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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:02:46,021 --> 00:02:49,268 - Bless you. - It's freezing in here. 2 00:04:16,506 --> 00:04:19,242 - Look at that green thumb. - I wish. 3 00:04:19,342 --> 00:04:21,035 - How's your sinuses? - Better. 4 00:04:21,135 --> 00:04:22,778 Good. 5 00:04:24,097 --> 00:04:26,239 I should be home by 7:00. 6 00:04:27,600 --> 00:04:30,503 Honey, can you call the landscapers again about the sod? 7 00:04:30,603 --> 00:04:32,672 They gotta get moving, or we're gonna miss... 8 00:04:32,772 --> 00:04:35,457 - I'll try them again. - Thanks, hon. 9 00:04:45,868 --> 00:04:47,854 Maybe it's the couch. 10 00:04:47,954 --> 00:04:49,763 Great! 11 00:05:03,561 --> 00:05:05,352 So... 12 00:05:06,848 --> 00:05:09,417 we were thinking... 13 00:05:09,517 --> 00:05:11,535 in here... 14 00:05:13,980 --> 00:05:16,341 with the... 15 00:05:16,441 --> 00:05:20,136 coming-out part along the wall? 16 00:05:20,236 --> 00:05:21,763 Okay, sure. 17 00:05:21,863 --> 00:05:24,724 And I guess come in through there. 18 00:05:24,824 --> 00:05:27,769 - Not through there? - Right. 19 00:05:27,869 --> 00:05:30,345 - Okay. - Great. Thanks. 20 00:05:33,032 --> 00:05:35,777 Big push. Four more. 21 00:05:35,877 --> 00:05:38,780 Three, two. Now reach up to the corner. 22 00:05:38,880 --> 00:05:41,783 Up and up. Nice. Good stretch, Bev. 23 00:05:41,883 --> 00:05:43,785 Nice. Push it. Four more. 24 00:05:43,885 --> 00:05:47,288 Three, two. Sasha, here we go. Take it around. 25 00:05:47,388 --> 00:05:50,208 Two, two. Down. Two, two. 26 00:05:50,308 --> 00:05:53,118 Two more. Here we go. Let's smile, ladies. 27 00:05:54,979 --> 00:05:58,508 Right, two, three, and left, two, three. 28 00:05:58,608 --> 00:06:00,510 Well, I just eventually found... 29 00:06:00,610 --> 00:06:03,263 the whole 12-step thing was like... 30 00:06:03,363 --> 00:06:05,431 just another form of addiction. 31 00:06:05,531 --> 00:06:08,726 - That's exactly what this book is saying. - Yeah? 32 00:06:08,826 --> 00:06:11,396 Yeah, it's about how to own your own life. 33 00:06:11,496 --> 00:06:15,650 Because what he's saying is that we don't really own our own lives. 34 00:06:15,750 --> 00:06:17,902 We're taught what to do, what to think.... 35 00:06:18,002 --> 00:06:20,405 but emotionally we're not really in charge. 36 00:06:20,505 --> 00:06:23,491 But see, I think that with the exercise... 37 00:06:23,591 --> 00:06:26,202 and the diet and healthy foods... 38 00:06:26,302 --> 00:06:29,455 I just think he's very good at certain things. 39 00:06:29,555 --> 00:06:31,291 - Really? - Oh, yeah. 40 00:06:31,391 --> 00:06:33,501 - Have you read him, Carol? - No. 41 00:06:33,601 --> 00:06:36,254 He's very good on certain things... 42 00:06:36,354 --> 00:06:37,964 emotional maintenance... 43 00:06:38,064 --> 00:06:40,925 stress management. 44 00:06:41,025 --> 00:06:44,971 You know, Carol, you do not sweat? 45 00:06:45,071 --> 00:06:48,182 Oh, I hate you. 46 00:06:48,282 --> 00:06:49,976 I know. It's true. 47 00:06:50,076 --> 00:06:52,385 No, it's great. 48 00:07:02,755 --> 00:07:04,365 - Hi. - Hi. 49 00:07:04,465 --> 00:07:07,859 - Did you forget? - No. It's inside. 50 00:07:09,011 --> 00:07:11,863 - I just... - What? 51 00:07:13,057 --> 00:07:15,710 Something happened. 52 00:07:15,810 --> 00:07:17,619 Come in. 53 00:07:27,947 --> 00:07:29,881 How old was he? 54 00:07:31,951 --> 00:07:34,052 Five years older. 55 00:07:36,873 --> 00:07:40,475 He was the oldest of my mom's kids. 56 00:07:47,508 --> 00:07:48,858 It... 57 00:07:50,553 --> 00:07:52,538 wasn't... 58 00:07:52,638 --> 00:07:54,573 No. 59 00:07:55,683 --> 00:07:58,544 That's what everyone keeps... 60 00:07:58,644 --> 00:08:00,662 Not at all. 61 00:08:05,651 --> 00:08:08,554 'Cause he wasn't married. 62 00:08:08,654 --> 00:08:10,547 Right. 63 00:08:17,079 --> 00:08:19,180 It's just so unreal. 64 00:08:31,052 --> 00:08:33,913 - Did you see the den? - At your party. It's gorgeous. 65 00:08:34,013 --> 00:08:36,749 You know, I'm suing the contractor. Did I tell you? 66 00:08:36,849 --> 00:08:38,533 No. 67 00:08:39,685 --> 00:08:41,870 You don't even want to know. 68 00:08:43,814 --> 00:08:46,958 Fulvia? I'm home. 69 00:09:07,338 --> 00:09:09,115 Hello? 70 00:09:09,215 --> 00:09:10,908 Hi, Mother. 71 00:09:11,008 --> 00:09:13,953 What? No. I just walked in the door. 72 00:09:14,053 --> 00:09:16,154 That's all right. 73 00:09:17,640 --> 00:09:19,741 How are you feeling? How's your back? 74 00:09:21,102 --> 00:09:23,171 That's good. 75 00:09:23,271 --> 00:09:25,830 It's not a bad time, Mother. I just... 76 00:09:26,983 --> 00:09:29,218 All right. That's fine. 77 00:09:29,318 --> 00:09:32,504 He's fine. They're fine. 78 00:09:33,573 --> 00:09:36,058 I will. 79 00:09:36,158 --> 00:09:37,759 I will, Mother. 80 00:09:41,080 --> 00:09:42,940 Okay. 81 00:09:43,040 --> 00:09:44,901 I'll talk to you soon. 82 00:09:45,001 --> 00:09:46,944 Okay. 83 00:09:47,044 --> 00:09:48,905 Bye-bye. 84 00:09:49,005 --> 00:09:51,314 Fulvia? 85 00:09:58,889 --> 00:10:01,866 Any telefono while I was gone? 86 00:10:06,564 --> 00:10:08,415 Oh, my God. 87 00:10:12,445 --> 00:10:15,181 No, missus. No telefono. 88 00:10:15,281 --> 00:10:17,549 Is this what they delivered? 89 00:10:20,286 --> 00:10:22,429 Fulvia? 90 00:10:25,124 --> 00:10:29,779 We did... We did not order black. This is... 91 00:10:29,879 --> 00:10:32,731 This is... This is not what we ordered. 92 00:10:33,924 --> 00:10:36,651 Turn your love around 93 00:10:37,637 --> 00:10:40,289 Yes, in Sherman Oaks. May I have the number... 94 00:10:40,389 --> 00:10:43,626 for Nelson's on Riverside, please? 95 00:10:43,726 --> 00:10:46,077 I don't believe this. 96 00:10:48,648 --> 00:10:51,416 Ye... Thank you. 97 00:10:57,782 --> 00:11:00,226 Yes, may I have the shipping or delivery depart... 98 00:11:00,326 --> 00:11:04,730 - Thank you. - That you're still in love with me 99 00:11:04,830 --> 00:11:07,358 We're gonna make it 100 00:11:07,458 --> 00:11:11,279 And we're gonna take it back where we belong 101 00:11:11,379 --> 00:11:13,646 Turn your love around 102 00:11:34,026 --> 00:11:35,761 - Mom? - What, Rory? 103 00:11:35,861 --> 00:11:39,599 - Mom, soccer practice. Don't forget. - I didn't forget last time. 104 00:11:39,699 --> 00:11:43,603 - Whatever. It's the bus. I gotta go. - It was a mix-up. Okay. 105 00:11:43,703 --> 00:11:45,637 - Bye. - Bye, honey. 106 00:11:58,259 --> 00:12:00,614 Fulvia? 107 00:12:02,614 --> 00:12:04,714 Fulvia? 108 00:12:06,809 --> 00:12:08,461 - Fulvia? - Si? 109 00:12:08,561 --> 00:12:11,454 Where's my book? My telephone book? 110 00:12:11,780 --> 00:12:14,091 I put it in the bottom shelf... 111 00:12:14,191 --> 00:12:16,218 because of the cabinet men. 112 00:12:16,318 --> 00:12:19,045 Oh, okay. I see. Thanks. 113 00:12:20,698 --> 00:12:24,518 You've got to step back and say, "Wait a minute. 114 00:12:24,618 --> 00:12:28,481 It's not an honor or a privilege or even a duty to be a patient. 115 00:12:28,581 --> 00:12:33,194 If people don't want it on religious grounds or quality-of-life grounds..." 116 00:12:33,294 --> 00:12:35,613 - Fulvia, could I have some milk? - Si. 117 00:12:35,713 --> 00:12:38,658 - Some leche, por favor? - Si, seguro que si. 118 00:12:38,758 --> 00:12:41,327 ...to let a critically ill patient die... 119 00:12:41,427 --> 00:12:44,705 but you're also saying it is all right to hasten that death. 120 00:12:44,805 --> 00:12:47,833 - I didn't say that. - I disagree with that. 121 00:12:47,933 --> 00:12:51,170 Isn't Elizabeth Bouvier, by starving herself, hastening her own death? 122 00:12:51,270 --> 00:12:54,090 No, I think you have to draw a distinction... 123 00:12:54,190 --> 00:12:58,010 between steps the doctor could take to actively kill somebody... 124 00:12:58,110 --> 00:12:59,845 Senora. 125 00:12:59,945 --> 00:13:01,514 Thank you. 126 00:13:01,614 --> 00:13:03,391 You okay, missus? 127 00:13:03,491 --> 00:13:06,686 ...and say, "Whatever happens, we are going to withdraw from the situation." 128 00:13:06,786 --> 00:13:10,690 It's terrible to say with 30 seconds left, but isn't that a thin line? 129 00:13:10,790 --> 00:13:12,858 But it's a very important line. 130 00:13:12,958 --> 00:13:15,236 It's one thing to remove a piece of machinery... 131 00:13:15,336 --> 00:13:18,698 whether big as a respirator or small as a feeding tube. 132 00:13:18,798 --> 00:13:21,659 It's another thing to say, "His life isn't worth much anyway... 133 00:13:21,759 --> 00:13:24,152 so we're gonna help you out more." 134 00:13:45,991 --> 00:13:48,561 Sorry. They were in the back. 135 00:13:48,661 --> 00:13:51,397 Oh, it's okay. Thanks. 136 00:13:51,497 --> 00:13:54,692 - Oh, that purse is adorable! - Thank you. 137 00:13:54,792 --> 00:13:56,819 - How's your little girl? - Oh, she's fine. 138 00:13:56,919 --> 00:13:59,896 - She's so cute. - Oh, thank you. 139 00:14:01,465 --> 00:14:03,659 Okay. Bye. 140 00:14:03,759 --> 00:14:05,828 Bye. 141 00:14:05,928 --> 00:14:08,289 No, we wanted teal. 142 00:14:08,389 --> 00:14:11,292 We ordered teal, but we received black. 143 00:14:11,392 --> 00:14:13,586 But your original order shows black. 144 00:14:13,686 --> 00:14:17,622 That's impossible, because it doesn't go with anything we have. 145 00:14:19,024 --> 00:14:20,750 All right. 146 00:14:22,903 --> 00:14:27,016 All right. Let me try the Sherman Oaks store upstairs. 147 00:14:27,116 --> 00:14:28,934 See what they have in stock. 148 00:14:29,034 --> 00:14:30,802 Thank you. 149 00:14:32,329 --> 00:14:36,275 If I told you the end of the world was coming... 150 00:14:36,375 --> 00:14:39,236 and you said to me that you'd get on your knees... 151 00:14:39,336 --> 00:14:42,198 and you'd pray, I'd say you're in trouble. 152 00:14:42,298 --> 00:14:46,786 Because when I go to bed and pull those covers under my neck... 153 00:14:46,886 --> 00:14:50,623 I say, "Jesus, I'll see you in the morning." 154 00:14:50,723 --> 00:14:52,833 You do that very well. Thank you. 155 00:14:52,933 --> 00:14:55,044 I was raised in a fundamentalist church. 156 00:14:55,144 --> 00:14:58,672 I heard this all my life. We sang songs about being in God's army... 157 00:14:58,772 --> 00:15:01,133 I think you've changed the subject. 158 00:15:01,233 --> 00:15:04,178 I see a president who's embattled... 159 00:15:04,278 --> 00:15:07,556 and a president who's, based on... what do I base it on?... 160 00:15:07,656 --> 00:15:11,018 not being close to him but close to people who are... 161 00:15:11,118 --> 00:15:15,105 in the press who watch him carefully, as being very pained at the moment... 162 00:15:15,205 --> 00:15:17,691 and certainly... 163 00:15:17,791 --> 00:15:20,152 a man who wants to make his mark... 164 00:15:20,252 --> 00:15:22,988 I've never heard anybody ever say he's that fundamentalist... 165 00:15:23,088 --> 00:15:25,074 that he believes the end is nigh. 166 00:15:25,174 --> 00:15:28,494 I really... You and I take a different view on that one. 167 00:15:28,594 --> 00:15:30,419 But are you married to Marjoe? 168 00:15:33,057 --> 00:15:37,002 - No. - Just, you sound... the technique. 169 00:15:37,102 --> 00:15:39,129 I just really believe... 170 00:15:39,229 --> 00:15:43,467 he thinks he's doing the Lord's work. He's always been a very... 171 00:15:43,567 --> 00:15:46,669 Maybe he's right. 172 00:15:50,658 --> 00:15:53,227 In California 173 00:15:53,327 --> 00:15:56,838 KABC talk radio 174 00:17:30,924 --> 00:17:33,651 A movement to save the trees? 175 00:17:34,636 --> 00:17:38,374 Some say it goes deeper than that. 176 00:17:38,474 --> 00:17:41,877 Today, environmentalists from all over the globe... 177 00:17:41,977 --> 00:17:46,131 are adopting a new, more holistic approach to their studies... 178 00:17:46,231 --> 00:17:49,802 which they call "deep ecology." 179 00:17:49,902 --> 00:17:54,473 Deep ecology goes beyond the traditional scientific framework... 180 00:17:54,573 --> 00:17:58,936 to incorporate a greater spiritual awareness of the planet. 181 00:17:59,036 --> 00:18:01,939 Or, as ecophilosopher Parlum Grass puts it... 182 00:18:02,039 --> 00:18:05,266 "an understanding of the oneness of all life." 183 00:18:07,669 --> 00:18:12,157 "I have a feeling that we are entering a new time," Pearcel writes... 184 00:18:12,257 --> 00:18:16,578 "a period of a different paradigm or model. 185 00:18:16,678 --> 00:18:20,332 A period of learning to run warm and cool... 186 00:18:20,432 --> 00:18:24,003 not hot and cold, toward viruses... 187 00:18:24,103 --> 00:18:26,037 cells, and one anoth..." 188 00:20:31,813 --> 00:20:35,801 I started this fruit diet. 189 00:20:35,901 --> 00:20:40,139 I've been so out of it since my brother's funeral. 190 00:20:40,239 --> 00:20:43,892 - Have you ever done one? - No. 191 00:20:43,992 --> 00:20:47,146 They're supposed to sort of naturally cleanse the body... 192 00:20:47,246 --> 00:20:49,273 of all the toxins. 193 00:20:49,373 --> 00:20:52,776 I should do it. I've been so run down lately. 194 00:20:52,876 --> 00:20:54,570 Really? 195 00:20:54,670 --> 00:20:57,531 Yeah, I've just been really busy. 196 00:20:57,631 --> 00:21:00,784 We have this client dinner coming up, so... 197 00:21:00,884 --> 00:21:04,121 Right. Maybe you should try it. 198 00:21:04,221 --> 00:21:05,914 No. 199 00:21:06,014 --> 00:21:07,833 It'd be a lot of fun. 200 00:21:07,933 --> 00:21:10,242 We could do it together. 201 00:21:11,603 --> 00:21:15,215 Come on. Why don't you just try it? 202 00:21:15,315 --> 00:21:17,301 - Do you know what you want? - Yes. 203 00:21:17,401 --> 00:21:20,836 I am going to have the fruit salad and the herbal iced tea. 204 00:21:22,698 --> 00:21:25,883 Okay. And for you? 205 00:21:29,329 --> 00:21:31,380 I'll have the same. 206 00:21:36,044 --> 00:21:38,197 I got one. I got one. 207 00:21:38,297 --> 00:21:42,451 This beautiful, shapely blonde runs into the emergency room... 208 00:21:42,551 --> 00:21:45,621 and when they ask her what's wrong, she says... 209 00:21:45,721 --> 00:21:47,497 "It's kind of embarrassing... 210 00:21:47,597 --> 00:21:50,542 but I was using my vibrator, and it got stuck. 211 00:21:50,642 --> 00:21:53,378 I can't get it out. It's stuck inside." 212 00:21:53,478 --> 00:21:55,547 So they rush her into emergency, admit her... 213 00:21:55,647 --> 00:21:58,967 they rush her to the operating room, and they get some specialist... 214 00:21:59,067 --> 00:22:02,054 to perform the surgery, and it's a ten-hour ordeal. 215 00:22:02,154 --> 00:22:05,182 And finally she wakes up the next day... 216 00:22:05,282 --> 00:22:07,184 and the specialist walks in and says... 217 00:22:07,284 --> 00:22:11,396 "Well, I got some good news and I got some bad news. 218 00:22:11,496 --> 00:22:15,150 The bad news is we did everything we possibly could. 219 00:22:15,250 --> 00:22:18,820 We tried everything, but we just couldn't get the darn thing out. 220 00:22:18,920 --> 00:22:20,822 We just couldn't. 221 00:22:20,922 --> 00:22:22,616 But the good news is... 222 00:22:22,716 --> 00:22:25,025 we were able to change the batteries." 223 00:22:31,600 --> 00:22:34,285 Somebody doesn't seem to like your jokes, Ted. 224 00:22:35,711 --> 00:22:37,037 Carol... 225 00:22:40,942 --> 00:22:43,127 Excuse me. I-I don't... 226 00:22:44,863 --> 00:22:46,380 Sorry. 227 00:22:57,376 --> 00:22:59,727 I'm so sorry, Greg. 228 00:23:00,670 --> 00:23:02,531 You're just... 229 00:23:02,631 --> 00:23:04,940 You're overexerted, I guess. 230 00:23:08,011 --> 00:23:09,820 I've never... 231 00:23:12,557 --> 00:23:15,326 Maybe the doctor can give you something for it. 232 00:23:26,321 --> 00:23:28,339 Well. 233 00:23:29,449 --> 00:23:32,144 I really don't see anything wrong with you, Carol. 234 00:23:32,244 --> 00:23:36,096 I mean, outside of a slight rash and congestion. 235 00:23:36,998 --> 00:23:40,319 Now, I'll give you some ointment... 236 00:23:40,419 --> 00:23:43,246 and some decongestant, but... 237 00:23:44,172 --> 00:23:46,857 jeez, I-I don't know what else to do. 238 00:23:47,801 --> 00:23:50,569 Are you... Well, what? 239 00:23:51,680 --> 00:23:54,448 I guess I'm just a little stressed out lately. 240 00:23:55,725 --> 00:23:57,586 And just tired from it. 241 00:23:57,686 --> 00:23:59,755 Well, that's not uncommon. 242 00:23:59,855 --> 00:24:02,632 You're not doing drugs, are you? 243 00:24:02,732 --> 00:24:04,968 No. 244 00:24:05,068 --> 00:24:08,472 I don't take drugs or drink or... 245 00:24:08,572 --> 00:24:11,850 I don't even, like coffee very much. 246 00:24:11,950 --> 00:24:16,521 I'm just a total milkaholic, actually. 247 00:24:16,621 --> 00:24:18,815 I mean, before the fruit thing. 248 00:24:18,915 --> 00:24:21,443 Well, stop the fruit diet. You need protein. 249 00:24:21,543 --> 00:24:24,196 And while you're at it... 250 00:24:24,296 --> 00:24:26,656 try staying off dairy. 251 00:24:26,756 --> 00:24:29,076 Dairy's very hard on your digestion... 252 00:24:29,176 --> 00:24:31,370 hard on your intestines. 253 00:24:31,470 --> 00:24:34,790 I'll see you in a couple weeks. You'll be fine. 254 00:24:34,890 --> 00:24:36,740 Thanks. 255 00:24:39,227 --> 00:24:42,798 "In the '80s, there are more and more gangs in the Los Angeles basin... 256 00:24:42,898 --> 00:24:47,219 plus many more stabbings and shootings by AK-47s... 257 00:24:47,319 --> 00:24:49,721 Uzis and MAC-10s... 258 00:24:49,821 --> 00:24:51,890 killing numerous innocent people. 259 00:24:51,990 --> 00:24:54,017 L.A. was the gang capital of America. 260 00:24:54,117 --> 00:24:56,395 Rapes, riots, shooting innocent people... 261 00:24:56,495 --> 00:24:59,815 slashing throats, arms and legs being dissected... 262 00:24:59,915 --> 00:25:02,901 were all common sights in the black ghettos of L.A. 263 00:25:03,001 --> 00:25:05,946 Today, black and Chicano gangs are coming into the valleys... 264 00:25:06,046 --> 00:25:08,657 in mostly white areas more and more. 265 00:25:08,757 --> 00:25:12,452 That's why gangs in L.A. are a big American issue. Rory White." 266 00:25:12,552 --> 00:25:16,456 - Good job, Ror. - Why does it have to be so gory? 267 00:25:16,556 --> 00:25:20,252 "Gory"? That's how it really is. God. 268 00:25:20,352 --> 00:25:23,588 - Hey, hey, hey. - You want some coffee? 269 00:25:23,688 --> 00:25:25,789 Yeah, I'd love some. 270 00:25:35,283 --> 00:25:37,718 So what did Hubbard have to say? 271 00:25:38,703 --> 00:25:41,648 He just said I should... 272 00:25:41,748 --> 00:25:44,443 slow down a little, you know. 273 00:25:44,543 --> 00:25:48,196 Stop the fruit diet. Eat less dairy. 274 00:25:48,296 --> 00:25:50,449 That's exactly what I said, isn't it? 275 00:25:50,549 --> 00:25:53,525 I knew that whole fruit thing didn't make any sense. 276 00:25:55,220 --> 00:25:58,498 But basically... 277 00:25:58,598 --> 00:26:02,627 there's nothing to really worry about, aside from being a little run down. 278 00:26:02,727 --> 00:26:04,870 Well, that's good. 279 00:26:06,565 --> 00:26:08,216 So... 280 00:26:08,316 --> 00:26:10,385 Dad, how do you spell "Uzi"? 281 00:26:10,485 --> 00:26:12,878 Just how it sounds: U-Z-I. 282 00:26:41,600 --> 00:26:43,919 ...my dreams 283 00:26:44,019 --> 00:26:46,453 Get into my car 284 00:26:47,731 --> 00:26:50,833 - Thanks. - Get out of my dreams 285 00:26:52,068 --> 00:26:53,595 Carol... 286 00:26:53,695 --> 00:26:57,349 - we doing a regular cut today? - Yeah. 287 00:26:57,449 --> 00:26:59,883 Get out of my mind 288 00:27:01,620 --> 00:27:04,189 Actually, I was thinking of-of... 289 00:27:04,289 --> 00:27:07,359 trying a perm for a change. 290 00:27:07,459 --> 00:27:09,402 Perming it. 291 00:27:09,502 --> 00:27:12,271 Elyse didn't tell me you scheduled a perm. 292 00:27:13,632 --> 00:27:16,826 No, I didn't schedule one. 293 00:27:16,926 --> 00:27:19,955 I just thought of it now, of trying it, unless... 294 00:27:20,055 --> 00:27:22,541 No. No, there's time, actually. 295 00:27:22,641 --> 00:27:25,252 I... I had a cancellation. 296 00:27:25,352 --> 00:27:28,129 - You still want that manicure? - Sure. 297 00:27:28,229 --> 00:27:29,756 Thanks. 298 00:27:29,856 --> 00:27:33,885 Let's make a deal Make it real 299 00:27:33,985 --> 00:27:37,796 Like a roadrunner coming after you 300 00:28:22,158 --> 00:28:24,510 It's very cute on you. 301 00:28:32,836 --> 00:28:34,561 It looks nice. 302 00:28:37,298 --> 00:28:39,909 - Oh... Oh, my God! - Oh, my God. 303 00:28:40,009 --> 00:28:42,319 Paula, do you have a Kleenex? Do you... 304 00:28:44,723 --> 00:28:47,042 - Oh, my God! - Anyway, so... 305 00:28:47,142 --> 00:28:50,086 so we meet him for lunch, Cosford, Ted, and I... 306 00:28:50,186 --> 00:28:53,798 and who comes in but this kid in shorts. 307 00:28:53,898 --> 00:28:56,718 He looked like he was about Jonas's age. 308 00:28:56,818 --> 00:28:58,553 Couldn't believe it. 309 00:28:58,653 --> 00:29:01,681 Ted said I looked like I'd seen a ghost. 310 00:29:01,781 --> 00:29:05,560 I like what they did with your hair. It's great. I like it. 311 00:29:05,660 --> 00:29:07,678 I'm glad, honey. 312 00:29:09,539 --> 00:29:12,516 Yeah. Sexy. 313 00:29:20,842 --> 00:29:22,943 How you feeling? 314 00:29:28,850 --> 00:29:32,253 - I still have this... - What? 315 00:29:32,353 --> 00:29:34,089 This head thing. 316 00:29:34,189 --> 00:29:36,633 Oh, boy. 317 00:29:36,733 --> 00:29:40,345 - Greg... - Carol, what the hell is going on here? 318 00:29:40,445 --> 00:29:43,181 - Nothing. - Nobody has a fucking headache... 319 00:29:43,281 --> 00:29:45,382 every night of the fucking week! 320 00:30:00,256 --> 00:30:02,534 I must have a touch of something, because I... 321 00:30:02,634 --> 00:30:04,860 I don't want to hear about it. 322 00:30:15,897 --> 00:30:17,998 I'm sorry. I... 323 00:30:20,068 --> 00:30:22,753 I know it's not normal, but... 324 00:30:26,199 --> 00:30:28,300 I can't help it. 325 00:30:40,797 --> 00:30:42,606 Good night. 326 00:31:26,759 --> 00:31:29,788 Sixties at the beaches and lower 70s downtown. 327 00:31:29,888 --> 00:31:31,915 Valleys will climb to the mid-70s. 328 00:31:32,015 --> 00:31:35,627 - Fifty-nine degrees in Hollywood. - Traffic on KNX every six minutes. 329 00:31:35,727 --> 00:31:37,604 - Here's John Engel. - Thanks, Susan. 330 00:31:37,704 --> 00:31:41,049 It's been another rough morning. You need patience on the Southland freeways. 331 00:31:41,149 --> 00:31:43,760 It started with that downpour you were talking about. 332 00:31:43,860 --> 00:31:46,888 Had a lot of rain. Right now it's quite the hike. 333 00:31:46,988 --> 00:31:50,141 Sure hope you brought camping gear for that Ventura westbound transition... 334 00:31:50,241 --> 00:31:52,143 to the Golden State southbound. 335 00:31:52,243 --> 00:31:54,813 Non-injury accident in the left lane at the trans road. 336 00:31:54,913 --> 00:31:58,316 When you stop at Pacific, that's what you have to Sherman Oaks. 337 00:31:58,416 --> 00:32:01,986 But there is some good news. Just spoke to the van, and guess what? 338 00:32:02,086 --> 00:32:05,156 91 westbound's a cakewalk all through the Santa Ana canyon. 339 00:32:05,256 --> 00:32:08,159 Actually, you're close to maximum speed. You can even go... 340 00:32:08,259 --> 00:32:10,161 maybe 45 miles an hour... 341 00:32:10,261 --> 00:32:12,372 91 westbound to the 15 through the canyon... 342 00:32:12,472 --> 00:32:15,667 into Anaheim Hills, and enjoy that while you can. 343 00:32:15,767 --> 00:32:18,419 I'm sorry, honey. 344 00:32:18,519 --> 00:32:20,370 Me too. 345 00:32:44,087 --> 00:32:46,444 It's okay. 346 00:32:49,944 --> 00:32:52,044 It's okay. 347 00:32:52,470 --> 00:32:54,237 Hey. 348 00:32:57,900 --> 00:32:59,743 You're all right. 349 00:33:03,147 --> 00:33:04,915 Jesus, honey. 350 00:33:08,194 --> 00:33:10,295 Take a deep breath and hold. 351 00:33:11,531 --> 00:33:13,600 Release. 352 00:33:13,700 --> 00:33:16,060 Again. 353 00:33:16,160 --> 00:33:17,896 Release. 354 00:33:17,996 --> 00:33:20,231 Again. 355 00:33:20,331 --> 00:33:23,568 Release. Again. 356 00:33:23,668 --> 00:33:25,352 Okay. 357 00:33:34,387 --> 00:33:36,497 Hey, Greg, how the hell are you? 358 00:33:36,597 --> 00:33:39,500 - Good, good. And you? - I'm okay. Have a seat, guys. 359 00:33:39,600 --> 00:33:41,535 Well... 360 00:33:43,396 --> 00:33:46,716 basically, Carol, you are perfectly healthy. 361 00:33:46,816 --> 00:33:51,294 If anything, your condition has slightly improved since your last visit. 362 00:33:54,449 --> 00:33:57,643 Now, this is just a suggestion, but... 363 00:33:57,869 --> 00:34:01,356 you might want to consult someone, and I know... 364 00:34:01,456 --> 00:34:04,192 a very, very good doctor who's just more suited... 365 00:34:04,292 --> 00:34:07,811 to stress-related conditions, which I think this is. 366 00:34:12,717 --> 00:34:14,818 - A psychiatrist? - Yeah. 367 00:35:59,740 --> 00:36:02,101 - Everything all right, ma'am? - What? 368 00:36:02,201 --> 00:36:03,927 Yeah. 369 00:36:14,213 --> 00:36:16,398 What are you doing, honey? 370 00:36:19,343 --> 00:36:21,496 I... 371 00:36:21,596 --> 00:36:24,248 I couldn't sleep. 372 00:36:24,348 --> 00:36:26,667 The air, the... 373 00:36:26,767 --> 00:36:28,785 the smell. 374 00:36:33,816 --> 00:36:35,542 Okay. 375 00:36:43,289 --> 00:36:48,272 Clap. Slow it down. And bring the knee up. Pull. 376 00:36:48,372 --> 00:36:52,110 Good. Get those knees up there. Tummy in. Exhale. Exhale. 377 00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:54,612 And push it out. Here we go. Push. 378 00:36:54,712 --> 00:36:57,323 And right. Push left. Right. 379 00:36:57,423 --> 00:36:59,867 Four more. Three. 380 00:36:59,967 --> 00:37:02,370 Good! Let's scoop to the right. 381 00:37:02,470 --> 00:37:05,373 Two, three. Good. Get that leg up there. 382 00:37:05,473 --> 00:37:07,917 Whoo! 383 00:37:08,017 --> 00:37:10,128 - Carol. - Hi. 384 00:37:10,228 --> 00:37:13,798 - Are you okay? - Yeah, I just have to get somewhere. 385 00:37:13,898 --> 00:37:17,385 Oh. I'll see you at Barbara's Sunday? 386 00:37:17,485 --> 00:37:18,970 - See you Sunday. - Okay. 387 00:37:19,070 --> 00:37:21,004 - Okay, bye. - Bye. 388 00:37:52,186 --> 00:37:53,963 Do you work? 389 00:37:54,063 --> 00:37:55,840 No, I'm a house... 390 00:37:55,940 --> 00:37:58,718 I'm a homemaker. 391 00:37:58,818 --> 00:38:02,180 I'm working on some designs for our house, though... 392 00:38:02,280 --> 00:38:05,382 in my spare time. 393 00:38:07,451 --> 00:38:11,012 And... And you have one child? 394 00:38:12,123 --> 00:38:14,692 My husband's little boy. 395 00:38:14,792 --> 00:38:18,696 He's not my son. He's my stepson. 396 00:38:18,796 --> 00:38:20,740 Rory. 397 00:38:20,840 --> 00:38:23,492 He's ten. 398 00:38:23,592 --> 00:38:26,069 How long have you been feeling unwell? 399 00:38:27,305 --> 00:38:31,032 About two months. 400 00:38:32,560 --> 00:38:34,086 Three... 401 00:38:34,186 --> 00:38:37,089 I've been under a lot of stress lately... 402 00:38:37,189 --> 00:38:39,550 and then my friend Linda and I... 403 00:38:39,650 --> 00:38:43,586 She's probably my best friend. She lives down the... 404 00:38:43,912 --> 00:38:45,890 Anyway... 405 00:38:45,990 --> 00:38:50,311 we started this fruit diet together. 406 00:38:50,411 --> 00:38:52,846 I think that sort of set it off. 407 00:38:56,584 --> 00:38:58,351 So... 408 00:39:06,510 --> 00:39:09,330 - Are you uncomfortable? - No. I... 409 00:39:09,430 --> 00:39:11,531 I just thought... 410 00:39:13,851 --> 00:39:15,660 I mean... 411 00:39:18,898 --> 00:39:21,124 Aren't you supposed to ask more questions? 412 00:39:23,986 --> 00:39:26,421 Well, no. 413 00:39:28,574 --> 00:39:31,509 We really need to be hearing from you. 414 00:39:33,704 --> 00:39:35,982 What's going on... 415 00:39:36,082 --> 00:39:38,141 in you? 416 00:39:42,296 --> 00:39:45,241 - Oh, that's so cute! - Isn't it? 417 00:39:45,341 --> 00:39:48,244 - Look at this. - I love that little bunny. 418 00:39:48,344 --> 00:39:52,623 - I know. - I wonder what it could be. 419 00:39:52,723 --> 00:39:55,793 - Hope she doesn't... - Oh, a baby book! 420 00:39:55,893 --> 00:39:59,213 - Look at that. - Oh, God, it's beautiful! 421 00:39:59,313 --> 00:40:02,258 - You don't have one? - No, no. 422 00:40:02,358 --> 00:40:05,177 - I'm so glad. - I love it. It's perfect. 423 00:40:05,277 --> 00:40:09,181 If you need to take it back, I won't be offended. It's from Neiman Marcus. 424 00:40:09,281 --> 00:40:11,934 Oh, no, no. I really love it. It's perfect. 425 00:40:12,034 --> 00:40:17,273 It's so sweet. You should see my baby book. It's this disgusting puke orange. 426 00:40:17,373 --> 00:40:20,443 - That's very appetizing, Barbara. - I'm serious. 427 00:40:20,543 --> 00:40:23,821 Okay, Lynn. My turn. 428 00:40:23,921 --> 00:40:27,742 - Linda, thank you. - I hope you like it. 429 00:40:27,842 --> 00:40:30,786 That's so pretty. Did you wrap that yourself? 430 00:40:30,886 --> 00:40:34,457 God, are you kidding? I wish I were that creative. 431 00:40:34,557 --> 00:40:36,584 I've seen you wrap things. 432 00:40:36,684 --> 00:40:39,378 Oh, I can't even draw a straight line. 433 00:40:39,478 --> 00:40:42,214 Oh, God! I love this! 434 00:40:42,314 --> 00:40:44,759 - Do you? - Look at this. It's a mobile. 435 00:40:44,859 --> 00:40:47,178 I thought it'd look great over a crib. 436 00:40:47,278 --> 00:40:49,111 Who wants decaf? 437 00:40:50,489 --> 00:40:52,391 - Herbal tea? - You must be so excited. 438 00:40:52,491 --> 00:40:55,186 - We're really happy. - Real coffee? 439 00:40:55,286 --> 00:40:58,356 - He must be so happy. - "Ecstatic" is more like it. 440 00:40:58,456 --> 00:41:02,276 - What do you think you'll name it? - That is so great. 441 00:41:02,376 --> 00:41:03,944 - Barbara? - Yeah, hon? 442 00:41:04,044 --> 00:41:06,072 - Where's your bathroom? - There's a powder room... 443 00:41:06,172 --> 00:41:08,690 off the entrance hall to your right. 444 00:41:13,512 --> 00:41:15,905 I like "Tyler." Gary likes "Alex." 445 00:42:06,607 --> 00:42:08,134 Mommy! 446 00:42:08,234 --> 00:42:11,595 I heard you, Elyse! I don't know what you should draw now! 447 00:42:11,695 --> 00:42:15,599 Let Mommy have grown-up time with the other mommies, okay? 448 00:42:15,699 --> 00:42:19,103 Someone told me they heard she was seeing their shrink... 449 00:42:19,203 --> 00:42:21,480 so I just thought you might have... 450 00:42:21,580 --> 00:42:24,191 No. I didn't even know that... 451 00:42:24,291 --> 00:42:26,444 Is something wrong with Carol? 452 00:42:26,544 --> 00:42:28,737 No. We were just... 453 00:42:28,837 --> 00:42:32,825 'Cause her skin looks kind of... Her hair looks really cute, but... 454 00:42:32,925 --> 00:42:36,996 Elyse, your ice cream is melting, and Mommy is very busy! 455 00:42:37,096 --> 00:42:38,789 - Did you get some? - No. 456 00:42:38,889 --> 00:42:40,458 - Do you want some? - No. 457 00:42:40,558 --> 00:42:42,575 - Are you sure? - Yeah. 458 00:42:45,896 --> 00:42:48,048 Carol, this is yours. 459 00:42:48,148 --> 00:42:52,386 And you have to eat it immediately, 'cause it's melting all over. 460 00:42:52,486 --> 00:42:54,504 Oh, I shouldn't. 461 00:42:55,531 --> 00:42:57,933 - What do you got there, honey? - My coloring book. 462 00:42:58,033 --> 00:43:00,060 Can I see? 463 00:43:00,160 --> 00:43:02,345 Oh! She's gotten so big. 464 00:43:05,082 --> 00:43:09,361 Barbara, this is delicious. 465 00:43:09,461 --> 00:43:12,072 You know, we haven't really talked lately. 466 00:43:12,172 --> 00:43:14,241 How are you doing? 467 00:43:14,341 --> 00:43:16,327 Good. I've just been a little... 468 00:43:16,427 --> 00:43:18,996 - Lookit. It's you. - Oh. Yeah. 469 00:43:19,096 --> 00:43:21,624 Under the weather. 470 00:43:21,724 --> 00:43:24,126 - Right. - Lookit. She's a princess. 471 00:43:24,226 --> 00:43:27,296 Oh, that's very good. It's very realistic. 472 00:43:27,396 --> 00:43:31,008 Ladies, we are now opening the big present. Please come in. 473 00:43:31,108 --> 00:43:33,511 Okay. Here we come. 474 00:43:33,611 --> 00:43:37,213 Come on, Elyse. Let's go look at the big present, okay? 475 00:43:40,784 --> 00:43:42,719 - Want to sit on my lap? - Yeah. 476 00:43:47,374 --> 00:43:49,485 My God. 477 00:43:49,585 --> 00:43:53,364 - Look at this fancy wrapping. - Yeah. 478 00:43:53,464 --> 00:43:55,699 You girls did too much. 479 00:43:55,799 --> 00:43:58,651 - Come on, don't be polite. - I'm trying! 480 00:44:02,104 --> 00:44:03,791 A stroller! 481 00:44:03,891 --> 00:44:07,044 Oh, thank you! 482 00:44:07,144 --> 00:44:10,339 That's exactly the one I wanted! Oh! 483 00:44:10,439 --> 00:44:12,716 There's a package with the wheels inside. 484 00:44:12,816 --> 00:44:16,002 You just screw them in. Even you can do it. 485 00:44:36,507 --> 00:44:38,191 Mommy? 486 00:44:44,682 --> 00:44:46,917 Carol? You all right? 487 00:44:47,017 --> 00:44:48,794 Carol... 488 00:44:48,894 --> 00:44:52,673 - What's going on? - I don't know. Carol? 489 00:44:52,773 --> 00:44:54,883 Oh, my God. Linda, what happened? 490 00:44:54,983 --> 00:44:56,552 She can't breathe! 491 00:44:56,652 --> 00:44:59,513 Eileen, call her house. Someone should call her doctor. 492 00:44:59,613 --> 00:45:02,141 Jennifer, could you get some water, please? 493 00:45:02,241 --> 00:45:04,467 Just try to relax, okay? 494 00:45:05,985 --> 00:45:09,607 - Calm down. - It's okay. It's all gonna be fine. 495 00:45:09,707 --> 00:45:11,942 Just relax. 496 00:45:12,042 --> 00:45:14,143 Just... Just relax. Breathe. 497 00:45:19,717 --> 00:45:21,400 Carol! 498 00:45:41,905 --> 00:45:44,141 My name is Carol White... 499 00:45:44,241 --> 00:45:46,894 and I live in Southern California. 500 00:45:46,994 --> 00:45:50,397 I saw your notice at the health club near my house... 501 00:45:50,497 --> 00:45:54,068 and decided to write and tell you a little bit about myself. 502 00:45:54,168 --> 00:45:58,489 For some time now, I have not been feeling up to par... 503 00:45:58,589 --> 00:46:03,160 and was hoping your organization might be of some help. 504 00:46:03,260 --> 00:46:05,621 I'm originally from Texas... 505 00:46:05,721 --> 00:46:08,999 although I've lived in the L.A. area most of my life. 506 00:46:09,099 --> 00:46:13,170 I had asthma as a child, but it never really got in the way... 507 00:46:13,270 --> 00:46:15,547 of school or recreation. 508 00:46:15,647 --> 00:46:18,008 I've always thought of myself as someone... 509 00:46:18,108 --> 00:46:20,594 with a pretty normal upbringing... 510 00:46:20,694 --> 00:46:23,472 and as basically a healthy person... 511 00:46:23,572 --> 00:46:25,766 but for the past several months... 512 00:46:25,866 --> 00:46:28,811 that has all started to change. 513 00:46:28,911 --> 00:46:32,005 Suddenly I find myself feeling sick. 514 00:46:34,500 --> 00:46:36,360 Honey, what's going on? 515 00:46:36,460 --> 00:46:38,529 I've been calling. I thought you were asleep. 516 00:46:38,629 --> 00:46:41,156 Someone... Brenda called about trading... 517 00:46:41,256 --> 00:46:43,701 Thursday carpool for Saturday or something like that. 518 00:46:43,801 --> 00:46:46,235 She said you'd know what that was about. 519 00:46:50,015 --> 00:46:53,460 Anyway, she said she'd call you back. 520 00:46:53,560 --> 00:46:57,079 I thought you were asleep 'cause you weren't... 521 00:46:58,273 --> 00:47:00,217 Wh-What are you doing? 522 00:47:00,317 --> 00:47:03,085 I was writing this... 523 00:47:10,077 --> 00:47:11,878 I don't even... 524 00:47:24,508 --> 00:47:26,609 Oh, God, what is this? 525 00:47:28,428 --> 00:47:30,154 What? 526 00:47:39,815 --> 00:47:41,832 Where am I... 527 00:47:46,196 --> 00:47:48,464 right now? 528 00:47:52,411 --> 00:47:54,804 We're in our house. 529 00:47:59,543 --> 00:48:01,936 Greg and Carol's house. 530 00:48:39,750 --> 00:48:41,944 Who are you? 531 00:48:42,044 --> 00:48:45,656 You are of all ages and from all walks of life. 532 00:48:45,756 --> 00:48:49,576 But you find you all have one thing in common: 533 00:48:49,676 --> 00:48:52,862 strange, never-ending ailments. 534 00:48:53,931 --> 00:48:55,958 Suddenly you can't cook dinner anymore... 535 00:48:56,058 --> 00:48:59,753 because the smell of the gas from your stove makes you ill. 536 00:48:59,853 --> 00:49:04,174 Or if you take the freeway, you feel as if you might choke on the fumes. 537 00:49:04,274 --> 00:49:08,178 Your family and friends tell you that you're overreacting... 538 00:49:08,278 --> 00:49:10,722 that it's all in your head. 539 00:49:10,822 --> 00:49:13,517 But your symptoms worsen. 540 00:49:13,617 --> 00:49:16,979 Fatigue and depression turn to migraines... 541 00:49:17,079 --> 00:49:20,858 blackouts, even seizures. 542 00:49:20,958 --> 00:49:23,068 Now, if this sounds familiar... 543 00:49:23,168 --> 00:49:25,644 you're not alone. 544 00:49:26,880 --> 00:49:30,951 What you most likely are is one of a vastly growing number of people... 545 00:49:31,051 --> 00:49:33,912 who suffer from environmental illness. 546 00:49:34,012 --> 00:49:37,332 That means that, for reasons not yet known to us... 547 00:49:37,432 --> 00:49:41,378 certain people's natural tolerance to everyday substances... 548 00:49:41,478 --> 00:49:43,714 is breaking down, usually as a result... 549 00:49:43,814 --> 00:49:46,633 of some kind of chemical exposure. 550 00:49:46,733 --> 00:49:50,429 Today, there are 60,000 chemicals in everyday use... 551 00:49:50,529 --> 00:49:54,799 yet only ten percent are tested for human toxicity. 552 00:49:55,951 --> 00:49:58,103 This is a disease that you catch... 553 00:49:58,203 --> 00:50:00,429 from your environment. 554 00:50:44,124 --> 00:50:46,405 Fulvia? 555 00:50:57,605 --> 00:50:59,705 Fulvia? 556 00:51:03,560 --> 00:51:05,202 Greg? 557 00:51:27,617 --> 00:51:28,595 Carol? 558 00:51:30,253 --> 00:51:32,197 - You scared me. - Sorry. 559 00:51:32,297 --> 00:51:34,324 No, I'm sorry. I was just... 560 00:51:34,424 --> 00:51:37,452 I just took Fulvia down. So did you just get home? 561 00:51:37,552 --> 00:51:40,831 - Yeah. - So how did it go? 562 00:51:40,931 --> 00:51:45,043 - What? - Your thing this morning. 563 00:51:45,143 --> 00:51:46,837 What was it on? 564 00:51:46,937 --> 00:51:50,924 Well, it was just this thing on getting sick on fumes and bug sprays... 565 00:51:51,024 --> 00:51:53,250 and stuff. 566 00:51:54,402 --> 00:51:56,471 You mean, on... 567 00:51:56,571 --> 00:51:58,682 like, pollution? 568 00:51:58,782 --> 00:52:00,851 More about people who get sick from chemicals... 569 00:52:00,951 --> 00:52:03,145 and what it does to you. 570 00:52:03,245 --> 00:52:05,355 Who told you to go to this? 571 00:52:05,455 --> 00:52:07,649 No, I just... 572 00:52:07,749 --> 00:52:11,018 At the health club, I saw a flyer. 573 00:52:13,630 --> 00:52:16,533 So you think this is what's made you... 574 00:52:16,633 --> 00:52:19,610 I mean, why you've been sick? 575 00:52:21,179 --> 00:52:23,457 Because of... bug spray? 576 00:52:23,557 --> 00:52:26,909 No, I... I just... 577 00:52:32,149 --> 00:52:34,208 I don't know why. 578 00:53:00,427 --> 00:53:03,789 Okay, that's milk at .01 of three. 579 00:53:03,889 --> 00:53:05,916 So most of the time, there's a trigger... 580 00:53:06,016 --> 00:53:08,418 new carpeting, new kitchen, new car. 581 00:53:08,518 --> 00:53:12,538 Or somebody works around paint fumes or strong fragrances. 582 00:53:13,857 --> 00:53:16,593 Okay. No reaction. Please prepare... 583 00:53:16,693 --> 00:53:18,470 - .01 of two. - Right. 584 00:53:18,570 --> 00:53:22,099 Then one day, bam, it hits you, and suddenly your body is reacting... 585 00:53:22,199 --> 00:53:25,060 to everything like a Geiger counter... food, air, everything. 586 00:53:25,160 --> 00:53:27,229 - .01 of two, milk. - Thank you. 587 00:53:27,329 --> 00:53:30,941 What we're doing now is testing about 50 separate foods and molds... 588 00:53:31,041 --> 00:53:34,736 to determine what your neutralization doses will consist of. 589 00:53:34,836 --> 00:53:38,147 And then they'll... they'll stop it? 590 00:53:38,573 --> 00:53:40,242 No. Arm, please. 591 00:53:40,342 --> 00:53:42,911 No, neutralization-provocation is a way to aid you... 592 00:53:43,011 --> 00:53:46,790 during your cleaning-up process, but that's all it really is, is an aid. 593 00:53:46,890 --> 00:53:49,126 Okay, this'll sting just a little bit. 594 00:53:49,226 --> 00:53:51,461 Dr. Reynolds, call for you on 8. 595 00:53:51,561 --> 00:53:53,662 Dr. Reynolds, Eric Delaney on 8. 596 00:53:54,898 --> 00:53:57,717 Okay, that's milk at .01 of two. 597 00:53:57,817 --> 00:53:59,835 Excuse me. 598 00:54:01,071 --> 00:54:03,172 Are you okay? 599 00:54:04,532 --> 00:54:06,884 Eric, Dr. Reynolds. What's up? 600 00:54:08,620 --> 00:54:10,682 Right. 601 00:54:11,882 --> 00:54:14,109 Right. 602 00:54:15,210 --> 00:54:19,489 Well, look. If your oasis and twice-a-week injections don't simmer you down... 603 00:54:19,589 --> 00:54:23,869 you know you have other hidden sensitivities most likely molds or fungus. 604 00:54:23,969 --> 00:54:26,997 Continue the rare fruit diet, and if you don't get better... 605 00:54:27,097 --> 00:54:29,666 check back with me or have Dr. Baines check into... 606 00:54:29,766 --> 00:54:32,669 an unresolved Candida problem. 607 00:54:32,769 --> 00:54:36,423 - Dr. Reynolds, she's reacting. - Eric, I gotta leave you. 608 00:54:36,523 --> 00:54:40,010 Prepare a neutralizing dose at .01 of three, please. 609 00:54:40,110 --> 00:54:43,887 Carol, this will cease momentarily. I apologize for any discomfort. 610 00:54:44,613 --> 00:54:47,976 Sarah, be sure to record... pulse-rate change following injection. 611 00:54:48,076 --> 00:54:51,271 Okay. .01 of three milligrams. 612 00:54:51,371 --> 00:54:54,390 Okay, thank you. 613 00:54:56,584 --> 00:54:58,644 Just take it easy. 614 00:55:03,508 --> 00:55:05,660 Okay. 615 00:55:05,760 --> 00:55:08,830 Okay, we have palpitations with deep distress... 616 00:55:08,930 --> 00:55:12,209 in conjunction with a racing pulse rate of 104. 617 00:55:12,309 --> 00:55:14,910 There's flushing and some wheezing. 618 00:55:16,146 --> 00:55:18,122 Bit of swelling in the mouth. 619 00:55:20,567 --> 00:55:23,252 This is a big one, Carol. Milk's a biggie. 620 00:55:24,446 --> 00:55:26,380 It's okay. 621 00:55:36,458 --> 00:55:38,434 Are you okay? 622 00:55:46,509 --> 00:55:48,444 Have some water. 623 00:55:53,933 --> 00:55:55,794 Yeah. 624 00:55:55,894 --> 00:55:59,256 We can turn it on and off like a switch. 625 00:55:59,356 --> 00:56:02,207 We just don't know how to make it go away. 626 00:56:07,781 --> 00:56:10,934 The first thing you need to do in order to "clear"... 627 00:56:11,034 --> 00:56:14,896 is create an oasis in which to live. 628 00:56:14,996 --> 00:56:20,151 Your oasis is your safe place, your toxic-free zone... 629 00:56:20,251 --> 00:56:23,812 where your load has been significantly reduced. 630 00:56:25,090 --> 00:56:26,992 For some, that can mean... 631 00:56:27,092 --> 00:56:29,995 an airtight, porcelain-lined enclosure... 632 00:56:30,095 --> 00:56:32,372 something like a refrigerator. 633 00:56:32,472 --> 00:56:34,541 For others, their safe room... 634 00:56:34,641 --> 00:56:38,420 is just a stripped-down room within their house... 635 00:56:38,520 --> 00:56:41,715 that's conducive to good ventilation... 636 00:56:41,815 --> 00:56:43,717 or air control. 637 00:56:43,817 --> 00:56:45,468 My name is Sarah Pinter. 638 00:56:45,568 --> 00:56:48,513 I live in Orange County, near a fumigation company... 639 00:56:48,613 --> 00:56:51,725 and we're in the process of a suit against the company... 640 00:56:51,825 --> 00:56:54,436 for improper handling of their chemicals, so... 641 00:56:54,536 --> 00:56:58,398 Great. Thank you. Yes? 642 00:56:58,498 --> 00:57:00,692 Would you stand, please? 643 00:57:00,792 --> 00:57:04,362 My name is Abigail Cartier-Rousseau... 644 00:57:04,462 --> 00:57:08,158 and my sensitivity originated with fragrances. 645 00:57:08,258 --> 00:57:10,651 I was employed for 23 years. 646 00:57:10,977 --> 00:57:12,662 I've been spending some time... 647 00:57:12,762 --> 00:57:15,707 at the retreat in Wrenwood, so I'm doing much better. 648 00:57:15,807 --> 00:57:17,334 Great. Great. Terrific. 649 00:57:17,434 --> 00:57:20,327 Thank you. And you, ma'am? 650 00:57:21,104 --> 00:57:22,996 Honey. 651 00:57:26,943 --> 00:57:30,430 My name's Carol White. This is my husband, Greg. 652 00:57:30,530 --> 00:57:33,892 We live in the San Fernando Valley. 653 00:57:33,992 --> 00:57:35,926 Greg. 654 00:57:36,870 --> 00:57:39,189 We're here for my wife, who's been ill... 655 00:57:39,289 --> 00:57:41,524 to learn more information... 656 00:57:41,624 --> 00:57:43,777 and hopefully gain from it as well. 657 00:57:43,877 --> 00:57:45,445 Thank you. I hope so too. 658 00:57:45,545 --> 00:57:47,447 My doctor thinks I'm nuts. 659 00:57:47,547 --> 00:57:50,200 He thinks the whole thing is completely in my head. 660 00:57:50,300 --> 00:57:52,952 That's what my husband still thinks. 661 00:57:53,052 --> 00:57:55,747 It is in your head. It's in all our heads. 662 00:57:55,847 --> 00:57:57,832 What do you mean by that, Helen? 663 00:57:57,932 --> 00:58:00,210 It makes you crazy. She's right. 664 00:58:00,310 --> 00:58:04,547 It ends up in your head because it affects the neurological. 665 00:58:04,647 --> 00:58:07,717 And it will make you depressed. It really will. 666 00:58:07,817 --> 00:58:10,804 I mean, how does a five-year-old say it's psychosomatic? 667 00:58:10,904 --> 00:58:13,723 How does he make his eyes swell shut? 668 00:58:13,823 --> 00:58:17,185 Why would he want to do that? 669 00:58:17,285 --> 00:58:20,438 He can't go into "Chunky Cheese" anymore. 670 00:58:20,538 --> 00:58:23,233 He can't go into ShowBiz. 671 00:58:23,333 --> 00:58:25,693 Why would he do that to himself? 672 00:58:25,793 --> 00:58:28,905 It's true. It's like, you go into a building... 673 00:58:29,005 --> 00:58:31,533 you're walking along the hall. 674 00:58:31,633 --> 00:58:35,578 You don't know when that monster is gonna jump out at you. 675 00:58:35,678 --> 00:58:37,997 You're just, like, going along the wall... 676 00:58:38,097 --> 00:58:40,333 - like any normal person. - Right. 677 00:58:40,433 --> 00:58:43,253 With your mask and your oxygen tank... 678 00:58:43,353 --> 00:58:46,673 and your bottled water. 679 00:58:46,773 --> 00:58:49,259 So at first I didn't understand why citrus... 680 00:58:49,359 --> 00:58:52,512 since I had tested negative for citrus, until all of a sudden... 681 00:58:52,612 --> 00:58:55,723 I remembered how the oranges had rolled out of their plastic... 682 00:58:55,823 --> 00:58:58,101 into the bag with Greg's papers in them. 683 00:58:58,201 --> 00:59:01,688 'Cause newspapers, the ink... 684 00:59:01,788 --> 00:59:04,023 - Really? - ...also... yeah. 685 00:59:04,123 --> 00:59:06,233 That, and... 686 00:59:06,876 --> 00:59:09,320 You know our couch? Our beautiful new couch? 687 00:59:09,420 --> 00:59:12,198 - Yeah. - Totally toxic. 688 00:59:12,298 --> 00:59:13,694 - Really? - Yeah. 689 00:59:13,794 --> 00:59:17,694 - Wow. - I know. So... 690 00:59:19,889 --> 00:59:22,459 It's hard. Like, I... 691 00:59:22,559 --> 00:59:24,919 I can't wear makeup anymore. 692 00:59:25,019 --> 00:59:27,829 - God. - Burns my eyes. I get sick. 693 00:59:29,983 --> 00:59:32,802 Well, I guess one good thing is just... 694 00:59:32,902 --> 00:59:35,346 how it's made you so much more knowledgeable... 695 00:59:35,446 --> 00:59:37,932 on food and everything, and chemicals. 696 00:59:38,032 --> 00:59:39,642 That's true. 697 00:59:39,742 --> 00:59:42,353 They just know so much more about it there, though... 698 00:59:42,453 --> 00:59:45,847 the people who go through this. I mean... 699 00:59:48,251 --> 00:59:51,070 So much of it, too, is that we were raised... 700 00:59:51,170 --> 00:59:53,323 and grown in a chemical place. 701 00:59:53,423 --> 00:59:55,325 And you go into a grocery store... 702 00:59:55,425 --> 00:59:57,911 and you-you-you you grab a chemical... 703 00:59:58,011 --> 01:00:00,946 without reading, without investigating... 704 01:00:12,233 --> 01:00:14,000 Sorry. 705 01:00:17,238 --> 01:00:20,433 But anyway, it's just made me... 706 01:00:20,533 --> 01:00:24,020 more aware than I used to be. 707 01:00:24,120 --> 01:00:26,179 - You know what I mean? - Yep. 708 01:00:30,710 --> 01:00:33,196 Next up, the load: 709 01:00:33,296 --> 01:00:35,323 What is it, why is it... 710 01:00:35,423 --> 01:00:37,784 and what can be done to improve it? 711 01:00:37,884 --> 01:00:40,912 First, what is your total load? 712 01:00:41,012 --> 01:00:43,915 Well, in the chemical-laden world in which we live... 713 01:00:44,015 --> 01:00:46,292 impurities are all around. 714 01:00:46,392 --> 01:00:49,921 Everyone must deal with a certain amount of impurities and toxins... 715 01:00:50,021 --> 01:00:53,174 at any given time, and that's your load. 716 01:00:53,274 --> 01:00:55,885 It's the maximum amount of toxins... 717 01:00:55,985 --> 01:00:57,762 your body can tolerate... 718 01:00:57,862 --> 01:01:00,056 which, for most people, is rather large. 719 01:01:00,156 --> 01:01:04,227 But a chemically sensitive person is not able to carry a normal load. 720 01:01:04,327 --> 01:01:07,146 What we have to do is unload. 721 01:01:07,246 --> 01:01:09,649 This means we go back to zero... 722 01:01:09,749 --> 01:01:13,152 and, starting from scratch, substance by substance... 723 01:01:13,252 --> 01:01:15,363 we build the load back up. 724 01:01:15,463 --> 01:01:18,074 Remember, the goal is to get clear. 725 01:01:18,174 --> 01:01:22,412 And so the safest and quickest way to clear is to fast. 726 01:01:22,512 --> 01:01:26,499 Fasting, which can last up to five days, depending on the individual... 727 01:01:26,599 --> 01:01:29,752 is usually followed by the rotation diet... 728 01:01:29,852 --> 01:01:31,713 or the rare foods diet... 729 01:01:31,813 --> 01:01:33,923 both of which help protect the system... 730 01:01:34,023 --> 01:01:36,426 while reintroducing foods back into it. 731 01:01:36,526 --> 01:01:38,428 Whatever diet you choose... 732 01:01:38,528 --> 01:01:41,764 be sure to omit mold antigen-containing foods... 733 01:01:41,864 --> 01:01:44,434 like bread, cheese, alcohol... 734 01:01:44,534 --> 01:01:46,853 ketchup, vinegar, mayonnaise... 735 01:01:46,953 --> 01:01:49,022 mustard, coffee, or chocolate. 736 01:01:49,122 --> 01:01:51,983 Molds are very hard on the immune system... 737 01:01:52,083 --> 01:01:54,235 whether you're E.I. or not. 738 01:01:54,335 --> 01:01:56,446 And throughout your unloading process... 739 01:01:56,546 --> 01:01:59,824 be sure to have adjusted your living conditions accordingly. 740 01:01:59,924 --> 01:02:03,911 Safe bodies need safe environments in which to live... 741 01:02:04,011 --> 01:02:06,789 and there are healthy alternatives that exist... 742 01:02:06,889 --> 01:02:09,083 for just about every toxic product... 743 01:02:09,183 --> 01:02:11,753 gas, or ventilation system out there. 744 01:02:11,853 --> 01:02:14,579 But it's up to you to find them. 745 01:02:37,044 --> 01:02:40,689 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. We're spraying right now. 746 01:02:43,968 --> 01:02:45,485 Oh, my God! 747 01:02:50,266 --> 01:02:53,252 Carol, you're doing fine. Just hold in there. 748 01:02:53,352 --> 01:02:55,880 Move your head. Concentrate. 749 01:02:55,980 --> 01:02:58,248 Keep your head to the side, Carol. 750 01:03:01,944 --> 01:03:04,013 Keep with us, Carol. 751 01:03:04,113 --> 01:03:06,214 Carol, keep your head to the side. 752 01:03:25,176 --> 01:03:28,705 No unusual foods. No medication. 753 01:03:28,805 --> 01:03:31,666 - Emotional strain? - No. 754 01:03:31,766 --> 01:03:35,535 Well, can you think of anything else that might be causing it? 755 01:03:37,939 --> 01:03:40,800 So what you're saying, Carol, is that this is based... 756 01:03:40,900 --> 01:03:44,127 solely on the pesticide and nothing else. 757 01:03:46,489 --> 01:03:49,267 I have a chemical impairment that makes... 758 01:03:49,367 --> 01:03:52,928 I realize that, Carol, but it's just not turning up on the tests. 759 01:03:55,340 --> 01:03:59,944 - Please don't do that! - Nurse, don't spray that here. 760 01:04:00,044 --> 01:04:01,728 Thanks. 761 01:04:04,340 --> 01:04:07,410 Look, Carol, from a medical standpoint... 762 01:04:07,510 --> 01:04:10,788 there's no way to prove this thing is an immune system breakdown... 763 01:04:10,888 --> 01:04:14,125 much less one based on environmental factors. 764 01:04:14,225 --> 01:04:18,796 Now, if your psychiatrists can't provide... 765 01:04:18,896 --> 01:04:21,048 Think, honey. I mean... 766 01:04:21,148 --> 01:04:23,342 what gave you the bloody lip? 767 01:04:23,442 --> 01:04:27,879 - What would cause you to actually bleed? - I don't know. 768 01:04:31,033 --> 01:04:33,051 The chemicals. 769 01:04:38,624 --> 01:04:41,611 They visit them, pray with them, get them... 770 01:04:41,711 --> 01:04:43,654 New York... 771 01:04:43,754 --> 01:04:46,282 be the same again. 772 01:04:46,382 --> 01:04:49,202 Things just started tumbling down on top of me. 773 01:04:49,302 --> 01:04:51,996 ...is here to ensure your team ring fits... 774 01:04:52,096 --> 01:04:55,291 No question, this is gonna be a big sales... 775 01:04:55,391 --> 01:04:59,086 It is a real problem, and I think more people are becoming aware... 776 01:04:59,186 --> 01:05:01,839 because more and more people are becoming sick from chemicals. 777 01:05:01,939 --> 01:05:04,008 Nestled in the foothills of Albuquerque... 778 01:05:04,108 --> 01:05:08,471 the Wrenwood Center describes itself as a nonprofit communal settlement... 779 01:05:08,571 --> 01:05:11,140 dedicated to the healing individual. 780 01:05:11,240 --> 01:05:14,519 Offering the services of a combined health retreat and community center... 781 01:05:14,619 --> 01:05:17,271 - Wrenwood consists of 200 residents... - Greg. 782 01:05:17,371 --> 01:05:19,982 - visitors, and staff, many of whom suffer... - Greg! 783 01:05:20,082 --> 01:05:22,485 - from chemical sensitivity... - Listen. This thing's on. 784 01:05:22,585 --> 01:05:25,279 ...including its founder, author Peter Dunning. 785 01:05:25,379 --> 01:05:28,574 Environmental illness is just one of a cluster of new immune disorders... 786 01:05:28,674 --> 01:05:31,327 such as Epstein-Barr syndrome, chronic fatigue syndrome... 787 01:05:31,427 --> 01:05:33,120 and, of course, AIDS... 788 01:05:33,220 --> 01:05:36,707 all of which continue to elude conventional medicine. 789 01:05:36,807 --> 01:05:39,701 At Wrenwood, we offer an alternative. 790 01:05:40,603 --> 01:05:44,006 I like to think of us as a safe haven for troubled times. 791 01:05:44,106 --> 01:05:46,050 We're the most extensive... 792 01:05:46,150 --> 01:05:48,636 cooperative treatment residency of our kind. 793 01:05:48,736 --> 01:05:51,722 But what I think makes us really unique... 794 01:05:51,822 --> 01:05:54,392 - I think I... - ...is our emphasis on the individual. 795 01:05:54,492 --> 01:05:55,810 What? 796 01:05:55,910 --> 01:05:59,605 I heard about this place from somewhere. 797 01:05:59,705 --> 01:06:02,733 ...warning us of a disease-ridden future? 798 01:06:02,833 --> 01:06:06,696 If so, the Wrenwood Center is certainly ahead of its time. 799 01:06:06,796 --> 01:06:08,781 People come for all different reasons. 800 01:06:08,881 --> 01:06:12,034 I guess the thing we all have in common is, like, why. 801 01:06:12,134 --> 01:06:15,496 You know? Why did we all get sick to begin with? 802 01:06:15,596 --> 01:06:17,697 What's it called? 803 01:06:19,058 --> 01:06:21,159 Wrenwood. 804 01:07:33,382 --> 01:07:35,483 It's right in here. 805 01:08:04,121 --> 01:08:05,773 Stop! 806 01:08:05,873 --> 01:08:07,974 Stop! 807 01:08:12,922 --> 01:08:14,949 Not allowed! 808 01:08:15,049 --> 01:08:16,784 Go back! 809 01:08:16,884 --> 01:08:20,496 - Not allowed! - What's she going on about? 810 01:08:20,596 --> 01:08:23,833 - Stop! - Wait. You better stop. 811 01:08:23,933 --> 01:08:26,502 Stop! 812 01:08:26,602 --> 01:08:28,504 Go back! 813 01:08:28,604 --> 01:08:32,165 You're contaminating this entire area! 814 01:08:33,484 --> 01:08:35,919 How much do I owe you? 815 01:09:07,560 --> 01:09:09,327 I see you. 816 01:09:44,346 --> 01:09:46,447 Excuse me. 817 01:09:49,435 --> 01:09:51,587 - Excuse me. Are you Carol? - Yes. 818 01:09:51,687 --> 01:09:53,923 Hi. I'm Susan. I work with Claire. 819 01:09:54,023 --> 01:09:55,925 - We've spoken on the phone. - Hi. 820 01:09:56,025 --> 01:09:57,760 We're so glad you made it. 821 01:09:57,860 --> 01:10:01,138 I heard Nell making a ruckus. I thought it might've been your car. 822 01:10:01,238 --> 01:10:03,140 - I hope she wasn't too... - Oh, no. 823 01:10:03,240 --> 01:10:06,685 She's been having a rough time lately. Her husband's very sick... 824 01:10:06,785 --> 01:10:09,271 and she's just... 825 01:10:09,371 --> 01:10:11,273 - well... - That's okay. 826 01:10:11,373 --> 01:10:14,068 Well, let me help you with your things. 827 01:10:14,168 --> 01:10:16,195 I'll take this one. 828 01:10:16,295 --> 01:10:18,271 - Thanks. - Sure. 829 01:10:19,673 --> 01:10:22,535 This is a chemical-free zone. 830 01:10:22,635 --> 01:10:26,205 We have reading boxes, safe TV... 831 01:10:26,305 --> 01:10:28,541 and there's a 911 phone... 832 01:10:28,641 --> 01:10:31,252 in case of any kind of medical emergency. 833 01:10:31,352 --> 01:10:33,546 Right. 834 01:10:33,646 --> 01:10:36,507 We're sorry your husband wouldn't be able to join you. 835 01:10:36,607 --> 01:10:39,802 I know. He's just in the middle of all this business. 836 01:10:39,902 --> 01:10:43,305 They should be here soon, though, he and our son. 837 01:10:43,405 --> 01:10:46,267 - I should call them, actually. - Sure, sure. 838 01:10:46,367 --> 01:10:49,469 - There's a phone inside at the center. - Great. 839 01:10:51,914 --> 01:10:55,276 We acquired the center in 1978... 840 01:10:55,376 --> 01:10:58,070 and we've been battling to keep it ever since. 841 01:10:58,170 --> 01:11:00,823 But basically, this is where... 842 01:11:00,923 --> 01:11:04,160 all group convening takes place. 843 01:11:04,260 --> 01:11:06,912 We have all of our workshops... 844 01:11:07,012 --> 01:11:09,999 and, our evening talks... 845 01:11:10,099 --> 01:11:12,001 that sort of thing, here. 846 01:11:12,101 --> 01:11:15,713 The dining room is right across the way... 847 01:11:15,813 --> 01:11:18,591 - on the other side of the street. - Oh, hi! 848 01:11:18,691 --> 01:11:22,344 - You must be Carol. - Carol, this is Claire, our director. 849 01:11:22,444 --> 01:11:24,545 Hi. Welcome to Wrenwood. 850 01:11:25,614 --> 01:11:27,715 How was your trip? 851 01:11:29,410 --> 01:11:32,563 Whoops. Well, I guess you're just wiped out. 852 01:11:32,663 --> 01:11:34,982 There's nothing more debilitating than travel. 853 01:11:35,082 --> 01:11:37,610 Claire was hypersensitive when she first came to Wrenwood. 854 01:11:37,710 --> 01:11:40,821 Now I'm just semi-hypersensitive, like the rest of the world. 855 01:11:40,921 --> 01:11:43,616 - I'm a little... from the flight. - I know. 856 01:11:43,716 --> 01:11:47,494 We'll just quick get you checked in and then take you to your cabin... 857 01:11:47,594 --> 01:11:49,705 and you can plop or whatever till dinner. 858 01:11:49,805 --> 01:11:52,291 But I know there are quite a few people... 859 01:11:52,391 --> 01:11:54,418 who are anxious to meet you. 860 01:11:54,518 --> 01:11:56,086 Thank you. 861 01:11:56,186 --> 01:11:59,632 If you want to leave your bags here and use the pay phones... 862 01:11:59,732 --> 01:12:01,800 they are just beyond the chapel. 863 01:12:01,900 --> 01:12:04,919 - The little auditorium to the right. Okay? - Okay. 864 01:12:08,824 --> 01:12:10,758 Thank you. 865 01:12:21,879 --> 01:12:24,740 - Hello? - Hi. It's me. 866 01:12:24,840 --> 01:12:28,077 - Hi. Are you there? - Yeah, I'm here. 867 01:12:28,177 --> 01:12:30,454 Great! 868 01:12:30,554 --> 01:12:32,873 - Is it nice? - Yeah. 869 01:12:32,973 --> 01:12:35,376 Great. That's great, honey. 870 01:12:35,476 --> 01:12:38,045 Yeah. You know, we'll see. 871 01:12:38,145 --> 01:12:41,048 Did you forget anything? 872 01:12:41,148 --> 01:12:45,552 No, I just thought I'd call, tell you I was here and everything. 873 01:12:45,652 --> 01:12:49,139 I'm glad you caught me. We were about to go grab a bite. 874 01:12:49,239 --> 01:12:50,724 Oh, you go ahead. 875 01:12:50,824 --> 01:12:53,269 - I'm sorry. I just... - No, no, I'm glad. 876 01:12:53,369 --> 01:12:56,105 I'm glad it's nice there. That's great. 877 01:12:56,205 --> 01:12:58,774 Look, you just relax... 878 01:12:58,874 --> 01:13:01,277 and take care of yourself, get well quick... 879 01:13:01,377 --> 01:13:04,571 and we'll come see you in a couple of weeks. 880 01:13:04,671 --> 01:13:07,825 Soon as I reach deadline on this. Okay, babe? 881 01:13:07,925 --> 01:13:10,411 Okay. 882 01:13:10,511 --> 01:13:12,788 - Love you. - I love you too, hon. 883 01:13:12,888 --> 01:13:14,373 Say hi to Ror. 884 01:13:14,473 --> 01:13:18,836 I will. And, we'll talk again real soon. 885 01:13:18,936 --> 01:13:20,713 - Okay? - Okay. 886 01:13:20,813 --> 01:13:22,923 - Bye-bye, sweetie. - Bye. 887 01:13:23,023 --> 01:13:24,916 - Night. - Night. 888 01:13:29,446 --> 01:13:31,890 I want to welcome all newcomers... 889 01:13:31,990 --> 01:13:34,768 all short- and long-term visitors... 890 01:13:34,868 --> 01:13:37,813 and extend our warmest support for the acceleration... 891 01:13:37,913 --> 01:13:40,399 of your healing process. 892 01:13:40,499 --> 01:13:42,401 So that you can relax... 893 01:13:42,501 --> 01:13:44,820 and receive the full benefit of your stay here... 894 01:13:44,920 --> 01:13:48,189 we ask that you observe community wishes in the following ways: 895 01:13:49,091 --> 01:13:52,036 Silent meals are observed at breakfast and lunch... 896 01:13:52,136 --> 01:13:55,664 with a side of the room for men and a side for women. 897 01:13:55,764 --> 01:13:58,375 In addition, we ask you to refrain from smoking... 898 01:13:58,475 --> 01:14:01,503 drinking, and use of recreational drugs while on the premises... 899 01:14:01,603 --> 01:14:05,466 and we ask that you respect our practice of moderation in dress... 900 01:14:05,566 --> 01:14:08,594 and restraint in sexual interaction. 901 01:14:08,694 --> 01:14:11,847 Instead, we ask that you try... 902 01:14:11,947 --> 01:14:14,641 to focus these feelings inward... 903 01:14:14,741 --> 01:14:18,270 toward your personal growth and self-realization. 904 01:14:18,370 --> 01:14:21,315 End of speech. Welcome, everybody... 905 01:14:21,415 --> 01:14:24,684 especially our long-termers, Carol and Ward. 906 01:14:28,422 --> 01:14:30,449 And now, with no further ado... 907 01:14:30,549 --> 01:14:33,160 I give you our own Peter Dunning. 908 01:14:33,260 --> 01:14:36,163 Yay, Peter! 909 01:14:36,263 --> 01:14:39,416 - Oh, you like this shirt? - Are you familiar with his books? 910 01:14:39,516 --> 01:14:41,794 - No, I don't think so. - They're so wonderful. 911 01:14:41,894 --> 01:14:43,379 I'll lend you some. 912 01:14:43,479 --> 01:14:46,715 Peter is a chemically sensitive person with AIDS... 913 01:14:46,815 --> 01:14:49,468 so his perspective is incredibly vast. 914 01:14:49,568 --> 01:14:52,596 - My deepest welcome to Carol and Wade. - Ward. 915 01:14:52,696 --> 01:14:56,424 W-Ward. Welcome to Wrenwood. 916 01:14:59,161 --> 01:15:01,105 All right. If you'd all... 917 01:15:01,205 --> 01:15:03,306 close your eyes... 918 01:15:04,958 --> 01:15:07,111 and pass your valuables to the front. 919 01:15:07,211 --> 01:15:10,021 No, no. Come on. 920 01:15:11,265 --> 01:15:13,992 Not really. Okay. 921 01:15:14,092 --> 01:15:17,830 So we're feeling good? We're feeling warmth. 922 01:15:17,930 --> 01:15:20,249 We can look into each other's eyes... 923 01:15:20,349 --> 01:15:22,584 and actually see rejuvenation... 924 01:15:22,684 --> 01:15:26,547 and personal transformation happening. 925 01:15:26,647 --> 01:15:28,257 Why? 926 01:15:28,357 --> 01:15:31,584 Because we've left the judgmental behind. 927 01:15:33,862 --> 01:15:36,348 And with it... 928 01:15:36,448 --> 01:15:40,176 the shaming condition that kept us locked up in all the pain. 929 01:15:41,870 --> 01:15:44,773 But what I want to share with you tonight... 930 01:15:44,873 --> 01:15:47,642 what I want to give you tonight... 931 01:15:48,961 --> 01:15:51,062 is an image to reflect on... 932 01:15:53,215 --> 01:15:55,650 an image of a world outside... 933 01:15:57,553 --> 01:15:59,654 as positive... 934 01:16:01,056 --> 01:16:03,157 and as free... 935 01:16:04,893 --> 01:16:07,161 as the world we've created here. 936 01:16:08,897 --> 01:16:11,258 Because when you look out on the world... 937 01:16:11,358 --> 01:16:13,501 from a place of love... 938 01:16:14,945 --> 01:16:17,421 and a place of forgiveness... 939 01:16:18,907 --> 01:16:21,509 what you are seeing outside... 940 01:16:24,413 --> 01:16:27,765 is a reflection of what you feel within. 941 01:16:30,419 --> 01:16:32,186 Does that make sense? 942 01:16:34,998 --> 01:16:36,465 So... 943 01:16:37,009 --> 01:16:40,120 what do I see outside me? 944 01:16:40,220 --> 01:16:44,833 I see the growth of environmentalism. Right? 945 01:16:44,933 --> 01:16:47,002 And holistic study. 946 01:16:47,102 --> 01:16:51,872 I see a decline in drugs and promiscuity. 947 01:16:58,780 --> 01:17:01,892 I see sensitivity training in the workplace! 948 01:17:01,992 --> 01:17:04,102 - Yeah! - And the men's movement. 949 01:17:04,202 --> 01:17:06,784 And multiculturalism. 950 01:17:07,664 --> 01:17:11,193 I see all these positive things outside in the world... 951 01:17:11,293 --> 01:17:14,530 because what I am seeing is a global transformation... 952 01:17:14,630 --> 01:17:16,897 identical to the transformation... 953 01:17:19,217 --> 01:17:22,236 I revel at within. 954 01:17:27,934 --> 01:17:29,994 And with that... 955 01:17:30,937 --> 01:17:34,800 We are one with the power that created us. 956 01:17:34,900 --> 01:17:37,511 We are safe... 957 01:17:37,611 --> 01:17:40,379 and all is well in our world. 958 01:17:48,246 --> 01:17:52,401 Kind friends all gathered 'round 959 01:17:52,501 --> 01:17:55,404 There's something I would say 960 01:17:55,504 --> 01:17:59,116 That what brings us together here 961 01:17:59,216 --> 01:18:04,121 Has blessed us all today 962 01:18:04,221 --> 01:18:08,041 Love has made a circle 963 01:18:08,141 --> 01:18:11,753 That holds us all inside 964 01:18:11,853 --> 01:18:16,133 Where strangers are as family 965 01:18:16,233 --> 01:18:21,138 And loneliness can't hide 966 01:18:21,238 --> 01:18:25,601 So give yourself to love 967 01:18:25,701 --> 01:18:29,813 If love is what you're after 968 01:18:29,913 --> 01:18:33,817 Open up your hearts to 969 01:18:33,917 --> 01:18:37,029 The tears and laughter, and 970 01:18:37,129 --> 01:18:40,824 Give yourself to love 971 01:18:40,924 --> 01:18:45,194 Give yourself to love 972 01:20:36,414 --> 01:20:39,401 Carol? I'm sorry. 973 01:20:39,501 --> 01:20:42,237 - Are you having a reaction? - No. No. 974 01:20:42,337 --> 01:20:44,188 I'm fine. 975 01:21:02,357 --> 01:21:04,229 Oh, come on. 976 01:21:09,865 --> 01:21:12,350 That's okay. 977 01:21:12,450 --> 01:21:14,412 Just breathe. 978 01:21:16,789 --> 01:21:18,413 That's right. 979 01:21:18,539 --> 01:21:20,307 Good. 980 01:21:23,545 --> 01:21:26,563 That's good. You're okay. 981 01:21:30,051 --> 01:21:32,788 Tsk. Oh, Carol. 982 01:21:32,888 --> 01:21:35,322 You know something? 983 01:21:36,349 --> 01:21:40,661 All these feelings you're having are just fine. 984 01:21:41,563 --> 01:21:43,664 They're so natural. 985 01:21:44,566 --> 01:21:48,720 I mean, you've just done something so big... 986 01:21:48,820 --> 01:21:51,431 you know, something... 987 01:21:51,531 --> 01:21:54,309 many people never do in their lifetimes. 988 01:21:54,409 --> 01:21:58,897 You've taken this big step on your own behalf. 989 01:21:58,997 --> 01:22:03,652 You've... left behind everything that's known and secure... 990 01:22:03,752 --> 01:22:06,696 and all the people you love and trust... 991 01:22:06,796 --> 01:22:09,866 and you've come to this strange new place... 992 01:22:09,966 --> 01:22:12,109 with strange new people. 993 01:22:14,721 --> 01:22:17,457 It's completely understandable... 994 01:22:17,557 --> 01:22:19,918 that you might feel lonely... 995 01:22:20,018 --> 01:22:23,537 or fearful or even angry. 996 01:22:27,817 --> 01:22:29,886 You know... 997 01:22:29,986 --> 01:22:33,047 when I first came here, I couldn't even walk. 998 01:22:34,658 --> 01:22:38,353 I'd been living six miles from this chemical factory... 999 01:22:38,453 --> 01:22:41,314 this was in Michigan... 1000 01:22:41,414 --> 01:22:45,068 that was leaking, like, 15 gallons... 1001 01:22:45,168 --> 01:22:47,853 of chemical by-products every day. 1002 01:22:49,923 --> 01:22:54,119 When I got here, all I could do was just sit in my safe room... 1003 01:22:54,219 --> 01:22:56,246 and every day... 1004 01:22:56,346 --> 01:22:59,374 every hour of every day... 1005 01:22:59,474 --> 01:23:01,710 I would look at myself in the mirror... 1006 01:23:01,810 --> 01:23:05,255 and I would say to myself... 1007 01:23:05,355 --> 01:23:07,674 "Claire... 1008 01:23:07,774 --> 01:23:09,833 I love you. 1009 01:23:11,820 --> 01:23:13,921 I really love you." 1010 01:23:17,742 --> 01:23:20,896 At the end of the month, I could leave my room... 1011 01:23:20,996 --> 01:23:24,848 and shortly thereafter, I was walking. 1012 01:23:27,836 --> 01:23:30,196 For me... 1013 01:23:30,296 --> 01:23:34,242 this was a gift, this whole thing was a gift... 1014 01:23:34,342 --> 01:23:37,704 because everything got taken away from me. 1015 01:23:37,804 --> 01:23:39,873 I... I mean... 1016 01:23:39,973 --> 01:23:44,628 everything in the material world. 1017 01:23:44,728 --> 01:23:47,746 And what was left... 1018 01:23:49,232 --> 01:23:51,041 was me. 1019 01:23:59,534 --> 01:24:01,635 Thank you, Claire. 1020 01:24:03,705 --> 01:24:05,806 Are you better? 1021 01:24:07,042 --> 01:24:09,143 You'll do fine. 1022 01:24:14,257 --> 01:24:16,117 - Sweet dreams. - Good night. 1023 01:24:16,217 --> 01:24:17,734 Good night. 1024 01:24:48,917 --> 01:24:52,278 Forever and ever... 1025 01:24:52,378 --> 01:24:54,521 You're right where I found... 1026 01:24:58,593 --> 01:25:01,695 Sweet love's showin' us... 1027 01:25:03,556 --> 01:25:06,783 Never seen such a beautiful... 1028 01:25:29,499 --> 01:25:32,610 Dear Greg and Rory... 1029 01:25:32,710 --> 01:25:34,696 how are you guys? 1030 01:25:34,796 --> 01:25:38,700 I hope everything is going good. I really miss you. 1031 01:25:38,800 --> 01:25:42,662 I'm feeling a little better, so I decided to stay the full amount. 1032 01:25:42,762 --> 01:25:45,290 At first it was hard to get used to... 1033 01:25:45,390 --> 01:25:47,917 but now I really think it's starting to help. 1034 01:25:48,017 --> 01:25:51,421 I've been so much more relaxed and eating healthfully... 1035 01:25:51,521 --> 01:25:54,539 and the desert landscape is really beautiful here. 1036 01:26:14,836 --> 01:26:17,781 I can't wait till the 25th to show you around... 1037 01:26:17,881 --> 01:26:20,492 and introduce you to everyone. 1038 01:26:20,592 --> 01:26:23,953 Give my love to Sally and your mother and Linda... 1039 01:26:24,053 --> 01:26:27,123 and be sure and help your dad, Ror. 1040 01:26:27,223 --> 01:26:29,783 Love and kisses, Carol. 1041 01:26:45,074 --> 01:26:47,268 Is that Lester you're watching? 1042 01:26:47,368 --> 01:26:49,437 Sorry. I didn't mean to startle you. 1043 01:26:49,537 --> 01:26:51,272 Oh, it's fine. 1044 01:26:51,372 --> 01:26:54,734 I was just watching him go by. 1045 01:26:54,834 --> 01:26:57,070 Why does he... 1046 01:26:57,170 --> 01:27:01,157 Oh, poor Lester. He's just... 1047 01:27:01,257 --> 01:27:03,451 very, very afraid... 1048 01:27:03,551 --> 01:27:06,236 afraid to eat, afraid to breathe. 1049 01:27:10,391 --> 01:27:12,836 But let's talk about you. 1050 01:27:12,936 --> 01:27:15,463 I heard you weren't feeling so hot. 1051 01:27:15,563 --> 01:27:17,865 It was just a little... 1052 01:27:18,191 --> 01:27:21,678 shortness of breath and some dizziness. 1053 01:27:21,778 --> 01:27:23,972 I noticed the highway near here... 1054 01:27:24,072 --> 01:27:26,474 and I wondered if maybe my cabin room... 1055 01:27:26,574 --> 01:27:29,227 was a little downwind or something. 1056 01:27:29,327 --> 01:27:31,604 I thought maybe if I tried another cabin... 1057 01:27:31,704 --> 01:27:34,271 Claire would be the best person to speak to about that. 1058 01:27:34,371 --> 01:27:36,044 - Claire is? - She's really the one. 1059 01:27:36,144 --> 01:27:37,918 Okay. 1060 01:27:38,086 --> 01:27:43,158 I remember Claire sharing with me a little while back some concern over you. 1061 01:27:43,258 --> 01:27:45,692 That you'd been feeling some remorse... 1062 01:27:47,929 --> 01:27:50,030 maybe some apprehension. 1063 01:27:52,392 --> 01:27:54,294 - I was just... - All I'm saying... 1064 01:27:54,394 --> 01:27:58,715 is that these feelings you're having, Carol, are extremely common... 1065 01:27:58,815 --> 01:28:01,759 especially in relation to new environments. 1066 01:28:01,859 --> 01:28:05,555 Especially for someone who's environmentally ill, okay? 1067 01:28:05,655 --> 01:28:08,516 And what we're about is trying to help absorb... 1068 01:28:08,616 --> 01:28:10,977 as many of these tensions as we can... 1069 01:28:11,077 --> 01:28:13,688 so you're free to do the kind of healing... 1070 01:28:13,788 --> 01:28:15,982 that you need to be doing. 1071 01:28:16,082 --> 01:28:18,067 - Does that make any sense? - Yes. 1072 01:28:18,167 --> 01:28:20,612 'Cause when that's accomplished, I'm doing my job. 1073 01:28:20,712 --> 01:28:23,323 No, I know. I'm just still learning... 1074 01:28:23,423 --> 01:28:26,993 you know, the words. 1075 01:28:27,093 --> 01:28:29,537 Oh. Well... 1076 01:28:29,637 --> 01:28:31,706 the words are... 1077 01:28:31,806 --> 01:28:34,834 just the way to get to what's true. 1078 01:28:34,934 --> 01:28:36,336 - Right? - Right. 1079 01:28:36,436 --> 01:28:37,879 - See the coyote? - Where? 1080 01:28:37,979 --> 01:28:40,080 Straight. 1081 01:29:35,787 --> 01:29:38,138 - Is that all right? - Sure. 1082 01:29:40,708 --> 01:29:43,111 I need a partner. 1083 01:29:43,211 --> 01:29:45,655 Great. 1084 01:29:45,755 --> 01:29:48,199 Guess we'll have to figure out what to cook. 1085 01:29:48,299 --> 01:29:50,150 - Right. - Yeah. 1086 01:29:51,386 --> 01:29:53,955 All right, well... 1087 01:29:54,055 --> 01:29:57,375 I'll think about... what to cook. 1088 01:29:57,475 --> 01:29:59,576 Me too. 1089 01:30:00,686 --> 01:30:02,537 Bye. 1090 01:30:07,568 --> 01:30:10,346 She had all these little different, you know... 1091 01:30:10,446 --> 01:30:14,799 candies and stuff she'd keep in there. 1092 01:30:18,496 --> 01:30:22,191 She used to let me open the clasp and look inside the purse... 1093 01:30:22,291 --> 01:30:25,528 then close the clasp. 1094 01:30:25,628 --> 01:30:28,313 I'll never forget that purse. 1095 01:30:32,051 --> 01:30:33,870 Okay. 1096 01:30:33,970 --> 01:30:36,456 Now, speaker number two... 1097 01:30:36,556 --> 01:30:39,667 describe to your friend a room... 1098 01:30:39,767 --> 01:30:42,202 you remember having as a child. 1099 01:30:55,950 --> 01:30:58,051 God, this is... 1100 01:31:03,124 --> 01:31:06,226 I guess this one I had was... 1101 01:31:08,671 --> 01:31:10,564 had... 1102 01:31:11,507 --> 01:31:13,704 yellow wallpaper... 1103 01:31:14,802 --> 01:31:16,176 and... 1104 01:31:24,562 --> 01:31:27,131 What's going on over there? 1105 01:31:27,231 --> 01:31:29,592 - Oh, my God. - Who's that? 1106 01:31:29,692 --> 01:31:31,928 - Who's the guy? - I don't know. 1107 01:31:32,028 --> 01:31:36,298 - I think it's Nell's husband. - That looks like Nell's husband. 1108 01:31:48,669 --> 01:31:50,437 Today... 1109 01:31:53,508 --> 01:31:55,910 is another... 1110 01:31:56,010 --> 01:31:58,612 precious day on earth... 1111 01:32:00,598 --> 01:32:02,708 so let's throw away... 1112 01:32:02,808 --> 01:32:04,784 every negative... 1113 01:32:07,063 --> 01:32:10,206 destructive thought we might have... 1114 01:32:11,859 --> 01:32:14,461 and look around ourselves with love. 1115 01:32:21,327 --> 01:32:23,637 I tried to teach him this... 1116 01:32:28,334 --> 01:32:30,810 to give up the rage... 1117 01:32:36,008 --> 01:32:38,610 to strive for a quiet mind. 1118 01:32:47,277 --> 01:32:49,797 My concern is, it sounds like a spiraling down. 1119 01:32:49,897 --> 01:32:52,884 If you're feeling more sensitive to the fumes that way... 1120 01:32:52,984 --> 01:32:55,627 you shouldn't really be outside. 1121 01:32:56,737 --> 01:33:00,766 The problem is, there just aren't any center accommodations available now... 1122 01:33:00,866 --> 01:33:03,102 except for cabins and dormitories. 1123 01:33:03,202 --> 01:33:05,480 Oh, I'm fine, really. 1124 01:33:05,580 --> 01:33:09,317 Oh, except for Harry's. 1125 01:33:09,417 --> 01:33:11,694 Harry's? 1126 01:33:11,794 --> 01:33:14,489 Mr. Keene, Nell's husband, built a safe house. 1127 01:33:14,589 --> 01:33:16,908 You can see it. It's right next to recycling... 1128 01:33:17,008 --> 01:33:19,160 over there, the little white igloo. 1129 01:33:19,260 --> 01:33:22,205 - He lived in that? - Oh, yeah. 1130 01:33:22,305 --> 01:33:25,708 After his stroke, he needed a more controllable space... 1131 01:33:25,808 --> 01:33:29,629 so she stayed in the cabin, and he lived in the safe house. 1132 01:33:29,729 --> 01:33:31,839 And he actually improved. 1133 01:33:31,939 --> 01:33:34,175 It's ventilated and porcelain-lined... 1134 01:33:34,275 --> 01:33:38,461 and he was perfectly safe as long as no one set foot inside. 1135 01:33:39,947 --> 01:33:42,632 I don't know what she's planning to do with it. 1136 01:33:52,418 --> 01:33:55,979 Ladies and gentlemen, I have a confession I'd like to make. 1137 01:33:59,050 --> 01:34:01,651 I've stopped reading the papers. 1138 01:34:05,056 --> 01:34:07,741 I've stopped watching the news on TV. 1139 01:34:10,436 --> 01:34:12,838 I've heard the media gloom and doom... 1140 01:34:12,938 --> 01:34:16,217 and I've seen their fatalistic, negative attitude... 1141 01:34:16,317 --> 01:34:19,711 and I finally realized, once and for all, I don't need it. 1142 01:34:21,947 --> 01:34:25,351 And so I transform that negative stimulus... 1143 01:34:25,451 --> 01:34:28,219 into something that will not do harm to me. 1144 01:34:31,374 --> 01:34:34,601 Because if I really believe that life is... 1145 01:34:37,296 --> 01:34:40,523 that devastating, that destructive... 1146 01:34:44,679 --> 01:34:48,114 I'm afraid that my immune system will believe it too... 1147 01:34:51,143 --> 01:34:53,620 and I can't afford to take that risk. 1148 01:34:56,357 --> 01:34:58,625 Neither can you. 1149 01:35:13,207 --> 01:35:14,734 We are one... 1150 01:35:14,834 --> 01:35:17,612 With the power that created us. 1151 01:35:17,712 --> 01:35:20,990 - We are safe... - We are safe... 1152 01:35:21,090 --> 01:35:23,483 and all is well in our world. 1153 01:35:31,225 --> 01:35:34,295 So my brother called, and Darlene had another girl. 1154 01:35:34,395 --> 01:35:37,163 Oh. I'll call them tonight. 1155 01:35:38,232 --> 01:35:41,135 Oh, and Linda called and said to hurry up... 1156 01:35:41,235 --> 01:35:43,888 and clear or clean or whatever it is... 1157 01:35:43,988 --> 01:35:46,891 - "Clear." - ...and come on home. 1158 01:35:46,991 --> 01:35:49,092 That's sweet. 1159 01:35:56,333 --> 01:35:59,236 So you really feel like it's... 1160 01:35:59,336 --> 01:36:02,156 still the right choice? I mean... 1161 01:36:02,256 --> 01:36:05,159 Yeah, I... 1162 01:36:05,259 --> 01:36:07,703 I do. I mean... 1163 01:36:07,803 --> 01:36:10,498 right before the fumes, I was good. 1164 01:36:10,598 --> 01:36:12,667 My load was up. 1165 01:36:12,767 --> 01:36:15,378 I was eating well, so... 1166 01:36:15,478 --> 01:36:18,005 What did they say about the fumes? 1167 01:36:18,105 --> 01:36:22,542 Just that I'd probably move to another, different cabin somewhere... 1168 01:36:23,594 --> 01:36:26,263 where I won't feel them. 1169 01:36:26,363 --> 01:36:28,298 Right. 1170 01:36:30,701 --> 01:36:32,603 Okay. 1171 01:36:32,703 --> 01:36:36,399 I just think it's true what they say... 1172 01:36:36,499 --> 01:36:40,351 that it's up to the individual, and that it takes time. 1173 01:36:42,588 --> 01:36:44,314 Right. 1174 01:36:48,803 --> 01:36:51,956 - Whose house is that? - That's Peter's. 1175 01:36:52,056 --> 01:36:55,418 - It's gorgeous, isn't it? - Yeah. 1176 01:36:55,518 --> 01:36:59,078 - Feel like moving? - No. 1177 01:37:23,629 --> 01:37:25,221 She's... 1178 01:37:27,466 --> 01:37:29,984 Her husband just passed away. 1179 01:37:36,475 --> 01:37:38,576 Come on, Rory. 1180 01:37:42,314 --> 01:37:44,123 Now! 1181 01:37:52,658 --> 01:37:54,226 Steve... 1182 01:37:54,326 --> 01:37:56,604 why did you become sick? 1183 01:37:56,704 --> 01:37:59,899 Well, I became sick... 1184 01:37:59,999 --> 01:38:03,601 because I just O.D.'d on all the drugs I was doing. 1185 01:38:05,198 --> 01:38:07,438 Why did you become addicted? 1186 01:38:08,048 --> 01:38:10,451 Well, I guess I became addicted... 1187 01:38:10,551 --> 01:38:13,746 to, like, blot out the pain... 1188 01:38:13,846 --> 01:38:17,323 of not liking myself. 1189 01:38:18,601 --> 01:38:21,661 Of hating myself, really. 1190 01:38:23,439 --> 01:38:25,841 Self-hatred. 1191 01:38:25,941 --> 01:38:27,667 Yep. 1192 01:38:28,903 --> 01:38:31,337 Okay. Thanks, Steve. 1193 01:38:34,742 --> 01:38:36,560 - Hello, Joyce. - Hi. 1194 01:38:36,660 --> 01:38:39,178 - How are you? - I'm okay. 1195 01:38:40,372 --> 01:38:43,474 Joyce, what do you think was behind your illness? 1196 01:38:44,376 --> 01:38:46,436 Why did you become sick? 1197 01:38:48,255 --> 01:38:51,909 I believe that I made myself sick... 1198 01:38:52,009 --> 01:38:54,161 after my son got sick... 1199 01:38:54,261 --> 01:38:57,456 because I was just... 1200 01:38:57,556 --> 01:39:01,836 Well, you get so eaten up with guilt, really. 1201 01:39:01,936 --> 01:39:05,172 You know, because I felt that I had done it to him. 1202 01:39:05,272 --> 01:39:08,342 I was the one who put him in that school. 1203 01:39:08,442 --> 01:39:10,636 I put him in that environment. 1204 01:39:10,736 --> 01:39:12,879 You were punishing yourself. 1205 01:39:19,119 --> 01:39:20,803 Yeah. 1206 01:39:42,309 --> 01:39:43,951 Thanks. 1207 01:39:46,188 --> 01:39:47,914 Marilyn? 1208 01:39:51,443 --> 01:39:53,344 I was... 1209 01:39:55,489 --> 01:39:58,841 deeply wounded as a child... 1210 01:39:59,994 --> 01:40:04,565 and had completely blocked it out for years... 1211 01:40:04,665 --> 01:40:08,944 and then, suddenly became very ill. 1212 01:40:09,044 --> 01:40:11,145 Why, do you think? 1213 01:40:13,507 --> 01:40:16,911 Maybe to let myself know something was wrong. 1214 01:40:17,011 --> 01:40:19,413 Okay. 1215 01:40:19,513 --> 01:40:22,124 And... 1216 01:40:22,224 --> 01:40:25,118 the person who hurt you the most... 1217 01:40:27,730 --> 01:40:29,539 Was me. 1218 01:40:31,608 --> 01:40:34,127 For? 1219 01:40:36,864 --> 01:40:38,965 Not forgiving him. 1220 01:40:41,452 --> 01:40:43,261 Okay. 1221 01:40:45,039 --> 01:40:47,140 Thank you, Marilyn. 1222 01:40:49,001 --> 01:40:50,810 Carol... 1223 01:40:52,337 --> 01:40:54,605 would you like to respond? 1224 01:40:55,549 --> 01:40:57,576 Okay, okay. 1225 01:40:57,676 --> 01:40:59,954 We don't want to force anyone. 1226 01:41:00,054 --> 01:41:01,654 Nell? 1227 01:41:03,932 --> 01:41:05,542 What? 1228 01:41:05,642 --> 01:41:08,462 Would you like to take part? 1229 01:41:08,562 --> 01:41:10,746 What is the question? 1230 01:41:11,690 --> 01:41:13,634 The question is... 1231 01:41:13,734 --> 01:41:16,586 why did you become sick? 1232 01:41:24,985 --> 01:41:29,984 First, I got sick and my husband thought I was crazy... 1233 01:41:30,084 --> 01:41:32,602 and then he got sick the same way. 1234 01:41:34,379 --> 01:41:37,616 What was happening in your life around the time that you... 1235 01:41:37,716 --> 01:41:41,194 How were you feeling when you first got sick? 1236 01:41:46,475 --> 01:41:49,420 I just wanted to get a gun... 1237 01:41:49,520 --> 01:41:54,040 and blow off the heads of everyone who got me like this. 1238 01:41:55,567 --> 01:41:58,137 Nobody out there made you sick. You know that. 1239 01:41:58,237 --> 01:42:01,306 The only person who can make you get sick is you, right? 1240 01:42:01,406 --> 01:42:04,768 Whatever the sickness, if our immune system is damaged... 1241 01:42:04,868 --> 01:42:07,062 it's because we have allowed it to be... 1242 01:42:07,162 --> 01:42:09,940 through exactly the kind of anger you're showing us now. 1243 01:42:10,040 --> 01:42:12,276 Does that make sense? 1244 01:42:12,376 --> 01:42:14,602 Does anybody have a problem with that? 1245 01:42:16,630 --> 01:42:20,117 Which is why you need to remember your affirmations... 1246 01:42:20,217 --> 01:42:23,194 and figure out how to love Nell a lot more. 1247 01:42:24,221 --> 01:42:26,530 And even Nell's disease. 1248 01:42:28,892 --> 01:42:31,202 And put that gun of yours away. 1249 01:42:38,152 --> 01:42:40,253 Sometimes... 1250 01:42:41,738 --> 01:42:46,342 Sometimes all I see is the hatred and frailty... 1251 01:42:49,746 --> 01:42:52,232 people's cruelty to one another... 1252 01:42:52,332 --> 01:42:54,767 cruelty to themselves... 1253 01:42:56,545 --> 01:42:58,646 and I realize... 1254 01:43:01,133 --> 01:43:03,025 how lucky I am. 1255 01:43:11,351 --> 01:43:13,452 How blessed. 1256 01:44:08,116 --> 01:44:10,968 - Is that everything? - I think so. 1257 01:44:12,621 --> 01:44:15,315 Rory, be careful with that. It's real heavy. 1258 01:44:15,415 --> 01:44:17,067 I have it! 1259 01:44:17,167 --> 01:44:19,486 Rory, don't talk to your mother in that tone. 1260 01:44:19,586 --> 01:44:21,354 Fine. 1261 01:44:23,257 --> 01:44:26,493 - What time's your flight? - 7:20. 1262 01:44:26,593 --> 01:44:28,662 Ror, if you really want to be helpful... 1263 01:44:28,762 --> 01:44:32,031 make sure our stuff's in the car and we're ready to go. 1264 01:44:33,809 --> 01:44:35,961 - Want me to get that? - I got it. 1265 01:44:36,061 --> 01:44:37,912 You sure? 1266 01:44:45,779 --> 01:44:48,005 - Whoa. Watch it. - Whoops. 1267 01:44:48,657 --> 01:44:50,466 You okay? 1268 01:44:58,583 --> 01:45:01,028 You all right? 1269 01:45:01,128 --> 01:45:04,364 I think it might be your cologne. 1270 01:45:04,464 --> 01:45:07,233 Honey, I'm not wearing any cologne. 1271 01:45:07,559 --> 01:45:11,737 Maybe in the shirt. I don't know. 1272 01:45:20,314 --> 01:45:24,426 Well, I guess we better get moving if we're gonna catch the plane. 1273 01:45:24,526 --> 01:45:26,887 You gonna be okay? 1274 01:45:26,987 --> 01:45:30,057 I'm fine. It's just for a short time. 1275 01:45:30,157 --> 01:45:32,184 - I know. - I'll be fine. 1276 01:45:32,284 --> 01:45:33,968 Okay. 1277 01:45:37,164 --> 01:45:39,723 - Can I hug you? - Of course. 1278 01:46:13,950 --> 01:46:17,604 So this other guy didn't know anything was wrong with him either... 1279 01:46:17,704 --> 01:46:20,816 except that whenever he would go into a mall... 1280 01:46:20,916 --> 01:46:23,443 he would get totally depressed... 1281 01:46:23,543 --> 01:46:27,906 you know, start crying really hard, and contemplating suicide. 1282 01:46:28,006 --> 01:46:31,368 And then he would step outside, and he would be fine. 1283 01:46:31,468 --> 01:46:35,372 You know, totally normal. This would happen every single time. 1284 01:46:35,472 --> 01:46:38,292 - God. - Yeah. 1285 01:46:38,392 --> 01:46:40,919 - You know what they called him? - What? 1286 01:46:41,019 --> 01:46:44,788 "Dr. Jekyll and Mr. For-mall-dehyde." 1287 01:46:45,219 --> 01:46:46,887 Oh, God. 1288 01:46:47,859 --> 01:46:50,262 - I'm so gullible. - No, I'm serious. 1289 01:46:50,362 --> 01:46:52,546 This really happened. 1290 01:46:54,032 --> 01:46:57,644 I always forget if it's pasta, cheese, sauce... 1291 01:46:57,744 --> 01:47:00,272 cheese, pasta... 1292 01:47:00,372 --> 01:47:03,650 or pasta, sauce, cheese... 1293 01:47:03,750 --> 01:47:07,237 pasta, cheese, sauce. 1294 01:47:07,337 --> 01:47:10,615 I think it's pasta... 1295 01:47:10,715 --> 01:47:12,909 pasta, pasta, pasta, cheese... 1296 01:47:13,009 --> 01:47:15,662 - Stop it! Stop it! - ...pasta, sauce. 1297 01:47:15,762 --> 01:47:18,081 Suddenly all I see... 1298 01:47:18,181 --> 01:47:21,335 all over my hands and my legs are... 1299 01:47:21,435 --> 01:47:24,921 black, horrible sores all over me, oozing. 1300 01:47:25,021 --> 01:47:27,507 And at first I'm horrified... 1301 01:47:27,607 --> 01:47:30,344 and I'm full of self-pity and anger. 1302 01:47:30,444 --> 01:47:33,138 I'm enraged until I realize... 1303 01:47:33,238 --> 01:47:35,849 Suddenly I look down again, and I realize... 1304 01:47:35,949 --> 01:47:38,101 that they aren't sores at all... 1305 01:47:38,201 --> 01:47:42,314 but these... black pansies... 1306 01:47:42,414 --> 01:47:46,568 these sort of wilted black pansies I used to pick when I was a child. 1307 01:47:46,668 --> 01:47:48,820 So in my dream, I remember that. 1308 01:47:48,920 --> 01:47:51,031 And as I pick up... 1309 01:47:51,131 --> 01:47:53,283 each wilted flower... 1310 01:47:53,383 --> 01:47:55,702 they would just instantly... 1311 01:47:55,802 --> 01:47:57,861 bloom into beautiful bouquets. 1312 01:47:58,947 --> 01:48:00,207 Every single one. 1313 01:48:00,307 --> 01:48:03,043 - Ending in rejoice. - That's remarkably clear. 1314 01:48:03,143 --> 01:48:05,003 It's extraordinary. 1315 01:48:05,103 --> 01:48:07,297 Incredible lasagna, by the way, guys. 1316 01:48:07,397 --> 01:48:10,550 - Yeah. - Great dinner, both of you. 1317 01:48:10,650 --> 01:48:13,553 And you know, it almost tasted like the real thing. 1318 01:48:13,653 --> 01:48:15,430 To Carol and Chris. 1319 01:48:15,530 --> 01:48:17,840 - To Carol and Chris. - To Carol and Chris. 1320 01:48:21,786 --> 01:48:25,732 Sweet love's showin' us a heavenly light 1321 01:48:25,832 --> 01:48:29,236 Never seen such a beautiful sight 1322 01:48:29,336 --> 01:48:33,198 Sweet love glowing on us every night 1323 01:48:33,298 --> 01:48:36,576 I know forever we'll be doing it 1324 01:48:36,676 --> 01:48:40,539 Sweet love's showin' us a heavenly light 1325 01:48:40,639 --> 01:48:43,959 I never seen such a beautiful sight 1326 01:48:44,059 --> 01:48:48,130 Sweet love glowing on us every night 1327 01:48:48,230 --> 01:48:52,092 I know forever we'll be doing it right 1328 01:48:52,192 --> 01:48:56,304 Whenever I call you friend 1329 01:48:56,404 --> 01:48:59,766 I believe I've come to understand 1330 01:48:59,866 --> 01:49:04,104 Everywhere we are you and I were meant to be 1331 01:49:04,204 --> 01:49:06,273 Forever and ever 1332 01:49:06,373 --> 01:49:10,902 I think about the times to come 1333 01:49:11,002 --> 01:49:14,114 Knowing I will be the lucky one 1334 01:49:14,214 --> 01:49:16,992 And ever our love will last 1335 01:49:17,092 --> 01:49:22,789 I always want to call you friend 1336 01:49:22,889 --> 01:49:26,918 Sweet love's showin' us a heavenly light 1337 01:49:27,018 --> 01:49:29,662 Never seen such a beautiful sight 1338 01:49:32,190 --> 01:49:34,468 Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. 1339 01:49:34,568 --> 01:49:37,512 I've got a little announcement to make. 1340 01:49:37,612 --> 01:49:41,099 Since it's almost tomorrow... 1341 01:49:41,199 --> 01:49:43,310 and tomorrow happens to be... 1342 01:49:43,410 --> 01:49:46,171 Carol's birthday... 1343 01:49:47,497 --> 01:49:50,650 we have a little surprise for her. 1344 01:49:50,750 --> 01:49:59,701 For she's a jolly good fellow 1345 01:49:59,801 --> 01:50:03,737 And so say all of us 1346 01:50:09,311 --> 01:50:11,004 Speech! 1347 01:50:11,104 --> 01:50:13,590 - Speech! - Happy birthday, Carol. 1348 01:50:13,690 --> 01:50:16,510 - Speech! - No, I... 1349 01:50:16,610 --> 01:50:19,304 - Happy birthday, sweetie. - I... 1350 01:50:19,404 --> 01:50:22,883 - Say something. - I can't. I've never made a speech before. 1351 01:50:22,983 --> 01:50:27,187 - Please. - Oh, God. 1352 01:50:27,287 --> 01:50:29,722 I just want to thank Chris for doing this... 1353 01:50:30,874 --> 01:50:34,319 and everybody here so much. 1354 01:50:34,419 --> 01:50:37,322 It just... You pulled me through a really hard period. 1355 01:50:37,422 --> 01:50:40,482 Anyway, I couldn't have done it without you. 1356 01:50:45,221 --> 01:50:47,600 I don't know what I'm saying. 1357 01:50:49,476 --> 01:50:52,462 Just that I really hated myself before I came here... 1358 01:50:52,562 --> 01:50:54,464 and, so... 1359 01:50:54,564 --> 01:50:58,259 I'm trying to see myself hopefully, 1360 01:50:58,485 --> 01:51:01,304 more as I am, more... 1361 01:51:01,404 --> 01:51:03,765 more positive... 1362 01:51:03,865 --> 01:51:06,560 like seeing the pluses. 1363 01:51:06,660 --> 01:51:09,062 Like, I think it's slowly opening up now. 1364 01:51:09,162 --> 01:51:11,648 People's minds, like... 1365 01:51:11,748 --> 01:51:13,900 educating and, and... 1366 01:51:14,000 --> 01:51:16,169 AIDS and... 1367 01:51:16,836 --> 01:51:19,781 and other types of diseases... 1368 01:51:19,881 --> 01:51:21,783 'cause... 'cause... 1369 01:51:21,883 --> 01:51:24,911 And it is a disease, 'cause it's out there... 1370 01:51:25,011 --> 01:51:28,790 and we just have to be more aware of it... 1371 01:51:28,890 --> 01:51:32,586 make people aware of it and, even ourselves... 1372 01:51:32,686 --> 01:51:35,297 like, going... 1373 01:51:35,397 --> 01:51:39,208 reading labels and going into buildings... 1374 01:51:49,703 --> 01:51:51,229 To Carol. 1375 01:51:51,329 --> 01:51:54,223 To Carol! 1376 01:52:37,876 --> 01:52:40,195 Thank you, Chris... 1377 01:52:40,295 --> 01:52:42,479 for everything. 1378 01:52:43,548 --> 01:52:47,317 - Are you sure you're all right, Carol? - I'm fine, really. 1379 01:52:49,471 --> 01:52:51,405 Okay. 1380 01:52:52,140 --> 01:52:53,949 Happy birthday 1381 01:52:56,019 --> 01:52:57,786 Thanks. 1382 01:53:01,274 --> 01:53:04,209 - See you tomorrow. - For sure. 1383 01:53:05,361 --> 01:53:07,504 - Good night. - Night. 1384 01:54:59,613 --> 01:55:01,278 I love... 1385 01:55:06,316 --> 01:55:08,333 I love you. 1386 01:55:12,363 --> 01:55:14,506 I really love you. 1387 01:55:20,663 --> 01:55:22,556 I love you. 102153