All language subtitles for Special.Forces.Worlds.Toughest.Test.S01E08

[narrator] Sixteen celebrities
have enlisted
in real military training.

Ten days to prove
they can endure
physically and emotionally.

No prizes,
no special treatment.

This is Special Forces:
World’s Toughest Test.

[narrator]
In the last seven days,

the course has claimed
ten recruits.

Just six remain.

You continue punching.
You do not stop.

[Billy] Hit him! Hit him!

-Gas, gas, gas!
- [Billy] Find another way!

[narrator] And after
the most brutal 24 hours yet...

-Fail!
- I was so close.

-[Billy] This way. This way!
- ...one recruit...

-Big fat fail!
- Is at his limit.

That’s suffering.
That’s what that is. Suffering.

I said I wasn’t gonna quit,
but it’s a young man’s game.

What’s going on?

I don’t wanna be a hindrance
to the team.

Are you over this?

[Mike sighs, groans]

[narrator]
Number 5, Mike Piazza,

has had a rough night...

[groans]

...suffering with
injuries sustained

on selection yesterday.

Mike, how’s your face feeling?

Uh, not good.

[groans]

-You had the craziest day.
-I know. It was crazy.

I don’t care if we’re playing
miniature golf today.

I couldn’t even do it.

If you feel that,
l respect that 100%.

You know what? I love you guys.

But if you’re weak and you’re
starting to make mistakes,

you’re gonna hurt the team.

-I’m really proud of you.
-I appreciate that.

Freaking warrior.

When I realized that the fire
was going out in my career,

then I knew
I had to turn the page.

[Dwight] Uh, staff.

Duty Recruit 5
wishes to withdraw, sir.

-Just wait down there.
-Yes, sir.

[Mike] I retired in 2007.

I could have squeezed out
another year or two,

but I didn’t wanna be
60 or 70% of my former self.

[Billy] OK. What’s up?

My decision
is to, uh, retire, sir.

-You want to voluntary withdraw?
- Yes, sir.

You were running on the reserve,
and the thing was,
you were still smashing it.

Thank you.

l do believe this is
the end of the road for you.

Give me your armband.

Yes, sir.

Away you go.

[Mike] The best part
was just being on a team again,

and that’s what I miss.

-Love you, dude.
-Love you, man.

[Mike] When an athlete retires,
you miss your guys.

[sniffs]

[narrator] Mike Piazza
is the 11th recruit

to leave the course.

Now just five remain.

[Gus] They want 110%,
and I wanna give them that,

but I’m, like,
I haven’t got back up to 100.

-I haven’t recharged.
-I know.

When you do go to war, you never
know when it’s gonna end.

You have no idea.

[Carli] We’ve gotten
to this point, like...

-[Dwight] Yeah.
- We got reserves in the tank.

We just gotta help each other.

[Billy] That’s why
selection is relentless.

It’s preparing you for war.

[Billy] Number 4!

What’s morale like in there?

Um, we’re all
on our fuel reserve tank.

What do you mean,
you’re on your reserve?

You’ve had more sleep
than a dead man.

You are about to get
to the crucial part now.

-We’re ready.
- You’d better be ready.

And you know what?
You’d better make ’em ready.

Because you are
the duty recruit today.

-Yes, staff.
- All right, get amongst it.

Get the morale up.
Get ’em ready. Make it happen.

-Yes, staff.
- Disappear.

l’ve proven to myself
I can overcome anything.

This is my moment
to start living my life

to its fullest
and truest potential.

-What’s up, duty recruit?
- I’m here to boost morale.

-How is everybody?
- [Dwight] Amazing.

-We’re fantastic.
-Great!

Uh, breakfast is in ten minutes.

-All right.
-11:30.

What’s on the menu
for this morning?

Um... this morning
you’ll have omelets, bacon,

toast, Belgian waffles...

-Oh!
- Damn.

...with berry compote
and whipped cream.

She’s a bit girl at heart.

[laughs]

I am.

-Chow’s ready!
- [Dwight] What is that?

[Hannah] [bleep] mush.

[Dwight]
I want some [bleep] eggs.

[Carli] I know.

Would you rather go to jail
for ten days or do this again?

-I think jail might be better.
-[laughter]

-Oh, jail.
- [Rudy] Ruck up, recruits!

Get on the parade square!
Let’s go!

[Gus coughs]

[Rudy] In special operations,
as you know,

we are always up
against unbelievable odds.

We operate in small teams

against often
much larger forces.

We demand courage
in each and every one of you

and as a collective.

Remember, against all odds
you must prevail.

And it’s all courage.

It’s all heart.

-Am I understood?
- [recruits] Yes, staff.

All right, uh, 16, 8,
bust out, open up the gate.

-You’re gonna load up.
- [Hannah] Come on, 13.

[Rudy] Let’s go!

[narrator]
The recruits have been brought

to the port of Aqaba...

[Rudy] Ranger file! Step it out!

...to face the most physically
challenging exercise

of selection so far,

the helicopter extraction.

[Foxy] Right, Bergens off.
Put ’em down in front of you.

ln special operations,
those things, Black Hawks,

they are our warhorse.

That is what we travel
into battle on 90% of the time.

They’re also our freedom bird.

I have been on a job where I’ve
had to climb off a moving ship

at night in big seas
into a helicopter to get off it.

[narrator]
This is one of the toughest

special forces
extraction techniques

and will be demonstrated
by DS Remi.

Right, pay attention
to the demo.

[narrator] To pass this task,

first recruits must jump from
a fast-moving boat to a buoy.

Then, when the rope
is within three feet,

swim against the helicopter
downdraft and climb to safety.

This task is a monster.

We’re expecting recruits
to climb up a sodden wet rope

into a moving helicopter.

lt doesn’t get
more brutal than that.

That was insane.

When it comes to this task,

step out your comfort zone
and get the job done,

’cause if you don’t
get out of there,

the chances are
you’re gonna die.

[Foxy]
Those things, Black Hawks,

they are our freedom bird.

Nine times out of ten,

that is the only way
you’re getting out of there.

If you don’t get out of there,

the chances are
you’re gonna die.

-Is that clear?
- [recruits] Yes, staff!

[narrator]
The five remaining recruits

are about to attempt
the helicopter extraction.

First to try, the only
non-athlete left on the course,

Number 4, Hannah Brown.

[Remi] Hey, Four, on me.

All right, so, you gotta try
and get up as fast as you can.

The longer you hang on that
rope, the harder it’s gonna be.

-I’m gonna try my best.
- All right, you got this.

Yeah, thank you.

[Rudy] Sit down there.

[Hannah]
I am naturally athletic

but never really played sports.

[Rudy] If you can get your feet
on the knots,

stand up, work your hands.

Have confidence
in your abilities.

Yes, staff.

[Hannah]
Because my mom was, like,

"You’re gonna do dance."

Like, "That’s the thing
that girls do."

I’ll dispatch you into the sea

and you will stand by
till the bird comes to you

and deploys the rope.

[Hannah] OK.

[Hannah] That fit the path,

more so than getting all dirty

and playing sports,

even though I was always
kind of interested in it.

-Do not give up.
- I won’t give up.

[Hannah] I want to build up
that confidence

mentally and physically,

that I can do the things

that I never thought I could.

-Jump away from the boat!
-Yes, staff.

[Rudy] Get ready!

Go!

Come on, get up.

[Carli] It’s so difficult.

[Billy yelling]

[Gus] She can’t pull up.

[exhales]

[Foxy]
I’ve been in turbulent seas,

and I’ve had to haul myself up
into a helicopter.

[Rudy] Fail!

[Foxy] It was at night,
carrying fighting equipment,

and, quite frankly,
the people around me’s lives

depended on
getting into that helicopter.

[Remi] Number 4, to me!

This is not the spa. Keep
your head up and kick harder!

[Foxy] What happened?

The bottom knot was still

just a little high for me

to, like, pull up,

and I just couldn’t...

-Couldn’t grip.
- couldn’t get it.

-But I tried to hold on.
- Not good enough, was it?

I know. Yeah, it wasn’t. Yeah.

As soon as you grab on,
you gotta swing your legs up.

Get your knees up there.

I think you’ll all have a little
bit more upper body strength.

I think you’ll be able to do it,
but if you don’t get it,

trying to swim
with that helicopter was hard.

[narrator] Number 8, Olympic
soccer player Carli Lloyd,

is next to attempt
the heli extraction.

Don’t psyche yourself out.

When the helo’s coming in,

the water feels like pellets
hitting you in the face.

Turn your head a little bit,
get your breath,

breathe, breathe, breathe,
and then turn back in

so you can see what’s going on.

[Rudy] Number 8, on me!

[Carli] Throughout my career,
l was always doubted.

"She’s not fit enough,
not technical enough."

[Rudy] Use your feet.
Use your legs.

-You got knots.
-Yeah.

Think of your hands,
steel hooks.

I used it as extra fuel
to motivate me.

[Rudy] Stand by.

[Carli] No one can set limits
on yourself but yourself.

Go!

Come on, use your feet!
Get up there!

Come on! Come on!

-[Danny] Come on.
- Come on, Eight!

[Billy] Hand over,
hand over, hand over!

It’s so hard.

[Foxy] When faced
with an impossible challenge,

we want to see recruits go out
there believing they can do it.

It’s not about passing the task.
It’s about their approach to it.

[Rudy] She’s going again!

Come on, don’t fall.

[Rudy] Go!

[Hannah] Oh, has she got it?

[Rudy] That’s a fail!

[Remi]
Keep that freestyle going.

All the way in. Don’t stop.

[narrator] Number 8, Carli
Lloyd, is the second recruit

to be defeated
by the rope climb.

l feel like I got a good
position at first on the rope,

got up a little bit.

Then I was just gassed.

It was an half good effort,

but it weren’t a great effort.

-Didn’t get up there, so...
-Go on.

-Thanks, staff.
- Sort yourself out.

[Hannah]
You got up a little bit.

-Nice effort.
-Yeah.

Second time around, I feel like
I had a better footing,

and I was working my way up,
and then I just... I burnt.

[groans]

[narrator]
The enormity of the task

has concerned
the remaining recruits.

Key to this is speed.

You will burn your arms out
the longer you take.

You gotta get the job done. OK?

[narrator] And Number 16, Super
Bowl champion Danny Amendola,

is having serious doubts.

[growls]

[Danny] When I feel like
there’s a mission

or an objective or a goal,

my pain tolerance
is not important.

I will not quit.

I will be tough and gritty

and do whatever it takes.

[Rudy] You got eyes on the buoy?

-Yes, staff.
- 12 o’clock.

I always had that competitive
edge, and I still have it.

Go!

[Danny] It’s a fire
that burns inside of me.

[Billy] Go!

Go, go, go!

First one, baby!

How did that feel?

lt was good. Tried to get
the knots in between my feet.

-Yeah.
- And just stabilize, push.

So I could use my feet
at least a little bit,

’cause if it was all arms,
I would have been gassed.

-It was a good effort.
-Thank you, staff.

Good effort.
Go on, get over there.

Thank you, staff.

-[Hannah] Good job.
- [Dwight] How was that?

[Danny] It was a lot of energy.

-The helicopter was...
-It was [bleep].

They’re monsters, man.

There’s a lot of spray,
a lot of water everywhere.

My shoulder’s killing me.

[Remi] Number 13, you’re up.

[Dwight] I’m not really good
with water.

[Rudy] Turn around.
Put your foot on the gunnel.

[groans]

You’re gonna park your ass
right there facing me.

I am most nervous and scared
about being in the ocean.

There’s no buoy over there.
The buoy’s at the back.

That’s your insert point.
You got it?

-Dead ahead, 12 o’clock.
-I see it.

Since I was first told
about the selection,

I’ve been thinking about jumping
into a big mass of water.

Am I gonna get scared?
And what am I gonna do?

Go!

[Remi] He let go of the buoy
too early,

so now he’s expending energy
trying to get to the rope.

Come on, come on!
Come on, come on!

-Let’s go!
- Come on, come on!

Come on, come on!

[Foxy]

[Billy] Come on, come on!

Come on, come on!
Come on, come on!

Come on!

[Billy] We’ve got a problem!

Divers, in you go! Go! Go, go!

[Billy] We’ve got a problem!

[narrator] Number 13,
Dwight Howard, is in trouble.

[Billy] Divers, in you go!

He’s underwater
and has failed to surface.

Go, go!

The safety team
have been deployed.

[Billy] Whenever you go
on any operation,

you have to be focused.

Because as soon as you start
to break that down,

you become a liability.

That will result
in you either getting killed

or somebody else getting killed.

Run in. Run, run. What part
of run don’t you understand?

Run it all the way in.

[Gus] No.

-It’s [bleep] pretty tough.
-It’s a lot.

[narrators]
Of the five recruits,

Number 16, Danny Amendola,

is the only one
to pass the task.

-Last to go...
-[Remi] Number 10, you’re up.

...Olympic freestyle skier
Gus Kenworthy.

-[Rudy] On the gunnel.
- [Danny] You got this, buddy.

[Gus] Staff,
I set my number down,

and I’m just realizing I think
it might have blown somewhere.

-So you VW?
- [laughs] No.

[Foxy] In the special forces,

it’s drilled into you
to be accountable.

If you leave equipment
on the ground,

you could be compromised.

It is unforgiveable.

We’ll deal with it later.
You’ll pay the man for it.

-You know what you gotta do?
-Yes, staff.

All right, 10.
You think you’re gonna do it?

-Yes, staff.
- Good. Great attitude.

[Gus] I don’t think
I was naturally the best skier.

I think I am really disciplined,

and I worked really hard,
and I fell in love with it.

[Rudy] All right, we got
the bird at our six. Here we go!

-You see the buoy?
-Yes.

Twelve o’clock. Go!

[Gus] I tend to set my sights
on something

and then get tunnel vision
where that’s all I focus on.

l just, like, get
this kind of tractor vision.

[Rudy] Let’s go, 10!

Come on, come on!

Go, go, go!

Hand over, hand over, hand over!

Jeez, he’s swinging.

You’re almost there!

Finish strong!

[Foxy] We’re in the final stages
of selection.

This task is hard,
but they are serious contenders

if they can show us
they can pass.

You were like a sewer rat
up a drainpipe.

Thank you, staff.

I was half expecting you

to do some stupid backflip
out the helicopter.

I’ve learned my lesson, staff.

-Good effort. Go on.
-Thank you, staff.

-There, buddy.
- Thank you, thank you.

-You killed it, Gus.
- [Dwight] That was good.

l mean, that is
a cheeky, cheeky task.

I mean, two obvious passes.
The rest were fails.

-But what about you, mate?
-[Billy] Number 10.

Lots of effort,
but he made it look easy.

It was all arms, bang, bang,
bang, bang, straight up.

-How was his ego when he got in?
- [Billy] No ego.

-Cool. Perfect.
- [Billy] Eight, um...

She went at it,
and it was a good effort.

-It really was a good effort.
-[Remi] Very good effort.

-Yeah.
- [Billy] Really good.

She went further than 13.

13 gets out the water, and he
walks that path the entire time.

I told him, run.

[Rudy] No intensity, no nothing.

[Remi] He shuffled, OK?

Like, does he want to actually

succeed at this whole thing?

[Billy] He’s just
on borrowed time now.

[Rudy] Let’s see
how much he has left.

All right, get your Bergens on.
Get ready to move.

On me!

Buddy, buddy.

I was gonna try it, but...

I feel you, brother.

[Dwight groans]

That was exhausting.

I’m dead. How do you feel?

-Donezo.
- [laughs]

I don’t think I’ve ever felt
this exhausted in my life.

[Dwight] It was squeezing
the air out of us.

During selection, the course
only gets faster and harder.

The body will get exhausted.
lt will say "Quit."

[Rudy] What we’re looking for
in the recruits is a mindset

that can quiet the voices
and accomplish the mission.

Where you at, 13?

[Dwight] Oh, man.

[Rudy] Right this way, 13.

Sit.

[door bangs shut]

So, why we’re bringing you
in here now

is because we feel like
there’s been

somewhat of a regression
in the performance.

I’ve noticed it even in running
to and from tasks.

It just seems like
you’re not all there.

It seems like you’re not all in.

Um...

I just didn’t have enough energy
to go faster.

My... I ain’t got no excuses.

[Remi] Commitment, staying
committed to the process,

seems to be something
that’s a challenge for you.

Has that ever been said
to you before,

you are not committed,
you don’t commit?

-No.
- You’ve not?

Maybe in a relationship,

like a girlfriend or something.

So let’s back up for a second,

’cause I wanna try
and get to the bottom

of this whole commitment thing.

l’m gonna ask
some personal questions

so we can help each other
figure this thing out together.

What was your relationship like
with your dad?

Uh, my dad was a cop,
so he was always on the go.

lt was hard
to really talk to him.

l wouldn’t say
that he wasn’t a role model,

but he was just always working
or doing other things, so...

-Now you’ve been a parent.
-Mm-hm.

Have you taken anything
from the way your father was

to the way you’ve committed
to your relationships now?

Oh, yes. Um, I try
to do everything for my kids.

l just try to be
a great role model to them.

Uh, I don’t try to go out
and do stuff for show.

l want them to be
exactly who they are, you know,

’cause I wasn’t able to do that
with my family, even now.

l don’t really trust
my family... my parents,

’cause it’s like they always
judge me, you know, so...

Why do you feel they judge you?
What do you mean, judge?

Because I...

All right, so, being in the NBA,

we’re around a lot of different
things, you know, so...

l grew up
with a Christian background,

so me having women
around me a lot,

they don’t like that.

Me chilling with my homeboys,
they judge me for that.

But it’s like I tell them,

man, I been doing my job
for 18 years,

I been consistently having a job
for 18 years.

[Remi] I know sometimes
it may seem like

we’re treating you
like the bad guy,

but it’s because we know
that there’s more in you.

And we’re trying
to pull that more out of you.

You haven’t got
a lot of time left

to really smash out who you are.

You’re gonna get
a lot out of this

if you start to show that more
effort, that more commitment.

lf this is
what you guys are saying,

then I’ll just do...
l’ll do better.

Head up, in the game.

Understood.

Guard!

[Dwight] I’m not gonna run
from the challenge.

I’m looking forward
to at the end of this,

no matter what happens, of being
a better version for myself.

All right, 13, fall in with
your brothers and your sisters
in there. Let’s go.

-How was it?
- Oh, tough.

Tough, tough, tough.
Tough. But I needed it.

I’m glad they talked to me.

What temp
does that thermometer say?

It says... 90... 95.

Oh, wow.
Winter storm warnings in effect.

-[laughter]
- [Dwight] Huh.

-Number 10!
- Yes, staff!

Come here!

-[Hannah] Do you need help?
-[Gus] I don’t know.

[narrator] On the last task,
Number 10, Gus Kenworthy,

mislaid his armband...

-[Gus] Thank you, Carli.
-Twenty seconds!

...and is due a DS punishment.

You better hurry up, Number 10,
or everybody’s joining you.

[Carli] Here.

[Remi] Ten seconds!

-Do you know what time it is?
- Time to pay the man, sir.

Exactly. OK. Why?

For not keeping track
of my... possessions, staff.

lf you don’t take care
of that gear and you need it,

you’re screwed and you will
compromise your entire team.

All right, go get wet and
completely sandy head to toe.

Yes, staff.

Let’s go. Hurry up.
Get completely sandy.

Face, hair, back.

Use your hands to put the sand
in your face and in your hair.

OK, report back on the rock.

-OK, now 20 burpees.
-[exhales]

[Remi] Count out.

[Gus] Two...

l’m pretty good
at compartmentalizing.

I’ve had tons of injuries
and surgeries...

-13!
- Louder.

14!

l’ve had to compete
through pain for years,

and it’s something that I’m able
to shift my focus away from

to deal with the task at hand.

20!

Why is your number important?

It’s my identification, staff.

Something happens to you,

we gotta be able to tell Mommy
that you indeed died.

-Yes, staff.
- All right?

It is currently 3:25.

You will stay wet and sandy
until 4:25.

-You understand?
-Yes, staff.

You think
that’s a fair punishment?

Be honest.

l think
it’s a more severe punishment
than other people have gotten,

but also we’re further along
on the journey, so...

-Exactly.
- Make an example of me.

-I understand.
- Yeah. So you know what?

l like that you were honest,
so instead of it being an hour,

it’ll be 30 minutes.

-Yes, staff.
- All right. Good to go.

Thank you.

[coughs]

[coughs]

-[bleep]
- [coughing continues]

[Carli] Is he OK?

You all right? Hmm?

I got this horrible feeling
in my chest.

[coughs]

[bleep]

[coughs]

-[Remi] You all right?
-[coughs]

-What happened?
-[coughs]

[Carli] His chest.

[Remi]
He needs to see the doctor.

[coughs]

[narrator] Number 10,
Gus Kenworthy, is unwell,

and his condition is worsening.

-You got an emergency patient.
-[medic] OK.

[Remi] Hey, Number 10,
come here!

[medic] What’s up?

l feel like something’s
in my throat or in my lungs.

OK.

So, what, it’s like tight throat
or tight stomach?

[narrator] Right now,
the medic is unclear

what’s caused the reaction.

I know you’re allergic
to bee stings.

It kind of feels like that.

-Allergic reaction?
-Yeah.

But he needs to act fast.

l’m gonna give you
a bit of a shot of adrenaline.

Gonna need to give this to you
in the thigh.

Did you see
what happened to Gus?

He just ran
into the doctor’s office.

-Something’s in his throat.
-[bleep]

[Danny] He was distraught
walking in.

-My heart’s pounding.
- [medic] It’s OK. There you go.

No, something’s...
something’s not right.

Can you just bring the drips
down round this side, please?

There you go.
That’s what it was. Don’t worry.

[narrator] The cause of Number
10’s condition is unknown.

But he has suffered
a life-threatening
anaphylactic reaction.

-Feel better now it’s out?
-No.

I feel like my body’s shaking.

[medic]
Um, what I’m gonna need, Remi,

is I’m gonna need
an ambulance transfer,

’cause we’ve got a risk
of rebound anaphylaxis.

OK.

We do need to take you
to hospital after anaphylaxis.

[narrator] Gus Kenworthy
is being medically withdrawn.

He is the 12th recruit
to leave the course.

Now just four remain.

[Foxy] On this course,
you can be smashing it,

nailing all
the physical challenges,

being on top
of your mental robustness,

but sometimes things
are just out of your control.

God, I wonder
what’s going on with Gus.

-Hopefully he’s all good.
-[Hannah] Yeah.

-He’s really sweet.
-I know.

[narrator]
News of the medical withdrawal

has reached the others.

Come next door
into the canteen area.

The DS decide it’s time
for the recruits

to face the harsh reality

of a career
in the special forces.

Grab a seat. Sit down.
Pin your ears back.

Life in special operations
is dangerous.

We’re expected to go away
at the drop of a hat
to far-flung places,

we’re not allowed
to tell our loved ones,
our friends and family,

where we’re going
or how long for,

and ultimately we are engaging
in combat, in war fighting.

And because of that
we have to write

what can be best described
as a death letter.

So it’s basically
your opportunity to put on paper

what you want to say
when you don’t come home.

We get the recruits
to write death letters

because it’s important
for them to realize

the world
that we’ve come from.

lf the worst is to happen,
you are leaving people behind.

-13.
- Yes, sir.

- Are you finished?
-No, staff.

l got five kids,
so I’m only on my fourth one.

-Finish that off.
-Yes, staff.

Then what I want you to do,

l want you to read
your letters out to each other.

Yes, staff.

What he want us to do
is read the letters out loud.

[Danny]
What if you don’t wanna read it?

It’s gonna be difficult,
but he said you have to.

-[Danny] Let’s rip.
-Are we ready?

"To my family,
my mom, Matt, and Dad.

Our time together
meant the most to me

in this whole
earthly experience.

All of you were there
when I showed up in this world.

Sadly you will still... Sadly
you’re still here while I leave.

[sniffs]

l love you. Thank you
for giving me your heart.

As you know, you have mine."

Oh, [bleep]. Ah! It’s so hard.

[Danny]
"To my mom, Matt, and Dad.

[clears throat]

[sniffs] I love you.

l’ll be with our fallen
family members in heaven,

and will be watching over you."

Oh! It’s so hard.

"Mom, if you are reading this,
l did not make it.

I know that we always didn’t see
eye to eye when I... growing up,

but I want you to know

that you are the best mom
I could have ever asked for,

and I wouldn’t be who I am
without you.

I love you."

[Carli]
When I made that decision

to 100% commit to soccer,

that meant sacrificing time
with my family.

"Dad, I’ve always been
a daddy’s little girl.

l feel that...
I feel like I hurt you the most.

I know we can’t get back
those times we lost.

lf you’d died,
I would have had...

the most regret ever
in my whole life."

Not speaking to my family
for 12 years,

um, it came with costs.

-[Danny] Thank you.
-[sniffs]

Thank you.

[Hannah]
"Writing this letter is hard.

For those who read it,
I know it’s harder.

Mom, Dad, I love you so much.

Please don’t let
being without me break you.

Live bigger for me."

Every insecurity
that I’ve had, like,

has been, like, put out
for others to see

and to just prey on,

but the only thing
that really matters

is what people who
actually know me say about me.

"I can’t begin to adequately
express how grateful I am

for all the love
I have experienced in my life."

My parents love me,
and that’s what’s important.

"You made sure I had a life
that was so complete.

Wherever I am, I feel your love.

Wherever you are,
you feel mine."

[groans]

[sniffs]

[sniffs] "Uh, dear family.

If you’re reading this letter,

this means
that I have passed away,

and I wish I had
one opportunity...

one more opportunity
to smell, see, touch

and tell you guys
how much I love you."

[sniffs]

Take your time, brother.

"First to my children. You have
no idea how much I love you.

And I wish I was given
the opportunity

to show you how much I care."

[Dwight] I have five children.

l think that my kids
are the biggest blessings

that I could ever have.

"You are so amazing
and precious and beautiful.

You inspire me, motivate me,

and you have my whole heart."

[sobs]

I love them more than anything,
I would die for them,

and I think
they’re the most beautiful,
precious things on Earth.

"I love all my children
and I wanna see you again.

I want you to all have my spirit
and never give up,

no retreat, no surrender,
and I love you."

That was awesome.

[Foxy] Reflecting
on your mortality is hard,

but opening up and sharing
emotion with your team,

it creates trust, breeds it,

which is essential
on the battlefield.

Man, we got
group therapy tonight.

[laughs]

l might get a new tat
that represent all of us.

I’d put y’all faces
on my damn back.

[laughs]

[Carli] Seriously,
it’s like self-therapy.

[Hannah] Good night, y’all.
Love ya.

[all] Night. Love you too.

[Hannah] I mean,
people have made it to the end,
so why can’t we?

-[narrator] Next time...
-Just exhale.

[Remi]
This is your introduction...

[Billy] Go!

...into not being able
to breathe.

[Billy] You muppet!

-Now it’s all about survival.
-[Rudy yells]

[Foxy] They’ll never be sleeping
in those beds again.

[Remi] Let’s go, go! Now, now!

Stay calm.

Turn your lights off.

[Hannah]
I can’t tell where we are.

What the hell are they doing?

[Rudy] They’re closing on ’em.

[Carli] You all right?

[Billy]
They are in a world of pain.