All language subtitles for Transplant.S04E09.720p.HEVC.x265-MeGusta

If this job is what you want, great.

But if you're just running, don't go.

Maybe you're not aware of it, but she did everything she could to save you from yourself.

You should be her friend, or leave her alone.

Do you remember me, sir?

You made my dinner.

Sir?

I really hated you the first night we met.

You were so confident in your instincts.

I was jealous.

I had never trusted myself like that.

She's in VTAC.

The scars will fade.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

Just remind me of your name again.

Bashir Hamed.

Thank you for seeing me, Dr. Rishabh.

Did we meet in the first round of match interviews?

No, I wasn't applying for one at that stage.

Why was that?

I was hoping to get a position as a surgeon.

You mean a surgical residency?

No, I've already completed my surgical residency.

Did they not give you my background?

So when you didn't get hired as a surgeon,

you thought you would fall back on emergency medicine?

No, I was a field surgeon, and emergency has an overlapping skill set.

Yes, it does.

[DOORBELL]

Right, you were the one that didn't provide your records,

your medical school transcripts.

Yeah, there's a political situation in my country.

Yeah.

So what have you been doing while you've been looking for a job?

Any volunteer hours, research work?

Just got the call.

Jack knife tracked a trailer on the Gardner.

Two cars went over the guardrail, and they're all heading to us, Jed.

All right, page every resident on the floor.

Make sure teams from vascular and neurology standing by.

And prime the blood bank.

And I will clear the backlog at imaging.

But to be honest, our residency program is already oversubscribed.

I once clamped a man's femoral artery with binder clips.

We didn't have proper tools, but he survived.

Lucky, huh?

Look, all the best, Dr. Hammett.

All right, first arrival is two minutes out.

One is hemodynamically unstable.

They've been transfusing en route.

The second sounds like a crushed femur.

So I want to make sure we're communicating.

Every second counts, OK?

OK.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[ENGINE REVVING]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[ENGINE REVVING]

[PHONE RINGING]

Hey.

Yeah?

What's up?

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

I need to know what happened.

Why do you keep running away?

Who are you?

The restaurant is a crime scene.

What are you doing there?

Hey.

I keep trying to find ways to tell Amira,

but she'll be sad and worried in London

and maybe want to come home.

Am I wrong to give it a few more days?

Not at all, man.

You sleeping yet?

What else are you feeling?

I'm afraid of what will happen when I'm not.

Look, I booked our flights to Montreal,

so tomorrow we'll--

funeral's the first step.

Their family said they wanted to keep it small,

so should I even--

I mean, do I belong there?

You loved her, Bash.

Of course you do.

Hey, can we talk about Bash still working?

Yeah, really?

What are you expecting to do?

Sit at home and just, like, stare at a wall?

Besides, you're here too.

For him.

I want to support him.

Hey, have you-- have you bought your flight yet?

No, I haven't.

[BABY CRYING]

Does-- does anyone know whose baby this is?

How are you doing, Bashir?

I wanted to check in again because with your residency

ending, technically you owe us nothing.

I appreciate you offering to cover,

but if being here is too much--

she'd be upset if her shifts weren't covered.

I know I've said it already, but I am so sorry.

We're all just--

whatever you need, OK?

We found her out in the waiting room.

There was no sign of a parent.

I'd say five, six months old.

Is she sick?

No, I did a quick check.

Temp's good, color's good, but I would

like to do a more thorough exam.

What's this now?

Rhoda, do you know if anyone's missing a baby?

Maybe the parents here are somewhat sick.

Well, I will do the exam.

How does a baby get abandoned in a busy hospital

without anybody noticing?

Chronic hepatitis, patient's anxious because he

tried texting Megs.

She did that kind of thing a lot.

OK, I'll cover it.

Thanks, Rhoda.

Yeah.

[BABY CRYING]

Bashir?

What are you doing here all by yourself?

I hear Peds is hiring in case Cleveland doesn't work out.

Who's this?

An anonymous baby girl.

Someone just left her here.

I don't know why.

What the hell?

Listen, I can cover trauma award tomorrow.

I heard it's a service.

No need.

I'll be here.

June, I was there the day your father died.

You couldn't even admit it happened.

This needs to be heated up, right?

When it is small?

10 seconds on the microwave if memory serves.

You don't need to do that again, June.

That was different, OK?

My father, he did everything he could

to make me feel unwanted and like hate myself.

But it wasn't like that with Megs, right?

You need to let yourself feel this.

You must be hungry.

Warm this while I check her over.

I heard you.

[GROAN]

I did.

Hey.

Hey.

The lady in E has been waiting well.

Do you mind?

Yeah, sure.

Daphne, I'm Dr. Hunter.

I've been timing you guys 420 minutes

at three agonizing hip spasms per hour.

That's one every 900 seconds, skip or take.

That's some fast math.

Necessary when you run your own business.

Well, I'm told you have rheumatoid arthritis,

and you were in for the same pain yesterday.

Which I realize is a cardinal sin,

but they said come back if it got worse.

I'm warm, fatigued, nauseous, and those are warning signs

I'm not supposed to ignore.

Perceptive arthritis.

But your temp is good, and yesterday's x-rays

didn't raise any alarm bells.

So why don't you lie back in the gurney for me?

So I'm going to feel both sides of your hips for swelling,

OK?

And what kind of business do you run?

I'm a sex worker.

People always either react to the line of work

or to the fact that I look like an accountant.

I think it's definitely the accountant thing.

Obviously seizing up with crippling pain

is not great for business.

Well, why don't you sit up?

Do you have a GP?

Since she learned what I do for work,

she just writes about my lifestyle, so I stopped crying.

Well, you don't have a fever.

Your white blood cell count is normal,

so I'm going to rule it sepsis.

But you do have some swelling.

So has there been any changes to diet, exercise, sudden weight

gain, loss, that kind of thing?

Food's the usual, some healthy, some crap.

I make it to the gym, and I can't.

Why?

Well, the way I see it is we can dodge the endless backlog

and imaging by gaming this ourselves.

You know, taking a little time now

and getting a wider picture, and then I

can schedule appointments for any follow-up tests

you might need.

32-year-old male T-boned in his vehicle.

GCS 13, BP 100 over 80.

Left quadrant injury and a neck carotid

being helped together by--

Penny, don't worry, Bo.

I won't let you go.

They were just down the street from here when it happened.

We tried trading off with her, but she didn't want to.

Were you in the car too, Penny?

I'm the idiot who drove into him.

His door was smashed, so I crawled in

and saw his neck like pumping blood.

My instinct said that was bad.

Oh, good instinct.

Any loss of consciousness?

I was fading, so she said that thing

about stealing a car.

Dude, cone of silence.

Sorry.

Did you two know each other before?

No, but shared trauma forces you to get close fast.

Monitor's up.

Claire, make sure Vascular knows it's an open carotid bash.

Why aren't we clapped?

Penny, I'll switch spots with you.

Does it have to be now?

No, I think I just found the source of the bleed.

Skin swelling too.

You see the rash?

What kind of reaction was that?

Penny, are you ready?

No, no.

What if I, like, go too early or it doesn't work?

Vascular says we have to go to them.

They're better set up to handle this upstairs.

Fine.

Bash, why aren't we clapped?

Because of me, OK?

This whole thing is because of me.

I'm sure that's not true.

Yes, it is.

I work at a car rental place and every day just feel so empty.

And today I just had a compulsion to run,

so I borrowed a set of keys and--

OK, we'll count them together.

I'll take your place, but it has to be now.

I trust you, Penny.

OK, one, two, three.

Thank you.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

Got it.

Great job, Penny.

EP's dropping.

June, forget Vascular.

We can take care of the Abdul beat here.

But no, it's way too risky with the carotid.

It's too risky to wait.

He's lost too much blood already.

It's my call, all right?

Just stay on blood products and get him stabilized

for transport.

I'll go coordinate with Vascular.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

You said you trusted me.

Why?

You stayed.

I would have left.

It would have been so much better off

if you'd never met me.

Are you OK?

So you saved the others.

I know you told that police officer that you'd

get him after we finished.

But what if instead of that, you don't?

[MUSIC PLAYING]

He's lost too much blood.

His body is rejecting whatever metal is inside him.

We've got your badge.

Tell us what you need.

Get him draped.

Theo, I wanted you to know Daphne Sampson.

Rheumatoid arthritis needs to adjust her meds.

I was doing my paperwork and noticed a flag

on yesterday's x-rays.

I had the senior radiologist take a look.

It's actually a stress fracture in her femur.

She'll need a pin.

Were you double checking my work?

No, just navigating the bureaucracy, which is my job.

They've already slaughtered her for surgery,

so it's all good.

You know how easy stress fractures are to miss.

And Daphne was impressed and touched by how holistically

you took everything.

Nobody else would do that.

I don't need you to make me feel better

about missing something.

Why don't you let me come to the funeral with you tomorrow?

Bash said the family wants to keep you small.

I know, but Theo, I could--

I don't want you there, Liz.

Can we not make it about us in this particular moment?

I'm trying to talk about you, about what you need.

Why would you not want support there?

You tell me, because you clearly already have the answer.

I just know that you're resisting us.

Getting to know my family, letting me know yours,

and it hurts.

You're a good man, Theo.

I want those things.

Do you not want them with me?

I don't know.

I have lost sight of all of it, Liz, of myself.

I can't keep waiting for you.

What the hell is this?

We have to stop the bleeding.

Good thing, too, the shrapnel ruptured his spleen.

So you took his spleen out, even though I told you to wait.

There was another one just like this in the--

Please tell me there was no baby in that car.

There wasn't, because Bo drove off and left her here.

Look for her badge ID, anything else in there, her stethoscope.

Are you sure?

I mean, this can wait if you're not--

Yes, her family will want whatever you can find.

Abesh, the last times I spoke to her were--

Yeah, she told me.

I was-- I didn't mean to--

Claire, I don't know what you want me to say.

You don't understand.

I didn't even know that she existed

until a few weeks ago, OK?

Her mother just dropped her off and left.

So you decided to just pay that forward?

No, I just-- I don't know how to be a dad or anything, really.

So you sack up and ask for help.

Call a friend, family, anything.

I don't really have any of that.

And when I try, the words--

OK, fine.

But you could have handed her to one of the hundreds

of staff who work here, and instead you just ditched her.

Do you know what that could do to her,

or how many people want babies?

June, look, I know that I'm a piece of trash, OK?

I don't need to be reminded.

Actually, I think you do.

June.

What?

May I speak to you for a moment?

What are you doing?

He needs to be held accountable.

But not by you, the social worker called CAS.

What's going on?

And you're still here?

Yeah, I mean, he's so anxious and he needs someone,

and it's my fault he's here, right?

A nurse told him that he's having

portaled a thrombo something.

Can one of you explain?

Because we don't understand.

A portal vein thrombosis is when there's

a clot in his portal vein that blocks blood flow to his liver.

But can't that kill you if your liver stops working?

We're keeping a close eye on him, and for now he's stable.

And Amy?

His baby?

He said that's her name.

Or the social worker looped in children's aid.

We're required to call the police.

Are they going to arrest him?

Oh my god.

I was trying to fix my own dumb life,

and instead I just, like, destroyed his.

[COUGHING]

Does Bo have PVT or not?

We have him on Heparin, trying to help manage it.

You know, she's out here blaming herself for all of this.

Meanwhile, you're the one who jumped in and cut out

his spleen, which is probably the reason of the clot.

He was dying. He needed it.

I know you know that.

I know you.

OK, I know you, Bash, and you needed this.

But everything that's going on, you needed an escape hatch.

You are no better.

All right, you are pissed off at Bo for not asking for help.

Would you have said nothing since I called you three days ago?

I'm on no sleep, and these thoughts and memories of her

are just flooding into my head all at once and out of order,

and they're messing with my reality.

And yeah, maybe Bo was a distraction that I needed--

Just stop it!

I can't do this.

OK, I wish that I could, but I can't.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

I haven't been to church in so long.

I mean, we aren't Catholic, but I remember my dad.

The way he would help his congregation meet grief,

he could just hold it with them.

He quit being a pastor.

Did I tell you that?

Is he OK?

I don't know.

I hope so.

It's her sister.

It looked like she was waving you over.

I think she was just saying hi.

Have you talked to the family about where

they want you to sit?

Was I supposed to?

Sometimes they reserve specific rows for long ones.

Let's just give them some space.

Sure.

Tell me where you want to be then.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

Do you see anyone else here you know?

I know him.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

Hi, June.

Hi, Dr. Bishop.

Hi, Claire.

I think she-- it would mean a lot to her

to know that you were here, both of you.

Thanks.

How have you been keeping Dr. Bishop?

I've been well, Theo.

I've been well.

When our fourth year med students

cycle through and see your name on the wall outside the trauma

wall, they often tell us you're their teacher.

Do you enjoy it?

Well, it depends on the student.

If they're burdened with glorious purpose, I do.

[SPEAKING FRENCH]

[SPEAKING FRENCH]

[SPEAKING FRENCH]

Who was my Magalie?

The scars will fade.

I really hated you the first night we met.

That restaurant is a crime scene.

Why do you keep running away?

Who are you?

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[SPEAKING FRENCH]

Sorry?

[SPEAKING FRENCH]

Oh, you're lost.

OK, are you looking for someone's grave?

[SPEAKING FRENCH]

Your father?

Yes.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

Madame LeBlanc?

Yes.

I'm Jed Bishop.

The Dr. Bishop.

She talked about you with such reverence.

Your daughter was remarkable.

Best of all of us.

Thank you.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

The last time we spoke, you said you'd

swapped talk therapy for CBT?

Yeah, I got enough talk in my NA meetings.

Sounds like your chief's been very supportive.

Yeah, she is a true humanist, which is--

Not an easy sell in that job.

Mags was the one who tried the hardest with me

and who saw things the clearest.

She's also the person I was hardest on, Jed.

I treated her terribly.

Well, if anyone understood emotion,

getting the better of you, it was Mags.

It wasn't about the assault or the addiction,

the way I treated her.

She had all this potential.

I was so excited to get started, and I just--

from where I stand, the system is broken,

and it can't be fixed.

And that's not how Mags saw it.

I'm angry, Jed.

I ampeed her optimism.

I ampeed her youth.

Sorry, Claire.

No, it's not.

Look who you're talking to.

When I had my accident, I lost a step.

That anger, I understand.

Yeah.

You sound happy, though, when you talk about teaching.

I am.

But Memorial, my time there, that was the place.

That was my time.

Nothing, though.

Nothing else would come close.

Mr. LeBlanc, I'm Theo Hunter.

I worked with your daughter.

She was a good friend.

I think you have daughters, too.

Yeah, nine and 11 now.

Oh, to 10 and 12.

I couldn't keep track, either.

It goes so fast.

Do they know what the time is?

Do they know what they're going to do with their lives?

Last I checked, one wanted to be a vet,

and the other wanted to open a doughnut/manicure business.

Yeah.

I should have told her more how proud I am.

She knew, sir.

She did.

It must be hard, the hours your job requires.

The time away can unmoor you.

And my kids, they mostly live in Sudbury with their mother,

because I found you a purpose in that crazy, busy hospital,

like my daughter did.

Hi.

Hello, Basia.

Hi.

I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am.

Mags, she saw me, and it was this thing

that we always used to say.

I'm sorry, what?

The question you asked about which Mags we knew.

I've been thinking of a memory, but it's moral of feeling.

Why didn't you call us?

That night, Mags didn't want to bother you.

We knew that you and Mr. LeBlanc were in Italy,

and there was nothing you could have--

I would have wanted to talk to her.

Well, when she was intubated, we didn't think it would cause--

It wasn't your decision to make.

I didn't, so she didn't.

Why was she working?

If she was sick, she was sick.

You should have stopped her.

Ms. LeBlanc, I'm, uh, Theo.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

She's just in pain.

She doesn't know the bash.

Let's go get some air.

Stop trying to help her.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[TYPING]

[SIRENS]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

Hello?

Dr. Hobbit, it's Penny.

I'm the car stealer.

How did you get this number?

Internet, listen--

Uh, are you still at the hospital?

Look, Bo's worse physically.

OK, what do his doctors say?

Well, that it's under control, but I mean,

he's in pain and tastes blood.

And since variceal bleeding can mean worsening

portal vein thrombosis--

How do you know all this?

Oh, dude, Internet.

Anyway, they just keep saying concerning variables

and how we need to wait and see.

But since you're the guy who scooped out his spleen,

I was hoping you'd do something--

Penny, I'm not there anymore, and I'm sure his team

is on top of it.

Yeah, but except Bo says he's dying.

And look, I can't prove anything,

but we both just have this terrible feeling.

Bo needs me.

I'll call you back.

Hey, uh, Penny just called.

Bo's in rough shape.

I'm sure that if his vitals drop and they have to do something,

they will.

Except they both think it's worse than anyone realizes

and they want us to intervene.

I can't just call into the patients having a feeling.

No one's going to listen to that.

Well, maybe they should.

Mads?

She knew what she felt.

She knew before the data did.

What are you doing?

Calling the one person I know will hijack

another person's patients, do something potentially stupid,

on the off chance that it helps.

Yeah, hi.

Look, I have a patient with a portal vein thrombosis.

The staff surgeon's ignoring, and we need to get

blood flowing through the sliver.

Sir, who's this?

Oh my god.

There's no time for us to listen to you amuse yourself, Mark.

Mads?

Hi, Dr. Novak.

If your patient truly needed this,

wouldn't vascular be on it?

Well, they won't because--

After a car accident, he reacted to the metal

lugs in his abdomen and you can't do a shunt without a stent.

Reasonable.

He also has a rotated portal vein,

so they have probably decided that, you know,

we've got to make placement challenging.

Cowards, don't.

I'm not hearing a big reason why we need to rush into this.

He's got a sense of impending doom we can't ignore.

Listen, you need to shut up and do this, OK?

Since when do you let someone's feelings dictate your actions?

You know this guy?

No, and you know, he's actually--

he's a piece of work.

You know, he abandoned his daughter at the hospital

like she meant nothing.

And then this woman, she accidentally

hits him with her car because she's

running away from her own crap.

And now she's there fighting for him,

even though he doesn't deserve it.

Look, I need to just help these people and--

please.

Any thoughts on how to get around using a metal stent?

Not yet.

I thought Novak didn't have trauma or privileges anymore.

Yeah, well, I do.

And if I leave now, I can be there in like two hours, so.

You're leaving?

I couldn't even make it through her service.

Are you going to be OK?

Are you?

Because I remember the day of her transplant,

you said that if she didn't make it, you wouldn't either.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

It's OK.

I'll be able to go to sleep.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

Are you OK?

Is she asleep?

[MUSIC PLAYING]

Can I ask you a question?

Sure.

Why didn't you just tell the truth about being a doctor?

If you had said that from the beginning,

wouldn't all of this have been avoided?

We couldn't get deported.

I was a doctor once.

I'm not anymore.

The thing is, I kind of told the truth for you.

Everyone knows what you did, how you saved everyone.

But before you say anything, maybe just maybe things

will work out fine.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

Apparently, the guy's system rejects metal, probably

tungsten, so can't go off the shelf for this one.

A 3D printer uses biodegradable polymer,

but I've never printed a vascular stent.

It could, though.

I mean, I read a study on it.

Yes, I do read studies.

Piss off, both of you.

I asked the tech to stay late.

She'll need CT imaging so the software can customize.

Yeah, I can do that while June informs

and consents our patient.

Dr. Curtis, this was all at your behest.

Are we on or not?

When did we get a 3D printer?

We didn't.

A few surgeons pooled grant money.

I use it to make custom ostomy seals.

Well, you see, that kind of socialized effort

when you go to Cleveland, June.

Word.

[CRYING]

Hi.

Before you yell at him again, I checked,

and they said he could visit Amy for an hour.

The social worker is down the hall waiting.

They have a place with a family nearby, so--

He felt so bad about what he did,

I thought seeing her might help.

And?

That's it.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

So is this 3D printed valve thing really going to happen?

If you consent, we'll divert blood around your clot.

You need to realize that, you know,

although this medical technology has been approved,

it is still new.

So there are variables, and not every outcome has been studied.

In other words, no guarantees.

There never are.

Why did you leave your daughter?

I'm scared.

I don't know how to love her the right way.

Look, I know you did a lot to make this happen.

I don't really know what to say.

That you'll keep trying.

You didn't have to wait up, Dad.

Of course I did.

Of course I did.

Girl's OK?

Yeah, I'd say so.

We watched a movie, walked out for some late night

french fries, and then they flopped.

How was it?

It's been a tough couple of years, Dad.

Yeah, I know it has to you.

Your own job?

Do you ever worry you just blew it all up for nothing?

No.

No, I have faith in the journey.

For both of us.

Which is perhaps easier from my vantage point.

I'm in the wrong place again.

I'm in the wrong place again.

I've been fighting against it.

I'm in the wrong place again.

Hey.

Did you know I was here?

Well, I was not far from the church.

Thought I'd take a chance.

How long were you and Hal?

I think you're driving back tonight.

Would have meant a lot to her to know you came.

Yeah, I think June said exactly the same thing.

Because it's true.

You miss you.

Look, the reason I was looking for you is because--

Pashir, I'm not very good at this either,

but don't blame yourself.

Why are you telling me that?

Remember after my stroke you told me about your parents?

How you weren't there to save them when the bombs came.

I thought you were asleep when I said that.

Everyone I care about gets hurt.

Even you.

We're never going to agree on this.

I am only alive because of you.

Your career ended over my medical school transcripts.

You lied to protect me.

We both know you never spoke to my dean.

I didn't need to speak to him.

I knew the existence.

Look, she--

When I first met her, I was--

I'd--

Spent long enough being ignored by the likes of me

that you'd given up hope.

She was the one who saw me.

And if I had just been able to walk away that day,

if that truck had never started all of this, then--

What, are you going to say that she'd still be alive?

Look, I didn't deserve her.

OK, I didn't deserve her.

That's not true, Pashir.

It's simply not true.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[CRYING]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[CRYING]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

I would ask if work was the right place for you

at the moment, but today's my last day here.

You're right that she wanted me to know everything

you'd done that night.

And we'd both be pretty ticked off

if you let this derail you.

Did you want to come inside, see the place again?

Dr. Pashir, bye.

Cool.

Cool.

Cool.

Both vitals still looking good?

Yeah.

Weirdly, I think this worked.

Things been ringing nonstop.

Yeah, our friends in Vascular, what a word.

I think you mean former friends in Vascular.

Yeah, speaking of former friends,

yours came to see me the other day.

Said I was messing up your life because I

wasn't happy with mine.

Yeah, she had a way of doing that kind of thing.

I'm very sorry for your loss, June.

I really loved her.

Irritatingly, she was right.

I did miss drama or so I made a deal with the CMO

to come back.

What?

Yeah, agreed to meet with co-chief.

Debbie's not going to be happy about that, but--

How could you do that?

Yeah, I thought you'd be--

You were pushing for it.

For both of us.

Mark?

I've already decided I'm leaving.

Let's just forget about it.

Do whatever you want.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

[POLICE RADIO CHATTER]

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

Good morning, Hushir.

Hi.

I'm just here to clear out my locker.

What if you didn't?

There was one spot.

If it wasn't her, it would have gone to you.

I know it's a complicated thing to ask.

I don't know what to say.

That you'll think about it?

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[BIRDS CHIRPING]

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

(eerie music)

Bye.