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The big question is,
how aggressive do you want to be?

Very aggressive.
We don't want to lose any more time.

You've been trying for...
Two years?

And four months.

Uh, I have the app monitoring ovulation,

taking temperature and mucus levels,

we've been, uh, planning
and pacing intercourse.

It's been very romantic.

So we're looking at IUI or IVF.

IUI is the least invasive.
And outpatient.

IUI...

Didn't you read the thing?
I told you to read the thing.

Intrauterine insemination.

The sperm are injected
directly into the uterus.

- And yes, it's outpatient.
- Let's start there.

- You're 39, Steven?
- Mmm-hmm.

Okay, we'll test your sperm for count
and motility percentage.

And how far away are we
from your period, Leigh?

It's unpredictable.
A week, maybe 10 days.

Your cycle's unpredictable?

Is that a problem?

Possibly, possibly not.

That and your age are all factors.

Over 35, the situation
becomes more difficult.

But very often, it's manageable.

But it might be likely that,
based on your test results,

we go straight to in vitro.

Will Insurance help with that?

Most companies won't cover IVF,

but very often, the genetic testing
for the man will be covered.

Oh, that sounds fair.

All right, so, Steven,
when can we schedule your tests?

Which tests?

A blood panel for chromosomal diagnosis,

a sample of your semen.

When did you last ejaculate?

A week.

Maybe less.

No, it's two weeks.

When...

Ah.

We'll need to reschedule it
for another time.

We need within three to five days after.

Homework, honey.

We gotta talk.

About what?

Steve?

Steve!

Steve.

Steve!

Oh. I'm sorry.

- I'll just put it there.
- I can fix this.

No, I don't want to cancel it,
I just wanted a usage alert.

So you'll text me
next time it's used?

Okay. Thanks.

He hasn't used the credit card yet.

They're going to send me
an alert when he does.

We can get a location from that.

God, I hope he

just tries an ATM
and doesn't trade the card for dope.

Does he have your PIN?

Are you kidding?

Why would he try an ATM?

I'm sorry, Steve.
Do you have a better suggestion?

He took the card to use the card,
and now we'll know if he does.

He didn't have to break the house.

No, I don't think he did.

Me neither.

Someone ask you
what you think, Theodora?

Sorry.

If it wasn't Luke, who was it?

Maybe one of your kids.

Yeah, that makes sense.
It was probably my kids.

Or maybe it was the guy
who just stole a car

to put a needle in his arm.

I'm worried about a lot more than that.

What do you mean?

I mean, that suicides
can cluster in families,

especially twins.

If they lose a twin,

the odds go up.

He may not be
planning to come home.

- Where... Where would he go?
- He could be anywhere.

He was picked up off Mass Ave
a few times when he was living here.

Methadone Mile.

- What's that?
- Mass Ave, south of downtown.

It's basically an open-air drug market.

I remember it.

- I'll go look for him.
- It's a waste of gas.

- He could be anywhere.
- Yeah, I'll... I'll go with you.

- I got this.
- Just wait a bit.

- We'll see if he's using the card.
- Call me if he does.

What are you gonna do?
Drive in circles?

- Hope he's standing on some corner?
- Maybe, I don't know.

We're really not gonna
tell them what we saw?

Damn it, Luke.

We going or what?

I just want to help.

I just want to help.

Look, bud, I know you do,

but I'm gonna start using
some really strong chemicals down here,

and it just isn't safe.

I can help with something else, then.

Look, pal,

I've already hired
all the help I can afford

just to get everything else
finished by the end of summer.

I could use your help
with something, though.

- Yeah?
- Yeah.

See, your mom's gonna
go to your Aunt Janet's in a few days

and stay a bit.

Maybe a week.

How come?

Well, you know, she's been cooped up
in this house all summer, and...

Anyway, I know it's not
the most exciting thing,

but I could really use your help

watching your brother
and your sisters while she's away.

Yeah.

Yeah, I got you.

Okay.

Mom?

What do you mean, sweetheart?

Of course you're safe with me.

Mom.

Are you okay?

Where...

Where are the twins?

Downstairs.

Of course.

- Are you sure...
- I'm fine, sweetie. I'm fine.

Okay, thanks.

Well, he's... He's not at Holy Family.

Well, he's probably
not gonna instantly OD.

You're gonna call
every hospital in Boston? That the plan?

What, you're gonna just drive around,
hope we spot him in a city of 700,000?

I'm not looking for him.
I'm looking for a beat-up green Jeep

with not one, but two,
Ani DiFranco bumper stickers,

and I'm looking for it
where I know he used to score.

Gotta do something.

Yeah, we do.

So, um...

What's going on?

- Hmm?
- What's going on with you and Leigh?

What do you mean?

Well, I mean...

- How's your marriage?
- You're kidding, right?

You're not living at home,

and I couldn't help but notice
at the funeral...

- You aren't seriously doing this.
- Well, yeah, I am. I...

Jesus Christ, Dad, you're out of line.

We might be in the car for a while,
and so I thought to myself,

"I'm going to ask my son
about his life." What's wrong with that?

Doesn't work that way, Dad.

Your mom and I were married 15 years.

Together five before that.

She used to say
she was the kite and I was the line.

She was a... Creature of the clouds

and... And I was a creature
of the earth.

And she'd say that,
without me, she'd become untethered

and she would float away
up into the...

And then, without her,
I would just, you know,

crash, just drop right down
to the ground,

and, you know.

But... Together...

We...

You know, we separated.

You... You didn't know
that, probably.

Briefly, we separated.
You were one year old.

Stupidest thing I ever did.

You know, I made some stupid
proclamation, and that was it.

Two weeks.

Two weeks. I don't even know
how we got there. I just know we fought.

I don't know what we fought about,
but I finally came to my senses, and...

I thought, "What the hell,

"you stupid asshole.
What are you, insane?"

So, you know, I came back
and knocked on the door,

she answered it,
she put her arms around me,

she kissed me,
she forgave me with her eyes, and...

She handed you to me.

I had you in one arm
and her in the other, and that was it.

We were back at it.

And Shirley came along, and...

From that moment on,
we were on the same team.

You know, we still fought sometimes,

but it was...

It was different.
We fought with love. She taught me that.

You fight with love.

Yeah, when you're...

You're on the same team even when
you're in the middle of a fight.

During the fight,

you're... You're forgiven.

There's no fear.
There's no danger. You're safe.

I hope, really,
you get to experience that sometime.

It's a...

It's a beautiful way to be.

You know, look, we weren't perfect...

But we were always kind.

And we loved each other hard.

And I love her today
just as much as I did in the beginning.

The kite and the line.

So whatever you need to fix
between you and Leigh...

I really... I really hope you do.

And, uh...

That's all I...
That's all I really wanted to say.

Candy, candy, candy, candy!

Sure you won't come with us?

You guys have fun.

Come on, Mom, candy!

We'll bring her back some.
Mom's had a very hard day.

Would you stop that?

I'm still disappointed
you're not going as Captain Lame.

I swear to God, Dad.

Candy, candy, candy!

Hey.

Can we talk when I get back?

How? You'll be back at the hotel.

Okay.

Okay, Shirl.

Stop.

- Let's go.
- Turn off the porch light.

I can't handle
trick-or-treaters tonight.

I love you.

You guys have fun.

What the hell?

Sorry, no candy here.

Goddamn light's off.

I'm gonna
call the hospitals again.

- Maybe he just forgot his ID.
- And ask them what?

If they've seen a junkie
in a funeral suit?

He's 90 days clean
and he's your brother.

He's a good man, Steve.

They're not mutually exclusive.

He's my brother, but he's a junkie.

We're not gonna
find him like this.

- You didn't have to come.
- Yeah, I did.

- No, you really didn't.
- Yeah, I did, Steve.

He's my son. You know? My...

I don't know what I'd do
if I lost him, any of you.

Yeah, I had to come.

I can't... I can't lose...

I can't lose anyone else.

One day, when you have children,
you'll understand.

I'm never having children.

Well, that's... That's a shame.

'Cause you kids
are the best thing in my life.

You mean Aunt Janet's life?

She's the one
who raised your kids, didn't she?

- You don't know what it was like.
- You never told me.

Everything I did,
I did to protect you.

To protect us, I know, yeah.

Just like you protected Mom.

Here we go.

I saw the police reports.

Her skull cracked like a melon...

All right, Steve, why don't you just...?

There was blood
all over the library carpet.

There were bruises
on her upper arms

because someone
grabbed her pretty hard.

Okay, Steve...

And a contusion on the back of her head
from being shoved into a wall?

Her ankle was twisted,
so she was limping,

she was bruised to hell,
depressed out of her mind,

unmedicated, untreated,
and abandoned.

It wasn't like that.

I did my best.
You have no idea...

You threw us in a car,
you left her there alone,

and she threw herself
off the goddamn staircase,

and that was your best?

All right, well, she should
not have been left alone in the house...

Fuck the house.
It wasn't the house. She was sick.

She was sick in her mind,
and the one person,

the one person
that was supposed to take care of her

didn't do a goddamn
thing to get her help.

I miss her.

I miss my mom.

I miss her too.

It's certainly beautiful.
Where did you find it?

The game room.

- The what room?
- Upstairs.

You know, I think a little paint,
maybe fix those doors,

- and she might really love it.
- I'm sure she will.

So do you know
where the paint and stuff is?

- Why don't you ask your father?
- I did. He's busy.

He said if it wasn't tagged for sale,
I could do whatever I wanted.

And it's not tagged for sale.

Well, I do know
where some paint is.

I thought so.

This must have been Poppy's.

Poppy?

Poppy Hill.

She was William's wife.

She was insane.

Yeah, she looks kind of wild.

No, I mean clinically.

So was he.

William's parents sent him
to an institution when he was a kid.

They called it private school,
but it wasn't a school, though.

It was just a place where rich parents
hid their embarrassments.

They met in the mental institution.

They fell in love in an asylum.

She was insane.

Did you know her?

Oh, yes.

She was just as crazy,
just older.

She was a beautiful
young woman in her time, though.

No doubt about that.

If you really want
this to be a surprise for your mom,

I'd suggest you don't
work on it in your room.

Just take the fucking candy and go.

You're very clever.

How about you try another house?

I'm not in the fucking mood!

What the fuck do you want?

Um... Oh.

I was just coming to apologize.

Who were you yelling at?

Some fucking kids are...

Just forget it.

- Wait.
- Not now.

- I can explain.
- I doubt that.

- Shouldn't you be packing?
- I know what it looked like last night.

You were making out
with my husband.

No. No, there was no actual...

Okay, so from what I can remember,
which isn't a lot actually,

he pushed me away.

- Is that supposed to make this better?
- It wasn't even him.

It wasn't... I didn't see him.
It wasn't about him.

It's about you getting out
of my guest house

and off my fucking property.

If you would just let me talk.

I don't care what you have to say.

Don't you understand? Get out!

You are impossible.
Do you know that?

I'm sorry, have I offended you?

You are always throwing it in my face
that I live in your guest house.

Won't happen again.

I choose to live there, Shirley.

- With you, for you.
- Oh, I can't thank you enough.

You ice people out.

You always have.

I ice people out?

Have you met yourself?

And so I chose to live there
to help try and keep you warm.

You fucking suck at apologies.

I don't have to live in your guest
house. I'm not some bohemian weirdo.

I'm an adult.

I am a fucking doctor.

You're a fucking slut.

I just need you to know

that it wasn't Kevin's fault
and he didn't do anything...

Don't you fucking dare
defend my husband.

All of us, all of us
are just always helping you

keep up this idea in your head
that you're perfect Shirley,

and we're just a bunch
of fuck-ups fucking up.

Perfect Shirley's
perfect fucking life...

Out!

No!

You do not just get to shut me
out of your...

Did you just punch me in the boob?

Yeah.

Yeah!

If you kiss my husband,
that's what you get.

You get punched in the fucking boob.

And you get evicted

from my fucking house.

Shirl?

What's up?

They...

Sorry, they...

They got a hit.

He used the card at a gas station.

202, just east of Amherst.

Amherst?

Um...

Can you text me the address?

- Shirl?
- Yeah.

I'm here. Sorry. Uh...

Yeah, I'll... I'll text you the address.

- Amherst is on the way...
- Yeah, I know where it is.

You guys are gonna stay there.
We're gonna go to Amherst.

I'm saying, if he's stopping
in Amherst, he's heading...

Shirley, listen to me,
you're gonna stay put.

- You hear me?
- Tell them what happened.

Tell them what just happened.

I'll text you.

Some fucking kids
playing a prank is what happened.

You know it wasn't.

You know that.

That's not the only thing like that
that's happened here tonight.

I think Luke is going to the house.

Of course he is.

The goddamn house.

It was a good enough spot for Nell,
it's a good enough spot for Luke.

He always wanted to do

what she did his whole life.

- You think you know.
- Uh-huh.

And you just don't,
you don't understand.

Last time I saw Mom,

the look in her eye,

I've seen that look.

In Nell over the years,

and Luke, from the start,

from when he'd sit there

drawing crazy ghouls

in his tree house.

And, hell, I've seen that look
in the mirror.

Our family has a disease

that's never been treated,

because it was easier
to listen to your crazy stories

about an evil house.

You think you saw it in the mirror?

That's why you think
you'll never have kids?

Oh, I know I'm never
having children.

Because you think that

they'll just have the same
imaginary sickness?

They would. We all do.

Nell was delusional, depressed.

Luke's an addict,
Shirley is a control freak,

and Theo's basically
a clenched fist with hair.

The whole fucking family is
on the brink of a breakdown

and seeing things that aren't there,

hearing things that aren't there,

and that shit happened
after the house.

It's not the house.

There's something wrong
with our goddamn brains.

So yeah, I'm never having children.

I made sure.

A vasectomy.

Right out of college.

And it was the right call, believe me,
because if I ever doubted it,

some of the bullshit
I've been hallucinating this week...

You really did?

Yeah.

Before you met Leigh?

Boy.

You didn't tell her?

You didn't tell her.

No.

She wanted kids, I knew that.

And I kept thinking, "I'll tell her
later, now's not the time."

But then we were engaged,
and then we were married,

and then we were trying,
and she was upset it wasn't working.

I couldn't say,

"I can't. My genes...

"My genes are rotten, Leigh."

So I... I...

I didn't tell her.

And I thought I was being kind,
I really thought that.

See, we're all fucking crazy.

The crazy Crains.

This sickness already killed two of us,

might kill a third tonight.

That's...

Almost half.

It'd be almost half of us.

So, you want to tell me more
about the kite and the line?

Or just...

Just tell me
what a shitty husband I was.

Go ahead.

I'm so sorry.

I'm just...

I'm just so sorry, son.

You did this?

I mean, this is beautiful.
You did this by yourself?

Thought it might cheer you up.

Dad said you've been...

What? What did he say?

I'm... I just...

I know you're taking a little vacation.

I wanted to cheer you up.

Oh, sweetie.

How long are you gonna be gone?

Oh, not long.

Not long, honey.

I just need a little time away.

It's nothing more than that, okay?

Okay.

This is perfect.

Thank you.
Thank you! I love it.

Mom?

Oh, baby.

Oh, I'm so sorry.

This is an older picture.
He would have been wearing a suit.

- About an hour ago. Did he come in?
- Yeah, I think so.

Yeah?

Did he say anything weird
or do anything...

He filled up his Jeep.

- Green Jeep?
- That's right.

And then he filled up
some cans, like, five cans.

Five cans, you say?

- Was it him?
- Yeah.

What are you doing?

- I'm driving.
- No, no, no, this...

This is my rental.

Jesus, Dad, slow down.

He bought five cans of gasoline.

He's not going there to kill himself,

- he's going to burn the house down.
- That's a relief.

He's in more danger now
than he's ever been,

and if he tries to burn it,
it will defend itself.

You really didn't hear a word I said.

I did. Now you're gonna listen to me.

There's a lot you don't know.

I thought I could keep you kids safe
if you didn't know, but for 20 years

I've been holding the door closed,
'cause I knew there were monsters

on the other side,
do you understand me?

Not even a little.

Our family is like
an unfinished meal to that house,

and your brother is walking
right back into...

That house is the most dangerous place
in the world for all of us,

but especially for you.

- For me?
- Yeah, you.

What? Why?

Because I read your book,

and you are the last person
that should ever step foot in that house

because of what you wrote
and how you wrote it.

You think you know what you saw?

- You think you know what you wrote?
- What?

I know you saw a ghost.

Yeah, chapter 19.

Yeah.

That little story about
the vanity you painted for your mother.

That's a story about
a schizophrenic woman

having a manic episode
in front of a mirror.

You don't understand what you wrote...

No, I saw Mom smash that glass

- for no reason.
- Before that.

Go to the beginning, that little bit,
about the vanity and why you did it.

- You found the vanity in the game room.
- Mmm-hmm.

And you walked by
the man repairing the clock,

and then you saw your mother
looking into the twins' room,

staring at their empty beds.

Textbook dissociative episode.
She was not well.

No, no, not her.

The man repairing the clock.

What about him?

Do you know what witness marks are?

They're scars.

Little marks inside the clock,
scrapes, lines, divots,

from tools, gears,

pieces removed from the clock.

They're basically evidence of repairs
that have been done to the clock

and what the clock was.

And with antique clocks,
you almost never have a repair record,

so you have to learn
how to read the witness marks,

so you can understand
what was done to the machine

and how it is meant to function.

Witness marks tell
the story of the piece,

if you know how to read them.

What are you trying to say?

I had that clock evaluated
by a professional

before we even moved
into the house.

I just wanted to know its history,
know its value.

That clock hadn't been touched
since the '60s.

You hired a slew of workers
toward the end...

Not for that clock, I didn't. Uh-uh.

No, and if I had,
it would have taken a specialist.

There's only a handful in the world
who know how to do it right,

and they take it off-site.

No. No one touched that clock.
There was no man there,

and certainly not one in old overalls
with a handlebar mustache.

That man wasn't there.

You probably just forgot.

You know, you think you're writing
about your crazy mom,

your crazy brother
making scary faces in the tree house.

You see the marks,
but you don't know how to read them.

I never built you kids a tree house.

What? Luke was in there all the time.

I used to go fetch him for dinner...

We were there flipping a house.

We were gonna be there
maybe eight weeks.

How would I even have the time
to build you kids a goddamn tree house?

- Maybe it was already there.
- There was no tree house.

Now, when we get there,
you can have a look,

but I have to tell you something.

Your mother, she was not sick.

She wasn't crazy,
and neither was your sister,

neither is your brother,
neither are you.

Whatever you saw this week,

and I'm very sorry you have to
be taking all this in right now,

but you have to.

Do you understand me?
You have to,

because your brother's
life depends on it.

That house is the most dangerous place
in the world for all of us,

and that's why
I told your sisters to stay put.

You really think they will?

Do you think he's...

You know...

Going there like Nell went there?

Like going to kill himself?

I don't know.

No.

I guess I don't.

I'm not perfect, you know.

I know.

I'm really not.

So go ahead, tell me.

Try again.

Dad and I were in your office,

and the forever house
was on the floor,

and we heard a noise
under the desk...

Not that. You already told me that.

I was really drunk.

I swear to God, Theo...

And the lights went out

While we were down there, and I...

Couldn't see. I was in the dark.

I mean, like I was in the dark

that whole night, and I just needed...

I... I needed... I...

I couldn't see

him,

if that makes any sense.

You know what? Never mind.

I'm trying to tell you...

Forget I asked.

You just don't know
what I'm dealing with.

We've all been dealing,

and we somehow managed

not to try to fuck
each other's spouses...

Hey, that's not what this was about.

It just isn't.

So, you were drunk,

and that's supposed to be okay?

I'm telling you.

I don't even know why
I let you come with me.

I touched Nell's body
the night before.

The fuck is wrong with you?

Why don't you listen?

- I don't... No, no...
- I'm telling you.

I'm trying to tell you.

I don't need to hear your excuses...

- I'm not making excuses.
- ...or your bullshit.

I saw...

- Are you okay?
- That was her!

That was her! That was her!

Did you see that, Shirley?

Do you fucking believe that?

You ought to know why I did it.

I touched Nell because I had to know.

You know what I'm talking about.

Don't pretend that you don't.

You know what happens
when I touch people.

A part of you knows, it always has.

I had to know, and I...

I touched her.

And I felt...

Nothing.

Just nothing.

And it spread,
it spread everywhere in me,

this nothing, until I couldn't
feel anything anymore.

I was just this dark,

empty black hole.

And I tried to fill it up,
I tried to fill me back up.

I called Trish, and she came right away,
and I felt nothing.

And then I tried to mourn at the wake
and I felt nothing.

And so I drank and I drank,
and nothing worked.

I couldn't feel anything, Shirley.

After I touched her skin,
I couldn't feel...

Anything.

And then we're in the basement,
and the lights go out.

And I can't see.

And I can't feel.

And I'm just... I'm just floating
in this ocean of nothing,

and I wonder if this is it,
if this is what death is,

just out there in the darkness,
just darkness and numbness and alone,

and I wondered if that's what she felt
and that's what Mom feels,

and it's just numb
and nothing and alone.

What if that's what
it is for all of us

when the time comes?

And then... And then the lights came on,
and there he was, and I...

I didn't see him. I didn't see him.

He was a light in the darkness.

He was a life preserver
in the ocean.

I just... I reached for him
because I had to feel something.

I had to feel anything.

And I didn't see him.

I didn't... I didn't see him.
I didn't see him.

I didn't see him!

And he stopped me. He stopped me.

He took my hands, and he said no,

and then I saw him,
and then you walked in.

God, I'm so glad I did it, though.

Because it worked.

Oh, God, it worked.

I started feeling things again,

and I felt... I felt shame,
and I felt grief,

and I felt... Scared.

I felt so fucking scared

that I was gonna lose
the only sister that I had left.

And I...

Honestly, I had to do it,
because it felt better than nothing.

That thorough fucking shame

was so much better
than that horrible, empty nothing.

I can't... Shirley, please.

I am... I am so...

I am so, so, so sorry.

I'm so sorry.

Please, just please.

One, two, three, four,

five, six, seven.

One,

two, three,

four, five,

six...

Mom.