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Hands by your side. Sit.

For the select few,
this process might make them,

but for the majority
of these celebrities...

Guards!

...it will completely break them.

Hands. Walk.

Move! Incoming, let's go!

In this series...

Squeeze it in!
..16 celebrity recruits...

Crawl! Zip it!

...will leave their glamorous
lives behind.

Lay down on the ground!

Get in there!

They will be put through
the most gruelling stages

of SAS selection...

Down!

...by an elite team
of ex-special forces soldiers.

Honesty, integrity, trust -

everything we've installed
in you from day one.

Everything!

No allowances or exceptions
will be made.

Get on your stomach!

I'm not scared of getting dirty,

but I'm going to have
to change these.

I can just about open my car door.

Go! Wow, wow, wow! Whoa, whoa!

My mum does not want me to do this.

She's scared
I'm going to get injured.

I think she's really
not looking forward to that.

Get into it!

I've seen pressure...

I need support now!

...so what I'm going to face
on this course

is water off a duck's back.

Take him down!

Ow! Like an injured slug.

Lift up your boat!

No other test asks as much...

Ah! Ah! Ah!
You've got it. Let's go.

Well done, Zo-Zo.

...or means as much...

HE SOBS

Well done.
..to the few who make it through.

Welcome to your worst nightmare.

Oh, my God, the sun.

Of the 16 celebrity recruits
who began...

The sun is out.

...just 12 remain.

Give me that sun, please.
I'm soaked.

It's going to be sunny today,

so for those of us who need it,
suntan lotion.

I will definitely need it.

Today's going to be a hard day.

It feels so nice.

You won't be saying that after
about ten minutes of walking in it.

Get on parade!

Let's do it. Let's go. Let's go.

After four days of rain,
the weather has taken a turn,

with the temperature
already over 40 degrees.

It is hot!

SHE EXHALES SHARPLY
This heat is brutal.

I don't care whether you want water.
Everybody down water, OK?

ALL: Yes, staff.

When you're working alongside
comrades on the battlefield,

it is absolutely paramount.

You trust that person
with your life.

We're all on the same page,
we've all got the same focus.

That's what we're trying
to put into your head.

Honesty, integrity, trust, belief -
it all wraps into one.

What I'm going to do now is
put you into two teams.

Team Alpha, Number 9, team leader,
put your hand up.

HE CHUCKLES
The one you got. Good lad.

Come to the front, number 5,

Number 2, 8, 6, and 1.

You're in Team Alpha.

Team Bravo, team leader is 14.

3,13,10, 7, 11.

Look around. That's your team.

Go!

Stay in formation! Let's go!

In the Special Forces,
we are just a group of individuals

that can work together
very well as a team.

In here.

It is so important
to understand everyone's strengths

and weaknesses.

You have to work together
as a strong unit

because ultimately,

when you're on a mission
and chaos is reigning all around,

you have to be able to trust
your team-mates to get a job done.

I want two ranks in front of me.

Not files.
You're in files, I want ranks.

Cos if you don't,
people will end up dying.

This task is all about resupply.

It's about moving equipment
over difficult terrain

to a point that requires it.

We have all been involved
in these sort of operations.

You've got to dig deep
cos it's hard work.

You have got a minute
to chat through

what your preferred method
of moving this shit is.

Go.

Test the weight of them tins.

INDISTINCT CHATTER

In one of the most
physically demanding tasks yet,

both teams will go
head-to-head in a race

to move 200kg of equipment over 6km.

That will be two-man. Two-man.

Team Alpha is led by Number 9,

ex-RAF technician and Paralympian
Jon-Allan Butterworth.

That's full of sand.

Full of sand. That'll be two people.

Back when I was in the RAF,

I definitely kind
of learnt some leadership skills.

I think if people
are generally struggling

I'LL be the first one
to help anybody.

Can the box be opened? Yes.

Can you put something in it?

You know, I'll want to volunteer

to kind of carry the most weight
or do what I can

to help best
for the good of the team.

Right, let's move. Let's go.

Move. Move. Roll the tyres.
Roll them.

Speed is of the essence.

We come back for the boxes. Yeah.

We move forward,
come back for the boxes.

Can you run in that? Yeah.
Go and run.

Team Bravo is led by Number 14,
singer Siva Kaneswaran.

I'm not a great problem-solver...
HE LAUGHS

...which is not great for this.

Leave them here for now,

and we'll go back for
the rest of the stuff.

OK. Yes? Go.

I live a very peaceful life.

I chill out at home,

I've got my missus
and my two little cute dogs,

and it's a very comfortable life.

Go. Go.

So, I don't create problems
to solve them.

Teddy, get ahead. Get ahead, Teddy.

Let's not have too much separation
within your teams.

Which way? Go... On me, on me.

HE GRUNTS

Come on. Move!

Let's go! Move yourself!

In an attempt to get ahead,
Number 14, Siva...

Come on now.
Really, really dig deep.

...has left team-mates Number 7,
Gareth Gates,

and Number 13, Zoe Lyons, behind.

Hurry up!

Team Bravo,
we need help at the back.

Bravo!

Fuck's sake.

You're pulling ahead, Alpha!

I said next way point.

Under Number 9
Jon-Allan's leadership,

Team Alpha move into the lead.

Good effort.

Keep pushing up.

Come on, Alpha!

Right, push forward.

I think I can be as good
as most people in a lot of things,

and a lot of time, better.

Keep going.

I do feel like every challenge
can be solved.

Things like Ikea and all it says
two people, four hands,

and I manage to do it with one hand,

and it's just because
it's use your head,

use anything you can that
you've got.

Good. Good work.

Let's go.

Ready to go again?

Let's do this. Come on.
Come on. This is it.

HE GRUNTS

When you're carrying heavy equipment
to the front line,

it is brutal.

You can feel the
sun beating down on you

and you can feel the energy
being sapped from your body.

This ain't Supermarket Sweep.
Let's go!

You've got to keep pushing on,
no matter how exhausted you are,

because ultimately
everyone's lives are in your hands.

Get in there, Alpha!

You need to be
able to trust your leader

to keep that team moving,

as they have to trust you
to get the job done.

Bravo, you're miles behind.

Start commanding this team,
Number 14.

You've got no system in place,
and yous are like a bag of shit.

One, two, three, go.

Come on now.
Take it easy. Take it easy.

Despite Number 7, Gareth,
and Number 13, Zoe, catching up...

Let's work a system
and let's close these gaps.

...Team Bravo are still behind.

Get a grip of this team.
You're in charge.

Teddy!

You do not want
to be the last team.

Ready? Come on. Let's go.

One... Hold on. ..two, three.
Deep breaths, Siva. Deep breaths.

Let's go.

We have to catch that box.
It's got to be like a conveyor belt.

Love Island was, you know,
a romantic holiday.

It's completely different

to what I'm going to be putting
myself through in this course.

The whole reason why
I'm doing this is to finally

put to rest the need for validation.

I really do need a reset.

I really need to kind
of find myself again.

One of the heavy ones, Siva.
Do not touch that light can.

Three, two, one, go!

Let's go, Siva.
You've got it in you.

HE GRUNTS LOUDLY

Hurry up! Come on, Alpha!

We're going to win this!
Let's not lose it now!

Jermaine. Head up.

That's it, 5.

Being a footballer, you know,

you get put through
intense training,

but this...it's on
a different scale.

I have no idea
what I'm letting myself in for...

...and that's scary.

Come on, 10! Come on, mate!

Number 9, Jon-Allan,

leads Team Alpha
to the drop zone first.

On top of the tyres.
On top of the tyres.

Argh!

Get some water. Water. Water now.

Get water inside them.

Ah!

Let your lungs heave in and out.

Good effort. Good effort.

We're almost up the hill.

Block out the pain
and let's get it up there.

Right to the top, mate.
The very top, come on.

SHE PANTS

Two minutes later, Team Bravo arrive.

Stand up. Get some water on.

After one hour,

with temperatures
reaching 42 degrees,

the recruits think the task is over.

Be prepared to go again.

Right, to the next DS
as quick as you can. Go! Go!

Let's move!

In the second phase of the task...

Get the kit in the boat and
get across to the left-hand bank.

...the recruits must now race
across a lake.

Bergens in the middle. Bergens at the
back. Bergens in the back at the middle.

Let's go.

OK, two on each side.

That's fine.

Here we go. Come on. Off, off, off!
Come on! That's it. Nice and quick.

| thought I did pretty well
in Pop Idol, made the final,

but I stumbled on
the last hurdle, unfortunately.

I'll go. I'll go. I'll go.

I found that hard,

and so my main drive for this
is to prove to the British public

that I am a winner.

Right, come on. We're going again.

This is not Weekend At Bernie's!
Push left!

TEAM-MATES: One, two...

Team Alpha are the first
to arrive at the bank.

Get the boat and everything
out the water. Follow me.

One, two, three, go.

Come on. Come on. That's it.

Team Bravo follow closely behind.

Right, we're not going to get
through these trees. On the side.

Both teams must now carry
their 80kg boat

half a kilometre to the finish line.

Go! Ready?

Come on, up!

One, two. One, two.
We can get past them now.

Team Alpha, lead by
recruit Number 9, Jon-Allan,

battle their way to the front.

They're getting away! Go!

That's it. World-class.

Are you happy with where you are?

Guys, stop. Stop.

Guys, this isn't working!
What the fuck are we doing?

Swap with me, Siva.
Swap with me. Get at the back.

At the back!

Right. Come on, guys.
Siva, hurry up.

Can he not do the front?

No, because he's struggling
at the front.

Can you not, and I go here?
Three, two, one, off we go!

March forward!

With Number 14, Siva, struggling,

Number 7, Gareth,
takes over as leader.

March forward. One, two. One, two.

It takes a lot for me
to lose my temper.

However, sometimes that helps
my speech impediment.

One, two. Come on now.

If I'm really pushed to my limits,

I seem to then be able
to speak fluently

through shouting at people.

One, two. One, two. One, two.

Hopefully they'll push me
to my limits.

Let's go!

Slide! Slide!

Team Alpha...

Put it down.

...are the first to reach
the finish line, winning the task.

Stand up and look proud.

Look what we've fucking done.

All the way in.
Do not drop that boat again.

Team Bravo finish
three minutes behind.

THEY PANT

Take some breaths, get focused.

Bergens on,
two ranks in front of me.

This day is long, long from over.

Let's go. Team Alpha, on me.

Team Bravo, follow on.

Pain is temporary,
pride is forever. Stay tight, 2.

Get up to your accommodations.

Come on, then. Let's catch up.
Get up there.

Having pushed themselves
to their limits...

That was tough.

...the 12 remaining recruits
must now recover.

That was a be a sting.

Ohh! Fuck!

Honestly, that's the hardest thing
I ever done in my life.

Jermaine, are you OK?

I'm just fucked, bro.

Guys, I need a bit of help.

Are you overheating? I think
you need some water over your head.

Get a medic now. What's hurting you?

Everything. Everything.

My arm, can't pick it up.

Leg, I can't pick it up.
I'm fucking hot.

Deep breaths.

In through your nose,
out through your mouth.

The medic has been called for
Number 9, Jon-Allan.

Just don't move.
where's Number 97 Number 9's here.

I'd like you guys to move away.

All right, Number 9.
Feeling dizzy, light-headed?

Have you passed out at all,
Number 97

No. OK. Stayed with it.

What we're going to do, we're going
to cool you down, OK? Yes.

Let's get him some sugar.
His eyes are going.

Do you need a doctor, mate?

I feel like we need a medic. Medic!

Also suffering is Number 5,
Jermaine...

I want you on the floor, OK?

I've got you. Now lie yourself down.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Doctor, we've got a problem
down here as well.

...and Number 14, Siva.

Come down, come down.
We've got a problem.

We went too hard.

Slowly. Nice and slowly.

We've got three coming down
with severe heat injury.

OK. Breathe. Just to cool you down.

HE TAKES DEEP BREATHS

That was a wipe-out,
that round, wasn't it?

That was harsh.

So, 5, 9, and 14,

they're going to have to go
to hospital,

get their bloods checked.

We've literally lost three
of our fucking strongest people.

Listen, that is part
of the game, innit?

We all got beasted,
everyone got beasted,

but if you end up ill, then...

You can't carry on
if you're ill, can you?

Following the ammo resupply task,
Number 5, Jermaine,

Number 9, Jon-Allan,
and Number 14, Siva,

have been medically withdrawn
from the course.

Oh, can't believe it.
Number 9, yeah. God.

It's time to step up now, Ted.

This is the time to step up.

This is it, man.
This is where it turns on its head.

Feel like my feet have been broken.
Hmm?

Feel like the tops of my feet have
been smashed with a baseball bat.

Right, so, this morning was
the ammo resupply and bulk carry.

With nine recruits now remaining,
the DS meet to discuss today's task.

To be honest, that was abysmal.

Yeah.

Fucking morning of PT and
everything's gone to shit, innit?

Obviously, we came back to camp
and then we had Number 5,

Number 9, and Number 14
all medical withdrew

from the course.

Over to you, Foxy.

Yeah, briefed the teams up,

left up the fucking way
they were going to do it,

the tactics behind how they were
going to move the kit

completely up to them,
and then they cracked on.

Quite frankly, from the get-go,

Team Alpha were leaps
and bounds ahead of Team Bravo.

HE CHUCKLES

I was going to say
under the command of 14,

but let's say under
the lack of command from 14,

it fell to
an absolute shower of shite.

Number 7,
he took control of the situation,

and he did get a grip of them
as they approached the hill

underneath the temple
and they've closed the gap,

but they were miles behind
from the other team, to be honest.

Number 7, his name is popping up...

Yeah. ..on every one
of our radars now.

He's really coming along,
all for the right things.

That's right. He really is.

He's all ears. He wants to learn.

Yeah, I think he's here
for the right reasons.

Worth a chat tonight, you think?
Yeah, definitely. Yeah.

Shall we bring him in?

SING-SONGY: I am losing my mind
in this accommodation.

I feel like
we're all going delirious.

We're all going a bit...

We're all losing
our fucking marbles.

Recruit Number 7!

Oh. Number 7. Number 7.

Jesus, what's happening?

Sugar.

Right over here, 7.

Hands by your side.

Sit.

How are you feeling?

Um...

Um...

I mean, I'm battered
and bruised everywhere,

my feet are really, really sore,

but it's all part of it, I guess.

Is it as tough as you thought?

Oh, it's much, much harder.

You've been quite quiet,
almost a grey man,

but I'm seeing a change,

and then watching you confidently
go about your business...

Yep. ..it was impressive to see.

Just tell us a little bit about
yourself. I don't know a lot about you.

I'm from, um, uh,
Bradford in Yorkshire.

I know Bradford.

For me, um, um, um, um...

...growing up was hard.

Um... Uh...

What, family life, you mean?

No, at school.

You know, having a stammer,
school was hard.

HE SNIFFLES

Come on. Oh, God.

Just...

...um, verbally abused, physically...

Oh, come on.

During your school days?

Yeah, just lads kind of...

HE EXHALES SHARPLY

Honest, I don't do this.

Lads just holding me down
and just, you know,

kind of shouting out things,
you know,

"Let's...
Let's beat the words out of him."

And, um...

Uh...

I think that's why I'm here,

to kind of show myself this time
that I'm stronger

and, um...and that I'm not...

...hopefully this time,
I won't break.

I think that's why I'm here.

Well, you know,
from what you're saying,

you know,
it's made you who you are today.

Yeah.

How...?

How did you pick yourself up
to then put yourself forward

for the TV show?

Mum actually forced me to do it.

You know, she kind of saw that
I had a voice and was like,

"Look, son, you know,
you need to, you know,

"from somewhere find
the courage, you know,

"to kind of force yourself
into that situation,” and...

Thank God for your mother,
pushing you into that.

Yeah, I'm thankful
that she did that,

because, you know,
there's lots of other people I know

that had the same issue as me
but don't find their outlet.

And I think, you know,
it's the same with the gym now.

You know, I go to the gym

because the frustration

that I live with every day,

if I'm not going
to get my words out,

you know...

...I then thrash it out in the gym,

and that kind of keeps my mind set.

Gives you focus.
Yeah. Yeah. In the right place.

You're capable. That's the truth.

Don't fucking have any doubts
in your mind.

No.

If I'm honest,
you're quite close to front running,

so you've got potential.

You've got a good fucking chance.
Yeah.

So, hang in there.

The longer you're here,

the better you'll feel
and get out of this. Sure.

We're just going
to turn up the heat.

I'm...

The last thing I want to do
is kind of, um, give up.

Guard!

Stand.

The bullying at school,

you know,
became just unbearably bad.

That was short and sweet.

Yeah, just a little chat
about how I'm finding things,

and that's it.

Oh, God.

I've got those, you know, kind of
horrendous scars there still.

HE EXHALES SHARPLY

I think if
I can get through this course,

it would just prove
to myself that I am strong.

HE WHISTLES

And I really, really want to feel
I've grown, and I've learned,

and I can handle anything.

No, I don't prefer Will Young.

I love Gareth as well,
but I'm a big Will Young fan.

But you don't need
to compare the two.

There's no comparison.
Gareth's better.

HE LAUGHS
Chalk and cheese.

I second that.

I can't even think about... Bleugh.
I can't even talk.

Worse than me?

THEY LAUGH

You got that out quickly.

THEY LAUGH

Having tested the recruits as a team,
for the next part of the Trust phase,

the DS want to focus
on them individually.

The brief was all about trust,

so let's just do a basic
sort of integrity test.

Yeah. Yeah.

And obviously the emphasis
being on them giving 100% -

trust, integrity, honesty,
all the ethos that we abide by.

That's a good shout.

I do actually miss home now.

I wasn't really thinking about it
at the start.

I'd definitely have a glass
of champagne now, I would.

Oh, my God. Amazing.

A nice cheese butty
with Branston pickle.

Cheese butty.

SHE SIGHS

Everybody on parade in fatigues!

Fucking run!

So, what we're going to do next
is a physical assessment.

So, it's a combat
physical assessment.

It's timed so we can gauge
where you are all at

in relation to each other.

Is everyone understood so far?

ALL: Yes, staff.

Right, dress back into your comm
until you're called forward.

Go.

The timed circuit is composed
of six exercises

in six different locations.

Number 6, stand by.

Go!

The recruits must complete
20 reps at each station.

Crunches next.

Let's go!

Big effort.

Fucking move on.

Two of the positions are
out of vision of the DS,

but what the recruits don't know is
that they are being secretly filmed

to test their trustworthiness.

Trust is paramount
for special forces mission success.

Whenever we are suffering through,

what makes us strong
is that we suffer together.

If we cut corners,

that destroys the ethos
of everything that we stand for.

Come on. Smash it out the park.

Without that honesty
and integrity, without that trust,

there's nothing.

Go!

Next up is Number 1, Matt Hancock.

The thing about politics

is you are criticised
in public a lot.

Come on, Number 1. Smash it out.

I've had my integrity attacked

on grounds that are totally
unreasonable,

probably more than is fair.

Get your backside down.
Get your big, fat arse down.

So, if I'm not trusted,
I find that frustrating,

cos I've always tried to do my best.

All the way, Number 1. All the way.

17,18, 19.

HE PANTS

Right, stand by, Number 3.

Next to take on
the circuit is Number 3,

Teddy Soares.

Go!

I've kind of grown up with the need

to constantly question my...

...almost my self-worth.

Next station. Squats.

It goes hand in hand
with the expectation to win.

If I lost, like, at district sports,
I was upset. I was devastated.

Everything you got.

The competitive nature in me
kind of allows me to understand,

"All right, I'm a little bit
of a sore loser.

"I don't like losing."

All the way. Big push.

Run, Number 3.

That's a good effort.

HE PANTS

I find it hard to believe
she did 40. That was motoring.

Them fucking top jumps
were the hardest thing.

I'm surprised there was no-one
there watching us doing each one.

Right, listen in, course.

You've got three minutes
to get some water down you,

we'll go again.

You've got to beat the time
you did the first time.

Oh, God.

Dig deep everyone. Dig fucking deep.

Stand by.

Go!

Already fatigued
by the first round...

Max effort, 7.

Smash it out.

...the recruits must complete
the circuit again.

My biggest inspiration
in life is my mum.

She's a very, very strong woman.
A very honest person.

Everything you've got.

Her work ethic is I think
why I work so hard now,

and you know, always wanting
to achieve more and be more.

Go on, 7. All the way.

Five. Good effort. Come on.

Get it, 20 reps.

I'm healthy, I'm fit,
I go to the gym, I play sports,

but I'm not used to pushing myself
to my absolute limit.

I never do it.

Let's go, 8.

I like to just stay within my remit
and what I feel comfortable doing,

and I also like doing things
I know that I'm good at.

And I won't do things
that I know I'm not good at

cos I don't like failing.

Finish strong.

Come on, Number 6.

On this course, as an athlete,
my type of training

that I've done in the past
will help me.

I've trained through pain.

I feel like I've done
the hardest event.

I'm kind of a "get on with it,
let's get stuck in" kind of girl.

Well done.

Well done, everyone.

I didn't think I'd be able
to do that. I bashed my...

I bashed myself again.

Those burpees, fucking hell.

HE EXHALES SLOWLY

Let's have a look. One...

...two...

Following the task,
the DS review the hidden footage...

...SiX...

...seven...

...to check the recruits
have completed every repetition.

.Ten. Ten. Ten and a half.

And you know what's interesting?
Yeah?

He was a stand-out on the reps
where he could be seen.

That's not a tired miscount, right?

No.

Let's have a look.
What else have we got?

Oh, my God. Who's this?

I'll count.

One. Two-ish.

Nine.

Ten. 11.
CONTESTANT COUNTS ON FOOTAGE

She's even counting them.
Hang on a minute. Do you hear that?

So, less than half
and a complete verbal bluff.

That's fucking bad.

They're going to get dragged
in now and fucking exposed to this.

Yeah. Let's do it.

Imagine if you'd been asked
to do that on, like, day two.

No way.
You never would have got there.

You would have been like,
"Fuck this."

What a day.

Number 8, on the double.
Foot on the gas. Let's go.

Having reviewed the footage,

the DS want to confront two recruits
who cheated on the task.

Sit.

I'm going to show you something
and I want you to explain.

Just explain how many reps
you were asked to do

on the circuit this morning. 20.

Count out loud how many physical
exercises you count.

WHISPERS: Three, four... Out loud.

Four.

Ten.

11.

You think we're two idiots?

No, staff.

Can you be trusted? Yes, staff.

Bullshit. Bullshit.

Yeah, I didn't do it
to the best of my ability,

and I didn't listen to instructions
with the amount we were given.

Why?

Just my body was hurting.

So, you blatantly lied, then.
Is that what you're saying?

Yes, staff.

You've fucking disappointed me,
big style.

Sorry, staff.

Sit.

What is the ethos
we're smashing home here?

Believe in yourself

and trust in your judgment
and your instincts.

Absolutely.
I'm going to show you something.

Eight.

Nine.

You have just sat in front of me,

regurgitated everything
we've fucking instilled in you

from day one! Everything!

How fucking dare you!

Go on, explain it.

I-1-1... Explain it.

I just... I fucked up. I thought...

No shit, Sherlock.

I genuinely thought
I did all the reps.

I sound like a fucking parrot,
we all do.

Trust -

how fucking important
that is in our world.

I am shit when I'm counting reps.

Bullshit. Guard!

I am. I am.

Everyone on parade.

You all right? Yeah.

Stand still.

I told you right from the word go,
we don't care where you came from,

we don't care who follows you,

we don't care who blows smoke
up your arse.

I asked 100%.

Remember?

ALL: Yes, staff. All the time.

Number 3, stand out here and face.

Number 8, stand out here and face.

Explain to everybody

why I've just had
to regurgitate day one.

I didn't finish the burpees,

and I may have been short as well
on the tuck jumps.

Tell them what you did.

You cheated. You lied.

I miscounted
with my breathing being crap.

Fuck off, Number 3.
Stop. Just stop right there.

Own it. Just own it.

That's what happened.
This is how we grow.

Don't fucking argue with me.
This is how you grow.

In your words, Number 8.

I let you guys down.

I also fell short on the burpees
and the tuck jumps.

We all make mistakes,
but be accountable.

Stop bullshitting.

So, I start...
This is not our world.

Shut up.

You've said your fucking piece.

Number 3, Number 8, follow me.

Go. Disappear.

As Number 3, Teddy,
refuses to accept responsibility...

Number 3, dress in,
up to your neck.

Number 8, same detail.

...both he and Montana
will be punished.

Just walk in until
it's up to your neck.

Stand up.

When I say "go,"
out the parade square,

up to your room.

Go!

Didn't I say they're watching us?
Of course they were.

There's no way
you can cheat on that.

Even if we weren't being filmed,
we should have done it. 100%.

I wondered how Montana was getting
round the course so quick.

HE LAUGHS
She was rapid!

And this is why they're talking
about trust, honesty, integrity.

Trust, that's right.

And they want to instil shame.

It's embarrassing. It's humiliating.

Number 3, Teddy,
and Number 8, Montana,

are being punished for cheating
on the previous task.

All right, 8, 3, on me.

Stand here.

We have a saying in recon.

Shame retains,
so take this on board,

learn from it, right?

Thank you. Come on over here.

Hi, guys.

Sorry, guys.

Sorry about that.
Absolutely sorry about that.

I thought you'd lost your head
cos you kept talking back.

I couldn't even back-chat.
I was just like, "I've messed up."

How short were you, out of interest?

Mine was 11.

HE LAUGHS
I got to nine.

That's fucking
taking the piss, bruv!

Yeah.

The integrity sigma,
most people were competitive,

they gave it 100%,
but some of them, basically,

they're just not putting in
the effort.

Yeah. Both Number 3 and Number 8,
they were fucking cheating.

Number 8, she owned it,

I'll give her that.

She admitted to it.

Number 3 went down
the route of, "I didn't know.

"I miscounted.” He's bluffing us.

But he's still here,
by the skin of his teeth.

I think we need to find out
where his head's at

and what fucking purpose
he's got of being here.

Yeah. Good to go.
Right, let's roll it.

Number 3!

Number 3. Oh, shit.

Let's go, 3.

Coming, staff.

Right over here, Number 3.

Hands by your side.

Sit.

How do you think it's all going,
Number 37

Tough. Really tough.

I was quite shocked today, actually.

We judge everybody on their 100%.

You're not giving us 100%,
and you know you're not.

You right now should be
fucking flying

right at the front, and you ain't.

Something else is bothering you.

Anyway, tell me something
about yourself.

Go back to growing up.
What was that all about?

How was it?

Um, so,
I'm originally a half-sibling.

I'm a step-son to my mum
who I call my real mum.

My blood mother,
I don't know the true story -

if she gave me up,
she just wasn't bothered with me -

but I was always under
the care of my dad and my step-mum.

And she did amazing
to not make me feel

like an abandoned son.

When I was 13 my dad passed away
with cancer.

My mum made it
so I didn't feel abandoned, at all.

Um, so...

Take a breath.
Get yourself together.

Yeah, and I think
I've always doubted myself

where people have said,

"You're doing a good job.

"Why don't you believe in yourself?"

And I've never really
had an answer.

And then, yeah,
I mean, I went on Love Island,

I come out with a million followers,

and there's loads of people

telling me that I'm a good guy

and this, that, and the other,
and...

Bar one person.

My real mum didn't reach out.

There's no,
"Wow, son, I can see you."

No phone call, no nothing.

And initially, I didn't care.

I thought, "Why would I...?

"Why would I have any contact?" Mm.

She let me go years ago.
I've never heard from her since.

You know,
the time has taken a toll on me.

I've just thought, "Who am I?"

Everyone is just,
"Teddy from Love Island,"

and I just feel lost.

I can see a lot of fucking trauma
and emotion on your face.

You think this uncertainty,
or whatever you want to call it,

comes from not having answers
of growing up?

I think it's because, yeah,

there's...there's...

...there's answers that
my step-mum just can't answer.

Of course.

It's hard, because if you asked me
two, three years ago,

"Do you need any contact
from your own mum?"

I would have told you,
"No, I don't care.

"There's my answer. No." But...

.| think I'm just
sick of not knowing... Mm-hm.

...that part of who I am. Yeah.

Have you reached out to your mum?

No. I just haven't.
I haven't really been brave enough.

And I think it's literally
the only thing

that's stopping me is me.

It's all about having the courage
in your own convictions.

You'll learn that on this course.

You're strong, you're capable -

you just need
to believe it yourself.

That's what you're seeking now.

You've got to now fucking grab
that bull by the horns

and go, "Fuck this, here I go."

Get every fucking second
out of this for you.

Don't waste it.

Yes, staff.

Guard!

Head up.

He needs to go and talk
to his mother.

That's what he wants to do
and he doesn't know how to do it

cos he's scared
of upsetting his step-mother.

But that'd be life-changing for him.
Yeah. I fucking hope so.

Listen up, Number 3.

We don't pull any punches,
and you can take it.

Thank you, staff.

I've always fooled myself
into thinking that I was OK

with the fact that my real mum
wasn't there,

or wanted to be there.

Mark just flings his shit everywhere
and I'm like,

"I refuse to pick it up.”

Try having four boys coming in
with football boots

that have been on Astroturf.

Those black seeds.

Fuck me, my mum used
to go schitz with me for that.

Why wouldn't a mother,
of all people in a family,

not want to stick around?

Why am I not good enough?

That question to me was just
not necessarily processed at all.

I think this course needs
to build up my mental toughness,

my mental resilience.

In the moments where I feel lost,

I'm going to feel like
there is a light

at the end of the tunnel.

HE EXHALES

Next time...

It's not over. Keep going.

On your belly! Stay low!

Come on, then!
Suck it up and let's move again!

When the chips are down
and everything's going wrong...

Ow. Ow. Wait.

...only the ones with grit
and determination survive.

SHE SCREAMS

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