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[Judith Hill's "Today Is"]

Meredith: Oxygen is
the human body's fuel.

[together]
♪ Today ♪

Meredith:
It powers our brains,

organs, and bodily tissues.

♪ It's a light,
come and see it now ♪

[together]
♪ Today, today is ♪

Meredith:
Without a proper supply,

our bodies can't function.

I haven't written mine yet,
but I will by Friday.

Wait, you already wrote

and memorized your vows,
didn't you?

I'm excited too.

I just need more hours
in a day,

but I did book a car
to pick up your parents.

- Meredith: Our brains...
- Okay.

Meredith:
Hearts, and kidneys...

See you soon.

Meredith: Can only tolerate
a lack of oxygen

for a limited time before
their cells begin to die.

Wow, you really know
what you're doing.

I have had seven sister's
worth of hand-me-downs.

This is nothing.

Wouldn't have pegged you
for a vintage dress though.

- I was gonna rock a jumpsuit.
- Fierce!

But then my grandma pulled
my mom's dress

from the attic,
because she thinks I'm my mom.

And it just felt like a sign.

I'm just lucky
you have tailoring skills.

Lucky, and also,
you're getting a bill.

Meredith: About five minutes
for the brain...

- ♪ Come and feel it now ♪
- Wow.

Meredith: About 30
for the heart and kidneys.

Don't look.

It's bad luck for the bride
to see the roommate

before the wedding.

Yeah, you're fine.

Have you guys seen
this email?

Apparently, Dr. Webber has

a special announcement
this morning.

Wait, do you think
the residency program

is coming off probation?

Or maybe Grey or Pierce
is coming back?

Or they're finally putting
cheese curls

back in the vending machine.

It's more likely
than either of yours.

We're leaving in five minutes.

I'm only gonna tell you once, okay?

She's still
in a wedding dress.

And you're slow.
Get in the shower.

♪ Your moment shining down ♪

Meredith:
When a patient loses oxygen,

doctors know the clock
is ticking.

♪ It's a vibe,
can you feel it now? ♪

- Matcha latte, your favorite.
- Thanks.

You could have one every day
if you came back.

Could have one every day now.

Well, yeah, but you wouldn't
need to cross the street.

Plus, you could wear scrubs,
which are basically pajamas.

Are those
your big selling points?

Well, Webber has
an announcement this morning.

That's gotta be good news.

Yeah, well,
don't get your hopes up.

I only agreed to talk
to a few people.

- Ooh, I gotta go.
- Oh!

You get to save lives...

in pajamas!

BokHee, hey.

Um, uh, attention, everyone. Attention.

We have some exciting news
that we want to share.

As you know, each year,
the Catherine Fox Award

recognizes surgical innovations

that push the boundaries
of modern medicine.

It's been some time since
Grey Sloan's had a nominee,

but this morning,
we received word that not one

but two of our doctors
have been nominated.

Please join me
in congratulating

Dr. Nick Marsh

nominated for his work
on xenotransplantation.

Wow, thank you.

And Dr. Winston Ndugu,

who's been nominated
along with Dr. Maggie Pierce

for their groundbreaking
partial heart transplant.

[applause]

We look forward
to celebrating you

at the award ceremony
in Boston.

[applause]

[light dramatic music]

Congratulations again
to both of you

I've got seats
on the Fox Foundation jet.

Thank you.

I'm headed to the OR now,
but I'm truly honored.

Congratulations.

[sighs]

I'll have information
about the ceremony

and travel plans later today.

We're just finalizing
a few things.

That's okay.
I'm good.

I'm--I'm not going.

But thank you.

Sam Sutton
post-op day two status.

Post upper and lower limb
fracture repairs

and right lower extremity
gastroc flap.

All Doppler signals are strong,
and no sign of infection.

I hear I'm gonna be famous.

Well, it depends
on how you define it.

We're writing up your case
for a medical journal,

not "The New York Times."

But we do hope it'll help
other doctors and patients.

So they know how to treat

the next guy
who breaks 93 bones.

[all chuckle]

Well, your vitals look good.

I'll come back
and check on you later tonight.

Great. What happened
to my other doctor?

Uh, Dr. Griffith, the intern?

No, no, no,
she had light brown hair,

Disney princess eyes,
heart-stopping smile.

- Dr. Wilson?
- Yes.

Is Dr. Wilson single,

or did she just say that
because I was dying?

She said that?

Well,
she's with other patients,

but Dr. Yasuda
will be taking your data

for the rest of the day,
so if you need something,

- just ask her.
- All right.

Yeah.

[light quirky music]

You can call me
a Disney princess,

but I don't date patients.

And we should also monitor
her urine output

and fluid status.

Uh, Dr. Bailey?

May I please
be on your service?

I thought
you were on Shepherd's.

I was, but I know this case,

and I can provide
a high level of care.

You know the patient,

which is a reason
for you not to be on the case.

She and I are not family,

and we've barely
known each other

for more than a few months.
I can be professional.

I'm happy to switch.

Okay, Millin, you're with me.
Kwan, go find Shepherd.

Hello.

Hello, Doctor.

Maxine Anderson,
81 years old.

Diagnosed with a UTI

complicated
by delirium and sepsis.

Treated with IV antibiotics.

Her delirium has resolved,

and she's been off pressors
for 24 hours.

She's being downgraded
to a stepdown bed today.

- How are you feeling today?
- Much better, thank heavens.

I lost my marbles there
for a minute.

Well,
glad you're feeling better.

Jules--I mean, Dr. Millin,

if that happens again,

I want you
to know a few things.

First, please remember
to feed Mr. Darcy.

The cat.

Got it.
What else?

I want to be cremated.

Spread my ashes
in the Grand Canyon

and play Tom Jones
at my funeral.

Max--

And if I'm going,

just let me go.

I do not want to lie around

like a turnip
for the rest of my days.

No shocking with paddles,
no tube down my throat.

I want to be remembered
as a vibrant 81.

Max, you're not dying.

You're being moved from the ICU
to a regular room.

But we understand
your wishes,

and we'll get you
the paperwork.

You'll be able to go home
in a day or two.

Oh, that's great news,
not that I mind it here.

The food's edible,

the orderlies
are quite good-looking,

and with Jules
sleeping down the hall,

it almost feels like home.

I've had a couple
of late nights.

That's what the on-call room
is for, right?

Okay, Mrs. Anderson,
Dr. Millin will transport you,

and I will see you
in your new room.

♪ ♪

- Max.
- Oh, I forgot.

Either of you ever seen
an abdominal aortic aneurysm?

Only in textbooks.

I read that triple As
are super rare,

Basically unheard of
in patients under 60.

That's right.
Keep up, please.

Well, our guy's only 29,

and he's
a non-smoking vegetarian

with no predisposing
genetic history

of cardiac disease.

What are the triple As
most serious complications?

Dissection,
a tear in the aortic lining

requires stenting or surgery.

Rupture,
if the aneurysm bursts,

we gotta take him
straight to the OR.

- Good.
- Is that why we're rushing?

Not exactly.

No, no, no, no, no, not again.
Ray, listen.

Look, I'm sorry,
Dr. Altman, okay?

- I can't do this today.
- Ray.

Sorry, sorry.
Excuse me, excuse me.

Uh, what are we supposed
to do now?

We run after him.

[light dramatic music]

[sighs]

♪ ♪

Hey, I just saw
the funniest thing at day care.

Scout was annoyed that Luna
had this hedgehog toy,

and he made this face.

It looked exactly
like you look

when you're annoyed with me.

Excuse me.
Sam Sutton asked for you.

He said it wasn't urgent, though.

Yeah, I just saw him.

No, he's asking
for Dr. Wilson.

Oh.

Mm.

That's it.
That's the face.

Wait, why--
why are you annoyed with me?

[sighs]

Don't you think
it's a little inappropriate

to tell a patient
that you're single?

He asked, and he thought
he was gonna die.

He said you have
Disney princess eyes.

You think I don't?

I'm kidding.
I'm kidding.

I appreciate
the misplaced chivalry,

but do you remember
how many times

I would get hit on
at Jimmy's Crab Shack?

- [chuckles]
- I think I can handle myself.

Dr. Angle
to the Psych Unit.

Dr Lea Engle
to the Psych Unit.

Ray, can we just stop
and talk about this?

Look, you said I didn't need
the surgery right now.

Right now and never
are two very different things,

plus that was two months
and three failed attempts

at surgery ago.

Okay, well, I'm still alive,

so I'm good, great,
fantastic, really.

You have a weakened aorta,
which supplies blood

to all of your major organs.
If it bursts--

I know, okay?
You told me.

But those consent forms,

they say
I could have renal failure

or heart problems
or bleed out during surgery.

No, thanks.

There is a less than
5% chance

of renal failure, bleeding out,
or heart problems,

but there is a 10% chance

that your aneurysm will rupture
at any moment,

and if that happens,
your chances of survival

are worse than all
of these numbers combined.

Okay, just stop.
Just stop.

I don't know
about all the statistics,

but what I do know
is that those consent forms

say I could die
a dozen different ways

if I do the surgery.

I'm an illustrator.

I sit at a desk all day.

It doesn't require
much exertion.

At this point,
it might not take much.

I'll take my chances.

Those chances would be
so much better with surgery.

You can't force me
to do this.

[light dramatic music]

- Ray.
- So we just let him go?

- He's a ticking time bomb.
- Informed consent.

We can't force a patient
to get a procedure.

His mom will work on him,

and hopefully
he will come back.

All right, you two,
go to the skills lab,

and I will page you
if something comes up.

Mm.
Coming?

Yeah, go ahead.
I'll catch up.

♪ ♪

- Hey, you were looking for me.
- I was.

I have a question about the--
the, uh, the plate

that you put in my arm, and--

okay, yeah, obviously,
I don't really have a question.

I just wanted to see you
so I could thank you.

- For what?
- Saving my life.

Okay, I know that post-op
can be boring--

It is.
It is so boring.

I thought I could
flirt with you

while we play a game of cards.

You'd be holding all the cards
for real.

Well, my day
is anything but boring, so...

Okay, okay,
go cut people open.

I'll be here all week.
We have time.

Actually,
I'm delivering twins.

I am both an OB-GYN
and a general surgeon.

You're pretty
and multitalented.

We are a rare breed.

Uh, so what do you do now
that you're no longer military?

Oh, I'm still a pilot,
just not military.

So flying hundreds of people
through the air

wasn't terrifying enough.

You had to put on
a shiny sleeping bag

and jump out of a plane.

I'm actually
a pretty simple guy.

Yeah, because simple guys
are always

jumping off of pyramids
and rainforest cliffs, or--

You stalked my social media.

I wanted to know
what wingsuiting was.

[clears throat]

Um, I have to get back to OB.

Is there anything else
that you need?

Not at the moment,

but I will keep
your offer in mind.

You realize
that she meant medically?

- No, she didn't.
- [sighs]

Ray, hi.

- Uh, can I have a minute.
- Oh, my God.

Stop with the consent forms.

What, do you get a commission
on the surgery or something?

Uh, no, no, no commission.
Just my notes.

- I just want to talk.
- Yeah.

You mean talk me
into the surgery.

No, no, no,
talk about the surgery.

Okay, it's your decision.
I just--

I won't be able to sleep

knowing I didn't do
everything I could

to make sure you were informed.
Let's just take a walk, okay?

You're leaving anyway, right?
I could use some fresh air.

[sighs]

Are you coming?

Dr. Brooks to Oncology.

- We got you one with a window.
- Oh, how nice.

[together]
Surprise!

Norma, Lois!

- Welcome to your new room.
- Did we scare you?

I didn't want to yell,
but Norma made me.

I'm fine.
I loved it!

Come here, you two.

[laughter]

both: Mwah!

I told them they could
only stay for an hour.

- You need to get your rest.
- Oh, don't listen to Jules.

She's in doctor mode.

Speaking of Jules,
we brought your crochet bag.

You know, my treble stitch
is getting much better.

Wow, nice,
but that's a half double.

I can show you the treble
this afternoon again.

Oh, you see
how she talks to me?

She's an angel,
if a doctor can be an angel,

like in that movie.

Oh, we put your toiletries
in the bathroom.

Oh, thank heavens.
My hair needs a good brushing.

- "Angel Doctor."
- That's not a movie.

- Uh, "Doctor Angel."
- That's not a movie either.

- Max.
- I'm fine. I'm fine.

- Okay, okay.
- Thanks.

Oh, Doc.

- Her color's good.
- How's her appetite?

Uh, it's back.
Her appetite--

Ow!
[loud thuds]

- Max.
- [grunts]

Oh, Max, are you okay?

[gasps]

I--I--I don't know.
Am I?

Okay, all right.

Okay, just take deep breaths.

[dramatic music]

- Winston.
- Hey.

Will it be awkward for you
seeing Maggie so soon?

It'll definitely be awkward, yeah.

But, uh,
you're coming anyway.

Very few Black men have been
nominated for this award...

- [sighs]
- So I'll be there.

I'm proud of you, son.

I'm proud of me too.
[phone chimes]

- Excuse me, a consult.
- Okay.

[taps]

The Catherine Fox Award
means something

to people around here.

You know, if Winston can rise
and face Maggie,

I think you'll be able
to handle seeing Meredith.

Dr. Webber, I don't believe

in ranking
medical contributions.

I just don't.

I also don't feel the need
to go all the way to Boston

for some rubber chicken dinner.

Listen, I'm sorry, but
it's a little presumptuous--

Your absence would be
an insult to this hospital,

your fellow nominees,
and my wife

for who the award is named,
so I suggest

you get off
your moral high ground,

set aside your feelings
about Boston,

do your job, and join us.

Dr. Olivares to Labor
and Delivery.

Dr. Olivares
to Labor and Delivery.

[sighs]

Floor wasn't even slippery.

There weren't any obstacles.

I was just walking to the sink.

- Ow.
- What do you see, Millin?

Uh, she has a fractured rib,

which explains her pain
when she moves her upper body.

What's the treatment
for that?

Rest.
It should heal on its own.

What about her head?

The cut
doesn't appear serious,

but I'd like to get a scan.

So let's get her up to CT
and page Neuro.

- Maxine--
- I'm not up to visitors today.

I think you two better go.

I'll be here, and I will call
with any updates.

I promise.

[light dramatic music]

♪ ♪

Left open comminuted
humeral fracture,

right open femoral fracture...

Do you always narrate
your data input?

Helps keep me accurate.
What are you working on?

I'm watching
an old triple A surgery

while double checking
the wedding spreadsheet

for the RSVPs.

Oh,
you know I'm coming, right?

Never sent in a card.

I live with you.
It was assumed.

Adams isn't coming.

That is different,
and you know it.

- You bringing a plus one?
- [sighs]

Did you even read
the invitation?

I was working two jobs.

It's this weekend,
right, isn't it?

- Why'd you move it up again?
- Grandma's getting worse.

She's got maybe a good
90 minutes in the morning,

- and that time is shrinking.
- That's rough.

You know what
she remembers though?

Weddings, she loves them,

the colors, the flowers,
the favors.

We actually have conversations
about the wedding

that feel completely real.

- Hi.
- Hi.

I'm just gonna take
a look around.

- How's the new space?
- Can't complain.

- Is everything okay?
- I don't know, let me think.

You complained to Altman
about a job

you haven't worked at
for months.

You projected your own trauma
onto my situation

resulting in half
of the surgical chiefs

- meeting about me.
- I'm sorry.

- I--how can I make it up to you?
- I'll get over it.

I just need to be mad at you
for a minute.

- Is that a literal minute or--
- Figurative.

Right.
[chuckles]

I'm just gonna...

I always thought
you two had chemistry.

What, me and Helm?
Why?

- She hasn't made a move.
- You could.

I don't like rejection.

I once had very embarrassing,
somewhat traumatic rejection

during a prom-posal go viral
at my high school.

I don't make
the first move anymore,

and it's worked out fine
for me.

Okay.

Who's your plus one again?

[quirky music]

♪ ♪

So you're
an illustrator, huh?

Yeah, yeah, graphic novels.

I draw, and my friend Sunita
writes the stories.

We're working on one right now
about a kid

whose big brother is afraid
to die before he turns 30,

so they're building a portal
to a parallel universe

so that they could time jump
and that he could turn 31

and then reenter
the real world.

Cool.

- Also very specific.
- [chuckles]

I had a really vivid dream
when I was a kid.

Um, my grandpa
who died before I was born

sat at the edge of my bed
and told me

we'd be together
for my 30th birthday.

[chuckles]

It scared the crap out of me,

so I've never smoked.
I don't drink.

I stopped eating meat.
Hell, I don't even drive.

I take public transit.

And maybe
it's completely irrational,

but I always thought,
if I could just make it

past 30 I'll be okay.

I need to stay alive
for my mom,

and I'm helping with
my sister's college tuition,

so I can't die.

I don't wanna die.

I don't want that either.

Look, I'm not a professional
like you,

but here is your aorta.

Dr. Adams, look, I appreciate
what you're trying to do.

Look, the statistics
freak you out,

so let's draw it.

Okay, so we'll access
your aorta through your groin,

and then we'll thread
a small wire

up through
the abdominal aneurysm,

and then we'll deploy a graft,

which will expand
to reinforce the weak area

and simulate an artery,
which will allow blood

- to flow through safely.
- Is that a potato?

- That's a kidney.
- With a Slinky?

- That's the graft.
- [laughs]

Bruh, you suck at drawing.

[chuckles]
Fair.

But I promise

this procedure has been tested
over and over,

and if a problem comes up
like you mentioned,

we have ways to address it.

What we can't do is be with you
if the aneurysm ruptures

while you're at home.

Did you feel dizzy before
you fell, Mrs. Anderson?

I don't think so.

I just remember
losing my balance

and stupidly hitting
my head on the sink.

Maybe it's a sign.

Loss of balance
can be a symptom

of a variety of conditions.

Or a sign that my time is up.

When the racehorse
breaks its leg,

they usually put it down.

Max, you're not a racehorse.

No, not anymore.

Oh, an active brain bleed
in the subdural space.

We should prep
for a decompression.

- Kwan, book an OR.
- On it.

Uh, Dr. Shepherd, could I
scrub in if that's okay?

Uh, no, it's not.

You were on neuro this morning,
and you traded with Kwan.

- I could trade back.
- You will do no such thing.

What is happening here?

Ah, Millin just confirmed
my suspicion

that she's too close
to the patient

- to be her doctor.
- What? No, no.

I just--she's talking about
being euthanized

like an animal.

Look me in the eye
and tell me

that you do not consider
that woman family.

[light dramatic music]

Mm-hmm, you're off the case
for good.

♪ ♪

- Dr. Altman.
- Yes, yes.

We're all very excited.
Thanks, Catherine.

You know, technically,
Grey Sloan can claim

three Catherine Fox
Award nominees

since Pierce performed
her transplant here.

That's great.
About Ray--

Yeah, I know
it can be disappointing.

Sometimes patients
just don't understand,

but there will be
other triple As to repair.

Yeah, but I still think
we should do Ray's.

He signed the consent forms.

♪ ♪

Page Griffith,
and let's get him to radiology

before he bolts again.
Well done.

♪ ♪

- Oh.
- Seriously?

You're lucky the twins' mom
is still dilating.

- What is it?
- I have an itch to scratch.

No, literally, it's--
help.

This is what orderlies
are for.

I know.

I could've called
somebody else,

but then you wouldn't be here.

Don't move.

Okay.
That?

Oh, you are the best doctor
I've ever had in my life.

If you ask for a sponge bath,
I'm leaving.

You know,
last time I had a cast,

they let me pick the colors.

[laughs]
How old were you?

Seven.
Fell off the monkey bars.

You had a death wish
even then, huh?

I was so bummed.

My dad was taking me
to my first pro ball game.

I had been practicing catching
fly balls for three months.

Glove doesn't fit
over the cast.

Can't catch anything.

But the first baseman
saw me in the stands,

ran over, signed my cast.

I cried when they cut it off.

[quirky music]

Well, you're, uh, lucky
with all the dumb stuff you do

that you haven't had
a cast since.

Yeah, I have had
half a dozen surgeries

and one metal plate,
but yeah, no casts.

[exhales]
[phone chimes]

- The twins.
- Oh.

- Gotta go.
- Lucky bastards.

♪ ♪

[applause]

Thank you.
Thank you so much.

I'm--hey,
I'm glad to be nominated.

[applause]

Do you know
how many codes I ran

to save lives
in the ER last year?

- Where's my award for that?
- For doing your job?

He was doing his.

My research is helping
to cure Parkinson's.

You don't see me nominated
for anything.

Listen to you two complaining
about your lack of recognition.

You're right.

We're happy for him
and Marsh.

I mean, I oversaw

a simultaneous
12-person domino surgery

wherein six people
got new kidneys.

You know,
I used deactivated HIV

to save a boy with SCID.

I mean, I spearheaded changes
in post-op protocols

to reduce post-op fistulas,
basically curing the problem.

If anyone should ask,
"Where's my award?"

it's me.

♪ ♪

- I was almost out of here.
- You will be soon.

Dr. Shepherd has done
a lot of these.

You're drilling into
my 81-year-old skull, right?

If it were only me,
I'd tell you to put me

out of my misery
and send me to the farm.

I talked to Norma about Jules.

I said she was
an excellent roommate.

Not sure I can say the same
about Norma.

That woman snores
like a freight train.

[laughs]

Let's hope
it doesn't come to that.

I know that Jules
loves living with you.

Mm.

Pete, my son,
he went to college

right after my husband
and I divorced.

I brought him up
to be independent,

which was maybe my excuse
for not being more involved.

By the way, it worked.

He graduated
and moved to London.

I hardly ever see him anymore.

He doesn't need
my homemade split pea soup

or my special herbal teas
to ward off colds

or my hugs after a long day...

but Jules,
she needs all of those things.

It seems she didn't have them
when she was a child,

and now I get to give them
to her.

- She's lucky to have you.
- [chuckles]

I'm the lucky one.

[elevator dings]

[tender music]

♪ ♪

What did you do
to convince him?

I drew a bad picture.

I thought he'd respond
to a different approach.

Chief, I just wanted
to say thanks

for funding
the intern skills practicum.

- I appreciate it.
- Of course.

And congrats, again,
on the nomination.

Sure, yeah.

Oh, uh, Richard wanted me
to ask you about the dinner--

No, count me out on that.

[groaning]

Ray, what's wrong?

My back, it really hurts.

Something's wrong.

Damn it.

- Oh, my God, is that a--
- It's a rupture. Come on.

Code blue!

Code blue, Radiology.
Third floor.

Call the blood bank.
Activate an MTP.

Let's go, let's go, let's go.

[Lxandra's "The Elephant"]

♪ Somehow ♪

- I need a vascular setup.
- I'll assist.

- Alert the OR!
- There's no time.

- I'm opening him up right now.
- On the CT table?

There's nowhere else.
You heard Altman.

Let's go.
Come on, let's go.

Come on.
Come on, Ray.

Betadine, let's go.

All right,
I need suction setup.

Lap pad.
Ten blade.

♪ What are you gonna do? ♪

Here we go.
Stop compressions.

♪ Oh,
can't hide the skeletons ♪

♪ Oh-oh ♪

More irrigation, please.

♪ This is hell
out on the loose ♪

Almost through.

We need to hang more blood.

I need better visualization.

Keep the compressions coming.

♪ From a shallow grave,
every choice you made ♪

♪ Shaking the ground,
ground, ground, ground ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Hold on ♪

- Still no pulse.
- Scissors.

♪ ♪

All right, got it. Clamp.

♪ Running out on you ♪

♪ Do you feel it? ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Can't cage the elephant ♪

All right, more lap pads.

♪ Oh ♪

♪ What are you gonna do? ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can't hide the skeletons ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ This is hell
out on the loose ♪

Charge at 200.

All right, clear.
Come on, come on, come on.

Charge again to 200. Clear.

[defibrillator humming
and thudding]

Come on.

Damn it.
Let me in there.

Come on.
Come on.

- Altman.
- He's 29 years old.

I know.
We did everything we could.

Come on.

♪ This is hell
out on the loose ♪

Beautiful work, Dr. Shepherd.

♪ Can't hide the skeletons ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ This is hell
out on the loose ♪

♪ ♪

Time of death...

[heart monitor droning]

15:21.

[tense music]

♪ ♪

Dr. Webber, hi.
Exciting news this morning.

Well, I wish everyone
shared your enthusiasm.

Well, you know
who loves awards? Helm.

- Oh, she does, huh?
- I don't know.

I'm just looking
for a good segue.

- Ah.
- How did things go with her?

She said
she'd think about it.

Did she seem upbeat?

Well, honestly,
she was asking for things

- we hadn't done before.
- Were they unreasonable?

Well, not terribly,
I suppose, but--

With all due respect, sir,

I don't see
why this is a question.

This hospital is bursting
at the seams with patients

and not enough doctors.
Helm is a proven asset.

You know exactly
what you're getting with her,

because you trained her.

You've worked with her
long enough to know

her talent and her dedication,
and frankly, sir,

we need more senior residents,
so please, please,

just give her what she wants.

Nurse Kingsbury to Five West

Nurse Kingsbury to Five West.

Again, it ruptured, and we
couldn't control the bleeding.

[sobbing]

I am very sorry,
Mrs. Sanchez.

I...

the hospital will mail

your son's belongings
to you in Tempe.

Thank you, Doctor.

[phone beeps]

Yeah, those calls
are never easy.

Hey, you got him back
to the hospital.

Adams, there's--
there's a thing with ADHD

where we feel the losses
really deeply,

so you have to take equal time

to give yourself credit
when you win.

You fought for him.
Hey, hey.

You fought for him.
That matters.

He knew in his gut
he was dying.

He knew he wasn't gonna see 30.

I knew in my gut
that I was different.

There was something different
about me my whole life.

I knew I wasn't just lazy,
which is what they called me.

You know, I went down
a rabbit hole online,

and I have pretty much
every single symptom.

I mean, difficulty focusing,

time blindness,
short attention span,

and my family
is full of doctors.

It's not like ADHD is rare.
You saw it.

Why didn't they?

[sighs]

I--I think parents,
sometimes they see their kids

through the lens
of their own experience.

Your parents
were overachievers,

so they expected you to be,
and when you weren't,

they were so busy pushing
and pushing you to live up

to your potential,
they didn't think to look

for why you weren't

Yeah, or maybe
they were just too busy

being disappointed
in me,

they didn't bother.

[sighs]

You know, I hope you win
the Catherine Fox Award.

Why?

I don't know,
because I feel like a failure,

and I feel like
I caught this too late,

and if you win, then--

If I win,
we aren't just losers?

Is that it?

[chuckles]
Yeah, something like that.

You know, Adams, this award,
it doesn't mean anything.

If that's
your acceptance speech,

- it's gonna need work.
- [laughs]

How long does
a delivery usually take?

- A couple hours?
- Like, from Postmates?

- Never mind.
- Dude, you gotta take it easy.

Women don't love
aggressive flirting,

at least not from men.

You don't get anywhere
if you don't ask.

- You gotta at least ask.
- False alarm.

- You paged her again?
- Wasn't me.

The twins
do not want to come out.

So you came back
to get cheered up

- by your favorite patient.
- No.

I was making sure
that Yasuda is checking...

- I am.
- On--okay.

Here.

- That sounds...
- Weak.

It does sound weak. Here.

[light dramatic music]

Take this.
Ready?

♪ ♪

- The flap's congested.
- What does that mean?

We moved muscle
from the back of your leg

- to the front to cover the bone.
- The flap.

Yes.
Yasuda, what's happening?

A hematoma,
it's putting pressure

on the flap and cutting off
the blood supply.

Why do I feel
like this is bad?

- It is bad, if the flap dies.
- Is that gonna happen?

- Not if I decompress it.
- Another surgery?

We can do it right here
if you consent.

Do it.
DO it.

Yasuda,
push additional morphine.

I'm good.
I have a high pain threshold.

Plus I kind of want
to see this.

Okay.
Ready?

♪ ♪

[groans]

- Okay, more gauze.
- Yeah.

- Thank you.
- Okay.

- [groans]
- Just breathe.

♪ ♪

[knock at door]

The decompression went well.

I know those are a regift.
I'm the one who brought them.

I thought you'd want
to keep these for Maxine

while she's in the ICU.

Or I could keep them
by the nurses' station.

No, leave 'em there.

Well, hopefully,
it won't be that long,

and you can both
get out of here.

I know what it feels like

to sit by the side
of someone you love

and worry
they're not gonna make it.

I know that fear
and anger and grief.

It's okay.
Professional distance and all.

I'm just saying it's okay
to have those feelings.

I'm here for you.

I'm fine, Kwan.

I need to call Norma and Lois.

[light dramatic music]

[sobbing]

♪ ♪

I've done a lot
of cool things,

but you just sliced into my leg
like it was nothing.

- It's no swimming with sharks.
- Oh, you went deep.

That post was from
at least three years ago.

Wow, I never thought
I could be a third wheel

- in a patient room.
- What was that, Yasuda?

Nothing.

Dr. Wilson,
OB called for you.

Cathy Han is headed into L&D.

- For real this time?
- I don't know.

- I don't work up there.
- Okay.

You just cut my leg open,

and now you're about
to deliver twins?

You are my hero.
Sign my cast.

[sighs]

- No tears when they remove it.
- No promises.

[laughs]

See?
You gotta at least ask.

- Richard.
- Here you go.

- Marsh.
- Yeah.

- I care about this program.
- I do too.

Not like I do.

It's my legacy, and I need
to get it back to where it was,

and a nomination
for our residency director

is a big deal.

I was about to ask about
a seat on the plane.

The residents, they need me
to get over myself,

and apparently so do you,
so yes,

I can put aside
my feelings about...

Boston if there's
still room on that plane.

[tender music]

I think that can be arranged.

- Good night.
- Good night.

Meredith: When a patient codes
or loses their airway,

a doctor's first priority
is to get oxygen flowing.

♪ ♪

We have a limited time
before damage sets in,

so we spring into action...

Cheeseburger, no mayo,
extra pickles,

- and a side of fries.
- I didn't order.

- Did you want something else?
- No.

I've just never been
a regular anywhere before.

Yeah, well,
don't get used to it,

because I just gave notice.

You're coming back
to the hospital?

- Yep.
- Ah.

And there's something
I should tell you.

Okay.

Uh, as you know,
resident wellness

- is important to me.
- Same.

Uh, and I told Webber
that if I came back

I wanted to be in a position
to help with that,

you know, make sure
people don't burn out,

that they have mentors,
and so Webber agreed

to make me co-chief resident
with you.

[upbeat bluesy rock music]

♪ ♪

- [laughs]
- That's the best news ever.

Okay.

- I'm so glad you think that.
- Are you kidding?

It's way too much work
for any one human to do,

- plus it's you and me.
- I know.

Were you surprised
when Webber agreed to it?

Not nearly as much
as when he agreed

to give me
eight weeks' vacation.

- Eight weeks?
- Yeah.

But don't worry, though.

I'll give you plenty of notice
before I take it.

Eight weeks.

Meredith: But in life,
time limits aren't as clear.

Do you want
to go to a wedding?

Do they need a bartender?

Okay, I have to say
something to you

that is not very comfortable
for me to say...

which is that I like you,
and I don't mean that

as a boss or a friend.

I like you like you,
and if you're not interested,

that's okay.

I will simply walk away
and possibly

never step foot
in this bar again

due to my previously
mentioned discomfort,

but at least I asked...

and if you are interested,

my roommate Simone
is getting married,

and I know
it's very last minute,

but there will be
food and drinks,

and I think dancing.

I still haven't fully read
the invitation,

- but I...
- Uh, Yasuda...

I thought
we could go together

on a date in case
that wasn't clear.

Meredith:
It can be hard to gauge

whether it's better
to hurry up

or take things slow.

Uh, Yasuda,
I'm about to be your boss.

co-chief resident with Schmitt.

Oh.
It's inappropriate.

But...

if the wedding
is this weekend...

It is.

Then our date
would predate my employment.

It would.

[Joy Oladokun's
"Sweet Symphony"]

- Okay.
- Okay.

Do you want a drink?

Yep.

Meredith: We don't always know
how much time we have

before the clock runs out
on opportunity.

♪ ♪

♪ I get weak ♪

♪ Whenever you're around ♪

- Babies?
- Babies.

Yay.
Fist bump.

- No.
- [chuckles]

Okay, well,
your signal sounds good.

Is there anything else
I can get for you?

Another itch scratched, please.

- Where?
- Back of my neck, right side.

[sighs]
Okay.

♪ ♪

- [chuckles]
- Okay.

- Mm-hmm.
- There?

You know, if being an OB
and a surgeon doesn't pan out,

- you could switch to this.
- [chuckles]

Oh, I was just coming
to check on you,

- but I guess you're covered.
- This woman is my hero.

She cut my leg open
like it was a piece of steak.

I heard.

♪ ♪

Okay,
I guess I'm gonna head out.

I'm gonna grab some food
on the way home.

- You want anything?
- Oh, no, I'm fine.

Wait, you two live together?

- We do.
- We're roommates.

Okay, I'll see you later.

♪ Dungeons
and ivory towers ♪

- Let's see here.
- So twins, huh?

- Mm-hmm.
- Identical?

- Identical.
- Oh.

I know.

♪ But as long as we keep ♪
every promise ♪

Meredith:
Often we can't even be sure

if our time has passed...

♪ ♪

♪ I know ♪

♪ There'll be heavy days ♪

- Is Yasuda home?
- Joe's.

- To eat, not work.
- Huh.

- I'm so sorry about Ray.
- Yeah, yeah, me too.

♪ ♪

- So...
- Oh, you can...

You can--you can have one.

There is plenty.

♪ Sweet symphony ♪

So there's this thing
with ADHD,

which I'm figuring out
I probably have,

but there's this thing,
this symptom

where you get stuck
in your head, you overthink,

you have a hard time
saying what you mean,

because you can't help
but think about

all the possible ramifications,
and so...

♪ ♪

- Don't get married.
- Lucas.

Maybe--maybe I'm too late,
or maybe I lost my chance.

But I wouldn't be able
to live with myself

if I didn't tell you
while you still had time

to change your mind.

Trey doesn't see you,

or maybe he sees
an old version of you,

but I see you.

Simone, I see you...

and I love
every single thing I see.

♪ Even if the world ♪

♪ That we built
falls at our feet ♪

♪ We're still right where
we're supposed to be ♪

♪ Together through ups
and the downs ♪

Meredith: And all we can do
is seize the present.

♪ Dungeons
and ivory towers ♪