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- Hello?

- Hello, Basia.

- How are you?

- Fine, and you?

So should we begin?

- Yeah, I'm ready.

- OK.

- I think this week was better.

- Mhm.

- I've been sticking to the exercise you showed me

last week, and I've been coping a lot better with stress

at work.

- Mhm.

- And I find it easier now to relax in the evening,

as well, which is nice.

- Yeah, is that because of the meditation?

- I think it helps me a lot that I have a routine.

Having a meditation, then having a read, then go to bed,

don't be afraid of anything.

- Do you find it easy to meditate or difficult?

- Um, it's a bit hard at the beginning, when you start.

- Mhm.

- But-- but then I get into it pretty quickly.

- Why do you find it difficult at the beginning?

- It's just silly, I think.

It feels silly.

- OK.

That's very normal.

After a few weeks, you'll--

you'll definitely be able to get used to it.

In fact, you'll start to really see a lot of benefits from it.

And it looks as if you-- you know,

as if you are seeing quite a few benefits.

- Yes, though sometimes I feel like I'm

waking up with this strange feeling, you know?

- Anxiety, would you say?

Or is it dread?

- Yeah, a little bit, yeah.

I'm just hoping it's gonna just keep

getting better, and better, and better, every day.

- Of course, yes.

Well, it will.

But it will take time.

This isn't something that's going to happen overnight.

You have to work for it.

- No, I understand.

- You know, you're doing very well.

And I've seen other patients, you know,

who have taken much longer to--

to get to where you are.

And I'm very-- I'm very happy.

I'm very proud, but we still have a lot of work to do,

and we still--

we still need to go deeper, and we still

need to understand a lot more.

So I'd like to move to the next level of this therapy.

- Yeah, go ahead.

- Do you mind if I record the next--

- Yeah, of course.

- Part of of this session, though?

- No, no, no.

No problem.

- Fantastic.

I'd like us to try something new today.

- 1, 2, 3, 4.

Kick, 5, now 6, 7.

I'm gonna go the other way.

3, 4, 3, spin, 5, 6, 7, ripple 1, 2, slide, 3,

4, wait, 5, step, 6, 7, and 8.

From here, we're gonna push with our right arm.

We're stepping to the left.

7, stay there.

5, 6, 7, our elbows, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, and 1, 2, 3, 4, arms,

5 6, arms drop, 7, and good.

You're learning quick.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, step for 7, you guys, 1, 2, 3.

- Now, Basia, I want you to imagine you're

lying on a beach.

OK, you can feel the sun directly above you.

You can feel the salty air blowing

gently across your body.

You can hear perhaps children in the background,

the odd seagull flying over.

And I want you to hear the waves gently

lapping against the shore.

OK?

I really want you to experience being on the beach, feeling

very relaxed, very calm.

Now, I'm going to count down from 10.

It as I countdown from 10, the sun is going to slow set, OK?

So when we get to one, I'll snap my fingers

and you'll be completely asleep.

10, the sun is high.

The sun is warm.

You can hear the children laughing in the background.

You can hear the waves, and you can feel the warm breeze

blowing across your party.

9, the sun slowly moving through the sky.

You're feeling very relaxed.

8, you're moving deeper into a relaxed state.

6, the sun is almost half way down through the sky,

and the waves are lapping in a blissful state.

4, moving back into the distance,

you're sinking deeper and deeper into a sleep.

2, the sun is just dangling above the clouds.

The children's voices are now just a faint whisper,

as re the lapping waves.

1, now Basia is completely set.

You're feeling very relaxed.

I snap my fingers, you will be completely asleep.

So Basia, I want us to move back to a time of significance,

when you were a very young girl, OK?

It's a very, very happy time.

Can you tell me where you are?

- I see mummy.

She's sitting next to me.

I'm laughing.

She's so funny.

Is daddy there?

- No, he left.

- Oh, OK.

Well, why don't you tell me about mummy?

- She's my shapshuga.

- Shapshuga?

- My best friend.

- Ah, I see.

Your shapshuga.

Very good.

OK, now I'd like us to move to a significant event, OK?

Let's move to the last memory of your mother, OK?

I need you to be very brave.

So can you tell me what you see?

- I don't wanna go back.

- Oh, it's OK, Basia.

I'm right here.

You're very, very safe.

I need you to be really brave, OK?

Can you tell me what you see?

I'm lying on the floor.

I'm watching television.

Mummy told me to get changed, but I'm still in my uniform.

OK, where is mummy?

- She's int he kitchen, making my dinner.

I think something is wrong.

OK, Basia.

What do you do?

- I go--

I go into the kitchen, I'm coming!

But she's-- there's lots of blood.

Mummy.

Mummy, mummy!

No, no, mummy!

Mummy, mummy!

No, mummy!

No.

Now we're coming back into this room.

- Mummy, mummy!

Mummy.

- It's in the archive file?

It's not.

Yeah, in an hour?

I mean, yeah.

I haven't got any other work to do today.

OK, I'll see you tomorrow.

OK, bye.

Bye.

What a cunt.

- And-- and what's his problem?

Obviously, he's got some issues.

Maybe he is married.

No, I think you really talk to him.

Take your car down to the south of France,

you'll obviously have to park it when you get there.

Prices start at 20 pounds for one week, 38 pounds for 2.

Having your car means--

Afghanistan, it's reported

that in his resignation--

- 1, 2, 3, and 4, 5, 5, 6, 2, turn, 3, down, 5, 6, 7, and 8.

Oh good.

Come forwards.

OK, and 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, shoulder 1, 2,

step on your right, step on your left, and then

you shuffle that right up to the final count.

OK, so you want it to get right and out.

5, 6, 7, kick me, 1, and 2.

Try again, try again.

5, 6, 8-- nice!

- Ow! - OK, guys.

Before we carry on, are there any bits that anyone

wants to go through, any bits you want

me to explain in more depth?

- Yeah, is there a way of going on the floor a bit easier?

Because I've got a bad knee. - Yeah, of course.

Let me just come right there.

OK, So as we go down, just make sure that your hands

catch-- catch yourself.

Roll into your bum all the way, and let

that right knee take the pressure,

and then bring the left knee all the way up.

- Oh, I learned something.

There's a word.

It's like "kurwa."

- Oh, come on.

You know what it means.

- No, I know it's something not nice.

- No, it's very, very rude.

- Is it?

- Yes.

- How do you say it?

- No, I'm not gonna say that.

- Say it.

Why not?

Come on.

Say it.

I wanna hear it.

- Kurwa.

- Say it again.

Come on.

Oh, go on.

No.

- Kurwa.

- No, I can't say it.

- Say something else.

- OK.

- Something useful in life.

You Teach me-- how do you say "penis?"

- Something really strange happened to me last night.

I was in bed, and I tried to fall asleep.

But I keep hearing somebody laughing outside.

And I didn't know who that was.

And then I get really annoyed, because I

just wanted to go to sleep.

I keep hearing somebody.

- And then?

- Well, I'm awake anyway, so--

so I open my eyes--

and I open my eyes.

I realized it was me.

It was me laughing all this time.

Any dreams?

Any nightmares?

Because I remember last time you said

that they were debilitating.

Yeah, sometimes.

Not-- not as often.

And they are not as intense as before.

- Mhm. - So--

It's not gonna get better straight away.

It's gonna take time.

Right.

We've got--

we've got a lot of progress under our belt so far.

- In Poland, we celebrate Christmas

on the 24th, not the 25th.

- Oh really?

- Yeah.

- Why?

- Like, the supper is the most important meal.

- So do you not do anything on the 25th?

You don't have, like, a big family--

- No, you do, but-- but the kids open the presents on the 24th.

- Oh.

- After the supper.

We have family dinners.

I have dinner with my mom.

And then-- and then I can open the presents.

And that was on the 24th, not the 25th.

You must understand, I miss having

Polish Christmas, you know?

I miss my mom.

I remember sometimes my mom was crying.

And I didn't understand why she was crying.

I was just a kid.

I think I'm a lot like her.

Her sin is on me, somehow.

- You've been through a lot.

It's not like you don't have a reason to be upset.

Everybody gets down.

Everyone gets stressed.

- Yeah, I guess.

I guess you're right.

I know I have my good days.

I do really miss her, you know?

I miss her being in my life.

I've been missing her for such a long time.

I can't understand this.

- No!

No!

- Basia, let me explain something

about past experiences in your life, OK,

and how they affect you today.

Experiences that happened in your early life

are stored in the unconscious mind, OK?

And they have a direct relationship

to your conscious life, your conscious mind today.

So for example, relationships you may have, or feelings

you might have, or decisions you might make

are directly related to these unconscious experiences

that are stored in the mind.

Now, if a trauma happens in early life that's

too big for the young mind to process,

it compartmentalizes it.

Which means you can look at it as if unopened boxes are stored

in the attic of the mind, OK?

Now, as you get older, and the mind becomes more developed--

- Right.

- More aware of itself, it starts to explore the attic,

and finds these unopened boxes, and releases the traumas

that are stored inside, OK?

But it's good that these things are happening.

It's good that these things are coming out,

because it means we're getting to the root of the problem.

OK?

And all we want to do is throw out these boxes.

Hello.

- Good morning, Steven.

It's Kate. - Hey, Kate.

How's it going?

- Good, thank you.

I'm in the room now with Laura and Basia.

We're good to go if you are.

How you doing?

- Hi.

So how are we getting

on with the Geneva Project?

- OK, it's going really well.

In fact, Basia's been looking into this one for us.

Excellent.

So Basia, why don't you lead us through on the stairs?

Hello, you still there?

- Sorry, I need to go to the toilet.

Is everything all right?

- Um, Steven, Basia is all over that one.

It's all prepared.

What I'll get her to do is email it over in the morning.

In the meantime, let's--

Basia.

- There you go.

There's a coffee for you.

Thank you.

- You're welcome.

You're working--

- Put your hand on the floor.

- Right. - Then your butt in.

- Right.

- And then we just slide all the way down to the floor.

That's it.

Nice and relaxed.

Use that hand that's on the floor, push up,

and then we sit facing back.

Exactly.

You can do it again.

- I didn't even know him, you know.

- He's really nice.

And you seem like you'd make a good couple.

- I think that's a little too much.

So no-- you know, I don't even know him.

Maybe we can go one day and have a coffee or something.

- Yeah, I think you should.

Maybe you should get his number next class.

- Well, yeah, but don't you think

he's supposed come to me first?

- It's fine.

Don't worry.

Mommy's sad sometimes, but it doesn't mean

that she doesn't love you, OK?

She loves you so much.

- Bloody hell, you're keen.

- No, I'm committed.

- So you should be.

- Who is it?

- Nobody.

Basia, Basia.

Basia.

- Hey, you're not going mad.

You do know that.

You're really not.

- One minute, I'm fine.

And the next, I feel like something

horrible just happened.

It's like we-- when you have a bad dream,

and you can't remember what it was.

You're just waking up with this horrible feeling,

- I can't even begin to think what it must be like for you.

I've got a good idea.

Why don't you come round to mine tonight?

You and me, let's have a girly night in, DVD and takeaway.

It'll do us the world of good.

I'll bring a bottle of wine, and we'll talk about cock.

Done.

- I'm really sorry.

I just-- I don't know what happened.

It's silly.

Maybe the other night, I tried to move

around my hand or something.

And that's how it happened.

It happens, right?

- OK, I'm OK.

It's fine.

- Mhm.

Oh, yeah work it.

You're so hot right now.

- My locket I got it from my first boyfriend.

This is terrible, but I kept it.

- It's nice.

- You can have it, if you want.

But you have to promise to me that you're

gonna take care of it.

OK?

You promise?

- OK.

- It's gonna look beautiful on you.

Basia.

Basia!

Basia.

Basia.

Basia.

- No!

Basia!

- No!

Basia.

- No, no, no!

Basia.

- No, God.

Basia.

- No!

No!

No!

Basia.

- Oh my God, no!

No!

Help me!

Something has changed him.

He's not my brother anymore.

He's not well.

- Bee, come on.

Stop crying.

Stop crying.

I'm here.

Bee.

Bee, nothing's gonna happen now.

I'm here.

Shh, stop crying.

Shh.

I'm gonna get you some proper help.

Bee.

- Right, I'm off.

Yes.

Can't fucking wait.

So looking forward to it.

Doo-doo-doo.

Learn some moves.

Go on.

Go and work it.

Mhm.

- Bye, everybody.

- Fumiko, Fumiko!

- What happened to me?

What happened to me?

Oh my God.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real. This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real.

This is not real!

This is not real!

This is not real!

This is not real.

- Are you fucking with me?

Don't fucking touch me!

No, no, no!

Get away from me!

You're sleeping very,

very, very calm, very relaxed.

We're gonna go back in time now, Basia.

You're sinking deeper and deeper into relaxation.

I want you to take a look around and tell me what you see.

- I am a man.

I'm on my farm.

I am going to my barn.

He is waiting for me.

He is not well.

- He has killed me.

I am leaving this world.

He has become an animal who will prey upon--

- Oh my God!

- Hi, Basia.

How are you today?

Do you fancy having a chat?

Do you fancy talking?

- No, you're not real.

- OK, when you say I'm not real, what do you mean by that?

- Go away!

Go away!

- Die, you bugger!

- Come, now rest there.

Into bed.

There's a good girl.

OK, just try and get some rest.

I'm sure you'll feel much better--

- Hey, Bee.

It's me, Kate.

How are you?

You're so pretty.

You always look so pretty.

You always look so amazing.

Let's brush this.

- Kate.

- Yeah?

- Please be real. - I am.

I'm here.

I'm here.

Hold my hand.

Relax.

- How did I get here?

- Bee, listen to me.

Remember, you've not been very well.

We brought you here to get you help.

These people are gonna look after you.

- Kate, help me.

Please, help me!

What's happening to me?

- All these great people are gonna look after you.

You'll be back on your feet in no time.

- Kate, please.

- You will be!

- Please, help me.

Someone help!

Someone help.

I just wanna die.

- Don't say that, Bee.

Please.

- I just wanna die.

Why can't I just die?

It's hot.

He has murdered my husband.

He was a good man.

And I loved him very much.

He has taken me for himself.

I'm scared.

There's so much pain here.

No!

No, no!

God!

No, no, no!

I am a boy.

We are so hungry.

I have to find food for me and for my mother.

I never see my mother again.

It is cold.

Spring is coming.

I miss my wife.

She had left this world.

I am a fisherman.

I am a father.

It is just me and our daughter now.

Her name is Keiko.

Goodbye, Keiko.

Sorry!

- Yes.

There you are.

You see your therapist, don't you?

She's breaking through.

She's trying to reach you.

Can you feel her?

I'm gonna count down from 10 to 1.

And when I get to one, I will snap my fingers,

and you will be dead.

10.

I am a tumor in your body, and I am eating you.

9.

From the inside.

I am growing into your blood vessel.

8, I am king and growing.

7, I am the malignant force that is eating your body alive.

6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 2, 1.

Basia.

I feel so alone.

Take my hand.

Lead me home.

Don't leave me here on my own.

I feel so alone.

Take my hand.

Lead me home.

Don't leave me here on my own.

I feel so alone.

- Basia, can you hear me?

Basia?

Basia?

Basia?

It's me.

It's your mom.

I am here.

Listen to me.

Can you hear me?

Tell me

There's no other voice.

Please, please baby!

You have to do it now.

You have to do it now.

Do you hear me?

Please baby!

Please!

Just do it now!

The human spirit is strong.

Live and die forever.

So where next?

I'll find you.

As your son, your daughter, your soul mate.

I've been your mother many times.

- Basia?

I'm sorry I couldn't always be there.

- I'm coming!

So, we're next.

I look forward to meeting you.

I'm home where you keep my bones.

Alone blood from a stone.

You are the tidal, the tidal wave of time.

You are the tidal, the wave around me.

You are the tidal, tidal wave of time.

You are the tidal, the wave around me.

Shining diamonds, diamonds in the sky.

They fall from heaven, like diamonds in your eyes

into your arms, your arms around me.

You shine like diamonds, diamonds in the sky.

I'm home where you keep my bones.

Alone, blood from a stone.

You are the tidal, the tidal wave of time.

You are the tidal, the wave around me.

You are the tidal, tidal wave of time.

You are the tidal, the wave around me.

Shining diamonds, diamonds in your eyes.

They fall from heaven, like diamonds from the sky.

Into your arms, your arms around me.

You shine like diamonds, diamonds in your eyes.