyond our color spectrum.

Dr. Long: Music has been

described so beautiful

that they say they've never
heard anything like it.

Nothing like that
is possible on earth.

Dr. Sabom: Deceased
relatives or friends often

come to meet them there.

Mr. Burke: You know, they say
we still have all our memories

our humor,
we're the same people.

But we meet again
on the other side.

Dr. Sabom: And some of them say,
well, I reached a place where

I felt like

if I went any further,
I wouldn't come back

Dr. Long: At that time,

they may then have
a life review.

They may see part
or all of their prior life.

Dr. Sabom: The whole
experience is

very calm,
it's very peaceful.

Some people don't
want to come back.

Mr. Burke: And then many talk

about a God of light
and love

that they experience
in this presence.

This light is brighter
than the sun,

but again, not just light
like we would see

here on earth.

And they feel an
unconditional love

and peace and acceptance

from this God like they've
never experienced before.

- Dr. Long:
- Ultimately, they either
make the choice to return

to the earthly body or
sent back involuntarily.

Mr. Burke: This God almost
always says to them,

Your time is not up yet.

You still have a purpose
on Earth.

Sometimes he asks them,

Do you want to stay
or do you want to go?

Many times he says,
You got to go back.

None of them want to go
back.

Mr. Burke: Not every
single one of

them experiences
all the commonalities.

Some do, some experience
three, four or five,

some ten, 20,
some, all of them.

But those
commonalities overlap.

But there are uniqueness
to each experience.

Like when they encounter
this god of light and love,

each one of them feels like

they are the only
one God loves.

And yet,

they all feel that way.

Mr. Burke: You know actually,
these near-death

experiences are not new.

Plato wrote in the Republic
about

a soldier who comes to
on his funeral pyre

and had an experience
like this.

Paul in the New Testament,
who wrote much of

the New Testament,

I believe in
Acts chapter 14,

He's stoned to
death in Lystra

and left for dead.

And then he gets back up
and he talks about

how he had an experience
of going to heaven

Dr. Moody: In the ancient world.

Presumably these
experiences were very rare.

By the time
I started investigating it

in the 60s
and 70s,

the advent
of cardiopulmonary

resuscitation
had greatly increased

the number of people
who had been to the brink

of death and recovered.

So there were
a lot of cases.

Dr. Sabom: Some of them say,
well, I reached a place where

I felt like

if I went any further,
I wouldn't come back.

And I get questioned
about this a lot.

And the question

is, well, is that really
a barrier or not?

And my answer is,

well, I've not been able
to interview

any of them
that didn't come back.

So I assume

that if they do go over
that, it very well may be

a point of no return.

I have no evidence
to suggest that,

except I have no evidence
to refute it either.

Raymond Moody heard
about our work,

so he called us up
to his house,

along with two
other researchers.

Dr. Moody: And that's when I met
all of these wonderful people

Bruce Grayson and Mike
Sabom and Kenneth Ring.

Dr. Sabom: We got together,
we compared notes

and we said, you know,
we ought to form

a group and share with one
another what we're doing.

And it eventually
turned out to be

what's now known as IANDS

International Association
and Near-Death Studies.

Mr. Burke: After five years of
doing research, Dr. Sabom

ends up writing
a book convinced that

this really does show that
there is life after death.

But then even more
fascinating, he publishes

in the Journal of the

American Medical
Association

his findings and what
changed his mind.

Dr. Long: I was in my
residency training

and I was going through
a bound journal

looking for a cancer
related article.

And completely by accident,
I found in the title

of an article the
term Near-Death experience.

Dr. Long: Everything I knew as
a doctor said,

This is medically
inexplicable.

In this article

all around
the world, were people

having these experiences
while they were unconscious

or even clinically dead

who can't be mystified
by that question

of what happens
after you die?

Dr. Moody: As I've traveled
around the world to China

and Japan and India

and North and South America
and all over Europe,

people all over the world
use the word light,

but they say that it's not

the light that comes

from a light bulb
or from the sun.

But universally
the description is that the

light of complete
compassion and love.

And people also say
that they learned

from their experience
that what we call

death is a transition
into some other reality.

So they
lose their fear of death.

Don Piper: The day was
January 18th, 1989,

very chilly by
South Texas standards.

I almost stopped
in a little town

before you cross
all the bridges to get some

some coffee. I didn't.

The people who were
on the highway ahead of me,

she wanted some coffee.
They pulled over.

I drove past them
and they came in behind me,

Dick and Anita,
Onarecker.

It was foggy
and a slight rain.

It was wet

and I knew I would have to
cross some bridges.

It was an old bridge

and it is very narrow.

I'm just really focused
on getting back

to Alvin, Texas,
where I lived.

I was headed back that way

and looking forward
to seeing my family,

which I missed for three
days, especially my wife.

What I didn't know

was that steep
embankment was there.

It's like going on a tunnel

because you had this
big metal superstructure

above you,
on both sides of you.

You can see only really

to the end of the bridge
and then

the highway goes up.

So I couldn't see beyond
the end of the bridge.

Out of nowhere, a tractor

trailer truck
hit the car in his lane,

then came over to my lane
and hit me head on.

When we approached
the bridge,

the first thing on
the right

was this large 18 wheeler,
and then the next

thing on the left,
I believe, was a gray car.

It had a single older
man in it.

Then the next thing
was Don's red car

that was all crushed
and smashed.

So we were only
four vehicles on the bridge

at that point.

Swen Spujt: I was stationed

in Walker
County at the time.

I said,
How does it look for him?

And they said,
"not good at all."

That was, you know, just
something I never forgot.

I mean, was seeing that

it was a miserable,
miserable day.

Traffic is backed
up from miles

in both directions
because at that time

there was the only bridge
across that lake,

in fact, Dick Onarecker.

And Anita

had to leave their car
and walk up on the bridge

to get to where
the accident was.

Police approached
Dick first and said,

Don't even bother
with that man.

I've already checked him
and he has no pulse.

And then Dick did check,

and he could not
identify any pulse.

You could see from this
wrecking yard picture that

the trajectory of the truck
as it went over.

When the truck hit me,
it literally took

this arm over my shoulder
into the back seat.

The steering wheel

actually went horizontal
and into my chest

My head had banged up
against the metal side

of the interior of the car.

My right leg
was broken at the knee,

but I must have slid on
the seat a little sideways

because it hit
from that angle.

And when it did, it
literally severed my left

leg just above the knee,

and four and a half
inches of the femur

was ejected from the car
and actually never found.

I had been
killed instantly.

My heart was not beating,

so it was not
pumping blood.

I died on the bridge.

Dr. Neal: I'm a board certified
orthopedic spine surgeon

and physicians
spend their entire career

evading death.

We believe that
if we are smart enough,

if we are
well-trained enough,

and if we do a good enough
job that we can control

the outcomes, that we can
control the variables

and we can cheat death.

My husband and I
were avid kayakers.

Kayaking is

both challenging
and exhilarating.

We began to go down
the river.

We went over
the first couple of drops.

It was very high flow,
very high

current, strong current.

There is another client
that sort of bobbled

her way past me and

ended up sideways at the
entrance to the chute.

So my only option
was to veer over

and go over the
main part of the waterfall

and the
front end of my boat

became pinned

and the boat and I
were then

completely submerged under
8 to 10 feet of water.

I recognized that I was
probably going to drown.

I would think about
the fact that

I must be dead,
but I didn't feel dead.

I felt more alive
than I've ever felt.

I felt this
incredible experience

like I was just
part of the water.

I felt magnificent, actually.

I knew that
I was being held by Christ

as purely as I know,

anything.

I know it sounds crazy,

but it's just
something that

is outside of our language.

Peter Panagore: We went up a
world famous climb,

maybe 500 feet,
three pitches up

David Ditchfield: As the train
started pulling out,

I just thought, This is it.
I'm going to die.

I took a corner
to a 90 miles

an hour, flipped over,
and it landed on the top.

All I remember seeing was a
big white, white light.

The knife had gone all
the way through my liver.

I had a punctured lung and
I started feeling myself

leave my body.

You were in the hospital
bed, right?

But you had left your body
and you

Betty Eadie: My body was on
the bed and my spirit ...

and I could see
in every direction.

Up on the ceiling
looking down.

There was this feeling of a
presence. It felt like God

Not like this guy
up in the sky.

And that was God.

I just know it was God

The meaning of life,
of everything,

It was unlike anything
I've ever experienced.

I have no fear of death.

...it's with total knowledge
and unconditional love...

It was all the love that
is in the universe.

Death is not the end.
It's probably the beginning.

I looked into his eyes,
It was like

I was looking
at forever inside of him,

and I could see the love
he had for me.

You know,
people don't believe you

when you say the story,
but it's just so real.

Dr. Neal: Almost 30 minutes
had gone by.

Enough time had passed
that they had shifted from

a rescue mode to purely
a body recovery mode.

I could see this
bloated purple body

and I never felt alive
and then dead.

I never felt conscious
and unconscious.

I felt conscious
and then more conscious

I felt alive
and then more alive.

Dr. Sabom: I came into this
thing skeptical, mean

I could have very easily
blown this whole thing off.

If you go
to the resuscitation

for 20 minutes

and you've been

without oxygen
for 20 minutes or whatever,

you're going to lose
some neurons,

You're going to
have brain damage.

You may not
live either.

You'll die a
neurologic death

general rule is, the longer
without the oxygen.

Normally, the more brain
damage you're going to have,

and it's progressive
until it's restored.

CBS News: A new study may
provide answers

to the age old question

What happens to our brains
when we die?

Dr. Zemmar: The brain has always
been the most fascinating

and the most interesting

organ to me
because to the world

it is completely
unexplored.

I was working in Vancouver
at the Vancouver

General Hospital.

This was the 87 year
old gentleman.

He came during
the emergency shift

with a bleed between
the brain and the skull.

We call it
a subdural hematoma.

And we decided to operate.

We removed the skull.

We removed the bleeding.

He did fairly well
after the surgery

for about three days.

And then he started
having seizures.

So we went and applied
an EEG to see

where the seizures
are coming from

and how to treat them.

Once we had this applied,

he had a heart
attack and died.

So that left us with

the rare recording
of the human brain

that went from a life
to death.

It's the first ever
recording of a dying human

brain, one that happened
entirely by chance.

We've heard about people

before who have faced
near death experiences.

Describe this moment

where they were
the important moments

in their life
flashed before their head.

Is that
what we're talking about?

Is that what this is?

- Dr.
From what
this case of

One tells us

all the things
they are consistently

being described
by people who undergo

near-death experience.

These guys have exhibited
these brain waves

that exactly the same ones
we're measuring

when we record the activity
of this patient

30 seconds

before the heart stops
beating

and 30 seconds after
the heart stops beating,

that we found
was quite astonishing.

After searching
and searching,

we had not found anybody
at the time when we wrote

the manuscript
and submitted it

that had full brain
recordings

from the dying human brain.

Under acute
clinical environments.

brain waves
are always present

in our brain.

They differ in frequency,

meaning how many times
per second they oscillate.

The high frequency waves
are called gamma waves.

Then the lower ones
we call them

beta, theta,
alpha and delta waves.

Those are slower
frequent oscillations.

We found
an increased interplay

of these oscillatory bands
with each other.

We looked at how this,
for example,

theta waves that are
known for memory recall,

how do they couple
with gamma waves?

And we found an increased
coupling of the

two after a heart
stopped beating.

The brain is a prediction
machine that is designed

for survival.

So we see something,

we interpret the signal,

we generate a response

in all kinds of responses
that the brain generates.

The only one we can measure
right now is movement.

We can't measure
what we call thinking.

Can you measure emotions?

Feelings?

I don't know what
to answer you.

We can't measure
all these things.

We know that the brain
somehow does these things.

We may never understand

what exactly happens.

And maybe that's not the most

important thing either.

If the science

can contribute even
a minute percentage

and can shed light

on the nature
of the human brain dying.

If I could go to
my patients

and I could tell them,

it may be that your loved
one is replaying

some of the memories
of their life.

It somehow
makes things easier.

It tells them
they're not suffering.

That, I think, would help
patients in that

tremendously
difficult time.

Growing up in South Korea.

I grew up in a
Buddhist home.

Ever since the age
of six, seven,

I was asking questions
like, Why are humans made?

Why are we born?

What is the purpose
of mankind?

Why am I here?

The Buddhist
monks at the temple

would say things like,
Oh yeah, Steve,

you can go to heaven,
you can go to hell,

come back,

you can get reincarnated

into an animal
or a different species.

They taught you how to do
right and do wrong,

and try to earn
your salvation.

My mother, who was trained
as a registered nurse,

she got recruited

by a VA veterans
hospital in Boston.

You know, she prepared
the way for us to come.

So I came with my younger
brother in elementary school.

The older I got,

middle school and
even up to freshman year,

and I remember
feeling a lot of confusion.

I remember looking
in the mirror and saying,

How come I'm the only one?

How come I have
to be Korean?

And it was a big struggle
and led me to become

a little rebellious.

Like I joined the garage
band. I tried to...

I think I tried
a little harder

than others
to try to fit in.

And I just remember,
you know, always feeling

a little empty, feeling
confusion and emptiness.

You know, from high school.

I remember
in the summer of 1998,

we will get high
in the morning,

in the afternoon, in the
evening, the whole summer.

I don't remember
being sober for an hour.

And my mom and brother
were getting super worried.

I called the Buddhist
temple for help.

They didn't help either.

So I realized, like,

this is something that is
beyond my power ability to

to to save myself from.

You know, people
say when they see demons

or evil spirits,
they might think

somebody comes
with a pitchfork and horns.

But I had an open eye

vision of all Asian
grandpa coming.

He's talking to me
like I'm talking to you.

He said, Hey, Steve,
I know you're

having a hard time.

If you commit suicide
and take your own life,

then I can give you 50,000
less years of hell.

And I'm like,
That's a great deal.

I went to the kitchen.

I grabbed the biggest
knife I could find.

Got on my knees.

So I grabbed a knife

and I cut my
neck open here,

which, you know,
was very painful.

My mom sees the
event happening,

so she calls 911.

The cops came,
and then there's

the Grandpa spirit is
still there speaking to me,

says, Steve,
you got to hurry up.

You're going
to miss your chance.

Go for the stomach.

So I cut my stomach open,
which actually is,

you know, the scars
go down all the way here.

I lost a big part
of my blood.

The cops came
and whacked me with a bat.

I dropped the knife.

I remember
losing consciousness.

The whole living was
bloody red.

My mom was crying.
I remember hearing her.

They put me
in the stretcher

because already I'm
very damaged.

I'm losing blood,
like at a very fast rate

and I'm going in of conscious.

The grandpa spirits gone

and then it was just into
the unknown after that.

I remember coming out,

seeing my body and then
seeing the E.R. room.

I remember going through
just darkness, like even

seeing rocks and stones
around me just falling.

It just felt like I was
falling in an elevator.

And I don't know how to
put it into words exactly,

but I knew I was going
to a different place.

There was still real,

more real than anything
here on Earth.

I was still fully
conscious.

Everything's happening,

but now it's like

there's different
set of rules,

there's a different set
of awarenesses.

And you're saying
goodbye to Earth.

I knew I was saying
goodbye to Earth.

And going to
another place of eternity.

And then God came to me
and like a ball of light,

that became
like a triangle.

Behind it I saw the city,

I looked up and it was
glittering like gold.

The walls were gold.

I don't know how it works,

but it's definitely
a place we go.

I heard a voice
before I woke up.

I love you.

And I open my eyes and I'm
in the emergency room.

I was like,
Oh my God, I'm alive.

So first of all, I was
so thankful I was alive.

I look around,
my mom's there,

she's crying, grabbing
my hand, son, you know,

you, you regained
consciousness.

And I was still trying
to process what happened,

but I just knew
I was back on Earth.

They said it took two
surgeries to cover

the blood vessels
that were cut.

A specialist had to fly in
at the last minute,

and if he was late,
they told me I would

have been bye, bye forever.

My heart and blood wouldn't
go back up.

We just kept
sinking, sinking, sinking,

during the whole surgery.

And they said
it was a miracle.

Good timing.

I know one thing, we all
live once and die once.

And there is
judgment after.

Dr. Sabom: I think
that there are

a lot of people that do
take advantage of this.

The novelty
and the fascination

of this experience.

We're all to die
and we all want to know

what's going to happen
once that happens.

So, I mean,

this is speaking to us all.
And of great importance.

That can be abused.

Some of these these cases

are transmitted through

several different people
before they get in print.

And they get
a lot of attention

because they're fantastic.

But what I've tried to

do is remove
some of the subjectivity

to these experiences.

And put data out there

that's been scientifically,
rigorously collected.

There's no way
you can verify

the transcendental part
of the experience.

The person feels like they go

to an otherworldly
environment

as opposed
to their environment

right there in the room
with them.

Mr. Burke: What really convinced
me and what convinced

many skeptical doctors,
oncologist, cardiologist,

is that when people
initially leave their body,

they say that many times

they were in the room

still where they were being
resuscitated or worked on

many times up

near the ceiling,
looking down, watching.

They felt incredible peace,
even though

it was chaotic.

oftentimes in the room

where they were
working on their body,

When they would come back,

they were able to give
corroborative evidence

that they actually saw

what was going on
in the room,

even though
they were unconscious

at the time they
were worked on.

They shouldn't have
been able to see this.

Dr. Sabom: Autoscopic means
self-visualization.

They were visualizing
themself from the ceiling,

lying in bed, lifeless,
or being resuscitated.

That is the verifiable part

of a near-death experience,
where you can go back

and either verify what
they said they saw

or what
actually occurred.

And that's what I wanted.

That was the main thing

that got me hooked
on this thing.

And I paid
very little attention

to the tunnel, the light,
the deceased relatives

and friends,
the religious figures.

For me as a
cardiologist, scientist,

and a physician,

I wanted some verification,

I wanted
some medical records.

I wanted to talk to people
who had been there

and seen what had
happened in the room.

Dr. Greene: Back in
the early 1990s,

when I was a resident
training and neurosurgery

at Phoenix and at the Barrow
Neurological Institute,

one of the best places
to go in the world.

It was a destination center
for neurosurgery.

I was on the Chairman
Service,

Dr. Robert Spetzler

and Dr. Spetzler is
world renowned.

There was a patient
who came to him

named Pamela Reynolds,

Dr. Spetzler: What we're looking
at is the aneurysm that she had.

Which is at the very
base of the brain.

This is the balloon
that can burst

and cause this
incredible catastrophe.

It's all the way at the
very base of the brain.

And that is why it's so

incredibly difficult
to get there.

Dr. Greene: The anatomical
location of the basal

artery is a neurosurgeons
no man's land.

She underwent an operation.

Again,

pretty unusual operation
called cardiac standstill.

I came in several times
into the operating room

because it's a cardiac

standstill case
and they're fascinating.

Dr. Sabom: If you were going to
do a laboratory experiment,

this is the perfect
experiment.

She was put on the
operating room table

and immediately put under
general anesthesia.

Dr. Greene: The cardiac
standstill operation requires

teams of medical providers,
surgical providers,

all of which is designed to:

1. drop the temperature of
a person's body.

2. Drain out all the blood
out of their body.

3. Keep them in a state
of suspended animation,

shut down brain function.

And you've actually
stopped the heart.

Dr. Sabom: They had these things
in her ears

that emitted 95 to 100
decibel clicks.

If the click went off

and you saw spike
on the EEG

that was measuring
the brain stem,

then you knew
the brainstem was active.

Dr. Greene: No heart
that's beating,

a brain that's no
longer functioning.

Dr. Sabom: And what they had to
do is get it

so that those clicks
were eliciting no

brainstem reactivity, i.e.

it was flatlined.

So was pretty
much totally isolated

from the environment
physically.

And medically,
she was in a--

that's why they call
procedure standstill.

Everything
was at a standstill.

Tom Wilkinson: She would be
clinically dead

for a whole hour
of the operation.

Dr. Sabom: She had a three part
near-death experience.

The first part
was out-of-body,

autoscopic part,

When Spetzler first started
up the brain saw

she heard the conversation
between Spetzler and

the surgeon

about the artery
being too small

in her right
femoral artery,

and they had to switch
over to the left.

The visual part.

She saw the bone saw,
which I didn't even know

what it looked like myself
as a cardiologist.

And I was then
looking down at the body.

I knew it was my body,
but I didn't care.

My vantage
point was sort of

sitting on the doctor's
shoulder.

I remember the instrument
in his hand.

It looked like the handle
of my electric toothbrush.

Dr. Sabom: And then she said
that there was this tray

of instruments
to the right of Spetzler,

that it looked like
the socket wrench set that

her father used to have.

And then the other stuff
was the same autoscopic.

And in between
those two experiences,

which she relates

the experience
as a continuous experience,

she had the transcendental
experience.

I felt a presence.

I sort of turned around

to look at a
pin-point of light.

Dr. Sabom: Well, how do you know
the transcendental

experience happened

when the blood was drained
out of her head?

Well, you don't.

All you can do is infer it.

You can't prove it.

The other two are
time anchored.

The middle is not.

Dr. Greene: Pam came back,

I believe,
the following day.

As with every patient,
I'm rounding on her

in the intensive care unit
before the chairman rounds

and she's awake
talking with me.

You know, usually ask the

typical questions
How are you feeling?

after that tube was removed
from her by extubation

and she was able
to control her airway

and she was becoming
more lucid?

Well, she
had a lot to talk about.

She began to

describe some details
about her operation.

And as she spoke,

I became spooked.

She talked about her
blood vessels and her

groin, being canulated
and being too small.

She talked about her
heart being shocked twice.

Giving me details that
she just shouldn't know.

I sort of put the kibosh
on the conversation.

"Pam, you need
to get some rest.

I'll come back later."

I went to my chairman

and told Dr. Spetzler,

"You need to talk
with Pam Reynolds.

She's describing stuff that
she just shouldn't know.

This ain't right."

Functionally speaking,

Pam, was dead.

Dr. Moody: Typically, when
people are coming out of a dream

in the morning,

they feel like they're
coming back to reality.

But people who have
a near-death experience

say that is they
go into that experience,

it's this life
that becomes dreamlike.

People feel that
when they, from the world's

point of view, are dying,
they actually are waking up

to a reality that
this state of existence

that we're in now
seemed like a dream or

as though you're asleep.

Dr. Sabom: I think
the near-death

experience is where
science meets religion.

There is a big difference
between proof and evidence.

This is all evidence,

but enough evidence
at some point

makes it so close to proof
that most people would say

it's right,

it's real.

I got to watch what I say
because I don't want to

unnecessarily
alienate people.

I think skepticism is good

skepticism, true
skepticism.

But rigidity is not.

In other words,
if you have an

ideological opposition
to something

and you fight tooth
and nail to support it,

or at least advocate it

and refuse
to look at the other side,

that's not being objective.

Dr. Long: There's a lot
about the afterlife

that we don't know
for sure.

We'll all know for real
only after we die.

And not completely
before then.

Mr. Burke: There have been lots
of alternate theories

fighter pilots syndrome.

You're pulling G's,

It feels like you're
going through a tunnel.

Some say

psychedelic drugs like
DMT or LSD or mescaline,

vibrant colors and, and,

maybe going to
another place,

Dr. Long: You name it, DMT,
Ketamine, LSD,

those are

generally illicit
substances that produce

hallucinatory effects.

And in fact, many people

that take these
illicit substances

and the difference between
the experience they have

and the typical near-death
experience

is very striking.

Mr. Burke: The problem is that

all of those might describe
one aspect.

You have people
and we're talking thousands

and thousands of people
all around the globe, old,

young, sighted
people, blind people.

And they're saying
the same thing,

though on the other side,
blind people can see

they have to adjust to it,
to describing things

that they see, but
they see the same things.

And there was one study
done with 23 blind people,

14 of them
blind from birth,

two of them that I report

about describe the light
coming out of everything.

Dr. Long: There's the near-death
experience of Marta.

She was a five-year-old
girl and totally blind.

Marta went into a lake
and drowned,

and her consciousness rose
above her body.

She described vividly
details of birds' feathers,

birds' eyes,
details on telephone poles.

It's remarkable to me
how someone totally blind

can be fascinated

by mundane
things that you and I

would not consider
to be so exciting.

Seeing this
for the first time

while she's unconscious

and below the
surface of the water

and yet having a
near-death experience.

Mr. Burke: So how do you get
a lucid experience

that happens both
for people who have had

hallucinogenic

drugs potentially
in the hospital or,

you know, anesthesia,

But they're saying

the same things as those
who have had no anesthesia

and the same things
that little kids say,

the same things that people
from different

religious
backgrounds and cultures

say you don't have mass
hallucinations.

The moment
the truck struck me,

I was standing
at the gates of Heaven.

And it was magnificent.

It was like the
inside of an oyster.

It was pearl and dazzling,

almost like it was living.

It just looked that way
because of the light

reflecting off the gate.

Heaven is light.

God is light.

It's... it's astounding.

One of the most
difficult things

about talking about heaven

is that you have to do it
with earthly words,

and there are no earthly
words that do it justice.

Mr. Black: I did think
for a moment, okay, I died.

Okay, I'm gone.

And was I sad?

No, not at all.

I wasn't worried

about my mom or dad

or what they would think
or my--, nothing.

I was only looking forward
to where I was going

and it was nothing but joy
and peace, love and unity.

I was surrounded by people
I knew and loved in life.

The first person
I saw was my grandfather.

I was very close
to my grandfather.

The last time I saw him,
he was in a casket.

At his funeral, he did
not look good.

Now I'm standing
at the gates of Heaven,

and there he is
to greet me.

And he looked really good.

He extended his hands to me

and spoke a language
I've never heard before,

but fully understood and
said, Welcome home, Donnie.

Mr. Black: I recognized this
group of people.

These people are looking
at me with such love.

They're all seemingly
at the prime of their life.

And these people

were greeting me
and they were so delighted

that I was there,

Dr. Neal: And I knew that they
were there for me,

to welcome me,
to greet me, to to love me,

to make me feel known.

And I knew that
they had known loved me

as long as I've existed.

The music was phenomenal.

Thousands of songs at the
same time without chaos,

all manner of music,

instrumental,

choruses,

Astoundingly,
they just invade you.

I mean, you're permeated
by the music.

My senses were
incredibly vivid,

you know, touch and taste
and feel and hearing.

It was just all.

It's just the most
real thing

that's ever happened to me.

After I greeted
the people, they parted

and I could see
through the gate.

There was
a long boulevard that

really bisects the city

and it appears
to be constructed of gold.

So many of the things
that we experience here

are there,
but much infinitely

more glorious and perfect.

I wanted to climb that hill

and fall at the
feet of the great

God of all
creation and say,

"Thank you for
letting me come."

That was my objective.

Mr. Burke: Not every near-death
experience is a good one.

23% of those who come
forward talking about them

talk about how they had
hellish experiences.

At that time,

I, I felt really empty.

It just seemed like
the best thing to do

was just to die
at that point.

If I die,
then it's game over.

And if I die, then the pain
and the suffering,

the depression,

the darkness,
all this is going to stop.

Well,
if I do enough cocaine,

then maybe my heart
will stop beating

because it feels like it's
racing out of my chest.

And I didn't see
a bright light.

I saw a black tunnel.

It felt like somebody
grabbed me and dropped me

in this outer darkness.

As I started racing down
this tunnel,

it seemed like infinity.

It was like
a bottomless pit.

I don't know how,
but I was no longer high.

All my senses
were at 1,000.

I knew that I had died,

and it was one of
the scariest moments

in my entire life.

And I'm racing
down this tunnel

that seems like forever,

like a thousand miles an hour

as I'm just freefalling.

If I'm going to hell,
there's got to be a mistake

because I never
killed anybody.

I didn't rob a bank.

I mean, I'm a good person.

I'm not a bad guy.

The only person I hurt
was myself.

When I began to justify
how good I was,

it went faster

like 2,000 miles an hour.

It speeded up the process.

Like, now you're
really going to Hell.

I remember at that point
I cried out

with all desperation.

I said, "God, you need to
come help me right now.

because I need you.

If you really exist,
I need your help.

So you got to come help me.

Please, God,
I need your help."

Mr. Storm: In the bed

that I had been in
was this big slab of meat.

And when I looked
at the face,

it bore an amazing
resemblance to me.

And I could not understand

how that could resemble me.

But I was perfectly
well standing there,

perfectly alive,
looking at this,

hunk of meat.

The other thing
that bothered me was that

my wife would not
respond to me.

Well, at first I started
talking in a nice voice,

and then I started yelling
at her, like, you know,

what the
hell is going on here?

Look at me. Talk to me.

You know,
I'm all better.

You know, what's that
thing in the bed?

How did it get there?

I was very upset,
very distressed.

And then I heard people out
in the hallway

outside the well-lit room

in the darkish-gray,
hazy hallway.

And there was
a group of people standing

outside the light
of the room in the hallway.

I said, "I'm sick.

I need a doctor."

And they said, "We know.

We know all about you.

It's time for you to
come with us."

So I thought that they were

hospital personnel
to take me to a doctor.

When I left the room

and went into the hall,

I can't explain how I knew,

I couldn't go back
into the room.

The door didn't close,

but I knew that
it was impossible

for me to go back
into the light of the room.

So I hesitated and
the people became very...

Hurry up,
Let's go. Let's go.

We can't wait anymore.
You know.

We've been here a long time
waiting for you.

Hurry up.

So I gave in
and went with them

and they immediately
surrounded me

and moved me forward
into that greyness.

As we moved along,
I could not perceive walls,

ceiling, any
feature at all.

And we walked
and walked and walked.

And after a while
I was like, okay,

this hospital's
not that big, you know?

I mean, we walked miles
now, and it's like,

where's the stairs?

You know,
where's the up and down?

Where's the walls?
And there was nothing.

We just walked and walked.

So I was asking the people

around me like,
this isn't the hospital,

This isn't right, you know,
where are we?

Stuff like that, and,

their response
was, "Shut up, be quiet.

Keep moving.

Move, move, move!"

They'd say,
"You're going to find out.

You'll find out.

You're going to get there."

There was a lot of
people around us,

possibly hundreds,

I don't know.
They were

being very vulgar, very
threatening, very scary.

I'm in abject darkness.

I have absolutely no
idea which way

is forward, backward.
I mean,

all I knew was I wanted to
get away from them.

They said, "No,
you've got further to go."

And they started to push
and shove me.

And I fought back.

They began by punching,
shoving, kicking.

And then they started
biting, scratching

and tearing me apart, literally.

disemboweling me,
gouging my eyes.

And it was all accompanied

with a great deal
of laughter and joy.

I thought about

my whole life
and everything seemed like

what was the point.

And I realized
that my relationships

with my mother
and father were a disaster.

My relationship with
my sisters wasn't good.

My relationship with
my wife was very troubled.

I was not proud or pleased

with my relationship
with my two children.

I sank into

a pit of despair
and hopelessness

that I can't begin
to describe.

My mind offered up a memory
of myself as a little boy

going to a Sunday school
singing "Jesus Loves Me"

When I was a little boy

and I was afraid,
like having nightmares

at night or whatever,
I would pray to Him and

He would chase the
lions and tigers.

and bears away.

And as a child,
it was, like, mostly

in the image
of like a superhero.

Jesus was like a superhero.

And so...

that's it.

That was all I knew.

So I called out to him
in complete desperation,

A tiny little star
appeared in the sky,

and very rapidly
it got brighter

and brighter and brighter.

Mr. Black: I started moving

helplessly
without direction.

I had nothing to do
with this.

I started moving
out of the room.

I next realized that

I have left the hospital
and now I'm traveling

almost like a rocket ship,
just moving

out of this atmosphere.

As if in deep space.

Mr. Storm: I realized we were
not on the ground anymore.

We were moving upward,
straight upwards.

So I've got my face
buried in His chest

hanging on to Him.

I'm like, I don't want to
let me go because I,

I'm afraid if I let go,

or if he lets go, I'm
going to fall back

into that horrible
place again.

Mr. Black: And there was a beam
of light that was lighting

the pathway
of where I was going.

My whole life
flashed in front of me

as big as the sky,

Mr. Black: Tiny spheres
of light.

They weren't planets,
they weren't stars.

These were beings
going to Earth

Mr. Storm: Where we were going
is what I first thought

was a galaxy.
A huge world of light.

Mr. Black: The light that
I'm looking at,

is coming from none
other than God Himself.

Inside the light was life,

And inside
that light was love.

And my body is
still on Earth.

My brain and eyeballs
are back there.

But, I'm sensing
and discerning

all of these things.

When you leave this earth

and you step into
the eternity,

everything is
crystal clear.

Mr. Black: I knew I was coming
to this holy area

and obviously

it took another second
to connect the dots.

This is Heaven.

Mr. Storm: And he spoke to me

for the first time
in his voice,

but it was telepathic
but it wasn't

a thought of mine.

It was his voice
in my head.

And then he said,
I've got some people

that I want you to meet.

They've recorded your life

and they want
show you your life.

So they proceeded to

show me my life
in chronological order.

What I saw, to
summarize it, was

happy youth

pretty much

going to adolescence,
everything going sour,

particularly
with my relationship

with my father.

Because of my father's
cruelty to me,

I was cruel back.

My father was physically
and emotionally abusive

every day to my mother,
my sisters and to me.

I mean, it never stopped.

The only way
that I could deal with it

was to try
and not feel anything.

And all he wanted for me

was to be
a little duplicate of him,

you know,
just be subservient to him.

You know,
being being disobedient

had immediate
physical consequences

of being kicked
or punched or hit.

And I saw myself striving

to become emotionless
and feeling-less,

which was a way for
me to protect myself

from being hurt.

As I became
more manipulative

and successful,

the more the angels
and Jesus expressed

their disappointment

and sadness
with me and my life.

And it really hurt
to disappoint them

because I here

I have these newfound
friends, my big rescuer,

you know, best friend
I ever had.

And I'm-- and I'm
looking at my life

and I'm a big, huge
disappointment.

and you should put me back.

I don't belong here.

You know,
you've made a mistake.

I don't belong here.

And he said,
"We don't make mistakes.

You do belong here."

Dr. Neal: At this point.

I had had

a number of operations and

I was finally able
to be upright instead of

wheelchair bound.

But I,

wasn't
able to walk very well.

When I was
sent back to my body,

I knew that
sharing my experiences

with other people
was part of the deal.

I knew that part of that
was writing about them.

And so I woke up

and I spent the
next week or so

getting up at three
or four in the morning and

writing for a few hours
before the morning routine.

And so I, you know,
made my final revisions.

And when I hit
the save button,

I took my youngest son, who
was still living at home

into town to get ice cream
so we could celebrate.

And so as we were
driving into town

to celebrate,
I called my older boys

because my oldest son
and his brother

were at the time
living in Maine.

They were ski training.

And I called them

to share this great news.

And the coach
answered the phone

and told me that Willie
had just been hit

by a car and killed.

and um,

I mean,

I reacted

like any mother would.

The depth of my spiritual
knowledge,

does not protect me
from grief.

It doesn't protect me from

sorrow or any of
those things.

The depth of pain,

of losing a child is,

I don't think, a

pain that can be
replicated by

any other human
experience.

I mean, I was devastated

And it all stopped

just as quickly I arrived.

That accident happened
at 11:45 in the morning.

I arrived at Hermann
Memorial Hospital

at like 6:15 that night.

So they went and got my
wife out of her classroom,

brought it down
to the office

and told her the news.

And I walked down the
hall and into the office,

and our assistant principal

came out
from around her desk

and just wrapped me
in this hug.

And she says, "Don's
been in an accident."

And that's all that
we knew.

I was taken into surgery
that evening

and was in surgery
for 12 hours.

The next day

was when I realized
I was in the recovery room.

The emergency room
had called

and the nurse said,
he can't hold the phone,

but I'm going to put it
next to his ear

so he can hear you.

And I started with
the questions,

"Are you okay?
What happened?

Do I need to
come out there?"

just, you know, rambling
sort of things.

And all I could hear
him say was,

"I just want to go home.

I just want to go home."

Later, I understood

that he meant his
Heavenly home.

Had I had a choice,

I would not have
come back here.

I mean, I've had 30
wonderful years here,

but I would still rather
be there.

I know what happens next,

and it's it's always
better there

than it will ever be here.

So I didn't really want to
come back, but

I didn't get a choice.

He went into a deep
depression.

And I would go in, and
he would just lay there.

He wouldn't talk to me.
He wouldn't acknowledge me.

I would bring papers
to grade.

I would sit over in the
corner and grade

and stay there
till about 11:00

almost every night.

And then I'd tell him
goodnight,

and I'd leave.

And it was hurtful, because
I thought, you're alive.

You know, you're alive.
You're back with us.

Don't you love us enough to

be glad to be back with us?

And to me, that
was harder to deal with.

The depression was harder
to deal with

than the physical injuries,
which were massive.

And I remember one night,

I thought, you know what?

I'm going to go home
early tonight,

and I'm going to take
a warm shower,

and I'm going to
crawl in the bed,

and get a good
night's sleep.

So I gathered up
all my stuff,

and I just said,

well, I guess I'll
see you tomorrow.

No response.

That night, something

clicked inside of me,
and I had had it.

And I dropped
that book bag,

and I stomped my way over
to the side of the bed,

and I let him have it.

What is wrong with you?

Why aren't
you glad to see us?

Why aren't you glad
that you're back with us?

It was just--
it just tumbled out.

And so I grabbed
my stuff up,

and I'm walking
out the door.

And there was a big mirror
next to his bed.

And I looked over there,
and he was crying.

Just tears.

So I walked myself back
over, and I kind of had to-

he had so many metal
things that we had kind of

got my way in and I just
wrapped him in my arms.

And I said, It's
going to be okay.

And I realized then that

I had to accept that
sometimes

he was going through things
I didn't understand.

Mr. Storm: Finally,

I got through it.

Jesus said,
"Do you have any questions?"

I said, "I've got a million
questions."

He said,
"What do you want to know?"

So I asked him
everything that

I could think of to know,

And if we went
through that,

it would
take us several years.

And He gave me a whole

new understanding
of everything.

I said, "Great,

Now that I understand,
I want to go to heaven."

He said, "um um,

You're not ready
for Heaven yet."

Finally, I said, "What do
you want me to do?"

"I want you to love
the person

that you're with."

I said, "Okay, yeah,
but then what

do you want me to do
after I do that?"

And He said, "No, that's
what I want you to do."

I said, you know, "What
good is that going to do?"

He said, "It's going to
change the world."

And I said, "That's
going to change the world?

I don't think so, no."

I said,
"You don't understand.

The world is like
a terrible, cruel place.

Even if I love someone,
they're just going to go

get beat up somewhere else
and not going to--"

He said, "No, if you
love someone,

they'll take that love
out into the world

and maybe they'll love
somebody and it'll

grow and grow and grow."

I said, "It's not going to
work."

And He said,
"It's God's plan.

It's going to work."

Well, when he pulls out
the God's plan work,

you know,

I mean, like,
what can you say?

And so finally I conceded.

and I said, "Okay,
I'll go back."

And with that, bang,

I'm in the body,
I'm in the bed.

The nurse who'd
been in the room

comes in and says,

a doctor has arrived
at the hospital and

we're going to prepare you
for surgery.

When I awoke,

I knew that
what had happened to me

was the most
important thing in my life.

Because now my life had
real meaning and purpose.

I was very, very weak.

I had been in
surgery for hours.

I'd spent
most of the morning

trying to think of how
I was going

to tell my wife
what had happened.

I said to her,
"It's all love."

She said, "I love you."

And I said, "I know you
love me, but it's all love."

She said, "What are you
talking about?"

And I said, "It's
an ocean of love.

And you have to just go in

into that ocean of love
and be a part of it."

And she said, "Okay, honey,

Try to get some rest."

Here I am. I'm I' giv--

I'm giving her
the abbreviated

wisdom of God.

And she's basically
telling me,

you know,
you're making no sense.

It's crazy talk.

From that day forward,

I tried to tell people
about God, Heaven, Hell,

what I'd experienced,
and nobody,

nobody took me
seriously at all.

I was a zealot.

I was a complete zealot.

And it was

not good
for my relationship

with my kids
because the more that they

did not respect what
I was trying to tell them

and the more they told me
I was nuts and crazy

and stuff like that,
the more...

it totally alienated them

from the Bible,
from God, from me.

I mean, it was completely
counterproductive.

It was a disaster.

My wife left me.

She poisoned the
kids against me.

They've rejected me.

They don't want anything
to do with me.

They think I'm a crazy man.

It's all going to work out.

I know that God works
stuff out.

It just doesn't happen
on our time frame.

I mean, I'd like it now.

It's not happening
right now,

but it could happen
tomorrow.

It might take a long time.

I don't know,

A couple of years
down the road

when I found out

about the Heaven
experience,

people have asked me,

"Aren't you mad that
he didn't tell you?"

Not really.

I was relieved
because now I understand.

You know,
if you've been to Heaven,

why would you want to be
back in the pain

that he was in?

I found myself
on a daily basis

with all these devices
attached to me

and unable to move at all.

I couldn't do a
single solitary thing

for myself at all.

38 and then 39 year old man

who was completely
helpless.

Why?

You let me see that,

And you brought
me back to this.

What is going on here?

What was the purpose
of this?

Dr. Moody: In my studies
of psychiatry,

I quickly realized
that practically

everybody
is chasing something.

Some chase fame
or money or power.

But what I quickly realized
in talking with people

who had near-death
experiences

is that whatever
they were chasing

before this experience,
convinced them that

what life is all
about is learning to love.

Mr. Burke: And they all come
back all around the globe

with the same "aha".
That God is love.

And that how we treat and
love one another

is what matters
most to God.

You have people

who have these experiences
and come back

and their life
is radically changed.

Mr. Storm: When I came back

one of the things I knew
I wanted

to make friends
with my dad.

Not only was
I able to forgive my father

because I understood
that he was just messed up

because of his messed up
childhood.

All my father
really wanted to do

was to be loved but he

didn't know how to do that
in an appropriate way.

So he tried to be loved
in inappropriate ways.

He thought obedience
and discipline.

And my mother
and my sisters

were really angry with me

because they all told me
several times

"You and Dad
hated each other

and now you're
his best friend. Why?"

And I'd say, "Because
he's my dad."

Grace is passed along
and passed along

and passed along.
And it's powerful.

It's powerful because
people change lives

for the good.

They find hope, peace,
love, joy, contentment.

You know.

And they also find

God and eternal life.

Dr. Neal: When I was being shown

the ripple effect
of my own actions

and my own words,
I was able to see this

20, 25, 35 times
removed from me.

That's

a big distance.

I understood all the hurts
and sorrows and dreams.

Everything that had brought
me to that point in time

when I may have hurt
someone else.

I also had this complete
understanding

of the back story

or the, you know,
the life story

of the other
people involved

and everything
that had brought them

to that moment in time
where they hurt me

or they
hurt someone I loved

What we
each say and what we

each do and the choices
we make matter.

They really do.

Dr. Neal: When I talk
about my son's death,

I know that he went home,

and I'm sure that he didn't
want to come back either.

I'm sure he was reassured
that we would be fine.

When my time
on earth is done,

my oldest son
will be there to greet me,

my father, my stepfather.

I now know

other people who have died,
people who I love, people

who are important
in my life.

I don't see

us here on Earth, and God's
world is over here.

I think we exist
in the midst of it.

I had the most

overwhelming sense
of being home,

of being where
I really belong,

where we
really belong, all of us.

It took about a few
months to recover fully.

I was still feeling
the pain,

feeling a little down,
depressed. Seeing Hell

and Heaven, changed me to
kind of prioritize others.

So at the age of 35,
I joined the Army Reserves.

I became a chaplain.

People just
came back from war

and you could tell
that they had

a very heartbroken
experience

or a psychological damage,
or the atrocities of war.

So we did a lot
of counseling.

We would pick up
phone calls at two,

three in the morning,

go with them to training,
hang out with them.

I would tell them that
there's hope.

I would tell them that
depression is not forever.

I believe
all over the world,

there are so many unique

NDEs, near-death
experiences,

and so many cultures

and backgrounds, American
or not,

all types of religions,
because

death is as real as life.

And I believe God
in his mercy,

no matter what
religious background

you are, allows you
to go through that

so that you can seek Him
in the process.

I don't know why
some people survive

and some people don't.

I wish.

I wouldn't have survived.

I've had some
very real things

happen to me on Earth.

The birth
of five grandchildren,

seeing my children
all graduate.

I mean, it's
been glorious in many ways,

but nothing compares
to Heaven.

It's just, that's
the most real thing.

That is my reality.

This is not.

Mr. Burke: What do we have

more in common
as humanity than death?

And to know that there is
hope beyond this life,

that there truly is beauty,

and relationship and love

and adventure ahead.

You know, that

all of our our history
and our memories,

they don't end and we don't
become something else.

It goes on.

Dr. Sabom: People ought to
keep an open mind

to what's going on,

not accept everything
they hear

from people, from me,
from anybody.

Be skeptical,
ask questions,

think about it.

There are things that we
can't explain, and I think

it needs to be documented
as much as we can.

Documentation's important.
Without that,

it's an interesting story,
and that's it.

We can only do so much.

You know,
we're human beings

and we do the best we can.

I think
most people really do.

We don't have
all the answers,

and I don't think we ever
will have all the answers.

In the scientific realm.

What is a human
soul? Is a human soul?

does it live after death?

I don't think science
is going

to answer those questions.

I think all of these
near-death experiences

suggest that
that's possible.