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- You look good.
- No, I don't.

No, you do, really.
All right? I mean it.

You look good.

That shirt--
i like that shirt.

Did you get that at h&m?

- Yes.
- Yeah.

Yeah, it looks like an h&m--
i mean, it just--

it fits.
I mean, you-- you--

you pull it off.

L-- dude, i--
i can't go to h&m.

I can't pull that off,
seriously.

It looks good on you.

Is it soft?

I wouldn't buy it
if it wasn't soft.

Here, feel it.

I'm sorry. I'm okay.

Of course you are.
You're okay.

I'm gonna be okay.

- You're okay.
- Yeah, yeah. I'm okay.

Look, I mean--

uh, i-- I know how
it is right now.

I mean, lt-- lt--
lt's awful. It sucks.

You're--

you're lonely and--
and it'll pass.

- It doesn't feel that way.
- Of course it doesn't.

I mean, look, man, i-- i--
i know it doesn't.

But I mean, right now,
i mean, you--

you're feeling like
"I'm never gonna dance again."

You know, like that
George Michael song.

And one of these days
you're gonna meet someone

and you're gonna want
to dance again.

I think it was "blam".

What?

No, look, i--
no, lt-- lt--

- it's Michael.
- No, I'm pretty sure--

I'm-- no,
they're not called that.

Yeah, well, no, ln--

okay, first of all,
you're wrong.

- And why are you--
- sorry.

- Dude. Seriously.
- Sorry, you're right.

I'm sorry.

I didn't come to palm Springs

to interrupt other people's
conversations.

I came to get away
from New York,

the weather, my wife.

Soon to be ex-wife.

Well, to try to figure out
this whole big life thing.

Also, maybe
they're called "wham"?

It makes no sense.

Four one...

Huh.

I felt lost like
that guy m the restaurant,

or, well, like my luggage.

It wasn't the greatest
of starts.

I was going to stay
for a week, but--

well, you'll see.

Hello?

Great.

Yes. Same address, yes.

No, that's in palm Springs.

Well, is there a--

do you think
there's a time--

what am I supposed to do
without my luggage until then?

Fine. Something else
you can help me with?

No, I think your airline
has done enough.

Thank you.

What else?

Oh.

Hello?

This is nice.

Hi! I hope I'm not late.

I saw your tweet a couple
of minutes ago. It's great.

That will get
a lot of buzz.

Oh, good.

Oh. Sorry.

Hey.

Yeah, I got--
i-- I got it.

I got your text.
I just-- I can't--

no, I'm ln--
I'm in makeup.

Okay. Hang on.
So sorry.

Hey, what's up?

O Kay.

O Kay.

All right, and you're just
gonna do this now?

No. Bye.

Oh, it's so good
to see you.

I'm so excited
to interview you.

This is so exciting,

a story of friendship."

So sweet.

- Where are you from?
- Uh, Los Angeles.

We would winter in palm Springs
when it got too cold.

I'm from Chicago,
then New York,

and New Jersey,
across the river.

Horrible. Cold.
Windy. The commute.

God, it was driving me nuts.

It's so hard to live there.
I had to move.

I mean, you couldn't
do the news there.

There were disasters.
Everything was going wrong!

Uh, all right, let's talk about,
um, you knovv, your mcvie.

Um-- "patriot girls..."

Fuck.

...with a celebrity
you don't get to see very often.

Lilly Kent
in an interview

on her role
in the highly anticipated

"patriot girls, bff forever:
A story of friendship,"

freezes mid interview.

You won't believe
what happened next.

Okay, whoa.
Whoa. Get up. Up!

Um, who the hell are you
and why are you here?

Would you mind getting up?
I'm a little claustrophobic.

- Do you mind?
- I'm sorry.

It was just right there.
Lt's-- oh, my god.

You stabbed me.
Oh, my god.

- Really, I didn't stab you.
- I'm bleeding. I'm bleeding!

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa,
whoa, whoa, whoa.

I'm not bleeding.

Great.

So who-- who are you?
One of tom's friends?

Tom? Uh, no, Fritz.

I rented the house
for a-- for a week.

Well, for--
I'm here for a week.

Fritz? Well, what kind
of name ls-- never mind.

You-- you-- you--
you have to-- to leave.

What-- what do you mean
you rented the house?

Well, on the rental site
online.

The, uh, air "brb".
You know, I'm a writer.

You're a-- a-- a what?

- Hello?
- Oh.

Don't bring up the book.

Don't say that.
How can you say that?

You know I'm going
through a hard time.

Fuck.

Ooh, not now.
Not now.

Um, uh, here.

L-- I really shouldn't.
I'm a pacifist.

- Um-- yeah!
- Lilly?

L'm-- I'm coming!

- Uh, one sec.
- Lil!

I gotta-- fuck.

Where were you?
I called you, like, a--

who the fuck?
You're not Lilly.

Oh, right, you're the--

don't--
don't write that down.

You know what? Don't.

I don't want to know.
Where's Lilly?

Lilly? Lilly!

- Hey.
- Hi.

Uh, so, you met,
uh, Fritz?

I called you, like--

- Fritz?
- Fritz?

He's a--

yeah?

- I'm staying...
- He's my boyfriend.

- Here?
- Yeah.

Yeah, so, uh, I'm going
to get dressed.

Don't be long... sugar.

Well, let's all
just get settled.

Yeah? And, um,
I'm gonna--

I want to circle up, so--

you have no idea.

You like to cook?

Anna, come on!

Coming!

You smell nice.

I like that.

Hi. Honey?

- Yeah?
- Babe.

Mmm-mmm-mmm.

That's exciting.

- Well, circle up.
- All right. Jesus.

I said I was coming.

- Circle up.
- Mm-hmmm.

O Kay.

What did you say to her?

Nothing.
She said I smell nice.

What do you mean
you smell nice?

I don't know.
I think she's hungry.

I don't think I smell nice.
I smell like a flight,

and they lost my luggage.

Um, boyfriend?

Did you feel like at any point
that you wanted

to ask me if I'm in
a relationship with you,

because if that's the case,
and, uh, you know,

vve're doing this thing, I have
to check vvith my therapist,

and I don't feel bad about
looking at your cleavage.

Okay, get your mind off
my tits for, like, a second.

Checking in.
Checking in.

Check in. Okay. Check in.

Okay, you came barging
into my house.

I don't know
who the hell you are.

What do you mean barging in?
I rented this place.

I have the paper
and the door was open.

And then I heard a cat
suffocating or--

or being tortured.

-L was having a moment.
- A-- a what?

Wait, that sound,
that was you?

All right! It's how I cry.

- Can we get past that?
- Yeah, sure.

What moment?

I was just having--
I'm supposed--

you know lt's--
okay, so it's not, um--

it's not a--
a moment necessarily.

It's-- I was--
I'm having a-- a crisis.

A crisis? What for?

What for? What--
what do you mean, what for?

Well, I mean, look at you.
You're beautiful.

You've got a great body.
The house is nice.

And you're obviously smart coming up
vvith solutions like I'm your boyfriend.

Do you have any idea
what it is like to be a woman?

No.

And do what I do?

Never mind. I-- i--
i know that--

that we didn't have a chance
to talk through this.

No, we didn't.

Check in. I'm okay.

Feeling good.

Feeling good.
That flight was pretty crap.

...who the hell you are.

What do you mean,
barging in?

Well, no, I don't
want to be negative.

It could have been worse.
We could have flown coach.

Okay, I'm feeling pretty good
about this weekend,

like it might be a turning point
vvith my book and my vvoes.

So, pretty good.
Pretty good.

I understand how that might
be frustrating to you,

but if you can, for a second,
not take things so personally.

Personally? Personally, I came from a
crappy flight vvith a crappy airline

who charges you $5
to charge your phone,

and lost my luggage.

You nearly stabbed me
in the kitchen.

I mean, who walks around
with a kitchen knife?

Lt's-- it's dangerous
and crazy.

Have you heard of the kitchen
dravvers qr those magnets?

You make me faint,
i wake up underneath you

barely able to breathe
and in a relationship.

With no pants on!

Um, I'm a little nervous
about asking the group about--

um, no.

Because it's family,
and there is love.

There is love.

So I'm not
gonna let that stop me.

Um, so I guess, determined.

Is that--
is that a good word?

Yeah.
Okay, Anna? Check in.

- I'm good.
- Okay. Uh, are you good?

Okay, great. Okay,
let's touch our hearts.

Come back.
Touch our hearts.

Touch our third eye.

Okay, bring it in.

Bring it in.

Okay, okay.
That's enough.

O Kay.

...ln the wrong
house, allegedly.

- It's my family's house.
- Right, you said that.

Have you ever had a crisis?

Yes, I'd like to think so.

I'm 40, so there's that.

I mean, I'm-- I'm Jewish.

I'm half-Israeli.
I'm constantly in conflict.

I'm the first generation
in my family not to sigh.

Yes, I've had
"crisises" before.

I'm having one now.

Crisises? Crises?
It's just one e.

Crisises.

- No, you're right.
- Crises.

- Crises with an e.
- Thank you. Yes.

Are you ever not sure

what you say
or why you say it?

Yes. Yes, words often sound
flat or hollow.

Like all those
idiots online

that have to tell
their loved ones

how much they love them
and how much they changed

your lives four years ago
when she said yes.

Vvhat, you can't find her? She's
sitting on the sofa right next to you.

How about a card?

If I saw someone posting
a #memorable moment

about their orgasm
on social media,

I wouldn't be
a bit surprised.

- Got it.
- You know,

there's always
something wrong.

And they're so angry,
so fucking angry,

they have to post about it.

You know, protest.
Revolution.

That's why no more
social media for Fritz.

- I got it.
- That's it.

You know,
newspapers, yes.

News TV, no.

It's so exciting.

- Huh?
- Exciting.

- What ls?
- The beginnings. Passion.

I did it on
a very public stage.

It's, like, all the words
I've ever said

didn't mean anything.

And i-- I didn't know
what I wanted to say.

It's all scripted.
It didn't mean anything.

I felt alone.

Look, I know
this doesn't make sense,

and I don't know
why I said that,

but i--
i can't do this alone.

So, I'm just asking you...

Will you be my boyfriend
for now, please?

What is that noise?

This is crazy.

Fine. Just don't--
stop, please.

How's-- how's your leg?

Um, it's fine,
thank you.

What about pants?

Uh, we'll figure
something out.

Well, they think
I'm a psychopath

standing there like this
with a knife.

No, I don't think that would
surprise them much.

What does that mean?

Well, my previous
relationships

haven't exactly been stellar.

So now I'm just one
in a horrible line of--

even my fictitious relationships
are doomed to fail.

Thank you.

And just to be clear,

there's no, uh, cat?

No, there's no cat.

Good. I'm allergic.

You know, they were probably
going right at it

just when we walked in.

In the kitchen.

Oh, yeah. I like that.

Well, that's not attractive.
We eat there.

Food prep?

Is that right?

We'll exchange these, yeah?

I'm gonna go
return the knife.

Hey, um, so this ls--
uh, this might be--

- what size pants does--
- what's going on?

Um, you know, lt's--
never-- it's okay.

O Kay.

Weird.

Hon, I need a hand.

Hi!

It is so nice to meet you.

Em. Like Emily.

But, no.

Just em,

like the letter.

Uh, Fritz.

Have you settled in?

Ehh.

Are you going to the pool?

I'm going to be right back.

- O Kay. Okay.
- O Kay. Okay.

- O Kay.
- O Kay.

- What size, uh--
- shoes?

Pants.

Do you think
this scene works?

- The...
- Scene.

Do you think it works?

I'm trying
to convey purgatory

with these characters.

They're trapped,
knowing life is ending,

knowing they've put off
for too long

the actual thought
of action.

They've lost the active will
to deal with it.

They talk about love
that is betrayed long ago,

along with their memories.

I was trying to approach
this whole part--

it's very fellini.

See, right now, it's here.

It needs to be here.

Follow? Here.

You see that?

Well, I just think
life is meaningless,

so what's the point,
you know?

Do you smoke cigars?

Cigars?

I hated that flight.

Tom, do my tits look
weird like this?

- Horrible.
- My tits?

No, the flight.

Maybe we should
get some rest, yeah?

Yeah, I like that.

- Maybe we can--
- I don't think so.

- Oh, I bet I can-- - Anna, Anna,
i have so much on my mind.

- Okay?
- Tom, you need to relax.

Maybe I can
give you a massage?

I'm just so nervous.

It's a great idea.

They're gonna love it.

You really think so?

Trust me.

Thanks, babe.

- You like that?
- Mmm.

Yeah, you do.

- Hey, em.
- Hi! Oh!

- How are you?
- I'm good.

You know what?

You don't need
to care about that

because you're
safe here, okay?

Safe.

- Have you seen--
- I have! So nice.

He's in the living room
with lohmann.

They're talking
about the film.

Oh. Right, okay.

So, I think maybe an hour,
hour and a half for dinner.

Okay. Um, you need help?

How about a glass of wine?

Doesn't that sound
delightful?

Yes.

Um, I think there's
some rose left.

I love rose.

We actually might
need some more wine.

I'll go.
Borrow your car?

Of course.

Little rose for me.

Maybe a little more.

Cut my bread.
Cut my lettuce

drink my rose.

My first gig, I was hired
to direct a commercial

for a Chinese company.

In China.

Sex toy company thing.
Real kinky, follow?

Dildos, strap-cns,
cock rings.

Wanted to do something
with a butt plug.

I'm not exactly sure what.

Well, you know...

So what did you do?

I took their money
and made an action movie.

A martial arts action movie.

Got over a million
hits online.

The rest, as you know,
is history.

The story goes like this.

She's royalty, you know.

Her grandfather on her
mother's side vvas knighted.

1929, sir Arthur.

He made some bad investments
in a Greek mining company.

Fucking Greek.

Horrible venture.

Lost most of their fortune.

Fell out of a speeding train.

1938...

Headed to Geneva...

Express.

Near toulon, France.

Is this, uh,
part of the movie?

No. Em, my wife.

Oh.

I suspect foul play.

Hi, lohmann.

Lilly.

Do you mind if i--
I'm going to get some wine.

Good.

Cuban?

No, British.
Her mother's side.

Oh, I meant the cigar,
but thank you anyway.

Will you please stop?

No, not until you
tell me what you did.

- What did you do?
- I didn't do anything.

Is it mitt? The dog?
What happened to mitt romney?

Babe, the dog is fine.
Nothing happened to the dog.

Don't babe me, all right?

You're lying.
Just tell me what you did!

There's nothing to tell.

Don't-- don't you
dare lie to me.

We just had sex,
it was great.

You didn't even want to use
the porn machine.

You even did the finger
in the butt thing.

- Did you like it?
- Yeah, I liked that.

- Did you have an orgasm?
- Yes, and that's the problem.

That's exactly the problem.

When it's this good,
something's wrong.

You make me
so angry sometimes.

I'm hungry.
I need to eat.

Well, dinner's in an hour,
so just cool it.

I know that.

I don't care.
I want a "marf" bar now.

Hey, maybe there's
a pants store around here

- that we can--
-wll_l_ you just leave it?

I do need-- okay?

I meant the knife.

Oh, huh.
I thought you meant--

you can't smoke that in here.

Oh.

Can I keep it though?

"Alone" should be spelled
differently, you know?

It should be two words.
"A lone." Not together.

You ever think
of words that way?

-Is everything okay?
-| just-- ls that--

-i can't--
- it's like 40o feet away.

Well, that was close.

He's also in the left Lane.

Do you want to sit
in the back?

- No.
- All right then.

O Kay.

Oh, no. I don't know
how to work her stupid car.

Sorry.

Quite a day so far.

Have you ever been up there?

Those mountains?

You take a tram.

I can't remember
what it's called.

You can see
the whole valley.

You okay?

Mmm, no.

I'm sorry.
I'm not being fair.

It's not that.

What?

Is this going to work?

Ooh. We'll just have
to see, you know? I mean--

well, I mean,
i don't know them.

I'm not going to know
what to say.

I know, they're--
my family ls--

they're a lot.

I mean, you saw a glimpse.

Yeah, by the way,
that's nothing like fellini.

Okay, so what would
make you feel better?

Well, for instance,
how did we meet?

- You mean-- - it would
make me feel better.

O Kay.

Maybe that's where we met.

- Where?
- Up there. Up the mountain.

Yeah.

No, I don't--

no?

I get vertigo.
It's terribly dizzy.

Horrible, really.

Can't stand up. I have to take these
pills, but they knock me out.

Think of your worst drunk--

- got it.
- Ten times worse.

I could sleep 16 hours a day.

Got it.
Let me think.

I mean, Jesus Christ,
I'm walking around your family

with no pants on
and a knife.

Spanish classes?

I still have a hard time
with English.

Beverly hills?

I'm from New York.

But maybe we had the same
real estate agent or--

okay, what was his name?

- Mark.
- Mark?

That's good.

I like mark.

- Mark what?
- Arafat.

Arafat? Like--

did-- did you
just make that up or--

no, that's really--

that's my real
real estate agent's name.

- He's persian.
- Persian?

No, I can't work with people
who live in the past.

- What?
- Persians.

I mean, it's iranians.
The country's Iran.

Do I call myself Hebrew?
No, I'm Israeli.

Okay, so you call it
an iranian rug?

Well, no, but that's a rug.

Like a Roman ruin,
but they're still Italian.

- Or a knish.
- What?

Well, that's not
a good example,

but he can't-- I can't --
he can't be per--

I mean, iranian.

Uh, you wanna help me out...

- Me?
-...Here then?

- Me?
- Yeah, this is a relationship.

You don't like my driving.
You don't like my suggestions.

Well, it's not that I don't
like your suggestions.

And you honk at everyone.

I'm just-- I'm warning them.
I'm being careful.

- But I like your suggestions.
- You don't like my suggestions.

Yeah, they're not very good.

O Kay.

How about a museum?

A museum?

Have you ever met
anyone at a museum?

No.

All right then.

Uh, party?
Cocktail party?

No, absolutely not.
Those never work out.

You're right.

What about the dmv?

Go on.

I don't know, um--

I asked you what
you thought 0f my picture?

I made you take it again.

You were there
because you 0f your honking.

- What?
- Nothing.

Because I had a book
and you failed the test?

Yes, like, three times.

You were laughing at me.

Well, yes, but in a nice way,

until I realized--

I realized I could make
a quick buck,

so I offered
to sell you my book--

vvhich they
hand out for free.

But you didn't know that.

And I vvas so desperate
i said I vvould buy you a drink

if you gave it to me.

It was--

the last one.

- So?
- Okay.

I feel better.

You ready?

Yeah.

O Kay.

Well, that was easy.

- What?
- Nothing.

Nothing.

Nothing.

Hey, is there anyway
that I can,

as your boyfriend,
see your--

absolutely not.

Watch out for that guy.

By the way,
are you an organ donor?

- Yes, why?
- Well, just in case.

All those crazy drivers.
Those maniacs, you know?

A kidney could fetch
a few kip on the open market.

Shut up, Fritz.
That is not funny.

So, your
family, they're, uh--

this is a brother and sister?

This was an abandoned script
written for truffaut.

A brother and sister involved
in the act of lnter--

coitus... holds
metaphorical symbolism.

Love has no logic.

Like life,
there's irrationality,

and chaos, and passion.

Society places these rules

and binds us
with what's right, wrong.

Sometimes it's imperative
to defy those boundaries.

But they're fucking.

Maybe you should
have left it abandoned.

Love... the things.

I'm going to kill him.

Be the rainbow
that brings the rain.

It's a metaphor.

- You're fucking her.
- What?

Hoffmeister. Her.
She. Right there.

Right here.

No, don't write that down.

I am not fucking anybody.
I am on a roll.

Please, please,
just tell me what you did.

Okay, stop. Okay?
Just-- it's okay. It's okay.

We just had wonderful sex,

and it's fine.
It happens, okay?

- It happens.
- No.

He writes self-help books.

Well, one.

Oh, which one?

"Bright sunny bubble gum"?

Oh, the truth
through positivity.

You are like
an Espresso bean.

An Espresso bean.

You grow
and you become strong.

Arabic black,
filled with flavor,

robust,

and then life begins.

The grind.

Uh-oh.

You become a powder.

Dust.

Fine and aromatic.

Shiny, like a speck
of diamond.

The elements, they converge.

Humidity, it rains down.

Light, blinding.

The wind blowing.

Blowing who
you once were, yes?

Then one day you find

that even under
this immense pressure,

there you are, beautiful...

Ready to cream that cup.

Do you think
that's too much?

"Cream that cup?"

"Cream that cup."

I'm trying to place, like,
with the c's, you know?

Cream. Creme. Cup.

Hmm.

Did you read it?

Well, no. I generally
don't trust happiness.

I also don't trust people
who are too convincing

or sound like
they know the answers.

Right.

You do know that that can
sound a little paranoid?

Hmm, well, yes, but--
but even if you're paranoid,

it doesn't mean
they're not chasing you.

All right.

Anyway, he's working
on another one now.

Can I get some
hand sanitizer?

I think I touched
something in here.

Uh, he also calls a laptop

a porn machine.

Which one is Anna?

His wife likes her chocolates.

Yeah, I like that.

The other one is hoffmeister,
his assistant.

I have a theory
that together

they would make
the perfect "thr-ouple."

I feel like he used
to make an effort.

- But now it's all about--
- I just want to say--

you have to let me finish.

Continue please.

He used to love to leave work
in the beginning.

He was like don Juan
or Valentino.

We used to love watching
silent movies together.

So, em is married
to lohmann.

She's my cousin.

- So, it was the dmv?
- Yeah, I think that's--

oh, you don't like that.

- Well, it's just the--
- all right, um...

We met in
an acroyoga workshop

and we had
to share a towel,

which obviously
you decided to keep.

Lilly, please.

Okay, um, we met
on meditation mountain

and you were stepping
on my aura.

All right,
you know what?

When you're serious,
you let me know.

O Kay.

We just met
on a dating site.

Like j-date.

I was looking for someone
dark haired and Israeli,

but, you know,
without the thick accent.

Israeli and cute.

Just like a hook-up site.
I was drunk.

Vvhat about, you knovv, you
vvere having a gluten reaction

at a restaurant
and I injected you with Kale?

Hey, what's the name
of the site again?

The dating site?
Um, "let's get awesome"?

You realize
no Jewish dating site

would ever have anything
with "awesome."

- Hey.
- Yeah?

Thank you.

You're being nice.

Awesome.

Well, you were applying

the full heimlich
maneuver on me,

so, you know.

Do you want
to take a walk?

Sure.

Okay. Get in.

I want to show you
something.

It's my parents' house.

We do this every year
for as long as I can remember.

It's nice.

Family. Special.

They're crazy.
All of them.

Yes.

It used to be special when
we were younger, you know?

The whole family.

It was before you could
see your cousin's

handcrafted latte
every four minutes on insta.

All of us.

- Are you here on vacation?
- Palm Springs?

Yes. Well, divorce.

I'm actually--
i needed some time alone.

L'm-- I don't know.

Everything I was doing
didn't seem like

it was working
out or right,

so I took myself
out of the equation.

Oh.

Is that why you said that even
your fictitious relationships

were doomed to fail?

Yeah.

Long?

The marriage
0r the divorce?

- I'm sorry.
- Don't be.

She's from a hippie family.

Her father did a lot of coke,

and her mom liked
black guys and women.

Might be the other
way around.

But do you know what
growing up like that

will do to your marriage
later on?

Well, here you are

with the perfect excuse
to do this.

You see? Huh?

Like a Scottish pirate

with an incredible sense
of guilt...

And circumcised.

Is that what
your book is about?

It's, uh-- no.

I'm writing
an oral history of the world,

but from a personal
perspective.

So, like a diary.

Well, I guess
you can say that.

I don't know.

But I had to take a break

until I get, well, get some--

pants.

Pants,
perspective, confidence.

I suppose they work
hand in hand.

This whole thing
just rattled me.

You know I'm not wearing
any pants still, right?

- Are you nervous?
- Now?

No. This? This is, well,

this is my usual Friday nights.
I'm used to this.

Having a rose
m a brown paper bag.

You know, if the cops
stopped us,

I'd probably get
three to five years

just for gender confusion.

I haven't done something
this stupid in a vvhile.

It feels good,
i have to admit.

You don't know
who I am, do you?

I'm an actress.

Oh, is that, uh--
do you like it?

Is that working out?

Um...

It did.

It used to.

But now I just--

I don't know
if there's a point.

I was--
i was doing this junket

for this new film I'm doing,

and a minute before
we were supposed to start,

my boyfriend called

and said he couldn't
do it anymore.

Hit-ii us-

let's talk
about "awesome Allie."

Wait.

You're playing a doll?

Okay, well, first of all,
it's "patriot girl."

It's, like, the hottest
selling doll.

It's in every mall.

And l..

I don't know, I wanted
to challenge myself,

do something new.

Like, push-- shut up!

It was a three-picture deal.

- I'm sorry.
- No, it's so--

it's so stupid,
all of it.

It's just--

that's what I realized.
It doesn't--

like, none of it
means anything...

Because I didn't have
anyone to...

Still got rose.

It's stupid.

Awesome Allie?

Yeah.

I just feel it.
He's having an affair.

Not positive enough?

- No.
- What do you mean?

Lt's-- it's not--

well, it's got Bruce...
Gender.

Yeah, but not as a woman.

It's like you're--

you're showing me
a caterpillar

and telling me that one day
it will become a butterfly.

I'm not sure I follow.

I want to see
the butterfly.

It's set in
the middle of winter.

Here.

Mm-hmm.

First, I had to choose
between my career and his.

You know, this.

God, I'm not
getting younger.

I can't compete with her.

I color corrected everything
to severe blue.

We invented
that color in post.

The gray of his sword
in the fight symbolizes ash,

and his jacket has "death"
written in sanskrit on it.

You know, we try to not age,
and look younger,

and meanwhile
these idiots are just--

they act like babies.

When j.J. Saw it,

he added that flare of light
from behind him.

Then Bruce's character
smashes the glass breastplate.

I'm just going to end up having,
like, seven procedures done.

What was that, honeybear?

I'll probably end up, like,
shiny and tanned

on Ibiza or St. tropez.

Oh, I love "centro pais."

And we made it.

So, when did it happen?

Well, it's December,
so two weeks ago?

The actual, you know.

The rest happened
a long time ago.

She was a lawyer,
so we would fight

and she would litigate
both sides.

It was like taking on
j.P. Mutual or--

so I packed up my records,
my camera.

I don't even know why I bother
with all that stuff,

I'm so outdated,

and, uh, I left.

Right.

-L like--
- you know--

- what?
- No, you were going to--

- no, go ahead.
- No, please.

- Tell me.
- You.

What were you going to say?

Let's draw numbers.
I'm thinking of a number--

all right.

What I was going to--
what wanted to say--

what...

I like talking to you.

- You do?
- Yeah.

It's easy.

It's also demented,
but still.

Maybe it's because
i don't know you,

but I think this is the best
relationship I've ever been in.

Well, I'm flattered.

It's not every day
someone says,

"you're great, and don't
take it personally."

I didn't mean it like that.

So, "let's get awesome?"

Now?
You don't mind the--

- the dating site.
- Right. Yeah.

It's probably
the motion sensor.

I would like that.

O Kay.

Honey? Salt, please.

Em, this is really good.

What's for dessert?

Where are you from?

My mom-- texting me.
She's worried.

Oh.

You know, you have
a nice voice?

It's underrated.

Especially, with every
film nowadays,

all that fucking
goddamn whispering.

And no one blinks.
You notice that?

You promise yourself
you won't do those projects

and then you turn around
and find yourself

sighing at the moon.

My film, the one
I'm working on now,

I just can't
put it together.

It's driving me crazy.

Haven't slept in weeks.

I just don't know
if it's right.

I want this to be
the defining one,

but then, am I posing?
Pushing?

Is that art? Follow?

You don't care.
Why should you?

You have youth.

What's she worried about?

When I was young,
my mom carried an umbrella,

everywhere, all the time.

And we had a friend
who asked her one day,

she said it might rain.

Life wasn't always
kind to her,

and she can't get rid of that,

so she sees only that--
worry.

What do you think?

Things happen.

If it rains...

It rains.

I mean, I feel like
i need structure, you know?

Like, I had too much structure
and then no structure.

I like working really hard,
and I can't help it.

Then he decides he wants me
to take care of him,

and be like the light
in his world.

He has that potential,
but so do I.

I feel like I'm not, like--

like he's the one
that can say,

why don't you build an app,
or do, like, a social network?

And I mean,
what is that about?

So, it's like
this interesting thing,

but I'm like, "are you
fucking crazy, when?"

I mean,
he got an advance.

He's lucky,
you know?

It's like...

I feel like
i needed to transform.

I was like, "i need you to,
like, you can't do this,

I need you to do this."

And I mean I wasn't,
i didn't-- i--

I wasn't in the mood
for any excuses,

because I don't want to be
resentful, all right?

I didn't sign up
for that.

I signed up
for a relationship

that doesn't lean
on this or that,

I've done that before.

So now--

so now, we're in this
loving relationship,

not like all these,
fucking people.

And I just-- I don't vvant to
feel like he's alvvays gone.

And he feels he has
to call or he has to write.

So now...

I need to focus
this energy...

On me.

Now did you ever think
that you might need to shift

to feel better?

Never.

L-ll.

I'm not advocating harming
cheese or cows,

but with a vegetarian diet,
it just seems enough.

- Hmm.
- Vegan?

Oh, I have never
looked back.

And there's cashews,
soy, almonds.

Yeah, but that's pretty
disgusting.

And you know,
dehydrated tomatoes,

is that necessary?

We don't want
to hear people--

no, I'm serious.

- I heard one guy--
- thank you.

Telling his--

friend about how he masturbated
on a flight to tahitl twice.

Yeah, I mean, I hate
to tell you this,

but lots of people
masturbate on flights.

He was on his way
to his honeymoon.

Hmm. So are these, like,
the kinds of things

you talk to
your therapist about?

No, these are things
i think about

vvhen I'm lounging in my eames
chair reading Nietzsche.

- Mm-hmm?
- Mm-hmm.

What are you reading?

Oh, a recipe
for vegan quiche.

It sounds so good.

Oh, yum.

Listen to this.

Seven or eight carrots.

A generous block of tofu.

Shaved brussel sprouts.

Oh, white blossom spinach.

Put all that in a bowl.

Add some unsalted soy cheese

and some organic
almond flour.

Then you take all that
and throw it in the trash

and grill up some steak.

I don't think that's cannabis,
that that's linen.

Uh, listen, let's all
circle up, hmm?

Check in.

- God, I can't.
- Oh, nice.

Come on.

- What's going--
- I should have warned you.

Should I bring my drums?

Okay.

Okay, checking in.

Okay, who wants
to go first?

- Em?
- Yes.

All right.

Feeling...

So blessed...

This holiday season,

which is my favorite
time of year,

as you might know.

But this year

really has been
such a blessing

- all right.
- No, just to my husband.

I just want to wish him

inspiration
for his film,

and I know
it can be trying--

- but sending--
- em.

Yes, done.
Just positive--

- really?
- Energy. That's it.

Okay, great, um,
now so I will check in.

Feeling good.

Um, it's just so nice
to have the family all--

including Fritz

including,
yes, whatever.

I just wanted
to say that I know

that through the years

we have all found
different paths,

um, and vocations,

and I have found,

um, some fortune, uh--

for fuck sake,
just say it.

My therapist thought
it was a good idea

that he come over
and talk to you guys

- and 00--
- group therapy.

You don't have to be a pussy
about it, vve're all adults.

I don't think that that's
the right word.

It is.
Pussy.

You're what?

Tom?

Yeah, I just thought that we
could all benefit from it.

Well, what does
that mean?

That means I invited
a therapist over.

- Here?
- Here.

Tonight?

Well, yes, yeah.

Don't think I
have time for therapists,

I still have my film.

Look, just-- he's gonna
come over.

We're gonna introduce ourselves
to him and him to us.

Tom, I think...

That is about...

The most amazing idea
i have ever heard.

I mean, I think
that's so thoughtful.

Well, I think it's the dumbest
thing that I have ever heard,

so"

oh, my god. Too much.

Checking out.

- Nope.
- I have to just--

Ross Cain, therapist.

"Cain is more than able."

Where are you going?

L-- I thought you thought
it was a good idea.

- No! You-- tom!
- But you--

you are so sensitive
sometimes.

What do you want me
to tell you?

It's like
your cocaine phase.

It is nothing like my--

please do not
call it a phase.

- Oh, yeah? Vvhat vvas it then?
- It vvas an episode.

Oh, please, what are you,
"star wars"?

Of course, of course.

He's, like, fucking
mummified in narcissism.

Like all that fucking linen has just
blocked the sensors to his brain.

Like, fucking rearrange
my fucking chakras.

Like, it's so typical.

Vvill you stop? You're
giving me motion sickness.

No, it's-- it's like,
it's like having

a fucking stethoscope
for a brother.

He's, like, constantly, like, gauging
and checking everybody's pulse.

And lt's-- lt's--
it's his problem, you know?

It has-- it has nothing to do
with anybody else.

Oh, Christ!

And lt's--
it is so fucking selfish.

It started with giving us
books every year.

Every goddamn year.

Turn around.

You know, first it was--
it was "the power of now."

And then-- then it was
"your spiritual calling."

"Find your purpose."
"Your path to journeys."

"Social intelligence."
Like-- like he's one up

on figuring out this whole
fucking life thing.

And-- social intelligence,
seriously?

Have you seen intelligence
in society anywhere?

Well, I had high hopes
for the French,

but I don't really
speak the language.

Makes me so fucking mad.

Well, you coming?

- Uh, where?
- The pool.

I'm gonna get a glass of wine
and sit at the pool

with a glass of wine.

Okay, but--

no, I'm good.

Barstow?

No, i-- you were supposed
to take the--

no, no, I said you take
the-- the 101 to the 110

to the 10.

Yeah, to the 10.
That's what I said.

What did you take?

Okay, look, okay.

I meant to say
the 111, okay?

111.

1-1-1.

O Kay.

Well, where are
you gonna--

1-1-1.

Can you hear me?

- Better?
- Yeah.

Good.

So, what's he like?

What do you mean?
You don't know.

What about his voice?

Have you talked to him?

What are you gonna do
when you meet him?

I don't know.

I have a picture of him.

No?

Tell me about him.

Tell?

Close your eyes
and tell me about him.

I don't think
he's having an affair,

you don't?

No.

I'm just confused.

I kind of expected--

I'm supposed to know
what to do.

Pretty soon
I'll be 35, 40...

My career,

there's talk about kids.

Why do we have to choose?

I mean, it's like,
I'm going to just be a vp

or a terrible parent.

- It's trying.
- Trying?

It's fucking awful.

I just can't.

Between aging and--

I don't want to be a vp.

I want to be
a p and have ambitions

- and--
- get it out.

I don't want to wear
thongs anymore.

I just can't.

And I feel like
i gained weight.

Oh, honey, you eat
a lot of chocolate.

You ever think about L.A.?

Every winter pretty much.

I came out for a visit
once in April,

my friend yelled
at me on the phone,

"don't think it's summer."

It was 72 degrees

and his wife was wrapped
in a fleece blanket.

Also, why does everyone
wear a beanie all the time?

I don't know.

The people,
the weather in New York,

are just real.

Every time I come in

staring at
those silly buildings,

heading back ln--
lt's like magic.

Makes no sense.

I always feel
like a guy

when I come back
into New York City,

and she's like a mistress,

like an old fling
that I'm excited to see.

- A guy?
- Yeah.

Like we had
this love affair

and I'm nervous

if she still finds me
attractive.

He's tall.

Taller than me.

His hands are soft.

He's got this smile...

It's kind of crooked.

Nice.

Character?

And he's gentle, you know?

Like, the way he talks.

Yeah.

Does it hurt?

You're poking it.

Sorry.

This is nice.

So did you think
of a name yet?

What, for my movie?
Yeah, lots.

Bring it.

-"The kingdom of self."
- Mmm, nice.

I have a title that I always
thought would be good.

O Kay.

"The love of intrigue."

Hmm.

"Love thief."

Come on,
that's already a title.

Nope.

Yeah, I've seen
that movie.

I'm not kidding.
I made that up.

"Becoming a stranger."

You okay?

Yeah.

The therapist took
the 15 by mistake.

He made it almost
all the way to barstow.

It's not funny.

Yes, it is.

People die in barstow.

I'm not having an affair.

I know.

- So then why do you--
- because I'm scared.

And sometimes I feel
like I'm all alone.

Why don't you talk to me?

Hmm.

Everything you want
is on the other side of fear.

- Tom.
- No, that's-- that's not--

you said that to me.

-L mo?
- Mm-hmm.

Yes you did.

Right before
"bright sunny bubblegum,"

I was having a moment,
and you said that to me.

I'm sorry I haven't been paying
attention to you enough.

You're the most
important thing in my life.

- Really?
- Yeah.

I was so close.

Okay? Yeah.

Okay? I was so close.

Yeah.

Nietzsche.

- Is everything okay?
- Everything is fine.

Thank you, my darling.

Hey.

Um, I'm sorry
to bother you guys,

but do you think I can use
the porn machine?

Yeah, yeah, hold on.

Here you go.
You have fun.

Yeah. Come on!

You know, I think
you're just being lazy

and if you stand up,
that would be,

- you know easier.
- Okay.

Huh, ah, there.
So good.

Okay. Now that
the debacle is over,

what do you think?

What?

The stain. Pants.
Think that will come off?

- Hey, Fritz?
- Yeah?

Hi. I just thought
maybe we can talk.

I don't think we met on,
"lets get awesome."

+10?
- No.

I think we met like this.

Just like this.

So I'm running late
and she calls,

"where are you?"

I'm so frustrated 'cause
i can't find this place.

I shout out,
"i can't find it.

I'm lost.

I can't find gay street."

Out of nowhere, these seven,
like, big tight shirts

and trimmed beards come out
and just want to help me.

I feel like I'm in a cross betvveen
snovv vvhite and goldilocks.

Come on,
you're making this up.

I'm telling you,
look it up.

Gay street,
west village,

tiny little alley,
straight up.

Wow.

Well, that was it.

We had a couple
of days and then--

it's funny, vvhen i
came back to nevv York

it was the worst
winter in 50 years,

which is appropriate,

because my wife was like
a cold and frigid front.

But, um, plowing
through like snow,

rolling like thunder,

something like that...

Lilly went back to theatre,

that's what
she loved doing.

They did a sequel to "yentl"

called "rosh hashanah rising."

Big success.

And they're making
a movie out of it.

Lohmann's directing,
and she's playing Jewish.

So, you know,
serious Oscar contender.

We texted a few times.
Little things.

You know, music that she heard
that reminded her of me.

A bottle of rose
i was having.

I thought back
to that time

and I was trying
to figure out life

as this one big thing,
you know?

And what I realized was
it's not like that at all.

It's like epicurus'
theory of physics.

Everything is just
tiny atoms that collide

and get entangled
with no plan or purpose.

He did add
that there's a swerve,

and not everything
is predestined.

It hit me that
it's like life, random.

Maybe Lilly and I were just
two atoms that collided

and became entangled.

Maybe that's
the magic of life,

those little moments.

Maybe that's what
makes it so special.

Like fainting
or losing your pants,

and then spending
the holidays

with a bunch
of eccentric strangers

who want to
do group therapy.

And a chance
or faint hope for love.

You know...

I think it was a timing thing
with Lilly and I.

I was coming out
of a break up

and she with her
existential crisis.

Well, my therapist--

well, she always says
that these things come down

to-- excuse me?

- What?
- What's going on?

Uh-- uh, a woman is having
an allergic reaction to gluten.

I've never seen
anything like it.

Vvell, yqu knovv, like i
vvas saying, it's, uh--

have to be at the right place
at the right, uh--

I'm sorry. I think
they're gonna need my help.

Excuse me, can I get
some Kale, please?