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Before The 90 Days...

Finally I am engaged.

Mmm!

Happy birthday, princess.

I can't believe
that Statler has booked
a full castle for my birthday.

Statler makes me feel safe,

so maybe I shouldn't
be pushing away

the happily ever after
that I've always wanted.

Ask your mother
why her and your ex-wife
didn't get along.

- Do you think we match?
- I don't know.

They tell me different things.

To be totally honest with you,

I did call
a private investigator
to look into your background.

See, this is the thing
is, like, making me seem like

I'm, like, seeking out
lone women at bars
all the time

- No, that's... okay.
- to have conversations with

How am I gonna be able
to be with somebody

who can't even
tell how I feel?

I don't know if I can go on
if this is gonna continue.

All you do is to compare me
to your family,

to just let me know
that they are more important
than me.

I'm breaking up with you
because I believe that
this is the best decision.

Walk away.

I can't stay here.

It's over.

- Oh,
look how beautiful that is.
- Yes, I know.

Looks so pretty.

- It's nice, right?
- Yeah.

Today is our last day
in Croatia,

so Razvan planned
a beach day with us
and his family.

And while things
did get tense yesterday
at his family's house,

we're in
a much better place today.

Mmm.

Oh, my God.

Well, no, continue.

- No, I'm stopping!
- No, I like it.

You like it last night.

Last night we had sex,
I think, four times.

Oh.

She just come to me,
grab me, and tell me,

"You need to [bleep] me
right now."

in that moment,
and it was a nice release.

Hello, guys.
Here are some of these
for you to look.

- Thank you.
- Thank you.

I want a mojito.

So a mojito

and two energy drinks.

I cannot say I'm 100% back
to the relationship,

but I'm happy
that she's trying.

I just want
to live in the present
and see how things are.

- Hey. Good morning.
- Hi.

Hi.

Oh.

Okay.

Oh, I see you got company.

Huh?

What do you want?
You want something?

So, one pizza.
- Sure. Okay.

And, for me, a margherita.

French fries for me.
Thank you.

Tell your mom that I had
a really nice time last night

- and she's an amazing cook.
- Um...

She's glad that you like her.

She also like you.

- Not that much
but she likes you.
- Did she say that?

- Are you gonna put on
your swimsuit?
- Yeah, going now.

Yeah, so, what do you think
about Razvan?

I think he's a really good guy
with such a good, pure heart.
That's why I love him.

I was really nervous
about my kids liking him,

but they get along so good.

Oh, thank you.

Okay, should I put it
maybe over here?

- Uh, yeah.
- Thank you.

Oh, look at this food.

Uh...

Oh.

I do love Amanda,
but the last days have been
incredible confusing for me.

I'm having a hard time
to know what to do.

My mother's opinion
really matters,

so I want to see
what she thinks about Amanda.

When Razvan
asks his mom to talk
it makes me anxious

because I don't know
what him and his mom
are gonna be discussing.

I really hope that Razvan
does not bring up
our fights that we've had

because I don't want her
to get the wrong impression

or have a bad view
of our relationship.

My trip has gone
down the drain.

This trip I thought
that was gonna be so amazing

is just...

I'm going back
to the apartment alone because...

...Jasmine decided
to end our relationship.

I'm heartbroken

because she's
the love of my life.

I expected to marry her.

I'm angry as well
because I feel like

I've tried very hard
in this relationship
to make her happy.

And I'm just so tired of her
losing it like this.

And she'll probably
continue to do so,
you know, in the future

and I don't want that.

So I'm gonna pack my things

and I'm going home.

Like...

Because I love you, Gino.

Mmm.

I get angry, so angry,
and I, like...

We have had
very bad moments and argument.

I feel like I ruin it,
you know,

because

I keep bringing some, like,
big baggage that I have.

So [sniffs] I felt to myself, like,

the best that could
happen to Gino

was just to take a plane

and forget about
my existence in Panama

and everything
that we ever had.

But...

...you really know
how much you love a person

when you imagine your life
without that person.

Physically sick.

I feel like
I cannot be without him.

Are you mad at me?

- And I'm sorry, baby.
- I'm not mad at you.

Your family is important,
I get it.

- Yeah, they are to me.
- And I have
to earn that place

and be the most important
person in your life.

I'm gonna earn it
because I want to be
your wife.

I don't want to lose you.

Well, I mean,
I don't want you to be angry
and blowing up at me,

and I want to, I don't want,
it's not easy to handle that
for me.

We've known each other
for two-and-a-half years now,

and it's like something
that we can't overcome.

It breaks my heart
to see Jasmine crying.

Um...

You know, I want
to save our relationship,
I really do.

I love her.

But...

...after our talk in the park,
she didn't seem very willing
to try to work things out.

I need to give you something.

Okay.

So just a minute.

At this point...

...I'm not really feeling like
anything's gonna change.

I just...

I'm confused.

Could you please stand up?

Baby.

Like, ever since I met you,

I crave your smell,
your hugs, your kisses,

and I know, baby,
that I'm so [bleep] messed up.

And I'm so
crazy sometimes.

But I promise
that I'm gonna change.

And this
that I'm gonna show you...

I'm sorry for being a bitch

and wanting you
to upgrade this ring.

But you know what?

Like, in my eyes,
and for me
this ring is priceless

and not even
all the money on the world
can buy it

because this is
from the love of my life.

So, Gino...

Will you take me, like,
as your fiancé back again?

Will you marry me?

Seriously?

I don't know if I want kids.

Statler has told me
that she is open
to having kids,

so I'm a little bit confused
to hear something
different now.

This is a beautiful country.
Beautiful city.

Even when it's raining
it's just beautiful here.

Yeah, I like it a lot.

Are you sad that I'm leaving?

Mmm.

You have to think about it?

You look beautiful.

- Thank you.
- You're welcome.

Oh, hello.

Oh, okay.

Uh, you order first.

Peach tea and, oh, ice cream.

So I'm gonna have
salted caramel.

- Okay?
- Okay.

Okay.

Yeah.

Why you look sad?
- Because I'm leaving.

I don't want
to necessarily leave.

For the most part
I really enjoyed myself,

so, yeah.

- Mmm.
- I'm gonna be, oh.

Oh, wow.

You want
to share this with me?

- Mmm, no.
- No?

So I'm gonna be
a fat kid by myself?
Okay, that's fine.

So I, you know,
I feel really bad

about
the private investigator,

and I really just want
to apologize.

I had a lot of questions
that I wanted answers to
when I came here,

but I realized that
the thing that matter the most

was us being able
to communicate properly.

Did you um...

Did you enjoy my time here,
like, me coming to visit you?

Mmm...

Yeah.

Yeah, we have a history.

Two years, man.

Can't just walk away
from two years
without really trying,

and I realize...

100 years?

We'll try.

You know,
we owe it to each other,

we owe it to ourselves
to make a real effort.

I feel that we are moving
in the right direction.

I feel that we have
a strong understanding.

We're having
better conversations.

So I do believe
this relationship is fixable.

Yes.

Yes, ma'am.

- Oh, my luggage?
- Your luggage.

- Yes.
- Yeah, that would be nice.

We get to spend
a little bit more time
together before I leave.

That would be awesome.

Yeah.

Is it a date tomorrow morning?

- It's a date?
- Mmm-hmm.

After yesterday,
Violet, by right,
could have said

she didn't want
to speak to me again.

But I can see and I know
that she still cares,

and she hasn't given up on us.

We both have a hard time
expressing ourselves,

but time is running out
and I still really want
to solidify this relationship.

So there's something
I want to tell her

before I get on
that plane tomorrow.

Wow.

Oh, look,
it's the dining room.

Would you care
to pass me the sugar?

I will if I could have
the servant to do it.

En garde.

Ha, ha, ha!

Look at this!

This is how proper royalty
takes, like, a dump.

- Wow!
- I've never seen
grass this green.

Can see for miles.

We just arrived
in Scotland yesterday,

and today
is Dempsey's birthday

so I'm hoping to make this

the most
memorable birthday ever.

We definitely
did have castle sex.
Check that off the list.

And now
we're driving to Edinburgh
to get some sightseeing in.

Everything's just been insane.
It's just been magic.

Stay in a castle? Come on.

That was all you.

I was having
some doubts about Statler
after she met my friends,

but the time
I've spent with Statler

has been the happiest
I've ever been

in a relationship.

And if anything goes wrong
between me and Statler
at this point

I would be devastated.

The idea of Statler
moving in with me
still scares me,

but the more time
we spend with each other
I am warming up to the idea.

You have
the most beautiful eyes,

aside from mine.

We could just
have our eyes have sex

and make their own babies.

I could be a full-time mom.

Seriously?

Dang.

- You do?
- Yeah.

I feel like
I wouldn't be that great.

I don't know if I want kids.

Yeah.

Statler and I
had conversations

when we
first started speaking,

and she has told me
that she is open
to having kids.

So I'm just
a little bit confused

to hear her say
something different now.

We're in Scotland.

But she's planned
this amazing birthday trip
for me,

and we're having
such a great time,

so I don't want
to bring the mood down
right now.

- Hey, do you take requests?
- Yeah, yeah.

- Do you know "Happy Birthday?"
- Uh, aye.

It's her birthday
so that would be neat.

Statler makes me feel
so special,

but the whole topic
of, you know, having kids

is something that we need
to discuss further

because I do feel
that we need to be
on the same page about that

before she goes back to the US
or we get more serious.

♪ To me ♪

Whoo!

Thank you.

Uhh...

I am so happy,
happy, happy, happy.

I know we still have
a lot of things to work out,

but I can't wait
to marry David,

and our family
will be complete.

I just really want
to understand

where we stand
in terms of being exclusive.

Some of the things
that Christian said

about his interactions with women
were red flags to me,

and I am worried
about faithfulness.

When I do go home
are you still gonna be able
to trust me?

So I still haven't had
a proper English breakfast.

In Italy,
people regularly have, like,
sweet breakfast.

- Like a slice of cake
or something?
- Yeah.

Speaking of sweet, donuts.

See what they've got.

This looks interesting.

- They're, like,
very full of things.
- Yes.

- They're, like,
a little overloaded.
- Yeah.

Cool.

Christian and I only have
a couple of days left

in London together.

And I am feeling
really conflicted

because on one end
I think there's a true
deep connection,

and we are
right for each other.

But after Thanksgiving dinner,
things have been tense.

I feel like
we still have these issues
that we need to resolve.

- We are going with
pink fun one.
- Yeah.

- The very plain
cinnamon and sugar.
- Yeah.

The toasted marshmallow.

So many things
that Christian said

about his interactions
with women

were definitely
red flags to me,

and I, I am worried
about faithfulness.

Ship inserts.
Beep-boop-beep-boop...

Maybe Christian gets really
easily bored or distracted,

and perhaps that might

unconsciously lead him
to seek, you know,

and even if it's not
ill-intended,

it's still putting yourself
in a situation where

cheating is a lot more likely.

And if you're in
a long-term relationship,

especially us being
long-distance at the moment,

I don't want to have
those worries.

- Ooh.
- This is the winner.

- Big bite boy.
- That is second,
second-best.

Now that our trip
is coming to an end,

I just want to make sure that

I just really want to
understand where we stand

in terms of being exclusive

after this trip is over.

What do you mean, like,
I'm gonna start a relationship
with somebody else?

I wanna remain exclusive.

I don't feel any drive
to be with anybody else.

There's definitely
things that have been
discussed that maybe

brought into question,
you know, some of my,

you know,
anxieties or insecurities.

For example,

hang out with your
already-existing
female friends.

But probably,
it would not make me happy
if you were to approach

girls that appear to be single
and just sitting on their own.

That probably
would not make me feel great.

I mean,
there's nothing in the way
that I approach women in a bar

that would lead them to think
that I'm hitting on them.

So, I feel like I have
nothing to be guilty about.

I, I knew that
Cleo doesn't want me

approaching women at bars.

But hearing her say that
it worries her that,

you know, if I'm gonna be
faithful or not,

that's really unsettling
for me.

I don't like feeling
held down.

I don't like feeling that

I need to change the way
that I am.

I'm a social butterfly,

but there's nothing that
I've done on this trip

to give Cleo any reason

to not trust me.

When I do go home, like,

I'm back to
just being alone, me.

Are you still gonna be
able to trust me, you think?

It is something that
we would have to work on

because it does not
make me comfortable

- if it's just a single girl,
if she's sitting alone...
- Like--

...and you approaching her
and offering,
offering her drinks and...

But I'm telling you, like,
I'm with you.

- What's wrong?
- Just, like,
I just...

Babe?

Babe, it's okay.
It's all right.

When I'm with you,
I'm with you, all right?

If I wanted to be
going out on dates
or picking up women,

I would just not be
in a relationship with you.

Honestly,
I think we're gonna be fine,
to be honest.

It's hard for me
to fully trust Christian.

I don't want him to change,
you know, who he is,

but I, I feel that should come
natural to him to sort of
understand that

when you're in a relationship,
that's not really
how you behave.

When it comes to
relationships, I sometimes

can ignore some things
that might not be ideal

because I fear that
if I am overly critical,

that that could, you know,
ruin our relationship.

And, and yeah,
I'm worried that's what
I'm doing with Christian.

Because I am
completely terrified

of losing him.

Will you take me, like,
as your fiancé back again?

Um...

I had really good
time with your family but

it was like a different vibe,

like, before you and your mom
left, and then after.

Like, what did you talk about?

It feels like
she's trying to make
another fight between us.

So, what did she say?

- I don't know, like--
- You do know.

Oh, my gosh.

So, Gino,

will you take me, like,
as your fiancé back again?

Will you marry me?

Um...

Mmm.

Of course, I will.

Forever and always.

Aw, Baby.

Mmm.

We have so many big problems.
It's a lot of back and forth.

Honestly,
I thought we are done.

But once she got on one knee

with the engagement ring
she said she lost,

it shows me that
the commitment we made
to each other still matters

just as much to her
as it does to me.

And so, it gives me hope...
you know, it gives me hope.

I love you.

- I know.
- You know,

Give me, give me chance.

I'm gonna change.
I'm gonna calm down.

I believe you.

We both work together...
We both work together.

I was actually super scared
about Gino rejecting
my proposal.

And even if he did,

I felt like I deserve it

because of the mean things
that I told him.

Baby, I am so sorry.

I love you, Baby,

- and I have no doubt, like...
- Aw.

...you are
the love of my life, Baby.

Aw.

So, can we celebrate now?

I don't know if we have wine.

I will choose you one,
one and a thousand life.

That's so beautiful.
I would choose you too.

Oh, sorry.

Oh, your...

Oh, my God.

Cheers.

For us to work,

to fix any problems
we have and

so we can have
a long-lasting relationship.

- I'm your gringo bonito.
- You're my gringo,

and I'm your Latina.

- Always.
- Yes.

Cheers.

When I was
a little girl, like,

the idea that I have of love
was like a fairy tale.

You know?

But this is not a movie.
We are two

super imperfect people,

and our love is not
the best example to follow

when it comes to
a healthy relationship.

I don't wanna be
your sugar baby.

I wanna be your wife,
I wanna be your partner,

but if you wanna be my
sugar daddy, I won't be mad.

I'm gonna start
proudly wearing

my engagement ring again.

And it symbolizes
all of the struggle

that Gino and I
have been through,

because I know in my heart
that he is my person.

You want more?

- Oops.
- Oh, you wanna get
drunk tonight.

- Mmm-hmm.
- Let's take off your socks.

Yeah, my feet hurt.

I know, Baby.

You ready, Baby?

For what?

Pool?

Yeah.

Are we crossing?

Oh, here we go.

I always wanted to do this,
like in the movies, you know?

- Oh, yeah?
- Like in New York,
when you just stop the taxi.

- You have to
whistle, though.
- Oh.

- Do it.
- Shoo.

What?

Tonight,
Razvan is taking me on a date

since it's our last night
in Croatia.

I think we have
a lot to celebrate

because we're doing
much better,

and we made it through a lot
with meeting his family.

Hello,
did you hear my whistle?

He's being, like,
so caring and loving,

but at the same time
I am feeling insecure

about Razvan's feelings

because I am worried about

what he said to his mother.

After their walk,
I feel like the vibe shifted,

so whatever it is
that they talked about,

I feel like it wasn't good.

Yeah.

This looks strange.

Uh, yeah.

Have you played this before?

Oh, okay.

Should I back up over here?

- Yeah.
- Okay.

- Here we go.
- Okay. Let's see...

- Okay, you do it, okay?
You do it.
- Oh, my God.

- Just rerack them.
- Oh, okay.

I am, by far, better at pool
than Razvan.

- Oh, my God. That was good.
- How was it?

And it's true.

Here we go.

Yeah.

I had really good time
with your family,

but it was
like a different vibe,

like, before you and your mom
left, and then after.

Well, yeah.

Like,
what did you talk about?

- You told your mom
about our fights?
- Yes.

Just to get an advice, like,
how to handle some things,
you know, between us.

Yeah.

Because
I just wanted to hear
what she said...

- Yeah.
- ...because maybe
something new for me.

So, what did she say?

I, I don't know, like,

- nothing--
- You do know.

From my experience
of being in a relationship,
in a marriage,

when you involve other people
into your relationship

for advice, for counsel,
for whatever it may be,

when you involve them
too much,

it becomes a problem.

I know. I'm, I'm, yes,

Hey, whatever.
You're being annoying.
It's your turn.

This is why
I talk her,

because sometimes
you just change.

You just change your mood.

- It's not about me.
You just change.
- Okay.

I don't wanna have a fight.
This is supposed to be
a nice night.

- I don't want to have a fight.
- Yeah...

I feel like you do.

Things have been

better between us.

But I still have my doubts,

and this is why.

It feels like
she's trying to make
another fight between us.

Your turn.

We only have a few days left

before Amanda
will leave to U.S.

And I'm really scared that

may she will not be
able to change.

Hello.

I invested so much
into this relationship.

I really don't wanna go home.

I just wanna make sure

we are committed
to working on things, right?

I have something
very important I want to

tell her
before I leave Vietnam.

I really care about you a lot.

This is my last day
in Vietnam,

and Violet is coming
to the hotel this morning
to help me pack.

She has
a family obligation later,

so that means
she can't come to the airport.

So, this is very important

because this is the last
few hours we have together.

It's really sad
that I'm leaving
because I invested so much

into this relationship
over the last two years,

and to be honest,
I really don't wanna go home.

- Hello, come on in.
- Hello.

- Good morning.
- How are you?

That's a nice, uh,
outfit there.

- Look at you,
you look cute. Ah!
- Thank you. Aw.

Thank you.

I...

Okay.

- All right, thank you.
Yeah, that'd be great.
- Uh...

Wow, too much.

- Too much luggage.
- It's not a lot.

- Hmm.
- I did a lot.
But, yeah, thank you.

Mmm-hmm.

How are you feeling
about me leaving?

Mmm.

Mmm-hmm.

Oh. I'm feeling sad, also.

I just wanna make sure

that we are committed
to talking

and still working on things, right?

Okay. All right, no problem.

Okay.

Violet seems like
she has her walls up.

I honestly don't know
if that's her way of coping,

but what I don't wanna do
is get back to America

and think back
and think "what if?"

I'm leaving.

It's not easy for me
to get back here,
so let's talk.

- Yes, boss.
- Yes, boss.

So...

So, you... you... you know
how I feel about you, right?

Tell me how you feel.

I really, really, really
care about you a lot.

And...

I hope that you can see that

it may be deeper than caring.

- Are you listening
to what I'm saying to you?
- Yes.

What am I saying to you?

Violet knows that I don't...

say the L-word to people,
to anyone.

Because I feel that
if I say it, I lose them.

But, I just don't want
to leave this country.

I don't want to leave us,

without letting her know
exactly how I feel.

I just told you something
that I don't ever say.

I just said to you
without saying it that I...

I?

- Why don't I tell?
Why? Why?
- Don't tell.

Just tell me why.

Okay.

Ready to go?

Okay, all right. Let's go.

So, this is it.

I'm leaving.

Thank you.

And, um...

I will talk to you
as soon as I land, okay?

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

I'm a little confused
because after last night

it just, it felt like
we were on the same page but

her not hugging me, her not
giving me a kiss goodbye

and especially, not allowing
me to say the L-word.

It took...
It just took a lot out of me

to put those words together
to get ready to say.

It feels like...

it was in vain.

I don't know.

This [bleep] hurt, man.

That's your cab? Okay.

- Bye.
- Bye-bye.

If she's not ready
to receive it

or if she's not open
to receive the word...

it's on her.

But it is difficult
to accept that

this just might be
the last time Violet and I
see each other in person.

Uh, it's a...
it's a little somber.

Little sad.

Whatever's next
in this relationship
is really up to Violet.

She has all the cards.
She holds them.

I would love the opportunity
for us to figure this out.

But, if she does not want
to spend the time and effort
to figure it out...

God bless her.
Good luck.

I'll move on. You move on.

My goal for this trip
was to get to know her.

To build a strong and
better connection with her.

That's what I wanted
for the trip.

I didn't get to know her,
I didn't...

get to understand her.

♪ I thought we were
Going to last forever ♪

♪ Then you said
Well all good things
Must come to an end ♪

I think that I definitely
need to, uh, figure out

if I want to fight
for this anymore.

But right now,
I'm just ready to go home.

♪ So distant and
I've never felt so low ♪

♪ So long ♪

Don't worry.
You'll be headed to the USA
sooner than you think.

I love you.

But, I am gonna put my faith

that he's gonna do
whatever he has to do

I would feel better
about our relationship

if you were
willing to commit...

I want, like,
an outlook for the future.

...Like, when I leave
do you think we're gonna be,
like, engaged?

- So, you're ready?
You're packed?
- Yeah.

I think
that's almost everything.

Today is
Gino's last morning in Panama.

We've been through a lot
the last 24 hours.

So many [chuckles] emotions.

We had a very, very bad fight.
Like, the worst ever.

But, I am so grateful that

at the end of the day

we were able to
work through this

because at least
we're saying goodbye
not in a permanent way.

Wow.

Do you need
a new bag? That one is broken.

No. I spent
a lot of money on it.

I'm gonna use it
until it's dead.

All right. I think that's it.

Ready?

I think I got everything.

- Oh,
whose that money?
- Oh, that's yours.

- It's mine?
- I left it for you.

I wanted you
to have a little cash.

Oh, you're welcome.

You can use it for your rent.

Okay?

Gino and I
came to an agreement
with this apartment,

and we decided to...

So, that I could feel
like I have some stability

until my visa gets approved.

This is the sad part.

I've realized now
that it wasn't fair for me

to expect Gino to keep paying
for this apartment.

And I'm very grateful
that he's willing to invest to
make me feel more comfortable.

All right. Uh...

Wow. This... It's stuck.

The future
is so uncertain for me,

But I feel stronger

for him proving that,
"Yes, baby, I got your back."

- You're so beautiful.
Oh, my God.
- Thank you. Okay.

I am so lucky
to have you, baby.

Aw.

Don't worry.

You'll be headed to the USA

probably sooner
than you think.

You'll see.

The K-1 visa really is the
only thing keeping us apart
right now.

And that's
hard to take because

we have no control over it.

And the long distance,
in general,

you know, it's...
it's so stressful
on our relationship.

So, this visa process
dragging on

that... that definitely
concerns me.

There we go.

Hola.

But at the same time
it was, like,

probably the most
productive trip I've ever had
with Jasmine.

I think
the security's that way.

You know, we overcame a lot

and I feel like
we have a stronger connection
now than we ever had before.

This is us over here.
Not us, but me.

Okay.

I know it always sucks

but...

we're close now. It's not like
from the beginning.

I'll try to be patient.

I will always
be waiting for you.

I love you.

Mmm.

Like, sometimes I, I think
to myself, you know, like,

life is so unfair because
I love him so much and
why I cannot be with him.

I understand there are rules.
He's American...

You know,
I know that's crazy but, like,

guys, if you could only see
what we are going through
you would understand.

I'll see you soon, okay?

I am heartbroken
that he's leaving again.

But I am gonna put
all my faith into his words

that he's gonna do
whatever he has to do

to be finally together.

I love you, baby.

Because...

Razvan and I got back
from Croatia yesterday.

Things have been
kind of tense.

and it's upsetting
to feel like

there hasn't been much
progress in our relationship.

We only have two days
left together

and I want more
solid answers and

like, an outlook
for the future.

Are you upset?

No, why would I be upset?

- So, what? Okay.
- I just wanted to say hi.

You know I don't have, like,
many days left.

I know.

Like, we had a good time
in Croatia...

Like...

everything has been
going good.

So, when I leave...

do you think we're gonna be,
like, engaged?

You want to be engaged?

I would feel better
about our relationship
and, like, more secure

if I knew you were, like,
willing to commit more.

Engagement was something
Razvan and I discussed
before I came to Romania.

Since I've been here
we've had so many fights but

I feel like I still
want to be engaged to Razvan.

I want to feel like,
despite all of our fights

he's committed to me
because I'm scared, like,
when I leave

that he will say,
"Okay, you know what,

our relationship
isn't the best

and, you know,
we just need to, like,
part ways."

70% of the time
were just fights.

Like, from the fights
that we've had here

I've tried
to explain it, like,

my emotions, like, with Jason
and feeling like finally

- ending that part of my life
was difficult for me to-- Yes.
- No.

All... all of this time
was so difficult for you.

Five months, so difficult.

Through the phone,
so difficult.

And again and again and again.

Like, it's not about...

Jason, it's not
about anything.

So many things happened
until this point.

After so many things
you think

I just need
to forget everything.

I'm shocked that Amanda is
talking about being engaged.

How can you want to be engaged
with someone when we
only have fights?

Only because
you want a commitment?

I mean, the biggest commitment
is I didn't give up until now.

And I'm still here
and I'm still fighting.

I don't know. It's not enough.

But...

I feel like...

sometimes my feelings stopped
a long time ago...

and I just try
to recreate them and then
you are just shutting me down,

and we have little time left

and even these days,
even there are perfect days,

it will not save... everything.

It sounds like
you don't even know

if you want to be
together with me right now.

I don't know.

Honey babe,

I'm preparing myself
to say goodbye to David.

Because he is going back
to the U.S. tonight.

But, I'm not ready
to see him leave.

I'm worried about our future.

Because I don't know when
will I see him again.

♪ Someday you're gonna come
out and it's so beautiful ♪

♪ Someday you're gonna wake up
and feel no pain ♪

♪ Like a butterfly
rising on the wind ♪

♪ When you found your wings ♪

*Then your life begins ♪

Okay.

I really want to have clarity
from Statler about whether
she wants kids or not.

Because if we want
different things it could just
be a waste of time.

So you know,
if we like did get married
and I wanted kids,

I don't think it would work
between us.

- This is super cute.
- It is very cute.

Aw!

- This is like a
proper tea party.
- Proper, yeah.

Except you don't drink tea.

It's our last
morning in Scotland.

And we are having our
last little breakfast
in the castle.

Overall, our time
together here has been
absolutely amazing.

But, I'm feeling sad because
I'm going after this trip.

So, it is hard to
enjoy the moment.

Because, I know it's
about to end.

Can I get you any cute
breakfast this morning?

- Yes, do you have any vegan
options for breakfast?
- We do.

We've got vegan bacon sausage.

Yeah, how about toast?

- Yeah, of course, yeah.
- Thank you.

- This is nice.
- It's very nice.

Very quiet, though.

- Like too quiet.
- It's too quiet, isn't it?

The last two days
have been so nice.

And I am starting
to imagine what our life
together can be like.

But I'm worried because,
in the car right yesterday,

me and Statler had
a conversation

about having a family.

And it doesn't seem
like we're on the
same page about that.

I really want to have clarity
from Statler about whether
she wants kids or not.

Because if we want
different things,
our whole relationship

could just be a waste of time.

So, I'm getting a little
bit emotional as our time
is coming to an end.

I know, I didn't
wanna think about it.

Sad.

I kind of wanna
talk about our future.

Okay.

- So you know, if you'd like
to get married one day?
- Yeah.

And say...

like I wanted...
I wanted kids.

And...

I... obviously has to
be like both of us that
makes a decision.

- Yeah.
- Whether we do or not.

- Why do you want kids. Yeah.
- Why?

I just think I'd be
really good Mom.

And children make
the world a better place, you
can learn so much from kids.

- You don't want kids?
- I don't know if I want kids.

It just seems
like a lot of work.

Yeah, but...
But it'll be worth it.

Like, I look at my dad's
relationship with me and my

grandparents relationship with
what they had with my dad

and it was just a beautiful
thing to... to watch and be
a part of.

And I would like
to have a like a
little mini me running around.

Would you adopt?

Yeah, I would
consider adoption, yeah.

I would have one of each.

I don't know if I could adopt.

'Cause I'm an adoptee
and I just know

all of the incredible
struggles that adoptees face,
I don't know if I

personally have
the mental willpower,
emotional willpower.

Okay, I just, I don't feel
like I have that maternal
bond inside me.

I think a lot of
people go into adoption just
thinking it's all hunky-dory,

and the kid's gonna
be grateful to you.

and things are gonna
be easy and you're really
gonna have to think about

a million different things.

And it's just not the case.

You know, I was taken away
pretty much the second
I was born,

so I've always felt

that missing part of me.

And I still have a lot of

adoptee trauma that I
have not worked through.

It's honestly kind
of triggering just to have
this kind of conversation.

Mmm, well...

I will have a child
at some point, whether
I do it at my own or not.

If you wanted kids badly

then like you had to have
kids then I don't think it
will work between us.

'Cause I really don't...
I really don't want kids.

Okay.

Cool.

Great talk.
I'm gonna go get ready now.

Okay.

Dempsey and
I have talked about

kids and she said,
you know she might want
kids in the future.

Now, she really,
really wants kids.

But, it's a lot
of responsibility

And I don't have that
same experience of what
she saw with

her granddad and her dad and
how they all have like this
super tight family.

It's hard to relate to.

I was really hoping
I'd be enough for her.

But, now I'm
terrified that I'm not.

It's something
that she hadn't made
her mind upon yet and

that she would consider it.

Yeah. It's a make it or
break it for her, isn't it so?

Next time on,
Before the 90 Days

You know that, I love you
so much, Meisha.

I have no doubts that
I'm willing to marry her.
But I don't know how

her brain, her heart will
say to me.

Are you saying yes or no?

What is this?

Like a little present,
because I love you.

What?

After our
disagreement I'm worried that
he's gonna give up on us.

In my head, I'm just trying to
mentally prepare myself for
what's about to happen.

I love you so much.

But, that...
you are my worst enemy.

Things will not change.

Are congratulations in order?

Am I gonna be an aunty?

Last week Violet
called me and told me that
she's pregnant.

And it's my...

What happened?

Dempsey.

Like, can you
frickin talk to me?

That's make or break for
our relationship

and you just said
our relationship is
not gonna work.

Are you done with us?

I'm just holding on
to the positives.

It's not like I can forget
things that happened.

Some of the things are
little bit like a dent
in our relationship.

Sometimes you
can really love somebody.

At the same time, you just
know that maybe you're not
meant to be together.

It's a huge day,
because Jasmine has
her visa interview

at the embassy in Panama.

We've been waiting over
an year and a half.
I'm so excited.

I can't wait.

Jasmine, baby, there you are.