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Sit.

NARRATOR: Selection for the SAS
is a test like no other.

The biggest mistake these
celebrities can make

is thinking they know
what's about to happen.

(CHOPPER WHIRS)
MAN: Let's go!

Get comfortable being uncomfortable!

A new group of celebrity recruits
have volunteered

to put their privileged lives behind.

Oh, fuck!

I don't know what it is about pain
but it's appealing.

Stop fucking around,
get in the water! Go!

(SCREAMS)

This is not a game!

They'll be put through a tougher,
more intense selection course...

(CAR WHEELS SCREECHING)
..than ever before.

(GUNSHOTS)
MAN: Go!

(EXPLOSION)
Give it a second.

The enemy is coming!

Chief Instructor Ant Middleton...
Move!

..and his team of directing staff
will make no exceptions.

Break.
Break!

Only the toughest will survive.

Stop!

(BLEEP) stop!

Tonight...

It's all about courage.

On a very serious note,
that is dangerous.

(SCREAMS)

What I want to change about myself
is having less fear.

Like heights?
Not really.

ANT: Calm down.
Advance!

Oh, my god!

Then, in a suffocating wormhole...

I honestly can't!

We do not wait for individuals!

..one recruit must face
their past...

I can't fit, staff.

..head on.

My kids were nine,
11 and 16

when their mother was being called
a slut in the nation's media.

And the reporting of that
cost me everything.

WOMAN: Porridge, bring, um,
bring your spoon if you want some.

In a remote compound,

17 recruits have survived
the first two days

of the brutal SAS selection course.

The course's limited rations

is testing celebrity chef
Manu Feildel.

You're not having
much luck with this.

I'm trying.

You don't normally eat porridge?

Oh, not like this?

No, I don't eat porridge,
full stop.

Oh, full stop.

You're gonna need the carbs, man.

I eat food.
I eat food.

At six-foot-five
and weighing 117kg,

NRL star Sam Burgess
will take anything he can.

I love food.

As you can tell,
I eat all day every day.

You gonna throw it away?
Yeah, mate.

No way, brother.
I'm just offering.

Do you want it?

If you're gonna throw it away,
I'm eating, yeah, no way,

you cannot throw food away
(SPEAKS FRENCH).

That's not food, mate.
Ugh, pass.

Even better for (SPEAKS FRENCH).

I was a big fat lazy baby.

I had a big fat round head.
Not much different now.

My mum used to call me
a miniature Buddha.

Sammy.
Oh, my god.

You gotta have the fuel in there.

In the machine to keep it going.

Oh, mate, I just got well fed then.

ANT: Right, everyone
jump on the wagons, let's go!

Now fuelled for the day ahead,

the recruits are about to face
an extreme test of courage,

which will challenge their physical
and mental resolve.

Courage is about being honest
with yourself.

Being OK with who you are.

We're not perfect,

we've got insecurities
and we've got weaknesses.

Straight through the water!
Let's go! Move!

And it takes courage
to expose yourself.

Get in the middle!
Do not take shortcuts!

Takes courage
to continually expose your emotions.

Move, run all the way in.

And when you expose that emotion,

you start to understand
more about yourself.

Listen in very carefully.

Some of you think
just because you're physically fit,

it's gonna get you
through this course.

(BLEEP).
Wrong answer.

Some of you think because
you're psychologically robust,

it's gonna get you
through this course.

Wrong answer.

It's a combination of both.

Now, today is all about courage.

You probably think courage is
bursting into a (BLEEP) room

with bullets flying out
(BLEEP) door.

That's not courage.

Committing to your fears,
committing to your phobias.

Committing to your demons.
That's courage.

When you can acknowledge
what the (BLEEP) is going on inside,

here and here,
then go d'you know what?

I get it.

I'm gonna commit to it anyway.

It's all action after there.

Rely on your bodies to
get you through. Understood?

ALL: Yes, staff.

What we're gonna do now,

we're gonna dispel fear
with courage.

A simple thing we use
is called the trainasium.

If you look over my shoulder,
in the sky there,

that is a trainasium.

When you're up there,
you'll listen to my commands

and you'll do exactly as I tell you.

Suspended 30m above ground...
Advance!

..the recruits will need
to slowly make their way

along narrow parallel bars
without slipping

and plunging below.

Trainasium is,
it's a balancing act at height.

It's used in training
for young paratroopers

to get 'em
used to the fear of heights.

This is where courage kicks in
and over (BLEEP) controls fear.

You're gonna have to lift,
step over, and continue.

WOMAN: Well, that's scary.

On a very serious note,
that is dangerous.

OK, if you fall, do not try to grab
and hold onto anything

'cause you'll (BLEEP) hurt yourself.

You'll rip your shoulder out,
you'll smash...

rearrange your dental appointments,
you'll (BLEEP) yourself up. Got it?

ALL: Yes, staff.
Serious.

If you lose balance,
you're gonna go,

step off,
accept the fall.

Come on, 17!

First to attend the high traverse

is champion tennis player
Alicia Molik.

I hate heights.

I just get sweaty,
I get clammy.

I'm even getting clammy now
just talking about it.

It just scares the crap out of me.

Alright.

I'll check you over.

Thank you.
What's today all about for you?

Being courageous.
Redemption, isn't it?

Alright, you don't wanna
repeat yesterday, do ya?

Yes, staff.

To finish this course,
I think I've gotta push myself

to that complete limit
of what I think I can't do

or would never do.

I really feel like I need to,
you know, step up to the plate.

Come on,
I'm waiting for you, let's go!

OK, stand by.
Advance!

Keep looking.

Keep stepping.

Keep moving.
Keep moving!

Look up, step.

One.

(SCREAMS)

Shit.

Falling off stairs
is not going to be fun.

It was hard even for Alicia though,

I'm gonna find this
really challenging.

How's your arm?

I told you,
do not try and grab on.

You'll (BLEEP) hurt yourself.

The oldest recruit, at 55 years,
number 13, Kerri Pottharst,

is next to brave
the daunting crossing.

I'm definitely not comfortable
with heights.

Is that your idea of a sprint,
number 13?

(PANTING)
It's my best effort.

It's your best effort.

I can feel that
even thinking about it,

that fear will start to build

but people who have experienced
things like I've experienced

through the Olympics,
we all have fears and doubts.

But I guess it's the courage
to work through the doubt,

to know that you're gonna be OK
on the other side

even if you fail.

Advance!

Good girl, that's it,
stand up straight.

Hands on your head now.

Keep it up that's good, well done.
Keep chuffing forward.

All the way to the centre.

Hold it.

You ready for this?
Yes.

Let's go. Step over it.
Step over.

You've got it,
that's good.

Oooh.

(BLEEP) you nearly had that,
didn't you?

Damnit!

Approaching the trainasium
is number ten, Erin Holland.

Winning Miss World Australia

was a real turning point
in my career.

But it is a bit
of a double-edged sword

and I feel like I've been judged
a lot of the time.

People expect me to be terrible
and I don't want to be terrible.

Stop!
What are you doing?

Running, staff.

You're ending up
back where you (BLEEP) started!

Go down there, around the bottom
and up at this side!

Oh.
Go!

Already making mistakes,
Erin struggles to focus.

There's always gonna be that chance
that you'll fail

and you won't win
and you'll be vulnerable.

But I feel like I have
something to prove

coming from the background
that I come from.

(BLEEP) number ten,

you've made a challenge
out of getting to the challenge.

I think putting myself
on this course

is gonna show
it's important to challenge myself

to do something that I know
I probably won't be very good at

but it's not gonna stop me
trying anyway.

Come on, the wind's getting up.

Hurry up!

We're gonna get blown off here
in a minute, let's go.

Advance.

Step forward.

Step forward.

Number ten, stop (BLEEP) around.

Advance!

Step!

Don't wobble it.

Stop wobbling it.
Stop wobbling it!

Come on, number ten!

(BLEEP) move!

Look forward.

Keep, keep shuffling now.
Don't wobble it.

Come on, girl.

Keep coming.

All the way to the board.

Hold it there.

You ready? Step. Step.

Stand! Stand up!

Come on, Ez.
One step, you ready?

You gonna go for it. Ready?
Go! Step, step!

(SCREAMS)

Bad luck.
She was so close.

(BLEEP) you did it, you clown.

I know.
(BLEEP) were you doing?

Ugh!

One with a pile.
I know.

If you'd have
just committed to that,

you would've done it!

The trainasium's designed
to push people to the limit of fear.

Ahh.
The fear of falling.

Nah, I'm running.
(GRUNTS)

(BLEEP).

The fear of getting hurt.
The fear of possibly dying.

Step, step!

Ooh, Heath!

(BLEEP).

And for some people

it's probably going to be
absolutely petrifying.

Oh, my god, ah, ahh!

Ugh!

So, to do this,
you have to control your fear.

That's it, keep stepping.

Control your mind,
control yourself and go for it.

Let's go. Let's go!

(BLEEP).

He flew.

Next to confront his fears
is number six, Manu.

Like heights?

Not really.

Scared of heights?
Afraid.

Heights, it's always been a fear.

What I want to change about myself
with this course is having less fear

and being more confident
about myself.

Even when I got given to be
co-hosting 'My Kitchen Rules',

I was petrified
in front of the camera.

Every single day for six months.

Come on, let's go!
Stop wobbling the (BLEEP) thing.

Calm down.

Advance!

Step. Step. Step.

Come on. Start to shuffle now,
move forward.

Come on.
Keep walking, keep shuffling.

(SCREAMS)

(BLEEP).
Stand up, Bambi!

Get (BLEEP) up!

(BLEEP) hell!

It'll get tighter and tighter,
don't panic.

A terrifying underground task...

Let's go.

When you're claustrophobic

you get that feeling
of not being able to breathe.

..leaves one recruit...

(BLEEP).
..trapped.

(BLEEP).

And later...

There was about 2,500 articles

that said that I had flashed
myself without wearing underpants.

..ex-politician Emma
is exposed.

So, there's no truth
whatsoever in those allegations?

Advance!

In a test of courage...

Step, step.

..number six, Manu, is struggling
to keep his composure...

Ah (BLEEP).

..as he fights his fear of heights
while suspended 30m above ground.

Stand up, Bambi!

Get the (BLEEP) up!

(BLEEP) hell!

What's wrong with you?

I don't know, mate.
Have you got roller boots on?

Ooh, it's hard.

(BLEEP).

Stop getting angry
because that doesn't work.

Now, let's go.
With me, let's walk,

let's walk, keep walking.

Keeping walking.
Good, good, good.

Ah, ah! Stop wobbling!

(BLEEP) this shit.

So far the trainasium has proved
too challenging for the recruits.

Wait.

Next is model and actress
Isabelle Cornish.

Alright. Look at me.
Explain to me what courage is.

Courage is committing
and using your heart and your mind.

It's letting go
of the fear of failure, isn't it?

Yes.
OK.

I spent some years
in the modelling industry in America

and that opened my eyes a lot

to the way women
and people in general

can be valued by their size
or by their external image

and that environment
was very challenging for me

as a young woman growing up.

I struggled with body image,
self-love, eating troubles

and you know, coming through that
and on the other side

definitely gives you some grit.

Advance!

That's good,
don't worry about the wind.

Shuffle. Keep shuffling.

Keep the momentum going,
once you've got it keep going.

Let's go!
That's good, that's good.

Keep it coming,
come towards me!

Keep coming.

Go, Izzy!
She's doing well.

She's doing great.
Keep coming, good girl.

Well done, all the way.
Keep going, keep going, keep going.

Hold it.
It's one clear step, OK?

Ready?
Let's go.

Go, Izzy.

WOMAN: That's it, go girl,
go, go, go. Yes!

Go, let's go, keep coming!
Keep coming, keep coming.

What a machine.

Stop. Touch your toes.
Lean down.

Stand up straight. Let's go.

Wow, wow.

Keep coming. Good girl.
Well done.

Well done!
You did it, didn't ya?

Yes, staff.
You smashed it! Huh?

Well done.

And that is how it's fucking done.
Yes, staff.

Well done, easy, wasn't it?
Piece of piss?

Well, you're the only person
who's done that properly.

(BLEEP) well done, good effort.
Away you go.

Outstanding, love it.

NARRATOR: Next, is NRL star,
number 16, Sam Burgess.

Look at Sam,
he sounds like (BLEEP) thunder.

The whole platform
might come down here.

It's not always an advantage

being the biggest player
on the field.

It helps me attack

but it can also be my hindrance
for speed, agility...

Oh, Jesus.

There's going to be a moment,
surely on the course,

where I'm going, "This is hard."

He's a beast, Sammy, mate.

He's a 120kg
or some shit, bra.

That's literally double me.

BILLY: Don't, don't wobble it.
Don't bang it, just shuffle.

He's going to rock this whole thing.

MAN: Bend.
Bend it into a half pipe.

Staff, how do you find being
a bigger build with tasks like this?

What?

I'm curious,
how would someone of your size,

how do you go on things like this?

Step. And good,
OK, next, next one, let's go.

I just do it.
Just do it?

Yeah.
Yeah.

Stop overthinking it.
(BLEEP).

I wasn't, nah, I wasn't asking
technique, that's fine.

Do you find it more difficult
than others?

No.
Thank you, staff.

(EXHALES)

Now, touch your toes.

Good job.

Impressive, mate. Wow.

ANT: When courage hits you,
everything slows down,

it's like being in a car crash...

Yes, Jana, go.

Now, go for it.
Come on, let's go.

Well done, well done!

..where you can almost visualise
the future...

Woah.

..and that's when you know
it's time to commit.

Where you going?

Come on, let's go.

Every time you commit to it,

you get closer and closer
to the answer.

And that answers
who are you, what're you made of?

Stand up and shuffle.

Keep it going, that's good.
Well done, calm down. You OK?

Yes, staff.

The last to attempt the crossing
is former politician, Emma Husar.

(PANTS)

I think the majority of people
will remember,

"Oh, that's right, she was the one
they called Sharon Stone

"and she was accused
of being a slut."

Do you believe in yourself,
in your ability to do it?

Yes, I do, staff.

Right, block off all the shit
that's going on,

focus on your one-metre square.

That's all that matters.
OK.

It's up to you.

They had said that
I had exposed myself to my colleague

and his infant son
in the parliament.

I had no control or any agency
in any of that.

And, um, on selection,
I get to choose how far I go.

I get to choose how tough
and how resilient

and how fierce I have to be

and I will give absolutely
everything to the course.

Let's go, hurry up.

She's made that ladder climb
look like a trek up K2.

Advance!

Don't worry about the wind,
it's just a bit of (BLEEP) wind.

Stop wobbling it.
Slow down.

Stand up you (BLEEP)
want you flapping around!

Raise and plant.
Ready?

Now move.

Plant!
Raise and plant!

That's it and the next one.
Ready?

Yes, staff.
Go! Do it!

Get it, go! Get it, go!

Stand up! Stand up!

If ever someone shouldn't have been
numbered number one.

Calm down.

Listen to what you've been told.
Yes, staff.

Have trust, alright?
Yes, staff.

And stop panicking.

What I'd like people to see
from my participation

is that, you know, you can choose
to let things make you

or you can choose
to let these things break you.

I've survived all of my worst days,

so sometimes you're stronger
than you think you are.

All I wanted off that
was commitment.

(BLEEP) hell some of you
are so ill-prepared, it's a joke.

A joke.

(BLEEP).

Move, go! Let's go. Move!

I got broken into by three guys
while I was asleep upstairs.

Every woman's worst nightmare.

I didn't feel like
I could protect myself.

Anybody else have wounds?

How lucky are we to have a doc
in the house?

I know, isn't it great?
This one.

This one's gonna sting
a little bit more

'cause it's more of a graze.

After the morning's demanding
task, dual Olympian, Jana,

employs her real-world skills
as a doctor

to treat the battered recruits.
Yep.

Doctor Pittman.
(LAUGHS)

Yeah.

I feel incredibly lucky
to have a career after sport.

I know a lot of my friends have
really, really struggled with that.

See how it feels in the morning
and if it's still bad,

I'd cover that.
Yeah.

Sport for me was always a...
it was almost an accident...

I've got a few, sorry.

..because I wanted to be a doctor
from the age I could remember.

They're all little ones
but just watch them.

Yes, OK.

I remember carrying a little
doctor's bag around

that my granddad gave me

and it was full
of all sorts of pretend instruments

and stethoscopes and things
and so that was my goal.

What do you have to get
in your HSC for medicine?

Well, you have to have over 99
to get into medicine.

You'd probably want your doctor
to get 99 if they are really smart.

You would hope so!
(LAUGHS)

I think, if someone was gonna do
a surgery on me,

I'd probably want them
to get 99.

The thing is,
it's not just head smart.

It's so much more about your ability
to read a situation

and communicate with your patient,

and some of the best doctors
in the world, I reckon,

don't have the highest marks,
they just have the love of medicine.

The highlights of my career
would've been, one,

getting into medicine,

because finally, I realised
I was smart enough to make it

because I was a bit worried
about that.

And then graduating,
the day they said, "Doctor Pittman,"

was one of the best days of my life.

And everyday, I go to work,
I pinch myself -

purely from the luck
that I've landed in the job

that I want to do.

Nearby, the DS meet
to discuss the recruits' progress.

Let's go with this morning's
activities which was the trainasium.

A little bit
of a challenging trainasium,

if I'm honest,
'cause it was suspended.

So, we had a little bit of wind
and a little bit of instability,

so it was fitting for the scenario
of showing courage.

And, well, the ones that stood out
for me, number eight.

She looked like (BLEEP) a rabbit
in the headlights

but I'll tell you what,
she was pretty confident,

quiet and stable
and she come all the way across.

Number six, he (BLEEP) hated
every moment of that

and number ten
was just all over the shop for me.

Oh, (BLEEP) number ten,
she ran all the way down

and then ran all the way back up,

so she was still
on the opposite side from me.

What are you doing?
Stop!

She's just all over the place.

So, that must've really got to her,
the trainasium.

Yeah.

A multiple of, sort of, failures

but not that we see her
as a failure.

The thing is, you know,
it's how these people

bounce back from (BLEEP)
from failure.

That's what we're watching,
isn't it?

Let's get her in.

Number ten, come on, number ten!

After struggling in the task
and showing diminished courage,

the DS want answers from number ten,
Erin.

Take a breath.

(INHALES DEEPLY)

Stop panicking because it's already
written all over your face.

Alright?

How are you feeling?
Vulnerable?

Yes. Yes, staff.
Bit weak?

Yes, staff.
There's no need for it.

You're still here, aren't you?
Yes, staff.

Just.

What are you known for?

I am probably most known
as the former beauty queen.

I was in Miss World Australia.

And now I'm a sports presenter
as well, I work in cricket.

As in you present cricket?
I do.

You've come here for a reason,
what is that reason?

I've never ever physically
pushed myself

to do anything of this nature.

I was uncomfortable in sequins
than I was in army pants.

A big reason for why
I did want to come here, recently,

I think everyone had a really
shithouse 2020,

there's no beating around the bush.

I got locked out of Queensland,

I didn't see my husband-to-be
for the better part of six months.

Lost my aunty, who,
was probably my closest family member

after then my parents
couldn't be there for the funeral,

so I felt crap about that

and then struggling just to
sort of calm down at night and sleep.

Then, I actually got broken into
by three guys.

Boxing day morning at 4am
while I was asleep upstairs

and I never ever take
any anti-anxiety meds or sleep aids

or anything like that
but I did that night.

I just felt so vulnerable.

Just take a breath.

Luckily, they didn't come
into the bedroom

and it wasn't until the next day
when we saw all the footage,

that I figured out what had happened
and that almost made me feel worse,

that I was so completely unaware,

so there wouldn't have been
any chance to protect myself

or, yeah, do anything to help myself
in that situation.

I thought I was really independent
and really confident,

and then the way that I responded
to that moment really shocked me.

I already feel vulnerable sometimes
because of my size

and the way that I present myself,

but to know that I had made myself
extra vulnerable

being knocked out, asleep upstairs,
by myself...

I think that vulnerability is guilt,
which you don't need.

Those blokes breaking in,
that's not your fault.

And ultimately,
you ain't changing that either.

It's done, innit?

You can keep getting upset about it

but then at some point,
you got to (BLEEP) mug it off.

You might not think it

but you're automatically defaulting
to feeling a bit sorry for yourself

as opposed to being more positive
and proactive

in the way you're thinking.

Don't look around and then well,

"I'm skinny and I'm smaller,
I'm (BLEEP)..."

it doesn't matter.

Do you think we've not been there?
We've been there.

We've stood on a square
of 280 people

thinking there's only seven places
here, if we're lucky.

And the first thing
I would say to myself is,

"I'm the smallest,
I'm the skinniest,

"I'm not going to (BLEEP)
make this."

He's probably done the same.
Well, maybe not.

(LAUGHS) These days.

Oh, but I am.
But he was little once.

You're lacking confidence right now.
You need to believe in yourself.

Yes, staff.

Guard!

This is an opportunity to strip back

and to really see
what you're made of,

you as a person and this is,
I think a big motivation

for why I wanted to come
into the course.

I wanted to try and take back
a bit of that confidence

and hopefully,
that helps me get past a few demons

that I have just as a, yeah,
a vulnerable person.

NARRATOR: Coming up...

MAN: (INDISTINCT).

..a physical...
(SCREAMS)

..and psychological task...

Let's go.

It will get tight,
it will get claustrophobic.

I'm afraid
of really, really tight spaces.

Ah. (CRIES)
Keep moving!

..causes crisis.

I honestly can't!
I don't want to do this anymore.

Are they there?
Do you know you've tucked your...

I need all the help I can get,
so at least if I look the part...

Do you always do that?
What?

Why have you tucked your t-shirt
into your undies?

Because otherwise
it just untucks and comes out.

Model secrets 101.

Tuck your shirt into your undies.

Well, your, ah, my...
I'm going to try your trick.

I want to try.
(LAUGHTER)

Erin, the work personality,

comes across, I think,
quite confident

but it's completely so far
from the truth.

You always start
with really dry small bits.

Yep, little bits. Yep.

I was not a confident person
growing up at all

and I sort of had this front,

which was the version of myself
that I wanted everyone to see.

If you want it to not move,
stick it one on each side.

Oh, clever.

And I worry that I've opened myself
up to vulnerability by, you know,

saying yes to something

that I'm probably
not physically ready for.

I'm terrified that I'm going to fail

but I also wasn't ready to give up
on an opportunity

that was really going to, you know,
completely change my life

and I have no doubt that,
that it will do that.

Get on the parade square!
Fast as you can!

WOMAN: Form up, let's go!

NARRATOR: Summoned by the DS
to the parade square,

the recruits are unaware
that they are about to face

one of the most physically

and psychologically demanding
tasks yet.

Ollie, pick four pairs.

One two, three, four.

Come with me.

Right, you lot.
Line out in front of me, let's go.

One rank.

Going to incorporate
a bit of physical activity

followed by psychological activity.

The recruits are about to face
torturous combat drills

designed to physically deplete them.

Stand by, go, move!

Once exhausted,
the recruits will need to crawl

through a claustrophobic
underground wormhole.

A task that will weed out
the weakest minds and bodies.

Right, go round and back to me. Go!

Courage comes in many forms.

That sandbag
does not go below your heads.

(SCREAMS)

Number ten!
Get that sandbag above your head!

Physical courage is when your body
is absolutely drained physically

and you want to give up...

Ignore the (BLEEP) pain.

Get your asses off the ground.
That's all I ask.

..but you just push past
that pain barrier and carry on.

(GROANS)

Get on your arms,
drag your legs

and all the way round
the parade square and back in.

The DS will also watch closely

to see who is following
their exact instructions...

Get your (BLEEP) knees up quick!

You think you're invisible
when you do it?

..and who is looking to cut corners.

Number ten, get your ass down!

Ass down!

(CRIES)

If it's too much for you,
then you shouldn't be here.

(CRIES)

Floundering under the intensity
of the drill,

TV Presenter, Erin,
starts to walk instead of crawl...

What the fuck are you doing?

..instantly catching the attention
of the DS.

Number ten, get back!

Get back to that corner (BLEEP)
do it again!

(BLEEP) cheat! Get down!

(CRIES)

Let's go.

Get off your knees, number ten!

Get off your knees!

Failing again to execute orders,

DS Ant has no other choice

but to punish Erin
with another combat drill.

Number ten, grab number nine,

put him over your shoulders,
around you go. Move!

Am I doing it right?

(CRIES)

Put a bit of effort in!
I'm trying, staff.

If you can't do it,

then you're not going
to last tomorrow!

We expect you to be
in tip-top physical condition.

That's a given.

Ahh!

In combat, you're carrying your kit,
you're carrying your weight

and ultimately on the battlefield,
you could be carrying a casualty.

I'm sorry, staff.
What?

Is there another way
I can try and carry...

No, there isn't!

Yeah, there is another way.
Give me your (BLEEP) number

and get out of here.
I don't want to do that, staff.

Get him on your (BLEEP) shoulders!

You lot, on your backs,
feet six inches above the ground!

Let's go!

We're not (BLEEP) stopping
until you've done that.

The recruits
will not be able to move on

to the next stage of the task

until Erin follows her orders.

MARK: Ahhhhhh!

ANT: Shut the (BLEEP) up, 14!

That's it, you're doing great,
you're doing great.

(ERIN SCREAMING)

We will keep going
until number ten

gets number nine
around this parade square!

This will not stop!

You got it, up you go,
good job, Ezzy!

Ezzy!

I gotcha.

I'm sorry.

Ugh!

Ahhh!

Get him on your shoulders
and around this parade square!

Use your legs, your legs!

Legs, not your...
Get (BLEEP) aggressive!

Get him on your shoulders!

That's it!

Good!
Good job, good job!

To have courage is to overcome
something that frightens you,

something that you think
you're not capable of.

For me, I'm very much scared of
my physical limitations

not being enough.

Ah, ah!

Oh, I'm so sorry, guys.
Oh, come on!

(SCREAMING)

ANT: Shut the (BLEEP) up!

Fear of failing myself,
well, that's on me

but if what I do
impacts other people...

..I really don't want to do that.

I don't want to make anyone's life

any harder than it needs to be
in here.

(MOANS)

OK.

Now, all of you,
go and (BLEEP) grab a sandbag.

Until number ten gets number nine
around the parade square

you can all (BLEEP) grab a sandbag
and put it above your heads.

(GROANS)

No, I can't.

I can't do,
I can't do it to them.

You can't do that to them, can you?

I can't.

It's the (BLEEP) right thing to do.

Look at 'em,
they're going to (BLEEP) suffer

until you get your (BLEEP)
casualty home.

OLLIE: Above your head!

You lot, go and put your (BLEEP)
sandbags down.

Get back on the parade square, move!

OLLIE: Go!

Number ten, go over to the wagon.

You've done the right thing.

Because they're going to stop
suffering now.

Unable to complete
the physical section,

number ten, Erin,
is the second recruit

to voluntarily withdraw.

Our job is to (BLEEP) save life.

We're looking for characteristics
and attributes

to being able to deal with
what happens on the battlefield.

If you can't do it then stop (BLEEP)
kidding yourselves...

and (BLEEP) off.

Just remember grit and determination
doesn't save lives, it's not enough.

Getting past feeling like a failure
is going to be really big for me.

I always beat myself up
if I'm not performing well

or towards the front of the pack

even if I know it's something that
I have no right to be good at

because its not a strength of mine.

So, this selection course to me
is going to teach me how to fail

and somehow find a way forward.

Follow on in single file.

OLLIE: Quietly.

The remaining 16 recruits

have survived the agonising
physical section of the task.

Now, the DS will drill
into their minds,

exposing extreme fear where only
the most courageous will succeed.

Two ranks in front of me, let's go.

Being a special forces operator
you never know what's coming next.

We're not here to mess around,
we're not here to play games.

We're here to push you
physically and psychologically

to see if you have the courage
to get the job done.

I'm gonna give you a little
(BLEEP) hint on this one.

You need to stay calm as (BLEEP).

Emotional intelligence this one.

For understanding your emotions...

..whether it's fear,

claustrophobia, water,
whatever it may be.

Understanding the emotion
for what it is...

..and making it work for you.

'Cause the moment something
doesn't work for you,

what does it do?

Works against you, right?

Who's claustrophobic around here?

Claustrophobic, number four?

No, sir.

Claustrophobic?

BILLY: Claustrophobic?
MULTIPLE RECRUITS: No, staff.

The recruits will now face
a horrifying crawl

through a 25m underground wormhole

that gets tighter and tighter
the deeper they go.

The fear of being trapped
in a small confined space

that's like stale and suffocating,
that terrifies me.

ANT: Number 12!

Come on, hurry up!

Get on your stomach and crawl to me.

FOXY: Come on, go!
You're not trying! Hurry up!

Number 12, singer, Bonnie Anderson,
is first to attempt the task.

Alright listen to me,
stop panicking.

Just listen,
take a breath and listen.

Your mission is to get into that
(BLEEP) tunnel, clear it

and find out
what's at the other end.

Wherever the other end is,
I don't (BLEEP) know.

What I do know is,
it'll get tighter and tighter.

Don't panic.

There's only one way
and the way is forward.

Understand me?

Understand?

Let's go, let's go!

Get down low, start crawling!

Oh, my god.
Let's go!

(GRUNTING)

Scary!

When you have claustrophobic
and you enter a wormhole

the space around you
gets smaller and smaller.

You get that feeling
of not being able to breathe...

..your chest being compressed.

Not knowing where the end is...

..not knowing how tight
it's going to get.

It takes real courage
and mind control...

..to get through that.

OK.

As number 12 reaches
the halfway mark...

OK, come on.

Come!

..the tunnel gets smaller
with every crawl.

(BLEEP).

I can't!

Keep moving!

Keep moving!

I can't do it, mate.

Oh, (BLEEP).

Man, I can't.

I honestly can't.

I don't want to do this anymore.

Keep moving!

I'm sorry, I can't!
Keep moving, you have to!

You can't go back.

If you start panicking
in a confined space like that...

Number 12!
No, I really need to go home.

Stop, stop!

..you're no good to man or beast.

Listen to me.
OK.

Turn on your stomach.

Nice and steadily keep crawling.

OK.
Keep moving.

Push off your toes.

Stay on your stomach.
OK.

Stay on your stomach.

Stay low.
It's slippery.

Keep going, keep going.

(GRUNTING)

OK, come on, breathe.

There you (BLEEP) go.

You're doing it.

Come on, there's loads of room
in there around you.

Get up.

Oh, shit.

What was all that panicking about?

Sorry, I was freaked out.

Freaked out at what?

It's just a (BLEEP) hole.
I know.

Come on.
OK.

Sit yourself down here.

Chill out.

(BLEEP) start (BLEEP)
having a word with yourself

about panicking over stupid shit.

Phew.

15!

Number 15, AFL player, Heath Shaw,

will need to muster every ounce
of his courage.

I'm afraid of really,
really tight spaces.

My club doctors will attest

to the fact that I hate
going getting scans

and was usually fairly heavily
medicated when going in for a scan.

Push out your fear,
this is courage now.

You (BLEEP) grab it by the balls
and you take it.

Let's go.

Let's go!

Let's go.

When I'm in a enclosed space...

..I get the sweats

and the heart rate's definitely
through the roof.

I was getting a shoulder scan,
I was in there for,

oh, I think under a minute.

(PANTING)

Pressed the button
and I said, no, I'm done.

Grabbed my key and went and got
changed and went home.

And I said I'm not
going back in there.

I'm doing this to,
to prove to myself

that I can go over and above
what I've done in the past

and get out of my comfort zone.

How was that?

I had to get out of there.

Well, whatever you needed to do,
it was fucking good.

You kept the noise down as well.

Good effort.
I wanna see you, come here.

I can tell you're claustrophobic

because you're (BLEEP) shaking
like a shitting dog.

But you took charge
of your emotions.

Good effort.
Thank you, staff.

Hit the log.

Get in there, get in, come on!

Clear that top.

Courage isn't about storming
machine gun nests single-handedly.

Courage is about having
the grit and determination

to take that leap of faith into a,
an environment that's alien to you.

(GROANING)

Stop making (BLEEP) noises
like you're actually giving birth.

There is every risk
that they'll have a panic attack.

Argh, I can't go anymore.

What did you just say?

Ah.

Get (BLEEP) moving.

But I don't see what that
panic attack's going to do for them.

You're still got to (BLEEP)
crawl out of it.

So you might as well not have
a panic attack and crawl out.

(PANTING)

What the (BLEEP)
did you say to yourself

about three quarters
of the way through?

I thought couldn't do it, staff,
but I could.

Sort your shit out with your head.

Yes, staff.

(BLEEP).

Oh, mate,
that was a big fear of mine.

Oh.

ANT: Number 16!

Let's go!

JESSICA: That's Sam.
BONNIE: Oh, shit.

KOBY: Sam is so (BLEEP).

NRL star, Sam Burgess,
is by far the biggest recruit

to enter the wormhole.

I'm taking the course
to find out about myself again,

challenge myself,
both physically and mentally

and see what's inside of me again.

You're a big lad,

make yourself long
and lizardy and move.

Yes, staff.
Go.

Go!

Save your energy 'cause
you're going to need it.

Push, push, push! Get in!

(PANTING)

Keep moving forward!

(KNOCKING ON THE TUNNEL)

Keep going, keep moving.

(KNOCKING ON THE TUNNEL)

(KNOCKING ON THE TUNNEL)

Staff...

..staff, sorry I don't fit.

Yeah, you will, you'll fit.

(BREATHES HEAVILY)

Reaching the narrowest part
of the wormhole

Sam's massive frame

now out measures
the width of the tunnel.

Staff, I promise I can't get
my shoulder through.

You don't have to promise me,
just keep moving.

You've gotta move.

(BLEEP).
Come on, come on!

Self-doubt is something
that's not really lived inside me

my whole career, my life.

For me to say I can't,
or I won't do something,

it would have to be something

I think is physically
impossible to do.

Argh, staff, it's my shoulder,
I can't.

Take the can't
and turn it to can.

'Cause you can do it.

Let's move.

Staff, staff, I'm sorry,
I don't fit, staff.

I'm really, I'm...
You do, you can.

You need to listen.

Superman, put your (BLEEP) arms
right in front of you,

you're not even stretched out.

Staff, my, my left arm,
I can't move it much.

You can, you can.

Get your (BLEEP)
left (BLEEP) in and stretch.

I have a severely damaged
left shoulder,

that's what finished
my football career.

I had a pretty severe infection
in the joint.

The cartilage in my,
in my left shoulder

are completely gone.

I have very limited movement
in my shoulder,

especially things above my head.

It's bone on bone, innit?

It's debilitating,

it's something that I live with
day in and day out.

But I'd be really disappointed
if my shoulder let's me down.

That's my biggest fear.

This is the only way out.

(BLEEP).

Come on, courage now, let's go!

(BLEEP), I need to breathe.

Let's go, (BLEEP).

(BLEEP).

(BLEEP).

(GROANS)

(BLEEP).

ANT: Number 16, 16.

Relax, relax, relax.

Stu... (BREATHING HEAVILY)

(BLEEP).

That's it!

Keep going.

(BLEEP).

Relax, breathe.

(TAKES A DEEP BREATH)

(BLEEP).

Listen, the more you sit there,

the more you're going to stay there.

I have a severely damaged
left shoulder.

It's what finished
my football career.

But I don't think I can damage it
any further.

So, I just gotta push through.

Staff, in my old one,
I'll tell ya.

Listen, stop panicking.

Inch by inch, let's go.

When you play football

sometimes you're on the wrong side
of the scoreline

and the game's gone

but there's 30 minutes
left on the clock,

yeah, you, well,
like, you have to keep playing

because there's no other way out
so you have to keep going.

Well, I think my courage
comes from that determination.

See, all this bullshit
you can't do it.

Phew.

OK, let's go for a burst, ready?

Go! Let's go! Come on!

Courage now, let's go!

You're nearly there!

Keep going! Keep going.

Come, one more burst
and you're done.

Let's go.

FOXY: Stand up.

(BLEEP) hell.

I thought bunnies
were supposed to be quick in holes.

Head down, you'll see
the rest of the recruits.

That was (BLEEP).

FOXY: Number nine!

Next to face the wormhole
is recruit number nine,

actor, Dan Ewing.

Everybody has fear,
everybody has anxiety.

It's in our construct,
it's the sabre-toothed tiger.

BILLY: Let's go!

But how do you deal with it?

Do you let it run your life?

Or can you step back
and say, "No, no,

"thank you,
you've served your purpose

"I'm going down this path."

I'm very confident I can do that
on SAS selection.

It will get tighter
as you're in there, alright?

Just keep pushing forwards.

I think one huge benefit
in my career

is preparation for roles

because different characters
require different mind-set.

(HEAVY BREATHING)

(BLEEP).

No, thank you.

(HEAVY BREATHING)

So, obviously on the SAS course
I won't have my meditation music,

candles...

..but I still have my breath.

Are you moving or meditating?

What are you doing?

Moving, staff.

Argh!

Are you alright there?

Come on, don't give up now.

You're about to breach.

I'm not giving up, staff.

What the hell was going on in there?

Don't get too close to me
your (BLEEP) breath stinks.

Just trying to get through it,
staff.

I didn't mean to.

If you'd have put more effort
into moving

as you did into breathing

you'd have been through that
in a (BLEEP) shot.

More like a (BLEEP)
tunnel sloth than rat.

Hurry up, hurry up,
hurry up, hurry up!

Last to enter the wormhole
is former politician, Emma Husar.

All the way in!

Move yourself, get in.

Get in, let's go!

I think that courage is something
that I had to dig deep for

at different periods.

I have been called a bully,
a thief, a liar, a cheat,

on every major newspaper
across the country.

And I had no idea
when it was going to stop.

I can't fit, staff.
Keep moving!

I can't fit.
Stop talking!

Save your energy and move!

You can fit, move!

But I learned how resilient
and how tough I can be.

Keep moving.

Yes, staff, I'm coming, staff.

When you're feeling overwhelmed
you just do the next thing

and then you just get
to the next morning

and then you get to lunchtime

and then you just keep doing
the next thing.

And then soon enough
you look back

and you're like, look at me go.

Yes, staff.

(BLEEP) halfway through that
you said you can't do it,

you can't fit.
You're at the (BLEEP) end of it now.

Yes, staff.

That bizarrely is the quickest
you've ever moved.

If only we had pipes
running everywhere we went

you'd be (BLEEP) all over it,
wouldn't you?

Yes, staff.

Stop doubting yourself

and stop telling me
that you can't do shit

because you just proved to yourself
that you're wrong.

Yes, staff.

Run!

She did alright, aye?

Yeah.

She's quicker through pipe
than she is on the ground.

My kids were nine, 11 and 16

when their mother was being called
a slut in the nation's media.

On every front page
across the country.

The reporting of that
cost me everything.

Welcome to dinner.

Come on, guys.
It's been out for a while.

MARK: Oh.

SAM: I feel like this is going to be
an epic feed

so I'm bringing both tubs
for the first time.

Um, yes,
some lettuce would be good.

I'm going to throw it in your bowl,
here, here.

Guys, I'm going to go light again,
just in case.

I used to work at McDonald's
when I was 15.

Did ya?

I'm stopping short of asking (BLEEP)
if you want fries with it?

I always want fries, baby.

FOXY: Number one.

Having highlighted herself
in a positive way

during the wormhole task,

the DS want to know more about
former politician, number one,

Emma Husar.

"Shocking new allegations
against labour MP, Emma Husar,

"include a claim
she behaved like Sharon Stone

"in that notorious scene
from 'Basic Instinct'."

"Bullying, sexual comments,
misdirection of funds."

"They burnt me
and left me out to die."

She resigned.

So she's been a bit of a victim
there, hasn't she?

It seems.
Apparently.

We'll see.

And if she is innocent,
then (BLEEP) horrendous.

Yeah.

Relax.

Tell us a bit about yourself
and why you're here.

What's your motivation,
what do you want to achieve?

I'm Emma Hussar.

I was a parliamentarian
in the federal parliament.

Was?
Was.

Speak a bit louder,
I can, I can hardly hear.

Um, I was elected in 2016.

Which party were you with?

The labour party.

I was forced to quit in 2018

and I don't want to be forced
to quit again.

Did you say you were forced to quit?

I was forced to quit.

Give us a bit of a story on that,
then.

Um, so, my kids were...

..nine, 11 and 16

when their mother was being called
a slut in the nation's media,

one every front page
across the country.

That's cruel.

There was about 2,500 articles

that I had flashed myself
in front of my colleague,

without wearing underpants,

that I was sleeping with everybody
in Canberra, just about.

Had media camped outside
the front door for weeks.

Chased me across the front lawn...

..asking me with a camera and a mic
in my face, "Are you a slut?

"Are you really Sharon Stone?"

Media can be very (BLEEP) cruel.

Yes, staff.

So, there's no truth whatsoever
in those allegations?

Absolutely not, staff.

But you still lost your job?

I still lost my job.

I was thrown out of parliament
under a bus.

The labour party,
when they made me resign,

well, they tried to make me,

force me to apologise
for things that I hadn't done.

They drove me to the place
where I would give my resignation,

they organised the media,
they took me to a hair appointment.

So, it's ruined your career,
would you say that?

Pull yourself together.

The reporting of that
cost me everything.

I was forced to resign,
I was told I had to step down.

Um, I was effectively
shamed into silence.

There was no support for me,
they were all bystanders.

Their silence approval of
don't speak, don't tell,

this is a boys' club

and we're not dismantling it
for anybody.

I was good at my job, staff.

And after all of this

I was diagnosed with a
mental health condition

and um, and one of the side effects
has been, I'm completely numb.

So, just...

Emotionally void.

Yeah.

It's, it's, it's a skill and a gift
and also a curse and a weakness.

Since going through trial by media,

um, I've been diagnosed with
severe depression and acute anxiety.

Um, I actually don't have
any adrenal response anymore.

So, if there's something scary
that happens

my adrenaline doesn't spike,
um, my palms don't get sweaty,

my heart doesn't race.

I'm completely numb

and I don't think that I had
any confidence or any self-worth.

Have you got belief in yourself?

Take a breath, take a breath.
No, no staff.

I don't believe in myself.

Everything starts with belief.

You've got to understand that.

And when we do selection

belief is probably one of
the key characteristics

that gets you through the course

and that's gonna have to be
a very short turn around

for you to start
believing in yourself

for you to be here
through the duration of this course.

Stand tall, get yourself together.

You know, if you need a
bit of extra motivation,

I'll tell you
what's always worked for me.

Think of those people that are
doubting you and your ability.

Let them be your motivation.

Yes, staff.

Guard!

I think the strongest memory
that I have of that time

was just how much I hated
being a woman.

When I went to Canberra

I was acutely aware
of the way that women's sexuality

is used as a force
to really undermine us.

You know, we talk about
telling our girls,

don't dress like this,

don't be out late, don't be drunk,
don't be here don't be there,

don't be seen
in a compromising position.

And looking at what the men
have been able to get away with

and the double standards
and the hypocrisy that go on.

The news events of this year
about Canberra

have made me want to reach for the
bucket on more than one occasion.

We've seen multiple men
behaving badly

with evidence that they are actually
doing the wrong thing

and they are treating that place
like a boys' club.

For anybody that wants to say
women's advancement's done

and we've got everything we need,
they're dead wrong.

Did they ask you hard questions
about parliament house?

Maybe there was a few questions
about parliament house.

They'll just find new ways
to keep us marginalised

and keep us on, on the side.

I just wish, I just wish
I would have had more courage

and I would have said enough
is enough, way back then.