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Hey!
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(By BRISTON MARONEY)
[♪ Freaking Out on the Interstate
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♪ rolling down the windows,
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♪ baby, I can't hear a thing you say
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♪ I'm walking back to my favorite place
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♪ and I can feel them staring at me
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♪ Baby, do you think I'm doing
something wrong?
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♪ And you got a lot in your mind
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♪ and your heart, it looks
just like mine
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♪ There's no use in wasting
your time anymore
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♪ I'm sorry I haven't been myself
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♪ and something got me down
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♪ What it is, I cannot tell
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♪ I won't be satisfied
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♪ with anything I've earned
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♪ Fear is just a part of love
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♪ and one thing I found
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♪ is love is what you deserve ♪]
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[ALICE - downstairs] Oh, Graham!
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Happy birthday loser! Ah, ah!
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- Alice you know I hate surprises.
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Yeah, and I wouldn't get you anything
for your 21st birthday.
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- Oh wow oh my god.
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[ALICE] Yeah i made it myself. It's a dragonfly.
You like those right?
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[GRAHAM] Thank you.
- Of course...
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... Happy Birthday... and...
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...because it's your birthday
there's only one thing we can do...
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[GRAHAM] No Alice, not a party...
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- A party! Oh yeah!
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We're gonna have a party
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and I've invited Jess and Cass,
they're coming around seven
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to help us set up
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and I think they're bringing some friends
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and just might be bringing her cousin Connor
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that we had like dinner a few months ago
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- Connor DeMary?
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[ALICE] No, her other cousin Connor
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Yeah, it's gonna be super fine.
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Everyone's gonna come have a good time
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I think that, oh yeah!
Oh no I invited Grace! That's gonna be fun
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[GRAHAM] Oh awesome!
- Yes!
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So awesome because i couldn't get in the way of
a such a passionate...fiery love that you two have.
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- Yeah, no I mean she is pretty cool
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[ALICE] Oh is she? That's funny you should say because...
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...you haven't asked her out
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[GRAHAM] I'm just, I'm personally just waiting for the right time
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[ALICE]Okay John Mayer...
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Well she's waiting and she's not gonna wait forever.
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Don't get too drunk before the party
- Yeah yeah
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- Hey are you good?
[GRAHAM]Yeah, yeah I think I just... just fell
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[CONNOR] Oh yeah, no that's a mark huh
[GRAHAM] Yeah
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- Connor by the way
- Graham
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Yeah, yeah
[CONNOR] It should be good though.
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I think I have some bandages in my car
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[GRAHAM] Oh oh you don't have...
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- Okay
- Okay all right. thank you, thank you
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- Okay. So...bad news,
I don't have any bandages in my car but...
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... my apartment's right over there
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- I think.. I think I'll be all right.
It's really fine
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[CONNOR] No, I insist
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[GRAHAM] Okay.
[CONNOR] Come on!
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Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to you
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Happy Birthday dear [ALICE] butthead
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Happy birthday to you
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- Oh pathetic!
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- All right everyone, let's get this party started
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[ALICE] Let the birthday boy eat his
damned cake Cassie
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[CASSIE] You're right. I just haven't been drunk in so long...
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[JESS] Okay, I'm trying to say
I'm really sorry I can't make it later
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but i think Connor may still come by
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[Heads Will Roll by A-Trak begins]
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- Hey
- Hey
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- Yeah, she said there'd be cuter boys here
but I don't see them nowhere, so...
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- Fair
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[DAHLIA] Aren't you the birthday boy, if I'm not mistaken?
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[GRAHAM] You've caught me
[DAHLIA] You look like you're having bad time
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[GRAHAM] Oh yeah, yeah. No i'm just waiting for someone yeah
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[DAHLIA] Oh like a birthday surprise?
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Okay, thought that, well do you have a plan?
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[GRAHAM] I...I mean...
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- Are you nervous?
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- No, I've got there...
- No, no, no..but first...
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...Okay, first step make a plan
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if it goes wrong, I'll be over there
having a good time, dancing, drinking like
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I'm at a party right...
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...uhm and if anything goes wrong
just I'm right over there so...
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- Thanks but I don't think I'm gonna need that
- [DAHLIA] Good luck
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[CASSIE] Dahlia!
[DAHLIA] Oh good luck good luck, I'll see you there, bye
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- Alice!
[ALICE] Hey Graham, are you having fun?
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[GRAHAM] Yeah, do you know where Connor is?
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- No, he's not coming, he's not coming tonight
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[GRAHAM] Why? Why isn't he coming?
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- Cassie, who is Connor?
[CASSIE] Connor?
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[ALICE] Who IS Connor? okay okay..
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- Hey stranger
[GRAHAM] Oh hey Grace
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- How's your 21st going?
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- Good, I'm absolutely 100% stone cold sober
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- Oh I can tell. Are you sober on your birthday?
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I don't think so, we got to do something
about that
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[GRAHAM] I mean...don't worry about that.
I'm fine.
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[GRACE] Graham you only turn 21 once.
I'm here to save the day.
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[GRAHAM] How so?
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[I'M NOT IN LOVE by KELSEY LU]
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[♪ I'm not in love so don't forget it
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♪ It's just a silly phase
I'm going through
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♪ And just because I call you up
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♪ don'get me wrong,
don't think you got it made
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♪ I'm not in love, no, no
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♪ It's because
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♪ because big boys don't cry
Big boys don't cry
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♪ Big boys don't cry
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♪ I'm not in love
I'm not in love ♪]
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I, I got it, thank you.
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- Do you want anything to drink?
- Yeah, sure
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- Water?
- Yeah that'll be fine. [CONNOR] Yeah.
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- Oh my god it's a miracle. I didn't think that
you'd be able to walk again.
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How does it feel?
- Ah, it's fine. Thank you again for the help.
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- Yeah of course. Here.
- Thanks
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- So where are you from?
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- Well...the..uhm...the Washburn Apartments,
like two blocks away...
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- Wait! The Washburn apartments isn't that the place
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with the..uh...the rats from last summer?
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- Yes, yes it is unfortunately, unfortunately that's true
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- Sorry for laughing.
- No, no, no it's fine. It's fucking gross.
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[CONNOR] Yeah...uhm...wait isn't that also where...
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...uhm...the place where
[PHONE VIBRATE INTERRUPTS]
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Oh... one second, sorry
- No that's...
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[CONNOR] Oh, it's my mom sorry
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Hey mom what's up?
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Wait, wait, what, how?
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Okay. Well, did you tell him?
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Okay...uhm...yeah
I'll deal with this later...
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...uhm...yeah...okay, bye.
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[GRAHAM] Uhm... any anything i can help with?
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[CONNOR]Oh no, no. I'm sorry, it's some uh family stuff.
It's fine...Uhm...
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[GRAHAM] I was just right to go anyways
[CONNOR] Okay, nice meeting you
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[GRAHAM] Yeah thank you again that was great
[CONNOR] Of course
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- Alice, can you get that?
[ALICE] *Indistinct Groan*
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- Oh, hey Graham
- Oh hey Dahlia.
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[DAHLIA] Sorry I left my coat here last night.
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My mom she would actually
murder me if I lost it
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[GRAHAM] Welcome back.
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[DAHLIA] Don't you look great?
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[GRAHAM] I didn't expect any guests this morning.
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[DAHLIA] Is that girl still here?
[GRAHAM] What girl?
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[DAHLIA] The one you were absolutely devouring
last night in front of everybody.
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[GRAHAM] Grace? Yeah, I know...ah... she left last night.
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[DAHLIA] It seems like you guys had a lot of fun
[GRAHAM] Yeah...
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[DAHLIA] What are you doing today?
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[GRAHAM] Uhm... other than recovering
from this hangover, nothing.
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[DAHLIA] Do you want to have lunch?
[GRAHAM]Oh...okay, okay, yeah
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[DAHLIA] Perfect go cover your nips, we're leaving in five.
[GRAHAM] All right
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So how'd you meet Grace?
[GRAHAM] Uhm...not too long ago actually.
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Uhm...Alice, one of her friends was having
a pool party and uhm...she was there.
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and we hung out, we started talking,
she's really cool, I like her...
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...uhm...yeah, yeah, we've hung out a few times
since then, including last night.
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[DAHLIA] Is that why you were so nervous?
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[GRAHAM] Yeah, I don't know why I get so nervous...
like...
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[DAHLIA] It's young love, it's beautiful,
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but she is super attractive though, so that's a plus.
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[GRAHAM] Yeah she is, totally.
How about you? You got anyone?
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[DAHLIA] Slow down, this isn't a date if that's
what you're thinking, but no.
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I'm too good for this town.
Men are fucking useless, no offense.
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[GRAHAM] None, none taken.
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[DAHLIA] Yeah, I'll worry about that another time.
For right now, they're just fun to play with.
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One day I'll move out to Paris and
I'll live in a beautiful apartment
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with a balcony overlooking the Eiffel Tower
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and I'll sit out there in the mornings
so I'll watch the sunrise,
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I'll drink tea, eat incredible food that
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I'll post every day to make my haters rage
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and maybe I'll meet some nice French guy
named Pierre, Remy.
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[GRAHAM] Like the rat?
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[DAHLIA] It's my dream life, not yours
[GRAHAM] Sorry...sorry
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[DAHLIA] But this guy is gonna be perfect, nothing less.
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He'll come over every day and
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we turn on the radio and listen to some oldies
and dance in the kitchen
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like we're the only two
left in the world.
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We'll never get sick of hearing each other's stories
about what happened that day
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or what we're going to do the next day because
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with each other looking into each
other's eyes
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that's the only place we want to be.
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[GRAHAM[ That's, you know, that's amazing.
[DAHLIA] I know, thanks.
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[DAHLIA] Okay we should do this again you're fine.
[GRAHAM] I agree
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[DAHLIA] All right, I'll see you soon
[GRAHAM] See you Dahlia!
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- Are you seriously still dying in bed?
[ALICE] What the hell are you on this morning?
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Usually you're dying right next to me
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and then we play rock, paper scissors, shoot
and you make me mimosas.
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- Well, Dahlia came by earlier,
she forgot her coat or something
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and then we went out and got some food.
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[ALICE] That's cute. What did you guys talk about?
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[GRAHAM] Just things, stuff. stuff
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[ALICE] Okay fine. Don't tell me
[GRAHAM] Are you seriously getting offended?
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[ALICE] Please leave a message for Alice after the beep.
Beep.
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- How long do we have to stay there?
[ALICE] Forever, we're moving.
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Seriously though, if you keep complaining about
this party i'm going to get your ass
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[GRAHAM] I know, I know.
I just don't know anybody there
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[ALICE] Jackson's going
[GRAHAM] No, no, no, not bug collector Jackson
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JESS] He's the kid who brought the bug to class last year
[[GRAHAM] oh absolutely not
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[ALICE] You're gonna be fine champ
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[GRAHAM] You know if he brings abug i swear to God
I'm leaving. I'm going to.
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[GRAHAM] So why isn't Cassie coming anymore?
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[JESS] I guess she's on some boat with this guy
she just met
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[ALICE] Ooh
[JESS] You know what they say about the summer time
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[ALICE] Oh yeah, I mean if a guy has a boat you gotta go.
I don't blame her one bit
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[JESS] Oh absolutely. A man with a boat I hope he's the one
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[ALICE] I mean, if he's got a boat, he is the one.
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Remember the time that Cassie used tip off
the side of the boat last year
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[JESS] Yeah she's always a fool
making a straight up fool of herself
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Maybe we'll find you the one today Graham,
who knows?
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[ALICE] Oh yeah all the pretty babes in bikinis,
find your soulmate.
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[JESS] Jackson for one?
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- What are you doing?
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Are you actually sleeping right now.
We are at a party and you're asleep.
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- No, no
- Get up Graham, get up!
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- Noooooo
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[GRAHAM] Hey
[JESS] Hi
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[GRAHAM] Do you want to get going soon?
[JESS] Right now?
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[GRAHAM] I mean like now
[JESS] I'm having fun, just a little longer?
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[GRAHAM] Yeah, yeah, yeah.
[JESS] All right, okay
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- Okay
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[GRACE] Watch out!
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I'm so sorry
[GRAHAM] It's fine, I think I'll survive.
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- I'm Grace
- I'm Graham
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[GRACE] Wait, are you serious?
[GRAHAM] You heard me.
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[GRACE] You really gave the entire team chickenpox
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totally sabotaging any chance at the championship?
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[GRAHAM] Yep
[GRACE] That is incredible.
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[GRAHAM] Yeah
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[GRACE] You're pretty cool Graham.
[GRAHAM] You are too.
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[ALICE] Graham, mama's drunk and I wanna go.
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[GRAHAM] Yeah, Yeah. That...that's my cue.
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[GRACE] Will I see you again?
[GRAHAM] Yeah, I can make that happen.
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[ALICE] Yep, and you're driving.
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[GRAHAM] Here we go.
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Goodnight Alice.
[ALICE] *mumbles* Goodnight.
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- So is Dahlia coming or what?
[GRAHAM] No, no. I don't think so.
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- Where's the dragonfly bracelet i got you? I made you?
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[GRAHAM] I lost it. I don't know, it desappeared...
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[ALICE] You lost it? [GRAHAM] I obviously...
[ALICE] You don't know? I spent like 50 hours...
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Hey, hey what's up?
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[JESS] Just got back from my new tattoo appointment
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[ALICE] Oh shit, look at that
[CASSIE] It's really so pretty
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[JESS] Thank you so much
[CASSIE] I like it
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[ALICE] Why the dragonfly?
[JESS] Well you know my cousin Connor,
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he's like going through a hard time right now
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and we just kind of talked about like
the dragonfly and how transformative it is
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and that really resonates with me
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and so we scheduled these appointments then,
you know
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[GRAHAM] Wow!!
[ALICE] That, it looks cool right
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[JESS] Yeah and it looks pretty cool
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[CASSIE] Graham I heard you hung out
with Dahlia the other day
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[GRAHAM] Yeah she she got me so hungover...
I was dead, I was...
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[CASSIE] I love her, she's so sweet,
you're gonna get along so well with her..
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[GRAHAM] Yeah...
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[DAHLIA] So how's grace?
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[GRAHAM] Uhm... I haven't seen her since the party
[DAHLIA] Why's that?
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[GRAHAM] I don't know. I've been busy.
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[DAHLIA] Busy? Busy with what?
You're 21, this isn't the time to be busy.
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What's up?
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Okay, all right. Come on! Come on!
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Ever since I was in high school,
it's always been my favorite thing
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to just come down to the ocean and
admire how big the world is around me.
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For a moment i feel so infinite yet so small.
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At the same time all my thoughts
and my anxieties
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just seem to be absorbed by the ocean
and the sky
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and I like go.
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[SCREAMS]
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[GRAHAM] Whoa whoa what the what the hell is that?
[DAHLIA] Try it!
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[GRAHAM] Screaming?
[DAHLIA] Yes, try it!
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[GRAHAM] You wanna me scream?
[DAHLIA] Yes, try it!
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[BOTH SCREAMING]
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[DAHLIA] What did you feel like when you met Grace?
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[GRAHAM] What do you mean?
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[DAHLIA] Like how did you know?
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[GRAHAM] It was that night at the pool.
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I don't know we were talking and
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sitting on the edge,
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she kept getting closer and we kissed
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[DAHLIA] No way!
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[GRAHAM] Yeah, but I...uhm...I didn't feel any different.
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[DAHLIA] What do you mean?
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- You know when people tell you about
something you haven't experienced yet,
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a feeling you haven't experienced yet or something
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you look forward to it so much,
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but when it finally happens
it's totally underwhelming and
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the opposite of what you expected it
to feel like.
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That was when we kissed
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I expected all the universe's questions
to be answered then
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and to understand everything.
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- Maybe she isn't the one.
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- Or maybe she can't be.
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When i was 13,
my mom told me it was just puberty.
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She said don't worry Graham, go to bed,
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they're just bad thoughts, they'll be gone in the morning...
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but they never were.
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It's been eight years and
they still haven't.
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I used to look in the mirror
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and the boy staring at me would be terrified.
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I saw a boy,
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and on the outside he was just
like any other boy,
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but... but he knew really,
when really looked into his eyes,
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really saw who he was,
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he couldn't figure out how,
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he couldn't figure out why he was different.
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He couldn't accept himself,
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he yearned for the validation of others,
struggled to find the right girl
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and when he finally met one,
he thought she would have all the answers,
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she would be the one...
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she would be the one that
would help everything make sense,
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she would...she would be the one
to make the struggle worth it.
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But she wasn't.
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She couldn't be,
she could never be the one.
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[DAHLIA] What are you saying Graham?
[GRAHAM] I'm saying I'm terrified.
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[DAHLIA] Why?
[GRAHAM] Because I'm scared of who I am.
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[DAHLIA] Or are you afraid that
you can finally be who you are?
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[GRAHAM] What if i don't want,
what if i don't want this?
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I just don't know what.
I...I just don't know what I want.
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I'm waiting for someone to give me
the answers, anything and...
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nobody's giving me the right answers.
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[DAHLIA] That's because no one can figure out
who you are except for you.
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You have to find out for yourself.
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You know who you are but,
when it's your time,
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you can tell the world
or you don't.
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Who cares how long it takes you to figure it out.
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[GRAHAM] When will I know?
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[DAHLIA] As soon as you're ready
to accept the love you deserve.
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My thing is: life is short.
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Allow yourself to feel, allow yourself
to get hurt and be confused.
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You're human,
but never be discouraged by the hurt.
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It takes some people a lifetime to figure out
who they are, where they're going and
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who they want to take with them.
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Life is weird,
you just gotta let yourself love.
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I hate this country, its culture.
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People sticker label after label
to their bodies, to their brains,
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until they completely suffocate
the real-life person underneath.
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Labels mean nothing,
they're just a way to generalize.
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We're so obsessed with fitting in that
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we forget that people
are never one-dimensional.
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You shouldn't have to define yourself,
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you should just be allowed to be.
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In our crazy messed up world,
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if you're different,
you just have to tell everyone.
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[GRAHAM[ I just don't know if I'm ready.
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[DAHLIA] I'm not saying you have to announce it,
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let alone even know yourself,
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but for people like Grace
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make sure not anyone get hurt.
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Every day I wake up
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and look at myself in the mirror
and think
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if I died today would I be happy
with how I lived? Did I live authentically?
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Your heart's going to die one day Graham,
but your soul will live on.
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And you nor anyone else
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won't ever be able to touch or love
your body ever again.
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Be free and enjoy it while you can,
it's your only one.
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[ALICE - VOICEMAIL] Hey Graham I'm not home right now because
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I'm currently with Cassie grabbing some last minute
things for tonight.
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I completely forgot that we moved
Jess's birthday celebration
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to this weekend and not next weekend.
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So hopefully your suit is ready.
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Her and her cousin are coming
over at like six
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so if you could please, please, please,
please clean the kitchen
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so i don't start stress vomiting,
that'd be great.
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All right, thank you, so much.
Cassie and I'll be there ASAP, okay, bye.
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[FLY ME TO THE MOON
by BOBBY WOMACK]
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[♪ Fly me
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♪ Fly me to the moon
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♪ And let me play among the stars
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♪ Let me see
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♪ Oh I wanna see what spring is like
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♪ On Jupiter
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♪ On Jupiter and Mars
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♪ In other words, hold my hand ♪]
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[ALICE] All the balloons popped.
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[GRAHAM] Hey!
[CASSIE] Hey Graham!
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[ALICE] It smells really good in here.
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[GRAHAM] Yeah I just started cooking,
why did we move it to this weekend?
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[ALICE] Well because Jess is 21 and
you can't go to the bars yet.
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[CASSIE] Happy Birthday
[JESS] Thank you so much.
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[CONNOR] Hey Cass, good to see you again.
[ALICE] Happy Birthday!!
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Who's this?
[JESS} Oh this is my cousin Connor.
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[CONNOR] I'm Connor, nice to meet you. What was your name?
[ALICE] I'm Alice, Graham's roommate.
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[CONNOR] Oh, Graham, hey. Wait I didn't know you knew..
[TOGETHER] Jess. Yeah.
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[GRAHAM] Yeah she's, she's your cousin?
[CONNOR] Yeah, it's nice to see you again.
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[GRAHAM] Yeah, it's nice to see you too.
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[CONNOR] This looks nice.
[GRAHAM] Yeah, it is.
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[CONNOR] Graham you did a really good job
with this chicken.
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[GRAHAM] Thank you, I, what? Was cooking it for
like two, three hours?
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[ALICE] Okay that's a lie.
[GRAHAM] What?
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[ALICE] You know you bought that chicken from Hannaford's
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[GRAHAM] Oh my...yes. I physically bought
the chicken from Hannaford's, that's true
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but like..I...I...
[ALICE] The receipt says cooked.
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[GRAHAM] All right.
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[CONNOR] Wait, so how did you guys meet?
[JESS] Uhm...bio right?
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[GRAHAM] Yeah what bio 100
[Connor] Freshman year...
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[JESS] Freshman year.Yeah Cassie was in the class too
[Connor] Oh really?
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[CASSIE] Yeah, we all had it together.
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[JESS] You know I've known Cass for like ever
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[CONNOR] Yeah I know. I live
where Graham
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he busted his ass in flame.
It's so funny
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[ALICE] Is that why you came home the other day crying?
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[GRAHAM] Oh my god i wasn't crying but
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yes it was really nice he helped me,
you know...I...I...
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[ALICE] With your booboo
[GRAHAM] Oh. my god!
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[ALICE] Ah Jess, so for your 21st, you're actually 21st,
we should go to that bar on the main street?
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[Jess] Yeah
[CONNOR] O-hop right? Great!
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[ALICE] Yes, yes! oh my god!
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Yeah! Do you remember...yes
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when you get..ah, ah...
this girl got so drunk,
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her boyfriend had to drag her ass off the bar
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because she was dancing so much...
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[JESS] You remember that, Cass?
[CASSIE] Not really.
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[CONNOR] Blacked out?
[CASSIE] Yep.
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[CONNOR] Been there before.
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[ALICE] How's your boyfriend, Jess?
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[JESS] Uhm... he's, something but not as bad as
this one's ex-boyfriend, let me tell you
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[CONNOR] Yeah, yeah. My ex-boyfriend almost...
uhm... ran me over with the bus one time so...
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- Wow...
[GRAHAM] What?
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[CONNOR] Yeah he's a bus driver so...
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[ALICE] A bus driver? He's a bus driver?
[ALL TOGETHER] Red flag.
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[ALICE] Connor, you have to come out with us next time!
[CASSIE] We have to go to a gay bar!
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[JESS] No, I know the perfect place.
[CONNOR] Really
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[JESS] Yeah
[ALICE] We could hook him up with someone!
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[CONNOR] Yeah I'm just kind of waiting
for the right one, you know
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[ALICE] No, you just need a hook up
[CONNOR] Yeah you're right
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[CASSIE] Oh yeah, there's going to be tons of guys there
[ALICE] Oh, yeah.
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[CASSIE] Like you're going to find the right man
[Connor] Really?
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[ALICE] Dude they're so hot, it's honestly unfair.
Like they're so hot like.
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[CONNOR] Yeah, no, I've never been to a gay bar before so.
[ALICE] What? How have he and you haven't? Oh my god.
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[CONNOR] Hey.
[GRAHAM] Hey.
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[CONNOR] How are you?
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[GRAHAM] I'm pretty good, how are you?
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[CONNOR] Good
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The stars are a beautiful thing, aren't they?
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[GRAHAM] Yeah, they're little dots away that people use to connect
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and make shapes and images it's...uhm...
it's beautiful.
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[CONNOR] The human mind is a beautiful thing too isn't it?
[GRAHAM] Yeah
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[CONNOR] People get so lost in themselves,
lost in their lives that
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they forget we can just take a step back and
look at the stars
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and realize how small we really are,
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how insignificant everything is.
441
00:42:33,920 --> 00:42:36,300
It's so easy not to
442
00:42:37,699 --> 00:42:39,219
follow your heart,
443
00:42:42,079 --> 00:42:44,119
lose sight of who we are,
444
00:42:45,220 --> 00:42:49,020
to forget what it's like to be
445
00:42:50,839 --> 00:42:53,699
blissfully and brutally human
446
00:42:58,900 --> 00:42:59,800
but
447
00:43:02,301 --> 00:43:05,001
we don't even allow ourselves to be happy.
448
00:43:09,019 --> 00:43:11,239
[GRAHAM] Are you happy?
449
00:43:16,639 --> 00:43:27,459
[CONNOR] I try to do everything i can
to be happy and to feel alive but
450
00:43:29,280 --> 00:43:31,860
not everyone agrees with it
451
00:43:33,920 --> 00:43:39,840
but life's too short right?
[GRAHAM] Right.
452
00:43:44,559 --> 00:43:52,820
[ALICE] Graham, you gotta come join the actual party
and we're...forget it...
453
00:43:53,221 --> 00:43:54,921
[CONNOR] Hey do you need help with
any of the dishes or anything?
454
00:43:54,922 --> 00:43:56,622
[GRAHAM] Oh no, no.I think i'm all good
455
00:43:56,623 --> 00:43:58,823
[CONNOR] Also...uhm...do you know where the girls coats are?
456
00:43:58,824 --> 00:44:04,024
[GRAHAM] Umm...they're up on the third floor and...
uhm... it's like the first room
457
00:44:04,025 --> 00:44:06,925
[CONNOR] Do you mind just helping me?
[GRAHAM] Sure, yeah okay, okay.
458
00:44:23,119 --> 00:44:25,199
[CONNOR] Where are they?
[GRAHAM] Right over there.
459
00:44:25,700 --> 00:44:27,400
[CONNOR] Over here?
[GRAHAM] Yep
460
00:44:32,359 --> 00:44:38,939
[CONNOR] A dragonfly pendant?
[GRAHAM] Yeah, my mom gave it to me, when i was nine.
461
00:44:38,940 --> 00:44:41,640
That's when she gave it to me
after my grandma passed away
462
00:44:41,839 --> 00:44:44,100
[CONNOR] I'm sorry
463
00:44:44,301 --> 00:44:46,501
[GRAHAM] The dragonfly is a family symbol.
464
00:44:47,100 --> 00:44:51,700
That was my grandma's favorite creature and
we just kind of adopted it.
465
00:44:51,701 --> 00:44:55,801
As I've grown up I've seen
dragonflies everywhere:
466
00:44:56,940 --> 00:45:01,280
on my way to school, concerts, baseball games,
467
00:45:03,160 --> 00:45:05,520
it's just nice, she's always looking down on me
468
00:45:06,421 --> 00:45:11,321
[CONNOR] Yeah, she's always protecting you.
[GRAHAM] Yeah, exactly.
469
00:45:12,322 --> 00:45:13,422
[CONNOR] That's beautiful...
470
00:45:18,123 --> 00:45:20,923
You know the dragonfly also means transformation.
471
00:45:22,239 --> 00:45:27,519
You're like a dragonfly, you attract positive change
472
00:45:29,480 --> 00:45:32,540
On the inside of you, dancing with you
473
00:45:35,000 --> 00:45:38,019
you are capable of loving and capable of living, but
474
00:45:39,840 --> 00:45:42,640
it's the moment you allow yourself to dance on the outside,
475
00:45:42,641 --> 00:45:45,241
it's the moment you grow wings
476
00:45:47,100 --> 00:45:52,779
[GRAHAM] What if, what if what's on the inside is scary,
scarier than living a lie?
477
00:45:54,020 --> 00:46:00,280
[CONNOR] You're supposed to be scared, you're human.
Are you afraid of me?
478
00:46:00,781 --> 00:46:02,581
[GRAHAM] That's what I keep telling myself.
479
00:46:21,700 --> 00:46:23,640
[CONNOR] Oh. I should go. [GRAHAM] Yeah.
480
00:46:52,559 --> 00:46:54,219
[DAHLIA] So how did you know?
481
00:46:56,420 --> 00:46:58,420
[GRAHAM] Since the seventh grade.
482
00:47:00,139 --> 00:47:05,039
I started getting these really intrusive thoughts,
483
00:47:05,540 --> 00:47:08,040
you know like... it was normal.
484
00:47:10,619 --> 00:47:13,800
I grew up listening to what other people
were saying and
485
00:47:14,701 --> 00:47:16,801
I knew it was a part of life
486
00:47:19,280 --> 00:47:21,380
but what i didn't realize
487
00:47:22,981 --> 00:47:26,481
was that the other boys had different thoughts.
488
00:47:27,582 --> 00:47:30,182
I just thought everyone was like me.
489
00:47:35,679 --> 00:47:40,979
But when i truly knew
It was the day i fell in love.
490
00:47:42,379 --> 00:47:43,780
His name is Peter.
491
00:47:45,181 --> 00:47:49,181
We had been best friends since second grade,
we did everything together:
492
00:47:50,079 --> 00:47:52,119
we played video games,
493
00:47:52,120 --> 00:47:56,520
we talked for hours about
everything and nothing at the same time;
494
00:47:57,319 --> 00:47:59,940
you couldn't, you couldn't separate us.
495
00:48:00,841 --> 00:48:06,541
Around junior year is
when I started to recognize my feelings
496
00:48:08,280 --> 00:48:15,200
and I knew that I wanted us to be more than friends,
more than best friends
497
00:48:16,880 --> 00:48:20,000
and I put myself into this cycle of self-loathing
498
00:48:20,001 --> 00:48:22,801
and it took me, it took me years to get out of it.
499
00:48:23,860 --> 00:48:29,260
I'll always remember how hard I...I fell for him
and how...how much i truly loved him
500
00:48:32,300 --> 00:48:37,540
and him and his girlfriend are so adorable
but I'm jealous,
501
00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:41,300
and I'm not jealous of them you know, it's...
502
00:48:42,759 --> 00:48:46,640
it's that mutual love that they
have for each other, it's just...
503
00:48:50,000 --> 00:48:52,579
I'll always remember how he made me feel.
504
00:48:53,880 --> 00:48:56,280
He...he was in my life for a reason
505
00:48:56,919 --> 00:48:59,459
He helped me discover a part of myself
506
00:48:59,960 --> 00:49:04,460
and...and I'll forever be thankful for that.
507
00:49:06,400 --> 00:49:08,840
[DAHLIA] You're a beautiful human Graham.
508
00:49:09,241 --> 00:49:13,341
You deserve all the love that
you gave the world right back to you.
509
00:49:24,839 --> 00:49:26,479
[DAHLIA] Oh shit!
[GRAHAM] What?
510
00:49:26,480 --> 00:49:30,480
[DAHLIA] Oh shit! I forgot I had a date,
I completely forgot, oh my god! Oh my god!
511
00:49:30,581 --> 00:49:32,981
Can we, I'm so sorry,
can you take me back to my house?
512
00:49:33,082 --> 00:49:34,282
[GRAHAM] Yeah, yeah, yeah
[DAHLIA] God...I have no idea what...
513
00:49:34,283 --> 00:49:36,383
Can you help me get ready,
I have no idea what i'm wearing
514
00:49:36,384 --> 00:49:40,384
[GRAHAM] Sure, yeah, sure
[DAHLIA] Thank you, oh my god oh my god.
515
00:49:41,360 --> 00:49:44,719
[DAHLIA] Graham, what do I even wear to this date?
[GRAHAM] I don't know
516
00:49:44,920 --> 00:49:47,620
[DAHLIA] Should I wear a dress?
[GRAHAM] No, that way is too formal
517
00:49:47,621 --> 00:49:48,821
[DAHLIA] Really?
[GRAHAM] Yeah
518
00:49:48,822 --> 00:49:53,922
[DAHLIA] Do you think it's too formal...uhm...what jeans?
[GRAHAM] Uhm...yeah, yeah I think that works.
519
00:49:54,019 --> 00:49:57,759
[DAHLIA] You don't think that's not...
okay...okay, whatever...
520
00:49:58,059 --> 00:50:01,320
As if he even deserves to see me in jeans
as he even deserves to see me at all.
521
00:50:01,420 --> 00:50:03,459
I shouldn't even go, I shouldn't even go
522
00:50:03,460 --> 00:50:06,060
Why am I going?
[GRAHAM] I don't know.
523
00:50:06,261 --> 00:50:07,961
[DAHLIA] Can I...I don't wanna go
524
00:50:08,062 --> 00:50:10,562
[GRAHAM] No, you should.
You've been looking forward to it
525
00:50:10,563 --> 00:50:14,163
[DAHLIA] And I have to redo my make up too.
I'm doing too much.
526
00:50:15,519 --> 00:50:19,899
[GRAHAM] What...why do you wear a make up or
like why do you wear a make up?
527
00:50:21,219 --> 00:50:23,659
[DAHLIA] Why do i wear makeup?
[GRAHAM] Yeah...
528
00:50:23,660 --> 00:50:28,660
[DAHLIA] Uhm...Uhmm...for a lot of reasons.
529
00:50:28,661 --> 00:50:30,461
I think it's fun...
530
00:50:30,662 --> 00:50:32,862
umm...I think it's a really cool way to express yourself and
531
00:50:33,463 --> 00:50:37,263
Honestly, the human faces are already so beautiful
532
00:50:37,264 --> 00:50:40,864
and it's so cool that we can just like
add things to enhance our beauty.
533
00:50:40,865 --> 00:50:42,765
Which one should I wear?
[GRAHAM] Uhm...that one
534
00:50:42,880 --> 00:50:44,680
[DAHLIA] This one, yeah okay
535
00:50:46,520 --> 00:50:47,760
Why did you ask?
536
00:50:48,261 --> 00:50:49,661
[GRAHAM] Uuhhmmm...
537
00:50:52,539 --> 00:50:55,719
Can...can i try?
[DAHLIA] What?
538
00:50:56,420 --> 00:51:01,520
[GRAHAM] Like...can I...can I...
put on some...can I try some make up?
539
00:51:01,621 --> 00:51:03,221
[DAHLIA] Seriously? [GRAHAM] Yeah
540
00:51:03,222 --> 00:51:04,822
[DAHLIA] You are ready to make up?
[GRAHAM] Yeah
541
00:51:04,823 --> 00:51:07,923
[DAHLIA] I...I mean I have time before I have to leave,
542
00:51:07,924 --> 00:51:09,424
right now?
[GRAHAM] Yeah
543
00:51:09,425 --> 00:51:11,825
[DAHLIA] I would love to... oh my gosh!
I would love to...it's gonna be so fun, oh my god!
544
00:54:46,800 --> 00:54:49,219
[CONNOR] Hey. [GRAHAM] Hey.
545
00:54:49,620 --> 00:54:54,020
[CONNOR] Umm...can I come in?
[GRAHAM] Yeah, yeah.
546
00:55:02,060 --> 00:55:07,180
[CONNOR] I just wanted to talk about the other night.
547
00:55:10,320 --> 00:55:14,020
You know that night I met you at...uhm..
548
00:55:14,421 --> 00:55:17,321
.the train tracks,
when I patched up your knee.
549
00:55:18,600 --> 00:55:21,600
and you overheard a phone call...
550
00:55:23,660 --> 00:55:24,960
Well...uhm
551
00:55:27,519 --> 00:55:30,040
That was my mom and
552
00:55:32,800 --> 00:55:40,920
she had mentioned that she...umm...
my dad had found out some news about me
553
00:55:45,019 --> 00:55:46,799
that he's not really happy with.
554
00:55:52,580 --> 00:55:55,339
After I dropped off the girls
555
00:55:57,440 --> 00:56:01,700
I came back home and
my dad was waiting up for me
556
00:56:03,101 --> 00:56:04,001
and
557
00:56:10,100 --> 00:56:15,119
next to his feet were bags of all my things.
558
00:56:16,020 --> 00:56:19,620
He basically told me that I was a disappointment
559
00:56:19,621 --> 00:56:22,621
and an embarrassment and that
560
00:56:23,219 --> 00:56:28,299
I'm no longer his son so...
I can't go back.
561
00:56:29,200 --> 00:56:36,400
[GRAHAM] Connor... I'm so sorry. I just...
Do you have anywhere to stay?
562
00:56:36,519 --> 00:56:38,319
[CONNOR] Yeah uhm,
563
00:56:39,879 --> 00:56:42,299
I've been staying with Jess on her floor but
564
00:56:42,700 --> 00:56:48,100
I can't burden her about further, so...
565
00:56:50,960 --> 00:56:54,019
I have some family on the west coast...
566
00:56:54,520 --> 00:57:00,120
umm...that I'm probably gonna stay with. I...
567
00:57:01,121 --> 00:57:02,921
I'm trying to figure it out but...
568
00:57:02,922 --> 00:57:07,122
uhm...I've been meaning to go for a while, so...
569
00:57:07,823 --> 00:57:10,423
[GRAHAM] That's bullshit! He's your dad
570
00:57:10,424 --> 00:57:13,324
he shouldn't have the right
to kick his own son out
571
00:57:14,800 --> 00:57:17,780
It's...It's..just everything you've been through
just because you're...
572
00:57:17,840 --> 00:57:23,919
[CONNOR] Gay. I know he probably thinks I'm the devil.
573
00:57:24,279 --> 00:57:26,040
[GRAHAM] Let me grab up your towel, okay?
574
00:57:52,259 --> 00:57:55,059
[CONNOR] I used to ask myself that question constantly:
575
00:57:57,760 --> 00:57:59,720
Who am I?
576
00:58:01,599 --> 00:58:09,019
I spent all the time expecting other people
to answer that question for me
577
00:58:10,320 --> 00:58:12,020
and I...
578
00:58:14,400 --> 00:58:19,180
I never thought that I'd be able
to solve my own problems,
579
00:58:19,781 --> 00:58:21,881
answer my own questions
580
00:58:23,282 --> 00:58:24,282
but
581
00:58:26,383 --> 00:58:28,983
now I just listen to my heart
582
00:58:39,099 --> 00:58:41,000
and let it guide me.
583
00:58:45,119 --> 00:58:47,300
Life's a lot more fun that way.
584
00:58:49,001 --> 00:58:49,801
It's...
585
00:58:51,502 --> 00:58:54,002
It's funny how much you learn
about yourself when
586
00:58:57,199 --> 00:59:02,779
you listen to your heart,
discover more things about yourself.
587
00:59:06,780 --> 00:59:08,680
[GRAHAM] I...I try listening to myself
588
00:59:10,159 --> 00:59:14,239
my heart tells me one thing and
my mind tells me other
589
00:59:15,340 --> 00:59:18,040
and I never know which one to listen to.
590
00:59:20,159 --> 00:59:22,440
How do you know which one is right?
591
00:59:24,020 --> 00:59:26,840
[CONNOR] I listen to my heart.
592
00:59:27,341 --> 00:59:31,941
My mind is like this massive knot of
593
00:59:33,242 --> 00:59:37,142
billions of like thoughts
and opinions and ideas
594
00:59:37,599 --> 00:59:41,219
but people can and will control
595
00:59:41,660 --> 00:59:44,460
your mind and play with it,
596
00:59:45,761 --> 00:59:48,361
but you can always choose to listen to your heart.
597
00:59:48,662 --> 00:59:51,162
You know?
[GRAHAM] Yes
598
00:59:51,519 --> 00:59:55,799
[CONNOR] Your heart knows when you're happy,
when you're sad, when you're scared
599
00:59:57,339 --> 00:59:59,999
when you're nervous or when you're excited.
600
01:00:00,700 --> 01:00:05,100
That's why heartbreak is one of
the worst feelings to go through
601
01:00:06,601 --> 01:00:10,101
and when I wasn't accepting who I was,
that's exactly how I felt.
602
01:00:19,440 --> 01:00:23,559
I had this horrible feeling in my heart
603
01:00:24,960 --> 01:00:29,979
every single day because I was
604
01:00:31,580 --> 01:00:36,480
something I thought this world
would rather get rid of than keep,
605
01:00:37,380 --> 01:00:40,760
some freak accident,
606
01:00:41,461 --> 01:00:44,661
at least that's how my dad felt, but
607
01:00:46,000 --> 01:00:49,999
I used to always question is it worth it?
608
01:00:53,039 --> 01:00:56,520
Is this gonna get better? And...
609
01:00:56,621 --> 01:00:59,121
questioned if i even knew what i was doing
610
01:00:59,722 --> 01:01:00,922
but
611
01:01:02,559 --> 01:01:08,019
the night when we kissed
everything made sense.
612
01:01:09,039 --> 01:01:15,099
You felt like a hand that wiped away
all the tears that I ever cried
613
01:01:16,780 --> 01:01:18,299
it felt like
614
01:01:21,080 --> 01:01:24,240
you took away all the bruises
and wounds from my life and
615
01:01:25,380 --> 01:01:29,920
cherished them because
in that moment it gave me hope.
616
01:01:33,280 --> 01:01:37,840
I knew it was gonna be worth it
when I knew.
617
01:02:25,041 --> 01:02:31,341
[JE TE LAISSERAI DES MOTS by Patrick Watson]
618
01:02:41,142 --> 01:02:45,542
[♪ I’ll leave you words
619
01:02:45,943 --> 01:02:49,043
♪ Underneath your door
620
01:02:50,644 --> 01:02:56,344
♪ Underneath the singing moon
621
01:02:56,345 --> 01:03:01,145
♪ Near the place where your feet pass by
622
01:03:01,346 --> 01:03:05,846
♪ Hidden in the holes of wintertime
623
01:03:05,847 --> 01:03:11,447
♪ And when you’re alone for a moment
624
01:03:11,448 --> 01:03:14,248
♪ Kiss me
625
01:03:15,349 --> 01:03:18,049
♪ Whenever you want
626
01:03:18,050 --> 01:03:23,250
♪ Kiss me
Whenever you want
627
01:03:23,251 --> 01:03:29,051
♪ Kiss me
Whenever you want ♪]
628
01:04:05,119 --> 01:04:06,179
Good morning.
629
01:04:08,880 --> 01:04:10,040
Good morning.
630
01:04:24,580 --> 01:04:27,859
[PHONE VIBRATES] Hello?
631
01:04:29,460 --> 01:04:32,360
Yeah, what's up? Oh okay.
632
01:04:31,761 --> 01:04:35,361
Ah... yeah, I'll be down in a sec.
633
01:04:36,719 --> 01:04:42,779
Uhm...that was Jess she's coming,
comes to pick me up, so...but.
634
01:04:43,180 --> 01:04:47,280
Uhm...I just wanted to say
thank you for everything
635
01:04:48,179 --> 01:04:53,280
You already gave me my answer
the other night but...
636
01:04:55,281 --> 01:04:57,581
but last night you gave me hope again so...
637
01:05:00,420 --> 01:05:05,339
I'm probably not gonna see you for a bit but...
638
01:05:07,640 --> 01:05:12,180
I hope that you're finding yourself, so...
639
01:05:17,360 --> 01:05:18,840
Take care.
640
01:06:04,058 --> 01:06:06,880
Hey Alice it's Dahlia.
641
01:06:06,981 --> 01:06:09,881
Hey...uhm...can you just tell Graham to call me back?
642
01:06:11,782 --> 01:06:14,682
Oh gotcha, okay.
643
01:06:15,183 --> 01:06:17,383
Yeah sorry, thanks, bye.
644
01:06:23,193 --> 01:06:26,971
[ALICE] Hey, are you good?
[GRAHAM] Yeah, I'm fine.
645
01:06:29,072 --> 01:06:31,172
[ALICE] You know you can always talk to me, right?
646
01:06:32,273 --> 01:06:33,273
[GRAHAM] Yep.
647
01:06:34,474 --> 01:06:38,074
[ALICE] Ok. Well, I'm just across the hall.
648
01:06:46,475 --> 01:06:49,575
[DAHLIA] What are you fucking doing?
Why have you been ignoring me?
649
01:06:50,276 --> 01:06:52,076
[GRAHAM] I've been busy.
[DAHLIA] Busy with what?
650
01:06:52,077 --> 01:06:53,377
[GRAHAM] Stuff.
651
01:06:53,960 --> 01:06:56,280
[DAHLIA] What are you not telling me Graham?
652
01:06:56,480 --> 01:06:58,520
[GRAHAM] Nothing, I don't know what you're talking about.
653
01:06:58,521 --> 01:07:02,421
[DAHLIA] Don't be shit with me Graham.
You can't just throw me away after
654
01:07:02,422 --> 01:07:05,622
we've been hanging out every single day
and there is nothing wrong.
655
01:07:05,823 --> 01:07:07,723
[GRAHAM] I don't see what the issue is
656
01:07:07,724 --> 01:07:09,924
[DAHLIA] Then why did you tell Alice
to tell me that
657
01:07:09,925 --> 01:07:12,225
you flew home this weekend to see your family?
657
01:07:13,199 --> 01:07:16,459
[GRAHAM] Because I needed a fucking break, okay?
[DAHLIA] A break from what?
658
01:07:16,460 --> 01:07:20,460
[GRAHAM] From you inside my head!
I feel like I'm going crazy
659
01:07:20,560 --> 01:07:22,260
[DAHLIA] What am I getting in your head about?
660
01:07:22,261 --> 01:07:26,161
[GRAHAM] You know exactly what you're getting
in my head about this fucking gay shit
661
01:07:26,562 --> 01:07:29,862
You're asking so many questions.
I just need a moment to think.
662
01:07:29,863 --> 01:07:32,963
[DAHLIA] I'm sorry that I've just been listening
to you and trying to give you advice.
663
01:07:32,964 --> 01:07:35,264
[GRAHAM] You know what? Your advice is shit
664
01:07:37,360 --> 01:07:41,299
[DAHLIA] The fuck Graham
[GRAHAM] Just, just go Dahlia.
665
01:07:41,400 --> 01:07:45,200
[DAHLIA] No, no I'm not going, why would I ?
I'm not gonna go!
666
01:07:45,301 --> 01:07:47,401
We've been hanging out every single day
I've been trying to help you
667
01:07:47,402 --> 01:07:50,902
[GRAHAM] I know, I know I'm just
trying to get a moment to myself,
668
01:07:50,903 --> 01:07:52,903
I'm trying to get away from everything.
669
01:07:53,119 --> 01:07:59,879
[DAHLIA] But why? Haven't you just...
[GRAHAM] Because I'm scared, Dahlia, I'm scared.
670
01:08:03,779 --> 01:08:07,439
For 21 years I've been living a lie and..and
671
01:08:07,779 --> 01:08:11,899
and I see myself changing into a different person
and I'm scared.
672
01:08:12,400 --> 01:08:14,900
I've built up this barrier and
it makes me feel safe but
673
01:08:14,999 --> 01:08:17,939
I can feel myself dying from the inside out.
674
01:08:20,439 --> 01:08:25,619
Do you know how difficult it is
telling people who you really are?
675
01:08:27,459 --> 01:08:29,339
It shouldn't matter but it does.
676
01:08:31,039 --> 01:08:35,939
And I appreciate you so much
for helping me find myself,
677
01:08:37,780 --> 01:08:42,560
but i can't fall asleep every night because
I i know I'm not...I know i'm not normal.
678
01:08:42,660 --> 01:08:47,420
[DAHLIA] But you aren't normal, Graham!
Who the fuck wants to be normal?
679
01:08:47,421 --> 01:08:52,521
There's eight billion people on this wasteful,
fucking planet but only one of you.
680
01:08:53,619 --> 01:08:58,919
There's no other Graham with your smile
and your personality
681
01:08:59,020 --> 01:09:02,720
and...and your passion for life and the world.
682
01:09:05,179 --> 01:09:09,499
Nobody gives the same love that you do.
683
01:09:09,500 --> 01:09:15,200
You're so special and unique,
you're so beautiful.
684
01:09:16,201 --> 01:09:18,201
[GRAHAM] Why don't I feel it then?
685
01:09:19,102 --> 01:09:22,002
I've been thinking all my questions are getting
answered but they aren't
686
01:09:22,203 --> 01:09:24,403
and, and, and I'm fucking tired of it.
687
01:09:24,800 --> 01:09:26,839
[DAHLIA] Because you're a human,
688
01:09:26,940 --> 01:09:31,640
you're learning how to love yourself unconditionally.
689
01:09:32,139 --> 01:09:37,260
Your whole life people have told you who you are
and who you're supposed to love but
690
01:09:38,279 --> 01:09:41,119
you're the only one who knows who you truly are.
691
01:09:42,479 --> 01:09:46,899
I love you Graham and so does Alice and
692
01:09:47,100 --> 01:09:50,200
Jess, and Cassie, and everybody
693
01:09:47,199 --> 01:09:53,079
who's ever had the pleasure of meeting you.
694
01:09:55,680 --> 01:09:58,180
I think I can speak for all of us
695
01:09:58,881 --> 01:10:00,781
when I say that the Graham that we know is
696
01:10:01,682 --> 01:10:06,082
an incredible, amazing, caring friend and
697
01:10:07,583 --> 01:10:10,283
we're all so grateful for you and
698
01:10:10,884 --> 01:10:14,084
wish you nothing but the best and
699
01:10:14,979 --> 01:10:17,339
we wish for nothing less of you
700
01:10:17,640 --> 01:10:19,840
feeling comfortable in your own skin and
701
01:10:19,841 --> 01:10:23,941
being the truest, the best version of yourself.
702
01:10:25,500 --> 01:10:27,180
There's only one life,
703
01:10:27,181 --> 01:10:34,881
why waste such a precious gift
by holding yourself back from it?
704
01:10:36,720 --> 01:10:38,240
[GRAHAM] His name is Connor.
705
01:10:40,941 --> 01:10:43,641
He was the person I was waiting for at the party.
706
01:10:44,860 --> 01:10:49,740
I've liked, I've had feelings for other boys before,
707
01:10:50,141 --> 01:10:52,941
you know the ones I used to just brush away
708
01:10:54,960 --> 01:10:56,740
but he was different.
709
01:11:00,900 --> 01:11:04,040
He welcomed me and everything I was
710
01:11:07,199 --> 01:11:11,640
or, at that moment, everything I wanted to be.
711
01:11:14,079 --> 01:11:19,440
[DAKLIA] Do you still talk to him
[GRAHAM] His dad kicked him out.
712
01:11:21,041 --> 01:11:24,341
The night he told me was actually
the last time I saw him
713
01:11:24,942 --> 01:11:28,742
and that night we slept with each other.
714
01:11:30,239 --> 01:11:33,339
I was terrified at first but
715
01:11:33,880 --> 01:11:37,840
almost felt like the universe wrapped its arms
around me and told me it was gonna be okay.
716
01:11:39,680 --> 01:11:43,500
For the first time I was able to like fully,
717
01:11:44,439 --> 01:11:46,520
for the first time I was able to breathe.
718
01:11:48,560 --> 01:11:53,460
I thought it was just a stupid one-night thing and
719
01:11:53,861 --> 01:11:57,161
my life would go right back on track
to being normal
720
01:11:58,362 --> 01:12:01,562
but...but now it all makes sense.
721
01:12:02,359 --> 01:12:06,060
God all the time I've wasted.
722
01:12:07,461 --> 01:12:09,761
[DAHLIA] You didn't waste any time Graham.
723
01:12:11,319 --> 01:12:15,559
I remember like it was just yesterday:
me and my little brother used to go out
724
01:12:15,560 --> 01:12:18,360
to that lighthouse over there and
725
01:12:18,361 --> 01:12:21,961
he used to think that
the little light on the top was a U.F.O.
726
01:12:22,740 --> 01:12:24,819
and I used to pretend to be an alien
727
01:12:24,820 --> 01:12:27,620
and chase him around until he got tired.
728
01:12:30,660 --> 01:12:33,960
[GRAHAM] So...uhm...what's your brother doing now?
729
01:12:35,261 --> 01:12:39,961
[DAHLIA] Uhm..He was five when
we first found out that he was sick.
730
01:12:41,562 --> 01:12:44,162
We just thought it was a virus and
731
01:12:46,063 --> 01:12:50,163
then a month later,
we were standing...standing in front of his grave.
732
01:12:52,820 --> 01:12:56,420
[GRAHAM] I'm so sorry
[DAHLIA] It's okay, it's okay.
733
01:12:57,321 --> 01:13:00,821
It's just hard, you know, he'll never
734
01:13:02,159 --> 01:13:07,280
be able to fall in love with a girl or a boy,
or even figure out which one.
735
01:13:08,581 --> 01:13:12,081
He'll never experience his first heartbreak and
736
01:13:14,880 --> 01:13:19,140
be able to have a family and raise kids of his own,
737
01:13:20,200 --> 01:13:26,940
but it helps me not take anything for granted
738
01:13:27,841 --> 01:13:31,841
because you never know when
739
01:13:32,980 --> 01:13:35,100
one day will be your last, so...
740
01:13:35,101 --> 01:13:37,301
you can't take anything for granted.
741
01:13:41,039 --> 01:13:44,840
Every second leading up to this point in our lives
742
01:13:45,141 --> 01:13:46,541
we were growing;
743
01:13:48,299 --> 01:13:54,439
You were challenged not only by
the people in your life, but by yourself.
744
01:13:55,600 --> 01:13:58,160
Every day, whether you notice it or not,
745
01:13:59,761 --> 01:14:01,961
you were loving yourself more and more
746
01:14:02,360 --> 01:14:06,140
and eventually one day,
747
01:14:06,041 --> 01:14:10,941
when you love yourself the way
that you deserve, you'll fly.
748
01:14:16,442 --> 01:14:22,042
[MAKE IT by CODY FRY]
749
01:14:27,143 --> 01:14:30,443
[♪ When I was younger
750
01:14:30,844 --> 01:14:33,644
♪ I was a dreamer
751
01:14:33,845 --> 01:14:37,945
♪ Sky was the limit for me
752
01:14:39,746 --> 01:14:42,546
♪ But as I got older
753
01:14:42,947 --> 01:14:45,647
♪ I started to figure
754
01:14:46,048 --> 01:14:50,048
♪ It's just not that simple, you see
755
01:14:52,349 --> 01:14:54,949
♪ Just 'cause you want it
756
01:14:55,450 --> 01:14:57,950
♪ Don't mean you got it
757
01:14:58,451 --> 01:15:02,651
♪ What if I don't measure up?
758
01:15:04,652 --> 01:15:07,152
♪ Hard work is given
759
01:15:07,153 --> 01:15:10,453
♪ But I hate to admit it
760
01:15:11,854 --> 01:15:14,954
♪ Sometimes it comes down to luck
761
01:15:17,055 --> 01:15:22,855
♪ Oh, I can feel anxiety, is creeping
762
01:15:23,556 --> 01:15:29,156
♪ Oh, I'm awake when I should be sleeping
763
01:15:29,357 --> 01:15:32,257
♪ I hear my heart beating
764
01:15:33,858 --> 01:15:36,758
♪ Will I ever make it?
765
01:15:48,359 --> 01:15:50,859
♪ I can't remember
766
01:15:51,360 --> 01:15:53,960
♪ A thousand complimenters
767
01:15:55,161 --> 01:15:58,761
♪ One critic drowns them all out
768
01:16:00,662 --> 01:16:03,362
♪ I'm overthinking
769
01:16:03,763 --> 01:16:06,463
♪ Feet worn and sinking
770
01:16:07,564 --> 01:16:10,864
♪ How do I fight back the doubt?
771
01:16:13,465 --> 01:16:18,765
♪ Oh, I can feel anxiety, is creeping
772
01:16:19,566 --> 01:16:25,166
♪ Oh, I'm awake when I should be sleeping
773
01:16:25,267 --> 01:16:28,267
♪ I hear my heart beating
774
01:16:29,868 --> 01:16:32,568
♪ Will I ever make it?
775
01:16:35,669 --> 01:16:39,669
♪What if I lose?
776
01:16:41,470 --> 01:16:48,170
♪ What if I look like a fool?
777
01:16:49,071 --> 01:16:51,471
♪ What would I do
778
01:16:52,072 --> 01:16:56,572
♪ If the only thing that I've ever loved
779
01:16:56,573 --> 01:17:00,873
♪ Turned out not to love me back?
780
01:17:05,774 --> 01:17:08,774
♪ If I was reading
781
01:17:08,875 --> 01:17:11,575
♪ I'd skip to the ending
782
01:17:11,876 --> 01:17:16,176
♪ But life doesn't turn like a book
783
01:17:18,277 --> 01:17:20,977
♪ Can't wait to see how
784
01:17:21,378 --> 01:17:24,378
♪ All of this turns out
785
01:17:25,979 --> 01:17:29,179
♪ Will I ever make it? ♪]
786
01:17:38,159 --> 01:17:41,540
[ALICE] Why don't they teach us taxes in school?
787
01:17:46,000 --> 01:17:48,739
Come in...
[GRAHAM] Hey.
788
01:17:49,360 --> 01:17:51,820
[ALICE] Hey
[GRAHAM] Are you busy?
789
01:17:53,121 --> 01:17:56,921
[ALICE] Let me take a look at my very,
very busy schedule...
790
01:17:58,822 --> 01:18:01,122
No, what's going on?
791
01:18:02,319 --> 01:18:03,980
[GRAHAM] You remember how I told you
792
01:18:04,881 --> 01:18:07,481
to tell Dahlia that
I was going home this weekend?
793
01:18:09,580 --> 01:18:13,140
[ALICE] Yeah, what happened with that?
794
01:18:14,341 --> 01:18:19,141
[GRAHAM] Okay. I've just been thinking a lot,
going through some shit, you know
795
01:18:19,542 --> 01:18:24,042
and...uhm...I don't like Grace
as much as i thought I did.
796
01:18:25,039 --> 01:18:28,219
[ALICE] Okay, have you told her that?
797
01:18:28,220 --> 01:18:32,820
[GRAHAM] No, actually I'm gonna pick her up
this afternoon...uhm...to talk to her.
798
01:18:33,920 --> 01:18:38,140
[ALICE] Okay...uhm...I thought things were going well.
799
01:18:38,141 --> 01:18:40,941
[GRAHAM] They are believe me, but...
800
01:18:43,080 --> 01:18:43,880
but...
801
01:18:44,881 --> 01:18:50,281
Alice you you've been my best friend
since...for as long as i can remember.
802
01:18:52,100 --> 01:18:54,879
You see me at my best and my worst and
803
01:18:55,359 --> 01:18:58,359
I just, I never want to lose you.
804
01:18:58,660 --> 01:19:00,860
[ALICE] Graham you're never going to lose me.
805
01:19:01,061 --> 01:19:07,361
[GRAHAM] I know, I know. It's just
I'm scared because of the person I am.
806
01:19:08,179 --> 01:19:09,319
[ALICE] Graham what's going on?
807
01:19:09,320 --> 01:19:14,120
[GRAHAM] Alice...I'm, I'm...
808
01:19:15,359 --> 01:19:17,239
I'm gay.
809
01:19:31,639 --> 01:19:34,379
[ALICE] Graham you're my best friend,
810
01:19:34,880 --> 01:19:39,480
I could never hate you,
especially not for something like this.
811
01:19:40,379 --> 01:19:42,179
It's who you are.
812
01:19:43,520 --> 01:19:50,840
All I want is for you to be happy,
you deserve to be you. I love you. .
813
01:19:51,839 --> 01:19:57,639
[GRAHAM] I love you too, Alice.
[ALICE] Get off my room I'm gonna start crying.
814
01:20:15,920 --> 01:20:18,719
[GRACE] Hey, thanks for picking me up.
[GRAHAM] Yeah of course.
815
01:20:18,720 --> 01:20:20,220
[GRACE] What did you want to talk about?
816
01:20:20,221 --> 01:20:24,321
[GRAHAM] Uhm...So i'm gonna be straight up with you.
817
01:20:25,219 --> 01:20:30,379
You're a wonderful person but
I can't do this anymore,
818
01:20:31,580 --> 01:20:35,080
and it's something I've been battling with
on the inside my whole life
819
01:20:35,479 --> 01:20:38,059
and especially over the past couple of months.
820
01:20:42,159 --> 01:20:46,380
I like men the way I'm supposed to like women.
[GRACE] Ohh
821
01:20:46,781 --> 01:20:52,481
[GRAHAM] And I...I'm sorry for dragging you along
through all this. It's...it's been so much.
822
01:20:53,180 --> 01:20:57,180
[GRACE] So the party meant nothing?
[GRAHAM] No, no, no. That was an incredible evening
823
01:20:57,281 --> 01:20:58,781
That was. I just...
824
01:21:00,382 --> 01:21:02,482
You were kissing a different person...
825
01:21:02,879 --> 01:21:06,299
A lost person who's trying to find themselves.
826
01:21:07,300 --> 01:21:10,200
[GRACE] As much as this hurts I'm proud of you.
827
01:21:12,560 --> 01:21:13,480
[GRAHAM] What...?
828
01:21:14,981 --> 01:21:17,281
[GRACE] As much as anyone in my situation tries
829
01:21:17,282 --> 01:21:20,882
there's nothing we can do to change it,
you nor I can change it.
830
01:21:21,779 --> 01:21:24,479
Falling in love is one of those things
that makes life worth it.
831
01:21:25,539 --> 01:21:27,659
Taking that away from somebody just because
832
01:21:27,660 --> 01:21:31,460
the society tells them they're invalid,
it's a waste.
833
01:21:32,719 --> 01:21:35,460
A waste of a beautiful heart capable of doing so much.
834
01:21:35,820 --> 01:21:39,940
Unfortunately, so many people live
their lives never fully as themselves.
835
01:21:41,199 --> 01:21:45,060
They aren't happy, they marry the wrong person,
they live an unfulfilled life.
836
01:21:45,961 --> 01:21:49,461
Graham I've only known you for a few months,
but from the moment I met you
837
01:21:49,462 --> 01:21:52,262
I knew i wanted you to live
an exceptionally happy life
838
01:21:53,163 --> 01:21:55,463
and even though I can't help you in that way
839
01:21:55,464 --> 01:21:57,964
I really hope you keep me along for the ride.
840
01:22:17,320 --> 01:22:23,020
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
841
01:22:23,321 --> 01:22:26,021
[GRAHAM] Connor...
[CONNOR] Hey, Graham.
842
01:22:27,499 --> 01:22:30,920
[DAHLIA] Uhm, Alice don't isn't there something
we should be doing?
843
01:22:31,621 --> 01:22:37,121
[ALICE] Yeah, uhm...taxes, it's tax season.
844
01:22:39,621 --> 01:22:43,521
[GRAHAM] Do you wanna go for a walk?
[CONNOR] Sure.
845
01:22:48,640 --> 01:22:50,540
[GRAHAM] So what are you doing back here?
846
01:22:51,841 --> 01:22:54,641
[CONNOR] I'm just here for Jess
847
01:22:55,520 --> 01:22:59,440
and my week of my work gave me a week off so...
848
01:23:01,041 --> 01:23:03,541
I just took advantage of it rolled with it.
849
01:23:04,860 --> 01:23:07,660
[GRAHAM] How long are you back for?
850
01:23:09,420 --> 01:23:11,040
[CONNOR] Until Tomorrow.
851
01:23:12,860 --> 01:23:14,840
I'm heading back soon so.
852
01:23:15,841 --> 01:23:18,341
[GRAHAM[ Well, how do you like the west coast?
853
01:23:20,342 --> 01:23:22,342
[CONNOR] So much better honestly.
854
01:23:24,943 --> 01:23:29,243
I found a job next to my apartment
so it's been pretty convenient, but...hum
855
01:23:31,444 --> 01:23:33,444
...it's a lot warmer than here.
856
01:23:38,100 --> 01:23:39,780
How are things with you?
857
01:23:42,020 --> 01:23:45,640
[GRAHAM] Pretty good actually, I mean...
I've been busy.
858
01:23:49,060 --> 01:23:51,139
A lot of change I guess.
859
01:23:52,140 --> 01:23:54,140
[CONNOR] It looks like your knee is getting a lot better too.
860
01:23:58,060 --> 01:24:01,440
You seem a lot happier too.
[GRAHAM] Yeah,
861
01:24:04,059 --> 01:24:06,989
I finally started finding myself.
862
01:24:17,994 --> 01:24:21,200
[GRAHAM] You know I never thanked you, Dahlia.
[DAHLIA] Eh?
863
01:24:22,479 --> 01:24:26,819
I never thanked you for helping me.
[DAHLIA] What did I help you with?
864
01:24:27,520 --> 01:24:30,320
[GRAHAM] You cared for me, you guided me,
865
01:24:30,321 --> 01:24:33,821
you helped pull me out
of this messy place I am in my head
866
01:24:35,060 --> 01:24:38,959
You taught me that it's okay to be who I am and
867
01:24:39,260 --> 01:24:41,160
that i deserve to be happy,
868
01:24:41,761 --> 01:24:44,861
and for that, thank you.
869
01:24:46,560 --> 01:24:51,600
[DAHLIA] I appreciate the gratitude but
I was only a small part.
870
01:24:52,701 --> 01:24:56,101
You had it in yourself the whole time.
871
01:24:57,360 --> 01:25:02,500
I just saw it but I was waiting
for you to find it for yourself.
872
01:25:05,520 --> 01:25:07,740
I love you, Graham.
873
01:25:08,341 --> 01:25:12,641
You're a beautiful soul in a world that's now yours
874
01:25:21,419 --> 01:25:24,119
Love is such a powerful gift that we get to have.
875
01:25:25,499 --> 01:25:30,800
As people we deprive ourselves from this gift
so much that we end up living unhappy lives,
876
01:25:30,800 --> 01:25:34,220
miserable with ourselves until
we're completely burnt out.
877
01:25:34,621 --> 01:25:37,321
Then it's too late.
878
01:25:39,299 --> 01:25:42,839
And for some of us we're still
trying to find out what love is.
879
01:25:47,199 --> 01:25:50,079
Maybe love is about taking care of yourself:
880
01:25:50,580 --> 01:25:55,480
your mind, your body, but especially, your heart.
881
01:25:58,640 --> 01:26:01,740
Maybe love shows up when you realize that
the people who surround you
882
01:26:01,741 --> 01:26:03,941
are full of love to give back.
883
01:26:09,380 --> 01:26:11,800
Maybe love is about letting go of what destroys you
884
01:26:12,301 --> 01:26:16,501
and learning that regret is just a black hole
that nobody ever wants to encounter.
885
01:26:17,999 --> 01:26:20,939
Maybe love is realizing that you don't deserve to.
886
01:26:24,020 --> 01:26:27,400
We're all put on this earth with the ability
to take this love
887
01:26:27,401 --> 01:26:29,401
and make it into anything we want.
888
01:26:32,920 --> 01:26:37,440
At the end of the day, we're just people
with beautiful emotions,
889
01:26:37,241 --> 01:26:40,941
all just trying to make our hearts fly.
890
01:28:30,143 --> 01:28:33,043
[DARLING I DO by Zerox, Landon Pigg & Lucy Schwartz]
891
01:28:34,744 --> 01:28:39,744
[♪ Golden leaves looked brown to me,
892
01:28:40,145 --> 01:28:44,345
♪ The world had less color without you
893
01:28:46,146 --> 01:28:51,546
♪ Shapes in the sky, looked plain to my eye,
894
01:28:52,047 --> 01:28:56,747
♪ The world had less color without you
895
01:28:57,848 --> 01:29:06,348
♪ I know pleny' of people with eyes closed
896
01:29:06,749 --> 01:29:13,249
♪ They don't see you like I do
Darling I do
897
01:29:15,450 --> 01:29:20,650
♪ Notes on the keys, meant nothing to me
898
01:29:21,251 --> 01:29:25,751
♪ The world didn't sing without you
899
01:29:27,052 --> 01:29:32,352
♪ Birds in the trees fell silent for me
900
01:29:32,953 --> 01:29:37,653
♪ The world didn't sing without you
901
01:29:37,854 --> 01:29:41,854
♪ Without you
902
01:29:42,955 --> 01:29:50,355
♪ I know pleny' of people with eyes closed
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♪ They don't see you like I do
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♪ Darling I do, darling I do see you ♪]
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