All language subtitles for ftrewd222

(BIRDS CHIRPING)

I got you a doughnut.

Apparently.

What are you doing today?

My (SIGHS) least favorite
thing in the world.

Looking for
an apartment?

Yeah, I'll be out of here
in 48 hours,

for both of our sakes.

What about
your old apartment?

Kenny got arrested,

so I don't think
he needs it anymore.

I don't think being neighbors
is such a great idea.

We had a fight.

I bought you
a doughnut.

A really big fight
about some really big issues

that aren't gonna go away
because you got me a doughnut.

**

(LAUGHS)

Remember that
Usher-themed party I had?

I remember searching
the entire house
for a TYLENOL.

Is it too late
to apologize for that?

No. Never.

(CHUCKLES)

I miss you, Daddy.

Who are you talking to?

I'm talking to...

To the chair?

If you can't fall asleep
on your own,

you can have that Ambien
you've been asking for.

MADDIE: You sleep, I go away.

I don't need an Ambien.

NURSE: Okay.

I'll be keeping an eye on you,
Dr. Glassman.

Trying to hop
a fence, Mac?

I wanna go home.

We will, sweetie,
as soon as we fix you up.

Mac has
Fragile X Syndrome.

A genetic disorder
characterized
by intellectual disability,

behavioral issues,
and hyperactivity.

The good news is that
the picket hasn't compromised

any vital organs,
major nerves, or arteries.

The bad news is
that it splintered
inside his shoulder.

Oh, let's get this stick
out of you, Mac.

Will it hurt?
Not a bit.

You're gonna sleep
through the whole thing.

(WOMAN SPEAKING
INDISTINCTLY ON P.A.)

**

(SCRIBBLING)
Third time's the charm,
right, Shaun?

(DOG BARKS IN DISTANCE)

Her name's Bill...

Short for "Sybil."

She likes things
nice and simple.

(METAL CLANGS, RATTLES)

Possible internal bleeding,
heel bone calcaneus fractures,

tibial pilon fractures,
and cervical fractures.

Her name's
Kitty Kwon.

Hey, Kitty.
You know where you are?

Unfortunately, yeah.

I was 150 feet
from the summit.

Would've been
the first female free solo.

Free solo?

Climbing without ropes.

(THEME MUSIC PLAYING)

(MONITOR BEEPING)

DR. MELENDEZ:
Let's tidy up these bleeders,
irrigate the wound,

and close him up.

SHAUN: How do you
find a new friend?

Lea is very mad at me.

Well, whatever you did
to her, apologize.

I did. I said, "I'm sorry."

It may take even more
than that.

Make a statement.
Go big.

DR. MELENDEZ:
An apology's an apology.

If she doesn't accept it,
just walk away.

And there we have
the entire spectrum
of male response...

Dazzle them or dump them.

Just be nice to her,
Dr. Murphy.

**

I don't like
you looking like this.

(CHUCKLES)
I want you in a suit

with one
of my famous ties.

I had more ties
than birthdays.

How did that happen?

You know what's funny?
What?

I only have
great memories of you.

What about
all those other memories?

Why can't I
remember them?

Good memories are like
a beautiful song.

You don't want them
to ever end.

I don't think that's all
we should talk about.

**

You're looking
awfully sleepy.

Our clock is ticking.
We need to get
to the good stuff.

You know, Dad,
the real reason I'm here.

SHAUN: The surgery
went very well.

We got every bit of picket,
and Mac is recovering nicely.

Oh, thank you.
He should be able
to go home today.

This is all
good news, Nicole.

I know. I know.
I was... I was just...

I was hoping to have
one night without him.

**

AMANDA: Katherine!

Mom. Dad.
Thank God you're alive.

Thank you.

Unfortunately, there's
still a serious issue

we have to deal with.
Kitty has cervical fractures.

She broke her neck.

Luckily, we can repair it
by fusing her spine.

Your range of motion
will be restricted,

but when
everything else heals,

you should be walking
within three months.

Will I be able
to climb again?

Not at that level,
and certainly not free solo.

They should've just left me
on that mountain to die.

Then I think you'll prefer
the second option...

The Odontoid
Screw Procedure.

It doesn't involve
vertebral fusion

and could maintain
your full range of motion.

Seriously?
Sign me up!

The spinal fusion surgery
is generally preferred

because it has
higher healing rates

and more favorable
long-term results.

But the screw procedure's
less invasive,

so there's reduced
collateral injury

and no permanent damage.

Would she be able
to climb again?

Free solo? Everything?

Eventually, yes.

Can I say yes now?

Yes! (CHUCKLES)

No.

**

If you give her
this operation,
you'll be killing her.

**

You can get help.

You mean IEPs,
speech therapy,

or a behavioral mod?

Have you considered
a residential facility,
a group home?

Give him away?
To strangers?

To professionals
who can help him.

He was abandoned
by his father.

I'm all
that he has left.

God, he was
such a beautiful baby.

And he was perfectly normal,
walking, talking...

But just after
he turned two,

we noticed a change.

He started to lose his words.
He was going backwards.

When we got
the test results,

everything we'd hoped for
our perfect, little boy was...

Was gone.

By the time he was nine,
he was too much
for my husband.

(SCOFFS) And that was
before his growth spurt

and before
his mood swings became...

(SCOFFS)

I don't want to give him up.
I... I just...

I just wanted a break
for one lousy night.

Nobody blames you
for that, Nicole.

And you don't have to
send your son anywhere.

I'm sure that'd be devastating
for a kid like Mac.

**

I don't go to church,
I swear,

and I have sex
with strange men.

Your room's on the left.

Yes, it would.

Then he'd get used to it.

It started with a broken arm
and a concussion.

The next time, it was
a shattered femur and
a ruptured spleen,

then a broken pelvis,

then a skull fracture

that put her into a coma
for three days.

She needs
this crazy...fix.

I'm not
an adrenaline junkie!

Okay, when I climb,
adrenaline is the enemy.

I need to be calm,
relaxed, and focused,
or this happens.

You've always wanted
me to believe I can
do anything I want.

Each time that I summit,
every roadblock in my life
melts away.

It's what I live for.

We... We just want you
to keep living.

And I will, Dad,

but I can think of
worse things than dying
doing what I love.

Mr. and Mrs. Kwon,
I understand
how you're feeling,

but your daughter's 18.

It's her decision.

Thank you,
Dr. Reznick.

I'd like to proceed
with your surgery.

**

Remember you telling me
when you grew up,

you wanted to be a nurse...
A "male nurse"?

You're deflecting.
Yes, I am.

I'm deflecting.
I am...deflecting.

What is the point,
Maddie?

Let's get to this, Daddy.
What do you say?

Who are you talking to?
Shaun, what are you doing?

You don't sneak up
on me like that.

You may be
experiencing delirium

with possible auditory
and/or visual hallucinations.

I'm fine.
It may be a symptom

of severe post-operative...
Shaun, Shaun, I'm fine.

I'm just... I'm really...
I'm just really tired.

I'm...

I'm remembering.

MADDIE: Lying to
your little buddy.

I thought you two were
Gilligan's Island- tight.

I'm just remembering.

Okay.

Lea said I was
a total jerk and a jackass,

even though all I did
was tell her the truth,

and then I did
everything right,

but she still
got mad at me again.

I thought
this was Maddie time.

I asked for advice,

and Dr. Park
told me to go big

and Dr. Melendez
told me to walk away

and JL the anesthesiologist,
she told me to be nice,
but I don't know which...

Shaun, Shaun, Shaun,
I just... I'm not

in the best wisdom mode
at the moment. Okay?

I'll tell Dr. Dulay you may be
experiencing psychosis.

I'm not psychotic,
Shaun.

There's no need
to bother her.

It won't bother her.
It's her job.

Shaun, stop!
He won't
listen to you, Daddy.

He never does!
Maddie, please!
Will you please!

(VOICE BREAKING)
I'm having a vision.

Just a vision.

Maybe it's the drugs.
I don't know.

You're talking to Maddie.

**

Shaun, can you
keep this between us?

Please?
Just for a little while.

Okay.

We both know he can't
keep a secret worth a damn.

We'd better get to it.

I don't want
to get to it.

I want to talk
about the rest of it.

I want to talk about
the... The...

The Usher parties
and the ties.

Why can't we talk
about your track meets?

Because we're past that,
Daddy.

We need to talk about why
you're talking to a ghost,

why I'm not
sitting here for real,
holding my father's hand.

Good dreams, please.
Good dreams.

You want good dreams?

Go ahead.
Take your pill.

This has got to happen, Daddy.
You know it.

(KNOCK ON DOOR)

What if they're right?
What if we are,
in effect,

killing their daughter
by giving her the surgery
she wants?

These are not issues
doctors should think about.

That's what we tell ourselves
because it makes it easier
for us to just do our job

and not worry about whether
we're helping or hurting.

For all we know,
on her next climb,

she may meet
her soul mate.

(EXHALES)

If, on the other hand,

you're not God and,
like the rest of us,

you have no idea
what will happen to her,

then you should
back off.

Focus on
the medical issues,

because as long as Kitty's
a competent adult,

it's all moot.

This is
the two-bedroom.

The one-bedroom went
about an hour ago.

Oh, no.
I wanted the one.

Sorry. This has
a much bigger living room
and a much better view.

And a much
bigger price.

Oh, I didn't know
it had a fireplace!

Damn it, Willow, I just
fell in love with this place,

which is just cruel, since
I definitely can't afford it.

You fall in love
very quickly.

Shaun?

I found a cheaper apartment
with comparable amenities.

I wrote down the address.

What are you doing here?

You said you hated
apartment hunting,

so I decided
to help you.

That's being nice.

And don't forget
about the doughnut.

That isn't being nice.
It's being creepy.

Did you follow me here?
(CHUCKLING) No.

I saw
the rental address

highlighted on your tablet
this morning.

That is creepy, too.

You know, I didn't ask
for your help, Shaun.

I do not need your help,
and I don't want your help.

LEO: Katherine, if you won't
reconsider this surgery...

KITTY: I won't.
...then we have to consider
other options.

**

The decision is yours,
unless

we have you declared
mentally incompetent.

You're saying
that I might be crazy?

(SCOFFS)

You were in Vienna
for my Sweet 16.

I was
the keynote speaker.

And that birthday card
signed by your secretary.

What's the point,
Maddie?

All the committees
and councils and boards,

evenings,
weekends, holidays...

I was working
my ass off.
That's just an excuse.

You were avoiding me.

Oh, I was avoiding you?

When I was home,
you paid no attention to me

or anything
I had to say.
(SCOFFS)

I heard you've been
experiencing some delirium...

(SIGHS)
...possibly hallucinations.

Shaun.

(WHISPERING)
I kept our secret

for 30 minutes.

He betrayed you.
He's not a friend.

It could just be
ICU psychosis

brought on by lack of sleep,
but, as you know,

or would know,
if you weren't psychotic,

it could be
a lot worse.

It could be an indicator
of surgical complications,

like infection
or cerebral ischemia.

I'm not psychotic.
I'm just tired.

Oh, my God.

Either take the pill
or I'm gonna knock you out.

(PILL RATTLES)

(WOMAN SPEAKING
INDISTINCTLY ON P.A.)

(GULPS)

All right.
Nighty-night.

MADDIE: How sweet.

**

You're willing
to risk your life
to finish our little story.

This is ridiculous!
Why do you
say that, Kitty?

This is about
two overbearing parents
who just can't let go.

She wants
to kill herself.

I fell off that mountain.
I didn't jump.

You said
you'd be happy to die

as long
as you were climbing.

Mom, what I meant is,
people take risks
all the time,

risks that reduce
their lifespan,

every time they get into a car
or they smoke a cigarette.

We're all doing
the same thing,

just calculating our chances
and hoping we defy the odds.

What about when you took
the sleeping pills?

It was four years ago, after
I'd been dumped on Twitter.

And I'd called my parents
as soon as I had done it.

It was hardly
a suicide attempt.

You spent the night
in the ER.

They said
you nearly died.

(SIGHS)

(INHALES SHARPLY)

Ugh.
I'm such an idiot.

I... I... I thought
the window was open.

That's what I get
for keeping them so clean.

Possible nerve, vessel,
and ligament injury,

and she's lost
a lot of blood.

Let's get her
into an OR now.

Mom! No!

I'll stay with him.

It's gonna be okay, sweetie.
Ask Deezer.

Mom,
where are you going?

No!

(GRUNTING) No!

2 milligrams lorazepam.

(WHIMPERING)

And some ice.

Kitty believes the surgery
her parents want

will make her
an invalid.
That's not true.

She won't be able
to be a top athlete,

but the impairment
will be minor.

She'll be able to enjoy
an active and safe lifestyle.

That minor impairment
could be as much

as a 50% restriction
of head rotation

and a reduction
in flexion extension.

That's worst-case
scenario.

It's a permanent
disability.

All kids
make bad choices.

Kitty's may be
worse than most,

but are we really gonna
hobble an adult woman?

Adult? She's 18.

It's the definition.

And two months ago,
she was 17
and a helpless child?

I mean, she's obviously
just as immature

and unreasonable
as ever.

This is about your mother,
isn't it?

If you
could've controlled her,
you would've prevented

a lot of pain to herself
and others.

Thank you.
I think I have enough
to make my decision.

I'm sorry

that I hit you.

When you get scared,

do you think about
something that helps you?

Deezer.

Do you?

Think about something?

School change
their dress code?

I'm not going to school.

Mr. Decker's
still substituting.

I know Ken.

Dated him in high school.

He's a real horse's ass.

**

Tough titmouse.
Get dressed.

(PLATE CLATTERS)

Tough titmouse.

**

I see a vibrant,
engaged young woman.

But I also see a reckless
disregard for your life.

And it's not clear to me
if that's a pathological state

or simply
a product of youth.

Either way,

I have to err on the side of
the preservation of that life.

(VOICE BREAKING) No.

I'm sorry, Kitty.

(CRYING) No.

Oh, my God.

**

Nothing I ever did
was enough.

When I was home,
you were out

or you were high,
or both.

You don't remember that,
do you?

You've always found
lots of time for Shaun.

Oh, stop.
Shaun has special needs.

He had no one else.
I had needs.

I was lost and confused.
I needed my father!

Now? Now you tell me?
Now?

When it...
When it mattered,

when it might've made
a... A difference,

you... You turned me away
every time,

screaming,
"You don't know me!"

You don't!
I know.

I know!

I have no idea
who you are!

I have no idea
what you wanted,

what you wanted from me!

I wanted you to be there!
I was there!

Not enough, obviously.
Otherwise...

(VOICE BREAKING)
Otherwise?

Otherwise...

(QUIETLY) Otherwise...

(CHUCKLES)

You were such
a happy little girl.

We were best friends.

I... I don't get it.

What happened?

What made you
so unhappy?

You did.

My only sin
was growing up.

When I couldn't be your little
pinafore princess anymore,

you wanted
nothing to do with me.

That's not true.

(VOICE BREAKING) I loved you,
and I still love you.

(SCOFFS)

**

I hate you.

And I died hating you.

(SCOFFS) Think I'm gonna
let you off that easy?

The night.

Let's talk about that.

SHAUN:
Tequila... Stat.

(ISLANDS IN THE STREAM PLAYS)

**

I went big.

* Baby, when I met you
There was peace unknown

* I set out to get you
with a fine-tooth... *

(CLICK, MUSIC STOPS)

Karaoke?

Hershey meant
everything to me, Shaun.

I took the biggest chance
of my life going back there.

And then it just...

(VOICE BREAKING)
Then it just went away.

(NORMAL VOICE) But I knew
I could come back here

to get the support
of my friend,

who was so different
because he was so open

and nice and honest.

But you gave me nothing.

You... You never
even asked me once,

"What happened
in Hershey?"

You just...

You just didn't care.

**

(DOOR OPENS)

DR. MELENDEZ:
It went very well.

You should get
most of the sensation
back in your hand,

but we do need to monitor your
motor strength and perfusion.

Okay.

We know
Mac caused your injury.

No, I told you...
I... I cut it on a window.

No, Mac has
never hurt anyone.

What were you
doing to him?

Trying to help him.

You need to find
a place for Mac.

That is not our call.

You're overwhelmed,
Nicole.

There's no shame
in admitting you need help
to get Mac help.

He'll hate me.

SYBIL:
You got to move out.

Soon as they find
someone who'll take you.

(SILVERWARE CLATTERS)

Okay, stop.

Not everything
is about you.

Doctors say I'm dying,

and there's nothing
they can do about it.

Tough titmouse.

**

He won't hate you.

He'll just be
very scared.

You have been given
an enormous challenge

that a lot of people
couldn't handle.

(SIGHS)

I know you'll find
the strength to keep going.

I will.

Thank you.

**

(SIGHS)

Five years from now...
I want you to tell
my parents something.

Tell them I never
want to see them again.

Dr. Melendez, I know a kid
who had a lot of issues,

got into a lot of trouble,
fights, mainly with his dad.

And when I met his dad,
I understood.

He was
a real piece of work.

So, I stepped up,
found the kid a place to live,

got him
a pretty decent job.

But he was already
too...broken.

He needed a lot more
than a friendly cop.

He needed a doctor.

The next guy he got
in a fight with had a gun.

Nicole trusts you.

And that's why you have to
give her permission to let go.

**

How are we
supposed to give advice

without dragging
our baggage into it?

Maybe our baggage
informs our advice,

gives us perspective,

maybe even wisdom.

Maybe you're confusing baggage
with experience.

What's the difference?

If I knew,
I wouldn't be up here.

**

MADDIE:
Mom was out of town.

I can't take
any more of this.

You caught me high
for the umpteenth time.

Maddie,
why are you doing this?

The night
I'd broke another promise,

and you decided to quit
the bargaining and the threats
and take action.

**

So you dragged me outside
and locked the door.

(VOICE BREAKING) I prayed
you would come and find me.

Why didn't you
come and find me?

(VOICE BREAKING)
I thought that

you would go
to Jessica's.

I thought
you'd go to Aunt Becky's.

If I had any idea...
Oh, if you thought
I'd die that night,

you would've
let me back in?
Good to know.

How could you do that?

Why would anyone do that?

I don't get it!

(CRYING)
How dare you do that!

Maddie, look at me!

I died that day, Maddie.

I died that day, too.

DR. GLASSMAN:
(SCREAMING) I don't get it!
I don't get it!

I don't get it!!

I... I... I...

Is there a problem?

No.
(SIGHS)

I just wanted to talk to you
before we started the surgery.

Kitty doesn't want you here
when she wakes up.

She'll change her mind.

With time,
she will change her mind.

I have somebody in my life
who's self-destructive,

and there have been times

when I could've forced her
into treatment, and...

(SCOFFS) I'm sure
it would've helped...

For a while.

But...

I think I have been
pushing you because

I sometimes think
I made the wrong choice.

But she would've hated me.

And I would've lost her.

You're trying
to save your daughter,

but I think
you're gonna lose her.

Forever.

**

If we do this,
she will grow and learn.

And when she walks
down the aisle
with her loving husband,

and when she holds
her baby in her arms
for the first time,

we may not be there,

but those are the gifts
we're giving her.

And it's enough.

**

It will
have to be enough.

Maddie, please.

Maddie... Maddie, look...
Look at me.

Maddie, don't...

Maddie!
2 milligrams haldol.

No... No, don't...
No, I... I can't let...

I... I can't have her
leave me like this.

Maddie.
(EXHALES SHARPLY)

Please don't leave me
like this, Maddie.

I should've held on to you.
I sh...

I sh... I should've...

I should've held on to you

until... Un... Until
you talked to me.

I should've held on.

I... (GRUNTS)

Your mother

wanted to send you
to rehab.

And I said no.

I... I said "No.
I can fix it!

"She's my little girl!
She'll listen to me!"

(VOICE BREAKING)
I wanted to be the hero.

I wanted
to earn you back.

I wanted you
to love me again,

like you did
once upon a time.

It was stupid.

**

And I... I don't know
what to say,

except I'm sorry.

I... I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I...

(SNIFFLES)

I know you loved me,
Daddy.

I loved you, too.

**

(MAN SPEAKING
INDISTINCTLY ON P.A.)

If you send Mac away,

there will be people
who think you let him down,

question your love
for him.

They'll say you gave up
on him as a parent

and took the easy way out.

They may even
hate you for it.

But those people,

they don't understand.

I didn't.

Giving him up will be
the hardest thing

that you will
ever have to do.

But maybe
you need to do it

because of your love
for him.

**

The surgery
went well.

As long as you stick
to the program,

you'll be walking
within eight
to twelve weeks.

Or less.

Great.

You know,
your parents did this

because they love you,
Kitty, so much.

I know.

(SIGHS)

(MUFFLED SHOUTING)

**

Mom, I'm sorry!

(SHOUTING INDISTINCTLY)

No, Mom!

(SHOUTING CONTINUES)

No! Shut up!
Stop it!

(SHOUTING CONTINUES)

You gather up
all your crap?

Yes.
I checked three times.

Good, 'cause anything
you leave, I'm chucking.

**

I'm scared.

Tough titmouse.

(EXHALES SHAKILY)

(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)

(INHALES DEEPLY)

(MONITOR BEEPING)

I'm not a hallucination.

You've been asleep
for 13 hours.

Hmm.

Was seeing Maddie
therapeutic?

She said she loved me.

Hmm.

That's very good.

Or maybe it was just
me telling myself that.

You always
tell the truth.

Thank you, Shaun.

**

(INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS)

**

Hey, kid.

Neil!
(CHUCKLES)

Mi amorcita.

Hey. (SNIFFLES)

I almost did my puzzle.

I can see that.

That's a great job,
Gabi.

Mom and Dad gave it to me
for my birthday.

Yeah. I... I remember.

Are Mom and Dad
coming for me today?

Oh, mama.

(SMOOCHES) No.

No, no, they can't.

Gabi, we love you,

but you have way more fun here
than at their place.

I think I see
a piece of the cow.

**

(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)

Thank you
for letting me crash.

Yes.

You

rented an apartment?

No.

I'm gonna get an Airbnb.

(SIGHS)

All right.

What happened
in Hershey?

Do you care?

(EXHALING DEEPLY)
I tried to...be nice,

and I tried to go big,

and I don't want
to walk away,

and everyone
likes doughnuts.

And I don't know
how to answer that.

Just be honest.

**

I...

...don't care
what happened in Hershey.

But I care that you care.

You want to try
that song again?

(SIGHING) Oh, yes!

Then, okay.
(BAG THUDS)

Okay.

(ISLANDS IN THE STREAM PLAYS)

BOTH:
* Tender love is blind

* It requires
* It requires a dedication

* All this love we feel

* Needs no...
I went bigger.

* We ride it together

* Uh-huh

* Making love...
I rented that apartment
you liked for us to share.

* Oh, oh
Islands in the stream

* That is what we are

* No one in between

* How can we be wrong? *

**