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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:09,310 Previously, on "Dirty John"... 2 00:00:09,350 --> 00:00:11,110 Rocket-propelled grenade. 3 00:00:11,150 --> 00:00:13,620 The guy who was next to me in the Humvee died. 4 00:00:13,640 --> 00:00:14,826 You're saying he wasn't there? 5 00:00:14,850 --> 00:00:16,950 I'm just saying he wasn't in Iraq 6 00:00:16,960 --> 00:00:19,050 when you keep saying he was. 7 00:00:19,190 --> 00:00:20,530 Who the hell's "TS"? 8 00:00:20,540 --> 00:00:21,806 "Can't wait for tomorrow night." 9 00:00:21,830 --> 00:00:23,890 - Who is it? - Toby, my nephew. 10 00:00:23,930 --> 00:00:25,940 - Toby Sellars? - Excuse me. 11 00:00:25,960 --> 00:00:28,000 - Be right back. - Who's that? 12 00:00:28,030 --> 00:00:29,446 - Is that... - Yeah, it's my brother-in-law. 13 00:00:29,470 --> 00:00:30,880 - Ex-brother... - Your brother-in-law? 14 00:00:30,900 --> 00:00:32,600 You should be glad your dad killed your mom 15 00:00:32,640 --> 00:00:34,540 so she didn't have to be around to see this. 16 00:00:36,410 --> 00:00:38,740 Did you open my mail? How dare you! 17 00:00:38,760 --> 00:00:41,010 It's a felony to open someone's mail. 18 00:00:41,050 --> 00:00:43,750 In California and Ohio he's been in prison. 19 00:00:43,780 --> 00:00:45,850 - So then what should I do? - If you have a will 20 00:00:45,880 --> 00:00:47,280 and he's in it, take him out. 21 00:00:47,320 --> 00:00:49,220 - Call someone, Deb! - Oh, my God! 22 00:00:49,250 --> 00:00:50,890 - What's going on? - I don't know. 23 00:00:50,920 --> 00:00:53,790 He was fine, and then he just collapsed. 24 00:00:53,820 --> 00:00:56,520 Could you help me understand his history with narcotics? 25 00:00:56,540 --> 00:00:58,840 If you were me, what would you do? 26 00:00:58,880 --> 00:01:00,800 - Would you leave? - Stay in hotels 27 00:01:00,820 --> 00:01:02,560 or places you've never stayed before. 28 00:01:02,600 --> 00:01:03,930 Dye your hair, probably. 29 00:01:03,970 --> 00:01:05,830 Make yourself a difficult target. 30 00:01:12,980 --> 00:01:14,830 _ 31 00:01:14,850 --> 00:01:17,110 You just have to give it time. 32 00:01:17,150 --> 00:01:19,250 - I can't. - You... you just have 33 00:01:19,280 --> 00:01:21,620 to give it a chance to work. 34 00:01:21,650 --> 00:01:25,390 I know, I know, I do, but it just feels wrong. 35 00:01:25,420 --> 00:01:26,890 It feels wrong. 36 00:01:26,920 --> 00:01:29,420 But they said it would, remember? 37 00:01:29,460 --> 00:01:33,180 They... they said that it would feel counterintuitive. 38 00:01:33,200 --> 00:01:36,230 That's what Mr.... um, your counselor said. 39 00:01:36,240 --> 00:01:38,270 That to make a marriage work 40 00:01:38,300 --> 00:01:40,440 that, you know, it seems like 41 00:01:40,470 --> 00:01:42,400 we should hang on much tighter 42 00:01:42,440 --> 00:01:45,270 and stay even closer, but that sometimes 43 00:01:45,310 --> 00:01:47,340 a, um... a separation 44 00:01:47,380 --> 00:01:49,440 can bring a new perspective. 45 00:01:49,480 --> 00:01:51,180 Said it would only work 46 00:01:51,220 --> 00:01:53,520 if we both had the same goals, if we were both honest... 47 00:01:53,550 --> 00:01:55,120 - Right. - About wanting it to work 48 00:01:55,130 --> 00:01:56,130 but Cindi isn't. 49 00:01:56,140 --> 00:01:57,800 She's pretending she does but she doesn't. 50 00:01:57,820 --> 00:01:59,690 Why do you say that? 51 00:01:59,720 --> 00:02:01,136 It was the only way left to show him 52 00:02:01,160 --> 00:02:02,660 that we really tried hard enough. 53 00:02:02,690 --> 00:02:04,660 Hard enough to what? 54 00:02:04,700 --> 00:02:06,300 To save the marriage. 55 00:02:06,330 --> 00:02:08,430 So he can accept that it can't be saved. 56 00:02:08,470 --> 00:02:10,700 Well, that's not what he thought was happening. 57 00:02:10,760 --> 00:02:13,100 He went there in good faith. 58 00:02:13,140 --> 00:02:14,280 Of course he did. 59 00:02:14,300 --> 00:02:16,510 I mean, the whole thing was his idea. 60 00:02:16,540 --> 00:02:18,940 Years of not listening to me, of trying to control 61 00:02:18,980 --> 00:02:21,660 everything that I do, I finally say that I want 62 00:02:21,680 --> 00:02:23,680 to leave, that I am leaving, 63 00:02:23,710 --> 00:02:25,480 and then he wants to go to counseling. 64 00:02:25,520 --> 00:02:27,080 - Cindi... - So someone can tell me 65 00:02:27,100 --> 00:02:29,120 to try harder. Tell me to be happy 66 00:02:29,150 --> 00:02:32,160 my whole life not being allowed to wear a bikini on the beach. 67 00:02:32,720 --> 00:02:34,560 Not being allowed to go grocery shopping alone 68 00:02:34,590 --> 00:02:36,220 or do anything alone. 69 00:02:36,260 --> 00:02:38,490 I always encouraged her to be 70 00:02:38,530 --> 00:02:40,500 whatever she wanted to be. 71 00:02:40,530 --> 00:02:42,500 Said I never gave her room to grow. 72 00:02:42,530 --> 00:02:45,030 I asked, "Grow into what?" 73 00:02:45,070 --> 00:02:47,400 She won't ever tell me. 74 00:02:49,710 --> 00:02:52,640 I've known her my whole life. 75 00:02:52,680 --> 00:02:54,880 I can't remember a time when I didn't love her. 76 00:02:54,910 --> 00:02:57,250 I'm the love of his life because I've just been there 77 00:02:57,280 --> 00:02:58,810 his whole life. 78 00:02:58,850 --> 00:03:01,180 We were babies. We didn't know any better. 79 00:03:01,220 --> 00:03:03,550 You were right. 80 00:03:03,590 --> 00:03:06,020 You told me that we were too young to get married 81 00:03:06,060 --> 00:03:08,690 and I didn't listen. 82 00:03:08,730 --> 00:03:11,830 Debbie listened and I didn't and you were right, 83 00:03:11,860 --> 00:03:12,960 like you always are. 84 00:03:12,980 --> 00:03:15,730 - And now here we are. - Don't be so dramatic. 85 00:03:15,770 --> 00:03:17,870 And I say that as someone who's on your side. 86 00:03:17,900 --> 00:03:20,270 But you don't want me to be happy. 87 00:03:23,640 --> 00:03:25,770 I want to stop you 88 00:03:25,810 --> 00:03:28,210 from making a mistake that you won't be able to fix. 89 00:03:28,250 --> 00:03:29,780 And you're almost there. 90 00:03:29,810 --> 00:03:31,550 You've been together so long. 91 00:03:31,580 --> 00:03:33,330 You were both so young. 92 00:03:33,340 --> 00:03:37,190 When Cindi thinks about what she thinks she's missed 93 00:03:37,220 --> 00:03:39,720 it's easier for her to just blame you. 94 00:03:39,760 --> 00:03:41,960 It's easier for her to say 95 00:03:41,990 --> 00:03:44,360 that you're in her way and that she wants a new start 96 00:03:44,400 --> 00:03:46,700 rather than make the life she has 97 00:03:46,730 --> 00:03:49,030 into the life that she wants. 98 00:03:49,070 --> 00:03:52,370 When we choose what we want, 99 00:03:52,400 --> 00:03:55,300 what we feel right now, 100 00:03:55,340 --> 00:03:57,870 over what we promised... 101 00:03:57,910 --> 00:04:00,640 what we swore to somebody... 102 00:04:02,510 --> 00:04:05,320 That can haunt us the rest of our lives. 103 00:04:10,490 --> 00:04:12,250 Well, I would choose whatever comes next 104 00:04:12,290 --> 00:04:14,960 to be free right now. 105 00:04:14,990 --> 00:04:18,290 I would choose being haunted my whole life, Mom. 106 00:04:20,460 --> 00:04:21,900 She wants a divorce. 107 00:04:21,930 --> 00:04:23,700 She's not saying it yet but she will. 108 00:04:23,730 --> 00:04:26,100 And what am I gonna do? 109 00:04:26,140 --> 00:04:28,800 She's... she's confused. 110 00:04:28,840 --> 00:04:31,510 She's just confused. 111 00:04:31,540 --> 00:04:33,356 Can you just tell me that you at least understand 112 00:04:33,380 --> 00:04:35,440 what I'm saying? 113 00:04:41,950 --> 00:04:44,820 Trust in the Lord with all your heart 114 00:04:44,860 --> 00:04:48,190 and lean not on your own understandings. 115 00:04:48,230 --> 00:04:50,130 In all your ways acknowledge Him 116 00:04:50,160 --> 00:04:52,260 and He will direct your path. 117 00:04:53,860 --> 00:04:56,360 - You love that one. - Mm. 118 00:04:56,400 --> 00:04:58,200 You love the whole Book of Proverbs, 119 00:04:58,240 --> 00:05:01,360 but you really love that one. 120 00:05:01,400 --> 00:05:03,360 Because it's true. 121 00:05:05,010 --> 00:05:07,320 He directs our paths. 122 00:05:15,650 --> 00:05:17,340 Bobby, hey! 123 00:05:17,380 --> 00:05:18,690 Uh, Frank left for work already. 124 00:05:18,720 --> 00:05:19,900 Did he tell you he was gonna be here? 125 00:05:19,920 --> 00:05:21,380 No, I... I figured he wouldn't. 126 00:05:23,030 --> 00:05:24,260 Said he wouldn't need to be. 127 00:05:24,280 --> 00:05:27,360 Said I could come by any time and you could help me out. 128 00:05:27,460 --> 00:05:29,870 - Yeah, sure. - The loading dock's 129 00:05:29,900 --> 00:05:31,300 right next to where we park. 130 00:05:31,340 --> 00:05:33,400 It's always lit, but still. 131 00:05:33,440 --> 00:05:36,300 Three muggings in the last five weeks. 132 00:05:36,340 --> 00:05:39,170 I'm a manager now, so I gotta lock up at nights, too, so... 133 00:05:39,210 --> 00:05:41,580 Wow, I had no idea it had gotten so dangerous. 134 00:05:41,610 --> 00:05:44,550 Poor Cindi must wait up all night worrying about you. 135 00:05:44,580 --> 00:05:45,580 I know I would. 136 00:05:45,620 --> 00:05:47,420 Oh, finally. 137 00:05:50,950 --> 00:05:52,720 Here. 138 00:05:52,760 --> 00:05:55,420 Now, don't you go holding up a liquor store or anything. 139 00:05:56,290 --> 00:05:59,400 Pretty sure I'm not gonna be doing that. 140 00:05:59,420 --> 00:06:01,480 - Good looking out, though. - Mm-hmm. 141 00:06:29,360 --> 00:06:34,360 - Synced & corrected by MementMori - -- www.addic7ed.com -- 142 00:06:36,330 --> 00:06:38,320 He steals drugs from hospitals... 143 00:06:38,330 --> 00:06:40,640 which he's been to prison for, by the way... 144 00:06:40,660 --> 00:06:41,940 and for the stalking. 145 00:06:41,970 --> 00:06:43,360 I saw all that stuff in there. 146 00:06:43,370 --> 00:06:45,380 - I get it, I do. - Okay, so how many 147 00:06:45,400 --> 00:06:47,380 restraining orders do there have to be 148 00:06:47,400 --> 00:06:49,220 from how many different people before you do your job? 149 00:06:49,240 --> 00:06:52,400 Well, right now I am seeing which law 150 00:06:52,460 --> 00:06:54,210 I can actually enforce 151 00:06:54,240 --> 00:06:57,420 in this particular situation that we have right here. 152 00:06:57,480 --> 00:07:00,080 Okay, "John Meehan." 153 00:07:00,320 --> 00:07:03,380 Parole officer has Bay Front Avenue 154 00:07:03,420 --> 00:07:05,290 on Balboa as his current address. 155 00:07:05,320 --> 00:07:07,360 Nice. You live there too, miss? 156 00:07:08,090 --> 00:07:10,360 - Yes. - Okay. 157 00:07:10,390 --> 00:07:12,560 He's not on the lease, though, is that right? 158 00:07:12,600 --> 00:07:14,500 "John Meehan"? 159 00:07:14,530 --> 00:07:16,600 No. 160 00:07:16,620 --> 00:07:18,280 Does it... how do you know that? 161 00:07:18,320 --> 00:07:20,450 Well, it says PO asked for a copy of the lease 162 00:07:20,490 --> 00:07:22,750 to confirm, but Meehan told her he couldn't give her one 163 00:07:22,790 --> 00:07:25,000 - 'cause it wasn't in his name. - Given his history 164 00:07:25,020 --> 00:07:27,400 of conning women, she didn't maybe think that 165 00:07:27,420 --> 00:07:29,930 - that was a red flag? - She did, actually. 166 00:07:29,960 --> 00:07:31,930 File says she was planning to make an unannounced 167 00:07:31,970 --> 00:07:33,530 site visit to check his story out. 168 00:07:33,570 --> 00:07:36,630 Okay, except how about she did not do that? 169 00:07:36,670 --> 00:07:39,270 He's not the only parolee she's gotta keep tabs on. 170 00:07:39,310 --> 00:07:42,300 And he gave her the address in mid-December, 171 00:07:42,320 --> 00:07:45,400 so she probably just hasn't had time to get there. 172 00:07:48,550 --> 00:07:51,320 You two were pen pals when he was in the joint? 173 00:07:51,350 --> 00:07:53,020 No. 174 00:07:53,050 --> 00:07:55,800 So it just all happened pretty fast, then, 175 00:07:55,820 --> 00:07:57,140 once he got out. 176 00:07:57,180 --> 00:07:59,320 You guys meeting, getting together I guess. 177 00:07:59,360 --> 00:08:00,660 Is that what you guess? 178 00:08:00,690 --> 00:08:02,280 Do you think you're being subtle? 179 00:08:02,300 --> 00:08:03,890 - Look, I... - Because you are not. 180 00:08:03,930 --> 00:08:05,400 Do you not think that my mother 181 00:08:05,440 --> 00:08:08,280 is already upset enough over this? 182 00:08:09,000 --> 00:08:10,640 You think she wants to come here 183 00:08:10,660 --> 00:08:13,480 so you can make her feel worse? 184 00:08:13,520 --> 00:08:15,420 Think that's why she pays her taxes? 185 00:08:15,460 --> 00:08:16,760 So she can come into your office 186 00:08:16,770 --> 00:08:18,760 and you can shame her? 187 00:08:18,800 --> 00:08:20,340 - Is that what you think? - Look, that's not 188 00:08:20,360 --> 00:08:22,430 - what I think. - Good. 189 00:08:22,470 --> 00:08:24,300 I'm sorry. 190 00:08:24,330 --> 00:08:26,740 But what I do think is there's not a whole lot I can do. 191 00:08:26,800 --> 00:08:27,960 Right. 192 00:08:27,980 --> 00:08:30,500 So that means you can do nothing, right? 193 00:08:30,540 --> 00:08:33,000 What I mean is, since he's paid his recent debt 194 00:08:33,020 --> 00:08:34,980 to society, what I have is a bad guy 195 00:08:35,010 --> 00:08:36,880 with a bad history who, so far as we know, 196 00:08:36,910 --> 00:08:39,500 hasn't actually broken a law in Newport Beach. 197 00:08:39,780 --> 00:08:41,980 I can't even pick him up for failure to report 198 00:08:42,020 --> 00:08:43,420 to his PO. 199 00:08:43,450 --> 00:08:45,470 Whatever this is he's up to, he's good at it. 200 00:08:45,480 --> 00:08:49,480 But he's on our radar now... my radar... 201 00:08:49,600 --> 00:08:51,500 - and if he makes a move... - When. 202 00:08:51,520 --> 00:08:53,160 When he makes a move. 203 00:08:53,240 --> 00:08:55,120 We'll be on him like a ton of bricks. 204 00:08:55,140 --> 00:08:57,330 You have my word on that. 205 00:08:57,370 --> 00:08:58,660 Right now that's all I got. 206 00:09:01,240 --> 00:09:02,620 Oh, what about this place? 207 00:09:02,630 --> 00:09:04,220 I designed the club at that place. 208 00:09:04,240 --> 00:09:05,360 John might remember. 209 00:09:05,380 --> 00:09:07,350 Anyway, you know, I'm pretending I'm going 210 00:09:07,380 --> 00:09:09,026 - on a spa vacation. - This place looks good. 211 00:09:09,050 --> 00:09:10,470 I don't want to hemorrhage money. 212 00:09:10,480 --> 00:09:12,600 That place is so expensive, Ronnie. 213 00:09:12,630 --> 00:09:14,220 So where, then? Huh? 214 00:09:14,240 --> 00:09:16,220 Don't get frustrated with me in addition 215 00:09:16,240 --> 00:09:18,120 - to everything else right now. - We can't go to Grandma's, 216 00:09:18,140 --> 00:09:19,280 and you can't go to Trey's 'cause he knows 217 00:09:19,300 --> 00:09:20,560 where both of them live, and I'm out 218 00:09:20,580 --> 00:09:21,960 of the penthouse already. 219 00:09:21,980 --> 00:09:25,030 Although, technically that is still paid for 220 00:09:25,060 --> 00:09:27,080 through the end of the month, but that's like ground zero 221 00:09:27,100 --> 00:09:28,480 for this whole stupid situation. 222 00:09:28,500 --> 00:09:30,000 What about one of those places, you know, 223 00:09:30,020 --> 00:09:31,580 over by the Spectrum? 224 00:09:31,620 --> 00:09:32,990 You know those places? 225 00:09:33,000 --> 00:09:35,120 Like, one of the corporate suites? 226 00:09:35,180 --> 00:09:36,470 - Yeah. - With the shower curtains? 227 00:09:36,490 --> 00:09:38,620 They have self-parking, Mom. 228 00:09:38,660 --> 00:09:40,270 I know, but I have to go 229 00:09:40,290 --> 00:09:42,730 to a place that I wouldn't normally go, you know? 230 00:09:42,760 --> 00:09:43,760 I don't want to stand out. 231 00:09:43,770 --> 00:09:44,820 I don't want to do my normal routine. 232 00:09:44,830 --> 00:09:46,700 I don't want John to find me. 233 00:09:46,730 --> 00:09:48,830 We should pay for the room in cash. 234 00:09:48,870 --> 00:09:50,660 Maybe you would know if he was monitoring 235 00:09:50,680 --> 00:09:52,770 your credit cards, but maybe you wouldn't, you know? 236 00:09:52,810 --> 00:09:55,270 Let's go find an ATM. 237 00:09:55,410 --> 00:09:57,540 _ 238 00:09:57,620 --> 00:10:01,340 _ 239 00:10:08,490 --> 00:10:09,540 I got it. 240 00:10:14,660 --> 00:10:17,160 Oh, my God. 241 00:10:17,200 --> 00:10:20,360 It's not so bad. 242 00:10:20,400 --> 00:10:24,400 I mean, at least you're not here forever, right? 243 00:10:24,440 --> 00:10:27,910 - Right. - It's dark and musty. 244 00:10:32,310 --> 00:10:35,580 You know there's no room service here, right? 245 00:10:35,620 --> 00:10:37,160 That's all right. I... I'm not... 246 00:10:37,200 --> 00:10:39,560 I'm not really hungry anyway. 247 00:10:40,820 --> 00:10:42,920 Did you call the hospital? 248 00:10:42,960 --> 00:10:46,020 I did, and, you know, I... I talked to the nurse 249 00:10:46,040 --> 00:10:48,290 who was sitting right in front of John. 250 00:10:48,330 --> 00:10:49,930 He's not going anywhere. 251 00:10:49,960 --> 00:10:52,280 She says his fever is very high 252 00:10:52,300 --> 00:10:54,470 and they're watching his immune system. 253 00:10:54,500 --> 00:10:57,500 Post-surgery or something. 254 00:10:57,540 --> 00:11:00,380 Let's hope they forget to sanitize, huh? 255 00:11:01,940 --> 00:11:05,340 - But I should go. - Oh, okay. 256 00:11:05,380 --> 00:11:07,140 Are you gonna be okay here on your own? 257 00:11:07,180 --> 00:11:08,480 - Yes. - You sure? 258 00:11:08,510 --> 00:11:10,150 - Mm-hmm. - Okay. 259 00:11:11,720 --> 00:11:14,290 - You call me if you need me. - Okay. 260 00:11:14,320 --> 00:11:15,620 Thank you, hun. 261 00:11:45,550 --> 00:11:47,120 I've figured it out now, I guess. 262 00:11:49,860 --> 00:11:52,790 I don't understand where you are, Deb. 263 00:11:58,230 --> 00:12:00,830 I don't understand what's happening. 264 00:12:03,040 --> 00:12:05,720 Maybe I do. I just... 265 00:12:05,970 --> 00:12:08,810 don't want to believe you're a coward. 266 00:12:10,140 --> 00:12:12,640 You promised me this was forever. 267 00:12:12,680 --> 00:12:15,350 We promised that to each other. 268 00:12:15,380 --> 00:12:17,700 Well, I guess you didn't mean it. 269 00:12:20,120 --> 00:12:21,680 But I did. 270 00:12:21,780 --> 00:12:25,420 The choices we make show who we are. 271 00:12:25,460 --> 00:12:27,690 I know who you are now, Deb. 272 00:12:32,300 --> 00:12:34,600 Pray for me, at least. 273 00:12:34,630 --> 00:12:35,720 Okay? 274 00:12:35,780 --> 00:12:38,600 - _ - 'Cause I'm praying for you. 275 00:12:41,140 --> 00:12:42,210 Try it again. 276 00:12:42,220 --> 00:12:43,810 ♪ Two... one, two, three ♪ 277 00:12:43,820 --> 00:12:45,580 Tuck that... 278 00:12:45,640 --> 00:12:47,640 Coming back down. 279 00:12:47,700 --> 00:12:49,030 Okay, keep going. 280 00:12:49,060 --> 00:12:50,400 I'll be right back. 281 00:12:57,670 --> 00:12:59,190 - Hello? - Hi, Mom, it's Cindi. 282 00:12:59,200 --> 00:13:00,240 Hi! 283 00:13:00,260 --> 00:13:02,610 - Are you teaching all day? - Yes... uh, yeah. 284 00:13:02,640 --> 00:13:05,080 - Most of the day, yeah. - Think you can take a break? 285 00:13:05,110 --> 00:13:07,280 Um, about noon. 286 00:13:07,310 --> 00:13:09,210 Uh, I could maybe move one of my students. 287 00:13:09,250 --> 00:13:10,600 No, noon is good. 288 00:13:10,620 --> 00:13:12,780 I just want to tell you what's happening. 289 00:13:12,820 --> 00:13:14,580 Okay, well... well, come hungry. 290 00:13:14,620 --> 00:13:17,120 - I'll make us a special lunch. - I'll see you at 12:00. 291 00:13:17,140 --> 00:13:18,320 - I love you. - Okay. 292 00:13:18,340 --> 00:13:19,700 You, too. Bye. 293 00:13:48,220 --> 00:13:51,020 Oh, Cindi, Cindi, Cindi. 294 00:13:55,460 --> 00:13:57,960 - Oh, Megan. - Sorry I'm early. 295 00:13:58,000 --> 00:14:00,030 My mom had to drop me off... 296 00:14:00,070 --> 00:14:01,620 Oh, that's fine, honey. 297 00:14:01,640 --> 00:14:03,580 - That's fine, I was just... - Is Mom here? 298 00:14:03,620 --> 00:14:05,190 No, Toby, honey, I'm sorry. 299 00:14:05,220 --> 00:14:06,800 No, I... I must have heard her wrong. 300 00:14:06,810 --> 00:14:07,970 Um, I'll send her right in to you 301 00:14:07,990 --> 00:14:09,690 when she gets here, okay? 302 00:14:24,310 --> 00:14:27,710 Did I make it worse for you? 303 00:14:29,210 --> 00:14:31,380 Because I liked him so much? 304 00:14:31,410 --> 00:14:34,170 Did I make it harder for you to see who he really was? 305 00:14:37,730 --> 00:14:39,590 No. 306 00:14:41,160 --> 00:14:43,690 Mom, I... I don't think I... 307 00:14:43,830 --> 00:14:46,530 ever saw who he really was. 308 00:14:46,560 --> 00:14:48,860 What the kids told me... 309 00:14:48,900 --> 00:14:51,500 what they found out is... is just unbelievable. 310 00:14:51,520 --> 00:14:54,690 - Mm-hmm. - I... I can't wrap my mind around it. 311 00:14:56,940 --> 00:14:58,610 You know... 312 00:14:58,640 --> 00:15:02,440 there was something that I felt around him. 313 00:15:03,750 --> 00:15:06,080 I don't know, something... 314 00:15:06,110 --> 00:15:08,110 missing in him, you know? 315 00:15:08,150 --> 00:15:09,770 Yeah. 316 00:15:09,890 --> 00:15:11,770 Honesty. 317 00:15:15,320 --> 00:15:17,730 That was it. 318 00:15:22,730 --> 00:15:24,760 Oh, we're laughing about it. 319 00:15:24,800 --> 00:15:27,070 Oh, my goodness. 320 00:15:29,000 --> 00:15:31,790 But you know, that thing that I felt... 321 00:15:32,510 --> 00:15:35,780 I... it never was about you, Debbie. 322 00:15:38,610 --> 00:15:41,710 Always thought he loved you. 323 00:15:44,390 --> 00:15:45,790 I did too. 324 00:15:47,090 --> 00:15:49,810 I still... I still kinda do. 325 00:15:50,060 --> 00:15:51,590 Is that crazy? 326 00:15:51,630 --> 00:15:53,770 No, 'cause you're wonderful. 327 00:15:54,000 --> 00:15:56,530 How could he not love you? 328 00:15:59,870 --> 00:16:01,470 Oh, I don't know. 329 00:16:01,500 --> 00:16:04,390 Is it worse or better to know that... 330 00:16:04,750 --> 00:16:07,790 he did this to women before you? 331 00:16:09,640 --> 00:16:11,730 You know, he didn't... 332 00:16:12,130 --> 00:16:15,540 he didn't do anything to me, really, except lie. 333 00:16:15,550 --> 00:16:17,550 But to lie... 334 00:16:17,590 --> 00:16:20,020 about being in prison? 335 00:16:20,060 --> 00:16:23,160 - I know. - Stalking women and... and... 336 00:16:24,890 --> 00:16:27,160 Oh, my goodness, he's not even a doctor. 337 00:16:27,200 --> 00:16:29,560 I mean, what... what kind of a person does that? 338 00:16:29,600 --> 00:16:32,330 What... what must be, you know, 339 00:16:32,370 --> 00:16:34,630 inside him to do something like that? 340 00:16:34,670 --> 00:16:37,170 - I don't know. - Well... 341 00:16:37,210 --> 00:16:38,570 how could you know? 342 00:16:38,620 --> 00:16:39,790 How could you? 343 00:16:41,440 --> 00:16:44,540 But I do wonder, you know, 'cause... 344 00:16:44,580 --> 00:16:47,550 nobody's without sin. 345 00:16:47,580 --> 00:16:49,370 And... 346 00:16:49,490 --> 00:16:51,220 everybody can be saved. 347 00:16:51,250 --> 00:16:53,150 You say it all the time. 348 00:16:53,190 --> 00:16:54,490 You know, nobody's perfect. 349 00:16:54,520 --> 00:16:56,890 Everybody has something. 350 00:16:57,330 --> 00:16:59,730 But, Debbie, you... you didn't do anything 351 00:16:59,760 --> 00:17:01,900 to deserve this. 352 00:17:01,930 --> 00:17:04,600 What did you do to... to deserve for... 353 00:17:04,630 --> 00:17:07,100 for him to hurt you like that? 354 00:17:07,140 --> 00:17:09,870 To betray you. 355 00:17:10,010 --> 00:17:12,410 - I don't know. - You did nothing. 356 00:17:12,440 --> 00:17:13,850 You did nothing. 357 00:17:13,870 --> 00:17:15,870 I know. 358 00:17:18,750 --> 00:17:21,110 Are you Mrs. Hart? 359 00:17:21,150 --> 00:17:23,850 - Arlane Hart? - Yes. 360 00:17:23,890 --> 00:17:25,390 Could we come in? 361 00:17:25,420 --> 00:17:27,550 O... of course. 362 00:17:30,830 --> 00:17:33,010 You did nothing wrong. 363 00:17:33,730 --> 00:17:35,760 Thank God you found out now. 364 00:17:35,800 --> 00:17:38,230 Thank God that you're away from him. 365 00:17:38,270 --> 00:17:40,970 'Cause I couldn't lose 366 00:17:41,000 --> 00:17:42,020 another daughter. 367 00:17:42,050 --> 00:17:45,100 I can't, I can't. 368 00:17:47,810 --> 00:17:49,910 Are you home alone, Mrs. Hart? 369 00:17:50,430 --> 00:17:51,950 N... no, no. 370 00:17:51,970 --> 00:17:54,020 My grandson, he's... he's watching TV. 371 00:17:54,040 --> 00:17:55,870 He's... he's 11. 372 00:17:58,590 --> 00:17:59,990 What... what is it? 373 00:18:00,020 --> 00:18:02,290 Ma'am... 374 00:18:02,320 --> 00:18:03,890 there's been a shooting. 375 00:18:05,930 --> 00:18:07,630 What, is it... is it Bobby? 376 00:18:07,660 --> 00:18:10,460 Is it Bobby who's been... who's been shot? 377 00:18:10,500 --> 00:18:13,870 Ma'am, your daughter, Cindi Sellars, has been shot. 378 00:18:14,940 --> 00:18:16,400 Oh... 379 00:18:16,440 --> 00:18:19,190 uh, how... how bad is she? 380 00:18:19,290 --> 00:18:20,970 I'm sorry. She... 381 00:18:21,030 --> 00:18:23,070 She didn't make it. 382 00:18:24,310 --> 00:18:27,110 Your son-in-law shot your daughter... 383 00:18:27,150 --> 00:18:28,730 And then he shot himself. 384 00:18:28,740 --> 00:18:29,890 O-oh... 385 00:18:31,990 --> 00:18:34,120 Is... is he dead? 386 00:18:34,160 --> 00:18:36,590 No, he shot himself in the chest area. 387 00:18:36,630 --> 00:18:39,790 He's at the hospital in custody. 388 00:18:41,630 --> 00:18:44,460 I... I... 389 00:18:44,500 --> 00:18:47,330 I... I have... 390 00:18:59,210 --> 00:19:01,990 Oh, please, help me. 391 00:19:10,260 --> 00:19:13,950 Oh, please. Oh, please. 392 00:19:19,370 --> 00:19:21,770 I... I can do this. 393 00:19:21,800 --> 00:19:24,010 I'm not alone. 394 00:19:24,910 --> 00:19:26,810 I can do this. 395 00:19:31,550 --> 00:19:33,150 Could it be Mr. Rogers? 396 00:19:35,420 --> 00:19:37,720 You're in the neighborhood. 397 00:19:37,750 --> 00:19:39,650 Have a seat. 398 00:19:43,060 --> 00:19:44,530 Toby? 399 00:19:44,560 --> 00:19:45,710 Hi, sweetie. 400 00:19:45,730 --> 00:19:49,730 - You are the first lad... - Something's happened. 401 00:19:51,840 --> 00:19:54,870 Something terrible has happened. 402 00:19:54,910 --> 00:19:57,710 - Why are policemen here? - Um... 403 00:19:58,040 --> 00:20:00,880 well, they... they came to tell me... 404 00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:04,070 that your father has shot 405 00:20:04,080 --> 00:20:05,740 and killed your mother. 406 00:20:06,230 --> 00:20:09,830 That she is dead. 407 00:20:10,070 --> 00:20:11,800 Y... your Daddy's okay. 408 00:20:11,840 --> 00:20:14,270 He... he shot himself, too, but he's okay. 409 00:20:14,310 --> 00:20:15,780 He's not dead. 410 00:20:15,940 --> 00:20:18,560 He's in the hospital right now. 411 00:20:25,840 --> 00:20:29,790 It's okay. We can do this. 412 00:20:31,860 --> 00:20:33,340 But we have to be strong. 413 00:20:33,360 --> 00:20:35,160 So strong. 414 00:20:35,200 --> 00:20:37,330 It's gonna be so, so hard... 415 00:20:37,360 --> 00:20:39,060 but Jesus will help us. 416 00:20:39,100 --> 00:20:41,970 And we have each other, and we have Him, 417 00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:44,570 and we will get through this together. 418 00:20:44,600 --> 00:20:45,840 All of us. 419 00:20:47,840 --> 00:20:50,410 And, um... okay. 420 00:20:50,440 --> 00:20:52,810 I... I have to... 421 00:20:52,850 --> 00:20:55,150 I have to go... 422 00:20:55,180 --> 00:20:58,770 make some phone... some phone calls, 423 00:20:58,800 --> 00:21:01,320 and so you watch a little more TV, okay? 424 00:21:01,350 --> 00:21:04,620 And I will come back in a bit and get you. 425 00:21:04,660 --> 00:21:06,590 Okay, love bug? 426 00:21:09,700 --> 00:21:11,860 I can be strong with you, Grandma. 427 00:21:13,470 --> 00:21:16,170 Mm. I know you can, my sweet boy. 428 00:21:26,810 --> 00:21:28,810 The good news is, you're free of him now. 429 00:21:28,850 --> 00:21:31,050 You know, you're here, you're safe. 430 00:21:31,080 --> 00:21:33,880 That's all I care about. 431 00:21:34,450 --> 00:21:35,880 Thank you. 432 00:21:38,890 --> 00:21:41,130 Some of the stuff me and Ronnie found out 433 00:21:41,160 --> 00:21:43,860 about this guy? 434 00:21:43,900 --> 00:21:46,130 He's a con man, you know? 435 00:21:46,170 --> 00:21:48,990 He wanted money for drugs and all that stuff 436 00:21:49,000 --> 00:21:50,970 but he was more than that. 437 00:21:51,000 --> 00:21:52,740 What he really wants is for people 438 00:21:52,770 --> 00:21:55,340 to remember him. 439 00:21:55,380 --> 00:21:56,870 He wanted these women 440 00:21:56,910 --> 00:21:59,880 to live in fear of him, which is crazy. 441 00:22:00,460 --> 00:22:03,050 That'd be like the one thing that I would ask him about 442 00:22:03,080 --> 00:22:05,250 if I ever saw him again, you know? 443 00:22:05,290 --> 00:22:07,320 "Why?" 444 00:22:09,060 --> 00:22:11,360 Not that'd ever explain himself to me. 445 00:22:11,390 --> 00:22:12,720 I don't know. 446 00:22:12,760 --> 00:22:14,390 He might. 447 00:22:14,430 --> 00:22:15,920 Mm. 448 00:22:15,980 --> 00:22:19,360 He said this one woman was like his project. 449 00:22:19,400 --> 00:22:21,870 Did you feel that way? 450 00:22:23,920 --> 00:22:25,870 No. 451 00:22:28,140 --> 00:22:30,910 No, I just... 452 00:22:30,940 --> 00:22:32,910 felt like he loved me. 453 00:22:35,010 --> 00:22:37,780 I mean, he's one heck of a liar, right? 454 00:22:37,960 --> 00:22:40,550 I'm sure part of it's true, you know. 455 00:22:40,590 --> 00:22:42,620 He must have felt that way a little bit 456 00:22:42,660 --> 00:22:45,690 to convince people like that. 457 00:22:45,730 --> 00:22:47,940 Like you. 458 00:22:52,730 --> 00:22:55,230 I could never really understand... 459 00:22:55,270 --> 00:22:57,770 what happened to Mom, you know. 460 00:22:57,800 --> 00:23:00,370 Why, uh... 461 00:23:00,410 --> 00:23:03,410 why Dad did that thing to her. 462 00:23:03,440 --> 00:23:05,740 Because he loved her too much? 463 00:23:08,110 --> 00:23:10,780 Sometimes I still don't understand, you know? 464 00:23:10,820 --> 00:23:13,750 - Mm. - But... 465 00:23:13,790 --> 00:23:16,290 this thing with John... 466 00:23:16,320 --> 00:23:19,220 why he does these things... 467 00:23:19,260 --> 00:23:21,390 it almost makes that seem simple. 468 00:23:35,000 --> 00:23:37,620 Over here. You got ten minutes. 469 00:24:04,080 --> 00:24:06,040 I'm so sorry. 470 00:24:06,670 --> 00:24:09,080 I am so, so sorry. 471 00:24:11,680 --> 00:24:13,810 When... when you would come and... 472 00:24:13,850 --> 00:24:16,020 and talk to me about... 473 00:24:16,950 --> 00:24:20,060 Did you already know you were gonna do it? 474 00:24:20,350 --> 00:24:23,320 Yes. 475 00:24:24,860 --> 00:24:27,930 To myself, um... 476 00:24:28,100 --> 00:24:30,040 I wanted to do it to myself. 477 00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:32,420 Not to her. 478 00:24:32,460 --> 00:24:36,130 I mean, not her. Not ever. 479 00:24:36,170 --> 00:24:37,370 How are you? 480 00:24:37,400 --> 00:24:40,700 You're wearing... 481 00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:44,520 It doesn't matter. 482 00:24:46,910 --> 00:24:50,080 Do you still want to die? 483 00:24:50,120 --> 00:24:52,080 Yes, but... 484 00:24:52,220 --> 00:24:54,100 I don't deserve to. 485 00:24:55,460 --> 00:24:57,710 I should live every day 486 00:24:57,720 --> 00:25:00,490 of a long life in here thinking about her. 487 00:25:04,230 --> 00:25:06,100 How's Toby? 488 00:25:07,300 --> 00:25:09,770 Scared. 489 00:25:10,100 --> 00:25:13,000 For you. For... 490 00:25:13,040 --> 00:25:16,040 where you are and what might be happening to you. 491 00:25:16,410 --> 00:25:18,010 You tell him not to be. 492 00:25:18,040 --> 00:25:20,710 You just tell him, "Don't be scared." 493 00:25:22,000 --> 00:25:24,080 You killed my daughter, Bobby. 494 00:25:25,250 --> 00:25:27,750 I hate what you've done. 495 00:25:29,820 --> 00:25:32,860 More than I've ever hated anything in this whole world. 496 00:25:36,230 --> 00:25:37,930 But you loved her. 497 00:25:37,960 --> 00:25:40,700 I know that. 498 00:25:40,730 --> 00:25:42,770 God has given us all of this love 499 00:25:42,800 --> 00:25:44,970 we have for each other. 500 00:25:46,510 --> 00:25:49,410 Long ago, he showed us who you are. 501 00:25:49,440 --> 00:25:51,410 So we love you. 502 00:25:54,010 --> 00:25:55,980 Still. 503 00:25:57,650 --> 00:25:59,280 We all do. 504 00:25:59,320 --> 00:26:01,220 Still. 505 00:26:05,360 --> 00:26:08,140 How... how can you say that? 506 00:26:25,480 --> 00:26:28,110 Can any hide himself in secret places 507 00:26:28,150 --> 00:26:30,380 that I shall not see him? 508 00:26:38,620 --> 00:26:42,120 In the Lord we have redemption through His blood. 509 00:26:44,400 --> 00:26:46,860 The forgiveness of our trespasses... 510 00:26:49,040 --> 00:26:52,100 According to the riches of His grace. 511 00:27:26,510 --> 00:27:28,450 Deb, I'm sorry. 512 00:27:29,240 --> 00:27:31,180 I am so... 513 00:27:31,210 --> 00:27:32,550 - so sorry. - No. 514 00:27:32,580 --> 00:27:34,470 I don't want to hear anything... 515 00:27:36,720 --> 00:27:38,530 from you except... 516 00:27:41,490 --> 00:27:44,530 I want to know. 517 00:27:45,330 --> 00:27:47,730 What do you want to know? 518 00:27:47,760 --> 00:27:50,470 What do you want to know? 519 00:28:02,180 --> 00:28:04,490 Why'd you do all that? 520 00:28:05,680 --> 00:28:08,210 You heard what I told... 521 00:28:08,550 --> 00:28:10,720 the Sergeant. 522 00:28:10,750 --> 00:28:13,250 About the drugs. 523 00:28:13,290 --> 00:28:16,390 The pain management program. 524 00:28:18,960 --> 00:28:21,160 There's no... 525 00:28:21,200 --> 00:28:23,460 I'm the program. 526 00:28:25,070 --> 00:28:26,570 I'm an addict. 527 00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:32,000 I'm in pain all the time. 528 00:28:32,010 --> 00:28:33,346 - Oh, yeah, from shrapnel. - No one ever helped me. 529 00:28:33,370 --> 00:28:35,110 - You said from shrapnel... - I know. 530 00:28:35,140 --> 00:28:37,180 That hit the Jeep and took out guys 531 00:28:37,190 --> 00:28:39,850 - you were working with in Iraq. - I know. 532 00:28:39,880 --> 00:28:41,850 - I know. - You said... you said 533 00:28:41,930 --> 00:28:44,360 you had a nursing degree and a... 534 00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:47,140 a structure PhD that made you an MD. 535 00:28:47,170 --> 00:28:49,000 You're not a doctor, John. 536 00:28:49,100 --> 00:28:51,440 I don't know. It was easier, lazier. 537 00:28:51,460 --> 00:28:52,580 My ego, whatever. 538 00:28:52,620 --> 00:28:54,240 To say "doctor," I just... 539 00:28:54,280 --> 00:28:57,020 you're so successful, and I wanted... 540 00:28:57,080 --> 00:28:58,396 - I just wanted... - So it's my fault? 541 00:28:58,420 --> 00:28:59,880 - ... to be great for you. - So now this is my fault 542 00:28:59,890 --> 00:29:02,580 - that you... that you lied to me? - I wanted to be great for you. 543 00:29:02,640 --> 00:29:04,800 You're not a nurse, you're not a doctor. 544 00:29:04,820 --> 00:29:06,200 - You don't have any... - No, that's not true. 545 00:29:06,220 --> 00:29:08,060 - Any license. - That's not true. 546 00:29:08,090 --> 00:29:11,450 I had an appeal with the California medical board 547 00:29:11,460 --> 00:29:13,560 last October, and they granted me 548 00:29:13,580 --> 00:29:15,980 a conditional license... just... only in this state... 549 00:29:16,020 --> 00:29:18,016 so I could keep working until things got cleared up. 550 00:29:18,040 --> 00:29:19,990 So whoever told you that, they... 551 00:29:20,000 --> 00:29:21,900 - they do not have the latest result... - You know what... 552 00:29:21,920 --> 00:29:23,510 - ... from the medical appeals board. - I don't even care about that. 553 00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:24,530 You know, I wanna know about 554 00:29:24,540 --> 00:29:27,050 all the other things way back before that. 555 00:29:27,080 --> 00:29:28,600 What other things? 556 00:29:28,680 --> 00:29:30,650 "What other things?" 557 00:29:30,680 --> 00:29:32,640 You tell me, John. 558 00:29:32,660 --> 00:29:34,640 Those papers in the drawer? 559 00:29:37,860 --> 00:29:39,520 You went in the office. 560 00:29:39,560 --> 00:29:41,390 You saw what was in the office. 561 00:29:41,430 --> 00:29:43,990 - Oh, God. - Yeah. 562 00:29:44,030 --> 00:29:46,660 I saw that stuff. What was that stuff? 563 00:29:50,700 --> 00:29:52,620 My ex, Tonia. 564 00:29:52,940 --> 00:29:55,140 She was having an affair. 565 00:29:55,170 --> 00:29:57,680 She got the divorce to be with him. 566 00:29:57,740 --> 00:30:00,360 He got bored, so she pretended 567 00:30:00,380 --> 00:30:01,540 to be scared of me. 568 00:30:01,580 --> 00:30:04,050 She filed a restraining order just to show him. 569 00:30:04,080 --> 00:30:06,250 - Just to keep him interested. - There's so many 570 00:30:06,280 --> 00:30:09,520 - restraining orders. - They are not me! 571 00:30:09,550 --> 00:30:11,770 They're people with, like, a similar name... 572 00:30:11,780 --> 00:30:13,750 Well, then how come cops and lawyers 573 00:30:13,760 --> 00:30:15,690 and people that, you know, 574 00:30:15,730 --> 00:30:20,200 get paid to find these things out, they... 575 00:30:20,230 --> 00:30:22,200 - they say they are you. - I have asked myself 576 00:30:22,230 --> 00:30:23,620 that question so many times. 577 00:30:23,680 --> 00:30:24,700 I don't know the answer. 578 00:30:24,710 --> 00:30:27,040 I mean, maybe the people that, you know, 579 00:30:27,070 --> 00:30:29,150 put the information in do it wrong. 580 00:30:29,180 --> 00:30:31,340 I don't know, but you do a database search 581 00:30:31,380 --> 00:30:32,460 and they all come up. 582 00:30:32,470 --> 00:30:34,680 I tried to get a lawyer to, like, separate me 583 00:30:34,700 --> 00:30:35,950 from them, expunge them. 584 00:30:35,980 --> 00:30:37,740 You can do that if you can afford a lawyer, 585 00:30:37,750 --> 00:30:39,260 but I couldn't. 586 00:30:46,780 --> 00:30:48,860 I found so many other things, John. 587 00:30:50,320 --> 00:30:52,500 What about the cops in Laguna? 588 00:30:52,540 --> 00:30:54,560 They said you... you tried to kill them. 589 00:30:54,580 --> 00:30:55,590 Come on. 590 00:30:55,600 --> 00:30:57,130 No charges were ever filed. 591 00:30:57,170 --> 00:30:59,220 Just because someone files a report doesn't mean 592 00:30:59,240 --> 00:31:00,700 that's what happened. 593 00:31:00,740 --> 00:31:02,720 It's nothing. 594 00:31:04,670 --> 00:31:06,850 Once you're in the system, the cops, they just keep 595 00:31:06,870 --> 00:31:08,690 pulling your chain. 596 00:31:08,730 --> 00:31:09,780 You're the bad guy. 597 00:31:09,790 --> 00:31:12,670 It's so easy for them, and, you know... 598 00:31:13,300 --> 00:31:15,200 No one stops them 599 00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:17,840 or checks on them. 600 00:31:19,850 --> 00:31:21,770 Did you build a gun? 601 00:31:22,090 --> 00:31:24,690 The police say they found knives, 602 00:31:24,730 --> 00:31:26,670 they found cyanide. 603 00:31:26,880 --> 00:31:28,690 Why would you have cyanide? 604 00:31:31,290 --> 00:31:34,630 I wasn't gonna tell you this stuff because... 605 00:31:36,460 --> 00:31:38,970 So much of what I thought 606 00:31:39,030 --> 00:31:41,760 I had done to myself... 607 00:31:41,800 --> 00:31:44,310 with the drugs... the numbness, 608 00:31:44,350 --> 00:31:46,270 the tingling, the... 609 00:31:46,300 --> 00:31:50,600 the balance, everything... 610 00:31:50,640 --> 00:31:52,730 It turns out it was MS. 611 00:31:55,680 --> 00:31:58,750 Which is impossible to treat, 612 00:31:58,810 --> 00:32:02,750 so I told myself... 613 00:32:05,490 --> 00:32:08,090 That if it ever got too much 614 00:32:08,120 --> 00:32:10,220 that the cyanide would help me. 615 00:32:10,260 --> 00:32:14,090 And it did help me just knowing that I had it. 616 00:32:17,430 --> 00:32:20,730 But I'd have done that I would never have met you. 617 00:32:23,270 --> 00:32:25,840 After Tonia got me arrested... 618 00:32:25,870 --> 00:32:28,770 when I was awaiting trial, 619 00:32:28,940 --> 00:32:31,580 I went to a motel... 620 00:32:33,110 --> 00:32:34,790 With my med bag... 621 00:32:36,180 --> 00:32:39,090 And a bottle of vodka... 622 00:32:44,290 --> 00:32:47,130 But I didn't have the right sized syringe, 623 00:32:47,160 --> 00:32:49,500 so I didn't die. 624 00:32:49,530 --> 00:32:52,030 I passed out and I fell off the bed 625 00:32:52,150 --> 00:32:53,730 and I woke up... 626 00:32:57,740 --> 00:33:00,840 Covered in blood from the bottle 627 00:33:00,930 --> 00:33:02,320 waiting for someone to find me. 628 00:33:02,360 --> 00:33:04,360 I told you it was shrapnel... 629 00:33:04,400 --> 00:33:06,860 but I'm the shrapnel. 630 00:33:06,900 --> 00:33:09,030 The drugs... 631 00:33:10,700 --> 00:33:12,070 They explode me. 632 00:33:12,100 --> 00:33:14,380 They make me lie, 633 00:33:14,400 --> 00:33:16,770 they make me steal... 634 00:33:16,880 --> 00:33:18,640 and they make me hurt the people 635 00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:20,840 that I love the most. 636 00:33:22,310 --> 00:33:24,880 Especially you. 637 00:33:25,050 --> 00:33:27,920 Can I just say one thing before you go? 638 00:33:29,990 --> 00:33:33,220 All those times that I said that you deserve the best? 639 00:33:33,260 --> 00:33:34,860 I meant it. 640 00:33:36,900 --> 00:33:38,880 You're incredible. 641 00:33:39,160 --> 00:33:41,400 I lied. I lied about me, 642 00:33:41,420 --> 00:33:44,430 about my past, about my job... 643 00:33:48,880 --> 00:33:50,370 But not about you. 644 00:33:50,620 --> 00:33:54,880 I never lied about how much I love you, Deb. 645 00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:16,030 Hey, uh, we don't have 646 00:34:16,070 --> 00:34:18,100 a receptionist right at the moment. 647 00:34:18,140 --> 00:34:21,140 She, um... who is your appointment with? 648 00:34:21,170 --> 00:34:22,940 I'm here to see Gregory Reedus. 649 00:34:22,980 --> 00:34:25,360 Oh, that's me. Hi. 650 00:34:25,440 --> 00:34:26,660 - Hi. - Greg. 651 00:34:26,700 --> 00:34:29,000 I'm Arlane Hart. 652 00:34:29,580 --> 00:34:32,150 I'm Cindi Sellars' mother. 653 00:34:32,190 --> 00:34:34,950 Yeah, I know who you, um... 654 00:34:34,990 --> 00:34:37,160 I can't, uh, talk to you. 655 00:34:37,190 --> 00:34:39,120 - Mr. Reedus... - I'm really sorry, but I... 656 00:34:39,160 --> 00:34:40,560 - I can't. - Mr. Reedus, you have 657 00:34:40,590 --> 00:34:41,876 - to let me... - Maybe you're confused, 658 00:34:41,900 --> 00:34:43,660 which is normal and it's fine, 659 00:34:43,700 --> 00:34:47,330 but, uh, Lisa Usher at the DA's office, she, uh... 660 00:34:47,370 --> 00:34:50,670 she would be the one who you should, uh, talk to. 661 00:34:50,700 --> 00:34:52,920 I... I know whose lawyer you are. 662 00:34:53,210 --> 00:34:55,810 Okay, so... 663 00:34:55,840 --> 00:34:58,280 then why are you here? 664 00:35:03,780 --> 00:35:06,680 - Mom, it's me. - Uh, hi, hun. 665 00:35:06,720 --> 00:35:08,990 - Hi! - Hi. 666 00:35:09,020 --> 00:35:11,920 - I got you a chai latte. - Thank you. 667 00:35:11,960 --> 00:35:14,430 My God, this room is even uglier in daylight. 668 00:35:16,030 --> 00:35:18,660 - What were you doing? - Oh, you know, 669 00:35:18,700 --> 00:35:22,370 I'm trying to get some work done. 670 00:35:22,400 --> 00:35:24,500 - Nice. - What's that? 671 00:35:24,540 --> 00:35:26,100 Oh, it's a GPS tracker. 672 00:35:26,140 --> 00:35:28,270 I put it on your car at Christmas. 673 00:35:28,310 --> 00:35:31,010 - You put it on my car? - Yeah. 674 00:35:31,040 --> 00:35:34,050 - To follow John, remember? - Oh. 675 00:35:34,080 --> 00:35:36,380 - No, I did not remember. - Yeah, I said that one of us 676 00:35:36,420 --> 00:35:38,030 should put one on there, and you said if it would 677 00:35:38,050 --> 00:35:39,600 make me happy I should do it... 678 00:35:39,620 --> 00:35:41,600 So I did. 679 00:35:41,610 --> 00:35:45,060 Well, I... I don't think I was serious, Ronnie. 680 00:35:45,330 --> 00:35:47,040 Well, okay. 681 00:35:47,060 --> 00:35:49,930 I mean, it didn't show anything that weird, so... 682 00:35:50,720 --> 00:35:53,010 Anyway, I forgot to take it off your car so I did that 683 00:35:53,040 --> 00:35:54,300 this morning. 684 00:35:54,330 --> 00:35:55,720 Thank you. 685 00:35:55,730 --> 00:35:57,060 Mm-hmm. 686 00:35:58,240 --> 00:36:00,370 - Did you get the annulment? - Yep. 687 00:36:00,410 --> 00:36:02,570 Yeah, I did. I... I, you know, signed all 688 00:36:02,580 --> 00:36:04,410 the paperwork, and... 689 00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:05,640 - Good. - Mm-hmm. 690 00:36:05,680 --> 00:36:07,040 What about the will? 691 00:36:07,780 --> 00:36:09,080 I changed the will 692 00:36:09,100 --> 00:36:11,520 and had it notarized, so... 693 00:36:12,380 --> 00:36:15,060 God damn, who is texting you so much? 694 00:36:15,100 --> 00:36:16,650 Oh. 695 00:36:16,690 --> 00:36:18,070 Well, I mean, I'm not in the office so, you know, 696 00:36:18,090 --> 00:36:20,390 they're just trying to track me down. 697 00:36:20,430 --> 00:36:23,460 Yep. Speaking of which... 698 00:36:24,600 --> 00:36:25,830 I should go. 699 00:36:25,870 --> 00:36:27,370 Thanks for coming by, sweetie. 700 00:36:27,400 --> 00:36:29,040 - Of course. - Mm. 701 00:36:29,080 --> 00:36:30,340 It's nice. 702 00:36:30,370 --> 00:36:31,970 Oh. 703 00:36:32,010 --> 00:36:34,050 I love you so much. 704 00:36:34,060 --> 00:36:36,060 I love you, too. So much. 705 00:36:36,540 --> 00:36:38,810 Okay, but you're squishing me now. 706 00:36:38,820 --> 00:36:40,210 Oh. 707 00:36:40,250 --> 00:36:42,250 God, that was quite the squeeze. 708 00:36:42,280 --> 00:36:44,420 Well, I love you. 709 00:36:44,450 --> 00:36:45,750 Yeah. I'll see you later. 710 00:36:45,790 --> 00:36:48,050 Remember, we're FaceTiming with Terra at 3:00. 711 00:36:48,090 --> 00:36:49,690 - Oh, yes. - So I'll see you then, right? 712 00:36:49,720 --> 00:36:50,770 Okay. 713 00:36:50,780 --> 00:36:52,820 Thank you for this... for the chai. 714 00:36:52,900 --> 00:36:54,790 - Bye. - Bye. 715 00:37:16,420 --> 00:37:19,120 - Ma'am. - Thank you. 716 00:38:00,090 --> 00:38:02,290 When was the last time you spoke to Bobby 717 00:38:02,330 --> 00:38:03,960 prior to the incident? 718 00:38:04,000 --> 00:38:06,160 That morning, actually, at our house. 719 00:38:06,240 --> 00:38:07,756 He and Toby were staying at our house. 720 00:38:07,780 --> 00:38:09,960 When was the last time that you spoke to Bobby 721 00:38:09,970 --> 00:38:13,650 about the state of his and Cindi's marriage? 722 00:38:13,690 --> 00:38:16,960 Um, that was Wednesday the fourth. 723 00:38:16,990 --> 00:38:18,890 Three days before. 724 00:38:18,930 --> 00:38:20,730 What's he like in that conversation? 725 00:38:20,760 --> 00:38:23,160 What's his demeanor? 726 00:38:23,200 --> 00:38:25,430 Oh, he was so upset 727 00:38:25,470 --> 00:38:29,070 and... and crying so hard. 728 00:38:29,110 --> 00:38:31,640 He just felt that things were over between them 729 00:38:31,670 --> 00:38:33,610 and he was so lost. 730 00:38:33,640 --> 00:38:35,440 How long had you been aware, 731 00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:37,910 uh, that the marriage was in trouble? 732 00:38:37,950 --> 00:38:41,200 By the time Cindi spoke to us 733 00:38:41,220 --> 00:38:43,650 it seemed as if things were already very bad. 734 00:38:43,690 --> 00:38:46,420 But when Bobby spoke to me... 735 00:38:46,460 --> 00:38:48,390 um, he seemed completely 736 00:38:48,420 --> 00:38:50,490 taken by surprise. 737 00:38:50,530 --> 00:38:51,990 Completely surprised, 738 00:38:52,030 --> 00:38:55,160 and he wanted to save it. 739 00:38:55,200 --> 00:38:57,030 Because he loved her. 740 00:38:57,070 --> 00:38:58,970 Oh, so much. 741 00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:01,200 He loved her so much. 742 00:39:01,240 --> 00:39:03,370 Did he tell you any of the things 743 00:39:03,410 --> 00:39:05,670 that he had done to try 744 00:39:05,700 --> 00:39:08,780 and save the marriage? 745 00:39:08,810 --> 00:39:11,480 He, um, had changed some of his behavior. 746 00:39:11,510 --> 00:39:14,050 Um, he went to see 747 00:39:14,060 --> 00:39:15,720 our pastor with her. 748 00:39:15,750 --> 00:39:19,220 They went to counseling... months of counseling. 749 00:39:19,560 --> 00:39:21,790 Um, he agreed to a separation, 750 00:39:21,820 --> 00:39:24,060 agreed to sell their house. 751 00:39:24,090 --> 00:39:27,130 You know, to live separately for perspective 752 00:39:27,160 --> 00:39:29,200 and for... 753 00:39:29,230 --> 00:39:31,670 absence to make her heart 754 00:39:31,700 --> 00:39:33,370 grow fonder. 755 00:39:33,400 --> 00:39:35,400 And, um... 756 00:39:35,440 --> 00:39:37,280 and he spoke to me. 757 00:39:38,610 --> 00:39:41,010 You can imagine, a man having to come 758 00:39:41,040 --> 00:39:43,210 to his mother-in-law for help... 759 00:39:43,250 --> 00:39:45,880 and to cry in front of her. 760 00:39:45,920 --> 00:39:49,220 And did any of the things that he tried work? 761 00:39:52,090 --> 00:39:53,490 No. 762 00:39:53,520 --> 00:39:56,840 Um, he was doing it thinking that he could... 763 00:39:56,850 --> 00:40:00,190 if he did, he could keep Cindi with him, but... 764 00:40:00,230 --> 00:40:03,800 you know, I... I don't think he ever had a chance, 765 00:40:03,820 --> 00:40:06,830 and when he came to realize that... 766 00:40:07,870 --> 00:40:09,280 Prior to the incident, 767 00:40:09,300 --> 00:40:12,570 how did you feel about Bobby? 768 00:40:12,610 --> 00:40:14,610 Oh, I... I loved him. 769 00:40:14,640 --> 00:40:16,020 Loved him very much. 770 00:40:16,050 --> 00:40:19,010 He had such a pure heart. 771 00:40:19,050 --> 00:40:22,050 I mean, his... his whole life was Cindi and Toby. 772 00:40:22,090 --> 00:40:25,120 Um, working for their family, their life together 773 00:40:25,150 --> 00:40:27,320 as a... as a family. 774 00:40:28,290 --> 00:40:30,660 How do you feel about him now? 775 00:40:31,830 --> 00:40:34,060 I still love him. 776 00:40:34,100 --> 00:40:35,280 You love him. 777 00:40:36,930 --> 00:40:39,200 - I do. - Even after everything 778 00:40:39,240 --> 00:40:40,600 that happened? 779 00:40:43,570 --> 00:40:45,610 Bobby asked me the same question. 780 00:40:45,640 --> 00:40:47,940 Because it's very difficult to understand, 781 00:40:47,980 --> 00:40:49,980 if not impossible. 782 00:40:52,150 --> 00:40:54,450 Bobby did a... a terrible thing. 783 00:40:57,750 --> 00:40:59,340 The worst thing. 784 00:41:01,020 --> 00:41:03,360 I hate what he did. 785 00:41:03,390 --> 00:41:06,240 And I told him that, I... I did. 786 00:41:07,430 --> 00:41:09,980 But if he had been in his right mind 787 00:41:10,000 --> 00:41:11,360 he could never have done that. 788 00:41:13,800 --> 00:41:16,700 So what he did doesn't... 789 00:41:16,870 --> 00:41:19,320 doesn't change what I believe about him. 790 00:41:23,480 --> 00:41:24,760 I can still love Bobby, 791 00:41:24,780 --> 00:41:27,360 and I forgive him... 792 00:41:27,650 --> 00:41:30,040 because I want to forgive him. 793 00:41:30,690 --> 00:41:33,360 Because of what I know. 794 00:41:34,820 --> 00:41:37,260 I know... 795 00:41:37,290 --> 00:41:39,960 his heart was full of love. 796 00:41:42,830 --> 00:41:44,470 He just... 797 00:41:44,500 --> 00:41:47,400 he just lost his way. 798 00:42:35,190 --> 00:42:40,190 - Synced & corrected by MementMori - -- www.addic7ed.com -- 55460

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