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"a couple"

"Based on the works of Sophia Tolstoy"

Be stronger than ever
Hoping for a free Iran

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Translator: "Hami Mughithi"
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The first thing I want to do today...

I do,

I am writing to you, Leo.

I want to remember that day,

That took us many years
What we spent together gave a bond.

We learned the daily habit of writing to each other.

Even when we lived under the same roof.

I am eighteen years old...

It was on our wedding night.
You gave me your diary to read.

I was eighteen...

What a terrible and wonderful night it was...

A night full of sleeplessness.

I see myself in this huge estate,

I notice women
with whom you have had a relationship,

including a neighbor who
You have a two-year-old son.

Not being with you now is causing me pain.

But my heart is deeper
And he turns to you more tenderly.

From you for your happiness in the past
You gave me, thank you.

I'm sorry that always in our lives,

We did not proceed so firmly and peacefully.

But our life together is not over.

Or not?

Is our life together over?

Your strength crushed me.

Your strength in life and character
It broke me.

Am I not strong enough?

Although I have not lost energy.

I spent my time suppressing
I do my talents...

for you,

I neglect my life,

I sacrifice myself for my family.

Is this my mission?

In the beginning, you used to say to me:

"You are the source of my resentment,
"You have made no progress."

"Stupid people look for trouble."

"It is this mentality that I fear."

your feelings for me
It is constantly changing.

From the feeling of enthusiasm...

You go to indifference.

You go in front of him out of respect.

You say that your expression of interest was false.

That I am the most miserable creature in the world.

for this reason...

you avoid me

you reject me

Your accusations are cruel.

I used to cry in the old days,

With the idea that in front of you
you think i'm stupid

And I am illiterate.
And from marrying a woman who by no means

He doesn't understand you, you regret it.

that you were stuck with me
I felt ashamed and sorry.

I was really heartbroken.
I was crying for an irreparable problem.

Making you miserable was like torture for me.

years passed...

until I understood

It took me years to understand
that your mood, your inner problems,

It was rooted in another issue:

your jealousy

You are afraid that
I don't love you anymore

lest my love for you be insufficient.

Do you remember the day that I
I had a happy conversation with teacher Arthur.

It was a beautiful but inappropriate conversation...

Then you got angry.

I, the innocent thief,
I calmly answered your questions.

It was my fault that I did not understand
What problems did you go through?

I started to cry.

I still adored you
I blamed myself, called myself inactive,

I read stupid and miserable,

And I am worthy of being a beautiful being
I did not see like you.

I loved you so much...

That my eyes were blinded.

i still love you

You are the light of my life.

My thoughts run through your views.

I look at everything with your eyes,

I see the world through your eyes.

But you can't just...

birds,

flowers,

Barhoot

writing,

And he lived freely.

The prose of life should not be forgotten.

our children

our diseases

cooking,

Our flaws and fights.

You are deliberately ignoring these issues.

I will not become like you, I am not you.

If I continue like this,
I have wronged myself.

Why me in front of friends
And did you have small guests?

You keep interrupting me.

This was always in the cards.

My cheerfulness causes anger...

And it was your suspicion.

He was jealous of your fame.

You wife with two halves
You compare from a sheet of paper:

"If the tear is pulled a little, it will come off."

"The characteristic is fighting and arguing."

"Like little tears
They are in good relations."

"The intimate relationship of a couple must be preserved."

"Never let that paper tear."

I have a hard time calming myself down.

I am irritable

I also get angry and jealous.

I am full of passion like you.

Don't you remember after my anger subsided?
I was knocking on a door...

where you studied
to see you, to kiss you,

Should I ask you to forgive me?

"He rushed in and started bragging,"

"According to him, changes are impossible,"

"Who is unhappy with the status quo,"

"And he must run away to nowhere."

"I pitied him,
But I know very well that it is useless."

"I'm going to be a windmill until the moment I die
It's on me and my children."

“Maybe I should learn how
In this situation, don't drown."

"But what about my children?"

"Apparently, this is the situation."

"My short-sightedness hurts me."

"I calmed down like a sick person."

I read your diary.

nothing in the world more than your looks

your tenderness

Thank you for my efforts.

Your kindness to me

It doesn't make me happy.

You never learned to apologize.

taking care of children

Sleepless nights with children and with yourself

making meals for ten people,

follow orders

Managing the house, preparing the beds for guests,

Copying your manuscripts over and over.

All these materials...

It's so exhausting for me.

that there is no place for any feeling except fatigue,

It doesn't leave me.

For this reason, any dissatisfaction and suspicion of yours,
It was so disappointing for me.

yes

I mean your distrust after our marriage.

Do you think I am attracted to other men?

Your lack of trust hurts me!

tears in your eyes

your sweet look

Sweet but sad...

i love you so much

that I want to hug you

But despite the notion that you don't trust me,
I'm just annoyed.

You don't believe me.

the trust,

Kindness and simplicity are the best qualities
that you can give me in life

You make me happy with these few features.

What I did not understand and will not understand,
The reason is the sudden changes in your mood.

You are proposing to me.

You express interest with such tenderness,

you care about me
You praise my features.

But the life of this fiery passion of yours,
It is not more than a moment.

I was happy to read in your diary:

"A year since the last time in this office
I wrote in the past. It was a good year."

"The relationship between me and Sonia has become better and stronger."

"We love each other,"

"We do not consider anyone in the world dearer than the other."

"Honesty flows in our relationship."

"We have no secrets and we are not shy."

"I'm feeling great,"

"I'm happy with him,"

"As if there was a one in a million chance
I will find such a wife."

But your momentary disappointments are deep enough,

and irreparable,

as if there are no new wounds on your soul,

And you have had them for a long time.

This is the disappointment that is possible
When a young child for the first time,

He sees and feels a rotting corpse.

Your interests are in other matters.

writing,

Supervision of properties, businesses,

Your classes...

You don't see me anymore.

If you ask me how I am,

And ask what I did today,

My answers are of no interest to you.

But why is that?

What have I done wrong?

why so far

Are you rejected and cold?

I ask useless questions in my mind.

I read in your diary:

"He sleeps soundly,"

"I treat every day with this idea
It is not fair, it passes."

"He thinks he's a victim of my endless lusts."

"She feeds the baby,
It's busy enough."

"It's impossible to talk to him now,"

“While it is possible
The issues will be resolved by themselves."

"No, he didn't like me. He doesn't like me."

"Now I am tormented by this issue,"

"But was I so deluded?"

Do you see me with human eyes?

Am I your person? Am I an object?

you need me

Not to a woman, but to me.
I am also with you.

When you wear me out and your desires are over,

you forget me

You turn your back on me again and again
You will be found.

But I am that always
I want to please you.

My dream was that with pure love,
Let's move on with our lives.

Why are you so kind today?

You only see the good in me

while the next day,
After your tenderness has passed,

Am I to blame for everything?

You are so close that in any way
you want to hurt me

How should I understand...

What sin have I committed?

Could it be that I have never done anything right?

I want to be good
Don't let anyone ignore my flaws.

And most importantly, never forgive myself.

When our little child is lying on my chest
And another hugs me,

I feel so happy

that I no longer have jealousy, sadness, regret and desire.

I don't have any.

To you, I'm nothing more than a mean dog.

Then what are you to me?

Sometimes you are so sad
that you cannot get rid of.

I can't help either.

The thought of death torments you.

scares or humbles,

But it robs you of peace.

"Children and old people are alike."

"However, the child does not know
how to protect yourself

"And he only loves himself."

"The old man is used to protecting himself,"

"But he doesn't like himself."

"The child loves life
And he is not afraid of death."

"The old man does not like life,"

"And he is afraid of death."

"The only peace of mind from the fear of death is this
We are all exposed to it."

You often say that you wish to die.
But I don't believe you.

Unless, according to Seneca...

"We often wish to die for this reason,
Because we are afraid of it."

Every person has a secret.

It is difficult to open up to other people's thoughts.

Even the most honest and transparent of us
They always have a mask on their face.

That what is deep in their being
It hides the hidden.

Some people's masks are better than their souls.

Some, on the contrary,
They have a gentle and loving soul.

They don't know how to express themselves.

Is expression so important?

Most people live like that
As if they are blind.

dancing in the dark

In following unknown desires.

Before our marriage, I asked myself:
"How can I keep my husband with me?"

"Being a kind and honest mother and wife."

empty words

No one can...

Explain what is needed.

It needs a lot of love...

Life is getting smaller and smaller.

Without dreaming, variety or celebration,

without participation in social life,

you wanted it that way

And you made sure
May your wishes be fulfilled.

You live entirely in your mind.

in your thoughts

In what you want to create.

The purpose of your life is your fantasy world.

You come back to us only for rest or variety.

You tell me: "The artist of the best
He takes from his life and puts it in his work."

That is why the work is beautiful
And his life is pathetic."

you think you have no life
Or is your life miserable?

that is nothing
Your life is nothing.

Your life, like mine, is exciting and rich.

My life is nothing.

i draw
I will sew your and the children's clothes.

I teach them every day.

I teach them music,
I play the piano, I read to them.

I plant trees.

I will correct and copy your manuscripts.

I comment on them.

I am in all stages of your writing
I live with your characters.

You are not interested in us.

neither to me nor to our children,
not to our inner life,

Not to our joys or sorrows.

despite your family
You live in a world separate from reality.

we did not leave you

you left us

you told me:

"My works,"

"All my works,"

"He attracted you,
and absorbed so poorly,"

"That if you read them one day,
It is out of curiosity."

"Our children, even a little bit
They will not be attracted to those works."

"You think my life is one sided
And my writing on the other side."

"But my writings are mine!"

"In real life,
"I couldn't express my opinions."

"In real life,
"I gave priority to the necessity of family life."

"I live it,
But my soul rejects this life.

"This life that is not mine,
You call it my life,”

"While that life I say,"

"For you, it's no different than garbage."

"You are the cause of my suffering.
which is unwanted..."

"You hurt me."

You cannot keep someone by force.

Once I was sitting on the floor...

what are you doing? You are pregnant!"

"I arrange the cloths."

"Get up early!"

You went out and knocked on the door.

I ran after you to go to your study room.
You were in the room, angry and furious.

What do you want?"

Go! I said go!"

Stunned, I get closer.
Coffee tray... BOOM!

Everything fell.
All the dishes in the room were broken.

i took your hands

you got angrier

You took the sphygmomanometer off the wall,

And you crushed it!

I ran to my room
And I cried from the bottom of my heart.

How can a small mistake
make you so angry?

I feel abandoned

I have a partner's husband.

Even my loving husband was avoiding me.
but why?

Why?

I was pregnant I lost my child.

Until today, I have not understood the reason for your anger.

Was there a reason for your anger?

Maybe there was no reason.

You often tell me
that we are so close

that we cannot be separated from each other.

Even if it was a source of torment,
I still loved you

I loved you passionately,

I loved you poetically,

I loved you jealously.

I love this text that you read to me:

"Poetry is fire..."

"Which is enlightened in the soul."

"This fire burns, heats
And it turns on."

"Some feel the sting,
Others feel the heat."

"Others see the light,
"Some do not understand anything at all."

"The people who judge poets,
They don't feel burns, heat, or light."

"Anyway, everyone thinks
that poetry is only in the direction of illumination.

"Those who think so,
They consider themselves writers.

"And they want lanterns in their hands
make the path of life clear."

"They think it's normal
that more light is needed,”

"And in the place where
It is full of darkness and noise."

"Others know what's important,
It's heat,"

So what is easy to heat
They warm with artificial heat."

"But the real poet,"

"Unwanted and suffering from it,
It feeds on itself,”

"And it burns others."

"That's what it boils down to."

"Most men their lives
They pass in front of a mirror.

I want my love with the same power,

And see the same intensity as it was at the beginning.

I remember the days when we skated.

Oh my God...

We admired the beauty of the movements,

I let myself get drunk on the cold air,

So that my strength and health are under the influence.

The happiness of the children made
To forget the sadness and everything.

once,

When nothing is love and happiness
It didn't disturb us, we were like a soul,

We were the same in all cases:

Children's education,

Our life in the village

Our view of life.

We grew up together and looked in the same direction.

Doubts and questions did not stop us from life.

you took care of us

Every day everything was better and sweeter.

We imagined the future of our children together.

You hardly talk to me these days.

You act in such a way that I feel
as if i'm lying

It's like I don't love you enough.

i poison your life

And I am crying all the time.

I will try without delay.

From the impossibility of achieving what
I want to do, I suffer.

I am reduced to soul in my body,
But I'm suffocating.

You write to me:

"I'm talking about the lack of love,
Not from me, but from you."

I love you. I think about you all the time
And my heart is burning."

"I see in you an unmitigated hostility,"

"So I can't write,"

"But I can only use my pain as a tool."

I am fading away.

When you're not writing,

You play the piano for four to six hours a day.

From step, practiced...

That Weber sonata...

which I like very much.

You spend your time on solitary walks.
It looks like you want to shock yourself.

From thinking about the futility of life and your desire
Stop to end it.

I'm tired

you make me tired

"The world was empty,"

"They were numerous and powerful."

"Seasonless, plantless, treeless,"

"Inhuman, lifeless,"

"a gland of death,"

"Hard Clay Expenditure"

"rivers, lakes,"

"And the oceans,"

Everyone stood still. and nothing
In their silent depths it does not stir"

"Ships without sailors,
They were rotting on the sea,”

"And their masts fell in pieces,"

"As they fell,"

"They slept on the precipice,"

"On a waveless sea."

Waves,"

Tide,"

"They were resting in their graves."

"The moon, their mistress, had already expired,"

"The winds had withered in the stagnant air,"

"And the clouds had perished,"

"The darkness didn't need their help,"

"Because it encompassed the world."

Deeply devastated...

And I'm alone...

When after our quarrel and anger,
I remembered this poem by Byron.

When I think you wrote...

"My awakening in doubt,
It was compared to the reality of the outside world.

"All the meanings of life have lost color for me."

If you find it difficult,

How can you have such a view?
To impose on your friends and family?

I don't remember which one of us
started this fight or what caused it.

I was probably to blame.

I blame you for ignoring me
I blamed our children,

For letting me take care of them alone.

I alone can carry the burden of the family...

And I didn't get rejected by you.

Our fight was very intense.

You just wanted to get on your way and leave.

These wishes were felt in your behavior.

As if my heart was twisted.

After getting out you shouted,

You left and didn't come back all night.

I sat there for hours and cried,

Even without changing my clothes.

I went out early in the morning.

It was a bright morning.

wonderful, sunny,

The plants were covered with dew.

it was cold

But nature had such a magnificent beauty
I went to the river,

I went to our bathroom.

I took off my clothes and entered the water.

I felt the cold.

I stayed there for another hour.
I wanted to die from the cold.

What at that time compared to you
I felt he was tormenting me:

"I die, you alone
You have to take care of the kids."

"After me, you must take care of them."

My passion for our children,
finally brought me back to life,

and sent me home.

you wanted to go

You fell in love with another woman.

I shouldn't have expressed interest in you like before.
It would be a pathetic behavior.

I put a double burden on you.

You finally came home
And we compensated as much as we could.

We both cried.

I am glad to see that my love for you is not dead.

That love that is in all
I mourned him terribly that night.

After that fight,
We spent a lot of time together.

"What a painful habit,"

"What a difficult undertaking,"

"That should be constantly
Worry about meeting each other."

"While you have nothing but small talk
to hit each other."

"And to establish mutual communication in matters,"

"which was already known to both,
But it didn't matter to any of them."

"Get in the house just to get out,"

"I'll have dinner out so I can go home later,"

"Very pleased to see you
Three Swiss in five hours,”

"A woman one hardly knows,
And he rarely likes it.

"He who considers the value of time correctly,
And how irreparable is its damage."

"Must be bitter for such
He mourned great suffering."

Do you remember that time with our friends?
Did we read La Bruyere's "Characters"?

and how parts of
Did we read our diary?

“I still want to after
I will write you our phone conversation."

I am sad,"

"I am very sad."

I wanna cry."

"I have no wish,
I have no power left."

"Don't think it's you."

"The reason why I am writing this letter to you,
It is not to feel that way."

"Don't curse yourself,"

"Because there is no reason to blame you."

"There are many qualities about you,
Like your relationships..."

"With some of our friends,"

"That makes me happy."

"I write that you cannot
Or, in general, he moved women with logic:

"Logic is like a form of violence
"Illegitimately bothers you."

"Write me a letter, dear."

"If you feel the need for me
it pleases you,”

“I will share the same joy.
Well, I'm done."

By your old tenderness and affection for me,

It has flared up again.

But I don't trust you anymore.

No more fleeting desires
I don't enjoy your romance.

I hardly answer them,
I protect my heart and the freedom of my soul.

you told me:

"I will be closer to you than before."

"I'm bored,
I feel empty,”

"I feel awkward without you and without my job."

"I need both to survive."

"I relieve myself with a lot of sleep."

"If I rest well,
I will reach you and my work more."

But this "better" lasted only a short moment.

I'm as good as a romantic drunk
I know that will cause us to separate.

I was afraid of that moment, I was terrified.

I will not be defeated by this love.

My heart is tired.

Does anyone, even the most unemployed person,

with the simplest possible life,

Can he handle all his assigned duties?
The tasks are endless and limitless.

you went to the well

Without asking if small is better,

and whether his mother is tired or not.

you to us, to your family,
You are very unkind.

You were always strict and indifferent.

They will write in your biography
that instead of your servant,

You did all the work yourself.

But no one will understand that
even for a moment of comfort for your wife,

You refused to serve your children.

Never during these thirty years,
Once you did not sleep next to the bed of your sick child,

So that I can rest for a moment.

make up for my lack of sleep
Take a walk or take a breather.

I just do what...

I have the power to do it, I will do it.
Without destroying my inner balance.

To calmly think about the things I haven't done.

"You work so hard!"

This "very" reminds me of a proverb
that the Chinese paint on their houses:

"Because one is fed up with idleness,
And the other will die of hunger."

This is also the case in our time.

You based on choices, tastes,
You live your needs and desires...

But I live out of necessity
and I'm starving

To have a spiritual and peaceful life with you.

even if my life is hard
I support your writing.

As I always tell you:

"Your work is more important than mine."

But I also work non-stop.

This is what bothers me:

you love your job
you live for the love of it,

But my work and life is just chaos.

i have no life
I don't even have a family life.

I can hardly bear the burden of a family
carry on my shoulder

Why in this way...

Do we make such sacrifices?

Why do people sacrifice themselves?

for what purpose for whom

When this constant sacrifice
I see motherly...

The children are happy for a few hours
and then what? What will happen?

For them, this sacrifice is normal.
I always sacrifice myself.

Am I looking for self-esteem?

Do you enjoy self-sacrifice?
be stronger than the joy of life?

I was busy writing in my memoirs.
that you entered

With a terrible frown on your face.

Until then, no unpleasant words
We used to agree: nothing.

"I have come to tell you that we must get a divorce."

"I can't stand this life anymore.
I'm going, I'm going."

If the house were to collapse on me,
I couldn't be more surprised.

"What happened?"

nothing has happened."

"When a mule is heavily loaded,
It dies under its pressure."

I did not get you.

And then the shouts, the blames,

And your insults started...

I endured all without reply.

I noticed your anger.

you told me:

"The air near you is polluted."

I was paralyzed on the verge of delirium.

My language was unable, my tears did not flow.

"Even if you kill me,
I will not open my mouth again"

What had I done this time?

I lost control at the moment.

I ran outside.

With the only thought in my head:

Die, by any means.

I cried
You begged me to come back.

"Take me to the police or the hospital!"

I fell in the snow, you pulled me out...

Half naked, wet...

and finally the patient,

Abnormal, as if I am lost.

go, get out of this house

This life and desires
End your unbearable.

This is what I think and remember day and night.

I didn't leave the house for several days...

A simple party for the anniversary
Do you remember our tenth anniversary?

Our children, my sisters,
Their children and some close friends...

Our mutual friend David congratulated us:

"Such a happy relationship deserves it
It is a compliment."

You replied:
it could be better."

This sentence is a document of endless desires.
which I can never fulfill.

Despite my efforts.

Evil has invaded our lives.

Translator: "Hami Mughithi"
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I always love to see lust.

gives way to separation,
I am surprised

Sometimes in this life full of indifference,

I feel wild despair.

I could run away
fall in love with another man

Anything but with a man who
I love him with all my heart, to live.

"There is no love," you say.

"But the body seeks to satisfy its needs."

"And his rational need,
It is to have friends and helpers.

I to couples who
In addition to physical love,

They also enjoy spiritual connection.
I'm jealous

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step by step...

The flame of my being...

I choke...

My hopes and dreams...

My various abilities...

I stifle my immense energy.

love you with all my heart.

Yes, this love was an illusion,
It was a fantasy.

what do i want
Why am I unhappy?

Why is my soul crushed?

Is it my youth that wants to live?
While there is no real life?

Or I feel sorry for those who
Are they unhappy?

But happy people are selfish.

Where does happiness come from?

From fate? But what is fate?

Is it a law of nature?

Is the universe moving?

God's wisdom...

Is God?

Yes, without a doubt.

Prayer to God is good.

I can't accept...

that everything in the world
It's just the movement of atoms.

Whether I am good or bad
It just depends on the weather.

All joys gradually disappear.

I have come to an inner philosophy,
which includes everyday life.

with the same cheerfulness,

excite as much as possible,

who submits with humility and peace
It becomes the whim of others.

I feel more or less fine.

"Woman, Life, Freedom"
"Tomaj Salehi is still in prison"

[Based on the diary of Sophia Tolstoy]

[and letters from Leo to Sophia Tolstoy]