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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:06,467 --> 00:00:07,267 >> THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED 2 00:00:07,267 --> 00:00:09,967 MYSELF, I WEIGHED 337 POUNDS, 3 00:00:09,967 --> 00:00:11,467 AND I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, "THAT'S 4 00:00:11,467 --> 00:00:12,000 NOT BIG. 5 00:00:12,000 --> 00:00:13,600 THAT'S NOT BAD AT ALL." 6 00:00:13,600 --> 00:00:15,667 AND WHEN I STEPPED ON THE SCALE 7 00:00:15,667 --> 00:00:17,433 AND IT SAID 645, I STARTED 8 00:00:17,433 --> 00:00:19,667 CRYING RIGHT THEN AND THERE. 9 00:00:19,833 --> 00:00:22,033 BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, YOU'RE FACED 10 00:00:22,033 --> 00:00:23,233 WITH THAT NOW. 11 00:00:23,233 --> 00:00:25,133 [ SNIFFLES ] 12 00:00:31,100 --> 00:00:32,900 A DOCTOR TOLD MY MOM THAT I 13 00:00:32,900 --> 00:00:34,700 WOULD GO TO SLEEP AND DIE. 14 00:00:34,700 --> 00:00:35,800 YOU KNOW, IF I DIDN'T HAVE THE 15 00:00:35,800 --> 00:00:38,867 SURGERY, THERE WOULD BE NO LIFE. 16 00:00:47,833 --> 00:00:49,267 >> LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK. 17 00:00:49,267 --> 00:00:52,633 LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK. 18 00:00:52,633 --> 00:00:54,467 THIS IS NOT EASY. 19 00:01:03,667 --> 00:01:05,267 >> COME OVER AND LIFT! 20 00:01:05,267 --> 00:01:07,100 >> HE'S BECOMING INDEPENDENT, 21 00:01:07,100 --> 00:01:08,833 AND I THINK HE'S FRIGHTENED 22 00:01:08,833 --> 00:01:10,400 ABOUT THAT. 23 00:01:10,400 --> 00:01:12,800 >> OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP WAS 24 00:01:12,800 --> 00:01:14,867 BASED ON ME BEING FAT. 25 00:01:14,867 --> 00:01:17,067 AND NOW HE SEES ME GETTING MY 26 00:01:17,067 --> 00:01:19,233 LIFE BACK, AND HE'S AFRAID I'M 27 00:01:19,233 --> 00:01:20,767 GONNA LEAVE HIM. 28 00:01:21,967 --> 00:01:23,833 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 29 00:01:29,167 --> 00:01:30,933 IT'S NOT LIKE I SET OUT TO BE 30 00:01:30,933 --> 00:01:33,233 700 POUNDS. 31 00:01:33,233 --> 00:01:34,967 IT JUST HAPPENED. 32 00:01:34,967 --> 00:01:36,900 PEOPLE LOOK AT ME WITH SUCH 33 00:01:36,900 --> 00:01:38,233 DISGUST. 34 00:01:40,133 --> 00:01:41,500 >> [ LAUGHS ] 35 00:01:41,667 --> 00:01:43,633 I FIGURE I CAN EITHER DIE ON THE 36 00:01:43,633 --> 00:01:45,433 OPERATING TABLE TRYING TO GET 37 00:01:45,433 --> 00:01:47,200 HEALTHY OR I CAN DIE BECAUSE I'M 38 00:01:47,200 --> 00:01:48,733 645 POUNDS. 39 00:01:48,733 --> 00:01:52,067 I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE. 40 00:01:52,067 --> 00:01:53,400 >> SHE'S DOING MORE FOR HERSELF 41 00:01:53,400 --> 00:01:53,733 NOW. 42 00:01:53,733 --> 00:01:55,067 SHE'S GETTING HER LIFE BACK. 43 00:01:55,067 --> 00:01:57,467 >> I'M READY TO BE A MOM. 44 00:01:57,467 --> 00:01:59,333 I'M READY TO HAVE A JOB. 45 00:01:59,333 --> 00:02:00,800 OH, MY GOSH. 46 00:02:00,800 --> 00:02:02,367 I GOT JEANS ON. 47 00:02:02,533 --> 00:02:03,467 OH! 48 00:02:03,467 --> 00:02:05,267 YOU WANT TO START MOVING ON 49 00:02:05,267 --> 00:02:06,933 WITH YOUR LIFE, BUT IT'S VERY 50 00:02:06,933 --> 00:02:08,100 HARD ON A RELATIONSHIP. 51 00:02:08,267 --> 00:02:11,167 CHRIS, STOP, PLEASE. 52 00:02:11,167 --> 00:02:12,700 I THINK HONESTLY SOMETIMES YOU 53 00:02:12,700 --> 00:02:14,333 MISS THE FAT ME. 54 00:02:14,333 --> 00:02:16,067 >> YEAH, I KNOW. 55 00:02:18,800 --> 00:02:20,533 >> IT WAS SO MUCH HARDER THAN I 56 00:02:20,533 --> 00:02:22,233 THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE JUST 57 00:02:22,233 --> 00:02:24,267 TO KEEP MY WEIGHT DOWN. 58 00:02:24,433 --> 00:02:26,633 BUT I DID WHAT I HAD TO DO. 59 00:02:41,100 --> 00:02:43,533 THIS PICTURE IS AMAZING. 60 00:02:43,533 --> 00:02:44,933 I DON'T EVEN LOOK LIKE THE SAME 61 00:02:44,933 --> 00:02:46,200 PERSON. 62 00:02:46,200 --> 00:02:47,733 MY FACE LOOKS DIFFERENT. 63 00:02:47,733 --> 00:02:51,500 MY BODY LOOKS DIFFERENT. 64 00:02:51,500 --> 00:02:52,967 WOW. 65 00:03:00,767 --> 00:03:02,067 LOOK HOW FAR I'VE COME. 66 00:03:02,067 --> 00:03:05,800 MY RING SIZE WENT FROM A 13 1/2 67 00:03:05,800 --> 00:03:08,067 TO A 10 1/2. 68 00:03:08,067 --> 00:03:10,567 AND THEN MY ARMS, OF COURSE -- 69 00:03:10,567 --> 00:03:13,933 YOU CAN SEE ALL THAT. 70 00:03:13,933 --> 00:03:20,533 BUT I CAN FINALLY CROSS MY LEGS. 71 00:03:20,533 --> 00:03:21,767 I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THAT. 72 00:03:21,767 --> 00:03:23,200 AND WHEN THE SKIN IS GONE, IT'LL 73 00:03:23,200 --> 00:03:24,367 LOOK EVEN BETTER. 74 00:03:28,433 --> 00:03:29,700 CAN YOU BELIEVE THESE PICTURES? 75 00:03:29,700 --> 00:03:30,867 >> I KNOW, MELISSA. 76 00:03:30,867 --> 00:03:32,867 I [SIGHS] I KNOW. 77 00:03:38,600 --> 00:03:39,967 >> MELISSA, HOW ARE YOU? 78 00:03:39,967 --> 00:03:41,900 >> I'M FINE. HOW ARE YOU? 79 00:03:41,900 --> 00:03:43,967 >> ARE YOU WORRIED? 80 00:03:43,967 --> 00:03:44,900 >> NO. 81 00:03:44,900 --> 00:03:45,833 >> ME EITHER. 82 00:03:45,833 --> 00:03:47,400 I'M JUST NOT FOR SOME ODD 83 00:03:47,400 --> 00:03:48,200 REASON. 84 00:03:48,200 --> 00:03:50,433 THE LAST TIME, I CRIED LIKE A 85 00:03:50,433 --> 00:03:52,300 BIG BABY. 86 00:03:52,300 --> 00:03:55,067 I'M JUST NOT WORRIED THIS TIME. 87 00:03:55,067 --> 00:03:56,833 I'M EXCITED FOR IT TO FINALLY 88 00:03:56,833 --> 00:03:58,767 HAPPEN. 89 00:03:58,767 --> 00:04:00,133 [ LAUGHS ] 90 00:04:00,133 --> 00:04:01,900 >> [ LAUGHS ] 91 00:04:01,900 --> 00:04:04,333 >> TAKE YOUR TIME NOW. 92 00:04:04,333 --> 00:04:06,433 >> OKAY. THAT'S FINE. 93 00:04:06,433 --> 00:04:09,200 >> TO ME, THE SAGGING SKIN AND 94 00:04:09,200 --> 00:04:12,333 THE ROLLS LOOKS ALMOST AS BAD AS 95 00:04:12,333 --> 00:04:15,300 THE SKIN FILLED UP WITH FAT. 96 00:04:15,300 --> 00:04:16,567 I HOPE IT WORKS. 97 00:04:16,567 --> 00:04:18,500 ALL MY LIFE, I'VE BEEN FAT. 98 00:04:18,500 --> 00:04:19,233 ALL MY LIFE. 99 00:04:19,233 --> 00:04:20,800 >> OKAY, MELISSA, CAN YOU TURN A 100 00:04:20,800 --> 00:04:22,167 LITTLE BIT THIS WAY FOR ME? 101 00:04:22,167 --> 00:04:23,700 >> FOR ONE TIME IN MY LIFE, I'D 102 00:04:23,700 --> 00:04:26,300 LIKE TO BE NORMAL. 103 00:04:26,300 --> 00:04:30,400 >> ALL RIGHT. 104 00:04:30,400 --> 00:04:32,300 >> ...FOR TOO LONG, OKAY? 105 00:04:49,100 --> 00:04:49,933 >> YOU KNOW THAT WE ARE 106 00:04:49,933 --> 00:04:51,433 FINISHED. 107 00:04:51,433 --> 00:04:53,333 CAN YOU OPEN YOUR EYES? 108 00:05:13,967 --> 00:05:16,667 >> THE THING ABOUT MY FAMILY IS, 109 00:05:16,667 --> 00:05:18,133 WE'VE ALWAYS HAD TO TAKE CARE OF 110 00:05:18,133 --> 00:05:20,433 SOMEBODY. 111 00:05:20,433 --> 00:05:21,933 I THINK IT'S FROM WHEN MY DAD 112 00:05:21,933 --> 00:05:22,567 GOT HURT. 113 00:05:22,567 --> 00:05:24,333 IN 1981, HE GOT ELECTROCUTED. 114 00:05:24,333 --> 00:05:27,267 HE LOST A HAND, GOT BURNED, 115 00:05:27,267 --> 00:05:30,833 ABOUT 30% TO 40% OF HIS BODY. 116 00:05:30,833 --> 00:05:33,600 AND THEN I MET MELISSA, AND THEN 117 00:05:33,600 --> 00:05:35,800 I ENDED UP TAKING CARE OF HER. 118 00:05:35,800 --> 00:05:37,233 I HAD ACTUALLY RESIGNED MYSELF 119 00:05:37,233 --> 00:05:38,667 TO THE FACT THAT I PROBABLY WAS 120 00:05:38,667 --> 00:05:40,133 GONNA TAKE CARE OF HER AND THEN 121 00:05:40,133 --> 00:05:42,067 I WAS GOING TO HAVE TO BURY HER. 122 00:05:42,067 --> 00:05:43,733 I THOUGHT ABOUT IT EVERY DAY, 123 00:05:43,733 --> 00:05:45,467 THAT I'D COME HOME AND FIND HER 124 00:05:45,467 --> 00:05:47,167 DEAD LAYING IN THE BED, SITTING 125 00:05:47,167 --> 00:05:48,800 IN THE CHAIR BECAUSE HER BODY 126 00:05:48,800 --> 00:05:49,700 GAVE OUT. 127 00:05:49,867 --> 00:05:52,067 >> 285. 128 00:05:52,067 --> 00:05:53,867 THIS IS THE FIRST TIME YOU'VE 129 00:05:53,867 --> 00:05:55,800 BEEN UNDER 300 FOR A WHILE, HUH? 130 00:05:55,800 --> 00:05:59,400 >> AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER. 131 00:05:59,567 --> 00:06:02,500 >> ARE YOU DECENT? 132 00:06:02,500 --> 00:06:03,967 LET ME LOOK AT YOU. TURN AROUND. 133 00:06:03,967 --> 00:06:06,800 WOW. YOU LOOK NORMAL. 134 00:06:06,800 --> 00:06:07,600 >> THANK YOU, EVERYBODY. 135 00:06:07,600 --> 00:06:08,233 >> ALL RIGHT. 136 00:06:08,233 --> 00:06:09,233 WE'LL SEE Y'ALL IN A COUPLE 137 00:06:09,233 --> 00:06:09,700 MONTHS. 138 00:06:09,700 --> 00:06:10,267 [ CHUCKLES ] 139 00:06:10,267 --> 00:06:11,367 >> I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT I 140 00:06:11,367 --> 00:06:12,167 LOOK LIKE. 141 00:06:12,167 --> 00:06:14,067 FIRST I WAS DISAPPOINTED IT WAS 142 00:06:14,067 --> 00:06:15,567 ONLY 30 POUNDS, BUT I'M 143 00:06:15,567 --> 00:06:16,800 SATISFIED WITH THE SURGERY, 144 00:06:16,800 --> 00:06:17,267 THOUGH. 145 00:06:17,267 --> 00:06:20,833 I THINK HE DID A GOOD JOB. 146 00:06:20,833 --> 00:06:23,967 I JUST LIKE BEING HOME. 147 00:06:23,967 --> 00:06:25,100 SURPRISINGLY, IT'S NOT AS 148 00:06:25,100 --> 00:06:26,300 PAINFUL AS I THOUGHT IT WAS 149 00:06:26,300 --> 00:06:26,833 GONNA BE. 150 00:06:26,833 --> 00:06:28,067 I THOUGHT THERE WOULD BE A 151 00:06:28,067 --> 00:06:28,933 LITTLE MORE PAIN. 152 00:06:28,933 --> 00:06:30,433 GONNA BE NICE LETTING ME THROUGH 153 00:06:30,433 --> 00:06:30,900 THE HALL. 154 00:06:30,900 --> 00:06:32,367 I DON'T WANT TO BE TEENY TINY. 155 00:06:32,367 --> 00:06:33,967 I WANT TO HAVE A LITTLE BIT OF 156 00:06:33,967 --> 00:06:37,067 BUTT AND A LITTLE BIT OF BOOBS. 157 00:06:37,067 --> 00:06:38,233 BUT, YOU KNOW, I'M JUST THIS 158 00:06:38,233 --> 00:06:40,467 CLOSE TO 100 NOW. 159 00:06:40,467 --> 00:06:42,267 I'M ONLY 86 POUNDS FROM BEING 160 00:06:42,267 --> 00:06:44,833 DOWN TO 199. 161 00:06:44,833 --> 00:06:46,300 THAT'S GONNA BE A HUGE 162 00:06:46,300 --> 00:06:47,900 MILESTONE. 163 00:07:03,067 --> 00:07:04,400 I'VE BEEN HOOKED UP TO THIS 164 00:07:04,400 --> 00:07:05,867 THING NOW, WHAT -- TWO WEEKS? 165 00:07:05,867 --> 00:07:06,633 >> TWO WEEKS. 166 00:07:06,633 --> 00:07:08,167 >> MY FIRST WEEK, IT'S, "CAN I 167 00:07:08,167 --> 00:07:08,733 GO HOME? 168 00:07:08,733 --> 00:07:10,233 CAN I GO HOME? CAN I GO HOME?" 169 00:07:10,233 --> 00:07:12,667 MY THIRD WEEK, IT WAS, "OKAY, 170 00:07:12,667 --> 00:07:15,133 I'LL STAY UNTIL YOU THINK I'M 171 00:07:15,133 --> 00:07:19,600 BETTER." 172 00:07:19,600 --> 00:07:22,167 >> I THINK MELISSA IS TRYING TOO 173 00:07:22,167 --> 00:07:24,333 HARD TO DIET AND LOSE MORE 174 00:07:24,333 --> 00:07:25,700 WEIGHT. 175 00:07:29,367 --> 00:07:30,400 >> I WASN'T EATING. 176 00:07:30,400 --> 00:07:31,767 LIKE, THREE BITES OFF OF A 177 00:07:31,767 --> 00:07:33,333 CHICKEN LEG WOULD BE A MEAL FOR 178 00:07:33,333 --> 00:07:33,667 ME. 179 00:07:33,667 --> 00:07:34,867 I THOUGHT I WAS DOING GOOD 180 00:07:34,867 --> 00:07:36,267 'CAUSE I WAS LOSING, LIKE, SIX 181 00:07:36,267 --> 00:07:37,300 POUNDS A WEEK. 182 00:07:37,300 --> 00:07:40,700 >> ON JUNE 16th, SHE FAINTED, 183 00:07:40,700 --> 00:07:42,333 AND I'M GONNA HAVE TO CALL 184 00:07:42,333 --> 00:07:42,800 911. 185 00:07:42,800 --> 00:07:44,700 SO I'M LIKE, "WAKE UP! WAKE UP! 186 00:07:44,700 --> 00:07:45,400 WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" 187 00:07:45,400 --> 00:07:46,367 I'M LIKE, "MELISSA! MELISSA!" 188 00:07:46,367 --> 00:07:48,867 >> HELLO. HOW YOU ALL DOING? 189 00:07:48,867 --> 00:07:50,300 >> DOCTOR NOWZARADAN SAID I HAD 190 00:07:50,300 --> 00:07:51,700 TO GET SOMETHING CALLED A WOUND 191 00:07:51,700 --> 00:07:52,100 VAC. 192 00:07:52,100 --> 00:07:53,600 IT JUST SUCKS YOUR SKIN TOGETHER 193 00:07:53,600 --> 00:07:55,067 SO IT WILL HEAL. 194 00:07:55,067 --> 00:07:57,433 >> THE ONLY THING WE NEED TO DO 195 00:07:57,433 --> 00:07:59,500 IN HERE TO CREATE A LITTLE 196 00:07:59,500 --> 00:08:02,467 OPENING FOR THE SUCTION 197 00:08:02,467 --> 00:08:05,067 APPARATUS. 198 00:08:05,067 --> 00:08:08,467 MELISSA HAS PUSHED HER BODY UP 199 00:08:08,467 --> 00:08:09,600 TO THE LIMIT. 200 00:08:09,600 --> 00:08:11,833 SHE'S DONE SOME DAMAGE THAT IS 201 00:08:11,833 --> 00:08:15,733 GOING TO TAKE SOME TIME TO HEAL. 202 00:08:15,733 --> 00:08:17,500 HOW MUCH LONGER MELISSA CAN 203 00:08:17,500 --> 00:08:19,300 EXPECT TO STAY IN THE HOSPITAL 204 00:08:19,300 --> 00:08:21,200 IS UNCERTAIN. 205 00:08:25,067 --> 00:08:26,467 >> [ Voice breaking ] I WANT TO 206 00:08:26,467 --> 00:08:27,700 GO HOME TODAY. 207 00:08:27,700 --> 00:08:28,833 [ SNIFFLES ] 208 00:08:28,833 --> 00:08:30,433 NOT TOMORROW AFTERNOON. 209 00:08:30,433 --> 00:08:34,167 NOT TOMORROW EVENING. 210 00:08:34,167 --> 00:08:37,400 ALL I DO ALL DAY LONG IS SLEEP. 211 00:08:37,400 --> 00:08:38,600 AND I HATE TO SLEEP, 'CAUSE IT 212 00:08:38,600 --> 00:08:40,767 REMINDS ME OF BEFORE, 'CAUSE 213 00:08:40,767 --> 00:08:42,233 BEFORE THAT'S ALL I DID WAS 214 00:08:42,233 --> 00:08:44,933 SLEEP ALL DAY LONG. 215 00:08:44,933 --> 00:08:48,367 AND NOW I'M BACK TO THAT. 216 00:08:48,367 --> 00:08:49,767 >> I HATE TO SEE HER UPSET. 217 00:08:49,767 --> 00:08:53,067 I'M JUST READY FOR LIFE TO GET 218 00:08:53,067 --> 00:08:56,233 BACK TO NORMAL. 219 00:08:56,233 --> 00:08:57,867 >> I'M VERY UPSET. 220 00:08:57,867 --> 00:08:59,467 IT'S GETTING BAD. 221 00:08:59,467 --> 00:09:01,967 I MEAN, IT'S GETTING MENTALLY 222 00:09:01,967 --> 00:09:03,500 BAD. 223 00:09:03,500 --> 00:09:05,167 [ SNIFFLES ] 224 00:09:32,367 --> 00:09:33,267 [ ELEVATOR BELL DINGS ] 225 00:09:33,433 --> 00:09:35,767 >> MELISSA IS STILL WALKING LIKE 226 00:09:35,767 --> 00:09:40,500 SHE'S 650 POUNDS, SO THE SUTURES 227 00:09:40,500 --> 00:09:42,867 PULLED THROUGH AND SOME PART OF 228 00:09:42,867 --> 00:09:45,433 THE INCISION FELL APART. 229 00:09:45,433 --> 00:09:46,467 ALL RIGHT. 230 00:09:46,467 --> 00:09:48,667 MELISSA, WE'RE GONNA CHANGE 231 00:09:48,667 --> 00:09:50,367 YOUR BANDAGES TODAY. 232 00:09:50,367 --> 00:09:52,300 WITH WALKING, SHE JUST 233 00:09:52,300 --> 00:09:54,867 ESSENTIALLY WALKS WITH A SWING. 234 00:09:54,867 --> 00:09:57,067 SHE TORE UP THE INCISION. 235 00:09:57,067 --> 00:09:58,200 >> SHE STILL SEES HERSELF AS A 236 00:09:58,200 --> 00:09:59,733 600-POUND WOMAN. 237 00:09:59,900 --> 00:10:01,400 SHE WILL TURN SIDEWAYS TO GO 238 00:10:01,400 --> 00:10:02,900 INTO THE BATHROOM OR GO INTO 239 00:10:02,900 --> 00:10:04,100 THE BEDROOM. 240 00:10:04,100 --> 00:10:06,667 WHEN I WATCH HER WALK, SHE WOULD 241 00:10:06,667 --> 00:10:10,133 MOVE, SWINGING HER BODY LIKE SHE 242 00:10:10,133 --> 00:10:11,267 WAS STILL MOVING ALL THAT 243 00:10:11,267 --> 00:10:11,767 WEIGHT. 244 00:10:11,767 --> 00:10:13,333 AND SHE THOUGHT, "I CAN'T SHAKE 245 00:10:13,333 --> 00:10:16,100 THAT FAT-PERSON COMPLEX." 246 00:10:16,100 --> 00:10:18,067 >> YOU KNOW, I SPENT MOST OF THE 247 00:10:18,067 --> 00:10:20,400 LAST 10 YEARS BEING DEPRESSED 248 00:10:20,400 --> 00:10:22,800 AND SAD AND IN A CAGE, IT FELT 249 00:10:22,800 --> 00:10:23,900 LIKE. 250 00:10:23,900 --> 00:10:25,967 AND TO GO BACK TO BEING NEGATIVE 251 00:10:25,967 --> 00:10:27,767 INSIDE IS JUST GONNA PUT ME 252 00:10:27,767 --> 00:10:31,633 BACK WHERE I DON'T WANT TO BE. 253 00:10:31,633 --> 00:10:33,133 >> I DON'T THINK SHE REGRETS 254 00:10:33,133 --> 00:10:34,633 HAVING THE SURGERY, BECAUSE, YOU 255 00:10:34,633 --> 00:10:36,100 KNOW, THE SKIN'S GOT TO GO. 256 00:10:36,100 --> 00:10:38,433 BUT I THINK THAT THIS HAS BEEN A 257 00:10:38,433 --> 00:10:40,333 HUGE SETBACK. 258 00:10:47,500 --> 00:10:48,833 >> KNOCK, KNOCK. 259 00:10:48,833 --> 00:10:50,233 >> COME IN. 260 00:10:50,233 --> 00:10:51,467 >> HOW DID YOU KNOW WE WERE 261 00:10:51,467 --> 00:10:51,867 HERE? 262 00:10:51,867 --> 00:10:53,233 >> BECAUSE I HEARD ONE OF THEM 263 00:10:53,233 --> 00:10:54,667 SAY "MELISSA." 264 00:10:54,667 --> 00:11:01,267 >> THIS IS THE WHOLE FAMILY. 265 00:11:01,267 --> 00:11:02,667 >> SHE CALLED ME, AND SHE WAS 266 00:11:02,667 --> 00:11:04,067 CRYING, AND SHE SAID, "MAMA, 267 00:11:04,067 --> 00:11:05,233 I'VE BEEN LYING TO YOU. 268 00:11:05,233 --> 00:11:06,400 I'M NOT DOING VERY GOOD." 269 00:11:06,400 --> 00:11:07,733 AND I SAID, "WHAT DO YOU MEAN?" 270 00:11:07,733 --> 00:11:09,300 AND SHE SAID, "MOM, I'M TIRED. 271 00:11:09,300 --> 00:11:10,367 I'M DONE. I'M DONE. 272 00:11:10,367 --> 00:11:11,933 I'M NOT GOING TO THE DOCTOR NO 273 00:11:11,933 --> 00:11:12,367 MORE. 274 00:11:12,367 --> 00:11:13,567 I'M DONE." 275 00:11:13,567 --> 00:11:16,300 I SAID, "YOU CANNOT BE DONE." 276 00:11:16,300 --> 00:11:18,067 >> SHE WAS READY TO GIVE UP. 277 00:11:18,067 --> 00:11:19,700 SHE WAS HURTING SO BAD. 278 00:11:19,700 --> 00:11:21,100 AND I HAVEN'T HEARD MY SISTER 279 00:11:21,100 --> 00:11:22,400 WANT TO GIVE UP ON ANYTHING 280 00:11:22,400 --> 00:11:23,633 SINCE SHE'S HAD THE SURGERY. 281 00:11:23,800 --> 00:11:25,267 >> EVERYBODY OUT THERE WAS 282 00:11:25,267 --> 00:11:27,067 PRAYING AND WORRYING ABOUT YOU. 283 00:11:27,067 --> 00:11:28,500 >> TODAY SHE'S GOT HER WILL 284 00:11:28,500 --> 00:11:29,067 BACK. 285 00:11:29,067 --> 00:11:30,700 SHE'S BACK TO THE HAPPY MELISSA 286 00:11:30,700 --> 00:11:32,367 THAT I REMEMBER WAY BEFORE SHE 287 00:11:32,367 --> 00:11:34,433 EVER GAINED THIS WEIGHT. 288 00:11:34,433 --> 00:11:36,400 [ CHUCKLES ] IT'S GOOD. 289 00:11:36,400 --> 00:11:40,967 OH, IT'S BEEN HARD. 290 00:11:40,967 --> 00:11:43,467 >> IT WAS EXTREMELY FUN, 291 00:11:43,467 --> 00:11:45,433 EXTREMELY EXCITING, EXTREMELY 292 00:11:45,433 --> 00:11:47,367 SAD ALL AT THE SAME TIME TO SEE 293 00:11:47,367 --> 00:11:49,333 MY FAMILY. 294 00:11:56,100 --> 00:11:56,933 ALL RIGHT. 295 00:11:56,933 --> 00:11:57,600 >> GO. 296 00:11:57,600 --> 00:12:01,767 >> I'M GOING. 297 00:12:03,067 --> 00:12:04,167 >> I'M NOT TRYING TO RUSH YOU 298 00:12:04,167 --> 00:12:04,767 INTO THE CAR. 299 00:12:04,767 --> 00:12:05,667 I'M TRYING TO -- 300 00:12:05,833 --> 00:12:09,333 >> AAH! 301 00:12:09,333 --> 00:12:10,933 AFTER THE COMPLICATIONS WITH 302 00:12:10,933 --> 00:12:12,600 THE SKIN SURGERY, I REALIZED I 303 00:12:12,600 --> 00:12:14,067 NEEDED TO BE HOME WITH MY 304 00:12:14,067 --> 00:12:14,633 FAMILY. 305 00:12:14,633 --> 00:12:16,733 I JUST NEEDED MY FAMILY. 306 00:12:16,733 --> 00:12:19,067 I'M REALLY, REALLY READY TO BE 307 00:12:19,067 --> 00:12:20,600 HOME. 308 00:12:20,600 --> 00:12:23,867 WE ALWAYS DROVE BACK TO OHIO. 309 00:12:23,867 --> 00:12:25,833 WE NORMALLY TRAVELED AT NIGHT 310 00:12:25,833 --> 00:12:27,867 BECAUSE I WAS EMBARRASSED OF 311 00:12:27,867 --> 00:12:28,733 MYSELF. 312 00:12:28,733 --> 00:12:31,200 I GAVE HIM THE OPTION ALL THE 313 00:12:31,200 --> 00:12:33,733 TIME OF, "YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO 314 00:12:33,733 --> 00:12:34,200 THIS." 315 00:12:34,200 --> 00:12:35,833 I KNEW IT WAS HARD ON HIM. 316 00:12:35,833 --> 00:12:37,233 >> THE WORD "QUIT" FOR ME, AS 317 00:12:37,233 --> 00:12:38,433 FAR AS MELISSA GOES AND AS 318 00:12:38,433 --> 00:12:39,733 FAR AS TAKING CARE OF HER, I 319 00:12:39,733 --> 00:12:41,067 DON'T KNOW THE MEANING OF THE 320 00:12:41,067 --> 00:12:41,467 WORD. 321 00:12:41,467 --> 00:12:43,067 >> BUT YOU HAVE TO ADMIT, WE 322 00:12:43,067 --> 00:12:43,900 HAD HARD TIMES. 323 00:12:43,900 --> 00:12:45,600 >> I'M NOT SAYING IT HASN'T BEEN 324 00:12:45,600 --> 00:12:46,867 ALL PEACHES AND CREAM. 325 00:12:46,867 --> 00:12:48,367 >> WHEN WE WAS IN SCHOOL, HE 326 00:12:48,367 --> 00:12:49,900 USED TO TALK TO OTHER WOMEN. 327 00:12:49,900 --> 00:12:51,067 BE HONEST ABOUT IT. 328 00:12:51,067 --> 00:12:52,733 >> WHY WOULD YOU EVEN BRING THAT 329 00:12:52,733 --> 00:12:53,100 UP? 330 00:12:53,100 --> 00:12:54,100 >> IT'S THE TRUTH. 331 00:12:54,100 --> 00:12:55,133 >> WHY WOULD YOU -- 332 00:12:55,133 --> 00:12:56,700 WHY WOULD YOU EVEN BRING IT UP? 333 00:12:56,700 --> 00:12:58,167 >> IT WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF ME 334 00:12:58,167 --> 00:12:59,233 BEING THE WEIGHT I WAS AT. 335 00:12:59,233 --> 00:13:01,167 >> YEAH, IT WAS, OKAY? 336 00:13:01,167 --> 00:13:02,633 AND I REGRET IT. 337 00:13:02,633 --> 00:13:04,767 >> I MEAN, YOU NEVER WENT 338 00:13:04,767 --> 00:13:06,500 THROUGH WITH IT, BUT YOU THOUGHT 339 00:13:06,500 --> 00:13:07,167 ABOUT IT. 340 00:13:07,167 --> 00:13:09,067 >> NOTHING EVER HAPPENED, AND I 341 00:13:09,067 --> 00:13:10,767 REALLY WISH YOU WOULDN'T HAVE 342 00:13:10,767 --> 00:13:16,667 BROUGHT THAT UP. 343 00:13:16,667 --> 00:13:19,133 >> OHH. 344 00:13:19,133 --> 00:13:21,800 HEY, MOM. 345 00:13:21,800 --> 00:13:23,267 >> THAT'S WHEN SHE WAS HOME LAST 346 00:13:23,267 --> 00:13:23,667 TIME. 347 00:13:23,667 --> 00:13:25,067 THAT'S WHAT MOST PEOPLE THINK 348 00:13:25,067 --> 00:13:27,767 SHE LOOKS LIKE. 349 00:13:27,767 --> 00:13:29,567 >> HELLO, BEAUTIFUL. 350 00:13:29,567 --> 00:13:30,600 WHAT'S THE MATTER? 351 00:13:30,600 --> 00:13:31,933 >> POOR BABY. 352 00:13:32,100 --> 00:13:34,300 >> POOR BABY? 353 00:13:34,300 --> 00:13:36,200 WHY YOU SAY POOR BABY? 354 00:13:36,200 --> 00:13:36,733 DON'T CRY. 355 00:13:36,733 --> 00:13:37,667 LOOK HOW SKINNY I AM. 356 00:13:37,667 --> 00:13:38,867 YOU CAN GET YOUR ARMS ALL THE 357 00:13:38,867 --> 00:13:39,767 WAY AROUND ME. 358 00:13:39,933 --> 00:13:40,700 FEEL. 359 00:13:40,700 --> 00:13:41,567 >> [ LAUGHS ] 360 00:13:41,567 --> 00:13:43,300 >> IT'S ALWAYS A BIG DEAL TO GO 361 00:13:43,300 --> 00:13:44,667 BACK AND SEE MY FAMILY. 362 00:13:44,667 --> 00:13:45,800 IT WAS EVERYTHING I NEEDED. 363 00:13:45,800 --> 00:13:49,567 >> LOOK AT YOU. HI. 364 00:13:49,567 --> 00:13:51,267 >> MY FAMILY IS MY SOURCE OF 365 00:13:51,267 --> 00:13:54,200 STRENGTH. 366 00:13:54,200 --> 00:13:55,533 IT'S EXCITING FOR THEM BECAUSE 367 00:13:55,533 --> 00:13:56,933 THEY COULDN'T BELIEVE HOW THIN I 368 00:13:56,933 --> 00:13:57,267 WAS. 369 00:13:57,267 --> 00:13:58,567 WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT ME LIKE 370 00:13:58,567 --> 00:13:59,133 I'M WEIRD? 371 00:13:59,133 --> 00:14:00,500 >> 'CAUSE YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE 372 00:14:00,500 --> 00:14:01,933 YOURSELF. 373 00:14:01,933 --> 00:14:02,833 >> HOW YOU FEELING? 374 00:14:02,833 --> 00:14:03,633 >> I'M ALL RIGHT. 375 00:14:03,633 --> 00:14:04,967 JUST A LITTLE SORE, BUT I'M ALL 376 00:14:04,967 --> 00:14:05,400 RIGHT. 377 00:14:05,400 --> 00:14:08,300 IT WAS HARD FOR THEM TO SEE THE 378 00:14:08,300 --> 00:14:09,767 CHANGES HAPPENING. 379 00:14:09,767 --> 00:14:11,867 THIS TIME, I HAD OPEN WOUNDS 380 00:14:11,867 --> 00:14:14,233 THAT NEEDED TO BE TAKEN CARE OF. 381 00:14:14,233 --> 00:14:16,100 THIS ONE'S BEEN THE HARDEST 382 00:14:16,100 --> 00:14:16,867 SURGERY. 383 00:14:16,867 --> 00:14:19,567 BUT WOULD I CHANGE MY MIND AND 384 00:14:19,567 --> 00:14:20,867 NOT DO IT AGAIN? 385 00:14:20,867 --> 00:14:22,733 I'D DO IT EVERY TIME. 386 00:14:22,733 --> 00:14:24,900 >> WE MATCH NOW, DON'T WE, BABY? 387 00:14:24,900 --> 00:14:25,933 >> [ LAUGHS ] 388 00:14:25,933 --> 00:14:27,433 >> I WISH I WAS THAT SKINNY. 389 00:14:27,433 --> 00:14:29,133 WE WOULDN'T BE GOING THROUGH ALL 390 00:14:29,133 --> 00:14:30,267 THIS, NOW, WOULD WE? 391 00:14:30,267 --> 00:14:32,067 ONCE I WENT HOME AND SEEN MY 392 00:14:32,067 --> 00:14:33,767 FAMILY AND EVERYBODY'S REACTION 393 00:14:33,767 --> 00:14:36,433 TO THE SIZE I WAS, IT WAS REALLY 394 00:14:36,433 --> 00:14:37,600 ENCOURAGING. 395 00:14:37,600 --> 00:14:41,067 WHEN YOU BECOME SEMI-NORMAL, 396 00:14:41,067 --> 00:14:42,433 THAT'S WHEN IT GOT EASIER. 397 00:14:42,433 --> 00:14:44,067 TO GIVE IN TO, "OH, I'M HUNGRY. 398 00:14:44,067 --> 00:14:45,567 I NEED TO EAT SOMETHING." 399 00:14:45,567 --> 00:14:47,167 JUST A VERY LITTLE BIT 'CAUSE I 400 00:14:47,167 --> 00:14:48,833 WANT TO SAVE ROOM FOR EVERYTHING 401 00:14:48,833 --> 00:14:49,267 ELSE. 402 00:14:49,267 --> 00:14:50,900 CHRIS, JUST A LITTLE. 403 00:14:50,900 --> 00:14:51,867 >> IT IS A LITTLE. 404 00:14:51,867 --> 00:14:53,067 >> THAT'S NOT A LITTLE. 405 00:14:53,067 --> 00:14:54,333 AND I SAID A LITTLE BOWL. 406 00:14:54,333 --> 00:14:56,833 THEN YOU WASTED THIS. 407 00:14:56,833 --> 00:14:59,600 I COULD EASILY BE RIGHT BACK UP 408 00:14:59,600 --> 00:15:01,433 THERE WHERE I WAS. 409 00:15:01,433 --> 00:15:02,900 AND I'M DETERMINED TO KEEP IT IN 410 00:15:02,900 --> 00:15:04,800 CHECK. 411 00:15:13,933 --> 00:15:15,833 >> HI, MELISSA. 412 00:15:19,100 --> 00:15:20,233 >> I DON'T EVER REMEMBER BEING 413 00:15:20,233 --> 00:15:21,767 THIS SMALL. 414 00:15:21,933 --> 00:15:24,067 I LITERALLY DON'T REMEMBER EVER 415 00:15:24,067 --> 00:15:25,433 BEING 220. 416 00:15:25,433 --> 00:15:27,067 ALL MY CLOTHES ARE TOO BIG. 417 00:15:27,067 --> 00:15:28,767 EVEN MY SMALLEST PAIR OF PANTS 418 00:15:28,767 --> 00:15:29,933 ARE TOO BIG. 419 00:15:29,933 --> 00:15:32,367 BUT NOW IT'S NOT EVEN ABOUT THE 420 00:15:32,367 --> 00:15:33,733 NUMBER ANYMORE. 421 00:15:33,733 --> 00:15:36,467 IT'S ABOUT THE LIFE AFTER. 422 00:15:36,467 --> 00:15:37,333 >> HOW ARE YOU? 423 00:15:37,333 --> 00:15:38,667 >> I'M DOING REALLY GOOD. 424 00:15:38,667 --> 00:15:40,400 I FEEL GOOD. 425 00:15:40,400 --> 00:15:41,933 FIRST GOAL IS A JOB. 426 00:15:41,933 --> 00:15:44,233 SECOND GOAL IS GETTING PREGNANT. 427 00:15:44,233 --> 00:15:45,733 THAT IS SO MY GOAL. 428 00:15:45,733 --> 00:15:47,400 >> THIS IS COMPLETELY HEALED. 429 00:15:47,400 --> 00:15:49,133 AND EVENTUALLY, WE'RE GONNA BE 430 00:15:49,133 --> 00:15:50,733 ABLE TO TAKE THAT SCAR THEN 431 00:15:50,733 --> 00:15:52,400 CLOSE THAT. 432 00:15:52,400 --> 00:15:54,433 ALMOST HEALED UP ON YOUR 433 00:15:54,433 --> 00:15:55,400 INCISION. 434 00:15:55,400 --> 00:15:56,367 YOU'RE DOING GOOD. 435 00:15:56,367 --> 00:15:57,367 >> THANK YOU. 436 00:15:57,367 --> 00:15:59,333 >> THEY'LL TAKE THE SCARS OFF. 437 00:15:59,333 --> 00:16:01,233 I DON'T WORRY ABOUT SCARS AT 438 00:16:01,233 --> 00:16:03,533 THIS POINT. 439 00:16:03,533 --> 00:16:05,100 I REALLY THOUGHT THE SURGERY WAS 440 00:16:05,100 --> 00:16:06,400 JUST GONNA BE LIKE A MAGIC 441 00:16:06,400 --> 00:16:07,567 PILL. 442 00:16:07,567 --> 00:16:08,667 I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA HAVE THE 443 00:16:08,667 --> 00:16:09,767 SURGERY, THE WEIGHT WAS GONNA 444 00:16:09,767 --> 00:16:10,833 FALL OFF, IT WAS ALL GONNA BE 445 00:16:10,833 --> 00:16:11,333 HUNKY DORY. 446 00:16:11,333 --> 00:16:12,333 I WAS GONNA BE THIS HAPPY, 447 00:16:12,333 --> 00:16:14,233 WONDERFUL, GO-LUCKY PERSON. 448 00:16:19,533 --> 00:16:20,433 THE SURGERY IS NOT GONNA GIVE 449 00:16:20,433 --> 00:16:22,733 YOU HAPPINESS. 450 00:16:22,733 --> 00:16:23,767 YOU HAVE TO GET THE HAPPINESS 451 00:16:23,767 --> 00:16:25,767 FROM YOURSELF. 452 00:16:31,300 --> 00:16:32,733 >> I KNEW WHAT A BLESSING THIS 453 00:16:32,733 --> 00:16:34,933 SURGERY WAS. 454 00:16:35,100 --> 00:16:38,067 I HAD A SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE. 455 00:16:38,067 --> 00:16:39,700 AND I WANTED TO MAKE SURE THAT 456 00:16:39,700 --> 00:16:41,433 THE OTHER PEOPLE OUT THERE LIKE 457 00:16:41,433 --> 00:16:43,100 ME HAD THE SAME OPPORTUNITY I 458 00:16:43,100 --> 00:16:45,067 HAD. 459 00:16:57,800 --> 00:16:58,833 YOU'RE NOT GONNA HAVE THIS 460 00:16:58,833 --> 00:17:00,100 SURGERY AND YOU'RE GONNA BE 461 00:17:00,100 --> 00:17:00,867 SKINNY TOMORROW. 462 00:17:00,867 --> 00:17:02,233 IT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN LIKE THAT. 463 00:17:02,233 --> 00:17:03,633 IT'S HARD. IT'S HARD. 464 00:17:03,633 --> 00:17:05,567 IT'S HARD TO DO IT ON YOUR OWN. 465 00:17:05,567 --> 00:17:07,467 I WOULD HIT, LIKE, UPS AND 466 00:17:07,467 --> 00:17:10,233 DOWNS. 467 00:17:10,233 --> 00:17:13,533 BUT LOOKING BACK ON IT NOW, ALL 468 00:17:13,533 --> 00:17:14,333 WORTH IT. 469 00:17:14,333 --> 00:17:16,233 EVERY BIT OF IT WORTH IT. 470 00:17:21,167 --> 00:17:21,867 EXCUSE ME. 471 00:17:21,867 --> 00:17:23,500 I KNEW RIGHT AWAY THAT I WANTED 472 00:17:23,500 --> 00:17:24,967 TO WORK FOR DR. NOWZARADAN. 473 00:17:24,967 --> 00:17:26,333 I KNEW I WANTED TO CHANGE 474 00:17:26,333 --> 00:17:27,233 PEOPLE'S LIVES. 475 00:17:27,233 --> 00:17:28,667 >> THIS IS BILLIE, MELISSA. 476 00:17:28,667 --> 00:17:30,067 I'M BARBARA, BILLIE'S MOM. 477 00:17:30,067 --> 00:17:31,400 >> IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU. 478 00:17:31,400 --> 00:17:33,067 >> HI, BILLIE. NICE TO MEET YOU. 479 00:17:33,067 --> 00:17:37,233 I WAS 653 POUNDS. 480 00:17:37,233 --> 00:17:39,100 THIS IS ACTUALLY TWO DAYS BEFORE 481 00:17:39,100 --> 00:17:41,067 THE SURGERY. 482 00:17:41,067 --> 00:17:42,300 YOU'RE ONLY 18. 483 00:17:42,300 --> 00:17:44,533 YOU HAVE A WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF 484 00:17:44,533 --> 00:17:46,400 YOU. 485 00:17:46,400 --> 00:17:47,800 I DO A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING, 486 00:17:47,800 --> 00:17:51,667 HELPING OTHER PATIENTS. 487 00:17:51,667 --> 00:17:53,433 HI. HOW ARE YOU DOING? 488 00:17:53,600 --> 00:17:55,733 >> OH, I'M OKAY. A LITTLE SORE. 489 00:17:55,733 --> 00:17:57,900 >> A LITTLE SORE? JUST A LITTLE? 490 00:17:58,067 --> 00:18:00,133 I TALK TO THEM ABOUT THEIR 491 00:18:00,133 --> 00:18:02,167 SURGERIES BEFORE AND AFTER. 492 00:18:02,167 --> 00:18:04,833 YOUR POUCH IS THIS BIG, AND YOU 493 00:18:04,833 --> 00:18:07,233 STICK THIS MUCH LETTUCE IN IT, 494 00:18:07,233 --> 00:18:08,433 THEN YOU ONLY HAVE THAT MUCH 495 00:18:08,433 --> 00:18:10,100 ROOM FOR PROTEIN. 496 00:18:10,100 --> 00:18:11,833 I WAKE UP EVERY DAY KNOWING I 497 00:18:11,833 --> 00:18:12,633 LOVE MY JOB. 498 00:18:12,633 --> 00:18:14,567 CONGRATULATIONS. 499 00:18:14,567 --> 00:18:16,600 I TRULY BELIEVE THIS IS WHAT I 500 00:18:16,600 --> 00:18:19,367 WAS MEANT TO DO. 501 00:18:19,367 --> 00:18:20,567 HI, EVERYBODY. 502 00:18:20,567 --> 00:18:22,567 MY NAME IS MELISSA MORRIS. 503 00:18:22,567 --> 00:18:25,233 DR. NOWZARADAN DID MY SURGERY. 504 00:18:25,233 --> 00:18:27,933 THIS IS MY "BEFORE" PICTURE. 505 00:18:31,667 --> 00:18:33,667 IF GROCERY SHOPPING TOOK YOU A 506 00:18:33,667 --> 00:18:35,400 HALF AN HOUR BEFORE SURGERY, 507 00:18:35,400 --> 00:18:37,100 IT'S GONNA TAKE YOU AN HOUR 508 00:18:37,100 --> 00:18:39,367 AFTER SURGERY, BECAUSE YOU NEED 509 00:18:39,367 --> 00:18:41,167 TO READ THE LABELS. 510 00:18:41,167 --> 00:18:44,800 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE A LOT OF 511 00:18:44,800 --> 00:18:48,400 PROBLEMS IF YOU KEEP THINKING, 512 00:18:48,400 --> 00:18:49,500 "WE CAN'T HAVE." 513 00:18:49,500 --> 00:18:51,333 YOU'VE GOT TO TURN THAT SWITCH 514 00:18:51,333 --> 00:18:53,200 IN YOUR MIND. 515 00:18:53,200 --> 00:18:55,633 THIS IS MY SKIRT. 516 00:18:55,633 --> 00:18:58,400 FOUR YARDS OF MATERIAL. 517 00:18:58,400 --> 00:19:00,267 THERE IS NOT ONE PIECE OF 518 00:19:00,267 --> 00:19:03,800 CHICKEN, NOT ONE POTATO CHIP 519 00:19:03,800 --> 00:19:08,300 THAT FEELS AS GOOD... 520 00:19:08,300 --> 00:19:08,867 AS THIS DOES. 521 00:19:08,867 --> 00:19:10,833 >> WOW. 522 00:19:10,833 --> 00:19:11,933 >> THANK YOU. 523 00:19:11,933 --> 00:19:12,500 >> WHOO! 524 00:19:12,500 --> 00:19:14,567 >> I CAN'T BELIEVE NOW THAT I'M 525 00:19:14,567 --> 00:19:15,933 DOING WHAT I DO. 526 00:19:15,933 --> 00:19:17,200 I GET THIS NATURAL HIGH. 527 00:19:17,200 --> 00:19:18,700 I CAN FEEL IT RIGHT HERE IN MY 528 00:19:18,700 --> 00:19:20,967 CHEST, AND IT JUST... 529 00:19:20,967 --> 00:19:23,800 I MEAN, I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW 530 00:19:23,800 --> 00:19:25,433 BLESSED I AM. 531 00:19:25,600 --> 00:19:26,867 >> TWO AND A HALF YEARS AGO, I 532 00:19:26,867 --> 00:19:28,100 WOULD HAVE NEVER THOUGHT SHE 533 00:19:28,100 --> 00:19:29,067 WOULD BE DOING THIS. 534 00:19:29,067 --> 00:19:29,900 EVER. 535 00:19:30,067 --> 00:19:32,967 IT'S JUST LIKE, WOW. 536 00:19:32,967 --> 00:19:34,067 >> I FEEL EXCITED. 537 00:19:34,067 --> 00:19:35,600 IF MY FEET DIDN'T HURT, I'D WANT 538 00:19:35,600 --> 00:19:37,300 TO DO SOMETHING. 539 00:19:37,300 --> 00:19:39,100 >> GOT A WHOLE LOT OF CHANGES IN 540 00:19:39,100 --> 00:19:40,833 JUST A LITTLE SHORT TIME FRAME. 541 00:19:40,833 --> 00:19:41,867 SEE YOU LATER. 542 00:19:41,867 --> 00:19:43,833 I MEAN, ONE DAY WE JUST KIND OF 543 00:19:43,833 --> 00:19:45,633 BOTH LOOKED UP AND WAS LIKE, 544 00:19:45,633 --> 00:19:49,867 "GOD, YOU'RE JUST SUPER THIN." 545 00:19:52,233 --> 00:19:54,067 >> [ SIGHS ] 546 00:19:54,067 --> 00:19:56,800 IT SAYS SIZE 42. 547 00:19:56,967 --> 00:19:57,500 WATCH THIS. 548 00:19:57,500 --> 00:20:02,233 I HAVE TO ZIP THE ZIPPER FIRST. 549 00:20:02,233 --> 00:20:05,667 THIS BEAUTIFUL DRESS IS MY PROM 550 00:20:05,667 --> 00:20:08,533 DRESS. 551 00:20:08,533 --> 00:20:09,667 IT'S A LITTLE BIG. 552 00:20:09,667 --> 00:20:11,267 WHEN I LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE 553 00:20:11,267 --> 00:20:13,600 MIRROR, I AM SURPRISED BECAUSE I 554 00:20:13,600 --> 00:20:15,667 CAN'T BELIEVE HOW THIN I AM. 555 00:20:15,667 --> 00:20:18,100 I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS SIZE. 556 00:20:18,100 --> 00:20:20,400 NEVER IN MY LIFE. 557 00:20:20,400 --> 00:20:22,433 I'M REALLY OKAY IN CLOTHING. 558 00:20:22,433 --> 00:20:24,267 IT'S OUT OF CLOTHING THAT 559 00:20:24,267 --> 00:20:26,700 BOTHERS ME. 560 00:20:26,700 --> 00:20:30,600 LIKE, THIS BOTHERS ME. 561 00:20:30,600 --> 00:20:31,333 ALL THIS. 562 00:20:31,333 --> 00:20:34,367 AND THEN THERE'S LOTS AND LOTS 563 00:20:34,367 --> 00:20:38,700 OF SKIN. 564 00:20:38,700 --> 00:20:41,000 MENTALLY, I'M GOING THROUGH A 565 00:20:41,000 --> 00:20:43,400 STAGE WHERE NOW I FINALLY HAVE 566 00:20:43,400 --> 00:20:45,400 EVERYTHING I WANTED, SO WHY 567 00:20:45,400 --> 00:20:47,200 DON'T I FEEL LIKE I HAVE 568 00:20:47,200 --> 00:20:49,100 EVERYTHING I WANTED? 569 00:20:55,533 --> 00:20:57,833 A PART OF ME STILL IS AFRAID OF 570 00:20:57,833 --> 00:20:59,333 GETTING FAT. 571 00:20:59,500 --> 00:21:01,933 I'M TERRIFIED OF GAINING WEIGHT. 572 00:21:01,933 --> 00:21:03,900 I'M TERRIFIED OF BEING FAT 573 00:21:03,900 --> 00:21:04,433 AGAIN. 574 00:21:04,433 --> 00:21:06,167 [ Voice breaking ] I KNOW IT'S 575 00:21:06,167 --> 00:21:07,767 STUPID, AND I KNOW EVERYBODY 576 00:21:07,767 --> 00:21:09,067 SEES ME AS SKINNY, BUT 577 00:21:09,067 --> 00:21:11,800 I REMEMBER BEING FAT. 578 00:21:16,767 --> 00:21:20,200 >> YOU WEIGHED 157 POUNDS TODAY. 579 00:21:20,200 --> 00:21:22,600 RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE PROBABLY FIVE, 580 00:21:22,600 --> 00:21:24,367 10 POUNDS UNDERWEIGHT. 581 00:21:24,367 --> 00:21:26,667 YOUR BODY MASS NEEDS TO 582 00:21:26,667 --> 00:21:27,833 INCREASE. 583 00:21:27,833 --> 00:21:30,600 MAKE SURE THAT YOU STICK WITH 584 00:21:30,600 --> 00:21:31,400 THE PROTEIN. 585 00:21:31,400 --> 00:21:33,100 >> OKAY. 586 00:21:40,367 --> 00:21:43,333 OH, MY GOSH. 587 00:21:43,333 --> 00:21:44,833 NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD SEE THE 588 00:21:44,833 --> 00:21:49,433 DAY THAT I COULD GET OUT OF A 589 00:21:49,433 --> 00:21:54,333 CAR WITH THIS MUCH SPACE. 590 00:21:54,333 --> 00:21:58,067 I CAN'T EXPLAIN WHAT IT'S LIKE 591 00:21:58,067 --> 00:21:59,300 TO HAVE A LIFE. 592 00:21:59,300 --> 00:22:01,700 BEFORE, SOMEONE HAD TO TAKE CARE 593 00:22:01,700 --> 00:22:03,300 OF ME ALL THE TIME. 594 00:22:03,300 --> 00:22:05,833 BEFORE MY SURGERY, CHRIS WAS MY 595 00:22:05,833 --> 00:22:08,100 CARETAKER. 596 00:22:08,100 --> 00:22:10,300 >> OUR RELATIONSHIP STARTED OUT 597 00:22:10,300 --> 00:22:12,233 LIKE ANY OTHER RELATIONSHIP 598 00:22:12,233 --> 00:22:12,933 DOES. 599 00:22:12,933 --> 00:22:15,233 AT SOME POINT, I BECAME HER 600 00:22:15,233 --> 00:22:16,300 CARETAKER. 601 00:22:16,300 --> 00:22:17,733 >> A CARETAKER -- IS THAT WHAT 602 00:22:17,733 --> 00:22:18,800 YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE? 603 00:22:18,800 --> 00:22:19,800 >> IT'S WHAT I WAS. 604 00:22:19,800 --> 00:22:20,967 IT'S NOT WHAT I THOUGHT. 605 00:22:20,967 --> 00:22:21,833 IT'S WHAT I WAS. 606 00:22:21,833 --> 00:22:23,733 >> HE MARRIED ME BECAUSE HE FELT 607 00:22:23,733 --> 00:22:25,500 LIKE IT WAS SOMETHING THAT HE 608 00:22:25,500 --> 00:22:27,767 HAD TO DO. 609 00:22:27,767 --> 00:22:29,467 AND I MARRIED HIM BECAUSE I 610 00:22:29,467 --> 00:22:31,067 DIDN'T WANT TO BE ALONE. 611 00:22:31,067 --> 00:22:33,233 WE WERE NEVER HUSBAND AND WIFE. 612 00:22:33,233 --> 00:22:35,933 ONCE THE BIG AMOUNTS OF WEIGHT 613 00:22:35,933 --> 00:22:38,233 CAME OFF, I WANTED TO DO THINGS 614 00:22:38,233 --> 00:22:39,133 FOR MYSELF. 615 00:22:39,133 --> 00:22:41,200 >> IT WAS HARD FOR ME TO LET GO 616 00:22:41,200 --> 00:22:42,500 OF BEING HER CARETAKER. 617 00:22:42,500 --> 00:22:43,433 >> IT WAS HARD. 618 00:22:43,433 --> 00:22:44,400 WE FOUGHT A LOT. 619 00:22:44,400 --> 00:22:45,933 >> I MEAN, IT WAS JUST -- WE 620 00:22:45,933 --> 00:22:47,800 WERE DONE. 621 00:22:47,800 --> 00:22:49,933 >> THING THAT CHANGED US, HE 622 00:22:49,933 --> 00:22:52,300 CALLED ME FROM WORK AND ASKED ME 623 00:22:52,300 --> 00:22:53,667 ON A DATE, AND THEN WE 624 00:22:53,667 --> 00:22:54,433 STARTED -- 625 00:22:54,433 --> 00:22:56,433 >> JUST TALKING MORE. 626 00:22:56,433 --> 00:22:58,633 >> I'M A PERSON WHO NEEDS TO BE 627 00:22:58,633 --> 00:22:59,533 TALKED TO. 628 00:22:59,533 --> 00:23:01,500 THE LOVE NOW HAS JUST BEEN 629 00:23:01,500 --> 00:23:02,467 RECENT. 630 00:23:02,467 --> 00:23:05,467 >> NOW OUR ROLE IS A HUSBAND AND 631 00:23:05,467 --> 00:23:07,567 A WIFE, A REAL HUSBAND AND WIFE. 632 00:23:12,533 --> 00:23:13,900 >> AFTER EVERYTHING THAT I HAD 633 00:23:13,900 --> 00:23:15,267 BEEN THROUGH AND EVERYTHING I 634 00:23:15,267 --> 00:23:16,433 HAD LOST, THERE WAS STILL 635 00:23:16,433 --> 00:23:17,867 SOMETHING MISSING. 636 00:23:18,067 --> 00:23:19,200 THERE WAS SOMETHING I WANTED 637 00:23:19,200 --> 00:23:21,100 EVEN MORE THAN WEIGHT LOSS. 638 00:23:34,867 --> 00:23:35,700 [ BOTH LAUGH ] 639 00:23:35,700 --> 00:23:37,300 CHRIS AND I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO 640 00:23:37,300 --> 00:23:39,267 GET PREGNANT FOR... 641 00:23:39,267 --> 00:23:40,933 >> 12 YEARS. 642 00:23:40,933 --> 00:23:43,667 >> 12 YEARS. 643 00:23:43,667 --> 00:23:45,567 I TOOK A PREGNANCY TEST, AND IT 644 00:23:45,567 --> 00:23:46,933 CAME BACK POSITIVE. 645 00:23:46,933 --> 00:23:48,800 >> AND THERE, SHE'S PREGNANT. 646 00:23:48,800 --> 00:23:50,767 >> I'M SO EXCITED, I CAN BARELY 647 00:23:50,767 --> 00:23:51,767 STAND MYSELF. 648 00:23:51,767 --> 00:23:53,967 >> TWINS, TWINS, TWINS. 649 00:23:53,967 --> 00:23:55,867 I FEEL SO BLESSED. 650 00:23:59,200 --> 00:24:00,933 I WOULD HAVE NEVER GOT PREGNANT 651 00:24:00,933 --> 00:24:02,367 IF I HADN'T HAD THE BYPASS 652 00:24:02,367 --> 00:24:03,700 SURGERY AND LOST THE WEIGHT. 653 00:24:03,700 --> 00:24:05,133 I WOULD HAVE NEVER HAVE GOTTEN. 654 00:24:05,133 --> 00:24:06,567 AND IF I HAD GOTTEN PREGNANT, I 655 00:24:06,567 --> 00:24:08,467 WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO CARRY IT. 656 00:24:15,800 --> 00:24:17,600 >> LOOK, THAT'S OUR BABY RIGHT 657 00:24:17,600 --> 00:24:18,067 NOW. 658 00:24:18,067 --> 00:24:19,933 >> IT WILL BE EVEN CUTER WHEN IT 659 00:24:19,933 --> 00:24:21,100 HAS A LITTLE HEAD. 660 00:24:21,100 --> 00:24:22,767 >> HAS A LITTLE HEAD AND HANDS 661 00:24:22,767 --> 00:24:23,700 AND FEET. 662 00:24:23,700 --> 00:24:24,500 >> MOM. 663 00:24:24,500 --> 00:24:25,400 >> What? 664 00:24:25,400 --> 00:24:27,067 >> THEY WERE TWINS. 665 00:24:27,067 --> 00:24:27,967 >> All right. 666 00:24:27,967 --> 00:24:31,567 [ BOTH LAUGH ] 667 00:24:31,567 --> 00:24:33,100 >> OKAY. IT WASN'T TWINS. 668 00:24:33,100 --> 00:24:34,833 I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S TWINS OR 669 00:24:34,833 --> 00:24:35,300 NOT. 670 00:24:35,300 --> 00:24:38,233 THEY WEREN'T BIG ENOUGH TO SEE. 671 00:24:38,233 --> 00:24:39,700 THE BABY'S HEALTH IS WAY MORE 672 00:24:39,700 --> 00:24:41,300 IMPORTANT THAN MY HEALTH AT THIS 673 00:24:41,300 --> 00:24:42,767 POINT. 674 00:24:42,767 --> 00:24:44,500 I WILL ADD A LITTLE BIT OF 675 00:24:44,500 --> 00:24:46,600 RED MEAT TO MY DIET NOW, BUT I'M 676 00:24:46,600 --> 00:24:48,467 NOT GONNA GO CRAZY ON POTATO 677 00:24:48,467 --> 00:24:51,300 CHIPS AND BREAD AND PASTA. 678 00:24:51,300 --> 00:24:52,300 CHRIS. 679 00:24:52,300 --> 00:24:53,467 >> YEAH? 680 00:24:53,467 --> 00:24:55,133 >> YOU DON'T NEED ANY OF THOSE. 681 00:24:55,133 --> 00:24:56,800 >> IT'S JUST ONE FREAKING CANDY 682 00:24:56,800 --> 00:24:57,267 CANE. 683 00:24:57,267 --> 00:24:58,967 >> ONE IS GONNA LEAD TO ONE MORE 684 00:24:58,967 --> 00:25:00,233 POUND, AND ONE MORE POUND IS 685 00:25:00,233 --> 00:25:01,500 GONNA LEAD TO YOU HAVING THE 686 00:25:01,500 --> 00:25:05,967 SURGERY. 687 00:25:05,967 --> 00:25:07,167 DO I NEED ANYTHING ELSE? 688 00:25:07,333 --> 00:25:08,767 >> NO. YOU JUST NEED TO COME ON. 689 00:25:08,767 --> 00:25:11,900 LET'S GO. 690 00:25:12,067 --> 00:25:13,967 >> [ SHUDDERS ] 691 00:25:19,467 --> 00:25:21,067 IN TWO WEEKS, WE DID ANOTHER 692 00:25:21,067 --> 00:25:22,667 ULTRASOUND, AND THEY FINALLY 693 00:25:22,667 --> 00:25:24,433 SEEN THE BABY, BUT THERE WAS NO 694 00:25:24,433 --> 00:25:28,100 HEARTBEAT. 695 00:25:28,100 --> 00:25:33,200 SO TODAY WE ARE GOING TO THE 696 00:25:33,200 --> 00:25:35,300 HOSPITAL TO HAVE A D&C. 697 00:25:38,067 --> 00:25:39,967 >> I KNOW. 698 00:25:46,633 --> 00:25:48,133 >> IT FELT LIKE MY WHOLE WORLD 699 00:25:48,133 --> 00:25:49,133 WAS FALLING APART. 700 00:25:49,133 --> 00:25:50,533 >> THE FACT THAT WE HAD BEEN 701 00:25:50,533 --> 00:25:52,133 TRYING FOR SO LONG AND THEN JUST 702 00:25:52,133 --> 00:25:56,333 TO HAVE IT TAKEN AWAY, IT WAS 703 00:25:56,333 --> 00:25:57,767 LIKE SOMEBODY JUST BALLED UP 704 00:25:57,767 --> 00:25:59,300 THEIR FIST AND JUST PUNCHED ME 705 00:25:59,300 --> 00:26:02,633 IN THE GUT. 706 00:26:02,633 --> 00:26:04,067 >> TAKE EVERYTHING OFF. 707 00:26:04,067 --> 00:26:05,733 EVERYTHING BACK INTO THE BAG. 708 00:26:05,733 --> 00:26:06,900 >> [ Voice breaking ] THIS IS 709 00:26:06,900 --> 00:26:13,433 NOT WHAT I WANT TO BE DOING. 710 00:26:13,433 --> 00:26:14,200 >> READY TO GO? 711 00:26:14,200 --> 00:26:17,067 >> NO, NOT REALLY. 712 00:26:17,067 --> 00:26:22,300 >> YOU'RE GONNA DO ALL RIGHT. 713 00:26:22,300 --> 00:26:23,600 >> THERE'S NOT GONNA BE ONE? 714 00:26:23,767 --> 00:26:24,233 >> NO. 715 00:26:24,233 --> 00:26:24,867 >> OKAY. 716 00:26:24,867 --> 00:26:26,633 THAT'S ALL I NEEDED TO HEAR FROM 717 00:26:26,633 --> 00:26:27,267 YOU. 718 00:26:27,267 --> 00:26:29,833 IT'S THE HARDEST THING I'VE EVER 719 00:26:29,833 --> 00:26:31,833 DID IN MY LIFE. 720 00:26:38,833 --> 00:26:41,300 >> HEY. 721 00:26:41,300 --> 00:26:41,733 YOU ALL RIGHT? 722 00:26:41,733 --> 00:26:43,200 >> THAT WAS REALLY, REALLY 723 00:26:43,200 --> 00:26:43,733 QUICK. 724 00:26:43,733 --> 00:26:48,067 >> YEAH? 725 00:26:48,067 --> 00:26:49,567 >> PLEASE, CAN WE JUST GET IN 726 00:26:49,567 --> 00:26:51,467 THE CAR? 727 00:27:00,667 --> 00:27:01,633 [ SOBS ] 728 00:27:01,633 --> 00:27:03,600 >> WE'RE ALMOST HOME. 729 00:27:03,600 --> 00:27:06,300 WE'LL BE HOME IN LESS THAN FIVE 730 00:27:06,300 --> 00:27:09,333 MINUTES, OKAY? 731 00:27:09,333 --> 00:27:13,067 >> [ SHOUTS ] 732 00:27:13,067 --> 00:27:14,067 PLEASE LET ME -- 733 00:27:14,067 --> 00:27:15,167 >> WE'RE ALMOST -- 734 00:27:15,167 --> 00:27:16,833 >> PLEASE LET ME OUT OF HERE. 735 00:27:16,833 --> 00:27:18,300 I CAN'T. I CAN'T TAKE IT. 736 00:27:18,300 --> 00:27:19,900 >> YOU'VE GOT TO BE PATIENT, 737 00:27:19,900 --> 00:27:20,400 OKAY? 738 00:27:20,400 --> 00:27:23,067 >> [ SOBS ] 739 00:27:23,067 --> 00:27:26,200 PLEASE, CHRIS. PLEASE. 740 00:27:26,200 --> 00:27:29,200 >> GO LAY IN BED. 741 00:27:29,200 --> 00:27:32,800 >> [ SOBS ] 742 00:27:32,800 --> 00:27:34,633 I WAS GOING THROUGH THIS LOSS, 743 00:27:34,633 --> 00:27:36,467 AND I FELT LIKE I WAS DOING IT 744 00:27:36,467 --> 00:27:38,200 ALONE. 745 00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:40,200 AND WHEN YOU WANT SOMETHING SO 746 00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:43,067 BAD, SO, SO, SO BAD... 747 00:27:43,067 --> 00:27:45,300 OH, GOD! 748 00:27:45,300 --> 00:27:47,200 ...IT'S LIKE THE WORST HURT YOU 749 00:27:47,200 --> 00:27:50,833 EVER CAN IMAGINE. 750 00:27:50,833 --> 00:27:52,733 REALLY HARD. 751 00:28:03,833 --> 00:28:06,067 I WANT A TWO-PIECE, BUT NOT NO 752 00:28:06,067 --> 00:28:08,167 ITSY BITSY TWO PIECE. 753 00:28:08,167 --> 00:28:10,567 I WANT A FULL TWO-PIECE... 754 00:28:22,733 --> 00:28:24,267 SO, THE DOCTOR SAID I COULD 755 00:28:24,267 --> 00:28:25,400 STILL GET PREGNANT. 756 00:28:25,400 --> 00:28:28,367 AND MAN, WE TRIED REALLY HARD 757 00:28:28,367 --> 00:28:31,100 FOR A GOOD SOLID THREE MONTHS, 758 00:28:31,100 --> 00:28:34,300 MAYBE FOUR. 759 00:28:34,300 --> 00:28:35,533 THEN WE STOPPED TRYING 760 00:28:35,533 --> 00:28:38,600 ALTOGETHER. 761 00:28:38,600 --> 00:28:39,567 HOW ABOUT THIS ONE? 762 00:28:39,567 --> 00:28:41,067 DON'T I HAVE THE BODY FOR THAT? 763 00:28:41,067 --> 00:28:42,300 DON'T YOU THINK THE WRINKLES 764 00:28:42,300 --> 00:28:43,633 WILL LOOK CUTE IN THAT? 765 00:28:43,633 --> 00:28:47,067 >> THEY'RE ALL THE ONE-PIECE. 766 00:28:47,067 --> 00:28:47,633 >> MNH. 767 00:28:47,633 --> 00:28:49,400 I'M NOT A BIG FAN OF ONE-PIECES. 768 00:28:49,400 --> 00:28:53,600 I WANT TWO PIECES. 769 00:28:53,600 --> 00:28:55,500 [ SNIFFLES ] 770 00:28:59,733 --> 00:29:01,700 [ SNIFFLES ] 771 00:29:03,233 --> 00:29:05,133 >> [ CHUCKLES ] 772 00:29:07,933 --> 00:29:09,567 >> I'M NOT A SUCCESS STORY YET. 773 00:29:09,567 --> 00:29:11,367 I'M STILL WORKING IT. 774 00:29:11,367 --> 00:29:12,833 EVERY DAY, I WORK IT. 775 00:29:12,833 --> 00:29:17,667 I CAN'T TALK TO CHRIS ABOUT IT. 776 00:29:17,667 --> 00:29:19,533 WITH ALL MY HEART, I LOVE CHRIS. 777 00:29:19,533 --> 00:29:22,333 BUT THINGS HAVE DEFINITELY TAKEN 778 00:29:22,333 --> 00:29:26,767 A TURN FOR THE WORSE. 779 00:29:26,767 --> 00:29:30,400 I JUST FOUND OUT WHEN I WAS IN 780 00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:32,667 THE HOSPITAL HAVING MY 781 00:29:32,667 --> 00:29:35,567 GASTRIC-BYPASS SURGERY, THINKING 782 00:29:35,567 --> 00:29:37,967 I WAS GONNA DIE, ALMOST HOPING I 783 00:29:37,967 --> 00:29:40,333 WAS GONNA DIE, CHRIS WAS TALKING 784 00:29:40,333 --> 00:29:42,633 TO ANOTHER LADY, SETTING UP THIS 785 00:29:42,633 --> 00:29:46,967 PLAN TO MEET...TO HAVE SEX. 786 00:29:53,433 --> 00:29:55,133 I SHOULD HAVE NEVER LET MYSELF 787 00:29:55,133 --> 00:29:59,300 GET THAT BIG. 788 00:29:59,300 --> 00:30:03,733 CHRIS, FOR YEARS NOW, HAS BEEN 789 00:30:03,733 --> 00:30:04,967 TALKING TO WOMEN ON THE 790 00:30:04,967 --> 00:30:06,567 INTERNET, TALKING TO THEM ON THE 791 00:30:06,567 --> 00:30:10,667 PHONE, EXCHANGING E-MAILS, 792 00:30:10,667 --> 00:30:13,267 PHOTOS. 793 00:30:13,267 --> 00:30:15,800 I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE. 794 00:30:15,800 --> 00:30:17,833 I WOULD REALLY, REALLY RATHER 795 00:30:17,833 --> 00:30:19,833 CHRIS COME TO ME AND SAY, "I 796 00:30:19,833 --> 00:30:21,867 WANT SOMETHING ELSE," THAN TO 797 00:30:21,867 --> 00:30:23,433 START CHEATING ON ME. 798 00:30:23,433 --> 00:30:25,367 WHY DO THAT? WHY DO THAT? 799 00:30:25,367 --> 00:30:27,367 WHY STAY AND DO IT? 800 00:30:27,367 --> 00:30:29,733 WHY NOT JUST SAY, "I CAN'T BE IN 801 00:30:29,733 --> 00:30:31,700 THIS RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU 802 00:30:31,700 --> 00:30:32,100 ANYMORE"? 803 00:30:37,167 --> 00:30:38,700 >> I WAS ABOUT TO GIVE UP HOPE 804 00:30:38,700 --> 00:30:40,067 WHEN MY WORLD TURNED UPSIDE 805 00:30:40,067 --> 00:30:41,667 DOWN. 806 00:30:41,833 --> 00:30:43,267 YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT LIFE'S GONNA 807 00:30:43,267 --> 00:30:45,167 BRING. 808 00:31:00,533 --> 00:31:03,867 I'M VERY AFRAID OF BAD NEWS. 809 00:31:03,867 --> 00:31:06,767 I WANT THIS SO BAD. 810 00:31:13,700 --> 00:31:14,833 [ ELEVATOR BELL DINGS ] 811 00:31:14,833 --> 00:31:15,800 >> HI. HOW ARE YOU? 812 00:31:15,800 --> 00:31:17,067 >> I'M FINE. HOW ARE YOU? 813 00:31:17,067 --> 00:31:17,633 >> GOOD. 814 00:31:17,633 --> 00:31:19,267 WHAT TIME IS YOUR APPOINTMENT? 815 00:31:19,267 --> 00:31:19,867 >> 9:00. 816 00:31:19,867 --> 00:31:20,467 >> 9:00? 817 00:31:20,467 --> 00:31:22,067 >> MY CONCERNS AND MY WORRIES 818 00:31:22,067 --> 00:31:23,933 ARE GONNA BE THE SAME THING AS 819 00:31:23,933 --> 00:31:26,667 LAST TIME -- NO HEARTBEAT OR 820 00:31:26,667 --> 00:31:29,567 SOMETHING WRONG. 821 00:31:29,567 --> 00:31:30,633 >> I'M NERVOUS. 822 00:31:30,633 --> 00:31:32,467 LAST TIME WAS A HUGE LET-DOWN. 823 00:31:32,467 --> 00:31:34,200 HOPEFULLY THIS WILL WORK OUT 824 00:31:34,200 --> 00:31:35,367 LIKE IT'S SUPPOSED TO. 825 00:31:35,367 --> 00:31:36,267 >> GOOD MORNING. 826 00:31:36,267 --> 00:31:38,333 >> YES, IT SAYS 211. 827 00:31:38,500 --> 00:31:40,500 >> NOPE, THAT'S ACTUALLY 206. 828 00:31:40,500 --> 00:31:43,467 >> 206. 829 00:31:43,467 --> 00:31:44,367 >> LOTS OF PRESSURE. 830 00:31:44,533 --> 00:31:48,300 COLD, COLD GEL, OKAY? 831 00:31:48,300 --> 00:31:50,067 AND THERE'S YOUR KID. 832 00:31:50,067 --> 00:31:51,200 AND THERE'S THE HEARTBEAT. 833 00:31:51,200 --> 00:31:52,533 THAT FLICKER, FLICKER, FLICKER, 834 00:31:52,533 --> 00:31:55,233 FLICKER, FLICKER IS YOUR KIDDO. 835 00:31:55,233 --> 00:31:56,967 >> THERE IS A HEARTBEAT. 836 00:31:56,967 --> 00:31:57,967 [ SNIFFLES ] 837 00:31:57,967 --> 00:32:01,200 YAY. 838 00:32:01,200 --> 00:32:02,200 OH, MY GOSH. 839 00:32:02,200 --> 00:32:03,433 YOU ARE MY FAVORITE PERSON RIGHT 840 00:32:03,433 --> 00:32:04,267 NOW, I SWEAR. 841 00:32:04,267 --> 00:32:05,733 >> I'M ACTUALLY GONNA BE A 842 00:32:05,733 --> 00:32:06,867 FATHER. 843 00:32:06,867 --> 00:32:10,400 >> [ CHUCKLES ] CONGRATULATIONS. 844 00:32:10,400 --> 00:32:11,200 IT HAD A HEARTBEAT. 845 00:32:11,200 --> 00:32:12,867 >> I KNOW. I'M HAPPY. 846 00:32:12,867 --> 00:32:14,233 >> ARE YOU SURE? 847 00:32:14,233 --> 00:32:15,767 >> YEAH. 848 00:32:15,933 --> 00:32:17,433 >> BECAUSE OF YOUR BYPASS AND 849 00:32:17,433 --> 00:32:19,067 BECAUSE OF YOUR PREGNANCY, THE 850 00:32:19,067 --> 00:32:20,500 REALLY BEST THING TO DO IS TO 851 00:32:20,500 --> 00:32:22,400 PUT A LITTLE, TINY BIT OF FOOD 852 00:32:22,400 --> 00:32:24,333 IN YOUR STOMACH EVERY HOUR OR 853 00:32:24,333 --> 00:32:25,233 TWO. 854 00:32:25,400 --> 00:32:26,800 >> LET ME SHOW YOU MY 855 00:32:26,800 --> 00:32:28,733 ORIGINAL -- THIS WAS THREE DAYS 856 00:32:28,733 --> 00:32:30,267 BEFORE MY BYPASS. 857 00:32:30,267 --> 00:32:32,367 I STILL DEAL WITH THAT PERSON. 858 00:32:32,367 --> 00:32:34,567 SO WHEN YOU SAY EAT EVERY HOUR, 859 00:32:34,567 --> 00:32:35,767 THAT SCARES ME. 860 00:32:35,767 --> 00:32:37,567 >> THAT STRESSES YOU OUT? 861 00:32:37,567 --> 00:32:38,933 YOU'RE A FABULOUS, BEAUTIFUL 862 00:32:38,933 --> 00:32:39,333 LADY. 863 00:32:39,333 --> 00:32:41,067 HERE, TOO. 864 00:32:41,067 --> 00:32:42,433 BUT I UNDERSTAND THE STRESS THAT 865 00:32:42,433 --> 00:32:43,733 YOU CAN GET IN YOUR MIND, SO 866 00:32:43,733 --> 00:32:44,733 WE'LL TRY THAT FIRST. 867 00:32:44,733 --> 00:32:46,067 AND IF THAT DOESN'T WORK, YOU 868 00:32:46,067 --> 00:32:47,967 CAN CALL US. 869 00:32:59,367 --> 00:33:00,667 >> OKAY. 870 00:33:01,267 --> 00:33:02,733 THINK THAT ONE'S READY TO GO. 871 00:33:08,467 --> 00:33:09,467 >> CHRIS? 872 00:33:09,467 --> 00:33:11,333 >> I'M NOT TYING IT THAT TIGHT! 873 00:33:11,333 --> 00:33:12,400 >> KEEP CALLING IT A BABY 874 00:33:12,400 --> 00:33:13,533 SHOWER, BUT I DON'T THINK IT'S A 875 00:33:13,533 --> 00:33:14,167 BABY SHOWER. 876 00:33:14,167 --> 00:33:15,467 I THINK IT'S MORE OF A PARTY, A 877 00:33:15,467 --> 00:33:19,800 CELEBRATION. 878 00:33:19,800 --> 00:33:21,433 FIRST THING MY MOM SAID TO ME. 879 00:33:21,433 --> 00:33:22,467 >> WHAT? 880 00:33:22,467 --> 00:33:24,400 >> "BOY, YOU ARE BIG." 881 00:33:24,400 --> 00:33:26,300 I DON'T THINK SHE WAS TALKING 882 00:33:26,300 --> 00:33:27,400 ABOUT MY BELLY. 883 00:33:27,400 --> 00:33:31,167 I WAS BRACING MYSELF FOR THEM. 884 00:33:31,167 --> 00:33:32,533 >> HI, BEAUTIFUL. 885 00:33:32,533 --> 00:33:33,800 >> HELLO, BABY. 886 00:33:33,800 --> 00:33:35,067 >> BE CAREFUL. 887 00:33:35,067 --> 00:33:36,667 SHE MIGHT KICK YOU. 888 00:33:36,667 --> 00:33:38,067 >> AND IS IT ALLONA? 889 00:33:38,067 --> 00:33:38,867 >> ALLONA. 890 00:33:38,867 --> 00:33:40,767 >> ALLONA. OKAY. 891 00:33:40,767 --> 00:33:42,500 >> IT'S ALMOST SURREAL. 892 00:33:42,500 --> 00:33:44,067 I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE HERE. 893 00:33:44,067 --> 00:33:46,533 I REALLY HONESTLY GAVE UP EVEN 894 00:33:46,533 --> 00:33:47,567 HAVING KIDS. 895 00:33:47,567 --> 00:33:49,067 >> AND TO SEE HOW BIG YOU GOT! 896 00:33:51,633 --> 00:33:53,400 OH, YOU'RE GETTING TO BE PRETTY 897 00:33:53,400 --> 00:33:53,833 BIG. 898 00:33:53,833 --> 00:33:54,900 THIS IS ALL BABY. 899 00:33:54,900 --> 00:33:57,700 IT'LL BE GONE IN NO TIME. 900 00:33:57,867 --> 00:33:59,500 >> WHEN MELISSA COME HOME THIS 901 00:33:59,500 --> 00:34:01,200 TIME AND I SAW HOW MUCH WEIGHT 902 00:34:01,200 --> 00:34:03,500 SHE HAD GAINED, IT WORRIES ME. 903 00:34:03,500 --> 00:34:05,400 IT REALLY WORRIES ME. 904 00:34:05,567 --> 00:34:06,733 I THINK SHE BLAMES A LOT OF 905 00:34:06,733 --> 00:34:07,800 THINGS ON HER PREGNANCY. 906 00:34:07,800 --> 00:34:08,767 I REALLY DO. 907 00:34:08,767 --> 00:34:10,567 I THINK SHE THINKS, "IT'S OKAY 908 00:34:10,567 --> 00:34:12,067 'CAUSE I'M PREGNANT." 909 00:34:12,067 --> 00:34:14,100 >> I CAN FULLY SAY THAT I'M 910 00:34:14,100 --> 00:34:16,300 HEAVIER NOW THAN I WANT TO BE, 911 00:34:16,300 --> 00:34:18,567 AND IT'S BECAUSE I KNOW EXACTLY 912 00:34:18,567 --> 00:34:19,767 WHAT I'M DOING WRONG. 913 00:34:19,767 --> 00:34:23,200 I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT HABITS I 914 00:34:23,200 --> 00:34:25,533 SHOULDN'T BE DOING. 915 00:34:25,533 --> 00:34:27,100 >> WE HAVE BOTH REALLY 916 00:34:27,100 --> 00:34:28,067 REGRESSED. 917 00:34:28,067 --> 00:34:29,333 I MEAN, IT'S HARD. 918 00:34:29,333 --> 00:34:30,667 WE BOTH SLIP BACK INTO OLD 919 00:34:30,667 --> 00:34:32,133 HABITS, EATING OUT, YOU KNOW, 920 00:34:32,133 --> 00:34:33,633 DRINKING SODAS AND THINGS LIKE 921 00:34:33,633 --> 00:34:34,067 THAT. 922 00:34:34,067 --> 00:34:35,633 WE BOTH KNOW WE NEED TO CUT THAT 923 00:34:35,633 --> 00:34:37,267 OUT. 924 00:34:37,267 --> 00:34:38,733 >> SHE WAS SO MUCH MORE ALIVE 925 00:34:38,733 --> 00:34:40,133 WHEN SHE WAS THINNER, SO I'M 926 00:34:40,133 --> 00:34:42,867 HOPING SHE GOES BACK TO THAT AND 927 00:34:42,867 --> 00:34:45,600 ALL THREE CAN LIVE A HEALTHIER 928 00:34:45,600 --> 00:34:47,700 LIFE. 929 00:34:47,700 --> 00:34:48,867 >> EVERY DAY I'M AFRAID 930 00:34:48,867 --> 00:34:50,100 SOMETHING'S GONNA HAPPEN. 931 00:34:50,100 --> 00:34:51,600 EVERY DAY, I'M AFRAID I'M GONNA 932 00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:53,067 HAVE HER AND I'M GONNA GAIN MY 933 00:34:53,067 --> 00:34:54,433 WEIGHT BACK OR I'M GONNA GAIN 934 00:34:54,433 --> 00:34:55,933 TOO MUCH WEIGHT AND NOT BE ABLE 935 00:34:55,933 --> 00:34:56,600 TO LOSE IT. 936 00:34:56,600 --> 00:34:59,467 [ SNIFFLES ] EVERY DAY. 937 00:34:59,467 --> 00:35:01,433 EVERY DAY IS A HARD DAY. 938 00:35:04,733 --> 00:35:08,267 [ MONITOR BEEPING ] 939 00:35:08,267 --> 00:35:09,633 >> IT'S 2:00. 940 00:35:09,633 --> 00:35:12,333 WE'VE BEEN HERE SINCE 6:00 LAST 941 00:35:12,333 --> 00:35:14,233 NIGHT. 942 00:35:18,467 --> 00:35:20,067 >> I'LL BE HONEST WITH YOU. 943 00:35:20,067 --> 00:35:21,767 EVEN UP UNTIL A YEAR AGO, I 944 00:35:21,767 --> 00:35:23,700 STILL DIDN'T THINK I WAS GONNA 945 00:35:23,700 --> 00:35:24,400 BE HERE. 946 00:35:24,400 --> 00:35:26,533 I NEVER THOUGHT I WAS GONNA 947 00:35:26,533 --> 00:35:28,700 GIVE BIRTH TO MY OWN CHILD. 948 00:35:28,700 --> 00:35:30,200 I HAVE DEFINITELY GAINED WAY 949 00:35:30,200 --> 00:35:31,700 MORE WEIGHT THAN I WANTED TO 950 00:35:31,700 --> 00:35:32,833 WITH THIS PREGNANCY. 951 00:35:32,833 --> 00:35:34,567 DR. NOWZARADAN HAS SAID 952 00:35:34,567 --> 00:35:36,900 SOMETHING TO ME ABOUT MY WEIGHT 953 00:35:36,900 --> 00:35:39,200 AND ABOUT "THIS IS HOW BIG THE 954 00:35:39,200 --> 00:35:40,867 BABY IS" AND "THIS IS HOW MUCH 955 00:35:40,867 --> 00:35:42,967 WEIGHT YOU'VE GAINED." 956 00:35:42,967 --> 00:35:44,800 THAT HAS BEEN VERY HARD. 957 00:35:44,800 --> 00:35:46,700 [ GROANS ] 958 00:35:55,067 --> 00:35:56,800 >> I MEAN, LITERALLY, NURSE JUST 959 00:35:56,800 --> 00:35:58,333 WALKED OUT. 960 00:35:58,333 --> 00:35:59,267 >> HI. 961 00:35:59,267 --> 00:36:00,767 >> IS THIS MY BABY? 962 00:36:00,933 --> 00:36:03,633 [ ALL GASPING ] 963 00:36:03,633 --> 00:36:05,633 >> SHE'S SO TINY! 964 00:36:05,800 --> 00:36:09,700 FIVE POUNDS, SEVEN OUNCES. 965 00:36:09,700 --> 00:36:11,200 I WAS SO PROUD. 966 00:36:11,200 --> 00:36:12,533 THAT'S ALL WE EVER TALKED ABOUT. 967 00:36:12,533 --> 00:36:13,533 "I WANT TO HAVE A BABY. 968 00:36:13,533 --> 00:36:14,567 I WANT TO HAVE A BABY." 969 00:36:14,567 --> 00:36:15,600 THAT'S THE ONE THING I'M 970 00:36:15,600 --> 00:36:19,067 PROUDEST OF FOR HER IS GIVING ME 971 00:36:19,067 --> 00:36:23,833 A DAUGHTER. 972 00:36:23,833 --> 00:36:25,400 I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE HOW TINY 973 00:36:25,400 --> 00:36:28,067 SHE IS. 974 00:36:28,067 --> 00:36:30,700 [ MONITOR BEEPING ] 975 00:36:33,933 --> 00:36:36,100 >> I KNOW. OH, YES. OH, YES. 976 00:36:36,100 --> 00:36:38,300 >> MY GOAL, FROM THE BEGINNING, 977 00:36:38,300 --> 00:36:39,467 WAS TO HAVE A CHILD. 978 00:36:39,633 --> 00:36:41,300 BUT NOW THAT I HAVE HER, IT'S, 979 00:36:41,300 --> 00:36:42,900 LIKE, A MILLION TIMES BETTER 980 00:36:42,900 --> 00:36:45,467 THAN THE EXPECTATION THAT I HAD. 981 00:36:45,467 --> 00:36:49,300 >> [ COUGHS, SOBS ] 982 00:36:49,300 --> 00:36:51,333 >> YEAH. 983 00:36:51,333 --> 00:36:54,467 NO FAST FOOD FOR YOU. NO. 984 00:37:09,833 --> 00:37:11,067 >> YOU HAVE TO STAY HERE. 985 00:37:11,067 --> 00:37:12,267 YOU HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL. 986 00:37:12,267 --> 00:37:13,800 GO TO MOMMY. 987 00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:15,500 MWAH. I LOVE YOU. 988 00:37:15,500 --> 00:37:16,367 >> BYE. 989 00:37:16,367 --> 00:37:17,067 >> BYE. 990 00:37:17,067 --> 00:37:18,933 >> MY WHOLE LIFE IS ABOUT BEING 991 00:37:18,933 --> 00:37:19,533 A MOM. 992 00:37:19,533 --> 00:37:21,100 SHE'S MY EVERYTHING. 993 00:37:21,100 --> 00:37:23,067 SHE'S MY WHOLE REASON FOR 994 00:37:23,067 --> 00:37:23,767 LIVING. 995 00:37:23,767 --> 00:37:27,667 I CANNOT IMAGINE WHAT LIFE WOULD 996 00:37:27,667 --> 00:37:29,433 BE LIKE NOT BEING A MOM. 997 00:37:29,433 --> 00:37:33,200 YOU WANT BREAKFAST? 998 00:37:33,200 --> 00:37:34,100 GOOD JOB. 999 00:37:34,100 --> 00:37:36,400 BUT I HAVE FEARED SINCE THE DAY 1000 00:37:36,400 --> 00:37:37,767 SHE WAS BORN OF HER BEING 1001 00:37:37,767 --> 00:37:39,867 OVERWEIGHT. 1002 00:37:39,867 --> 00:37:41,633 I CAN SEE THAT SHE'S GOT THE 1003 00:37:41,633 --> 00:37:43,600 BUILD FOR IT AND SHE'S GOT THE 1004 00:37:43,600 --> 00:37:45,367 GENES FOR BEING OVERWEIGHT. 1005 00:37:45,367 --> 00:37:46,300 NO. MAMA'S HUNGRY. 1006 00:37:46,300 --> 00:37:47,267 PULL YOUR SHIRT UP. 1007 00:37:47,267 --> 00:37:48,533 LET MAMA HAVE A BITE. 1008 00:37:48,533 --> 00:37:50,133 BUT MY NUMBER-ONE PLAN IS TO 1009 00:37:50,133 --> 00:37:51,800 PROTECT MY DAUGHTER, 'CAUSE I 1010 00:37:51,800 --> 00:37:54,700 WANT BETTER FOR HER. 1011 00:37:54,700 --> 00:37:56,167 WANT TO DO RING AROUND THE 1012 00:37:56,167 --> 00:37:56,667 ROSEY? 1013 00:37:56,667 --> 00:38:00,067 [ LAUGHS ] 1014 00:38:00,067 --> 00:38:02,567 I'VE BEEN MARRIED NOW 11 YEARS. 1015 00:38:02,567 --> 00:38:04,533 FIRST 10, WE'RE GOOD. 1016 00:38:04,533 --> 00:38:07,067 LAST ONE'S BEEN A ROUGH ONE. 1017 00:38:07,067 --> 00:38:08,600 IN THE BEGINNING, IT WAS EASY 1018 00:38:08,600 --> 00:38:10,967 BECAUSE I WAS FAT. 1019 00:38:10,967 --> 00:38:14,167 SO I DEDICATED MY LIFE TO HIM. 1020 00:38:14,167 --> 00:38:16,067 BUT NOW IT'S VERY HARD. 1021 00:38:19,167 --> 00:38:20,433 >> ARMS UP. ARMS UP. 1022 00:38:20,433 --> 00:38:22,167 >> CHRIS SAYS HE LOVES ME ALL 1023 00:38:22,167 --> 00:38:24,067 THE TIME, BUT YOU GOT TO MEASURE 1024 00:38:24,067 --> 00:38:25,933 WHAT LOVE REALLY MEANS. 1025 00:38:25,933 --> 00:38:28,400 TWO YEARS AFTER CHEATING ON ME, 1026 00:38:28,400 --> 00:38:30,767 I FIND THAT HE'S NOW TALKING TO 1027 00:38:30,767 --> 00:38:33,900 SOME OTHER LADY ON THE COMPUTER. 1028 00:38:33,900 --> 00:38:36,067 AND THEN THE THIRD ONE I FOUND 1029 00:38:36,067 --> 00:38:37,933 OUT WAS WHEN ALLONA WAS TWO 1030 00:38:37,933 --> 00:38:38,900 MONTHS OLD. 1031 00:38:38,900 --> 00:38:42,433 WHEN SHE WAS TWO MONTHS OLD. 1032 00:38:42,433 --> 00:38:43,900 FOR THE LONGEST TIME, I FELT 1033 00:38:43,900 --> 00:38:45,167 LIKE I WAS IN THE WRONG. 1034 00:38:45,167 --> 00:38:46,733 I MEAN, AT 700 POUNDS, WHAT DO 1035 00:38:46,733 --> 00:38:48,667 YOU EXPECT? 1036 00:38:48,667 --> 00:38:50,367 BUT HE DID IT EVEN AFTER I LOST 1037 00:38:50,367 --> 00:38:51,967 WEIGHT, SO IT'S NOT BECAUSE I 1038 00:38:51,967 --> 00:38:52,567 WAS FAT. 1039 00:38:52,567 --> 00:38:55,467 HE DID IT JUST RECENTLY. 1040 00:38:55,467 --> 00:38:59,600 NOW I WANT HIM TO GET HELP. 1041 00:38:59,600 --> 00:39:01,900 AND HE SAYS, "I DON'T NEED TO 1042 00:39:01,900 --> 00:39:02,800 GET HELP. 1043 00:39:02,800 --> 00:39:04,400 I'LL JUST STOP DOING IT." 1044 00:39:04,400 --> 00:39:05,867 DID YOU CHECK THAT MEAT FOR ME? 1045 00:39:05,867 --> 00:39:06,400 >> NOT YET. 1046 00:39:06,400 --> 00:39:07,400 >> YOU GOING TO THIS YEAR? 1047 00:39:07,400 --> 00:39:11,600 >> YES, I AM. 1048 00:39:11,600 --> 00:39:12,667 >> YOU LIKE BEING MARRIED? 1049 00:39:12,667 --> 00:39:14,467 >> YES. 1050 00:39:14,467 --> 00:39:15,900 I NEVER HAVE NOT LIKED BEING 1051 00:39:15,900 --> 00:39:17,800 MARRIED. 1052 00:39:21,833 --> 00:39:23,400 >> OUR LEASE IS ABOUT UP ON OUR 1053 00:39:23,400 --> 00:39:25,100 NEW APARTMENT, AND I KEEP 1054 00:39:25,100 --> 00:39:26,367 THINKING WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO 1055 00:39:26,367 --> 00:39:29,067 HAVE SEPARATION PAPERS DRAWN UP. 1056 00:39:29,067 --> 00:39:31,300 >> NIGHT, NIGHT. 1057 00:39:31,300 --> 00:39:33,100 >> I TRULY LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY 1058 00:39:33,100 --> 00:39:35,433 HEART, BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT I 1059 00:39:35,433 --> 00:39:36,767 NEED TO DO. 1060 00:39:36,767 --> 00:39:38,067 [ BABY CRYING ] 1061 00:39:38,067 --> 00:39:39,067 I DON'T KNOW. 1062 00:39:39,067 --> 00:39:40,600 >> I DON'T WANT TO SEPARATE. 1063 00:39:40,600 --> 00:39:42,500 I DON'T WANT A DIVORCE. 1064 00:39:48,867 --> 00:39:50,133 >> GOOD MORNING, MISS JACKIE. 1065 00:39:50,300 --> 00:39:51,367 THIS IS MELISSA FROM 1066 00:39:51,367 --> 00:39:52,400 DR. NOWZARADAN'S. 1067 00:39:52,400 --> 00:39:53,167 HOW ARE YOU? 1068 00:39:53,167 --> 00:39:54,767 I'M ON MY WAY TO COME AND SEE 1069 00:39:54,767 --> 00:39:55,200 YOU. 1070 00:39:55,200 --> 00:39:56,533 WE'RE GONNA MEET WITH A 1071 00:39:56,533 --> 00:39:58,267 PATIENT WHO IS ABOUT TO HAVE HER 1072 00:39:58,267 --> 00:40:00,767 SURGERY. 1073 00:40:00,767 --> 00:40:01,933 THIS IS WHAT I LOVE. 1074 00:40:01,933 --> 00:40:03,667 HONESTLY, THIS IS WHAT I LOVE TO 1075 00:40:03,667 --> 00:40:04,033 DO. 1076 00:40:04,033 --> 00:40:05,433 LET'S GO IN YOUR KITCHEN. 1077 00:40:05,433 --> 00:40:07,033 I'M GONNA SHOW YOU SOME STUFF 1078 00:40:07,033 --> 00:40:08,633 THAT, AFTER THE SURGERY, I 1079 00:40:08,633 --> 00:40:10,067 REALLY PREFER YOU NOT TO HAVE IN 1080 00:40:10,067 --> 00:40:10,867 YOUR HOUSE. 1081 00:40:10,867 --> 00:40:12,800 NO MALT-O-MEAL. 1082 00:40:12,800 --> 00:40:14,267 NO WAFFLES. 1083 00:40:14,267 --> 00:40:16,033 REALLY NEED TO AVOID THE NOODLES 1084 00:40:16,033 --> 00:40:17,133 AT ALL COSTS. 1085 00:40:17,133 --> 00:40:18,567 >> THANK YOU, BABY. 1086 00:40:18,567 --> 00:40:20,067 I LOVE YOU, MELISSA. 1087 00:40:20,067 --> 00:40:21,000 I LOVE YOU, BABY. 1088 00:40:21,000 --> 00:40:22,533 >> I LOVE WAKING UP AND GOING TO 1089 00:40:22,533 --> 00:40:24,900 WORK, DOING SOMETHING THAT I 1090 00:40:24,900 --> 00:40:25,600 LOVE. 1091 00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:29,033 IT JUST KEEPS ME GROUNDED. 1092 00:40:29,033 --> 00:40:33,300 I REALLY BELIEVE THAT EVERYBODY, 1093 00:40:33,300 --> 00:40:35,233 EVERYBODY SHOULD HAVE THEIR 1094 00:40:35,233 --> 00:40:37,133 CHANCE. 1095 00:40:40,433 --> 00:40:41,767 >> I USED TO TELL HER ALL THE 1096 00:40:41,767 --> 00:40:43,133 TIME I WANTED TO GROW OLD WITH 1097 00:40:43,133 --> 00:40:44,433 HER BECAUSE I REALLY DO LOVE 1098 00:40:44,433 --> 00:40:44,800 HER. 1099 00:40:44,800 --> 00:40:47,400 I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED HER. 1100 00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:49,400 I'M NOT PROUD OF WHAT I'VE DONE. 1101 00:40:49,400 --> 00:40:51,500 I'M ASHAMED OF IT. 1102 00:40:51,500 --> 00:40:53,033 SHE'S TOLD ME ONE OF THE MAIN 1103 00:40:53,033 --> 00:40:54,667 STIPULATIONS OF WHY SHE'S STILL 1104 00:40:54,667 --> 00:40:57,233 WITH ME IS THAT SHE SAID THAT IF 1105 00:40:57,233 --> 00:40:58,733 OUR MARRIAGE IS TO CONTINUE, I 1106 00:40:58,733 --> 00:41:00,667 HAVE TO GET SOME COUNSELING. 1107 00:41:04,933 --> 00:41:06,333 >> WANT TO GO HAVE A DAY WITH 1108 00:41:06,333 --> 00:41:08,733 MOM AND DAD? 1109 00:41:08,733 --> 00:41:11,433 HMM? 1110 00:41:11,433 --> 00:41:11,867 >> YEAH. 1111 00:41:11,867 --> 00:41:12,833 I'M REALLY -- I'M SORRY. 1112 00:41:12,833 --> 00:41:14,067 [ Voice breaking ] I REALLY MEAN 1113 00:41:14,067 --> 00:41:15,867 THAT. 1114 00:41:15,867 --> 00:41:18,700 I WILL MAKE THIS WORK. 1115 00:41:18,700 --> 00:41:20,067 >> THANK YOU. 1116 00:41:20,067 --> 00:41:22,867 ULTIMATELY, WITH ALL MY HEART, I 1117 00:41:22,867 --> 00:41:26,633 LOVE CHRIS. 1118 00:41:26,633 --> 00:41:29,167 I WANT TO BE WITH HIM, AND I 1119 00:41:29,167 --> 00:41:30,400 THINK THAT MY MARRIAGE IS WORTH 1120 00:41:30,400 --> 00:41:35,267 FIGHTING FOR. 1121 00:41:35,267 --> 00:41:36,933 IT'S GONNA BE A LOT OF TALKING, 1122 00:41:36,933 --> 00:41:38,300 AND NOT ONLY TALKING BUT 1123 00:41:38,300 --> 00:41:39,933 LISTENING -- LISTENING ON BOTH 1124 00:41:39,933 --> 00:41:40,767 ENDS. 1125 00:41:40,767 --> 00:41:43,400 WHEN I WAS LOSING WEIGHT, I 1126 00:41:43,400 --> 00:41:44,733 REALLY WASN'T TAKING CHRIS IN 1127 00:41:44,733 --> 00:41:46,600 ACCOUNT. 1128 00:41:46,600 --> 00:41:48,333 I KNOW THIS JOURNEY WASN'T EASY 1129 00:41:48,333 --> 00:41:49,900 FOR HIM EITHER, BUT HE STUCK 1130 00:41:49,900 --> 00:41:51,667 AROUND THROUGH EVERYTHING, WHICH 1131 00:41:51,667 --> 00:41:53,567 MEANS A LOT. 1132 00:42:02,400 --> 00:42:03,767 SUCKING IN MY STOMACH'S NOT 1133 00:42:03,767 --> 00:42:04,767 GONNA HELP, IS IT? 1134 00:42:04,767 --> 00:42:07,400 I'M SO GRATEFUL. 1135 00:42:07,400 --> 00:42:10,567 LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER. 1136 00:42:10,733 --> 00:42:11,733 >> 214. 1137 00:42:11,733 --> 00:42:14,067 >> THAT'S A BIG NUMBER. 1138 00:42:14,067 --> 00:42:15,733 >> IT'S BEEN A LITTLE BIT HARD 1139 00:42:15,733 --> 00:42:17,467 TO LOSE WEIGHT AFTER PREGNANCY, 1140 00:42:17,467 --> 00:42:18,567 BUT YOU'RE DOING GOOD. 1141 00:42:18,567 --> 00:42:20,700 YOU'RE ALMOST 88% OF YOUR EXCESS 1142 00:42:20,700 --> 00:42:21,700 BODY WEIGHT. 1143 00:42:21,700 --> 00:42:23,100 440 POUNDS. 1144 00:42:23,100 --> 00:42:24,367 YOU'VE DONE EXCELLENT. 1145 00:42:24,367 --> 00:42:25,433 I'M PROUD OF YOU. 1146 00:42:25,433 --> 00:42:27,100 >> THANKS. I APPRECIATE THAT. 1147 00:42:27,100 --> 00:42:27,967 YOU MAKE ME CRY. 1148 00:42:27,967 --> 00:42:29,467 >> CHECK A COUPLE THINGS AND SEE 1149 00:42:29,467 --> 00:42:30,367 HOW YOU'RE DOING. 1150 00:42:30,367 --> 00:42:31,633 >> SOMETIMES I LOOK IN THE 1151 00:42:31,633 --> 00:42:32,900 MIRROR AND I THINK, "WOW." 1152 00:42:32,900 --> 00:42:34,867 'CAUSE I CAN SEE THAT MY WAIST 1153 00:42:34,867 --> 00:42:36,200 IS, LIKE, THIS BIG. 1154 00:42:36,200 --> 00:42:37,733 BUT THEN SOMETIMES I LOOK IN THE 1155 00:42:37,733 --> 00:42:39,167 MIRROR AND I STILL THINK THAT 1156 00:42:39,167 --> 00:42:41,267 I'M FAT, SO I STILL HAVE ISSUES. 1157 00:42:41,267 --> 00:42:43,067 >> YOU HAVE DONE MARVELOUS. 1158 00:42:43,067 --> 00:42:43,900 >> THANK YOU. 1159 00:42:44,067 --> 00:42:45,800 I COULD TELL YOU THIS WHOLE 1160 00:42:45,800 --> 00:42:47,833 JOURNEY WAS EASY, BUT THAT WOULD 1161 00:42:47,833 --> 00:42:49,533 BE A LIE, BUT IT WOULDN'T BE A 1162 00:42:49,533 --> 00:42:51,467 LIE TO TELL YOU IT WAS WORTH IT. 1163 00:42:51,467 --> 00:42:54,667 NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S 1164 00:42:54,667 --> 00:42:57,767 LIKE TO GO FROM WHERE I WAS TO 1165 00:42:57,767 --> 00:43:03,300 WHERE I AM TODAY. 1166 00:43:03,300 --> 00:43:04,867 I'M LIVING THE DREAM THAT I'VE 1167 00:43:04,867 --> 00:43:06,467 ALWAYS WANTED AND NEVER KNEW I 1168 00:43:06,467 --> 00:43:06,867 DID. 1169 00:43:06,867 --> 00:43:08,267 YOU READY TO GO TO THE NEW 1170 00:43:08,267 --> 00:43:08,733 HOUSE? 1171 00:43:08,733 --> 00:43:09,467 >> [ LAUGHS ] 1172 00:43:09,467 --> 00:43:10,667 >> IF IT WEREN'T FOR THE 1173 00:43:10,667 --> 00:43:12,133 WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, I WOULDN'T 1174 00:43:12,133 --> 00:43:13,267 STILL BE HERE. 1175 00:43:13,267 --> 00:43:14,400 OH. THANK YOU. 1176 00:43:14,400 --> 00:43:16,100 I'M VERY APPRECIATIVE OF 1177 00:43:16,100 --> 00:43:17,767 EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE. 1178 00:43:17,767 --> 00:43:19,533 PACK UP YOUR BOOKS. 1179 00:43:19,533 --> 00:43:20,433 I LOVE LIFE. 1180 00:43:20,433 --> 00:43:23,300 >> YOU READY TO GO? 1181 00:43:23,300 --> 00:43:25,067 >> LIFE IS MEANT TO BE LIVED TO 1182 00:43:25,067 --> 00:43:26,767 ITS FULLEST, AND THAT'S MY FULL 1183 00:43:26,767 --> 00:43:28,567 INTENTIONS OF DOING IT -- LIVING 1184 00:43:28,567 --> 00:43:31,333 IT TO ITS FULLEST. 1185 00:43:31,333 --> 00:43:32,933 ARE YOU HOME, MAMA? 73925

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