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[door opening]
[projector running]

I will warn you that the images
you are about to see are graphic.

Hate crimes against the
community are on the rise.

And we're going to take you
inside that synagogue

where the attackers carried out
that bloody rampage.

A Nazi flag flying above an
Australian suburban backyard.

And we have to remember that for
a Holocaust survivor,

seeing the Nazi flag is as scary

and as frightening as being
threatened with a gun.

You f*#*#*# nasty-ass Jew!

You stink!

Because over the past year,
attacks against Jewish people

have risen by more than 70%.

I don't care about your
fake Holocaust.

It's very simple

Yes

We are pure-blooded, you
are mixed mongrels.

Expel the Jews, that's what
every country has done.

That you deny the Holocaust.

Yes, I deny the Holocaust, it's
an extortion racket!

Jews will not replace us!

Jews will not replace us!

Sieg Heil! Sieg Heil! Sieg Heil!

Sieg Heil! Sieg Heil! Sieg Heil!

[Howard Feldman] A South African
social influencer

penned the most terrible things.

She effectively denies the
Holocaust and blamed the Jews

for burning people
alive in Germany

and many members of the
community outraged.

One such reaction caught
me by surprise.

Along comes a woman by the name
of Ella Blumenthal.

She's 98-years-old, she's a
Holocaust survivor

what amazed me about this

was instead of condemning the
person who posted it,

she reached out an arm of
friendship, and even of love.

She offers to meet with her and
to share their stories.

She says that she is a victim of
fake news and propaganda,

as was Ella back in the
time of the war,

and Ella Blumenthal is capable
of writing a letter

that says that there is
more that unites us

than divides us.

Incredible generosity of spirit.

Would any of us- I know I
would battle with it,

would any of us be able
to reach out,

with love,

to the very person who denies
your own history?

* Yiddish folk music

[Ella Blumenthal] Mmmm, I don't
need any perfume, any Chanel No 5.

Have you got problems?

[Gabbi - friend] No.

Call me, I'll fix it.

[tempo speeds up]
* Yiddish folk music

Now you look a mensch!

He's quite good-looking,
this guy!

Remember, I will tell you
stories, and you will tell your children.

Who does it? Old people, not me!

What do I worry about
Ferrari shmerrari.

I've got the drive
and the energy.

[scribbling sounds]

[family talking in background]

Aah! Sorale!

Whoever told you that I'm old,
look at me.

You want me to dance a little
bit, or make a tango, or a polka?

L'chaim, l'chaim!

All my children, my grandchildren,
I'm so happy that you all here today.

[laughing happily]
[blowing deeply]

* jovial

[Ella] I was born in Warsaw,
in 1921.

The youngest in a family of
seven children.

I was actually a very
naughty girl.

I was full of nonsense, always.

I enjoyed swimming very much

and we used to

kayak through the white
Vistula River,

* light fluttering
and I remember that we used to play,

* light fluttering
to sing and we used to dance.

[warplane engines
getting louder]

I was a happy teenager

- [warplanes pass overhead]
- [Ella] until the outbreak of the war.

[dramatic music]

[soldiers boots stomping]

[Ella] When the Nazi Germans
invaded Poland,

there was a lot
of panic and fear.

[bombs exploding]
[warplanes rumble]

[Ella] All Jewish bank
accounts were frozen,

all Jewish land was
requisitioned,

we had to wear armbands on the
sleeve of the outer garment,

we had to hand over our radios,

food was rationed,

curfew was imposed,

all the Jewish schools and
synagogues were closed.

[chaotic shouting]
[baton thudding]

[melancholy music]

[waves crashing]
[seagulls screeching]

[Ella] My brother-in-law
was still there.

He said, "I beg you - don't
stay, don't wait,

it's a disaster.

We won't survive here
under the Nazis."

So, the people said,

"Argh, he's a writer, an author,
he's dreaming,

he's exaggerating, he's...

don't believe him!"

So, people, they never realised

that such a tragedy,

that such a disaster
can come to us,

that they would just kill us.

[threatening music]
[frightened murmur]

[Ella] We managed just to pack
some of our

belongings into sheets

and we were herded
into the ghetto.

[barbed wire twisting]
[sinister sounds]

[Ella] The ghetto was
overcrowded,

there were ten to
fifteen people living in a room,

there was malnutrition,
starvation, epidemic and disease,

starving children in rags were
begging in the street.

When we got up one morning,

we found placards and
notices on the wall:

"Every grown-up and child
must come down,

and they must bring food for
three days,

and don't close the doors!

Leave the doors open!

Anybody found after this
particular hour

is going to be shot."

Obviously, people came down.

[apprehensive
murmuring in street]

People that were caught, they
were sent to labour camps

that's what they claimed,

the Nazis,

but afterwards, we realised
what was going on.

How come that they sending
old people

and children also
to labour camps?

Old people can't work, children
can't work, babies can't work,

but when we realised that some
of the people never came back,

we realised that there must
be something wrong.

[anxious shouting]

In these various raids
and roundups,

I lost

almost my entire family

23 souls

my mother, my brothers,
my sisters, their spouses

and seven nieces and nephews,

and they were sent away

to Treblinka.

* pensive
[Ella] And just by some chance,

there were three of us left

my father and my niece, Roma,

and myself.

The underground organisation
printed leaflets:

* upbeat
"Citizens, Jews, go underground

* upbeat
and hide in cellars and bunkers,

turn every building
into a fortress,

as we have no right to occupy
the surface of the earth

because we are
condemned to death."

[baby cries]

[soldiers talking]

[soldier cocks weapon]

[baby cries]
[hushing baby]

[babies cries loudly]

[baby's cry is silenced]

and this is that night my
father gave us all,

when we were sitting in that
bricked-up room,

each one of us got a little
piece of matzah,

he saved it from the
previous year

and then...

he was saying the blessings for
the matzah

and he prayed to God to save us,

like he saved us Jews from
bondage in Egypt.

[dramatic music build-up]

[baby cries]
[mother hushes baby]

[Ella] We heard the Nazis
marching in for their usual,

routinely looking for people,

searching,

but suddenly,

they were met by
Molotov cocktails.

There was shooting coming down
from rooftops and windows.

The Warsaw Ghetto
Uprising was on

and the Germans were
taken by surprise.

Believe it,

there was Nazis' blood flowing in
the streets of the Warsaw Ghetto.

But unfortunately, they couldn't
stand up to the mighty,

well-equipped German army

and the uprising was crushed.

They set the ghetto on fire,

building by building.

There was no option, we
had to come out.

The sight of the burning
ghetto is forever

in my eyes, in front of me.

I can never erase it
from my mind

and the smell of the burning
feathers, from the beddings,

is forever in my nostrils.

[distressing screams]

to let me be shot first,

before my father, who was
standing next to me.

[crying, weeping]

[train whistle]
[train on tracks]

[Ella] We were chased to
Umschlagplatz.

Umschlagplatz was a station

where the cattle trucks were
packed with human cargo

and returned empty, ready
for another load.

[rhythmic sound of train wheels]

[door creeks open]

[Ella] We had to stay over
because the train wasn't there.

We had to sit in an empty hall

and at night, guards came in

and pulled out young girls.

[foreboding music crescendos]

[guard smirks]

[guard grunts]
[girl shrieks]

[terrified scream]

[terrified cries fade away]

[carriage doors squeal closed]

[anxious shouting]
* hopeful

[train sounds fade away]

[Ella] We were sent to that
horrible, terrible place,

Majdanek.

[barbed wire twisting]
[sinister sounds]

[guard dogs barking]

- [guard dog biting]
- [screams in pain]

- [guards laugh mockingly]
- [girls sobs]

[Ella] Links, rechts, links,
rechts!

"Right to life, left to
gas chambers!"

I was afraid that I
wouldn't pass,

but Roma assured me she'll
follow me wherever I am sent.

When it was my turn to
present myself,

I raised my head high,
my shoulders,

- [Ella] and I was sent to right
and so was Roma,

and then it was the turn
for the men

and my father
was among them.

So, as he was marched,

he turned back to have a last
look at Roma and I,

- [grunts]
- [Ella] and he was hit over the head

- [cries out]
- [Ella] and he bent under the blow.

[soldiers shouting]

[Sobbing] I never, never saw my
father again, never.

[laughing happily]
* merry

[laughing fades away]
* merry

[inaudible prayer]

[guards giving instructions,
whipping] [cries of pain]

- [guards shouting]
- [Ella] We were sent to an open space

and one of our friends was
led to the gallows

and there was a rope put
around her neck,

[guard dogs barking]

- [body drops]
- [Ella] and then she was hanging

and just her eyes came out

and we had to watch it, and we
called Shema Yisrael,

"Help us God", but it
didn't help.

[gallows rope creaking]

The Kommando of the camp was
standing and he proudly announced,

"This is what is going to happen
to any of you,

who will try to escape!"

As we were standing,
it was cold,

so we stood close to each
other to keep warm

and Roma, my niece, was telling
us about the Shabbos at home,

just to make us feel happier.

The smell of the food, how it
was coming from the kitchen,

the freshly baked
challahs and the roast,

and she spoke about it so
clearly

that we all felt
that we were there,

and it gave us pleasure, at
least for a minute, to think.

[gallows rope creaking]
[guard dogs barking]

* tranquil

[Ella] Can I do yours? You're
not doing it right.

Can I do it for you?

My mum, after she made
Friday morning,

before she went to business

she used to put the dough
under my duvet to rise.

[Evelyn - Ella's daughter]
Why under the duvet?

[Ella] Because...

it was winter, a lot
of cold weather

and we had to wait until
the dough rises,

so there was no other way

and then

afterwards, she plaited it.

I make the challahs.

I remember exactly how
it was at home.

[pot boiling rapidly]

[burning, bubbling]

[Ella] One day, Roma and I were
sent out of the women's camp

to the men's camp, which
was unheard of.

Some of them came running,
asking,

"Perhaps you've seen
my wife, Sorale,

she was wearing a
floral dress?"

Next one ask me, "Gitile, my
little girl, she had blue eyes""

but we couldn't answer them even
if we had the time,

they were chased out

and we were forced to
march forward.

[door slams shut]

We were pushed into a bathhouse,

but it wasn't a bath,

it was a gas chamber

* suspenseful music *

and I was holding my niece's
hand and I was whispering,

"Don't be afraid,

it won't hurt,

it won't even take long, we will
soon join our loved ones."

At this very minute, an SS man
came in and shouted,

"Ruhe!" "Quiet! You not
going to be gassed".

We couldn't believe it, we thought
it's another trick of the Germans.

[guards shouting orders]

[Ella] And there were some men,
they said,

"You very lucky that
you still alive.

The order that the Germans
received

was to gas 500
Jewish women, not 700."

Our transport was 700.

Because of the German orderliness,
they told us, that we were saved.

[guards shouting commands]

* serene

I never lost hope,

never.

Even in the darkest
times of my life.

If you ask me, if I would've
known what I'm going through,

if I'd change my beliefs,

I would have said, "No,

I'd rather go through again,

even if we are
killed and chased.

I still want to be what I am."

* joyful

* foreboding
[Ella] We were sent from Majdanek to Auschwitz.

[barbed wire twisting]
[sinister sounds]

[electric fence buzzing]

[Ella] When we arrived,
we had showers

and then our
hair was shaven.

I couldn't recognise Roma, I was
calling for her,

because we
looked so different.

- [painful cries]
- [Ella] Then our arms were tattooed,

- [painful cries]
- [Ella] and my number was '48632'

and below the number
was a triangle -

this was a sign of a Jew.

When my children asked me,

what was the scar on my arm,

I said, "It was an accident".

I wouldn't talk about my
suffering and fight for survival

because the open wounds were
still bleeding in me.

[indistinct girls chatter]

[prisoners play-acting]
[laughing]

[door bangs open]

[footsteps approach]

[guard growls]

[Guard: You!]

[Ella] We had a feeling that we
were going to the gas chambers.

There was a nurse
sitting at the back.

I realised that I knew her.

It was my friend, Lena Bunker,

but she was not there as a
Jewess,

she was as a Christian,
as a Polish girl.

I just looked at her and the
strength of my eyes,

she realised what I was
trying to say,

"I know you! I know
who you are."

[laughing]
* carefree

[guard dogs barking]

[Ella] So, I was saved by my
friend, Lena Bunker.

[computer starting up]

[Trudy Van Rooy - friend] Have
you connected with a lot of

friends on Facebook?

[Ella] Yes, yes, yes, yes.

- [laughing in background]
- [Ella] I sit till late at night.

I'm in touch with people that I
haven't seen for ages.

I love to talk to people, I
love to meet people,

I like to hear about them

because I want to
understand human nature.

I love to see people, how they
grow, how they...

what they're doing and
what their likes...

It's very important.

Make friends and show them a
smile and kindness

because it
always comes back.

- [rocks clatter on ground]
- [guards reprimanding]

[Ella] We decided, Roma and I,
that we should try our luck

and get one of the SS men to
give us work under a roof.

* ominous *

"We have been so long in
Auschwitz;

we're still working
in the open fields.

Please can you help us,

that we should be working in a
Kommando under the roof?"

[guards talk indistinctly
in background]

"Sind Sie noch da?"

And he looked, he says,

"Are you still here?"

Because people with the
numbers 48000,

there weren't many still around,

most of them were gone.

And I was offered to be
a blockälteste,

the top, looking after everybody
in the block-house

and it was a wonderful job to
be a blockälteste.

We were in charge, she
never went to...

never had to stand
to roll calls,

she had a special room.

She had a little window with a
small curtain

and there was a
bed there with a sheet,

but you had to hit the girls and
you had to pull out

from the roll calls - those
that were sick,

and they were sent to
the gas chambers.

It was a terrible job.

I said, "I'm not going to do it,
I'm not going to send

my sisters to the gas chambers""

I said, "No. Thank you, but no""

[electric fence humming]
[cold wind blows]

[Ella] Roma was begging me,

"Come, let's end this fight. We
will never survive.

Let us join our loved ones.

In any case, the only way to get
out of Auschwitz

is through the chimneys""

I had to beg her, as I was
not ready to die.

[electric hum intensifies]
* uneasy

I said, "We must carry on

and if we survive,

we will tell the world

what these murderers have
done to us."

[sobbing, crying]

I don't know how I
managed to do it.

Where did I get the strength?

Because I was hungry.

If I come to think of it today,

there was a power
that pushed me.

I knew this is the way I've got
to survive, I will survive,

and I prayed to God to give
me the strength!

[snow crunches underfoot]

[guard dogs barking]

Somebody must have got it into
Auschwitz, I don't know how.

It was so wonderful to see
the Hebrew words

* ominous

[laughing happily]

and I kept it all the way
until we survived,

and I've still got it.

It's so dear to me.

* soulful

[Ella] If you think that good
luck or good fortune has saved me,

it's wrong.

It's somebody up there.

He's looking after me,

He's giving me
strength to fight,

pushing me to survive,

holding me up.

So, don't think it
was just luck.

[ominous music]

[Ella] Roma and I were sent from
Auschwitz to Bergen-Belsen,

in a large transport.

[barbed wire twisting]
[sinister sounds]

[Ella] People were falling like
flies from disease and hunger.

The bodies were piled up
outside each block-house.

The stench was unbearable.

When I saw this,

I realised

I mustn't land up on the heap of
these corpses in Bergen-Belsen...

and the will of survival was
so strong in me!

I said "No, I must carry on.

I'll have to survive
with God's help."

[match striking]
* reflective

[Ella] People come to me,
they want blessings,

they said that it
will help if I,

because I went through it, I
had the number and

I've got some sort of power.

I hope so.

[doorbell chimes]

Hello...

[Jordy - friend] Let me
help you down.

[Gabbi - friend] Ella! So happy
to have you in our home!

- [Naomi] Lovely,
nice to see you.

Nothing brings people
together like good food.

[laughing]

Did you get it from the Torah?

I'm sorry, I'm not
going to use it.

[all laughing]

[Naomi] She'll put it
in her pocket!

Watch it all, I'm not doing it
behind your eyes.

I want you to see it.

[all laughing]

It's worthwhile doing this.

[knife cuts into table]

[Ella] I was chosen to work in
one of the kitchens

and I was trying to organise
pieces of vegetable,

sometimes even there
was meat there,

* menacing
[Ella] but one day,

- [Ella] I hid something under
my underwear

and there was a Russian prisoner
working in the kitchen

and he saw that the
Oberster Führer,

in his office,
noticed me doing it.

[wheelbarrow wheels squeaking]

He said, "Throw it in, quickly""

[gasps]

[guard gives instruction]

and I was searched, but they
couldn't find it.

[guard reacts angrily]

[guard orders her out]

[gasping]

Who left this lovely biscuit?

[laughter]

No food must be wasted!

The plate must be clear,
did you hear?

[Menachem] Yes.

Think! I was hungry.

I was dying for a crumb.

It's not a story, it's true.

[footsteps approaching]

There were things that you
looked at differently

and you thought about

and you had a different
perspective on life.

You like to not waste, you like
to save for tomorrow.

It's probably subconscious but
do you, did you...

[Ella] You want to say "stingy"?

Call a spade a spade.

[Jade - granddaughter]
It's a big procedure.

Because I am going to
use one tea bag.

I'm not going to throw away.

Paul says, "My mother-in-law
makes five cups,

five cups of tea with
one tea bag."

He tells everybody in Shull!

Correct.

[Jade - granddaughter]
Your scarf.

Oh!

[sobbing]

[Ella] When I came out, the
Russian said to me,

"If we survive the war, you are
coming with me to Russia!"

I knew he saved my life, I
had to play along.

I said, "Alright,"

and when we were liberated,
he came to me.

I said, "No, I'll come,
I'll follow you."

Obviously, I never did.
[laughing]

[Jordy - friend]
Why didn't you go?

[Ella] To Russia?

First of all, I had Roma with
me,

whom I looked after
right through the war.

I said, "I will come, you go.
I'll follow you."

[Evelyn] You said that a few
times to a few men, didn't you?

You promised a few men that you
would follow them.

Ah yes, there was somebody else,
in Paris.

So, it was your modus operandi.

Oh, he was in love with me!

You were always going to
follow people,

but you had no intention...

He says, "no!"

[Evelyn] Not for you.

No, no.

[paper flutters to ground]

[Ella] We had a sign that
something is happening,

that maybe we going to be freed,

because in the watchtowers,

we saw some of them
wearing white bands

and the others were
completely empty even,

and I also saw them running,

pushing lots of papers
and documents.

I realise now they must have
been taking it to be burnt.

[guards arguing in background]
* woeful

[gasping while running]

[prisoners murmuring]

[tank engines rumbling]

[Ella] I couldn't... imagine
that it was true,

but it was.

We were free!

[music crescendos]

[sobbing with joy]

[Ella] We were soon
transferred from our camp

to the camp where the SS
men used to live,

which had a bed and a blanket,

under the blanket was a sheet
and there was a pillow,

but believe it,

what we found

was a tap with water,
with a small sink,

running water.

Unbelievable!

* peaceful

I remember the first time
that we had a bath,

Roma and I,

and we both shared the bath.

This was something wonderful,

to be in a bath.

We were lying for hours,
like this.

This was our first enjoyment,
at the bath.

I had to help her to get through
and she got through with me.

So, that's all I've got from
my whole family.

From the 24 people, I've got my
niece Roma who's alive.

When she's not well, I feel it;

I'm also not well and the same,

she feels when I'm not well.

We are just like one person

because it's unbelievable what
we went through together.

[cell phone rings]

[cell phone is answered]

Hi, I want to see your mouth.

Now it's much better.

Thank you, now it's clear.
How's it going?

- [Roma] Very good.
- [Ella] Everything all right?

It's such nice weather,
wonderful, I am very happy.

Rami is also next to me.

Oh, I'm so glad, I'm
happy to hear.

Ella, how are you?

Everything is fine,
there's no problems.

Very good. Happy Birthday! I
wish you a long and good life.

I am very thankful to you, for
you do for me,

all the time, all the time.

[Roma] You helped me
to continue to live.

Happy Birthday, mamaleh.

Thank you, thank you so much.

I'm so grateful for when we
talk to each other.

Alright, I'll say goodbye now,
for now.

My tea's getting cold
and you know

I don't like cold tea.

[Roma] I will speak to you soon.

Be well.

[Roma] I love you, mamaleh.

Love.

Bye-bye. God bless. Look
after yourself also.

[Roma] God bless you.

Bye.

[Roma] Bye-bye.

[call ended]

[train noise]

[Ella] I travelled to Poland.

I was just thinking,

perhaps somebody survived
from my family.

I walked on the ruins of
the Warsaw Ghetto.

I went back to the place
where we lived.

* sorrowful

[echoing memories of laughter]

[whimpers sadly]

[Ella] Why was I
chosen to survive?

Why?

[speaking with great sadness]
Everybody around me is gone.

[speaking with great sadness]
Why it was me that stayed here?

* heartening

[deep sigh]

* uplifting

[Ella] We had permission to
travel from Germany to Paris

[French chatter]

and there were people
living normal lives

people were shopping, children
were around, there was a world!

A tailor made two beautiful
suits for us

and they were the first garments
that were our own.

We enjoyed wearing these suits
every day, almost,

and we treasured it, really.

[Ella] I travelled to
Palestine by boat.

[fireworks exploding]

[Ella] At the end of the year,

I met a South African man,

Isaac Blumenthal.

- * romantic music
- [Isaac laughing]

[car engine stops]
[door opens]

He asked, "May I see
you tomorrow?"

I said, "Alright, be my guest""

All the pictures that
we've seen of you,

you know, you were a young,
very pretty girl.

What do you think, your
father didn't see?

[background laughter]
He saw very well.

He was wearing glasses, but...

he saw me properly, don't worry.

* playful

[Ella] I had to get
permission from Roma.

I asked her, "Can we part?

We'll have to part because I'm
going to a country in Africa."

[camera motor whirs]

I got married after knowing
him only for 13 days.

Normally, every bride will say

it's the happiest
time in her life.

I didn't know what was
happening, it was like a dream!

I was going into the unknown,

but I knew that I was having
somebody next to me

who loved me, who understood me,
who cared about me.

[Ella] Soon after my arrival
in Johannesburg,

the family of my husband

advised me that I should
remove my number,

that I should forget about my
struggles, about my terrible life.

* pensive

My life was happy
with my husband,

but I could not mix with people.

I had no family.

It was all people around me who
didn't understand me,

who didn't know me, who didn't
realise what I went through.

So, I tried to never
talk about it.

But only when I was
building my own family

and my children were arriving,

I felt that this is what I am
able to do

to look after my
husband, my children.

[Norman] There's the so-called
second generation of survivors,

we've always felt that we've
been overprotected,

been difficult, we've
always been different

and our relationships
with people,

with family, wives, has always
been different

and had that effect.

There was always an undercurrent
of something going on,

but as we got older,

maybe in the teenage years,

she just started
telling information.

Me, being the youngest, I picked
it up along the way.

There was certainly something
different in all of us.

[Alvin] In spite of you
bottling it up internally,

I remember vividly,

you would just scream in the
middle of the night,

and then again and again,

and then it was quiet, and then
you would scream

and in spite of you not
talking about it during the day.

Because I was,

I was worried that the Nazis are
taking my children from me.

[Evelyn] I remember that.

[Alvin] I always imagined,
50 years ago,

when she used to tell me

the cut on her arm was due a car
smashed into a shopfront

and the glass broke and it
cut her arm open,

and to this day,
I remember imagining

as a kid, a car mounting
the pavement,

driving into the
shopfront and this

sharp glass cutting and
tearing her arm open.

She so impregnated that
story in my mind,

that I remember it to this day.

* solemn

[Ella] We bought a departmental
store in Brakpan, Johannesburg

and we modernised it,

and it was a very known and
successful business.

* wistful

[Ella] We moved to Cape Town
because my husband was ill,

and it only took a few months

and he passed away.

We prayed, we tried to keep him
alive, but nothing worked.

He was called,

he was gone.

* reminiscent

So, we only live with
memories now.

Roma lives, now, in Manhattan,
New York.

She has about 18 grandchildren

and over 30 great-grandchildren.

They are all very religious and
they've got big families.

Some years ago,
I went to visit Poland.

I remembered every spot
in Auschwitz.

It was like a dream.

I was alive

and I had children and a
grandchild with me, standing there.

It was just a miracle.

I went to Treblinka where my
family was sent away,

but there was nothing left,
only stones.

[Ella] The hatred is not
only for Jews.

There's wars, different tribes,
different beliefs.

The hatred, that's
what's causing

all the problems in the world.

So, we must love
people around us,

not find fault, whether colour,

or skin, or different beliefs.

Love everybody, be kind
to everybody.

We should not forget what
has happened to us

and we must be aware
that things,

God forbid,

could happen again.

[family singing and clapping]

- [speaking with intense emotion]
- [Ella] I was with one foot

- [speaking with intense emotion]
- [Ella] already over there.

I thought it's the end,

but I am here,

I'm standing here among all of
you, can you believe it?

Is it true? Confirm it.

Tell me, tell me that it's me.

I think, still, I'm dreaming.

"No, no, it's me", I
must tell myself.

I don't like to be emotional,
I don't want to,

I want to be happy and grateful,

but what I left behind,

it's not here.

Every person has a
grave to go to,

I have none,

not even ashes.

There's nothing I can do.

At least I go to my
husband's grave.

I am there and I pray to God

for, every day, to leave me
among all of you.

I've lost 23 dear souls.

Can you imagine?

It's not just words, it's true.

Just wiped away.

I've got a lovely family

that I try to think

it's a substitute,
it's not a substitute,

but they are next to me,

and I've got somebody that

I love truly

and always next to me

and they can hear me when I
cry and when I laugh.

Thank you.

[laughter and joy]
* calming

[Ella] It hasn't been easy,

but I feel now that
it's off my heart.

It's a piece out of me,

part of my life, is
now with you,

so don't forget it.

* purposeful

[Ella] Be happy.

Enjoy every day and see the
world around you,

that everybody smiles, there
should be goodness.

Take life and make
the best of it!

Every day, as I get up,

my curtains are always open.

I like to see the day,
the dawn coming in.

I'm ready, every morning,
to thank God

that He gave me
another day of life.

* sombre