All language subtitles for Light.of.My.Life.2019.BluRay.H264.AAC-NTG

- Want me to tell you a story ?
- What, a Bobo and Jojo story ?

No, I was not planning
on telling you a story

about the enduring characters
of Bobo and Jojo,

but you could mention their names
with a little bit of respect.

You might be too old for them now,
but there was a time

when you were insatiable
for a good Bobo and Jojo story.

- I am sated.
- Fine, because this is a new story.

A new story about a young girl...

- Don't make it about me.
- I am not making it about you.

It's about a young girl...
fox named Jamie.

Dad. That's the girl from
the mountain book, I told you.

Okay, this is about a...

this is the story
about a young girl fox named Goldy.

And she had a husband,
because she was a grown-up fox

and her husband's name
was Art,

and they were grown-ups,
so they lived together in a little hole.

And... Their foxhole.
And Art was kind of a tinkerer,

a scientist, an inventor,
a futzer and fiddler,

and he liked everything
to be very clean and neat in the hole.

He was very fastidious
about this and that little thing.

And he liked quiet time in the hole.
And Goldy was very...

you know, very tough and outdoorsy,
so it was very, very different...

- Dad, I said don't make it about me.
- I'm not.

- It's about a fox named Goldy.
- I'm tough and outdoorsy.

Okay. So what ?

So this is about a fox, named Goldy,
in a foxhole. That's not you.

So, one day,
Art took one of his inventions.

It was a weather-predicting machine,
and he took it up on top of a mountain.

He was kind of messing around with it.
He was trying to predict the weather.

And he saw these
big storm clouds on the horizon,

and the meters on his little
machine were going crazy.

He wasn't sure
if they were accurate or not

and he started looking
at the clouds on the horizon,

and he sees this human being
on the other mountain peak.

He was in a robe and sandals,
and this long beard,

and he's shouting up at the sky,
he's shouting up all talking,

and he just looks bananas.
And Art was a very smart fox.

He always knew when to listen
to his inside voice

if something didn't seem right,
just like we talk about.

He wrapped up his machine

and he went down the mountain
right away to get away from this guy.

And he went back to tell Goldy
about his findings,

because if they were accurate,
there was a gigantic storm coming.

Art, more than anybody,
hated to get wet and dirty,

and he hated when
their foxhole flooded.

Though Goldy didn't care that much.
Art hated it,

that's why he invented
the weather-predicting machine.

But Goldy wasn't there,
and he couldn't find her anywhere.

But he did notice that all these crowds
are all moving in the same direction,

all these different animals.

And he went to see what was going
on and he kinda got swept up,

and he followed them
all down to the bay.

And there in the water, huge
wooden raft, really, really big.

And he thought... "That thing
is not really built that well."

And just as he was thinking that,

he was sort of swept up
in the next crowd of people,

and he got jostled around, and
bumped up right up against Goldy.

There she was and he said:
"Where have you been ?"

She said,
"I've been in line for four hours !"

And he said... She hated lines.
And he said: "In line for what ?"

"In a line for the competition".
He said: "What competition ?"

"The best male and female of each
species, of each kind of animal..."

I know what a species is.

"... gets to go on an adventure
on that big giant boat, Noah's ark."

- This isn't how Noah's ark goes.
- Well, this is my story.

Called "Noah's ark" ?

It's not about Noah's ark,
this is called "Art's ark."

So he doesn't wanna be left behind,
not because he loves adventures,

but he loves Goldy very much and he
knows that just spending time with her

is the way to keep their marriage going.

So he enters the competition, but he's
no good. Instantly, he gets beaten.

Because the things that they are
having the male foxes do

are all about who's got
the biggest muscles,

the shiniest hair or fur,
who's got the sharpest fangs,

and that's not really Art's thing.
So he loses.

And Goldy is marched off
with another male fox,

and all the other animals, two by two,
onto Noah's ark.

- What's his name ?
- His name was Fang.

And he's sharpened one
of his little teeth

to make it look
like a snarling sharp fang.

So a bunch of humans march all the
animals on, including Fang and Goldy,

and they're all on the boat,
and then a man walks out,

the same one that had been
on the top of the mountain,

and he says...
"G'day, folks, I'm Noah."

"How are you ? Good day.
G'day, folks. How are you ?"

And all the animals
were staring at him.

He keeps saying: "How are you ?
Good day, g'day. Hey, good on you."

He says: "Hey, you are
the chosen ones, all right ?"

"Take you out
to the chosen ones' farm."

Goin' to the farm where all the chosen
ones are. G'day. How are you ?"

"How are you ? G'day."

He gets on.
And then he goes down below,

and the boat starts
to drift off from the shore.

And Art's standing there, miserable,
watching Goldy leave,

and Goldy blows him a kiss:

"I'll be back in a week !
I'll see you in a week, I love you !"

Boom !
Clap of thunder, flash of lightning,

the sky opens up,
and just rain comes out of nowhere,

drenching him, he's soaked.
He hates being wet.

He mopes back to his foxhole,
lays down miserable,

he falls asleep, and he has this dream,
Goldy's on the deck of the boat,

and the boat's being tossed around,
and she's yelling: "Help ! Help !"

And Art wakes up,
and his hole is full of water,

water sloshing all around,
and he goes: "Help !"

And he jumps out of the hole.

He sees that the whole valley's
flooded. It's like a giant mudslide.

And he realizes that Noah must have
read... predicted the weather too.

He didn't make some fun cruise,
he was making a life raft.

And that everyone who
was left behind was gonna die.

But Art was the only one
who knew this second bit of information,

that that boat was
not made that well

and everyone on Noah's ark was gonna
die too because it was gonna fall apart.

And so he knew
he had to make his own ark.

- Art's ark.
- Art's ark !

So he gets... He can't do it alone,
so he gets his old friend the beaver...

Bob the Beaver.

He was an old beaver,
he'd been around forever.

And his story's amazing,
which I'll tell you another night.

Bob's incredible. Genius.
And so he gets Bob the Beaver,

and they build this boat,
they build Art's ark together.

And they even put this
big wooden piece of mast,

and they weave these palm fronds
together so it catches the wind.

- A sail.
- A sail !

They make the first sail.

Art invented the sail !
Art was amazing.

So, it zooms up really quickly
and it catches Noah's ark.

And it's being tossed, taking on water,
it's basically about to fall apart.

And the sharks are circling,
and their mouths are salivating.

They can't wait to eat
all those animals.

And all the animals on Noah's ark
are panicking.

And there's land on the horizon,
but Noah just can't steer there,

'cause he didn't put
rudder on, he didn't do anything.

Art's an artist, a craftsman.
I mean, he built the thing.

And Noah's was just a floating bunch
of planks, and they were coming apart.

And so, quickly, Art throws a lasso
around the bow of Noah's ark,

pops the sail, pulls them out
of the eye of the storm, onto the land.

All the animals get off.
And Noah walks out too.

He goes...
"I've saved ya. See that ? I saved ya."

"I've saved you all. You're all my
children now. G'day. How are ya ?"

And Art doesn't care
if he takes the credit.

He just wanted to be with Goldy,
save everyone's life,

and he doesn't take any credit.

He just walks off and makes
a new foxhole, with Goldy.

He's so happy to be back with her. She
never questioned his devices anymore.

And he always let her
make a bit of a mess in the hole.

They really appreciated each other
more after this.

And also, from then on,
foxes were not known

for being, you know, having beefy
muscles and long, flowy fox hair.

They were known for being clever
and courageous animals. The end.

You said it was gonna be about Goldy,
and then it was about Art.

Goldy's story is more complicated.
And that's a whole other story.

Was there really two of every species ?
'Cause that seems unlikely.

That does seem unlikely.
I can't believe I missed that.

What a bunch of bunk.

He must have made that whole
thing up about Noah's ark. Unlikely.

Sometimes stories
are made up, right ?

That's right.
Some stories are just made up.

I'm the only girl of my species.

- No, you're not. There are others.
- I'm the only one I ever saw.

You'll get older, and there'll be
more, and you'll meet them.

And would they know I'm a girl ?

They'll know if you let them know.

LIGHT OF MY LIFE

Rag ?

- Rag ?
- What ?

- What are you doing ?
- I'm reading.

- Alligator.
- A-L-L-I-G-A-T-O-R.

- Okay. Charcoal.
- Seriously ?

- Too easy ?
- Yes, it's charcoal.

Okay, relax. Too easy.

- Narcissistic.
- N-A-R-C-I-S-S-I-S-T-I-C.

Wow, that's pretty good.
Centrifugal. Centrifugal.

Centrifugal.

Dad. What's the difference
between morals and ethics ?

A moral's an idea...
about right and wrong.

And ethics are how those morals apply
to specific situations,

like it's wrong to kill someone,

but if they're gonna kill ten other
people, is it okay to kill him ?

I don't know why I use killing
as an example, it's pretty violent,

but it's kind of an... obvious moral.

This guy Luke, in my book,
has really bad morals and ethics. Both.

- How is he immoral and unethical ?
- 'Cause he's really bad.

He lies to protect himself,
and then he doesn't lie

when he could lie
to not break Lilly's heart.

I understand that.

What do you think he would say
to defend his own choices ?

Maybe he feels bad
about lying the first time.

And so he doesn't lie the second time,
even though that would be right.

So he would defend
his choice by saying

that he learned lying was wrong, so
now he wants to always tell the truth.

So he would be right morally
but not ethically.

Eat these.

Hey, get down.

- Stay here.
- Why ?

Because I said so.
Stay here.

- Can I help you, sir ?
- Jesus.

- I heard some noises from over a ways.
- I see. This is my camp. My things.

I didn't know anyone
was back in this part.

I'm not really back here,
I'm just passing through.

It's just me and an old army buddy
of mine. He's hunting at the moment.

- Can I help you ?
- No. I'm just pokin' around.

- And who have we here ?
- This is my son.

- What's your name ?
- Alex.

- And how old are you ?
- Eleven.

- Eleven ? What are you reading ?
- Just a book.

- It looks good. Comely boy.
- Thanks.

We aren't looking
for any more company, sir.

Yeah, I bet.

I will be on my way then.

If I see your buddy, I will say hello.

I told you to stay hiding.

Pack your things.

- Are we moving ?
- Yes.

- Now ? 'Cause of him ?
- Yes.

- He's a doddering old man.
- Him and everyone he knows.

- Is this a red alert ?
- No, but I would like to move quickly.

Why didn't you say I was your son
like we usually do ?

Instead of making me hide
and saying you had a buddy ?

I'll give you an answer to that when
I have some time to think about it.

Right now,
I need you to gather your things.

I don't know why you came
out of your hiding spot.

You've got to listen to my instructions
when I give them.

- Rag ?
- Okay.

When you asked me the question,
I said: "Because I said so",

and that's unfair,
you deserve to have an answer.

And I should have given you an answer,
but I couldn't in that moment.

- It's okay. I knew why. The man ?
- Yes, the man.

But... Well, yes, the man. Period.
But, anyway, the answer to your q...

Rag ? Rag ?
How do you know where you're going ?

Northwest.

How do you know
which direction northwest is ?

'Cause you told me
a million times and it's easy...

But if you're looking at your book,
and listening to me,

how do you know you're gonna go
in the right direction ?

'Cause it's not that hard to read,
listen, and walk in a straight line.

Okay, show me your compass.

Okay, fine.

- Do you think that man was immoral ?
- Immoral ? Maybe.

But I don't know him, so I don't know,
and our rule is better safe than sorry.

- Well, I don't know anybody.
- What do you mean ?

I don't know anybody.
All I know is you.

You knew those boys at the barn
and you knew their father.

- Not really.
- What do you mean "not really" ?

- We only knew them for three days.
- Yeah. Butý

I mean, well...
you know me.

I don't know what more
you could possibly ask for.

- Do you know how much I love you ?
- To the sun and back.

To the sun and back 30,000 times.
And it's a sun in a distant galaxy.

And we're taking a very slow spaceship.
It takes a very, very long time.

And there's a lot of headwind.
It's quite a trip.

How much do you love me ?

Like, to the top of a tree.

What ?

- What ?
- And back down.

- Dad ?
- Yeah, I'm here.

My stomach hurts a little.

Here, can you drink this ?

- Charcoal ?
- Yeah.

You know, there's a reason
that vomit smells bad.

What we ate ?

No, not exactly.
That's part, but the reason is

so that other people won't go near it
and they won't get sick.

- That's evolution at work.
- Am I gonna die ?

No, babe, you always say that,
and you always get better.

You're not gonna die.

- Do I have the plague ?
- No, you don't have the plague.

Do you remember
when I explained immunity to you ?

You're immune.
If you were gonna get the plague,

you would have had it
when you were very, very little.

And people vomit
for all kinds of reasons,

and all it means is that your body
is doing what it's supposed to do.

But you got to get rid of it
in the bowl

and not in the tent.

So when you feel like
you're gonna vomit,

you have to say,
"I need the bowl, I need the bowl."

Or else get outside.

She's asleep.
No rash, no fever, nothing.

Babe, I don't think
that you should just give up.

It's not giving up,
it's just letting go.

Okay.
I don't want you to let go.

I don't wanna die on a cot
in an overcrowded field hospital

being treated to
by volunteers with no cure.

You don't know that's
what's gonna happen.

- Can we check it out ?
- No, somebody could be living there.

- Really ?
- Yes, really.

Doesn't look like it.

There's vines all over it.
Please ?

Hello !

- Wait here. Take your whistle out.
- Okay.

Okay, take off your pack.
You can go up.

- There's bedrooms with beds.
- I know. Look at this.

Voila !

This is better than the barn
and the greenhouse.

You think so ?

- Can we stay ?
- No, this is somebody else's house.

- Well, so was the greenhouse.
- Not really.

But, Dad, no one's using it.

Rag, I know it would be nice.

But it is a place that other people
come to eventually, especially...

- So what ? It's fine.
- ...a house like this. It's not fine.

It's just as fine as in the woods.
We saw that guy in the woods...

It's just as likely that someone
finds us camping there.

We don't know if that man followed us
or if he told someone about us.

- Why would he ?
- Because he knew.

Also, this is closer to town,
so it's closer to other people.

I don't think it's a safe place to be.

We won't be any farther away
from the town if we make a camp.

It is more likely
that someone comes here

than to some random
place in the woods

where we put a tent,
because this is a house.

I'm not gonna be surprised by people
like we were at the greenhouse.

Dad, the house is covered in dust.
No one ever comes here.

If they did,
we could be carefully prepared for it,

and we could leave immediately
like we always do, with the red alert.

And we can play hide-and-seek inside.

And name the different rooms
like at the pond house.

- Okay. We can stay for a few days.
- For a few days ?

- Yeah, for a few days or not at all.
- Okay, fine, for a few days.

- Dad. Did you see that room upstairs ?
- Yes, I saw it.

- The one with the toys ?
- I saw it.

Hi.
You are awesome.

Rag ?

Get your emergency bag,
I'll show you the safe spot.

- Hey, Rag.
- It all fits.

Take it off.
Come downstairs.

I wasn't even leaving the room.

Are you kidding me ? Did I just tell
you to take all those clothes off ?

Do you think it's a joke ?

I know new clothes are exciting,
but you should know better.

- It's just a jacket.
- It's not just a jacket !

It's got sparkly things all over it !

Rag, hurry up !

Are you sulking ?

Are you gonna sulk ?

Put it in the hiding spot.

Okay, so where's
the emergency bag ?

There.

- And where's there ?
- In the fallen tree.

Sure are a lot of fallen trees around
here. What side of the house is it on ?

The kitchen side.

What ? What ? What ?

- Dad !
- Tell me ! What ?

Is that a child ?

I think it's a mother and a daughter,
but it's hard to tell.

- She's my size.
- Don't look at them too much.

It's okay.

- Hi. Want some water ?
- Yes.

What are you thinkin' ?

- When do you think they died ?
- Seven or eight years ago.

- How old would the kid be ?
- Maybe 18 years old.

- They were like... skeletons.
- They were like skeletons.

- But that won't be us anytime soon.
- How do you know ?

Because... we're not gonna get sick.
And because we have long lives to live.

Then why do we have to have
all the red alerts and...

Just because people
aren't getting sick anymore

doesn't mean that the world
is completely... right again.

- When will it be right again ?
- When it's balanced.

- When will it be balanced ?
- When there are more women.

Why can't men keep it balanced ?

'Cause they were scared,
and sad, and lonely,

and that made them angry,
and when they were angry,

they lost sight of everything
that was important and good in life.

- What's important and good in life ?
- It's different for everybody.

But I think that love
is most important and good.

Loving other people,
and letting them love you, and...

I think stories are important and good
'cause they connect us to other people,

and they make the world
seem like a bigger place.

And they're fun to tell.

But not all men are sad,
and lonely, and angry.

No, not all men.

But we don't know who,
it's hard to tell who, so...

- We stay away.
- Yep, but just for now, not forever.

And you know what ?
I kind of like it, just you and me.

Yeah, me too.

- Are we leaving ?
- Hi.

- No.
- So, we're staying ?

- We can stay a little bit longer.
- Then what are you doing ?

- I'm storing.
- Why ?

We're not gonna leave our belongings
sitting around in the house.

So get your belongings together.

Put them in storage, get your day pack.
And please put on your own clothes.

- Where are we going ?
- We're going to town.

- Really ?
- Yes.

- Are we going all the way to the shed ?
- No.

- The library ?
- If we can.

If we aren't going to the library,
I wanna stay here.

Rag, please put on your town hat
and take off the jacket.

I'm not walking there,
and I'm not wearing that stupid hat.

There are things you get to decide
and there are things that you don't.

What do I decide ?

What kinda attitude
you're gonna have

when you have to do things
that you don't wanna do.

He's young.

Yeah, he was just a newborn
when it happened.

It's nice to see a little guy around.
Probably not the youngest anymore.

They're making little girl babies
in a laboratory in California.

Probably a lot more in China.
You like little yellow China dolls ?

Is that a "no" ?
You're shy, aren't you ?

He hasn't made up his mind yet.
Thank you very much.

"Peaceful parent, happy kids"

"Raising a daughter"

"Strong father of strong daughters"

- How tall am I ?
- Seven or eight feet.

- Really ?
- Four feet, nine inches.

- My legs aren't long enough.
- What makes you say that ?

A woman's legs are supposed
to be half her body length.

- What ?
- That's what it said in the news.

- What news ?
- This.

- Did you get this from the library ?
- Yeah.

Those magazines are full of lies, kid.

They lie about who people are
and what they're supposed to be like.

- But it said "scientists say".
- Anybody can call themself scientist.

Anyone can write anything
they want in a magazine.

Do you know how long a woman's legs
are really supposed to be ?

Long enough to reach the ground.

- Do your legs reach the ground ?
- Yeah.

Well, then they're perfect.

When that man asked you a question,
you knew what he was talking about ?

Sort of.

Babies aren't grown in laboratories.

They are made when a man
and a woman, who love each other,

put their bodies together in a special
way and it makes the woman pregnant.

Sex.

Was that something
that you read about in a book ?

Yeah.

I should be reading
the books that you're reading,

to know what you're learning.

I didn't think that you were
reading such books.

- It's fine.
- Okay, well...

Did this book...

Anyway it's just science.

So I'll just explain it,
because it's not that big of a deal.

So babies are made by
men and women who are in love.

And they put their bodies together

in a special way,
'cause they're all grown up.

And that results in a baby
growing in the woman's belly.

And a baby grows for 40 weeks
or so in a womb.

It's called a "womb", which is a nice
safe place for a baby to grow.

And that's in a woman's belly.
And then it comes out of her vagina...

So those are body parts
that you have too.

But you're a child,
and so they're different.

Until you're older, and you grow up,
and those body parts will change

in a phase of your life
that's called "puberty".

And... It might feel funny
when you're growing a lot.

It makes your body change a lot.
But it's totally normal,

and everyone goes through it,
and it's very safe.

And, so... what that man was saying
about yellow China dolls

is that he was saying "young Chinese
girls", that's what he was saying.

Sometimes people will talk about
the color of other people's skin

in a way that is putting them down
or just out of habit or both.

And it's one way
that people have of being mean

even though there is no one skin color
that's any better than another color.

Or they'll say about girls,
they'll call them "dolls",

like they're just little dolls
in a doll house, not human beings.

And it's a way of putting girls down

without sort of while
you're pretending to be nice.

So that's what that was about.

And one more thing about puberty,
also,

is just that it that happens
when you sort of get like a...

Yeah, like a sort of... like a...
you get like a...

Well, like a little bloody nose
and it comes from where you pee

and that's totally normal,
and it's totally safe,

and it's just not
happening to you yet.

But you can just tell me
when that does happen to you,

and you know, just so I know,
and your mother had that,

and it doesn't mean that you are hurt,

it just means that your body is working
the way that it's supposed to work.

So it's a sort of normal function
and not a big deal.

All right, drink up.

- Are you mad at me ?
- No.

You know I love you more
than anything in the whole world ?

What about Mom ?

I love her too.
I love her a lot.

How can you love someone
that you never see ?

That's a good question.

Maybe you can miss them, and
remember them, and still love them.

I don't remember her.

But you're connected to her still,
and you have her in your imagination.

I don't have Mom in my imagination.

All I have is one tiny scratched-up
picture. I've no idea what she's like.

Rag, you had the best mom
in the whole world. The best.

How was she the best ?

Because she loved you
more than anything. So much.

She was so fun.
And she could get along with anybody.

- How was she so fun ?
- Well, let's see.

She loved adventures.

So we traveled a lot,
just like you and I do.

And she only ever called it
a love adventure.

Anytime we took a trip,
it was a love adventure.

I'd say: "Where are we gonna go ?"

She'd say:
"It's a love adventure, you and me."

And then we'd go somewhere,
and it'd be the most perfect trip ever.

Everything would just be perfect.
And I would never want it to end.

And then it would and she'd say:
"Wow. That was a love adventure."

And then we'd go on a trip,
and then everything would go wrong,

the worst trip you can imagine.

We'd get a flat tire
just on the way there,

and then break a tool
fixing the flat tire,

and then break a bone fixing
the tool fixing the flat tire.

And then she would say:
"It's a love adventure, you and me."

- We got a flat tire once.
- Oh man, that was no fun.

- You were so mad.
- I was. I was frustrated.

I didn't wanna be on that road.

- I bet she was a better cook than you.
- What ? No.

You have no idea. Until you've tasted
the food cooked by your mother,

you'll never know
what "inedible" really means.

It's like a salt extravaganza, like
eating a pile of salt with your face.

- You have to tell her about me, okay ?
- Yes.

But not only the good things, you're
gonna have to tell her everything.

- Okay ?
- Okay.

Also, can you tell her that I love her ?

And that I really wanted
to be her mom.

And I'm really sorry that I couldn't.

- Hey. Get over in there.
- What ? Who is it ?

What ? What is it ?

Stay in here and don't come out
until I come and get you.

- Yeah, what do you want ?
- We ran out of gas. Do you have any ?

- No, we don't.
- Can we come in for a second ?

- For what ?
- To dry off.

No, my brothers are sleeping,
they don't want anybody in the house.

Hey, were you in town
with the little kid yesterday ?

We don't have children.
You have the wrong house.

Come on out.

Come on out.

All right, go. Run.

Turn that off.

Who were they ?

They were just looking
for somebody else.

They were looking for me
'cause I'm a girl.

Yes.

Then why'd you say that they
were looking for someone else ?

I meant that they were looking for
someone they thought they could take.

They can't take you

because you're... careful.

Where would they take me ?

They're not gonna take you anywhere,
because they can't find you.

But where would they ?

I don't know. All I know is
that they were dangerous people.

But we're safe together.
That's enough to know, okay ?

What if someone hurt you ?

- People have hurt me.
- I mean like hurt you bad.

Then I would stop them.

And I would try not to hurt them back,
even though I'd be very mad at them.

But no matter what... no one's
gonna take you away, I promise.

What if they tied you up and
then knock you down and stab you ?

Then I'll get up, and I'll get free,
and I'll keep being your dad.

What if they kill you ?

Then I'll be dead.

And you'll be alive.
Until you're dead.

And then we'll be together.

And no matter what...
I'll always be with you.

Even if you can't see me,
you can't hear me...

I'm always with you.

What would happen to me ?

You would take very good care
of yourself and you'd be fine.

- Because you're very tough.
- I'm tough ?

- You're extremely tough, yes.
- How ?

Because you're careful
and you're persistent.

And because you're smart
and you listen to your inside voice.

But I'm not tougher than grown-ups.

Most grown-ups give up very easily.
I've known a lot of people.

And if they were able to get by
somehow, then you can get by too,

because you're much tougher
than they are.

But if you die, I'll just be alone.

I am not gonna die.
Nobody's gonna kill me.

I'm not gonna leave you.

Even if someone
tied me up and stabbed me

and knocked me down
and put me in a block of ice

and dropped me
in the bottom of the ocean.

I would get out,
and I would come find you.

And we'd just keep on
the way we always do.

And if that sounds impossible to you,
I'm sorry, but it's true.

But we only have one sleeping bag
and one emergency bag.

You're worried about the things
that we left behind, right ?

And you're worried about those men.

You don't have to worry about
those men. They're long gone.

I don't want you to think
about what we left behind.

I want you to think
about the stuff that we have

and how we can be
better prepared in the future.

Okay.

- Rag.
- What ?

- We've got a lot of walking to do.
- Where are we going ?

Remember my grandmother's house
where I lived when I was young ?

No.

That's where we're gonna go.
It's up in the mountains.

They've got animals there,
and they've got sledding,

and they've got a boat with a lake,
and it's really far away from everyone.

So I think it's gonna be
a really nice place.

- How long will it take ?
- Gonna be a lot of walking.

- How many days ?
- I don't know how many days.

- What do you think ?
- It'll be a lot of days.

But we're gonna get there
before it gets too, too cold.

So if we can find some other faster
way than walking, we'll take that.

Why didn't we go before ?

Because we didn't want to travel that
far, and we didn't wanna be away

from all the places that we knew that
were safe and where we can get things.

But we're done with this area now,
so we're gonna move on.

- Because of me.
- What ?

Never mind.

Stop. Stop.

Come on. Stop.

Okay. Hey, kiddo !
Kiddo.

Can you give us a ride ?

Ain't seen a boy that young in a while.
Most people say that to me and I'm 19.

He was born
right when it happened.

- Where are you from ?
- Farther south.

Yeah, we got some from all over.
103 of us.

- Oh, yeah ? You all live there ?
- Yeah.

Kinda make our own way,
food, power, and everything.

We really have everything
you'd need... including females.

- Oh yeah ?
- Yeah.

I seen 'em a lot when I was younger.
I used to stock the bunker.

That's the name of the place
where the females live.

I bring 'em supplies, but I'd also
sneak 'em little things like coffee,

and cigarettes, and chocolate.
They were really nice.

- Hold 'em pretty tight, huh ?
- Yeah, they do not leave the bunker.

And I'm not telling you
anything that I shouldn't be,

because everyone knows they're there.
They just can't get into the compound.

Hey, stop the car.

Stop, man. There was someone back
there on the road, on the ground.

Where is he ?

- I didn't see anything.
- What ?

- I'm gonna take your car.
- What do you mean, man ?

And you're gonna walk from here,
and you're gonna be fine, okay ?

- Why should I walk ?
- Because you aren't gonna fight me.

And you don't have a choice.
And I don't have a choice.

And I know you can't understand that,
but I'm taking the car.

- What... why...
- You'll be fine. I can't explain it.

You helped those women out.
You snuck them things.

You look after them.
You brought them coffee and...

- That's different !
- ...cigarettes and treats.

- I can't just give it to you, man.
- You're gonna help us out.

- I can't explain.
- Please !

- Stay there.
- Wait, come on, man ! You...

- We left him ?
- He's gonna be okay.

- Take all your wet clothes off.
- Where are we going ?

Same place.

- What's a bunker ?
- It's a kind of shelter.

- Who is it ?
- Hello, hello !

- Hello, is Mark there ?
- No, there's no Mark.

Can we come in ? We're very cold.
I've got a little child here.

- What do you want ?
- I've got a child.

May we come in and get warm
for one minute ?

Thank you.

I'm Tom.
This is Calvin.

- And this is Lemmy.
- Hi.

I'm Caleb, this is my son, Alex.
And we're just heading home.

This was my grandparents' house.

That's why I came here
a little bit when I was young.

It was abandoned when we found it.

Would have fallen apart without us,
and it's been our home for four years.

I understand.

If there's someplace else you need
to go, we'll help you out there.

- Or you're welcome to stay the night.
- Okay, thanks.

- You got a weapon ?
- No.

Find that hard to believe.
It's all right.

- How's the little fellow feeling ?
- Okay.

Okay, I'm gonna get you set up.
You can stay.

Do we have a safe spot ?

Not yet. If we need to,
we're gonna go out the window,

and we're gonna go onto the ledge
and into the snow below.

And from there,
you go all the way to the tree line

right behind the fence,
you understand ?

- Are we gonna leave in the morning ?
- Tell me what we do.

We go out the window.
Are we gonna leave in the morning ?

- Tell me what we're gonna do.
- We're gonna go out the window...

- And then what ?
- Onto the ledge and then to the snow ?

Yes. And then what ?

- Then we find our way to the tree line.
- Which tree line ?

- The tree line that circles.
- The tree line behind the fence.

Backpack.
Sleeping bag.

And one lamb out of the flock, out of
200, out of the fat pastures of Israel.

And it shall be the prince's part

to give burnt offerings,
and meat offerings,

and drink offerings, in the feasts,
and in the new moons,

and in the Sabbaths, in all
solemnities of the house of Israel,

he shall prepare the sin offering,
and the meat offering,

and the burnt offering,
and the peace offering,

to make reconciliation
for the house of Israel.

Thus sayeth the Lord God,
in the first month,

in the first day of the month...

- Okay, hey, Rag !
- What is it ?

- Get dressed for outside.
- Are we leaving ?

No, but we need to be quiet,
so we don't wake anyone.

I'm gonna put your bag
under this pot.

- Rag, where is your bag ?
- Under the pot.

Okay. How did we get here ?

Past the animals, along
the fence line to the fallen tree.

Who is it okay to tell
about this place ?

- It's like every other safe spot.
- Answer me.

Dad, it's like every safe spot
that we have...

- Rag, just answer me !
- Nobody.

Okay.

Now, I want you to show me
how to get back.

Hey. You were up early.

We woke up, we didn't want to wake
anybody, so we just took a walk around.

- How'd it look ?
- Looked nice. Looks good.

Would you like something to eat ?
We have more than we need.

Yes, please. That would be great.
Thank you.

We have some clothes in the attic
that might fit you.

Okay.
Thank you.

- Thank you for this.
- You're welcome.

It's very good.

You have a lot of people
come through, drop by, or...

Most of the men in the area moved
to the city. Some came back.

We don't see anyone
unless we go into town.

- Is there a federal dispensary in town?
- There's a market.

And if you have papers,
they'll honor 'em.

But we've got more than we need
and we rarely do any hunting anymore.

You wanna stick around...

"And Jesus said,
'Come and have breakfast."

"And none of the disciples said:
Who are you ?"

"Because they knew it was the Lord."

- Amen !
- Amen !

Ready ?

That llama will keep the wolves
and coyotes away from the sheep.

A few strokes and then you wanna
dry it, so it doesn't get gummed up.

- What have you got there ?
- Standard Winchester, 12 gauge.

I thought you weren't
doing any hunting up here.

We don't want the sheep
being hunted either.

- Dad, it's to keep the wolves away.
- Rag, come here.

I guess we put this away right now.

I got another job for you
if it's okay with your father.

But I wanna clean it.
He showed me how to be careful.

Doesn't matter. They're dangerous
to be around, no matter what.

- Is that your daughter ?
- That's my son.

No, what I'm asking you is,
is that "your" daughter ?

Sir, that's my boy.

I don't know
who you are or who she is

or how you came to be with her,
but I've sheltered you for the night.

And I don't wanna have
anything to do with evil.

World's seen enough of that.

Our things are packed
and we'll be on our way then.

It's not that simple.
If she's your God-given daughter,

and you are a faithful caretaker,
you better make me know it.

If she isn't, I wanna know
how come you are in possession of her,

and I wanna believe it.

Because I had a wife of 33 years.

I had three girls, four granddaughters
and two step-granddaughters.

And all nine of 'em passed
in the course of a couple weeks.

One of 'em I lost
to a pack of monsters.

So if you think that I'm gonna
be anything but an upstander,

know that I don't have a damn thing
to live for but the grace of God.

That is my daughter.

I'm asking you
to prove it to me, son.

That's her. That's me and her mother.
Name is Anna Elizabeth Shaw.

We call her Rag,
short for Raggedy Ann.

I bet you've had one hell of a time.

Yeah. Had some good times too.

Would you like a drink ?

- Whiskey ? Gin ?
- No, thank you.

Have a seat.

I've been hearing about
some safe places for women.

There's this one in New York,
and there's one not too far from here.

Yeah.
I've heard of places like that too.

Not so sure they're as safe
as people say, but...

if that's your way of asking us to go,
I understand.

No. Seems to me
you've been at this a long time.

I wonder what the toll is.

How it shapes a growing person.

We've had to let go of a lot.

Rag has had the childhood
that she's had in order to survive.

Maybe if you let go
a little bit more and let God...

What does that mean ?

Sometimes running from one thing,
you just run into another.

If you stay put, you have faith,
and let God make the plan.

The best thing I ever heard
about faith was...

"While you pray, move your feet."

Dad ?

- How was that ?
- So hot.

- Remember Goldy from Art's ark ?
- Yes.

- I think I know what happened to her.
- What happened to her ?

So when Art had the dream
that Goldy was saying "Help",

she wasn't actually saying "Help",
she was saying "Kelp",

which is a food that grows
in the water. It's real.

And so, she was pointing at the kelp
for the bird to go get.

And the bird got it for her
so she could feed everyone,

feed the llamas, so that they were full
and they could fight off the wolves.

And then she even fed Fang,
because Fang was now her friend.

So he was nice now.

And so, basically, she fixed the boat,

and Art came, and everyone thought
that it was Art who saved the day.

Really, it was Goldy.

That is the most beautiful story
I have ever heard.

- I got a story for you. Wanna hear ?
- Sure.

This is a story about you.
Don't freak out.

Okay, fine.

So when you were in Mommy's belly,

we went to the doctor because that's
what you're supposed to do when...

When people are having babies, you
go check in with a doctor sometimes.

And they had this special machine,
which you don't know about,

but they can take pictures of a baby
inside a mom through the belly.

Really ?

And sometimes, if the baby
is old enough in the belly,

they can tell if it's a boy or a girl.

And we went to the doctor, and he was
looking around, taking his pictures.

And he said: "Do you wanna know
if it's a boy or a girl ?"

And I kinda wanted to know,
but Mom did not want to know.

She liked surprises.
And so I said yes and she said no.

And so, first,
she had her way and we said no.

But the doctor said: "I'm gonna
write it down on a piece of paper",

"in case you change your mind."

He put it in an envelope, and he gave
it to us. And we went home.

And I was in bed,
and I was thinking about you,

and I did not know
if you were a boy or a girl.

And I was thinking about all the stuff
that we'd have to do.

Like do we get boy toys or girl toys,

little boy clothes or girl clothes.

And I just thought,
"Why don't we just find out,"

"and then we can know, and then
we'll be prepared and ready for..."

But I knew that Mom would not
wanna know. But I couldn't take it.

And so I snuck downstairs,
and I went and I found the envelope.

I looked inside,
and there was a picture of you.

And you were shaped like a little...
You were like a little bean.

That's how big you were.

And on the bottom, the doctor wrote...
"This is your daughter."

And then I went back upstairs.

And then I went to sleep.
I never told Mom.

I love you so much,
Anna Elizabeth Shaw !

There are some men outside.

- Hey, get up.
- What, what ?

Listen. Quiet. It's a red alert.
Now, get up. Listen to me.

Be ready to do something.
Be very quiet, you understand ?

Be quiet. Quiet.

Go back.

I asked you to leave.
I want you to get out of here...

Is it...

Dad ?

Okay.
Listen to me. Here's our plan.

We're gonna go out the window.
We have to get outside.

So I'll lower you down onto the porch
below the roof.

Okay ?

Then we're gonna go to the safe spot
as quietly and quickly as we can, ok ?

That's our plan, okay ?

They're up in the attic.

Put on your jacket.

Put your arms around me.

Wait. Wait.

- Dad, let me go.
- Quiet.

- Dad.
- Hold on.

- I can do it.
- It's too high.

- I'm gonna pull you back up.
- No. Dad !

Dad, let me go. Dad !
Let me go.

Okay.

Rag ?

- Is that Tom ?
- Don't look. Don't look.

You have to put
your finger in there, take...

Just... You just wait. Wait a...
Just wait for me.

I'm just gonna rest.

- I can't do it without you.
- You're gonna be fine.

- I can't.
- Yes, you can.

- I won't.
- Yes, you can.

You just gotta keep her close.
And you're gonna figure it out.

You're gonna have each other.

Rag !

Rag !

Rag !

We're gonna go somewhere
that's really safe and warm.

Tom told me about a place
not too far from here

where there's a bunch of really
friendly people,

and it's really... nice.

It's okay, Dad.
It's a love adventure.

LIGHT OF MY LIFE