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Erskine's eyelids were removed.
What did he see?
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He was housing a large collection
of illegal porn.
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"Should auld acquaintance
be forgot?"
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Norrie Erskine
worked at Adri House Hotel.
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He was there at the same time
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as Richie Gulliver, William Durie
and Christopher Piggott-Wilkins.
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A student and Christmas cover.
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She accused a group of guests
of sexually assaulting her.
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Erskine was following someone.
His name is Victor Maslow.
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But I've fucking seen him!
I saw you with Lennox last night.
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He's a client, that's all.
And that person must be stopped.
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If we have two-tier policing,
democracy's fucked!
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Democracy is not our concern.
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I was raped. I was ten.
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And I was terrified.
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There's nothing wrong
with being honest, son.
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I'm not your son, Jock.
His interview is tomorrow.
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At least pretended to give a shit
about this.
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Armando?
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There you go, Vic.
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CAN OPENS
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Thirty years I spent
cleaning offices doon at the Barnes.
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Backbreaking work.
But we were a family.
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Me and the other lasses
took a pride in what we did.
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APPLAUSE
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OK.
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And now, Jock Allardyce will share
some memories with us.
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I was at sea on the merchant fleet.
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Then I ended up on the railways.
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An honest living.
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But I wasn't honest.
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I cheated on my wife
and my best pal for 30 years.
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Sneaking behind their backs.
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All for a glance...
a touch of the hand.
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Afternoon delight
with my best pal's wife.
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I'm not proud.
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Worried what it would do
to her eldest boy.
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He was sensitive, she said.
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I resented him for that.
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So I did a terrible thing.
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We're together now,
but it's too late.
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Her boy paid the price
for my actions.
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I owe them the truth.
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RAY: 'Sometimes, there are days
that live forever,
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'days that shape and define you
indelibly.
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'When everything you've built
crashes to the ground.'
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RAINFALL
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HE SIGHS
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Looks like Lennox never showed.
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Good for me. Two horse race.
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Stallion Starkers
against the filly.
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You are a pathetic, puerile
little man.
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Do you really believe
you're promotion material?
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Aye, Filly Fucking Nonsense.
SHE LAUGHS
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Mind, I know all about
your bullshit, sister.
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Ah, for fuck's sake.
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RAY: 'Sometimes if you're being
honest with yourself,
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'your biggest inspirations in life
are not the virtuous mentors,
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'but the utter fucked up
self-serving arseholes.
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'For these are the pricks
you kicketh against.'
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Detective Inspector Lennox,
obvious opening question.
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What makes you want this job?
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'When the whole gig is heading for
the rocks,
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'there is a perverse pleasure in
steering towards them at high speed.
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'It's the only empowerment
we have left.'
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Well...
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Victor Maslow, born 10th June, 1995.
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Grew up and attended school
in Muirhouse.
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Worked for a period of time
cutting grass
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for the council's recreation
department, ten years ago.
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Now, he lost that job
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after an accident that caused severe
nerve damage to his left arm,
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for which he was hospitalised.
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No mention of where and when
the accident took place.
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No arrest record to speak of.
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Maslow is dangerous,
and he could kill again.
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Step it up.
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RADIO: 'Good morning.
Welcome to Radio 11.
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'It's 10:25 in the AM...'
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CHUCKLES
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'We've got a great show coming up
for you this morning.
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'Coming up...'
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"Rise, rebel, rise."
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What the fuck is this?
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Armando's parents bought him it.
I think it's cool.
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It was his 18th.
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He's wanted one, like, forever.
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Why do you think it's cool?
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It's just really inspirational.
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But what does it mean to you?
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It's, er...
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..sticking it to the man.
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People refusing to take any shit,
right?
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We've become so disengaged
these days.
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So Armando's still in bed?
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What's he got in for breakfast?
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We are agents of the state,
but what is that state?
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Is it there to feed people,
to clothe them,
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to provide them with homes,
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financial
and employment opportunities?
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No. The state used to do
these things,
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this was the post-war settlement,
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and modern democracy was founded
on that balance
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between people and money, but now,
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politicians are entertainers
with media to distract us,
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while they build fiefdoms
and palaces
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for a smaller and smaller elite,
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looting the taxpayer's purse
at will.
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And this is a society
that you want me to police?
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My partner was murdered.
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Yes, he had...
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problems,
but how did we get there, eh?
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Under my watch, that won't happen.
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I can make a difference.
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Get our clean-up rates
the highest in Britain,
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modernise the force.
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We have to be the best of ourselves.
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We call ourselves
the Police Service,
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but who do we serve?
What is the law?
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Who does the law
that we enforce benefit?
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We're there to protect the property
and the bourgeoisie.
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The desk-bound, I mean,
what do they actually do?
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Shuffle papers and get in the road.
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A street police presence
reassures the public.
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We don't want police officers
charging round the streets.
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We have cameras everywhere.
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We need cops who are tech-savvy,
who can crunch data,
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who don't bring emotions
into police work.
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Sometimes here in Serious Crime,
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we get to pursue
the real bad bastards -
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the paedos, the rapists, the abusers
who prey on those weaker,
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and all of a sudden,
our work has a real moral calling.
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I've learned so much from DI Lennox.
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But can you really police if you
don't sort out your emotional life?
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Leave that stuff at home.
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Don't let it get in the way.
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Be professional.
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They used to call me Ironman
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when I was in Vice
after the superhero -
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millionaire playboy Tony Stark.
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Well, they called me that because...
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I... got...
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..results.
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To deploy IT imaginatively
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but with respect
for citizens' rights.
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To support officers
suffering from stress and burn-out.
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To increase diversity and to make
the force a safer place for women.
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It's fucking consumerism.
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A struggle to put food on the table,
reduced to a rich kid's toys.
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What's a poster like this doing in
a rich man's shag palace?
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He's got a Lenin one
in the bedroom, too.
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Should've seen his face
when he unwrapped it.
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It cost over a grand.
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Do you even know who Lenin is?
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Lexi, who is Lenin?
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LEXI: 'Vladimir Ilyich Ulyanov,
better known as Vladimir Lenin,
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'was a Russian revolutionary,
politician and political theorist.'
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I do now.
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Look, Armando's parents
have paid for it
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and we're the ones being inspired.
Political action right there.
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Cocooned in a bourgeois property
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during a devastating
cost-of-living crisis.
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While the richest 5% of the
population are getting richer still.
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Keep kill, Vic.
Do you want some breakfast, Vic?
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RAY: Let me explain.
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I don't want this job.
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I just came here to,
to testify to you all.
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It's people like you who have
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presided over the decline
in the police.
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How could I work with you?
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I don't want this job.
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Wait, Ray, stop. Stop.
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What the hell is going on
with the men in your department?
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I know that the Erskine mur...
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Homicide!
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..affected all of us very deeply,
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but please...
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..think about your future.
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I'm sorry, boss,
I've wasted your time.
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But you are wasting
a lot of people's time.
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I know, in different ways,
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you've all been able
to make your peace with this.
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Good on you. Sadly...
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..I can't... anymore.
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The truth is...
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..I was never really here.
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DOOR OPENS,
CLOSES
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We are the kamikaze pilots
of social change,
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so let's crash that plane.
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It's the one thing we can do,
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it's the ultimate sacrifice,
wouldn't you say? Fraser?
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That's all well and good, man,
but that sofa's shit to sleep on.
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It will all be all right in the end,
Vic.
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Come on, you lazy git.
I've made you a cup of tea.
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SCREAMS
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LENORA HYPERVENTILATES
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SOBBING
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DOOR CLOSES
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How the fuck has it come to this?
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You've achieved so much
for this city.
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Why?! Why shit the bed?
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I'm sorry, Bob.
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I told you... be my Cantona.
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Well, you've done it now.
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You wandered away...
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..just like him.
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I wouldnae have had any career
at all without you, boss.
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You gave me a longer leash
than I deserved.
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I must be demented.
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But working with you
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is, perversely, the thing
I'll miss most about this job.
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People don't understand...
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..how hard it is,
this job that we do.
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Is there anything I can do for you?
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Drop the disciplinary charges
against Struthers.
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He needs to grow up
in a forgiven organisation
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full of folks
who ken what it's like to be...
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to be human.
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SIGHS
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'Struthers.'
Struthers, come into my office.
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I always did let you get away
with fucking mur...
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Homicide.
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Fucking homicide.
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THEY LAUGH
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I have been trying to show you that
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this is how most people
live their lives... in fear.
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Fear of never having enough to eat,
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fear the polis will wipe them out
at any moment,
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fear of never escaping the shithole
into which they were born.
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But Armando...
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..you killed him.
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This is everything we spoke about,
Fraser.
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Revolution. Inequality.
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Righting wrongs.
He was our friend.
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He paid lip service
to our objectives.
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There are real people out there
with no roof over their heads,
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and all the while,
this privileged prick is...
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WAS... being bankrolled
by Mummy and Daddy.
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You're mental.
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Why would you do something
like that?
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Have you not been listening
to anything I've said?
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I need a piss.
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VICTOR EXHALES SHARPLY
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DOOR CLOSES
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DOOR LOCK RATTLES
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Well, obviously, I locked the door.
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This man
is a fucking freedom fighter.
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This is no longer a place
for real polis.
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You really tell them to ram it up
their holes?
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Then fucking quit?
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00:16:17,181 --> 00:16:19,621
Ray?
Not in those exact words,
252
00:16:19,621 --> 00:16:22,181
but it was pretty much the message,
aye.
253
00:16:41,261 --> 00:16:43,141
Erm, was it...?
254
00:16:45,181 --> 00:16:46,381
Was it me?
255
00:16:47,941 --> 00:16:50,781
Erm... Was it something I did?
256
00:16:53,301 --> 00:16:56,661
No. No, Amanda, it wisnae you.
257
00:17:02,061 --> 00:17:04,381
I guess...
258
00:17:04,381 --> 00:17:07,861
I guess it makes things
less complicated.
259
00:17:08,941 --> 00:17:11,181
MOBILE RINGS
260
00:17:11,181 --> 00:17:12,581
HE SIGHS
261
00:17:12,581 --> 00:17:14,781
Sally?
262
00:17:14,781 --> 00:17:17,421
Not like you to call me.
Is everything all right?
263
00:17:18,581 --> 00:17:21,821
Come and see me, Ray.
We need to talk.
264
00:17:21,821 --> 00:17:26,381
Er... OK. I'm on my way.
265
00:17:37,141 --> 00:17:38,541
I need to go.
266
00:17:38,541 --> 00:17:39,981
Ray.
267
00:17:39,981 --> 00:17:41,221
DOOR OPENS
268
00:17:42,541 --> 00:17:43,621
DOOR CLOSES
269
00:17:52,141 --> 00:17:54,501
DOORBELL RINGS
270
00:17:55,941 --> 00:17:57,981
MOBILE CHIMES
271
00:18:20,501 --> 00:18:22,901
KNOCKING ON DOOR
272
00:18:22,901 --> 00:18:24,421
It's open.
273
00:19:00,701 --> 00:19:02,541
Hello, Ray.
274
00:19:44,021 --> 00:19:45,741
SOBBING
275
00:19:45,741 --> 00:19:48,501
My mum and dad,
they'll be looking for me.
276
00:19:48,501 --> 00:19:51,501
I said I'd ring them first thing.
277
00:19:54,541 --> 00:19:56,861
I'll let you into a little secret.
278
00:19:57,901 --> 00:19:59,981
I fucking hate your uncle.
279
00:20:02,381 --> 00:20:03,941
You don't even know him.
280
00:20:04,901 --> 00:20:06,461
Oh, Fraser, I know him.
281
00:20:08,141 --> 00:20:09,301
And I know you.
282
00:20:11,141 --> 00:20:13,821
He is a servant of the state.
283
00:20:15,981 --> 00:20:17,901
And you're a joyrider.
284
00:20:17,901 --> 00:20:22,141
I know that in ten years' time,
you'll be your mother.
285
00:20:22,141 --> 00:20:26,661
Pushing paper round a desk,
dressed in a pinstripe suit,
286
00:20:26,661 --> 00:20:28,901
driving a Range Rover Evoque.
287
00:20:28,901 --> 00:20:30,461
SOBS
288
00:20:30,461 --> 00:20:32,941
H-How do you know about Mum?
289
00:20:32,941 --> 00:20:36,581
Just like your performance.
290
00:20:36,581 --> 00:20:39,941
You play at being liberated
and progressive.
291
00:20:39,941 --> 00:20:42,501
Do you know how fucking stupid
you look?
292
00:20:42,501 --> 00:20:43,981
Too immature to understand
293
00:20:43,981 --> 00:20:46,901
the logical conclusions
of anything you say.
294
00:20:46,901 --> 00:20:49,541
I do. I'm not them.
295
00:20:50,981 --> 00:20:52,741
You've always taught us to oppose
296
00:20:52,741 --> 00:20:55,461
the fucking stilted
bourgeois conditioning.
297
00:20:57,021 --> 00:21:00,581
You can't give up on us now.
For fuck's sake.
298
00:21:02,021 --> 00:21:03,501
Vic!
299
00:21:08,981 --> 00:21:10,021
Amanda, look.
300
00:21:10,021 --> 00:21:12,581
This is the woman
who made the rape complaint
301
00:21:12,581 --> 00:21:14,461
to senior management at Adre House.
302
00:21:17,381 --> 00:21:18,541
That's her there.
303
00:21:24,021 --> 00:21:26,261
I don't believe it.
304
00:21:26,261 --> 00:21:29,501
Erm... Get hold of Ray. Now.
305
00:21:29,501 --> 00:21:31,581
Amanda?
Now!
306
00:21:31,581 --> 00:21:34,221
Probably taken about...
307
00:21:34,221 --> 00:21:36,701
ten minutes before the bells.
308
00:21:48,181 --> 00:21:49,541
The night my life changed.
309
00:22:16,101 --> 00:22:18,021
Why are you dressed like this?
310
00:22:18,021 --> 00:22:21,181
Isn't this what men see
when they look at a woman?
311
00:22:21,181 --> 00:22:22,501
Not all men.
312
00:22:24,421 --> 00:22:26,221
Would you like to think that, Ray?
313
00:22:26,221 --> 00:22:29,981
Consider the strength
and size of the men,
314
00:22:29,981 --> 00:22:31,661
that inevitable inequality.
315
00:22:32,821 --> 00:22:35,901
An empath like you will always
think you're different, but...
316
00:22:36,981 --> 00:22:38,341
..is it not true to say that...
317
00:22:40,141 --> 00:22:42,661
..every man who lies on my couch
is a beast?
318
00:22:44,021 --> 00:22:45,941
Why am I here, Sally?
319
00:22:47,021 --> 00:22:48,341
I'm worried about you, Ray.
320
00:22:49,861 --> 00:22:51,461
You're on the same path I was on.
321
00:22:52,541 --> 00:22:53,941
What do you mean?
322
00:22:56,381 --> 00:22:57,741
The desire to...
323
00:22:59,261 --> 00:23:02,821
..wreak revenge is overwhelming,
324
00:23:02,821 --> 00:23:06,781
but it's unsatisfying and reductive.
325
00:23:06,781 --> 00:23:08,301
All it does...
326
00:23:15,461 --> 00:23:18,581
..turns in you into
what you fear the most.
327
00:23:20,541 --> 00:23:22,341
Which is what?
328
00:23:43,461 --> 00:23:46,621
You and Victor Maslow
are fascinating case studies.
329
00:23:46,621 --> 00:23:51,421
Both wallowing a victimhood,
displaying narcissistic traits,
330
00:23:51,421 --> 00:23:54,701
both defined
by great revenge narratives.
331
00:23:55,901 --> 00:23:57,301
You're not so far apart.
332
00:23:59,541 --> 00:24:04,461
Maslow sat there and told me
how he acted on his vengeance,
333
00:24:04,461 --> 00:24:06,141
he couldn't stop telling me
about it.
334
00:24:07,541 --> 00:24:08,741
It fuelled him.
335
00:24:10,021 --> 00:24:12,021
He loved it.
336
00:24:12,021 --> 00:24:14,221
It defined him.
337
00:24:14,221 --> 00:24:15,541
Tell me about Maslow.
338
00:24:17,501 --> 00:24:21,021
Injured in an accident
doing a favour for an uncaring man.
339
00:24:22,461 --> 00:24:24,341
He lost his job.
340
00:24:24,341 --> 00:24:29,301
During months of recuperation,
his resentment grew.
341
00:24:29,301 --> 00:24:34,181
Revenge fantasies are common
for victims of trauma.
342
00:24:34,181 --> 00:24:36,741
It's about redressing the balance,
but...
343
00:24:36,741 --> 00:24:38,661
his sense of injustice...
344
00:24:39,781 --> 00:24:41,181
..at what he lost...
345
00:24:42,701 --> 00:24:43,981
..tipped that balance.
346
00:24:45,621 --> 00:24:49,221
He murdered that man
and told me every detail.
347
00:24:49,221 --> 00:24:51,741
Of course, I should've involved
the police, but...
348
00:24:53,781 --> 00:24:56,421
..then he told me the man's name.
349
00:25:03,021 --> 00:25:04,861
Piggott-Wilkins.
350
00:25:04,861 --> 00:25:06,301
The father.
351
00:25:07,461 --> 00:25:09,861
Then, in an instant...
352
00:25:09,861 --> 00:25:11,661
I was back in that room.
353
00:25:17,341 --> 00:25:19,261
Two men raped me.
354
00:25:19,261 --> 00:25:23,141
One held me down,
the other... watched.
355
00:25:24,661 --> 00:25:27,301
And didn't have the courage
to stop it.
356
00:25:29,141 --> 00:25:32,781
And... there on my couch
was vengeance.
357
00:25:37,861 --> 00:25:39,861
Opportunity, Ray.
358
00:25:44,061 --> 00:25:45,901
Hello, Amanda.
359
00:25:54,901 --> 00:25:56,381
Sally.
360
00:26:01,181 --> 00:26:02,661
Sally.
361
00:26:24,821 --> 00:26:26,981
I was pinned down.
362
00:26:28,301 --> 00:26:29,821
They were...
363
00:26:32,181 --> 00:26:33,901
..brutal.
364
00:26:33,901 --> 00:26:35,621
Egging each other on,
one after the other.
365
00:26:41,341 --> 00:26:43,901
Gulliver was the most violent.
366
00:26:43,901 --> 00:26:45,261
SHE GRUNTS
367
00:26:47,581 --> 00:26:49,941
I thought...
seeing their fear as I...
368
00:26:49,941 --> 00:26:52,061
as I took their...
369
00:26:52,061 --> 00:26:53,741
lives would be cathartic.
370
00:26:56,821 --> 00:26:58,661
But that wisnae the case?
371
00:26:58,661 --> 00:27:00,541
I spent so long...
372
00:27:02,301 --> 00:27:04,541
..trying to be somebody,
trying to...
373
00:27:06,021 --> 00:27:07,421
..trying to...
374
00:27:09,021 --> 00:27:11,501
..achieve something.
375
00:27:13,661 --> 00:27:15,981
And now it's over.
376
00:27:15,981 --> 00:27:18,021
My crimes have...
377
00:27:18,021 --> 00:27:20,141
hollowed me out,
just like their crimes did.
378
00:27:23,821 --> 00:27:25,141
But why now?
379
00:27:26,261 --> 00:27:28,541
What made you kill these men now?
380
00:27:31,061 --> 00:27:32,941
They never left me...
381
00:27:33,901 --> 00:27:36,621
..that night, and...
382
00:27:36,621 --> 00:27:39,221
And then Maslow was... in my life.
383
00:27:40,581 --> 00:27:44,661
A man for whom vengeance
was his biggest thrill, and I...
384
00:27:44,661 --> 00:27:47,341
I needed to be avenged,
but each time I was...
385
00:27:47,341 --> 00:27:49,381
a little more of me died.
386
00:27:52,661 --> 00:27:54,021
I understand.
387
00:27:55,181 --> 00:27:56,261
I do.
388
00:27:57,501 --> 00:27:58,621
How?
389
00:27:58,621 --> 00:28:02,661
You're...
a little like those men, Amanda.
390
00:28:02,661 --> 00:28:06,021
So careless with sex.
391
00:28:06,021 --> 00:28:09,581
It's facile communication for you,
it's just a physical need.
392
00:28:09,581 --> 00:28:11,301
Where is Maslow?
393
00:28:11,301 --> 00:28:12,461
I don't know.
394
00:28:13,621 --> 00:28:16,261
I know he's not finished yet.
395
00:28:16,261 --> 00:28:17,541
He'll come for you, Ray.
396
00:28:20,901 --> 00:28:22,501
I hope you can stop him.
397
00:28:23,741 --> 00:28:26,381
Sally, you can tell your story.
398
00:28:26,381 --> 00:28:29,821
I'll make sure, I'll make sure
that people'll listen.
399
00:28:31,781 --> 00:28:34,101
HE GASPS
AMANDA: No!
400
00:29:01,221 --> 00:29:04,141
SNIFFS,
SIGHS
401
00:29:05,581 --> 00:29:07,341
Call it in.
402
00:29:17,101 --> 00:29:18,541
AEROPLANE ENGINE
WHISTLES
403
00:29:23,141 --> 00:29:24,781
EXHALES
404
00:29:24,781 --> 00:29:26,381
I really do like you two.
405
00:29:30,821 --> 00:29:32,661
You might still be useful.
406
00:29:35,301 --> 00:29:37,901
But you have to know, sacrifice,
it...
407
00:29:37,901 --> 00:29:39,821
it's not just a word.
408
00:29:39,821 --> 00:29:43,501
You need to feel
like an outcast from society.
409
00:29:44,701 --> 00:29:47,261
SCOFFS
410
00:29:47,261 --> 00:29:49,101
I planned to take your life.
411
00:29:51,261 --> 00:29:53,101
But I won't do that. I won't.
412
00:29:56,381 --> 00:29:57,621
I think...
413
00:29:59,541 --> 00:30:02,621
I think I'll...
I think I'll take your hand, Fraser.
414
00:30:03,781 --> 00:30:05,421
WHIMPERS
415
00:30:05,421 --> 00:30:08,941
And your interest
in identity politics
416
00:30:08,941 --> 00:30:10,501
is about to become...
417
00:30:10,501 --> 00:30:12,221
less abstract.
418
00:30:14,541 --> 00:30:20,141
When you lose your hand, you'll
have a real, visible identity...
419
00:30:20,141 --> 00:30:22,061
as an amputee.
420
00:30:23,861 --> 00:30:26,981
Such social currency in your circle.
421
00:30:28,381 --> 00:30:30,261
GASPING
422
00:30:32,661 --> 00:30:34,581
PHONE RINGS
423
00:30:35,901 --> 00:30:37,381
CONTINUES RINGING
424
00:30:41,061 --> 00:30:42,541
HE GASPS
425
00:30:43,981 --> 00:30:45,941
PHONE RINGS
426
00:30:49,301 --> 00:30:50,341
Sally?
427
00:30:51,861 --> 00:30:53,661
No.
428
00:30:53,661 --> 00:30:56,461
It's Ray... Lennox.
429
00:31:01,301 --> 00:31:03,261
It's your favourite uncle.
430
00:31:07,941 --> 00:31:09,101
Uncle Ray?
431
00:31:09,101 --> 00:31:11,981
'Help. He says he's gonna
cut my hand off.'
432
00:31:11,981 --> 00:31:15,221
He's already killed Armando!
Uncle Ray, he's mental, please...
433
00:31:15,221 --> 00:31:17,781
The bowling green near the flats
on Balmakeith Drive.
434
00:31:17,781 --> 00:31:20,021
'Come alone...
435
00:31:20,021 --> 00:31:22,141
'or Fraser will lose more
than just his hand.'
436
00:31:28,421 --> 00:31:29,621
SIREN
437
00:31:42,661 --> 00:31:44,621
It's too fucking hot!
438
00:31:44,621 --> 00:31:46,421
Can you turn off
the fucking radiator?
439
00:31:46,421 --> 00:31:48,861
ELECTRONIC VOICE: I don't have
an answer for that.
440
00:31:48,861 --> 00:31:51,181
Is there something...?
FURIOUSLY: Shut the fuck up!
441
00:32:07,981 --> 00:32:09,461
PHONE RINGS
442
00:32:12,061 --> 00:32:15,101
'Uncle Ray. I can see you.'
443
00:32:15,101 --> 00:32:16,741
Maslow, what the fuck...?
444
00:32:16,741 --> 00:32:19,541
'Well done. You came alone.
445
00:32:21,981 --> 00:32:24,621
'51. Flat 5.
446
00:32:25,741 --> 00:32:28,341
'Come on up. Alone.'
447
00:32:34,141 --> 00:32:37,261
Uncle Ray's on his way up.
448
00:32:37,261 --> 00:32:38,821
Go and let him in.
449
00:32:42,141 --> 00:32:43,421
And come back.
450
00:32:44,621 --> 00:32:46,901
Or he'll end up just like Armando.
451
00:32:54,461 --> 00:32:57,341
RAY: It's OK, it's OK. Where is he?
Just through there.
452
00:33:01,981 --> 00:33:04,061
Come on in, Uncle Ray.
453
00:33:08,261 --> 00:33:10,061
OK, let him go.
454
00:33:11,861 --> 00:33:14,061
I know all about you.
455
00:33:15,621 --> 00:33:18,061
You'd be amazed how much
Sally has said.
456
00:33:21,461 --> 00:33:23,141
Sally's dead.
457
00:33:25,101 --> 00:33:27,621
She manipulated us both.
458
00:33:30,661 --> 00:33:32,261
What are you talking about?
459
00:33:32,261 --> 00:33:33,901
You're a psychopath.
460
00:33:35,061 --> 00:33:36,661
Hiding behind ideology.
461
00:33:37,741 --> 00:33:40,461
Acting out
a petty personal vengeance.
462
00:33:40,461 --> 00:33:43,501
You're no social justice crusader,
you just like killing people.
463
00:33:43,501 --> 00:33:45,501
You chose the state,
you would say that.
464
00:33:45,501 --> 00:33:47,181
Enemy of the people
that you protect.
465
00:33:47,181 --> 00:33:49,941
What you gonna do, disembowel all
the public schoolboys in the land?
466
00:33:49,941 --> 00:33:51,501
I would love that level of ambition.
467
00:33:51,501 --> 00:33:53,941
If you'd seen the things
that I'd seen.
468
00:33:53,941 --> 00:33:56,061
Real people, real victims.
469
00:33:56,061 --> 00:33:59,541
Working people already fucked over
by a hideous, terrorising system
470
00:33:59,541 --> 00:34:01,261
that you purport to detest.
471
00:34:01,261 --> 00:34:03,421
Social justice, my fucking arse!
472
00:34:03,421 --> 00:34:06,221
A cop, a servant of the state,
talking about social justice?
473
00:34:06,221 --> 00:34:09,741
Has your vengeance woken the world
up? It's just destroyed more lives.
474
00:34:09,741 --> 00:34:11,461
It's killed Sally.
Fuck you!
475
00:34:11,461 --> 00:34:14,021
I take his hand or
I take his throat, it's your choice!
476
00:34:14,021 --> 00:34:15,221
What do you say?
477
00:34:16,541 --> 00:34:17,741
Drew Busby.
478
00:34:19,381 --> 00:34:21,461
Who?
Drew Busby.
479
00:34:22,821 --> 00:34:24,941
A Weegie,
and one of the last to play
480
00:34:24,941 --> 00:34:27,181
for the now defunct Third Lanark.
481
00:34:29,101 --> 00:34:30,741
Signed from Airdrie as a striker.
482
00:34:30,741 --> 00:34:33,341
Had a prolific partnership there
with Drew Jarvie.
483
00:34:33,341 --> 00:34:36,421
Converted to a midfield enforcer
at Hearts.
484
00:34:36,421 --> 00:34:37,981
Fan favourite.
485
00:34:37,981 --> 00:34:39,941
Still managed 55 goals...
What?
486
00:34:39,941 --> 00:34:42,461
..fae 178 appearances.
487
00:34:42,461 --> 00:34:43,661
THUD
488
00:34:46,261 --> 00:34:47,781
CURRENT CRACKLES
489
00:34:48,861 --> 00:34:50,461
CRASH
490
00:34:50,461 --> 00:34:51,701
You fucking scumbag!
491
00:34:51,701 --> 00:34:54,541
You're one of the same
fucking crew as them.
492
00:34:58,341 --> 00:35:04,501
Suspect apprehended, Flat 5,
51 Balmakeith Drive, Southside.
493
00:35:17,941 --> 00:35:20,101
FRASER: He could have killed us.
494
00:35:21,541 --> 00:35:23,461
I'm sorry, Uncle Ray.
495
00:35:23,461 --> 00:35:24,941
SIREN
496
00:35:27,421 --> 00:35:30,221
Nothing to be sorry for.
Let's get you home.
497
00:35:43,741 --> 00:35:46,821
Celeste.
Yeah.
498
00:35:47,941 --> 00:35:49,301
Sorry, do I know you?
499
00:35:49,301 --> 00:35:52,301
Erm, not really.
I mean, I work with Gill, so...
500
00:35:52,301 --> 00:35:55,821
Oh. She sent you?
501
00:35:55,821 --> 00:36:01,261
No, er, I actually don't know
what happened between you both,
502
00:36:01,261 --> 00:36:04,341
but I always think
if you really care about each other,
503
00:36:04,341 --> 00:36:06,541
then most things
can be talked through.
504
00:36:06,541 --> 00:36:08,381
Mm, no chance, she crossed a line.
505
00:36:08,381 --> 00:36:11,341
You know, Gill's really cut up
about all this?
506
00:36:11,341 --> 00:36:14,541
Oh, yeah?
Has she thought about how I felt,
507
00:36:14,541 --> 00:36:17,701
walking in to find her
shagging that Struthers creep?
508
00:36:19,581 --> 00:36:21,261
It's over.
509
00:36:22,701 --> 00:36:25,341
What the actual fuck
is going on with you two?
510
00:36:25,341 --> 00:36:29,181
It... It's not like it seems.
You said you were a virgin.
511
00:36:29,181 --> 00:36:31,261
And you said you were a lesbian.
I am! I am!
512
00:36:31,261 --> 00:36:34,821
I mean, I was. I mean, she...
she taught me, it was for you.
513
00:36:34,821 --> 00:36:37,181
What?
Well, it's, er...
514
00:36:37,181 --> 00:36:40,061
See, as ridiculous as that sounds,
it really was for you.
515
00:36:40,061 --> 00:36:42,661
He just... He wanted to impress you.
516
00:36:42,661 --> 00:36:44,501
Er, er... I'm sorry.
517
00:36:44,501 --> 00:36:48,021
Er, look, look, be angry at me.
518
00:36:48,021 --> 00:36:50,341
I'm your mate, me.
519
00:36:50,341 --> 00:36:54,901
I should never have done it,
right, but please, all our sakes,
520
00:36:54,901 --> 00:36:58,261
you've gotta give him a chance,
please.
521
00:37:02,141 --> 00:37:03,941
SHE EXHALES
522
00:37:03,941 --> 00:37:08,541
Well, Amanda, congratulations.
The job is yours.
523
00:37:11,301 --> 00:37:13,741
Thank you, Bob.
524
00:37:13,741 --> 00:37:16,781
It's been a rapid rise, I know,
but I want you to...
525
00:37:16,781 --> 00:37:20,341
But in recognition
of this rapid rise
526
00:37:20,341 --> 00:37:22,981
and your relative inexperience...
527
00:37:24,701 --> 00:37:30,421
..there will be
an initial job-share element.
528
00:37:32,941 --> 00:37:34,701
I'm sorry, I don't...
529
00:37:34,701 --> 00:37:37,821
We found an experienced man
for you to learn from.
530
00:37:39,141 --> 00:37:41,821
It'll be good for you, Amanda.
531
00:37:54,541 --> 00:37:55,581
Where is he?
532
00:37:55,581 --> 00:37:59,341
He's OK, he's fine. He's upstairs.
Right.
533
00:38:02,101 --> 00:38:04,221
We've both had our eye
off the ball here, Jack.
534
00:38:07,701 --> 00:38:10,301
This family's fallen apart
these past few weeks,
535
00:38:10,301 --> 00:38:13,621
but we're gonna fix it, OK?
536
00:38:14,581 --> 00:38:17,301
I don't care that you've got
a girlfriend, Jack,
537
00:38:17,301 --> 00:38:19,821
and I don't care that Frase
thinks he's David Bowie.
538
00:38:21,341 --> 00:38:23,301
I don't care that you think
you've outgrown me.
539
00:38:23,301 --> 00:38:25,261
DOOR CLOSES
540
00:38:25,261 --> 00:38:29,141
You're still the people that I wanna
be with most in this world.
541
00:38:31,141 --> 00:38:36,021
My beautiful boy.
I'm OK, Mum, I'm... I'm fine.
542
00:38:36,021 --> 00:38:37,581
Hey.
Ooh!
543
00:38:38,661 --> 00:38:40,421
Thanks for bringing him home, Ray.
544
00:39:27,981 --> 00:39:29,101
Ray.
545
00:39:31,261 --> 00:39:33,021
A word.
546
00:39:33,021 --> 00:39:35,381
DOOR CLOSES
547
00:39:35,381 --> 00:39:38,341
I got you a wee gift.
Boss.
548
00:39:40,101 --> 00:39:42,581
You've been exceptional for me, Ray.
549
00:39:49,061 --> 00:39:50,741
Ah, ya bastard.
550
00:39:59,941 --> 00:40:01,421
Look after it.
551
00:40:03,701 --> 00:40:05,581
They're company, you know.
552
00:40:05,581 --> 00:40:08,501
RAY CHUCKLES
Well, thank you, boss.
553
00:40:08,501 --> 00:40:10,861
I... Oh, ya bastard.
Yeah.
554
00:40:10,861 --> 00:40:12,461
..appreciate it.
555
00:40:13,501 --> 00:40:15,461
Whatever you do...
556
00:40:17,301 --> 00:40:19,101
..live your life, Ray.
557
00:40:21,261 --> 00:40:22,741
It goes so quick.
558
00:40:26,421 --> 00:40:28,141
TEARFULLY: It goes so quick.
559
00:40:55,541 --> 00:40:56,781
Ray.
560
00:40:59,661 --> 00:41:02,621
Congratulations. Never in doubt.
561
00:41:02,621 --> 00:41:04,461
SHE CHUCKLES
562
00:41:04,461 --> 00:41:05,861
Yeah, after you pulled out.
563
00:41:07,181 --> 00:41:11,221
And it's a job share.
How do you think that makes me feel?
564
00:41:11,221 --> 00:41:14,821
Like somebody who's been given
a great opportunity?
565
00:41:14,821 --> 00:41:17,461
What will the likes of Stark think?
566
00:41:17,461 --> 00:41:20,621
That I'm a daft, wee lassie
567
00:41:20,621 --> 00:41:23,621
that's been feather-bedded in
for political reasons?
568
00:41:25,821 --> 00:41:28,021
What sort of respect am I gonna get?
569
00:41:28,021 --> 00:41:30,101
Respect you have to earn.
570
00:41:30,101 --> 00:41:32,581
But you will.
571
00:41:35,261 --> 00:41:37,621
HE SIGHS
572
00:41:37,621 --> 00:41:39,461
We fucked things up a bit, eh?
573
00:41:45,901 --> 00:41:47,581
I wanted to say goodbye properly.
574
00:41:51,661 --> 00:41:54,221
No, I didn't. I wanted to say...
575
00:41:56,861 --> 00:41:59,821
..you don't have to go.
576
00:42:03,181 --> 00:42:04,861
I'm losing my best officer.
577
00:42:23,661 --> 00:42:26,261
I was never yours to lose.
578
00:42:28,861 --> 00:42:30,581
See you on Monday.
579
00:43:04,101 --> 00:43:06,261
HE SIGHS
580
00:43:27,261 --> 00:43:32,061
SNIFFS
581
00:43:38,861 --> 00:43:40,781
Dad would'ae approved, right?
582
00:43:47,701 --> 00:43:50,301
I thought Mum should be here.
No.
583
00:44:02,621 --> 00:44:04,301
HE SIGHS
584
00:44:09,701 --> 00:44:13,101
Right. Together as a family, right?
585
00:44:15,501 --> 00:44:20,101
TRAIN RUMBLES
OVERHEAD
586
00:44:55,341 --> 00:44:56,661
Ray.
587
00:45:00,621 --> 00:45:05,101
You need to speak to Jock...
about that day.
588
00:45:06,461 --> 00:45:08,781
What day?
589
00:45:08,781 --> 00:45:10,501
You know what day, son.
590
00:45:21,501 --> 00:45:24,101
How could I have not known?
591
00:45:24,101 --> 00:45:25,701
SHE SNIFFS
592
00:45:27,341 --> 00:45:29,221
He wants to speak to me
about something now
593
00:45:29,221 --> 00:45:30,541
that happened 40 years ago?
594
00:45:30,541 --> 00:45:32,501
Wh-What could he possibly say?
595
00:45:39,701 --> 00:45:44,221
He saw some men
hanging around that day.
596
00:45:44,221 --> 00:45:46,181
And he...
597
00:45:48,941 --> 00:45:50,941
..saw you come out in the tunnel.
598
00:45:54,901 --> 00:46:00,261
He recognised one of them,
and he'd heard the rumours.
599
00:46:01,381 --> 00:46:03,141
What was Jock doing there?
600
00:46:10,101 --> 00:46:12,381
He was coming back from seeing me.
601
00:46:14,341 --> 00:46:17,461
And he knew that people
would ask questions, so...
602
00:46:21,141 --> 00:46:23,181
..so he just said nothing.
603
00:46:39,701 --> 00:46:42,461
I'm sorry about what I've said.
604
00:46:42,461 --> 00:46:44,821
I'm sorry.
605
00:46:48,581 --> 00:46:50,981
It's all right, Mum.
606
00:46:50,981 --> 00:46:53,941
It's all right. I love you.
607
00:47:28,021 --> 00:47:30,741
HORNS HONK
608
00:47:52,421 --> 00:47:56,901
"Raymond, I'm writing to tell you
what I know now.
609
00:47:58,301 --> 00:48:02,021
"I wish I could tell you
that this hurt goes away,
610
00:48:02,021 --> 00:48:04,101
"but it's not been
as simple as that, pal.
611
00:48:05,341 --> 00:48:09,141
"At times, you'll feel ashamed,
angry, guilty.
612
00:48:10,101 --> 00:48:13,381
"You'll learn that not all monsters
lurk in tunnels,
613
00:48:13,381 --> 00:48:16,701
"and sometimes, you'll feel things
you have no words for.
614
00:48:16,701 --> 00:48:20,061
"I'm here to tell you that
you don't have to rage and blame
615
00:48:20,061 --> 00:48:22,421
"and point fingers at others
and yourself.
616
00:48:23,621 --> 00:48:26,741
"You can throw off
that cloak of shame.
617
00:48:26,741 --> 00:48:29,301
"You need to know
that this was not your fault.
618
00:48:30,421 --> 00:48:33,141
"You deserve love,
and you can love yourself.
619
00:48:34,461 --> 00:48:37,741
"Hold my hand, look in the mirror
620
00:48:37,741 --> 00:48:39,781
"and see the beautiful boy
that you are.
621
00:48:40,901 --> 00:48:43,101
"You contain multitudes."
622
00:48:45,461 --> 00:48:47,261
'My name is Ray, and I'm an addict.
623
00:48:48,541 --> 00:48:52,021
'I've displaced my life for 40 years
hiding from who I am...
624
00:48:54,381 --> 00:48:56,061
'..hiding from what's made me.'
625
00:48:57,981 --> 00:49:00,861
Power of the group's
what keeps you safe.
626
00:49:02,261 --> 00:49:05,181
But life isnae safe.
627
00:49:05,181 --> 00:49:07,981
Life's a challenge
that has to be faced.
628
00:49:10,381 --> 00:49:15,061
Now I have to leave it all behind...
629
00:49:15,061 --> 00:49:18,781
because it's time to heal myself
and move on.
630
00:49:21,621 --> 00:49:23,221
I choose life.
631
00:49:28,781 --> 00:49:30,821
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